October Baby (2011) - full transcript

As the curtain rises, Hannah hesitantly steps onto the stage for her theatrical debut in college. Yet before she can utter her first lines, Hannah-unscripted-collapses in front of the stunned audience. After countless medical tests, all signs point to one underlying factor: Hannah's difficult birth. This revelation is nothing compared to what she then learns from her parents: she was actually adopted ... after a failed abortion attempt. Bewildered, angered, and confused, Hannah turns for support to Jason, her long-time friend. Encouraged by his adventurous spirit, Hannah joins his group of friends on a Spring Break road trip, embarking on a journey to discover her hidden past ... and find hope for her unknown future. In the midst of her incredible journey, Hannah learns that every life is beautiful.


♪ The human heart is a scary part in fact ♪

♪ 'Cause I could break you
and you could break me back ♪


♪ Though my head
says just forget it ♪

♪ You'll get hurt
and you'll regret it ♪

♪ Ask me now
and I won't hesitate ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm fearful of heights
and you take me higher ♪

♪ What came with you
was a view to admire ♪

♪ I've always been
the kind to contemplate ♪

♪ But you like the kind
that don't hesitate ♪

♪ So excuse me
while I fall for you ♪


♪ Excuse me
while I fall for you ♪

Quiet, please!

♪ Thought about it
long and hard today ♪

♪ I realized
I'm standing in our way ♪

♪ Hey, hey ♪

♪ Ask me now ♪

♪ And I won't ♪

Excuse me.

♪ Hesitate ♪

You know, if you haven't
learned your lines by now,

probably too late.

Real encouraging.

Nice outfit.

So, you nervous?

- So where are you sitting?
- Front row, center balcony, with Alanna.

Oh. I didn't know
she was coming.

Yeah. You kidding?
We wouldn't miss it.

Got your tickets.
Got your tickets.

Got your programs.
Programs, five dollars.

Hey. Hey.

Oh, hey, sweetie.
Hey. Mmm.

I'm sorry I'm late.
I got your text. Yeah?

But I had to do a total knee replacement at 4:00.
Took three hours. Can you fix this?

They need to quit
treating you like a resident.

I think they think I am a resident.
You have the tickets?

- I don't. I thought you did.
- Hey, sir and madam.

May I please see
your tickets real quick?

Let's check 'em out,
make sure these babies are legit.

Oh. Uh-oh.
You guys are bronze package. Problem?

Um, minor.
I can bump you guys up to platinum package.

It's a small fee, $22.

Basically, it's better A.C.
In the building, better seats.

And the proceeds go to a charity,
a really cool one. You're Truman.

- I'm... My German?
- Our daughter's in the play. It starts now. We gotta go.

Yes, I am Truman.
She's told us all about you.

All right. Thanks for buying
the platinum package!

Excuse me. Hey.


How are you?
I'm good.

Get a program?
No, I didn't.

I'll just
look off yours.

So that took a while.

Uh, yeah.
I went to see a friend.

How is she?

She's nervous.

Well, I guess
I would be too.

Thank you for joining us tonight-

Excuse us.
For our production.

A special welcome to our alumni and guests.
Good to have you.

We are proud of
our spring production...

one of our enduring traditions
here at the university.

This year, we are featuring
some fresh new faces.

So join me as we
welcome to the stage our cast,

as they perform an original play written by yours truly.

Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.

So without further ado,
I present to you Annabella.


- Annabella?
- Is that you, Desmond?

Hello, Annabella.

You can dispense with the pleasantries, Desmond.

It's a bit trifle,
don't you think?

If you'd just let me explain,
I'm confident we would agree.

You need to know that my family has, well,
certain standards for me.

which I do not meet?

Admit it, Desmond. Please.

- "I've realized"...
- I've...

I've realized that...
I have certain standards that you do not meet.

That's not right.
It's time I set sail on my own.

It's time I discovered the life I've always
dreamed of but thought impossible.

Get it together, Hannah.

I'm leaving, Desmond.


Where, Annabella?


I want...


Excuse me.




Get her inhaler.
It's in the brown bag!

- Get her inhaler, now!
- We need Hannah's bag!

Hannah. No, no.
Hannah. No.

Listen to me.
Hannah. Hannah!

Um, Dr. Jacob Lawson.
Is he in surgery?


But what I'd like to do is maybe a few more tests.

Just to make sure.

Hi, sweetie.

I was looking for you.
They said you'd be here.

What was that about? Does he...
Does he know what happened?


No, no, no.
The full test results won't be in for another couple days.

But your P.E.F. Levels were fine when you stayed here overnight.

So Dr.
Stewart thinks it's good for us all to go home.

Is that not what you think?

Yeah. N-No, I do.
I agree.

I... I agree
with Dr. Stewart.

He's a specialist.
We need to do what he says.

All right. Well, I'm gonna
go get changed, I guess.


If you would just let me explain,
I'm confident we would agree.

You need to know
that my family...

they, well,
have certain standards for me.

Standards which I do not meet?

Admit it, Desmond. Please.

It's time I discovered the life I've always
dreamed of but thought impossible.


Is there something
you're not telling me, Dad?

I was thinking about
asking you the same thing.


Hey, Grace, Hannah.


It's good to see
you all again.

Although I wish it was
under better circumstances.

So how have you felt this week?
Any new symptoms or problems?

No. I feel fine.

Well, I've looked
at your E.E.G. And M.R.I.,

and it looks as though we need to reconsider
our current management of the epilepsy.

Stress, sleep deprivation and alcohol can increase your risk of seizures.

Since you haven't had a seizure since childhood,
I just have to ask...

L-L-Look. I don't do drugs.
I don't drink. I don't smoke. I haven't-

If that's what you mean.

Oh. I see.

B.P.D., acute asthma, seizures,
multiple hip surgeries...

most when you were
too young to remember.

I remember some.

Hannah, I believe that everything you've suffered from...

is related.

