I Remember (2005) - full transcript
The memories of Guiga, from early childhood to young adulthood: his family, relatives, friends, fears, dreams and reality in a still provincial city of Salvador, Bahia, from the 50s to the 70s.
I REMEMBER
One of my oldest memories
is a photograph of a ship.
Aunt Nieta was returning
from America.
I thought it was on that ship.
The adults said that babies
were brought by a stork.
I don't know why,
I thought they came on a ship...
in the middle of the mist,
from some unknown place.
Would it be America?
USE IT, DON'T ABUSE IT
There is a bull on the line
Yes, there is
There is a bull on the line
Catarina goes by train
This comes as a goodbye
As a goodbye this comes
My mother became toothless
- Stop, boy! Keep quiet!
- Bitch!
- What did you say, you brat?
- Bitch!
You're gonna see,
you little punk!
Guilherme!
Come and see what
your son is saying here!
What is it, woman?
- What is it?
- Tell your father what you said!
- Bitch!
- What did you say?
- Bitch!
- Where did you learn this, brat?
Where did you hear this,
you brat?
That's enough, man!
He's not going to do this anymore!
Now repeat!
Swallow your tears!
That's enough, man!
He's not gonna do this anymore!
Are you, my little son?
I told you to swallow your tears!
I thought I was the centre
of the world.
All that existed was a God's
wonderful invention just to test me.
Life was a theatre and it only
made sense because I was there.
That is, if I closed my eyes
and plugged my ears...
immediately the whole world
would stop existing.
They said I would return American
With tons of money
That I would be very rich
That I couldn't stand the sound
of the tambourine anymore
And would get goose pimples
hearing the "cu?ca".
They said that with the hands
I was worried
Aunt Nieta liked to sing
in the bathroom...
and I loved to hear her voice.
What I didn't understand...
was Zeca and Nenzinho's
excitement going up that ladder.
Be careful!
Guiga is looking at us!
But he can't see.
He knows nothing!
Que ser? ser?
Whatever will be, will be
The future is not ours to see
Que ser? ser?
What will be, will be
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother
What will I be?
Will I be rich?
Will I be pretty?
That's what she said to me
Que ser? ser?
Whatever will be, will be
The future is not ours to see
Que ser? ser?
What will be, will be
She is not coming and not even
the pigeon has returned
After that woman left me
I don't know why
Get out of here, my boy,
before I step on you!
Guiga wants to smell.
- What, my son?
- Guiga wants to smell.
The parrot went dumb
and the water pipe is leaking
Look at this, Cr?u!
This boy wants to smell me!
Get out of here, you little punk!
Ugly!
Once on holidays we went to spend
a few days at uncle Arnaldo's farm.
They were days full of insignificant
and great experiences.
Look who's going there!
Gisaldina!
Gisaldina!
Suc-ker! Suc-ker!
Suc-ker! Suc-ker!
You gang of little monsters!
Do you think I don't know?
One of these days,
one of these chicks...
is going to be born
with one of your faces!
Put there:
Zeca's ding-dong has grown.
Or his little friend... or willy.
You could say, "his lower
parts have been affected".
- Zeca's pisser is altered.
- None of this will do!
There are things that cannot
be said to Mr. Guilherme.
Dick...
dickie...
dicko.
- I still think birdie is better.
- Let's see how this is:
"Mr. Guilherme, come urgently.
Zeca's urethra is swollen."
People!
That boy hasn't gone to sleep yet?
My goodness!
Guiga is already like this?
How he has grown, my dear!
He's becoming a little man!
- Intelligent! You have to see!
- Sit down, Mrs. Aurora.
Well, Guiga, let's take a photo?
Come up here,
I'm going to take a beautiful photo.
But with this hair...
he looks like a girl, Mrs. Aurora!
Was it a promise?
He's going to have his
hair cut next week.
This photo is for me to remember
how he looked like with long hair.
Once I woke up
in the middle of the night.
Uncle Pedro was having an attack...
and screamed as
if he were possessed.
I remember that I felt real horror
at the simple fact that I was alive.
I thought:
I'm in this! It's not a game!
It's real! I'm alive!
Nandinha was a sleepwalker.
One night, when no one noticed...
she left the house and ended
up in "Baixa do Bigode".
On returning she was seen by
the neighbour, who guided her in...
carefully, because he thought
that if the girl woke up...
she could die of fright.
The little boat
Floats quickly
Floats endlessly
Now, Guiga, you're going to play
the piano. Give me your little hand.
Your thumb on C.
Nandinha was a boarder in
Merc?s College against her wish.
But when the sisters discovered
that she was a sleepwalker...
they called my father
and sent her back home.
That's how my sister escaped
from boarding school...
and now she was going to get
married to Mrs. Elvira's son.
And now you will be my husband
And sing the glory of my heart
This guy Lol? who is going to
marry Nandinha is really ugly!
Poor girl!
The man looks like a mummy!
And worse still he is coloured!
