Marfa Girl 2 (2018) - full transcript
A young mother living Marfa, Texas struggles to raise her child after suffering from a brutal sexual assault.
(GLASS SHATTERING)
(CALMING INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
So you know, sex is just
another way of communication.
If people fucked more
there would be less war.
Less killing, less rape,
all that shit, know what I mean?
Yeah, I think so.
I mean it's just like,
if people did what
they wanted to do
and as long as
it didn't hurt anyone,
it shouldn't be a problem.
You know anything
about the clit?
Just what they say
on South Park.
Alright, so like nothing?
Well it's call the clitoris
and it's actually the only
part of the human body
that's designed and functioned
purely for pleasure.
It's just there to enable
a girl to cum over and over
and over again.
So that means that if you
can master the clitoris,
then you'll be
like set for life.
You have one year
until you're 17,
and you know
what that means, right?
No.
Age of fucking consent dude.
And you know what I'm gonna do?
I'm gonna fuck you until
your eyes fall out.
(MOANING)
(MOANING)
(MOANING)
(PANTING)
Oh my God.
(PANTING)
(KEYS CLANKING)
(KEYS THUMP)
[WOMAN] Contractions are a
minute apart.
[MAN] Good, good.
[WOMAN] Take a deep breath.
[MAN] Okay, just breath slow.
- [WOMAN] Nice And Slow.
- [MAN] Just breath slow.
Slowly, slowly,
deep breath in, out.
Good, good, good, good.
- [WOMAN] Deep breath.
- [MAN] Keep going.
Deep breath, deep breath.
- You're doing good.
- [WOMAN] Nice and slow,
come on you can do it.
- You can do it.
- [MAN] You're doing great.
You're doing good,
you're doing good.
(PANTING)
Push.
- Slow your breathing.
- Push.
(CRYING)
Deep breath now.
Right, right.
[WOMAN] Deep breath,
you're doing good.
- Hang in there.
- [MAN] You gettin' tired?
[WOMAN] You're almost
done, hang in there.
(PANTING)
[Man] One more breath,
one more breath,
breath really slow.
One at a time, one at a time.
There you go, there you go.
Another breath, another breath.
(CRYING)
Good there's the head.
Deep breath, deep breath.
Okay, we're getting
a lot of progress.
Okay, when you're ready,
take another deep breath.
One more, one more.
Deep breath,
deep breath, push!
Okay, push, push.
[WOMAN] Push, push, push,
push, push!
[MAN] Good, that's it,
here he comes.
(CRYING)
You got a boy,
you got a baby boy.
You did it.
(SOBS)
Good job.
[MAN] You got you a
baby boy here.
[WOMAN] Here's a healthy
baby boy.
Don't circumcise him.
Don't circumcise him.
(BABY FUSSING)
(CRYING)
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
(SOMBER PIANO MUSIC)
(MUMBLES)
(DOOR CLOSES)
Central access, (MUMBLES)
(GATE CLANKS)
Hi.
Hi.
Come on, let's get
the fuck outta here.
(CAR REVS)
(SOMBER GUITAR MUSIC)
So how's Ty?
He's really cool.
He's gonna be so
excited to see you.
(SIGHS) He looks just
like you too,
like it's crazy.
Where is he?
He is at Mary's
house right now.
What have you guys been up to?
What happened?
Mary watches the kids
sometimes when I'm at work.
Yeah.
And I don't know, like I
don't really have much time
to hang out so,
that's all I do really.
My moms still
fucking disappeared.
So yeah, it's just work
all the time,
hang out with the kids and then
go to sleep, it's hard, man.
Yeah,
yeah I know.
It's fucked up.
It's gonna be cool
having you around.
Yeah.
Ty needs to know his daddy,
you know?
Yeah I know,
I can't wait to see him.
I mean,
Gabriel's really cool too.
He's really a sweet kid.
Yeah.
I think you'll
really like 'em.
Yeah.
I know it's fucked up but,
he's really cool.
(YAWNS)
Did you miss me?
Yeah, I missed you
like a motherfucker.
(LAUGHS)
You're the motherfucker.
I mean I miss you like a
motherfucker and everything,
but then I remember the shit
that you did
and that fucking pisses me off.
I can not not think about it.
I know.
(SIGHS)
I don't care if you
fuck around, you know,
I really don't.
I understand I was locked
up and fucking,
like you were
out like by yourself
and fucking understand
but have you ever heard
of fucking birth control
you fucking dumb ass?
- Yeah--
- Fucking stupid man.
- It's fucking stupid.
- Retarded.
And now I don't even
know what the fuck to do,
like I don't know what
I should do or feel.
What am I supposed to do now,
just pretend it didn't happen?
- I'm sorry.
- You're not fucking sorry.
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
(PANTING)
I missed you.
(MOANING)
(PANTING)
(MOANING)
(PANTING)
(CRYING)
Sorry.
(UPBEAT GUITAR MUSIC)
(SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE)
Another one, another one,
another one!
[WOMAN] Another one, encore!
Long time no see.
Oh shit.
(CHUCKLING)
(LAUGHS)
(SOMBER GUITAR MUSIC)
♪ You like the fire the
one that I had inside ♪
♪ Woman tells me baby, baby ♪
♪ What's in your evil mind ♪
♪ I didn't know that it
just creeps into my head ♪
♪ Lookin' at her, ♪
♪ Thinking how could I be dead ♪
♪ I light my joint and then ♪
♪ Everyone here starts
runnin' scared ♪
♪ I breath in, I could feel it ♪
♪ Burnin' deep inside ♪
♪ The liquor that I drink ♪
♪ My scars it does not hide ♪
Are you fucked up?
Yeah,
really fucked up.
Why? (LAUGHS)
Drink too much tequila.
(LAUGHS)
(SLOW INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
Hey kids, good morning.