Why am I sick?

You were born very prematurely.
Twenty-four weeks.

Premature birth
or low birth weight...

and a traumatic delivery can be associated with this condition.

I was premature,
and that's why I'm sick.

Hannah, we're concerned
about you...

because of the physical and emotional symptoms that you're having.

What do you...
What do you mean, um, emotional?

Your father
e-mailed me this.

"I feel dead inside.

No. Something worse
than death.

I am still a child,
a child trying to find a place in this world.

I have so many unanswered questions,
questions I feel but can't even begin to speak...

because there are
no words to express them.

Something is missing.

Why, God, do I feel...

do I feel unwanted?

Why do I feel I have
no right to exist?

Why do I spend more time wanting to end my life than live it?"

You... You read my journal?

Hannah, I believe that what you're feeling is normal,

and is even expected.

What is...
What is this about?

What? What?

Hannah, we're not
your biological parents.

Hang on. That's, uh...
That's not how I wanted to tell you.

Why didn't you tell me
I was adopted?

Okay. Um...

Hannah, you were born premature because
you are the survivor of a failed abortion.

Your physical and I believe
your emotional symptoms...

can be traced to this,
as they have in other cases.

I-I-I can only speak
to your physical symptoms.

But I'm suggesting that you begin treatment
for your psychological symptoms as well.


Now, I'm prescribing a new medication to help control your seizures,

and you have to continue
to take your current medication.

- Hannah.
- Don't-

I have to go.

- Hey. I don't think that's a good idea.
- Don't touch me.


Hey. I can't hear you.

I have set your iron on fire.

Can I call you back?

Jason, the iron's on fire.
No, it's too...

It's in my hand.
It's really loud in here. I'm sorry.

Can I call you back?
The iron's on fire.

Sure. That's fine. Whatever.

Call me back.


- We didn't even talk about it before you sent the e-mail.
- What am I supposed to do?

I find out my daughter is contemplating suicide.
Am I supposed to do nothing?

- I don't think so.
- It's not like that.

Hannah, sweetheart.
Please sit down. Uh...

We need to talk to you.
You've had 19 years to talk to me.

I can understand
why you would feel that way,

but, please, I would like
to talk to you now, so sit-

I don't want to sit down.
I don't want to talk about it.

- Then what do you want?
- I want to see my birth certificate.

Because I want to know who I am. I...

This is who
you are, Hannah.

Okay. Well, I wanna know who my birth mother is.
I wanna know how I can find her.

- I can't do that.
- Why?

Because I can't.
I can't-

All right.
I can't do that because I have no idea who your birth mother is.

- I have no idea where she is, when she...
- Here.

It's your birth certificate.

Thank you.

Who's there?


It's me.
You can put down the pepper spray.


How did you know
I was here?

You are
way too predictable.

I am not.
"I am not."

Can I come in?
No. I'm mad at you.

What are you doing?
I am taking off my shoes.

Why are you
taking off your shoes?

Because... I'm sorry.

And I don't like
when people are mad at me.

Especially you.

So you doing all right?


You want to
talk about it?

Mmm... No.

My whole... life
is a lie.

Why do you say that?

The hip surgeries,

the nightmares,
the... asthma,

the seizures...

All of it's connected.

My parents
aren't my parents.

They adopted me.


they adopted me because my birth mother tried to abort me.

I guess I wasn't
supposed to survive.

And I barely did.

All I know... Well,
all they will let me know...

is that I was born in a hospital in Mobile, Alabama,

which is 12 hours away.

And I don't know
how I would get there.

Or if I did go,
what I would do.

I just-
I want answers.

I want answers
to all these questions.

I want to be able to get on with my life.
You know?

Because right now,
I just feel stuck.

Like there's...
Like there's no way out.


I'm stuck in this place
that I hate.


Told you I didn't want to talk about it.

Wow. Hannah, I...

I'm sorry.

I don't know
what else to say. Uh...

I imagine things are pretty terrible right now.

But they'll get better.


That's really... optimistic.

Look. Things are gonna work out.
Okay? I promise.

You'll know what to do.

What makes you
so sure?

I know you.

I don't even
know me.

Who's that?

I'll just call her back. No, no,
no. You can answer it.

Are you sure? Yeah.
I mean, you should.



No, no. Just hanging out.
What's up?

Um... Yeah. Yeah, sure.

I guess you can come.

Look, can I... Actually,
can I call you back?

No, I promise.

All right.
Thanks. See you.


I am officially the worst
at planning road trips.

Three days
before we leave,

and we have
no idea where we're going.



Get in my car.
I'll take you home.

We both have
exams tomorrow.

That's the last thing on my mind right now, Jason.

I know, but we need to s...

I need to study.

Come on.

Just agree reluctantly.


Okay, you stalker.

♪ Whoa, I'll make it
without you ♪

♪ In my life ♪

♪ I'll make it
without you ♪

♪ And though my body's
laying here ♪

♪ It's my mouth
that must be lying now ♪♪



What a piece of junk.
It's vintage classic.

It's vintage junk.
Look at it.

- It's dead.
- It's not dead.

This is your cousin's?

What does he look like?

Not nearly
as good as the van.

By the way,
I think I know where we're going.

You have
a wild side, Hannah.


I know you got one deep down in there somewhere.
I mean...

Don't you ever wanna
just go crazy?

No, I don't.

I need you to have a wild side, Hannah.

Can I hear you say
Mardi Gras?

Shh! No, you can't.

And are you even aware that you're in a library right now?

So, did Truman tell you?
Tell me what?

Well, spring break.
We finally decided on New Orleans.

And we want you
to come.

Come on, Hannah.
NOLA. Mardi Gras!


You know, uh,
Mardi Gras didn't actually start in New Orleans?

Yeah, it began
in Mobile, Alabama.

Which is on our way,
so I figured, you know,

if we got some time,
we can swing by there and check it out.

It's a pretty cool place.

