Tough Guy: The Bob Probert Story (2019) - full transcript

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PROBERT AND DOMI GOING
AT IT OFF THE FACEOFF.

HE KNOWS DOMI'S
A TOUGH KID.

DOMI'S BEEN THREATENING
THIS FIGHT FOR A LONG TIME.

CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS?
PROBERT IS CUT BADLY.

WRESTLING WAS BECOMING A REAL
ENTERTAINMENT THING AT THE TIME.

THERE WAS HULK HOGAN, AND
MACHO MAN, AND BRET HART,

AND THESE GUYS WERE
REALLY LIVING IT UP.



I THINK I WAS TRYING
TO TRANSITION THAT

INTO HOCKEY A LITTLE BIT.

THE SECOND ONE WAS
OBVIOUSLY THE HYPE,

AND THE NEW YORK TIMES
FRONT PAGE AND EVERYTHING ELSE.

IT WAS LIKE A BOXING
MATCH, FRAZIER/ALI,

THEY HAD THE SIZE DIFFERENCE
AND ALL THAT STUFF.

HE HAD THE
ADVANTAGE FOR SURE.

HE HAD THE
SMARTS GOING IN.

THEY HAVE TRIED TO PUT THE
EMPHASIS ON HOCKEY

AND NOT FIGHTING,

BUT TONIGHT THERE ISN'T
MUCH THEY CAN DO ABOUT IT

AS THE DETROIT REDWINGS FACE
THE RANGERS IN NEW YORK.

ACTUALLY, IT'S ABOUT
TIE DOMI OF THE RANGERS

AND BOB PROBERT OF
THE RED WINGS.



I'M NOT SCARED OF ANYBODY

BUT I'M NOT BACKING
DOWN OR ANYTHING.

I'M GOING TO STICK UP FOR
MY TEAMMATES LIKE I SAID,

AND THE WHOLE IDEA IS TO
HELP THIS TEAM WIN

AND TO BACK MY TEAMMATES UP.

ARE YOU GETTING
A LITTLE TIRED OF...

I'M SURE I'LL SEE HIM THEN.

HE WAS LIKE, HE WAS LIKE...

I'M TELL YOU, HIS EYES
WERE LIKE LIGHTBULBS.

LOOK AT YZERMAN,
THE CAPTAIN THERE.

THE WHOLE BENCH IS MOCKING DOMI
WITH THE CHAMPIONSHIP BELT.

OH MY GOODNESS.

20 THOUSAND PEOPLE THERE,
GOING NUTS, AND YOU PEOPLE

THAT DON'T LIKE FIGHTING,
HOW MANY OF YOU

WALKED TO GET A COFFEE
WHILE THAT WAS ON?

YOU CAN'T BE
A WIMP OR ANYTHING.

YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG,
AND THAT'S WHAT THEY DID.

I WAS ON THE POLICE DEPARTMENT
WITH BOBBY'S DAD, AL.

AS A MATTER OF FACT,
WE RODE MOTORCYCLE TOGETHER.

THE WAY THINGS ARE
SCRUTINIZED FOR POLICE TODAY,

WE PROBABLY HAD
A MORE OPEN HAND

WITH OUR POLICE WORK THEN.

MY HUSBAND HAD HIS
FIRST STROKE MARCH 21ST

AND HE DIED THE
FOLLOWING AUGUST 28TH.

AND HE WASN'T
HIMSELF AT ALL.

HE COULDN'T REALLY TALK TOO
MUCH, OR WALK, OR WHATEVER.

I THINK IT WAS HARD ON THE
BOYS TO SEE THE WAY

THEIR DAD WENT, BECAUSE HE
WAS ALWAYS A BIG STRONG MAN,

AND THEN FOR
THIS TO HAPPEN,

IT WAS PRETTY HARD ON THE BOYS,
I KNOW THAT.

BUT THEY NEVER
TALKED ABOUT IT.

HE NEVER CRIED AT
HIS DAD'S FUNERAL.

THAT'S HOW HE WAS
RAISED YOU KNOW,

BOYS DON'T CRY, MEN DON'T CRY.

IT SURE MAKES YOU
GROW UP QUICK.

THERE ARE TIMES WHERE YOU
WISH YOU HAD YOUR DAD AROUND

TO GET A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE
ON DIFFERENT SITUATIONS

YOU RUN INTO LATER IN LIFE.

I THINK THINGS WOULD
HAVE TURNED OUT DIFFERENT

IF HE WOULD HAVE BEEN
AROUND A LITTLE LONGER.

HE LEFT THE DAY
AFTER THE FUNERAL.

THE DAY AFTER THE FUNERAL,
ONE OF MY POLICE FRIENDS

DROVE HIM DOWN
TO CAMP IN BRANFORD.

SO HE REALLY DIDN'T GRIEVE
WITH HIS FATHER OR NOTHING

BECAUSE HE WAS GONE.

SO I LOST MY HUSBAND
AND THE NEXT DAY

MY SON WAS GONE TO
BRANFORD. JUNIOR HOCKEY.

NUMBER FOUR WITH
A SHOT. HE SCORES!

HE DIDN'T
LIKE FIGHTING.

AT LEAST WHAT HE
TOLD ME, HE DIDN'T.

HE DID IT BECAUSE HE DID
IT, HE HAD TO DO IT.

THESE GUYS ARE
STILL GOING AT IT.

THEY JUST GOT OUT
OF THE BOX AGAIN...

I BELIEVE IT IS
BAUMGARTNER AND PROBERT,

AND THEY WERE JUST TALKING THE
WHOLE TIME IN THE PENALTY BOX.

YOU KNEW SOMETHING WAS
GOING TO HAPPEN...

HE CERTAINLY WAS
BROUGHT UP IN A CULTURE

WHERE DRINKING WAS,
YOU KNOW, A CENTERPIECE.

THE ADJUSTMENT OF BEING
AWAY FROM YOUR PARENTS

IS QUITE LARGE
BECAUSE YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN

AT FIFTEEN, SIXTEEN.

I RECALL IN BRANFORD,
EVEN BEING UNDER 19,

HIM GOING INTO THE BARS.

THEY KNEW HE WAS UNDERAGE AND
HE WOULD STILL GO TO THE BARS,

TAKE THE WAITRESS
HOME OR WHATEVER.

THAT LED HIM GETTING KICKED
OUT OF HIS PLACE IN BRANFORD.

HE BROUGHT HER
INTO THE CRAWLSPACE

AT THE BILLET'S HOUSE,

WHERE HE WAS SLEEPING
WITH THE BILLET AS WELL,

AND SHE SAW THE GIRL GETTING
SNUCK OUT IN THE MORNING

SHE GOT REALLY UPSET OVER IT.

I THINK THE BILLET
GOT VERY JEALOUS.

WHEN HE MISSED THE ONTARIO
HOCKEY LEAGUE ALL-STAR TEAM,

THE GAME, HE MISSED IT

BECAUSE HE WAS DRINKING
THE NIGHT BEFORE.

WE GOT SELECTED TO GO
WITH THE OHL ALL-STAR GAME.

WE WENT OUT AND
HAD FEW BEERS.

UNFORTUNATELY, WE
SLEPT-IN IN THE MORNING,

AND WE HAD A MEETING
AT THE RINK THE NEXT DAY,

AND WE WERE GOING TO
BE SUSPENDED FOR TWO WEEKS

FROM LEAGUE PLAY,
FROM THE ALEXANDERS.

YOU BASICALLY THINK
THE WORLD IS OVER.

YOUR HOCKEY WORLD'S OVER,
YOUR DREAM IS DONE,

AND IN HINDSIGHT, IT WAS
A DUMB ASS THING TO DO.

I WANT TO TALK
ABOUT BOBBY PROBERT.

IS HE BEAUTIFUL,
OR IS HE BEAUTIFUL?

I MEAN HIS REPUTATION PRECEDED
HIM EVERY PLACE HE WENT,

AND BACK IN THOSE DAYS
HE WAS A GUNFIGHTER,

A YOUNG GUNFIGHTER.

THEY USED TO GO UP TO HIM
AND SAY, "YOU WANNA GO?

I GOTTA MAKE A
REPUTATION."

AND HE'D USUALLY WIN,
BUT IF THE GUY SURVIVED,

IT WOULD BE ALL RIGHT.

THE FIGHTING HAS
CHANGED QUITE A BIT.

BACK THEN IT WAS, YOU
KNOW, LET'S SEE WHO CAN

HIT THE HARDEST AND WHO
CAN KNOCK EACH OTHER DOWN.

HE WAS THE BIG BOY ON
THE BLOCK WITHOUT A DOUBT.

BOB PROBERT WAS
UNBELIEVABLE FOR ANY TEAM

HE PLAYED FOR, BECAUSE
WHENEVER HE WAS DRESSED

THE OTHER TEAM FEARED HIM
SO MUCH THAT EVERYBODY

ON HIS TEAM BECAME BIGGER,
STRONGER, BRAVER.

AND THEY ARE JUST
HAMMERING EACH OTHER!

MY GOODNESS, LOOK AT
THESE TWO TRADING PUNCHES!

WOW, MAN OH MAN.

THE NIGHT BEFORE, YOU HAVE
A DIFFICULT TIME SLEEPING.

OH, PROBERT JUST TOOK
MANSON TO THE ICE!

BOB PROBERT HITS BOB ROUSE,
AND THERE'S THE HELMET!

YOU'RE GOING TO SEE THE
PIECE OF HELMET COME RIGHT OFF.

