Alone (2015–…): Season 3, Episode 5 - The Lone Wolf - full transcript

[dramatic music]

*

- This is Britt.

I think I'm ready for you guys
to come pick me up.

It's killing me
to be away from my family.

- I really got to get some meat.

But not when you got foxes
taking all your bait.

He seems to know it's a trap.

I give up with him.

- [bleep]

Can't believe that.



Missing my family and friends,
and I just feel sad

being out here on my own.

- My shelter
is coming along great.

Tonight, I'm moving in.

- I never went this long
on this minimal food.

It's eating at me inside
that fish is out there.

*

- This is the hardest terrain.

- Patagonia is a different
environment entirely.

- Everything out here
is so hard.

- Patagonia's no joke.

- Are you willing to give up--

- Oh!
- Who you are...

for what you will become?



- It's Patagonia,
for God's sake.

- Patagonia!

- It's tougher
than I ever imagined.

- Just missing home right now.

- You get a feeling
of helplessness,

like, "Why am I doing this?"

- Oh, my God!

- The last person left
wins $500,000

and is a badass.

- Bam!
- Ugh.

[animal growling]

- What is that?

- It's just how far
you can push yourself

and what you're able to do.

- Yeah!

- You don't have anyone
to lean on.

- Oh, my God, I got a fish!

- Go to bed hungry.
Wake up hungry.

*

- Can't believe I did that.
- Ready, guy?

- It's gonna come down
to mental endurance

and food deprivation.

- [cries]

- Person'll be dead
in a week at this rate.

[animal growling]

*

- Whoa.

That's a big cat.

*

[dramatic music]

*

*

- * Fish head soup in your cup

[fire crackling]

[slurps]

Ahh.

Its delicious-y, chunky goodness
keeps you going all day long.

[fire crackling]

Just try it.

[slurping]

* Fish head soup

* Too bad you taste like poop

[fire crackling]

*

No goofing around today.

Motivated.

*

That snow keeps getting
further and further down

on the mountains
across the way.

It's getting to be cold.

So I'm hoping
it's not gonna be a--

[imitates blizzard]

Here's a foot and a half
of snow! Surprise!

I need to get the shelter done.

*

I have been working
on my shelter

for about 14 days.

*

Only question is,
do I have the strength

to see it through?

*

This is quite the goal
I've set myself.

*

My shelter plans are to have
a shelter I can stand up in

and a fire inside

so that I can be secure
for winter.

*

My design idea for the walls

is a bamboo wattle,
so they're woven.

*

Takes a lot of sticks
to make this.

*

But I'm gonna do
a double-thick wall

and cram
the layer space between

with the bamboo

so I can insulate
between the two.

That ought to keep me warm.

*

Man, this is coming out awesome.

I can't wait
to finish my shelter

and light the first fire
in there.

I'll have somewhere to be safe
and secure and comfortable

while I'm waiting
on a snowstorm to end

or four days of rain to end.

*

Getting winded.

*

[groans]

Fish head soup
is running out of energy.

Lot of calories burnt up.

*

I'm really not happy

with the amount of fish
I'm catching.

I'm having a hard time of it.

It's slowing me down,
and it's stealing my energy.

All right, I think I'll work on

cutting bamboo out of here
today.

[chopping]

[grunts]

[bamboo rustling]

I just noticed this.

*

It's just covered,
turned-up chunks of turf.

That's a boar sign right there.

See that?

There's a track there.

[fabric rustles]

It might not look like much.

It might not look like much.

But I'm so excited.
I, like...

I'd love to get a boar.

I could be eating
something more substantial.

A pig could go quite a ways.

*

Think I'm gonna set
a boar trap.

Probably right up
in the middle,

so things come up and over,

snags him,
I can go up and dispatch him

and have him for dinner.

*

Maybe tomorrow
I will try and set that up.

[serene music]

*

So I'm gonna dig just a pit

with some bamboo spikes
under there.

A boar would fall in
and down on the spikes

and do him in.

*

I'm gonna keep going.

I got to get more traps
out there.

It's gonna mean a lot
to my sanity, you know,

to get more food.

*

Maybe dig this out a little bit

and put some bamboo spears
in here.

*

That's working good.

I got the spike pit dug

and covered lightly.

There's the pit trap

on the other side of that log
right there.

* Doo-doo-do-doo

Just being a pig.

I don't want to go that way.

Oh, here's a log.

I jump over the log.

Boom.

