Alone (2015–…): Season 5, Episode 5 - The Bowels of Hell - full transcript

[dramatic music]

♪

- Oh, my gosh.

Yes!
I see it.

[laughing] Yes!

I got first blood.

Today could actually be,
like, a turning point for me.

- Yeah.

[bleep] fish!

I really need some food.

I'm not thriving or surviving.



I'm just lasting.

- God, it's tough
killing something,

but at the same time,
got to eat.

- Frickin' deer
floating down the river.

It's heartbreaking
that I wasn't able

to bring down that deer.

I need to tap deeper
into my resolve

and determination.

♪

[heavy breathing]

♪

male narrator: For the first
time ever on "Alone,"

ten past participants return.

♪



They've come back
with one goal:

redemption.

- I deserve to be here,
and I'm back.

- I want to win more this time
than I did last time.

narrator:
Now a fresh hell awaits...

- The cold is an incredibly
strong punch in the face.

narrator: In the punishing
wilderness of Mongolia.

- We're in the middle
of nowhere.

- Mongolia's
a very unforgiving land.

narrator: They must survive
in complete isolation,

enduring as long as they can.

- I'm just gonna push
and push and push

until there's nothing left.

narrator:
The last one standing wins.

♪

[tense music]

♪

- Look at that.

People should work together
like ants.

In the end,
we pretty much just have

all one common goal, right?

Health, happiness, family,

food, some fun.

These ants work tirelessly
to fight this thing,

and they'll win too.

They have the numbers.
This thing has no defense.

It's pretty crazy.

Turned out to be a nice day,
huh?

Okay, let's go catch some fish.

♪

I got three grasshoppers
in my pocket.

My fishing strategy right now
is definitely grasshoppers.

♪

I just scoop up
a pocket of 'em.

I'm catching good fish
every day.

Okay.

There he is.

♪

Now, my next spot.

♪

I didn't feel like
I left Patagonia

and I'd failed,

but I'm here to redeem myself.

I'm here to go the distance.

Hey!

Grasshopper.

♪

I'm surprising myself
with my success.

The rate at which
I'm having it is so great

that it is almost
making me laugh at times.

This is absolutely
the most success

I've ever had fishing
everywhere.

If I'm procuring food
at this rate,

and I don't have to have that

as the first and foremost
thought in my brain,

then I can focus a lot more
on other things

to make me more successful
in other areas.

♪

Check out that haul.

Nine fish.

This is a lot of weight.

Not bad for about two hours
of fishing,

maybe two hours.

I've got dinner.

Holy [bleep].
Look at that.

♪

That up here looks suspiciously
like claws.

♪

And I see these little ones
next to it.

♪

Seeing these tracks

is putting me
a little bit on edge.

My number one fear is being
ripped apart by a grizzly.

♪

If a bear's giving indications
of that being his territory,

I'd rather find
another territory to fish.

♪

We're totally immersed
in this wild kingdom out here.

I mean, there's no filter

between all these animals
and us.

There's no buffer zone.

They roam where they want,

and we're just here
at their mercy.

♪

- Tummy is growling.

Says, "Feed me."

♪

All right,
what's on store for today?

Well...

I really need to eat.

♪

There's no way
to hunt right now.

I've not seen a deer.

I think they're so small,

they barely get above
the vegetation,

so you need the vegetation
to die back

as fall and winter sets in,
I think, to even see 'em.

♪

So I am hoping for a fish.

♪

Got one floating line out.

Nothing biting on that.

♪

Got to think about
trying something else.

♪

So I think I want to make
some kind of a spinner

to attract the fish.

Sort of trying to make
a little spoon

out of this piece of pine.

If I can make a little hole
right here with my awl,

I can put on a piece of wire,

and maybe it would spin
in the water with my hook.

♪

There it is, in theory.

My homemade lure.

♪

Sometimes the days
seem to go fast,

but then sometimes
they just...

drag on.

The lack of food,
it dominates your thoughts.

