Quand j'avais 5 ans je m'ai tué (1994) - full transcript

When I Was 5
I Killed Myself

Hello. My name is Gilbert Rembrant
but everyone calls me Gil.

At night, after everyone's in bed,
my horse Blacky comes to me.

He stands under my window.
I know he is there!

Because I can hear him,

a noise like the wind,
but it's not the wind.

And he smells of oranges.

When I ride on his back,

people think it's a boy on a bicycle,
riding in the night.

It's me and Blacky, galloping on...

until there are no more houses...



no more people,

until there is nobody,

no more schools,
nothing more.

The first time Blacky
came to me...

was when I was 5 years old.
The night I killed myself.

Do not worry, little one.
People die every day.

It's just like that, nothing.

Those are the rules.
Come on now, go to sleep.

Yes, when I was 5 years old
I killed myself.

Today I am 8 years, 3 quarters.
Almost 9.

I have just arrived at
the P?querettes Children's Home.

I'm here because of
what I did to Jessica.

The first person I met was
Madame Cochrane.

So ugly I want to puke!



She wears slacks,
even though she's old.

I'm in prison because
of what I did to Jessica.

Take your hands out of your pockets.

Ah! Hello, my little man.

Come in. Sit down.

What are you looking at?

Gil?

Ah! You hear the birds?

You'll see there are many here.

Why doesn't young Gil tell me
a little about himself?

What is his favorite activity?

What he enjoys most of all?

It's night.

Why'd you say that?

At night is when Blacky comes.

Is the night named Blacky?

At night after going to bed
Blacky comes to me,

and I jump out the window onto
Blacky's back and ride away.

We eat cookies with milk,
I dunk them.

Yes? And then?

I won't talk to you!

I think I can help find
what's bothering you,

and help you deal with it.

You're sick,

the sooner you let me help,
the sooner you'll feel better,

and the sooner you'll go home.
Want that?

I must run away!

And why?

My Dad is here.

But your parents have left.

No! It's not the same,
they came to tell me something.

They came to fetch me!

Sit down, please.

Gil! Would you sit down, please!

Tell me, is it Jessica
you're speaking of?

Don't think you have to
say hello or anything!

Okay. I'll say nothing.

Gil. Jessica is not here.

You want me to put
on the seatbelt?

Yes.

It don't hurt me!

Send me Cochrane.

Listen carefully, Gil.

Just say something about the little girl,

and you can return to your wing.

When did you see her the first time?

- In front of my home.
- Yes.

There was a lawn.

I wasn't even allowed to walk on it.

If you won't answer my questions,
I can't release you to go home.

You risk a very long stay.

- Shut up!
- What?

I'm not talking to you!

I repeat - Jessica is not here.

Shut up! Bastard! No!

Let me go!

Let me go! You're tickling me!
Let me go!

Take Mr. Rembrant to
the Quiet Room...

until he regains control of himself.

- You want help?
- No, we will go. Come on!

You know, Madam.
I can walk by myself!

Yes, yes, if you want, come on.

The first time I saw Jessica Wilson
was during the fire drill.

I'm just telling you
that I'm going home.

Jessica, back to your place!

No! I'm going home.

Jessica, come back here at once!

But if there is fire I prefer to
be at home with my parents.

So I'm going.

It's not a real fire, Jessica.

It's just a drill.

She had a very nice dress.

You can tell it was soft
just by looking at it.

That was the first time
I saw Jessica Wilson.

You can watch them for a moment.
I'll be right back.

Who's that saying goodbye to himself?

My name's Edouard.

It's not 'goodbye, goodbye,'
it's 'hello, hello.'

Why'd you do that?
Why'd you do it?

Why'd you do that?
Why'd you do it?

It's been a week now that
I've been in "The P?querettes."

I hate this place.
I'd like to kill it.

No, no, no!
Don't go!

I was just leaving.
Come take my place, my boy.

I'm going.

I am going from one moment to another.