PROBERT'S STILL LOOSE, HE'S
GOING TO GO AFTER MAGUIRE.

NOW HE COMES IN...

HE'S GOING TO GET
SUSPENDED WITHOUT A DOUBT,

THERE'S NO QUESTION.

WE'VE GOT PROBERT
GOING AT IT WITH EWAN.

I KNEW THAT WAS COMING.

OH! LOOK AT EWAN!

IF HE LOST A FIGHT, HE WOULD
FIGHT COMING OUT OF THE BOX.

I REMEMBER WE WERE
YOUNG AND IN ST LOUIS

AND HE FOUGHT TODD EWAN,
AND DOWN HE WENT.

AND THE WHOLE TIME IN THE BOX
I COULD SEE HIM JUST FUMING.

AND OF COURSE IN THE OLD
DAYS THEY CAME OUT OF THE BOX

AND RIGHT TO EACH OTHER,
AND BOB LANDED A LOT OF BLOWS.

IT WAS RETRIBUTION
OF "I CANT LOSE."

NOW PROBERT, AS HE DOES
SO OFTEN IN THESE FIGHTS,

AS IT GOES ON HE
SEEMS TO GAIN MOMENTUM,

AND NOW HE'S GOT EWAN
BACKPEDALING.

PROBERT HAS REALLY MESSED
UP HIS RIGHT HAND.

HE MAY HAVE CAUGHT
IT ON EWAN'S HELMET.

HE WOULD DO CRAZY THINGS.

HE HAD NO QUALMS ABOUT HITTING
A GOALIE, NONE WHATSOEVER.

DENIED BY KEANS.

KEANS TRAPS IT
BEHIND THE NET.

OH, AND DOWN ON THE ICE.

A HEAVY HIT.

KEANS JUST GOT
LEVELED BY PROBERT.

NOW WATCH PROBERT.

I DON'T WANT TO SAY
PROBERT'S TOUGH OR ANYTHING,

BUT KEEP YOUR
EYE ON BUTCHER.

NOW WATCH, RIENDEAU'S POINTING.
DON'T POINT AT PROBERT!

DON'T POINT AT PROBERT BECAUSE
BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO YOU!

ISN'T HE A BEAUTY?

THAT'S BRUTAL.

I KNOW, THAT'S TERRIBLE.

SITTING IN THE DRESSING
ROOM BEFORE A HOCKEY GAME,

HE AND I WOULD PULL OUT
THE ROSTER FOR THE OTHER TEAM

AND WE'D KIND OF PICK AND CHOOSE
WHO WAS GOING AFTER WHO FIRST.

WHO GETS TO RUN THE GOALIE
TONIGHT, BECAUSE WE KNEW

WHEN SOMEONE RAN THE GOALIE
THAT'S GOING TO BE A BRAWL.

IT WAS THE '80S. BACK IN
THE '80S, IT WAS SOCIAL.

IF YOU WERE OF THE MINDSET
THAT ME AND BOB WERE,

YOU COULD KEEP DRINKING
'CAUSE OF IT.

AND THE FIRST TIME YOU DID
IT, YOU KNEW COULD DRINK

FOR 4 MORE HOURS,
HELL, SCRATCH ME IN.

BOBBY WAS SO VALUABLE
TO THE TEAM, THEY LOOKED

THE OTHER WAY FOR A WHILE,
UNTIL IT HIT THE PAPERS.

THEY HAD TO TRY
AND DO SOMETHING.

THE CONCRETE OF THE LIGHT
STANDARD CRUMBLED TO THE GROUND.

HE CARRIED ON BEYOND THAT
AND DROVE THROUGH A WINDOW

OF THE RESTAURANT BAR, AND
HIS CAR ENDED UP RIGHT

AT THE BAR WHERE PEOPLE WERE
SEATED IN BAR STOOLS

IN THIS RESTAURANT.

HE HAD GOTTEN
INTO A FIGHT WITH SEVERAL

WINDSOR POLICE OFFICERS,
AND HE WAS BEATEN PRETTY BADLY.

KIND OF IMPRESSED
UPON HIM, YOU KNOW,

YOU'RE NOT A KID ANYMORE.

YOU'RE A PROFESSIONAL
ATHLETE NOW.

PEOPLE ARE WATCHING, PEOPLE
ARE GONNA BE TESTING YOU,

YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
SHOW SOME RESTRAINT.

HIS CROSS EXAMINATION
WENT SOMETHING LIKE THIS:

"MR. PROBERT,"I UNDERSTAND
THAT YOU ARE CONSIDERED

BY MANY TO BE THE HEAVYWEIGHT
CHAMPION OF THE NHL."

BOB FELL FOR IT AND WAS
QUITE PROUD TO ANNOUNCE,

YES, HE WAS INDEED
A HOCKEY PLAYER.

YES, HE WAS INDEED A
PRETTY GOOD FIGHTER,

AND HE WOULDN'T WANT
TO FIGHT HIMSELF,

HE WAS THAT GOOD.

SO WE HAD A BREAK IN
THE ACTION, AND THE CASE

WASN'T QUITE OVER, AND HE
CAME OUT DURING THE BREAK

AND HE SAID, "I WASN'T
VERY GOOD, WAS I?"

IN FRONT OF A
CRIMINAL JUDGE

WHERE IT'S ALLEGED THAT
YOU RESISTED ARREST

AND YOU FOUGHT SEVERAL OFFICERS,

AND ACTUALLY HAD THE BEST
OF THEM FOR A PERIOD OF TIME,

THOSE WERE NOT GOOD ANSWERS.

I DO REMEMBER THAT HE
DID BRING SOMEBODY HOME,

SOME GIRL. I DON'T KNOW.

SHE SEEMED LIKE A NICE GIRL,

BUT I DON'T THINK HE
SHOULD EVER HAVE DONE THAT.

EVEN SOME OF HIS
TREATMENT COUNSELORS

WOULD FALL FOR HIS LYING.

I'M THINKING, THESE ARE
SEASONED TREATMENT OFFICERS,

THEY SHOULD KNOW EVERYBODY
WITH THOSE ADDICTIONS

BECOMES A
CON MAN OR CON WOMEN.

AND HE COULD CON
ANYBODY INTO THINKING

THAT EVERYTHING WAS OKAY.

IT FIRST CAME TO LIGHT
THAT BOB TOTALED A CAR

AND WAS IN JAIL IN WINDSOR.

HOW YOU TOTAL A CAR IN
A 30-MILE PER HOUR ZONE

I DON'T KNOW, BUT BOB
MANAGED TO DO IT.

AND WE HAD A MEETING
THE NEXT DAY,

AND JIM LITES SAID,
"HOW CAN HE GET THIS WAY?

WHO'S FOLLOWING HIM?

WHO'S LOOKING
AFTER THIS GUY?"

AND NO ONE'S SAYING IN THE
ROOM, AND I LOOKED AROUND,

SO I PUT MY HAND UP.

AND THAT WAS THE BEGINNING
OF A TOUGH LOVE RELATIONSHIP.

WE WERE SELFISH, TOO.

WE KNEW HOW GOOD BOB WAS
AND HOW HE COULD HELP US,

SO WE DIDN'T FIX IT THE
WAY WE REALLY HAD TO FIX IT.

WE WANTED HIM CLEANED
UP IN TWO WEEKS.

HE SPENT A LIFETIME
GETTING THE WAY HE DID

AND WE THOUGHT WE COULD
FIX IT UP IN 7 TO 10 DAYS.

WE TRIED A LOT OF THINGS.

WE WENT TO ANTABUSE,
WHICH IS A PILL YOU TAKE

THAT MAKES YOU VIOLENTLY
ILL WHEN YOU DRINK.

WE'RE STANDING AROUND
PRACTICE ONE DAY

AND WE COULD SMELL IT,
AND WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER,

"WHO DRANK LAST NIGHT?"

HE SAID, "WELL, I CHANGED
THE PILLS IN YOUR OFFICE IN

THE CONTAINER," SO I WAS GIVING
HIM AN ADVIL OR SOMETHING.

THERE WASN'T JUST
ONE PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR.

I THINK HE HAD
A TEAM OF PEOPLE

THAT WOULD KIND OF
KEEP TABS ON BOB.

IT DIDN'T LAST LONG, NONE
OF THE NEWS WAS VERY GOOD.

THERE WERE A LOT OF
PROBERT JERSEYS IN THERE.

I'D SAY THERE WERE MORE
PROBERT JERSEYS IN THERE

THAN THERE WAS ANY OTHER
JERSEYS THAT I REMEMBER.

SO BOB WAS AN
ASSET TO THEM.

IF HE WASN'T
AN ASSET, TRUST ME,

THEY WOULDN'T HAVE PUT UP
WITH HIM AS LONG AS THEY DID.

HE WAS ALMOST MR. DETROIT,
AND IT WAS ALMOST LIKE

HE CAN DO
ANYTHING IN DETROIT

AND GET AWAY WITH IT BECAUSE
HE WAS SO BIG AND DETROIT,

AND HE WAS LOVED
BY HIS TEAMMATES.

HE'S THE BADDEST GUY
ON ICE, YOU KNOW?

WHEN PROBIE AND I CAME TO
DETROIT BACK IN THE EARLY

OR MID-80S, THE WINGS
WEREN'T WINNING.

PEOPLE STARTED
TALKING TO US

AND CALLING US
THE BRUISE BROTHERS.

THE TEAM WILL SCORE A GOAL,

THERE WOULDN'T BE A WHOLE
LOT OF PEOPLE STANDING UP.

