The Souvenir: Part II (2021) - full transcript

In the aftermath of her tumultuous relationship, Julie begins to untangle her fraught love for him in making her graduation film, sorting fact from his elaborately constructed fiction.

My period's late.

Hello. Can I come in?

Hello.

- Here we are.

- Hello.

There's a nice little scene.

Dogs waiting for lunch.

Ah.

You had any rest?

Poor old you.

What a shock.

Terrible shock. Sorry.

Did you know what was

going on with this chap?

What's wrong with that?

You're the boss.

Is she coming?

Darling?

Here we go.

- You ready for this?

- Hello.

I like the pajamas.

- They're not pajamas.

- Oh.

Well, they're

very nice anyway.

What are you doing?

Oi, stop it.

They want to go

for a walk.

That's what they're doing.

Help yourself.

Hello there.

I hope you're gonna stay

for a very long time.

Long as possible,

my darling.

Absolutely.

You want some?

♪ Will there be another time

♪ Will there be another time

♪ Another year

♪ Another wish to stay?

♪ Will there be another time

♪ Will there be another time

♪ Another year

♪ Another wish to stay? ♪

You grow green grass

above me...

...with showers

and dew drops wed.

And if thou wilt remember,

and if thou wilt forget.

Marland...

We've got it,

we've got it.

Just... Just come

round to Julie at the moment.

She's going to be explaining

it as we go over the...

I think we'll...

Thank you

for coming to see us.

I brought you

the last of his things.

Oh...

I mean, you know, I'm just

reading this book. Um...

Jack Pincher book

and, you know,

all these people

that have led double lives.

And, you know, I...

You know, I'm just hoping

that I can find a reference

to a friend of his

or something in there

that will give me

a little hope that...

That there is some involvement

at the foreign office.

I mean, it would...

I can't seem

to find out anywhere

in the foreign office

to talk to even, you know.

I mean, he was...

He didn't talk to us

about his work, did he?

Was he worrying

about anything,

do you know? No?

No.

James had to identify him.

It just... It just

didn't look like him. I...

I... I found it very hard

to accept that it was him.

There's a little present

for you.

He looks exactly the same.

- Bye-bye.

- Bye-bye.

- Hello, Julie?

- Yes.

- Do come in.

- Thank you.

Seems

to me he was quite dark

in his nature anyway.

Uh, I would wager that you two

had more disagreements

than you had had

for the period of time.

Let's go six months back.

You'd had more disagreements.

Not necessarily battles royal,

but disagreements.

And in that time,

while he was struggling,

he was working on a thought.

A conscious thought

that he didn't know

how to go forward with life

in this deception

that had become his life.

Uh, and as I'm sitting here

talking to you,

the way I'm getting

this information

without invading

anybody's privacy

is I'm asking myself,

what do I know

about his last days?

What happened to his moods?

Did he have a reason

to go on at all?

And I have the sense

that at the end,

he had no reason to go on.

He wanted to stop what was

going on in his own life,

so he just did that.

He let his life go.

Action background!

Yeah. Just a rehearsal.

One, two, three, four,

five, six, seven, eight...

One...

- Yeah, there's a...

- Graham...

...you know, there's

a challenge in that. Um...

But also, it's just trying

to find a character that,

you know, is layered.

Um, and...

It's not necessarily

about the darkness,

it's about why this person

is the way he is.

You could say that it's also

a very political film.

- Yes. Yeah.

- Right.

Okay, I just...

Uh, pause for a minute.

Just to check something

on the camera.

Julie's here.

Hi, Julie.

Carry on.

I don't wanna...

- Sorry.

- It's okay.

Good to see you!

Good to see you.

- Great!

- Uh, Julie, Jim.

- Hi. Jim.

- Hello. Julie.

- We've met before.

- Nice to meet you. Oh, really?

Um... Knightsbridge.

Um, it was brief.

Um...

Sorry about your loss.

Thank you.

I, um...

I'd met Anthony

a few times,

and, uh,

he had a beautiful mind.

He did.

Julie, ready?

Be careful of

all these cables, okay?

- Okay...

- Thank you.

One, two, three, four...

Okay, lets hold it there.

Cut! Cut! Cut!

Okay, good.

Let's get it in pieces now.

Jim, it's not linear.

Jim, it's... It's not linear,

in terms of the action...

No, but I'm just

getting marking...

...so you don't need

to repeat it.

And I look like a...

I look like a fucking idiot.

Just a minute to reload.

So, guys, just a minute

while we reload camera.

Is there

any chance of getting,

say, another half dozen people

around this monitor?

Okay, stand by.

Each shot we can use.

Even if it's not the same.

As long as you have

the same emotion.

And roll playback...

And one, two, three, four,

five, six, seven, eight.

Again!

Up, up...

Look at him.

Okay, coming back.

Five, six,

seven, eight... One...

Continuing on

after the fixed point.

And now come back. Come back.

Just straight back,

straight back. Right.

I wanted to ask you

why you decided

to do a musical today.

Look at us.

We're in the pissing rain.

Wouldn't you want to be

on a sound stage

in widescreen,

rather than here

like every other fucking

English film ever made

where it's drizzling?

That's why.

You know, to...

To show the kids some kind of life.

To use the form,

to use movement,

music, montage,

rather than... Blegh...

That's why.

Right. Um...

Would you say

it's a political musical?

Everything's political.

Everything's political.

Right. Done.

You can see

it's not a good time.

- Sorry.

- Yeah.

- We'll wait. It's fine.

- No. It's broken now.

- Can I just have five minutes?

- Go on.

I just wanted to ask you

a few questions about Anthony

- and his work.

- Bad time.

It's a bad time.

You can go.

Lydia, could you...

Could you...

Make a memorial for him.

Well, then, also to imagine

that Black men are sort of

like some sort of animals.

Then we see this girl,

and suddenly we're like,

we turn into...

Like lunatics and we're just,

like, obsessed with a woman.

Yeah, the White guys

are the same though.

Yeah, but it's...

Yeah, but I dunno... For me...

It's more about the question,

I think, and, uh...

Yeah, the colors

of the costume as well.

They look like

cartoon characters.

But you wanna contribute

to cinema, right?

You wanna be something...

I think... I really think

he is contributing to cinema.

He is.

Yeah, he's contributing shit,

is what he's contributing.

Let's be real about it...

I like when

you're like that.

- Yeah, me, too.

- I'm just being honest.

That bit of feistiness.

I've bitten my tongue

for that entire day.

- I was laughing.

- Oh, yeah?

I was laughing along.

I thought... I said...

I thought the commentary

was good, but I just...

It's just one of them jobs

that you've gotta

look after yourself.

It's a trial by fire, mate.

That's what it is.

Julie, have you had

a look at it?

Have you seen

any of the rushes?

- Yeah, a little bit.

- Yeah?

- What do you think?

- Good. It looks good.

