Tsunami Killed My Bandmates (2020) - full transcript

The tsunami hit the Sunda Strait beaches,
leaving deep sorrow…

-…including the band Seventeen.
-The vocalist's wife…

-Devastating news from Seventeen…
-…dead in the tsunami disaster.

I never knew why God
let me live at that time.

Our dreams ended…

on December 22.

We'll never know…

our destiny and God's plan for us.

I'm now…

in a healing process.

Trying to heal myself



from the trauma

that's extremely

painful.

This film is dedicated to
the "Seventeen" family

and all the victims
of the Sunda Strait Tsunami Disaster

22 December 2018

DECEMBER 22, 2018
4 HOURS BEFORE THE TSUNAMI

-What's wrong?
-I swallowed some water.

Try to hold your breath.

-For 15 minutes so he'll be independent.
-Yes.

Just let him go.

Swimming? Let's swim with me…

HERMAN SEVENTEEN, GUITARIST
MARCH 17, 1982 - DECEMBER 22, 2018

BANI SEVENTEEN, BASSIST
MARCH 9, 1982 - DECEMBER 22, 2018



ANDI SEVENTEEN, DRUMMER
AUGUST 8, 1982 - DECEMBER 22, 2018

DYLAN SAHARA, WIFE OF IFAN SEVENTEEN
DECEMBER 23, 1992 - DECEMBER 22, 2018

OKI WIJAYA, SEVENTEEN ROAD MANAGER
OCTOBER 15, 1982 - DECEMBER 22, 2018

UJANG RUKMANA RUSTAM, SEVENTEEN CREW BASS
OCTOBER 23, 1978 - DECEMBER 22, 2018

JANUARY, 1999
YOGYAKARTA

Try to double me

And you will feel my loyalty

Try to lie to me

And you will understand
The honesty of my heart

Originally, Seventeen was formed

by a group of high school friends.

Herman, Andi, and I,

who all met at a school event.

As we were getting closer,
one day, Resa came to play with us.

Resa, the manager of Seventeen.

At first, I was not appointed
as a manager, but…

as a spokesperson.

I handled anything related to them.

From that point…

"Sa, please be our manager."

Well then, that was the beginning.

I started to help them.

To help them…

manage everything.

It felt like we had a solid team,
but was unannounced.

One day,

on January 17, 1999,

at 17:00 in front of my house,
I told them…

"Let's make a professional band
and name it 'Sweet Seventeen.'"

I knew Seventeen because of our rivalry.

A fair rivalry.

Doni was the bassist for Syanas.

I was a fan of his.

I followed Doni around.

At that time, I didn't have a home.
I lived in my friends' houses.

Doni then offered me to stay at his.

I lived there. I crashed in his house.

Back then, Seventeen frequently performed…

Performing in a café was like…

a 1 or 1,5-hour session,
then session break, and continue.

Seventeen frequently performed
during session breaks.

We often met

this Doni… Doni Tato.

Doni is Andi's older cousin.

Andi the drummer.

He suddenly offered himself.

"If you guys perform,
I will be the singer, tak rewangi."

Tak rewangi means "Let me help."

I think it was Andi's idea.

"Just leave it to my man."

"Doni knows how to sing."

Then we had some jamming sessions
and felt the chemistry between us.

They really had fun when I saw Seventeen…

performing in a café.

These kids were having fun.

That's why I decided to join them.

The first album was released in 2003.

The title was Bintang Terpilih.

That's crazy. We always performed
on the same stage.

I started to get so competitive.

If Seventeen created something,
then Endank Soekamti must too.

If Seventeen submitted a demo,
then we must too.

Soekamti performed in festivals,
and Seventeen did the same.

We kind of fought for stages.
It's a fair competition.

I found that their songs were interesting.

When I listened to them…

This is pop music…

but…

raw, edgy.

And the vocal at that time…

was not pop at all,

as the timbre was different.

I thought it was unique.

Also, the notation.

They had a unique notation.

We can recognize Seventeen's music
by their notation.

No one else had it.

They were in that kind of level.

That was amazing.

They used a lot of Major 7th chords.

At that time, we were…

Only my music was different,

while Seventeen and other bands
only brought pop genre.

But Seventeen stood out more among others

because they were geniuses
in making songs.

They can make their own genre,
the Seventeen genre.

Not every band can do that.

Others must struggle…

revise their songs before finding
the notation that is unique to them,

while Seventeen already had it.

When their songs are played,
we'd recognize them immediately.

We finally had an idea.
There was a song titled "Jibaku."

It was made for a duet.

Without further ado, I recommended,
"Let's invite Arie Untung."

Arie Untung then came
to the studio to sing.

Arie hasn't heard the song yet,
but I asked him to sing.

I gave him a little idea,
and which part he had to sing.

Finally, we did a promotion.

A promotion for about
three months or more.

Seventeen then started to become known.

The single was getting into charts on TV.

Some were famous TV programs.

That was a really cool thing.

Then finally,
we released the second album.

But we were no longer under Universal.

The second album was released
under Bravo Musik.

IT'S TIME TO PROVE IT TO HIM…

WHEN YOU BELIEVE IN YOUR HEART…

PREP NIGHT…

AND THE TIME HAS COME…

NEXT MORNING…
IT'S TIME TO PROVE LOVE!

We were recording in Yogyakarta.

