Since I Don't Have You (2013) - full transcript

(energetic piano music)

(somber reflective music)

- Dad?

(sobbing)

- You have no idea what I've been through.

No fucking idea.

She was (sobbing).

She was driving me crazy.

They were all driving me crazy.

I gave your mom the drugs to help.

To help her.



They let her sleep, they kept her up

but then she needed them
and after awhile, so did I.

(sobbing)

I just couldn't take it anymore.

She was afraid, I was afraid.

Our lives imploded.

Jesus, I hope you never know
what the fuck that's like.

- Dad, Dad please just put down the gun.

We can work this out.

This is fucking crazy.

- No!

Its time

(crowd cheering)

- All right, alright, all right.



Are you ready for song time?

I said are you ready for song time?

It is indeed a great pleasure of mine

to introduce at this particular time

fresh off their national caravan loop

put your hands together for the Skyliners.

(soft rock music)

- They're white?

These suckers are white.

(vocalizing)

- [Narrator] The Skyliners
released their single

"Since I Don't Have You" the
day after Christmas in 1958.

It went gold immediately and
changed their lives forever.

In addition to "Since I Don't Have You"

the Skyliners are released "This I Swear"

"Tired of Me", "Lonely Way" and more,

solidifying their place in music history

all before the British Invasion.

And then, after all
that, they just stopped.

But in the 70s, they realized
they loved being together,

singing, performing,

and to some extent they
even loved touring.

The first time I ever
saw The Skyliners perform

was in 1976 and that is where
this story really begins.

- This is fucking bullshit.

- Kerry, calm down.

- Calm down, how am I
supposed to calm down?

You didn't even realize I'm out there.

- I have to go out for the encore.

(pounding at door)

- I tell you when you go on.

- Not so hard, you're hurting me.

- I saw you, Janie, you winked at him.

- Kerry, I was having a good time.

You set me up and by the way,

he pays for your lifestyle.

So calm down.

- Hey bud, looking good, looking good.

How you feeling?

- Okay, I guess.

- Got your camera?

Big night tonight.

What are you still back here, though?

- Mom and dad are still
in the dressing room.

- What?

Jan, let's go.

- Hey Dad, can I sit
with Grandma and Gramp?

'cause I want to film the show.

- Yeah sure, let's go.

(crowd cheering)

- Don't you know them,
let's bring them back out.

Pittsburgh very own, The Skyliners.

(cheering)

- Hi everyone, I'm sorry
but somehow it always seems

to take us a little longer
to do our hair and makeup

than we expect, doesn't it ladies?

(applause)

And gentlemen, I don't look
like this 24 hours a day.

I know it may seem like it right now but.

(soft early rock)

♪ This I swear ♪

♪ Is true ♪

♪ My love for you ♪

♪ Will last ♪

♪ Till time itself ♪

♪ Is through ♪

♪ Oh my darling ♪

♪ Oh my darling ♪

♪ This I swear is true ♪

♪ My heart is yours ♪

♪ My dear ♪

♪ There will be no one new ♪

♪ Oh my darling ♪

♪ Oh my darling ♪

♪ This is swear is true ♪

♪ Swear is true ♪

♪ I promise you ♪

♪ And I ♪

- Hey man, you're 300 short.

- Yeah well talk to
that big son of a bitch,

he threw a shot glass
through the mirror backstage.

That's why you're short.

- Fucking Kerry.

♪ Cross my heart ♪

♪ And hope to die ♪

♪ My lips will kiss ♪

♪ I vow ♪

♪ Nobody else ♪

♪ But you ♪

♪ Oh my darling ♪

♪ Oh my darling ♪

♪ This ♪

♪ I swear ♪

♪ Is true ♪

♪ This I swear is true ♪

♪ This I swear is true ♪

♪ This is swear is true ♪

♪ This I swear ♪

(vocalizing)
(film reel clicking)

- [Janet Voiceover] This next
song goes out to my husband

and my three beautiful children.

Marlo, Kip, Gavin.
(applause)

(upbeat early rock music)

(vocalizing)

♪ I can't see ♪

♪ No matter how near ♪

♪ You'll be ♪

♪ You'll never belong to me ♪

♪ But I can dream ♪

♪ Can't I ♪

♪ Can't I pretend that
I'm lost in the bend ♪

♪ Of your embrace ♪

♪ For dreams are just like wine ♪

♪ And I am drunk with my ♪

♪ I am aware ♪

♪ My heart is a sad affair ♪

♪ There's much disillusion there ♪

♪ But I can dream ♪

♪ Can't I ♪

♪ Can't I ♪

♪ Adore you ♪

♪ Although we are oceans apart ♪

♪ I can't make you open your heart ♪

♪ But I can dream ♪

♪ Can't I ♪

(upbeat early rock music)

♪ Can't I ♪

♪ Adore you ♪

♪ Although we are oceans apart ♪

♪ I can't make you open your heart ♪

♪ But I can dream ♪

♪ Can't I ♪

♪ (Vocalizing) ♪

(applause)

(radio playing softly)

- Are you coming with us?

- Soon honey, soon.

Did you have a good time tonight?

- It was the best, Mom.

- [Kerry] Gavin, let's go.

- Mom.

- Listen, Gavin, I love you.

I'll see you in a few weeks.

- A few weeks, what?

- Don't worry, honey,
everything's gonna be all right.

(radio playing softly in background)

- Where's Mom going?

- Tonight was the beginning of a tour.

She's going to four more cities,

she won't be back for two weeks.

- Why does she have to do that?

- Well I guess she loves her
singing more than she loves us.

- [Announcer] Would you please welcome

a group that flew all the
way in from their hometown,

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania,

to be with our anniversary
celebration tonight,

here are The Skyliners.

