Strange Voices (1987) - full transcript
A family begins to fall apart when they find out their eldest daughter, Nancy McKeon, is a victim of schizophrenia.
[Film projector whirring]
Let's get him.
- >> Let's get him.
- >> Uh, uh, uh!
- >> Uh, uh, uh!
- Okay, you go, please.
Okay, you go, please.
Come on, come on!
I wish you two.
- >> I wish you two.
- Wouldn't do that.
- Wouldn't do that.
- It makes me feel so fat.
- It makes me feel so fat.
- >> Oh, don't.
- >> Oh, don't.
- It's just an excuse
- It's just an excuse.
- To come back and eat
- To come back and eat.
- A 2,000-calorie breakfast.
- A 2,000-calorie breakfast.
- >> How you doing, Kenny?
- >> How you doing, Kenny?
- >> What's happening, Nikki?
- >> What's happening, Nikki?
- >> When's the big day?
- >> When's the big day?
- >> August 20th.
- >> August 20th.
- You gonna be there
- You gonna be there.
- To give me away?
- To give me away?
- >> Are you kidding?
- >> Are you kidding?
- I have a big scene planned for
- I have a big scene planned for.
- The "speak now or forever hold"
- The "speak now or forever hold.
- Your peace" part.
"Your peace" part.
[Laughter]
- [Laughter]
- >> Please, don't joke about it.
- >> Please, don't joke about it.
- I have this nightmare that all
- I have this nightmare that all.
- His old girlfriends picketed
- His old girlfriends picketed.
- The church.
- The church.
- >> Where you guys off to?
- >> Where you guys off to?
- >> We're going to pick up Sarah,
- >> We're going to pick up Sarah,
- and we're going to choose
- And we're going to choose.
- A silver pattern.
- A silver pattern.
- Kenny and Sarah insisted that
- Kenny and Sarah insisted that.
- I come.
- I come.
- >> Uh-huh, oh, got to go.
- >> Uh-huh, oh, got to go.
- >> I heard that.
- >> I heard that.
- >> Bye.
- >> Bye.
- >> Bye.
- >> Bye.
- >> Come on, pick 'em up
- >> Come on, pick 'em up.
- And put 'em down.
[Horn honks]
- [Horn honks]
- Nicole!
- Nicole!
- Nikki, that car...
Nikki, that car...
You almost got hit.
- You almost got hit.
- >> I guess I didn't see it.
- >> I guess I didn't see it.
- >> Honey, be careful please,
- >> Honey, be careful please,
- huh?
Huh?
Come on.
- Come on.
- >> Think we're making too much
- >> Think we're making too much.
- Food?
- Food?
- >> Nah.
- >> Nah.
- Listen, it's good to eat a big
- Listen, it's good to eat a big.
- Hearty breakfast once in
- Hearty breakfast once in.
- A while.
- A while.
- I bet you don't get to do
- I bet you don't get to do.
- That too often at school.
- That too often at school.
- >> No, only when I stay
- >> No, only when I stay.
- At Jeff's.
- At Jeff's.
- He makes these huge midwestern
- He makes these huge midwestern.
- Feasts.
I think I just blundered into
- I think I just blundered into.
- One of those forbidden topics.
- One of those forbidden topics.
- >> Look, I'm hip, I'm today,
- >> look, I'm hip, I'm today,
- I'm now, I'm '80s.
- I'm now, I'm '80s.
- I'm also still your mother.
- I'm also still your mother.
- So I reserve the right to be
- So I reserve the right to be.
- Totally irrational about
- Totally irrational about.
- Some matters.
- Some matters.
- >> [Scoffs]
- >> [Scoffs]
- And yet you quite rationally
- And yet you quite rationally.
- Advised Helen boardman
- Advised Helen boardman.
- Not to overreact
- Not to overreact.
- When Kenny wanted to move in
- When Kenny wanted to move in.
- With Sarah.
- With Sarah.
- >> That's completely different.
- >> That's completely different.
- >> Why, because he's a guy
- >> Why, because he's a guy.
- And I'm a girl?
- And I'm a girl?
- >> No, because he's her kid;
- >> No, because he's her kid;
- you're mine.
[Keyboard keys clacking]
What dad?
- >> What dad?
- >> What what?
- >> What what?
- >> Didn't you call me?
- >> Didn't you call me?
- >> No.
No.
[Printer printing]
- [Printer printing]
- >> Oh, my god, it's alive.
- >> Oh, my god, it's alive.
- >> I just set up the modem.
- >> I just set up the modem.
- Now I'm connected with every
- Now I'm connected with every.
- Computerized buyer.
- Computerized buyer.
- They can call me up,
- They can call me up,
- place their orders
- Place their orders.
- Directly through the terminal,
- Directly through the terminal,
- even if I'm not here.
- Even if I'm not here.
- >> More time to play hooky, huh?
- >> More time to play hooky, huh?
- >> Yeah.
Yeah.
[Printer printing]
Speaking of which, I'd like
- speaking of which, I'd like.
- To be on the road within
- To be on the road within.
- An hour or two.
An hour or two.
Breakfast almost ready?
- Breakfast almost ready?
- Nikki.
- Nikki.
- >> Huh?
- >> Huh?
- >> Is breakfast almost ready?
- >> Is breakfast almost ready?
- I'd like to get to the lake
- I'd like to get to the lake.
- Before canoe rush hour.
- Before canoe rush hour.
- >> Yeah, I'm just gonna go
- >> Yeah, I'm just gonna go.
- Wake up lis.
Wake up lis.
Good luck.
Lisa.
Come on, time to wake up and
- come on, time to wake up and.
- Feed your little face.
[Clarinet squeaking loudly]
- [Clarinet squeaking loudly]
- >> Ugh!
- >> Ugh!
- >> Oh, excuse me, I didn't know
- >> Oh, excuse me, I didn't know.
- You were asleep.
- You were asleep.
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> No, please, don't beg.
- >> No, please, don't beg.
- Never do encores.
Never do encores.
Oh, my god, I am so worn out
- >> oh, my god, I am so worn out.
- From last night.
- From last night.
- >> From babysitting?
- >> From babysitting?
- >> From babysitting two future
- >> From babysitting two future.
- Hit men for the mob.
- Hit men for the mob.
- I can't stand those kids.
- I can't stand those kids.
- >> Well, bear your cross over
- >> Well, bear your cross over.
- To the bathroom.
- To the bathroom.
- Mom and dad have a whole day
- Mom and dad have a whole day.
- In store for US at the lake.
Hey, handsome.
- >> Hey, handsome.
- Aww, Dave, honey, don't wave
- Aww, Dave, honey, don't wave.
- In every shot.
- In every shot.
- I've got sound with this new
- I've got sound with this new.
- Camera.
- Camera.
- You can talk now.
- You can talk now.
- >> What should I say?
- >> What should I say?
- >> Oh, anything.
- >> Oh, anything.
- Just be yourself.
- Just be yourself.
- Come on, share your barbecuing
- Come on, share your barbecuing.
- Secrets with the world.
- Secrets with the world.
- >> Well, I only have one secret:
- >> Well, I only have one secret:
- Don't burn them.
Don't burn them.
All right, okay?
- All right, okay?
- >> Wait, wait, wait, come on,
- >> Wait, wait, wait, come on,
- I got this one.
- I got this one.
- Give it to me, give it to me.
Give it to me, give it to me.
There we go.
- There we go.
- [Plays clarinet off-key]
- [Plays clarinet off-key]
- [Chuckling]
- [Chuckling]
- Thank you, I do have a natural
- Thank you, I do have a natural.
- Talent.
Talent.
Yes, it shows.
Yes, it shows.
[Plays clarinet melodically]
- [Plays clarinet melodically]
- >> Is that your audition piece
- >> Is that your audition piece.
- For Rochester?
- For Rochester?
- It's great.
It's great.
You nervous?
- You nervous?
- Don't be, you're a cinch
- Don't be, you're a cinch.
- To get in.
- To get in.
- >> Thanks.
- >> Thanks.
- >> I wish they'd take a picture;
I wish they'd take a picture;
It'd last longer.
- It'd last longer.
- >> Who, them?
- >> Who, them?
- >> They keep staring.
- >> They keep staring.
- >> I wish.
- >> I wish.
- The blond one is a babe.
Nikki, can I ask you something?
Nikki, can I ask you something?
Um, do you think that most girls
- um, do you think that most girls.
- Going into college have,
Going into college have,
you know, like, had, like,
you know, like, had, like,
a major sexual experience?
- A major sexual experience?
- >> It's not
- >> It's not.
- An entrance requirement
- An entrance requirement.
- If that's what you mean.
- If that's what you mean.
- >> I know, I just...
- >> I know, I just...
- I don't know, sometimes I just
- I don't know, sometimes I just.
- Feel like sexually retarded
- Feel like sexually retarded.
- Or something.
- Or something.
- Everybody I know has already
- Everybody I know has already.
- Done it.
- Done it.
- >> Well, don't believe
- >> Well, don't believe.
- Everything you hear,
- Everything you hear,
- and even if it is true,
- And even if it is true,
- don't worry.
- Don't worry.
- Who cares?
- Who cares?
- Just do what's best for you.
- Just do what's best for you.
- >> Karen did it with this
- >> Karen did it with this.
- Football player, and she said
- Football player, and she said.
- It was, like, terrible.
- It was, like, terrible.
- It didn't even last 30 seconds.
- It didn't even last 30 seconds.
- >> 30 seconds?
- >> 30 seconds?
- How romantic.
- How romantic.
- >> [Chuckles]
- >> [Chuckles]
- It's not that way
- It's not that way.
- With you and Jeff, is it?
- With you and Jeff, is it?
- >> And then,
- >> And then,
- and then you know what I do?
- And then you know what I do?
- I feed them
- I feed them.
- To my voracious daughters.
- To my voracious daughters.
- >> Oh, no, watch out,
- >> Oh, no, watch out,
- mom's wired for sound now too.
- Mom's wired for sound now too.
- >> Oh, great.
- >> Oh, great.
- >> Oh, dad, these look
- >> Oh, dad, these look.
- Delicious, mmm.
- Delicious, mmm.
- >> And good thing, too,
- >> And good thing, too,
- 'cause we're extremely
- 'Cause we're extremely.
- Voracious.
Voracious.
Aww, you guys.
Aww, you guys.
Come on, eat, eat.
That building is so beautiful,
- that building is so beautiful,
- almost makes me wish I was small
Almost makes me wish I was small
enough to live in there.
- Enough to live in there.
- Sweetheart, you got a long drive
- Sweetheart, you got a long drive.
- Ahead of you tomorrow
- Ahead of you tomorrow.
- Back to school.
- Back to school.
- Shouldn't you be getting to bed?
- Shouldn't you be getting to bed?
- >> Yeah, just wanted to finish
- >> Yeah, just wanted to finish.
- The detailing on this lobby
- The detailing on this lobby.
- Entrance.
- Entrance.
- You know, so many buildings,
- You know, so many buildings,
- you walk in and you get lost.
- You walk in and you get lost.
- But see here, the curve
- But see here, the curve.
- Of the walls kind of draws you
- Of the walls kind of draws you.
- Towards the receptionist,
- Towards the receptionist,
- and the dimensions are human.
- And the dimensions are human.
- You don't have to skulk in like
- You don't have to skulk in like.
- A rat down a narrow corridor.
- A rat down a narrow corridor.
- Get lost in a space that makes
- Get lost in a space that makes.
- You feel insignificant.
- You feel insignificant.
- I even have an arboretum, see?
- I even have an arboretum, see?
- Nature in the workspace.
- Nature in the workspace.
- >> Even without these little
- >> Even without these little.
- Trees, you deserve an a-plus
- Trees, you deserve an a-plus.
- For this.
- For this.
- >> Oh, it's not for class.
- >> Oh, it's not for class.
- The school of architecture
- The school of architecture.
- Sponsors a design contest
- Sponsors a design contest.
- Each year and undergraduates
- Each year and undergraduates.
- Are allowed to submit.
- Are allowed to submit.
- >> What's the prize?
- >> What's the prize?
- >> 500 bucks, some notoriety,
- >> 500 bucks, some notoriety,
- a feather in my cap.
A feather in my cap.
Another one.
- >> Another one.
- Good night, pocahontas.
- Good night, pocahontas.
- Save me a penthouse suite.
Do I have to be a book to earn
- do I have to be a book to earn.
- A place in this bed?
A place in this bed?
Oh, I'm sorry, honey.
- >> Oh, I'm sorry, honey.
- >> You know, Edison already
- >> You know, Edison already.
- Invented the camera.
- Invented the camera.
- All you have to do is use it.
- All you have to do is use it.
- >> I have to use it well,
- >> I have to use it well,
- or people won't pay me
- Or people won't pay me.
- For my work.
- For my work.
- >> You've been using it well
- >> You've been using it well.
- For years.
For years.
No, David, really, I'm good
- >> no, David, really, I'm good.
- At portraits, but I got a lot to
- At portraits, but I got a lot to.
- Learn about the video camera.
- Learn about the video camera.
- Oh, speaking of which, did you
- Oh, speaking of which, did you.
- Put the cost analysis program
- Put the cost analysis program.
- Into your computer?
- Into your computer?
- >> Why don't I get the terminal
- >> Why don't I get the terminal.
- And bring it back in here?
- And bring it back in here?
- Double check... there's a little
- Double check... there's a little.
- Room left on the edge
- Room left on the edge.
- Of the bed.
- Of the bed.
- >> Funny, but did you
- >> Funny, but did you.
- Or didn't you?
- Or didn't you?
- >> Yes, yes!
- >> Yes, yes!
- >> Thank you,
- >> Thank you,
- thank you very much.
- Thank you very much.
- >> What is this,
- >> What is this,
- a major corporation?
A major corporation?
Don't be silly.
- >> Don't be silly.
- I'm weeks away from that.
- I'm weeks away from that.
- No, this in the beginning is
- No, this in the beginning is.
- Just a part-time occupation.
- Just a part-time occupation.
- >> I thought I was your
- >> I thought I was your.
- Occupation.
Occupation.
You, my darling,
- >> you, my darling,
- are my hobby.
- Are my hobby.
- >> [Laughs]
- >> [Laughs]
- All right,
- All right,
- I didn't miss the meaning
- I didn't miss the meaning.
- For life passage here, did I?
- For life passage here, did I?
- >> Hmm?
- >> Hmm?
- >> I mean, all this flurry
- >> I mean, all this flurry.
- Wouldn't have anything to do
- Wouldn't have anything to do.
- With Nikki going back to school
- With Nikki going back to school.
- And Lisa's college applications,
- And Lisa's college applications,
- would it?
- Would it?
- >> No, no, no, no, no.
- >> No, no, no, no, no.
- Long ago, I resigned myself to
- Long ago, I resigned myself to.
- The fact that I would grow old
- The fact that I would grow old.
- And abandoned.
And abandoned.
Okay, that's it.
- >> Okay, that's it.
- >> That's what?
- >> That's what?
- Hey, David!
- Hey, David!
- >> I'm closing this branch of
- >> I'm closing this branch of.
- The library.
- The library.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- >> And then, I'm gonna give
- >> And then, I'm gonna give.
- A lonely old woman a memory to
- A lonely old woman a memory to.
- Carry with her into her twilight
- Carry with her into her twilight.
- Years.
Years.
[Chuckles]
- >> [Chuckles]
- What luck!
- What luck!
- [Laughter]
- [Laughter]
- Ah, there's books here.
I made you some sandwiches
- I made you some sandwiches.
- For the trip.
- For the trip.
- >> Mom, it's a two-hour drive.
- >> Mom, it's a two-hour drive.
- >> Yeah, but you might get
- >> Yeah, but you might get.
- Hungry...
- Hungry...
- >> or decide to open a snack
- >> Or decide to open a snack.
- Bar.
- Bar.
- >> Thank you.
Thank you.
Sure.
You drive carefully now.
- >> You drive carefully now.
- >> I will, dad.
I will, dad.
Bye.
- Bye.
- >> Call me, okay?
- >> Call me, okay?
- >> I will, and hey, forget
- >> I will, and hey, forget.
- About all that other stuff.
- About all that other stuff.
- Just concentrate on your
- Just concentrate on your.
- Audition, all right?
- Audition, all right?
- >> Uh, what other stuff?
Uh, what other stuff?
Both: Nothing.
- >> Both: Nothing.
- >> The reason there's so many
- >> The reason there's so many.
- Sandwiches is some of them are
- Sandwiches is some of them are.
- For Jeff.
- For Jeff.
- He likes egg salad, right?
- He likes egg salad, right?
- >> Yes, he loves egg salad.
- >> Yes, he loves egg salad.
- Thanks, mom.
- Thanks, mom.
- >> You're welcome.
- >> You're welcome.
- >> Bye.
Bye.
[Engine turns over]
[Murmured speech from students]
Do you think if spinoza had
- >> do you think if spinoza had.
- Known that he was gonna bore
- Known that he was gonna bore.
- Generations of college students
- Generations of college students.
- To death if he would've just
- To death if he would've just.
- Kept his big mouth shut?
Kept his big mouth shut?
Huh?
Huh?
Jeff, this stream.
- >> Jeff, this stream.
- Of consciousness studying just
- Of consciousness studying just.
- Isn't working for me.
- Isn't working for me.
- >> You're right.
- >> You're right.
- I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
Okay.
- >> Okay.
- Well, about time for a break,
- Well, about time for a break,
- isn't it?
- Isn't it?
- >> Come on, you've had two cups
- >> Come on, you've had two cups.
- Of coffee, and gone to
- Of coffee, and gone to.
- The bathroom three times
- The bathroom three times.
- In the last ten minutes.
- In the last ten minutes.
- >> I... I can't help it.
- >> I... I can't help it.
- It's the coffee.
- It's the coffee.
- >> Study.
Study.
Study.
Study.
[Sighs]
[Sighs]
You know, you're quite
- >> you know, you're quite.
- Beautiful when you're peevish
- Beautiful when you're peevish.
- And ill-tempered.
- And ill-tempered.
- >> Yeah, well, I know that.
- >> Yeah, well, I know that.
- Tell me something I don't know.
Well, I know that.
Well, I know that.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I know that too.
I know that too.
Yeah.
Yeah.
[Humming]
Okay, that's new.
- >> Okay, that's new.
- >> Where's Jenny?
Where's Jenny?
Why?
- >> Why?
- >> I just don't want her
- >> I just don't want her.
- Popping in on US, that's all.
So are you gonna stop by
- so are you gonna stop by.
- My place after class?
- My place after class?
- >> Yeah, but I got a lot of work
- >> Yeah, but I got a lot of work.
- To do.
- To do.
- I may have to pull
- I may have to pull.
- An all-nighter after last night.
- An all-nighter after last night.
- >> [Chuckles]
- >> [Chuckles]
- Guilt.
- Guilt.
- >> I'm gonna go get something
- >> I'm gonna go get something.
- To eat.
- To eat.
- I'll see you guys later.
- I'll see you guys later.
- >> I'll go with you.
I'll go with you.
Bye.
Yes?
- >> Yes?
- >> Well, if you're using
- >> Well, if you're using.
- Derivatives to solve
- Derivatives to solve.
- The problem and you're not
- The problem and you're not.
- Gonna use Pascal's theorem,
Gonna use Pascal's theorem,
then why do you need...
- Then why do you need...
- >> Why do you need what?
[Chuckles]
[Chuckles]
I am.
I am.
[Laughter]
Jeff, hurry up.
- Jeff, hurry up.
- Well, I don't know, she's...
- Well, I don't know, she's...
- She's packing now.
- She's packing now.
- >> Packing, what do you mean?
Nikki, what are you doing?
- Nikki, what are you doing?
- >> You know very well what I'm
- >> You know very well what I'm.
- Doing.
- Doing.
- >> Nikki...
- >> Nikki...
- >> shut up!
- >> Shut up!
- You think I don't know about
- You think I don't know about.
- You two.
- You two.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- >> I know everything.
- >> I know everything.
- >> What are you talking about?
- >> What are you talking about?
- >> They told me everything.
- >> They told me everything.
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> You disgust me!
- >> You disgust me!
- >> Wait, wait a minute.
- >> Wait, wait a minute.
- >> I don't know how I could have
- >> I don't know how I could have.
- Been so stupid to trust either
- Been so stupid to trust either.
- One of you.
- One of you.
- >> W... Nicole, wait.
- >> W... Nicole, wait.
- Nicole, stop!
- Nicole, stop!
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- Nikki!
- Nikki!
- >> You make me sick,
You make me sick,
both of you.
Honey, maybe it was just
- >> honey, maybe it was just.
- A friendly kiss.
- A friendly kiss.
- >> Oh, please.
- >> Oh, please.
- They've been doing a lot more
- They've been doing a lot more.
- Than kissing.
Than kissing.
I've heard all about it.
- I've heard all about it.
- >> Heard from whom?
- >> Heard from whom?
- >> I can't believe those guys.
- >> I can't believe those guys.
- I mean, how low.
- I mean, how low.
- >> Boy, this is a surprise.
Boy, this is a surprise.
It just doesn't sound like Jeff.
- It just doesn't sound like Jeff.
- >> Nikki, those are clean.
Nikki, those are clean.
I know.
- >> I know.
- Look, I just got to stay here
- Look, I just got to stay here.
- For a few days and get my head
- For a few days and get my head.
- Together.
- Together.
- I have to figure a few things
- I have to figure a few things.
- Out.
- Out.
- >> Of course, baby, yeah.
Of course, baby, yeah.
That's good.
That's good.
[Knock on door]
- [Knock on door]
- >> Don't you dare let him
- >> Don't you dare let him.
- In here.
- In here.
- >> Okay, I won't let him in,
- >> Okay, I won't let him in,
- Nikki, but he's standing there.
- Nikki, but he's standing there.
- At least let me have... I'll find
- At least let me have... I'll find.
- Out what he has to say.
- Out what he has to say.
- >> Nikki, I...
- >> Nikki, I...
- >> I can't let you in.
- >> I can't let you in.
- >> Why?
- >> Why?
- >> She won't see you.
- >> She won't see you.
- >> She won't talk to me?
What are you doing?
- >> What are you doing?
- >> Nothing.
Nicole!
Nicole!
Nikki!
Nikki!
Nikki, honey, what's the matter?
- Nikki, honey, what's the matter?
- >> Nothing.
- >> Nothing.
- Just needed to be alone.
- Just needed to be alone.
- >> Why didn't you answer me?
- >> Why didn't you answer me?
- >> Didn't hear you.
- >> Didn't hear you.
- >> Oh, well, I'm going out
- >> Oh, well, I'm going out.
- To pick up some blank cassettes.
- To pick up some blank cassettes.
- I thought you might like to come
I thought you might like to come
along.
- Along.
- Honey, you have to stop dwelling
- Honey, you have to stop dwelling.
- On this thing with Jeff.
On this thing with Jeff.
Yeah.
- >> Yeah.
- >> You know, we're having your
- >> You know, we're having your.
- Dad's sales rep dinner tonight.
- Dad's sales rep dinner tonight.
- Why don't you have dinner
- Why don't you have dinner.
- In your room if you don't want
- In your room if you don't want.
- To be with all those business
- To be with all those business.
- People?
- People?
- >> I don't mind.
I don't mind.
Good.
- >> Good.
- Anyway, a lot of the neighbors
- Anyway, a lot of the neighbors.
- Are coming.
- Are coming.
- You'll have someone to talk to.
[Laughter]
[Indistinct speech]
Oh, Nikki, you remember
- >> oh, Nikki, you remember.
- Karen, don't you?
- Karen, don't you?
- And this is Mrs. Linden.
- And this is Mrs. Linden.
- She moved in next door
- She moved in next door.
- To the boardmans.
- To the boardmans.
- >> Well, it's a pleasure
- >> Well, it's a pleasure.
- To meet you.
- To meet you.
- Lisa's told me all about you.
- Lisa's told me all about you.
- >> What did she say?
- >> What did she say?
- >> Oh, all good things,
- >> Oh, all good things,
- of course.
- Of course.
- You know, she babysits
You know, she babysits
my two little boys.
- My two little boys.
- >> Lisa hates your children.
Lisa hates your children.
[Chuckles]
- [Chuckles]
- >> She's kidding.
- >> She's kidding.
- She's kidding.
- She's kidding.
- >> Oh, hey, that's some sales
- >> Oh, hey, that's some sales.
- Pitch.
- Pitch.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- >> You're on
- >> You're on.
- For Kenny's wedding.
- For Kenny's wedding.
- >> Oh, really?
- >> Oh, really?
- >> Are you expensive?
- >> Are you expensive?
- >> I don't know,
- >> I don't know,
- you're my first customer.
- You're my first customer.
- Lynn glover,
Lynn glover,
chronicler of special events.
- Chronicler of special events.
- Hiya, baby.
- Hiya, baby.
- Hey, try the eggplant.
- Hey, try the eggplant.
- It worked this time.
It worked this time.
Hi, Nikki.
- >> Hi, Nikki.
- I thought she went back to
- I thought she went back to.
- School.
- School.
- >> Oh, she did, but she just
- >> Oh, she did, but she just.
- Drove back for the party.
- Drove back for the party.
- I think she's a little tired
- I think she's a little tired.
- From the trip.
- From the trip.
- You tired, sweetheart?
You tired, sweetheart?
[Echoing] You tired, sweetheart?
- [Echoing] You tired, sweetheart?
- >> Nikki, how could you do that
- >> Nikki, how could you do that.
- To me?
- To me?
- >> Oh, great, you're still here.
- >> Oh, great, you're still here.
- Come on, I want you to meet
- Come on, I want you to meet.
- Sarah.