Recording was done, everything was ready,

but suddenly, there was force majeure,

a big disaster in Yogyakarta

which forced us to stop doing promotion.

For almost two months,
Seventeen only volunteered

for the earthquake's victims.

Logistics distribution.

We absolutely forgot about music.

Then intrigues, polemics,
and problems arose.

We had to let Doni go.

At that time,

I felt as if I was no longer…

I was not supposed to be
in the music industry.

So, the only best choice was…

I had to…

leave Seventeen.

And when you know

I'm not the best for you

Let me go

Forget me

And don't you ever have any doubt

PAINTING THE DREAMS

So, what I…

When I joined Seventeen…

around the middle of 2006,

I was attending a college in Yogya.

There was a band auditioning
for a vocalist, so…

that was the first time I knew
that Seventeen had an audition.

Back then, in Yogya, there was…

a trend for painting jeans.

So, I painted my jeans
with a silhouette of Emily.

It's a girl. Then I wore sneakers
that I painted too.

And a Rolling Stones t-shirt.

It was special for a Seventeen audition.

So, I just wanted to perform
my best for Seventeen

because I would do an audition.

Okay, finally,

I did the audition.

Ifan's voice was the best in the audition.

After a discussion, Ifan was chosen.

Seventeen accepted me on November 6, 2006.

I received a call in the afternoon.

"Congratulations Fan, you've been chosen
as Seventeen's vocalist."

Oh, my God, that felt…

That felt amazing. I was like, "What?"

Just that, with Ifan joining us,

we should start everything from scratch
with a new vocalist.

Dendi and I started to look for…

new record label companies.

Rejections were all we got every time.

It was hard. Hard for…

It was Seventeen's first crisis, and…

Resa was still passionate
in managing Seventeen

to keep its existence
in the music industry.

We then got information about Danish

from Ema.

Fortunately, around 2007 or 2008…

we met Seventeen's management

that offered a demo of the band

which previously worked under a big label.

I saw that they had a new vocalist.

And I thought that
Ifan had selling points.

He is unique.

Therefore, we decided to work with them.

That's how it started.

We finally did a recording.

The single Selalu Mengalah was chosen.

Unexpectedly,
because of management's hard work,

Selalu Mengalah became a huge hit.

We were optimistic that
Selalu Mengalah would be successful.

It just needed to be heard,
and one of the things we did was

we bought lots of prepaid phone numbers
to request our own song on the radio.

That way, people could listen to it.

Actually, my first feeling

when I knew that was the song I wrote,

"Selalu Mengalah,"

was when I was queuing
in a supermarket's cashier.

I was queuing, and…

"Hey, that's my song!"

I mean, at that time,
Seventeen wasn't even on TV.

Seventeen wasn't on TV yet.

So, people didn't know who I was
and no one recognized me.

It was only the song.

But I was so nervous.
Did people know that was me?

That's how I felt. I was a bit embarrassed
while waiting in line.

"Maybe they knew?"

I mean, my feelings were mixed

between being too proud
and too embarrassed.

I really wanted to tell everybody
at that time,

"Hey, that's me singing,"
but it was too embarrassing.

The more we performed,
the more money we got.

We earned money.

We earned money…

and then we could…

afford to buy cell phones with cameras.

I remember it clearly that time.

That time…

we were looking at Nidji members' phones.

Nidji members' phones

were using soft and colorful cases.

We were looking at their phones like…

"God, their phones are so cool."

"Their phones are colorful."

Then we nudge each other.

We were like,
"What phone is that?" "No idea."

"So cool, right? So colorful, right?"

"And the soft cases." "Yes, very cool."

The others were like, "It's this series."

We didn't know about it all.

From that point,
our financial condition changed.

We were able to buy new phones
and new houses.

We were able to buy cars, all of us.

Those were bought with the money
we earned from Seventeen.

Our parents weren't rich.
They didn't have a lot of money

for us to spend carelessly
without being serious with our band,

so Seventeen was originally formed…

to support ourselves
and our families in the future.

And you can't judge a band
just by listening to their album.

You have to watch
their live performance on stage.

And when they performed on stage,

I said, "This band surely is ready."

What you see is all there is.

There were tens of thousands
of people watching.

Maybe it was like ten thousand people.

And they were singing together.

Drowned by their performance.

And then, it was decided that
this band needs to be supported.

This band has a massive number of fans

and cannot be left unnoticed.

When on stage, everyone was having fun.

I performed on the same stage with them

with Ifan as the vocalist.

They had huge energy on stage.

SEVENTEEN'S 10TH ANNIVERSARY CONCERT
9 FEBRUARY 2009

Seventeen's songs are good. I mean…

They're catchy, but not two-bit.

Their chord progression, their lyrics…

They are classy.

Both in Doni's era

and in Ifan's era…

I think

their pop music quality in Indonesia
was top-notch.

Seventeen in my opinion…

was a band with a strong character

and uniqueness.

Their songs, melodies, and lyrics
were very touching.

And Seventeen became one of the bands

that made people
love Indonesian songs more.

Especially the pop genre.

You can feel their passion in their songs.

When they were invited to events or such,
they really enjoyed them,

not just because of some factors
that they were told

or because it was their job.

They really did enjoy being on stage.

It was when…

Seventeen was on Music Everywhere
which was…

an experimental program

since NET TV was just airing

the Music Everywhere program

which was a TV show
that appreciated real music.

It embraced skill, arrangement,

ability, and so on.

