The Allins (2017) - full transcript

(pounding drums)

We love you GG!

GG! GG! GG! GG!

Here is the, er, resting area
of GG Allin. Right here.

This was where
his headstone... stood

until some jackass knocked it
off the platform here.

And then, er, the Catholic
priest decided to keep it,

hold it hostage in the basement
of the church for...

oh, seems like two
or three years.

I wanna forget
about that stone.

I haven't been to the cemetery
for two years



because it hurts to go
without that stone there.

I've been going there
since I was 17

to see my father
with that stone.

And now when that stone
isn't there it hurts when I go.

It hurts
because of all this foolishness

with GG Allin and Merle.

All the stupidness is the reason
that stone is not there.

(punk rock music
plays on stereo)

We're going
to see GG Allin's grave.

And where is it?

We think we found it.
It's up by...

We gotta park on the road
and walk down to it.

- OK, and why did you come?
- We're climbing Mt Washington

but, er, if you're in the area
you've gotta stop here.



All right.
We're gonna go check it out.

♪ Because everybody loves
That I'm a scumbag ♪

♪ I like sluts and hoes
And I don't care ♪

♪ You can say just
what you want to say about me ♪

♪ But if I hear you ♪

♪ I'm just gonna knock you
off your chair ♪

People have been coming here
for 20 years

to pay their respects.

(guitar plays,
singing continues)

(man burps)

Some of 'em are respectful,
some of 'em are just assholes

and they fuck everything up
in the cemetery.

Sometimes it's due to the fact
that the fans are just a little

over the top at points.

(man cheers)
(clapping, whistling)

Everybody knew
where the stone was,

they were coming from Canada.

You don't want people to come

and piss and shit
all over your grave.

I told the police, I'd go down,
shoot 'em in the ass.

I was gonna take my gun,
go down and shoot 'em.

They said, "You can't do that."
I said, "You watch me."

You want me to go piss

on your fucking mother's grave,
asshole?

I don't give a fuck.

- Get over there and help him.
- He's spitting on it.

I saw you spitting on it.

Not another fucking word
out of you.

♪ Snakeman's Dance ♪

♪ I'm a snake, cold and hard ♪

♪ I reveal nothing to you ♪

♪ You only see
What I want you to see ♪

♪ My attack
will leave no clues ♪

♪ You'll never know
What I'm thinking ♪

♪ You'll not penetrate
my layers of skin ♪

♪ But when I'm triggered
And on the edge ♪

♪ My bite will suck you in... ♪

I hated GG Allin.

I loved Kevin
but I hated GG Allin.

And there is a Kevin,
and there is a GG.

He wasted his talent,
he killed himself.

What mother wants that?

♪ To my underwood ♪

♪ I'll lead you
to romantic thoughts ♪

♪ As I strip you
to the bone... ♪

There was nobody
closer to me than GG.

And pretty much vice versa
in most of our lives.

♪ But when it's all been
said and done... ♪

I admired him for his music

and his talent
and his intelligence

and all that.
But, I mean, first an foremost,

he was the best brother
you could ever want.

♪ Now you've met the Snakeman ♪

♪ How did I make you feel? ♪

♪ I'm a snake, cold and hard ♪

♪ I reveal nothing to you ♪

♪ You only see
What I want you to see ♪

♪ My attack
will leave no clue ♪

♪ You'll never know
What I'm thinking ♪

♪ You'll not penetrate
my layers of skin ♪

♪ But when I'm triggered
And on the edge ♪

♪ My bite will suck you... ♪

♪ ...in ♪

Hey, Merle, wait.
Merry Christmas!

Oh, thank you.
Thank you so much!

- I've got something for you.
- Oh, you are so sweet.

- Oh, my God!
- Yes, enjoy.

- Thank you so much!
- Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas.

- You're a good neighbor.
- Thank you very much.

- Bye.
- Thank you.

(melodic acoustic guitar plays)

(country music plays on stereo)

Everybody loves GG,
so I keep his legacy going

by pimping his shit.

It definitely helps me
be able to survive and, er,...

While I'm spreading the word,
I'm surviving as well

and being able to live the kind
of life that I wanna live.

All right, we have a customer
from Canada here

that wants to know if I can
ship something to Canada.

"Son, I can ship something up
the fucking crack of your ass

if you want me to."

These are some of the pictures
that I paint.

This is just an original.
I painted that.

I saw a picture
and I painted it.

I don't pretend to be an artist.

I just paint for the fun of it.
I have a good time.

Merle wanted me
to do pictures of gravestones

and things like that and, er,...

I don't think that anybody
would buy them for the picture.

They buy them
because I'm GG Allins' mother.

I need to... try
to forget Kevin Allin.

I don't need to be reminded
every day that he's dead.

It's hurtful.
It hurts my heart.

And I have enough
heart problems,

so I don't need to think
about that all the time.

So here we are.
We've entered the music room.

This is the room
where I keep all the GG CDs,

the DVDs, the video, records,
the patches, the stickers,

things like that.

A lot of GG Allin merchandise.

Bumper stickers,
stuff like that.

Kevin is still alive to him.

It's almost like not wanting
to admit your brother's dead.

And if you stop
selling his things,

and stop talking about him,
he would be gone.

GG and I were, like, real close
from the time we were born.

We lived in a log cabin.

All alone in the woods
without any phone

or any way to get anywhere.