- Sarah.
- Sarah...
Sarah...
[Overlapping voices echoing]
[Crashing and clattering]
For god's sake...
- >> for god's sake...
- >> you didn't think
- >> You didn't think.
- I'd find out, did you?
- I'd find out, did you?
- >> What in the world, Nikki!
- >> What in the world, Nikki!
- >> [Indistinct mumbling]
- >> [Indistinct mumbling]
- >> What are you doing, Nikki?
- >> What are you doing, Nikki?
- What are you doing?
- What are you doing?
- [Glass shattering]
- [Glass shattering]
- >> Nicole!
Nicole!
[Indistinct heated argument]
- [Indistinct heated argument]
- >> Dave, Dave!
- >> Dave, Dave!
- >> Nikki, Nikki.
- >> Nikki, Nikki.
- All right, get out!
- All right, get out!
- Go back, go back!
- Go back, go back!
- >> Nicole, what are you doing?
- >> Nicole, what are you doing?
- Come help me!
Come help me!
Let Nikki go!
- >> Let Nikki go!
- >> I'm not gonna let you do it!
- >> I'm not gonna let you do it!
- I'm not gonna let you...
- I'm not gonna let you...
- >> Nikki, baby...
- >> Nikki, baby...
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> Grab her, grab her, grab her!
- >> Grab her, grab her, grab her!
- >> No, let go of me, you...
- >> No, let go of me, you...
- Get off me!
- Get off me!
- Get away!
Get away!
Stop it, Nikki, look at me!
Stop it, Nikki, look at me!
Nikki, baby, don't.
- Nikki, baby, don't.
- >> Get off me!
Get off me!
[Screams]
- [Screams]
- >> Mom, don't hurt her.
- >> Mom, don't hurt her.
- >> [Screaming]
[Screaming]
Nikki, please!
- >> Nikki, please!
- >> Help me!
Help me!
[Indistinct screaming]
- [Indistinct screaming]
- >> Nikki, please.
- >> Nikki, please.
- Nikki, please.
- Nikki, please.
- Come on, honey, please.
- Come on, honey, please.
- >> What's going on, mom?
- >> What's going on, mom?
- >> We're taking her to
- >> We're taking her to.
- Emergency!
- Emergency!
- >> Please, please, darling,
- >> Please, please, darling,
- come on.
- Come on.
- >> Want you to stay here...
- >> Want you to stay here...
- >> no!
No!
Yes, please, honey.
- >> Yes, please, honey.
- >> Lynn, what can I do?
- >> Lynn, what can I do?
- >> Yes, stay with Lisa.
Yes, stay with Lisa.
Don't let her go.
Don't let her go.
[Screams]
- >> [Screams]
- >> Watch your head.
- >> Watch your head.
- >> Let me go.
- >> Let me go.
- >> Okay, okay.
- >> Okay, okay.
- >> Don't hurt me, don't hurt me.
- >> Don't hurt me, don't hurt me.
- >> Nobody's gonna hurt you.
- >> Nobody's gonna hurt you.
- >> Please, please, why do you
- >> Please, please, why do you.
- Want to hurt me?
Want to hurt me?
[Engine turns]
I have seen these symptoms.
- >> I have seen these symptoms.
- In many patients,
- In many patients,
- and I am telling you,
- And I am telling you,
- they indicate schizophrenia.
- They indicate schizophrenia.
- >> And I'm telling you that
- >> And I'm telling you that.
- My daughter does not go around
- My daughter does not go around.
- Talking to herself with
- Talking to herself with.
- Different voices.
- Different voices.
- >> No, Mr. Glover,
- >> No, Mr. Glover,
- what you're talking about
- What you're talking about.
- Is split personality.
- Is split personality.
- That's very rare behavior,
- That's very rare behavior,
- and despite what you've seen in
- And despite what you've seen in.
- Movies, that is not a symptom
- Movies, that is not a symptom.
- Of schizophrenia.
- Of schizophrenia.
- One of the major symptoms
- One of the major symptoms.
- Is hearing voices.
- Is hearing voices.
- Your daughter told me that
- Your daughter told me that.
- She heard voices coming from
- She heard voices coming from.
- Your computer.
- Your computer.
- >> The terminal is on
- >> The terminal is on.
- All the time.
- All the time.
- She could've heard the sound
- She could've heard the sound.
- Of the printer.
- Of the printer.
- >> Nicole has been under
- >> Nicole has been under.
- Tremendous pressure lately.
- Tremendous pressure lately.
- Really, a lot of stress.
- Really, a lot of stress.
- She and her boyfriend, Jeff,
- She and her boyfriend, Jeff,
- had a terrible argument.
- Had a terrible argument.
- She pushes herself real hard
- She pushes herself real hard.
- At school.
At school.
Doctor, never, never in her life
- doctor, never, never in her life.
- Has she ever behaved like
- Has she ever behaved like.
- She did tonight...
- She did tonight...
- Never.
- Never.
- >> Schizophrenic symptoms often
- >> Schizophrenic symptoms often.
- Occur quite suddenly
- Occur quite suddenly.
- And usually among young adults.
- And usually among young adults.
- >> That's quite a pitch, doc.
- >> That's quite a pitch, doc.
- What's the matter, you haven't
- What's the matter, you haven't.
- Made enough sales today?
- Made enough sales today?
- >> Please stop it, Dave.
- >> Please stop it, Dave.
- >> Mr. Glover, I do not need
- >> Mr. Glover, I do not need.
- Your daughter to be sick to make
- Your daughter to be sick to make.
- A decent living,
- A decent living,
- and I hope to god I'm wrong
- And I hope to god I'm wrong.
- About my diagnosis.
- About my diagnosis.
- >> You are.
- >> You are.
- >> Doctor, could it be drugs?
- >> Doctor, could it be drugs?
- >> Well, it's very unlikely.
- >> Well, it's very unlikely.
- The symptoms are pretty clear.
- The symptoms are pretty clear.
- But I would like to observe
- But I would like to observe.
- Nicole for a few days.
- Nicole for a few days.
- We're trying to find a bed.
- We're trying to find a bed.
- >> No way, she is out of here
- >> No way, she is out of here.
- Tonight.
- Tonight.
- >> Wait a minute, we're gonna
- >> Wait a minute, we're gonna.
- Talk about... David!
Talk about... David!
You're acting... Dave!
- You're acting... Dave!
- Can we at least talk about this?
- Can we at least talk about this?
- >> Enough talk, I'm taking her
- >> Enough talk, I'm taking her.
- Home.
- Home.
- >> Mr. Glover, your daughter did
- >> Mr. Glover, your daughter did.
- Bodily harm to herself tonight.
- Bodily harm to herself tonight.
- I can keep her here without your
- I can keep her here without your.
- Permission.
Permission.
Try it.
Nikki...
Nicole?
Nicole?
Mom.
Mom.
Yes, yes, we're here.
Yes, yes, we're here.
We're both here.
We're both here.
You're fine now.
- You're fine now.
- Everything's gonna be fine,
- Everything's gonna be fine,
- baby.
I want to go home.
I want to go home.
Yes.
Yes.
Yes, baby.
Yes.
- Yes.
- We're all going home now.
I'll release her, but only.
- >> I'll release her, but only.
- If you agree to give her
- If you agree to give her.
- The medication I prescribe,
- The medication I prescribe,
- and you guarantee me
- And you guarantee me.
- That she will get
That she will get
the correct follow-up care.
What happened?
- >> What happened?
- Is she all right?
- Is she all right?
- >> Yes, Lisa, she's much better,
- >> Yes, Lisa, she's much better,
- yeah.
Why didn't you call me?
- >> Why didn't you call me?
- I was so worried.
- I was so worried.
- >> I know, sweetheart.
- >> I know, sweetheart.
- We just had our hands full.
- We just had our hands full.
- We couldn't get to a phone,
- We couldn't get to a phone,
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.
- >> Nikki, are you all right?
- >> Nikki, are you all right?
- What is the matter with her?
- What is the matter with her?
- >> Nothing's the matter with
- >> Nothing's the matter with.
- Her, she's just sedated.
- Her, she's just sedated.
- >> She looks weird.
- >> She looks weird.
- >> Don't ever let me hear you
- >> Don't ever let me hear you.
- Say that again!
I'm so sorry, mom.
- >> I'm so sorry, mom.
- >> Oh, come on, honey.
- >> Oh, come on, honey.
- It's all right.
- It's all right.
- >> I'm sorry.
- >> I'm sorry.
- >> I know, I know,
- >> I know, I know,
- but it's all over.
But it's all over.
It's all over.
- It's all over.
- >> I don't want to go back
- >> I don't want to go back.
- There.
- There.
- >> You're home.
- >> You're home.
- You're gonna stay right here.
You're gonna stay right here.
You have to get some rest, okay?
- You have to get some rest, okay?
- We're gonna have you all better
- We're gonna have you all better.
- Before you know it.
Before you know it.
Aww, don't cry, sweetheart.
Aww, don't cry, sweetheart.
I know, would you like US
- I know, would you like US.
- To stay in the room with you
- To stay in the room with you.
- For a little while?
For a little while?
Hmm?
- Hmm?
- Okay, now go to sleep.
[Knock on door]
Sorry I woke you.
Sorry I woke you.
No, that's all right.
No, that's all right.
I'm in and out.
- I'm in and out.
- Hear every sound,
- Hear every sound,
- heard the paperboy throw the
- Heard the paperboy throw the.
- Paper for the last three blocks.
Nikki, I was so scared.
Nikki, I was so scared.
I know, me too.
I know, me too.
I don't know what happened.
- I don't know what happened.
- Just suddenly all the voices
- Just suddenly all the voices.
- In the living room got so loud.
- In the living room got so loud.
- So loud that I couldn't
- So loud that I couldn't.
- Understand what anybody
- Understand what anybody.
- Was saying.
Was saying.
People would talk to me,
- people would talk to me,
- and I know I was supposed
- And I know I was supposed.
- To talk back, but I couldn't,
- To talk back, but I couldn't,
- 'cause I couldn't
'Cause I couldn't
understand them.
Understand them.
So I panicked,
so I panicked,
but I couldn't get away
- but I couldn't get away.
- From the voices.
- From the voices.
- They wouldn't go away.
But I'm fine now, really.
- But I'm fine now, really.
- >> Really?
Really?
Yeah.
- >> Yeah.
- Look, I know what the doctor
- Look, I know what the doctor.
- Said to mom and dad, but it's
- Said to mom and dad, but it's.
- Not true.
- Not true.
- >> What's that?
- >> What's that?
- >> [Scoffs]
[Scoffs]
That I'm a little cracked.
- That I'm a little cracked.
- It's not true.
- It's not true.
- I didn't make
I didn't make
any of this stuff up.
- Any of this stuff up.
- It happened.
It happened.
I really heard it.
Could I grab a soda?
- Could I grab a soda?
- >> Sure.
Sure.
My mouth is so dry.
- >> My mouth is so dry.
- >> You can't go back to school
- >> You can't go back to school.
- Yet, honey.
- Yet, honey.
- We want to make sure you feel
- We want to make sure you feel.
- Perfect.
Perfect.
I do.
- >> I do.
- The only thing that's making me
- The only thing that's making me.
- Feel off is this medicine.
- Feel off is this medicine.
- Every time I start to feel
- Every time I start to feel.
- Better, I have to take another
- Better, I have to take another.
- Pill, and it's just slowing
- Pill, and it's just slowing.
- Me down.
- Me down.
- They're preventing me from
- They're preventing me from.
- Getting better.
- Getting better.
- >> Nicole, you're not getting
- >> Nicole, you're not getting.
- Off the medication.
Off the medication.
This is the thing that's
- this is the thing that's.
- Stabilizing your condition.
- Stabilizing your condition.
- >> Mom, I don't have
- >> Mom, I don't have.
- A condition,
- A condition,
- and I'm so stabilized,
- And I'm so stabilized,
- I'm vegetating here.
- I'm vegetating here.
- >> Lynn, listen to her,
- >> Lynn, listen to her,
- will you?
- Will you?
- We're not inside her.
- We're not inside her.
- She's the only one who knows how
- She's the only one who knows how.
- She feels.
She feels.
Dave, please.
- >> Dave, please.
- >> Well, at least let me go back
- >> Well, at least let me go back.
- To school.
To school.
There's so much I have to do.
- There's so much I have to do.
- I miss my friends.
I miss my friends.
I miss Jeff.
- I miss Jeff.
- The longer I wait,
- The longer I wait,
- the harder it's gonna be.
[Engine revving]
She'll be fine.
I'm back.
- >> I'm back.
- >> Welcome back.
Welcome back.
Thanks.
Look, I'm really sorry.
- Look, I'm really sorry.
- You know, I could just go and
- You know, I could just go and.
- Stay at Jeff's.
Stay at Jeff's.
Don't be silly.
Don't be silly.
I missed you.
So how do you feel?
- So how do you feel?
- >> I'm fine.
- >> I'm fine.
- I feel fine.
I feel fine.
Great.
- >> Great.
- Here let me help you with that.
- Here let me help you with that.
- You probably feel like you've
- You probably feel like you've.
- Been gone forever, but you
- Been gone forever, but you.
- Really haven't missed much.
- Really haven't missed much.
- And I can give you my notes
- And I can give you my notes.
- On soc-10 and history of art,
- On soc-10 and history of art,
- okay?
Okay?
Thanks.
I really am sorry.
- I really am sorry.
- >> Listen, forget it,
listen, forget it,
it's over now, okay?
Right.
Right.
[Zipper unzipping]
Thud!
- Thud!
- >> When my dad found out that
- >> When my dad found out that.
- I flunked my physics midterm,
I flunked my physics midterm,
he hit the roof.
- He hit the roof.
- >> You know, it's my fault.
- >> You know, it's my fault.
- I should've been there for you.
- I should've been there for you.
- I could've helped you study.
- I could've helped you study.
- >> Right, and I supposed you're
- >> Right, and I supposed you're.
- Responsible for my I.Q. Too.
- Responsible for my I.Q. Too.
- >> I upset you.
I upset you.
I took your mind off your work.
- I took your mind off your work.
- I'm really sorry.
- I'm really sorry.
- >> Would you stop it?
- >> Would you stop it?
- Dad's right, I've been jerking
- Dad's right, I've been jerking.
- Around this whole semester.
- Around this whole semester.
- >> You know, it was the
- >> You know, it was the.
- Medicine.
- Medicine.
- They just kept giving me
- They just kept giving me.
- These pills.
- These pills.
- I just kept getting worse.
- I just kept getting worse.
- >> Yeah, but that was after.
- >> Yeah, but that was after.
- You weren't taking the
- You weren't taking the.
- Medication before you got sick.
- Medication before you got sick.
- >> No, because I threw them
- >> No, because I threw them.
- Away.
- Away.
- >> What do you mean?
What do you mean?
I threw them all away.
I threw them all away.
Oh.
- >> Oh.
- >> So you're gonna pick me up
- >> So you're gonna pick me up.
- After class, right?
- After class, right?
- >> Yes, I told you three times.
- >> Yes, I told you three times.
- You're stuck with me, kid.
- You're stuck with me, kid.
- >> Bye.
[Indistinct speech]
[Bell ringing]
[Footsteps]
What brancusi urges you
- >> what brancusi urges you.
- To do with his sculpture
To do with his sculpture
is not just look, but feel.
- Is not just look, but feel.
- Not to resist temptation,
- Not to resist temptation,
- but to su...
[Loud rock music]
[Loud rock music]
♪ ♪
[Music stops]
- [Music stops]
- >> The sound is coming through
The sound is coming through
the speakers!
- The speakers!
- The headset isn't even plugged
- The headset isn't even plugged.
- In.
- In.
- Nicole, can you hear me?
- Nicole, can you hear me?
- >> Put the music on.
- >> Put the music on.
- I need the music to concentrate.
- I need the music to concentrate.
- I have to block out the voices.
- I have to block out the voices.
- >> Well, there are no voices
- >> Well, there are no voices.
- Now.
- Now.
- It's quiet...
- It's quiet...
- >> don't!
- >> Don't!
- I have to keep this to block out
- I have to keep this to block out.
- The voices!
My name's not mentioned once
- my name's not mentioned once.
- In this book.
- In this book.
- Look, frank Lloyd Wright,
- Look, frank Lloyd Wright,
- soriano, Paul laszlo, not once!
- Soriano, Paul laszlo, not once!
- >> Jeff, great, could you get
- >> Jeff, great, could you get.
- Over here right away?
- Over here right away?
- I think Nikki's freaking out,
I think Nikki's freaking out,
hurry.
- Hurry.
- >> Who are you calling?
- >> Who are you calling?
- >> Um, it was nobody.
Um, it was nobody.
I can hear you.
I can hear you.
I can hear everything.
- I can hear everything.
- I know you're in touch with
- I know you're in touch with.
- Them.
- Them.
- That's how they know so much
- That's how they know so much.
- About me.
- About me.
- That's why I have no privacy!
- That's why I have no privacy!
- >> Nicole, where are you going?
- >> Nicole, where are you going?
- >> Why, so you can call them
- >> Why, so you can call them.
- On the radio?
- On the radio?
- >> Nicole...
- >> Nicole...
- >> don't touch me.
- >> Don't touch me.
- Don't ever touch me.
Don't ever touch me.
Nicole!
Nikki!
- Nikki!
- [Engine turns over]
- [Engine turns over]
- [Tires screeching]
[Tires screeching]
Nikki!
Nikki!
Nikki, wait, Nikki!
Nikki, wait, Nikki!
Nikki, wait, just...
Nikki, wait, just...
[pounding on window]
[Fractured instrumental music]
[Fractured instrumental music]
♪ ♪
[Brakes squealing]
- [Brakes squealing]
- [Horn honking]
- [Horn honking]
- >> Get out of the way!
- >> Get out of the way!
- You crazy or something?
[Horns honking]
Watch it, lady!
Watch it, lady!
[Horns honking]
In addition to hearing
- >> in addition to hearing.
- Voices, Nicole is now
- Voices, Nicole is now.
- Exhibiting a symptom called
- Exhibiting a symptom called.
- "thought broadcasting."
- "Thought broadcasting."
- This behavior is
- This behavior is.
- An almost certain indication
- An almost certain indication.
- Of schizophrenia.
- Of schizophrenia.
- >> She's always been...
- >> She's always been...
- The perfect... perfect child.
The perfect... perfect child.
Well, what is the cure?
- >> Well, what is the cure?
- >> There is no cure.
- >> There is no cure.
- >> What do you mean?
- >> What do you mean?
- There... there's no cure?
- There... there's no cure?
- >> Schizophrenia is
- >> Schizophrenia is.
- A physical disorder.
- A physical disorder.
- A chemical imbalance
- A chemical imbalance.
- In the brain.
- In the brain.
- Drugs can sometimes compensate
- Drugs can sometimes compensate.
- For this imbalance;
- For this imbalance;
- they cannot cure it.
They cannot cure it.
Doc, you're not leaving US
- >> doc, you're not leaving US.
- Much hope here.
Much hope here.
Sometimes, the symptoms
- >> sometimes, the symptoms.
- Disappear as suddenly as they
- Disappear as suddenly as they.
- Appear.
- Appear.
- That is the hope, I want you
- That is the hope, I want you.
- To have that.
To have that.
Well, what is the first step?
- >> Well, what is the first step?
- >> We will test
- >> We will test.
- Nicole's reaction
- Nicole's reaction.
- To various psychotropic drugs
- To various psychotropic drugs.
- And evaluate her behavior for
- And evaluate her behavior for.
- As long as we can keep her here.
- As long as we can keep her here.
- >> We will leave her here just
- >> We will leave her here just.
- As long as you need her to be
- As long as you need her to be.
- Here.
- Here.
- >> By law, we may not keep
- >> By law, we may not keep.
- A patient more than 72 hours
- A patient more than 72 hours.
- If that patient refuses to stay,
- If that patient refuses to stay,
- and Nicole is already asking
- And Nicole is already asking.
- To leave.
- To leave.
- The only way we can keep her
- The only way we can keep her.
- Longer is through what is called
- Longer is through what is called.
- A probable cause hearing,
A probable cause hearing,
a commitment hearing.
- A commitment hearing.
- >> Will Nikki be in the same
- >> Will Nikki be in the same.
- Room?
- Room?
- >> Yes.
- >> Yes.
- >> So she'll see US arguing
- >> So she'll see US arguing.
- Against her?
- Against her?
- >> Well, hopefully she'll
- >> Well, hopefully she'll.
- Understand that you're doing
- Understand that you're doing.
- This because you care about her.
- This because you care about her.
- The court appointed referee will
- The court appointed referee will.
- Try to determine if Nikki
- Try to determine if Nikki.
- Is presently a danger to herself
Is presently a danger to herself
or others.
- Or others.
- >> If Nicole were to leave here
- >> If Nicole were to leave here.
- Today, would she be allowed to
- Today, would she be allowed to.
- Come home with you?
- Come home with you?
- >> We believe she will receive
- >> We believe she will receive.
- Better care here
- Better care here.
- In the hospital.
- In the hospital.
- >> Mrs. Glover, I think you
Mrs. Glover, I think you
understood the question.
Understood the question.
Yes, um, then...
Yes, um, then...
No, she cannot come home
no, she cannot come home
with US.
What?
- >> What?
- >> Honey, we want what's best
- >> Honey, we want what's best.
- For you.
For you.
We want you to be well.
- We want you to be well.
- >> You don't want me anymore?
- >> You don't want me anymore?
- >> No, baby, that's not
- >> No, baby, that's not.
- The truth.
- The truth.
- We want you to get all better
- We want you to get all better.
- Before you come home,
- Before you come home,
- that's all.
- That's all.
- >> Sweetheart, we love you,
- >> Sweetheart, we love you,
- and we want you to stay here
- And we want you to stay here.
- Because we love you.
Because we love you.
Please, I'll stay up in my
- >> please, I'll stay up in my.
- Room.
- Room.
- I'll just stay upstairs in my
- I'll just stay upstairs in my.
- Room.
- Room.
- I won't bother anybody.
Nicole, if you were allowed.
- >> Nicole, if you were allowed.
- To leave the hospital today
- To leave the hospital today.
- And you could not go home with
- And you could not go home with.
- Your parents, what would you do?
Nicole has told me that she.
- >> Nicole has told me that she.
- Has several thousand dollars
- Has several thousand dollars.
- In a bank account.
In a bank account.
Nicole.
Nicole.
Um, I could go to the bank,
- >> um, I could go to the bank,
- get a hotel room.
What if the bank was closed?
What if the bank was closed?
Um...
Um...
Uh...
- Uh...
- >> That's all right, Nicole,
That's all right, Nicole,
you don't have to answer.
- You don't have to answer.
- I think it would be better
- I think it would be better.
- If you stayed in the hospital
- If you stayed in the hospital.
- For just two weeks.
- For just two weeks.
- Would you do that, Nicole?
No.
No.
I don't want to stay here.
- I don't want to stay here.
- >> Very well, I won't force you.
- >> Very well, I won't force you.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- What, you're gonna let her leave
- What, you're gonna let her leave.
- Just like that?
- Just like that?
- >> Mrs. Glover, your daughter
- >> Mrs. Glover, your daughter.
- Has rights.
- Has rights.
- >> The right to keep getting
- >> The right to keep getting.
- Sicker and sicker without
- Sicker and sicker without.
- Treatment, without supervision?
- Treatment, without supervision?
- The right to kill herself?
- The right to kill herself?
- >> To my mind, Nicole does not
- >> To my mind, Nicole does not.
- Pose a threat to herself
- Pose a threat to herself.
- Or to others.
- Or to others.
- Nor is she incapable of
Nor is she incapable of
providing for her basic needs.
- Providing for her basic needs.
- >> What if you're wrong?
- >> What if you're wrong?
- >> Well then, you'll have to
- >> Well then, you'll have to.
- Present that new information to
- Present that new information to.
- The court at a later time.
- The court at a later time.
- >> You expect US to put our
- >> You expect US to put our.
- Daughter through this again?
- Daughter through this again?
- >> I'm very sorry.
- >> I'm very sorry.
- I understand your feelings.
- I understand your feelings.
- >> Do you?
I keep thinking back over all.
- >> I keep thinking back over all.
- The things I may have done to
The things I may have done to
have caused this.
- Have caused this.
- Like I remember that I... I drank
Like I remember that I... I drank
champagne at my baby shower.
That is so silly.
That is so silly.
I know that's silly.
I know that's silly.
But that's logic.
- But that's logic.
- Emotion tells me it's my fault.
Emotion tells me it's my fault.
She is my child, and everything
- she is my child, and everything.
- That happens to her
- That happens to her.
- Is my responsibility.
Is my responsibility.
Mrs. Glover.
You must forgive yourself
- you must forgive yourself.
- For what you consider
- For what you consider.
- To be your mistakes with Nicole,
- To be your mistakes with Nicole,
- not one of them contributed
- Not one of them contributed.
- To her condition.
- To her condition.
- Stop torturing yourself with
- Stop torturing yourself with.
- Guilt.
- Guilt.
- You have to be strong and whole
- You have to be strong and whole.
- To cope with the demands
- To cope with the demands.
- This disease will make of you.
Nikki, you have to take your.
- >> Nikki, you have to take your.
- Medication!
- Medication!
- [Glass breaking]
- [Glass breaking]
- >> I'm not taking it.
- >> I'm not taking it.
- It's making me sick.
- It's making me sick.
- It's killing me!
- It's killing me!
- >> Nikki, honey, no.
- >> Nikki, honey, no.
- It is making you better.
- It is making you better.
- >> No, it's not!
- >> No, it's not!