I remember that on some of their videos,

they collaborated with other musicians.

I could really see that

Seventeen enjoyed their moments.

It's true that Seventeen at the time…

was very productive, that they were even
frequently invited to music festivals.

Because at that time…

the Malay-pop genre was very popular,

but they came up with pop-rock
which was quite different.

We were fully booked for shows.

In a month, we can say that

we only had three or four days off,
if we were lucky.

Continuing to the second album,

thank god, Jaga Selalu Hatimu
was also successful.

The song "Jaga Selalu Hatimu"

was written during a tour.

I remember we were on tour

in around 26 cities
and we finished all in 45 days.

The last stop was in West Java.

We were all ready to go home.

I was packing in my room,
feeling exhausted.

We hadn't gone home in 45 days,
and were very tired.

Suddenly, Herman sang…

You always keep your heart
When you're away from me

Wait for me to come back

I saw that Herman

had teary eyes.

He missed his child.

You always keep your heart

When you're away from me

Wait for me to come back

I love you always

I love you until the end

Close your eyes

That was one thing that we have predicted.

When Seventeen got famous, successful,

they would have full schedules,

radio interviews, promotions,
roadshows, tours.

We would have practice schedules.

While on tour,
we also had to make new songs, so…

The point of success had actually become…

a turning point.

A change in Seventeen.

Personal changes, actually.

The feeling when we were recording
Selalu Mengalah, the third album,

was no longer felt in the fourth album.

We were not that enthusiastic
to make new songs.

But the label company kept pushing us.

We got stuck.

We started acting up.

We started to get easily irritable.

Yes, our egos were rising.

That was probably the trigger…

that made Yudhi leave.

I understand that position.

We start as friends,

then one day, we become
professionals working together

and we might have different opinions.

Yudhi left in around 2012.

Yudhi said…

NO LONGER IN AGREEMENT,
SEVENTEEN GUITARIST LEAVES

…he actually just wanted
to have some time off from Seventeen

because he had some family issues
that needed to be taken care of

and some things he wanted to do

that made him unable to keep up
with future schedules.

It stimulates us to create new ideas.

So, what should we do?

There were five of us,
and now there are only four.

The problems Seventeen faced at the time…

pushed us…

to change our strategy.

From two guitarists, Herman and Yudhi,
to just one.

Ifan as vocalist, Andi as drummer,
Bani as bassist, and Herman as guitarist.

Therefore, we had to make
a new music formula for Seventeen.

MEASURING BALANCES

So…

since everything was new,

we wanted to make new changes,
new formulas.

The interval from Jaga Selalu Hatimu

to the album Dunia Yang Indah

to Sang Juara…

was three years.

A three-year gap.

We wanted to make
a new formula, new music.

In the fifth album…

we had a difficult situation.

There was a major label in Indonesia
that wanted to sign us

with an irresistible offer,
and no extra requirements.

Everything was fixed,

but with one stake…

that management
will be handled by the label.

A big dilemma. We were in a dilemma.

There were only four of us.

Yudhi had left,

and if we had to lose another member…

I thought…

I mean, we believe that our fortune…

is taken care of by God.

So, surprisingly…

Bani, Herman, Andi, and I

decided to…

refuse the contract.

Let it go. Just let it go.

We do feel there are
more important things than that,

which are brotherhood and friendship.

Maybe that was the reason.

The reason that…

made us communicate better
with each other.

We became more mature.

We became closer.

Before, we never really cared
about each other.

After that, in the airport…

we were waiting…

we were waiting for each other.

The four of us felt…

the romanticism in the band…

got stronger.

Two ices.

At that time,

our schedule wasn't as full as before,
so we had more time for family.

And the cool thing was…

when we weren't together,

we actually…

felt closer to each other.

We called each other's phones.

We asked each other,
"How are you doing, man?"

"Dude, what are you up to?"

We missed each other.

That was very heartwarming.

So, during that time,
we had more fun working.

It was very exciting to work with them.

It was like…

we were a real family.

We were very close. Everyone gave ideas.

I knew that they were already well-known.

That meant
I had to offer different things.

To offer them different materials.

I was quite happy that it was successful.

JULY, 2015
RECORDING THE SONG "KEMARIN"

Yesterday, you were still here

By chance, in 2015, I was…

I worked with Seventeen to produce

five of their songs.

Including "Kemarin."

Actually, "Kemarin" was…

quite an old song.

It was released in 2016.

And the music video was made…

in Korea, so we went there.

A typical man from tropical countries
freezes immediately upon arrival.

I complained to Herman.

I mean, in the beginning,
I complained to him.

"Herman, it's like a dead man's song."
"I don't want to sing it."

"This is a dead man's song."
And he was like…

He was giggling and said,
"It is a dead man's song."

I asked them, "Can we change the lyrics?"

I mean, it's like a dead man's song.

"Come on, Herman,
can you change the lyrics?"

He said, "No need, this is okay."

At the time, "Kemarin" was chosen

not solely by my own decision.

There was a team to select one
among the available songs.

They're actually the remaining ones.

That's all. We didn't think that
the song was a prayer.

Not at all.
Prayer is prayer, and song is song.

Alone here now

Looking for you

I don't know where

May you rest in peace

Forever

So actually,

at the end of 2018…

around November, if I'm not mistaken,

our members had a meeting

because in January 2019…

it would be Seventeen's 20th anniversary.