You shouldn't sit on the floor
in your Sunday clothes.

You'll be punished.

How true!

And yet so far.

...because he wanted
to see time fly...

The new boy Gilbert Rembrant,
I don't know if we said,

but I want consistency
in his treatment.

I'll take care of him personally.

- This case is, uh, difficult.
- Difficult?

I think it is in his interest
we must avoid any interference.

Interference?

Listen, it's simple:
Don't take care of him.

I hope that in time we shall see
things a little more clearly.

- Hello Doctor Valmont.
- Hello, beautiful!

You have the folder for Gilbert Rembrant?

You shouldn't do that.

Come on, don't be bad. Ouch!

Wait and see, you little brat!

Shut up!

I really don't understand you.

Push.

Push.

Push.

He just wanted that we push him.

Gil, tomorrow you're
going to the dentist.

Why?

For a check up,
It's the rule here.

I don't want it!
I don't want it!

I'll kill somebody!
I'll kill somebody!

- Can I offer you a candy?
- No.

Shit!

Don't say bad words.

It's rude.

You shouldn't eat candy either.

But if I didn't chew
I wouldn't get cavities.

It gives you cavities.

That's what I said.

But you're not supposed to get cavities.

Really? Why?

Because you shouldn't, that's all.

I want cavities
in all my teeth.

Because I want fillings in all
my teeth before it is too late.

Too late?

My dentist,

he is going to commit suicide.

No.

And why would your
dentist commit suicide?

Because he is a dentist.

So?

Everybody hates dentists,

So his son wouldn't hate him
he said he was a football champion.

Now then, I don't believe you.

- It's not true!
- It is, I assure you.

He even bought all the
equipment, shoes, everything.

But then, when the son went to school
nobody had heard of his father,

so he had to own up to the truth.

Since then, his son won't
speak to him anymore.

My dentist will soon
commit suicide.

It's a matter of days.

I have to go to the dentist.

I know.

Let me introduce myself.

My name is Edouard.

It's dusty in here.

It irritates the eyes.

It causes allergies.

Listen Edouard...
I have to go to the bathroom...

it is my belly... there is something wrong.

I'm afraid.

This... I'm afraid of the dentist.

I have to go to the toilet,

but I've never been here before.

I don't know where it is.

I do. Don't worry,
I'll show you.

You know, Edouard,
I have something wrong inside me.

I'm different from other people.

I hate school,
fortunately there was Tignasse.

Tignasse is a bad student.

He writes his own excuse notes.

One day he wrote he had lung cancer!

We are blood brothers.

In life, and in death!

Ouch!

But I'm afraid of needles.

Hey! You all right?
Are you hurt?

I wore a bandage for 3 weeks.

And do you know this one?

Q: Why'd the moron throw his
watch out the window?

- I don't know.
- Cat got your tongue?

- I don't know, yeah!
- A: He wanted to see time fly!

That's not even funny!

And this one... know what it is?

- Where did you get this?
- I don't know!

- What do you mean "I don't know"?
- I don't know!

You will answer me, no?

I don't know what
I mean by 'I don't know.'

Oh! You never know, that's it!

I don't know!

Madam Chatel! Madam Chatel!
Here!

- Thank you, my dear Anne!
- Not at all, Madam Chatel.

Return to your place, my dear.

Now I want silence!

- Tignasse, come here.
- Come get me!

Hands back!

What did you do to Tignasse?

If you hurt him I'll kill you!

I swear to God!
You hear me? I'll kill you!

Enter!

- Look! That bastard Polaski!
- Come on, let's go!

Hi Mama!

But, look at the state you're come in!
No! Don't touch, please!

Well, who did you
fight with today?

Yeah, and it's because of the Jews.

What are you talking about?
What is this nonsense?

You'll tell me the truth, yes?

- Well, I was run over by a Rabbi.
- What?

He got out of his car and
asked if I was Jewish.

I told him yes but
he didn't believe me

so we arm-wrestled and
I won, because he was old.