Yeah. Thank you
for the history lesson.

I'm just saying,
I don't want anyone to feel like they're stuck on this trip.

You know? Like, if someone wants to go somewhere,
they should go.

I was doing just fine
before you came over here.

Do you think I'm ready
for a trip like that?

I think
it's now or never.

- It's now or never!
- Shh!

- Come on!
- Can't believe this.

Who's that?
Sir, this is a library.

Hey, Mr. Lawson.

How are you? I'm fine.
Thanks for getting back to me.

Yeah. Let me guess.
You're Truman, right?

Yup. Yeah.

This the charity
you were telling me about?

What is going on?
I thought I fixed that.

This is the classic upon which we'll be taking our voyage.

Our Millennium Falcon,
if you will.

Her name is Evelyn.
Hey, who's the old dude, man?

Remember Hannah?
Yeah. The spaz?

- Yeah. This is her dad.
- Oh. Hey, dude.

- Who are you?
- Bmac. His cousin.

And, uh, you know,
I'm driving them to their thing,

'cause this is my baby,
you know?

I'm sorry.
What did you say your name was again? Bmac.

No, your name. Your real name.
Your actual name.

I-I go by Bmac.
Seriously, why...

Truman, I came here to talk to Jason.
You mind? A little privacy, please?

Absolutely. You...
You should do that.

- Whatever, man.
- I'm sorry. What can I do for you?

Hannah's sick. You know that.
So why did you invite her?


Dude. What's that guy's
problem, man?

It's your beard. You look like the Unabomber.
Whatever, man.

I don't know.
I figured she might have some fun.


Honestly, I was just
trying to help.

You're not helping, Jason.
You're not helping at all.

In fact, you've made
my position very uncomfortable.

I'm sorry.

Look, Hannah's not listening
to me right now, and I...

Look, Mr. Lawson.
I can't get in the middle of this.

You're in the middle of this,
Jason, like it or not.

You are smack-dab
in the middle of this thing.

And I got stuff going on at my house you have no idea about.

So I would appreciate it if you would
just take my side on this thing, okay?




I wouldn't go 10 feet
in that thing if I were you.

She can hear you!

I didn't know that- that sticks and stones could break your beard.

Here on the Jon Walden show,

Revocation Radio,
your true...

The sun is up,
and you're still here?


Gotta go
to the clinic today.

Wish I was going in scrubs.

Had a really good
talk with Hannah.

- About?
- About the trip.

Told her I didn't think
she should go,

be better
if she stayed here.

I don't necessarily think she agreed with me,
but I do think she understood.

So, she's not going?

I told her that we trusted her to make the right decision.

So I think we're good.

Okay. I'm gonna get some coffee.
You want some coffee?




♪ It's love ♪


No, no, no. Don't put in
your headphones, Diego.

Attention, van.
Diego doesn't want to talk about our problem.

This is really a surprise.

Everyone wishes they had headphones at this point.

Fat Man's burgers are the best-

You do not know what you're talking about when it comes to burgers...

That is actually meat fillers,
which are little yellow pellets that come in a cardboard box.

Like, seriously. When you cook a burger,
all the bad stuff drains down into the grill.

It's in your body. It's inside...

We're not listening to you.
You're making me really angry...



♪ It's love ♪♪

♪ That's the meaning of life ♪

♪ That's the meaning of love ♪

♪ And that's the meaning
of everything ♪

♪ And that's all you need
to know about everything ♪♪

Wow. You're really good.

That actually was supposed to be a jingle for a barbecue company,

but they thought
it was too deep.

You know,
you should go on one of those reality shows.

I don't think so.
Those things are rigged, I think.

You know,
sometimes I write songs based on dreams I imagine other people have.

Tow truck!

Are you with the tow truck?

Sir, step away
from the vehicle.

You been drinking?

No. Of course not.
Why does everybody always think I've been drinking?

- Explain this to me.
- Oh. When...

Nobody ever tells you you can't drive on the beach, man.

They do it on TV all the time.
Also, running...

Curly Top,
do you see any hotels on this beach? Yes. No.

- Any restaurants or bars?
- Is this a trick question? No.

Yeah. It's because
it's a land preserve.

For what?
Set aside for endangered turtle eggs.

Turtle eggs? Dude, seriously?
Am I being punked? Like, what's...

No, that's... No.

- $5,000?
- He's the owner and the driver.

N-No! Truman!
You're the one who told me to drive here!

I don't even know your real name.
What is... Bro...

Okay. Listen. I don't have time for this.
I need to impound this car.

I'm gonna ask all of you to please pick up your
belongings and make your way to the curb.

- I'm gonna also need your names.
- Our... Our real names?

- Excuse me?
- Sir, can I just say something?

This is my first trip
like this, okay?

I've never done anything
like this before.

And the only reason that I came is because I'm
trying to get to Mobile, Alabama, because...

Okay, listen, ma'am.
I don't have time for this.

I'm gonna have to ask all of you to make your way down...
No. Just listen.

I promise. I have
a really good excuse.

See, I'm trying
to get to Mobile because...

I just found out I'm adopted.

Like, last week.

And this is my only chance
to find out who I really am.

I mean, to find my mother and...

Well, I think she lives there.
At least I hope.

And we probably deserve everything that you're trying to say,

but, really, I...

I've got... $93.50...
No, $93.40. This'll help...

Ma'am, I'm not gonna take your money.
Just take it.

I'm not gonna
take your money.

Seriously. That was in...
I thought- Comple...

Hey, uh... Thanks so much
for letting us off the hook...

Don't talk to me.

Take care of this?

Let's push it, y'all.
Come on. Push, push, push!

Come on, Evelyn. You can do it, Evelyn.
I know it's painful!

Truman's not doing anything.

I'm... I'm hurt... Truman,
I've been doing all of this.

In my legs
right now.

You did it.


♪ The love ♪

♪ That you've tried
to find a way ♪

Hey, Hannah.