So, one of the big things that
we were planning to do

was to hold a solo concert again

in Tidore, North Maluku,
which was Herman's hometown.

But then, on the…

on December 22…

apparently…

destiny had its own plan.

09:58 WESTERN INDONESIAN TIME,
22 DECEMBER 2018, SUNDA STRAIT

YESTERDAY

We're in a meeting to form a committee
for swimming class.

4 HOURS BEFORE THE TSUNAMI

Go on, move your legs.

-What's wrong?
-I swallowed some water.

Try to hold your breath.

Say something.

Hello. Hi, Uncle.

-For 15 minutes so he'll be independent.
-Yes.

Just let him go.

Let's swim with me…

Okay, we're done with the games.

It was a fun way
to connect with the families.

-Right. To get closer.
-In every activity…

Yes. It's a rare moment for them.

They leave early, come back late,
and the kids are asleep…

09:17 PM WESTERN INDONESIAN TIME
DECEMBER 22, 2018

Show them!

Please give it up

for Andi on the drums!

The tsunami hit the Sunda Strait beaches,

-leaving deep sorrow
-God, forgive me.

for Seventeen band vocalist
Riefian Fajarsyah or Ifan.

Ifan lost all his band members
and his beloved wife,

Dylan Sahara…

…in Tanjung Lesung.

The band members were declared missing

after the tsunami hit Saturday night.

The tsunami hit the stage…

where we were performing.

With you

Alone here now

Looking for you

I don't know where

We never realized…

IFAN SEVENTEEN, VOCALIST
TSUNAMI VICTIM

…what happened at the time.

When I went into the water,
my first thought was,

"Doomsday is coming."

"Is it real or not?"

Because who would've even thought

that a tsunami would hit anyone
during a concert?

No one.

No one ever thought that…

a tsunami would hit
when we were performing.

No one.

We didn't think about anything.
We were enjoying the moment.

We thought everything would be all right.

We never thought that would happen.

We were just enjoying the moment.

I saw Krakatau behind us.

I saw some lava.

Resa, the manager, saw it too.

But my thoughts were, "Is this normal?"

DECEMBER 2018, SUNDA STRAIT
ANAK KRAKATAU ERUPTION

"There was no warning."
"It might be normal, common."

So, I just let it slide.

"Let's go for a sound check," I said.

It was afternoon, if I'm not mistaken.

We performed in the evening,
so we did it in the afternoon.

On the seashore.

Over there, it seems like…

the sky is dark.

We're in Tanjung Lesung!

DEWI SARTIKA, ANDI SEVENTEEN'S WIFE
TSUNAMI VICTIM

When the tsunami hit,
the hotel room was flooded.

"God, what is this?"

I could only pray,
and didn't know that it was a tsunami.

The room was chaotic, and I said,

"Let's go out."

I was… Oh, my god.

I was…

HOTEL ROOM (4 HOURS) AFTER TSUNAMI

I was planning to go to the venue.

But when I went out…

it was crowded, dark…

I thought, "This is really bad."

That night was terrifying.

I will never forget it.

People said the tsunami wasn't big.

I was there, in FOH.

I could clearly see the water.

People just saw the stage,

while I saw the water
above the rigging we set up.

The height was approximately 12 meters.

It was I who set up the stage.

With Oki, the late Oki.

People said it was this height.

It wasn't that high.
I don't care what they said!

I was angry.

If it was a small one,
my friends wouldn't be dead.

JAROT NUGROHO, SEVENTEEN CREW
TSUNAMI VICTIM

ZAKARIA, SEVENTEEN ADDITIONAL KEYBOARD
TSUNAMI VICTIM

Hold on.

When I was finally engulfed by the water…

…I collided with other people,

equipment, everything.

It was like I was in a blender.

Twisted around.

I couldn't stop praying,
and didn't think of anything else.

I kept praying while drowning.

After I realized that it was water,

I thought,

"I should go to the surface
and take a breath."

"I'll die if I don't."

It was chaotic, very chaotic.

Everyone was in panic,
they pulled each other.

Everyone.

I tried to hold onto anything
I could grasp.

I grasped people's heads,
bodies, and other stuff.

We said it in a harsh way.

Anyone who surfaced
will be grabbed by others.

I saw Andi's bass drum.

It was floating.

I held onto it, so that I could breathe.

I held onto it.

But, I kept drowning.

It turns out,
my feet were entangled in cables.

At that time, my hips were…

My hips were wrapped in iron.

So, I tried to remove it.

I let it go, and I got to the surface.

When the second wave hit,

before I got a chance to think,
it turned out

there was a counter wave
that pulled me into the sea.

It pulled me back,

and it was stronger.

The wave gathered dozens of people into…

the same location.

In the middle of the sea.

I wasn't ready.

We were still figuring out what happened.

Water got into my mouth,
and I was strangled.

Strangled by others from the back.

All I thought about was Ujang.

Ujang wouldn't survive this.

He couldn't swim.

I was always with Ujang
during the last three months.

THE LATE UJANG RUKMANA RUSTAM

Oh, my God…

At that time… Oh, my God.
I really saw a lot of people

begging for mercy,
they were really screaming, and…

Terrifying screams, asking for help.

Moreover…

a lot of people were praying and chanting,
"God is the greatest!"

I just surrendered myself to God,
seeing all of that stuff.

Maybe it was sakarat al-mawt.

