Trixie Mattel: Moving Parts (2019) - full transcript

- [thunder rumbling]
- [rain pattering]

Oh, come here, Nick. Look!

You wanna know how gay I was?

This is me meeting Jessica Rabbit.

That's me being really gay.

This is me at the Packer Hall of Fame.

I'm kneeling with pom-poms.

I mean... [laughing]
There was no hope for me.

Oh, this is me wearing
my grandma's high heels...

and wearing scrunchies as garters.

Which means I not only was gay,
I wanted to be like a slut.



[whispering] I mean, that's gay.

Oh, and there's me looking
at my valentines.

[announcer] Ladies and gentlemen,
welcome to the stage, Trixie Mattel!

- [crowd cheering]
- ["Kitty Girl" by RuPaul plays]

♪ In the dis-, in the dis-
In the dis-, in the dis- ♪

♪ Hey, hey, hey ♪

♪ Steppin' to the plate
I'm Trixie Mattel ♪

♪ Got my name in the game
Better learn it well ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm the MVP
Heading up to bat ♪

♪ And I'll go to third base
But I'd never tell that ♪

♪ I got bleach
In the blond like Pamela ♪

♪ And I'm steppin' out the box
Like Shangela ♪

♪ I got long thick legs, a tarantula! ♪

♪ And if you call me kitty girl,
I can handle you, uh! ♪



♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ When you walk down the street ♪

♪ Steppin' to the beat ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

[music continues]

♪ Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey ♪

♪ Hey, kitty, kitty ♪

♪ Hey, ki-kitty, kitty ♪

♪ Hey, kitty, kitty girl ♪

♪ Woah, oh, oh ♪

♪ Keep on dreaming
Because dreams come true ♪

♪ No matter what you do
Keep your head up, boo ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

[cheering and applause]

[autoharp music plays]

I think when I lip-sync,
you guys can tell

that I'm a folk musician.

[applause and autoharp
music continues]

[Trixie] My name is Trixie Mattel

and I am a comedian and musician
who dresses like this. [laughing]

[interviewer] Do you feel like
you're taken seriously as a performer?

[laughing] Um...
Well, I think, base level,

drag is not taken seriously
by anyone, even lovers of drag.

But I think as far as...

It's sort of like, you can be
very serious about being funny,

and I'm very serious about, like, drag.

[RuPaul's Drag Race opening theme]

['50s beach music plays]

Walked in number seven
on Season Seven.

Look at that.

Two fucking $40 wigs pinned together.

[Max] Oh... my goodness.

[Trixie] Drag queens always say,
"Paint for the back row."

I paint for the check-cashing place...

Listen to my accent!

...down the street.

[Minnesota accent]
I paint for the back row.

The back row.

Do you ever go to the back row?

My family's Native American
and we grew up very, very poor.

But Trixie, she has it all.

The biggest problem in her life
is what to wear the next day.

- [judge] You are not standing out for me.
- Oh, God.

[judge] And I want to see
some identity and some flavor

and I'm not getting that from you yet.

[Michelle Visage] If you're
gonna be the comedy queen,

you gotta go all the way.

Trixie Mattel,
you are an amazing queen.

Keep on dreamin'
and keep 'em laughing.

Now, sashay away.

Thank you.

- [sad music plays]
- [Trixie] So triggered.

[light applause]

Wow.

Bye!

No corset.

[RuPaul] Con-drag-ulations, ladies.

And remember,

- if you can't love yourself...
- [Trixie] Ugh!

[RuPaul] ...then how in the hell
are you gonna love somebody else?

- Nick, I don't wanna watch this.
- [RuPaul] Can I get an amen up in here?

- [music plays]
- [drag contestants] Amen!

[Trixie] I did a really shitty job
the first time on Drag Race.

I never won anything
and I went home.

When a drag queen is performing
and they, like,

believe in what they're doing,

you can't tell them that
they're not legitimately

the most beautiful,
famous person in the world.

And I think at a drag show especially,

that is what the audience is there to see.

They're there to see
this delusional confidence.

Oh, God, my first drag was...
Actually, it was a pink waitress outfit

with a brown beehive.

A brown beehive.

I know. [exclaims in disgust]

And I remember, literally, being
in a University of Milwaukee T-shirt

with a mop-top of hair,
and standing in the mirror in my bathroom

and looking at my fishnet leg
with the heel and being like,

"I'm the most beautiful woman
in the world!"

[shower running]

It's my last pair of clean underwear.

I hope you guys like 'em.

You're gonna see 'em
for a few days. [chuckling]

[guitar tuning]

My grandpa used to be like,
"If you can't tune the guitar

without a tuner,
you have no business playing it."

Which I kinda think is true.

[guitar music plays]

At 15, I moved in
with my grandparents.

And my grandpa was a country musician
who played guitar,

so that's how I got really interested
in music when I was like 13 or 14.

Sounds good.

It never occurred to me
to play music in drag,

because even though I've been
playing guitar, and singing,

and writing music for like 15 years,
it just didn't...

It didn't seem like
it would fit with this.

It was like, why would
Malibu Barbie just sing country music?

It doesn't make sense.

And so then I started shifting it
more like a Woodstock-Dolly Parton,

sort of, Emmylou Harris,
June Carter Cash.

- Okay.
- [man] You first need...

[Trixie] Someday if I quit drag,
I would love to write songs

for other people and just, like,
live in the woods somewhere

and write songs and send 'em out
and have people buy 'em.

And just sit around and... jerk off.

A one, two, three and...

["Little Sister" by Trixie Mattel plays]

♪ Tell me little dear
If you only lived here ♪

♪ Did you really ever live at all ♪

♪ 'Cause you'd be amazed
In the summer how the days ♪

♪ Of the spring turn into fall ♪

♪ Just listen to your brother ♪

♪ You can run in the cover
Of the night sky when it falls ♪

♪ I know that you think
That you're growing ♪

♪ But you're just tall ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

♪ Oooh-ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

[Trixie] Oh, I gotta show you guys
the album art, by the way.

You guys are gonna shit.

- [laughs]
- [man] Sweet.

[Trixie] Look at this Bob Ross shit.

[laughter]

But right now, it's not edited,
so we're kinda conjoined twins.

I like that this curtain looks
like they're playing at

- a shitty, like, talent show at a VFW.
- [man 1] Or a high school, yeah.

- [man 2] High school auditorium.
- Yeah, right.

[Trixie] Hi.

- Brian?
- [driver] Yeah.

[Trixie] Well, thank you for helping.

I wanted to be a musician and then
like two years into studying voice,

I was concerned that it wasn't helping me
become a better performer.

So then I switched to musical theater.

You know, when I'm on stage,
it's my own thoughts and feelings

and then Trixie's sort of
like the crash dummy.

I can put it all on her
and then let it all be a joke

and then it's a lot...
It's a lot easier, you know.

RuPaul always says he's an introvert
dressed up like an extrovert.

And I always feel like that too, you know.

In real life, when there's no cameras
or I'm not in drag or anything,

I like having a few very close friends
that I take really good care of.

Like I'm very close with Katya.

You know, we work together
and we're close, close friends.

Hi, everyone.
It's me, Trixie Mattel.

And I'm Katya. Welcome to...

[both] Unh...

The show where we
talk about... whatever.

And in whatever way we want to.

- Because it's not your show.
- It's ours.

[intro music plays]

Yeah.

I have to tell you,
when I met you on Drag Race,

I walked up to you
and the first thing I thought was,

"Her costume's so cool.
Her teeth are so big and bright."

- And I thought you looked really pretty.
- Thank you.

Well, first of all, I thought
you were part of the crew.

- [laughs] Everyone did!
- [Katya] When you de-drag...

You're on the Internet now, people.

We're getting real. [cackles]

[Trixie] We became friends on the phone
after Drag Race

and then we started working together,
talking together.

I mean, our friendship
really grew on camera, so.

What? What? What? What?

Nothing, I just like you.

[cackling]

["Best Friend"
by Harry Nilsson plays]

[Trixie] It worked for the first
five or six, ten episodes...

and then when we figured out
what we were doing, then it really worked.

[Katya] Ooh.

The show where we talk
about whatever we want.

[spooky voice] 'Cause it's our show.

- And not yours.
- Halloween edition.