You guys awake yet?
Hello?
Hey sweetheart, wake up.
Happy birthday honey.
Thanks.
- Hello baby.
- Good morning.
Oh.
How are you?
Oh my god, it's another hot one.
You guys are so sweaty in here.
Geez you need to get up
and come on in
and have a cup of coffee.
Oh that sounds great.
Alright?
Yeah.
You guys are 18,
you're adults now.
We're gonna talk
about being adults,
alright, okay?
Inez what are you doing today?
You have any plans?
I think I'm gonna keep
Domaz with me tonight,
I don't think I'm gonna go out.
Okay, but you need to have
him with you this afternoon,
- alright?
- Okay.
I have an appointments.
You know you guys are out of
school now,
this is your kid so,
time to be full time parents,
alright?
Okay.
I'll see you in the house,
come in, I've got
some coffee on.
- Okay.
- Alright, sweetie.
(GRUNTS)
- Hey guys.
- Hey.
- Hey Adam?
- Yeah?
Did you call that guy,
I gave you the number?
Yeah, I told you I would.
I know, I'm just checking.
You need to do it this morning,
alright?
I'd figure I'd just go by
there later,
when I'm done skating.
No, that's the wrong order.
You need to call him,
go and see him
and then go skating.
You need to get a job, man,
I tried to set this up with you
last week
and you never called him.
I was busy last week.
Busy doing what?
Come on, man.
You wanna talk about someone
being busy,
I'm busy taking care
of your kids.
I really don't want you to
embarrass me by not showing up.
- I'm gonna show up.
- And we need this money.
- Yes we do.
- You know?
And I'm gonna show up.
Then don't talk to
me about skating.
I don't want to hear a
goddamn thing about skating.
Plus you have another
baby with Donna.
- I know.
- You know?
I've been caring the
weight for both of you guys
for the past two
years with no help.
I really didn't sign
up for this.
You know?
I need some help
and I'm not getting it.
I mean have you spoken to Donna?
Yeah, I speak
with her sometimes.
- You speak with her?
- Sometimes.
Oh, are you fucking her again?
- Alright guys, c'mon.
- I go to see my kid!
Hey, hey.
He's got a kid with her.
You may not like the situation
but that's a reality.
He's a dad to two kids.
Get off your ass, go
get dressed right now,
give 'em a call
and go down there.
(BANGS) It's almost 10
o'clock in the morning!
C'mon Adam!
- Seriously.
- You just pissed him off.
(SCOFFS) Yeah big deal.
Jesus.
Oh (MUMBLES)
Fuck.
(CRYING)
Oh baby,
come here sweetie.
Oh come on, it's okay.
Hi, hey, you okay?
You alright?
You okay honey?
(CRYING)
(SOMBER INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(GRAVEL CRUNCHING)
- The fuck are you doing?
- (DOOR SLAMS)
The fuck are you doing man?
It's over.
The fuck are
you talking about?
Come on baby.
Adam?
- Adam?
- What are you doing in here?
You can't just
walk in like that.
Take your kid.
I'm done, I'm leaving.
I'm done with this.
I've been raising your
kid for the last year
and a half and your kid
for the last three years,
and I'm fucking done!
I've had no support, no money
and no family, and you've
got plenty of that, so.
You think I can handle
two fucking babies?
Yeah, well, it's
your responsibility.
If I have to stay
here another minute
I'm gonna blow my
fucking brains out!
Fuck you, all of you.
That's not even
my fucking kid!
Get the fuck back here,
you fucking dumb ass!
Dumb bitch, what the fuck are
you doing?
Fuck you!
What the fuck are you doing?
Fuck outta here man.
(ENGINE STARTS)
Walk back here you
fucking dumb bitch.
The fuck man!
Geez!
(CRYING)
What is this?
A birthday party?
(UPBEAT INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(TRAIN HORN)
Adam, can you throw
this trash for me?
Yeah, hold up.
Like right now?
I said hold up.
Get up and throw
out the trash.
It can fuckin' wait.
You don't, what the fuck
is wrong with you, Adam?
You need to grow up.
(SIGHS)
Don't smoke in here.
I'll smoke wherever
the fuck I want to,
this is my trailer.
Adam put that out.
I don't have to.
Adam.
What?
Stop being immature.
I'm not being immature,
you're being immature.
You know what, your
moms fucking right.
You can't even get a job!
Hmm, mhmm yeah.
And you know, what the
fuck were you last night?
- I was out!
- I didn't see you
- for like a hour.
- I was out.
Out where?
Out.
I was out.
Are you out fucking
Donna again,
- is that it?
- Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, that's what
I'm doing, yeah.
Definitely.
(SIGHS)
You're such a fucking asshole,
you know what,
I stay here all day.
I don't know where
the fuck you go.
Out skating and you just
wanna come home
and get high and fuck me.
Exactly, that's all
I wanna do.
I've never fucked
around on you,
I can't even believe you knocked
up Donna.
It wasn't my fucking fault,
I was drunk,
it was my fucking birthday,
it was not my fault.
I've never been with
anybody else but you.
And I've never loved
anyone else but you,
but you're actin' like such a
- fucking bitch.
- That's a fucking lie!
No it is not!
You need to get the fuck up
and start acting like a dad.
Maybe I will when
this joints finished.
You know what, put
the fucking joint out.
I told you to stop
- smoking in here.
- Dude, are you
fucking serious?
Are you throwing shit at me?
I'll throw what ever
the fuck I want!
Don't fucking throw shit!
- Put the fucking joint out!
- Don't fucking touch me!
Stop fucking throwing
shit at me!
The fuck is your problem?
I'm not even in love
with you anymore.
I'm not fucking in
love with you.
You think I'm in fucking love
with you,
all you do is bitch and
bitch and fucking bitch!
I'm fucking tired of it!