Hey, I think...
I just wanted you to know,

I think it's really brave
what you're doing, you know?

Like the whole, you know,
thing with your mom and...

I just hope you find, you know,
whatever it is that you're looking for,

'cause, you know,
it's important.

So I really
shouldn't eat burgers?

I guess it's just so hard for me to think about eating healthy food.

I mean, like...
just weirds me out.

Like, and tofu?
What's that stuff?

Who came up with the idea
to take a bean...

and turn it into a sandwich that tastes like a hamburger remotely?

I mean, vegans always try to tell you that, like,
tofu tastes like real beef.

That is untrue.

♪ Will make us one ♪

♪ Will
make us one ♪


You ever know a guy named Jojo?

I've never even heard
of a guy named Jojo.

This is literally the worst hotel I've ever seen.

It looked better
on the Internet.

Where, at
NormanBatesHotel. Com?

HotelMonkey. Biz.

I'm sleeping in the car.

Hannah, you will be
rooming with Alanna.

- Is there another option?
- No. Danielle paid double for her own room.

I'm sleeping here in the van,
so you can have my room.

No, that won't work,
because you're staying with me.

And neither Hannah nor Alanna would...
would stay with me. Would you?

Get away from me,

Respect Evelyn!

That's a lot
of pills.

It's ridiculous, huh?

You know what I think?

I think you just
like to use this stuff.

That way people have to be nice to you,
you know?

Like, "Poor little Hannah.
So wounded."

I'm sorry.
I didn't mean...

Okay. You never mean to do anything,
but that's the point. You still do.

Why did you even
come on this trip anyway?

Jason invited me.

We didn't want you to.

He's just...
too nice to say it.

Um... I usually get up early,
but I can set an alarm if you want.

Hannah, just go to sleep.
What is wrong with you?

What's going on?
It's just me.

What are you doing?

Getting some stuff.
Go back to sleep.

Hannah! Hannah.
What's going on?

I'm leaving.

- It's the middle of the night. Can we talk about this?
- I don't wanna talk about it.

I'm... I'm leaving,
and you're staying here with your... girlfriend!

I realize that I'm a problem,
and that I never should have come here,

so you can just go to New Orleans with everybody else in your posse...

and just have fun or whatever.

I don't even
care anymore.

You're not making sense.
What is wrong?

Apparently I'm what's wrong.

Look. I'm leaving.
Don't follow me.

Dude. Her dad's
gonna kill you, man.

He's scary, man.


♪ Have a seat upon this branch of mine ♪

♪ It's been a while, honey ♪

♪ I think I feel fine ♪

♪ I see the question mark
atop your spine ♪

♪ I've got a ladder, honey ♪

♪ Won't you let me climb ♪

Sorry it took me so long.

The only rental place that was open was by the airport,
so... took a while.

I don't need
your charity, Jason.

Yeah, you do.

What? So we're just gonna
go to Mobile together or what?

Beats walking.

What would
Alanna think?

Doesn't matter
what she thinks.

This was my decision.
All right? She knows that.

Now get in.
I don't have time for this.

- Why do you care?
- I care about you, all right?

I'm not the kind of girl who just gets in a car with anybody.

Right. But you will
hitchhike by yourself-

I wasn't hitchhiking.
I was walking.

Okay. No, that's
equally smart.

I would've been fine.

♪♪ ♪ But we all lost track ♪

♪ Soon as we got control ♪

♪ So show me the way ♪

♪ I wanna be like that ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ And I wanna hear you
call my name ♪

♪ And not look back ♪

♪ 'Cause all the faint lights ♪

♪ They left me
stranded and lost ♪

♪ Reaching through
empty pockets ♪

♪ Trying to pay my cost ♪

♪ I put up a fight ♪

You remember
when we were nine, I think?

When you were nine,
I was eight and a half.

Yes. Thank you for that
unnecessary correction.

I was nine,
you were eight and a half.

And we would go with the Thompson kids, remember,
and we would...

Race to the water?

This all just
reminded me of it.

♪ All the faint lights ♪

♪ They left me stranded and lost ♪

♪ Reaching through
empty pockets ♪

♪ Trying to pay my cost ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ I put up a fight ♪

♪ Oh, no
But now it's taking its toll ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ I'm waiting
for something to set fire ♪

♪ Wake up my soul ♪♪



I have $90 and change,
or something like that.

And... A phone that doesn't work because the ocean broke it.

- The ocean broke it?
- Shh.

Do you have a towel?
The cheapest we have is 110.

Unless, uh,
you are Triple "A."

- Oh, yeah. We are. We have all three A's.
- Yeah.

But we need separate rooms, really.

because we're not together.

Like that.

Triple "A" is 99.

Mmm. Only one room
available at that rate.

The only other room I have is, uh,
the luxury suite.


Uh... That...
That sounds great.

- Uh, we just need the regular room, though.
- The very regular room.

Mm-hmm. This...

- Maybe next time.
- Yeah.

I'm freezing.

This is awkward.

Yeah. Definitely
only one bed.


Are you asleep?

I literally just laid down.
Oh, yeah.


Are you okay
down there?

Well, you know,
I usually prefer...

the king-size floor,
but this is all they had, so...

I'll make do.

That's funny.
You're funny.

Do you think I'm being weird about all this?

Why are we whispering?

I don't know. I mean, you're, like,
the popular college guy.

Girls... They find you attractive
and enjoy your company.

Would you think
it was weird if I said...

I'd never been
with anybody before?

Ph... Physically speaking?

Which is purely a hypothetical statement,
of course.

Um... Oh, that... Sorry.

I didn't- I didn't mean to get into that.

- Good night.
- Good night.

I can feel you down there,
judging me.

Like you think this is
totally ridiculous.

Like I'm some sort of
Christian homeschooling freak.

- I'm a Chr...
- You thought it.

- I did?
- I thought so.

No. That was a question.