- >> Look, you quiet down.
- >> Look, you quiet down.
- Now calm down, relax.
- Now calm down, relax.
- >> I am turning to stone,
- >> I am turning to stone,
- and every time I start to feel
- And every time I start to feel.
- Something, you give me another
- Something, you give me another.
- Pill, and I turn to stone!
- Pill, and I turn to stone!
- >> But you have to take...
- >> But you have to take...
- >> Lisa!
- >> Lisa!
- >> I'm sorry, I'll wait outside.
- >> I'm sorry, I'll wait outside.
- >> Well, look who's here.
- >> Well, look who's here.
- It's touchdown Karen.
- It's touchdown Karen.
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> Does your mommy know
- >> Does your mommy know.
- You're making it
- You're making it.
- With the football team?
- With the football team?
- >> Stop it, Nicole!
- >> Stop it, Nicole!
- >> [Sighs]
[Sighs]
Karen!
[Exhales in surprise]
- >> [Exhales in surprise]
- >> Did I scare you?
Did I scare you?
Just for a second there.
- >> Just for a second there.
- >> Sorry.
Sorry.
It's okay.
I took my pills.
- >> I took my pills.
- >> Oh, thank you, baby.
- >> Oh, thank you, baby.
- Thank you.
I am so sorry.
- >> I am so sorry.
- I know I upset you, and I don't
- I know I upset you, and I don't.
- Mean to.
- Mean to.
- It's just sometimes
It's just sometimes
I feel so bad, just so confused.
- I feel so bad, just so confused.
- It's like I've lost something,
- It's like I've lost something,
- and I can't find it, no matter
And I can't find it, no matter
how hard I try.
How hard I try.
When I'm feeling bad and I hear
when I'm feeling bad and I hear
all those voices, I get scared
all those voices, I get scared
because I feel like I'm losing
because I feel like I'm losing
control of my mind,
- control of my mind,
- and I can't tell what's real and
And I can't tell what's real and
what isn't,
- what isn't,
- and when I feel good, I get
And when I feel good, I get
scared because I don't know
scared because I don't know
when it's gonna happen again
- when it's gonna happen again.
- Or if I'll lose control
- Or if I'll lose control.
- Completely and never come back.
I don't want to leave you.
- I don't want to leave you.
- >> [Whispers] Sweetheart.
- >> [Whispers] Sweetheart.
- >> I hear all these voices
I hear all these voices
calling my name, and the only
- calling my name, and the only.
- Voice I want to hear is yours.
I'm just so afraid the voices
- I'm just so afraid the voices.
- Are gonna get so loud that I'm
- Are gonna get so loud that I'm.
- Not gonna be able to hear you
- Not gonna be able to hear you.
- Calling me.
Calling me.
I'll make sure you hear me.
I'll make sure you hear me.
Nikki, I will not let you go.
- Nikki, I will not let you go.
- I won't let you go.
I won't let you go.
I won't let you go.
[Water rushing]
Where you been?
Where you been?
I was on the road.
I was on the road.
Till 1:00 A.M.?
- >> Till 1:00 A.M.?
- >> Was with a client, okay?
- >> Was with a client, okay?
- >> Well, you could've called,
- >> Well, you could've called,
- Dave.
- Dave.
- You know, I waited dinner
- You know, I waited dinner.
- For you.
- For you.
- >> All right, then.
- >> All right, then.
- >> Oh, come on.
- >> Oh, come on.
- I don't want to fight.
- I don't want to fight.
- I don't.
- I don't.
- I just missed you, that's all.
Nikki spoke to me tonight,
Nikki spoke to me tonight,
and it was almost as if she were
- and it was almost as if she were.
- Well again,
- Well again,
- and then a few hours later,
- And then a few hours later,
- she was talking to herself.
- She was talking to herself.
- It's so...
It's so hard to watch.
- It's so hard to watch.
- You know, it's like she comes up
- You know, it's like she comes up.
- For air for a few seconds and
- For air for a few seconds and.
- Then gets pulled back under.
- Then gets pulled back under.
- >> I can't deal with this
I can't deal with this
anymore today, honey.
Anymore today, honey.
I'm really beat.
How's it going?
- >> How's it going?
- >> My razor blade knife wasn't
- >> My razor blade knife wasn't.
- In the drawer.
In the drawer.
Have you seen it?
- Have you seen it?
- >> I think I put that away
- >> I think I put that away.
- Somewhere.
- Somewhere.
- >> Well, I need it to cut
- >> Well, I need it to cut.
- The siding.
- The siding.
- It's all I have left to do,
- It's all I have left to do,
- and I really wanted to finish it
- And I really wanted to finish it.
- For the contest.
- For the contest.
- >> I'll find it for you.
[Engine running]
He's talking my ear off,
- >> he's talking my ear off,
- but I think I'll make the sale
- But I think I'll make the sale.
- Soon.
Soon.
About an hour or so,
about an hour or so,
don't wait up for me.
Don't wait up for me.
Me too, bye.
- Me too, bye.
- [Phone receiver clicks]
[Pounding]
Lisa, Lisa!
- >> Lisa, Lisa!
- >> What is it?
What is it?
Help me.
- >> Help me.
- Honey, honey, oh, sweetheart.
Call an ambulance, sweetheart.
- Call an ambulance, sweetheart.
- Go, Lisa now!
Go, Lisa now!
Call an ambulance!
Call an ambulance!
Nikki, Nikki, honey, honey...
What happened?
What happened?
Is she going to be all right?
- Is she going to be all right?
- Is she all right?!
- Is she all right?!
- >> They said she can come home
- >> They said she can come home.
- In a couple hours.
- In a couple hours.
- >> Is Dr. Austin here?
- >> Is Dr. Austin here?
- >> Please, isn't it
- >> Please, isn't it.
- A little late for you
- A little late for you.
- To be saving the day?
- To be saving the day?
- Everything's already been taken
- Everything's already been taken.
- Care of anyway.
- Care of anyway.
- >> I told you, I had to work
- >> I told you, I had to work.
- Late.
- Late.
- >> Mmm, yeah, the midnight
- >> Mmm, yeah, the midnight.
- Business meeting.
- Business meeting.
- >> Oh, you just get off my back
- >> Oh, you just get off my back.
- And tell me what happened.
- And tell me what happened.
- >> She had a seizure,
She had a seizure,
that's what happened.
- That's what happened.
- They said it was a side effect
- They said it was a side effect.
- From her pills.
- From her pills.
- >> But she's been taking
- >> But she's been taking.
- The same medication all along,
- The same medication all along,
- hasn't she?
- Hasn't she?
- >> Yes, yes, and the side
- >> Yes, yes, and the side.
- Effects don't always happen
- Effects don't always happen.
- Right away.
- Right away.
- See, so now they have to start
- See, so now they have to start.
- Experimenting with new drugs,
- Experimenting with new drugs,
- and they... they have no idea
- And they... they have no idea.
- Which one's gonna work.
- Which one's gonna work.
- >> You mean this could happen
- >> You mean this could happen.
- Again?
- Again?
- >> You know, I have been all
- >> You know, I have been all.
- Through this with the doctor.
- Through this with the doctor.
- I don't feel like recapping
- I don't feel like recapping.
- For latecomers.
- For latecomers.
- >> Mom, please.
- >> Mom, please.
- >> Lisa, stay out of this.
- >> Lisa, stay out of this.
- >> Don't you take it out on her!
- >> Don't you take it out on her!
- >> You should've been there,
- >> You should've been there,
- David!
- David!
- You should've...
- You should've...
- You should've been here.
[Pills clattering]
[Pills clattering]
[Water splashing]
[Phone ringing]
Hello?
- >> Hello?
- Oh, hi, Lisa.
- Oh, hi, Lisa.
- Hold on, it's Lisa.
- Hold on, it's Lisa.
- You want to take it
- You want to take it.
- In the kitchen?
- In the kitchen?
- >> Yeah, thank you.
Yeah, thank you.
Excuse me.
Just calm down, honey.
- Just calm down, honey.
- Try and give them to her again.
- Try and give them to her again.
- I know.
- I know.
- I know, look, I'll be home soon.
- I know, look, I'll be home soon.
- All right, bye-bye.
- All right, bye-bye.
- [Phone receiver clicks]
- [Phone receiver clicks]
- >> Lynn, is something wrong?
- >> Lynn, is something wrong?
- >> No, no, it's... it's nothing
- >> No, no, it's... it's nothing.
- Important.
- Important.
- I... but, you know,
- I... but, you know,
- I have to leave.
- I have to leave.
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.
- >> Lynn, I'm your friend.
- >> Lynn, I'm your friend.
- You can talk to me.
- You can talk to me.
- I want to help.
I want to help.
Helen.
You did what?
You did what?
I confided in a friend.
- >> I confided in a friend.
- >> A friend?
- >> A friend?
- Don't be naive, Lynn.
- Don't be naive, Lynn.
- She's probably been on the phone
- She's probably been on the phone.
- To everybody in town.
- To everybody in town.
- >> As if people don't
- >> As if people don't.
- Already know.
- Already know.
- >> They don't know anything
- >> They don't know anything.
- Specific until you tell 'em,
- Specific until you tell 'em,
- and you did!
- And you did!
- >> I needed someone to talk to.
- >> I needed someone to talk to.
- I know you think I'm made
- I know you think I'm made.
- Of steel, but I am not.
- Of steel, but I am not.
- >> You think you're gonna get
- >> You think you're gonna get.
- Sympathy from people about this.
- Sympathy from people about this.
- You think people are gonna say,
- You think people are gonna say,
- "oh, poor Lynn and Dave,
- "Oh, poor Lynn and Dave,
- how could anything like this
- How could anything like this.
- Happen to them?"
- "Happen to them?"
- Well, they're not.
- Well, they're not.
- They're gonna take it,
- They're gonna take it,
- they're gonna turn it,
- They're gonna turn it,
- and use it against US!
- And use it against US!
- >> Do you really believe that?
- >> Do you really believe that?
- >> Yes!
- >> Yes!
- >> Are you that ashamed?
- >> Are you that ashamed?
- >> Yes.
- >> Yes.
- This is a family matter.
- This is a family matter.
- I don't want you announcing it
- I don't want you announcing it.
- To the neighborhood.
- To the neighborhood.
- We'll deal with it ourselves.
- We'll deal with it ourselves.
- >> How?
- >> How?
- You refuse to even talk to me
- You refuse to even talk to me.
- About it.
- About it.
- How are we gonna deal with it?
- How are we gonna deal with it?
- Answer me that.
- Answer me that.
- [Door slams]
- [Door slams]
- How do we deal with it?
Come on, Nicole.
- Come on, Nicole.
- You've got to eat something.
- You've got to eat something.
- Now, you told me
Now, you told me
you wanted eggs.
Can I talk to you both
- >> can I talk to you both.
- For a second?
- For a second?
- >> Sure, honey.
- >> Sure, honey.
- >> I have to buy a dress
- >> I have to buy a dress.
- For the Rochester audition.
- For the Rochester audition.
- I want to get something dressy
- I want to get something dressy.
- But simple.
- But simple.
- I thought I had enough saved up
- I thought I had enough saved up.
- But I think I'm a little bit
But I think I'm a little bit
short.
Short.
I got to go.
- >> I got to go.
- >> Mom, could you pay
- >> Mom, could you pay.
- The difference?
The difference?
And help me pick something out?
- And help me pick something out?
- >> Are you listening to me?
- >> Are you listening to me?
- >> What?
What?
Yes, Lisa, we just can't handle
- yes, Lisa, we just can't handle.
- A new dress just now.
- A new dress just now.
- That's... that's all, honey.
- That's... that's all, honey.
- Wear your white lace.
- Wear your white lace.
- You look real sweet in that.
- You look real sweet in that.
- [Glass shatters]
- [Glass shatters]
- >> Why don't you watch what
- >> Why don't you watch what.
- You're doing?
- You're doing?
- >> Stop it, Lisa.
- >> Stop it, Lisa.
- >> She just does it to get
- >> She just does it to get.
- Attention.
Attention.
I said enough.
I could help you.
I could help you
look for a dress if you want.
God, it looks great.
- >> God, it looks great.
- So do you.
So do you.
Thanks.
I'm glad you came.
I'm glad you came.
I missed you.
I missed you.
Think about you a lot.
Think about you a lot.
I missed you too.
- >> I missed you too.
- I would've stopped by sooner but
- I would've stopped by sooner but.
- I just didn't know if...
- I just didn't know if...
- >> no, I know.
No, I know.
I understand.
I'm aware, you know.
- I'm aware, you know.
- I'm aware of the things that
- I'm aware of the things that.
- Have happened.
Have happened.
I'm not out of it all the time.
- I'm not out of it all the time.
- I'm the same person.
I'm the same person.
I just have a problem now.
- I just have a problem now.
- >> No, you're getting better
No, you're getting better
and better.
And better.
Yeah.
- >> Yeah.
- Is my hair all right?
Is my hair all right?
Yeah, it's perfect.
- >> Yeah, it's perfect.
- Jenny told me to give you
Jenny told me to give you
her love.
- Her love.
- >> My mom helped me with it.
- >> My mom helped me with it.
- It just feels kind of stiff
- It just feels kind of stiff.
- Though.
Though.
No, it's looks terrific.
- >> No, it's looks terrific.
- >> It just feels so stiff.
- >> It just feels so stiff.
- I just feel like I'm turning
- I just feel like I'm turning.
- To stone.
To stone.
No, Nikki.
No, Nikki.
You look beautiful.
- You look beautiful.
- You look so beautiful.
Jeff, Jeff.
Jeff, Jeff.
No.
No.
Nicole!
Nicole!
Nikki!
- Nikki!
- Nikki!
- Nikki!
- >> Jeff!
Jeff!
Wait, wait, wait.
Wait, wait, wait.
[Sobbing]
- >> [Sobbing]
- >> Oh, don't cry.
- >> Oh, don't cry.
- >> Lynn, Lynn, can I help?
- >> Lynn, Lynn, can I help?
- >> No, no, Helen.
- >> No, no, Helen.
- No, no, we're fine.
- No, no, we're fine.
- We're just... we're all right.
- We're just... we're all right.
- Please, please just leave US
- Please, please just leave US.
- Alone.
- Alone.
- >> [Sobbing]
- >> [Sobbing]
- >> Oh, my baby.
- >> Oh, my baby.
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.
- Sweetheart.
- Sweetheart.
- Helen, we're fine, please.
- Helen, we're fine, please.
- Come on, that's my baby, come.
[Door closes]
Hello.
Things calm down a bit?
- Things calm down a bit?
- >> Oh.
- >> Oh.
- >> I got a little surprise
- >> I got a little surprise.
- For you.
- For you.
- >> Please, no more surprises
- >> Please, no more surprises.
- Today.
Not even a nice one?
- >> Not even a nice one?
- Dinner at the long wharf,
- Dinner at the long wharf,
- glass of wine, stroll along
- Glass of wine, stroll along.
- The boardwalk?
The boardwalk?
Can't leave Nikki.
- >> Can't leave Nikki.
- >> Lisa can take care of Nikki
- >> Lisa can take care of Nikki.
- For one evening.
- For one evening.
- You and I got to be together,
- You and I got to be together,
- just the two of US.
I think you're tempted.
- I think you're tempted.
- God knows, you're tempting.
Come on.
- Come on.
- >> Mm-mmm, no.
- >> Mm-mmm, no.
- >> Let me show you my good side
- >> let me show you my good side.
- For a change.
- For a change.
- You do remember I got a good
- You do remember I got a good.
- Side.
Side.
Barely.
- >> Barely.
- >> Well, let me refresh
- >> Well, let me refresh.
- Your memory.
[Cracking]
Nicole, no!
- >> Nicole, no!
- No, stop it.
- No, stop it.
- Nicole, stop it!
- Nicole, stop it!
- Stop it.
- Stop it.
- Nicole, stop it.
- Nicole, stop it.
- Stop it. Stop it.
- Stop it. Stop it.
- Give me the knife.
- Give me the knife.
- Give me that knife.
Give me that knife.
Nicole, give it to me.
- Nicole, give it to me.
- Give it to me!
- Give it to me!
- >> It's no good.
- >> It's no good.
- It's no good.
- It's no good.
- >> Why, why are you doing this?
- >> Why, why are you doing this?
- Why are you doing this to me?
- Why are you doing this to me?
- Can't you leave one decent thing
- Can't you leave one decent thing.
- In tact?
- In tact?
- Can't you?
- Can't you?
- >> I don't want it anymore.
- >> I don't want it anymore.
- >> You doing it to hurt me?
- >> You doing it to hurt me?
- >> Lynn, no, come on, stop it.
- >> Lynn, no, come on, stop it.
- >> Yes, you don't know what it's
- >> Yes, you don't know what it's.
- Like!
- Like!
- >> Stop screaming.
- >> Stop screaming.
- >> You don't know
- >> You don't know.
- What it's like.
- What it's like.
- You are never here.
- You are never here.
- You don't know!
You don't know!
Mom, she's sick!
[Sobs]
I wasn't born this way.
I wasn't born this way.
You did this to me.
You did this to me.
You made me this way.
[Knock on door]
- [Knock on door]
- >> Oh, Lynn, come on in.
- >> Oh, Lynn, come on in.
- >> No, no, I only have a minute.
- >> No, no, I only have a minute.
- I wanted to apologize to you
- I wanted to apologize to you.
- For yesterday.
- For yesterday.
- If I seemed impolite, it was
- If I seemed impolite, it was.
- Because I was so upset
- Because I was so upset.
- And embarrassed.
- And embarrassed.
- >> Of course.
- >> Of course.
- I mean, I understand.
- I mean, I understand.
- Don't think about it, please.
- Don't think about it, please.
- >> Thanks for being
Thanks for being
so understanding.
- So understanding.
- I better go.
- I better go.
- I bet you have a million things
- I bet you have a million things.
- To do for the wedding Sunday,
- To do for the wedding Sunday,
- huh?
- Huh?
- >> Don't remind me.
- >> Don't remind me.
- Listen, Lynn, you're still
- Listen, Lynn, you're still.
- Planning on bringing your video
- Planning on bringing your video.
- Camera, aren't you?
- Camera, aren't you?
- >> You bet.
- >> You bet.
- >> Great, I'm counting on you.
Great, I'm counting on you.
Uh, Lynn, listen, you're not
- uh, Lynn, listen, you're not.
- Planning on bringing Nikki
- Planning on bringing Nikki.
- To the ceremony, are you?
- To the ceremony, are you?
- I mean, it's such a special day
- I mean, it's such a special day.
- For Kenny and Sarah.
- For Kenny and Sarah.
- That must've sounded terrible,
- That must've sounded terrible,
- didn't it?
- Didn't it?
- >> Yeah, Helen, it did.
- >> Yeah, Helen, it did.
- >> But you know what I mean,
- >> But you know what I mean,
- don't you?
- Don't you?
- >> Sure, I know.
- >> Sure, I know.
- I just cannot believe that you
- I just cannot believe that you.
- Actually asked me.
- Actually asked me.
- We had no intention of bringing
- We had no intention of bringing.
- Nikki to the wedding.
- Nikki to the wedding.
- She's not well enough.
- She's not well enough.
- But you know what I think
- But you know what I think.
- Would be good?
- Would be good?
- None of US will come
None of US will come
to the wedding
- to the wedding.
- And thanks for being
- And thanks for being.
- So understanding.
So understanding.
Lynn!
[Fire crackling]
- [Fire crackling]
- >> Nicole!
Nicole!
Nico...
[Fire extinguisher hissing]
[Coughing]
[Coughing]
Come on.
Come on.
What happened?
Where have you been?
- >> Where have you been?
- >> I was at Karen's.
- >> I was at Karen's.
- >> You were supposed to be
- >> You were supposed to be.
- Looking after your sister!
- Looking after your sister!
- >> I was only gone
- >> I was only gone.
- For a few minutes!
- For a few minutes!
- >> And do you see what can
- >> And do you see what can.
- Happen in just a few minutes?
- Happen in just a few minutes?
- She could have been killed.
- She could have been killed.
- >> It's not my fault.
- >> It's not my fault.
- She did it.
- She did it.
- >> It is your fault.
- >> It is your fault.
- She was your responsibility!
- She was your responsibility!
- >> No, she's yours!
- >> No, she's yours!
- She's your crazy daughter, not...
- She's your crazy daughter, not...
- >> shut up!
- >> Shut up!
- Stop that!
- Stop that!
- Shut up!
- Shut up!
- Shut up, do you hear me!
How did I feel?
- >> How did I feel?
- It felt like I should've been
- It felt like I should've been.
- Able to save her from this,
- Able to save her from this,
- but I couldn't.
- But I couldn't.
- It felt like I had given up
- It felt like I had given up.
- On her,
- On her,
- that I admitted she had
- That I admitted she had.
- No future,
No future,
no future at all.
- No future at all.
- We convinced ourselves this was
- We convinced ourselves this was.
- A decent place.
After all, what choice did
after all, what choice did
we have?
- We have?
- You begin to lie to yourself
- You begin to lie to yourself.
- When you run out of
When you run out of
alternatives.
- Alternatives.
- And then I felt rotten because
And then I felt rotten because
I kept thinking about the money.
- I kept thinking about the money.
- Now that the insurance is gone,
- Now that the insurance is gone,
- that's all I think about.
- That's all I think about.
- It's one thing to pay for
- It's one thing to pay for.
- A college education,
- A college education,
- that's an investment.
- That's an investment.
- But to pay for a place like this
- But to pay for a place like this.
- For your child?
For your child?
For a living tomb?
- For a living tomb?
- >> It will really look much
- >> It will really look much.
- Better without the lint
Better without the lint
and without those wrinkles.
- And without those wrinkles.
- >> I kept looking at her
- >> I kept looking at her.
- And wondering if she understood
- And wondering if she understood.
- What we were doing to her
What we were doing to her
and hated US for it.
- And hated US for it.
- And then when I brought
- And then when I brought.
- Her suitcase into the bedroom,
- Her suitcase into the bedroom,
- she gave me the most pitiful
- She gave me the most pitiful.
- Look as if all of her fears
- Look as if all of her fears.
- Were being confirmed,
- Were being confirmed,
- and we were, after all,
And we were, after all,
abandoning her.
- Abandoning her.
- We made her this way, and now
We made her this way, and now
we were punishing her for it.
- We were punishing her for it.
- >> You really believe that?
- >> You really believe that?
- >> No.
No.
That's what Nikki said.
- That's what Nikki said.
- Look, doc, I really got to get
- Look, doc, I really got to get.
- Going.
- Going.
- I'm doing this for Lynn's sake.
- I'm doing this for Lynn's sake.
- Frankly, I don't see the point.
- Frankly, I don't see the point.
- It doesn't help Nikki that much.
- It doesn't help Nikki that much.
- >> Maybe in the long run,
- >> Maybe in the long run,
- it will.
- It will.
- >> That's a little too subtle
- >> That's a little too subtle.
- For my mind.
- For my mind.
- Maybe you should worry less
- Maybe you should worry less.
- About Lynn and me, work a little
- About Lynn and me, work a little.
- Bit harder to make Nikki better.
- Bit harder to make Nikki better.
- >> I blame myself too,
I blame myself too,
Mr. Glover.
- Mr. Glover.
- I feel guilty because I am
- I feel guilty because I am.
- Part of a psychiatric community
- Part of a psychiatric community.
- That has largely shunned
- That has largely shunned.
- Schizophrenia and its victims
- Schizophrenia and its victims.
- Because we feel powerless
- Because we feel powerless.
- In the face of it.
Nicole, you didn't come down.
- >> Nicole, you didn't come down.
- For your pill this morning.
For your pill this morning.
Nicole?
- Nicole?
- Nicole, don't make me force you.
Well, Nikki, you have to take
- >> well, Nikki, you have to take.
- Your pills.
- Your pills.
- You just do, honey.
- You just do, honey.
- Come on, please?
Come on, please?
For dad and mom?
- For dad and mom?
- It's so you'll get better.
- It's so you'll get better.
- >> [Chuckles]
[Chuckles]
You know, it's funny.
- You know, it's funny.
- They give you pills that make
- They give you pills that make.
- You feel numb, and you don't
- You feel numb, and you don't.
- Want to do anything.
- Want to do anything.
- Then they get mad at you 'cause
- Then they get mad at you 'cause.
- You don't want to do anything,
- You don't want to do anything,
- so they try and give you more
- So they try and give you more.
- Pills.
- Pills.
- >> Well, sweetheart, we know
- >> Well, sweetheart, we know.
- The pills are not perfect.
- The pills are not perfect.
- They make you sluggish,
They make you sluggish,
but they also make you think
- but they also make you think.
- More clearly.
- More clearly.
- They do... they make you less
- They do... they make you less.
- Confused, don't they?
You know, there's a little
- >> you know, there's a little.
- Bird that plays in the yard
- Bird that plays in the yard.
- Every day.
Every day.
I think it's the same bird,
I think it's the same bird,
and I look at him.
- And I look at him.
- Sometimes I look at him so hard
Sometimes I look at him so hard.
I-I feel like.
- I-I feel like.
- I'm getting out of my body
I'm getting out of my body
and becoming that little bird.
- And becoming that little bird.
- And I feel so light
And I feel so light
and so happy.
And so happy.
And then I come back.
I don't like feeling confused.
- I don't like feeling confused.
- But I'd rather feel confused
- But I'd rather feel confused.
- Than feel nothing at all.
How can anybody be expected...
- >> how can anybody be expected...
- Look at this.
- Look at this.
- Look, I'm gonna have to give
Look, I'm gonna have to give
a whole complaint about why
a whole complaint about why
they send me a thing that won't
- they send me a thing that won't.
