Alone (2015–…): Season 3, Episode 3 - Eternal Darkness - full transcript

[dramatic music]

*

- Oh.

Stupid, stupid,
stupid, stupid.

One split second takes
everything away.

- What is that?

[animal squealing]

It sounds like something
in distress.

- So I'm getting
my vitamins and minerals,

but I definitely need protein.

Whoo! Okay.



- I'm not planning
on being out here

and not being comfortable.

- Building a shelter here
will work really good,

but heading up and down

that hill every day
will be a real challenge.

*

*

- Today, spirits are good.

I'm gonna heat up
some water right now.

My pot has this delicious

continual undertone of fish.

*

I call it "a-fish-a-tay."

*



Mmm.

The undertones of scales

and fish guts is...

Perfection.

*

Mmm, mmm.

Mm-mm-mmm.

*

Okay, my friends,

I'm feeling
super motivated today,

so I'm gonna work
on my permanent shelter.

*

The design for this shelter

is kind of like
a makeshift cabin.

We have our main structure
here.

The roof is gonna come down
and attach to ridgepoles

that go along there,
which, debris walls

will then be built up
right along the edge there.

I think that weather
is a really big part

of this journey,

and I've heard, you know,

in certain areas of Patagonia,

the wind can blow, you know,

100 miles an hour
for a week straight.

That's brutal.

I'm really hoping
to be able to create

a really comfortable home space

so I can escape the elements.

All right,
let's get to work.

We're gonna take two posts

and hammer them in,

and then we're gonna
fill this inside with debris.

If I had to kind of peg down

my survival philosophy
or strategy,

it would be, uh,
creating a home,

you know, is gonna be
the environment

in which I will--
I will thrive.

So the debris is gonna act
as an insulation, too,

for the walls.

I'm kind of going
opposite directions

so they kind of lock together.

*

I think I really
learned to love

to do projects like this
from my mom.

*

She kind of instilled,
in both me and my brother,

a sense of creativity
and beauty.

*

I'm gonna wait to move in
until I'm fully done

'cause I don't want to move
into a half-finished home.

All right, yes.

Yay.

First wall done.

*

He would go just like this,
no matter what the song.

[laughs]

No matter what the song was

or what the tempo was
or whatever,

he was just like this.

He was content, too,
'cause he knew

he was getting it.

He was--the first time
on the dance floor,

and that was my little man
right there, cutting it up.

I laugh so hard
every time I think about it.

I'm in the middle of the woods
laughing at myself doing it.

He's so funny.

That one was for you,
Campbell.

He knows how proud he makes me.
I tell him all the time.

*

It's a brisk day.
We're sliding into winter.

Food's gonna be getting scarce
for everybody.

I caught my first fish,
a nice 14-inch rainbow trout.

Fresh fish is key
for my plan going forward

to try and survive,

hopefully thrive,
as long as I can,

so it's time to get to work.

*

I'm gonna cut it up
and chum the water.

It's really odiferous,
and that smell wafts around,

and it brings around
the animals that want to eat.

I'm gonna put this
little heart on my hook

as well,
just to sweeten the deal.

Be still, my beating heart.

It's crazy.

I guess that's what
happens in the ER

when they compress your heart;
it tries to pump back.

*

I can scatter the chum
on the floor out there...

*

Maybe I'll get some luck today.

*

I put out several more
fishing lines

all around this cove.

*

I can still see
my chum scattered

on the floor out there.

[water splashes]
Oh.

Success.

Success!

Whoo!

Uh-huh.

*

See how pretty that is?

Look at that.
Beautiful, beautiful.

I see splashing down there
by my line again.

The fish keep coming.

Number three.

I just can't stop laughing.

Maybe I've cracked the code
on fishing.

Ready, guy?
Thank you very much.

*

My chum idea is working...

like magic.

If I continue
catching fish like this

and I can't eat them all,
I got to figure out a way

to preserve them
for longevity,

in case times start
getting thinner.

*

- I'm just gonna
get this fire going,

just so it doesn't go out.

*

It's a little smoky in here,
but the more smoke, the better.

I just kind of want
to mask any scent in here.

Hopefully,
I don't have any visitors,

but who knows?