(crowd roaring)
♪ I knew somehow ♪

♪ That you would smile ♪

♪ It happened ♪

♪ It happened today ♪

♪ Ask me to move on my time ♪

♪ And the mountain will change ♪

♪ Its size ♪

♪ I do ♪

♪ Where will I go ♪

♪ To be alone ♪

♪ With my misery ♪

♪ Bad news travels fast ♪

♪ People will know ♪

♪ You're tired of me ♪

♪ When I fall in love ♪

♪ It will be ♪

♪ Forever ♪

♪ Or I'll never ♪

♪ Fall ♪

♪ In love ♪

♪ In a restless world ♪

♪ Like this is ♪

♪ Love is ended ♪

♪ Before ♪

♪ Its begun ♪

♪ And too many ♪

♪ Moonlight kisses ♪

♪ Seem too cruel ♪

♪ In the warmth ♪

♪ Of the sun ♪

♪ When I give my heart ♪

♪ It will be ♪

♪ It will be ♪

♪ Completely ♪

♪ I'll never ♪

♪ Give ♪

♪ My heart ♪

♪ And the moment ♪

♪ I can't feel that ♪

♪ You feel that way too ♪

♪ Is when I fall in love ♪

♪ When I fall in love ♪

♪ When I fall in love ♪

♪ With you ♪

(applause)

- [Narrator] After that
tour, The Skyliners were able

to take the summer off
and let me tell you,

my mom and dad made the most of it.

They were like newlyweds.

They constantly went on dates just

to celebrate being together.

They really seemed to love
each other during those times.

My dad didn't have to share my mom.

She wasn't under any pressure.

She could just be herself.

I really wish those summers
would of lasted longer.

(radio in background)

- Kerry?

Kerry?

- Shit.

I'll be out in a minute.

- [Janet] We have a grade
orientation at the school.

- Hey, I'm gonna play with Gramp's camera.

- Okay, honey.

Hey, give me a kiss.

Kerry?

Hey.

- Hey.

- [Janet] What you doing?

- Counting mother's little helpers.

- Oh, I need some.

I'm feeling a little
after that school visit.

- Take this.

(film reel clicking)

- I can see you.

- So what you guys doing?

- Hey while the kids
are downstairs playing,

I've got to call Joe about a gig.

- You got to call Joe about a gig?

How about let's not and
say that you did, okay?

(laughing)

Why don't we do this instead?

This is a much better idea.

I missed you.

- Not taking anymore
of this bullshit, Joe.

I'm not.

- He's not coming this time,
Jimmy, you know that, relax.

- Does Jan know that yet?

- Jan knows it.

Listen, Jimmy, you don't
know the half of this shit.

- Yeah, what could be worse
than being a complete dick

to us and holding Jan hostage
whenever he feels like it?

- Well for one thing, he wants us

to pick up his plane tickets.

- What?

- And then he wants us
to pay for his salary

for the time he's off and then he wants us

to pay for a baby sitter,
which is his mother.

So when he comes it's
double, everything is double.

- For Christ sake, Joe,
this has got to stop.

Wally and Joe want to quit
because of this jag off.

- I know, I know.

- My shot?

- He's not coming and
that's it, all right?

I'll call Jan right now to
make sure she understands.

(phone ringing)

Hello, is Jan there?

(radio in background)

(phone ringing)

Hey asshole, put your wife on the phone.

- Fucking asshole.

Babe, get up.

Phones for you, he keeps calling back.

- Hello?

- Hey Jan, its Joe, how you doing?

We were wondering how you
were, how are the kids,

how's everything over there?

- Yeah, everything's fine, Joe.

- Good, we were wondering
if you had told Kerry

that he's not coming on this trip.

- Uh, I'm gonna take
care of that later, Joe.

- Not too much later we hope, Jan.

Jimmy's blowing a fuse over here.

Wally and Joey V. are ready to quit.

You know, we all have to be
on the same page here, Jan.

- Okay, okay Joe.

- Okay, babe.

We appreciate that.

We are counting on you.

- Don't worry.

- Thanks.

- He doesn't know yet.

- What the hell was that all about?

- Just info for the tour.

(game buzzing)
(kid laughing)

- Damn it, Marlo.

- Get Mom.

- No, you get her this time.

- Come on, Gavin.

- Ugh, fine.

Kip, make sure she keeps that on her face.

- Hey, wasn't that my piece?

(muttering)

- We talked about this.

I go with you or you don't go.

We had a deal, I don't trust them.

They pay me to protect you and them.

Jan, listen.
- Kerry.

They don't want you around anymore.

They don't like you messing with the staff

and bothering the waitresses

and they don't like you
making sure the girls see you

watch your dirty movies backstage.

Imagine that.

- Mom, Dad.

Marlo's nose is bleeding again.

- I'll go.

- No, I'll go.

- Fine.

- Okay, well why don't you and Kippy go up

and get a Popsicle?

It will cool you off, be
good for your nosebleed.

Okay?
- Okay.

- Come on, Kip.

- Hey, Marlo, wipe your nose, okay.

- Mom, why did Dad push you?

(Jan sighs)

- Come here.

He's just frustrated, honey,

cause mom's got to go on
the road again for awhile.

- But you just got home.

- I know, it won't be right away.

It will be in a couple weeks.

- But I'm starting a new school
again in a couple of weeks.

- And I'll be there, you'll see.

Everything's gonna be fine.

- I thought we were gonna
be together for awhile.

- We are but then I have to go back

to sing for a little bit.

- But why?

- Gavin, you know I love you.

You're so important to me.

I care about you so much.

This is the last big tour for a long time.

I won't have to sing much after this.

We'll be able to pay for this house.

We'll have lots of time
to hang out together.

I just have to do this one more thing

and we'll be all set.

Okay?

(water running)

- [Kerry] Not taking me on tour, huh?

We'll see.

(laughing)

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you,

and fuck you.

(Walkie talkie chatter)

hey, hey, hey turn this on.

What the hell are you doing in here?

- I was, I was just.

Dad, what are these?

- Gavin, do not ever go in here.

These are your mothers.

You go in this bag again I
will ground you for life.

- Is she gonna be ready by the time--

- Yeah she's gonna be ready.