- Even... it's impossible.
Even... it's impossible.
Who can... who can even make this
- who can... who can even make this.
- Thing look decent?
- Thing look decent?
- How can I make it look decent?
- How can I make it look decent?
- How do they expect... who could...
What?
- >> What?
- >> What is it?
What is it?
Nikki's gone.
Sergeant, please try to
- >> sergeant, please try to.
- Understand my position.
Understand my position.
My daughter is mentally ill.
- My daughter is mentally ill.
- She's out wandering the streets
- She's out wandering the streets.
- Alone.
- Alone.
- She could be raped.
- She could be raped.
- Or she could be killed
- Or she could be killed.
- For the few dollars she has
- For the few dollars she has.
- In her purse!
- In her purse!
- All right, well, sure, we'll
- All right, well, sure, we'll.
- Call you if any of those things
- Call you if any of those things.
- Happen.
- Happen.
- Thanks a lot!
- Thanks a lot!
- >> Dave, come on.
- >> Dave, come on.
- Come on, Dave.
- Come on, Dave.
- We're gonna look for her
- We're gonna look for her.
- Ourselves.
You all right?
You all right?
You a student here?
- You a student here?
- I'm gonna have to ask you for
- I'm gonna have to ask you for.
- Your I.D. Or you're gonna have
- Your I.D. Or you're gonna have.
- To leave the premises.
I want to check the park.
- >> I want to check the park.
- On fifth.
- On fifth.
- >> No, I want to check these
- >> No, I want to check these.
- Alleys first.
- Alleys first.
- >> We'll catch 'em on the way
- >> We'll catch 'em on the way.
- Back.
- Back.
- >> Would you let me drive if you
- >> Would you let me drive if you.
- Are not going to look?
- Are not going to look?
- >> I am looking.
- >> I am looking.
- You think you're the only one
- You think you're the only one.
- Who cares?
- Who cares?
- >> Sometimes I wonder.
- >> Sometimes I wonder.
- >> You were the one who sent her
- >> You were the one who sent her.
- Away, not me.
- Away, not me.
- >> You know I can't handle her
- >> You know I can't handle her.
- Myself at home anymore,
- Myself at home anymore,
- you know that.
- You know that.
- And what help are you anyway?
- And what help are you anyway?
- >> I work, I work.
- >> I work, I work.
- You remember that, huh?
- You remember that, huh?
- To pay for all of this...
- To pay for all of this...
- Doctor's bills and medicine,
- Doctor's bills and medicine,
- boarding houses.
- Boarding houses.
- >> That's all it is to you,
- >> That's all it is to you,
- dollar signs.
- Dollar signs.
- >> You worry about the mortgage
- >> You worry about the mortgage.
- Payments and the collection
- Payments and the collection.
- Agencies.
- Agencies.
- >> I do.
- >> I do.
- I just don't talk about it all
- I just don't talk about it all.
- The time like you do.
- The time like you do.
- >> Lynn, I am drowning in this!
[Film projector whirring]
[Whirring stops]
[Crickets chirping]
[Dog barking in distance]
[Dog barking in distance]
Dave?
Dave?
Look.
- >> Look.
- "Nicole and Kenny,
"Nicole and Kenny,
first kiss, April 9th, 1979."
I never saw that.
- I never saw that.
- >> I don't think you were
- >> I don't think you were.
- Supposed to.
I remember when all the.
I remember when all the
little problems seemed so big.
- Little problems seemed so big.
- Boyfriends, braces,
Boyfriends, braces,
a broken collar bone...
- A broken collar bone...
- All the problems I could help
All the problems I could help
her solve.
- Her solve.
- Well, I can't help her solve
Well, I can't help her solve
this one.
- This one.
- I'm learning to accept that.
[Sighs]
[Sighs]
What I can't accept is that
- >> what I can't accept is that.
- I caused it.
- I caused it.
- >> Oh, Dave, what are you
- >> Oh, Dave, what are you.
- Saying?
- Saying?
- You know better than that.
- You know better than that.
- This is not our fault.
This is not our fault.
Not yours, mine.
Not yours, mine.
I had an aunt... aunt Lily.
- I had an aunt... aunt Lily.
- When I was a kid, my parents
- When I was a kid, my parents.
- Never let me see her,
Never let me see her,
but I heard stories about her,
but I heard stories about her,
about the way she was,
about the way she was,
and when I was 12 years old,
and when I was 12 years old,
she killed herself.
- She killed herself.
- I didn't know.
- I didn't know.
- I didn't know it could have
- I didn't know it could have.
- Anything to do with me
- Anything to do with me.
- Or the girls.
And look what I've done to her.
Dave, oh, Dave,
Dave, oh, Dave,
you didn't do this to her.
- You didn't do this to her.
- >> Yes, I did.
Come on, David.
Come on, David.
Come on, go with me.
- Come on, go with me.
- >> What for?
- >> What for?
- >> Maybe we'll learn something.
- >> Maybe we'll learn something.
- Maybe we'll get to talk to
- Maybe we'll get to talk to.
- People who are going through the
- People who are going through the.
- Same thing we're going through.
- Same thing we're going through.
- >> I already know all I want to
- >> I already know all I want to.
- Know about it.
- Know about it.
- I know all of the talking and
- I know all of the talking and.
- Soul-searching in the world
- Soul-searching in the world.
- Is not gonna bring Nikki back.
[Indistinct speech]
You look lost.
- >> You look lost.
- >> Oh, I am.
- >> Oh, I am.
- I'm looking for the family
- I'm looking for the family.
- Support group.
- Support group.
- >> Well, that's where
- >> Well, that's where.
- I'm headed, follow me.
- I'm headed, follow me.
- Oh, hi, I'm Mona.
Oh, hi, I'm Mona.
Lynn.
Lynn.
[Dish clinking]
She's been gone for over a week.
- She's been gone for over a week.
- >> I know so many families
- >> I know so many families.
- In the same situation.
- In the same situation.
- >> You do?
- >> You do?
- >> Yes, unfortunately.
- >> Yes, unfortunately.
- About 1/3 of the men and
- About 1/3 of the men and.
- 2/3 of the women in the streets
- 2/3 of the women in the streets.
- Are schizophrenic.
- Are schizophrenic.
- They call it
- They call it.
- Deinstitutionalization.
[Crowd murmuring]
You ate it; You got to pay
- >> you ate it; You got to pay.
- For it.
- For it.
- >> I can eat in the dining hall
- >> I can eat in the dining hall.
- Anytime I want.
- Anytime I want.
- It's part of my tuition.
- It's part of my tuition.
- >> The lights are on,
The lights are on,
but nobody's home.
- But nobody's home.
- >> And you think this was good?
And you think this was good?
You ate two plates full.
You ate two plates full.
Hold on, hold on, young lady!
- >> Hold on, hold on, young lady!
- >> All right, come on, come on,
- >> All right, come on, come on,
- keep it moving.
Keep it moving.
Let's go.
Can you tell me your name?
Can you tell me your name?
It's just that I can't think.
- >> It's just that I can't think.
- It's too much.
It's too much.
It's filling my head.
- It's filling my head.
- >> Do you know why you're here?
No.
- >> No.
- >> You don't have to be afraid.
You don't have to be afraid.
You're safe now.
- You're safe now.
- Can you tell me where you live?
- Can you tell me where you live?
- >> I just... I can't think.
I just... I can't think.
It's just... it's too fast.
- It's just... it's too fast.
- >> It's all right.
It's all right.
It's all right.
- It's all right.
- Just think one thought
- Just think one thought.
- At a time.
Think about your mother.
- Think about your mother.
- Hear her calling your name.
What's she calling you?
Nikki.
Nikki.
Nikki.
After speaking with your
- >> after speaking with your.
- Doctor, we put her back on her
- Doctor, we put her back on her.
- Medication and her condition
- Medication and her condition.
- Improved.
- Improved.
- She's much better than when she
- She's much better than when she.
- Arrived.
- Arrived.
- >> Will she remain stable now?
- >> Will she remain stable now?
- >> I can't promise you that.
- >> I can't promise you that.
- Frankly speaking, it's anybody's
- Frankly speaking, it's anybody's.
- Guess.
- Guess.
- But she is safe now, and she's
- But she is safe now, and she's.
- Off the street.
- Off the street.
- Being arrested is a blessing
- Being arrested is a blessing.
- In disguise.
- In disguise.
- Some parents pray for that.
- Some parents pray for that.
- >> Is she free to go?
- >> Is she free to go?
- >> Yes, they dropped
Yes, they dropped
the charges.
Hiya.
- >> Hiya.
- >> Almost dry, look how much
- >> Almost dry, look how much.
- Better you look already.
Better you look already.
I bet you feel better too.
- I bet you feel better too.
- I know how you always like your
I know how you always like your
hair clean and fresh.
Hair clean and fresh.
I do.
Hi, lis.
Hi, lis.
Oh, hi, Nikki.
I don't know how you can just.
- >> I don't know how you can just.
- Fall into bed without saying
- Fall into bed without saying.
- A word to her.
A word to her.
I'm tired.
- >> I'm tired.
- >> You were the same way
- >> You were the same way.
- In the car.
- In the car.
- She has feelings, you know.
- She has feelings, you know.
- >> She doesn't know
- >> She doesn't know.
- The difference.
- The difference.
- >> She does.
- >> She does.
- She does know the difference.
She does know the difference.
She knows when someone's
- she knows when someone's.
- Reaching out to her.
- Reaching out to her.
- She just has a problem reaching
She just has a problem reaching
back, that's all,
back, that's all,
but not as much as you do.
- But not as much as you do.
- >> If you're through now,
- >> If you're through now,
- shut off the light so I can get
- Shut off the light so I can get.
- Some sleep.
[Lamp clicks off]
[Lamp clicks off]
[Scoffs]
[Scoffs]
You know, if you want to keep
- you know, if you want to keep.
- Blaming yourself for this,
Blaming yourself for this,
against all reason, you can.
- Against all reason, you can.
- But in the end, Dave, it's just
- But in the end, Dave, it's just.
- Another way of running away from
- Another way of running away from.
- The problem.
[Dog barking in distance]
Mom, I'm home.
- >> Mom, I'm home.
- >> In the kitchen, lis.
[Knock on door]
- [Knock on door]
- Lis?
Lis?
Hi, mom.
- >> Hi, mom.
- >> Why didn't you tell me you'd
- >> Why didn't you tell me you'd.
- Been admitted to Rochester?
- Been admitted to Rochester?
- This is just wonderful.
- This is just wonderful.
- I'm so proud of you.
- I'm so proud of you.
- Oh, good going,
Oh, good going,
aren't you excited?
- Aren't you excited?
- What's the matter?
- What's the matter?
- >> I don't think I'm gonna go.
- >> I don't think I'm gonna go.
- >> What do you mean?
- >> What do you mean?
- Why not?
- Why not?
- >> I know how worried you and
- >> I know how worried you and.
- Dad are about money.
- Dad are about money.
- I don't want to add to your
- I don't want to add to your.
- Burden.
Burden.
Oh, that is so like you.
Thank you, sweetheart,
- thank you, sweetheart,
- but you know what,
- But you know what,
- let dad and me worry about the
- Let dad and me worry about the.
- Money.
- Money.
- >> No.
- >> No.
- >> Yes, yes, your only
- >> Yes, yes, your only.
- Obligation is to get in there
- Obligation is to get in there.
- And just develop your talent
- And just develop your talent.
- And your wonderful music...
- And your wonderful music...
- >> no.
- >> No.
- >> Yes!
- >> Yes!
- >> No, I've made the decision.
- >> No, I've made the decision.
- >> But it's not your decision
- >> But it's not your decision.
- To make, Lisa.
- To make, Lisa.
- You're going to Rochester,
- You're going to Rochester,
- that's it.
- That's it.
- >> It's my life.
- >> It's my life.
- >> Yes, and you're gonna have
- >> Yes, and you're gonna have.
- A wonderful life.
- A wonderful life.
- A wonderful life, you hear me?
- A wonderful life, you hear me?
- I know what your music means to
- I know what your music means to.
- You.
- You.
- I know what it means to me.
- I know what it means to me.
- The lessons, the time,
- The lessons, the time,
- the effort, the... Lisa, I won't
- The effort, the... Lisa, I won't.
- Allow you to throw away your
- Allow you to throw away your.
- Future.
- Future.
- >> What future?
What future?
To end up like Nikki?
To end up like Nikki?
What is the point?
What is the point?
Why bother?
Honey, Lisa, this isn't gonna
- >> honey, Lisa, this isn't gonna.
- Happen to you.
- Happen to you.
- >> It could happen to me, mom.
- >> It could happen to me, mom.
- The neighbors treat me like it
- The neighbors treat me like it.
- Already happened.
- Already happened.
- They won't even let me babysit
- They won't even let me babysit.
- Their kids anymore.
- Their kids anymore.
- >> Because they're ignorant.
- >> Because they're ignorant.
- They're ignorant frightened
- They're ignorant frightened.
- People.
- People.
- >> But maybe it's true, mom.
- >> But maybe it's true, mom.
- I mean, this could happen to me.
- I mean, this could happen to me.
- It happened to Nikki.
- It happened to Nikki.
- It's genetic.
- It's genetic.
- This could happen to me
- This could happen to me.
- Or my children.
- Or my children.
- >> But the chances are so slim,
- >> But the chances are so slim,
- and besides, you can't live your
- And besides, you can't live your.
- Life like that.
- Life like that.
- You cannot give up something
- You cannot give up something.
- That you have always wanted for
- That you have always wanted for.
- Fear of something that may
- Fear of something that may.
- Never ever happen.
- Never ever happen.
- You can't do that.
- You can't do that.
- Remember what Nikki's always
- Remember what Nikki's always.
- Said about making her models?
- Said about making her models?
- You know, she used to say that
- You know, she used to say that.
- A building is built
A building is built
idea by idea.
- Idea by idea.
- That's how you build a life,
That's how you build a life,
moment by moment.
Moment by moment.
Now, see, this is a wonderful
- now, see, this is a wonderful.
- Moment in your life.
- Moment in your life.
- So don't miss it.
So don't miss it.
Take it, Lisa, please.
Yay, that's my girl.
Yay, that's my girl.
Oh, that is my girl.
Isn't Nikki eating with US?
- >> Isn't Nikki eating with US?
- >> She said she wanted to take
- >> She said she wanted to take.
- A nap about an hour ago.
A nap about an hour ago.
I don't want to wake her.
- I don't want to wake her.
- >> I'll check, see if she's up.
[Knock on door]
[Knock on door]
Nikki?
Nikki.
I love you.
Lynn!
It wasn't an accident.
- >> It wasn't an accident.
- The voices didn't say to do it.
- The voices didn't say to do it.
- I said it.
I said it.
I decided.
- I decided.
- I wanted to get away from it.
- I wanted to get away from it.
- I didn't want to hear
- I didn't want to hear.
- The voices anymore,
- The voices anymore,
- have those thoughts in my brain.
- Have those thoughts in my brain.
- I just wanted it to be quiet,
I just wanted it to be quiet,
peaceful, and I did it.
My mom, my dad, and lis,
my mom, my dad, and lis,
I knew I was hurting them and
- I knew I was hurting them and.
- I wanted to stop.
- I wanted to stop.
- I was thinking clearly.
- I was thinking clearly.
- I wanted it to stop before it
I wanted it to stop before it
got bad again,
got bad again,
and then I woke up.
- And then I woke up.
- They looked so sad, and I knew
- They looked so sad, and I knew.
- If I had died, it would
If I had died, it would
hurt them more than if I lived.
How do you feel now, Nikki?
- >> How do you feel now, Nikki?
- >> I feel all right.
- >> I feel all right.
- A little tired from
A little tired from
the medicine.
The medicine.
I'm depressed, and I think
- I'm depressed, and I think.
- I understand better now.
What is it?
- >> What is it?
- >> The voices, I just wish
The voices, I just wish
the voices would go away.
The voices would go away.
Of course you do.
- >> Of course you do.
- >> Sometimes I think about
Sometimes I think about
the things I used to do.
The things I used to do.
Used to be able to do.
I understand.
- >> I understand.
- You'll do different things,
- You'll do different things,
- new things.
- New things.
- Things to make you happy,
- Things to make you happy,
- you will.
Dave.
Dave.
Honey.
Honey.
Just leave me alone.
- >> Just leave me alone.
- Please.
How am I supposed to feed her?
- How am I supposed to feed her?
- >> There is a refrigerator
- >> There is a refrigerator.
- Full of food.
Full of food.
Challenge yourself.
What about her pills?
What about her pills?
Lisa knows.
- >> Lisa knows.
- >> Why don't you just stay here
- >> Why don't you just stay here.
- And stop running around on
- And stop running around on.
- Another wild goose chase?
- Another wild goose chase?
- >> Why don't you stay home for
- >> Why don't you stay home for.
- A change?
- A change?
- You won't go with me.
- You won't go with me.
- You don't want to take care
- You don't want to take care.
- Of Nikki.
- Of Nikki.
- What do you want, Dave?
- What do you want, Dave?
- Don't you think it's time you
- Don't you think it's time you.
- Made that decision?
- Made that decision?
- Look, good or bad, this is the
- Look, good or bad, this is the.
- Only family you've got,
- Only family you've got,
- and while you're deciding, while
- And while you're deciding, while.
- You're thinking over what it is
- You're thinking over what it is.
- That you want to do, I will be
- That you want to do, I will be.
- Doing everything possible to
- Doing everything possible to.
- Make a decent life for our
- Make a decent life for our.
- Daughter.
- Daughter.
- And I'll be damned if you
- And I'll be damned if you.
- Or anybody else'll talk me
- Or anybody else'll talk me.
- Out of that.
[Engine turns over]
[Engine turns over]
[Tires squealing]
And this is?
- And this is?
- >> This is our main activity
- >> This is our main activity.
- Room.
- Room.
- >> It's wonderful.
- >> It's wonderful.
- This is the best place I've
- This is the best place I've.
- Seen.
- Seen.
- >> I don't want to get your
- >> I don't want to get your.
- Hopes up about accepting her
- Hopes up about accepting her.
- Soon.
- Soon.
- We have a very long waiting list
- We have a very long waiting list.
- Here.
- Here.
- >> Oh, well, are there other
- >> Oh, well, are there other.
- Centers like this?
Centers like this?
Very few.
- >> Very few.
- The funding simply
- The funding simply.
- Isn't available,
- Isn't available,
- and those that do exist face
- And those that do exist face.
- The same problems we do.
- The same problems we do.
- There just aren't enough beds.
- There just aren't enough beds.
- I know you worry about your
- I know you worry about your.
- Daughter and probably feel
- Daughter and probably feel.
- Guilty about not being able
- Guilty about not being able.
- To keep her at home,
- To keep her at home,
- but you shouldn't.
- But you shouldn't.
- It's a natural progression.
- It's a natural progression.
- A child... even a sick child...
- A child... even a sick child...
- Needs to leave the nest and find
- Needs to leave the nest and find.
- A peer group, social interests,
- A peer group, social interests,
- an occupation.
- An occupation.
- Here, people with schizophrenia
- Here, people with schizophrenia.
- Can do all those things
- Can do all those things.
- In a protective environment.
- In a protective environment.
- >> I wonder, Gary, you know,
- >> I wonder, Gary, you know,
- if it's good for her to be with
- If it's good for her to be with.
- Other people with problems.
- Other people with problems.
- Won't it just make her worse?
- Won't it just make her worse?
- >> What we've found is that
- >> What we've found is that.
- The healthier patients help
- The healthier patients help.
- The more dysfunctional patients.
- The more dysfunctional patients.
- It doesn't pull them down.
- It doesn't pull them down.
- It's good for them.
- It's good for them.
- It makes them feel useful.
- It makes them feel useful.
- It builds their confidence,
- It builds their confidence,
- gives them an opportunity
- Gives them an opportunity.
- To care for someone.
- To care for someone.
- To use emotional muscles that
- To use emotional muscles that.
- May have atrophied during their
- May have atrophied during their.
- Own illness.
Can I help?
- >> Can I help?
- >> No, that's all right.
- >> No, that's all right.
- Lisa will be home soon.
Nikki, wait.
- Nikki, wait.
- You want to help me
You want to help me
with the salad?
With the salad?
Okay.
Everybody starts out working
- >> everybody starts out working.
- Here at the house, and then they
- Here at the house, and then they.
- Move up.
- Move up.
- >> You mean to jobs outside
- >> You mean to jobs outside.
- The center?
- The center?
- >> Yes, that's the goal.
- >> Yes, that's the goal.
- >> Oh.
- >> Oh.
- What kind of jobs
- What kind of jobs.
- Do they get?
- Do they get?
- >> Well, we have a mechanic,
- >> Well, we have a mechanic,
- a sales clerk, a bank teller.
- A sales clerk, a bank teller.
- Then there's my job, and I'm
- Then there's my job, and I'm.
- Planning to keep it for a while.
- Planning to keep it for a while.
- >> How long have you been here?
- >> How long have you been here?
- >> Two years, but I've been
Two years, but I've been
schizophrenic for ten.
- Schizophrenic for ten.
- Are you surprised?
Are you surprised?
No, no, no.
No, no, no.
It works every time.
[Plate shattering]
- [Plate shattering]
- >> It doesn't matter.
It doesn't matter.
No, we have plenty of plates.
- No, we have plenty of plates.
- >> No, I break everything.
- >> No, I break everything.
- I can't do anything right
- I can't do anything right.
- Anymore.
Anymore.
Honey, that's not true.
- >> Honey, that's not true.
- You help me.
- You help me.
- You help me a lot.
You help me a lot.
No, I mess everything up.
- >> No, I mess everything up.
- >> No, baby, you make everything
- >> No, baby, you make everything.
- Right.
- Right.
- When you were away, I missed you
- When you were away, I missed you.
- So much.
So much.
I almost stopped.
- I almost stopped.
- I was so sad.
Just being with you
just being with you
makes me happy.
Makes me happy.
You're my little girl,
- you're my little girl,
- and I-I really love you.
I don't want to be sick.
- >> I don't want to be sick.
- Anymore.
For eight years,
- >> for eight years,
- I went through the cycle.
- I went through the cycle.
- I'd live at home until my family
- I'd live at home until my family.
- Couldn't handle the pressure
- Couldn't handle the pressure.
- Anymore.
- Anymore.
- Then I'd go to a board and care.
- Then I'd go to a board and care.
- After a while, I'd have a
- After a while, I'd have a.
- Crisis, end up in the hospital,
- Crisis, end up in the hospital,
- get drugged up real heavy and
- Get drugged up real heavy and.
- Wind up back at home until
- Wind up back at home until.
- My family couldn't handle
- My family couldn't handle.
- The pressure anymore,
- The pressure anymore,
- over and over.
- Over and over.
- Then I came here.
Then I came here.
See, Nicole could...
- >> see, Nicole could...
- Nicole could be like you.
- Nicole could be like you.
- >> It can take years to get into
- >> It can take years to get into.
- A place like this and even
- A place like this and even.
- Longer to turn a life around,
Longer to turn a life around,
but it can happen.
But it can happen.
[Door opens]
- [Door opens]
- >> I'm back!
I'm back!
[Door closes]
[Door closes]
Dave?
Dave?
[Dog barking in distance]
Mmm, this is good.
- >> Mmm, this is good.
- >> Why, 'cause you made it?
Why, 'cause you made it?
Hi, honey.
- >> Hi, honey.
- >> Hey.
- >> Hey.
- >> Hey, mom.
- >> Hey, mom.
- >> Hi, mom, welcome home.
- >> Hi, mom, welcome home.
- >> You hungry?
- >> You hungry?
- >> I was, but I lost my appetite
- >> I was, but I lost my appetite.
- As I passed through the kitchen.
- As I passed through the kitchen.
- >> Oh, that.
- >> Oh, that.
- >> Oh, we can clean that up.
- >> Oh, we can clean that up.
- >> No, no, no, just don't move.
- >> No, no, no, just don't move.
- Okay?
Okay?
Please, I will be right back.
- Please, I will be right back.
- >> Hold on.
I'll get it. I'll get it.
Thanks.
- >> Thanks.
- >> How was the center?
How was the center?
Promising, but frustrating.
How so?
I saw some young people.
I saw some young people
today, some who were
- today, some who were.
- As seriously ill as Nikki,
- As seriously ill as Nikki,
- who seemed to be finding some
- Who seemed to be finding some.
- Happiness, some fulfillment
Happiness, some fulfillment
in their lives.
- In their lives.
- I know Nikki will never have
- I know Nikki will never have.
- The future she might've had,
The future she might've had,
but she can have a future.
- But she can have a future.
- I saw that today.
Then we'll make sure
- >> then we'll make sure.
- She gets in.
- She gets in.
- >> That's the frustrating part.
- >> That's the frustrating part.
- The waiting list is years long,
- The waiting list is years long,
- and there's no guarantee,
- And there's no guarantee,
- even then.
Even then.
Years?
When I think back over what
- >> when I think back over what.
- We've been through this past
- We've been through this past.
- Eight months...
It won't be so rough.
It won't be so rough.
We'll handle it.
We'll handle it.
The two of US.
Go ahead.
- Go ahead.
- >> Okay, good, girls, just stay
- >> Okay, good, girls, just stay.
- Right where you are.
Right where you are.
Act natural.
- Act natural.
- No, Lisa, don't wave, honey.
No, Lisa, don't wave, honey.
Good, yeah, great.
Good, yeah, great.
Now, come on out.
That's nice.
Ah, there they are.
Ah, there they are.
Good, lis.
Aw, look at those three.
Now, you.
- >> Now, you.