*

I want to build
another trap today.

I put two stakes in.

*

Paracord across.

And a sharp spike.

*

And wind up the spike.

*

This string's pretending
to be fish guts.

It's in-between my split stick,
which comes apart,

and when he comes
and he worries at 'em--

aah, yum--

then the split stick falls
apart, spike comes around--

[making splat sounds]

*

All right, so the little animal
comes in like this.

* Doo-de-doo-de-doo-de-doo

Mmm. Yum. Some gross little worm
or fish grubby bits.

Yum. Follow me up into here.
Let's go. All right. Whoo-hoo.

Oh. Some more grubby bits.
Let's pull that apart.

Split stick breaks in half
and spike comes around.

Wallop.

And hopefully that's the end
of his little life

so I can eat him.

[dramatic music]

*

- Oh, look at this.

That's a great piece
of wood, eh?

It looks like a saw.

[wood scraping]

Ah, I like mine better.

[laughs]

*

I got to have something to eat.
I can't live on air.

My traps haven't worked.

My deadfalls.

You know, I gave up
on trying to catch that fox.

I'm just wasting time.

[somber music]

*

My fish resources
are dwindling, it seems.

Not biting like they were.

I go to bed hungry most nights.

Most nights.

Got these big logs here.

It'd sure be nice to make a raft

so that I can get
to this other river over here.

It's a bigger river,

and I have a feeling
there'll be bigger--

like, rainbow and brookies
in there.

*

I desperately need fish
every day.

So, this is the one
I'm thinking.

*

I want to cut a notch
at both ends,

like a dovetail.

[saw scraping, Greg sighing]

And the idea of the dovetail is,
now I can cut a piece of wood,

the same angle,
and pound it in

and it's gonna stabilize
my whole raft.

Every once in a while,
you just get so negative.

You get a feeling
of, like, despair.

To be honest with you,
right now,

there's nothing
I would like better

than to go home.

But I'm not a quitter.

I'm gonna keep plugging away.

My other board's
gonna slide in here.

It's gonna be tapered
the opposite way.

[grunts]

[logs splashing]

I'm gonna put
some planks across,

and then we'll see
if it floats me.

Oh, that's cold
on the feet, man.

Boy, cold water.

I can't imagine
being totally submerged in that.

This isn't very good.

This one board
is not sitting very good.

[dramatic music]

*

Whoa.

*

It's too unstable.

I'll flip it easily,
and I don't want to swim.

Yeah, that's cold, boy.

Ooh, I don't like this.

I'm not into killing myself
over it.

Cold water is no fun.

Yes, it's discouraging,
but the whole thing is

to get through
these situations.

That's what outdoor survival's
about.

I'm just gonna press on.

*

Good thing--it's a good thing
they're waterproof, eh?

[dramatic music]

*

Can't laugh at yourself,
who can you laugh at?

*

Oy.

All right.

Life is good.

I love my house.

*

It feels like I'm coming home

when I come up the trail
and into my little front yard.

You know, I've made a place
of safety and comfort,

and it's awesome.

*

Now it's time
to have a relaxed night

and do what I want to do
as I feel like doing it.

*

Just love the silhouette
of the mountains.

The stars coming out.

But I do really want
to have slept out on the beach

at least once while I'm here.

Tonight feels like
a good night for it.

*

Maybe I'll have a visitor.

*

I at least have the stars
and mountains and trees

for company.

At home, Tyler and I sometimes
sleep out on the porch

and watch the stars.

Every time I look up,
there's more stars.

*

[rustling]

[ominous music]

Whoa.

I don't know
if you picked that up, camera,

but it sounded like
a limb falling over.

Limb falling down.

[bird calling]

*

Whoa.

[dramatic music]

*

[bird calling]

Whoa.

*

Could be dangerous.

[eerie music]

*

[eerie music continues]

*

Whoa, that was close.

*

Think everything's okay.

And I should get to bed.

[sleeping bag rustling]

I'll have to keep an eye out
for big cats in the area.

*

My philosophy on pumas
has always been,

if I see one,
I don't have to worry about it,

and if I don't see one,
then I'll be dead.

If they want to eat me,
they're going to.

*

Okay. That's enough for tonight.

[eerie music]

*

[eerie music]

*

- Let's make sure
everything's on.

[laughs]

Everything looks good.

We've got...

Battery.

Time on the card.

[laughs]

What the [bleep]?

What the [bleep]?