Then a guy showed up and

he said I could be a
negro if I'd rather.

I said, ok because I find them negroes
nice to have hidden some of them.

That made the Rabbi angry.
He pushed me and tore my shirt.

Then I went home and
now I'll go see my troops.

Salute!

Gil, come back here right now!

She thinks I have nothing else to do!

Children I have very
good news this morning:

the pool is open

Starting today,
all residents of "the P?querettes"

will take turns in there,
and imagine this:

our group is first!

That's fortunate, no?
So when you have finished breakfast,

we'll go swimming.

But we must be a good as Angels...

if we want the right to go swimming.

Won't we, Gil?

No! It's cold!

It's cold!

But what's cold, my dear?

- Come on, come on?
- No!

- Here we go!
- No!

If you don't stop everyone
will know you can't swim!

But you risk nothing,
you have a life jacket!

Come on, advance,
move! A little more.

- You see, you made it!
- Don't let me go!

I'm drowning!

You risk nothing, you have a lifejacket!

- Let me go!
- Come down!

- Well, what happened this time?
- Nothing.

- This piece of shit!
- Don't say bad words!

- Who started it this time?
- I did.

- And what happened exactly?
- Nothing.

- Can I go to the Quiet Room?
- No! Out of the question.

Whenever you get upset
you go to the Quiet Room,

writing on the walls instead
of confiding in me.

I'll never talk to you!
Never!

Come on! Hop, sit-up!

You know, the pool's just opened but
behave like this and you'll never swim!

I don't care!

I don't care!

I want to go home!
I don't care! I want to go home!

I want to go home!
I want to go home!

Calm down! Gil, calm down!

Gil enough! Calm down!

One day we went to the
zoo on a school trip

I pretended to be high up
in a tree to eat my food...

which I had killed with a dagger.

One man saw me and
walked to my tree.

He was a white hunter.

- Want some?
- Umgaoua!

I thought you might be thirsty.

Umgaoua!

Gil has a girlfriend!
Gil has a girlfriend!

Gil has a girl!

You better shut up!

- I'm tired of getting my hands dirty!
- Hands? You mean your butt!

How is my Little Sweetie?

- Yes.
- Can I do something for you?

Yeah! Don't call me 'Little Sweetie,' okay?

- Why're you limping?
- A lion ate my knee.

- Come!
- What are you doing? - Shh!

We'll throw my shirt on Polaski

like a net, like with a wild beast
and we are the hunters.

Gil! Where is your shirt?

You want to get pneumonia
on top of everything else?

Don't worry, it's germs that
make you sick, not drafts.

- How do you know?
- I read it in a magazine.

Liar! You're too young!

I did! We get them at home.

My father taught high school.
He lets me do whatever I want.

You didn't need to toss my cup.

You could say 'thank you!'
Now I'm all stained.

I was Tarzan!

You're mental!

It doesn't cost anything to be nice.
That's what my Papa says.

- So?
- So what?

- So?
- So what?

I don't read all the magazines.

Often I just look at the pictures.

I love to see the clothes,
they're very elegant.

I never look at clothes!
Never!

Liar! You look at Miss Uris's!

That's not true!

Of course. I saw you on the bus,
she always sits next to you

and you look at her clothes
and when she crosses her legs

you look at her shoes.

- Hi crocodiles!
- Gil! Come back here right now!

Don't worry, he knows them.
They're his pals!

His name's not Gil,
his name is Jules.

You better get out of here right away.

They will kill you and eat you.
They are not your friends.

I'll introduce myself:
I'm Jessica Wilson!

They don't understand!

It must be Spanish alligators.
I once saw a cartoon.

Popeye punched an alligator
up into the air

and it came down as suitcases.

- So?
- So... nothing!

- Jessica, look out!
- My name is not Jessica.

- What's your name?
- Contessa.

My Papa calls me that.
But you can't.

The Big Hello.

No! You can't look!