Shut up, you're gonna wake her up.

Now go get Marlo and Kip.

Now.

Oh come here.

(laughing)

How you doing?

I'm gonna miss you.

I got to go to work.

Kippy's waiting for me in the car, okay?

I'm taking him to a friends house

and he's spending the night.

Now Mom's gonna take you guys to school.

Mem, when you hear the alarm go off

can you please make sure she's up?

You got it?

- Yes.

- Okay, and Gavin, wait for her at school.

Come home together, okay?

- Yup.

- All right, love you.

See ya, buddy.

(alarm ringing)

- (distorted echos) Mom, Mom come on.

Wake up, we got to go to school.

- (distorted echos) Mom, come on.

- mom, mom, let's go.

We have to go, we have to go.

- What are we gonna do?

- Let's just walk.

Come on, I know the way.

(clock ticking)

(alarm blaring)
(upbeat early rock)

♪ Well we're gonna have a happy time ♪

♪ Well when my baby
walks through the door ♪

♪ I aint gonna have the blues no more ♪

♪ I'm gonna go ♪

Marlo!

Marlo, Mem, slow down.

Watch for cars!

Okay, wait.

Wait, wait, wait.

Okay, let's just, let's take
a breather for a second, okay?

- Okay.

- Dad said that we had to stick together.

(upbeat early rock)

Come on.

- Come on, you're gonna let
your little sister beat you?

- Oh my god.
- Marlo!

(music distorts and slows)

Marlo!
- Don't, don't move her.

Don't move, what was
she doing on the tracks?

What where you guys coming from?

Where do you live at?

- Up, up there, over the hill.

I need my mom.

- Go get your mom, I'll be here with her.

Go get your mom.

(somber music)

- Mom, Mom come on, you need to get up.

Mom come on, get up.

Marlo got hit by a trolley.

Come on.

Mom, mom get up.

We need to help her.

Mom.

- My baby.

(sobbing)

no, no.
(sirens in distance)

Help!

Help.

Help, somebody.

Come on.

Please help.

(sobbing)

- [Radio] Officer Rapp, 572.

- Officer Rapp.

- [Radio] We have report
that your daughter

was involved in an
accident with a trolley.

She's at at Jefferson Hospital right now.

The captain says you should proceed

to that 1020, immediately.

Take care, buddy.

Hope everything's okay.

- I'm on my way.

(somber music)

- Mrs. Rapp, can I see
you for a minute, please?

We've looked at the
x-rays, nothings broken.

Just a few minor abrasions.

She's a lucky girl.

Is that your husband?

- Jesus Christ.

- Where have you been?

We've all be worried sick.

I was out all day from the
sleeping pills you gave me.

If it weren't for Gavin
Marlo would probably dead.

- This is your fault.

- What?

- I gave you an upper this morning,

it should have kicked in.

You know what, be a mother, be a star.

You can't be both, okay, and it shows.

(slap lands)

- You're the one that
wants me to be a star.

The kids want me to be a mother.

Christ, what do you want me to do?

If I go to a party or I
talk to a fan, you go nuts.

You're such a paranoid son of a bitch.

- You know what?
- I can't keep living

like this anymore.

- Fuck you.

- [Gavin] Mom, Dad.

- Hey.

- Gavin can stay here with Kerry but

Marlo and Kip, I just don't have the...

Kerry's mom?

Over my dead body.

Please, CC, please.

You've got to help me.

- Oh god.

Okay.

- Oh my god.

Oh CC, thanks so much.

You're a life saver.

I just, I just.

I don't even know how to thank...

Oh, uh, hi Gav.

I didn't see you there.

Shit.

Hey sis, I got to go.

Yeah, okay.

Hey, thanks.

Bye.

- Who was that?

- Aunt CC.

Gavin, come here.

I'm gonna take Marlo and Kip
over to stay at her place

for awhile and you're
gonna stay here with Dad.

You know, just the guys.

- Dad was right, huh?

- About what, honey?

- You love your singing
more than you love us.

- Oh Gavin, oh come here, honey.

You know I love you.

More than anything.

And I'll always be with
you no matter where I am.

Always, always.

- How long will they be gone?

- I don't know.

Listen, things aren't working out with me

and your mom, again.

I don't think we're gonna
be together anymore.

Mommy doesn't love me, this house

or anything right now.

(upbeat early rock music)

- [Narrator] I figured that my dad

and I would just make the best of it

and we did, we had a
really good time together.

We played football and I'd
pretend I was the Steelers

and he was the Raiders.

My dad really wanted
me to do well in school

so he helped me with my homework.

He was going to night school, too,

so we few nights a week we worked together

at the dining room table.

We tried to be together
as much as we could,

even if it was just doing
our homework, I didn't care.

After the holidays came and went,

I figured it was gonna
be like this from now on.

Just me and my dad.

Which was fine with me.

I loved my dad and I thought he

was the coolest guy in the world.

But I still really missed my
mom and Marlo and Kippy a lot.

I wondered if I'd ever see them again.

(upbeat early rock music)

- [Answering Machine] Kerry, hi.

I know its been some time but listen,

I'm going on another tour.

I don't know when I'm gonna get back

but I just, I want just
wanted to say that I love you.

I love Gavin.

But I'm gonna need a little more time.

I've just been having
a real rough go of it

and I think about you
and I think about Gavin.

So I uh, listen I, I got to go.

I just need some time.

CC has the information on the tour

and I just wanted you to know

I'll see you later.

I love you, Gavin.

Bye.

(urinating)

(fleshy thumping)
(person groaning)

- Dad?

(metal clatters)

(coughing)

Fuck, Dad!

Dad, Dad.

(groaning and panting)

(somber reflective piano music)

- So, they're telling
me he took strychnine.

- Yeah, if Gavin hadn't found him

he wouldn't be with us.

- Unbelievable.

- Excuse me, I have to take this.

- Sure.

Listen, kiddo.

Your dad is real sick.