[laughs]

I'm hungry.

*

I haven't caught a fish
in weeks.

And I am skinny.

Can't sustain myself
on the diet that I've had.

Not through the winter.

*

Come on, baby.

Take a bite.

*

Nothing's hitting.

Some of the water's frozen
in certain spots.

The cold is pulling the fish
away from the shore.

I'm concerned, you know?

My food sources have dwindled
to barely anything.

Sure, I can get greens,
but I need protein.

We don't have squirrels
around here.

Rabbits and hares.

I haven't seen one scat
or rabbit track

or anything like that.

*

I know I can trap mice.

I've done it before,

and I've already seen them eat

the bait that I had for fish,
so I--and I've seen,

I've got rocks in the area
that would work well.

Everything is in the area
that would allow me

to hunt and to trap
and survive for six months.

But they asked me
not to hunt rodents

because of the hantavirus.

The hantavirus is extreme
in this area.

*

You can mess yourself up.

When I know
that I can survive in an area,

when I know
I can sustain myself,

and we have hantavirus,
that is so disappointing.

I feel like it's gonna be
a hunger fest.

*

Aah!

*

[bleep].

*

[sighs]

[birds chirping distantly]

[foreboding music]

*

- Okay, well, the raft works.

It floats me,
but it's very unstable.

I'm gonna add a couple
of more good timbers to it,

and we'll be getting across
the lake and to the river.

Do some fishing and stuff.

This is my last log
for the raft.

It's a nice big one

for one more little bit
of stability.

Boy.

[log thuds]

Yeah, it's pretty heavy.

I'll get it there.

It is very difficult,

but my entire life
depends on this.

*

You know, this is, financially,
the greatest opportunity

of my entire life.

It's the only chance
of being able

to build my daughter a house.

That's what keeps
motivating me on

on days like this
when I feel like going home.

The things that I want to do
for my daughter

are so important to me.

My future, spiritually,
emotionally, everything.

Everything depends upon
a victory here.

*

Made it.

[log dragging]

I want to slide this log
in-between there.

I just hope
that I have enough lengths

of paracord
to get around all of these.

That completes the raft.

*

We're good to go.

Our voyage begins.

[determined music]

*

[dramatic music]

*

- I got to get across the lake
and to the river.

Do some fishing.

Got to try something.

I have to get more fish.

*

Sure don't want
to fall in the lake.

*

Yeah, boy, oh, boy,
I don't know how cold it is.

*

Now we're sailing.
Yee-haw!

*

A fast-moving trout
might flip it over.

[laughs]

[water splashing]

Whoa.

[water splashing]

Little ways to go.
We're halfway.

We made our maiden voyage
in the "Titanic."

We didn't hit no icebergs,
so that's good.

*

So, here we are
to check this particular spot.

*

I got him.

*

It's a decent fish.

Look at that guy.

Oh, boy!

Now we got a fish.
Oh, man.

Glad I came to this spot.

*

Look at that guy.

Man, if I had five of those
to smoke up,

would that ever be great.

Ho. The biggest fish I've caught
since I've been here.

*

And now I'm in the groove.

My spirits
are just roaring high.

*

I'm certainly glad
that I made up my mind

to be more positive.

*

[eerie music]

*

- So I'm legit
just, like, lounging here.

I am so hungry

for vanilla cupcakes

with vanilla icing

and sprinkles,

it's ridiculous.

I was literally--
I think I dreamt about them

for four hours last night,
and I just kept eating 'em,

and I was going into
all these offices

and stealing the cupcakes
and leaving

until security would find out
that I don't work there.

Um...

Oh, my God.
I'm hungry for cupcakes.

[serene music]

*

My survival style comes down
to, every calorie counts

and every move
needs to be calculated.

*

It's a slow, steady pace,

and you just have to be
consistent with it.

*

I conserve myself so much here.
So much.

*

It's probably on the verge
of a little bit craziness,

but, you know,
it is what it is.

I'm not out here to do anything
but just stay as long as I can.

*

Boom.

*

You have to get up here,
no matter bad you feel,

and be like,
"I'm one badass mother-effer."

Every morning, you have to
get up and feel like that

or at least tell yourself that
and take that persona on

to do this, because you can't
come out here and be,

"Oh, my God.

It's just emotional and...
hard."

Like, come on.
Get your [bleep] together.

Do what you got to do.
You know?

What do I always say?

You got to just be
a big beer-drinking,

red meat-eating badass.

