Nan Jing de ji du (1995) - full transcript

The Christ of Nanjing.

"God's soldiers are here to capture me!"

"It is impossible to write on"

"To go on living in such a state of mind"

"is unspeakable torture"

"I wonder if someone could strangle me
quietly while I am sleeping"

You're a wake?

Mother's gone.

Do you want to get up and see her off?

Asleep again?

He's woken up



Did he take any sleeping drugs?

0.8 grams. or else his head aches

He wakes for helf an hour to one hour and falls asleep again

Been this way since returning from China?

Such frail nerves, even people coughing at the door startle him

Done any writing lately?

The other day I heard people saying such awful things about his works

Grandmother, come on, let's go

I won't see you off

Take care

"Last time in China I met you and I was reborn"

"This time where can I go? What's the use?"

"I went to China, as if by chance"

"Also seems to be fate"



"I've always loved Chinese culture"

"I was curious about Chinhuai River"

"After reading 'A Night on the Chinhuai' by Tanizaki Junichiro"

"It so happened the News Agency sent me to China as an observer"

"So I met again my classmate at Teikoku University, Yung-nien"

Some what disappointed?

No

You come at the wrong time

The Kuomintang Army will march north soon

Many troops are moving in to reinforce the Nanjing Garrison

They want free meals and drinks and wenches to bed with

The brothels are fed up and move into inside streets

They'd rather entertain old customers

Chinhuai were prettier in the past

Mister, please tell me where is the Lotus House?

- Who knows?
- Look for yourself

Hey, Miss, look in the inside streets, It's moved

Girls were prettier in the past

Master

Fool, look at the woman right now in your present state of mind

Then she'd look prettier

Everything looks pretty to you right now

Yes

Okagawa, how about tailing her?

Please, where's the Lotus House?

In there perhaps

In there

That lass just now is over there

Hey, Miss

Miss, wait for us

Lassie, lassie

We'll take you to Lotus House

You know where it is?

Sure I do

Miss, not so fast, wait for us!

You're going to Lotus House too?

We'll take you there

Ride with us, OK?

Yung-nien

Don't frighten her

Lassie

She...

See? Here's one

Let's go in

But we're going to that one ahead

- Slow coach, hurry up!
- Chinhuai by night

You drank so much, are you up to it?

What can one bottle of wine do to me...

Don't lose face when in there

Here it is

Lotus House

And my luggage?

- Hsiao-erh, deliver the luggage here later
- Yes, sir

Guests arrive!

Come on

Mr Tan, sir, you're here

Allow me.

Attend to the guests

Madame, Master Tan's here

One moment. I'll fetch a few wenches

Madame

Master Tan

Welcome

Amah

Attent to Master Tan

Camelia

Punish her to down 7 cups

Master Tan's here?

Naughty! You've not come for a long time

You've forgotten us

I've just arrived

Quiet, I'll introduce a friend

- Master Tan
- Madame, long time no see

Long time no seeing Camellia

Been busy, I've just arrived

You come at the right time, Old Master Chen is inside

As if you've arranged to meet here

It's a joyful night

Here comes Old Master Chen

Run away? There's no escape

Bride snatching?

Tan Yung nien

Master Tan, you sure are chummy, bringing a friend too

Camellia, come here

It's not necessary

I've already said hello, same old rules

So soon?

Everybody, I solemnly present

My good friend from my days of studying in Japan

Mr Okagawa Ryuichiro

Mr Okagawa

Sir, explain to him in Japanese what we're a playing

Silly, Okagawa's Chinese in most likely better than yours

Master Tan, have a warm drink

His Chinese is so good

That the Japanese newspaper is sending him here to be a reporter

Come on, let's drink

Mr Okagawa, bottom up
Cheers!

It's joyful event, drink more!

Let me fill it for you

Fill it up!