[evil laughter]

[Trixie] And then, like, 35 episodes in,
World of Wonder was like,

"We think your show
would be a good TV show,"

and Katya and I were like...
"Yeah, we'll believe it when we see it."

[rock introduction music to
The Trixie & Katya Show plays]

[laughing]

What about this?
"Hey, guys, I got a joke for you.

What did I say after my dad
fucked me for 17 years?

- Nothing."
- [screams and laughs]

- [man] Atta girl.
- Atta girl.

[Trixie] I know.

Do you know that you're
probably one of the best comedy writers

working in Los Angeles right now?

- [laughing]
- It's not a joke.

Don't, you'll make
my Invisalign fall out.

- I'm not joking.
- [Fena] You're wearing Invisalign.

Thank you. I think that's funny.

Thank you.

You're like... No, I take it...
I appreciate it.

I don't know how to take a compliment.

[Katya] Apparently, 'cause you laugh.

Well... I just... I thank you.

- [Katya] Okay, yeah.
- [stammers] I think my jokes are funny.

We just flipped.
I don't do comedy.

You know I actually never do comedy.

I'm not a comedian, at all.

I think you're a natural comedian.

No, I'm not a comedian.

I do not tr... What I say
sounds funny 'cause I'm nuts.

You are a co-me-dian.

I think we just attack differently.

No! You're a comedian.

- I set up the obstacle course...
- [Katya] You... No.

- ...and then run it.
- Momma, no.

Let me break it down for you.

- I'm seven years older than you...
- Almost eight.

[laughter]

[Fena] How's the new album?

[Trixie] It's good. I think the songs
are better than the other one.

- [Fena] Well, couldn't get much worse!
- [Trixie cackles]

[background chatter]

Can I give you your present here...

- later?
- What is it?

- It's the doll.
- [gasps] You brought it.

The doll. [dramatically] The doll!

[Trixie] Oh... what!

Whoa.

And look at the little Katya.

Oh, my God. [laughing]

[Katya] "My dearest, darling doll.

You've grown so very tall.

And now it's perfectly clear

who is now Roxxxy."

"So I'll keep it foxy
at The Troxy without Oxy

'cause two in one is greater
than none."

[Katya] The Troxy is the venue in London

I'm doing the one-woman show at,
and Oxy's OxyContin.

Drugs. Drugs.

Oh, so you're saying
I'm gonna keep it together

at my show without chemicals...

'Cause two in one
is greater than none.

- And that's us.
- Yeah!

- That's very sweet.
- Thank you!

I wrote it.

I'm not sure
if writing's for you, but...

[Katya cackles]

But the sentiment is really nice.

- [Trixie] How are you feeling?
- [Katya] I don't know.

I need to laugh, not cry.

[Trixie] Listen, you know what would
make you be in a great mood?

Doing tons of drugs, and you're not.

So you're a wonderful legend.

Are you happier going
to those stupid meetings

or do you hate them
with every part of your being?

No,
I just can't stop crying in them.

Oh.

I go and have a...
I just cry from start to finish.

Maybe that's not bad though.

No, it is good.
It's just team too much.

Yeah.

It's emotionally exhausting.

And then I can't do work after that,
do you know what I mean?

Like, I'm going to literally just
reach for speed which is euphoria.

- Yeah... totally.
- And medicate myself, momma.

- Yeah.
- It's not good.

Yeah.

[Katya exclaiming]

Yeah? Oh, thank you.

[Trixie] "Oh, thank you."

[background chatter]

[Katya] Trixie, what is your
ETA for being done?

- Five.
- [claps]

But if you're not ready in five,
it's not like gonna ruin my life.

[Katya] Can you be more
specific about how much time

you think I should have?

[Trixie] I would like you
to be ready in five.

I think that I'm the most beautiful
famous person in the world.

Do you care to weigh in on that, Fena?

[Fena] "Famous"?

Hey, we all have butts,
which makes butts

- a billion-dollar industry.
- That's right.

So let's review some butt-oriented
products in a bit we call

Two Thumbs Up... Your Butt?

First up,
we have the Butt Out II.

Let me tell you what this is.

- I think I know.
- What?

This is something
to retrieve a condom from the anus.

- [cackles]
- It's not?

Who uses a condom?

And that was "I Wanna Sext You Up."

[Valley girl voice] Oh, my God.

[director] We have a little...
we have some gas left to do...

Go, go!

- [director] Go...
- Please. Yes.

- [Darren] Let's do it.
- Please. I'm sorry to yell...

- I'm sorry to yell.
- [director] So this is a game called

Trump or Troll.

- You can yell.
- Okay, good. Yeah, let's go.

[director] Basically,
there are Tweets and...

- I will not do that.
- [director] Okay.

- Go take a break.
- Okay.

I will take
this section on myself.

[Katya whispering] I'm so sorry, Thairin.
I'm sorry.

[Trixie] Oh, it's like fully white.

Yeah, white-tipped mascara.

I... Please stop.

Katya, when I say
"Who's a superstar?" You say, "I am."

Who's a superstar?

- [Katya] I am.
- [Trixie] See?

You said it so angry.

- [angrily] Drag is fierce and fun.
- [Trixie cackles]

Girl, you look beautiful...
if that matters.

[background chatter]

[Trixie] Is my headband okay?
Yeah, right?

Wait, oh,
can I ask you a question that's...

Are we allowed to say
whatever we want?

[man] Yeah. Always.

I will... The only word that...
But the only thing is,

I need to know what is off the table
in terms of my...

I cannot... I'm having a hard time
restraining myself

because I don't wanna lose touch
with reality because

I had a psychotic break,
and it's really fucking stressing me out.

I am absolutely about to unravel
and that's not funny to me.

I'm on the verge of crying
in every fucking moment

because I need to go
to a meeting and I can't,

and I need to quit this show,
but I won't do it,

- because she's my friend...
- [Trixie] Um, let's just take a break.

[man] Absolutely. So anything you need,
you just tell us.

Yeah... yeah, thank you.

[background chatter]

[Katya] I'm exhausted!

All right.

[Trixie] She can just say,
"I need a break" whenever she wants.

We're not like... We're not...

I don't think she likes to talk to me.

I'm gonna go talk to her.

[Katya] I just can't talk right now.

And it's nothing personal.

I don't understand what it is.

[Trixie] I can't tell what's helpful.

[Katya] I don't know what's helpful,
all I know is that...

I should be in rehab.

It's just stressful.

- I don't think it's help...
- [man] How are you?

I'm okay except... [nervous laughter]
You know, I try not to be...

You know, it's our whole...
It's our whole career.

But, um, you know.

Nobody's gonna want
to see me without her.

So... it's the whole point, is that...

I just want it to be fun.
It used to be a lot more fun.

It's so hard to go in there
and be funny when it's like...

I can see in her irises
that she's panicking and wants to leave,

do you know what I mean?

But I did not get in full drag,
and a corset, and nails

for somebody to walk in there and leave.

This is me.

Look, right, this is Katya.

She's very acrobatic, though.

She can do this.

I remember being young
and looking at their hair,

these McDonald's Barbies, and I thought

the way that the hair
was solid plastic was the prettiest...

thing in the world.

Like, it's more like a helmet.

It's not real hair.

I just wanted to be more patient.

And then the more angry I got,
the more I felt bad that I was like, "Ugh.

She's going through a horrible time
and all I am is angry."

In this situation, it's selfish
to be angry at someone

when it's not their fault.

It's like... she does not
wanna be riding this

rollercoaster she's on, but...

You know, today was scary.
It was like, really scary.

She's never been like that.

It's gonna really hurt...
You know, it's gonna hurt us both.

It's gonna hurt us both individually,

and it's probably gonna
ruin our friendship.

[sighs]

[guitar music plays]

God fucking damn it.

Well, what does
a good friend do in this situation?

Stop going to work completely,
you know what I mean?

I want people to...
think of me as Trixie,

and not "Trixie and Katya" now because...

I think I have a lot of value
as a performer even without

what was originally advertised.

[RuPaul reading]

Are you ready to go for the gold?

My most legendary queens return
to battle for the crown.

It's All-Star season!

Snatching trophies? [laughing]

I am a trophy. Bring it!

RuPaul's Drag Race All Stars.

[Trixie] To me, I felt like
I had nothing to lose because

I didn't do good the first time.