He needs to stay here for awhile.

You're gonna come and stay with me.

Come on.

(somber reflective music)

There you go.

Try to get some sleep.

We'll get some things
sorted out in the morning.

Marlo and Kip will be happy to see you.

Goodnight.

(somber reflective piano music)

- All right, children.

One more show tonight, four more next week

and then we rest a little bit.

How bout right here, is that okay?

And then Cleveland.

- Nice.

(phone ringing)

- Hello?

- Jan, it's CC.

Look, I don't know how to tell you this

so I'm just gonna say it straight up.

Kerry tried to kill himself last night.

- Oh my god.

- He took strychnine.

- Can you hold on?

Guys, I gotta talk to CC.

Can we pick this up later?

I'll be up in a little bit.

Order some room service.

- He's at Jefferson Hospital.

He's in a private room.

It was really bad, almost fatal.

Gavin found him and called the police.

Doctor says he's gonna be okay.

- How's Gav?

- He's been a trooper, Jan.

Yeah.

Listen, I enrolled him in
a school down the street.

I can't have another kid
staying home with me all day.

Oh, I'll go crazy.

Jesus, Gavin, you scared
the shit out of me.

Cigarette, hon.

It's your mom, you want to say hi?

- Hi, Mom.

- Hi honey, how are you?

- Okay, I guess.

I really miss you.

- Do you like staying at Aunt CC's?

- Not really.

Mom, listen, Dad's really sick.

When are you gonna be home?

- Oh soon, honey, soon.

Be strong.

Mom's gotta go rehearse for the show now

but I'll see you soon.

I love you.

- Jan, can you send some flowers to Kerry?

He's at Jefferson.

- Yeah, yeah I'll send him some flowers.

Listen, Cees, I'll talk
to you later, okay?

Okay, bye.

- Your mom, the rockstar.

- Hi.

- Nice flowers.

- Of course they are, they're for you.

- Thank you.

- Oh it is so good to see you.

- How do you feel?

- Better now that you're here.

- Let's get out of here.

(tires screech)

(upbeat rockabilly music)

♪ And you're a troublemaker ♪

♪ And an old heart breaker ♪

♪ Mama said it all along ♪

♪ I aint being funny ♪

♪ Listen to me sonny ♪

♪ Mama won't steer you wrong ♪

♪ Well my momma done told me ♪

♪ That you do me dirt ♪

♪ Dirt dirt dirt ♪

♪ She said hey listen sonny ♪

♪ You're gonna wind up hurt ♪

♪ Hurt hurt hurt ♪

♪ Mama told me stay away from her ♪

- So, as long as you're
enrolled in this school,

for the time being, you'll be
able to finish the 8th grade.

So how have things been
at our place so far?

Not too bad, is it?

(coughing)

I missed the turn into the school.

(phone ringing)

- [Voicemail] Kerry, it's CC--

(soft rock music)
(banging on desk)

♪ I'll go my lonely way ♪

♪ Now that you're gone ♪

♪ I'll walk the lonely streets ♪

♪ From dusk till dawn ♪

♪ If I can walk along ♪

♪ With you ♪

♪ Than I'll go my lone ♪

♪ Lonely way ♪

♪ You had to go your way ♪

♪ I don't know why ♪

♪ If friends should ask me dear ♪

♪ What's my reply ♪

♪ That's why I go on ♪

♪ Loving you ♪

♪ And go on my lonely way ♪

♪ I've had my chance ♪

♪ For romance ♪

♪ Romance ♪

♪ To give my heart ♪

♪ A new ♪

♪ A new ♪

♪ But when you said goodbye dear ♪

♪ Goodbye dear ♪

♪ Although you took my heart and soul ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ I'll say a prayer tonight ♪

♪ For your return ♪

♪ Until you're home again ♪

♪ My heart will yearn ♪

♪ Till you are in my arms again ♪

♪ I'll go my lonely ♪

♪ Way ♪

♪ Way ♪

♪ Way way ♪

(cheering)

- Hey, you gave us all a
pretty big scare there.

The guys were here earlier but
you were a little out of it.

But they left your car in the lot

and your keys and things
are in the closet.

So um, listen I have to,

gonna have to call and
cancel some of these shows

and so on, you know that,

but you're in good hands here

but you know sooner or
later Kerry's gonna show up.

- Hey, Kerry, how's it going?

Hey, I just heard your wife
was admitted Presbyterian.

Everything all right?

- Uh yeah, yeah.

I'm actually going there now.

Thanks.
- Okay, well if you need

anything you let me know, all right?

- All right, thanks.

- Okay, take it easy.

- Look, you're really vulnerable right now

so just don't let him manipulate you.

I don't know what else to say,

just don't let him
bullshit you, that's all.

I have to go.

But I'll be back tomorrow.

So, um, if you need anything,

if you need anything, just call me.

Just call me.

I'm parked in East Lot,
how do I get back there?

- You know you might
get lost if I told you.

Let me show you.

- Okay, thank you, darling.

- Keys.

(elevator beeping)

- [Intercom] Dr. Hipasec, 2945.

(intercom in background)

- Kerry?

Hi, how are you?

- Had to go on the road again, huh?

- CC said you tried to commit suicide.

She said you took strychnine.

- Yeah, I did and guess what?

It brought you back.

Jesus, Jan.

I told you can't do this without me.

We're a team.

Look, CC need's you to sign some things

for the kids for school, okay

and for the tutor, here you go.

Just need you to sign right here.

- [Jan] What is this?

- [Kerry] It's just stuff for school.

- I'm not signing this.

What the hell's the matter with you?

Nurse.

- Listen.
(muffled cries)

You're gonna sign it, you're gonna sign,

I'm gonna take Gavin and you will never

ever see him again, do you hear me?

I am sick and tired of being ignored, Jan.

I protected you and them.

They want to cast me aside and you, too?

No, you know you're never
there for me anymore

and you're not there for the kids, either.

Let's take a step in the right
direction for a change, okay.