That's all you fucking do!
All fucking day,
in my fucking ear.
- All fucking day!
- Because you don't even try
- to pick up any slack!
- Ahh!
I've tried to get a fucking job!
I've tried to get a fucking job!
You don't fucking--
- You're lazy--
- understand that.
You're a lazy fucking asshole.
All you fucking
do is sit here!
You fucking go out and
fuck whoever the fuck--
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Nobody looks at me anymore!
- Yeah.
- I can't go out and have sex.
You can go out and do
whatever the fuck you want.
You don't have a fucking job,
you can't do shit on your own.
You're a fucking mommas boy!
Yeah, I can't do shit,
I'm a mommas boy.
Whatever, get the fuck
out of my face.
Are you fucking serious?
Go to the kitchen--
- Don't push me!
- Where you fucking belong.
You need to take some
responsibility--
- Responsibility!
- For once--
- Yeah, yeah!
- You're not a kid anymore,
- Adam!
- Yeah, yeah, I got it!
I got it,
responsi-fucking-bility!
Jesus fuck!
You ruin my fucking joint too.
What the fuck is
wrong with you?
The fuck is wrong with you?
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
So were you able to
get any sleep last night?
No.
I mean, I'm, no.
I don't remember.
You know I'm not sleeping well.
Is he just getting up
a lot during the nights?
Yeah, he wakes me up,
I mean, he gets hungry.
He wants to eat and,
then its just.
(SIGHS) I just start
thinking about everything
and he cries and I
hear Tom crying
and its just fucked.
You're going to have to do
something about that, I think.
There's nothing to do.
But you're not in good shape.
Well, when I was
in good shape,
that's what lead to all this.
So it's pointless.
Doesn't matter.
No it does matter,
you have to take care
of this little boy.
It's not just that.
What else is going on?
It's like,
as awful as everything was it's
my fault.
None of this--
- That's not true.
- would have happened--
- It's completely true.
- It's not your fault.
It's 100% true.
It is not.
And I think if you were in
a little bit better shape,
you would understand that
that's really faulty logic.
I was an idiot and I thought
that I could help Tom and--
Why is trying to help
someone being an idiot?
I don't see that that has
any validation whatsoever.
Everything that happened
was a direct result
of my stupid actions.
You don't think this guy
embodied that violence before?
He had a history of it,
everybody knew that he
was sexually violent.
He was inappropriate
with people,
it was just a matter of
time before he went off.
It's like he knows, it
like he knows what happened
and I,
and I try to hold him and I
touch him,
but I can't, it's like he can
see that I don't love him.
And he's right.
But you've gotta come
to terms with that, honey.
You have to deal with
that, this is your baby.
He's his own person,
he's not Tom.
I don't think that you're--
I think that you see it too.
Look I, I see a
certain resemblance
and it's hard because we
were all traumatized by him
but we have to just go on and
I think if you got some help
and were able to process this,
you would be able to have a
relationship with your son.
The only way to do
that would be
to wipe my memory
clean of what happened
and there's no way to do that.
Blow my brains out
and then I'll forget.
Oh come on, that's
just not clear thinking
and honey, the drinking
doesn't help.
It's the only way I can sleep.
You never come out of
the postpartum depression
and you've never
dealt with the rape.
I mean, when did you
realize this was Tom's baby?
(CRYING)
I don't-- Immediately.
- I don't know.
- When you were carrying him?
No, I think I just hoped that
it would be you know,
Chachis's, Eric's,
someone who I'd loved,
and it's this.
It's like-- I feel like every
cell in his little body
carries that moment.
I know that he will
grow into his own person
and he needs time for that.
And you need to love him--
What kind of person
- can he grow into?
- And give him--
- A monster like his father?
- You got to
set an example,
you're all he has.
I don't know where
your family is,
I don't know why they're not--
I don't want to talk
about this anymore.
I know it's really hard
but it doesn't get better.
Each day it seems to get worse
with you
and you are too young and he is
too young.
You've gotta get out there
and have some sort of life
or at least help me.
I can't bring him up
and I can't be here all the time
and I'm actually really
worried about him.
Me too.
(INTENSE INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(INCOHERENT TALKING)
That was some fight
you had earlier today.
What the hell Adam?
You need to chill
out a little bit.
Hey.
She's always the
one starting it.
It doesn't really matter,
just try and tone it down,
you know?
Just a little bit, what are
you guys fighting about anyway?
She thinks that every
time I leave the house
I'm out fucking some
other girl, she's stupid.
Well, I don't know,
you leave for hours at a time,
who knows what the
hell you're doing?
Come here, come here.
You know, if you had a
job that you're going to
then we would know
where you were
but she doesn't know and
she's here stuck with a kid
and feeling insecure, you know?
Yeah.
Which is difficult for her.
Come here, baby.
God, look at this guy.
He's so cute, but looking
at this baby's eyes.
He looks exactly like Tom.
It's kinda terrifying, I
mean he's just a little boy
and he's so sweet, but then
sometimes when he looks at you--
- Yeah.
- Don't you get that feeling?
- Yeah, exactly.
- And then it's
really hard on his mom too.
- Yeah.
- Really hard on her.
Is that why she's never here?
Yeah.
She's mainly in her room.
She takes a lot of naps.
I don't know, she just can't
deal with it day to day.
- I know.
- After what happened.
I don't think she's
talking to many people.
She just seems really out of it.
She's gonna have to figure
out what she's gonna do,
but she's gotta get better
before she can do it.
I mean, Christ it's hard for
her even to go to the store
and talk to anyone.
Much less trying to
get her to interview
or looking for something
to do, I don't know.
I thought I could help her,
but I don't know if I'm
doing a damn bit of good.
And somebody needs to start
working in this house.
I know where this is going.
Honey, I just need some help.
I'm trying to get a job.
- I know.