You've got to keep yourself
busy.

That's why
I just invent things to make,

even if they're kind of goofy.

Well, here's the finished--

at least one container

I got out of the birch bark.

Four days' worth
of birch bark chain.

Does that look cool?

♪

Can't let your mind take over
about what you're missing,

what foods you want,
what your people are doing.

Yes, deer teeth.

♪

I think the thing
I think about the most,

and it happened last time too,
is you just--

you're making plans
for your life,

you know, when this is over.

Like, you're thinking
about everything

you're gonna do
and everything you want to do.

Here, you're just
kind of static.

You're just existing.

♪

It eats at you, for sure.

Why aren't the fish biting?

♪

- I was just looking at myself
in the camera.

Man, I'm scared because
I got--I've gotten thin.

Whoo.

I really need to start getting
some actual calories in.

Whoo.

Wow.

♪

This is not Vancouver Island.
This is Mongolia.

Vancouver Island was,

go down to the beach
and grab some seaweed

when you didn't do very well
at fishing.

Here, you have to fight
for every scrap.

♪

I mean, I haven't had
any solid food for five days.

♪

I would eat anything.

♪

I don't know.
I got to think.

♪

Looking around,
there's a lot of pine trees.

Pine inner bark
is starvation food.

♪

I think that's what
I'm gonna have to get into,

eating pine bark.

♪

[sawing]

One tree can supply me
a long time with food.

Definitely need to get
the calories in me

before it becomes
a big problem.

♪

I'm tired of this
starvation game.

♪

♪

Let's get this bark off,
outer bark.

♪

This whiteness?

That's the xylem.

What I'm going to be harvesting
is the xylem,

the blood vessels that bring
all the good nutrients

from the soil up to the leaves
and the branches

and the rest of it.

See how I can easily
slide my knife up beneath that?

I want to make sure
I only go a little bit down.

♪

Just peel it down.

♪

And you just eat it.

♪

I'm not screwing
with you guys.

Pine bark is good.

It'll keep me alive.

♪

Might become the day
I've eaten the most

since I've been out here.

♪

[rustling, faint growling]

[animal grunting]

- Holy [bleep].

[faint grunting]

That sounded like a bear.

♪

[faint growling]

Can you hear that?

♪

If a bear comes close
to my campsite,

I hope that it doesn't come
pushing through my front door,

'cause it's really the only
weakness of my shelter.

♪

Keep my bear spray
and bear horn safe,

or handy just in case.

♪

He comes to the front door,

I'm putting arrows
through that door.

[clears thro]

No hesitation.

♪

[animal snuffling, growling]

♪

♪

- So it's weird.

You just get accustomed
to all the sounds,

like even when you're at home,

and you hear a noise

that triggers something
in your brain

to be out of the ordinary,

and that's what I heard
last night.

Whoo.

♪

It's a gray day.

♪

See?

♪

Everybody's heard bear sounds
on nature shows or on TV.

And they have that--

[growls]

Kind of sound.

I grabbed my bear spray
and my bear horn

and just kind of listened
for something

to see if it was gonna happen.

♪

If I'm gonna encounter one,

I'd rather it be
in the daytime.

I don't want to get surprised
by something.

♪

I'm definitely seeing a lot
of evidence of bear activity

not too far from my camp.

See all these bear scratches?

♪

Right there?

♪

They're as high as my face.

♪

Look how thick those are.

Those are big claws.

Not something I want to feel
across my body.

♪

I knew they were here.

It doesn't make me
comfortable.

Hopefully
I'll just be able to avoid

any sort of confrontation.

♪

What I really don't want to do
is run into a mother with cubs.

That, I don't want to happen.

♪

- I know I had some...

pretty uncomfortable
hunger pains

fairly early this morning.

So...

I might dig
a few more dandelions

than what I have been digging,

just so I have something
to eat, like,

in the morning
and in the evening.

♪

Be nice if I caught another
fish while I was out here.