Look. Here's the thing.

What's so wrong
with not having a wild side?

I mean, I'm glad
about the fact...

that I haven't done these...
things with...

And... And...

I... I have a wild side.

You've seen me
play Scrabble.

I'm wild.

What are you thinking?

I, uh... I think...

You know what?

I can't do this.
No matter what the circumstances.

where are you going?

Stop judging me.


♪ Don't want to sound ridiculous ♪

♪ But I think you know
I'm sick of this ♪

♪ And I kinda think
that we can bend, do you? ♪

♪ I'll try to be
a better friend to you ♪

Go away.


You're not a freak,

♪ That I was
only looking out for me ♪

♪ Instead of getting you the help you need ♪

Well. Good night.

♪ Who do you think you are? ♪

♪ Who do I think I am? ♪

♪ Barely listening ♪

♪ To my oldest ♪

♪ My oldest friend ♪


Was there a problem
with the room?


No. No, the room was fine.

there's no refund,

no matter where
you, uh, sleep.

Hannah, I'm...

I'm sorry.


I do have a wild side.

Can't believe
you just broke in.

I didn't break in.
The door was open.

It was the back door,
and you pried it open.

I used to wander in the old O.R. At my dad's hospital.

Cool thing is,
all the files and all the equipment are still there.


I'm home.

Oh, scrubs.
You got your wish.


You talk to Hannah today?

I tried to call her
a couple of times.

Cell phone not working?

I don't think that girl
is ever gonna grow up.

I remember the first time
I held her in my arms.

I couldn't believe something so small could have such a power over me.

And I did see him smile.

Wonder if she's ever
gonna be able to...

see things
from our perspective?

I think
we should tell her.

Tell her what?



No. She couldn't handle it.

I think she could.

No, she couldn't.
Trust me.

And I think we need
to trust our daughter.

All right. Turn.

No light. We can't see you.

Breaking and entering.
Do you, uh...

Do you understand the consequences?

You do?

Yeah, no. Not really.

All right. Look.
Why were you there?

Alanna, don't freak out.

Something happened, and...

Long story short,
me and Hannah are in jail.

Yeah. It's not like
we planned it.

You got yourself into this.
Get yourself out.

Alanna, pl...

We'd gone so far,
and the hospital was all I had.

It's the only place
that I had left.

It was a dead end.

You know, if you're gonna...
put me in jail,

please just get it over with.

My dad's gonna kill me.

Owens Free Clinic.

My dad's gonna kill me.

He's gonna kill you too.

This, uh...

What are the odds?

I had some dealings
with this clinic.

Um, there were some bomb threats,
death threats and whatnot.

I dealt with a doctor
and two nurses,

and the reason I recall this
is because...

one of the nurses
was just, well...

She was very kind to me.

Here you go.
This is one of her statements.

The signatures are the same.

Why would she sign
my birth certificate?

Um... No idea.

Her name is Mary.

Mary Rutledge.

Um, phone is unlisted.

There's just an address, and...

It hasn't been verified
in quite a while.

Good luck.

Wait. What about
all the...

Don't worry
about it. Um...

Look, I'm...
I'm very sorry for this misunderstanding, all right?

I hope you won't think badly of our city and you'll come back again.

So, we're free to go?


Jackie out there will, uh,
get your stuff and check you out.

Oh. You know what?
Wait a minute.

What will you say? I-I mean,
if you find your mother, what will you say?

I'm just-
I'm just curious.

I don't know.


My wife
has this thing she says.

"To be human
is to be beautifully flawed."

And... Well, she's...

She's five months pregnant
with our fourth,

so I think I understand what you're
going through and how hard it must be.

So... You know, life
isn't always black and white.

So, hate the crime,
not the criminal.

All right. Good luck.
Thank you.

Do you want me
to go with you?

Can I help you?

Are you Mary?

I don't know how else to...

Why did you sign this?

How did you find me?

A police officer
recognized your signature.


Sergeant Dodd.

You do favor her.

She was
a pretty girl.

Barely 18.

I wasn't much older,

I was older.

You know, the girls
that came there,

they really knew what they wanted,
you know.

They were sure of it.

But your mother,

she was conflicted.

I'm the one that took her in the back and prepped her for the procedure.

The abortion?

The abortion.

She tried to convince me that she was making the right decision.

But, you know,
she was really trying to convince herself.

She told me she didn't even know the fella.

Didn't know
his name.

Met him at a bar

had a night together,
and then he was gone.

I listened.

Listened to her like I did
a hundred girls before her.

Told her I understood.

For some of those girls,
I was their only friend.

Halfway through...

Well, something
must have gone wrong.

I wish I knew what.


when I went
to see your mother,

she was just awakening,

and the doctor was telling her that it had been a failed attempt.

Is that... normal?

For him.

There were things
that happened there.

Terrible things.

Things they had me do.

When you hear something
enough times,

somehow you start
to believe it.

It was tissue.
That's what they told us.

It was tissue
that couldn't survive.

Nonviable tissue.

Your mother...

came back
the next day.

She said she wanted
to finish the procedure,

that she had to go to school,
she had to have a career,

and she knew she couldn't
do that with the baby,

so this was the only way.

I took one look at her,
and I knew she was in labor...

and too young and naive
to know it.

I had two choices.

I chose to take her
to the hospital.

When we got there,
she was ready to deliver.

She begged me to stay.

I was really
the only one she had,

so I did.

Your brother came first.
I'll always...


I'm sorry.
What are you talking about?

Hannah, your mother
was carrying twins.

And your brother
came first.

And I'll always
remember him.

He was so teeny.

He was less than a pound.

And he was...


His arm was missing.
Completely gone.

Torn off during
the failed attempt.

And he was just-

I saw him
shakin' there.

I saw the pain.

And I didn't see
no tissue.

I just saw the face
of a child.

But you
were the big surprise.

Nobody knew about you.
Not even your mother.