"On the brink of death."

When I was drowning…

I was devastated like…

there was no hope.

I didn't have the will to stay alive.
Nothing came to mind.

I just surrendered myself to God.

I give up. I'm going to die.

When I was drowning, I was like…

Yesterday, the world looked so beautiful

Today, Seventeen is officially
17 years old!

And with you, I feel it all

Through this black-and-white life

With you

With you

SELALU MENGALAH, LELAKI HEBAT,
JALAN TERBAIK, HAL TERNIDAH

AWAKEN FROM THE DREAM

TWO WEEKS AFTER THE TSUNAMI
IFAN SEVENTEEN'S RESIDENCE

After the funeral procession…

After everything was finished…

The next few months, we lost contact.

We lost contact with Ifan.

No news from him at all.

Until one time…

Until one time, Ifan contacted me again.

-He called me.
-Good day.

Good day. Sa?

Yes, Fan.

Are you busy?

No, I'm at home.

Come here, please.

-To your house? Okay.
-Yeah.

-It's so…
-I'm on my way now.

Yeah. It's so…

It's so quiet here.

Okay, I'll be there soon.

Yes. Thank you, Sa.

Okay.

Good day.

Good day.

BANI SEVENTEEN'S FUNERAL
YOGYAKARTA

YUDHI RUS HARJANTO, SEVENTEEN EX-GUITARIST
BANI SEVENTEEN'S COUSIN

They're my family.

Just take me…

DONI SAPUTRO, SEVENTEEN EX-VOCALIST
ANDI SEVENTEEN'S COUSIN

…don't take Andi.

His children are still young.

ANDI SEVENTEEN'S FUNERAL
YOGYAKARTA

They still need…

a father to protect them, to lean on.

If we could swap places, I'm ready.

JANUARY, 2019
IFAN SEVENTEEN'S RESIDENCE

With all the news, we were still baffled.

We couldn't think clearly
about what happened.

Even at home, we were still wondering,

"What just happened yesterday?"

"Is this real?"

In a matter of seconds,

we lost everything.

Have some water, Ifan.

It happened so fast.

-I just… I couldn't take it.
-Yes, that fast.

I don't go to off-the-air shows
that often,

so, a meeting with Seventeen is a thing…

I look forward to.

Last time,

-it was two weeks before the disaster.
-Yes, two weeks before the disaster.

I'm sure when we're all alone…

When you guys are alone, it must be…

"I accept the marriage
to Dylan Sahara Putri,

daughter of Supriyanto,
with the said mahr, paid in full."

-Legitimate?
-Legitimate.

Praise be to God.

Dylan taught me how…

to…

love someone…

in a very sincere way.

Things I really miss from him are…

his hugs…

JULIANA MOECHTAR
HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S WIFE

…his nags,

the warmth in the family.

Now that I'm alone,

I can't get it anymore.

Bani's sincerity and honesty.

CINDRI WAHYUNI
BANI SEVENTEEN'S WIFE

He never changed from the first time
I knew him.

Never at all.

Bani was a good person. An honest person.

Shy and playful. It was always the same.

He had a big responsibility
for his family.

DEWI SARTIKA, ANDI SEVENTEEN'S WIFE
TSUNAMI VICTIM

Andi was a very funny person.

The house feels empty without him.

After he was gone, we realized…

how thoughtful he was,

how caring he was,

and how he was very close to the kids.

In the end, I wore shorts.

Why?

It turns out
I only brought a pair of trousers.

Good.

Only a pair.

Hello, we've arrived.
We're going to have breakfast first.

We're going to the airport in 20 minutes.

So how is it?

-Stay safe, Uncle.
-Always.

Is it a video?

Hopefully, next year, with this promotion,

our label, GP Records,
can send us to perform umrah.

-Yes.
-Yes.

It's a secret.

What should we do now?

Everyone is gone.

There are so many questions
coming to us, the management,

especially from the media.

"How will Seventeen be in the future?"

Our answer is, "It depends on Ifan,
whether he wants to sing again or not."

I still can't make up my mind.

I was devastated.
I don't even know what else to do.

I can't even tell…

what we'll do with Seventeen…

I don't know.

RUNNING AWAY FROM THE RAIN

One thing is for sure.
Seventeen has become one big family.

The members were not only
bound professionally,

but also, they had become a big family.

Wives of the members, their children.

The children and wives of the crew,
production team, management.

They had become a huge family

and indirectly,
had become our responsibility.

OKI WIJAYA'S FUNERAL
YOGYAKARTA

Yesterday, I was contacted by Rizal.

-Armada?
-Yes.

-Armada.
-So…

So, Armada made a song

and it fits.

Armada had been
the closest band to Seventeen.

Yeah.

To show our respect to them,

proceeds from the song
will be dedicated to their heirs too.

When are they planning to start recording?

I want to go to Pontianak first.

-And then…
-To meet your mother? Is your mother here?

-She's in Pontianak.
-Pontianak.

After that, I'll come back here.

Then we can arrange the schedule.

The schedule is for recording.

Ibel called as well.

-Is it Uli's song?
-Yes, it is.

I heard it once.

-I have talked to Uli.
-The project will probably be next month.

Uli is still traumatized.

As we move forward, we may find…

the best formula.

Maybe both projects will be…

a new beginning, so we'll see after this.

I was starting to get worn out

as my arms raised above my head.