*

I'm gonna get ready for bed.

*

[wind blowing softly]

[trees rustling]

[branches breaking]

[leaves rustling]

[branches breaking]

*

[trees rustling]

*

[trees rustling,
muffled deep breathing]

*

[animal chuffing]

*

[branches breaking]

*

There's definitely
something outside.

[trees rustling]

*

Hey!

*

[deeply] Hey!

[boar squealing]

[dramatic music]

*

[trees rustling]

*

[branches breaking]

*

- Hey!

*

[deeply] Hey!

*

I think it took off.

It sounded like a wild boar.

*

I just don't know
how aggressive

the males can be
in the winter.

Hopefully, not too aggressive.

I heard they're
quite territorial,

but, hopefully, uh,

hopefully, I get one
before it charges me.

I hope it doesn't
come back tonight.

*

Last night was crazy.

I have to go pee.
[chuckles]

I didn't want to get up
in the middle of the night

and run into something.

Yikes.

This is only about
10 meters away from my shelter.

Fresh scat.

*

I'm pretty sure
it's a wild boar,

and I don't feel completely
secure in the shelter

right now,
just with the tarp.

What I'm gonna do is work on
just really securing

the outside perimeter
of the shelter today,

so if there is
something out there

that is trying
to get in as a predator,

I will hopefully
have a bit of time to react.

*

Safety is my
number one concern.

I have children
and a husband.

*

Some of these are heavy.

Well, hopefully that animal
doesn't come back tonight.

*

That's pretty good.

Nice X for "Do not enter."

*

- Okay, so, uh...

Just for my own reference,

a pace count
is when you figure out

how many paces
it takes you

to walk a certain amount
of distance,

so if I step with my left foot,

I go one, right foot is none,
two is my left foot.

You get it?
So a full stride.

67 strides
is 100 meters for me,

so I can count
from here back to camp;

it's gonna give me
a good estimate

of how far I am from camp.

Just gonna
help save calories.

I am seriously
the laziest survival person

in the world.

*

You have the people
that are gonna come out here

and work super hard

and make all this stuff

and go above and beyond,
in a sense,

and it's just against
the overall goal of this.

*

Co on, you know?

That's what knocks
them people out.

I just want to win so bad,

be the last one.

Hopefully, one day,
I'm sitting here--

like, day 52 would be nice.

That's a nice number
in my head,

and they come in,
and Brooke's with them,

and they say,
"Hey, you're done."

Man...

It's so far away, though.

So far away right now.

*

I'm from Mahanoy City,
Pennsylvania.

Currently, I consider myself
a full-time bushman.

I think I'm most proficient
in trapping

and just the overall art
of being able to resource

what I have at the time.

These are possums,
skunks, raccoons.

I really feel like
I'm at a crossroads, you know?

I lost my job,
and I always had this passion

for the outdoors
and survival and bushcraft.

I was always like,
"Why do I do all this stuff?"

And it just, like,
came to a head

when I had this opportunity

to go and prove myself
now here in Patagonia.

*

I'm leaving behind my wife,
Brooke,

and my two-year-old son, Jax.

So you gonna miss me
when I'm gone?

- Yeah.
- Yeah?

- Is Daddy gonna win?
- Yeah!

- Yeah.
- Yeah, right?

At times I feel, "Eh, maybe
I'm being a bad husband

or a bad father
by doing that right now,"

but me doing this
and being successful

benefits all of us.

*

I want to win so bad,

it can almost
take your breath away.

I have a lot of ideas
and things I want to do

with my life,

and I always did,
but I just always felt

I fell short a little bit

because maybe
I didn't have the resources

or I didn't have the capital.

*

So that's a huge
driving factor for me.

*

Man...

I could cut trees at home.

I'm usually pretty good.

Lack of calories
are rocking me,

that's for sure.

*

All right, let's do it,
push through.

*

And that's...

how you fell a tree.

*

- Bam!

Rainbow trout up in this bitch!

Look at that.

Went down to check my line.

I was a little bit pessimistic,
but I went down.

I gave it a tug,
felt a tug back.

I was like, "Oh, hold up.

Oh, hold up."

[singsong]
Gonna hLook at this guy.onight.

