Alone (2015–…): Season 8, Episode 8 - The Grizzly - full transcript
[dramatic music]
♪
- I'd like to do
the trout line,
Which basically means
I have to swim out
into the cold water.
*bleep*.
It inflated on its own.
I was in the water
for 35 minutes.
Not sure I'm okay.
- I'd like to start bringing
rocks up to the fireplace.
♪ ♪
Oh! *bleep*.
Oh!
Got to be so careful
with that ankle.
It's the one thing that'll
take me out of the game.
- Bad news: 4 to 6 inches
of snow last night.
It is time to get
my ass in gear
And get some warmth
in my shelter.
*bleep*.
The deer meat that I have left,
That's not enough
to keep a fella going.
There's bear tracks
right freaking here.
I have to be prepared
to engage a bear
To protect this meat.
[air horn blares]
- Oh, there he is,
right there.
*bleep*.
I am alone with a grizzly bear
that is hunting me.
Get!
♪
[dark music]
♪
Narrator: In "alone"s
most terrifying location yet,
Ten participants face
the deadliest predator
In north america...
- There he is, right there.
- Grizzly bears.
- Hey, bear!
- We got a lot of grizzly here.
I'm gonna have
to live with them.
- Go on! Get!
- Every second we're on
the land, we're being hunted.
- Holy *bleep*. Mountain lion.
- He's circling
around my shelter.
Narrator:
Bone-chilling cold...
- Winter's coming.
- You combine with the wind
with the rain and the cold,
This place could make
the arctic look easy.
- Oh, *bleep*.
Narrator:
And complete isolation.
- You cannot hide
from yourself,
Mentally and emotionally.
- [screams]
- There's no place to go.
- I am suffering
from loneliness.
Narrator: Who will survive?
- Yes! Yes!
- This could be the end.
- I don't want to tap, but
I don't want to die either.
- You have to duffer
before you can succeed.
- [vomiting]
Narrator: The last one
standing wins.
- At one point do
I push the button?
♪ ♪
[tense music]
♪
- Welcome to mouseland.
Last night,
I had a visit from a mouse.
I had to chase him off
a few times.
The mouse ate holes
in my clothing last night.
Since when do they eat wool?
[tense ambient music]
He ate a giant hole
in my tunic.
♪
Two of them.
I'm so mad about that.
I've had this tunic for ages.
♪
Take what you want, mice.
Just please,
don't destroy my stuff.
Fun times here
at the troll cave.
[dramatic music]
My body's deteriorating,
But my mind doesn't have to.
What I really need
is some fish oils in my life.
♪ ♪
Some omegas.
Good for the brain.
♪
I'd really like
to get something in me.
♪
♪
[shouts]
See?
See what I mean?
Easy for me to hurt myself
when it's slippery out.
I just tweaked my ankle again.
[sighs] that's why I have to
play it so careful out here.
♪ ♪
I really want
to catch some fish.
♪ ♪
The smartest thing
for me to do
With my body, my weak ankle,
Is keep playing it safe.
Fish when I can, drink water,
Conserve my calories
as much as possible.
So beautiful.
I wish it would feed me.
♪ why, oh why, chilko lake,
are you so rude? ♪
♪ why do you make me
wish and dream ♪
♪ in my bed at night
of food? ♪
Doing my best
to stay okay out here.
♪ ♪
I know that I can
safely lose 100 pounds
Without causing serious damage
to my body.
As I was gearing out
to come out here,
I ate like it was my job
to eat for a couple months,
Gained about 45 pounds
in, like, two or three months.
♪ ♪
I reached over 300 pounds,
And it's the heaviest
I've ever been.
Gaining the extra weight
is gonna put more stress
On my weak ankle.
♪ ♪
Being lighter would have been
A better choice for my ankle.
But worst-case scenario,
If things aren't
working out for me,
I'll be able to stay longer
Off that extra weight
that I put on,
And that's ultimately
why I went for it.
♪
I'm getting cold.
I might head in.
♪
[in dramatic voice]
good evening, little masters.
It's a cold, stormy night.
And as the storm
rolls on through,
One troll...
Man thing...
Holds fast,
Knowing that
he can weather this storm,
For he has built
a strong troll cave.
♪
And on this dark, cold,
howling night,
He dreams
of his long-lost lover...
Thousands of miles away,
Holding his young
in her tummy.
He knows that, one day,
His suffering in the chilcotin
mountains will be over,
And he may return to her.
♪
But until that day arrives,
He knows he must
hold steadfast...
♪ ♪
For in the end,
only I will remain.
♪
[wind whistling]
[in normal voice]
I hope. [laughs]
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
*bleep*. Mouse.
♪
I woke up...
To the sound...
Of something
nibbling on something.
And it was that little *bleep*
mouse eating my bow silencers.
So I've decided at this point,
it's self-defense.
He's destroying
important tools of mine.
So I'm gonna lie in wait
with--for him...
With the troll club.
♪
I'm gonna wait...
Till he comes out again.
But this time,
when he comes out,
He's gonna get
a quick troll club smash.
Man, if my cats were around,
There wouldn't be no freaking
mouse eating my stuff in here.
♪
- Let's see if I can get
that deer hide strung up.
This deer hide may be
too dry already,
Or maybe it's just frozen.
A little of both, maybe.
You ain't supposed to be
pointing that way.
Talk about the deer hide,
And you looking up
at the deer skull.
♪ ♪
I need to put food up,
because that deer
Is not gonna be enough
for the next two months.
Winter's coming fast,
And the berries
are going away,
The mushrooms are going away.
These things are ephemeral.
I need to catch fish
and smoke them
To power the work
that needs to be done.
But I haven't caught a fish
in close to a month.
Wish I had a fish.
It would be delish.
But it shall remain a wish.
Should have been a poet.
First time I ever took koi
out fishing in the gulf,
We were catching big snapper.
Now, finn, I haven't taken him
out in the gulf yet.
He gets carsick,
And so I'm almost certain
he'd get seasick.
♪
But both my sons love fishing.
Ooh.
[dark music]
What is that?
♪ ♪
There's a grizz
walking down the beach.
600 pounds, maybe.
♪ ♪
Pretty cool.
♪ ♪
In grizzly country, you have a
heightened level of awareness,
'cause you could bump
into one at any time.
But I'm not overly concerned
about this particular bear.
He would have to show
some sort of aggression.
You know,
there's so much of this
That just freaking sucks,
like standing out here for days
And days, freezing
and not catching any fish.
But it's moments like that
that makes it worth it.
♪ ♪
I mean, you're not gonna get
that unless you're out here.
Just thinking about
the experience so far,
And then the wonder of what
else there is out here for me.
I've already got a much
deeper appreciation
For my family
than I've ever had before.
I've always loved them,
of course.
But I've spent a lot
of time away from them,
Doing things like this.
And even if that's
all I walk away with,
It will have been
worth it for me.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Look at that.
♪ ♪
Son of a gun's back.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
*bleep*.
♪ ♪
*bleep*.
Man, what?
It's the same freaking grizzly,
walking down the beach.
♪ ♪
He was right here.
He was within 40 yards of me.
Just right there's where
I was originally filming from.
Check out where he went.
I do have a healthy respect
for grizzly bears.
You know, if you come across
the wrong grizzly,
You could find yourself
in real danger.
I think he's just cruising
the beach, looking for,
You know,
whatever might have wished up.
Old fish or whatever.
♪ ♪
See this track right here.
♪ ♪
He's gonna run right by camp.
♪ ♪
You can avoid
most of the problems,
But it's when they come in
and get something
And get a reward
for coming in,
Then you've taught
that bear to come back.
That's what I want to avoid.
So I really want to get up
there and check my camp.
♪ ♪
He came right down
this creek here.
I'm gonna go back here,
See if we can find
where that bear crossed.
There's his track right there.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Let's see where
he went from here.
♪ ♪
Look at this.
Oh, man.