It's mine! It's private!

- Not even a little?
- No!

Okay Gil, I promise.

And don't you write on it either.

Dr. Nevele said only I could write on it!

I haven't written anything.

Then what is that? Some pudding?

It wasn't me who wrote it.

What's that on your belt?

This?

Hot sauce.

To put in the mouths of
children who want to bite.

To teach them not to.

You understand?

What's with you?

Why don't you use it?

I don't like spicy food.

Are you satisfied?

I wanted to show you the result of
what I call... your interference.

Excuse me, but I don't see
how this involves me.

It was Gil, but it's
because of you.

Did you speak to him about me?

Let's be serious, after each meeting
with you his condition worsens.

He sinks even more
into his silence.

But he talks to me.

If you spoke in line with our
authority I would say nothing.

But you offer him complicity,
that reinforces him...

in his refusal of any
verbal communication.

Listen doctor, I don't understand.

- I've been here a while...
- You're here to help us!

and to learn.

You, you offer him complicity.

And you, by your very presence,
turn his punishment into a reward.

Not only did you pay no heed
to my friendly warnings,

but you took advantage of our trust...

to poke your nose in his case.

So here.

You are officially banned from
interfering with Rembrant's case.

Your stubbornness has forced
me to go to the Board.

What does this mean?

It means if you keep it up
you'll be fired, my man.

Hey!

What will you do for me now?

Come on.

Jessica will write me soon.

Then you'll give them to me, okay?

Sure.

I wasn't talking to you.

All the better for me.
I won't talk to you either!

- Who were you talking to?
- To myself.

Don't do that.

Edouard, don't do that.

- Would you do me a favor?
- What?

I want you to help me.
I have to go swimming and I'm afraid.

- You're a sissy!
- Thanks. You're right.

Besides, there are many
things that frighten me.

Death and swimming.
That's why I'm here.

I'm supposed to be
in the pool now, dying.

- Not true!
- Yes.

That's not true! You lie!
You're a liar! Bastard!

Only sissies are afraid to swim!
You're a sissy!

I hate it when it's cold.

Ah! It's cold!

The others will think
you're a baby.

I don't care what
others think.

Only you.

Maybe we could just
go to the shallow side.

Stay away!
You see I'm scared, no?

Stay away!

Ha! Not as cold, now. Eh?

What do you think?
Try to go further?

I'm too short.
It's too deep for me.

Well, you know what?
I'll take you in my arms

So you won't be too short, and I won't
be afraid because you're with me.

Hold me tight!

Don't be afraid, Edouard. I'm here.

You know sometimes
it helps to be held.

I don't care what others think.

It helps me, makes me stronger.

Sometimes when I'm afraid
I get really angry.

It is the same for everyone.

When we are angry
it's because we're afraid.

- There!
- You hold me too tight!

Let up a little! Let go!
Let me go, go! Let me go!

- Really?
- Yes!

Go ahead, kick your feet!
Kick your feet!

Come on out! I've had enough.
It's only you enjoying this!

- Are you a coward! No!
- Enough?

No! Again, again!
Let me go alone!

- Hey! Hey! You think?
- Yes, it's okay! Let go of me!

Pump your feet!
Pump your feet!

- Don't leave me, Gil, I'm afraid!
- Don't worry, I have you!

Hey! You're swimming!

You're swimming!

Edouard! Make the Big Hello!

Yeah!

You're lucky not to
be in music class,

I always feel stupid
singing this song

"In the clear fountain.
walk my way"

"I found the water so beautiful
I am bathed me."

There has long as I love you
I will never forget.

"On the highest branch
there was a nightingale..."

Enter!

- Hello ma'am.
- Hello dear.

- The director sent me.
- "Madame" Director!

Continue, Gil.

Continue!

All around us
people are jealous

They all blame me
to have eyes for you too sweet.

to love you madly my love!
madly in love night and day!