It's just taking

a bit of time.

Patrick's a bit hard work.

He's giving him

a load of grief.

You guys are not

very happy, though.

- Pardon?

- You're not very happy.

Yeah, I can see it, man.

That's just

how it goes, innit?

No, it's just

stressful, innit?

It's got like... He's...

We were saying earlier,

he's got

this very romanticized idea

of what he wants

without sort of

a proper sort of

direction of

how to achieve it.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- Mmm.

Yeah, we could get

the sense of that.

But it's coming,

it's trickling down to us because

obviously, he's not getting

the shots that he wants.

But when you're the people

in front of the camera,

you feel like you're the ones

fucking up all the time.

Mmm. Mmm.

And more so on Jim,

bless him.

Keeps taking him aside and...

Pulling him aside,

having chats with him

on his own and that...

Two minutes

we're stood down,

you know what I mean?

Hello.

Can I come in?

I was in the area.

Are you okay?

Are you sure?

Stop.

I'm on my period.

I don't mind.

Thank you.

Uh, Garance, the shoes.

Oui.

Okay.

- We've got time.

- Okay.

We've got time

because I'm very fast.

You are very fast.

Yeah, and again.

Okay, watch out.

- Yeah.

- Ca va?

Come on, guys.

Let's go.

- How much of the car...

- Mmm?

How much of

the car do you want...

Do you wanna get a mark

on the start as well?

I... I want to be like...

No, no, I know.

Oh, notorious.

Okay, perfect.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Rehearsal, rehearsal.

You're doubting yourself.

I don't like it

and I won't let you do it.

I won't let you do it!

I've seen you.

I've seen what you can do.

You have too much faith in me.

I always say this!

I always say this. It's...

Yeah, but it's not...

It's not grounded, like, in...

In something false.

It's, you know...

You are! You're like...

I think you've...

You're a bright mind.

You always have

intelligent ideas.

You always have

an interesting

perspective on things,

you know.

Yeah, but it's not,

you know, um,

alien fighting, sexy, like...

Right, yeah.

It's not... It's not...

- It's not a futuristic film.

- No.

Yeah, but that...

Does it have to be?

Does it have to be

to be interesting?

No, but it has to be as...

No, it doesn't have to be.

But it just

has to be something

that people are not gonna

forget as soon as they...

You know,

as soon as the credits roll.

Right, but I just think,

you know,

that's going the outside in.

I think focus on

what you wanna do.

What you wanna

make for yourself.

And if you're happy with it,

you know...

Yeah, but... Yeah,

but you know what I'm saying.

If you're happy with it

and you've put

your heart into it,

then it will work out.

But if you're thinking about,

"Oh, well,

I hope it's impressive

"and I hope, you know,

"it will be as good as

Garance's film, and it's..."

You don't need that,

you don't need that.

You just think about

what makes you happy,

what works for you,

what you're interested in.

And it will translate,

I think.

Oh.

To your right, darling.

Ooh!

Who are you?

Julie.

Have a seat.

I was, uh,

Anthony Reeves' girlfriend.

Wait a minute.

I'm gonna check something.

Your skin is very soft.

You're pretty.

Anthony has really good taste.

I mean,

he used to have good taste.

He gave me this.

His present.

But sometimes it doesn't work.

Sometimes I have to ask

Stephen for help.

Can I have your lighter,

please?

No.

Did he come here

before he died?

I mean, the day.

Why?

I just didn't know

what he did in that time.

Because I left and...

He was by himself

for an afternoon,

and I didn't know

what he did, so...

I'm very cut up about

what happened to Anthony.

Almost destroyed me.

He was very special.

I know how you feel.

♪ I've often thought about

♪ The men where I came from

♪ And times ago

♪ Their sons, these days

are found

♪ In US and

♪ Britannia care ♪

- Excellent, Lee. Thank you.

- No problem.

I'll go and find the sign.

Change that.

Just that one to do

and we're there. Mmm.

This is, uh,

going to be probably

the most important thing

you do at film school.

This is your graduation film.

And of course you came with

a great deal of

powerful images

and images of Sunderland,

that idea for a story

in Sunderland.

And there was

an engagement with...

With life, with...

With people's lives.

And although it was unformed,

it was early as a filmmaker

and although we could sense

that there were other things

in you at that time

that needed to develop,

uh, I can't connect it

with this script

that I have

in front of me now.

These images...

These characters

don't seem to relate to you.

I mean, what...

What has changed?

Where... What is going on?

What has happened

to produce this new...

Where's, where has

that other world gone,

that Sunderland world?

I don't wanna show life

as it plays out in real time.

I wanna show life

as I imagine it.

That's what

cinema's all about.

So what are you telling

the audience

with these images?

It's about a relationship in a fairy

tale, in a fantasy,

that hopefully,

many people can relate to

in their own way.

We want to encourage

innovation,

young filmmakers

to find their own voices.

But we also want to encourage

professional practice

and I look at this and I don't

see anything that resembles

what I think of

as a professional script.

Can I ask

what you consider

to be a professional script?

Well, I'll leave aside

the red bow,

but at this stage,

a title,

although you then rather

archly have a subtitle,

"Art Is Life."

But there are no

scene headings.

So... So are we now

discussing the layout

of the script

as a reason?

The layout

captures the precision

with which you're thinking

about your project.

It's very unclear how you're

helping your collaborators

find their way through

your proposed set of images.

What it is you're trying to...

To photograph.

And then behind that,

I think our deeper concern

is that there's also a lack of

precision about your thinking.

What your intentions are.

What you're hoping to express

and to explore here.

I'm sorry, Julie, but...

If you pursue this film

as you present it to us now,

I'm afraid

the school cannot support you

and will not support you.

Is it... Presumably, there's

a technician who takes the...

Who actually takes

the film things, is it?

Well, no, not really.

I mean, yeah,

there's store cupboards

and people that look after...

No, no. But I mean the person

behind the camera is a...

Is an expert, are they?

No! Absolutely not,

they're students.

- They're all students.

- They're all students?

Yes. The whole team

is students.

And no one's

giving you direction?

No. Well, me.

I'm the director.

No, no, I don't mean

the director.

But no one's telling you

how to do it?

No.

Sounds fairly typical

for an art school.

Better come and work

on the farm for a bit.

But it's exciting.

I mean,

you're pulling together

and helping each other

on all your own projects,

aren't you?

So you'll help somebody else

with their film and...

Mm-hmm.

- Well, exciting.

Mmm.

- So is the script done?

- Mm-hmm.

And do we know

what the script's about?

Can we put... I actually

really don't wanna talk

- about it anymore.

- Darling...

We're trying to get it,

but, um...

I know you are.

It's just...

It's very irritating for me having

to explain it a thousand times.

We don't mean

to be irritating.

We're just very excited

and interested.

Don't be irritated.

But anyhow,

we're looking forward to it.