But he is a graduate, my dear.
A ring on his finger!
I think she did well!
That hollow saint!
Nowadays what is important
in a man is that he has...
character and personality...
you understand?
As well as a big dick!
- You're terrible, Ded?!
- Well! Better ugly than nothing!
- It would be worse to be a spinster!
- I don't agree!
An honest woman could
very well be single...
and not necessarily be unhappy!
A woman could very well
enjoy certain pleasures...
and not stop being
a sweet little virgin.
What do you mean?
Don't we only have a hymen
in the front, my dear?
- You're crazy?
- Don't men like hymens?
Well, I'm keeping mine
very carefully!
I know a girl...
someone told her that
alum was good for it.
And so, she got one,
put it in a glass of water, see...
to later rub it on her pussy...
so her fianc? would think
she was still a virgin!
She went to the bathroom,
and while looking for the water...
her fianc? knew nothing,
and she asked: "My dear...
where is my glass
of water that I left here?"
The fianc? answered through
a tightly closed mouth, like this:
"I drank everything!"
Envy, my mother!
Pure envy!
You know that it's all lies.
- I adore him!
- Pissing Ray!
Are you not ashamed?
You're going to get married
and still piss on the bed!
Stop shaming your sister!
Don't worry, my daughter!
You know how disturbed this boy is!
But he's right, my daughter...
this urinating on the bed
is not right!
If your fianc?
finds out about this...
he's going to give you back
to your father!
And now we'll be together
United forever in the name of God
I only know that Nandinha
married Lol?...
and never again pissed
on the bed.
Daddy?
What is it, girl?
Let me go there below.
No, madam! Stay there!
Let's sleep!
Daddy?
Daddy?
- What is it, girl?
- Let me go! What's the problem?
- What did you lose down there?
- I want to see Ded?.
- What's with Ded??
- I want to see her fooling around.
Her what?
Where did you learn this,
you terrible little girl?
Aurora!
- Aurora!
- What?
Come here!
Aurora! You have to see what
this terrible little girl has learnt!
I go out to work...
you have to know
what happens in here!
Go straight to bed!
She wanted to see the neighbour's
daughter fooling around.
Those were her exact words:
"fooling around".
Now I ask,
do you think this is right?
Just look, Aurora!
My goodness!
It's hard!
A little boy this young
already like this!
What do you think
he's dreaming about?
- This is full of piss!
- Put this boy in the cradle.
Where is my white handkerchief
Washing-woman
That I gave you to wash
Washing-woman
Where is my white handkerchief
Washing-woman
That I gave you to wash
Washing-woman
It's not my fault what happened
Get out of here!
Goodbye, my butterfly
If you want to fly
I say goodbye to my love
I say, I say
There is heaven!
That's where God lives.
There was a window
in the middle of the stairs.
Cicinha told me that
God lived on the other side.
God sees everything.
He is everywhere.
Sambalel? is sick
Her head is broken
Sambalel? needed
A good beating
Samba, Samba
Sambolel?
Step on the hem of her skirt
Olal?
Can't she find a better place
for all that rubbing?
It's the same thing every day!
I threw a piece of wood at the cat
But the cat didn't die
I'm here!
Who called?
The Shaky Apartment Building
won't charge you any taxes...
because who pays everything
is Mirta Perfumery.
And the confusion in
the Shaky Building begins.
In apartment 302,
the couple enjoy themselves.
My dear,
you are a comic character!
- And you are my album!
- So let's stick together then?
Let's go.
Stop! Stop, my dear,
my father could see us!
- One more, one more, one more...
- No, no, look at father, my dear!
- Daughter?
- What is it, father?
- Are you alone with your fianc??
- Yes, I am.
- Is the light on?
- It is.
Then turn it off!
Not even the dark can extinguish
the radiant shine of your smile...
when you use
Eucalol Toothpaste.
Carrying out the most perfect
and complete mouth hygiene...
Eucalol Toothpaste quickly removes
the yellow from your teeth.
Eucalol Toothpaste gives you
a healthy smile.
100% financed by Mirta Perfumery...
Built anywhere in the
Marvellous City, the Shaky...
Shaky...
Shaky...
Shake Building!
He sees everything.
He is everywhere.
- Mum, I'm afraid.
- Afraid of what, my son?
Of Evilamem.
Evilamem?
But who is this Evilamem?
Like in the prayer:
"Deliver us from Evilamem."
Oh, God!
So innocent, my youngest one!
Forget about this Evilamem,
my sweet!
Let's go to sleep!
Blessing, godmother moon,
give me bread with flour...
The full moon
brought Crazy Maria...
who was going to get married
to a famous English statesman.
My mum liked this,
she kept her going.
He sent me a telegram from England!
Who, Maria?
Who is the guy who's gonna
marry me? Isn't it Churchill?
Really, Maria?
Look what he sent me.
He wants to take me
to live with him.
But the devil can go, not me!
I've already told him
that I'm not going there!