Holy crap.
♪ ♪
There's the shack
right there.
Bear track.
Shack. Bear track.
That sucker was coming
for a visit, man.
He walked right
by my berry cache.
I wonder if he found that.
Hope not.
♪ ♪
He stepped on it.
My berries are buried
right there.
He freaking stepped on it.
That's definitely closer
than I want him.
I don't know what to expect
from this bear.
♪
♪
That's all right.
The blisters popped.
That's kind of gross.
I've burned my right knee
And the inside of both
Of my thighs
have very light burns as well.
My knee actually
has blisters on it
From squatting
around the bonfire
To rewarm myself
after the swimming incident.
♪ ♪
This is my needle.
It's made from a fishhook.
Whole incident seems
a little bit
Like a really weird,
crazy dream.
I was just so out of it.
You're very real,
you're very present,
It's just that you're not
in your right state of mind
At all.
♪ ♪
And tada-tada.
Can't even see it.
It's pretty much gone.
♪ ♪
I'm gonna head off
to the trout line
And check the trout line.
♪ ♪
Glad to see it's still here.
♪ ♪
Ice is gonna be
an interesting issue
Down the line.
Especially if this
starts freezing up.
♪ ♪
Wow. My line is frozen.
♪ ♪
This is kind of
a potential problem, for sure.
I think the lines
are crossed out there.
[sobbing] everything was so
tangled because of the...
♪ ♪
I had a lot invested
in this...
In this project.
♪ ♪
I risked my life, almost died,
To set a line that fished
for me for a day.
Makes me wonder
how we're gonna make it.
I'm just too tired.
I'm too thin.
And it's just gotten past
the point of any kind of fun.
[crying]
All I want to do
is go home.
[crying]
♪
- Wow.
Wow. Wow.
So...
Have you ever
Taken a *bleep*
in your living room?
'cause I have.
And it was phenomenal.
I loved it.
It's my new *bleep* spot.
It hit me quick, man.
I was like, "ah, I gotta pee."
And then, like, "oh, man,
I don't need to pee."
"I need to poop."
Anyhow, it felt wonderful.
♪
Ah.
I just wish I had food.
I haven't had meat
in three days.
♪ ♪
Do some fishing.
Check the fish trap.
♪
Let's see.
♪
I know I'm losing weight,
but now I'm feeling it.
Every movement,
I'm feeling just how weak,
Just how tired, just how lack
of muscle in reserves I have.
Let's turn you around.
♪
The fish trap has not been
bringing me in fish.
♪ ♪
It was a pretty
big investment,
And I'm hoping it pays off.
♪
But I think this is fish
trap country, though.
I think it's gonna produce.
Here we go.
♪
[sighs] all right.
♪ ♪
Could this be my--
let's get this trap.
♪
Oh, I need it to pay off.
I have no meat.
All right, I'm about
to pull my fish trap
For about the tenth time.
It's never caught a fish.
We're gonna check it, though.
Today could be the day,
you guys.
Today could be the day.
♪ ♪
Come on, fish trap.
Here we go.
Oh.
Fish today.
Oh, man.
This thing feels like
it's damn near stuck.
♪ ♪
This is not good.
♪ ♪
*bleep*.
Ooh, that fish trap is stuck.
♪ ♪
Gah.
[grunts]
Any bets on whether
I'm gonna fall in?
Oh, god.
♪ ♪
Ahh!
♪ ♪
Ahh!
Damn it.
*bleep*.
Something got stuck,
Either the trap
or the excess paracord line.
Nope.
Definitely don't want to be
*bleep*ing with this all day.
Damn.
Nothing is going right today.
All right.
Operation:
Try and salvage fish trap
and/or as much paracord
As possible begins right now.
♪ ♪
All right.
I'm cutting it.
♪ ♪
There she goes.
Put the boat away and go home.
♪ ♪
Coming in hot.
[groans]
♪ ♪
Holy *bleep*.
I was--I was pulling hard
on that.
I was pulling hard
on that fish trip.
Harder than I have energy for.
♪ ♪
Not my day.
Not my day.
Not in any stretch
of the imagination.
*bleep*ing fish trap stuck.
Had to cut the paracord.
Just piss-poor performance.
Oh, let's head home
and get a fire going.
♪ ♪
- Getting sick of being
dirty and stinky
And just crusty, man.
Pretty sick
of picking the beard.
I'm gonna put it in braids.
♪ ♪
And that's probably
how it's gonna stay...
♪ ♪
Until I get out of here
and can take a shower.
♪ ♪
I haven't been clean-shaven
since I was in,
Like,
mid-high school, probably.
I definitely couldn't see
myself being, you know,
Short-haired
and clean-shaven.
I have no idea
what I would even look like.
♪ ♪
I don't really care
how they look.
♪ ♪
It's just...
♪ ♪
To make things easier
for me.
♪ ♪
One.
♪ ♪
Oh, crap, I braided
some of my hair into that.
♪ ♪
My hair is part of
who I am, man.
It's part of my power.
♪ ♪
My hair is close to dreading.
I really hope it doesn't
have to be shaved off,
And that I'm able
to pick it out,
While crying, with a
giant bottle of conditioner.
Plus, you can't headbang
without long hair.
What are you supposed to do
While the guitarist
is soloing?
Just stand there?
[chuckles]
♪ ♪
All right.
Beard is dealt with.
This is how it will stay.
♪ ♪
I heard a sound over there,
like something scurried.
There ain't nothing
for you here, mouse.
I've got it all hidden away.
♪ ♪
Oh, that little *bleep*.
Little *bleep* bastard.
I'm killing him.
I'll *bleep*ing kill him.
That little *bleep*ing
mouse came back finally.
And what did he go
for this time?
He chewed the laces
off of my $120 ankle brace.
And he even left me a nice
little mouse turd on them.
So, he *bleep*ed up
my ankle brace now.
♪ ♪
That *bleep* sucks, man.
He destroyed it.
He chewed it--chewed the laces
off in two different places.
♪ ♪
He destroyed
the entire upper brace.
♪ ♪
Damn.
That's not good, y'all.
I don't have
an ankle brace anymore.
♪ ♪
Means I gotta be
even more careful.
♪ ♪
That really *bleep*ing
pisses me off.
♪ ♪
I'm gonna have to go *bleep*ing
tame a bobcat
And live with it...
Just to keep these *bleep*ing
vermin out of my shelter.
I will blast air horns
at them, though.
Those mice can *bleep* off.
[air horn blasts]
♪ ♪
- Good morning.
I've been up
for many hours again.
I think it's just
my time I get up.
I get up at 4:30-ish at home
and...
I feel good this morning.
I'm hungry.
That's the normal.
Hopeful there's something
in my snares today.
♪ ♪
My nose is already frozen.
My back of my neck is cold.
It is brutally beautiful
out here.
It's crazy.
I'm having zero success
fishing.
So bunnies are an important
part of me staying here.
♪ ♪
Obviously, I can get a rabbit.
I got one.
I've been skimping
and rationing but...
♪ ♪
My body just needs
a little bit more
Than what I've been giving it.
♪ ♪
What is that?
♪ ♪
But he came from that way.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
These are coming
right down my trail.
♪ ♪
He went down there,
back down to my snare line.
♪ ♪
That one's sprung.
Look at that.
That cat went right
under where my snare is.
Right there, too.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Here he is out here,
in my other patch.
These cat tracks go right in.
Out here hunting bunnies.
The same bunnies
that I'm hunting.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Oh, my goodness.
Maybe there's
a healthy balance,
But I feel like the predators
Are just far outnumbering
the other animals.
♪ ♪
Every single day
out here is hard work.
Every day is exhausting.
Every day I'm hungry.
But, as a child,
I didn't have it easy,
So this is kind of
what I am used to.
I'm just gonna keep going.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
I really need to pay
attention to these toes.
It's this middle one
that's so sore,
And he's purple.
And everybody else is white.