I have nothing to live up to.

But my career, I feel like
I have to live up to that,

so even though I had
no Drag Race pressure,

I feel like the fans I have
I really had to try and do a good job

so they weren't disappointed in me.

I'm looking for a friend.

Where is my friend?

It's been a hard week.

I'm just here to have a good time.
This press tour

should be like the easiest
part of the week, I think.

I mean, I'm bringing new eyelashes out
so people can't say I didn't try.

I'm also hoping in this press tour
nobody asks about Katya,

'cause I don't have an answer for them.

[knock on door]

- [doorbell ringing]
- [gasps]

[Southern accent] There's a transgender
in the bathroom!

[gasping]

[whispering] Fucking weirdo.

[Trixie] Well, I don't wanna make
people uncomfortable.

I was always interested in...
like remember in the '90s,

remember those Maury Povich
kinda shows where it's like...

[mimicking Maury Povich] "You have
to guess if it's a man or a woman."

And obviously, it's horrible,
but I remember being little

and being like... so into it.

I thought they were so pretty. [laughs]

I sort of liked the audience reactions.

Like... [mimicking Povich]
"We got a question from Terry."

[nasally] "Hi, my name's Terry
from North Dakota,

and just, you guys... Just, you guys
have just, like, better legs than I do."

You know, like, shit like that.

You know I have a friend who...
She's a transgender girl

and then... she does drag, though.

She'll do like, the Grinch.

She'll do like, full body transformations.

I like all kinds of drag.

My favorite...
I love woman drag queens.

I like drag queens that are,
in drag, basically women.

I think it's magical.

I think it's 'cause
we like what we can't do

and obviously I can't do that, but...

I don't wanna look like a woman,
I wanna look like a thing.

I wanna look like a thing that you could
pull a string on the back,

you know what I mean,
and have it talk.

I remember I was in a performance once.

There was like a traveling group
that did opera

at like elementary schools.

And I wanted to be in it so bad.

And I got to be in it,
and I played a fucking wolf.

Literally wore like a shitty wolf costume

and then some other girl
got to be the golden harp.

And it was... I had a manifestation
of jealousy so deep inside me

that I was ill.

And I threw up at school.

But no.

I'm not competitive.

[phone ringing]

I guess I just like to dress up.

[deep voice] Hello?

[man] Good morning, sir.
I'm so sorry. This is from room service.

- You ordered breakfast, right?
- Yes.

Okay, we have a small problem.

We cannot post it to your room.

Like, we cannot
charge it to your room, sir.

So you have to be
paying cash or credit card.

Okay.

So I'll send it to my guy, okay?

Okay.

- Thank you, sir. Thank you.
- Bye.

It's room service. He says hi.

Um, listen.

Let's go to the premiere party
of my TV show.

[country music plays]

You guys, Thorgy said
she's taking an Uber.

Let's go.

[Morgan] Our gig together
was a lot of fun though.

No, it was good.

A stage like that exposes me
as a terrible... like, lip-syncer.

- Bullshit.
- It's true.

- No.
- You stage dived,

and I had to go after you.

But you're also Trixie.

[laughing] That means
I have a lot to lose.

[Morgan] Mmm-mmm.

[Trixie] I like a drag queen
that's just... hooker.

Like smoking, walking
like this is her street.

I love that.

Where's the booze?
Where's the booze?

[gasps] Oh, Kennedy has wine.

[music continues]

Okay, good.

- Is that for Us Weekly?
- [man] Yeah.

I am who I am, okay?

[interviewer] So what does it mean
to you to be back

for All Stars 3?
You have a second chance.

When I walked
into that workroom,

I just... my asshole clenched up.

I started sweating. My mind was racing.

It's sort of like
when you were bullied in high school,

and then you go back
for a reunion and you see your bully

and you're like...

My single comes out next Thursday

- on the night of All Stars premiere.
- Very exciting.

And then my new album
One Stone comes out the end of the season.

And as the only drag queen folk musician,

that might make me
the best drag queen folk musician?

But Dolly Parton might count
as a drag queen.

- I think she does, honestly.
- So I don't know... Yeah, exactly.

[interviewer] Now of course
I have to ask you,

a lot of fans are freaking
out over this Katya moment.

[Trixie] Oh, yeah. I'll just say this.

Mental health and sobriety
is not a straight line.

And Drag Race is a family
and we support our family members.

I am Katya's friend first and
her business partner second.

No matter what goes on
with Trixie or Katya,

we will laugh through all of it.

You know, I've been
making Katya jokes all day.

Everybody just wanted to talk about Katya.

Well, actually,
I was asked one question about that,

but it was actually very well done.

[Trixie] Was it, like,
"How do you balance the..."

They were like... uh, God.

What'd they say, exactly?

They were just asking me,
like, my thoughts on...

They said,
"Why do you look like that?"

Yeah, yeah, yeah,
and I was like,

"It's a mental health issue."
[laughing]

People don't feel like
they can draw boundaries anymore.

That's what I said...

People, in general,
all feel like they should have

access to you at every moment,
no matter what.

And for her to just be like,
"You don't have access to me anymore.

It's not you. I just need that.

- Okay, bye."
- Yeah, totally.

Like, that's
a really important thing I think

for, like, people to hear and...

[Kennedy] And they also
need to know that it's not just her,

we've all battled with something.

- Yeah.
- Exactly.

You know, I told them I've battled with,

um, depression all my life.

You know, was admitted
and everything, a few times.

Yeah.

- So it's not just about her.
- Yeah.

You know,
everybody goes through something.

So don't make it seem like it's just...

Yeah, except we have
to make an environment

where she doesn't have
to feel bad saying it.

- [Kennedy] Yeah... that's what I'm saying.
- [BenDeLaCreme] Well, also it's...

- [Kennedy] Well, I been through it too...
- Yeah.

- We all have our moments in life...
- Yeah.

...where you know,
you just have that moment.

[Stephanie] We're calling the cars.

- They should be already here.
- [BenDeLaCreme] Thank you so much.

[Kennedy] Stephanie, that is
not acceptable.

How is it unacceptable
if they're already here?

- [Kennedy] Oh, they are? Okay.
- [Stephanie] Uh-huh.

- Oh, don't get smart.
- [laughter]

Stephanie, that's not acceptable.

Stephanie, don't get smart.

I love that you put on your
"Let me talk to the manager"

voice for that.

[man] Please don't tell me...
you're one of those characters on Spike?

This lady here, her and her
compadre on Viceland?

Oh, that's me.

Yeah, that's why I was asking you.

- Oh, yeah, that's me.
- Oh, you guys are a trip!

Yeah, that's me.

Oh, wow.
Here, my name is Taylor.

- I love your show.
- Thank you.

- This is amazing.
- Thank you, thank you.

- [laughing]
- That's so crazy.

I was like, damn,
I can't tell anything.

And then your make... I mean,
you guys are just so frickin' natural

and I don't know how long
you guys been doing that,

- but... But...
- Well, thank you.

You know what?

Normally, nobody recognizes you
out of drag so you're like...

No, I wouldn't.

I'm just saying... there's no way.
I can't even tell!

[autoharp music plays]

[man] Do you want
any food or drinks, guys?

Oh, just a glass of wine
on stage.

A glass of white wine on stage.

Ah... just a bottle of like,
Pinot Grigio.

[music continues]

Oh, my God, it's so hot in here.

Ooh! Oh, my God, I feel so pretty.

I used to not like hoops 'cause I thought
that they were too slutty,

but now that's kinda why I like them.

Oh. Duh.

Oh, that's fun.

You know, normal women.
They just have Muppet hands.

You know? Hi, everyone,
what a beautiful audience.

Isn't it amazing to be in a room
full of people and still feel so alone.

Glad you guys laughed at that,
this would have been a long night.

I said that joke during rehearsal

and there was no one here
to laugh at it.

And I was just yelling into
an empty audience.

I felt like I was performing at graduation
at Columbine High.

Oh, did you guys go to Columbine?

Well, you're here, so, no, you didn't.

Just shoot me.

[Trixie exhales]

[applause]

["Meet & Greet" by The AAA Girls plays]

♪ It's time for the meet and greet ♪

♪ Meet and greet ♪

She's such a skinny legend.

It's not even fair.