Don't ever remember having
people over to our house.

There's no room for company.

We were very poor.
Very, very poor.

Because their father
didn't work

and he always
had to have a new truck.

We didn't have
a lot of money

for anything else.

Me and my brother
entertained ourselves

the best way we could.

This is my secret GG Allin room.

This is... where I keep

my brother's memory alive

with pictures
and photo albums

full of scrap book
memorabilia

and stuff like that,

some of his prison artwork.

This room is pretty much
off limits to everybody.

This is my secret...
escape room

for just me and my brother.

(doorbell rings)

Hello, sir.

- Nice to see you. again.
- You too. Come on in.

Follow me, I think it's in here.

- This is a shirt that GG wore.
- Oh, shit.

It's got a bit of a hole
in the back,

but that's GG's shirt.

Wow, man, I am
touching history right here.

Holy shit, that's pretty insane.

I'm so interested in that.

Like I said they're, you know,
expensive, you know.

Yeah.

The first ten years, I grew up
in the woods in New Hampshire.

With no running water,
no heat, no, er, electricity.

And my father
was a very violent man.

But that made me sort of
a warrior soul in an early age.

When things started to be scary
I left for the children.

I never saw him after that.
I never talked to him.

Except when Kevin died.

He was the first person
I called.

But he never showed up.

♪ rock music plays ♪

When my mother finally
broke away from my father

and we ended up
moving to Lancaster

and moving in with her mother,

we were like,
"Wow, freedom, and excitement."

New adventures
and socialising with people.

Like we'd been in prison
since we were born.

♪ Watch me girls ♪

I had three jobs
and the boys were alone a lot.

They didn't have my supervision
like they should have had

because I had to work
to support them.

♪ I don't know
where to be found ♪

♪ Hanging out
can surely get me down ♪

But I just gave them freedom
to be themselves.

Once they got out on their own,
they really used that freedom.

So what we would do
is just steal,

break into houses
or sell drugs.

Whatever we could do to make
any kind of money at all.

We used to hitchhike
to concerts all the time.

We saw Aerosmith,
before they were huge.

And Alice Cooper in '72.

They were good kids.
They did mischievous things.

I mean, they were not
like your normal children.

We were totally
all about rock'n'roll.

We lived it 24/7, every day.

Lance.

Yeah. It's, er, Merle Allin
from The Murder Junkies.

I'm calling in regards
to the show in Detroit.

I just wanna make sure
that we're able

to keep the ticket price,

you know,
around ten dollars or so.

So, we're not
overcharging people.

All right, my friend, thanks.

Bye.

Refrigerator magnet.

I was at the record store
and some fan gave me this, er,

little piece of paper. It says,
"Top five rock'n'roll 'staches."

"Top five rock'n'roll 'staches."

Let's see what we going on here.

Frank Zappa, number five.

Frank Beard from ZZ Top,
number four.

Freddie Mercury!

(laughs) That's fucking funny!

That is fucking great.

"For those who don't know
Merle is the bassist

in controversial US punk band
The Murder Junkies

and brother of the late
infamous GG Allin."

If I'm gonna be number two,

I don't mind losing
the number one spot to Lemmy.

That's fucking cool as fuck,
right? (laughs)

One of our first bands
was a band called Malpractice.

GG played drums,
and I played the bass.

I would run the light show
and do the sound.

I mean, we were...
Like a family.

♪ Girls, girls, girls, girls
Gimme, gimme, gimme ♪

We didn't really care
what people thought about us.

Me especially, because I was
never the popular kid.

I was always the outcast so...

Kevin had to imitate
everything Merle did.

And it was kind of like,

everything Kevin did,
Merle had to do too.

They were very competitive.

I started a band
called Thrills.

We were very popular,
riding high,

opening for all kinds
of cool bands

like the Ramones, U2.
We opened for The Cars.

You know,
we were a headlining band.

Even when they got older,

Merle and Kevin tried
to outdo each other with bands.

One, two, three, four!

♪ I am bored to death ♪

♪ Just so bored
of the human race ♪

♪ I'm so bored with life ♪

♪ I don't care what I say ♪

The Jabbers were actually

the first punk rock band
in Hampshire.

We wanted to play every club
in town we hated.

We'd knock tables over,

get into as many fights
as we could and get thrown out.

We didn't care
because we hated the town.

♪ I am bored to death ♪

♪ And I don't know
where it's headed to... ♪

Kevin could have chosen
to be a good musician

instead of kill himself.

He had his choice, but he
had to be the front runner.

Why couldn't I have had
normal children?

I mean, you know,
I'm a fairly normal person.

I may be a little... cookie

or different than some people

but I'm normal.

And I had these two kids.

What happened?

The generation that we're from,
that kind of was the normal.

Abnormal was normal.

Jeepers, Lordie Lord.

How many times have I had
the cops tell me to come home,

the neighbors are complaining?

I t was not a normal life.

And now I think, 'Oh, my God.
Did we create monsters?'

Should I have been that kind
of a mother that encouraged?

But they loved what they did.
You know.

We tried to get them
to be doctors,

lawyers, you know, whatever.

Guess what? No such luck.

You can't force a kid.

My son has short hair. He's
more into sports than music.

I bought him a guitar,
but he never really...

If a child really wants
to do something, they will.

They'll find a way,
one way or another.

You're a wonderful woman.