BUT EVERY TIME SOMEONE
DROPPED THEIR GLOVES,

THE ENTIRE STADIUM STOOD UP.

NOBODY WANTED
TO PLAY AGAINST HIM.

HE SCORES 29 GOALS THAT YEAR
AND 398 PENALTY MINUTES.

PLAYS IN THE
ALL-STAR GAME.

HE SCORES! BOB PROBERT!

HE WAS JUST THAT VALUABLE.

FROM THE DETROIT RED WINGS
IN HIS ALL-STAR GAME DEBUT,

ONE OF THE MOST RUGGED
PLAYERS IN THE LEAGUE,

NUMBER 24, RIGHT
WINGER BOB PROBERT!

NOW COMES PROBERT.
GRETZKY FIRES. HE SCORES!

THE ABILITY TO
SCORE 20 OR MORE GOALS

AND THE ABILITY TO OPERATE
AS THE HEAVYWEIGHT CHAMPION

OF THE NHL FOR THE
MAJORITY OF HIS CAREER,

I THINK YOU'D BE HARD PRESSED
TO FIND THAT COMBINATION,

THAT PACKAGE, IN ONE PERSON
THROUGHOUT ALL OF NHL HISTORY.

IT'S PRETTY RARE.

THERE WAS EIGHT OR
TEN OTHER PLAYERS THERE,

A COUPLE THAT WERE PLAYING,

AND A LOT OF GUYS WHO WERE
HURT, AND BOB WAS THERE.

AND I WAS MORE UPSET THAT
THEY ALLOWED BOB TO DRINK

WHEN THEY ALL KNEW
THE PROBLEM HE HAD.

I LOOKED AT HIM I SAID,
"SO UNDERSTAND KLIMA

AND PROBIE WERE OUT
DRINKING LAST NIGHT."

AND THE DEMER'S FACE JUST
KIND OF TURNED WHITE.

HE TOOK A DEEP BREATH
AND HE LEANED BACK

AND HE SPILLED HIS GUTS.

HE TOLD US EVERYTHING,
EVERYTHING,

WHICH WAS HIGHLY UNUSUAL.

WE LET JACQUES
JUST GO ON AND ON ABOUT

HOW DEVASTATED HE WAS, HOW
DISAPPOINTED HE WAS,

HOW HIS PLAYERS WERE
A BUNCH OF IDIOTS, HOW THEY

LET THEIR TEAMMATES DOWN,
AND ON, AND ON, AND ON.

TURNED OUT TO BE
A PRETTY GOOD STORY.

GRETZKY HELD IT IN, THEY SCORE!

THERE'S BOB PROBERT PICTURED
ON THE FRONT PAGE HERE.

AND HEADLINE IS "RED WINGS
STAR MISSES KEY GOAL:

STAYING SOBER.

"ONE NIGHT AFTER BOB PROBERT
BROKE GORDIE HOWE'S

REDWINGS PLAYOFF
SCORING RECORD,

HE BROKE HIS COACH'S HEART."

THIS ABOUT THE GOOSE LOONIES
INCIDENT IN EDMONTON.

THE COUPLE OF STORIES WE'VE
HAD THE LAST FEW DAYS

HAVE BEEN REINSTATED
THAT I WAS RIGHT

BECAUSE OF WHAT
HAPPENED LAST NIGHT.

KEITH GAVE WAS A WRITER
FOR THE DETROIT FREE PRESS.

VERY, VERY NEGATIVE.

WAS HITTING THE
PAPERS ALL THE TIME.

PROBIE'S CAREER MISCONDUCT
CHRONOLOGY IT'S CALLED,

AND IT GOES ON PAGE, AFTER
PAGE, AFTER PAGE OF HIS ISSUES

WITH ALCOHOL
AND OTHER THINGS.

JULY 2ND, 1986:
CHARGED WITH ASSAULTING

A POLICE OFFICER AFTER
A SCUFFLE AT A WINDSOR BAR.

SHOCKER.

DISCHARGED
FROM A MINNESOTA HOSPITAL

AFTER TREATMENT
FOR ALCOHOLISM.

THIS IS 1986.

THIS IS RIGHT AFTER HIS
ROOKIE SEASON IN THE NHL.

AND IT GOES ON PAGE,
AFTER PAGE, AFTER PAGE.

JACQUES CREATED A
CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MESS.

THE RUMOURS HAD GONE
AS FAR AS THE EARS

OF COACH JASQUES DEMERS...

I GOTTA TELL YOU THIS, TOO.

I HAD WRITTEN SO MUCH
ABOUT BOB PROBERT,

AND PETR KLIMA, AND OTHERS.

I FELT LIKE A HYPOCRITE
WRITING ABOUT THE THINGS

I HAD TO WRITE ABOUT.

THE ONLY DIFFERENCE
BETWEEN BOB PROBERT AND ME

IS THAT HE GOT
CAUGHT AND I DIDN'T.

I'M GUILTY OF
THE SAME THINGS.

MANY OF US ARE.

HAVING A FEW DRINKS
IN THE PRESS BOX,

FINISHING UP MY STORY,
HITTING LAST CALL,

DRIVING HOME CERTAINLY
PAST THE LEGAL LIMIT.

I COULD HAVE GOT CAUGHT AND
NAILED ANY NUMBER OF TIMES.

I DIDN'T.
I WAS LUCKIER THAN HIM.

I MET BOB AT THE FRONT
DESK AT THE RELAX PLAZA

HERE IN WINDSOR.

HE WAS STAYING THERE,
HAD A LITTLE HIATUS.

HE WAS HAVING SOME PROBLEMS
WITH HIS VISA, I THINK.

HIS WORK VISA.

THE CHEMISTRY WAS JUST THERE.

WE WENT ON OUR FIRST DATE

AND WENT TO A
CHINESE FOOD RESTAURANT

THAT HIS DAD HAD JUST
LOVED IN DOWNTOWN WINDSOR.

AND WE ENJOYED THAT, AND
THEN WE WENT OUT FOR SOME

FROZEN YOGURT, AND IT WAS HIS
FIRST TIME FOR FROZEN YOGURT,

AND I FELL FOR THE "THIS
DOESN'T SMELL RIGHT, SMELL THIS"

AND I GOT YOGURT UP
MY NOSE. WASN'T THAT CUTE?

SO I WAS JUST, I DUNNO.
EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM,

HE WAS JUST ADORABLE.
HE REALLY WAS.

I SAID STAY AWAY FROM HIM.
ALL MY INSTINCTS WENT UP.

HE LOOKED LIKE TROUBLE.

COCAINE MADE HIM SLOW DOWN.

MOST TIMES IT SPEEDS YOU UP,
BUT WITH BOB IT SLOWED HIM DOWN.

ONE OF THE THINGS,
BOB NEVER GOT ARRESTED

WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER.

I GUESS HE DID GET ARRESTED,

BECAUSE WE GOT IN
A SCRAP IN DALLAS.

YOU KNOW WHAT, I THINK WE
JUST WENT HARDER THAN OTHERS.

I THINK THAT'S BASICALLY
HOW I CAN SUM THAT UP.

I REMEMBER HIM TELLING
ME PLAYING AGAINST

THE NEW YORK ISLANDERS,
AND NOT REMEMBERING

EVEN BEING ON THE ICE,
HE WAS SO HIGH.

THAT WAS A DRUG THAT WAS
WIDELY USED IN THE NHL.

LOOK OUT, CHELIOS IS
GOING TO GET IT NOW.

IT'S PRETTY SCARY WHEN
YOU GET A GUY CHASING YOU

AROUND ON THE ICE
THAT'S DOING COCAINE.

IT SEEMS LIKE IT GAVE
YOU THIS CRAZY STRENGTH

AND, YOU KNOW, THIS ENERGY.

SO IT WAS DANGEROUS.

CHELIOS COULD
BE VULNERABLE.

I'M SAYING,
IT'S NOT RIGHT, YOU KNOW,

YOU'RE ON THAT SHIT
AND YOU'RE RUNNING AROUND.

AND PROBIE WAS
ACTUALLY REALLY SINCERE

AND SOMEBODY GOES,
"YOU'RE RIGHT."

I THINK THE FIRST TIME
I REALLY DID NOTICE

WAS THE NIGHT HE WAS
CAUGHT AT THE BORDER.

TO BACK IT UP, WE WERE AT
THE BAR IN WINDSOR,

AND WATCHING HIM BEHIND
THE BAR AND DRINKING

OUT OF THE BOTTLE,
AND IT WAS LIKE A SWITCH,

SEEING SOMETHING THAT
I'D NEVER SEEN BEFORE.

LIKE THIS NON STOP,
COULDN'T STOP.

THEN GOING THROUGH THE TUNNEL,
HIM SCRAMBLING TO HIDE THINGS.

LAST NIGHT IT WAS THE RED
WINGS VERSUS THE ISLANDERS.

TODAY IT'S THE PEOPLE
OF THE UNITED STATES

VERSUS ROBERT ALLEN PROBERT.

THE RED WINGS STAR COULD
FACE UP TO 20 YEARS IN PRISON

IF CONVICTED OF
DRUG SMUGGLING CHARGES.

CUSTOMS INSPECTORS STOPPED
HIM AND THREE COMPANIONS

AS THEY REACHED
THE AMERICAN SIDE

OF THE DETROIT/WINDSOR TUNNEL.

IT WAS 5:15 a.m.