- There's just
really none here.
I know.
But if you talk to that guy,
I know it's not the kind of work
you want
but I think he'll hire you.
'Cause I'm down to the dregs in
my savings
but I just think if you guys out
there arguing in that trailer
all the time
and I think like,
Jesus if they just
were out looking for work,
You know?
But then the kids would
always have to be with you.
Well we could switch it off,
I mean,
it's not like you can find
full time work in this town.
You maybe able to, if I
can get you on that crew.
I'm not sure what it is,
it's some sort of construction
deal, I don't know.
Those eyes, man.
Wow, incredible.
But he's sweet.
I'll never forget any of that.
He's dead now, we don't
have to worry about him.
(EXHALES) I know.
There you go, keep it flat.
Okay a little bit more,
back and forth now.
Spread it out,
it's a big job,
gonna go all day.
(INTENSE GUITAR MUSIC)
(THUNDER RUMBLING)
(CALM GUITAR MUSIC)
(SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE)
That was beautiful.
(GUITAR STRUMMING)
Want me to keep playing?
Yes.
Okay.
Another one.
(SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE)
Come here.
Come here Thomas.
(LAUGHS)
Oh, wow!
What is that?
What is that, baby?
What is that?
(LAUGHS)
Come here, sweetie.
Come on, let's go play.
Wanna go play?
Yeah?
Let's go play, baby.
(SOMBER INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(ROCKS CRUNCHING)
(POWER LINES HUMMING)
(CRYING)
Come on, go play.
Come on, come on.
(CRYING)
Hey, babe, be careful,
Ty's asleep.
He's inside.
(SIGHS)
(CRYING)
Oh, come here.
Come here.
Come here.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
(UPBEAT COUNTRY MUSIC)
I think you're fucking Miguel.
He's very charming.
I remember he used
to flirt with me
and I didn't care but,
I guess this one time
I took him to a party
and there was a jacuzzi
and so we got in.
He started rubbing my leg
and I just looked at him
and I looked at his lips
and realized he was so sexy.
And I was like "You know
what, I want a piece of that".
So we started making out
and he was such a good kisser.
So we got out of the jacuzzi
and went into these guest rooms,
went into this one room
and we were all wet and
he was just in his boxers.
And the sex with
him was so crazy,
it was unbelievable.
I mean he just
went straight down,
started eating my pussy,
eating all of it.
(LAUGHS)
I couldn't believe it.
Like, a 17 year old kid
and no one's good
at eating pussy,
but he's incredible.
I mean, only like
hardcore lesbians
are good at eating pussy.
And it was like there was a
rhythm to it
a beat.
Kind of like music.
And he had this little mustache,
I never thought I would like
some Mexican, latino mustache,
but when he was eating my
pussy it would just tickle me
and then after that I was
addicted to it.
Then we started to fuck,
but then the owner
of the house walks in
and was like "What the
fuck are you doing".
So we ran out of there
and I'm like.
"You're coming with
me little one".
I take him back to my house
and I have this giant bed.
And he tells me to
take off my clothes
and throws me down on the
bed, we're rolling around
and he's so sexy.
I mean, it doesn't even
make sense,
he's just this 17 year old kid,
but he was like a Dandy
from the 1940's.
And he was the fucking best.
He had this way of looking into
your eyes
and making you feel like you
were the last girl on Earth.
That's the way he makes
all of the girls feel.
The other thing was that,
I mean,
he has a perfect penis.
It's like a classic penis,
you know,
big, round, thick.
(TRAIN HONKING HORN)
I don't think Adam
loves me anymore.
Why?
He just doesn't act
the same, he's different.
He doesn't look at me the same,
he doesn't fuck me the same,
he just expects me to be
here when he gets off work.
Shit.
Sucks.
I mean he doesn't even try
to be a father to his kids,
he doesn't try to be
my lover anymore.
I'm so fucking tired of it here.
Then let's leave.
Go where?
To Austin.
Why Austin?
I don't know, there's a
good music scene over there,
it's way bigger, there's
more places to play.
I want to play my guitar, so
that seems like a good place.
You should come with me.
Go with you.
Hell yeah.
You just want me to pick
up everything and leave?
Yeah.
What about Thomas?
- I don't know, I mean,
- And Tai.
I don't think they care,
they just got out of the pin.
We could take the Oregon shit
and move to (MUMBLES),
I don't want to me stuck here
and you're too pretty
to be stuck here too,
let's get the fuck outta here.
What about Adam?
Fuck Adam.
Well, I can't just pick
up everything and leave.
Yes you can.
What kind of mother would that
make me?
- Donna?
- No.
But I really want you to come
and I could make money and
I could get shows and shit.
I'm getting better at playing
the guitars.
I mean you don't have to come,
I'm not kidnapping you or
anything.
I haven't had a girlfriend
since I was 12 years old.
And I love you.
- You love me?
- Mhmm.
Since the second I saw you,
I was like damn.
You're amazing.
- I think I love you too.
- Mhmm.
(MUMBLES)
(EERIE MUSIC)
(TRAIN HORN HONKING)
(SOLEMN INSTRUMENTAL GUITAR)
(MUSIC PACE INTENSIFIES)
- What the fuck!
- (SCREAMING)
Shit.
Shit.
(SPEAKING IN SPANISH)
(BABY SCREAMING)
(EERIE SLOW MUSIC)
(WATER SPLASHING)
(SLOW GUITAR STRUMMING)
(WATER DRIPPING)
(KNOCKING)
Yeah.
You killed my father.
(GUNSHOT)
I have a 9 year old son
and my fucking ex-wife
took him away from me
and I didn't do anything.
I love my son.
I would never discipline
him the way
my father disciplined me.
I would never use my fist,
these hands are for love.
The strap is for discipline.
I just miss him.