Thank you for coming.
It's really good to see you.

It makes me feel good...

...to have somebody say that
Kevin was a good musician.

- Not just a crazy man.
- No. He had a good heart.

Down deep inside,
I know he loved you.

I mean, everybody thinks
he was just a nut,

but he was more than that.

He was a human being.
He was a person.

And he was talented.

He really was talented.

And I'm here
at the home of GG Allin,

the famous rock star.

Not me.

GG, where did the name
GG come from?

That came
because I'm Jesus Christ.

The son of son,
the lord of lords,

the king of king,
devil of devils.

Stay out of here!

We want no more
troublemakers around here!

- Ain't heard the last of me!
- Go home, will you?!

The '80s sucked.

♪ Me and the boys are ♪

♪ We're living
for the night... ♪

I'd left Thrills.
I wasn't even playing music.

I was married and miserable.

I was working two jobs
to pay my bills.

My life sucked.

♪ We're looking for chicks
And we're looking for kicks ♪

♪ We're living fast and...♪

GG was doing his thing.

♪ Live fast, die fast ♪

♪ Don't worry 'bout the crash ♪

At that point in his career,
it was all about him.

♪ Hell bound
on the coursecrash ♪

♪ Living in the alley
with the rest of the trash ♪

Sometimes he'd
have a good band,

sometimes he'd have
a shitty band.

♪ We're never... ♪

I was so envious
of what he was doing

because he was living this life
that I wanted to live.

I was living the life that
I always feared to be living.

♪ You'll never stop us now ♪

♪ When we're running
the red light ♪

This is basically
a script that, er,

was given to me
by a couple of film-makers

who are trying to make
a low-budget horror movie

based on GG...

...and the grave
and all that good stuff so...

"Jesus Christ Allin.

The Cum-Back Tour." C-U-M.

Here comes Annie Teal.

Hi, Annie Teal.

Seven years ago,
I saw The Murder Junkies.

And as I walked out,
Merle was at the merch table.

There was just something there.

Two people
with a lot in common.

There was just
a connection there.

She is sort of like
a Kevin to him.

The two of them... that's all
they need is each other.

They don't seem to go out
and socialize or do anything.

And I think that
Annie Teal and he...

Like I say, she kind of
took over Kevin's place.

Ann told Merle
she would have a baby,

if he wanted one.

I just don't think
it's gonna ever happen.

I'd sure like another
grandchild.

It's so sad I only have
just one grandchild,

Nico, my dead son's daughter.

I brought her up for the first
three years of her life.

Bought all of her diapers.

I was never close to Nico.
And GG sure as hell wasn't.

He left when she was
three years old.

He was a rock star.

Her mother hated Kevin.

And that's probably
why she doesn't

have anything to do with me.

She's all I've got left
of Kevin, you know.

How nice it would be,

if we could have
a wonderful relationship

because she's his daughter.
She's...

I don't have him any more.
But I could at least have her.

Tell me, that's like...

His mother.

No, no, no.

What's your mother like?

I don't talk to her.

I've got three mothers,
three fathers so I don't know

where the fuck any of them are.
I really don't care.

I didn't see Kevin
for a lot of years.

I know he was in Chicago.

I know he was
sleeping on the street.

But I couldn't go
look for Kevin.

I just didn't have
the means or the money.

I mean, you can't
hold your children captive.

I wonder if it would've helped,

if I'd done something
like that.

And I'll always wonder.
And that's a terrible feeling.

I haven't eaten in a week.

Just go down to the mission
and eat a burrito.

I ate today for, like, the first
time since I got to town.

We're gonna get
to see something done.

Fuck it, if I don't shit,
you'll see something anyway.

I don't know.

So, let's buy hamburgers
or burritos.

Just keep buying me food,
I'll shit.

Go buy a hamburger.

♪ heavy punk rock music plays ♪

I've heard stories about you
rolling around

in your shit and eating it.

Shoving the microphone
up your ass. What's the point?

I'm trying
to throw shit at people,

because that's the way
I see 'em.

I don't really like people
much. I'm not very social.

I'm not, you know, particularly
up there to entertain them.

I'm kind of there
to make them my target.

As far of I'm concerned
they're my enemy.

He was just trying to outdo
what everyone else did.

♪ Tough fucking shit ♪

He was killing himself,
is what he was doing.

Oh, it's just shit.

It really is. It's really not
that big of a deal.

It doesn't smell too good,
you know,

but it just wipes off.

♪ Hey, my shit stinks
and Tammy's got big tits ♪

♪ Well, the law
is always on my ass ♪

♪ I'm on their list
Fuck this! ♪

♪ And I like to cut myself
with broken glass ♪

♪ We're just sluts and living ♪

♪ Like scumfuc alley trash ♪

♪ So if we piss you off
That's just... ♪

♪ Tough fucking shit! ♪

How does heroin fit into the
preparations for your lifestyle?

Any kind of drugs
fit into my preparation.

Damn fucking straight!

Fuck, straight as.

We drink, we fight, we fuck,
we do drugs, anything!

We don't care.

Any particularly drug that you'd
recommend to our audience?

Anything that's free.

Right. Anything that's free too.

♪ heavy punk rock plays ♪

♪ Give me another cigarette ♪

Kevin was, no doubt in my mind,
a split personality.

I think he's even
been diagnosed

as having a dual personality.