And then this one is turning
purple in here.
♪ ♪
So, on the side of him,
he's really sore.
♪ ♪
I feel like it's probably
a circulation issue,
Because it's coming
from the inside of my toe.
♪ ♪
I have negative 50 boots on,
Heavy wool
and heavy alpaca socks.
They have not
gotten wet at all.
This will impact my ability
to stay out
For extended periods of time,
So I won't be very efficient
in what I'm doing.
I'm gonna have to come in
and make sure
That I'm warming my feet up
every couple of hours.
♪ ♪
I can handle grizzly bears.
I can recover from that.
But if there's something
seriously wrong with my feet,
Then that's not something...
I highly doubt that there is.
[exciting music]
♪ ♪
- [slurps]
Oh, man.
That is nice, right there.
Might not do anything
to this deer hide.
I'll just keep it like this.
Have me a little recliner.
Whew.
Now why you want to do that?
Just drop snow right in my tea?
That's just not cool.
What in the world is that?
♪ ♪
I just saw the bear
walking down the beach.
Going down here and see
if I can see him again.
♪ ♪
What this is
is now I'm curious.
This bear is doing
what I really didn't want him
To do--poking around camp.
♪ ♪
Let's go back in here
and see if we can
Walk on back
past the food cache,
Just to see.
♪ ♪
Oh, my god.
♪ ♪
[bear groans]
Holy *bleep*.
[cannister sprays,
bear grunts]
Oh, my god!
Holy *bleep*!
*bleep*, that was
a big *bleep*ing bear.
Oh, my god! That was...
That was *bleep*ing amazing.
God, he was so close.
When I sprayed, he stopped
at not even ten yards.
I was standing right here.
And the bear was
right freaking there.
He's, like, eight yards.
♪ ♪
That is something
you never forget.
[exhales]
Don't ask me why I tried
to track down a grizzly bear,
But that's what I did.
So.
♪ ♪
That was one of
the coolest things
That's ever happened
to me in the woods.
He heard me walking
and thought I was a deer
Or something
that he wanted to eat.
And so he was coming back
to...
To get me.
I think he knows
what I am now, though.
[exhales]
When he started
loping towards me,
I was like, "holy, *bleep*."
I've been close to grizzlies,
But I've never
had one run at me.
So it was awesome,
but it was not advisable.
Not a good survival tactic.
The way he was running, he'd
have run right through camp.
♪ ♪
Hey, bear!
Yee! Hey!
♪ ♪
Hey now!
Get on up out of here!
And don't come back!
♪ ♪
Probably laying up in my bunk,
waiting on me.
♪ ♪
I don't know why I thought
that was a good idea.
♪ ♪
Probably not one of
the brightest things
I've ever done.
♪ ♪
Liz ain't gonna be happy
with me about that.
She'll say, "what the hell
were you thinking?"
♪ ♪
I don't know, darling.
I knew I wanted to see
a grizzly up close,
And I damn sure
got it--got what I wanted.
♪ ♪
In the last...
♪ ♪
13 years,
I've been in the west.
I've been in grizzly country.
I've been in lion country.
I've been all
over the mountains.
♪ ♪
But I ain't never had
a cat stalk up on me,
And I ain't never had
a grizzly charge me.
So it must not be
as wild as this.
♪ ♪
Yep, that's close enough
for me.
I'm satisfied.
Won't be tracking
another one down.
♪ ♪
- What are these?
Oh, interesting.
Not tried that before.
Here we go.
All right, your turn.
♪ ♪
Well, there you go.
Is the picture better?
♪ ♪
Yeah, potentially.
Yeah, the picture's so good,
it makes my hair look nice.
Yeah, right.
♪ ♪
Okay, so we're ready
to go gathering now.
I know I need to be
getting in more calories.
That's really the end of it.
I need to eat more.
♪ ♪
It's hard to bring
in enough plant calories
To make ends meet.
And I did not expect
to come out on "alone"
And be a vegan.
I have a pretty good set
Of trapping
and hunting skills,
The whole nine yards.
But there's nothing to trap.
I mean,
if there are no rabbits,
Why would you spend time
trapping rabbits?
I have a trout line
that's out there,
But I have no idea
if that line
Is horrifically
tangled out there
To the point
where it's not even usable.
♪ ♪
I'm just at the point here
that I feel like processing
My plant foods is almost
a better use of my time.
And if I can--whoa.
Weird.
This was completely covered
in water yesterday.
♪ ♪
Wow.
I feel like the lake
is lower right now.
This is kind of weird.
♪ ♪
Yeah. Crazy.
♪ ♪
Oh, my god.
♪ ♪
Well!
I'll take beach fish.
I'm down for beach fish.
Thank you, lake.
[laughs]
Whoo!
Oh, my gosh, I'm so,
so super stoked about this.
This fish is the first
significant protein
That I have seen
outside of mushrooms.
Super-duper awesome.
Smells fine. It's cold out.
I'm not worried.
Wonder if those are claw marks.
I wonder if an eagle
caught it and dropped it.
If so, thank you very much,
mr. Eagle.
♪ ♪
All right, let's get
back on the road, eh?
Thank you, brother eagle.
I won't turn down
the inadvertent gift.
♪ ♪
Maybe that's why the bears
wander the beach as well.
Maybe we're competing
for beach fish.
[chuckles]
Still staring at the water,
like, "give me another fish."
♪ ♪
Oh, wow.
This is amazing.
[laughs]
we got another fish.
All right for beach fish.
How crazy is this?
We found a big fish.
And a small fish.
♪ ♪
Ugh, not the most comfortable
place in the world to...
♪ ♪
Gut the big 'ol fish, but...
Ugh.
It's a bloody slimy fish.
Whilst I am super excited
about the fact
That I get some calories,
This is gonna be
a choke-it-down meal.
Ugh.
I don't like to eat fish.
I will eat fish,
but you're gonna watch me
Make all kinds of funny faces
on camera.
Let's go give that
a rinse out, shall we?
♪ ♪
Well, unexpected start
to the morning.
Pretty exciting.
That fish probably weighs...
♪ ♪
A kilo and a half,
So...Three and a half pounds,
four pounds.
Even say it's one kilo
of edible bits,
That's 3,000 calories.
♪ ♪
So that bloody thing
would be the most calories
I've gathered in a single go
since I came out here.
♪ ♪
I really don't like fish.
But I really want some meat.
Oh, my gosh.
We're gonna eat it.
That's not really...
♪ ♪
Not really the thing.
It's just whether I have to gag
it down the whole time.
Skin...
♪ ♪
Looks like a mucus ball.
♪ ♪
Oh.
Ugh.
Did it. It's down.
♪ ♪
This fish represents
multiple meals,
Multiple days'
worth of calories.
And I'm very grateful
to the land
For providing me with
the thing that I asked for.
When you're in
a situation like this,
You don't look
a gift fish in the mouth.
♪ ♪
Three days,
I have fat and protein.
I'm truly grateful
to be alive and here,
And doing exactly
what I'm doing.
Right now, I feel fantastic.
I could stay out here forever.
Thank you, lake, for the fish.
♪ ♪
- Have a good fire going.
Heat feels good.
Last night was probably
the worst night of sleep
I've ever had in my life.
I would love to be all positive
and be like,
"yes, it was so amazing
in my sleeping bag."
But I can't do it, 'cause
My left foot felt like
it was just
Dead all night.
It was frozen.
Ooh.
That one's got
crazy purple color.
It's all wrinkled up
and purple.
It looks like a little raisin.
It's, like, getting weird
purple spots on top.
And then this guy
has a sore underneath.
Aw.
Poor toes.
It's definitely, I think,
a circulation issue,
Because
It's working its way
up my foot.
You know?
Just colder and colder
farther up my foot.
♪ ♪
Gonna keep that fire
going most of the day, here.
I have my med check today.
I'm gonna go get my kettle.
I have to heat that broth.
I have to eat something.