Sorry, sorry

- Cover up his eyes
- Cover them

Well, enough, enough

Wait, wait, stop playing

Wait, wait

Touch

So many girls here, touch anyone and she's yours

I only want her, she's the one

No, Chin-hua is my cousin

She's not one of the Lotuse House

Oh yes, it's OK, as long as she's willing

Come here, get covered

Touch

Here, here

Chin-hua's drunkard father's sent her to borrow money again?

Yes

How much?

He wants to buy a vegetable field

So much? The he must sell Chin-hua

What's the matter with him

Okagawa

Nothing, he's always having headaches

Don't worry, it's over now

Why don't you eat? It's good

I've eaten already

How come there's still such a lot left?

You'd say everything's good to eat

Well, everything is

I don't understand how you can eat so much for breakfast

What's the matter?

Still having headaches?

It's hereditary, congenital migraine

Haven't had a relapse for a long time

Yes, you had headaches back in our schooldays

But it's coming back lately

Every time it hurts, seems there's a cogwheel
lurking in the corner of my eye

Pulling lighter and tighter

Last night we just drank and I forgot to ask how's your mother

How is she now?

Before coming over I visited her at the lunatic asylum

I believe she won't leave that place for the rest of her life

In Japan I'm under great pressure, a heavy burden

No creative inspiration at all

Right, come over to relax

Why didn't you produce it earlier?

I've a country cottage, go take a rest there

Why not bring her with you?

Her?

That one

What's this called?

This is authentic bean curd dessert, very creamy

Don't let them see us eating

Well, you've got goodies and won't share with us

Come here, I want to talk to you

Good morning

Tastes good?

Can I have one?

Here, take it back

Good grief!

I've told you not to play here, outside!

Are you all right?

I'm fine

Serve you right, snatching my goodies

I meant to give it back

Had a good time last night?

What?

Okagawa

What is it?

Come and see if there's anything you can bring back to Japan

They're very nice

Why not?

He likes you?

What?

Do you want to marry him?

Not a bad idea,you collect a bride-price to take home to your father

So you no longer need to borrow money

Well?

How do I get married?

Madame will teach you

Haven't you longed to see red candles and beddings?

Now your dream's come true

"All that is precious in this world"

"is found in the irreplaceable momentary emotion"

"Besides this, I know nothing about this girl"

Sir, Miss Chin-hua is still a virgin

She's too young, and prepared too hastily

Later on, please bear with her

Never had a bath this way

Never had such nice hot water

I know you love me

Wash my feet

You're Christian?

Or Catholic?

What's your belief anyway?

Isn't there a Christ?

When I was 5, Christ bathed me

That's not called bathing, it's called baptism

You believe in Christ, and yet you come to Lotus House?

If I don't come, my parents will starve to death

They say when Papa took the bride-price

He's overjoyed. So much money

Not even enough for half a year's drinks

What?

Nothing

What do I have to do to be your wife?

Pretty, aren't they?

I meant to take them back to Japan

They're yours now

Why?

A souvenir

Not because you love me?

Do you like them?

Now do you like me or Christ more?

What are you doing?

Thanking Christ!

I give you earrings and you thank Christ?

It's Christ who told you to give them to me

Help, Christ save me!

Hsiao-erh, stop here!

Chin-hua

Do you know my home is on the other side of the trees and sky?

Okagawa

Okagawa, look, the branches are spinning

As if they're sending my voice to the other side of the sky to you

Okagawa

"Ignorance of literature does not matter"

"So long as she loves me naturally, honestly"

How much longer?

"Unexpectedly, a totally uncultured young girl"

"Elevates my creative desires to another higher plane"

When do I stop?

"Arousing once again my love for life"

"I just fear I can't receive in time these inspirations, love and life"

"He has a sort of superstitious feeling"

"If one does not seize this moment and admire quickly"

"The masterpiece painting may vanish like a mist"

Didn't you say you wouldn't sleep?

I didn't sleep

Go to sleep

Go to sleep

Naughty!