No, thanks.

No, I've given up sugar.

- You've given up sugar?

- Yeah.

Didn't think

that would ever happen.

You've missed the significance

though, of the pot.

That's

Mummy's first artefact.

Do you mean you made it?

I'm very proud of it.

- It's very good.

- You should be.

The top's a bit wonky.

It doesn't really fit, but...

I think it's great.

Early Etruscan handles.

What are...

Are these...

That's so sweet

of you to say that.

Yes, well I thought...

They're a bit in the way,

aren't they?

I'm glad you

noticed, darling.

Well, I haven't learnt

how to do the handles yet.

Okay, well...

It's very rough,

but it is my first effort.

You know,

for a month's work, it's...

- A month?

- ...quite an achieve...

- Well, now, probably...

- No.

How long have you been doing

this course?

Well, I've been doing

the course for a month,

but I mean,

the pot didn't take a month.

But I'm loving it,

I have to say.

I'm loving

going to college and...

And this is the first

of many things.

I'm going to be filling

this house with artefacts.

What was he like

on that Friday?

I want to hear it again.

Well, as I told you,

he seemed particularly happy.

He, um...

You know,

made me a cup of tea

and, um, we had a...

A rather lovely breakfast together.

And, uh...

And off he went.

And what did you think about

him when you first met him?

- When, when he came here?

- Mmm.

Well I... I was disposed to

like him because you did.

Did you just like him

because I did?

No. No, I...

I grew very fond of him.

And what did you feel

when he died?

I was, um,

very concerned for you.

No, not what I felt.

What did...

What did you feel?

When you got

that phone call?

I felt through you.

You're a very good little dog.

Done really well.

Come on.

Come on.

Have you got everything?

Um... Yeah,

- and my bag's upstairs.

- Bag?

I'll get it.

Thank you.

It's on the landing.

Can't you stay

for another night?

- I can't stay.

- Just one more...

Not this time.

Not this time,

but next time, okay?

- Right. Soon?

- So soon, I promise.

For a long time.

For a rest.

- I wanna ask you something.

- Yeah.

I am so sorry, I...

I need some more money.

For this film.

For this graduation film.

- Really?

- Yes.

And I promise,

I'll pay you back.

It's for the film?

- It's for the film.

- Uh-huh.

It's £10,000.

Oh, darling,

that is a lot of money.

Let me take that.

- It's heavy.

- I know.

Bye-bye, darling.

- Bye-bye.

- Be well.

- You, too.

- Bye, Mummy.

- There you go.

Bye, my darling.

Hope the preparations

for the film go well.

- Drive safely.

- Thank you, Daddy.

See you soon.

You ring us

when you get there.

Always.

♪ It's not the way

you lead me

♪ By the hand into the bedroom

♪ It's not the way

you throw your clothes

♪ Upon the bathroom floor

♪ Been thinking about you

♪ I just couldn't wait to see

♪ Fling my arms around you

♪ As we fall in ecstasy

♪ Ooh, sometimes ♪

We have, like, ten...

Before that, you

don't even have a main cast.

I know. This is...

This is so much more important.

I'm so sorry. This is

so much more important.

At least need to have

them both.

I have some ideas that...

I mean, some of them

are very different. Um...

He's too handsome.

- He's too classically...

- Yeah.

- Yeah, yeah. Right.

- It's too...

No, I don't...

I don't really like him.

I don't really like

these two guys.

No, I was gonna say,

these are too...

- Yeah.

- He's nice.

This is not... They're...

They're too...

They're too glamorous.

Are you getting it

as well?

It's also the picture,

but I agree with you.

I know.

They're wearing lots of makeup.

They're too

sophisticated or something.

- Yep.

- I agree, I agree.

So this...

This one I really like.

I don't know, what do

you think? She's like...

There's something fragile,

but still, like, you know,

a bit noble about her

that I really like.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Get this girl cast,

get this guy cast.

Um, but, I mean,

Julie said she's on it.

So... She seems okay.

She seems okay.

I mean, I'm a bit stressed

about it, but trust her.

So, we'll see, yeah? Okay?

Good. Yeah, James,

you all right?

Maybe this one,

but I really don't like him.

No. No. It's...

No.

- Happy you don't like him.

- No.

Uh, he's called Pete.

I saw him, um,

maybe two weeks ago on stage.

- Mmm.

- He's very special.

I think, if I understand well,

the project,

I think he's the one.

He has something

that I cannot even describe.

You really have to meet him.

So if that's okay...

- Mmm. Yeah.

- We can meet him tomorrow?

- Mmm, yeah. I would love that.

- Perfect.

I would love that.

And the girl?

And I'll call her agent

as well

and try and talk

to her tomorrow.

Yeah. Perfect! Fantastic.

- Great! Brilliant. Thank you.

- All right, thank you.

Does the budget stretch

to me getting an editor, or...

The budget does not stretch.

The budget stays exactly

the way it is at the moment.

Away from the windows and

just set them a bit back.

Because at least

you could have

some light through it,

or something.

What do you think?

I think let's do that.

Um, Garance,

if you just have a second?

Yeah, sure.

Um... It's just a thought

I had just... Just now.

Um, you don't have to have

an answer immediately.

But I just...

It suddenly occurred to me

if you were interested in...

In playing the girl?

Julie,

do you want a hand?

- No, we're good. We're fine.

- Sure?

Yeah, we're so close.

Mind your toes.

Why's he got your bed?

For the set.

- Oh, for your film?

- Yeah, that's what I said.

Oh! Right.

So is it going

to your school?

- Yeah.

- Wow.

- Yeah.

- When is that?

Like, next week we start.

- Next week?

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

- Oh.

Okay. I didn't realize

it was that soon.

Next week.

So everything's set with it?

Yeah, more or less.

Like, casting's set?

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah...

I was...

I wanted to talk to you

about it actually,

'cause I...

'Cause you know

I've been going for castings

- and it's not been going well.

- Yeah.

Well, not like, badly,

but not...

I'm not getting parts

for things.

So you're...

You're saying you've cast it?

Yeah, I have two people

that are...

They're really, you know...

They're quite right for it.

But I...

It's got nothing to do with you.

That's the thing...

It's got nothing to do...

So you've not...

So I'm not in it at all?

Not this one.

- And it was such a...

- Okay.

I just, I honestly...

It... It's got literally...

It's got nothing to do with...

You're such

a fantastic actress.

It's nothing to do

- with your abilities, or...

- Mm-hmm.

It's just...

You know, the girl

who I have in mind,

she...

She's not an actress.

You know,

she's a filmmaker and...

- She's not an actress?

- No.

But she's a filmmaker

and that...

I kind of wanted that,

so she can bring a little bit

of her own experience to it.

Mm-hmm.

- Okay. Well...

- But it's got...

It's got nothing to do

with you. And I didn't...

Well, it does.