He was like,
"Please, Britt, eat me.

I know you're hungry."

Look at that.
It's a good, uh...

I don't know. That's a good
maybe 2 1/2 pounds.

Now I got food.
Now I got bait.

My chum idea works.

I keep chumming.
The fish keep coming.

I'm working on a way
to keep my fish refrigerated,

'cause I obviously don't want
to eat it all at one time,

so it's
a nice little depression

that I can lay
my fish down in there,

and I'm gonna allow the water

to continue flowing over it
to keep it cold.

Put this here
so they don't float away,

so there's one.

*

There's two,

and then all I'm gonna do
with these...

I'm gonna seal it off
kind of like a grate

just to keep anything
from getting down into it,

keep them from washing away.

I'm loving this...
kinda bamboo stuff.

It's awesome.

It's so multipurpose.

*

And it's all submerged,
completely refrigerated.

My goal now is to get them
out of the water

and get them in here
as quick as possible

so they stay alive
till I'm ready to eat.

Then I won't have to clean them
till I'm ready.

I've got so much fish.

I can't believe it.

Day ten ending on a...

* High note!

*

[dramatic music]

*

*

- So what we're gonna do now

is gather some stones
for the hearth.

I'm feeling a little chilled,

so I want to get my blood going.

Um...

so we're gonna start the day
by moving rocks.

*

It feels like winter
is definitely nigh.

I'm definitely excited

that my permanent shelter
is coming along

because it's taken me
a little bit of time.

*

Okay, so we've gathered

quite a bit of stones here.

We're probably gonna need
at least double this,

but we're gonna start...

Building the hearth,

because as they say,

"Home is where the hearth is,"

or, "Every hearth
needs a home."

*

"Every home is a hearth."

I don't know what they say,

but they say something
about homes and hearths,

so I trust them,
whoever they are.

We're gonna take a break

from this part of the project,

give my back a break.

*

So now what we're wanting to do
is fill in these sides,

so I'm gonna take more bamboo,

lash them together,

and then weave some debris.

It's looking very tiki hut.

Ah, yes, will you join me

for some piña colada
in my tiki lounge?

*

If I can get this done today,

I will feel...

mighty accomplished and happy.

*

Oh, my gosh,
I am very excited to move in.

This is gonna be
so good for winter.

*

* A hula-hu

* A hula-hu...

It's such a tiki lounge,

minus...the sunshine,

the mai tais,

the tanned men
giving me back massages,

and, um...

everything else
that comes with a tiki lounge.

It's--pretty much
the only thing that makes it

a tiki lounge
is the bamboo, so...

at least we got that going.

Now we're stoked.

*

[birds chirping]

*

- I wonder if I'll see a glimpse
of the sun tomorrow,

if it was behind all that
haziness and cloud and stuff

or if it just doesn't ever come

onto this side of the lake.

I can see over there in
the mountains through the trees

that it's back that way.

*

We'll see.

Whew.

Starting to work
on my trail to my--

where I can make
my upper shelter.

Gonna have to come along here

and then go up
and switchback and switchback.

There's about, uh--
I don't know--

I got to go up about 100--
100 feet or so

to get to where
I'm gonna make my shelter.

Winter is coming.

I have to get my shelter built.

*

[abrupt rustling]

When you step on that bamboo
as you're going downhill,

you might as well
step on a Slip 'N Slide.

It's a little
on the dangerous side,

right here.

Coming along here
and down this,

that goes down, like,
20 or 30 feet.

I'll have to put
a railing up...

I think I'm gonna try and build
a retaining wall with bamboo

and jab some bamboo in
and then weave bamboo across,

which is, like,
called wattle fencing,

so I should be able
to fairly quickly

get a passable trail

that I won't be able
to slide off

down the hill right there.

*

So I've dug it out now,
and it's a nice flat pathway

and a little bit of fence
to bounce off, should I stumble.

*

I got a lot done,

but, man, this is gonna
take a long time.

*

*

- So beautiful.

So happy to be here.

Be really cool
to go up there,

but it's also extremely steep.

Just kind of
have to wait and see.

First priority,
before I do any big trips,

is to get my shelter built.

*

Draw...

my circle.