♪ Give me heroin... ♪

He was always fighting
between being Kevin and GG.

He loved being Kevin,
you know?

But he couldn't be Kevin
when he was in public,

he had to be GG.

I think he got himself
so deep into the GG thing,

that there was
no getting out of it.

It had to go further
and further and further.

He used to write me
hate letters.

My neighbor across the way
was a drug psychiatrist.

I used to bring the letters
over to him, and he said,

"This is not really Kevin,
he's under the influence now,"

because you can see the way
the letters were formed.

What is it
about shocking people

that is so appealing to you?

I don't know. I just like to do
what I wanna do. I like pain.

I like to cut myself. I just...

I like to see how far
to the edge I can go.

Sooner or later,
I will go over the edge.

And you guys fucking suck!

I'm here to tell you,

I declare war
on the fucking underground.

And I am fucking rock

fucking roll.

And in 1990, October 31st,

I will fucking commit suicide.

It's nothing
you wanna talk about.

"As to whether GG Allin says

he intends to go through
with his suicide plan

remains to be seen."

What the fuck
remains to be seen?

When I say,
I'm gonna fucking kill myself

on October 31st 1990,

I'm gonna fucking do it.

And no goddamn bullshit
Boston newspaper

is gonna fucking tell me

that I'm crying wolf,
when I'm fucking dead.

This fucking newspaper
is full of fucking shit.

Get on with it, baby.

Bull fuck... Why don't I what?

What?

(man heckles)

Do what?

Kill myself sooner?

Because it would have
pleased you too much,

you fucking cunt.

Why don't you come up
to the mic and tell me that?

- (man responds)
- Come on.

- You want me to?
- Come on.

- Do you want me to?
- Yeah.

Why didn't I kill myself sooner?

Why don't you
kill yourself sooner?

(woman screams)

(woman screams)

Fuck you!

Fuck you! Fuck you!

Why didn't I kill myself sooner?

You're fucking (inaudible).

Fuck you.

I kill myself sooner?

You want me
to kill myself sooner?

Well, you're gonna have to wait.

September 1989.
GG goes to jail.

♪ Sitting in this room ♪

♪ Dark and gloom ♪

♪ Four walls look to me
to be hell ♪

He got a three-year sentence,

"intent to commit bodily harm,
less than murder",

was the charge.

♪ Sitting in this room ♪

♪ Sucks so bad ♪

♪ I might as well
be off in jail ♪

The Hells Angels
became his sponsors,

and he did AA.

I guess he cleaned up.

♪ Everybody outside
these walls to me ♪

♪ Seem so plastic ♪

♪ They seem so phony ♪

♪ And so unreal ♪

The only chance
I was gonna get,

was while he was in prison

to put this band together
and make shit happen.

And when he got out
we just started playing.

That was the beginning
of The Murder Junkies.

♪ heavy punk rock music plays ♪

Of course, when you're in jail,

I guess you're not
gonna get drugs and alcohol.

But the minute
you go back on stage,

the kids expect more
and want more

and he got right back into it.

♪ inaudible singing ♪

I was on parole.

I said fuck you
to my parole agent

and went out on the road.

The emotions that were going on
in the club, fear and anger.

You would go from
to everybody loving you

by the time
the show was over,

everybody fucking hated you.

Rock'n'roll is supposed
to be scary.

It's not supposed
to be a business

but it's turned
into a business.

GG Allin's mission
goes till the end.

We couldn't really protect him,
he was on his own.

He was doing
what he enjoyed doing.

Of course if anything happened,
we would have... you know.

He was always able
to take care of himself.

I know the things he did,
some of the things he did.

And I'm sure there are some

that I probably
don't know about.

I don't ever wanna know
about them.

When people ask me
my son's band's name,

I say I don't know.

- Fucking, we love him.
- Big GG fans.

Huge fans of GG Allin
and The Murder Junkies.

He did what the fuck he wanted

and didn't give a shit
about nothing.

No fucking rules.
No government.

Even when he was
on fucking parole.

Fuck authority, man.
Fuck everything.

- Fuck everything is right.
- Fuck you. Fuck you.

Don't care about anything.

It's the music, the mentality,
the whole lot to it.

It's GG Allin.

And I'm Merle Allin.

And we're the band
The Murder Junkies.

And, er, we're out for revenge.

And we're out for...
to put danger back on the road.

Once he got out of prison,

he realized that
he had more things to say.

So, he wasn't
gonna kill himself,

until he had done that.

This is GG.
My band will be at the club.

GG became
the biggest self-promoter

in the fucking world.

Think about it, this guy
built himself up from nothing.

Some fucking guy
from New Hampshire.

He would do interviews.
He would talk to anybody.

See me on TV next Tuesday.

Watch "The Jerry Springer Show"

on NBC,
I'll be on next Tuesday.

He built up his name.
You have to have to product.

Be able to do all the shit
you talk. But he did that.

Rock'n'roll is the fury
from within you.

Rock'n'roll is revenge,
rock'n'roll is your enemy.

And I'm your enemy.

(crowd chant) Eat Shit!

Merle's still doing it,
and I'm glad. I'm so happy.

The band, they're fucking great.
The new singer's great.

After GG died,
the band was like,

"That's the end of that.
How can we continue?"

But I just wanted to play,
you know?

I wanted to continue
playing music.

I'm going over the parts,
going over the songs

since we had a day off.