Suddenly, I touched a box

that was firmly closed.

And then, I saw hope.

It gave me strength.

So, I swam to the surface.

Suddenly, I was able to catch my breath.

So, there were four people there already.

When I returned home, without Dylan…

it was quiet.

Very quiet.

And…

That's why I printed

these photos in large scale

and in large numbers.

This is one of them, there are few more.

It's one of my ways

to feel comfortable in my own home.

I have never…

I never tried to look for my wife

because she was always there for me.

And it brought me happiness.

Now, it's the other way around.

Whatever I do, I will never…

find Dylan again.

Oh, God.

The only thing we could do
was swim to the shore, so…

we turned the box together

and we swam straight

to the shore.

Finding the shore was hard
because the waves were very strong.

Besides,

we were exhausted,
our legs were cramped up,

and we were fully clothed,
wearing jeans and all that.

In the end, the four of us drowned again,

barfing, swallowing too much seawater.

We were out of breath and losing strength.

RECORDING
SINGLE "DEMI TUHAN AKU IKHLAS" FT. ARMADA

It's sad.

Oh, God.

Juliana Moechtar is continuing
Herman Sikumbang's music career.

She was reported to be very disappointed
with Ifan, Seventeen's vocalist.

APRIL, 2019
MAHAKARYA INC. OFFICE

Listen, if you can't do your job…

as a singer in the music industry

with all the schedules

actually shows

that you're not ready yet.

For casual singing, he might be able to.

During the process…

During his recovery period,

singing wasn't a problem.

But it will be different.

Singing professionally and casually
are two different things.

So…

Maybe…

You still need more time to cool down.

Right?

I don't think I need a break.

-I can do it.
-Yeah, but…

-It's just a process.
-You're not mentally prepared.

I actually don't want
to talk about it now.

That's okay. Come.

Can you please go out for a second?
Please.

Yesterday, you were still here

Let's get some fresh air.

At the shelter…

ANDI SEVENTEEN'S WIFE AND CHILDREN
AT THE EVACUATION SHELTER

…I just wished, prayed,
and waited for Andi to pick us up.

Until the next day, he didn't pick us up.

ANDI SEVENTEEN'S FUNERAL
YOGYAKARTA

WINDU ANDI DARMAWAN
BORN: 08-08-1982, DIED: 24-12-2018

"Uli," they said.

"Herman is no longer with us."

After I came back to my senses,
I said, "No, you're kidding, right?"

"It's true," they said.

Soon, it was crowded.

The whole family was there,
and the house was cramped.

The reporters were there too.

I could only scream as hard as I could.

HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S FUNERAL
TIDORE, NORTH MALUKU

I didn't want to sleep in our room.

It's like…

my heart felt broken.

I see clothes, it brings back memories.

Even going to the bathroom…

"This is his toothbrush,"
something like that.

"This is his towel." I still…

AYAM BAKAR PENYET

I'd like to order.

-I'll have fried fish.
-Sure.

-You have iced sweet tea?
-We only have lemonade.

Okay, that's fine. Do you want some?

-No, thank you.
-No?

Just one.

Many people said that
Seventeen should just quit.

Their fate was sealed.

Ifan also gets traumatized
when listening to Seventeen's songs.

I also know that every time

Ifan listens to "Kemarin," it makes…

his heart crumble.

Sometimes, people…

After the disaster, I don't know why…

I mean, it happens a lot.

People sing to "Kemarin"

or they still want me to sing it.

I have no idea…

Maybe they just love the song, but…

deep down…

it hurts me a lot.

It's really painful.

THE REAL CONSCIOUSNESS

One minute passed.
Three minutes, five minutes passed.

It was suddenly very quiet
in the middle of the sea.

There was no sound at all.

When I looked around,
corpses were everywhere.

All of them.

At first, we were relieved and confident
that we could get to the shore…

but it turns out, it was impossible
to fight the strong waves.

We were drifting around with the waves…

We were controlled by the waves.
If it drifted to the shore, then it did.

Actually, the movement of our feet
trying to swim around

was actually us deceiving ourselves

into thinking that we were close to shore
when in fact it was still far away.

MAY, 2019
MAHAKARYA INC. OFFICE

I think…

I need a break.

Wait.

The camera is on. Is it okay?

It's okay. It's better to keep rolling.

Well, I mean…

I was forcing myself.

Truly, and I feel it. I'm tired.

Wait, you mean a break

like completely stopping singing
or temporarily cutting off the schedule?

Actually, I don't know.

Well…

I want to start a sarong business.

I met an old friend from Pontianak.

He lives in Bandung,
he has a hijab business, and…

we were discussing.

He knows fabrics well.
Especially in Bandung.

I want to start it
and get the fabrics there.

Then…

I want to perform umrah
before Eid Al-Fitr.

After Eid, I'll go to Ponorogo
to visit Dylan's grave.

Although, actually I…

Yesterday…

I met Luki Govinda, and then…

He's a close friend of David.

I learned from Luki that David,
during the night of the disaster,

made a song for Seventeen.

-Have you listened to the song?
-Not yet.

Maybe not.

If that's…

what you have decided, it's okay.

At first, I wanted to say that

I wanted to give the song

to motivate, to support.

But I think…

he was in a hectic condition,
and he still had mixed feelings.

We didn't contact each other.

No follow-ups.

So, yeah…

Nothing happened.

There was really nobody who could save us.