And you came out-

Big eyes.

Just beautiful.

I never went back
to that clinic.

And I never
nursed again.

Was this mine?

Your mother's.

She gave it to me
when she left the hospital.

Then she just left.

They looked for her,
but she had changed her name...

and she was long gone.

My brother...
How long did...

How long before,
you know, he...

Hannah, your parents
adopted both of you.

I-I would come by
now and then...

and see you
in the N.I.C.U.

They were always there.

They sat right by
the incubators...

and would read
passages of the Bible.

They were praying people.
I remember.

And he fought hard.

He never did
leave the hospital.

He died four months
after y'all were born.

I know where
your birth mother is.

I saw her
not long ago.

And she did
get that education.

And she does
have that career.

H-Her name is, uh,
Cindy Hastings now.

She works at a law firm
in town.

Finally home,
after all that running.

I've needed
to have my say.

Thank you.


You gonna go see her?

Yeah. I have to.

You know, I'm s...

I'm starting to think...
that I shouldn't have found out about all of this.

Because... deep down,

there's always
just been this...


Nothing that's happened
is your fault.

Come in.


Gonna be okay?

All right.
Well, we gotta go sleep in the ice machine or something.

How are you paying
for this?

I saved a few bucks
for this trip.

Don't worry.
I'll bill you later.

Hey, Jason?

You know what the last thing was that I remember before I blacked out?

The last thing
that went through my mind?


Falling into perfect blue water,

holding your hand.

Why have you always
been there for me?

Good night.

♪ I love you more than words could say ♪

♪ When you're sleeping,
I'm awake ♪

♪ Tears on my pillowcase ♪

♪ Only one thing matters
in this life ♪

♪ Will you make it
to the other side? ♪

♪ And do you believe
in bridges? ♪

♪ Well, I know
where you are ♪

♪ And I see
where you're coming from ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been there

♪ Put my faith
in a man-made God ♪

♪ I know where you are ♪♪


Can I help you?

I'm here to see
Cindy Hastings.

Oh, she's out at the moment.
Would you like to wait?

Do you have a restroom
I could use?


Cornwell and Hastings,
attorney at law. How may I help you?

Uh, yeah.
She's really booked up for the day though.



Can I help you?

I, uh... I'm sorry.

Um, Stacy didn't tell me
that I had another appointment.

I'm sorry that I'm just,
like, in your office like this.

Um... I-I'm Hannah.
I'm... I'm Hannah Lawson.

Are you, uh,
one of the new interns?

You know, I would love to talk,
but I have a lunch appointment.

I was...

I was born October 7, 1991,

at Mobile General Hospital.

I ca... I guess
I came here...

because I hoped that that, um...
that meant something to you.


Uh, Stacy, uh,
could you, uh,

please cancel my lunch
and hold all my calls.

I didn't know
what you wanted.

Hey, honey. You ready?

Uh, we gotta go.
Lily's waiting for us in the lobby.

Oh. I'm sorry.

Uh, who's this?

I, um...

I have...
I have no idea.

I don't know.

I'm Hannah.

Hi, Hannah.

I don't know where you got your information from,
but it's not correct.

I-I don't know what
you're referring to.

I can't take any more cases right now, but, um,

Raymond, uh... Raymond down the hallway,
perhaps he can...

he can help you
with your civil dispute.

I'm sorry.

Hannah! Hey!

Look, I'm really sorry.

Yeah, she just- She didn't even say anything.

It wasn't me.
I swear.

- Are you following me now?
- Get in the car, Hannah. I'm taking you home.

No! I'm not going anywhere with you.
How do you even know where we are?

His girlfriend called me to tell me where you were.
She also told me you had been arrested.

I can't believe
that you would lie to me.

You can't believe
I would lie to you.

- Get in the car. We're going home now.
- No.

- Get in the car, now.
- Fine!


Mr. Lawson...

Stay out of this, Jason.
Mr. Lawson, I...

I said, stay out of it!

I know how
you must feel about this.

You have no idea
how I must feel about this,

and you can't know until
you have a daughter of your own.

So stay out of it!

She's not
your daughter.

And she has every right
to find out who she is.

I'm gonna make this
very simple.

You stay away
from my daughter.

You don't call her. You make no contact whatsoever.
Do you understand me?

You lied to me, Jason.

I expected much more
from you.

Look at me.

We gonna talk about this,
or what?

Until we get this whole thing straightened out,
I don't think you should go back to school.

I see no reason in the world why I should
continue funding this sort of behavior.

What happened down there

Why do you care?

Why do I care?
I care because I'm your father.

I love you. If you loved me,
you would have told me.

You wanna know the truth?
I'll tell you the truth.

It was three month...

Three months after we adopted you,
we find out that the m...

the medical bills are not gonna be covered by the insurance.

We lose everything... the house.
We have to file for bankruptcy.

I am one year... one year away
from finishing med school.

So tell me something, Hannah.
How does that make me the bad guy?

I'm sorry
I was such a burden!

Th-That is not
what I said.

It's what you meant.

Hannah, stop.


What was his name?

What was whose name?

My brother.

I... I found...

I found my mom.

I always meant to tell you about that.



Your brother's name
was Jonathan.

Hey, guys.

Oh, look.
The prodigal returns.


Where's Alanna?
Good to see you too, buddy.

You know, if you
had been here,

maybe I wouldn't have had the audacity to drink somethin' called a...

hand grenade.

That would have been
a good thing,

'cause about three sips in,
you don't know who you are anymore.

Now, when I say I have no recollection of those events,

I mean I don't remember...



Not the argument.

Not the fight.

Not this guy.
This little shiner.

Oh, and look.
It comes with a court date.

Faux frais.
Disorderly conduct.

I have a criminal record,

I'd like to go home.

Oh, I got your luggage.
It's in my room.

Thanks, buddy.

I wanted to say that...

I went too far and...

I'm sorry.

Where are you going?