She's an icon, legend, and star.

Because she's so skinny
and her hair's so big and I'm jealous.

- A skinny legend. Yeah, disgusting.
- I wish I was that gorgeous.

I got a certificate
for "the Skinniest Legend."

[cheering]

Mariah is so shook.

That's a guitar.

I'm not an artist, okay?

You might just wanna get the TM.

I know people are waiting,
but like...

My mom called me an ugly faggot
when I was 13

and it stayed with me for a long time.

She was half right.

- [laughing] Fuck you.
- [Trixie cackles]

No, you're the faggot part.
You're not the ugly part.

- Thank you.
- I'm a faggot.

But... I talked to her recently
and she said she was happy with it.

And it's people like you that
made me believe in myself.

- So thank you.
- Of course.

- Can I have a hug?
- Of course.

You should've told me to brace
myself for that emotional...

- Thank you... thank you.
- Brace yourself... Nevermind.

- Thank you.
- It's okay.

- I'll see you later, okay?
- Thank you.

Everybody like
corrective dentistry, say yeah!

[laughter]

Like, I think Trixie means a lot
to us all for different reasons.

Yes.

Yeah, I mean, she's helped me
gain a lot of self-confidence.

And I have issues with anxiety
and depression and things like that,

but she's helped me gain more
confidence and get through that, a lot.

And just by making me laugh.

And with Katya as well, the pair of them
have just helped me

so much with everything.

And it's just like... You think back
and you... People say,

"Oh, they're only people."
And like, no, they're not.

They actually mean something
to us, you know.

She's affected my life in
so many different ways that

I don't know if she understands herself.

Like, I'm so much more confident
than I was in first year.

Like when I first started university,
I didn't even want to be gay.

- But now, I don't even wanna be straight.
- Now you embrace it.

I'm just so happy with who I am.

And that's Trixie.

["Mama Don't Make Me Put On The
Dress Again" by Trixie Mattel plays]

♪ Lover, don't make me
Hit the road again ♪

♪ I can barely
Feel your fingers on my skin ♪

♪ I've been drinkin' like my daddy ♪

♪ And he ain't ever had
His last one, had he? ♪

[laughter]

Thank you, thank you. She knows it.

♪ Brother, don't make me
Tell you where I've been ♪

♪ Running around in circles made of sin ♪

♪ I've been drinking like my daddy
and he ain't never... ♪

[laughing] Fuck you guys.

♪ Daddy don't make me... ♪

♪ Well, I'm coming home alone
For the hundredth time or so ♪

[Trixie] I was just like, blanking.
I never blank.

Oh!

I'm just so stressed out.
I really fucked up.

I just thought, like,
"I have absolute control

over making this really good."

And then I didn't make it good.

And I know that sounds cheesy,
but I got up there and it just like...

I started to like, feel bad about
everything bad that's been happening.

It sucks to be on TV again
and be critiqued by people again.

And Trixie and Katya being, like,
totally fucked up right now.

It was just lots of reasons...
all of a sudden, I felt really bad.

And then I guess I also like...
Normally I don't give a fuck,

but maybe because of All Stars I feel like

I really need to go out there
and kill it, you know?

I just feel a lot more pressure
at this juncture of my life

to be doing, like,
a really good job every night.

So then if, you know, whatever happens,
hopefully people will...

feel like I... deserve it, you know?

[sniffles, groans]

Give the gays what they want.

Give the gays what they want.

It's kinda stressful
to go to a viewing party

and try to watch Drag Race,

because it's stressful to watch yourself
for the first time with people.

What if I look like an asshole?

Aren't you freezing out here?

[woman] No, I'm sweating.
It's really warm in here.

- You'll find out when you get in.
- [Trixie] Oh.

I'm gonna take my top off, okay?

[BenDeLaCreme] Shangela,
you have come so far.

Initially, your makeup was kinda busted,
your outfits were a mess,

and your personality was super grating,
but look how far you've come now.

- You are much older.
- [laughter]

Trixie. Now, a lot of people
clock your makeup,

but I totally get it.

You know, you're just painting
for the back of the room.

Which makes sense, because
that's where your audience collects

- if you remember to lock the door.
- [laughter]

And, Bebe.

I hear that this is the year
that you might get two crowns.

Which is really not a lot of dental work

as far as those early seasons

- are concerned.
- [laughter]

[RuPaul] This week, I challenged
my All Stars in an All Star Variety Show.

Gentleman, start your engines,
and may the best All Star win!

[applause]

Up next, the musical
stylings of Trixie Mattel.

["Moving Parts"
by Trixie Mattel plays]

[singing] ♪ Living's like a jigsaw ♪

♪ And the farther in you go ♪

♪ If you're missing pieces ♪

♪ You never really know ♪

♪ When you're ticking like a timepiece ♪

♪ On which you can rely ♪

♪ Wonder why you wind it ♪

♪ When you're running out of time ♪

♪ Sometimes there's a danger
Of choking on the parts ♪

♪ No one gave a warning
To the breaking of your heart ♪

♪ Pick up all the pieces
And go back to the start ♪

♪ Never losing, only using
All your moving parts ♪

♪ All your moving parts ♪

[cheering and applause]

[music continues]

[applause]

[Trixie] Work is a very healthy,
welcome thing to work on

while stuff like that is happening.

Like, if I was at home while
All Stars was on right now,

I think I would be freakin' out more.

Because we're over here,
it sort of just feels like

it's happening somewhere else
in the world.

It's not really happening to us.

[singing]

Overpriced? I think so.

I won that on Drag Race, actually.

I don't know, I think it's just
like poor-people mentality.

Even if I had that kind of money,
it would still give me like

full-blown heart attacks
to spend money like that.

[music plays]

Yeah, you know, we were really poor.

I didn't know anything
about the rest of the world.

My brother's five years
older than me

and my sisters are ten years younger.

We weren't really close.
We couldn't be more different.

My brother's an attorney and, like,
a three-time Iraq war veteran.

He actually watches my TV shows
and stuff now, though.

[plucks strings to tune]

Well, tonight's a huge show.

It's like 800 people in the first show,

and then 400 other people.

That's like, 1,200 people in the city
of Manchester coming to see me.

[cell phone chimes]

[man] And you know what, I'm gonna
put her on stage with eight people.

And it's gonna be a money loss for me,

but I'm gonna have to just... What?

Nothing.

What? No.

Katya... he just sent me
a message that said,

"You do realize that what I gave you...

that doll was a voodoo doll, right?

You're about to kill your whole career.
That episode was awful for you.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

You're boring and arrogant,
the only two sins on television.

Did anyone teach you anything?

What the fuck did Alaska tell you to do?

Do what I did, bitch, fail."

I can't believe she just said that.

It's like, why would you take
this moment in someone's life

and try to, like, ruin it?

I don't know where the switch flipped.

I don't... I have no idea where,
like... how that happens.

I don't know what
she's getting out of this.

Where she's got this,
like, weird hostility.

I have no idea.

I don't know where it came from.

People keep giving me Katya things,

like pictures of us together and clothes
with both of us on it and stuff,

and like... it's so awkward.

For me, not for them. They don't know.

I just can't believe she said that.

[cheering and applause]

This song is currently number one
on the singer/songwriter charts.

[cheering continues]

Just to fucking go to show you
that the world is so mixed up,

that a crossdresser can play an autoharp

- and sell it, and people buy it!
- [laughter and cheering]

["Moving Parts" by Trixie Mattel plays]

[singing]
♪ Living's supposed to kill you ♪

♪ But it shouldn't feel like dying ♪

♪ Loving's supposed to fill you ♪

♪ But it spills you like your wine ♪

♪ And all the paper people ♪

♪ Wandering about ♪

♪ Wondering who made them ♪

♪ And who's gonna cut them out ♪

♪ Sometimes there's a danger
Of choking on the parts ♪

♪ No one gave a warning
To the breaking of your heart ♪

♪ Pick up all the pieces
And go back to the start ♪

♪ Never losing, only using
All your moving parts ♪

♪ All your moving parts ♪

- You guys wanna see some shit?
- [crowd cheering]

[music continues]

[cheering]

Hi. This is a serious part. [laughs]

Oh, my God, it's my Christmas
card to my mom, I forgot to give her.