♪

I'm losing weight
pretty rapidly,

but that's to be expected
from my lack of calories.

♪

Got my digging stick.

Let's go dig up
some dandelions.

♪

I sure lucked out
with how many dandelions

there are here,

even though
I don't care for 'em.

♪

There's something happening
when I stand up,

and I'm getting
these head rushes.

They worry me a little bit.

I know I had head rushes bad
on Vancouver Island,

but not that bad.

I'm hoping they'll go away.

♪

Well, I harvested
quite a bit of dandelion,

so let's go fishing.

♪

♪ Head rush, head rush

♪ How come I get a head rush?

I need some fish, man.

♪

Lots and lots of fish.

♪

[bleep].

♪

That was a big one too.

♪

God, that's disappointing.

♪

Come on, man,
I need more fish.

Let's go.

♪

Please, Mongolia.

♪

Please let me get this fish.

There, I got one.

Thank you.

Oh, [bleep] yeah!
Yeah!

[bleep] yeah!

Whoo!

Yeah!

Yeah!

Whoo!

Whoo!

♪

Oh, thank you, Mongolia.

Thank you, Mongolia.

♪

[exhales deeply]

Oh, head rush, head rush.

[sighs]

♪

Time to cook up some victuals.

♪

What a needed morale booster,

nourishment.

I mean, I just can't
say enough about it.

♪

[exhales sharply]

Whoa.

♪

[thud]

[pained grunt]

♪

♪

- [sighs]

♪

Well, that was
a pretty intense head rush.

♪

I've never had a head rush
like this before.

This is the worst one
I've ever had.

I blacked out.

I hit my head,

just very, very glancing,

but it could've been
pretty bad.

I'm laying on my back,

and I'm staring at the sky
thinking,

that is a really blue,
pretty sky.

♪

And then slowly my brain fog
starts to lift,

and I realize I'm in Mongolia,

and I'm on my back,
and I just fell.

♪

I think those dandelions have
been dehydrating me pretty bad.

♪

The problem is,
is I think those dandelions

are a diuretic,
which makes you pee.

And if they make you pee,

then they're keeping
my urine color clear,

so I'm thinking
that I'm hydrated

when I'm really not.

♪

I'm hoping that cutting
the dandelions out of my diet,

at least temporarily,
will correct these head rushes.

♪

It's disconcerting
to tip over from a head rush.

♪

So that's something
that I really need to watch.

♪

Something small
can turn into something big

out here in the wilderness
if you let it go.

We are out
in the middle of nowhere.

If you do something
catastrophic,

you're just screwed.

♪

- Mmm.

That was a good piece.

♪

Got up in the morning.

I processed part of that log.

That gave me a lot of food.

I could eat all that,

or I could dry it up

and try to make some flour,

which could be
three days' worth of bread.

♪

2-quart pot of food.

That's a couple days
right there.

I couldn't eat all that
in one day.

Well, I guess I could.

I have food laying outside.

I have more food hanging up.

I have a lot of food
right now.

♪

It's all pine bark,
but it gives me

carbohydrates
and amino acids.

It just doesn't give me
protein and fat.

♪

[farts]

Oh.

Pine bark gives me gas.

♪

[farts]
Oh.

♪

I'm a little worried
about constipation.

I've been eating well
for the last, what, two days?

But I haven't had to have
a bowel movement.

♪

Other than the spiritual
nature of this show for me,

I'm doing this financially
for my family.

♪

I want to help each
and every one of them out.

♪

Filling up my pot.

I love my family.

That's why I wake up every
single day in that shelter

and negotiate with myself.

"All right, get up,
boil your damn water,

get some food,
get your shelter built."

I will do that
every single day

till I win for my family,

every single day.

Save you for later.

♪

Kind of feel like
I need to poop, but I try,

and I'll sit there for 10,
20 minutes, and nothing.

♪

Oh, man.

I feel nauseous.
I just feel--just beat up.

♪

I'm a little worried
about my pine bark diet.