Except God the Almighty.

In Islam, there is something
called durood.

So we did it, the four of us.

We never stopped reciting it.
While we cried.

While we vomited.

We almost fainted. Our legs cramped up.

After the disaster…

I had the intention to perform umrah

for my mental recovery.

I want to pray as much as possible.

Ask for forgiveness.

Be grateful.

I want to pour out all my emotions.

MAY, 2019
IFAN PERFORMS UMRAH

I met Virgoun there accidentally.

It was the first time I met him
after the disaster, and it was pleasant.

We shared stories and discussed
because I was so lost.

Actually, I felt like I didn't want
to play in a band anymore.

I no longer wanted to make music or sing.

Until Virgoun told me,

"You must come back and sing, my brother."

"It doesn't matter
if you do it solo or in a band,

but you have to sing

because you can't give up
all the songs that you've written."

"Think about the heirs."

"Think of the children of the crew too."
"That's why you have to keep singing."

EID AL FITR 2019, PONOROGO, EAST JAVA
DYLAN'S PARENTS' RESIDENCE

He left before night fell.

He asked me to take him.
He never did that before.

He touched my tummy and said,
"Please take care of my children."

I was expecting three months in.

"Please take care of my children."
"Stay healthy."

"Don't scold our first child."

Because sometimes, I scold her at home.

BIBIT AGNI WIGATI
BANI SEVENTEEN'S AUNT

Just the way he was.

He was humble.

Like, after dinner, he did his own dishes.

He did it immediately.

And he wasn't a picky eater.

Even my children said,

"Bani is a celebrity, famous, and rich,

but he's still the same."

NANDA PUTRI
ANDI SEVENTEEN'S SISTER

Andi was very good…

at reciting the Qur'an.

He won a Qur'an recital competition
in his hometown district, Pakualaman.

When he was ten years old,

he completed the Qur'an
when he was still in elementary school.

I still can't believe the disaster.

I still can't believe it.
I feel like they're still in Jakarta,

I'm in Yogya,
and we're just not seeing each other.

I don't know how long
it's going to be like this.

Andi's wishes…

because we planned
to move to the Bekasi area,

and the house was ready for us to live in…

"When we live in Bekasi later…

we'll make vlogs."

Yes, she's daydreaming.

Maybe God loved Andi more.

Even though he said
he wanted to raise our children…

until they grow up,
even until they grow old…

And now I feel it.

The feeling of losing a husband.

He was the father of our children.

It's not just losing a lover, a friend,

but the father of my children.

I love Daddy.

HAFUZA, HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S SON
HERMAN'S GRAVE, TIDORE

Hello. Good day…

Where are you, Sa?

I'm in Ponorogo.

Nothing. I just miss them all.

I really miss them.

I….

can't imagine…

seeing…

Dewi, Uli…

Cindri, the wives of our members,

celebrating Eid by themselves.

It's sad.

Yeah.

Well, I mean usually on Eid,

we call each other, right?

Yeah.

What should I do, Sa? I mean…

I want…

what they have made

and what they have done

to still be useful at the very least,

and still support their children.

That's what I want.

Yes, I understand.

Okay, then.

Yes, well, I'm going…

I'm going back to Jakarta
early in the morning.

Let's meet, okay?

Yeah. I'll catch you later.

Yes.

Thanks, Sa.

Please forgive all my misgivings.

Good day to you.

Seeing Seventeen as public figures
at that time

was beyond my expectation because…

my expectation of a public figure

was something like rock stars.

But, all of those expectations were gone.

Nobody's arrogant, I mean…

they're friendly.

Easygoing.

Like a family.

What could I say? Humble.

I believe most people who know them
would say so.

Ever since we were still in Yogya,
I've known them as humble guys.

Even until the last time we met,

I didn't see any kind
of star syndrome from them.

They shared the same kind of emotion.

Facing ups and downs together.

Last year, Bani was still here,
washing dishes, eating suhoor together.

Now that he's gone, I'm truly sad.

There's his striped t-shirt.

I wore it.

I wore it, and my child asked,
"What is it, Mom?"

"I miss Bani," I said.

When Andi was still in school…

in his spare time,

he joined our relatives
in playing gigs at cafés.

And my father asked him,

"Do you want to study or play music?

If you choose music,
I'll buy you a drum set.

And you'll stop going to school.

If you choose to study, then focus on it."

Fortunately, his body was found.

We can…

bury him properly.

And we can visit his grave.

ANDI SEVENTEEN'S GRAVE
YOGYAKARTA

Cheesy.

Herman was…

I think he was a quiet person, but…

seeing from…

what he had done for Seventeen,
he really was a great songwriter.

Most of Seventeen's songs
were written by Herman.

And I think…

I saw Herman as a romanticist

and a mysterious guy.

He rarely talked.

He could make songs quickly

and created good tunes in his own style.

He had compassion.

When Mt. Merapi erupted,
we held a charity in Yogya.

All Seventeen members donated their stuff.

Herman donated his first guitar.

His very first guitar
from their first recording

was donated.

Herman said, "I'll get a new one someday."

"It's okay, I'll buy a new one."

And…

the last time he went to the room,
he asked, "Are you really not coming?"

I said, "No, honey."
He said, "All right, then."

And I still remember
his last gaze from the door.

I didn't take him downstairs.

He opened the door while looking back.

"An, I'm leaving."

"Yes, be careful."