Here's my stun gun,
but I don't know how to work it.

Oh! Keychain. I'm into that.

Honey. I get a lotta honey.

I guess we'll keep that.

Oh! Excuse me.

That's amazing.
We're keeping that.

What if I was going through a breakup

and I was processing all
that hurt and anger,

and I worked at your local Starbucks?

"Caramel macchiato,
what's your name?

Little Piss Bitch?
Little Piss Bitch?"

[laughing]

This person's seen the show a few times.

Look, they even wrote the joke on here.

That's amazing.

Is this a reusable cup?

Oh, this is fierce.
I'm keeping this.

That is amazing.

This person made me a book
for the UK tour of "Moving Parts"

with sketches of all
my costumes in the show.

I wonder how long this took the person.

Or maybe they're really fast.

I could never draw this.

Look at that.

"It's a huge motivator for me.

I used to be in a similar situation
to what you've gone through,

and how you express things
through humor is amazing.

You've been a massive help to me.

I'll often binge-watch videos,
re-watch your videos

or most often listen to your music,
especially if I've had a bad day."

I can't read all these.

"Six months ago I decided
I wanted to end my life."

Do you see what I mean?

They always wanna kill themselves.

"I would've died on my bedroom floor.
You saved me."

Wow.

It's very intense.

You know, for some reason,
I really resonate

with people who have depression.

I don't know...

People are always like, "I'm so happy
you're open about your depression."

But I'm not depressed, so I don't know.

I mean, I make jokes about being sad.

But I'm also not a sad person, so.

How could I be sad
when I get gifts like this?

[imitates radio DJ] Well, waking up
in the morning with Trixie Mattel,

we're good on the I-5, good for traffic.

It's a beautiful, sunny day
in Los Angeles.

[mimics laser gun]

[DJ 1 laughing]
You do our job, but way better.

[DJ 2] Thanks so much for being
on the show and giving us some time.

[DJ 1] I bet you there are people
that are curious,

and so I'll just ask you,

what's the percentage of people
that dress in drag

- that are homosexual...
- Yeah.

[DJ 1] ...compared to straight?

Well, I think if you
think about what drag is

and you think about maybe
you've been seeing it the whole time.

I mean, Mrs. Doubtfire, Madea,
Dana Carvey in Church Lady.

[DJ 1] I wanna ask you
something that, maybe...

I don't wanna bring
the whole room down,

but I was reading about you
and it said you actually got

your name Trixie
from your abusive stepfather

who used to call you that
when you were acting feminine.

And... is that true?

Yes, it is.

And we're waking up here
with Trixie Mattel on the morning

in Los Angeles. [mimics laser gun]

[DJs laughing]

You didn't wanna
bring the room down.

I'm trying to bring it back up. [laughs]

[DJ 1] No, I appreciate that.

Is this guy still around
and does he know that his

lame attempt to humiliate you
for being yourself is now,

you've flipped it on him
and now you're cashing in

and making more money
than said abusive stepfather?

Oh, no, I'll do you one better.

He passed away of alcoholism.
[mimics drum playing]

- [DJs] Aw.
- [DJ mimics laser gun]

Pew, pew... yeah.

I grew up in northeast Wisconsin
with my mom and my brother.

And then, my mom always had
like a... cycling, recurring cast

of characters as her boyfriends.

And then she married
when I was like ten, to my stepdad.

I can't remember the first time...
it happened.

But I can remember
the last time it happened.

The last time it happened,
he was hitting me and I was...

So I went to my room, and he was
really drunk and he came with a gun.

And I remember that was...
That was the last time it happened.

And he pointed a loaded gun at me
and he said he was gonna kill me.

And I remember that was the last time
it happened because...

I think I told one of my friends about it,
maybe that week.

And by the next week,
the counselor talked to me

and told me that they
had to take me out of my home.

I don't know, I mean, it's weird
to think now that I just moved out,

and as a mom, that was just an option.

Like she was just like, "All right, bye."

You know? That's so crazy to me, but...

I remember at the time, I just...
I never blamed her.

I don't know, I think abuse happens
so slowly and so deeply that...

when you're in it, I just think
that's what you think is normal.

I thought everyone's family was like that.

I thought everyone went home every day
and just wanted to die.

And I also feel like every year of my life
has gotten progressively better.

It doesn't really have to do
with drag or money or success,

it just has to do with like,
the more you fabricate your own life,

you get to live, the happier you are.

[birds chirping]

- Katya called me yesterday.
- [woman] Oh.

- Yeah. That was a surprise.
- [woman] What'd she say?

She's at, like,
an inpatient place.

It was nice that she was
at least somewhere

where they're clearly taking care of her.

She's only allowed to talk
on the phone 15 minutes, you know.

People are like, "I'm such a fan.
I want Katya to get better.

But also I don't accept that
she's not at work right now."

- [woman laughs] Yeah.
- Okay.

- Do I get to keep this dress?
- [woman] Yeah, it's for you.

I'm not gonna fit it. [laughs]

[Trixie] Hold this.

[man] Oh, you want me to hold...
the petticoat too?

[Trixie] Yeah.

Oh, cookies. Thin Mints, bitch!

From a real Girl Scout.

[man] They're all my favorite, though.

Caramel DeLites.

[Trixie] It's this type of precision that
matters in a photoshoot environment.

[woman] Darling,
it's the one percent difference.

[Trixie] Devil's in the details.

[background chatter]

[man] ...put the stockings on
so that her other leg would show.

- [woman] What?
- [man] You put the stockings on...

[autoharp music plays]

[Trixie] Today is probably
the last day of filming...

I would say, ever.

We're just trying to
hot-glue together a version

of the last few episodes
that isn't so fucked up.

[intro music to The Trixie &
Katya Show plays]

[Trixie] The Glendale Community
Bayside Players Theatre presents

The Trixie & Katya Show.

In the role of Katya
will be Bob the Drag Queen.

[applause]

Welcome to our show!

I'm the stranger who knocked off
your glasses and said,

"Let me be your eyes," Trixie Mattel.

I'm the difference
between knowing your shit

and knowing you are shit,
Bob the Drag Queen.

Every week we take
one topic, slice it open,

spread its entrails on the floor
and read it like a shaman in the bush!

[man] Good luck.

- [Bob] I know, right?
- [Trixie] Thank you for everything, guys.

Don't do drugs. Bye.

[Bob] You know, I was recently approached

by these people for something like
an antibullying campaign...

It's telling kids not to do any drugs.

I don't even drink. So I'm not...
So I don't wanna be like,

"Hey, no one do drugs."

[Trixie] I don't even do weed.

Really? Like ever?

Latrice gave me like two
pumps once, and it was terrifying.

[singing indistinctly]

What a day.

It was just a weird,
bittersweet feeling because...

it's like we're wrapping
the Trixie & Katya Show

and Katya is somewhere...
Quit drag.

Today, I just kept having moments of like,

we're finishing this without her.

That's just like crazy,
you know what I mean?

[autoharp music playing]

[Trixie singing indistinctly]

Ugh, I didn't know it was gonna rain.

Fuck.

[autoharp music continues]

[club music plays]

She brought the rain!
She brought the rain.

- You guys excited?
- [crowd cheering]

This evening seems like
the odds were stacked against me,

but... good things happen to
just okay people. So...

- Let's get fucked up, bye!
- [crowd cheers]

It's on, it's on.
Everybody shut up, it's on!

Gentlemen, start your engines
and may the best All Star win!

Hi, everybody.
Clap for RuPaul, clap for RuPaul.

- [crowd cheers]
- Clap, clap, clap, clap.

DeLa, which of your All Star
teammates have you chosen

to get the chop?

[dramatic music plays]

This is the easiest choice
that I have had to make

this entire season.

[dramatic music continues]

I'm going home.

- What?
- [crowd cheers]

[whispering]
What did she just say?

Did she just say her own name?

[screaming]

Can't believe Drag Race
is concluding pretty soon.

People are like, mad at me.

They're like, "She's disappointing!"

Do you know how hard it is
to even be safe on Drag Race?

- [Fena] Exactly.
- I'm on the last episode,

like the top four.

- [Fena] Some girl was bitching about...
- They were bitching about me?

Among other people.

She was talking about the show,
she's like,

"Well, I feel like Trixie's
just dropping the ball,"

and I was like,
"Well, I don't think you're really giving

anybody a chance here."