- >> Oh.
Oh.
Right, okay.
Let's get him.
- >> Let's get him.
- >> Uh, uh, uh!
- >> Uh, uh, uh!
- Okay, you go, please.
Okay, you go, please.
Come on, come on!
I wish you two.
- >> I wish you two.
- Wouldn't do that.
- Wouldn't do that.
- It makes me feel so fat.
- It makes me feel so fat.
- >> Oh, don't.
- >> Oh, don't.
- It's just an excuse
- It's just an excuse.
- To come back and eat
- To come back and eat.
- A 2,000-calorie breakfast.
- A 2,000-calorie breakfast.
- >> How you doing, Kenny?
- >> How you doing, Kenny?
- >> What's happening, Nikki?
- >> What's happening, Nikki?
- >> When's the big day?
- >> When's the big day?
- >> August 20th.
- >> August 20th.
- You gonna be there
- You gonna be there.
- To give me away?
- To give me away?
- >> Are you kidding?
- >> Are you kidding?
- I have a big scene planned for
- I have a big scene planned for.
- The "speak now or forever hold"
- The "speak now or forever hold.
- Your peace" part.
"Your peace" part.
[Laughter]
- [Laughter]
- >> Please, don't joke about it.
- >> Please, don't joke about it.
- I have this nightmare that all
- I have this nightmare that all.
- His old girlfriends picketed
- His old girlfriends picketed.
- The church.
- The church.
- >> Where you guys off to?
- >> Where you guys off to?
- >> We're going to pick up Sarah,
- >> We're going to pick up Sarah,
- and we're going to choose
- And we're going to choose.
- A silver pattern.
- A silver pattern.
- Kenny and Sarah insisted that
- Kenny and Sarah insisted that.
- I come.
- I come.
- >> Uh-huh, oh, got to go.
- >> Uh-huh, oh, got to go.
- >> I heard that.
- >> I heard that.
- >> Bye.
- >> Bye.
- >> Bye.
- >> Bye.
- >> Come on, pick 'em up
- >> Come on, pick 'em up.
- And put 'em down.
[Horn honks]
- [Horn honks]
- Nicole!
- Nicole!
- Nikki, that car...
Nikki, that car...
You almost got hit.
- You almost got hit.
- >> I guess I didn't see it.
- >> I guess I didn't see it.
- >> Honey, be careful please,
- >> Honey, be careful please,
- huh?
Huh?
Come on.
- Come on.
- >> Think we're making too much
- >> Think we're making too much.
- Food?
- Food?
- >> Nah.
- >> Nah.
- Listen, it's good to eat a big
- Listen, it's good to eat a big.
- Hearty breakfast once in
- Hearty breakfast once in.
- A while.
- A while.
- I bet you don't get to do
- I bet you don't get to do.
- That too often at school.
- That too often at school.
- >> No, only when I stay
- >> No, only when I stay.
- At Jeff's.
- At Jeff's.
- He makes these huge midwestern
- He makes these huge midwestern.
- Feasts.
I think I just blundered into
- I think I just blundered into.
- One of those forbidden topics.
- One of those forbidden topics.
- >> Look, I'm hip, I'm today,
- >> look, I'm hip, I'm today,
- I'm now, I'm '80s.
- I'm now, I'm '80s.
- I'm also still your mother.
- I'm also still your mother.
- So I reserve the right to be
- So I reserve the right to be.
- Totally irrational about
- Totally irrational about.
- Some matters.
- Some matters.
- >> [Scoffs]
- >> [Scoffs]
- And yet you quite rationally
- And yet you quite rationally.
- Advised Helen boardman
- Advised Helen boardman.
- Not to overreact
- Not to overreact.
- When Kenny wanted to move in
- When Kenny wanted to move in.
- With Sarah.
- With Sarah.
- >> That's completely different.
- >> That's completely different.
- >> Why, because he's a guy
- >> Why, because he's a guy.
- And I'm a girl?
- And I'm a girl?
- >> No, because he's her kid;
- >> No, because he's her kid;
- you're mine.
[Keyboard keys clacking]
What dad?
- >> What dad?
- >> What what?
- >> What what?
- >> Didn't you call me?
- >> Didn't you call me?
- >> No.
No.
[Printer printing]
- [Printer printing]
- >> Oh, my god, it's alive.
- >> Oh, my god, it's alive.
- >> I just set up the modem.
- >> I just set up the modem.
- Now I'm connected with every
- Now I'm connected with every.
- Computerized buyer.
- Computerized buyer.
- They can call me up,
- They can call me up,
- place their orders
- Place their orders.
- Directly through the terminal,
- Directly through the terminal,
- even if I'm not here.
- Even if I'm not here.
- >> More time to play hooky, huh?
- >> More time to play hooky, huh?
- >> Yeah.
Yeah.
[Printer printing]
Speaking of which, I'd like
- speaking of which, I'd like.
- To be on the road within
- To be on the road within.
- An hour or two.
An hour or two.
Breakfast almost ready?
- Breakfast almost ready?
- Nikki.
- Nikki.
- >> Huh?
- >> Huh?
- >> Is breakfast almost ready?
- >> Is breakfast almost ready?
- I'd like to get to the lake
- I'd like to get to the lake.
- Before canoe rush hour.
- Before canoe rush hour.
- >> Yeah, I'm just gonna go
- >> Yeah, I'm just gonna go.
- Wake up lis.
Wake up lis.
Good luck.
Lisa.
Come on, time to wake up and
- come on, time to wake up and.
- Feed your little face.
[Clarinet squeaking loudly]
- [Clarinet squeaking loudly]
- >> Ugh!
- >> Ugh!
- >> Oh, excuse me, I didn't know
- >> Oh, excuse me, I didn't know.
- You were asleep.
- You were asleep.
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> No, please, don't beg.
- >> No, please, don't beg.
- Never do encores.
Never do encores.
Oh, my god, I am so worn out
- >> oh, my god, I am so worn out.
- From last night.
- From last night.
- >> From babysitting?
- >> From babysitting?
- >> From babysitting two future
- >> From babysitting two future.
- Hit men for the mob.
- Hit men for the mob.
- I can't stand those kids.
- I can't stand those kids.
- >> Well, bear your cross over
- >> Well, bear your cross over.
- To the bathroom.
- To the bathroom.
- Mom and dad have a whole day
- Mom and dad have a whole day.
- In store for US at the lake.
Hey, handsome.
- >> Hey, handsome.
- Aww, Dave, honey, don't wave
- Aww, Dave, honey, don't wave.
- In every shot.
- In every shot.
- I've got sound with this new
- I've got sound with this new.
- Camera.
- Camera.
- You can talk now.
- You can talk now.
- >> What should I say?
- >> What should I say?
- >> Oh, anything.
- >> Oh, anything.
- Just be yourself.
- Just be yourself.
- Come on, share your barbecuing
- Come on, share your barbecuing.
- Secrets with the world.
- Secrets with the world.
- >> Well, I only have one secret:
- >> Well, I only have one secret:
- Don't burn them.
Don't burn them.
All right, okay?
- All right, okay?
- >> Wait, wait, wait, come on,
- >> Wait, wait, wait, come on,
- I got this one.
- I got this one.
- Give it to me, give it to me.
Give it to me, give it to me.
There we go.
- There we go.
- [Plays clarinet off-key]
- [Plays clarinet off-key]
- [Chuckling]
- [Chuckling]
- Thank you, I do have a natural
- Thank you, I do have a natural.
- Talent.
Talent.
Yes, it shows.
Yes, it shows.
[Plays clarinet melodically]
- [Plays clarinet melodically]
- >> Is that your audition piece
- >> Is that your audition piece.
- For Rochester?
- For Rochester?
- It's great.
It's great.
You nervous?
- You nervous?
- Don't be, you're a cinch
- Don't be, you're a cinch.
- To get in.
- To get in.
- >> Thanks.
- >> Thanks.
- >> I wish they'd take a picture;
I wish they'd take a picture;
It'd last longer.
- It'd last longer.
- >> Who, them?
- >> Who, them?
- >> They keep staring.
- >> They keep staring.
- >> I wish.
- >> I wish.
- The blond one is a babe.
Nikki, can I ask you something?
Nikki, can I ask you something?
Um, do you think that most girls
- um, do you think that most girls.
- Going into college have,
Going into college have,
you know, like, had, like,
you know, like, had, like,
a major sexual experience?
- A major sexual experience?
- >> It's not
- >> It's not.
- An entrance requirement
- An entrance requirement.
- If that's what you mean.
- If that's what you mean.
- >> I know, I just...
- >> I know, I just...
- I don't know, sometimes I just
- I don't know, sometimes I just.
- Feel like sexually retarded
- Feel like sexually retarded.
- Or something.
- Or something.
- Everybody I know has already
- Everybody I know has already.
- Done it.
- Done it.
- >> Well, don't believe
- >> Well, don't believe.
- Everything you hear,
- Everything you hear,
- and even if it is true,
- And even if it is true,
- don't worry.
- Don't worry.
- Who cares?
- Who cares?
- Just do what's best for you.
- Just do what's best for you.
- >> Karen did it with this
- >> Karen did it with this.
- Football player, and she said
- Football player, and she said.
- It was, like, terrible.
- It was, like, terrible.
- It didn't even last 30 seconds.
- It didn't even last 30 seconds.
- >> 30 seconds?
- >> 30 seconds?
- How romantic.
- How romantic.
- >> [Chuckles]
- >> [Chuckles]
- It's not that way
- It's not that way.
- With you and Jeff, is it?
- With you and Jeff, is it?
- >> And then,
- >> And then,
- and then you know what I do?
- And then you know what I do?
- I feed them
- I feed them.
- To my voracious daughters.
- To my voracious daughters.
- >> Oh, no, watch out,
- >> Oh, no, watch out,
- mom's wired for sound now too.
- Mom's wired for sound now too.
- >> Oh, great.
- >> Oh, great.
- >> Oh, dad, these look
- >> Oh, dad, these look.
- Delicious, mmm.
- Delicious, mmm.
- >> And good thing, too,
- >> And good thing, too,
- 'cause we're extremely
- 'Cause we're extremely.
- Voracious.
Voracious.
Aww, you guys.
Aww, you guys.
Come on, eat, eat.
That building is so beautiful,
- that building is so beautiful,
- almost makes me wish I was small
Almost makes me wish I was small
enough to live in there.
- Enough to live in there.
- Sweetheart, you got a long drive
- Sweetheart, you got a long drive.
- Ahead of you tomorrow
- Ahead of you tomorrow.
- Back to school.
- Back to school.
- Shouldn't you be getting to bed?
- Shouldn't you be getting to bed?
- >> Yeah, just wanted to finish
- >> Yeah, just wanted to finish.
- The detailing on this lobby
- The detailing on this lobby.
- Entrance.
- Entrance.
- You know, so many buildings,
- You know, so many buildings,
- you walk in and you get lost.
- You walk in and you get lost.
- But see here, the curve
- But see here, the curve.
- Of the walls kind of draws you
- Of the walls kind of draws you.
- Towards the receptionist,
- Towards the receptionist,
- and the dimensions are human.
- And the dimensions are human.
- You don't have to skulk in like
- You don't have to skulk in like.
- A rat down a narrow corridor.
- A rat down a narrow corridor.
- Get lost in a space that makes
- Get lost in a space that makes.
- You feel insignificant.
- You feel insignificant.
- I even have an arboretum, see?
- I even have an arboretum, see?
- Nature in the workspace.
- Nature in the workspace.
- >> Even without these little
- >> Even without these little.
- Trees, you deserve an a-plus
- Trees, you deserve an a-plus.
- For this.
- For this.
- >> Oh, it's not for class.
- >> Oh, it's not for class.
- The school of architecture
- The school of architecture.
- Sponsors a design contest
- Sponsors a design contest.
- Each year and undergraduates
- Each year and undergraduates.
- Are allowed to submit.
- Are allowed to submit.
- >> What's the prize?
- >> What's the prize?
- >> 500 bucks, some notoriety,
- >> 500 bucks, some notoriety,
- a feather in my cap.
A feather in my cap.
Another one.
- >> Another one.
- Good night, pocahontas.
- Good night, pocahontas.
- Save me a penthouse suite.
Do I have to be a book to earn
- do I have to be a book to earn.
- A place in this bed?
A place in this bed?
Oh, I'm sorry, honey.
- >> Oh, I'm sorry, honey.
- >> You know, Edison already
- >> You know, Edison already.
- Invented the camera.
- Invented the camera.
- All you have to do is use it.
- All you have to do is use it.
- >> I have to use it well,
- >> I have to use it well,
- or people won't pay me
- Or people won't pay me.
- For my work.
- For my work.
- >> You've been using it well
- >> You've been using it well.
- For years.
For years.
No, David, really, I'm good
- >> no, David, really, I'm good.
- At portraits, but I got a lot to
- At portraits, but I got a lot to.
- Learn about the video camera.
- Learn about the video camera.
- Oh, speaking of which, did you
- Oh, speaking of which, did you.
- Put the cost analysis program
- Put the cost analysis program.
- Into your computer?
- Into your computer?
- >> Why don't I get the terminal
- >> Why don't I get the terminal.
- And bring it back in here?
- And bring it back in here?
- Double check... there's a little
- Double check... there's a little.
- Room left on the edge
- Room left on the edge.
- Of the bed.
- Of the bed.
- >> Funny, but did you
- >> Funny, but did you.
- Or didn't you?
- Or didn't you?
- >> Yes, yes!
- >> Yes, yes!
- >> Thank you,
- >> Thank you,
- thank you very much.
- Thank you very much.
- >> What is this,
- >> What is this,
- a major corporation?
A major corporation?
Don't be silly.
- >> Don't be silly.
- I'm weeks away from that.
- I'm weeks away from that.
- No, this in the beginning is
- No, this in the beginning is.
- Just a part-time occupation.
- Just a part-time occupation.
- >> I thought I was your
- >> I thought I was your.
- Occupation.
Occupation.
You, my darling,
- >> you, my darling,
- are my hobby.
- Are my hobby.
- >> [Laughs]
- >> [Laughs]
- All right,
- All right,
- I didn't miss the meaning
- I didn't miss the meaning.
- For life passage here, did I?
- For life passage here, did I?
- >> Hmm?
- >> Hmm?
- >> I mean, all this flurry
- >> I mean, all this flurry.
- Wouldn't have anything to do
- Wouldn't have anything to do.
- With Nikki going back to school
- With Nikki going back to school.
- And Lisa's college applications,
- And Lisa's college applications,
- would it?
- Would it?
- >> No, no, no, no, no.
- >> No, no, no, no, no.
- Long ago, I resigned myself to
- Long ago, I resigned myself to.
- The fact that I would grow old
- The fact that I would grow old.
- And abandoned.
And abandoned.
Okay, that's it.
- >> Okay, that's it.
- >> That's what?
- >> That's what?
- Hey, David!
- Hey, David!
- >> I'm closing this branch of
- >> I'm closing this branch of.
- The library.
- The library.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- >> And then, I'm gonna give
- >> And then, I'm gonna give.
- A lonely old woman a memory to
- A lonely old woman a memory to.
- Carry with her into her twilight
- Carry with her into her twilight.
- Years.
Years.
[Chuckles]
- >> [Chuckles]
- What luck!
- What luck!
- [Laughter]
- [Laughter]
- Ah, there's books here.
I made you some sandwiches
- I made you some sandwiches.
- For the trip.
- For the trip.
- >> Mom, it's a two-hour drive.
- >> Mom, it's a two-hour drive.
- >> Yeah, but you might get
- >> Yeah, but you might get.
- Hungry...
- Hungry...
- >> or decide to open a snack
- >> Or decide to open a snack.
- Bar.
- Bar.
- >> Thank you.
Thank you.
Sure.
You drive carefully now.
- >> You drive carefully now.
- >> I will, dad.
I will, dad.
Bye.
- Bye.
- >> Call me, okay?
- >> Call me, okay?
- >> I will, and hey, forget
- >> I will, and hey, forget.
- About all that other stuff.
- About all that other stuff.
- Just concentrate on your
- Just concentrate on your.
- Audition, all right?
- Audition, all right?
- >> Uh, what other stuff?
Uh, what other stuff?
Both: Nothing.
- >> Both: Nothing.
- >> The reason there's so many
- >> The reason there's so many.
- Sandwiches is some of them are
- Sandwiches is some of them are.
- For Jeff.
- For Jeff.
- He likes egg salad, right?
- He likes egg salad, right?
- >> Yes, he loves egg salad.
- >> Yes, he loves egg salad.
- Thanks, mom.
- Thanks, mom.
- >> You're welcome.
- >> You're welcome.
- >> Bye.
Bye.
[Engine turns over]
[Murmured speech from students]
Do you think if spinoza had
- >> do you think if spinoza had.
- Known that he was gonna bore
- Known that he was gonna bore.
- Generations of college students
- Generations of college students.
- To death if he would've just
- To death if he would've just.
- Kept his big mouth shut?
Kept his big mouth shut?
Huh?
Huh?
Jeff, this stream.
- >> Jeff, this stream.
- Of consciousness studying just
- Of consciousness studying just.
- Isn't working for me.
- Isn't working for me.
- >> You're right.
- >> You're right.
- I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
Okay.
- >> Okay.
- Well, about time for a break,
- Well, about time for a break,
- isn't it?
- Isn't it?
- >> Come on, you've had two cups
- >> Come on, you've had two cups.
- Of coffee, and gone to
- Of coffee, and gone to.
- The bathroom three times
- The bathroom three times.
- In the last ten minutes.
- In the last ten minutes.
- >> I... I can't help it.
- >> I... I can't help it.
- It's the coffee.
- It's the coffee.
- >> Study.
Study.
Study.
Study.
[Sighs]
[Sighs]
You know, you're quite
- >> you know, you're quite.
- Beautiful when you're peevish
- Beautiful when you're peevish.
- And ill-tempered.
- And ill-tempered.
- >> Yeah, well, I know that.
- >> Yeah, well, I know that.
- Tell me something I don't know.
Well, I know that.
Well, I know that.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I know that too.
I know that too.
Yeah.
Yeah.
[Humming]
Okay, that's new.
- >> Okay, that's new.
- >> Where's Jenny?
Where's Jenny?
Why?
- >> Why?
- >> I just don't want her
- >> I just don't want her.
- Popping in on US, that's all.
So are you gonna stop by
- so are you gonna stop by.
- My place after class?
- My place after class?
- >> Yeah, but I got a lot of work
- >> Yeah, but I got a lot of work.
- To do.
- To do.
- I may have to pull
- I may have to pull.
- An all-nighter after last night.
- An all-nighter after last night.
- >> [Chuckles]
- >> [Chuckles]
- Guilt.
- Guilt.
- >> I'm gonna go get something
- >> I'm gonna go get something.
- To eat.
- To eat.
- I'll see you guys later.
- I'll see you guys later.
- >> I'll go with you.
I'll go with you.
Bye.
Yes?
- >> Yes?
- >> Well, if you're using
- >> Well, if you're using.
- Derivatives to solve
- Derivatives to solve.
- The problem and you're not
- The problem and you're not.
- Gonna use Pascal's theorem,
Gonna use Pascal's theorem,
then why do you need...
- Then why do you need...
- >> Why do you need what?
[Chuckles]
[Chuckles]
I am.
I am.
[Laughter]
Jeff, hurry up.
- Jeff, hurry up.
- Well, I don't know, she's...
- Well, I don't know, she's...
- She's packing now.
- She's packing now.
- >> Packing, what do you mean?
Nikki, what are you doing?
- Nikki, what are you doing?
- >> You know very well what I'm
- >> You know very well what I'm.
- Doing.
- Doing.
- >> Nikki...
- >> Nikki...
- >> shut up!
- >> Shut up!
- You think I don't know about
- You think I don't know about.
- You two.
- You two.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- >> I know everything.
- >> I know everything.
- >> What are you talking about?
- >> What are you talking about?
- >> They told me everything.
- >> They told me everything.
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> You disgust me!
- >> You disgust me!
- >> Wait, wait a minute.
- >> Wait, wait a minute.
- >> I don't know how I could have
- >> I don't know how I could have.
- Been so stupid to trust either
- Been so stupid to trust either.
- One of you.
- One of you.
- >> W... Nicole, wait.
- >> W... Nicole, wait.
- Nicole, stop!
- Nicole, stop!
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- Nikki!
- Nikki!
- >> You make me sick,
You make me sick,
both of you.
Honey, maybe it was just
- >> honey, maybe it was just.
- A friendly kiss.
- A friendly kiss.
- >> Oh, please.
- >> Oh, please.
- They've been doing a lot more
- They've been doing a lot more.
- Than kissing.
Than kissing.
I've heard all about it.
- I've heard all about it.
- >> Heard from whom?
- >> Heard from whom?
- >> I can't believe those guys.
- >> I can't believe those guys.
- I mean, how low.
- I mean, how low.
- >> Boy, this is a surprise.
Boy, this is a surprise.
It just doesn't sound like Jeff.
- It just doesn't sound like Jeff.
- >> Nikki, those are clean.
Nikki, those are clean.
I know.
- >> I know.
- Look, I just got to stay here
- Look, I just got to stay here.
- For a few days and get my head
- For a few days and get my head.
- Together.
- Together.
- I have to figure a few things
- I have to figure a few things.
- Out.
- Out.
- >> Of course, baby, yeah.
Of course, baby, yeah.
That's good.
That's good.
[Knock on door]
- [Knock on door]
- >> Don't you dare let him
- >> Don't you dare let him.
- In here.
- In here.
- >> Okay, I won't let him in,
- >> Okay, I won't let him in,
- Nikki, but he's standing there.
- Nikki, but he's standing there.
- At least let me have... I'll find
- At least let me have... I'll find.
- Out what he has to say.
- Out what he has to say.
- >> Nikki, I...
- >> Nikki, I...
- >> I can't let you in.
- >> I can't let you in.
- >> Why?
- >> Why?
- >> She won't see you.
- >> She won't see you.
- >> She won't talk to me?
What are you doing?
- >> What are you doing?
- >> Nothing.
Nicole!
Nicole!
Nikki!
Nikki!
Nikki, honey, what's the matter?
- Nikki, honey, what's the matter?
- >> Nothing.
- >> Nothing.
- Just needed to be alone.
- Just needed to be alone.
- >> Why didn't you answer me?
- >> Why didn't you answer me?
- >> Didn't hear you.
- >> Didn't hear you.
- >> Oh, well, I'm going out
- >> Oh, well, I'm going out.
- To pick up some blank cassettes.
- To pick up some blank cassettes.
- I thought you might like to come
I thought you might like to come
along.
- Along.
- Honey, you have to stop dwelling
- Honey, you have to stop dwelling.
- On this thing with Jeff.
On this thing with Jeff.
Yeah.
- >> Yeah.
- >> You know, we're having your
- >> You know, we're having your.
- Dad's sales rep dinner tonight.
- Dad's sales rep dinner tonight.
- Why don't you have dinner
- Why don't you have dinner.
- In your room if you don't want
- In your room if you don't want.
- To be with all those business
- To be with all those business.
- People?
- People?
- >> I don't mind.
I don't mind.
Good.
- >> Good.
- Anyway, a lot of the neighbors
- Anyway, a lot of the neighbors.
- Are coming.
- Are coming.
- You'll have someone to talk to.
[Laughter]
[Indistinct speech]
Oh, Nikki, you remember
- >> oh, Nikki, you remember.
- Karen, don't you?
- Karen, don't you?
- And this is Mrs. Linden.
- And this is Mrs. Linden.
- She moved in next door
- She moved in next door.
- To the boardmans.
- To the boardmans.
- >> Well, it's a pleasure
- >> Well, it's a pleasure.
- To meet you.
- To meet you.
- Lisa's told me all about you.
- Lisa's told me all about you.
- >> What did she say?
- >> What did she say?
- >> Oh, all good things,
- >> Oh, all good things,
- of course.
- Of course.
- You know, she babysits
You know, she babysits
my two little boys.
- My two little boys.
- >> Lisa hates your children.
Lisa hates your children.
[Chuckles]
- [Chuckles]
- >> She's kidding.
- >> She's kidding.
- She's kidding.
- She's kidding.
- >> Oh, hey, that's some sales
- >> Oh, hey, that's some sales.
- Pitch.
- Pitch.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- >> You're on
- >> You're on.
- For Kenny's wedding.
- For Kenny's wedding.
- >> Oh, really?
- >> Oh, really?
- >> Are you expensive?
- >> Are you expensive?
- >> I don't know,
- >> I don't know,
- you're my first customer.
- You're my first customer.
- Lynn glover,
Lynn glover,
chronicler of special events.
- Chronicler of special events.
- Hiya, baby.
- Hiya, baby.
- Hey, try the eggplant.
- Hey, try the eggplant.
- It worked this time.
It worked this time.
Hi, Nikki.
- >> Hi, Nikki.
- I thought she went back to
- I thought she went back to.
- School.
- School.
- >> Oh, she did, but she just
- >> Oh, she did, but she just.
- Drove back for the party.
- Drove back for the party.
- I think she's a little tired
- I think she's a little tired.
- From the trip.
- From the trip.
- You tired, sweetheart?
You tired, sweetheart?
[Echoing] You tired, sweetheart?
- [Echoing] You tired, sweetheart?
- >> Nikki, how could you do that
- >> Nikki, how could you do that.
- To me?
- To me?
- >> Oh, great, you're still here.
- >> Oh, great, you're still here.
- Come on, I want you to meet
- Come on, I want you to meet.
- Sarah.
- Sarah.
- Sarah...
Sarah...
[Overlapping voices echoing]
[Crashing and clattering]
For god's sake...