[eerie music]
♪ ♪
Wow. I cannot believe
how tired I am.
This feeling of weakness
Is not anything
I've ever felt before.
I know that I have to eat.
There's no way around it.
My rabbit stew is hanging 50
or 60 feet from my shelter,
And I'm gonna go get that,
and I'm gonna bring it back
And get some food in me.
♪ ♪
Oh, my gosh.
My heart is pumpin' so hard,
like I just ran a marathon.
It's crazy.
♪ ♪
Okay.
♪ ♪
I think I'm in--
I think I'm in trouble.
I think something's wrong.
♪ ♪
I feel like I can't hear,
and...
I feel disoriented, and...
[tense music]
♪ ♪
[whimpers]
I need to get back to my cabin,
but I can't.
♪
I have to get up.
Okay.
♪ ♪
Okay.
So hot. But I'm so cold.
All right.
Let's go.
♪
[grunts]
♪
Can't even see.
Everything's out of focus.
Oh, my gosh.
♪
[tense music]
♪
- Ouch.
♪ ♪
[communication device blips]
- hey, so just keep me posted
If you get any word from rose.
♪
Rose?
♪
It's, like, all sparkly.
- Okay.
- Black and sparkly.
- What kind of food are you
eating day-by-day here?
- Broth, 'cause
that's all I have left.
I just can't get to it
when my feet hurt so bad.
Last night was pretty rough
for the left one,
All the way past my ankle.
It was just freezing cold.
The toes just never get warm.
- Sure.
♪
It's cold.
♪
- Okay.
- Ah.
They just feel, like, thick,
like you're gonna pop them.
♪ ♪
- It's cold.
- Yep.
♪ ♪
- Hi, rose.
- Hi.
- We have some concerns,
and I would say that,
Between your feet and the
troubles you're having today,
Which show a systemic
drop--you're very cold.
Your blood pressure
is very low.
You're not eating enough to
Really keep yourself
in good condition.
I think, at this point,
unfortunately,
I'm gonna have to medically
extract you from the field.
♪
- I know it's probably best,
But I just
am not ready to go yet.
I just don't--know
I can't sit here with these
Wrapped up all day,
Because they're not
even staying warm.
♪
If I could figure out
what was wrong with them,
I could, you know, fix it.
- Well, what we're noticing
is moderate stages
Of cold injury in your feet.
We want to make sure
that you don't suffer
Any irrevocable harm.
I mean, it is actually possible
that could cause tissue damage,
And we can't be sure
right now that,
If you stay in the field,
that won't happen.
♪
I'm sorry, rose.
♪
- Okay.
♪ ♪
I do not want
to jeopardize my feet.
I have so much that I do
in my life
That it's important that I
finish all that with my toes.
But I feel like 37 days
is no time at all.
I had so much more
I wanted to build.
I had so many more animals
that I wanted to hunt.
♪
- [inaudible]
- Okay, watch out.
- I can't see.
- You're doing well.
- Okay. You're doing good.
Lean on me.
Take a step forward.
- We're not gonna let you fall.
- Take a step forward.
- Like, everything's so blurry.
Hang on.
- Okay.
- Let's carry her.
Get under her legs.
♪ ♪
Okay.
- Rocks are slippery.
- Yep. Take her feet.
♪ ♪
You're on the boat. Okay?
- I didn't win, but I hope
that people will take away
That I did this all on my own.
Nobody showed me
how to do anything.
It's not something
that I had to study.
I'm just a girl that wants
to experience stuff
And learn things.
And if I can do that,
then anybody can do that.
♪ ♪
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- Rose, thanks for joining me.
- Thanks for having me.
It's great to be here.
- Like you,
I know how traumatic it was
To be pulled from the show.
How was that experience
for you?
- It's been really hard.
There was so much
that I still wanted to do.
- Yeah.
- And to have that choice
Of whether you're going to
stay taken away from you,
That's been the hardest thing
for me to get over.
I didn't expect my feet
to be a problem.
I had no idea
that was gonna be an issue.
I mean,
I have negative 50 boots.
Like, they shouldn't be--
I don't know
why they're doing this.
- I know that feeling
very well.
It's almost as if
we can't finish our story.
- Yeah, because in my life,
I do what I want to do, and--
- Totally. Me too.
[both laugh]
- Yeah.
I sometimes push my limits.
I always push my limits,
not sometimes.
So, in this situation,
it probably was a good thing
That the choice
was taken away from me.
- You want to just--
- no, I can't.
Everything--I'm dizzy.
- You're safe.
You're safe, rose.
- It got really tough out there
for you in the cold.
When was the moment you knew
that you were in trouble?
- I had to make a choice
between finding food,
Building my shelter,
And being able to find a place
to have a fire.
And I just ran out of time.
Once my toes hurt so bad,
and there was no way for me
To warm them--
I don't have a fire inside--
I knew
that I was in trouble.
♪
Poor toes.
- You had so many bears
at your site--
Near your shelter,
on the beach.
- Oh, there he is,
right there.
Get!
Get! Go on!
- How did you overcome
your fears
To stay out there
and keep going on?
- There were so many bears.
I never anticipated
so many bears.
I am a large game hunter,
so I am the hunter.
But yeah, in this situation,
I was the hunted.
So it was a whole different
feeling for me.
- [gasps]
A lot of emotions
that hit me all at once,
That I wasn't
quite sure how to handle.
But I was able
to bring myself back
And just kind
of reground myself,
And it just took
a couple of minutes.
I've always been
really good at,
You know, having that ability
To just kind of calm
down and refocus.
All right.
Just have to get it together.
- What usually breaks people
down on this show
Is how raw
their emotions become.
It's almost like nature forces
your feelings to the surface.
And a lot of people have
a problem
Dealing with what comes up.
But you didn't seem to have
a problem with that at all.
- I went in with the mindset
that I have complete control
Over my thoughts
and my emotions.
So I just didn't dwell on it.
It's like an emotional
roller coaster out there.
Sometimes all of this
just gets to be too much.
One second, you're,
"this is so beautiful,"
And the next,
you're thinking of, you know,
Something maybe
from your childhood.
I just let myself think
of those things,
Process it real quickly,
and then move on.
In the real world, I don't get
that time to do that,
Because my life moves
so quickly.
So I actually just enjoyed
that whole process of having
That time to be alone
and go through those emotions.
- Being that you've always
been able to find a way
To take care of yourself,
You struggled with food
and keeping yourself warm.
- That was one of the hardest
things for me to deal with,
Because I've always taken care
of myself and my children.
And here, now,
I don't know where my food
is coming from next.
My belly is hungry.
- You had gone almost
30 days without meat.
- Yeah.
- And it was such an
unbelievable moment for you.
I mean, that first hare.
I mean, what was that like?
- I got a rabbit.
Oh, my gosh, that is awesome.
Ta-da!
It's a bunny!
There's no way to ever explain
to anybody that feeling, like,
Just the relief
And the excitement
to process it and to taste it.
That first taste of meat
is just...
Oh, my gosh.
I kept saying,
"this is the best rabbit
I've ever eaten."
Like, you only will know that
feeling and how intense it is
If you go through it.
That was so good.
Liver has never tasted so good
in my life. That was amazing.
- Rose, it's been so wonderful
talking with you.
Thank you so much for being
such a great role model
For the young girls out there
who love the woods like we do.
- It's been amazing.
And it was so amazing
meeting you,
Someone who is so much like me.
- Yeah, thank you.
- What an amazing opportunity
I was given,
And I'll always be grateful
for this experience.
♪
- Without those high-calorie
items, like fish,
Game, this is just a descent
into starvation.
*bleep*.
- Are you kidding
me?
There's bears, like, 30 feet
away from me right now.
♪
- This gill net is
all kind of tangled up.
- I just have this bad
gut feeling
That the boat needs attention.
I need to know it's okay.
This is a dumb idea.
Hey, bear!