Human bodies don't really
digest cellulose,

so it's probably breaking it
down a different way.

♪

Maybe it's that.

Maybe I haven't eaten as much
as I thought I have,

and I've just eaten enough
to keep me full,

which is not much,
because my stomach is small.

♪

Or I've started getting
clogged up.

♪

If I get constipation
out here,

I don't know what I can do.

I really don't know
what I can do.

♪

♪

- I have a very active day
ahead of me,

and so I'm just grabbing
some water

from up here on the tarp.

I've just let it gather
right there.

Every time I need a drink,
I just take a scoop.

Ah, just the right amount

of bird poop and ashes
and dirt.

To Mongolia, and to freedom.

♪

Wow.

What was just green

is now turning yellow.

Everything around here knows
that it's fall now.

Like, the season has changed.
It is not summer.

It is fall,
and you can see it.

All these colors reflect it.

That means
it's gonna get chilly,

and it's gonna get chilly
pretty quick.

♪

So right now,
I'm looking forward

to getting my long-term
shelter built

so that I have four walls
and a roof

for when we get
our first snow.

So today is gonna be
a major shelter day.

So far, I've spent about five
days working on the shelter.

I got one wall blocked off
and initial framework done.

So what we're gonna do is,

we're gonna put the tarp
from the old shelter

all the way over
to the new shelter

and finish all the walls.

Let's get cracking.

Time to take 'er down.

Out with the old,
in with the new.

♪

So the shelter is a framework

of maybe 4-inch
or 5-inch thick willow poles,

and every last bit of it

is gonna be what I need
to stay comfortable

and stay out here
for as long as I possibly can.

Time to assemble ze bed.

This is all part
of my original plan

to find a really good spot
for a shelter.

Like, take your time
finding it.

Don't just throw up
the fastest shelter you can.

I made that mistake last time.

- Well,
I've gotten a lot of flack

for my shelter
from season one.

You know,
I did a quickie shelter,

and it was good for a while,

and then when the storms
started coming,

it was bad, bad stuff.

♪

Oh, yeah, that'll definitely do
for tonight.

Time to get cranking
on this back wall.

♪

It's weird,
with this experience,

because the longer
you stay out here,

the longer you stay away,

the more fulfilling,

the more joyful,
the more memorable,

the more rewarding
this experience will be.

All right, we'll call that good
for the night.

Nearly finished.
This is exciting.

I can't believe I did that
in, like, a day.

I am sleeping
in the big shelter tonight,

and I am super,
super excited about it.

I'm really happy
with the shelter

because there's a drive
for me,

other than the money.

It's that this experience
is richer and purer

the longer it is.

♪

- This is by far my favorite
coat when I'm out here.

It's warm but light.

[animal bellowing
distantly]

Oh.

I didn't know red deer
did that.

Oh.

I love the mountains,

and I love the sound of elk
in the fall.

That tells you a lot.

It's like, well, it's fall,
and it's beautiful,

and always tells you
that the leaves are turning,

and you're in the mountains.

What could be more beautiful?

♪

Just come up with the idea

that I'm gonna go hunting
in the canyon.

Heading across these plains

up into that canyon
right there.

Here we go.

Exploration,

getting to know
more of the area.

These are things
that I live for.

♪

Definitely feel myself
getting skinnier.

I don't want to starve myself.

I don't want to wither away
to nothing

like I did in Patagonia.

It's coming into winter.

I need big game

to have a sustainable amount
of meat.

One deer, it's less life
that I have to take.

♪

Okay. I'm gonna go meander
around a little bit,

just to get to know the area.

♪

I feel alive when I walk
with a bow in my hands.

My senses are heightened.

♪

I can smell the air.

I can feel the wind
on my cheek.

♪

Ah, here we go.

♪

Nice game trail.

♪

[whispering]
I heard something.

♪

♪

[bird shrieks]

[shrieking continues]

[bird chattering]

- A grouse.