- >> for god's sake...
- >> you didn't think
- >> You didn't think.
- I'd find out, did you?
- I'd find out, did you?
- >> What in the world, Nikki!
- >> What in the world, Nikki!
- >> [Indistinct mumbling]
- >> [Indistinct mumbling]
- >> What are you doing, Nikki?
- >> What are you doing, Nikki?
- What are you doing?
- What are you doing?
- [Glass shattering]
- [Glass shattering]
- >> Nicole!
Nicole!
[Indistinct heated argument]
- [Indistinct heated argument]
- >> Dave, Dave!
- >> Dave, Dave!
- >> Nikki, Nikki.
- >> Nikki, Nikki.
- All right, get out!
- All right, get out!
- Go back, go back!
- Go back, go back!
- >> Nicole, what are you doing?
- >> Nicole, what are you doing?
- Come help me!
Come help me!
Let Nikki go!
- >> Let Nikki go!
- >> I'm not gonna let you do it!
- >> I'm not gonna let you do it!
- I'm not gonna let you...
- I'm not gonna let you...
- >> Nikki, baby...
- >> Nikki, baby...
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> Grab her, grab her, grab her!
- >> Grab her, grab her, grab her!
- >> No, let go of me, you...
- >> No, let go of me, you...
- Get off me!
- Get off me!
- Get away!
Get away!
Stop it, Nikki, look at me!
Stop it, Nikki, look at me!
Nikki, baby, don't.
- Nikki, baby, don't.
- >> Get off me!
Get off me!
[Screams]
- [Screams]
- >> Mom, don't hurt her.
- >> Mom, don't hurt her.
- >> [Screaming]
[Screaming]
Nikki, please!
- >> Nikki, please!
- >> Help me!
Help me!
[Indistinct screaming]
- [Indistinct screaming]
- >> Nikki, please.
- >> Nikki, please.
- Nikki, please.
- Nikki, please.
- Come on, honey, please.
- Come on, honey, please.
- >> What's going on, mom?
- >> What's going on, mom?
- >> We're taking her to
- >> We're taking her to.
- Emergency!
- Emergency!
- >> Please, please, darling,
- >> Please, please, darling,
- come on.
- Come on.
- >> Want you to stay here...
- >> Want you to stay here...
- >> no!
No!
Yes, please, honey.
- >> Yes, please, honey.
- >> Lynn, what can I do?
- >> Lynn, what can I do?
- >> Yes, stay with Lisa.
Yes, stay with Lisa.
Don't let her go.
Don't let her go.
[Screams]
- >> [Screams]
- >> Watch your head.
- >> Watch your head.
- >> Let me go.
- >> Let me go.
- >> Okay, okay.
- >> Okay, okay.
- >> Don't hurt me, don't hurt me.
- >> Don't hurt me, don't hurt me.
- >> Nobody's gonna hurt you.
- >> Nobody's gonna hurt you.
- >> Please, please, why do you
- >> Please, please, why do you.
- Want to hurt me?
Want to hurt me?
[Engine turns]
I have seen these symptoms.
- >> I have seen these symptoms.
- In many patients,
- In many patients,
- and I am telling you,
- And I am telling you,
- they indicate schizophrenia.
- They indicate schizophrenia.
- >> And I'm telling you that
- >> And I'm telling you that.
- My daughter does not go around
- My daughter does not go around.
- Talking to herself with
- Talking to herself with.
- Different voices.
- Different voices.
- >> No, Mr. Glover,
- >> No, Mr. Glover,
- what you're talking about
- What you're talking about.
- Is split personality.
- Is split personality.
- That's very rare behavior,
- That's very rare behavior,
- and despite what you've seen in
- And despite what you've seen in.
- Movies, that is not a symptom
- Movies, that is not a symptom.
- Of schizophrenia.
- Of schizophrenia.
- One of the major symptoms
- One of the major symptoms.
- Is hearing voices.
- Is hearing voices.
- Your daughter told me that
- Your daughter told me that.
- She heard voices coming from
- She heard voices coming from.
- Your computer.
- Your computer.
- >> The terminal is on
- >> The terminal is on.
- All the time.
- All the time.
- She could've heard the sound
- She could've heard the sound.
- Of the printer.
- Of the printer.
- >> Nicole has been under
- >> Nicole has been under.
- Tremendous pressure lately.
- Tremendous pressure lately.
- Really, a lot of stress.
- Really, a lot of stress.
- She and her boyfriend, Jeff,
- She and her boyfriend, Jeff,
- had a terrible argument.
- Had a terrible argument.
- She pushes herself real hard
- She pushes herself real hard.
- At school.
At school.
Doctor, never, never in her life
- doctor, never, never in her life.
- Has she ever behaved like
- Has she ever behaved like.
- She did tonight...
- She did tonight...
- Never.
- Never.
- >> Schizophrenic symptoms often
- >> Schizophrenic symptoms often.
- Occur quite suddenly
- Occur quite suddenly.
- And usually among young adults.
- And usually among young adults.
- >> That's quite a pitch, doc.
- >> That's quite a pitch, doc.
- What's the matter, you haven't
- What's the matter, you haven't.
- Made enough sales today?
- Made enough sales today?
- >> Please stop it, Dave.
- >> Please stop it, Dave.
- >> Mr. Glover, I do not need
- >> Mr. Glover, I do not need.
- Your daughter to be sick to make
- Your daughter to be sick to make.
- A decent living,
- A decent living,
- and I hope to god I'm wrong
- And I hope to god I'm wrong.
- About my diagnosis.
- About my diagnosis.
- >> You are.
- >> You are.
- >> Doctor, could it be drugs?
- >> Doctor, could it be drugs?
- >> Well, it's very unlikely.
- >> Well, it's very unlikely.
- The symptoms are pretty clear.
- The symptoms are pretty clear.
- But I would like to observe
- But I would like to observe.
- Nicole for a few days.
- Nicole for a few days.
- We're trying to find a bed.
- We're trying to find a bed.
- >> No way, she is out of here
- >> No way, she is out of here.
- Tonight.
- Tonight.
- >> Wait a minute, we're gonna
- >> Wait a minute, we're gonna.
- Talk about... David!
Talk about... David!
You're acting... Dave!
- You're acting... Dave!
- Can we at least talk about this?
- Can we at least talk about this?
- >> Enough talk, I'm taking her
- >> Enough talk, I'm taking her.
- Home.
- Home.
- >> Mr. Glover, your daughter did
- >> Mr. Glover, your daughter did.
- Bodily harm to herself tonight.
- Bodily harm to herself tonight.
- I can keep her here without your
- I can keep her here without your.
- Permission.
Permission.
Try it.
Nikki...
Nicole?
Nicole?
Mom.
Mom.
Yes, yes, we're here.
Yes, yes, we're here.
We're both here.
We're both here.
You're fine now.
- You're fine now.
- Everything's gonna be fine,
- Everything's gonna be fine,
- baby.
I want to go home.
I want to go home.
Yes.
Yes.
Yes, baby.
Yes.
- Yes.
- We're all going home now.
I'll release her, but only.
- >> I'll release her, but only.
- If you agree to give her
- If you agree to give her.
- The medication I prescribe,
- The medication I prescribe,
- and you guarantee me
- And you guarantee me.
- That she will get
That she will get
the correct follow-up care.
What happened?
- >> What happened?
- Is she all right?
- Is she all right?
- >> Yes, Lisa, she's much better,
- >> Yes, Lisa, she's much better,
- yeah.
Why didn't you call me?
- >> Why didn't you call me?
- I was so worried.
- I was so worried.
- >> I know, sweetheart.
- >> I know, sweetheart.
- We just had our hands full.
- We just had our hands full.
- We couldn't get to a phone,
- We couldn't get to a phone,
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.
- >> Nikki, are you all right?
- >> Nikki, are you all right?
- What is the matter with her?
- What is the matter with her?
- >> Nothing's the matter with
- >> Nothing's the matter with.
- Her, she's just sedated.
- Her, she's just sedated.
- >> She looks weird.
- >> She looks weird.
- >> Don't ever let me hear you
- >> Don't ever let me hear you.
- Say that again!
I'm so sorry, mom.
- >> I'm so sorry, mom.
- >> Oh, come on, honey.
- >> Oh, come on, honey.
- It's all right.
- It's all right.
- >> I'm sorry.
- >> I'm sorry.
- >> I know, I know,
- >> I know, I know,
- but it's all over.
But it's all over.
It's all over.
- It's all over.
- >> I don't want to go back
- >> I don't want to go back.
- There.
- There.
- >> You're home.
- >> You're home.
- You're gonna stay right here.
You're gonna stay right here.
You have to get some rest, okay?
- You have to get some rest, okay?
- We're gonna have you all better
- We're gonna have you all better.
- Before you know it.
Before you know it.
Aww, don't cry, sweetheart.
Aww, don't cry, sweetheart.
I know, would you like US
- I know, would you like US.
- To stay in the room with you
- To stay in the room with you.
- For a little while?
For a little while?
Hmm?
- Hmm?
- Okay, now go to sleep.
[Knock on door]
Sorry I woke you.
Sorry I woke you.
No, that's all right.
No, that's all right.
I'm in and out.
- I'm in and out.
- Hear every sound,
- Hear every sound,
- heard the paperboy throw the
- Heard the paperboy throw the.
- Paper for the last three blocks.
Nikki, I was so scared.
Nikki, I was so scared.
I know, me too.
I know, me too.
I don't know what happened.
- I don't know what happened.
- Just suddenly all the voices
- Just suddenly all the voices.
- In the living room got so loud.
- In the living room got so loud.
- So loud that I couldn't
- So loud that I couldn't.
- Understand what anybody
- Understand what anybody.
- Was saying.
Was saying.
People would talk to me,
- people would talk to me,
- and I know I was supposed
- And I know I was supposed.
- To talk back, but I couldn't,
- To talk back, but I couldn't,
- 'cause I couldn't
'Cause I couldn't
understand them.
Understand them.
So I panicked,
so I panicked,
but I couldn't get away
- but I couldn't get away.
- From the voices.
- From the voices.
- They wouldn't go away.
But I'm fine now, really.
- But I'm fine now, really.
- >> Really?
Really?
Yeah.
- >> Yeah.
- Look, I know what the doctor
- Look, I know what the doctor.
- Said to mom and dad, but it's
- Said to mom and dad, but it's.
- Not true.
- Not true.
- >> What's that?
- >> What's that?
- >> [Scoffs]
[Scoffs]
That I'm a little cracked.
- That I'm a little cracked.
- It's not true.
- It's not true.
- I didn't make
I didn't make
any of this stuff up.
- Any of this stuff up.
- It happened.
It happened.
I really heard it.
Could I grab a soda?
- Could I grab a soda?
- >> Sure.
Sure.
My mouth is so dry.
- >> My mouth is so dry.
- >> You can't go back to school
- >> You can't go back to school.
- Yet, honey.
- Yet, honey.
- We want to make sure you feel
- We want to make sure you feel.
- Perfect.
Perfect.
I do.
- >> I do.
- The only thing that's making me
- The only thing that's making me.
- Feel off is this medicine.
- Feel off is this medicine.
- Every time I start to feel
- Every time I start to feel.
- Better, I have to take another
- Better, I have to take another.
- Pill, and it's just slowing
- Pill, and it's just slowing.
- Me down.
- Me down.
- They're preventing me from
- They're preventing me from.
- Getting better.
- Getting better.
- >> Nicole, you're not getting
- >> Nicole, you're not getting.
- Off the medication.
Off the medication.
This is the thing that's
- this is the thing that's.
- Stabilizing your condition.
- Stabilizing your condition.
- >> Mom, I don't have
- >> Mom, I don't have.
- A condition,
- A condition,
- and I'm so stabilized,
- And I'm so stabilized,
- I'm vegetating here.
- I'm vegetating here.
- >> Lynn, listen to her,
- >> Lynn, listen to her,
- will you?
- Will you?
- We're not inside her.
- We're not inside her.
- She's the only one who knows how
- She's the only one who knows how.
- She feels.
She feels.
Dave, please.
- >> Dave, please.
- >> Well, at least let me go back
- >> Well, at least let me go back.
- To school.
To school.
There's so much I have to do.
- There's so much I have to do.
- I miss my friends.
I miss my friends.
I miss Jeff.
- I miss Jeff.
- The longer I wait,
- The longer I wait,
- the harder it's gonna be.
[Engine revving]
She'll be fine.
I'm back.
- >> I'm back.
- >> Welcome back.
Welcome back.
Thanks.
Look, I'm really sorry.
- Look, I'm really sorry.
- You know, I could just go and
- You know, I could just go and.
- Stay at Jeff's.
Stay at Jeff's.
Don't be silly.
Don't be silly.
I missed you.
So how do you feel?
- So how do you feel?
- >> I'm fine.
- >> I'm fine.
- I feel fine.
I feel fine.
Great.
- >> Great.
- Here let me help you with that.
- Here let me help you with that.
- You probably feel like you've
- You probably feel like you've.
- Been gone forever, but you
- Been gone forever, but you.
- Really haven't missed much.
- Really haven't missed much.
- And I can give you my notes
- And I can give you my notes.
- On soc-10 and history of art,
- On soc-10 and history of art,
- okay?
Okay?
Thanks.
I really am sorry.
- I really am sorry.
- >> Listen, forget it,
listen, forget it,
it's over now, okay?
Right.
Right.
[Zipper unzipping]
Thud!
- Thud!
- >> When my dad found out that
- >> When my dad found out that.
- I flunked my physics midterm,
I flunked my physics midterm,
he hit the roof.
- He hit the roof.
- >> You know, it's my fault.
- >> You know, it's my fault.
- I should've been there for you.
- I should've been there for you.
- I could've helped you study.
- I could've helped you study.
- >> Right, and I supposed you're
- >> Right, and I supposed you're.
- Responsible for my I.Q. Too.
- Responsible for my I.Q. Too.
- >> I upset you.
I upset you.
I took your mind off your work.
- I took your mind off your work.
- I'm really sorry.
- I'm really sorry.
- >> Would you stop it?
- >> Would you stop it?
- Dad's right, I've been jerking
- Dad's right, I've been jerking.
- Around this whole semester.
- Around this whole semester.
- >> You know, it was the
- >> You know, it was the.
- Medicine.
- Medicine.
- They just kept giving me
- They just kept giving me.
- These pills.
- These pills.
- I just kept getting worse.
- I just kept getting worse.
- >> Yeah, but that was after.
- >> Yeah, but that was after.
- You weren't taking the
- You weren't taking the.
- Medication before you got sick.
- Medication before you got sick.
- >> No, because I threw them
- >> No, because I threw them.
- Away.
- Away.
- >> What do you mean?
What do you mean?
I threw them all away.
I threw them all away.
Oh.
- >> Oh.
- >> So you're gonna pick me up
- >> So you're gonna pick me up.
- After class, right?
- After class, right?
- >> Yes, I told you three times.
- >> Yes, I told you three times.
- You're stuck with me, kid.
- You're stuck with me, kid.
- >> Bye.
[Indistinct speech]
[Bell ringing]
[Footsteps]
What brancusi urges you
- >> what brancusi urges you.
- To do with his sculpture
To do with his sculpture
is not just look, but feel.
- Is not just look, but feel.
- Not to resist temptation,
- Not to resist temptation,
- but to su...
[Loud rock music]
[Loud rock music]
♪ ♪
[Music stops]
- [Music stops]
- >> The sound is coming through
The sound is coming through
the speakers!
- The speakers!
- The headset isn't even plugged
- The headset isn't even plugged.
- In.
- In.
- Nicole, can you hear me?
- Nicole, can you hear me?
- >> Put the music on.
- >> Put the music on.
- I need the music to concentrate.
- I need the music to concentrate.
- I have to block out the voices.
- I have to block out the voices.
- >> Well, there are no voices
- >> Well, there are no voices.
- Now.
- Now.
- It's quiet...
- It's quiet...
- >> don't!
- >> Don't!
- I have to keep this to block out
- I have to keep this to block out.
- The voices!
My name's not mentioned once
- my name's not mentioned once.
- In this book.
- In this book.
- Look, frank Lloyd Wright,
- Look, frank Lloyd Wright,
- soriano, Paul laszlo, not once!
- Soriano, Paul laszlo, not once!
- >> Jeff, great, could you get
- >> Jeff, great, could you get.
- Over here right away?
- Over here right away?
- I think Nikki's freaking out,
I think Nikki's freaking out,
hurry.
- Hurry.
- >> Who are you calling?
- >> Who are you calling?
- >> Um, it was nobody.
Um, it was nobody.
I can hear you.
I can hear you.
I can hear everything.
- I can hear everything.
- I know you're in touch with
- I know you're in touch with.
- Them.
- Them.
- That's how they know so much
- That's how they know so much.
- About me.
- About me.
- That's why I have no privacy!
- That's why I have no privacy!
- >> Nicole, where are you going?
- >> Nicole, where are you going?
- >> Why, so you can call them
- >> Why, so you can call them.
- On the radio?
- On the radio?
- >> Nicole...
- >> Nicole...
- >> don't touch me.
- >> Don't touch me.
- Don't ever touch me.
Don't ever touch me.
Nicole!
Nikki!
- Nikki!
- [Engine turns over]
- [Engine turns over]
- [Tires screeching]
[Tires screeching]
Nikki!
Nikki!
Nikki, wait, Nikki!
Nikki, wait, Nikki!
Nikki, wait, just...
Nikki, wait, just...
[pounding on window]
[Fractured instrumental music]
[Fractured instrumental music]
♪ ♪
[Brakes squealing]
- [Brakes squealing]
- [Horn honking]
- [Horn honking]
- >> Get out of the way!
- >> Get out of the way!
- You crazy or something?
[Horns honking]
Watch it, lady!
Watch it, lady!
[Horns honking]
In addition to hearing
- >> in addition to hearing.
- Voices, Nicole is now
- Voices, Nicole is now.
- Exhibiting a symptom called
- Exhibiting a symptom called.
- "thought broadcasting."
- "Thought broadcasting."
- This behavior is
- This behavior is.
- An almost certain indication
- An almost certain indication.
- Of schizophrenia.
- Of schizophrenia.
- >> She's always been...
- >> She's always been...
- The perfect... perfect child.
The perfect... perfect child.
Well, what is the cure?
- >> Well, what is the cure?
- >> There is no cure.
- >> There is no cure.
- >> What do you mean?
- >> What do you mean?
- There... there's no cure?
- There... there's no cure?
- >> Schizophrenia is
- >> Schizophrenia is.
- A physical disorder.
- A physical disorder.
- A chemical imbalance
- A chemical imbalance.
- In the brain.
- In the brain.
- Drugs can sometimes compensate
- Drugs can sometimes compensate.
- For this imbalance;
- For this imbalance;
- they cannot cure it.
They cannot cure it.
Doc, you're not leaving US
- >> doc, you're not leaving US.
- Much hope here.
Much hope here.
Sometimes, the symptoms
- >> sometimes, the symptoms.
- Disappear as suddenly as they
- Disappear as suddenly as they.
- Appear.
- Appear.
- That is the hope, I want you
- That is the hope, I want you.
- To have that.
To have that.
Well, what is the first step?
- >> Well, what is the first step?
- >> We will test
- >> We will test.
- Nicole's reaction
- Nicole's reaction.
- To various psychotropic drugs
- To various psychotropic drugs.
- And evaluate her behavior for
- And evaluate her behavior for.
- As long as we can keep her here.
- As long as we can keep her here.
- >> We will leave her here just
- >> We will leave her here just.
- As long as you need her to be
- As long as you need her to be.
- Here.
- Here.
- >> By law, we may not keep
- >> By law, we may not keep.
- A patient more than 72 hours
- A patient more than 72 hours.
- If that patient refuses to stay,
- If that patient refuses to stay,
- and Nicole is already asking
- And Nicole is already asking.
- To leave.
- To leave.
- The only way we can keep her
- The only way we can keep her.
- Longer is through what is called
- Longer is through what is called.
- A probable cause hearing,
A probable cause hearing,
a commitment hearing.
- A commitment hearing.
- >> Will Nikki be in the same
- >> Will Nikki be in the same.
- Room?
- Room?
- >> Yes.
- >> Yes.
- >> So she'll see US arguing
- >> So she'll see US arguing.
- Against her?
- Against her?
- >> Well, hopefully she'll
- >> Well, hopefully she'll.
- Understand that you're doing
- Understand that you're doing.
- This because you care about her.
- This because you care about her.
- The court appointed referee will
- The court appointed referee will.
- Try to determine if Nikki
- Try to determine if Nikki.
- Is presently a danger to herself
Is presently a danger to herself
or others.
- Or others.
- >> If Nicole were to leave here
- >> If Nicole were to leave here.
- Today, would she be allowed to
- Today, would she be allowed to.
- Come home with you?
- Come home with you?
- >> We believe she will receive
- >> We believe she will receive.
- Better care here
- Better care here.
- In the hospital.
- In the hospital.
- >> Mrs. Glover, I think you
Mrs. Glover, I think you
understood the question.
Understood the question.
Yes, um, then...
Yes, um, then...
No, she cannot come home
no, she cannot come home
with US.
What?
- >> What?
- >> Honey, we want what's best
- >> Honey, we want what's best.
- For you.
For you.
We want you to be well.
- We want you to be well.
- >> You don't want me anymore?
- >> You don't want me anymore?
- >> No, baby, that's not
- >> No, baby, that's not.
- The truth.
- The truth.
- We want you to get all better
- We want you to get all better.
- Before you come home,
- Before you come home,
- that's all.
- That's all.
- >> Sweetheart, we love you,
- >> Sweetheart, we love you,
- and we want you to stay here
- And we want you to stay here.
- Because we love you.
Because we love you.
Please, I'll stay up in my
- >> please, I'll stay up in my.
- Room.
- Room.
- I'll just stay upstairs in my
- I'll just stay upstairs in my.
- Room.
- Room.
- I won't bother anybody.
Nicole, if you were allowed.
- >> Nicole, if you were allowed.
- To leave the hospital today
- To leave the hospital today.
- And you could not go home with
- And you could not go home with.
- Your parents, what would you do?
Nicole has told me that she.
- >> Nicole has told me that she.
- Has several thousand dollars
- Has several thousand dollars.
- In a bank account.
In a bank account.
Nicole.
Nicole.
Um, I could go to the bank,
- >> um, I could go to the bank,
- get a hotel room.
What if the bank was closed?
What if the bank was closed?
Um...
Um...
Uh...
- Uh...
- >> That's all right, Nicole,
That's all right, Nicole,
you don't have to answer.
- You don't have to answer.
- I think it would be better
- I think it would be better.
- If you stayed in the hospital
- If you stayed in the hospital.
- For just two weeks.
- For just two weeks.
- Would you do that, Nicole?
No.
No.
I don't want to stay here.
- I don't want to stay here.
- >> Very well, I won't force you.
- >> Very well, I won't force you.
- >> What?
- >> What?
- What, you're gonna let her leave
- What, you're gonna let her leave.
- Just like that?
- Just like that?
- >> Mrs. Glover, your daughter
- >> Mrs. Glover, your daughter.
- Has rights.
- Has rights.
- >> The right to keep getting
- >> The right to keep getting.
- Sicker and sicker without
- Sicker and sicker without.
- Treatment, without supervision?
- Treatment, without supervision?
- The right to kill herself?
- The right to kill herself?
- >> To my mind, Nicole does not
- >> To my mind, Nicole does not.
- Pose a threat to herself
- Pose a threat to herself.
- Or to others.
- Or to others.
- Nor is she incapable of
Nor is she incapable of
providing for her basic needs.
- Providing for her basic needs.
- >> What if you're wrong?
- >> What if you're wrong?
- >> Well then, you'll have to
- >> Well then, you'll have to.
- Present that new information to
- Present that new information to.
- The court at a later time.
- The court at a later time.
- >> You expect US to put our
- >> You expect US to put our.
- Daughter through this again?
- Daughter through this again?
- >> I'm very sorry.
- >> I'm very sorry.
- I understand your feelings.
- I understand your feelings.
- >> Do you?
I keep thinking back over all.
- >> I keep thinking back over all.
- The things I may have done to
The things I may have done to
have caused this.
- Have caused this.
- Like I remember that I... I drank
Like I remember that I... I drank
champagne at my baby shower.
That is so silly.
That is so silly.
I know that's silly.
I know that's silly.
But that's logic.
- But that's logic.
- Emotion tells me it's my fault.
Emotion tells me it's my fault.
She is my child, and everything
- she is my child, and everything.
- That happens to her
- That happens to her.
- Is my responsibility.
Is my responsibility.
Mrs. Glover.
You must forgive yourself
- you must forgive yourself.
- For what you consider
- For what you consider.
- To be your mistakes with Nicole,
- To be your mistakes with Nicole,
- not one of them contributed
- Not one of them contributed.
- To her condition.
- To her condition.
- Stop torturing yourself with
- Stop torturing yourself with.
- Guilt.
- Guilt.
- You have to be strong and whole
- You have to be strong and whole.
- To cope with the demands
- To cope with the demands.
- This disease will make of you.
Nikki, you have to take your.
- >> Nikki, you have to take your.
- Medication!
- Medication!
- [Glass breaking]
- [Glass breaking]
- >> I'm not taking it.
- >> I'm not taking it.
- It's making me sick.
- It's making me sick.
- It's killing me!
- It's killing me!
- >> Nikki, honey, no.
- >> Nikki, honey, no.
- It is making you better.
- It is making you better.
- >> No, it's not!
- >> No, it's not!
- >> Look, you quiet down.
- >> Look, you quiet down.
- Now calm down, relax.
- Now calm down, relax.