♪
Someone needs to stop Clearway Law.
Public shouldn't leave reviews for lawyers.
♪
- I'd like to do
the trout line,
Which basically means
I have to swim out
into the cold water.
*bleep*.
It inflated on its own.
I was in the water
for 35 minutes.
Not sure I'm okay.
- I'd like to start bringing
rocks up to the fireplace.
♪ ♪
Oh! *bleep*.
Oh!
Got to be so careful
with that ankle.
It's the one thing that'll
take me out of the game.
- Bad news: 4 to 6 inches
of snow last night.
It is time to get
my ass in gear
And get some warmth
in my shelter.
*bleep*.
The deer meat that I have left,
That's not enough
to keep a fella going.
There's bear tracks
right freaking here.
I have to be prepared
to engage a bear
To protect this meat.
[air horn blares]
- Oh, there he is,
right there.
*bleep*.
I am alone with a grizzly bear
that is hunting me.
Get!
♪
[dark music]
♪
Narrator: In "alone"s
most terrifying location yet,
Ten participants face
the deadliest predator
In north america...
- There he is, right there.
- Grizzly bears.
- Hey, bear!
- We got a lot of grizzly here.
I'm gonna have
to live with them.
- Go on! Get!
- Every second we're on
the land, we're being hunted.
- Holy *bleep*. Mountain lion.
- He's circling
around my shelter.
Narrator:
Bone-chilling cold...
- Winter's coming.
- You combine with the wind
with the rain and the cold,
This place could make
the arctic look easy.
- Oh, *bleep*.
Narrator:
And complete isolation.
- You cannot hide
from yourself,
Mentally and emotionally.
- [screams]
- There's no place to go.
- I am suffering
from loneliness.
Narrator: Who will survive?
- Yes! Yes!
- This could be the end.
- I don't want to tap, but
I don't want to die either.
- You have to duffer
before you can succeed.
- [vomiting]
Narrator: The last one
standing wins.
- At one point do
I push the button?
♪ ♪
[tense music]
♪
- Welcome to mouseland.
Last night,
I had a visit from a mouse.
I had to chase him off
a few times.
The mouse ate holes
in my clothing last night.
Since when do they eat wool?
[tense ambient music]
He ate a giant hole
in my tunic.
♪
Two of them.
I'm so mad about that.
I've had this tunic for ages.
♪
Take what you want, mice.
Just please,
don't destroy my stuff.
Fun times here
at the troll cave.
[dramatic music]
My body's deteriorating,
But my mind doesn't have to.
What I really need
is some fish oils in my life.
♪ ♪
Some omegas.
Good for the brain.
♪
I'd really like
to get something in me.
♪
♪
[shouts]
See?
See what I mean?
Easy for me to hurt myself
when it's slippery out.
I just tweaked my ankle again.
[sighs] that's why I have to
play it so careful out here.
♪ ♪
I really want
to catch some fish.
♪ ♪
The smartest thing
for me to do
With my body, my weak ankle,
Is keep playing it safe.
Fish when I can, drink water,
Conserve my calories
as much as possible.
So beautiful.
I wish it would feed me.
♪ why, oh why, chilko lake,
are you so rude? ♪
♪ why do you make me
wish and dream ♪
♪ in my bed at night
of food? ♪
Doing my best
to stay okay out here.
♪ ♪
I know that I can
safely lose 100 pounds
Without causing serious damage
to my body.
As I was gearing out
to come out here,
I ate like it was my job
to eat for a couple months,
Gained about 45 pounds
in, like, two or three months.
♪ ♪
I reached over 300 pounds,
And it's the heaviest
I've ever been.
Gaining the extra weight
is gonna put more stress
On my weak ankle.
♪ ♪
Being lighter would have been
A better choice for my ankle.
But worst-case scenario,
If things aren't
working out for me,
I'll be able to stay longer
Off that extra weight
that I put on,
And that's ultimately
why I went for it.
♪
I'm getting cold.
I might head in.
♪
[in dramatic voice]
good evening, little masters.
It's a cold, stormy night.
And as the storm
rolls on through,
One troll...
Man thing...
Holds fast,
Knowing that
he can weather this storm,
For he has built
a strong troll cave.
♪
And on this dark, cold,
howling night,
He dreams
of his long-lost lover...
Thousands of miles away,
Holding his young
in her tummy.
He knows that, one day,
His suffering in the chilcotin
mountains will be over,
And he may return to her.
♪
But until that day arrives,
He knows he must
hold steadfast...
♪ ♪
For in the end,
only I will remain.
♪
[wind whistling]
[in normal voice]
I hope. [laughs]
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
*bleep*. Mouse.
♪
I woke up...
To the sound...
Of something
nibbling on something.
And it was that little *bleep*
mouse eating my bow silencers.
So I've decided at this point,
it's self-defense.
He's destroying
important tools of mine.
So I'm gonna lie in wait
with--for him...
With the troll club.
♪
I'm gonna wait...
Till he comes out again.
But this time,
when he comes out,
He's gonna get
a quick troll club smash.
Man, if my cats were around,
There wouldn't be no freaking
mouse eating my stuff in here.
♪
- Let's see if I can get
that deer hide strung up.
This deer hide may be
too dry already,
Or maybe it's just frozen.
A little of both, maybe.
You ain't supposed to be
pointing that way.
Talk about the deer hide,
And you looking up
at the deer skull.
♪ ♪
I need to put food up,
because that deer
Is not gonna be enough
for the next two months.
Winter's coming fast,
And the berries
are going away,
The mushrooms are going away.
These things are ephemeral.
I need to catch fish
and smoke them
To power the work
that needs to be done.
But I haven't caught a fish
in close to a month.
Wish I had a fish.
It would be delish.
But it shall remain a wish.
Should have been a poet.
First time I ever took koi
out fishing in the gulf,
We were catching big snapper.
Now, finn, I haven't taken him
out in the gulf yet.
He gets carsick,
And so I'm almost certain
he'd get seasick.
♪
But both my sons love fishing.
Ooh.
[dark music]
What is that?
♪ ♪
There's a grizz
walking down the beach.
600 pounds, maybe.
♪ ♪
Pretty cool.
♪ ♪
In grizzly country, you have a
heightened level of awareness,
'cause you could bump
into one at any time.
But I'm not overly concerned
about this particular bear.
He would have to show
some sort of aggression.
You know,
there's so much of this
That just freaking sucks,
like standing out here for days
And days, freezing
and not catching any fish.
But it's moments like that
that makes it worth it.
♪ ♪
I mean, you're not gonna get
that unless you're out here.
Just thinking about
the experience so far,
And then the wonder of what
else there is out here for me.
I've already got a much
deeper appreciation
For my family
than I've ever had before.
I've always loved them,
of course.
But I've spent a lot
of time away from them,
Doing things like this.
And even if that's
all I walk away with,
It will have been
worth it for me.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Look at that.
♪ ♪
Son of a gun's back.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
*bleep*.
♪ ♪
*bleep*.
Man, what?
It's the same freaking grizzly,
walking down the beach.
♪ ♪
He was right here.
He was within 40 yards of me.
Just right there's where
I was originally filming from.
Check out where he went.
I do have a healthy respect
for grizzly bears.
You know, if you come across
the wrong grizzly,
You could find yourself
in real danger.
I think he's just cruising
the beach, looking for,
You know,
whatever might have wished up.
Old fish or whatever.
♪ ♪
See this track right here.
♪ ♪
He's gonna run right by camp.
♪ ♪
You can avoid
most of the problems,
But it's when they come in
and get something
And get a reward
for coming in,
Then you've taught
that bear to come back.
That's what I want to avoid.
So I really want to get up
there and check my camp.
♪ ♪
He came right down
this creek here.
I'm gonna go back here,
See if we can find
where that bear crossed.
There's his track right there.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Let's see where
he went from here.
♪ ♪
Look at this.
Oh, man.
Holy crap.