We're going home

I'm going home tonight.

♪ This isn't easy ♪

♪ This isn't clear ♪

♪ And you don't
need Jesus ♪

♪ Till you're here ♪

♪ Then confusion
and the doubts you have ♪

♪ Up and walk away ♪

♪ They walk away ♪

♪♪ Dr.
Lawson. It's Jason.

I, uh...
I-I wanted to say that...

I was wrong.

And I won't be seeing Hannah anymore.

I'm sorry.

♪ When a heart breaks ♪♪

Can I come in?

Yeah, sure.

What's all this?

It's financial aid stuff.

Honey, he's... not gonna
take you out of school.

He's just upset.

I want to try
to explain.

This is you?


You look so pretty
in this picture.

You look pregnant.

I was.

Twenty weeks
in that picture.


You were pregnant with twins?

What happened?

We, uh...

We lost them.

I started volunteering
at this pregnancy crisis center.

There was this
beautiful cathedral...

around the corner,

and I would go there
to pray at lunch.

And I'll never forget.

October 17.

I went back to work...

and I saw a bulletin,
and it said,

"Twins. Abandoned.
Twenty-four weeks."

And we knew.

You and your brother...

would have been
the same age.


You are our miracle.

That's why it's so hard
to let you go, honey.

You mean so much
to us.

I know.

♪♪ Which cathedral?


It was beautiful.

♪ Well,
I guess I could have stayed ashore ♪

♪ Didn't have to go ♪

♪ They say sometimes
to find yourself♪

♪ You gotta let go ♪

♪ And the water's cold
around me now ♪

♪ So far ♪

♪ Below ♪

♪ And I hear a voice
beside me now ♪

♪ Just try to let it go ♪

♪ And I'm just here ♪

♪ On the ocean floor ♪

♪ But the world's not ♪

♪ Moving anymore ♪

♪ In the quiet ♪

♪ Something has ♪

♪ Changed ♪

♪ I can hear a thought ♪

♪ Call my name ♪♪

Excuse me.

I'm sorry,

but we need to close
for the evening.

Oh, uh...
I didn't know.

I'm... I've never
been here before.

I'm Hannah.

Um... Hello.


We have services daily,

if you'd like
to come back.

I'm actually a...
I'm Baptist.

I guess
you should know that.


why did you come?

I don't know, really.

I guess I'm trying to
figure out how to let go of...



Can't figure out...

how to let go...

of the fact that
I feel hatred for myself...

and others.

There. I said it.

What is it
that you want to say?


Say what you feel.

Well, three weeks ago I found out that my entire life is a lie.

So I went on a trip.

I thought if I went,
that I...

would get
all these answers,

and somehow when I got back,
I would feel different.

But I don't.

My parents
aren't really my parents.

And my real parents...

tried to abort me.

And I have a brother.

Well, I had a brother.

He died shortly after
the, um...

I'm angry at my parents
for not telling me sooner...

and making me think that I was just like everybody else.

I'm angry at my real mom...

for... for not wanting me.

Why didn't she want me?
What's so wrong with me?

I found her.

And she still
doesn't want me.

And I feel guilty.

Part of me feels like...

He should be alive...

and I shouldn't.

I wonder if he would have
been a better person than me,

what he would have been like.

I just- I...

I just hate myself...

for feeling this way.

I see.

This, uh, cathedral...

was built in 1893.

Named for Saint Paul
the Apostle.



He wrote a letter to the church at Colossae and said,

"Because we have been
forgiven by God,

we should forgive
each other."

In Christ,
you are forgiven.

And because
you are forgiven,

you have the power
to forgive.

To choose to forgive.

Let it go.

Hatred is a...


you no longer
need to carry.

Only in forgiveness...

can you be free,

A forgiveness
that is...

well beyond
your grasp...

or mine.

A forgiveness
that you...

you can't find
on a trip...

or even
in this cathedral.

"But if the Son
shall set you free,

you will be free


I guess you'd better
close up then, huh?

What was
your brother's name?

His name was Jonathan.

Jonathan wants you
to live your life, Hannah.

Live it to the full.

Come in.


I've been giving this
a lot of thought,

and I wanted to tell you
that I...

am sorry.

I'm sorry that I...


So you're still
enrolled in school.

Thanks, Dad.

And I think you should
probably pack.

What for?

What's this?

I know that you
need to finish this.

But, with your permission,

I'd like to be there
when you do.


But there is this one place
I would like to take you...

on the way,
if it's okay with you.


The doctor said there wasn't
much brain activity, but...

I saw him smile.

We truly believed
that God would heal him.

We were just so young,
we didn't know what to tell ourselves,

so naturally
we never told you.

Days became years,
years became decades,

and you still didn't know.

After he died,
I just remember holding you.

I would hold you for hours.
I would not let you out of my sight.

'Cause I was afraid
that if I lost you too...

So I would just hold you
because I couldn't let go.

And, sweetheart,
I still haven't.

And I'm sorry, Hannah.
I'm sorry for the journal.

I'm sorry for keeping so much from you,
for how controlling I've been.

But, sweetheart,
it's not because I don't trust you.

It's because I'm trying, honestly,
to learn how to trust God again.

So please,

don't, uh...




I love you.

And it's okay.


Thank you
for bringing me here.

Sure this is
how you wanna do it?


Stacy, can...


It's Dr. Lawson.

Listen, I wanted to say that I assumed the worst about you.

But Hannah talked to me.

She told me how
you treated her with respect,

how much you cared,

and I think
you should call her.

I, uh...

Listen, I'm not saying that I think you have to call her.

But I just think
that you should.

I'm not trying to pry.

I just want to know what your intentions are about my daughter.

I love her.

You need to call her.

Okay. Yeah.

I-I definitely will.


Ah, this stupid...

Hi, baby.




What? A date?

Like, me and you?

What about my dad?

Yeah. I mean, I do.
I mean... I will.

Are you sure?