I've no more strength. Let's sleep

No sleeping

No sleeping? What for?

No sleeping

Don't move

Are you always like that?

Where I come from, they call sale of boys moving rocks

Yes, where I come from many rocks work in the fields

Some are rocks bought by the rich from other places

Is that so?

So you're a rock that's moved to Mr Tan's house?

That's right. To pay the farm me

Or else we'd starve

Say, who's worth more, you or I?

You know how to pull a rickshaw? Or punt a boat?

Of course I do

Give me

Let you punt? Can you? Good.You punt

Careful!

- Okagawa, help!
- Chin-hua

What the devil?

Give a hand quick!

This way. Give me your hand!

Okagawa

You know how to swim?

You can't swim. It's dangerous, don't you know?

You may kill yourself!

Give it back

What?

Dry it, dry it. Christ, dry the hat quickly

So Christ is the sun?

You won't understand

Sir

Hsiao-erh, go fetch the manuscript beside my desk

Let's play fire lighting here rather than run around

In a while we'll take a big hot water bath

Are you all right?

Yes

Pass them over

Okagawa. Okagawa

More

What are you burning?

Sir

Are you mad? Who told you to burn these?

How can you burn these things?

Do you know it's hard work writing these?

Why you said you're not coming

Okagawa, see what they're burning?

I told them to burn it

Cover it first

Okagawa, come here, here

I just received a telegram

See? Your wife's given birth

It's a boy

Congratulations! You're a father a second time

Congratulations!

- Thank you
- Chin-hua, Chin-hua

You bigamist, you bigamist!

Christ told people not to commit bigamy
You'd cheated Christ!

Chin-hua

You cheated me!

These are not be burnt

Stop it!

Chin-hua

Don't go on like this

Chin-hua

Okagawa, sorry, I didn't mean to make such a mess

You cheat me!

You cheat me!

What are you doing? What are you throwing?

Go away, go away, go away!

"Being father to a baby should have been a happy even"

"But, seeing Chin-hua in such a state,
I just can't be happy"

"Returning to Nanjing, I found a telegram waiting for me"

"My father died, I must go back to Japan"

Miss, Madam, have a heart, spare a dime!

I've given already. Again?

Spare a dime!

Here, such noisy brats

No more

Have an orange

After the orange, when it's time, we've got to leave the carriage

This is not right

You're seeing him off, but not speaking to him

He's got a headache, in a bad mood

Have an orange

Madam, spare a dime, I beg you

Have a piece

Chin-hua, you know what you're missing?

Please, Sir, spare a dime!

Get lost!

Little beggars, kicked you out and you're back again. Get out. Scram!

Do you know what you're missing?

Chin-hua, Chin-hua

Chin-hua

Get out!

Big deal, Let's go then

We're here begging for food, not begging for his money

Who does he think he is?

Miss, give me

Look after her for me

"When the train reached the Nanjing Station, Chin-hua got off"

"She did not return to Lotus House"

"Camellia heard her saying to Hsiao-erh. "I'm back to square one""

What are you kids doing?

Shouldn't you line up? One by one!

- I've queued for a long time, go line up back there
- You've got food and you don't tell us?

Get lost, scram!

Son of a bitch!

I told you to come earlier

Those in front move forward a bit

Don't push, easy, everyone gets a portion

Little Sister ask Chin-hua to take you to the city for a full meal

If she gets a full meal, she wouldn't have come back

That's right

You take such a lot, what's left for Us at the back to eat

Don't quarrel, don't there's enough to go round

Here, congee

You took so long

I've got vegetable seeds too

Are vegetable seeds edible?

Grow vegetables and sell them, then we won't have
to wait for Christ distributing congee

Can we plant vegetables still?

"From the window of the little steam engine running"

"He watched the cherry blossoms of Mukaijima"

"In his eyes, cherry blossom in full bloom"

"Are as melancholy as a row of rags"

"In the cherry blossoms, those cherry blossoms of Mukaijima
ever since the Edo period"

"He suddenly saw himself"

Ready?