(WOMAN HARMONIZING)
(GASPING FOR BREATH)
(SLOW SPANISH MUSIC)
(CALMING INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
So you know, sex is just
another way of communication.
If people fucked more
there would be less war.
Less killing, less rape,
all that shit, know what I mean?
Yeah, I think so.
I mean it's just like,
if people did what
they wanted to do
and as long as
it didn't hurt anyone,
it shouldn't be a problem.
You know anything
about the clit?
Just what they say
on South Park.
Alright, so like nothing?
Well it's call the clitoris
and it's actually the only
part of the human body
that's designed and functioned
purely for pleasure.
It's just there to enable
a girl to cum over and over
and over again.
So that means that if you
can master the clitoris,
then you'll be
like set for life.
You have one year
until you're 17,
and you know
what that means, right?
No.
Age of fucking consent dude.
And you know what I'm gonna do?
I'm gonna fuck you until
your eyes fall out.
(MOANING)
(MOANING)
(MOANING)
(PANTING)
Oh my God.
(PANTING)
(KEYS CLANKING)
(KEYS THUMP)
[WOMAN] Contractions are a
minute apart.
[MAN] Good, good.
[WOMAN] Take a deep breath.
[MAN] Okay, just breath slow.
- [WOMAN] Nice And Slow.
- [MAN] Just breath slow.
Slowly, slowly,
deep breath in, out.
Good, good, good, good.
- [WOMAN] Deep breath.
- [MAN] Keep going.
Deep breath, deep breath.
- You're doing good.
- [WOMAN] Nice and slow,
come on you can do it.
- You can do it.
- [MAN] You're doing great.
You're doing good,
you're doing good.
(PANTING)
Push.
- Slow your breathing.
- Push.
(CRYING)
Deep breath now.
Right, right.
[WOMAN] Deep breath,
you're doing good.
- Hang in there.
- [MAN] You gettin' tired?
[WOMAN] You're almost
done, hang in there.
(PANTING)
[Man] One more breath,
one more breath,
breath really slow.
One at a time, one at a time.
There you go, there you go.
Another breath, another breath.
(CRYING)
Good there's the head.
Deep breath, deep breath.
Okay, we're getting
a lot of progress.
Okay, when you're ready,
take another deep breath.
One more, one more.
Deep breath,
deep breath, push!
Okay, push, push.
[WOMAN] Push, push, push,
push, push!
[MAN] Good, that's it,
here he comes.
(CRYING)
You got a boy,
you got a baby boy.
You did it.
(SOBS)
Good job.
[MAN] You got you a
baby boy here.
[WOMAN] Here's a healthy
baby boy.
Don't circumcise him.
Don't circumcise him.
(BABY FUSSING)
(CRYING)
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
(SOMBER PIANO MUSIC)
(MUMBLES)
(DOOR CLOSES)
Central access, (MUMBLES)
(GATE CLANKS)
Hi.
Hi.
Come on, let's get
the fuck outta here.
(CAR REVS)
(SOMBER GUITAR MUSIC)
So how's Ty?
He's really cool.
He's gonna be so
excited to see you.
(SIGHS) He looks just
like you too,
like it's crazy.
Where is he?
He is at Mary's
house right now.
What have you guys been up to?
What happened?
Mary watches the kids
sometimes when I'm at work.
Yeah.
And I don't know, like I
don't really have much time
to hang out so,
that's all I do really.
My moms still
fucking disappeared.
So yeah, it's just work
all the time,
hang out with the kids and then
go to sleep, it's hard, man.
Yeah,
yeah I know.
It's fucked up.
It's gonna be cool
having you around.
Yeah.
Ty needs to know his daddy,
you know?
Yeah I know,
I can't wait to see him.
I mean,
Gabriel's really cool too.
He's really a sweet kid.
Yeah.
I think you'll
really like 'em.
Yeah.
I know it's fucked up but,
he's really cool.
(YAWNS)
Did you miss me?
Yeah, I missed you
like a motherfucker.
(LAUGHS)
You're the motherfucker.
I mean I miss you like a
motherfucker and everything,
but then I remember the shit
that you did
and that fucking pisses me off.
I can not not think about it.
I know.
(SIGHS)
I don't care if you
fuck around, you know,
I really don't.
I understand I was locked
up and fucking,
like you were
out like by yourself
and fucking understand
but have you ever heard
of fucking birth control
you fucking dumb ass?
- Yeah--
- Fucking stupid man.
- It's fucking stupid.
- Retarded.
And now I don't even
know what the fuck to do,
like I don't know what
I should do or feel.
What am I supposed to do now,
just pretend it didn't happen?
- I'm sorry.
- You're not fucking sorry.
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
(PANTING)
I missed you.
(MOANING)
(PANTING)
(MOANING)
(PANTING)
(CRYING)
Sorry.
(UPBEAT GUITAR MUSIC)
(SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE)
Another one, another one,
another one!
[WOMAN] Another one, encore!
Long time no see.
Oh shit.
(CHUCKLING)
(LAUGHS)
(SOMBER GUITAR MUSIC)
♪ You like the fire the
one that I had inside ♪
♪ Woman tells me baby, baby ♪
♪ What's in your evil mind ♪
♪ I didn't know that it
just creeps into my head ♪
♪ Lookin' at her, ♪
♪ Thinking how could I be dead ♪
♪ I light my joint and then ♪
♪ Everyone here starts
runnin' scared ♪
♪ I breath in, I could feel it ♪
♪ Burnin' deep inside ♪
♪ The liquor that I drink ♪
♪ My scars it does not hide ♪
Are you fucked up?
Yeah,
really fucked up.
Why? (LAUGHS)
Drink too much tequila.
(LAUGHS)
(SLOW INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
Hey kids, good morning.
You guys awake yet?
Hello?
Hey sweetheart, wake up.
Happy birthday honey.
Thanks.