I'm trying to remember my beats.

When we first started,
I said,

"You've gotta make us laugh,
what else?

You're part of our family now."
It made me happy.

You always miss the old days,
that's human nature.

We're still going
and having fun every night.

Plus, we have our memories
from the old days.

Beautiful in that sense.

OK, I'm gonna...

I wanna get back
to reviewing the set.

I would like to get back
to my work here.

♪ heavy punk rock plays ♪

Keeping the band together
is really hard

because people
still wanted it to be GG

so the early years
were fucking hard, man.

It was hard
even finding a singer

that really understood
what we wanted to do.

It's not an easy band to be in.

It's not like touring
with a normal band.

Everybody wants to see
a train wreck, a car crash.

Some people, I guess,
are disappointed

that we're not doing
the GG thing.

I can't be that man.
I'm not gonna be that man.

The boss is dead,
been dead for 20 years.

GG used to do things on stage.

He used to crap on stage,
and rub it all over himself.

I won't do that.

Dino's one of a kind.

Eccentric, crazy.

He can barely keep
his fucking life together.

But he's a legend.

OK, he's done his drum solo.

Now it's time to put
a drumstick or two up his ass.

(man) Do it for America.

Very gently.

Is it gonna hurt you?

Very gently. Only a few inches.

Slowly twist it in
and out a few times.

No.

Do it gently.

Do it gently.

(audience groan)

♪ We walked along
and talked along... ♪

We probably
make more money today

because back
when GG was alive

the money that we were
supposed to make,

would be given back
to the club

because GG
broke microphones

and he smashed out
the fucking lights.

Sometimes we would end up
going home with no money.

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ The Boston girl ♪

♪ She fell upon
her begging knees ♪

♪ Crying Lord... ♪

After a week
or two being on tour

the van that we would
be travelling in

would be just
smelling like ass.

Not that he took a dump
at every show

but there were a lot of times
where he was just covered

with shit and blood,
and dirt and slime.

You were getting headaches
from the smell of the van.

♪ I beat her more and more ♪

♪ I beat her
till the blood gushed out ♪

♪ Then I raped
that bleeding whore ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill...
the Boston girl ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill...
the Boston girl ♪

♪ We walked along
and talked along ♪

In the GG days
the girls that came to shows,

looked like fucking dudes.

They were tough
as fucking dudes.

I'll tell you, man.

Very rarely did you see
too many hot chicks

at a GG Allin show.

♪ Watch me kill ♪

Now it's like
they're all over the place.

♪ The Boston girl ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ Watch me kill ♪

♪ The Boston girl ♪

I did a pretty good solo today.

Yeah.

Sold some drumsticks
for 20 bucks, huh?

What?

You sold some drumsticks.

- That's cool.
- That's good.

In the future,
I'll have to remember that.

Don't give 'em away,
when you can sell 'em.

People like to buy 'em
after they've been in your butt.

That's pretty funny.

(laughs)
It is pretty funny, right?

They always want them for free.

Don't give 'em away
because people will pay them.

I don't, unless it's a...

- Unless it's a hot chick.
- ...special circumstance.

You can't give 'em away.
You shouldn't have to.

I'm inclined to agree with you.

Baltimore is the last day
of our trip here.

Give everybody a hug,
and get the fuck out of here.

We'll, hopefully,
live another year

to do what we're doing
next year.

(cheering)

It's a lot of shows, man.

It's a lot of time in the van,
with those guys.

They're like my family. The only
reason why I'm not home.

When I'm home at by myself
at night and I'm lonely,

I remember our shows

and our fans being
affectionate with the band.

And that carries you over.

I'm ready when you guys are.

I love you too, man. You rock.

When you're in a band,
you only have as many friends

as you are popular at the time.
I know how that is.

I've been up
and I've been down.

You see your true friends
when you're down.

You must be exhausted.

Not really. But I'm tired,
I'm not exhausted.

I could go another month.

I'd go for another month,
anytime.

But you miss your brother.

Still love him.

I'm glad his spirit is with us.

Yeah.

Are you living day by day,

or do you have anything
you're trying to do?

Living day by day.
But, you know, it's a struggle.

And the cops are always
looking for you.

It's hard to do a tour

because every time
we do a tour,

we end up never knowing
what gigs we're gonna play,

what gigs we're gonna cancel,

what gigs are gonna cancel us.

We might have ten shows,
play four.

You know,
you should go to Europe.

Why?
I'm not gonna get a passport.

I'm a fucking convict.

I'd have to change my identity.
Look at me.

You might as well,...

you might as well
fucking kill yourself, huh?

When the time comes, I will.

But I'm not gonna do it
till I get my fucking revenge.

On who? Society?

The government? People?

Government, society,
people, everybody.

Five or six shows
into the tour,

GG gets arrested again.

Indecent exposure
and public lewdness

and this and that.

He was still on parole.

The so-called reality rocker,

who did indeed
defecate on stage...

Disorderly conduct
or was he simply

exercising his
first amendment rights?

Defense argued Allin
was exercising

his right of free expression.

This trial hinges on
a constitutional question

how far can a performer stretch
his right of free expression?

No, we have rules.

We have
certain levels of decency.

We the jury, find the defendant,
Kevin Michael Allin,

guilty of disorderly conduct
as charged in the complaint.