♪ ♪
There's the shack
right there.
Bear track.
Shack. Bear track.
That sucker was coming
for a visit, man.
He walked right
by my berry cache.
I wonder if he found that.
Hope not.
♪ ♪
He stepped on it.
My berries are buried
right there.
He freaking stepped on it.
That's definitely closer
than I want him.
I don't know what to expect
from this bear.
♪
♪
That's all right.
The blisters popped.
That's kind of gross.
I've burned my right knee
And the inside of both
Of my thighs
have very light burns as well.
My knee actually
has blisters on it
From squatting
around the bonfire
To rewarm myself
after the swimming incident.
♪ ♪
This is my needle.
It's made from a fishhook.
Whole incident seems
a little bit
Like a really weird,
crazy dream.
I was just so out of it.
You're very real,
you're very present,
It's just that you're not
in your right state of mind
At all.
♪ ♪
And tada-tada.
Can't even see it.
It's pretty much gone.
♪ ♪
I'm gonna head off
to the trout line
And check the trout line.
♪ ♪
Glad to see it's still here.
♪ ♪
Ice is gonna be
an interesting issue
Down the line.
Especially if this
starts freezing up.
♪ ♪
Wow. My line is frozen.
♪ ♪
This is kind of
a potential problem, for sure.
I think the lines
are crossed out there.
[sobbing] everything was so
tangled because of the...
♪ ♪
I had a lot invested
in this...
In this project.
♪ ♪
I risked my life, almost died,
To set a line that fished
for me for a day.
Makes me wonder
how we're gonna make it.
I'm just too tired.
I'm too thin.
And it's just gotten past
the point of any kind of fun.
[crying]
All I want to do
is go home.
[crying]
♪
- Wow.
Wow. Wow.
So...
Have you ever
Taken a *bleep*
in your living room?
'cause I have.
And it was phenomenal.
I loved it.
It's my new *bleep* spot.
It hit me quick, man.
I was like, "ah, I gotta pee."
And then, like, "oh, man,
I don't need to pee."
"I need to poop."
Anyhow, it felt wonderful.
♪
Ah.
I just wish I had food.
I haven't had meat
in three days.
♪ ♪
Do some fishing.
Check the fish trap.
♪
Let's see.
♪
I know I'm losing weight,
but now I'm feeling it.
Every movement,
I'm feeling just how weak,
Just how tired, just how lack
of muscle in reserves I have.
Let's turn you around.
♪
The fish trap has not been
bringing me in fish.
♪ ♪
It was a pretty
big investment,
And I'm hoping it pays off.
♪
But I think this is fish
trap country, though.
I think it's gonna produce.
Here we go.
♪
[sighs] all right.
♪ ♪
Could this be my--
let's get this trap.
♪
Oh, I need it to pay off.
I have no meat.
All right, I'm about
to pull my fish trap
For about the tenth time.
It's never caught a fish.
We're gonna check it, though.
Today could be the day,
you guys.
Today could be the day.
♪ ♪
Come on, fish trap.
Here we go.
Oh.
Fish today.
Oh, man.
This thing feels like
it's damn near stuck.
♪ ♪
This is not good.
♪ ♪
*bleep*.
Ooh, that fish trap is stuck.
♪ ♪
Gah.
[grunts]
Any bets on whether
I'm gonna fall in?
Oh, god.
♪ ♪
Ahh!
♪ ♪
Ahh!
Damn it.
*bleep*.
Something got stuck,
Either the trap
or the excess paracord line.
Nope.
Definitely don't want to be
*bleep*ing with this all day.
Damn.
Nothing is going right today.
All right.
Operation:
Try and salvage fish trap
and/or as much paracord
As possible begins right now.
♪ ♪
All right.
I'm cutting it.
♪ ♪
There she goes.
Put the boat away and go home.
♪ ♪
Coming in hot.
[groans]
♪ ♪
Holy *bleep*.
I was--I was pulling hard
on that.
I was pulling hard
on that fish trip.
Harder than I have energy for.
♪ ♪
Not my day.
Not my day.
Not in any stretch
of the imagination.
*bleep*ing fish trap stuck.
Had to cut the paracord.
Just piss-poor performance.
Oh, let's head home
and get a fire going.
♪ ♪
- Getting sick of being
dirty and stinky
And just crusty, man.
Pretty sick
of picking the beard.
I'm gonna put it in braids.
♪ ♪
And that's probably
how it's gonna stay...
♪ ♪
Until I get out of here
and can take a shower.
♪ ♪
I haven't been clean-shaven
since I was in,
Like,
mid-high school, probably.
I definitely couldn't see
myself being, you know,
Short-haired
and clean-shaven.
I have no idea
what I would even look like.
♪ ♪
I don't really care
how they look.
♪ ♪
It's just...
♪ ♪
To make things easier
for me.
♪ ♪
One.
♪ ♪
Oh, crap, I braided
some of my hair into that.
♪ ♪
My hair is part of
who I am, man.
It's part of my power.
♪ ♪
My hair is close to dreading.
I really hope it doesn't
have to be shaved off,
And that I'm able
to pick it out,
While crying, with a
giant bottle of conditioner.
Plus, you can't headbang
without long hair.
What are you supposed to do
While the guitarist
is soloing?
Just stand there?
[chuckles]
♪ ♪
All right.
Beard is dealt with.
This is how it will stay.
♪ ♪
I heard a sound over there,
like something scurried.
There ain't nothing
for you here, mouse.
I've got it all hidden away.
♪ ♪
Oh, that little *bleep*.
Little *bleep* bastard.
I'm killing him.
I'll *bleep*ing kill him.
That little *bleep*ing
mouse came back finally.
And what did he go
for this time?
He chewed the laces
off of my $120 ankle brace.
And he even left me a nice
little mouse turd on them.
So, he *bleep*ed up
my ankle brace now.
♪ ♪
That *bleep* sucks, man.
He destroyed it.
He chewed it--chewed the laces
off in two different places.
♪ ♪
He destroyed
the entire upper brace.
♪ ♪
Damn.
That's not good, y'all.
I don't have
an ankle brace anymore.
♪ ♪
Means I gotta be
even more careful.
♪ ♪
That really *bleep*ing
pisses me off.
♪ ♪
I'm gonna have to go *bleep*ing
tame a bobcat
And live with it...
Just to keep these *bleep*ing
vermin out of my shelter.
I will blast air horns
at them, though.
Those mice can *bleep* off.
[air horn blasts]
♪ ♪
- Good morning.
I've been up
for many hours again.
I think it's just
my time I get up.
I get up at 4:30-ish at home
and...
I feel good this morning.
I'm hungry.
That's the normal.
Hopeful there's something
in my snares today.
♪ ♪
My nose is already frozen.
My back of my neck is cold.
It is brutally beautiful
out here.
It's crazy.
I'm having zero success
fishing.
So bunnies are an important
part of me staying here.
♪ ♪
Obviously, I can get a rabbit.
I got one.
I've been skimping
and rationing but...
♪ ♪
My body just needs
a little bit more
Than what I've been giving it.
♪ ♪
What is that?
♪ ♪
But he came from that way.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
These are coming
right down my trail.
♪ ♪
He went down there,
back down to my snare line.
♪ ♪
That one's sprung.
Look at that.
That cat went right
under where my snare is.
Right there, too.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Here he is out here,
in my other patch.
These cat tracks go right in.
Out here hunting bunnies.
The same bunnies
that I'm hunting.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
Oh, my goodness.
Maybe there's
a healthy balance,
But I feel like the predators
Are just far outnumbering
the other animals.
♪ ♪
Every single day
out here is hard work.
Every day is exhausting.
Every day I'm hungry.
But, as a child,
I didn't have it easy,
So this is kind of
what I am used to.
I'm just gonna keep going.
♪ ♪
♪ ♪
I really need to pay
attention to these toes.
It's this middle one
that's so sore,
And he's purple.
And everybody else is white.