IF CUSTOMS' VERSION IS TRUE,

PROBERT WAS ALMOST
INVITING A SEARCH.

THE EXAMINING CUSTOMS
OFFICER SAW THAT

HIS IMMIGRATION
DOCUMENT HAD EXPIRED,

THEY NOTICED
EMPTY LIQUOR CONTAINERS

AND BEER CANS IN THE VEHICLE.

A CHECK OF PROBERT'S
POCKETS REVEALED A MILL,

A DEVICE OFTEN USED
TO GRIND COCAINE.

A STRIP SEARCH FOLLOWED.

INSPECTORS SAY THEY FOUND
14.3 GRAMS OF COCAINE

IN PROBERT'S UNDERWEAR.

I THINK HE REALLY
WANTED TO GET CAUGHT,

AND TALKING TO HIM LATER
ON HE BASICALLY SAID THAT.

ONE OF THE CUSTOMS
IMMIGRATION OFFICERS SAID

TO HIM, ACCORDING TO BOB, "DO
YOU WANT TO GO IN THE WASHROOM?"

BOB SAID, "NO."

HE SAID, "NO, DO YOU WANT
TO GO IN THE WASHROOM?

MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO
IN THE WASHROOM."

AND BOB FINALLY GOT THE HINT
THAT GUY WAS HELPING HIM OUT.

BOB HAD SOME COCAINE WITH
HIM, A WHOLE BUNCH OF COCAINE,

AND THE OFFICERS
SAID MAYBE YOU WANT

TO FLUSH IT DOWN THE TOILET.

AND BOB WAS READY TO FLUSH
IT DOWN THE TOILET, SAID,

"I CAN'T DO THAT."

SO HE SAID, YOU KNOW
"I SNIFFED IT ALL IN.

I LOOKED LIKE I WAS HAVING
A POWDERED JELLY DOUGHNUT

WHEN I WALKED OUT OF THERE."

I WAS 21 YEARS OLD, SO THE
STRIP SEARCH WAS TERRIFYING.

AND THE QUESTIONING...

NOW THAT I LOOK BACK, IT
SEEMS LIKE MAYBE 15-20 MINUTES,

BUT PROBABLY
21-YEAR-OLD DANI

WAS PROBABLY FEELING
LIKE IT WAS AN ETERNITY.

AFTER THAT I REMEMBER
THE SUN COMING UP

AND EVERYTHING
HITTING THE NEWS.

PROBERT IS SCHEDULED BACK
IN COURT MARCH 22ND.

HE FACES NOT
ONLY A JAIL TERM

BUT BANISHMENT OF
THE NATIONAL HOCKEY LEAGUE.

AND THE IMMIGRATION AND
NATURALIZATION SERVICE

SAYS IT WILL SEEK
TO DEPORT PROBERT

REGARDLESS OF THE OUTCOME
OF THIS DRUG CASE.

THE ARREST OF BOB PROBERT
ON COCAINE CHARGES

COULD CERTAINLY
DEVASTATE HIS CAREER.

TODAY'S NEWS COMES AS A
TREMENDOUS DISAPPOINTMENT

TO THE RED WINGS.

HIS DRINKING PROBLEM
HAS BEEN WELL DOCUMENTED.

HE'S BEEN IN ALCOHOL
REHABILITATION CLINICS

5 TIMES IN THE PAST.

OFFICIALS FOUND OVER 14 GRAMS
OF COCAINE IN HIS POSSESSION.

FOR PROBERT, A POSSIBLE
JAIL TERM IN HIS FUTURE.

FOR THE REDWINGS, A
HIDDEN SIGH OF RELIEF.

FOR SOME REASON
CAN'T HELP HIMSELF.

ARE DRUGS THE DEMON
THAT'S RUINED HIM?

DO THOSE CLOSES TO HIM HAVE
TO SHARE THE RESPONSIBLY

FOR HIS DEMISE, OR IS PROBERT
BENT ON SELF DESTRUCTION?

A CRUEL AND WILLING
ACCOMPLICE IN OWN RUINATION?

YOU KNOW, IF SOMEBODY
RUNS AFOUL OF THE RULES

THEY OUGHT TO SUFFER
THE CONSEQUENCES.

I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE
EXPRESSED THAT.

I FEEL SORRY
FOR HIS PARENTS.

AND IT'S A ROUGH MARK
FOR THE CITY OF WINDSOR.

I THINK HE SHOULD
BE THROWN IN JAIL.

YOU DON'T HAVE ANY
SYMPATHY FOR HIM?

NO, HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN
KICKED OUT OF THE NHL

A LONG TIME AGO.

THE MEDIA COVERAGE I DON'T
EVEN THINK WAS GUILTY

OF SENSATIONALIZING WHEN
THEY, YOU KNOW, PREDICTED

THAT IT WAS THE END
OF HIS CAREER, YOU KNOW

THAT HE WOULD MOST
CERTAINLY BE INCARCERATED,

MOST CERTAINLY BE
DEPORTED UPON COMPLETION

OF HIS INCARCERATION.

AND YOU KNOW,
AND OFF IT WENT.

FOR ALL YOU KIDS OUT THERE,
ALL YOU YOUNG HOCKEY PLAYERS,

I JUST WANT
TO SAY SOMETHING.

THINK OF SOMETHING WHEN
SOMEBODY OFFERS YOU JUNK

OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT,
THINK OF BOB PROBERT.

HERE'S A GUY, BIG GUY,
6' 3", 3-YEAR CONTRACT.

HE HAD DETROIT IN
THE PALM OF HIS HAND,

EVERYBODY LOVED HIM,
COACH LOVED HIM.

HE WALKED INTO A ROOM AND
EVERY EYE TURNED TO HIM.

NOW IT'S ALL GONE.

I DO SYMPATHIZE OR
HAVE SYMPATHY FOR BOBBY,

BECAUSE I THINK HIS PROBLEMS
GO BEYOND HIS OWN CONTROL.

I THINK EVEN IF HE WANTED
TO CHANGE HE NEEDED

MORE HELP THAN JUST
HIMSELF TO DO IT.

HE'S GOTTA GET HIS LIFE
STRAIGHTENED OUT,

AND UNTIL HE DOES THAT,

HE'S NOT REALLY GOOD
TO HIMSELF OR TO US.

FIRST COUPLE TIMES YOU
SAY, WELL HE SCREWED UP,

LET'S GIVE HIM A CHANCE.

BUT IT'S BEEN ABOUT
MAYBE 12-15 TIMES,

SO I DON'T THINK WE FEEL
SORRY FOR HIM NOW.

PROBERT WALKED
INTO THE COURTHOUSE

NOT KNOWING IF HE WOULD
WALK OUT AGAIN A FREE MAN.

FACING PATRICK DUGGEN, THE
TEARS WELLED UP IN HIS EYES

AS HE TRIED TO SPEAK.

PROBERT TOLD THE JUDGE
THAT HE WAS SORRY

FOR WHAT HE HAD DONE, SORRY
HE HAD LET HIS TEAMMATES,

HIS FAMILY, HIS FRIENDS,
AND HIS FANS DOWN.

IT REALLY HURT TO SEE
PEOPLE I LET DOWN

THAT STILL CARE ABOUT ME.

WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE ABLE
TO PLAY HOCKEY SOMEDAY?

I WOULD LIKE TO GET
BACK INTO HOCKEY.

I DO MISS IT.

THERE ARE A FEW OBSTACLES
IN THE WAY RIGHT NOW,

BUT YES, I WOULD LIKE TO
PLAY HOCKEY AGAIN SOMEDAY.

I REMEMBER VISITING
BOB IN ROCHESTER,

MINNESOTA, WHEN HE WAS AT
THE FEDERAL FACILITY THERE.

I'D NEVER BEEN TO
A FEDERAL PRISON BEFORE.

IT WAS AN INTIMIDATING
THING, YOU KNOW.

THEY TAKE YOUR
THEY FINGERPRINT,

AND YOU GO IN THERE TO VISIT.

AND WE PROBABLY SPENT
AN HOUR WITH BOB VISITING.

HE WAS, YOU KNOW,
NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS,

AS YOU WOULD EXPECT
A 24-YEAR-OLD GUY TO BE.

PROBIE TAKES THE ICE,

AND I MEAN I GET CHILLS
THINKING ABOUT IT.

YOU KNOW, THE CROWD
STARTS CHANTING HIS NAME.

AND THE CROWD REACTING TO
NUMBER 24, BOB PROBERT,

TAKING HIS FIRST
SHIFT THIS AFTERNOON.

AND WATCH WHAT HAPPENS HERE.

PROBERT STEPS ON THE
STICK RIGHT THERE.

WELL, BOB I DON'T THINK
HAD REALLY LOST A FIGHT

UP UNTIL THAT POINT,
SO IT WAS A BIG THING.

AND MOMENTUM STARTED
BUILDING LIKE I WAS THE NEW

UP AND COMING GUY AND
HE WAS THE REIGNING KING,

SO THE HYPE GREW.

THEY SAID, LET'S GO,
LET'S GO, AND AWAY THEY GO.

CROWDER GETS A COUPLE
OF EARLY ONES IN.

I ALWAYS SAID IT WAS KIND
OF LIKE RIDING A BULL.

YOU'D BETTER HOLD ON, YOU'D
BETTER STAY ON TOP OF IT

BECAUSE HE SEEMED
TO GET MORE WORKED UP

AS THE FIGHT WENT ON.

FACE TO FACE RIGHT IN
FRONT OF THE NEW JERSEY BENCH.