King of the underground
of rock'n'roll,

and by them condemning me,

what they're doing
is condemning

the whole
underground scene in general.

We can't be stopped.
I won't be stopped.

It's like, you know,
this is not good

but you couldn't tell GG that.

OK, well,
what the fuck do we do now?

GG's gone back to serve out

the remainder of his time.

We wait another year.

GG wanted to do a new album,

so he was writing lyrics
in prison

and we were writing music

the whole year
he was in prison.

When he got out of prison,
he was like,

"Let's go
and make a new fucking record."

♪ Stand up ♪

♪ It's time to rise ♪

♪ It's time for revenge ♪

♪ Opposition must die ♪

The whole time I was in prison,
I was seeing psychiatrists.

Trying to find out
what made me be this person.

I'd build this wall
around myself

like I'd done throughout life.

I'd just block everything out.

No amount of jail time is gonna
stop me from being who I am.

- Dino?
- Yeah.

I brought you some breakfast.

Love ya.

So, Dino you have a whole pile
of drumsticks over there.

Well, if you could find some,
you could sign 'em.

I could sell 'em for you.

And send you the money.

I could make you more money
probably in a week's time

than you make
working 70 hours a week.

Write "Dino Sex loves you"

and write "Murder Junkies"
or something.

So, next tour, hopefully, Japan.

Well, yeah,
I thought you said that...

- January?
- Is it definite yet?

I'm still...
The dates seem to be definite,

but I don't think
they've booked it yet.

It's just the dates
they wanna have us there.

You checked with everyone,
right? It's OK, right?

Everybody wants to. How could
you not be on board for Japan?

One more yet.
Eleven is cool, right?

♪ Carmelita ♪

Love you, as always.

Great tour!

See you next time.

♪ And I'm there with you ♪

♪ And it's a not-a ♪

♪ And I'm here in Echo Park ♪

♪ Carmelita, hold me tighter ♪

I'm here in Maine because Merle
totally fucked everything up.

Merle has a woman
for five years

and that's his limit.

Never any more
than five years,

and he's had Ann for seven.

So, he's done pretty well.

Every five years
he chooses another woman.

What happened is
he cheated on me.

And so,
we are not together any more.

I'm angry, I'm hurt.

I just fall in love with the
girls and then he leaves them.

So I lose them.

It just sucks, you know.
I am the first one to admit it.

You know what's gonna happen?
You're gonna die

a lonely old man.
Nobody's gonna want you.

♪ Carmelita continues playing ♪

What happened
to your suicide thing?

Well, I'll tell you.

- I went to prison...
-Mm-hmm.

And, er,... how could I do it?

But... it'll happen.

Sooner than you think.

I'd rather have you around
to piss people off,

than see you dead.

Once you lay the ground work,
for everyone else to follow,

you say everything
you've got to say,

do everything
you've got to do.

What's the sense?

I mean, go out in
a fucking blaze of fire.

The ultimate ending is death.

That's the ultimate sacrifice,
so you do what you believe in.

When I'm gone, my soul goes on.
It's another adventure.

I wanna do want I wanna do,
get everything done.

I gotta get
the fuck out of here.

And then I can accelerate
into the next life

and still leave my blood here

to be the blood of rock'n'roll.

I don't wanna be part
of your fucking boring world.

I wanna do what I wanna do,

I wanna end my life,
I'm gonna fucking end it.

I'm on my way over
to see my mom

who I haven't seen
in a couple of years now.

It's more difficult to see her
now I live on the West Coast.

It's so far away.

I know she has
some kind of like,

you know, heart beat thing,
you know, irregularities.

I don't really know
the full extent of it.

I haven't even talked
to my mom in over a month.

I'm mean, I'm not
a very good son, I guess.

Well, look who's here!

Hi, Bob, nice to see you.

- Hi, sweetheart.
- Hello.

Wow. Good to see you.
Love you, too.

Tell me what's going on with
your health and your heart.

Well, see, I have, Merle,...
I have this.

My new pacemaker.

It's a pack.

Like, er, triple-A batteries.

- Right.
- It's about...

- You're running on...?
- Running on batteries, yeah.

How do you like
my new shoes?

Not too much.

- Huh?
- (laughs)

- They're Birkenstocks!
- I figured the were.

They're Birkies.
They're Birkies. I love them.

How do you like my new shoes?
Custom-made.

After the tour is over,
I sell everything.

I truly believe you're part
Jewish.

Well, I... I don't know.

(both laugh)

Everybody would love to live
the life you live, Merle.

Most people that do
get killed though.

A woman kills them.

Right, but I figure if I have
another ten years of life,

that would be great.

I'll live it to the fullest.
Kinda like GG said,

"Go out before you get too old
and too boring."

Oh, yeah. But that's so stupid,
he went too young.

But I don't wanna be,
you know, older.

Don't you think GG would like
to be here now? To be alive?

I don't think so.
He probably would be in pain.

His body would be
like an older person,

than he already would be.

With all the abuse that he did
to himself, I mean...

I couldn't ever imagine him
being alive to live old.

You haven't been
to the cemetery?

- Not yet, no.
- I hope nobody did anything.

Nobody goes there any more,

because they know
there's nothing there.

Most people do.
A lot of people don't know.

I went through an awful...
awful lot.

Awful lot.

She doesn't wanna
get back with you right yet?

She doesn't know
what she wants.

OK.

- I have to give her time.
- She's hurt.