Please

Headache again?

This...

You bought for me on your last trip to China, remember?

Help me put it on, will you?

My sister likes it too, if you go again next time...

So beautiful!

Mama, so beautiful!

Papa, are there cherry blossoms in China? Papa

What do they have in China?

So beautiful!

"Okagawa, Chin-hua's returned to Lotus House"

"I guess she's no other way to go besides this"

"When she saw me she asked if you'd come back, and when"

"I gave her some money"

Spread open your legs

"Okagawa, I've come back to Lotus House"

"So happy to see Mr Tan"

"So I don't have to call to the tree for you"

"There's no wind. The tree before the house, I just don't see it move at all"

Madame, come look at this

"There's no food back home, the farm can't produce anything"

Let's see

"Okagawa"

"They told me to dress up, said you're back"
- Drink it yourself

"If not for this, I wouldn't know they lied last time, saying I was marrying you"
- Master said he's unwell and can't drink wine

"I'm not mad at you any more, I'm a bigamist too"

Sir, Chin-hua is still a virgin. She's very young

Please bear with her

OK

Have a good time!

"Christ, I'm in this business for the sake of my Papa, brother and sister"

"Even so, I think I can go to Heaven"

"I can see Okagawa again"

"Okagawa, what do you like in me?"

"Myself or my body?"

"How have I been doing?"

"Madame taught me to be considerate and loosen the body"

"Then you'll love me very much, and you won't go"

And if I go?

"Okagawa, as soon as Chin-hua came back to Lotus House,
she contracted a disease"

"Which would take long to cure"

"It shouldn't be fatal"

"At first, when she saw me she'd ask will you come back"

"And when"

"Lately she'd quiet. A few days ago she suddenly asked me
to pass on her letter to you"

"Okagawa, you taught me to write this name, remember?"

"I like to learn to write on leaves"

"Whenever I'm free I'd get the letter-writer at the street corner
to write a 2-bit letter to you"

"Write until you come back"

"Do you still have headaches?"

"I'm just like before, very healthy, not afraid of the cold"

"Two rickshaws pass by the stinking graveyard"

"Inside the wicket gates with oysters standing"

"Stand several blackened stone pagodas"

"He watches the slightly glowing sea opposite the stone pagodas"

I'm ill, my illness will infect you

Melon seeds? Is the tea still warm?

I'll make you another cup

Who does she think she is?

The other day I saw Miss Jasmine give her V.D. pills she's got left

In fact she cold cleanse it by scraping with ox bone

dipped in incense ash from the Confucian temple

Pass it on a customer and she'd be OK

Anyway she caught it the night she acted the virgin again

Just act the virgin once more

Wonder if we've caught it too

Disobedient!

I think...

Wash the bowls, chatterbox!

In 2 days they'd shoot convicts

Dip in some fresh dead man's blood, that'll fortify her more

You mean immune to all venoms?

Bookkeeper says if business is bad
she must receive even foreigners

When you go out, don't gossip about it

Chin-hua

Chin-hua

Chin-hua, they say the Japanese gentleman will be back soon

Okagawa

Stop her shouting, it scares away my guests

If she goes on shouting this way, I'll throw her out

She is such a pest!

Hsiao-erh

Is Mr Tan here?

I've got many letters for him to send for me

I come alone, go to bed with me

What?

You can pass the disease on to me

What do you mean?

I catch it and you'll be healed

What about you?

I still have strength, I can still pull the rickshaw

But you can't do business, Madame says she'll throw you out

They had give me their leftover V.D. pills

Amah

- I paid Madame, she let me in
- Go away!

Come

Let me help you!

I don't want your help!

Christ in Heaven

I take this trade to feed my father, brother and sister

I don't want to infect other people

Let me be uncleansed myself

Even so I can still go to Heaven

Even if my business is not good

- I won't pass on my disease to others
- Let me help you!