- Hello baby.
- Good morning.
Oh.
How are you?
Oh my god, it's another hot one.
You guys are so sweaty in here.
Geez you need to get up
and come on in
and have a cup of coffee.
Oh that sounds great.
Alright?
Yeah.
You guys are 18,
you're adults now.
We're gonna talk
about being adults,
alright, okay?
Inez what are you doing today?
You have any plans?
I think I'm gonna keep
Domaz with me tonight,
I don't think I'm gonna go out.
Okay, but you need to have
him with you this afternoon,
- alright?
- Okay.
I have an appointments.
You know you guys are out of
school now,
this is your kid so,
time to be full time parents,
alright?
Okay.
I'll see you in the house,
come in, I've got
some coffee on.
- Okay.
- Alright, sweetie.
(GRUNTS)
- Hey guys.
- Hey.
- Hey Adam?
- Yeah?
Did you call that guy,
I gave you the number?
Yeah, I told you I would.
I know, I'm just checking.
You need to do it this morning,
alright?
I'd figure I'd just go by
there later,
when I'm done skating.
No, that's the wrong order.
You need to call him,
go and see him
and then go skating.
You need to get a job, man,
I tried to set this up with you
last week
and you never called him.
I was busy last week.
Busy doing what?
Come on, man.
You wanna talk about someone
being busy,
I'm busy taking care
of your kids.
I really don't want you to
embarrass me by not showing up.
- I'm gonna show up.
- And we need this money.
- Yes we do.
- You know?
And I'm gonna show up.
Then don't talk to
me about skating.
I don't want to hear a
goddamn thing about skating.
Plus you have another
baby with Donna.
- I know.
- You know?
I've been caring the
weight for both of you guys
for the past two
years with no help.
I really didn't sign
up for this.
You know?
I need some help
and I'm not getting it.
I mean have you spoken to Donna?
Yeah, I speak
with her sometimes.
- You speak with her?
- Sometimes.
Oh, are you fucking her again?
- Alright guys, c'mon.
- I go to see my kid!
Hey, hey.
He's got a kid with her.
You may not like the situation
but that's a reality.
He's a dad to two kids.
Get off your ass, go
get dressed right now,
give 'em a call
and go down there.
(BANGS) It's almost 10
o'clock in the morning!
C'mon Adam!
- Seriously.
- You just pissed him off.
(SCOFFS) Yeah big deal.
Jesus.
Oh (MUMBLES)
Fuck.
(CRYING)
Oh baby,
come here sweetie.
Oh come on, it's okay.
Hi, hey, you okay?
You alright?
You okay honey?
(CRYING)
(SOMBER INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(GRAVEL CRUNCHING)
- The fuck are you doing?
- (DOOR SLAMS)
The fuck are you doing man?
It's over.
The fuck are
you talking about?
Come on baby.
Adam?
- Adam?
- What are you doing in here?
You can't just
walk in like that.
Take your kid.
I'm done, I'm leaving.
I'm done with this.
I've been raising your
kid for the last year
and a half and your kid
for the last three years,
and I'm fucking done!
I've had no support, no money
and no family, and you've
got plenty of that, so.
You think I can handle
two fucking babies?
Yeah, well, it's
your responsibility.
If I have to stay
here another minute
I'm gonna blow my
fucking brains out!
Fuck you, all of you.
That's not even
my fucking kid!
Get the fuck back here,
you fucking dumb ass!
Dumb bitch, what the fuck are
you doing?
Fuck you!
What the fuck are you doing?
Fuck outta here man.
(ENGINE STARTS)
Walk back here you
fucking dumb bitch.
The fuck man!
Geez!
(CRYING)
What is this?
A birthday party?
(UPBEAT INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(TRAIN HORN)
Adam, can you throw
this trash for me?
Yeah, hold up.
Like right now?
I said hold up.
Get up and throw
out the trash.
It can fuckin' wait.
You don't, what the fuck
is wrong with you, Adam?
You need to grow up.
(SIGHS)
Don't smoke in here.
I'll smoke wherever
the fuck I want to,
this is my trailer.
Adam put that out.
I don't have to.
Adam.
What?
Stop being immature.
I'm not being immature,
you're being immature.
You know what, your
moms fucking right.
You can't even get a job!
Hmm, mhmm yeah.
And you know, what the
fuck were you last night?
- I was out!
- I didn't see you
- for like a hour.
- I was out.
Out where?
Out.
I was out.
Are you out fucking
Donna again,
- is that it?
- Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, that's what
I'm doing, yeah.
Definitely.
(SIGHS)
You're such a fucking asshole,
you know what,
I stay here all day.
I don't know where
the fuck you go.
Out skating and you just
wanna come home
and get high and fuck me.
Exactly, that's all
I wanna do.
I've never fucked
around on you,
I can't even believe you knocked
up Donna.
It wasn't my fucking fault,
I was drunk,
it was my fucking birthday,
it was not my fault.
I've never been with
anybody else but you.
And I've never loved
anyone else but you,
but you're actin' like such a
- fucking bitch.
- That's a fucking lie!
No it is not!
You need to get the fuck up
and start acting like a dad.
Maybe I will when
this joints finished.
You know what, put
the fucking joint out.
I told you to stop
- smoking in here.
- Dude, are you
fucking serious?
Are you throwing shit at me?
I'll throw what ever
the fuck I want!
Don't fucking throw shit!
- Put the fucking joint out!
- Don't fucking touch me!
Stop fucking throwing
shit at me!
The fuck is your problem?
I'm not even in love
with you anymore.
I'm not fucking in
love with you.
You think I'm in fucking love
with you,
all you do is bitch and
bitch and fucking bitch!
I'm fucking tired of it!
That's all you fucking do!
All fucking day,
in my fucking ear.
- All fucking day!
- Because you don't even try
- to pick up any slack!