PROBERT GETS
A RIGHT TO CROWDER...

WHOA! PROBERT NAILS...
HE KNOCKS HIM DOWN!

I KNOW RON MACLEAN AND DON
CHERRY HAD DROVE DOWN

TO COME WATCH THE GAME.

WE'VE GOT A FIGHT
COMING UP HERE! SHOW IT!

ALL RIGHT, HERE WE GO!

NOW WATCH THE
HELMET GO FLYING.

THIS IS A GREAT FIGHT,
THIS IS A RETURN OF

PROBERT AND CROWDER
AND 20,000 PEOPLE.

THIS IS KNOCKOUT
COMING UP HERE.

RON MACLEAN AND I,
WE WENT TO DETROIT,

AND IT WAS LIKE A HEAVYWEIGHT
CHAMPIONSHIP FIGHT.

IT WAS UNBELIEVABLE.

IN DETROIT, THEY DIDN'T CARE,
THE PUCK WAS IN THE FAR END,

THEY JUST KEPT THEIR
EYE ON BOB AND TROY.

AND SURE ENOUGH,
THEY GET INTO IT.

AND BOB HIT TROY
SO HARD HIS HELMET

WENT ABOUT TEN FEET IN THE AIR.
AND THEY HAD TWO BEAUTIES.

EVERYBODY KNOWS, I DON'T
THINK HE EVER GOT BEAT.

HE MIGHT BE
BEAT BY SOMEBODY,

BUT I DON'T REMEMBER HIM
EVER BEING BEAT.

LOOK AT THIS, YOU'VE GOT
GRIMSON, THAT'S PROBERT,

AND HERE THEY GO.

GRIMSON CAME RIGHT OFF OF
THE CHICAGO BENCH,

CAME AFTER PROBERT,
AND WAS YELLING AT HIM,

HE WANTED HIM TO GO.
AND HE GOT HIS WISH.

I THINK IT HAD A LOT TO DO WITH
JUST HIS PERSONAL DISREGARD

FOR HIS OWN
PHYSICAL WELLBEING.

HE WASN'T THE LEAST BIT
CONCERNED ABOUT GETTING HIT.

THE EMOTIONAL DRAIN OF
HAVING TO GET UP FOR A BATTLE

WITH A GUY LIKE PROBERT,

THAT CAN REALLY
CONSUME YOUR THOUGHTS

AND YOUR STATE OF MIND.

YOU JUST FEEL LIKE THERE'S
NO WAY YOU COULD HURT HIM.

HE HAD THAT BOB
PROBERT LOOK LIKE,

"I WANT TO KILL YOU."

PROBERT AND SIMPSON DROP
THE GLOVES AT CENTER!

HE WANTED TO KILL YOU
EVERY TIME YOU FOUGHT.

AND PROBERT
GOT IN ANOTHER!

AN UPPERCUT LANDED
FROM PROBERT,

AND NOW HE'S PLUGGING AWAY.

WITH THE RIGHT HAND LOOSE,
GOT A COUPLE INTO PROBERT.

PROBERT HASN'T EVEN
BEGUN TO FIGHT YET.

THERE WAS TWO SIDES OF BOB

AND YOU JUST DIDN'T
WANT TO BE ON THE WRONG ONE.

WE'VE GOT PROBERT AND TWIST,
TWO OF THE HEAVYWEIGHTS.

FOR BOB'S GENERATION OF HOCKEY,
HE WAS THE MEASURING STICK.

GOT TO STACK UP.

IF YOU'RE THE MEASURING STICK,
THAT MEANS YOU'RE THE MAN.

THESE GUYS ARE PURE
HEAVYWEIGHTS OF THIS LEAGUE.

YOU'RE GOING TO FIGHT THE
BIGGEST KID AT YOUR SCHOOL

IN THE FIELD AND
EVERYBODY'S GONNA WATCH.

WHEN HE WAS IN HIS WILD
AND CRAZY DAYS IN DETROIT,

YOU NEVER KNEW
WHAT HE WAS GOING TO DO.

DETROIT COMES AWAY AND
THE FIGHT'S ON BOB PROBERT.

OH MAN, JEREMY
ROENICK AND PROBERT.

NOW THE BLACKHAWKS
ARE TRYING TO GET IN.

THEY'VE GOT TO GET IN.
THERE'S NO CHOICE HERE.

JEREMY ROENICK IS A TOUGH
KID THAT'S A GAMER,

BUT FOR HIM TO STAND
TOE-TO-TOE WITH BOB PROBERT...

IT WAS THAT THAT SENSE
OF NOT KNOWING,

THAT SOMETIMES WAS MORE
FEARFUL ABOUT BOB.

PROBERT AGAIN, SENDS IT IN.

PROBERT AND MCSORLEY,
PROBERT TOOK A SWING AT HIM!

PROBERT AND MCSORLEY,
THEY'RE BUMPING!

THEY'RE NOT
DONE YET, OH NO.

THEY CAN'T STEP
INTO THESE PUNCHES.

THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST
FIGHTS I'VE EVER SEEN.

I'VE NEVER SEEN
ONE GO THIS LONG.

HIS BROTHER DIDN'T
WANT HIM MARRYING ME.

HE WAS GOING TO
GET A STACK OF MONEY

AND HEAD TO VEGAS
WITH HIS BROTHER.

I THINK IT WAS MY MAID
OF HONOR AND MY MOM

DISCUSSING IN THE HALLWAY
A LITTLE BIT OF, YEAH,

THEY'RE LOOKING FOR BOB,
THEY COULDN'T FIND BOB,

AND I WAS DETECTING A LITTLE
BIT OF PANIC IN THE ROOM.

IT JUST WAS A
TRAIN WRECK, RIGHT?

IT WASN'T A SMOOTH
TRANSITION TO GET BOB

TO THE WEDDING FACILITY,
I CAN TELL YOU THAT.

BOB, I'D JUST LIKE TO
SAY TAKE CARE OF OUR BABY.

YOU'RE THE SON THAT
LESLIE NEVER HAD.

YOU'VE TAKEN A DAUGHTER
THAT'S VERY PRECIOUS TO US,

AND WE LOVE YOU
BOTH VERY MUCH,

AND WE WISH YOU THE BEST
OF LIFE FROM HERE ON IN.

THE SWIRL OF ACTIVITY
THAT ALWAYS SURROUNDED BOB

WAS NOT SOMETHING I WAS EVER
REALLY COMFORTABLE WITH.

YOU KNOW, IT WAS
A FRENETIC PACE.

IT WAS JUST HIGH ENERGY,
IS PROBABLY THE BEST WAY...

ANYTHING HE DID WAS
ALWAYS HIGH ENERGY.

NEEDLESS TO SAY, ON JULY
3, 1993, 45 MINUTES LATE,

WE DID GET MARRIED.
IT HAPPENED.

HERE IS THE NEWLYWEDS,
BOBBY AND DANI!

IS SHE BEAUTIFUL OR WHAT?

LISTEN, I'VE GOT TO
ASK YOU THE QUESTION:

IS HE AS TOUGH AT HOME
AS HE IS ON THE ICE?

BIG TEDDY BEAR.

BIG TEDDY BEAR!
PUSH YOU AROUND, EH?

COME ON! HOLY COW, LOOK AT THAT!
SHE'S A BIG ONE.

I SPOKE LATER TO ONE OF
THE ARRESTING OFFICERS

THAT WAS THERE, AND HE TOLD
ME THAT WHEN HE LEANED OVER

BOB TRYING TO FIND OUT IF
HE WAS OKAY, BOB SAID

TO THE OFFICER, "JUST
ARREST ME WITH THE USUAL."

HE WAS HANDCUFFED TO A BED
IN THE ROOM WHEN I WALKED IN.

AND HE CRIED
WHEN HE SAW ME.

HE CRIED WHEN HE SAW ME IN MY
FULL EIGHT MONTHS OF PREGNANCY.

HE WAS ALWAYS WORRIED
ABOUT HURTING ME,

OR HURTING THE KIDS, THE PAIN
HE CAUSED OTHERS,

SO HIM LAYING EYES ON ME,
SEEING ME WADDLE IN,

IT HIT HIM AND HE KNEW
HE SCREWED UP BIG.

THE MEDIA IS ONCE
AGAIN BLOWN UP.

THEY HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO
THINK THAT HIS CAREER'S OVER,

THEN IT'S ANNOUNCED
IN THE MEDIA THAT

THE RED WINGS
HAVE CUT HIM LOOSE.

THE PHONE RINGS.

THEY'RE INVITING US TO COME
TO CHICAGO IN THE NEXT DAY.

24 HOURS LATER, BOB AND
I ARE IN MR. WIRTZ'S

BEAUTIFUL TOWN HOUSE ON
LAKE DRIVE IN CHICAGO.

AND AN ACCIDENT THAT
SHOULD HAVE KILLED HIM

TOOK HIM TO A MILLION
DOLLAR ANNUAL RAISE.

UM... OKAY.

THE STRAPS GO IN
THE BACK, RIGHT?

EVERYTHING CHANGED.
EVERYTHING CHANGED INSTANTLY.

GOING TO CHICAGO,
IT WAS FULL TIME RECOVERY.

SO HE HAD EIGHT YEARS
OF SOBRIETY IN CHICAGO.

WHAT DO YOU SAY WHEN
YOU KNOCK ON THE DOOR?

TRICK OR TREAT.
TRICK OR TREAT.

WHICH ONE'S YOUR FAVOURITE
PUMPKIN, BROGAN?