Just sign the fucking papers.

- I would rather die.

(soft rock and roll playing in background)

- [Kerry Voiceover] You
love your singing more

than you love us.

I'm gonna take Gavin and you
will never ever see him again.

Do you hear me?

- [Joe Voiceover] Look, you're
really vulnerable right now.

You're really vulnerable right now

so don't him manipulate you.

I don't know what else to say.

Just don't let him
bullshit you, that's all.

(T.V. in background)

- [Jan] CC, CC.

Come on, open up, it's Jan.

- Mom!

- Oh Marlo, Kip.

I missed you.

Where's Aunt CC?

- She went to the hospital to visit you.

- Why would she go to the hospital?

Where's Gavin?

- Mom, he's at school.

- I need to pick up Gavin Rapp.

I need to pick up Gavin Rapp, he's my son.

- Ma'am, may I please see some I.D.?

- Oh damn it.

Just, where is he?

I need him.
- Please, Please.

Calm down.
- I need him

and I will not calm down.

Just, where is he?

I need him, I need him now.

- Mom, Kip is crying for you in the car.

- Where is he?
- Calm down.

- I will not calm down.

- Mom, Kip is crying for you in the car.

- Where is he?

- Ma'am, all of the children

have been dismissed for the day.

- You could of told me that sooner.

Come on out of here.

- Are we visiting Grandma Rapp?

- No, Grandma's visiting
your uncle in Florida.

- Is Mom here then?

Are we seeing Mom?

- Listen, Mom isn't well.

- What do you mean?

- She is a bit crazy right now.

- What are you talking about?

- Why do you think she left you behind?

- She wouldn't do that.

- Yeah, well she did, Gavin.

Okay, we have to stick
together on this one.

Come on, man.

Look, I already enrolled
you in a new school.

It's gonna be a new start for us.

I need you with us on this one, Kemosabe.

Are you with me?

Come on, let's go.

(bell ringing)

- Gentlemen, gentlemen, this is Gavin Rapp

and Gavin Rapp comes to
us from the far reaches

of the South Hills.

How 'bout a nice central
welcome for Gavin?

(kids saying hi)

- Hi.

- [Kerry Voiceover] Hey, Gav,
hope you had a good day today.

I made a sandwich for you in the fridge.

I'll be home later on tonight.

Love you.

(clock chiming)

(pounding at door)

- [Joe] Kerry, you fucking bastard!

- She'll be out in a minute.

- Please, Kerry.

Come on, honey.

The kids are waiting outside.

- I love you.

I really love you.

- [Joe] Come on Kerry,
you sick fucking bastard!

- Wow, really?

- Joe!

- God damn it.

- Come on, come on.

Standing room only out there.

Your kids are out there.

And you, my sick fuck friend,
this is the last fucking time.

The last fucking time.

So help me, God, Kerry.

I'll blow your fucking
head off man, I will.

Hey listen.

(cheering)

They love her out there.

You hear that?

Hey listen, you know,

your kids are waiting for you.

You know stick close to your kids

because they're gonna save your life.

They're the only saving
grace you've got left.

(somber reflective music)

- Gav.

Listen.

I thought that in some crazy way

if I kept all her stuff she
wouldn't go on the road again.

I know, I know

but I don't know what
else to do right now.

I mean...

I think your mom wants to leave me, us,

and if I don't do something,
that's what she'll do.

It's just all so complicated.

You don't want Mom to leave us, do you?

- Dad, I don't want to do this anymore.

- Hey thanks, Joe.

I really appreciate it.

This time I just want to get my son.

Oh I know where he is, all right.

Anytime Kerry has any problems,
he runs home to his mother.

I'm sure they're staying at her place.

No, she's in Florida.

If we're lucky, Gavin will
just be there by himself.

Okay, Joe.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Hey, thanks again for doing this.

Bye.

(soft rock in background)

(soft rock and roll)

♪ Where have they gone ♪

♪ Memories of you ♪

♪ All the vows that we made ♪

♪ Cherished them so much ♪

♪ Was true love always ♪

♪ Only meant for yesterday ♪

♪ Where is the song ♪

♪ Where is the song ♪

♪ Our hearts used to sing ♪

♪ Like the sound of a symphony ♪

♪ Like the breathless touch of spring. ♪

- Are you sure Kerry isn't gonna be there?

- Oh, the University can't
run unless Kerry's on the job.

- [Joe] Unless he's on the road with us.

- Yeah.

- Oh Jan.

- Joe, right here.

Look I'm gonna go and get Gav.

I'll be right back.

- [Joe] How do you know
he's gonna be here?

- [Jan] Oh I don't but it's after school,

he'll be here soon.

(clock chiming)
(phone ringing)

(knocking at door)

- Just a minute.

Hello?

Oh, hi, Dad.

Uh uh.

Okay, okay.

See you soon.

- Jan, Jan!

- Joe, Joe up here.

- Shit.

Kerry's in the building.

We gotta go, come on, let's go.

Yeah, we're gonna leave.

Let's go.

Come on, let's go.

We gotta go, come on.

We're leaving, let's go, hustle up.

- Kerry.

- What the fuck?

What the fuck are you two doing here?

- I came to get Gavin.

He let me in here.

- Bullshit.

- Fuck you, you sick bastard.

- Stop stop.
- It's okay, Dad,

it's okay.

I let Mom in.

- Joe, just stop it.

- She's right, Joe.

I'm in my uniform, you're in my house

threatening me with a gun.

- He's right, Joe.

Just call down.

- Now what the fuck do you want?

- I want my son.

I want our son.

- God damn it, Jan.

You don't have to bargain

with this motherfucker.
- Joe shut the fuck up

or you're not gonna leave here.

- Kerry, please.

- Why don't you think about
your kids, for a change,

asshole, think about your kids.

- Joe, just quit.

(knocking at door)

- [Kerry] Who is it?

- [Woman] Kerry, you said
you'd be out in a minute.

- It's not a good time right now.