- Ahh!
I've tried to get a fucking job!
I've tried to get a fucking job!
You don't fucking--
- You're lazy--
- understand that.
You're a lazy fucking asshole.
All you fucking
do is sit here!
You fucking go out and
fuck whoever the fuck--
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Nobody looks at me anymore!
- Yeah.
- I can't go out and have sex.
You can go out and do
whatever the fuck you want.
You don't have a fucking job,
you can't do shit on your own.
You're a fucking mommas boy!
Yeah, I can't do shit,
I'm a mommas boy.
Whatever, get the fuck
out of my face.
Are you fucking serious?
Go to the kitchen--
- Don't push me!
- Where you fucking belong.
You need to take some
responsibility--
- Responsibility!
- For once--
- Yeah, yeah!
- You're not a kid anymore,
- Adam!
- Yeah, yeah, I got it!
I got it,
responsi-fucking-bility!
Jesus fuck!
You ruin my fucking joint too.
What the fuck is
wrong with you?
The fuck is wrong with you?
(BIRDS CHIRPING)
So were you able to
get any sleep last night?
No.
I mean, I'm, no.
I don't remember.
You know I'm not sleeping well.
Is he just getting up
a lot during the nights?
Yeah, he wakes me up,
I mean, he gets hungry.
He wants to eat and,
then its just.
(SIGHS) I just start
thinking about everything
and he cries and I
hear Tom crying
and its just fucked.
You're going to have to do
something about that, I think.
There's nothing to do.
But you're not in good shape.
Well, when I was
in good shape,
that's what lead to all this.
So it's pointless.
Doesn't matter.
No it does matter,
you have to take care
of this little boy.
It's not just that.
What else is going on?
It's like,
as awful as everything was it's
my fault.
None of this--
- That's not true.
- would have happened--
- It's completely true.
- It's not your fault.
It's 100% true.
It is not.
And I think if you were in
a little bit better shape,
you would understand that
that's really faulty logic.
I was an idiot and I thought
that I could help Tom and--
Why is trying to help
someone being an idiot?
I don't see that that has
any validation whatsoever.
Everything that happened
was a direct result
of my stupid actions.
You don't think this guy
embodied that violence before?
He had a history of it,
everybody knew that he
was sexually violent.
He was inappropriate
with people,
it was just a matter of
time before he went off.
It's like he knows, it
like he knows what happened
and I,
and I try to hold him and I
touch him,
but I can't, it's like he can
see that I don't love him.
And he's right.
But you've gotta come
to terms with that, honey.
You have to deal with
that, this is your baby.
He's his own person,
he's not Tom.
I don't think that you're--
I think that you see it too.
Look I, I see a
certain resemblance
and it's hard because we
were all traumatized by him
but we have to just go on and
I think if you got some help
and were able to process this,
you would be able to have a
relationship with your son.
The only way to do
that would be
to wipe my memory
clean of what happened
and there's no way to do that.
Blow my brains out
and then I'll forget.
Oh come on, that's
just not clear thinking
and honey, the drinking
doesn't help.
It's the only way I can sleep.
You never come out of
the postpartum depression
and you've never
dealt with the rape.
I mean, when did you
realize this was Tom's baby?
(CRYING)
I don't-- Immediately.
- I don't know.
- When you were carrying him?
No, I think I just hoped that
it would be you know,
Chachis's, Eric's,
someone who I'd loved,
and it's this.
It's like-- I feel like every
cell in his little body
carries that moment.
I know that he will
grow into his own person
and he needs time for that.
And you need to love him--
What kind of person
- can he grow into?
- And give him--
- A monster like his father?
- You got to
set an example,
you're all he has.
I don't know where
your family is,
I don't know why they're not--
I don't want to talk
about this anymore.
I know it's really hard
but it doesn't get better.
Each day it seems to get worse
with you
and you are too young and he is
too young.
You've gotta get out there
and have some sort of life
or at least help me.
I can't bring him up
and I can't be here all the time
and I'm actually really
worried about him.
Me too.
(INTENSE INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(INCOHERENT TALKING)
That was some fight
you had earlier today.
What the hell Adam?
You need to chill
out a little bit.
Hey.
She's always the
one starting it.
It doesn't really matter,
just try and tone it down,
you know?
Just a little bit, what are
you guys fighting about anyway?
She thinks that every
time I leave the house
I'm out fucking some
other girl, she's stupid.
Well, I don't know,
you leave for hours at a time,
who knows what the
hell you're doing?
Come here, come here.
You know, if you had a
job that you're going to
then we would know
where you were
but she doesn't know and
she's here stuck with a kid
and feeling insecure, you know?
Yeah.
Which is difficult for her.
Come here, baby.
God, look at this guy.
He's so cute, but looking
at this baby's eyes.
He looks exactly like Tom.
It's kinda terrifying, I
mean he's just a little boy
and he's so sweet, but then
sometimes when he looks at you--
- Yeah.
- Don't you get that feeling?
- Yeah, exactly.
- And then it's
really hard on his mom too.
- Yeah.
- Really hard on her.
Is that why she's never here?
Yeah.
She's mainly in her room.
She takes a lot of naps.
I don't know, she just can't
deal with it day to day.
- I know.
- After what happened.
I don't think she's
talking to many people.
She just seems really out of it.
She's gonna have to figure
out what she's gonna do,
but she's gotta get better
before she can do it.
I mean, Christ it's hard for
her even to go to the store
and talk to anyone.
Much less trying to
get her to interview
or looking for something
to do, I don't know.
I thought I could help her,
but I don't know if I'm
doing a damn bit of good.
And somebody needs to start
working in this house.
I know where this is going.
Honey, I just need some help.
I'm trying to get a job.
- I know.
- There's just
really none here.
I know.
But if you talk to that guy,
I know it's not the kind of work
you want
but I think he'll hire you.