It's not nice!
But I do not care,

how they behaved
because I think it's normal

to love you madly my love!
madly in love night and day!

I think every moment
anything can happen

but my heart can not change
it will really always for you!

To love you madly my love!
To love you madly night and day!

One day if you want
can be from both

From making fun
those enraged at seeing us,

to love you madly my love!
To love you madly night and day!

Every day the postman comes
but I'd get no letter from Jessica.

And every day I asked Doctor Nevele
if there was a letter for me.

And he replied "NO,"
he is a villain with nose hair!

To hide something from you...

nothing makes me so sick,
it is disgusting...

Mailman! Please!
Give me my letter!

- The letter from Jessica!
- What are you talking about?

Jessica Wilson, she
said she would write.

Yes, but the mail goes
first to the secretary.

- Give me my letters!
- Oh no!

Let me go! Let me go!
I want my letters!

- But wait!
- I want my letters!

Are we done with this here?

Let me go! Let me go!

You're hurting me!

Go away! Let me go!

Give me my letters!

Give me my letters.

- What are you doing here?
- I was waiting for you.

By what right do you
deprive Gil of his letters?

It's none of your business,
but I'll answer.

Sit down.

When I examine him, his refusal
to communicate is total,

Not to mention the violence.

For me it was important once we
decided to keep the child here,

that I establish a classic
system of reward.

That you understand very well.

The mail is a part of this.

There is nothing for
this kid here. Nothing.

This is not about illness;
It is a love story!

But you understand nothing.

Just release him and
he will be cured.

What you just said there has
completely erased my doubts!

You were warned,

a suspension of 10 days,
to give you time to think.

And then if you want to continue your
internship you'll be in another section.

I'm talking to you about a child who's suffering!

And you reply, "temporary suspension?"

That is why Gil will
never talk to you! Never!

Keep him 10 years, 20 years if it
amuses you. He will remain silent.

Leave, Valmont.

Jessica said she would write to me
if we were ever separated.

Let's forget Jessica for a moment.

Speak to me instead about your school.

I will not speak to you.

Yeah! Go Gil!
Defend yourself!

Ah! Just you and me, Dr. Nevele!

Oh no, no!

And your favorite subject, what is it?

Mom? How come Jessica is
not in the directory?

- Who?
- Jessica, a girlfriend.

It only has father's names,
not the children's.

- Hello?
- Hello? Jessica?

It's Gil from the school.

Ah Gil, my Papa died.

[ Gil names his puppet "Thierry le Pantin" ]

I decided to go
to Jessica's house.

I was not alone,
Thierry le Pantin was with me.

It was raining 'cats and dogs,'

as my brother would say.

Tignasse says when it's raining
"God is taking a piss."

I looked in the windows
of Jessica's house.

Telling myself that maybe she saw me.

Perhaps she was looking at me.

I didn't see her.

But maybe she was there, anyway.

So I stayed all day!

And then night fell.

Gil?... Excuse me.

But where have you been?
Your father and I were worried!

We waited for you!
You know what time it is?

So? Where have you been?

Look at you! You're soaked!

Go on, go to your room and
put on your pajamas.

When we returned to school
Jessica was not there.

It's normal, you know. You're allowed
to miss when somebody dies.

and it's a shame.

You go to the back of the classroom and
make me a beautiful table display

with a beautiful blue sky
and small white clouds.

Miss Iris is the successor
to Madam Choltes,

who'd become too old
even to be a teacher.

Everybody in their place?

Yes?

So we will have Show and Tell,
as I told you before the holidays.

Have a seat over there,

We're going to take turns
telling what we did.

Well, Anne, would you like to start?

For the holidays we went
to my aunt's in Toulouse,

a city where there are lots of monuments,
museums, and historical sites.

- "We went to see..."
- Anne Jandrot... I don't like her.

She is the ugliest girl in Europe, man.

You should see her when she smiles!
All happy like an idiot!

I swear it! When she was born
his parents said: "What a treasure!"

So they buried her.