Of course, she is,
I understand.

There's always that possibility
she could find somebody.

Wouldn't be the first time
I let a good one get away.

Oh, my.

- Maybe something like this.
- Yeah.

You know, that's nice too.
And then even this one.

Yeah.

But that's a little
too fucking big.

Yeah, it is.

We played shows
on the East Coast.

Then we took three days off,
to record.

To make a new record.

There's really a great one
we recorded called,

"Sucking on Your Pussy
on a Friday Night."

It's a great song,
we'll play it later.

Then we went to Dino's,
and hung out for a day.

God. What kind of a place
does Dino got?

A little messy.

Is it liveable, I mean...?

I couldn't live there
for five minutes.

Well, he's part of the family.

Maybe if he can't stay
at his place,

maybe you could take him in?

I'd rather take
all my clothes off,

and jump off
the Lunenburg Bridge.

Oh, my. Well, I guess
that answered that question.

These are good,
what are these anyway?

♪ punk rock music
on car stereo ♪

♪ inaudible singing ♪

♪ Sucking on your pussy
on a Friday night

♪ Life is hard, and so am I ♪

"Life is hard and so am I.

Sucking on your pussy
on a Friday night."

It's good.

If the lyrics were different
it would be good music.

That's what makes the song,
great lyrics.

Did you wanna hear the one
where it mentions your name?

No! It mentions my name?

- It mentions your name.
- Come on.

"Arleta, don't... Stop fucking
with Arleta's son." Listen.

♪ inaudible punk rock lyrics ♪

♪ Stop fucking
with Arleta's son ♪

Hey, Merle, is it my fault
that you're such a jerk?

You had a bad upbringing?

No, actually, er,... I...

You did raise us
to know right from wrong.

We chose to go wrong.
Look at how great we turned out.

I mean, come on, that's
a good mother right there.

When you raise two children,
to be like me and GG,

you did real fine.

And live through it.

Because not
too many mothers can say

they raised somebody like that.

- (laughs)
- So...

You know, that's true.

That's like a number one
mother year award.

I don't know how
we would have turned out

if we had been, you know,

stuck in that log cabin
or with our father.

Er, you know,...

He was mentally
not 100 percent.

When Kevin was born,

he made me name him
Jesus Christ

because he had seen Jesus,

and Jesus said that
I should name my baby that.

And then I went home
and told Merle, I said,

"This is your little brother
Jesus." And he said, "GG."

So that's how GG got his name.

And then one day I woke up,
and said...

Well, first of all,
Merle's father,

dug, like, a ten-foot hole
in the cellar.

I asked him one day,

"What are you digging
that hole for?"

He said, "I'm gonna bury you,
Merle and Kevin down there."

Yeah, but something else
happened too.

- Well...
- Right?

Yeah.

Earlier this year, you wrote
and sent out an essay

called "The GG Allin Mission."

In it, you take credit for,
among other things,

being Jesus Christ,
God and Satan.

I was born Jesus Christ
and I have fucked the devil.

I've had some very intimate
conversations with evil.

I think that evil is important,

and I think it's also important
to put fear in peoples' hearts.

I told him, I was gonna leave.

And that was the weekend

that he held the boys
and I with a gun.

And, er, raped me.

The boys were there,
but I didn't say much.

I didn't want them to know
what was going on.

So, I didn't put up any...
resistance.

When he took his truck,
and went away

I got the boys and hitchhiked
to my mother's house.

He came and took Kevin
back to the log cabin.

I was actually worried

about the boys
being alone with him.

For reasons.

I was worried to have the boys
be alone with him.

I had a few things that
made me think that

they might not be safe
alone with him.

I talked to the judge about it,
the priest and the doctor.

Everyone did agree that he
couldn't have custody of them.

He couldn't even
see them alone.

I went to the town clerk,

I said,
"I wanna change my son's name."

""What to do you
wanna name him?"

"Kevin Michael."

And that was it. He was
Kevin Michael after that.

But he never stopped being GG.

One, two. One, two, three, four.

♪ Wendy and Cilla ♪

♪ Went out to score some drugs ♪

♪ Till they got ripped off
by a bunch of faggot thugs ♪

♪ Didn't have no balls ♪

♪ A bunch of pussy fucks ♪

♪ A bunch of cowards
who wouldn't show up ♪

♪ For me to kick their ass ♪

♪ Merle's making money ♪

♪ On the T-shirt sale ♪

♪ And so far we haven't
had to put up money ♪

♪ To get me out of jail ♪
Hey!

- Yeah!
- That was amazing.

That was fucking great!

(sighs)

I hate this.

I used to be able to walk
five miles a day.

That sun feels so good.

I think there were a lot
of contributing factors

to GG's death.

Kevin called and told me
he was coming to see me.

He said, "I'd like to come home
and get better."

New York City. So, this is
the big fucking show.

Three o'clock
at the Gas Station?

Gas Station,
GG and The Murder Junkies

- What's the address?
- I've got news, it ain't good.

GG was fucking ripped up to go.

And he was doing coke
and he was drinking.

He was all fucking geared up.

Now when I go, you can all
talk about me again. Please do.

And the show breaks out
into the street.

(shouting)

Bottles flying everywhere.

It's just a mad house.

I was like,
"I'm getting out of here,

I don't need this shit.
I'm done."