If you're not casting me

in something, then it's me.

You don't... I'm not...

I'm not gonna take it personally,

but don't say it's got

nothing to do with you,

'cause obviously,

casting's completely

- to do with the person.

- Okay. Okay, well...

Where's the wall?

The wall was,

it is no more.

A girl fought

against me.

Little swallow.

Hello.

- Hi, Pete.

- Hey, guys.

Looking good,

mate, looking good.

- Hello.

- Hi.

- You look great!

- Thank you.

- Looks great.

- I feel comfortable.

- Yeah?

- Mmm.

Can we introduce you

to the DP, Ben?

- Of course.

- Ben, this is Pete.

- Hey, man.

- Pleasure to meet you, mate.

- How's it going?

- Lovely to meet you.

- There.

- There?

- A little bit up, please.

- Up?

Perfect, no,

stop, stop, stop, stop.

But don't worry

about being too steady,

but also, you know,

not too documentary. So...

But don't worry about...

Okay.

The onboard music

is so awkward to me for...

If we hear...

If we hear a little...

- Oh, those are the shoes?

- Yeah.

Okay, cool.

Oh, love the color, though.

Like the color.

Trying to figure out.

We can do

something to that.

It's a weird rhythm

anyway.

So we can do

whatever we want, right?

So we're gonna,

are we gonna...

I feel like my energy

was too high,

or too lively.

I don't know how to say that.

Do you know what I mean?

I... I thought

it was quite lively.

I was really happy.

So it's...

It is quite accurate.

It's really good.

But you're much more...

No, you're perfect.

You're perfect.

You have nothing

to worry about.

Are we all set up now?

Are we ready for a shot?

Yes, we're ready.

Ready when you are.

Because I... I'm just looking

at this and I actually think

it's the wrong angle for what we're...

For what I want.

That I...

I actually, um...

I... I think we should have it

on the other side of the door,

because it feels

wrong to me

that we should have

this camera

seeing more

than she does.

Because I don't want to see

exactly what's going on

inside this bathroom

because she doesn't.

And I know that's just...

I know that's

a last minute thing.

- I know it's really, really...

- Julie, we're all set up.

I know. I know.

I know we are!

We're all set up for this scene.

I think we should...

You want

the camera here?

- You want the camera here?

- Here. Yep.

With the door shut.

Do we see in the bathroom?

Um...

Maybe here.

Here, because

she has to come...

- She has to come past.

- Okay.

Um, we don't wanna see

inside the bathroom.

Maybe when you...

Actually, no, sorry, sorry.

Here.

- He's very good at hiding it.

- For a year.

But also you...

Yeah, for a year.

For a year,

but also you have suspicion.

You also don't really

want to believe this.

This is an easier thing,

you know...

It's not an easy thing

to believe

about someone you love.

- You know?

- No, I don't.

- Do you understand that?

- I don't.

- Well, it's, you know...

- Well, it's...

You're saying you don't want

to believe it, I guess, but...

- Yeah. I can understand that.

- But this is the furthest...

This is just one of the

times we are seeing...

You have a feeling as though

when you were dancing together

and during that whole time,

during that whole day,

during dinner,

doing whatever you were doing

before you started dancing,

before we saw you,

that is going on

in the back of his head,

he is wondering

when is the next time

he's going to go off

by himself

and do whatever he does,

that you don't really

properly know what goes on.

Because I give him space

and I respect him.

So I...

There's this sense of...

You do, but also,

he doesn't...

He doesn't really allow

anything else.

- Fine.

- So that's...

You are doing

as much as you can.

You can say that

in this relationship,

he has...

He has the power.

Yeah. 100%.

There may be

some knocking.

Yeah, well, find that...

I'll find that out.

Yeah, there may be

some knocking. Um...

That looks good

by the way, Ben.

Yeah?

That looks nice

in the monitor.

Yeah? Okay.

Well, I mean,

there's a lot...

There's a lot of wall.

Well, I don't know if I,

what I can put up there, man.

Let's see if I have

something in the bedroom.

Where should

this scene go?

Because if we start

with that like,

"Oh, my God, yeah,

he's actually doing heroin."

Then we have to

maybe sit in...

In the bathroom

and start talking and maybe...

No. You wouldn't

talk about it.

Honestly, I don't think you'd

talk about it straight away.

- You don't want any dialogue?

- Can we get cast...

No. Honestly,

it's not about that.

Julie,

can we get cast in there

- to start taking positions?

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

- It's honestly... It's just...

You cannot just see

that and not talk about it.

Well,

that's how I did it.

That's how it happened.

So don't say it.

You didn't say anything.

- Okay.

- Can we just see positions?

Alfie, please!

Please.

Please open the...

I just want to see you.

And cut.

Cut there!

Cut there.

You're... You're...

You're angry.

You're...

You're irritated by him.

He was like a child

rushing off.

You know, you're

in an adult relationship

and he's running off

and being...

Did you ever see

sadness in there?

Yeah, quite a bit.

"Quite a bit."

So that was...

Maybe that's why he,

you know...

Maybe that's why

he... Um...

Sounds like

he's calling for help.

So I'm just gonna...

It was a terrible lunch.

- It was okay.

- Yeah?

Heavy.

- Heavy?

- Mm-hmm.

Excuse me, um...

Do you know

what we're doing?

Stop asking me that.

What? I feel like

you know more.

Not really, honestly.

The more we... Hi.

So the more...

The more...

...we work on this,

the more I realize

I don't know anything.

Honestly.

I don't understand

the, the...

The relationship.

Yeah, the origin

of the relationship.

You know what I mean?

Yeah, you go to school

with her. You know her well.

No, not really.

She was... She was not...

She was not here

very often.

- What, at school?

- Yeah.

I like her

because she is, uh,

very sensitive

and I think she...

She has a voice,

but she's...

I don't know, too naive,

too fragile or...

And she's not...

I think she's lazy, too.

She's not working enough.

She should, you know...

She should be at school.

She should...

She should be more understanding

that she has to learn

a lot from others.

And again, this is, um...

This is in...

In the real life.

This is three days

before your character died.

Okay.

So this is possibly your last

moment, um, of intimacy...

Well, not int...

Well, yes, intimacy,

but before

it could be intimate.

So you're...

You're feeling...

You're feeling resentment

a little bit,

because you don't know

whether he scored or not.

He's possibly coming down

from something.

And then, I mean,

I look back and I kind of, um...

He's all over the place.

Have awareness

that possibly he was always

either on something,

coming down from something.

Just about to score.

So he just...

So that's also the

reason why I'm objecting here.

Absolutely.

You're not in that mood.

You're not in that space.

And you're both

almost not very present.

How did he feel about

her paying for everything?

What was

that dynamic like?

Because was there not...

Was there not an element

of shame there?

I'm not trying...

I don't want you to think I'm trying to

- justify his actions.

- No.