- >> I am turning to stone,
- >> I am turning to stone,
- and every time I start to feel
- And every time I start to feel.
- Something, you give me another
- Something, you give me another.
- Pill, and I turn to stone!
- Pill, and I turn to stone!
- >> But you have to take...
- >> But you have to take...
- >> Lisa!
- >> Lisa!
- >> I'm sorry, I'll wait outside.
- >> I'm sorry, I'll wait outside.
- >> Well, look who's here.
- >> Well, look who's here.
- It's touchdown Karen.
- It's touchdown Karen.
- >> Nikki!
- >> Nikki!
- >> Does your mommy know
- >> Does your mommy know.
- You're making it
- You're making it.
- With the football team?
- With the football team?
- >> Stop it, Nicole!
- >> Stop it, Nicole!
- >> [Sighs]
[Sighs]
Karen!
[Exhales in surprise]
- >> [Exhales in surprise]
- >> Did I scare you?
Did I scare you?
Just for a second there.
- >> Just for a second there.
- >> Sorry.
Sorry.
It's okay.
I took my pills.
- >> I took my pills.
- >> Oh, thank you, baby.
- >> Oh, thank you, baby.
- Thank you.
I am so sorry.
- >> I am so sorry.
- I know I upset you, and I don't
- I know I upset you, and I don't.
- Mean to.
- Mean to.
- It's just sometimes
It's just sometimes
I feel so bad, just so confused.
- I feel so bad, just so confused.
- It's like I've lost something,
- It's like I've lost something,
- and I can't find it, no matter
And I can't find it, no matter
how hard I try.
How hard I try.
When I'm feeling bad and I hear
when I'm feeling bad and I hear
all those voices, I get scared
all those voices, I get scared
because I feel like I'm losing
because I feel like I'm losing
control of my mind,
- control of my mind,
- and I can't tell what's real and
And I can't tell what's real and
what isn't,
- what isn't,
- and when I feel good, I get
And when I feel good, I get
scared because I don't know
scared because I don't know
when it's gonna happen again
- when it's gonna happen again.
- Or if I'll lose control
- Or if I'll lose control.
- Completely and never come back.
I don't want to leave you.
- I don't want to leave you.
- >> [Whispers] Sweetheart.
- >> [Whispers] Sweetheart.
- >> I hear all these voices
I hear all these voices
calling my name, and the only
- calling my name, and the only.
- Voice I want to hear is yours.
I'm just so afraid the voices
- I'm just so afraid the voices.
- Are gonna get so loud that I'm
- Are gonna get so loud that I'm.
- Not gonna be able to hear you
- Not gonna be able to hear you.
- Calling me.
Calling me.
I'll make sure you hear me.
I'll make sure you hear me.
Nikki, I will not let you go.
- Nikki, I will not let you go.
- I won't let you go.
I won't let you go.
I won't let you go.
[Water rushing]
Where you been?
Where you been?
I was on the road.
I was on the road.
Till 1:00 A.M.?
- >> Till 1:00 A.M.?
- >> Was with a client, okay?
- >> Was with a client, okay?
- >> Well, you could've called,
- >> Well, you could've called,
- Dave.
- Dave.
- You know, I waited dinner
- You know, I waited dinner.
- For you.
- For you.
- >> All right, then.
- >> All right, then.
- >> Oh, come on.
- >> Oh, come on.
- I don't want to fight.
- I don't want to fight.
- I don't.
- I don't.
- I just missed you, that's all.
Nikki spoke to me tonight,
Nikki spoke to me tonight,
and it was almost as if she were
- and it was almost as if she were.
- Well again,
- Well again,
- and then a few hours later,
- And then a few hours later,
- she was talking to herself.
- She was talking to herself.
- It's so...
It's so hard to watch.
- It's so hard to watch.
- You know, it's like she comes up
- You know, it's like she comes up.
- For air for a few seconds and
- For air for a few seconds and.
- Then gets pulled back under.
- Then gets pulled back under.
- >> I can't deal with this
I can't deal with this
anymore today, honey.
Anymore today, honey.
I'm really beat.
How's it going?
- >> How's it going?
- >> My razor blade knife wasn't
- >> My razor blade knife wasn't.
- In the drawer.
In the drawer.
Have you seen it?
- Have you seen it?
- >> I think I put that away
- >> I think I put that away.
- Somewhere.
- Somewhere.
- >> Well, I need it to cut
- >> Well, I need it to cut.
- The siding.
- The siding.
- It's all I have left to do,
- It's all I have left to do,
- and I really wanted to finish it
- And I really wanted to finish it.
- For the contest.
- For the contest.
- >> I'll find it for you.
[Engine running]
He's talking my ear off,
- >> he's talking my ear off,
- but I think I'll make the sale
- But I think I'll make the sale.
- Soon.
Soon.
About an hour or so,
about an hour or so,
don't wait up for me.
Don't wait up for me.
Me too, bye.
- Me too, bye.
- [Phone receiver clicks]
[Pounding]
Lisa, Lisa!
- >> Lisa, Lisa!
- >> What is it?
What is it?
Help me.
- >> Help me.
- Honey, honey, oh, sweetheart.
Call an ambulance, sweetheart.
- Call an ambulance, sweetheart.
- Go, Lisa now!
Go, Lisa now!
Call an ambulance!
Call an ambulance!
Nikki, Nikki, honey, honey...
What happened?
What happened?
Is she going to be all right?
- Is she going to be all right?
- Is she all right?!
- Is she all right?!
- >> They said she can come home
- >> They said she can come home.
- In a couple hours.
- In a couple hours.
- >> Is Dr. Austin here?
- >> Is Dr. Austin here?
- >> Please, isn't it
- >> Please, isn't it.
- A little late for you
- A little late for you.
- To be saving the day?
- To be saving the day?
- Everything's already been taken
- Everything's already been taken.
- Care of anyway.
- Care of anyway.
- >> I told you, I had to work
- >> I told you, I had to work.
- Late.
- Late.
- >> Mmm, yeah, the midnight
- >> Mmm, yeah, the midnight.
- Business meeting.
- Business meeting.
- >> Oh, you just get off my back
- >> Oh, you just get off my back.
- And tell me what happened.
- And tell me what happened.
- >> She had a seizure,
She had a seizure,
that's what happened.
- That's what happened.
- They said it was a side effect
- They said it was a side effect.
- From her pills.
- From her pills.
- >> But she's been taking
- >> But she's been taking.
- The same medication all along,
- The same medication all along,
- hasn't she?
- Hasn't she?
- >> Yes, yes, and the side
- >> Yes, yes, and the side.
- Effects don't always happen
- Effects don't always happen.
- Right away.
- Right away.
- See, so now they have to start
- See, so now they have to start.
- Experimenting with new drugs,
- Experimenting with new drugs,
- and they... they have no idea
- And they... they have no idea.
- Which one's gonna work.
- Which one's gonna work.
- >> You mean this could happen
- >> You mean this could happen.
- Again?
- Again?
- >> You know, I have been all
- >> You know, I have been all.
- Through this with the doctor.
- Through this with the doctor.
- I don't feel like recapping
- I don't feel like recapping.
- For latecomers.
- For latecomers.
- >> Mom, please.
- >> Mom, please.
- >> Lisa, stay out of this.
- >> Lisa, stay out of this.
- >> Don't you take it out on her!
- >> Don't you take it out on her!
- >> You should've been there,
- >> You should've been there,
- David!
- David!
- You should've...
- You should've...
- You should've been here.
[Pills clattering]
[Pills clattering]
[Water splashing]
[Phone ringing]
Hello?
- >> Hello?
- Oh, hi, Lisa.
- Oh, hi, Lisa.
- Hold on, it's Lisa.
- Hold on, it's Lisa.
- You want to take it
- You want to take it.
- In the kitchen?
- In the kitchen?
- >> Yeah, thank you.
Yeah, thank you.
Excuse me.
Just calm down, honey.
- Just calm down, honey.
- Try and give them to her again.
- Try and give them to her again.
- I know.
- I know.
- I know, look, I'll be home soon.
- I know, look, I'll be home soon.
- All right, bye-bye.
- All right, bye-bye.
- [Phone receiver clicks]
- [Phone receiver clicks]
- >> Lynn, is something wrong?
- >> Lynn, is something wrong?
- >> No, no, it's... it's nothing
- >> No, no, it's... it's nothing.
- Important.
- Important.
- I... but, you know,
- I... but, you know,
- I have to leave.
- I have to leave.
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.
- >> Lynn, I'm your friend.
- >> Lynn, I'm your friend.
- You can talk to me.
- You can talk to me.
- I want to help.
I want to help.
Helen.
You did what?
You did what?
I confided in a friend.
- >> I confided in a friend.
- >> A friend?
- >> A friend?
- Don't be naive, Lynn.
- Don't be naive, Lynn.
- She's probably been on the phone
- She's probably been on the phone.
- To everybody in town.
- To everybody in town.
- >> As if people don't
- >> As if people don't.
- Already know.
- Already know.
- >> They don't know anything
- >> They don't know anything.
- Specific until you tell 'em,
- Specific until you tell 'em,
- and you did!
- And you did!
- >> I needed someone to talk to.
- >> I needed someone to talk to.
- I know you think I'm made
- I know you think I'm made.
- Of steel, but I am not.
- Of steel, but I am not.
- >> You think you're gonna get
- >> You think you're gonna get.
- Sympathy from people about this.
- Sympathy from people about this.
- You think people are gonna say,
- You think people are gonna say,
- "oh, poor Lynn and Dave,
- "Oh, poor Lynn and Dave,
- how could anything like this
- How could anything like this.
- Happen to them?"
- "Happen to them?"
- Well, they're not.
- Well, they're not.
- They're gonna take it,
- They're gonna take it,
- they're gonna turn it,
- They're gonna turn it,
- and use it against US!
- And use it against US!
- >> Do you really believe that?
- >> Do you really believe that?
- >> Yes!
- >> Yes!
- >> Are you that ashamed?
- >> Are you that ashamed?
- >> Yes.
- >> Yes.
- This is a family matter.
- This is a family matter.
- I don't want you announcing it
- I don't want you announcing it.
- To the neighborhood.
- To the neighborhood.
- We'll deal with it ourselves.
- We'll deal with it ourselves.
- >> How?
- >> How?
- You refuse to even talk to me
- You refuse to even talk to me.
- About it.
- About it.
- How are we gonna deal with it?
- How are we gonna deal with it?
- Answer me that.
- Answer me that.
- [Door slams]
- [Door slams]
- How do we deal with it?
Come on, Nicole.
- Come on, Nicole.
- You've got to eat something.
- You've got to eat something.
- Now, you told me
Now, you told me
you wanted eggs.
Can I talk to you both
- >> can I talk to you both.
- For a second?
- For a second?
- >> Sure, honey.
- >> Sure, honey.
- >> I have to buy a dress
- >> I have to buy a dress.
- For the Rochester audition.
- For the Rochester audition.
- I want to get something dressy
- I want to get something dressy.
- But simple.
- But simple.
- I thought I had enough saved up
- I thought I had enough saved up.
- But I think I'm a little bit
But I think I'm a little bit
short.
Short.
I got to go.
- >> I got to go.
- >> Mom, could you pay
- >> Mom, could you pay.
- The difference?
The difference?
And help me pick something out?
- And help me pick something out?
- >> Are you listening to me?
- >> Are you listening to me?
- >> What?
What?
Yes, Lisa, we just can't handle
- yes, Lisa, we just can't handle.
- A new dress just now.
- A new dress just now.
- That's... that's all, honey.
- That's... that's all, honey.
- Wear your white lace.
- Wear your white lace.
- You look real sweet in that.
- You look real sweet in that.
- [Glass shatters]
- [Glass shatters]
- >> Why don't you watch what
- >> Why don't you watch what.
- You're doing?
- You're doing?
- >> Stop it, Lisa.
- >> Stop it, Lisa.
- >> She just does it to get
- >> She just does it to get.
- Attention.
Attention.
I said enough.
I could help you.
I could help you
look for a dress if you want.
God, it looks great.
- >> God, it looks great.
- So do you.
So do you.
Thanks.
I'm glad you came.
I'm glad you came.
I missed you.
I missed you.
Think about you a lot.
Think about you a lot.
I missed you too.
- >> I missed you too.
- I would've stopped by sooner but
- I would've stopped by sooner but.
- I just didn't know if...
- I just didn't know if...
- >> no, I know.
No, I know.
I understand.
I'm aware, you know.
- I'm aware, you know.
- I'm aware of the things that
- I'm aware of the things that.
- Have happened.
Have happened.
I'm not out of it all the time.
- I'm not out of it all the time.
- I'm the same person.
I'm the same person.
I just have a problem now.
- I just have a problem now.
- >> No, you're getting better
No, you're getting better
and better.
And better.
Yeah.
- >> Yeah.
- Is my hair all right?
Is my hair all right?
Yeah, it's perfect.
- >> Yeah, it's perfect.
- Jenny told me to give you
Jenny told me to give you
her love.
- Her love.
- >> My mom helped me with it.
- >> My mom helped me with it.
- It just feels kind of stiff
- It just feels kind of stiff.
- Though.
Though.
No, it's looks terrific.
- >> No, it's looks terrific.
- >> It just feels so stiff.
- >> It just feels so stiff.
- I just feel like I'm turning
- I just feel like I'm turning.
- To stone.
To stone.
No, Nikki.
No, Nikki.
You look beautiful.
- You look beautiful.
- You look so beautiful.
Jeff, Jeff.
Jeff, Jeff.
No.
No.
Nicole!
Nicole!
Nikki!
- Nikki!
- Nikki!
- Nikki!
- >> Jeff!
Jeff!
Wait, wait, wait.
Wait, wait, wait.
[Sobbing]
- >> [Sobbing]
- >> Oh, don't cry.
- >> Oh, don't cry.
- >> Lynn, Lynn, can I help?
- >> Lynn, Lynn, can I help?
- >> No, no, Helen.
- >> No, no, Helen.
- No, no, we're fine.
- No, no, we're fine.
- We're just... we're all right.
- We're just... we're all right.
- Please, please just leave US
- Please, please just leave US.
- Alone.
- Alone.
- >> [Sobbing]
- >> [Sobbing]
- >> Oh, my baby.
- >> Oh, my baby.
- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.
- Sweetheart.
- Sweetheart.
- Helen, we're fine, please.
- Helen, we're fine, please.
- Come on, that's my baby, come.
[Door closes]
Hello.
Things calm down a bit?
- Things calm down a bit?
- >> Oh.
- >> Oh.
- >> I got a little surprise
- >> I got a little surprise.
- For you.
- For you.
- >> Please, no more surprises
- >> Please, no more surprises.
- Today.
Not even a nice one?
- >> Not even a nice one?
- Dinner at the long wharf,
- Dinner at the long wharf,
- glass of wine, stroll along
- Glass of wine, stroll along.
- The boardwalk?
The boardwalk?
Can't leave Nikki.
- >> Can't leave Nikki.
- >> Lisa can take care of Nikki
- >> Lisa can take care of Nikki.
- For one evening.
- For one evening.
- You and I got to be together,
- You and I got to be together,
- just the two of US.
I think you're tempted.
- I think you're tempted.
- God knows, you're tempting.
Come on.
- Come on.
- >> Mm-mmm, no.
- >> Mm-mmm, no.
- >> Let me show you my good side
- >> let me show you my good side.
- For a change.
- For a change.
- You do remember I got a good
- You do remember I got a good.
- Side.
Side.
Barely.
- >> Barely.
- >> Well, let me refresh
- >> Well, let me refresh.
- Your memory.
[Cracking]
Nicole, no!
- >> Nicole, no!
- No, stop it.
- No, stop it.
- Nicole, stop it!
- Nicole, stop it!
- Stop it.
- Stop it.
- Nicole, stop it.
- Nicole, stop it.
- Stop it. Stop it.
- Stop it. Stop it.
- Give me the knife.
- Give me the knife.
- Give me that knife.
Give me that knife.
Nicole, give it to me.
- Nicole, give it to me.
- Give it to me!
- Give it to me!
- >> It's no good.
- >> It's no good.
- It's no good.
- It's no good.
- >> Why, why are you doing this?
- >> Why, why are you doing this?
- Why are you doing this to me?
- Why are you doing this to me?
- Can't you leave one decent thing
- Can't you leave one decent thing.
- In tact?
- In tact?
- Can't you?
- Can't you?
- >> I don't want it anymore.
- >> I don't want it anymore.
- >> You doing it to hurt me?
- >> You doing it to hurt me?
- >> Lynn, no, come on, stop it.
- >> Lynn, no, come on, stop it.
- >> Yes, you don't know what it's
- >> Yes, you don't know what it's.
- Like!
- Like!
- >> Stop screaming.
- >> Stop screaming.
- >> You don't know
- >> You don't know.
- What it's like.
- What it's like.
- You are never here.
- You are never here.
- You don't know!
You don't know!
Mom, she's sick!
[Sobs]
I wasn't born this way.
I wasn't born this way.
You did this to me.
You did this to me.
You made me this way.
[Knock on door]
- [Knock on door]
- >> Oh, Lynn, come on in.
- >> Oh, Lynn, come on in.
- >> No, no, I only have a minute.
- >> No, no, I only have a minute.
- I wanted to apologize to you
- I wanted to apologize to you.
- For yesterday.
- For yesterday.
- If I seemed impolite, it was
- If I seemed impolite, it was.
- Because I was so upset
- Because I was so upset.
- And embarrassed.
- And embarrassed.
- >> Of course.
- >> Of course.
- I mean, I understand.
- I mean, I understand.
- Don't think about it, please.
- Don't think about it, please.
- >> Thanks for being
Thanks for being
so understanding.
- So understanding.
- I better go.
- I better go.
- I bet you have a million things
- I bet you have a million things.
- To do for the wedding Sunday,
- To do for the wedding Sunday,
- huh?
- Huh?
- >> Don't remind me.
- >> Don't remind me.
- Listen, Lynn, you're still
- Listen, Lynn, you're still.
- Planning on bringing your video
- Planning on bringing your video.
- Camera, aren't you?
- Camera, aren't you?
- >> You bet.
- >> You bet.
- >> Great, I'm counting on you.
Great, I'm counting on you.
Uh, Lynn, listen, you're not
- uh, Lynn, listen, you're not.
- Planning on bringing Nikki
- Planning on bringing Nikki.
- To the ceremony, are you?
- To the ceremony, are you?
- I mean, it's such a special day
- I mean, it's such a special day.
- For Kenny and Sarah.
- For Kenny and Sarah.
- That must've sounded terrible,
- That must've sounded terrible,
- didn't it?
- Didn't it?
- >> Yeah, Helen, it did.
- >> Yeah, Helen, it did.
- >> But you know what I mean,
- >> But you know what I mean,
- don't you?
- Don't you?
- >> Sure, I know.
- >> Sure, I know.
- I just cannot believe that you
- I just cannot believe that you.
- Actually asked me.
- Actually asked me.
- We had no intention of bringing
- We had no intention of bringing.
- Nikki to the wedding.
- Nikki to the wedding.
- She's not well enough.
- She's not well enough.
- But you know what I think
- But you know what I think.
- Would be good?
- Would be good?
- None of US will come
None of US will come
to the wedding
- to the wedding.
- And thanks for being
- And thanks for being.
- So understanding.
So understanding.
Lynn!
[Fire crackling]
- [Fire crackling]
- >> Nicole!
Nicole!
Nico...
[Fire extinguisher hissing]
[Coughing]
[Coughing]
Come on.
Come on.
What happened?
Where have you been?
- >> Where have you been?
- >> I was at Karen's.
- >> I was at Karen's.
- >> You were supposed to be
- >> You were supposed to be.
- Looking after your sister!
- Looking after your sister!
- >> I was only gone
- >> I was only gone.
- For a few minutes!
- For a few minutes!
- >> And do you see what can
- >> And do you see what can.
- Happen in just a few minutes?
- Happen in just a few minutes?
- She could have been killed.
- She could have been killed.
- >> It's not my fault.
- >> It's not my fault.
- She did it.
- She did it.
- >> It is your fault.
- >> It is your fault.
- She was your responsibility!
- She was your responsibility!
- >> No, she's yours!
- >> No, she's yours!
- She's your crazy daughter, not...
- She's your crazy daughter, not...
- >> shut up!
- >> Shut up!
- Stop that!
- Stop that!
- Shut up!
- Shut up!
- Shut up, do you hear me!
How did I feel?
- >> How did I feel?
- It felt like I should've been
- It felt like I should've been.
- Able to save her from this,
- Able to save her from this,
- but I couldn't.
- But I couldn't.
- It felt like I had given up
- It felt like I had given up.
- On her,
- On her,
- that I admitted she had
- That I admitted she had.
- No future,
No future,
no future at all.
- No future at all.
- We convinced ourselves this was
- We convinced ourselves this was.
- A decent place.
After all, what choice did
after all, what choice did
we have?
- We have?
- You begin to lie to yourself
- You begin to lie to yourself.
- When you run out of
When you run out of
alternatives.
- Alternatives.
- And then I felt rotten because
And then I felt rotten because
I kept thinking about the money.
- I kept thinking about the money.
- Now that the insurance is gone,
- Now that the insurance is gone,
- that's all I think about.
- That's all I think about.
- It's one thing to pay for
- It's one thing to pay for.
- A college education,
- A college education,
- that's an investment.
- That's an investment.
- But to pay for a place like this
- But to pay for a place like this.
- For your child?
For your child?
For a living tomb?
- For a living tomb?
- >> It will really look much
- >> It will really look much.
- Better without the lint
Better without the lint
and without those wrinkles.
- And without those wrinkles.
- >> I kept looking at her
- >> I kept looking at her.
- And wondering if she understood
- And wondering if she understood.
- What we were doing to her
What we were doing to her
and hated US for it.
- And hated US for it.
- And then when I brought
- And then when I brought.
- Her suitcase into the bedroom,
- Her suitcase into the bedroom,
- she gave me the most pitiful
- She gave me the most pitiful.
- Look as if all of her fears
- Look as if all of her fears.
- Were being confirmed,
- Were being confirmed,
- and we were, after all,
And we were, after all,
abandoning her.
- Abandoning her.
- We made her this way, and now
We made her this way, and now
we were punishing her for it.
- We were punishing her for it.
- >> You really believe that?
- >> You really believe that?
- >> No.
No.
That's what Nikki said.
- That's what Nikki said.
- Look, doc, I really got to get
- Look, doc, I really got to get.
- Going.
- Going.
- I'm doing this for Lynn's sake.
- I'm doing this for Lynn's sake.
- Frankly, I don't see the point.
- Frankly, I don't see the point.
- It doesn't help Nikki that much.
- It doesn't help Nikki that much.
- >> Maybe in the long run,
- >> Maybe in the long run,
- it will.
- It will.
- >> That's a little too subtle
- >> That's a little too subtle.
- For my mind.
- For my mind.
- Maybe you should worry less
- Maybe you should worry less.
- About Lynn and me, work a little
- About Lynn and me, work a little.
- Bit harder to make Nikki better.
- Bit harder to make Nikki better.
- >> I blame myself too,
I blame myself too,
Mr. Glover.
- Mr. Glover.
- I feel guilty because I am
- I feel guilty because I am.
- Part of a psychiatric community
- Part of a psychiatric community.
- That has largely shunned
- That has largely shunned.
- Schizophrenia and its victims
- Schizophrenia and its victims.
- Because we feel powerless
- Because we feel powerless.
- In the face of it.
Nicole, you didn't come down.
- >> Nicole, you didn't come down.
- For your pill this morning.
For your pill this morning.
Nicole?
- Nicole?
- Nicole, don't make me force you.
Well, Nikki, you have to take
- >> well, Nikki, you have to take.
- Your pills.
- Your pills.
- You just do, honey.
- You just do, honey.
- Come on, please?
Come on, please?
For dad and mom?
- For dad and mom?
- It's so you'll get better.
- It's so you'll get better.
- >> [Chuckles]
[Chuckles]
You know, it's funny.
- You know, it's funny.
- They give you pills that make
- They give you pills that make.
- You feel numb, and you don't
- You feel numb, and you don't.
- Want to do anything.
- Want to do anything.
- Then they get mad at you 'cause
- Then they get mad at you 'cause.
- You don't want to do anything,
- You don't want to do anything,
- so they try and give you more
- So they try and give you more.
- Pills.
- Pills.
- >> Well, sweetheart, we know
- >> Well, sweetheart, we know.
- The pills are not perfect.
- The pills are not perfect.
- They make you sluggish,
They make you sluggish,
but they also make you think
- but they also make you think.
- More clearly.
- More clearly.
- They do... they make you less
- They do... they make you less.
- Confused, don't they?
You know, there's a little
- >> you know, there's a little.
- Bird that plays in the yard
- Bird that plays in the yard.
- Every day.
Every day.
I think it's the same bird,
I think it's the same bird,
and I look at him.
- And I look at him.
- Sometimes I look at him so hard
Sometimes I look at him so hard.
I-I feel like.
- I-I feel like.
- I'm getting out of my body
I'm getting out of my body
and becoming that little bird.
- And becoming that little bird.
- And I feel so light
And I feel so light
and so happy.
And so happy.
And then I come back.
I don't like feeling confused.
- I don't like feeling confused.
- But I'd rather feel confused
- But I'd rather feel confused.
- Than feel nothing at all.
How can anybody be expected...
- >> how can anybody be expected...
- Look at this.
- Look at this.
- Look, I'm gonna have to give
Look, I'm gonna have to give
a whole complaint about why
a whole complaint about why
they send me a thing that won't
- they send me a thing that won't.