TRICK OR TREAT!

JUST LIKE THAT.

WHICH ONE'S YOUR
FAVOURITE PUMPKIN?

WHICH ONE DO
YOU LIKE BETTER?

THAT ONE.

YEAH, THAT'S DADDY'S.

ALL OF THE CUSHIONS OFF THE
COUCH AND US BOUNCING AROUND,

WHERE THERE WAS
JUMPING ON THE BED,

OR LISTENING TO OLDIES
AND HAVING A GOOD TIME,

AND BOB DANCING WITH THE KIDS
AND EACH OF THEM GETTING

THROWN AROUND AND
HAVING SO MUCH FUN.

EVERYTHING WAS
ADRENALINE BASED.

IT HAD TO BE ON
THE BOAT, TUBING,

IT HAD TO BE ON THE DIRT
BIKES, ON THE FOUR-WHEELERS,

ON THE MOTORCYCLES.

LIKE WE WERE ON
MOTORCYCLES BEFORE

WE COULD EVEN WALK,
WE WERE SITTING WITH HIM.

SO EVERYTHING WAS JUST
ON THE GO ALL THE TIME.

HE LOVED HIS DUCK CALL,

WHICH I'M SURE THE
OTHER KIDS WILL SAY THAT.

THAT DUCK CALL,
HE'D BE LIKE,

FROM A MILE AWAY.

THIS I'VE GOT TO GET.

BIG BOB.

PROFESSIONAL ATHLETE,
RIGHT THERE.

OH MY GOD, YOU'RE
SO GRACEFUL!

THE FIRST HALF
OF HIS CAREER

WHERE HE WASN'T
LOOKING AT YOU,

HE JUST SEEMED TO BE STARING
PAST YOU, AND YOU WERE,

YOU WERE ALMOST A NON-ENTITY
IN THE EQUATION.

HE HAD JUST THIS KIND OF
FACELESS COUNTENANCE ALMOST,

AND YOU WERE WAGING WAR
WITH THIS INANIMATE BEING.

I DIDN'T SEE THAT
THAT SAME VERSION OF BOB

TOWARDS THE END
OF HIS CAREER.

HE SEEMS FAR MORE HUMAN, FAR
MORE MORTAL THAN HE USED TO.

HE WAS IN THE LAST
YEAR HIS CONTRACT

AND HE WASN'T UNDER
THAT DRUG, ALCOHOL,

OR GAMBLING POLICY AT THE
BEGINNING OF THE YEAR

AND YOU JUST SAW HIM SLOWLY
STARTING TO FALL OFF

THE WAGON A LITTLE BIT.

YOU KNOW THEY CALL
HIM THE NIGHT BEFORE,

AND AS SOON AS THE DOOR
KNOCKED HE KNEW IT WAS A GUY

WHO WAS TAKING HIS
SAMPLE, AND BEFORE

HE ANSWERED THE DOOR YOU
WOULD TAKE THAT URINE

THAT WAS CLEAN AND PUT
IN THE MICROWAVE FOR,

I DON'T KNOW, A SMALL
AMOUNT OF SECONDS.

HE KNEW THAT TEMPERATURE WHERE
THE PEE HAS TO BE FOR WHEN

THEY TAKE A TEMPERATURE
SO THEY KNOW IT'S REAL.

IF HE WANTED TO DO SOMETHING,
HE FOUND WAYS TO DO IT.

HIS INTAKE OF PILLS
WAS PRETTY EXCESSIVE.

I REMEMBER HE WOULD
TAKE OXY 80S, AND WHAT

HE WOULD DO IS DIP THEM
IN COCA-COLA TO TAKE THE

TIMED RELEASE OFF AND USE ONE
OF THOSE FOOT FILE SCRAPERS,

SCRAPE THEM DOWN
AND SNORT THEM.

I HATED SEEING IT,
AND I REMEMBER HIM DOING

UP TO 18 A DAY, AND THAT'S
ENOUGH TO KILL ANYBODY.

IT WAS LEGIT.
HE HAD BACK PAIN.

THERE WERE DAYS WHERE I
HAD TO PUSH HIM OUT OF BED

WITH BOTH FEET TO
HELP HIM GET UP.

THERE'S NO DENYING HE
WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN.

BUT THE DOCTOR WAS QUICK
TO PRESCRIBE THE OPIOIDS.

I THINK IN THE END,

THE OPIATES GOT AHOLD
OF HIM AND TOOK HIM DOWN.

YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER
BOB WAS IN A LOT OF FIGHTS

AND HE LIVED
IN BODILY PAIN DAILY.

AND THAT'S
WHAT THEY GAVE HIM,

AND THEY'RE SO EASY
TO GET ADDICTED TO.

HOCKEY PLAYERS
ABUSE THEIR BODIES.

FIGHTERS REALLY
ABUSED THEIR BODY.

LIKE YOU'RE JAMMING SHOULDERS
AND BACKS AND NECKS AND HANDS,

AND SO I HAD
MANY, MANY FRIENDS

THAT WERE FIGHTERS
THAT DID A LOT OF PILLS.

I DON'T THINK THE AVERAGE
EVERYDAY PERSON DOESN'T -

WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND
THE PUNISHMENT

WE PUT OUR BODIES
THROUGH EVERY DAY.

THE STRESS, THE STRAIN,
THE BEATING,

AND I MEAN IT'S CONSTANT,
AND IT'S EVERY DAY.

I COULD TELL YOU, BUT
YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE.

HE HAD CTE.

DR. MCKEE, IN THE
CONFERENCE CALL THAT WE HAD,

BASICALLY WAS SAYING THAT
ON A SCALE OF ONE TO FOUR,

HE WAS A TWO,
BORDERING ON A THREE.

YOU CAN'T SIT THERE AND
SPECULATE WHETHER OR NOT

HE WOULD HAVE HAD DEMENTIA,
EARLY ONSET DEMENTIA,

ALZHEIMERS, BUT
THE LIKELIHOOD WAS YES.

I REMEMBER JUST PLAYING HIDE
AND SEEK WITH HIM ONE DAY

AND I WAS, I KID YOU NOT,
PROBABLY THE SAME SPACE

BETWEEN ME AND YOU,
I WAS STANDING RIGHT

IN FRONT OF HIM AND HE
HONESTLY COULDN'T EVEN SEE ME.

IT'S LIKE I WASN'T
EVEN THERE TO HIM.

AND I WAS LITERALLY
TALKING TO HIM,

HE WAS JUST, LIKE,
VERY CONFUSED.

YOU COULD BRING UP
SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED

A COUPLE OF HOURS AGO
AND HE WOULDN'T KNOW,

OR HE WOULDN'T REMEMBER.

I DON'T WANT TO
GET ON THAT SHIT.

IF I GET INTO CONCUSSIONS,
YOU NOTICE ON COACH'S CORNER,

I NEVER TALK
ABOUT CONCUSSIONS,

BECAUSE YOU'RE REALLY
GETTING INTO SOMETHING.

YOU GUYS BETTER
BE VERY CAREFUL

BECAUSE THAT'S A
TOUCHY SUBJECT RIGHT NOW.

HE'S GOT THE MACHINEGUN.

BOY OH BOY, HE HIT HIM
RIGHT ON THE BUTTON.

THE REASON I HAD TO
LEAVE THE GAME ULTIMATELY

WAS DUE TO
POST CONCUSSION SYNDROME.

DOMI COME UP WITH A HIT.
DOMI IS HIT HIMSELF.

DOMI'S TOUGH,

BUT YOU CAN SEE HE WENT
HEADFIRST INTO THE GLASS.

I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.

I ALWAYS TELL DOCTORS THAT
ARE TRYING TO GET ME IN THESE

SCANNING MACHINES, I DON'T WANT
TO BREAK THEIR MACHINES.

BUT THE REALITY IS I SHOULD
BE TAKING CARE OF MYSELF

BECAUSE OF THINGS THAT
HAPPENED TO GUYS LIKE BOB

AND OTHER PEOPLE,
BUT I THINK IT'S JUST US,

OUR STUBBORNNESS AND STUFF.

TRYING TO CHANGE A LITTLE
BIT AT A TIME, TO REALLY

THINK OF MY KIDS, AND
MY FAMILY, AND MY WIFE,

AND EVERYBODY
BECAUSE IT'S REAL.

LIFE IS A VERY
DELICATE THING.

I THINK, WHEN YOU'RE
NOT PREPARED FOR IT,

LIKE NOBODY WAS FOR BOB,

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN TO
ANYBODY AT ANY GIVEN TIME.

AND FLYNN GOES DOWN AND
TAKES ANOTHER RIGHT HAND,

AND MORE RIGHT
HANDS FROM PARKER!

I'VE HIT SOME
PEOPLE PRETTY HARD,

AND I'VE FELT THINGS BREAK,
AND I'VE FELT THINGS SHIFT,

AND I'VE FELT THINGS MOVE, AND
I THINK TO MYSELF, "OH NO."

AND YOU KIND OF HAVE
THAT YOU KNOW SENSE OF,

YOU KNOW, OH SHIT,
WHAT DID I JUST DO?

IT WAS ALMOST A WAR MENTALITY,
LIKE KILL OR BE KILLED.

PROBERT HIT HIM WITH
A RIGHT! ANOTHER ONE!