And then this one is turning
purple in here.
♪ ♪
So, on the side of him,
he's really sore.
♪ ♪
I feel like it's probably
a circulation issue,
Because it's coming
from the inside of my toe.
♪ ♪
I have negative 50 boots on,
Heavy wool
and heavy alpaca socks.
They have not
gotten wet at all.
This will impact my ability
to stay out
For extended periods of time,
So I won't be very efficient
in what I'm doing.
I'm gonna have to come in
and make sure
That I'm warming my feet up
every couple of hours.
♪ ♪
I can handle grizzly bears.
I can recover from that.
But if there's something
seriously wrong with my feet,
Then that's not something...
I highly doubt that there is.
[exciting music]
♪ ♪
- [slurps]
Oh, man.
That is nice, right there.
Might not do anything
to this deer hide.
I'll just keep it like this.
Have me a little recliner.
Whew.
Now why you want to do that?
Just drop snow right in my tea?
That's just not cool.
What in the world is that?
♪ ♪
I just saw the bear
walking down the beach.
Going down here and see
if I can see him again.
♪ ♪
What this is
is now I'm curious.
This bear is doing
what I really didn't want him
To do--poking around camp.
♪ ♪
Let's go back in here
and see if we can
Walk on back
past the food cache,
Just to see.
♪ ♪
Oh, my god.
♪ ♪
[bear groans]
Holy *bleep*.
[cannister sprays,
bear grunts]
Oh, my god!
Holy *bleep*!
*bleep*, that was
a big *bleep*ing bear.
Oh, my god! That was...
That was *bleep*ing amazing.
God, he was so close.
When I sprayed, he stopped
at not even ten yards.
I was standing right here.
And the bear was
right freaking there.
He's, like, eight yards.
♪ ♪
That is something
you never forget.
[exhales]
Don't ask me why I tried
to track down a grizzly bear,
But that's what I did.
So.
♪ ♪
That was one of
the coolest things
That's ever happened
to me in the woods.
He heard me walking
and thought I was a deer
Or something
that he wanted to eat.
And so he was coming back
to...
To get me.
I think he knows
what I am now, though.
[exhales]
When he started
loping towards me,
I was like, "holy, *bleep*."
I've been close to grizzlies,
But I've never
had one run at me.
So it was awesome,
but it was not advisable.
Not a good survival tactic.
The way he was running, he'd
have run right through camp.
♪ ♪
Hey, bear!
Yee! Hey!
♪ ♪
Hey now!
Get on up out of here!
And don't come back!
♪ ♪
Probably laying up in my bunk,
waiting on me.
♪ ♪
I don't know why I thought
that was a good idea.
♪ ♪
Probably not one of
the brightest things
I've ever done.
♪ ♪
Liz ain't gonna be happy
with me about that.
She'll say, "what the hell
were you thinking?"
♪ ♪
I don't know, darling.
I knew I wanted to see
a grizzly up close,
And I damn sure
got it--got what I wanted.
♪ ♪
In the last...
♪ ♪
13 years,
I've been in the west.
I've been in grizzly country.
I've been in lion country.
I've been all
over the mountains.
♪ ♪
But I ain't never had
a cat stalk up on me,
And I ain't never had
a grizzly charge me.
So it must not be
as wild as this.
♪ ♪
Yep, that's close enough
for me.
I'm satisfied.
Won't be tracking
another one down.
♪ ♪
- What are these?
Oh, interesting.
Not tried that before.
Here we go.
All right, your turn.
♪ ♪
Well, there you go.
Is the picture better?
♪ ♪
Yeah, potentially.
Yeah, the picture's so good,
it makes my hair look nice.
Yeah, right.
♪ ♪
Okay, so we're ready
to go gathering now.
I know I need to be
getting in more calories.
That's really the end of it.
I need to eat more.
♪ ♪
It's hard to bring
in enough plant calories
To make ends meet.
And I did not expect
to come out on "alone"
And be a vegan.
I have a pretty good set
Of trapping
and hunting skills,
The whole nine yards.
But there's nothing to trap.
I mean,
if there are no rabbits,
Why would you spend time
trapping rabbits?
I have a trout line
that's out there,
But I have no idea
if that line
Is horrifically
tangled out there
To the point
where it's not even usable.
♪ ♪
I'm just at the point here
that I feel like processing
My plant foods is almost
a better use of my time.
And if I can--whoa.
Weird.
This was completely covered
in water yesterday.
♪ ♪
Wow.
I feel like the lake
is lower right now.
This is kind of weird.
♪ ♪
Yeah. Crazy.
♪ ♪
Oh, my god.
♪ ♪
Well!
I'll take beach fish.
I'm down for beach fish.
Thank you, lake.
[laughs]
Whoo!
Oh, my gosh, I'm so,
so super stoked about this.
This fish is the first
significant protein
That I have seen
outside of mushrooms.
Super-duper awesome.
Smells fine. It's cold out.
I'm not worried.
Wonder if those are claw marks.
I wonder if an eagle
caught it and dropped it.
If so, thank you very much,
mr. Eagle.
♪ ♪
All right, let's get
back on the road, eh?
Thank you, brother eagle.
I won't turn down
the inadvertent gift.
♪ ♪
Maybe that's why the bears
wander the beach as well.
Maybe we're competing
for beach fish.
[chuckles]
Still staring at the water,
like, "give me another fish."
♪ ♪
Oh, wow.
This is amazing.
[laughs]
we got another fish.
All right for beach fish.
How crazy is this?
We found a big fish.
And a small fish.
♪ ♪
Ugh, not the most comfortable
place in the world to...
♪ ♪
Gut the big 'ol fish, but...
Ugh.
It's a bloody slimy fish.
Whilst I am super excited
about the fact
That I get some calories,
This is gonna be
a choke-it-down meal.
Ugh.
I don't like to eat fish.
I will eat fish,
but you're gonna watch me
Make all kinds of funny faces
on camera.
Let's go give that
a rinse out, shall we?
♪ ♪
Well, unexpected start
to the morning.
Pretty exciting.
That fish probably weighs...
♪ ♪
A kilo and a half,
So...Three and a half pounds,
four pounds.
Even say it's one kilo
of edible bits,
That's 3,000 calories.
♪ ♪
So that bloody thing
would be the most calories
I've gathered in a single go
since I came out here.
♪ ♪
I really don't like fish.
But I really want some meat.
Oh, my gosh.
We're gonna eat it.
That's not really...
♪ ♪
Not really the thing.
It's just whether I have to gag
it down the whole time.
Skin...
♪ ♪
Looks like a mucus ball.
♪ ♪
Oh.
Ugh.
Did it. It's down.
♪ ♪
This fish represents
multiple meals,
Multiple days'
worth of calories.
And I'm very grateful
to the land
For providing me with
the thing that I asked for.
When you're in
a situation like this,
You don't look
a gift fish in the mouth.
♪ ♪
Three days,
I have fat and protein.
I'm truly grateful
to be alive and here,
And doing exactly
what I'm doing.
Right now, I feel fantastic.
I could stay out here forever.
Thank you, lake, for the fish.
♪ ♪
- Have a good fire going.
Heat feels good.
Last night was probably
the worst night of sleep
I've ever had in my life.
I would love to be all positive
and be like,
"yes, it was so amazing
in my sleeping bag."
But I can't do it, 'cause
My left foot felt like
it was just
Dead all night.
It was frozen.
Ooh.
That one's got
crazy purple color.
It's all wrinkled up
and purple.
It looks like a little raisin.
It's, like, getting weird
purple spots on top.
And then this guy
has a sore underneath.
Aw.
Poor toes.
It's definitely, I think,
a circulation issue,
Because
It's working its way
up my foot.
You know?
Just colder and colder
farther up my foot.
♪ ♪
Gonna keep that fire
going most of the day, here.
I have my med check today.
I'm gonna go get my kettle.
I have to heat that broth.