I'm just trying to justify

his problems, really.

And at the moment,

I don't feel like I know

what they

are, but, um...

So now he's stolen

everything and sold it.

I just feel like

that's a...

A desperate moment for him.

I don't know where to go

with this, you know.

If someone has,

you know...

A friend of mine stole money

from his mum last year,

and everyone around him

thought he was

the worst human being

in the world at the time,

but I knew

that he wasn't well.

I knew that he wasn't

in a place of

normal head space,

I knew that.

Is this quite difficult

for you?

Am I making it

more painful for you?

No. No, no, no.

You're... No, it's not you.

That's the thing,

it's really not.

This is good.

I think it's difficult

because I'm coming up

against your idea of him

rather than a reality of him,

which is understandable.

But...

It makes it

quite difficult for me to

come from a place of truth.

- If that makes sense?

- How are we doing?

So, uh, we need Pedro in

here, ready to dress the set.

So what's the plan?

We're just getting

a very simple shot

of the two of them.

And there's no standing up,

or walking around or anything.

What's...

What's happening?

So they're just

having a conversation...

- Is it evening, Julie?

- Okay.

Um, yes, yeah, sorry.

It is quite late at night.

- Okay, night.

- Uh, night. So you...

It's possibly like,

10:00, 11:00.

- Okay.

- Um, maybe 10:00.

I've been here all day.

You have to close the...

You've been here

all day.

You were here while Garance

was at film school.

Right.

Um... Yeah, so you've

been here all day.

Okay. So...

So they're just having

a conversation

and it's just...

It's quite static.

- You're high.

- I'm probably high.

So I think

maybe just like...

Maybe here?

- Yeah?

- Yeah?

I mean...

I'm sure it wasn't

night originally.

I mean, we're not lit for...

I mean, this isn't night.

Yeah.

What, late night?

Yeah, like,

11:00, 10:00.

- Yeah, please.

- I know, I know. I'm sorry.

- I honestly thought I said it.

- Do we...

Seriously, was that...

Uh...

Yeah, we'll just...

We'll go with that.

If that's

what it's supposed to be,

then we'll work with that.

So we need to start.

Okay.

It's just starting like...

But this is the problem...

This is the problem.

It's the same, like,

you know, with

how many days

we're into...

I've lost all track of time.

Nothing... Nothing changes.

It's the same

every single day.

We... Like, none of us have

any idea what's going on.

It's like,

it's fucking ridiculous.

And I'm getting grief

from Marland about, like...

I feel confident

about what's going on.

- That was one day.

- No, no, no, no.

Marland,

I'm getting grief from you

- about how much stock...

- All right, fine.

...we're going through.

Like, it's...

We've got more now,

so it should be fine.

Um, can we just...

Yeah,

but we cannot continue like this.

- Like, we can't.

- I think, I think...

Like, it's just like, you

know, we're, you know...

All right, we're students,

but we're like...

Okay, there were

a lot of conversations

that happened

during prep that...

Yeah, I know.

I know we're students,

I know we're still learning

and all the rest of it.

But this is our grad film.

- It's really, important stuff.

- Yeah.

And, like, we should be,

like, professional now like...

Okay. So should we start

making a move to

make the changes that we need

to make? Necessary changes.

Well, like, what's...

What's the point?

Because we don't know

what's going on.

Am I antagonizing,

or am I defending?

No, you... No.

And I'm not... But...

Am I antagonizing?

'Cause I don't think I am.

Look, we're dealing

with a serious ego back there

and I don't know

what his problem is.

But he's making it impossible.

He's been impossible all day.

Let's just drop it.

Let's just drop it.

It's all just

broken down. Like...

We just don't know

what's going on.

It's that...

It's that more than anything.

Okay, can you be specific

about what it is that you need from us?

Specifically.

Because you're talking about

you needing everything

to be clear.

Specifically, well, having

a shot list would be nice.

Like, having like, following

the script would be nice.

You know, having some kind

of sense every single day.

Like, instead of

having, like,

the lights changing,

like, halfway through

because suddenly it's day

and then it was night

and then it's day

and then it's night

and then it's day

and then it's night again.

- All right, Ben.

- Like, it's just, like...

So okay.

So thank you for that.

So we're gonna work

on that, okay?

Yeah, but we've had this

conversation so many times!

So what do you wanna do?

Do you wanna walk away?

- I want somebody to...

- What d'you wanna do?

I'm that close.

I'm that close to walking away.

- All right. Do it. Do it then.

- Okay.

Don't say that, Marland.

Guys, calm down now.

No, but he's not gonna do it,

he's all mouth.

You have to also learn

how to take critiques

and have to find a way to

make things work for everyone.

You're like a captain on a boat.

That's what you are.

We've worked

together before

and, like, that's why

we wanna work with Julie,

because of the way

that she works.

But this time it just feels

like we don't know

what's going on.

It's, like, you know,

and we've talked about this

and it just feels, like,

we need to say this now,

because we're all

getting tired...

Okay, I think

that we have said it.

I think that we have.

I am...

No, but you're not

listening to me.

I don't know how to

explain it in like a...

Do you want me to be soft

and gentle

and all the rest of it?

Like, I'm saying it like this

because nobody's listening!

I am so tired

and we are.

We're all tired.

We have to find

another way.

We have to find a system,

something.

- This is too much.

- Yeah, yeah, we are.

We're gonna sort this out.

Yeah.

You're absolutely right.

Things have been

too much. Yeah.

Do you understand

that, Julie, yeah?

Where's my sunny girl?

Hmm?

Could you put that up

for me, darling?

I don't want them

to get the wrong idea.

No, you've had enough.

- Shit!

- Oh.

- I'm so sorry!

- Oh.

I'm so sorry.

Oh, shit.

What's happened?

- Is that the Etruscan pot?

- Oh, what a shame.

- Vandalized.

- I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry, Mummy.

I really, really,

really didn't...

I shouldn't worry,

it's only a term's fees.

Darling, you didn't do it

on purpose.

I'm sorry.

And I really wouldn't. I'm sorry.

No, it's just

one of those things.

I'm sorry.

Yes, can you get

them out, darling?

- There's some sharp bits.

- I think we can.

Come on.

Come on. Come on.

- Quite sharp bits.

- I'm so sorry.

Ooh, yes. Can you get the dogs

out, darling? I don't want them

- to hurt their feet.

- Come on. Here.

No, it's all right,

it's all right.

Come on.

Oh, dear.

Just one of those things,

isn't it?

Have you cut yourself?

No, just a little bit.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry,

is your finger all right?

Mmm.

I'm gonna go and get a...

Worse things

happen at sea.

...a, um, dustpan

and brush.

And put the kettle on

and start again.

I shouldn't worry.

She can make another one.

No, you stay

out of here, please?

Did you...

No, no, no, no.

Absolutely.

Good.

Anybody else

want some more cake?