I had the shot on it,

and then my arrow
goes into this grouse,

and the bird flies off
with my arrow.

Started tracking it down,
and got that grouse,

but it was obvious
that I had hurt this animal.

♪

Arrow broke its wing
clean off.

♪

I don't want
to cause suffering

to any animal or being.

I don't hunt to kill.

I hunt to eat.

I tell myself,
is it better

to kill one large animal
for many meals?

♪

Or a bunch of small ones?

♪

[exhales sharply]

One deer.

It's less game,
less life that I have to take.

I mean,
I'm hurting these animals.

[exhales]

[sniffles]

And it hurts my heart.

So what do I choose,
to be oblivious?

Do I choose to be a vegetarian?

Do I push the button?

[sighs]

Or do I keep killing?

♪

I've killed five grouse,

a squirrel.

♪

God, man, that's a lot of pain.

That's a lot of pain.

♪

[sobs]

♪

The hunter left because
he couldn't hunt anymore.

[chuckles]

[exhales]

♪

- I woke up worn out, man.

I have a headache,
abdominal pain, exhausted.

♪

Not feeling great.

But I'll push through.

I always do.

♪

I've eaten probably 1/2 pound,

if not more, of pine bark
in the last three days.

But since probably day eight,

I haven't had to have
a bowel movement.

So I want to make some flour
with my pine bark.

The flour should be a lot
easier for my body to digest

than just straight pine bark,

so I have hopes that it will
help push everything through.

I'm going to have to use
a rock.

Crush, crush, crush, crush.

This'll be pretty good.

Nice handle up here.

♪

I've never made flour before,
so you know, here's--

here's to firsts.

♪

There's the consistency of it.

♪

[bleep] stomach, man.

[sniffs]

Uh, my lower abs
are tightening up,

or at least, like, the inside.

♪

Ah, okay.

Ahh.

Yeah, that's--

that's come back
a little bit.

It's like I need to fart,
but I can't.

♪

[groaning]

Go away.

[panting]

Ahh.

♪

[groaning]

[breathing shakily]

[groaning]

Ahh, it's...

[panting]

Lay down. Lay down.

[groaning]

♪

[Jesse groans]

[intense music]

♪

- [groaning]

Ohh.

Ugh.

[sighs]

[panting]

Shh.

♪

Shh.

♪

[sighs]

Oh...

[panting]

♪

This is a lot of pain.

Ahh.

[groans]

♪

It's like someone's pulling
barbed wire out of my stomach.

[breathing heavily]

[groans]

♪

I don't know what to do.

♪

Ow.

♪

[groaning]

♪

[groaning]

All right, this is--

this is too much.

♪

To all my brothers
and my sister,

I'm sorry.

♪

I'm really sorry.

♪

[device beeps]

This is Jesse.
I'm--I have to tap out.

♪

[sighs]

♪

I resent having to go out
like this.

Big, bad Green Beret
gets taken out by his stomach.

♪

I think they're here.

♪

Just this really bad
abdominal pain.

Really bad.
I mean, really, really bad.

I did so much,

and I got taken out
because I can't poop.

♪

The largest part of me
wants to stay.

Even with the starvation,
I can keep myself going.

But man can't live
off bark alone.

I should've maybe not go
so hardcore on just pine bark,

but, man, when you've
been hungry for that long,

being satiated
even for one meal

was an incredible relief.

♪

I put a lot on this.

I really wanted
to use the prize money

to help my large family,
help them out,

and say thank you
for everything

they've done for me
in my life.

♪

I know
I'm letting my family down.

♪

- [whispering] It's very crazy
to hear extremely large animals

just feet from you.

I don't want to go outside.

- Oh, no. This huge front
just pushed through.

Definitely don't want
to get stuck in a storm.

- [whispering]
I heard something running.

What the hell is that?

I think I hit it.

- I have quite a few mice
living in my shelter.

[imitating mice]

I could stomp
their little guts in.

Boom!

♪