And then I went
into the whole like,

"Do you have any idea
what we did 15 days before

she went on the show?

For 12 hours a day,
for like weeks beforehand,

up until the day she had to leave,
we were working for

12 hours a day, in drag,
shooting Trixie & Katya."

- Yeah.
- "And then she had to go on a show."

Also, safe is not
dropping the ball.

Everybody wants to weigh in.

I mean, I'm excited for Drag Race
to be over 'cause I hate being...

I really hate being evaluated
by people who are...

Jinkx Monsoon says it correctly,

"Watching Drag Race
doesn't make you an expert on drag.

It makes you a fan of a TV show."

- Yeah.
- Bitch!

[slams table]

That was... That was her.

When I watch Drag Race, I like
the conflama as much as I like the drag.

But Ben wanted it
to be like the Olympics,

just a competition.

And it's not really like that.

And if it was,
it would be boring to watch.

This is all men's clothes
that go to Goodwill.

[Trixie grunts]

I don't know if I'm gonna win because

they filmed both of us winning,
but they also filmed a tie

and so... I don't really know who wins.

I just want it to be over.

It's gonna be over in...
how many hours?

[squeals]

And I gotta think of
what I'm gonna say if I lose

that is authentic, but not...

I don't wanna seem disappointed,
but I will be.

You think if I win $100,000
I can get some new razors?

I just wanna know.

Do you know what I mean?

[man] What do you think is gonna happen?

Uh, I think...
I think I'm gonna win.

I'm upset that, of all days,
this eye-makeup thing is happening but...

You know, what else am I gonna do?

Like, this is kinda plain.

I wish I would've had something
over this, but it's okay.

Well, maybe I'll lose and it won't matter.

Okay.

I just would've loved to have more time
to pin this hair in and...

I wish I would've brought
a back-up costume, but...

it doesn't matter.

Nope, we're gonna go straight.

- [driver] Straight?
- Yep.

[driver] Okay.

Yep, and we're gonna
get out right here.

This is the entrance. I promise.

Thanks. Oh, my God.

- [phone chimes]
- Oh, my God.

Fuck.

[crowd cheering]

[announcer] And your fourth-place winner,
Trixie Mattel!

[crowd cheering]

[RuPaul] The winner of
RuPaul's Drag Race All Stars

receives a one-year supply of
Anastasia Beverly Hills cosmetics,

a coveted spot in the Drag Race
Hall of Fame,

and a cash prize of $100,000.

["Kitty Girl" by RuPaul plays]

♪ Steppin' to the plate
I'm Trixie Mattel ♪

♪ Got my name in the game
Better learn it well ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm the MVP
Heading up to bat ♪

♪ And I'll go to third base
But I'd never tell that ♪

♪ I got bleach in the blond
like Pamela ♪

♪ And I'm steppin' out the box
Like Shangela ♪

♪ I got long thick legs, a tarantula! ♪

♪ And if you call me kitty girl,
I can handle you, uh! ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

...this queen
who has limitless potential

has blossomed
into a fully developed performer.

[RuPaul] Trixie, I'm so proud
of you, like I'm proud of

Shangela and Kennedy
and Bebe, and all of the girls.

It really is the pinnacle of my career,

doing the show and being
a launchpad for all of you,

and I couldn't be more proud right now.

Ladies, I have made my decision.

The queen who has earned her spot
in the Drag Race Hall of Fame,

- the champion of All Stars 3 is...
- [suspenseful music playing]

- Trixie Mattel.
- [crowd cheers loudly]

["Champion" by RuPaul plays]

[Trixie exclaiming indistinctly]

[RuPaul] My queen.
Is there anything you'd like to say?

[Trixie] I know you guys
are looking for somebody

who can carry a legacy,
and as an All Star,

I feel like I've been carrying
that legacy since I left the first time.

[autoharp music plays]

I can't believe it.
It feels like it didn't happen.

Honestly, this is gay world, though.

You win a major award, and you go
back to your little dressing room.

[exhales deeply]

[whispers] I can't believe that happened.

[cackles]

- [T Rex] Congratulations, I love you.
- Thank you, I can't believe it.

Gay for it.

I was crying during the whole show,

but when you were crowned,
I just went into full ice, like...

[shaky voice] I don't know
what to do... I'm freaking out.

No, I had like minor tears
during the "Kitty Girl" performance,

'cause, like, this is so cool.

- I really couldn't believe it.
- [T Rex exclaims]

Well, they filmed a tie.
I thought it would've been a tie.

- They filmed a tie?
- Yeah.

When they filmed the tie, I was like,
"I think it's gonna be a tie."

Hey, David, can you take
a Boomerang for me?

- [David] Sure.
- It's for the yearbook.

I can't believe I just won.

I can't believe I just won Drag Race.

[indistinct chatter]

I'm gonna walk backwards. Take a picture.

Bye, guys.

I did that.

[indistinct chatter]

Oh, thank you. I can't believe it.
I'm dying.

Thank you, sweetheart.

Oh, my taxi's here, you guys.
I'm sorry.

I'll see you guys later. Bye!

I couldn't believe it.
I couldn't believe it.

[man] It was amazing.

You know, I've been
eliminated from Drag Race twice

at viewing parties, and it is quite
a different experience winning.

[excited laughter] It is quite
a fucking different experience.

I don't have a lot of interest
in putting on costumes right now.

If I didn't win, I would still be
standing here rifling through

a costume parade of shit
that's all wrinkled and dirty,

trying to figure out
what's the least offensive to wear.

So nothing's really changed.

[mimicking Lady Bunny]
Keep your hennies close

and your henemies closer.

[Trixie chuckles] I hope you die.

[exclaims]

Drag is so stupid
until the last ten seconds

- and then I'm like, yes!
- [Jinkx] I know.

We look like shit until the last ten...

Until the last eight seconds
and then we're like, "Oh, bitch!"

[Jinkx] All comes together.

[Trixie] That hair is in fabulous shape.

Thanks, I just
had it washed and reset.

- Oh, did you?
- [Jinkx] Yes.

[Trixie] God, I'm stunning.
It's uncomfortable, actually.

Like it's sick. It's gross.

[Jinkx] Well, I'm glad winning
didn't go to your head.

It's not the same as winning
the Olympics, you know what I mean.

[Jinkx] Yeah.

You should be happy you won
and you should be proud,

but it shouldn't be like...

I don't think anybody who wins
probably feels better than everyone else.

- [Jinkx] No.
- You know what I mean?

You don't feel like you're better...

[Jinkx] Well, we have
constant reminders that there's...

You know, as soon as you win, then there's
another season about to come out.

Yeah.

I mean, I was sandwiched
in between two of the most

influential winners
ever to come out of the show.

- Sharon and Bianca.
- Yeah.

That's right,
didn't even think about that.

[Jinkx] So I never felt like
I ever had the moment

- of feeling like Queen Poop, you know?
- Yeah.

Cheers? Oh... no cheers.
We just... Okay.

[cackles] That made it worse.

I don't feel lucky,
I feel unlucky now.

At my house, grew up
whenever we take a shot we go...

- [slurping] I can stop anytime I want to.
- [Jinkx laughing]

And then my dad would
throw the bottle across the room.

[announcer] And the winner of All Stars 3,

- give it up for Trixie Mattel!
- [crowd cheers]

Trixie's win was
a little bit like Trump's win, wasn't it?

[crowd laughs]

I mean, she got the crown,
but she did not get the popular vote.

[crowd laughs and applauds]

Halleloo.

[autoharp music plays]

[automated voice] To make a payment
with a Discover, Mastercard or Visa

- credit or check card, press three.
- [phone beeps]

- The current balance due is $1,428.42.
- [exhales deeply]

To pay the current...

[Trixie] My mom
has all the money problems.

[automated voice] ...press one.
To pay a different amount, press two.

- God, this is so dramatic to pay a bill.
- [phone beeping]

No wonder people don't pay their bills.

To authorize and continue, press one.

All right. Hold on
while I process your payment.

[music plays]

We're all set.

- [Trixie's mom] Hello?
- Hi, Mom.

[Trixie's mom] Hi, Brian.

Hey, I just called WPS and paid that bill.