She is so ugly that she strips
the leaves from the trees!

Tignasse! How many times have I told
you not to eat candy in class!

We don't suck candies when
we can't offer one to everyone!

Bon appetit, everyone!

Back to your places!
And you come with me.

Arms folded and heads down, everyone!

Until you have calmed down.

That's enough, Anne. Sit down
and cross your arms like the others.

The other morning
I woke up very early,

and I got a surprise when
I looked out the window.

I discovered that I could
see to Mont Blanc

and I saw my horse Blacky,

his mane blew in the wind...

and dust flew around his hooves.

I went on our porch
which was full of flowers

there was a small boy
on the sidewalk.

Then I said:

"Why do have your raincoat on, boy?
It's not raining!"

He gave me a puppet and
we went for a walk.

We went to a long sidewalk
and slid down a chute

to a place that was full of toys.

There were dolls, models
and 'B?cassines.'

Then we went to a place
where there was a car...

with keys in it, so we drove to
C?te d'Azur for 3 hours.

Afterwards, we were very tired,
we went home to my house.

There, we did magic tricks
until we fell asleep.

When we woke up...'

we were 'grown-up.'

We should go!
We are not covered and it's raining!

We'll get sick!

Hurry, we will be soaked!

- We need coats!
- You said it.

Oh!

It's the truant officer!

He will catch us and
send us to reform school!

What do we do?

It's not! It's a meter reader!

You know when you want
something very much,

you must make a a prayer to the stars.

You put your hands together like that.

Normally you kneel
but I don't always.

It's not required, and you look
at a star and say your prayers.

Star light, star bright

First star I see tonight,

I wish I may, I wish I might,

Have the wish I wish tonight.

I want for Jessica to write me, please.

To know if she is well and
if she still remembers me.

Well, Gil, what are you doing here?

I made a wish upon a star.

You should make one too.

There aren't any stars!

I know.

Good, well, I must get back to my wing.

Good night, Karl.

- Well, well, good night.
- Good night.

I think I'm being fired, Gil.
They asked me to leave.

Mrs. Cochrane? You waited for me
here because I was not in my bed?

- You've looked for me everywhere?
- Yes.

It was you who wrote that?

- Huh?
- Yes.

Seven Mile Road is black
with white stripes,

And Lodi Street here, well, it is gray.

And Marlot street, it has stones in it.

I find it very interesting.

It's like the man there,

the more he walks away,
the more he seems to shrink.

Because the earth is round;
we learned this in science.

What if it's not true,
like when they have fire drills?

Perhaps this man is really
becoming very small!

Can I do something
for you, my boy?

I... I'm shopping for toys
for my children.

I have two son.
Gil and Don Diego.

They are extraordinary boys.

They are first in
everything at school.

Not bad these balloons!

Hello Ma'am. I am the meter reader
for the water company.

Follow me to the basement.

It's a trap! It's a trap!
You'll never take us alive!

This one is a little too light.
I better buy something else.

Hey! I might be buying
one of these kangaroos here.

But I'll keep looking...

because between you and me,
the price is a scandal!

Young man! Unless you have
money to buy something,

I'm obliged to ask you to leave!

Unaccompanied children
are forbidden here.

But he's not unaccompanied.
He is with me.

This is not real B?cassine!
[ doll based on a comic strip ]

She has real button eyes,
not plastic.

Would you not have a real
B?cassine, Madame, please?

I'm sorry, miss.
It is a real B?cassine!

And now your little brother
and you, you must go!

No, I'm sorry!
This is not real!

I had a real one, and she died.

She died in hospital,
same time as my Papa.

And now children:
Goodbye!

You know, Madame,
today is a holiday in our religion,

My brother and I came
here to buy toys.

You know, it is better to give
than to receive.

But because you don't
want us to stay here,

we are not able to buy.

This is very sad for you, Madame.
Very sad!

Adieu Madame.

You better pray!

We've left,
I'm taking you on a trip.