*

I want to make what I call
"stacked debris walls,"

which means I need
some vertical supports,

and I need two sets of those,

so there's an inner wall
and an outer wall,

and then the space
in between gets filled

with debris for insulation.

*

And I've noticed that
there's a lot of

tall, thin saplings,

and I'm gonna try
weaving the walls together,

which I'm finding awesome,

because I like
to weave baskets.

*

I live in Edna Bay, Alaska,

and most recently,

my job has been
in construction.

I started in survival skills
at a really young age.

My strong suits
are in shelter and basketry.

I imagine I'd make something
like this when I'm on the trip.

It'd be use--very useful
to have a pack basket.

Doing something creative
makes me feel better,

and so I expect
I'll use that as a tool

while I'm out there to keep me

in the mind-set
of going the long haul.

I've always wanted
to spend up to a year

in the woods,
doing survival skills.

I feel like
the closest adventure

I've had is when I hiked

the Pacific Crest Trail
through Washington State,

and it was just over 500 miles.

I feel like that was a really
good precursor to this trip.

[ducks quacking]

I'm leaving my boyfriend
at home, Tyler.

I'm leaving his family.

I'm leaving them behind,

yet I have
all of their love and support.

*

What I want my experience to be
is that I am out there

loving and enjoying
as much time as I possibly can

and being the person
that never taps out.

I don't foresee there
being a point, like,

"Oh, I've experienced
everything

I want to experience,"

because part of what
I want to experience

is being that last person.

*

I want to create a home,

hopefully one
that is really strong

and will withstand
as long as I can be out there.

*

Strength test.

*

If it rains for days,

I can hole up in here
and stay dry.

*

I'll start
leaning up rafter poles

and gonna add
some small branches,

and then I'll put debris
on top of that.

*

Adding debris will also help
my shingling effort

'cause it'll be more things
for rain to catch on.

*

*

My walls are strong,

strong enough to climb on.

*

Home sweet home.

Oh, [bleep].

[dramatic music]

*

- My shelter roof collapsed.

It was really disappointing.

That's a lot of hard work

that I'm gonna
have to do again.

Really starting to feel
the energy drain.

*

Think I'm just in a low spot
right now

and hoping that it doesn't
last too long.

*

It seems like every time I...

Settle--settle in,

kind of feel really peaceful

and--and still,

I touch base
with that part of me

that's missing.

Missing Tyler...

and missing
being able to reach out

and call my family and friends.

*

And I just feel sad
that I can't share this

with them right now.

*

[sniffles]

The best I can do is...

reach out energetically,
spiritually,

and...pass my love on

and try to pass on
that I'm doing good.

Sad at the moment,

but...just to be expected

with being out here on my own.

[sniffles]

*

[birds chirping]

*

- Be nice to have some coffee.

Yeah, can I have
a large coffee with cream,

three packs of sweetener,

and, uh...

bacon, egg, and cheese
on a croissant,

two sour cream donuts...

Man, I can't wait
till that day again, phew.

I can tell I'm hungry
already today.

*

It's cool out,

and, uh, I know I need to fix
some of my lines.

I'm gonna go down
by the water--

so it's gonna be
even cooler down there--

and work this morning.

*

If I would catch a fish,
it's gonna be huge.

*

I have the lines out
by my camp,

and honestly, they never
really produce too much.

They get so crisscrossed
and tangled.

I don't know what it is.

*

Now, what's that?

There's something on this line.

There's definitely
a fish on here.

I can see him out there,
and he is tangled.

*

I'm hoping,

from working it a little bit
at different angles,

I can get him loosened up.

I'm a big guy.

You know, my body
needs a lot of calories

to trudge forward,

and they usually say,
in the survival world,

you know, the big guys
are the ones

that always tap out first
because their bodies

can't sustain itself
plus a workload.

Start working,
and my hunger pain's

hitting me a little bit.

It's like that
agitating hunger pain.

*

I can see where I'm hung up,

but, uh, now it's just
totally binded up.

*

I'm just gonna go in for it.

[serious music]

I'm a little hesitant
because, you know,

all you need is to go under
and get that cold water

in your ear,
and you're shot,

but I honestly
have never went this long

on this minimal food.