- Oh, did you really?
- Yeah, it was up to 14-something.

It's like $1,420, so I paid $1,450,
so it should be

even a couple dollars over.

Well, thank you so much, Brian.

I'm just struggling here
and I hate even asking you,

'cause I feel like I'm being,
you know... biggest little loser.

No, it's okay.

Do you still need a car?

I do.

I gotta figure out something
with that too, but...

That's what I told Dez,
when I did need a car

there was cars for sale
all over the place, except now.

That's all right.
So how's things been going?

It's fine.

We start the tour tomorrow,
so my musician, my opener

and my assistant just got here.

And we had rehearsal
on Sunday, so we set up

the whole set and everything.

It's pretty cool.

It's pink, like, hippie background
with giant white glitter letters

that are like ten feet tall
that say "Trixie" on stage.

With like a pink carpet and pink
microphone stand and everything.

So is that going
from each venue, then?

Yeah, the whole set
will break down every night

and travel to all 40 venues.

So is that what you'll have
in Milwaukee, then too?

Yeah, that's what I'll have in Milwaukee.

You better come.

Well, Sam wants to come

and I'm just trying to figure it out.

- I'll still have to work and...
- Just take off work.

I'll pay for you.

I can get you tickets
and I'll put you up.

Just take off work.

I suppose
I better get off the phone here,

because I am at work and...

Okay, I'll talk to you later.

But make sure you take time off
to come to Milwaukee.

- All right.
- Okay, bye.

I'll figure out what I can do.

- I love you, bye.
- Bye.

[guitar music plays]

[singing] ♪ To be honest, you're a dime ♪

♪ To be fair,
you've got me on my knees ♪

♪ To be young and not on time ♪

♪ It's like flowers blooming
through November freeze ♪

♪ When I sleep I say your name ♪

♪ When I wake
it's written up and down ♪

♪ My walls ♪

♪ To be fair, it's all the same ♪

[humming]

♪ If you get the time ♪

♪ The number is still mine ♪

♪ Baby, share a dime on the line there
In Minnesota time ♪

♪ Hello, goodbye, hello ♪

[Trixie] I don't know if I could
go back to doing drag for, like,

fifty bucks a show.
I don't know if I could.

Maybe... I don't know.

I mean, it's hard to not be spoiled

when we get to do what we do now.

If in a year,
nobody gives a shit about me,

I'll just sell all these dresses
and take the money and run.

[announcer] Ladies and gentlemen,
Trixie Mattel!

["Mama Don't Make Me Wear That
Dress Again" by Trixie Mattel plays]

Oh, my God,
they can't believe it!

They can't believe it.
Oh, my God.

Amazing.

[singing] ♪ Mama, don't make me
Put on the dress again ♪

♪ I can't stand the way
It opens when I spin ♪

♪ Ribbon bows around my shoulder
And I'm only getting older ♪

♪ Mama, don't make me
Put on the dress again ♪

How's it going, Fort Lauderdale?

Oh, my God!
I didn't know this was happening.

♪ Daddy, don't make me
Fancy dance around ♪

♪ Painted up in that makeup
Like a clown ♪

♪ Doing right or am I doing time? ♪

Yes! The crowd goes mild!

That's me standing
never in the spotlight. [laughing]

This is where you should stand.

This is what British people look like.

Look at the experimental haircuts.

[on video] ...that 60% of straight men
and 40% of straight women

- are interested in trying anal.
- [crowd whoops]

Just like someone's Muggle wife.

[laughter on video]

Just like someone's Muggle wife.

[laughter]

Just like, in a banana clip and Crocs...

[laughter]

...bent over a laundry basket.
[nasally] "Are we doing it?"

- [nasally moan]
- [laughter]

And there's all these articles
for husbands

like, "Husbands, How to
Spice it Up in the Bedroom."

For a little extra danger,
try it with the lights on.

[laughter]

"Gay guys, could you imagine
the gay version of this magazine?"

[laughter]

"For a little extra danger,
learn his name."

[laughter and applause]

[guitar music plays]

Next time you're fisting him,
wear a bangle.

[laughter]

I had a gay friend and he was constipated,

and he remedied
the situation by sitting on the toilet

- and doing poppers.
- [groans and laughter]

Straight girls, poppers,
it's a piece of gay culture

you might not know about
because Drag Race hasn't done

- a mini-challenge on the subject yet.
- [laughter]

I was dating a guy in LA
and he didn't recognize me,

and I told him I worked in HR
'cause no one knows what it is

and no one asks.

- [laughter]
- Right?

And I was like, "Yes, I'm a normal person
with a normal life.

Thank you so much for asking."
Convincing?

- I wasn't wearing this!
- [light laughter]

That'd be totally stupid.

- I was wearing this.
- [crowd cheers]

- I was wearing this.
- [crowd cheering]

Skinny! Thank you, guys.

- I'm so happy to be home.
- [crowd cheers]

I'm very happy to be home,
very happy to be here.

This is a new show.

My old show was called
Trixie Mattel: Ages 3 and Up.

I did it at Comedy Cafe last year.

- Did you guys see it? Okay.
- [crowd cheers]

That show was called
Trixie Mattel: Ages 3 and Up,

which turns out, for my family audiences,

- little confusing.
- [laughter]

I'm up here talking about rimming my dad

- and there's kids like right here.
- [laughter]

- Hey, Mom.
- [laughter]

No, just kidding. [cackles]

You know, family,
you gotta love 'em, so...

[laughter]

Oh, God! Right now, huh?

- Hi, Mom.
- [Trixie's mom] Hi, hon.

[Trixie] I'm so sweaty, sorry.

Thank you guys for coming.

Oh, thank you for having us.

You were on time, I don't know.

I said, "If he makes any reference
to his family being late,

all three of us are gonna
stand up and say,

- 'We were early!'"
- [laughing]

[Trixie] "We were here."

This is my mom. This is my aunt.

And then my sister
is taking a huge deuce, yeah.

- We all have to use the...
- Brandon...

Hi, yes, I've seen Brandon online.

[Trixie] Are you mortified?

No, no.

Like, some of the references
I don't get because

- I'm just not in that lifestyle, but...
- [Trixie cackles]

But everybody's laughing,
so it's gotta be good.

Even Auntie doesn't get 'em
and she's in the lifestyle.

- Thank you for coming.
- You look...

Oh, thank you for inviting us.

Is it weird to see everybody watching?

No, but I cried when you first came on.

- You did?
- Yes. I had tears coming down my face.

- Oh my gosh.
- I've never seen you before,

you know, do your thing.

I've seen you on the Internet, on TV.

I know, they were like, "Are you gonna

change any of your jokes
'cause your mom's here?"

I was like, "Let's just
do it the same." [cackles]

If I take out all the vulgar jokes,
I'd have a ten-minute show.

[man] Ready and one, two,
big smile, three.

And one more.
One, two and three.

- Got it. Thank you, guys.
- Awesome.

It is funny.

- It's filthy, but...
- So what?

- Grandpa was filthier.
- Oh, yeah.

finding out they're Native American
the next day...

[laughter]

- That spoke to you guys.
- [laughter]

- I felt it right here...
- Yes!

- Baby, I felt it.
- [laughter]

Well, our grandma
used to call it,

"blond-haired, blue-eyed Indians."

People who find out
they're like, this much,

and they're like full braids.

[laughter]

[Trixie's mom] And thank
you so much.

I enjoyed myself very much.
The best.

- Awesome.
- [Trixie] Thank you.

Keep doing what you're doing, you're...

You're holding onto me
a little tight there, buddy!

Well, listen, I was just
trying to save enough money

for when we have to send
you to rehab, okay.

[laughter]

[indistinct talking]

["Break Your Heart"
by Trixie Mattel plays]

[crowd cheers]

[singing] ♪ They never tell you
Before they try and sell you ♪

♪ Wanna see how well you can swim ♪

♪ I never told you
Before I went and sold you ♪

♪ I was only gold on the rim ♪

♪ It's a one, two, three
Pull it off and see ♪

♪ That a stitch in time saves nine ♪

♪ And you won't unravel
When you're thrown from the saddle ♪

♪ And you won't unwind ♪

♪ I never meant to break your heart ♪

♪ I never meant to break your heart ♪

♪ I never meant to pull you apart
But I'd do it all over again ♪

♪ Never meant to break your heart
But I'd do it again ♪

[crowd cheers]

Katya always says
drag, at its best, is still a failure.