- [Woman] What the hell's taking so long?

- Ge the fuck out of here,
I'll talk to you later.

It's up to you, Jan.

You know what you have to do.

- Okay, Kerry.

- What's going on here?

- Nothing, Joe.

It doesn't matter.

- Mom?

(cheering)

- Good evening, ladies and gentlemen.

Welcome to Shafallows.

This time it gives me great pleasure

to introduce Pittsburgh own The Skyliners.

(vocalizing)
(soft rock and roll)

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Plans and schemes ♪

♪ And I don't have ♪

♪ Hopes and dreams ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Anything ♪

♪ Since I don't ♪

♪ Have you ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Fond desires ♪

♪ And I don't have ♪

♪ Happy hours ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Anything ♪

♪ Since I don't ♪

♪ Have you ♪

♪ I don't have happiness ♪

♪ And I guess ♪

♪ I never will ever again ♪

♪ When you walked out on me ♪

♪ In walked old misery ♪

♪ And he's been here ♪

♪ Since then ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ Don't have ♪

♪ love to share ♪

♪ And I ♪

♪ Don't have ♪

♪ One who cares ♪

♪ I don't have anything ♪

♪ Since ♪

♪ I don't ♪

♪ Have ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ (Vocalizing) ♪

(cheering)

- This is the lamb of God who takes away

the sins of the world.

Happy are those who are
called in his supper.

(crowd all praying)

(somber organ music)

♪ Here I am lord ♪

♪ Is it I lord ♪

♪ I have heard you ♪

♪ Coming in the night ♪

♪ I will go lord ♪

♪ If you lead me ♪

♪ I will hold your people ♪

♪ In my heart ♪

(crowd chattering)

(phone ringing)

- Hello?

Oh hi, Gram.

Sure, hold on.

Mom, it's Gram.

She wants to tell you something
about the party tomorrow.

- Hi, Mom.

No, it's okay.

It's just me and the kids.

Kerry said he had to work late.

Mom, hold on.

Hey, guys, it's getting late.

Go up and get your baths.

Got a big day tomorrow.

Goodnight, honey.

Goodnight.

What time is the luncheon?

Yeah.

CC, too?

Yeah.

I'm okay.

I guess.

Just taking it day by day.

It isn't easy, though, you know?

Same routine, day in day out.

I don't know how people do it.

God.

Hold on, Mom.

Guys, go to bed, get your baths.

Look, I got to go, Mom.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Did you want me to bring The
Skyliners memorabilia, too?

Okay, I will.

All right.

Goodnight.

(storm rages outside)

- Goodnight, Mom.

- Goodnight, honey.

- Love you.

- I love you, too, honey.

I love you, too.

(door opens)

- Jan!

Baby!

Wake up.

Jan, listen.

- Stop, I'm sleeping.

- Everybody's counting on
you tomorrow, its a big day.

You have to take your pills.

- Stop.

- Oh Jesus.

Okay.

Shit!

- Would you keep it down, please?

- They're already down.

(laughing)

(Jan shushes)

Take some of these, here.

I wiped them off.

- Stop it.

- Jan, Jan.
- No.

- Damn it, Kerry.

(Kerry mumbling)

Asshole.

- These things are getting harder to open.

(Jan shushes)

Take some of these.

- No, I'm not doing this tonight.

Go sleep it off somewhere.

- Shit.
(dog barking)

You fucking woke up the damn dogs.

Take the fucking pills.

Take the fucking, take the fucking pills.

(groaning)
(dogs barking)

Take the fucking pills.

(somber piano music)

- [Kerry Voiceover]
Take the fucking pills.

Take the fucking pills!

- [Jan Voiceover] Get off of me.

- [Kerry Voiceover] Take them.

Now do what I tell you!

- [Jan Voiceover] Go
sleep it off somewhere.

- Take the fucking pills!
- Kerry.

I'm not doing this.

Go sleep it off somewhere

I don't know how people do it.

Day in day out.

Same routine.

God.

- [Kerry Voiceover] Why do
you think she left you behind?

(somber piano music)

(dogs barking)

(somber music)

(coughing)

- Hello?

Mom?

Mom.

(somber tense music)

Mom?

(coughing)
(engine sputtering)

Mom?

Mom!

(coughing)

(distorted rock music)

- In the name of the father and of the son

and of the holy ghost, amen.

Please, everyone, let's
bow our heads for Jan

and pray for her forgiveness.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.

I am not there.

I do not sleep.

I am the sunlight on the ripened grain,

I am the gently falling Autumn rain.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there, I did not die.

May Jan and all the souls
of the faithfully departed

through the mercy of God, rest in peace.

Amen.

In the name of the father and of the son

and of the holy ghost, amen.

(crowd chattering)

- Hey listen, listen.

I know you did this, you son of a bitch.

Now if I could I'd fucking
kill you right now--

- You did this, yeah
you and your fuck ups.

I did my best to save her.

- You did shit.

- Your ruined my life.

Get the fuck out of my sight.

- Jan, no!

Please, wake up.

Please.

- Get off her, you son of a bitch.

What the hells wrong with you?

- Leave him be.

- She's my wife!

- Not anymore.

- [Narrator] Over the next
five years, all of us kids

missed my mom.

My dad moved his mother
and sister in to help us.

I graduated from Central
Catholic High School

and miraculously got accepted

at the University of Pittsburgh.

Marlo graduated from Saint
Paul's and started at Duquesne.

And Kippy was about to finish
high school early with honors

and start at Penn State.

When my dad's mother died,
his sister moved out, quick

and my dad sold the house.

My dad married Peggy.

What a joy.

He wanted to start a new
life with or without us

but I'd say mostly without us.

- Okay, here's the deal.

Now that Peggy and I are
married, we're a new family.

This is our new house.

The three of you have a
room to stay in upstairs

and you're each gonna get
a key to the front door.

That's it.

- But, Dad, I don't have a car.

My part time job is in the South Hills.

How am I gonna get to work?