Hsiao-erh

What are you doing?

I'll kill you!

Help me, help me

Okagawa

Okagawa

Camellia

- Well?
- Okagawa

Where's the doctor?

He's here

Why didn't you ask hem in?

Amah, Amah

Chin-hua

We've got the best doctor to treat you

Only Christ is the doctor

This doctor is Christian too

Where's Okagawa?

How long has she been ill?

It comes and goes

Jesus gave his life for love

Well?

Give her water

Quick, a glass of water!

Lord Jesus loves me

What's her illness anyway?

- She's not only got venereal disease, but influenza in her organs too
- Drink water, drink tea, take food

Miss Chin-hua, don't go on like this

Lord Jesus loves me

Better send her to a hospital

- Sir, sir
- Where's the letter write?

Chin-hua

Come back, come back!

- What am I to do?
- Chin-hua

Miss, don't go on this way!

Show him, show him

Chin-hua, Okagawa's coming back!

Christ

Yes. Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so

Jesus gave his life for love, so my sins he may remove

Heaven's gate opens for me, so his lamb may enter free

Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me

Yes, Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so

Jesus loves me this I've know, never leaves his lamb alone

Lord saves me from woe by day

Looks like I'm dying soon

If I don't pass on my disease to a customer. I can't do business

Looks like I'm dying soon

I'm just a woman

I don't know when I'll fail to resist the man who comes for me

Christ, please protect me

Besides you, I've no one to rely on

Christ

What can I do for you?

Can you speak English? English?

"He look familiar, where have I seen him before?"

"The pleasure-boat, I passed by he with
a fat lady on the pleasure-boat, right?"

"That one's hair was redder"

"I saw his snap shooting in the Chinhuai Confucian Temple"

"Or was it before the Lishe Bridge Restaurant?"

I can't, I've got an awful disease

People coming close to me will catch it too

Four U.S. dollars?

Five

Nine. Wait

I thought I'd seen you somewhere

In fact you're Christ!

Christ, Christ

Are you here to heal me?

Heal me, as you heal the lepers

Let me be whole again so I can see Okagawa

And be with him

Christ, heal me. Okagawa

"Okagawa, I very much want to see you"

"and you to see me"

"When I touch myself, It's just like you touching me"

"Is Japan very far away?"

"You said the other side of the trees, how many
trees do you have to pass"

"I hate myself for that day when I ran home in Nanjing without a word"

"At least I should've told you I wanted you to stay"

"If I hadn't left, maybe you wouldn't either"

"And to this day you're still caring for me, loving me"

"I regret very much, Okagawa, very much"

"Chin-hua, I know what I should do"

"I'll come back to China. I'll take you to Japan for treatment"

"As for the future, I'll worry later"

"At least this is my duty right now"

I have decided what I should do

I'll go now to buy the ticket for the earliest train to Tokyo

I'll take the earliest boat from Japan to China

Chin-hua, I'll take you back to Japan

Okagawa

Stop here

Okagawa

- Okagawa
- Chin-hua

I have decided what I should do

I will take you to Japan for treatment

Even if I cannot take care of you for life

This is the least I can do

What's the matter with your hand?

Nothing, just a scratch

How did you get it?

Wait

Thank you

Let me take that

I'll get it, I'll get it

Come

So he's the one who reads letters to you?

You can read this one to me

Tell him I'm very happy

Without him, I've got Christ

Hsiao-erh

Hsiao-erh, look who's come back!

Sir

- Sir, I'll carry it for you
- The master wants to bring me back to Japan

Sir, my master's inside

You're here, of course he's here

Come on

Why, there's once when his master's
not here, he came alone...

Come on, let's go

Camellia

Give it to me

- Camellia
- Chin-hua

Chin-hua

Don't run so fast!

- Camellia
- Chin-hua

- Camellia, Camellia, Camellia
- You're waking people up

Camellia, look who's back?