Mmm, no, thank you.

I came across

the ravaged remnants

of that in the kitchen.

Well, we're making

fast work of that cake.

I know. It seems to be

going down quite...

Quite good, actually,

it's from the shop.

- Did you make it?

- No, I... It's fine.

It's Mrs. Daley's best,

is it?

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry.

♪ I was sold up the river

♪ To the red slave trade

♪ The stores were gathered

The plans were laid

♪ Synchronized watches

at 18:05... ♪

As Horatio's pounding heart

slowly stilled,

and the welcome adrenaline

drained from his veins,

he became aware

of sentences forming.

Flashes and fragments of

the vision of his situation,

that could only be that

of a future self,

whose fate was very different

to this

inauspicious beginning.

I tried this this morning

and, um...

Yes, I see that.

It's much better.

I liked you as a robot cowboy

in Westworld.

Less so

as a cutter of films.

But you liked it.

- I liked it.

- What did you think?

What were your thoughts?

It excites me. I like...

I like what I'm seeing.

Right.

I wish it was my film.

You know...

Right.

That's marvelously generic.

I mean, if...

I think we could

do with a few more

details of the faces.

Maybe to see some of

the faces as a bit of...

I've asked for two more days.

Lydia, can we have

two more days

- to shoot some close-ups?

- No.

Then we can't

cut them in, Chris.

Okay. Yeah.

We can't cut in those

close-ups we don't have.

No.

What do you think?

What does it make you feel?

Okay. Yeah.

You're forcing me

to have a tantrum.

It excites me.

It excites me...

You said that last time.

That's

a great thing to say.

Yeah. Once is enough, though.

That's all it needs

to be, in a way.

We should put cutouts.

This is what we should do.

Little cutouts

of the audience

in front of the monitor.

It's what Scorsese does.

Okay.

To remind him

that it's cinema...

- Cinema. Yeah.

- ...and not something

- you watch midweek...

- Okay.

...with your uncle.

- I think it's great.

- Mmm.

- It looks great.

- Oh, fuck off!

It's got energy.

It really has.

Say what you think.

Don't say something

that you could say

after watching anything.

- "It's great, it excites me."

- Yeah.

Say something specific,

so that we can decide what

the next scene

- should make you feel.

- Okay.

So that we can take

an emotional line

through something.

I think

it starts really well,

but it's a little flat

in the middle, emotionally.

Am I...

What does it make you feel?

Oh, fuck all of you.

Honestly.

Fucking hell!

Sorry about that.

I loved it.

I really liked it, so...

I think it's great.

He's got it all out of perspective.

- He's stressed.

- Oh... Yeah.

And... Drunk maybe.

Let's take another look.

I'll just do this.

I don't know

if I got enough

of Garance by herself.

I... I wish

I'd had some solo...

- In this? Mmm.

- Yeah. I would.

'Cause it's just,

I think it's too much of the two of them.

I wish I'd had a moment

just her.

Well, you've got this moment.

Well, it's not...

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

I think it's a nice shot.

I think it will...

- We can figure it out.

- Mmm.

Please?

You can really tell

that they had chemistry.

Uh, Pete and Garance.

- Mm-hmm.

- They really did. Kind of...

You can really see it

in her eyes, though.

I think it's quite fitting.

They work well together?

They...

Yeah, very, very well,

I think.

Um, yeah,

they really liked each other.

It was kind of,

I think it's quite...

It was, I think it was quite

good for the characters.

- Mm-hmm.

- Although very different

eye between the two of

them, you know.

Well, we can

move things around

- and we can find it and...

- Yeah.

I think

it's probably perfectly normal

to come to editing

in the first place

and watch the rushes

for the first time

and feel ambivalent

and it must be so strange

having an idea

of something and then...

And then seeing it

for the first time.

Those kind of questions

are completely normal,

but I think, as we continue

to watch it

and piece it together and, uh,

kind of play

with the moments of it,

- we'll find it.

- Mmm. Okay.

Good. Thank you.

I needed to hear that.

No, it'll be fine.

It'll be great.

It's funny. Good. Yeah.

- Do you wanna watch some more?

- Yeah. Let's do that.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome.

- Cheers.

- Cheers. Thank you.

Were you...

Were you particularly close

to his parents?

I mean, have you

spoken to them a lot since

or got to know them well

when you were with him?

I got to know them

quite well. Um...

And I don't know

whether I'm...

Whether I really am too busy,

or whether I'm making excuses.

'Cause I've...

Because I feel as though

when I see them

and talk to them,

I feel like I'm...

"Intruding" isn't the right

word, but I mean...

You know, they lost

their son, their only son.

And I...

I grieved in such

a different way to them.

And I feel...

I don't feel as though

I have a place there

as much now.

It's funny, but I...

I feel really bad

I haven't been in touch

with them as much.

Obviously,

I've never been through

what you've been through,

but I think... I'm sure from

the parents' point of view,

they're obviously dealing,

you know,

with this unimaginable loss

and, uh... And tragic event,

but that doesn't, kind of,

mean that you're not, too.

And I'm sure they're only

sympathetic to that fact.

And you know, you've...

I don't think you should,

uh, take it upon yourself

in a kind of destructive,

negative way.

Um, from my point of view,

from what you've said,

um, you shouldn't do that

to yourself.

Thank you.

And also, with you,

you know,

making the film at school,

which I don't know

whether they know about,

but I'm sure your family

obviously knows about.

It's, you know...

It's a brave thing to do and...

I mean, you know, I think,

I don't think you can...

What you've gone through

at any stage,

at any point of your life,

if this was to happen,

would be unimaginable.

So for it to happen

at such a young age

and particularly,

I don't think you can...

You just can't do that

to yourself.

It's not...

It's not fair to yourself.

Do you want another

drink?

Uh, no, I'm fine,

thank you.

Um, do you want to come

back to mine for a drink?

If you have time.

Uh... This evening?

Mm-hmm.

Um... I...

Actually, I said I would see

my boyfriend this evening.

Um, so I probably

can't tonight.

Okay. Yeah.

No, I understand.

I'm so sorry,

I misunderstood.

No, no, no.

No, no, no, it's fine.

No, I said I'd, uh...

I said I would cook something.

He hasn't been very well,

um...

Uh, for a little while now,

so...

- I'm sorry.

- That's all right.

Um...

Uh...

Yeah, so I said

I'd cook him dinner.

So I should probably do that.

Yeah.

That's really sweet of you.

Ah, well,

he hasn't had it yet.

So, you should probably...

Yeah, I might run.

Is that all right?

- No, not at all.

- You sure?

Yeah, absolutely.

Yeah, completely.

- Okay.

- I'll see you soon.

- Yeah, okay.

- Thanks so much.

Yeah, of course.

Thank you so much.

Thank you so... Yeah.

Thanks. Good luck.

- Thank you.