It's eating at me inside
that that fish is out there.

Little bit deeper
than I thought. Whew!

All right.

So let's do this.

*

[dramatic music]

*

- I really want to
get in there and get out.

I don't want to be in there
any longer than I need to.

*

*

[panting, gasps]

[grunts]

*

Holy camoly!

*

Oh!

Got my fish.

Man, oh, man,
talk about invigorating.

*

I'm almost happy
that I had to go through

the last couple days
with no food,

because it made me realize

that I can be out here
for days without food.

I just want to win so bad

that it almost
makes you feel sick.

*

There's nine people
between me and $500,000.

*

I'm gonna stay here

with every
last ounce of energy

and stamina that I have,

every last bit of

mental endurance that I have,

and I'm just not gonna
give up.

*

I just can't quit
and leave here.

That'll haunt me
the rest of my life.

*

- [mimicking punching noises]

Chicka-chicka-wah!
Chicka-chicka-ah!

Chick-chick-ah!
Ahh!

Whoo-wah!

Hoo, hoo, hoo, hah.

We'll do a little bit of this

and a little bit of that

and a little bit of this
and a little bit of that,

a little bit of this
and a little bit of that,

little bit of this,
a little bit of this,

and a little bit of this.

[vocalizing indistinctly]

You get the point.

We're gonna do some of that.

*

My shelter
is coming along great.

I'm super happy
with the progress.

We started on the hearth,
which is coming together.

We made hangers

so we can hang our clothes.

A cozy bed.

We also built a shelf.

Tonight, I'm moving in.

This is a momentous moment.

It's been a lot of hard work,

and I'm proud of the work
I've done,

and I'm gonna go get my stuff,

and I'm gonna organize.

I'm going to...

take some coals
from this fire

and move them
to my other fire

so I don't have to make
a new fire.

*

First fire in the new shelter.

I'm so grateful for life.

I'm grateful for a warm fire,

for a cozy cabin,
tiki lounge.

It feels good to be warm
inside a home.

I'm so happy.

A home is everything to me.

I'm a total creature of comfort,

and I love making home.

I'm a homesteader,
so having a permanent space

like this is...

it's everything.

*

*

- Oh, man.

It is, like,
so sunny out today,

like, over there

and across the way

and on the mountains.

I'm feeling so tired.

I need food.

I'm gonna head down,
check my fishing lines.

I just thought of something.

So the shadow there
in the distance,

that's--I think
that's the shadow

of the mountain behind me,

blocking the sun
from hitting me.

*

I will not be receiving sun

at my location
the entire time I'm here.

It works its way
around behind me,

shining on everything else.

Kind of bumming me out.

It's like sitting there
and watching a pepperoni pizza

at the other side of a crevasse,

and you can't get to it.

*

And it's getting cold.

[sighs]

*

But I can see the sun
right there.

*

Some parts of this
are so hard.

*

- All right,
so I noticed the sun

is coming through the tops
of the trees back there,

and it might even be
hitting on top of that hill

that crests over to where
I want to put my shelter,

so I'm hoping
there's a little glimpse

of the sun up there,

a spot where it's coming
through the trees,

and it's not just hitting
the tops of the trees,

and I might be able to soak up
some rays for a minute,

so instead of sitting around
and waiting for the food energy

to hit me, I'm packing up,

and I'm gonna head
right up there

and see
if I can't catch some rays.

*

I'm hoping I can get up there
before it slides away.

*

Oh, man.

This is a hike.

*

Come on,
just a little further.

*

Oh, there it is.

There it is.

There's the sun.

Oh, thank God.

*

It's the first time
I've been able to stand

in a ray of sunshine,

even the littlest one,
for days and days now.

*

That feels good.

[inhales deeply]

- I've been a vegetarian
against my will.

I'm curious how much weight
I'll actually lose.

- I've got a fox taking
the bait out of my snares.

Unless I get the fox,
I won't get the pigs.

- So there's a--
a duck out here,

and I'm gonna try to get
a head shot on him.

[slingshot thwacks]
Got it!

- This is the first day
I've really felt alone.

- I talk about getting
out of here like I'm in jail.

I don't really know how much
longer I can keep going.

[water sloshing]

*