- Even... it's impossible.
Even... it's impossible.
Who can... who can even make this
- who can... who can even make this.
- Thing look decent?
- Thing look decent?
- How can I make it look decent?
- How can I make it look decent?
- How do they expect... who could...
What?
- >> What?
- >> What is it?
What is it?
Nikki's gone.
Sergeant, please try to
- >> sergeant, please try to.
- Understand my position.
Understand my position.
My daughter is mentally ill.
- My daughter is mentally ill.
- She's out wandering the streets
- She's out wandering the streets.
- Alone.
- Alone.
- She could be raped.
- She could be raped.
- Or she could be killed
- Or she could be killed.
- For the few dollars she has
- For the few dollars she has.
- In her purse!
- In her purse!
- All right, well, sure, we'll
- All right, well, sure, we'll.
- Call you if any of those things
- Call you if any of those things.
- Happen.
- Happen.
- Thanks a lot!
- Thanks a lot!
- >> Dave, come on.
- >> Dave, come on.
- Come on, Dave.
- Come on, Dave.
- We're gonna look for her
- We're gonna look for her.
- Ourselves.
You all right?
You all right?
You a student here?
- You a student here?
- I'm gonna have to ask you for
- I'm gonna have to ask you for.
- Your I.D. Or you're gonna have
- Your I.D. Or you're gonna have.
- To leave the premises.
I want to check the park.
- >> I want to check the park.
- On fifth.
- On fifth.
- >> No, I want to check these
- >> No, I want to check these.
- Alleys first.
- Alleys first.
- >> We'll catch 'em on the way
- >> We'll catch 'em on the way.
- Back.
- Back.
- >> Would you let me drive if you
- >> Would you let me drive if you.
- Are not going to look?
- Are not going to look?
- >> I am looking.
- >> I am looking.
- You think you're the only one
- You think you're the only one.
- Who cares?
- Who cares?
- >> Sometimes I wonder.
- >> Sometimes I wonder.
- >> You were the one who sent her
- >> You were the one who sent her.
- Away, not me.
- Away, not me.
- >> You know I can't handle her
- >> You know I can't handle her.
- Myself at home anymore,
- Myself at home anymore,
- you know that.
- You know that.
- And what help are you anyway?
- And what help are you anyway?
- >> I work, I work.
- >> I work, I work.
- You remember that, huh?
- You remember that, huh?
- To pay for all of this...
- To pay for all of this...
- Doctor's bills and medicine,
- Doctor's bills and medicine,
- boarding houses.
- Boarding houses.
- >> That's all it is to you,
- >> That's all it is to you,
- dollar signs.
- Dollar signs.
- >> You worry about the mortgage
- >> You worry about the mortgage.
- Payments and the collection
- Payments and the collection.
- Agencies.
- Agencies.
- >> I do.
- >> I do.
- I just don't talk about it all
- I just don't talk about it all.
- The time like you do.
- The time like you do.
- >> Lynn, I am drowning in this!
[Film projector whirring]
[Whirring stops]
[Crickets chirping]
[Dog barking in distance]
[Dog barking in distance]
Dave?
Dave?
Look.
- >> Look.
- "Nicole and Kenny,
"Nicole and Kenny,
first kiss, April 9th, 1979."
I never saw that.
- I never saw that.
- >> I don't think you were
- >> I don't think you were.
- Supposed to.
I remember when all the.
I remember when all the
little problems seemed so big.
- Little problems seemed so big.
- Boyfriends, braces,
Boyfriends, braces,
a broken collar bone...
- A broken collar bone...
- All the problems I could help
All the problems I could help
her solve.
- Her solve.
- Well, I can't help her solve
Well, I can't help her solve
this one.
- This one.
- I'm learning to accept that.
[Sighs]
[Sighs]
What I can't accept is that
- >> what I can't accept is that.
- I caused it.
- I caused it.
- >> Oh, Dave, what are you
- >> Oh, Dave, what are you.
- Saying?
- Saying?
- You know better than that.
- You know better than that.
- This is not our fault.
This is not our fault.
Not yours, mine.
Not yours, mine.
I had an aunt... aunt Lily.
- I had an aunt... aunt Lily.
- When I was a kid, my parents
- When I was a kid, my parents.
- Never let me see her,
Never let me see her,
but I heard stories about her,
but I heard stories about her,
about the way she was,
about the way she was,
and when I was 12 years old,
and when I was 12 years old,
she killed herself.
- She killed herself.
- I didn't know.
- I didn't know.
- I didn't know it could have
- I didn't know it could have.
- Anything to do with me
- Anything to do with me.
- Or the girls.
And look what I've done to her.
Dave, oh, Dave,
Dave, oh, Dave,
you didn't do this to her.
- You didn't do this to her.
- >> Yes, I did.
Come on, David.
Come on, David.
Come on, go with me.
- Come on, go with me.
- >> What for?
- >> What for?
- >> Maybe we'll learn something.
- >> Maybe we'll learn something.
- Maybe we'll get to talk to
- Maybe we'll get to talk to.
- People who are going through the
- People who are going through the.
- Same thing we're going through.
- Same thing we're going through.
- >> I already know all I want to
- >> I already know all I want to.
- Know about it.
- Know about it.
- I know all of the talking and
- I know all of the talking and.
- Soul-searching in the world
- Soul-searching in the world.
- Is not gonna bring Nikki back.
[Indistinct speech]
You look lost.
- >> You look lost.
- >> Oh, I am.
- >> Oh, I am.
- I'm looking for the family
- I'm looking for the family.
- Support group.
- Support group.
- >> Well, that's where
- >> Well, that's where.
- I'm headed, follow me.
- I'm headed, follow me.
- Oh, hi, I'm Mona.
Oh, hi, I'm Mona.
Lynn.
Lynn.
[Dish clinking]
She's been gone for over a week.
- She's been gone for over a week.
- >> I know so many families
- >> I know so many families.
- In the same situation.
- In the same situation.
- >> You do?
- >> You do?
- >> Yes, unfortunately.
- >> Yes, unfortunately.
- About 1/3 of the men and
- About 1/3 of the men and.
- 2/3 of the women in the streets
- 2/3 of the women in the streets.
- Are schizophrenic.
- Are schizophrenic.
- They call it
- They call it.
- Deinstitutionalization.
[Crowd murmuring]
You ate it; You got to pay
- >> you ate it; You got to pay.
- For it.
- For it.
- >> I can eat in the dining hall
- >> I can eat in the dining hall.
- Anytime I want.
- Anytime I want.
- It's part of my tuition.
- It's part of my tuition.
- >> The lights are on,
The lights are on,
but nobody's home.
- But nobody's home.
- >> And you think this was good?
And you think this was good?
You ate two plates full.
You ate two plates full.
Hold on, hold on, young lady!
- >> Hold on, hold on, young lady!
- >> All right, come on, come on,
- >> All right, come on, come on,
- keep it moving.
Keep it moving.
Let's go.
Can you tell me your name?
Can you tell me your name?
It's just that I can't think.
- >> It's just that I can't think.
- It's too much.
It's too much.
It's filling my head.
- It's filling my head.
- >> Do you know why you're here?
No.
- >> No.
- >> You don't have to be afraid.
You don't have to be afraid.
You're safe now.
- You're safe now.
- Can you tell me where you live?
- Can you tell me where you live?
- >> I just... I can't think.
I just... I can't think.
It's just... it's too fast.
- It's just... it's too fast.
- >> It's all right.
It's all right.
It's all right.
- It's all right.
- Just think one thought
- Just think one thought.
- At a time.
Think about your mother.
- Think about your mother.
- Hear her calling your name.
What's she calling you?
Nikki.
Nikki.
Nikki.
After speaking with your
- >> after speaking with your.
- Doctor, we put her back on her
- Doctor, we put her back on her.
- Medication and her condition
- Medication and her condition.
- Improved.
- Improved.
- She's much better than when she
- She's much better than when she.
- Arrived.
- Arrived.
- >> Will she remain stable now?
- >> Will she remain stable now?
- >> I can't promise you that.
- >> I can't promise you that.
- Frankly speaking, it's anybody's
- Frankly speaking, it's anybody's.
- Guess.
- Guess.
- But she is safe now, and she's
- But she is safe now, and she's.
- Off the street.
- Off the street.
- Being arrested is a blessing
- Being arrested is a blessing.
- In disguise.
- In disguise.
- Some parents pray for that.
- Some parents pray for that.
- >> Is she free to go?
- >> Is she free to go?
- >> Yes, they dropped
Yes, they dropped
the charges.
Hiya.
- >> Hiya.
- >> Almost dry, look how much
- >> Almost dry, look how much.
- Better you look already.
Better you look already.
I bet you feel better too.
- I bet you feel better too.
- I know how you always like your
I know how you always like your
hair clean and fresh.
Hair clean and fresh.
I do.
Hi, lis.
Hi, lis.
Oh, hi, Nikki.
I don't know how you can just.
- >> I don't know how you can just.
- Fall into bed without saying
- Fall into bed without saying.
- A word to her.
A word to her.
I'm tired.
- >> I'm tired.
- >> You were the same way
- >> You were the same way.
- In the car.
- In the car.
- She has feelings, you know.
- She has feelings, you know.
- >> She doesn't know
- >> She doesn't know.
- The difference.
- The difference.
- >> She does.
- >> She does.
- She does know the difference.
She does know the difference.
She knows when someone's
- she knows when someone's.
- Reaching out to her.
- Reaching out to her.
- She just has a problem reaching
She just has a problem reaching
back, that's all,
back, that's all,
but not as much as you do.
- But not as much as you do.
- >> If you're through now,
- >> If you're through now,
- shut off the light so I can get
- Shut off the light so I can get.
- Some sleep.
[Lamp clicks off]
[Lamp clicks off]
[Scoffs]
[Scoffs]
You know, if you want to keep
- you know, if you want to keep.
- Blaming yourself for this,
Blaming yourself for this,
against all reason, you can.
- Against all reason, you can.
- But in the end, Dave, it's just
- But in the end, Dave, it's just.
- Another way of running away from
- Another way of running away from.
- The problem.
[Dog barking in distance]
Mom, I'm home.
- >> Mom, I'm home.
- >> In the kitchen, lis.
[Knock on door]
- [Knock on door]
- Lis?
Lis?
Hi, mom.
- >> Hi, mom.
- >> Why didn't you tell me you'd
- >> Why didn't you tell me you'd.
- Been admitted to Rochester?
- Been admitted to Rochester?
- This is just wonderful.
- This is just wonderful.
- I'm so proud of you.
- I'm so proud of you.
- Oh, good going,
Oh, good going,
aren't you excited?
- Aren't you excited?
- What's the matter?
- What's the matter?
- >> I don't think I'm gonna go.
- >> I don't think I'm gonna go.
- >> What do you mean?
- >> What do you mean?
- Why not?
- Why not?
- >> I know how worried you and
- >> I know how worried you and.
- Dad are about money.
- Dad are about money.
- I don't want to add to your
- I don't want to add to your.
- Burden.
Burden.
Oh, that is so like you.
Thank you, sweetheart,
- thank you, sweetheart,
- but you know what,
- But you know what,
- let dad and me worry about the
- Let dad and me worry about the.
- Money.
- Money.
- >> No.
- >> No.
- >> Yes, yes, your only
- >> Yes, yes, your only.
- Obligation is to get in there
- Obligation is to get in there.
- And just develop your talent
- And just develop your talent.
- And your wonderful music...
- And your wonderful music...
- >> no.
- >> No.
- >> Yes!
- >> Yes!
- >> No, I've made the decision.
- >> No, I've made the decision.
- >> But it's not your decision
- >> But it's not your decision.
- To make, Lisa.
- To make, Lisa.
- You're going to Rochester,
- You're going to Rochester,
- that's it.
- That's it.
- >> It's my life.
- >> It's my life.
- >> Yes, and you're gonna have
- >> Yes, and you're gonna have.
- A wonderful life.
- A wonderful life.
- A wonderful life, you hear me?
- A wonderful life, you hear me?
- I know what your music means to
- I know what your music means to.
- You.
- You.
- I know what it means to me.
- I know what it means to me.
- The lessons, the time,
- The lessons, the time,
- the effort, the... Lisa, I won't
- The effort, the... Lisa, I won't.
- Allow you to throw away your
- Allow you to throw away your.
- Future.
- Future.
- >> What future?
What future?
To end up like Nikki?
To end up like Nikki?
What is the point?
What is the point?
Why bother?
Honey, Lisa, this isn't gonna
- >> honey, Lisa, this isn't gonna.
- Happen to you.
- Happen to you.
- >> It could happen to me, mom.
- >> It could happen to me, mom.
- The neighbors treat me like it
- The neighbors treat me like it.
- Already happened.
- Already happened.
- They won't even let me babysit
- They won't even let me babysit.
- Their kids anymore.
- Their kids anymore.
- >> Because they're ignorant.
- >> Because they're ignorant.
- They're ignorant frightened
- They're ignorant frightened.
- People.
- People.
- >> But maybe it's true, mom.
- >> But maybe it's true, mom.
- I mean, this could happen to me.
- I mean, this could happen to me.
- It happened to Nikki.
- It happened to Nikki.
- It's genetic.
- It's genetic.
- This could happen to me
- This could happen to me.
- Or my children.
- Or my children.
- >> But the chances are so slim,
- >> But the chances are so slim,
- and besides, you can't live your
- And besides, you can't live your.
- Life like that.
- Life like that.
- You cannot give up something
- You cannot give up something.
- That you have always wanted for
- That you have always wanted for.
- Fear of something that may
- Fear of something that may.
- Never ever happen.
- Never ever happen.
- You can't do that.
- You can't do that.
- Remember what Nikki's always
- Remember what Nikki's always.
- Said about making her models?
- Said about making her models?
- You know, she used to say that
- You know, she used to say that.
- A building is built
A building is built
idea by idea.
- Idea by idea.
- That's how you build a life,
That's how you build a life,
moment by moment.
Moment by moment.
Now, see, this is a wonderful
- now, see, this is a wonderful.
- Moment in your life.
- Moment in your life.
- So don't miss it.
So don't miss it.
Take it, Lisa, please.
Yay, that's my girl.
Yay, that's my girl.
Oh, that is my girl.
Isn't Nikki eating with US?
- >> Isn't Nikki eating with US?
- >> She said she wanted to take
- >> She said she wanted to take.
- A nap about an hour ago.
A nap about an hour ago.
I don't want to wake her.
- I don't want to wake her.
- >> I'll check, see if she's up.
[Knock on door]
[Knock on door]
Nikki?
Nikki.
I love you.
Lynn!
It wasn't an accident.
- >> It wasn't an accident.
- The voices didn't say to do it.
- The voices didn't say to do it.
- I said it.
I said it.
I decided.
- I decided.
- I wanted to get away from it.
- I wanted to get away from it.
- I didn't want to hear
- I didn't want to hear.
- The voices anymore,
- The voices anymore,
- have those thoughts in my brain.
- Have those thoughts in my brain.
- I just wanted it to be quiet,
I just wanted it to be quiet,
peaceful, and I did it.
My mom, my dad, and lis,
my mom, my dad, and lis,
I knew I was hurting them and
- I knew I was hurting them and.
- I wanted to stop.
- I wanted to stop.
- I was thinking clearly.
- I was thinking clearly.
- I wanted it to stop before it
I wanted it to stop before it
got bad again,
got bad again,
and then I woke up.
- And then I woke up.
- They looked so sad, and I knew
- They looked so sad, and I knew.
- If I had died, it would
If I had died, it would
hurt them more than if I lived.
How do you feel now, Nikki?
- >> How do you feel now, Nikki?
- >> I feel all right.
- >> I feel all right.
- A little tired from
A little tired from
the medicine.
The medicine.
I'm depressed, and I think
- I'm depressed, and I think.
- I understand better now.
What is it?
- >> What is it?
- >> The voices, I just wish
The voices, I just wish
the voices would go away.
The voices would go away.
Of course you do.
- >> Of course you do.
- >> Sometimes I think about
Sometimes I think about
the things I used to do.
The things I used to do.
Used to be able to do.
I understand.
- >> I understand.
- You'll do different things,
- You'll do different things,
- new things.
- New things.
- Things to make you happy,
- Things to make you happy,
- you will.
Dave.
Dave.
Honey.
Honey.
Just leave me alone.
- >> Just leave me alone.
- Please.
How am I supposed to feed her?
- How am I supposed to feed her?
- >> There is a refrigerator
- >> There is a refrigerator.
- Full of food.
Full of food.
Challenge yourself.
What about her pills?
What about her pills?
Lisa knows.
- >> Lisa knows.
- >> Why don't you just stay here
- >> Why don't you just stay here.
- And stop running around on
- And stop running around on.
- Another wild goose chase?
- Another wild goose chase?
- >> Why don't you stay home for
- >> Why don't you stay home for.
- A change?
- A change?
- You won't go with me.
- You won't go with me.
- You don't want to take care
- You don't want to take care.
- Of Nikki.
- Of Nikki.
- What do you want, Dave?
- What do you want, Dave?
- Don't you think it's time you
- Don't you think it's time you.
- Made that decision?
- Made that decision?
- Look, good or bad, this is the
- Look, good or bad, this is the.
- Only family you've got,
- Only family you've got,
- and while you're deciding, while
- And while you're deciding, while.
- You're thinking over what it is
- You're thinking over what it is.
- That you want to do, I will be
- That you want to do, I will be.
- Doing everything possible to
- Doing everything possible to.
- Make a decent life for our
- Make a decent life for our.
- Daughter.
- Daughter.
- And I'll be damned if you
- And I'll be damned if you.
- Or anybody else'll talk me
- Or anybody else'll talk me.
- Out of that.
[Engine turns over]
[Engine turns over]
[Tires squealing]
And this is?
- And this is?
- >> This is our main activity
- >> This is our main activity.
- Room.
- Room.
- >> It's wonderful.
- >> It's wonderful.
- This is the best place I've
- This is the best place I've.
- Seen.
- Seen.
- >> I don't want to get your
- >> I don't want to get your.
- Hopes up about accepting her
- Hopes up about accepting her.
- Soon.
- Soon.
- We have a very long waiting list
- We have a very long waiting list.
- Here.
- Here.
- >> Oh, well, are there other
- >> Oh, well, are there other.
- Centers like this?
Centers like this?
Very few.
- >> Very few.
- The funding simply
- The funding simply.
- Isn't available,
- Isn't available,
- and those that do exist face
- And those that do exist face.
- The same problems we do.
- The same problems we do.
- There just aren't enough beds.
- There just aren't enough beds.
- I know you worry about your
- I know you worry about your.
- Daughter and probably feel
- Daughter and probably feel.
- Guilty about not being able
- Guilty about not being able.
- To keep her at home,
- To keep her at home,
- but you shouldn't.
- But you shouldn't.
- It's a natural progression.
- It's a natural progression.
- A child... even a sick child...
- A child... even a sick child...
- Needs to leave the nest and find
- Needs to leave the nest and find.
- A peer group, social interests,
- A peer group, social interests,
- an occupation.
- An occupation.
- Here, people with schizophrenia
- Here, people with schizophrenia.
- Can do all those things
- Can do all those things.
- In a protective environment.
- In a protective environment.
- >> I wonder, Gary, you know,
- >> I wonder, Gary, you know,
- if it's good for her to be with
- If it's good for her to be with.
- Other people with problems.
- Other people with problems.
- Won't it just make her worse?
- Won't it just make her worse?
- >> What we've found is that
- >> What we've found is that.
- The healthier patients help
- The healthier patients help.
- The more dysfunctional patients.
- The more dysfunctional patients.
- It doesn't pull them down.
- It doesn't pull them down.
- It's good for them.
- It's good for them.
- It makes them feel useful.
- It makes them feel useful.
- It builds their confidence,
- It builds their confidence,
- gives them an opportunity
- Gives them an opportunity.
- To care for someone.
- To care for someone.
- To use emotional muscles that
- To use emotional muscles that.
- May have atrophied during their
- May have atrophied during their.
- Own illness.
Can I help?
- >> Can I help?
- >> No, that's all right.
- >> No, that's all right.
- Lisa will be home soon.
Nikki, wait.
- Nikki, wait.
- You want to help me
You want to help me
with the salad?
With the salad?
Okay.
Everybody starts out working
- >> everybody starts out working.
- Here at the house, and then they
- Here at the house, and then they.
- Move up.
- Move up.
- >> You mean to jobs outside
- >> You mean to jobs outside.
- The center?
- The center?
- >> Yes, that's the goal.
- >> Yes, that's the goal.
- >> Oh.
- >> Oh.
- What kind of jobs
- What kind of jobs.
- Do they get?
- Do they get?
- >> Well, we have a mechanic,
- >> Well, we have a mechanic,
- a sales clerk, a bank teller.
- A sales clerk, a bank teller.
- Then there's my job, and I'm
- Then there's my job, and I'm.
- Planning to keep it for a while.
- Planning to keep it for a while.
- >> How long have you been here?
- >> How long have you been here?
- >> Two years, but I've been
Two years, but I've been
schizophrenic for ten.
- Schizophrenic for ten.
- Are you surprised?
Are you surprised?
No, no, no.
No, no, no.
It works every time.
[Plate shattering]
- [Plate shattering]
- >> It doesn't matter.
It doesn't matter.
No, we have plenty of plates.
- No, we have plenty of plates.
- >> No, I break everything.
- >> No, I break everything.
- I can't do anything right
- I can't do anything right.
- Anymore.
Anymore.
Honey, that's not true.
- >> Honey, that's not true.
- You help me.
- You help me.
- You help me a lot.
You help me a lot.
No, I mess everything up.
- >> No, I mess everything up.
- >> No, baby, you make everything
- >> No, baby, you make everything.
- Right.
- Right.
- When you were away, I missed you
- When you were away, I missed you.
- So much.
So much.
I almost stopped.
- I almost stopped.
- I was so sad.
Just being with you
just being with you
makes me happy.
Makes me happy.
You're my little girl,
- you're my little girl,
- and I-I really love you.
I don't want to be sick.
- >> I don't want to be sick.
- Anymore.
For eight years,
- >> for eight years,
- I went through the cycle.
- I went through the cycle.
- I'd live at home until my family
- I'd live at home until my family.
- Couldn't handle the pressure
- Couldn't handle the pressure.
- Anymore.
- Anymore.
- Then I'd go to a board and care.
- Then I'd go to a board and care.
- After a while, I'd have a
- After a while, I'd have a.
- Crisis, end up in the hospital,
- Crisis, end up in the hospital,
- get drugged up real heavy and
- Get drugged up real heavy and.
- Wind up back at home until
- Wind up back at home until.
- My family couldn't handle
- My family couldn't handle.
- The pressure anymore,
- The pressure anymore,
- over and over.
- Over and over.
- Then I came here.
Then I came here.
See, Nicole could...
- >> see, Nicole could...
- Nicole could be like you.
- Nicole could be like you.
- >> It can take years to get into
- >> It can take years to get into.
- A place like this and even
- A place like this and even.
- Longer to turn a life around,
Longer to turn a life around,
but it can happen.
But it can happen.
[Door opens]
- [Door opens]
- >> I'm back!
I'm back!
[Door closes]
[Door closes]
Dave?
Dave?
[Dog barking in distance]
Mmm, this is good.
- >> Mmm, this is good.
- >> Why, 'cause you made it?
Why, 'cause you made it?
Hi, honey.
- >> Hi, honey.
- >> Hey.
- >> Hey.
- >> Hey, mom.
- >> Hey, mom.
- >> Hi, mom, welcome home.
- >> Hi, mom, welcome home.
- >> You hungry?
- >> You hungry?
- >> I was, but I lost my appetite
- >> I was, but I lost my appetite.
- As I passed through the kitchen.
- As I passed through the kitchen.
- >> Oh, that.
- >> Oh, that.
- >> Oh, we can clean that up.
- >> Oh, we can clean that up.
- >> No, no, no, just don't move.
- >> No, no, no, just don't move.
- Okay?
Okay?
Please, I will be right back.
- Please, I will be right back.
- >> Hold on.
I'll get it. I'll get it.
Thanks.
- >> Thanks.
- >> How was the center?
How was the center?
Promising, but frustrating.
How so?
I saw some young people.
I saw some young people
today, some who were
- today, some who were.
- As seriously ill as Nikki,
- As seriously ill as Nikki,
- who seemed to be finding some
- Who seemed to be finding some.
- Happiness, some fulfillment
Happiness, some fulfillment
in their lives.
- In their lives.
- I know Nikki will never have
- I know Nikki will never have.
- The future she might've had,
The future she might've had,
but she can have a future.
- But she can have a future.
- I saw that today.
Then we'll make sure
- >> then we'll make sure.
- She gets in.
- She gets in.
- >> That's the frustrating part.
- >> That's the frustrating part.
- The waiting list is years long,
- The waiting list is years long,
- and there's no guarantee,
- And there's no guarantee,
- even then.
Even then.
Years?
When I think back over what
- >> when I think back over what.
- We've been through this past
- We've been through this past.
- Eight months...
It won't be so rough.
It won't be so rough.
We'll handle it.
We'll handle it.
The two of US.
Go ahead.
- Go ahead.
- >> Okay, good, girls, just stay
- >> Okay, good, girls, just stay.
- Right where you are.
Right where you are.
Act natural.
- Act natural.
- No, Lisa, don't wave, honey.
No, Lisa, don't wave, honey.
Good, yeah, great.
Good, yeah, great.
Now, come on out.
That's nice.
Ah, there they are.
Ah, there they are.
Good, lis.
Aw, look at those three.
Now, you.
- >> Now, you.
- >> Oh.
Oh.
Right, okay.