YOU KNOW, GETTING PUNCHED
REALLY HARD IN THE HEAD DOES

DO THINGS TO YOU OVER TIME,
AND AT THE END OF THE DAY,

YOU DO WANT A QUALITY
OF LIFE WHERE YOU WANT

TO BE ABLE TO HOLD
YOUR KIDS AND DO THINGS

WITH YOUR KIDS AND NOT BE
COOPED UP IN A BASEMENT

BECAUSE LIGHT
AFFECTS YOU SO BAD

THAT IT JUST
SENDS YOU INTO A TIZZY.

THE POST CAREER IS
TOUGH ON A LOT OF GUYS.

PLENTY OF PLAYERS
STRUGGLING WITH THAT NOT

BEING AROUND THE GUYS,
NOT HAVING YOUR REGIMENTS

SCHEDULED TO FOLLOW, AND
YOU KNOW, BEING ON THE BUS,

BEING AT THE RINK
AT CERTAIN TIMES.

SO YOU FIND YOURSELF WITH SO
MUCH TIME AND NOTHING TO DO.

YOU MISS THE GUYS.

GOOD MORNING!
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2002.

IT TAKES ITS TOLL ON YOU.

I THINK BOB FELT THAT
AND, YOU KNOW, LIKE I DID.

WE FELT LIKE WE WERE KIND
OF LETTING THE TEAM DOWN,

THE FANS DOWN, AND
IT WAS A TOUGH TIME.

AND THEN YOU'RE LEFT WITH
NOTHING AND YOU'RE HOME

WITH THE WIFE AND KIDS
AND, YOU KNOW, IT'S JUST

YOU DON'T HAVE THAT VOID,
THAT ADRENALINE RUSH

YOU NEED TO FILL.

HO, HO, HO,
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

CHRISTMAS AFTERNOON.
HOW ARE YOU?

WHAT TIME IS IT?

WE'VE BEEN VIDEOTAPING YOU
WITH TOYS ON YOUR HEAD,

STUFF STUCK TO
YOU, EVERYTHING,

AND YOU HAVEN'T EVEN NOTICED.

WHERE'S MY TOYS?

I'LL GIVE
YOU A FAMILY SHOT.

HOW'S THAT FOR
A FAMILY SHOT.

GET IN THERE.

I WANT SOME LOVING HERE.

CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE?

CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE
THIS CHRISTMAS MORNING?

HO, HO, HO.

HE JUST WANT TO GO AWOL.

HE JUST WANTED
TO DISAPPEAR

AND DIDN'T WANT US
TO SEE THIS SIDE OF HIM.

HE WANTED TO PROTECT US FROM
THAT BAD SIDE OF WHO HE WAS.

BUT NO, HE WAS
VERY ASHAMED.

YOU COULD SEE IT IN
HIS FACE, THAT WAS JUST

SOMETHING IN HIS EYES,
YOU COULD SEE THE SADNESS

WHEN HE WOULD COME HOME, AND
THAT WOULD BE SO HEARTBREAKING.

"DEAR DISEASE, YOU HAVE
TAKEN AWAY MY FREEDOM

TO MAKE HEALTHY CHOICES.

YOU HAVE TAKEN AWAY
MY VALUABLE TIME

FROM MY WONDERFUL WIFE,
DANI, AND MY FOUR KIDS.

YOU HAVE TAKEN AWAY MY
SELF-RESPECT AND DIGNITY.

YOU HAVE TURNED ME
INTO SOMEONE I AM NOT.

YOU HAVE HURT
ME FINANCIALLY.

YOU HAVE CONTROLLED MY
THOUGHTS AND MY FEELINGS.

YOU TOOK ME AWAY FROM THINGS
I USED TO DO TO HAVE FUN.

YOU TOOK AWAY MY
ABILITY TO KEEP PROMISES

BY RUNNING MY WILL.

AT TIMES YOU TOOK ME AWAY FROM
PEOPLE THAT TRULY LOVE ME.

YOU TOOK AWAY FROM ME
OUR TWINS' BIRTHDAY.

YOU TOOK AWAY FROM ME
CHRISTMAS OF 2002.

YOU TOOK A LOT FROM ME,
BUT THAT IS ABOUT TO STOP.

TO CHANGE."

THAT'S WHEN HE ENDED
UP GOING TO FLORIDA,

TO THE KAREN FOUNDATION.

THAT WAS THE REHAB THAT REALLY
HELPED HIM, REALLY CLICKED.

HE WAS DOING THE HALFWAY
HOUSE PART OF IT.

HE WAS ARRESTED.
TASERED THREE TIMES.

YEAH, THREE TIMES.
SOILED HIMSELF.

WAS THROWN IN JAIL.

GOT ACCUSED OF TRYING
TO CLOG THE PLUMBING,

BUT IT WAS...

HE WAS TRYING TO
RINSE OUT HIS BOXERS.

NOT ONE OF HIS GREATEST
HIGHLIGHTS IN HIS LIFE,

THAT'S FOR SURE.

IT WAS A TERRIBLE TIME.

WHEN BOB WAS
DRINKING HE HAD A...

HE WAS A DIFFERENT PERSON.

HE WASN'T BOB.

I THINK WHEN HE DRANK, HE
TURNED OFF THAT FAMILY SWITCH.

I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER
SEEN HIM THAT MESSED UP.

IT WAS CRAZY.

HE HAD CRAZY EYES AND
THE WAY HE WAS ACTING,

HE WAS FLIPPING OUT.

HE HAD THE BUTCHER
BLOCK OF KNIVES.

I HAD CALLED MY FATHER,
AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO,

AND HE'S LIKE, "YOU NEED
TO HANG UP AND CALL 911."

HE WAS JUST GRABBING
THINGS AND THROWING THEM

AND THERE WAS JUST NO
GETTING THROUGH TO HIM.

SAY, "HEY, SLOW DOWN.

YOU'RE RUINING YOUR HOUSE OR
YOU'RE GOING TO HURT SOMEBODY.

SLOW THE HELL DOWN."

FINALLY THE COPS
CAME AND GRABBED HIM

AND TONED HIM DOWN.

HE WAS PEPPER-SPRAYED
ON THE FRONT PORCH.

AND I JUST, I
REMEMBER SEEING THAT.

I WAS ANGRY WITH THE
POLICE FOR TAKING HIM AWAY,

I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND,
HE WAS MY DAD.

HE WAS MY SUPERHERO.

HE COULDN'T BE DOING
ANYTHING WRONG.

I PACKED UP THE KIDS
AND TOOK OFF FOR A WHILE.

WHEN THEY HAD THEIR
LITTLE TRIAL PERIOD THERE,

MAYBE THAT SCARED HIM.

MAYBE HE THOUGHT HE
WAS GOING TO LOSE HER.

THE THOUGHT OF LOSING HER
WOULD HAVE DEVASTATED HIM.

WE CAME BACK WITHIN A
COUPLE OF WEEKS,

AND I THINK THAT'S WHEN WE
BUCKLED DOWN AND STARTED,

YOU KNOW,
COMING UP WITH SOME PLANS

AS FAR AS WHAT
NEEDED TO BE DONE NEXT.

HE DID SEE THAT HIS ACTIONS,

HOW THEY WERE
AFFECTING THE KIDS,

AND THAT'S WHEN HE WAS
GETTING HIS SHIT TOGETHER.

THAT'S WHEN HE WAS
STARTING TO BE MORE PRESENT

AND MORE INVOLVED,
NOT MISSING THINGS,

MORE RESPONSIBLE.

THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS
I MISS ABOUT THAT GUY.

YEAH, HE DID CARE.

NO CONCEPT OF
TIME, THAT WAS BOB.

BUT HIM WALKING DOWN THE HALL,

AND I CAN PICTURE
IT IN OUR OLD HOUSE.

HE WOULD START AT BROGAN'S
ROOM AND HE WOULD SAY -

YOU KNOW, THEY CAN BE SOUND
ASLEEP OR READING A BOOK,

DIDN'T MATTER.

"GOODNIGHT
BROGITA CHIQUITA.

BROGITA CHIQUITA BANANA,"
GIVE HER A KISS, "I LOVE YOU."

THEN HE WOULD GO TO TEA ROSE
OR TT LEE, TIERNEY ROSE,

HAD TO ANNOUNCE THIS
LITTLE GOOFY NAME HE WOULD

HAVE FOR THEM,
AND SAME THING,

"I LOVE YOU," AND
A KISS GOODNIGHT.

AND THEN INTO DUCKY'S ROOM
WITH HIS FAMOUS DUCK CALL

AND GIVE HER THE, "I LOVE YOU,"
AND A KISS GOODNIGHT.

AND THE LAST ONE WOULD
ALWAYS BE, "JACK, MY BOY,"

AND THE SAME.
"I LOVE YOU. GOODNIGHT."

AND HE'D ALWAYS COME IN,
"DAN-DAN, BABY,"

AND I'D GET THE SAME THING.

SO WHETHER HE WAS WORKING
ON THE CAR OR THE MOTORCYCLE,

PUTZING AROUND
IN THE GARAGE, OR GOING

INTO THE KITCHEN
TO MAKE SOME TOAST

OR ONE OF HIS FAVORITE
LATE NIGHT SNACKS,

WE ALL GOT THE
"GOODNIGHT, I LOVE YOU."

AND THEN HE'D
GO OFF AND DO HIS THING

OR HE'D JUST GO TO BED.

YEAH, THAT ONE
ALWAYS GETS ME.

OKAY, PULL IT
TOGETHER, LET'S GO.

WE LEFT THE HOUSE
AT AROUND ONE O'CLOCK.