Then he closed the door.

It's still deeply etched in my mind,
his stare when he closed the door.

While smiling.

I can't get it off my mind.

-You said you wanted to use the soft case.
-This is the soft case.

Ujang, Bendot.

What are you doing?

Unloading stuff.

DEWI PUSPITASARI
UJANG SEVENTEEN'S WIFE

His unfulfilled wish until now was

to send his parents to perform umrah.

I cry every time I see his picture.

I cried so hard.

He said he was going to visit,
have a cup of coffee,

and grill some fish.

Now we can't do it anymore.

I miss him so bad.

I rarely meet him, and when we met…

I have to take him to his grave.

He ordered something.

Two big boxes…

of toys for his child…

who was having a birthday on December 9th.

He was unable to buy it

on that date.

He bought them without me knowing.

He didn't say anything.

I was surprised

because he never bought
that big and that many toys

and I was surprised.

Are those the last gifts from him?

Why so many?

About five to ten minutes
after the boxes arrived,

my parents-in-law called me…

saying that

they found Ujang.

"They found him."

Then I asked,

"What do you mean?"

"They found him. Be strong."

Oh, God, he really left me.

-What's this rod for?
-For fishing, not for you.

Let me just throw this away.

Oki was…

He was like…

As a roadie…

Among…

other roadies I know,

he was the most…

caring toward the production crew,
and also the members.

We were late on stage
because we were watching Mahabharata.

That was Oki.

Don't want to miss the bus again?
What are you going to take?

NOVA YANTI
OKI SEVENTEEN'S WIFE

One month…

One month before,
usually before he went to work,

he kissed my forehead or my hand.

OKI WIJAYA, BORN: 15 OCTOBER 1982,
DIED: 23 DECEMBER 2018

One month before the disaster,

he always kissed me.

Every time he leaves for work.

And that was in public places,
which he didn't usually do.

-Let's go to the beach!
-Let's go to the beach!

I was in the sea for hours.

In the sea, without any help…

because our position was hard to reach.

In the middle of the sea,
where we only saw the sky…

and the sea.

The four of us were holding onto a box

with lots of bodies around us.

Until we saw a spark of light.

And it was a security guard
on the shore, but it was…

far away.

So far away.

The land was very far.
Apparently, we were swept so far away.

HARMONY

I heard the news in the United States.

I was in Los Angeles
and it became viral, even in the US.

The people I met in the elevator,
the receptionist.

Since they knew I was from Indonesia,

they asked about it,
and they saw the video.

And it was very sad

because we had a relationship
with Seventeen for quite a while.

We also used Seventeen's song

as a theme song for a Ramadan program.

I was also in a band

and under the same management, Mahakarya.

If you asked about
what kind of relationship we had,

it can't be explained easily.

We worked together in many ways
and for a long time.

So, that tragedy was shocking.

The first one I remember was Dendi.

He's the first one.

JUNE, 2019 (6 MONTHS AFTER THE TSUNAMI)
IFAN'S TRIP FROM PONOROGO TO JAKARTA

Now, I'm more…

I pray to meet my husband. I pray…

I hope to die peacefully.

I pray that…

may he be released from all the torment.

After that, thank God,
everything went smoothly.

At that time, I was able to let him go.

I've seen his figure.

I've seen his body,
and the funeral went smoothly.

I was at ease after that.

God willing, he died in peace.

Maybe this is…

the best for us.

That was his fate.

God willing, we can accept this.

We accept it for God.

We tried to use the waves
to get closer to the shore.

From reef to reef.

Then, we reached the shore
and three security guards helped us.

They were the ones
who were holding the flashlight.

After around…

three months,

suddenly, at dawn…

Ifan called me at 3:00 a.m.

Then I said…

actually, I made a song when it happened.

It was hard because I didn't want it

to remind him of his grief.

I just want him to be optimistic
when he hears it.

I wish the song could bring
good things that would motivate him.

RECORDING
SINGLE "MASIH HARUS DI SINI"

Hold my heart

Leave your light

Am I paralyzed?

I can't move

Time doesn't seem to wait

I can't fight that

Forever you go without me

Maybe I should still be here

DYLAN SAHARA'S GRAVE
PONOROGO, EAST JAVA

I still have my calling

Until one day, my breath stops

I'll find you on my way home

HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S FUNERAL
TIDORE, NORTH MALUKU

I hope we can be together forever.

Calm your soul

JAKARTA, JULY 2019
ANDI'S FAMILY MOVES TO YOGYAKARTA

Let go of my tiredness

Wherever I am

ANDI SEVENTEEN'S FUNERAL
YOGYAKARTA

You are still in my heart

The feeling you gave me

Will not be lost in time

Take all my longing with you

Maybe I should still be here

JUNE 2019
BANI SEVENTEEN'S SECOND WAS BORN

I still have my calling

Until one day, my breath stops

I'll find you

On my way home

TIDORE, AUGUST 2019
HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S PARENTS' RESIDENCE

SYAHRIL SIKUMBANG
HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S FATHER

Maybe I should still be here

MURNI MUHAMMAD
HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S MOTHER

I still have my calling

Until one day, my breath stops

I'll find you

HERMAN SEVENTEEN'S GRAVE
TIDORE, NORTH MALUKU

On my way home

I'll find you

On my way

Home

Subtitle translation by:
Harry Hermawan, Hikmat Gumilar