I have to eat something.
[eerie music]
♪ ♪
Wow. I cannot believe
how tired I am.
This feeling of weakness
Is not anything
I've ever felt before.
I know that I have to eat.
There's no way around it.
My rabbit stew is hanging 50
or 60 feet from my shelter,
And I'm gonna go get that,
and I'm gonna bring it back
And get some food in me.
♪ ♪
Oh, my gosh.
My heart is pumpin' so hard,
like I just ran a marathon.
It's crazy.
♪ ♪
Okay.
♪ ♪
I think I'm in--
I think I'm in trouble.
I think something's wrong.
♪ ♪
I feel like I can't hear,
and...
I feel disoriented, and...
[tense music]
♪ ♪
[whimpers]
I need to get back to my cabin,
but I can't.
♪
I have to get up.
Okay.
♪ ♪
Okay.
So hot. But I'm so cold.
All right.
Let's go.
♪
[grunts]
♪
Can't even see.
Everything's out of focus.
Oh, my gosh.
♪
[tense music]
♪
- Ouch.
♪ ♪
[communication device blips]
- hey, so just keep me posted
If you get any word from rose.
♪
Rose?
♪
It's, like, all sparkly.
- Okay.
- Black and sparkly.
- What kind of food are you
eating day-by-day here?
- Broth, 'cause
that's all I have left.
I just can't get to it
when my feet hurt so bad.
Last night was pretty rough
for the left one,
All the way past my ankle.
It was just freezing cold.
The toes just never get warm.
- Sure.
♪
It's cold.
♪
- Okay.
- Ah.
They just feel, like, thick,
like you're gonna pop them.
♪ ♪
- It's cold.
- Yep.
♪ ♪
- Hi, rose.
- Hi.
- We have some concerns,
and I would say that,
Between your feet and the
troubles you're having today,
Which show a systemic
drop--you're very cold.
Your blood pressure
is very low.
You're not eating enough to
Really keep yourself
in good condition.
I think, at this point,
unfortunately,
I'm gonna have to medically
extract you from the field.
♪
- I know it's probably best,
But I just
am not ready to go yet.
I just don't--know
I can't sit here with these
Wrapped up all day,
Because they're not
even staying warm.
♪
If I could figure out
what was wrong with them,
I could, you know, fix it.
- Well, what we're noticing
is moderate stages
Of cold injury in your feet.
We want to make sure
that you don't suffer
Any irrevocable harm.
I mean, it is actually possible
that could cause tissue damage,
And we can't be sure
right now that,
If you stay in the field,
that won't happen.
♪
I'm sorry, rose.
♪
- Okay.
♪ ♪
I do not want
to jeopardize my feet.
I have so much that I do
in my life
That it's important that I
finish all that with my toes.
But I feel like 37 days
is no time at all.
I had so much more
I wanted to build.
I had so many more animals
that I wanted to hunt.
♪
- [inaudible]
- Okay, watch out.
- I can't see.
- You're doing well.
- Okay. You're doing good.
Lean on me.
Take a step forward.
- We're not gonna let you fall.
- Take a step forward.
- Like, everything's so blurry.
Hang on.
- Okay.
- Let's carry her.
Get under her legs.
♪ ♪
Okay.
- Rocks are slippery.
- Yep. Take her feet.
♪ ♪
You're on the boat. Okay?
- I didn't win, but I hope
that people will take away
That I did this all on my own.
Nobody showed me
how to do anything.
It's not something
that I had to study.
I'm just a girl that wants
to experience stuff
And learn things.
And if I can do that,
then anybody can do that.
♪ ♪
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- Rose, thanks for joining me.
- Thanks for having me.
It's great to be here.
- Like you,
I know how traumatic it was
To be pulled from the show.
How was that experience
for you?
- It's been really hard.
There was so much
that I still wanted to do.
- Yeah.
- And to have that choice
Of whether you're going to
stay taken away from you,
That's been the hardest thing
for me to get over.
I didn't expect my feet
to be a problem.
I had no idea
that was gonna be an issue.
I mean,
I have negative 50 boots.
Like, they shouldn't be--
I don't know
why they're doing this.
- I know that feeling
very well.
It's almost as if
we can't finish our story.
- Yeah, because in my life,
I do what I want to do, and--
- Totally. Me too.
[both laugh]
- Yeah.
I sometimes push my limits.
I always push my limits,
not sometimes.
So, in this situation,
it probably was a good thing
That the choice
was taken away from me.
- You want to just--
- no, I can't.
Everything--I'm dizzy.
- You're safe.
You're safe, rose.
- It got really tough out there
for you in the cold.
When was the moment you knew
that you were in trouble?
- I had to make a choice
between finding food,
Building my shelter,
And being able to find a place
to have a fire.
And I just ran out of time.
Once my toes hurt so bad,
and there was no way for me
To warm them--
I don't have a fire inside--
I knew
that I was in trouble.
♪
Poor toes.
- You had so many bears
at your site--
Near your shelter,
on the beach.
- Oh, there he is,
right there.
Get!
Get! Go on!
- How did you overcome
your fears
To stay out there
and keep going on?
- There were so many bears.
I never anticipated
so many bears.
I am a large game hunter,
so I am the hunter.
But yeah, in this situation,
I was the hunted.
So it was a whole different
feeling for me.
- [gasps]
A lot of emotions
that hit me all at once,
That I wasn't
quite sure how to handle.
But I was able
to bring myself back
And just kind
of reground myself,
And it just took
a couple of minutes.
I've always been
really good at,
You know, having that ability
To just kind of calm
down and refocus.
All right.
Just have to get it together.
- What usually breaks people
down on this show
Is how raw
their emotions become.
It's almost like nature forces
your feelings to the surface.
And a lot of people have
a problem
Dealing with what comes up.
But you didn't seem to have
a problem with that at all.
- I went in with the mindset
that I have complete control
Over my thoughts
and my emotions.
So I just didn't dwell on it.
It's like an emotional
roller coaster out there.
Sometimes all of this
just gets to be too much.
One second, you're,
"this is so beautiful,"
And the next,
you're thinking of, you know,
Something maybe
from your childhood.
I just let myself think
of those things,
Process it real quickly,
and then move on.
In the real world, I don't get
that time to do that,
Because my life moves
so quickly.
So I actually just enjoyed
that whole process of having
That time to be alone
and go through those emotions.
- Being that you've always
been able to find a way
To take care of yourself,
You struggled with food
and keeping yourself warm.
- That was one of the hardest
things for me to deal with,
Because I've always taken care
of myself and my children.
And here, now,
I don't know where my food
is coming from next.
My belly is hungry.
- You had gone almost
30 days without meat.
- Yeah.
- And it was such an
unbelievable moment for you.
I mean, that first hare.
I mean, what was that like?
- I got a rabbit.
Oh, my gosh, that is awesome.
Ta-da!
It's a bunny!
There's no way to ever explain
to anybody that feeling, like,
Just the relief
And the excitement
to process it and to taste it.
That first taste of meat
is just...
Oh, my gosh.
I kept saying,
"this is the best rabbit
I've ever eaten."
Like, you only will know that
feeling and how intense it is
If you go through it.
That was so good.
Liver has never tasted so good
in my life. That was amazing.
- Rose, it's been so wonderful
talking with you.
Thank you so much for being
such a great role model
For the young girls out there
who love the woods like we do.
- It's been amazing.
And it was so amazing
meeting you,
Someone who is so much like me.
- Yeah, thank you.
- What an amazing opportunity
I was given,
And I'll always be grateful
for this experience.
♪
- Without those high-calorie
items, like fish,
Game, this is just a descent
into starvation.
*bleep*.
- Are you kidding
me?
There's bears, like, 30 feet
away from me right now.
♪
- This gill net is
all kind of tangled up.
- I just have this bad
gut feeling
That the boat needs attention.
I need to know it's okay.
This is a dumb idea.
Hey, bear!
♪
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