B?cassine did not die alone.

It was I who killed her... in the hospital.

When I went to see my Papa.

He was under a tent,
with plastic tubes everywhere.

His eyes were open
but he said nothing.

I said: "What's wrong, Papa!
It is Contessa!"

But he looked away.

I thought it was
because of the plastic.

That it was why he couldn't see.
So I wanted to tear it.

I pushed it away with my hand.

I was furious at my Papa.
He would not talk to me.

I shouted that he was wicked.

My aunt pulled me back.
She took me out of the room.

I had B?cassine with me.

She made me sit down
on the hard chairs.

Mama came out crying.

She said to my aunt that
it was all over.

And to take me back home.

But I screamed that
I wanted to see Papa.

My aunt held me real hard.

She wouldn't let me go.

She said there were things
that children don't understand.

So I decided I didn't want
to be children anymore.

I took B?cassine...

and I killed her...

in the wastebasket.

By the elevator.

Don't worry, Jessica.

We're heading to the C?te d'Azur.

The policeman had a revolver
but he didn't kill us.

He was a very nice police officer
and he liked children.

He said it was dangerous,
driving cars inside a store,

and he let us go,

if we went straight home.

When we came out I heard
the man in a suit who said:

"Is that all? You're letting
them go just like that?"

And the policeman said,
"I guess you were never a kid."

I'll go in and let you in the back, okay?

You see now the head of the
man who lives in the moon?

Do you see? I have foggy glasses.

This is my mother's bag.

Peter Pan is a girl.

They made her look like a boy
but he is a girl!

They just cut her hair short

and make her wear a tight brassiere.

I'm not old enough to wear a brassiere.

But I have one,
Mom gave it to me, for when I am.

Look! I am a camel!

You don't have to cry, huh?

I'm not.

That's what I say!
There's no reason to cry!

- Well, I don't cry!
- But no! It was a joke!

Jessica! It was a joke!

We'll pretend. I dunno...

Something. So you won't be so sad.

I am fed up with games for children!

I don't want to be
children any more! I don't!

I won't let anyone hurt you!

I am going to do a magic trick
so that we're not children anymore.

You're my friend.

My Mama told me that when
I grow up I would love someone.

It would mean
I would protect them from harm.

I thought it would be Tignasse,
but no, it was Jessica!

Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!

The next day, my father and
mother brought me here.

The P?querettes Children's Home,

and they left me.

Jessica's mother made them do it.

I've heard that they could
bring specific charges,

but they also thought it would be best.

Now, I've been here 2 months.

I do not know if you know,
but Edouard is back.

I don't see him because
he doesn't come to my wing.

But this morning...

- Edouard?
- Gil?

I have something for you.

For a week I've been
lugging it around.

Edouard!

Dear Gil, I don't know
if I'll be able to write again,

because my mother's taking
me to a private school tomorrow.

The doctor of the school
advised her to send me there.

He said that what happened
will bother me for a long time.

He gave my mother pills
to make me sleep.

The night I came home from hospital,
she put me to bed in her room.

When she left, I got up and
I went to my own room.

I'd lay there, but I could not sleep,

I was afraid, and I heard a noise.

I really listened,
listened, very hard.

I was afraid.

It was dark,

there was only one little bit of
light coming from the street

and I saw Thierry le Pantin
sitting on the windowsill,

He looked outside,
the noise... it was him.

Thierry le Pantin sang.

I listened forever to the singing,

He sang, he sang, he sang,

it was sweet, and when I was asleep,
I dreamed about rainbows.

Blacky!

Slowly, Blacky.

Go! Sit down!

Sit down, Blacky!

And I galloped on the back of Blacky.

Until the end of houses,
until the end of people

until there was nobody,
no more schools, no more prisons.

Nothing... just Jessica.

Gil took over a year to learn "the rules."

They let him go home.

He thought only of Jessica.

One day he found her.

with original French subtitles
and advice from 'Make'