IT WAS A HOT DAY, AND
WE TOOK OFF HEADING EAST.

WE WERE FURTHER DOWN THE
LAKE AND WE WERE COMING IN

THIS DIRECTION, COMING
HERE TO THE RIVER FOR LUNCH.

THERE WAS A NOISE
COMING FROM THE BOAT.

AND HE WAS SIX FOOT FOUR
AND TWO HUNDRED AND WHATEVER

BENT OVER ON A
NINETY FIVE DEGREE DAY

OVER THE SIDE OF THE BOAT,
WORKING HIS WAY,

AND HE WAS MID BOAT
WHEN HE GOT TO, YEAH,

HE JUST COLLAPSED.

HE WAS ON HIS KNEES.

THAT'S WHEN
I COULD SEE HIS FACE

AND I COULD SEE
HIS LIPS GOING...

HIS LIPS WERE BLACK, HIS
LIPS KEPT CHANGING COLOR

AND HIS TONGUE,
AND I COULD SEE THAT,

AND THEY LAID HIM DOWN.

AND MY STEPFATHER WAS A
POLICE OFFICER, HE STARTED

TO PERFORM CPR, DOING DO
THE CHEST COMPRESSIONS

AND MOUTH TO MOUTH.

AND I IMMEDIATELY CALLED
911 AND I COULDN'T FIND,

I WAS GET DISORIENTED, I
COULDN'T SEE WHERE WE WERE.

I KNEW WE WERE PAST THE
SANDBAR, I DIDN'T KNOW HOW FAR.

IT WAS HARD TO PINPOINT
WHERE WE WERE.

HIS FACE WAS
COMPLETELY BLUE.

LIKE HE WAS
PURPLE AND BLUE.

THAT'S WHY I SAID,
"DAD, I LOVE YOU,"

BECAUSE I WANTED TO
BE ABLE TO REMEMBER

WHAT MY LAST WORDS WERE TO HIM.

I JUST REMEMBER SAYING
"BABY, WHERE ARE THE KEYS,

I CAN'T FIND THE KEYS."

AND HE MANAGED TO TOUCH
THE SEAT, SO I KNOW THE KEYS

WERE TUCKED IN BEHIND,
THEY MUST HAVE FALLEN BACK.

I GRABBED THE KEYS
AND I DIDN'T...

THEY ONLY STARTED THE ONE
ENGINE, IT WAS A JET BOAT,

I DIDN'T START BOTH ENGINES,

AND I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND
WHY WE WEREN'T GOING.

AND THEN KAI MADE IT TO
THE BOAT, AND IT WAS

MY FIRST INTRODUCTION TO KAI,
AND HE JUMPED ON THE BOAT

AND I GOT ON HIS JET SKI
AND HE BROUGHT THE BOAT

IN TO SHORE.

I WENT TO THEM AND ASKED
THEM WHAT'S WRONG.

AND THEN DANI SAYS,
"CAN YOU BRING THE BOAT IN?"

I REMEMBER SCREAMING
FOR THE PARAMEDICS

AND RUNNING TO THE ROAD
AND FLAGGING DOWN

THE PARAMEDICS TO GET TO THE
SHORE AND HELP ME WITH BOB,

GET THEM TO THE DOCK,
AND THEN TO GET MY KIDS

OFF THE BOAT AND
EVERYBODY OUT OF THE WAY.

AND I JUST REMEMBER COMING
ON SHORE, RUSHING TO THE ROAD,

GETTING THE
PARAMEDICS TO THE BACK,

AND THEN CLEARING OFF THE
BOAT, GETTING THE KIDS OFF

AND PLACING THEM OVER
BY THE FENCE AREA.

WE MADE IT TO THE HOSPITAL
AND ALL I COULD THINK OF

ON THE DRIVE TO
THE HOSPITAL WAS

CALLING UP PEOPLE TO
GET MY KIDS ROUNDED UP.

I HAD DECLYN AT A
SLEEPOVER, A BIRTHDAY PARTY,

AND BROGAN
WAS AT THE NEW JOB.

AND I WAS SO AFRAID THAT
THEY WERE GOING TO HEAR

SOMETHING ON THE RADIO.

SO I HAD TO GET
THEM ROUNDED UP

AND GET EVERYBODY HOME
AND JUST KEEP THEM PROTECTED.

AND THIS WHOLE TIME I DIDN'T
KNOW THAT BOB HAD DIED,

I HADN'T BEEN TOLD YET.

AND THEY CALLED MY MOM
INTO A SEPARATE ROOM,

AND THE DOCTOR CAME.

AND THE DOCTOR CAME IN AND
TOLD ME THAT HE DIDN'T MAKE IT.

I WAS WALKING UPSTAIRS
AND MY PHONE WENT OFF AND

SOMEONE WAS LIKE, "I'M SO
SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR DAD."

AND I WAS LIKE, "WHAT
ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"

AND THEY'RE LIKE,
"I'M SORRY ABOUT YOU DAD.

I'M SORRY TO
HEAR ABOUT HIM,

I'M SORRY THAT HE PASSED AWAY."

AND I RESPONDED LIKE,
"HE'S NOT DEAD.

HE'S JUST IN THE HOSPITAL,
HE'S GOING TO BE FINE.

HE'S NOT DEAD."

BECAUSE THE NEWS OUTLETS
HEARD ABOUT IT BEFORE WE DID,

SO PEOPLE
STARTED TEXTING US.

I REMEMBER WALKING IN AND
ALL OF THEM IN A LITTLE HUDDLE

IN THE FAMILY ROOM
AROUND THE COFFEE TABLE,

AND THEY ALL LOOKED UP AT
ME WHEN I WALKED IN

AND ALL I COULD SAY WAS,
"YOUR DAD LOVED YOU SO MUCH."

AND I COULDN'T
GET OUT ANYMORE.

"YOUR DAD LOVED
YOU VERY MUCH.

BUT THEY COULDN'T DO
ANYTHING ELSE TO HELP THEM -

TO HELP HIM."

AND THAT'S WHEN AT THAT
MOMENT WE ALL JUST GOT -

WE ALL JUST BROKE.

AND I WENT OUT BACK AND
I STARTED CRYING OUTSIDE.

EVERYONE WAS JUST
CRYING EVERYWHERE.

MY COUSIN WAS THERE, AND
WE ALL WERE JUST LIKE,

"THERE'S NO WAY.

THERE'S NO WAY
THAT HAPPENED."

HE WAS SUCH A BIG - HE WAS
SO FULL OF LIFE AND SUCH

A BIG PRESENCE IN OUR LIVES
THAT JUST TO THINK THAT,

OH, HE'S GONE LIKE THAT.

THAT WAS JULY 5TH, 2010.

IT WAS A MASSIVE HEART ATTACK.
IT WASN'T VERY GOOD.

NOT GOOD AT ALL.
IT WAS SUCH A SHOCKER.

WE DID
EVERYTHING TOGETHER.

WE'RE ONLY 13
MONTHS APART.

HE WAS SOMEONE THAT ALWAYS
SEEMED INVINCIBLE, I GUESS.

THAT'S WHY IT WAS SUCH
A SHOCK WHEN HE DIED.

HE ALWAYS SEEMED
TO SURVIVE ANYTHING.

BUT YEAH, IT'S STILL
HARD TO BELIEVE.

I WAS SAD THAT
HE WASN'T THERE FOR ME

GRADUATING COLLEGE OR
FOR MY PROM, AND I KNOW

A WEDDING ONE DAY, IF THAT
HAPPENS, THAT'S DEFINITELY

GOING TO BE HARD BECAUSE
THERE'S NO ONE THERE

TO WALK YOU DOWN THE AISLE,
OR TO HAVE THAT FIRST

FATHER/DAUGHTER DANCE.

SO YEAH, I KNOW THAT
IN THE FUTURE

AND IF I'M HAVING BABIES AND
HE DOESN'T GET TO MEET THEM,

AND THEY DON'T GET TO
UNDERSTAND HOW COOL OF A PERSON

MY DAD WAS, THOSE ARE
DEFINITELY THINGS THAT,

YEAH, I MISS
HIM BEING HERE.

YOU'RE JUST LIKE, "WOW, I
WISH I HAD HIM TO GIVE ME

ADVICE ON THIS," OR,
"I WISH I COULD HAVE A HUG,"

OR, "I WISH I COULD JUST
HEAR HIM LAUGH AGAIN."

THERE'S CERTAIN THINGS
YOU DON'T KNOW,

AND YOU EXPECT THAT YOU
WOULD NEED HIM TO HELP YOU

GROW THROUGHOUT CERTAIN
SITUATIONS IN YOUR LIFE,

AND EVERY DAY'S DIFFERENT,
EVERY DAY YOU CAN -

YOU THINK ABOUT HIM MORE,
YOU MISS HIM MORE, AND SOMETIMES

- IT'S ALWAYS GOING TO
BE IN THE BACK OF YOUR HEAD,

BUT SOME DAYS
IT'S JUST, "WOW,

I WISH I HAD HIM HERE TO
GET ME THROUGH THIS DAY."

HAVING HIM ABSENT IS
DEFINITELY DIFFICULT SOMETIMES,

BUT THEN YOU LOOK
AROUND AND YOU ARE LIKE,

"YOU KNOW WHAT?

HE WOULD BE PROUD
OF ME REGARDLESS."

AND JUST BECAUSE
HE'S NOT HERE PHYSICALLY

DOESN'T MEAN HE'S NOT
LOOKING DOWN ON US,

BECAUSE I THINK HE IS.