- Gavin, you're old enough
now that if you don't want

to stay here you can
get a place of your own.

Or you could take a fucking bus.

- A bus from Edgewood to Brentwood?

Yeah right.

- Hey, lump it or leave it.

Marlo's taking the bus to school.

Kippy's gonna finish school
right down here on Maple Street.

- But I don't know anyone there.

- But what difference does that make?

No ones gonna talk to you anyway
because you're an Oriental.

- Why do we have to move, anyway?

- You know what, I'm
not listening to this.

- I can't take this shit anymore.

I got to get the hell out of here.

- What about us?

- Well, you guys can come with me

but I got to tell you if we leave here

there's no going back.

- Well I say we're in.

- [Narrator] We went to the
only person I could think of

who would take us in.

My mothers' mom, Gram.

We got on a bus and we didn't look back.

(upbeat early rock)

We had always loved
Gram, she was wonderful.

She supported all of us during
that very turbulent time

and never complained about more food

or more flushes or any of that bullshit.

She was a rock, a
foundation everyone needed

to take a step forward.

Our grandpa had died shortly after my mom

so Gram was happy to have
people in the house again.

My dad never called.

Not once.

(phone ringing)

- [Answering Machine]
Department of Healthy and Safety

for the University.

Please leave a message.

- Dad, uh, I know we haven't
talked in over a year

but I told you not to marry Peggy.

It would only break us apart.

Yeah.

I can't believe I'm
saying this but we needed

to stay together, we had to be strong.

Shit.

- I'll get it.

- Thanks, Gram.

(soft early rock)

- [Gram] Gavin, you have a visitor.

- Hey Gram, just tell him I'm busy.

- Too busy for Joey Rock?

- Holy shit.

- Its showtime, kid.

Look at this guy.

Gosh.

- It's been years.

- Great to see you.

Look, he's a grown man.

- Oh its good to see you, too.

- Look and he looks like his mom.

Wow.

- Thanks, man.

- Hey.

- So what brings you here?

- Um--

- You staying for dinner?

- That's what brings me here.

Mom's home cooking.

I come back just for that.

- Yeah, I bet.
- Why, you better.

- And I got a call from Jimmy Beaumont

and I need to talk to you
about a couple of things.

Is that all right?

- Yeah sure.
- Sure, yeah.

You want to go out on the patio, talk?

I'll stay in here and cook.

- It sounds like heaven.

(laughing)

- Let's go outside.

- Home cooking.

- Can't beat that.

- Okay, so look, this is
the Holiday House, 1958.

- Oh my gosh.
- See how gorgeous

your mom is?
- That's awesome.

- That's like a prom dress.

She used to wear on stage.

I know, she's a baby doll, she
always looked great on stage.

Always right on the money.

Listen, man, you're um,

you're getting your mom's
royalty checks, right?

- What from the Skyliners?

- Yeah, from our songs that
they play on the radio.

Your supposed to be
getting your mom's share.

Aw man, that's what I was afraid of.

I bet you never saw anything
from your mom's estate,

either did you?

- No but didn't really surprise me.

It took me a long time to realize

who knows if I even came
to terms with it yet

but I don't think my mom really
cared about us that much.

- God damn it, Gavin, don't say that.

Your mom loved you guys
and she left you nearly

a million bucks plus royalties.

Are you telling me you
never saw any of that?

Oh man.

Do you remember that
day your mom and I came

to that apartment in Brooklyn to get you?

- Yeah.
- Why do you think

she did that?

- Well my dad said she had

to come back 'cause she needed money.

- No, she was making more
money than your dad, much more.

She came back because she loved you

and Marlo and Kippy.

She was willing to go back
with your prick father

just so she could be with you

and all the time he was
using her to fuck with us.

You know, he forced us to pay
him to come on tour with us

for protection, as if Joey
fucking Rock needed protection.

He took all the money
your mom made and spent it

and then we always thought
he was getting rough

with her, too, but she
would never talk about that.

- But Joe, if all that's true,

why didn't you guys try to stop him?

- We did try.

You know once I even set it up

to look like we were going on a big tour

just so your mom could get
away from your dad for awhile.

That's when he faked that damn suicide.

- What?

- Yeah, you knew that, right?

- How could I know that?

I was like 11.

- Gavin, he did it when you were home

'cause you knew you'd
be there to save him.

That's how that son of a bitch operates!

Look, I'm sorry, man.

You don't even know what
you're up against, do you?

Look.

When was the last time you talked to him?

- I don't know, like a year ago.

The day we left.

I call him all the time
but he hasn't returned

any of my calls.

- Yeah sure, 'cause he
doesn't want you to find out

what he did.

This is crazy, man.

You know, your mom wanted you to have

what she left you kids.

This is bullshit, man.

Absolutely.

This is, she would of not
liked what is going down.

- What can I even do at this point?

You know, Marlo said
that he's gonna retire

and move to Florida.

- Well you're gonna
have to move fast, man.

You tell him you talked to me

and I told you about the
pills and the strychnine

and the money and the
royalties and everything.

Then maybe that will
get him worried enough

to start talking a little bit.

- Can you help me?

- Listen, man, if I see your old man again

I'm gonna shoot him like
100 times in the head

and Joey Rock's too old
to go to jail anymore.

- I don't care what you
do, I'm done with him.

I don't ever want to see him again.

As soon as I can get
out of here, I'm gone.

No offense, Gram.

- Hey Gram, where's Kippy?

I told him I wanted to
have meeting tonight.

- Oh he called earlier.

He said he was meeting his
friends at the mall, the arcade.

He said whatever you want
to do is fine with him.

He never wants to see
his dad or Peggy again.

- That's my dad.

- Your dad, what?

- Dad!

Dad!

Dad.

Dad.

I just want to talk to you.

- Yeah, about what?

- Well Joe Rock came to see me at Grams.

He told me some pretty fucked up things.

- Look, I'm busy.

What do you want?

- Come on, I think you know.