'Cause I'm down to the dregs in
my savings
but I just think if you guys out
there arguing in that trailer
all the time
and I think like,
Jesus if they just
were out looking for work,
You know?
But then the kids would
always have to be with you.
Well we could switch it off,
I mean,
it's not like you can find
full time work in this town.
You maybe able to, if I
can get you on that crew.
I'm not sure what it is,
it's some sort of construction
deal, I don't know.
Those eyes, man.
Wow, incredible.
But he's sweet.
I'll never forget any of that.
He's dead now, we don't
have to worry about him.
(EXHALES) I know.
There you go, keep it flat.
Okay a little bit more,
back and forth now.
Spread it out,
it's a big job,
gonna go all day.
(INTENSE GUITAR MUSIC)
(THUNDER RUMBLING)
(CALM GUITAR MUSIC)
(SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE)
That was beautiful.
(GUITAR STRUMMING)
Want me to keep playing?
Yes.
Okay.
Another one.
(SINGING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE)
Come here.
Come here Thomas.
(LAUGHS)
Oh, wow!
What is that?
What is that, baby?
What is that?
(LAUGHS)
Come here, sweetie.
Come on, let's go play.
Wanna go play?
Yeah?
Let's go play, baby.
(SOMBER INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC)
(ROCKS CRUNCHING)
(POWER LINES HUMMING)
(CRYING)
Come on, go play.
Come on, come on.
(CRYING)
Hey, babe, be careful,
Ty's asleep.
He's inside.
(SIGHS)
(CRYING)
Oh, come here.
Come here.
Come here.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
(UPBEAT COUNTRY MUSIC)
I think you're fucking Miguel.
He's very charming.
I remember he used
to flirt with me
and I didn't care but,
I guess this one time
I took him to a party
and there was a jacuzzi
and so we got in.
He started rubbing my leg
and I just looked at him
and I looked at his lips
and realized he was so sexy.
And I was like "You know
what, I want a piece of that".
So we started making out
and he was such a good kisser.
So we got out of the jacuzzi
and went into these guest rooms,
went into this one room
and we were all wet and
he was just in his boxers.
And the sex with
him was so crazy,
it was unbelievable.
I mean he just
went straight down,
started eating my pussy,
eating all of it.
(LAUGHS)
I couldn't believe it.
Like, a 17 year old kid
and no one's good
at eating pussy,
but he's incredible.
I mean, only like
hardcore lesbians
are good at eating pussy.
And it was like there was a
rhythm to it
a beat.
Kind of like music.
And he had this little mustache,
I never thought I would like
some Mexican, latino mustache,
but when he was eating my
pussy it would just tickle me
and then after that I was
addicted to it.
Then we started to fuck,
but then the owner
of the house walks in
and was like "What the
fuck are you doing".
So we ran out of there
and I'm like.
"You're coming with
me little one".
I take him back to my house
and I have this giant bed.
And he tells me to
take off my clothes
and throws me down on the
bed, we're rolling around
and he's so sexy.
I mean, it doesn't even
make sense,
he's just this 17 year old kid,
but he was like a Dandy
from the 1940's.
And he was the fucking best.
He had this way of looking into
your eyes
and making you feel like you
were the last girl on Earth.
That's the way he makes
all of the girls feel.
The other thing was that,
I mean,
he has a perfect penis.
It's like a classic penis,
you know,
big, round, thick.
(TRAIN HONKING HORN)
I don't think Adam
loves me anymore.
Why?
He just doesn't act
the same, he's different.
He doesn't look at me the same,
he doesn't fuck me the same,
he just expects me to be
here when he gets off work.
Shit.
Sucks.
I mean he doesn't even try
to be a father to his kids,
he doesn't try to be
my lover anymore.
I'm so fucking tired of it here.
Then let's leave.
Go where?
To Austin.
Why Austin?
I don't know, there's a
good music scene over there,
it's way bigger, there's
more places to play.
I want to play my guitar, so
that seems like a good place.
You should come with me.
Go with you.
Hell yeah.
You just want me to pick
up everything and leave?
Yeah.
What about Thomas?
- I don't know, I mean,
- And Tai.
I don't think they care,
they just got out of the pin.
We could take the Oregon shit
and move to (MUMBLES),
I don't want to me stuck here
and you're too pretty
to be stuck here too,
let's get the fuck outta here.
What about Adam?
Fuck Adam.
Well, I can't just pick
up everything and leave.
Yes you can.
What kind of mother would that
make me?
- Donna?
- No.
But I really want you to come
and I could make money and
I could get shows and shit.
I'm getting better at playing
the guitars.
I mean you don't have to come,
I'm not kidnapping you or
anything.
I haven't had a girlfriend
since I was 12 years old.
And I love you.
- You love me?
- Mhmm.
Since the second I saw you,
I was like damn.
You're amazing.
- I think I love you too.
- Mhmm.
(MUMBLES)
(EERIE MUSIC)
(TRAIN HORN HONKING)
(SOLEMN INSTRUMENTAL GUITAR)
(MUSIC PACE INTENSIFIES)
- What the fuck!
- (SCREAMING)
Shit.
Shit.
(SPEAKING IN SPANISH)
(BABY SCREAMING)
(EERIE SLOW MUSIC)
(WATER SPLASHING)
(SLOW GUITAR STRUMMING)
(WATER DRIPPING)
(KNOCKING)
Yeah.
You killed my father.
(GUNSHOT)
I have a 9 year old son
and my fucking ex-wife
took him away from me
and I didn't do anything.
I love my son.
I would never discipline
him the way
my father disciplined me.
I would never use my fist,
these hands are for love.
The strap is for discipline.
I just miss him.
(WOMAN HARMONIZING)
(GASPING FOR BREATH)
(SLOW SPANISH MUSIC)