- Have a nice night.

Yeah, you, too.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Yeah, tomorrow.

♪ Everybody's laughing

♪ Everybody's laughing

♪ Everybody's laughing ♪

Hello?

Hi, Barbara. Are you

all right? What's wrong?

Is he in the hospital?

Or is he at home?

No, thank you so much

for calling.

Can he... Can he talk?

Do you want me to come?

Do you want me to come,

Barbara?

Do you want me

to come to you?

Yeah, no, of course.

Yeah.

Thank you so much for calling.

No, no, not at all.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Okay. Bye-bye.

See you soon.

I'm struggling

to recognize whether

I'm, um,

missing Anthony as a whole.

That, as the person he was,

a very

- strong individual, he was.

- Mm-hmm.

And still is in my mind

- quite present.

- Mm-hmm.

Or whether I'm missing having

a companion

and that intimacy.

And that mysterious leader

who... Who, you know,

made decisions for me

and took me places and...

And... And...

- Helped you be a risk taker.

- Mmm.

But a controlled

risk taker.

Controlled by him.

Keep talking.

I've... I miss having

that intimacy with someone.

And... And I don't know

whether I'm quite ready

to have that

with someone else yet.

Because I...

I really want it.

I really want to be able to

be next to someone in bed.

And talk to someone who...

Who I don't go

to film school with.

- Mm-hmm.

- And who's not my parents

or Anthony's parents.

But you do realize,

you are the one

who can make it happen.

Do you think

I have to change a bit?

Well, you won't

change character,

but you do have to change

a few habits.

Not only of thinking,

but of being.

You did it with film school.

And in film school,

you found acquaintances.

Now your job is to go...

Job? That's not quite the...

Yes, your job.

You're a human being with life to live.

That's your job.

Patrick.

Hi. Hi. How are you?

I am middling.

- How are you?

- Yeah, middling as well.

- Good.

- Yeah.

How's your film?

I'm not calling it that

any longer.

I was invited

to leave the edit.

So...

I could have made their film.

But I wanted to make my film,

so it was an easy decision.

Oh, I'm sorry

about that.

I always wanted

to be like Orson Welles.

Lydia and I

are back together.

Good! Good, I'm pleased.

I ground her down.

She lost that battle.

Although she's still

in the edit.

Okay.

So maybe

she's winning the war.

How's your memorial?

Finished now.

Edit's... It's done.

So, waiting to graduate.

So we'll see.

Did you avoid the temptation

to be obvious?

- I think so.

- That's all you can hope for,

- isn't it?

- Mmm.

Do you think Anthony did

work for the Foreign Office?

In the end?

Anthony was a junkie.

Yeah.

- Okay.

- Onwards.

That's my direction.

- I'm this way.

- Good choice.

- See you soon.

- Good decision.

Julie,

please come and join me.

Julie Harte.

It's a great joy

to see you here, Julie.

You've, um, bent some rules,

and it's been a long journey.

Um, but you've met it with

courage and determination.

There was a point,

I think, um...

Jonathan, Steven,

when we didn't think

we would

see you here graduating.

But we're all

very proud of you.

Um, and it's a great,

great, great delight

to see you graduating,

and I'm sure you'd like

to say a few words?

Thank you.

Um... This, um,

film's dedicated to absent friends,

um, who couldn't be here.

And, um,

if we could all just raise an

imaginary glass of champagne

to absent friends.

Um...

It's my gift

to someone I...

I once knew

and loved very much.

Uh, that's all. Thank you.

You'd like her.

I love her.

She's just received word

from her lover

and she's carving his initial

into the tree.

You're lost.

And you'll always be lost.

Why are they more real

than we are?

Did you score today?

Don't lie!

I can't believe you.

Can you lend me

a couple of quid?

Mummy...

Have you got 10?

Gimme 10.

Can I borrow

some money?

More money, more money.

£200.

If you don't

want to know,

then don't ask...

- Desiree...

- What things?

...Miriam,

Caroline...

You're a dark horse,

Julie.

...and Angela.

Angela.

If you don't

want to know...

I do want to know.

I do want to know.

Stop torturing yourself.

Stop inviting me

to torture you.

Please go away.

Do you still love me?

How do you feel about...

Depends.

I'd love to.

You had more disagreements...

Disagreements?

You had more disagreements.

He was strong.

He didn't know

how to perform his deception.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Do you think

that makes you special?

♪ How sad Venice can be

♪ When you're on your own ♪

- A searing pain.

- What's it all for?

He had no reason

to go on.

♪ Happy birthday

♪ To you

♪ Happy birthday to you

♪ Happy birthday, dear Julie

♪ Happy birthday... ♪

Anthony was a junkie.

I'm very much in love.

You're a

human being with life to live.

I could see like second sight.

It is you that has power.

Would you lend

me a couple of quid?

Have you got 10? Gimme 10.

Julie.

And I am born again.

You're lost.

You're lost.

And you'll always be lost.

And I am born again.

♪ No one on Earth

could feel like this

♪ I'm thrown

and overblown with bliss

♪ There must be an angel

♪ Playing with my heart, yeah

♪ I walk into an empty room

♪ And suddenly

my heart goes boom ♪

Mmm.

We're a little later

than we said we'd be...

Snowy!

...because of the blasted

underground strike.

- I mean, it's such a bore.

- Of course, the strike.

Uh, so did you get a taxi

or what?

Oh, look!

- You see?

- See... I see.

I was trying

to explain it to you.

- Yes, I understand now.

- It was kinda difficult.

- I'm sorry, I was being thick.

- And they fold.

It's a great improvement,

darling, I do see.

- And they... And they fold up.

- Yeah.

They've done such a good job.

I just couldn't...

- I couldn't tell these fold.

- It's marvelous!

- Yeah.

- With the added bonus

of getting rid

of that glass

that one couldn't

stop looking at oneself in.

- Oh, look...

- Do you want some tea?

I'd love some.

Fruits of the garden.

- Look, darling.

- Yeah?

Put those in water.

- Thank you, Mummy. Thank you.

- Oh.

Yeah, I'd love a cup of tea.

Oh...

No, I mean,

it's no mean feat getting a taxi

from King's Cross

at the best of times,

but finding someone,

someone who will take

a wild animal

was quite something.

Thank you very much.

We found such...

Such a charming man.

Actually, do you know what,

I'm gonna spend a penny

if I may?

Whoops.

I squirted myself

with your heavenly scent

by the sink.

- Is it Penhaligon's Bluebell?

- Yes.

Absolutely glorious.

- Come on, up you come.

- Let me have a smell.

Absolutely glorious,

isn't it?

- This is for you.

- What's this? I can't see.

Just some of the money.

- Oh, my darling! Really?

- Yeah.

- You can spare that?

- Mm-hmm.

'Cause I can wait.

No, no, no.

You've waited long enough.

I know you'll pay me back,

but I can wait if you...