[dramatic music]

*

- I got to get some food in me.

I'm really hitting
a energy lull today.

I really want to stay out here,
but I need sustenance.

I need something
that's gonna keep me going.

So I can't trap mice.

Maybe try a little different
way to catch fish.

Trying to learn from the land.

I've seen flies around here,

and fly fishermen, they always,

you know,
make tying their own flies.

So I'm making a fly.

I've got some feathers.

*

I don't know if you can see it
very well,

but we'll see what happens.

[gentle music]

*

Come on, fish.

*

Turning 50 out here
at six months' time.

There is not
a more beautiful 50th birthday

that I could ever imagine.

Haven't caught anything yet.

*

I feel frustrated.

Come on.

*

[waves lapping]

Got one!

All right.

*

The new lure worked.

Oh, thank you.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Come on, bud.
Come on. Yeah!

Oh!

Hell, yeah!

That one's huge.

Oh, my gosh.

17 inches.

Biggest one yet.

That is beautiful.

I was worried I wasn't gonna be
catching any more fish.

That's a lot to eat.

Oh, thank you.

*

Has eggs in it.

*

Oh, my gosh.

Look at all those eggs.

*

Mmm.

[sighing]

That is a lot of protein.
That's some good food.

This and this
are keeping me out here.

Thank you.

Thank you.

[dramatic music]

*

- Coming up on my trap here.

Nothing.

Something has nibbled off
the gut from this trap.

My bait stolen.

I'll reload it.
Give it another try.

Ooh.

I do need to get more traps
going for me.

Something better.

Well, I got to work
on the shelter some.

*

All right, here we go.

It's time to get up
over the hill.

[exhales noisily]

[groans]

I need stones
for my fireplace up there.

*

That rock's heavy.

Look. Down there.

That's the lake.

Way down there.

All right.
Onward and upward.

[groans]

All right.

Pretty tired.

[dramatic music]

*

- I came here.
I said I was a trapper.

You know,
nothing's changing about that,

but we're not in
a environment here

that is crazy rich
in fur-bearing animals.

And that's basically what
you're trapping.

For me personally, I think
it's not even worth trying

to set a trap.

Do I have access to what I need
as the trapper I am?

With the tools I use?

No.

*

You give me five steel traps,
they'd all be out.

They'd be out already.

*

That might be a totally bad way
of looking at it.

*

But I don't know,
I just, my thing,

evaluate everything,
every calorie counts.

*

It's not worthwhile to me.

*

I think
of other people out there,

are other people crawling up
and down a mountain every day?

*

Man, I love the sense
of adventure and doing stuff,

but I can't hike up
that big hill.

I'm too big of a guy
to hike up a big hill

to go look around.

Just, it's unrealistic for me.

[dramatic music]

*

- I'm pushing my limits
as much as I possibly can.

Well, I made it.

All the way up.

That walk took a lot out of me.

A lot that I don't have to give
on my low-calorie intake.

But this is why I'm here,
so I'm doing this.

*

I'm a maker.

Making is my knack.

*

God might've given me dyslexia,

but he's gifted me
in the ability

to make stuff with my hands,

and I would never trade that

for the ability
to do anything else.

*

The inner walls are done.
It is looking good.

It goes all--
[makes whooshing sound]

the way I like it.

*

I need to make a broom next.

Sweep out my shelter.

*

It's in my nature to always
be building and creating.

All right. Two more lashings,
and it's all done.

[gentle music]

*

If I spend too many days
just doing nothing,

I just get mighty antsy.

Thought of doing a little
something for my daughter, Abby.

A little rabbit.

'Cause Abby's almost a rabbit.

Always jumping around.

[serene music]

*

- It's like,
what else do you want to do?

Like, what, do you want me
to carve a Santa Claus out of--

oh, come--
how about I crawl up,

I cut the tree off, and carve
a life-size Santa Claus?

Like, it just comes down
to ridiculousness.

*

If people came in here

and they were
just balls-to-the-wall

pushing as hard as they can,

just wore out
by the end of the day,

they're in a world of hurt
right now.

And I think if you lined up

whoever's left out here
with me,

I know I can persevere longer.

I know that my body's
gonna hold out longer.

*

I mean, man,
I just feel positive.

I feel I'm on the right road.

I feel I'm on the right track.

*

I know that day can come
that I'm victorious out here.

[dramatic music]

*

- Feeling like
I'm running low on energy.