Pipe down!

Mr Okagawa

Don't shout,if you wake up the masters, Nadane will beat you again

My master's back, Madame won't beat me

Don't tell him I'm sick

Come

He says he'll take me to Japan

I want to cure this disease quickly

I also want to buy red candles and beddings
But I've no money

Go back to your room first

You'll find a way for me? Really?

Go, go in quick!

Once he came to see me

What?

He's come when I dreamt, he'd come when I prayed

- Chin-hua
- I dreamt he treated me to a meal

Why should he treat you to a meal?

After Christ came I slept well

I'm very happy, Okagawa

I'm very happy

Chin-hua,I think you've made a mistake

Okagawa

You've woken someone, I'll go and see

Yung-nien, you're woken?

No

You must be careful

She doesn't know you know

What?

She told Camellia not to tell you

How could I not know?

Then pretend you don't know

Pretend I don't know

I forgot to put on socks

I'll cook some food

You come along too

Ok

Amah, hurry, come and help

Hsiao-erh, help me buy sesame cakes

Shall I wake up Madame?

If I could make those dishes Christ treated me to

She's only dreaming

She's told this dream many times

The roast pigeon could fly

I used my chopsticks and it flew away

Knocking over a bottle of Shaoxing wine

Many dishes, steaming hot

And he didn't eat, because
he didn't I like Chinese food

Is it true what you said in your letter?

A foreigner who looked like Christ came to her

Madame took his money

Chin-hua believed it's him

She even dreamt of Christ giving her a treat

Christ said if I finished all the dishes I'd be cured

What an appetite I'd got

Remember that half-breed reporter?

You'd have seen him

The one who stayed at the same hotel as we in Shanghai

He said he's some special corespondent

Heaven's beautiful, with round columns

Christ sat on a high rose wood chair

Behind him there's water's glow, water's sound

I also heard someone punting

You just dreamt of returning to Qinhuai, silly

Now I'll fry a real fried egg

Such array for frying an egg!

Sir

What is it?

- That foreigner's by the river
- Go away!

Okagawa

Okagawa

They say the man's got V.D., it's only hearsay

Okagawa

When they return, just say you dreamt it

After Christ left I did have a dream

Hsiao-erh's back, says when he was buying
sesame cakes by the river

He saw that Christ of yours buying sesame cakes too

Miss Chin-hua, Miss Chin-hua

Miss Chin-hua, Miss Chin-hua

I heard you're back. I wanted to buy a new dress and follow you to Japan

I don't want you to see me so ugly

I fear you don't want me

Nobody home, Madame beat me, sent me back home

My kid sister's sold, no one wanted me

There's no congee at home, whom'd I believe?

I'll go up with you to pack, I'll take you back to Japan

Christ seemed to have said some people posed as him to cheat

I'll take you to Japan for treatment

I'm not sick!

- You are!
- I'm not!

You must go for treatment

I'm not sick!

Go wash your face, get changed

I'll pack for you, go

Lord Jesus love me

You still believe?

You still belleve in him?

I don't recover, who do I believe?

When I'm well, I'll buy a new dress, so you'll see how pretty I am

What do I come back for?

If I hadn't come back, Chin-hua wouldn't be so upset

If I hadn't left, she wouldn't believe that man's Christ

So she's cheated, well just let her dream on

Isn't that happier?

Don't blame youself too hard

If only we could die together

I seem to remember you've written

Even it the gods were unfortunate., they couldn't commit suicide together with us

Right?

Right?

Take your medicine, the Japanese mister told you to take more fruit

See who you'd believe in

Go on being sick, later on people not only won't see you

They won't come to Lotus House at all

To me, sorrow is even more unbearable than anxiety

Headache again?

I don't know, I don't know

Go back, you can do nothing staying here

Tomorrow there's a boat for Japan

Boat for Japan? There's a boat?