(sirens approach)

We do a show, right here
on the fucking street corner.

I don't give a fuck.

- If everybody would back up.
- The fucking police, man.

(chanting) GG! GG! GG! GG!

Didn't realize that he wasn't
really gonna be hanging out

with the people
that he left with.

He ended up going
with a bunch of other people

that probably really
weren't looking out for him.

All right.

- Let's go get high.
- Look what I got.

We'll leave this crowd,
and go buy our drugs.

I wanna get fucking high, man.

Don't wanna deal with bullshit.
I wanna get fucking high.

GG's body was, like, tired.

Doing same shit to himself,
you know, every other night.

Get the hell out of here.

Drinking, doing all the coke
that he was doing that day.

I just think that his body

was just, like,
worn fucking out.

Everything just stood still,
you know.

And I was like,
"This can't be happening."

I think about him every day.

Not a day goes by that
I don't think about my brother.

But you can't dwell
on the misery

of not having
your brother any more.

You'd be a tortured soul,
you know?

Welcome to
The Museum of Death...

...and the resurrection
of GG Allin.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

Over the last 20 years,

you know, GG's popularity
is finally growing.

He's getting bigger
and becoming more popular

and, er, he's finally getting
some of the recognition

that he truly deserves.

And I think
that having him here,

you know, will just help
the legacy continue.

And, er,...

I've had GG's possessions
since his death.

And I've just decided
it was time to, er,

let go of some
of GG's things.

So, without further ado...

Drumroll.

Are you ready for
the resurrection of GG Allin?

(crowd) Yeah! Whoo!

(cheering, applause)

You guys can come closer,
you know.

He's not gonna
throw shit at you.

(laughter)

This is a picture
that Kevin made me

while he was in jail,
for Mother's Day.

He made the rose,
he did all of it with paper.

Two different kinds of paper,
you can see that he used.

So he really put work into this.

This really
meant something to him.

This was Kevin talking.

This was not GG,
this was Kevin.

"Mother, have a great day.
It's been a long time.

I think a lot about the time
I was living upstairs

and lounging around the pool."

See, now this is my Kevin,
nobody believes this.

The man that liked to come
and sit by the pool with me.

He was my little boy.

My father's brother is there.

Kevin is there.

And I was gonna be there

but I can't now because Kevin...

I gave Kevin my place.

So what I'm gonna have
Merle do is

I'm gonna be cremated
and he's gonna come down

and dig a hole
and put me on Kevin.

On top of Kevin's grave.

I wanna be with Kevin.

"So much has happened
for all of us,

but we're still a family.

You, me, Nico and Merle
and whoever we decide

to bring in to it one day.

One day... we will all be able
to be together again.

So, have a great day,
you deserve it. Love Kevin."

One day we'll be together again.

Down the cemetery.

That's the only way
I can be together with him

is to go to the cemetery.

I wouldn't take
a million dollars for that.

Thanks for coming tonight,
everybody.

We love you.

I think everybody's great
being here.

I don't know
if I've missed anybody.

I'm Merle and GG's mom, Arleta.

(cheering, applause)

Thanks for coming

and celebrating
the 20 years of Kevin's death.

We really appreciate it.
We love you for it.

Thank you! Thank you.

(cheering)

Now, it's my honor to introduce
The Murder Junkies.

(cheering)

♪ Anything I wanna do ♪

♪ I won't take
no shit from you ♪

(crowd) No rules!

♪ I don't care
if you don't like me ♪

No rules! No rules!

♪ Do you really think I care? ♪

Let's go!

This music is terrible.

♪ tuneful acoustic
guitar plays ♪

♪ When I die
Put that bottle in my hand ♪

♪ All these years on earth ♪

♪ It was my only friend ♪

♪ When you dig a hole
And gonna bury me ♪

♪ Put that bottle of Jim Beam ♪

♪ To rest beside me ♪

♪ All my life
I've been living on the run ♪

♪ Hanging out in bars ♪

♪ And hotel rooms
annoying everyone ♪

♪ Living on the road ♪

♪ Running from coast to coast ♪

♪ Spending many nights in jail ♪

♪ Like a gunman at his post ♪

♪ When I die ♪

♪ You don't have to cry ♪

♪ You don't have to feel
no feelings inside ♪

♪ Never cared
or had no feelings for no-one ♪

♪ The only one I cared for ♪

♪ Was the one who made me cum ♪

♪ Lived my life
like a loner on the trail ♪

♪ Some of the nights in jail ♪

♪ I couldn't afford no bail ♪

♪ No-one to call
No-one to see me through ♪

♪ So I bought a gun one day ♪

♪ And I came gunning after you ♪

♪ Living on the road ♪

♪ Playing scumfuc rock'n'roll ♪

♪ I'm on the road ♪

♪ And I haven't got no home ♪

♪ So when I die ♪

♪ Put that bottle by my side ♪

♪ Bury me with ol' Jim Beam ♪

♪ And I'll be on my hell ride ♪

♪ When I die ♪

♪ When I die ♪

♪ Down to Hell
is my final destination ♪

♪ When I die
Put that bottle by my side ♪

♪ It's the only friend
I had in life ♪

♪ And it kept me satisfied ♪

♪ Living on the run ♪

♪ You'll never
take me out alive ♪

♪ I bought a gun,
I'm leaving now ♪

♪ Bye-bye ♪

♪ Bye-bye ♪