*

And I am taken right
to the limit of my strength.

*

The shelter--
it pretty much does me in.

You know?

*

It's one thing for me to put in
11-, 12-hour days at home,

but I have the calories
to keep me going.

But here it's different.

More and more,
I'm concerned that my body

is just not cut out for this.

[dramatic music]

*

- What an absolutely stunning
morning.

Mmm.

*

[sighs]

*

We're feeling great.

Today is an amazing day.

I wanted to give
a little updated tour

of the inside of the place,
because we've arranged.

We've put in some shelving

so we can have wood
on the inside

for our cold, cozy nights.

Life out here is all about
finding a rhythm and flow.

[wind chimes tinkle]

Today, we are gonna start work
on a sauna.

Now, I use the word "sauna"
kind of loosely.

It's more like
a sweat lodge style,

with a tarp.

*

You may think,
"Look at that hippie,

building saunas and wind chimes
and useless things,"

but, to me, nothing about
what I've done has been useless.

Really helps break up the day
and structure my mind,

and it creates a life here
for me.

*

Boing!

*

This is probably
the biggest moment in my life

in terms
of massive self-growth.

I feel new responsibilities
coming on.

*

The idea is,
we're creating a dome,

like so.

And this is kind of the last,
you know, I think big hurrah

of just being Callie, you know?

*

Okay, well, we got some moment
of truths happening here.

I'm gonna take the tarp
off the woodshed

and put it on the sauna.

Hopefully, it fits.

I did not measure,
so fingers crossed.

*

This is a roller coaster.

This whole journey
is one big ride

with ups and downs
and twists and turns,

and there's major adjustment
happening here.

Questioning.

Wow. If we had made this sauna
any bigger at all,

it would not have fit.

*

We have successfully created
the dome structure.

We made a little place where
our hot stones are gonna sit,

and then we pour water
onto the rocks.

The cold water on the hot rocks
creates steam.

River rocks are notorious
for exploding in the fire,

so I'm taking some precautions,
like the grate,

just in case
of any explosion of rock.

While we're at it,

I wanted something soft
to put my feet on,

so I decided to make
a moss walkway to the sauna.

Just to make it
even more magical.

And the rocks
that are gonna be for the sauna

are in the fire right now.

They've been in there
for about maybe four hours.

Pata-motherfrickin'-gonia.

*

Who are we really at our core?

*

I don't know, you know,

who I'm gonna discover
is inside of me

at the end of this.

*

I know I feel resistance.

Even when I'm bursting forth
with the most joyful gratitude,

a part of me
is still missing my home.

*

Missing the old me.

*

I am dying many deaths daily.

[dramatic music]

*

- These are some hot rocks,
that's for sure.

Extremely hot.

*

It's time to sweat.

*

Wow.

It's already warm in there
without even--

without even pouring
the steam on.

*

All right, now is the hard part,

which is getting undressed
in the cold.

*

It's an age-old tradition,
you know,

to go out into the wilderness

until you've received
what you need to receive,

and then you,
on your own volition,

come home.

There's something
about sinking into

a deeper, even darker place.

Oh, my goodness.

Oh!

*

Oh, yes.

This is absolutely happening
and working.

*

I feel the next big shift
in this journey coming on.

The next phase for me
is children and partnership

and land ownership
and deepening my business.

*

I'm starting to feel closure
coming to this journey.

Feel that return
and the call home again.

[serene music]

*

[birds chirping distantly]

Okay, guys, well...

I've got
some pretty surprising

and shocking news.

I was up all night last night
contemplating this,

and I've just decided that...

My journey here is over.

[sighs]

And I just feel like
it's time for me to go.

So I'm doing it.

I'm calling in.

Hello?

Hi.

Yeah, it's me.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Yeah, get me the President.

Yes, of the United States.

I don't care
if they're in a meeting.

This is an emergency!

Thanks.

Mr. President?

It's go time.

Bah!
Got you!

It's not even on.

I don't even know
how to work this.

Just kidding.
I do.

But are you kidding--

please do not say
you fell for that.

No way, José.

I am--
[scoffs]

We're just getting started.

- Out here,
you can't just go out

and just start
burning calories.

People don't like my strategy.
[bleep] it.

I don't really care.
- I am losing a lot of weight.

If I don't catch a fish,
I may not be able to stay here.

Come on.
Aw, damn it.

So I have three spider bites
that are infected.

That's really not good.

- I got a fish on there.
[groans]

Oh!