I'll go and talk to Chin-hua

Okagawa, I'll look after Chin-hua here for you

She's always wanted you to find her pretty

If you stay to see her die, that's even more cruel

I want her to know I love her

She knows

I love her more than Christ does

What about your family in Japan?

They trust you

What if you bring Chin-hua back to Japan?

I've said in my letter, even if we can't be together for life

At least I want to cure her disease

If you feel obliged by this promise

Then go in peace

Chin-hua didn't know you only came back to take her to Japan for treatment

She relied on others to read letters to her

Nobody had read her this sentence

What did you say?

So what if she goes to Japan?

In Japan she can be treated

She's ill, she's ill

She's ill, she's ill

She's ill

Feeling cold?

I'm well, no need to follow you to Japan

You can go. I'll wait for Christ

There's boat tomorrow, we'll leave

Trust me

I'll wait for Christ

Christ takes care of Chin-hua all her life

It feels good to pack for you, like your wife

It's still warm, have you just taken it off?

If I'd packed your clothes for you earlier

Write more letters to me, I know more and more characters

That letter writer's no good, I'll find another

If he died, there's another one

I don't want to write, come with me to Japan

At least I can do this

There are doctors here, when I'm healed

I'll a pretty snapshot for you

Lots of pretty dresses in Japan

There are pretty dresses here too

Is there an Okagawa?

There's Christ here, that'll do

Where I am, Christ is there too

You don't go, I don't go!

Hsiao-erh

Sir, after you've gone, what will happen to Miss Chin-hua

Okagawa

Are you leaving now?

Just going for a walk

"No,I can't pass on my disease to you"

"No matter, I'm not afraid"

Chin-hua

Hsiao-erh

Okagawa

Okagawa

- Miss Chin-hua, Miss Chin-hua
- Okagawa

Miss Chin-hua, get on board

Miss Chin-hua

- Miss Chin-hua, you're still ailing
- Okagawa

Miss Chin-hua

Miss Chin-hua, Miss Chin-hua

Miss Chin-hua

Miss Chin-hua, Get on, you're still ailing

Miss Chin-hua

Miss Chin-hua, you're still ailing!

Sir, sir, sir

Okagawa

Chin-hua

I'll go with you

Let's go back to pack

I've done the packing

Hsiao-erh, Hsiao-erh

Just now I called to you, the tree didn't have
the strength to transmit my voice

No need, from now on there's no need to call that way

What's the matter?

Nothing, too windy outside, nothing

Can we wait until it's warm?

Your head still aches?

Is Japan warmer?

It's cold here

Are you still cold?

Once in Japan, I'll dress you up pretty

Will I last that long to see it?

What is it?

The road is rough going

Has the train arrived?

No, there's still time

Let's stroll

Pull over there and wait for us

Remember what we're to do?

We remember, one after the other

Good, and do you remember the song
I taught you yesterday?

Yes, the Jesus Love Me song

Good, sing together for me

Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so

Little ones to him belong, they are weak but he is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me

Yes, Jesus loves me, Bible tells me so

- Jesus gave his life for love, so my sins he may remove
- Chin-hua

Christ and me, which one do you belive in?

Let me pick it up

Chin-hua, Chin-hua

Chin-hua, Chin-hua, Chin-hua

What's the matter?

Nothing, nothing

Nothing, just that, for no reason, I feel you're going to die

"If everything is God's doing"

"God's doing is hateful taunting"

"Feelings order me to look fixedly at
the ugliness around and in me"

"I sense my own destruction"

"and destruction is inevitable"

"I wonder if there's someone who, while I'm sleeping"

"could quietly strangle me"

Having returned to his room, in the small hours,
Okagawa look sleeping pills to kill himself

On his body were his letters to his wife, children and friends

Beside his pillow was a Bible worn out from flipping
in his letter to his son he says

Life is a fight to the death

When defeated, self-destruct as didst thy father

To avoid implicating others in misfortune, as didst thy father