We all know that's not a woman.

But that person is believing it,
and that's what's addicting to watch.

Feels like
you've been here forever,

even though it was just a few months.

Feels like you've been filming...
for a long time.

And then it feels like,
everything's in a different place...

than when it started.

I wish Katya and I were still friends.

I don't care about the TV show
or anything as much as I care about...

I just wish that, of all the people
in the world to hate me...

I hate that that person hates me.

Everybody keeps being like, "Oh, yeah,
you're fine without her."

Yeah, that's not the point,
you know what I mean?

The point isn't whether or not
I can continue to have

a career without her.

It's never been the point.

I didn't like being on my own
as much as I liked being friends with her.

It was never about getting
famous enough so that...

you can survive on your own.

I preferred surviving with her.

That's the end of the film
as Fena backs over the camera.

- [Fena] I brought you tea.
- Oh, thank you.

[Fena] Water and your choice of...

I did that thing

from the other day
where I did my eyes first.

It's so much...
So much easier to put makeup on

- when there's no foundation down.
- Do you want peanut butter

- and jelly sandwich for your...
- Ooh.

[Fena] ...snack box, or...

[Trixie] Let's drag ourselves
to the LA Convention Center

and con these children
out of their moms' monies.

[Fena] Did you sit in dog shit?

- Is it bad?
- No.

Oh.

[Trixie] Hi, I'm pulling in for DragCon.
I have a performance today.

[woman] Are you getting dropped off?

Nope, I'm one of the exhibitors.

- [woman] Can I get your name?
- Trixie Mattel.

- [woman] Two X's or...
- One.

- [woman] And a Y?
- T-R-I-X-I-E.

Mattel. M-A-T-T-E-L.

- [woman] Just need the first name.
- Okay.

[guitar music plays]

[acoustic version of "Kitty Girl"
by RuPaul playing]

♪ Know you're sexy
And keep slaying the game ♪

♪ Help the world remember your name ♪

♪ Feel your puss down deep in your soul ♪

Anybody got any scissors on you?

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ When you walk the street
Steppin' to the beat ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

♪ Step aside, I'm back again ♪

♪ So hype, so lit, adrenaline ♪

♪ I'm Shangela, say what? ♪

[crowd cheering]

♪ Gonna take this verse
Just to let you know ♪

♪ Don't listen to the haters, be a pro ♪

♪ 'Cause I worked my way, paid my dues ♪

♪ Now I got the whole world screaming ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ When you walk the street
Steppin' to the beat ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

♪ Steppin' to the plate
I'm Trixie Mattel ♪

♪ Got my name in the game
Better learn it well ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm the MVP
heading up to bat ♪

♪ And I'll go to third base
But I'd never tell that ♪

♪ I got bleach in the blond
like Pamela ♪

♪ And I'm steppin' out the box
Like Shangela ♪

- ♪ I got long thick legs ♪
- ♪ A tarantula! ♪

♪ And if you call me kitty girl,
I can handle you ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ When you walk the street
Steppin' to the beat ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

- Now, I saved Bebe for last.
- [crowd laughs]

'Cause she's one of my favorites.

Does anybody know the Bebe verse?

Does anybody know it, like, by heart?

Like you could do it right now.

Who swears, 'cause this is on...

You think you could do it?

- You better get up here, you bitch.
- [crowd cheering]

- Hi, Trixie!
- This is my collaborator.

Okay, we're gonna lower
this microphone because...

I'm short.

I'm short, too.
I'm very petite, thank you so much.

You're a skinny legend.
You're beautiful.

Are you... Are you handy?
Oh, I think I got it.

- Is this short enough?
- I mean, I know sign language,

so I am pretty handy.

She knows ASL.
Give it up for this bitch.

[crowd cheers]

- Okay, so I'm gonna play it.
- Okay.

- So... and then you're gonna come in.
- Okay.

[singing] ♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

♪ Mirror, mirror on the wall ♪

♪ Who's the fiercest of them all ♪

♪ Face, face, face, body and all ♪

♪ Another day, another slay ♪

♪ Meow, meow, savage beauty ♪

♪ Steppin' out on a mission ♪

♪ Get fierce, stay ready ♪

♪ The OG's back for another crown ♪

[crowd cheers]

Okay, clap for this bitch
or she leaves the stage now.

[crowd cheers]

- [indistinct talking]
- Oh, thank you. You're amazing.

Listen, Bebe has a...

Listen, Bebe, you have to
go beat the shit out of her

and steal her gig now, okay.

Not that we promote violence here.

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ Don't punch Bebe
I was just kidding ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ When you walk the street
Steppin' to the beat ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ It's your world ♪

♪ When you walk to the street
Steppin' to the beat ♪

♪ Hey, kitty girl ♪

♪ Get your twirl ♪

♪ In the disco heat
You're the boogie body-rockin' queen ♪

[indistinct chatter]

[announcer] Los Angeles!
The time has come.

Are you ready?

[folk guitar music plays]

[Trixie]
Are you looking at my wiener?

What are you laughing about?

How's it going, Los Angeles?

Leave it to us to be like,
"Let's just wrap it in Scotch tape."

[hissing]

[man] Okay, that works. Now, side.

[indistinct chatter]

[man 1] Oh, well turnt.

[man 2] Live Nation just
gave us a bottle of DP!

Ooh!

- [Brandon] I love DP. Ask anybody.
- Dom Perignon.

- [man] Oh, my God.
- [Fena] You remember Sandra Bernhard.

[laughter]

- Dimi, why you do this to me?
- [laughter]

[indistinct talking]

[man] We're sitting here talking,
I didn't even recognize

you were sitting there.

How you doin'? All good?

Wonderful.

[Katya] Good. Just not doing meth.

[man] Good. Same.

- [Trixie cackles]
- [laughter]

- [man] I was at excuse point.
- [laughter]

- She's having a seizure.
- She's this far...

If she had a platform on, she could touch.

This one. [cackles]

- [man] Fifteen minutes, Trixie.
- You know what I mean? Thanks.

[man] Fifteen minutes.
I'll see you on the deck.

Now when you get out there,
they might laugh when you tell a joke.

You've gotta give 'em space.

You gotta give 'em space
to laugh and enjoy.

- You gotta pause...
- That is him.

...and then work
into the next joke.

- That is him.
- But if you don't pause,

they won't hear it.

[man] Fellas, your cue to take her up
is the moment I start talking.

Los Angeles, the time has come.

[Trixie singing] ♪ Mama, don't make me
put on the dress... ♪

Are you ready?

Good luck, kid. Nail it.

You'll own it.

[techno music plays]

- I love you.
- Love you too.

[announcer] Ladies and gentlemen.

Welcome to Now With Moving Parts.

Tonight, you can take all the pics
you want all night long.

However, please do not take any video
during tonight's performance.

Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome

the skinny legend, Trixie Mattel!

["Keep on the Sunny Side" playing]

♪ There's a dark and
A troubled side of life ♪

♪ There's a bright and
A sunny side too ♪

♪ Though we meet with
The trouble and strife ♪

♪ The sunny side we also may view ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side
Always on the sunny side ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side of life ♪

[indistinct talking]

[crowd laughs]

- Hi, everybody.
- [crowd cheers]

♪ Well, the storm
And the fury broke today ♪

♪ Crushing hopes
That we cherished so near ♪

♪ Clouds and storms
Will in time pass away ♪

♪ Sun will always shine bright and clear ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side
Always on the sunny side ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side of life ♪

♪ It will help us every day
It will brighten all our way ♪

♪ If we'll keep
On the sunny side of life ♪

♪ Let us greet
With a song of hope each day ♪

♪ Though the moments be cloudy or fair ♪

♪ Let us trust in our Savior always ♪

♪ And keep us every one in His care ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side
Always on the sunny side ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side of life ♪

♪ It will help us every day
It will brighten all our way ♪

♪ If we'll keep
On the sunny side of life ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side
Always on the sunny side ♪

♪ Keep on the sunny side of life ♪

♪ It will help us every day
It will brighten all our way ♪

♪ If we'll keep
On the sunny side of life ♪

♪ If we'll keep
On the sunny side of life ♪