It's fine. No, you...

It's about time.

It's about time.

I wouldn't pay you

unless I could.

- It's all fine.

- Well, thank you very much.

- Very good.

- Thank you.

Pleasure doing business

with you.

Oh, where's my tea?

Mummy, why are you

still smoking?

- Mmm.

- It's so horrible.

I know.

- New thing.

- I know, I know.

Well, it's, you know...

What does Daddy

feel about it?

Daddy pretends he doesn't

know anything about it.

That's my... One of my

favorite qualities about him.

Yes, like a truly

loving person.

He must really love you.

I think he must.

Snowy. Snowy.

Your hair's getting so long.

- Yes, I know.

- It's lovely like that.

- Do you like it?

- Yeah.

- Good.

- I do.

Yes, no,

I like it, too.

It looks quite like

my mother, actually.

She used to wear

her hair like that.

Her hair was

a lot darker than mine.

Yes, but she used to wear it

in a bun like that.

Mmm.

And then it was

always so exciting

when she took it down

at night,

or if you...

If you caught sight of her.

You caught her?

Yeah.

Are you being

taken care of, yeah? No?

Okay, okay.

You want us to...

You look great.

- Um...

- Is... Is...

Does Anna know?

Is she moving with camera?

Like, to just...

Or is she just...

No. I think

we're gonna try

one of her static,

turning around like this.

But just keeping

the eye line.

And then I was thinking we're

gonna do one by herself.

- And then she might move.

- Okay. Yep.

Because then she'll have more

movement with her guitar.

'Cause I don't want her

to bang into anybody

if she's moving.

Um, Anna's coming in

now, Julie. So...

Hi.

- So, um...

- You look beautiful.

On the way to the thing

be careful with your heels,

'cause we don't want...

So you wanted her...

- Just in the center.

- Mm-hmm.

And you're gonna stand, yes,

and this thing

- will be turning quite slowly.

- Right.

And if you ever feel like

you're gonna fall,

just put your hand up

and we'll stop.

- Right.

- But I think,

yeah, you're gonna

be turning with it.

- Mm-hmm.

- And whenever...

So we're

gonna run turntable.

When that's up,

we're gonna roll camera.

Mark it. Then we're

gonna roll playback.

It's an eight count

and then we're into it.

Everyone get that?

Everyone good?

Yep. Okay. Cool.

Let me... No, no, no,

carry on, carry on.

- No? Yeah?

- No, no, yeah. It's good.

Okay.

All right, then.

Uh, all right, stand by,

everyone. Nice and quiet.

Okay,

and James back there,

let's please

run the turntable.

Okay,

so nice and quiet, guys.

Let's standby on this.

Okay, let's roll camera.

- Turning over.

- Camera speeding.

And mark it.

One one.

Clear frame, please.

Settle and go playback!

♪ God, I wanna go home

♪ But I wanna stay out there

♪ It's a hell of a thing

♪ Dreamless up in desire

♪ So I wait by the phone

♪ Ringing out in the hall

♪ And I write it in chalk

♪ On a skeleton wall

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ Is this all there is? ♪

Do you have a feeling

of the kind of themes

you want to explore?

Is that something that's

really firm in your head?

- Like, I need...

- No. No, it's not.

It's not. I hope, um...

At least you're honest

about it.

I hope I...

I hope I have more...

I hope I have something

to say in my 30s,

by the time I get there.

I hope I have something to...

Something to talk about.

But do you kind of feel like

you're almost like a hamster

- storing up experience?

- I'm storing,

I'm gathering experience

and information and...

And, yeah,

gathering all that...

- Okay.

- ...that stuff...

- Mm-hmm.

- ...and I'm waiting

to find what I wanna do

with that.

By dawn,

they were on communist soil

laying symbols of peace.

Thousands of them looking east

and shouting,

"Down with the wall."

On top, West Berliners

who hadn't been born

when the wall was built,

led crowds in singing.

Hans Janke was 14

when it went up.

Today, he says,

has changed everything.

I was thinking

the wall will never fall.

What are you thinking now?

The wall will fall.

- Oi, oi! You all right?

- Hey!

Happy birthday!

- How you getting on? Good?

- Thank you.

I'm so good.

You're so pissed already!

Looking a bit older.

No, you look amazing.

Listen, I got

a little something for you.

Do you want it

on the table?

Yeah, please.

Thank you so much.

Happy birthday.

You're the only

person I want here.

I'm actually gonna throw...

- Oh, shit, my earring.

- Oh, sorry, love.

Happy birthday.

Lovely dress, by the way.

Um... Thanks, love.

Thank you.

A lot of work with the

Anti-Poll Tax Federation.

You know, some people...

Like talking to some people

about all of that stuff.

- You know...

- I have heard about it.

Yeah, I've heard about it

in France. Yeah.

Wine.

Yes, I do.

That one.

No way!

I don't want you around...

That would be amazing.

Yes, yes.

I have so many pictures of me

with this big belly.

Yes!

You keep asking me

all these questions.

I've only just met her.

Oh, have ya? I thought youse

were a thing for a while.

Four months,

but, you know,

- a bit intense for...

- Oh, sorry.

Oh, lad, I can't help it.

I get on the wind up,

- don't I?

- Yeah, I know.

- I didn't make it.

- You brought it?

- I did not...

- Well, who brought it, then?

I didn't. I didn't bring

that, I just saw it outside.

I thought it was

from the party.

You... What? You...

Sorry? You found it outside

in the street or what?

No, no, no. It just didn't...

It was by the door.

It's a joke?

It was just...

It was outside the front door.

- You are joking?

- Nah! I brought it.

I made it.

I made it, I made it!

I was like,

"I've already eaten half of it."

- I made it, but it comes from a can.

- It looks delicious.

Here we go.

Ooh.

Everybody, say, "Thirty!"

Thirty!

There you are.

Fuckin' hell, that's it.

There we go.

Are we to be, uh, expecting

someone at any point?

- What do you mean?

- I thought maybe

a fine young gentleman

in your life?

"Fine young gen..."

No. Absolutely not.

- No?

- No.

- No, you're not with anyone?

- No. Just me.

- Good.

- I'm really happy.

Good. Cheers, mate.

As it should be. Come here.

- I love you. Thank you.

- I love you.

Cut!

♪ God, I wanna go home

♪ But I wanna stay out there

♪ It's a hell of a thing

♪ Dreamless up in desire

♪ So I wait by the phone

♪ Ringing out in the hall

♪ And I write it in chalk

♪ On a skeleton wall

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ But the memory fades

♪ Like a cigarette burning

♪ So I go back to bed

♪ Now the headlights are turning

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ I'm on my own tonight

♪ If nobody answers

♪ I'm on my own tonight

♪ If nobody answers

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ Is this all there is?

♪ Just drive

♪ 'Cause all I want

♪ Is you all ♪