♪ I wish you might ♪


♪ Oh-ohh ♪

♪ If everything ♪

♪ You said to me ♪

♪ Has been true ♪

♪ Mm-mmm ♪

♪ Then all my stars
are leading ♪

♪ Me to you ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪♪

♪♪ This is stupid.

You're stupid.
You wanna ruin the surprise? Yes!

I dressed for dinner.
Five times, actually. Five times?

I don't go on a lot of dates, obviously.


Whoa! I'm good.
Okay. Are you sure?

My dad is scary.
Yeah, I know that.

Okay, ready?
Three, two, one. Open 'em.

♪ Ahhh ♪

I thought
you should finish.

Finish what?
Your play.

What do you think?

I think we need actors.

Don't worry.
I was in a play once.


I was Sheep

Helo, Desmond.
You can dispense with the pleasantries.

A bit trifle,
don't you think?

I think...

They ex... They have high exp- They have expec...
Standards for me.

Standards for me.

I'm pretty terrible,
aren't I? Yes.

Yeah. Well, look, when I was Sheep

I just- I wore
a sweaty wool suit.

I did not just say that.
That is ridiculous.

Um... I don't suppose you're talking to...

♪ Love as an anchor ♪

♪ There's nothing to do ♪

♪ But give in ♪

♪ Give in ♪

♪ Mirrorless eyes ♪

♪ Give off a reflection ♪

♪ The moonlight is fair ♪

♪ As we rise again ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love we've left ♪

♪ Behind? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We'll never find ♪

♪ We're giving into ♪

♪ The sweet desperation ♪

♪ When all this is through ♪

♪ We'll give in
Give in ♪

♪ Channels of grace ♪

♪ Give off the aroma ♪

♪ Of love mixed with pain ♪

♪ And hope raised again ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We've left behind? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We'll never find? ♪

Okay, I think
this is the last of it.

Call us.
All right?

Let us know
who your roommate is.

- Try not to pick anybody too weird.
- I'll be fine, Dad.

I promise.

I've gotta go.

Bye, Dad.

Bye, sweetie.

Mr. Lawson.

♪ Give off the aroma ♪

♪ Of love mixed with pain ♪

♪ And hope raised again ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We've left behind? ♪


Thank you.

For what?

For wanting me.

♪ From the love
we'll never find? ♪

Gotta go.

You gotta go.

I love you, baby.

♪ The world is broken ♪

♪ Into many pieces ♪

♪ But the brokenness ♪

♪ Is beautiful ♪

♪ My heart is broken ♪

♪ By beauty's mysteries ♪

♪ But the brokenness ♪

♪ Is beautiful ♪

♪ Is beautiful ♪♪

Um, well, initially,
Jon called me.

He said,
"We think that you would play the birth mother in this film."

Jon e-mailed me the script,

and of course I was so excited,

I think I sat down
that very night.

I got to the point
of the birth mother,

and, um, I was...
I was so overwhelmed.

I started crying over it because...

the story actually had been
truly written for me.

And Jon and Andy didn't even
know my backstory at all.

And she read it...

and literally called me back,
just weeping about the script and said,

"How did you know?"

And we said,
"What are you talking about?"

And she said, um,
"Twenty years ago I was working in a law firm"...

Which is very similar
to the story.

She said she was in a relationship,
she found out she was pregnant...

and she decided
to have an abortion.

It was easier to get rid of the child,

to not be questioned again,

rather than
to have a child...

and be looked upon at that time
like another failure.



so many times,

uh, I think especially
as young women,

we carry that, um...

that burden that we're gonna
look like a failure,

that it's shameful.

And, um, you know,
you can hide a secret for a long time...

of abortion...

unless you
verbally speak about it.

"Nobody knows.

Nobody knows except my husband,
my therapist and some people like that."

And we were blown away
by that.

And she said,
"I feel like this is God telling me it's time for me to share my story."

I just remember hearing Jon on the other line going, "Wow.
Like, wow."

From the post-abortive mother,
it was very important to be very sensitive to that...

and for this to be
a healing movie for them.

And so having Shari's voice and having
her play the role was just phenomenal...

to make sure that that came across very authentic and very sensitive.

Uh, I think...
I think as we went forward,

uh, and filmed her scene,

she wasn't acting.

I mean, it was as real
as you could get.

It was one of the more
moving things I've ever seen.

We went into it, and I
remember the cameras rolling and...

I just- Right as I walked into
the room, I just knew that-

I just knew
that the Lord was with me...

and that it was just...

complete healing.

And the moment that I slide down that door and that I'm crying...

and I'm feeling that-

That wasn't acting.

That was my moment
with God,

and him with me,

to say, "It's okay, it's over,

and you've been forgiven."

♪ We have it all ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ Livin' and dyin' ♪

♪ Laughin' and cryin' ♪

♪ We have the whole world ♪

♪ Or have nothin' ♪

♪ I know there are
hard times ♪

♪ But we make it ♪

♪ With every sunrise ♪

♪ Comes a new life ♪

♪ These are the things ♪

♪ That make us feel like ♪

♪ We have it all ♪

♪ These are the times ♪

♪ That make us realize ♪

♪ We have it all ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ A father's love ♪

♪ A wedding dance ♪

♪ New year's dreams ♪

♪ A toast with friends ♪

♪ A soldier
comin' home from war ♪

♪ A faith, a hope
for so much more ♪

♪ A brand-new life ♪

♪ A mother's prayer ♪

♪ Shooting stars ♪

♪ Ocean air ♪

♪ A lover's kiss ♪

♪ And hard good-byes ♪

♪ Fireworks ♪

♪ And Christmas lights ♪

♪ These are the things ♪

♪ That make us feel ♪

♪ Alive ♪

♪ These are the times ♪

♪ That make us realize ♪

♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪


♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪ These are the days ♪

♪ That make us feel ♪

♪ Alive ♪
♪ Life is beautiful ♪

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