- I haven't the slightest idea
what you're talking about.

- Really?

No idea about the drugs
you used to give Mom--

- Nope, no idea.

- Oh really, nothing about that green bag?

- You don't know what the
fuck you're talking about.

- So nothing about the money she left us?

- What money?

There's no money.

- Oh come on, Dad, the royalties.

- You want a royalty?

Okay.

Here's your fucking royalty.

Okay, there's no money.

Get over it!

- Nothing about how Mom died?

- No.

Nothing.

You have no idea the shit
your mother put me through.

- The shit she put you through.

Are you fucking kidding me?

- You have no fucking idea.

- Ah Jesus, you're such a fucking liar.

- Don't you dare talk to me that way.

I'm still your father.

- Yeah.

When its convenient.

I know this plaque.

- You've seen that before.

- Oh yeah, yeah, yeah
I've seen that before.

It's a plaque from the publisher

thanking you for helping with the song

Since I Don't Have You.

- No shit.

I don't think I need you
to tell me what it is.

- No, I think you do,
Dad, because that plaque

really isn't from the publisher.

The guys in The Skyliners had
it made up and sent to you.

- That's a lie.

You're pathetic.

- You're a pathetic.

They wanted you to think
it was from the publisher

so you can have a thank you
for something you really

didn't even do.

So you can stop being such an asshole.

- Bullshit, that's real.

Your mother would of told me.

All the fights we had.

She'd of make sure I knew that one.

- No, Dad.

I said the guys in The Skyliners.

They never even told her.

- Bullshit.

Bullshit.

I protected them.

Every single one of them
and I got nothing but grief

from every one of them
including your mother.

You know what?

Fuck 'em

fuck 'em all.

Jimmy Beaumont and The Skyliners are over.

Fucking musics over, too.

What, you get together with Joe Rock

and he tells you some stories, right?

And you actually believed him?

You believe that fucking guy?

Well good for you, Gavin.

You know what, we're done here.

Get the fuck out.

Get on with your new fucking life.

Before I call my security
and have you escorted out.

- You know you and your new fucking life

can go to hell.

- You forgot your fucking royalty!

Fuck!

(soft early rock and roll)

♪ I see young lovers ♪

♪ In the park ♪

♪ Holding hands ♪

♪ As they ♪

♪ Pass by ♪

♪ Looks like ♪

♪ Another night alone ♪

♪ I might as well go home ♪

♪ And cry ♪

♪ I've heard them say ♪

♪ For every girl ♪

♪ There has got to be ♪

♪ One guy ♪

♪ But he's ♪

♪ Not that guy to love ♪

♪ I might as well go home ♪

♪ And cry ♪

♪ There are to belong ♪

♪ Against being lonely ♪

- It looks like we have
everything we need.

The tax returns showed he never
declared any of the income

that came to him from the royalties

and with the bullshit bankruptcy document

you got from the hall of
records, I think we have him

right where we want him.

This goes out tomorrow.

Unless you want to deliver it.

- [Peggy] Baby, get the door.

- Come on.

- What?

- Look, I just want to give you these.

They're from the house in Brentwood,

I looked through them and
they've been kind of helpful.

- [Peggy] Who is it, Ker?

- Nobody.

- Cute.

You'll be getting a
letter from my attorney

and probably one from the Feds as well.

- Get the hell out of
here you son of a bitch.

- Stop, stop, stop.

- Look, Dad, I hate to do this.

- Get the hell out of here.

- You don't answer my calls,
you won't meet me to talk--

- He doesn't owe you anything!

He doesn't owe you a damn thing.

- I'm not gonna let you leave us behind.

- Leave us alone.

Leave us alone.

- Fuck you.

(phone ringing)

- Hello?

- [Kerry] Gav.

- Dad?

- [Kerry] Everything's signed.

Meet me tomorrow at the
back of the university

shipping and receiving offices six PM.

I'll give you everything then.

- Hey uh, keep an eye on us.

You never know what might
happen at the last minute.

- [Walkie Talkie] We
got you covered, Kerry.

- Dad?

(sobbing)

- You have no idea what I've been through.

No fucking idea.

(mumbling)

She was driving me crazy.

They were all driving me crazy.

I gave your mom the drugs to help her.

To help her.

It let her sleep, they kept her up

but then she needed them

and after awhile, so did I.

I just couldn't take it anymore.

She was afraid, I was afraid.

Our lives imploded.

Jesus, I hope you never know
what the fuck that's like.

- Dad, Dad, please just put down the gun.

We can work this out,
this is fucking crazy.

- No, it's time.

(gun cocks)
(heart beating)

(gunshot)
(somber reflective music)

- I forgive you.

I forgive you.

I forgive you.

(somber reflective music)

(upbeat early rock and roll)

♪ (Vocalizing) ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Plans and schemes ♪

♪ And I ♪

♪ Don't have ♪

♪ Hopes and dreams ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Anything ♪

♪ Since I don't have you ♪

♪ I don't have fond desires ♪

♪ And I don't have ♪

♪ Happy hours ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Anything ♪

♪ Since I don't have you ♪

♪ I don't have happiness ♪

♪ And I guess ♪

♪ I never will ever again ♪

♪ When you walked out on me ♪

♪ In walked in old misery ♪

♪ And he's been here since then ♪

♪ (Vocalizing) ♪

♪ I don't have love for sell ♪

♪ And I don't have ♪

♪ One who cares ♪

♪ I don't have ♪

♪ Anything ♪

♪ Since ♪

♪ I don't ♪

♪ Have you ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

♪ You ♪

- [Janet] Who's betting
I'm not gonna hit it?

♪ You ♪

♪ (Hitting high note) ♪
(cheering)

- Jan's gonna be here performing tonight,

seven o'clock.

Here we are, kids.

See?

Come on, turn around so
Grandma can take your picture.

Come on, there we are.

Say, hi Gramps.

- Hi.

- How you doing?

- Freezing out here.

- Yeah, we're freezing, Gramps.