You bet I'm not!
And moreover:
I'll only marry him if he quits
that bloody cigar!
Oh, Cr?u!
Come and sing that song
that he likes...
...to see if he sleeps!
- Who called?
Oh, Cr?u! Come here!
Come and sing that song that
he likes, to see if he sleeps.
Oh Terram?
Take my daughter, Terram?
Take her, Terram?
Sindolel?, ? sindolal?
I stepped on the dry leaf
I heard crush, crush
Sindolel?, ? sindolal?
I stepped on the dry leaf
I heard crush, crush
What face is that, boy?
You look like a stray dog!
It's nothing, Cr?u!
That morning, going down the stairs,
I saw the broken window.
What was on the other side
was no heaven.
It was only Mrs. Elvira's yard.
There she was hanging
up clothes on the line.
That was my first
religious deception.
Once, during Holy Week...
we went to watch
"The Life of Christ" in Jandaia.
My first time in the movies.
Seeing the suffering
of the son of God...
made me think He was
only a poor devil!
My notable Portuguese
I want to offer you today
With all my heart
This my sincere cult
My notable Portuguese
I want to offer you today
With all my heart
This my sincere cult
This my sincere cult
If you were the Mother of God
So pure and so
Do you want one, uncle?
Here!
BRAZILIAN CHAMPION - 1959
Someone's not scratching right!
And it's someone on the left side!
I told you:
cinema only if you scratch right!
And what film are we going
to watch, Nenzinho?
An excellent one!
Wonderful, really!
With Kirk Douglas.
But this side here is still flat!
I want to be all goose pimples!
And the spray that you promised?
But this is in Carnival!
Carnival is still a long way off.
Whoever scratches right
will get a big spray.
What about me, Nenzinho?
For you a small one.
You are still small!
I want a big one!
- I hope your father sees this!
- Now! What's wrong?
I'll say nothing!
Oh, Helena! Take this bag out
of the middle of the house, girl!
Child that I bless,
you pass through my life...
Child that I bless,
you pass through my life...
as, over the sea, the flight
of a lonely and lost Alcyone.
Child that I bless...
you pass through my life...
as, over the sea...
the flight of a lonely
and lost Alcyone.
This here was
at Christ the Redeemer!
This is me, can you see?
Cicinha, come here,
Nenzinho in the Christ "Redemand!"
It's not "Redemand", you idiot!
It's Redeemer!
Look what I got!
I think it's better you go now.
I don't want anyone to know.
I trust you, you hear?
I don't even want to know
what you have there!
Your blessing, my godmother.
That shitface Zecawill pay me!
I was a child and I hoped
Some day to be happy
I promised
I gave lots of sweets
To the little saints
We never knew why, but whenever
there was a party in the house...
uncle Pedro would collect all
the empty bottles he could find.
Her lover ask her
Cosmas and Damian
Crispin, Crispinian
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Guiga
Happy birthday to you
And the promise I made
I have paid
Parties and more parties
I have had
And on this happy day
I remember
Once Mrs. Elvira was crazy
for a while.
They said it was because
of her menopause.
If I only knew what
the hell menopause was!
In the placid banks of Ipiranga
The resounding cry
Of a heroic people
And the Sun of Freedom
Shine in the sky of the Country
The equality
We win
With a strong arm
In your breast
O Freedom
Challenge our breast
With our own death
O loved country!
There was the fire of hell.
In the catechism
of the first communion...
they said we must eat the flesh
of God to be saved.
I thought that was
an enormous hope...
but when I swallowed the host
nothing happened!
Anyway, what kind of god was that
who never appeared clearly?
Now you are beginning to feel
your eyes heavy...
heavy...
it seems as if your lids
are made of lead...
heavy...
heavy...
Don't resist...
give in to this sweet sleep...
deep...
heavy...
Let your body lean forward...
and backward...
to one side...
and to the other...
This... deep...
forwards...
backwards...
to one side...
to the other...
Anita?
Deep...
Anita, you're a babe!
Heavy...
Some of you already find
yourselves under my power.
Mrs. ?ris! Come here!
When I count to three...
you will wake up from
this state of hypnoses...
and you will remember nothing.
One...
two...
three!
You mean the woman had an attack,
and almost died of fright?
I'm sure this was Zeca's fault,
Aurora!
I don't know what to do
with that boy anymore.
He's bad natured.
I think the only thing is boarding
him at a priest's school...
or a military school,
to see if he improves.
Take my word:
he's never going to be
anything in life!
But it was also the education
you gave him!
They're all going to lose
because of you!
You're a very wrong woman,
Aurora!
Are you already asleep, woman?
We didn't know it...
but on that night uncle Pedro
was going away forever...
taking his bottle treasure
with him.
Boys of Bahia
Now at this children's time
The message of hope
Is brought with happiness
That on the earth, earth in flower
There will be, there will be love
That in the sky, in the sky of blue
There will be more splendour
And while we sing
There will be Brazil
Brazil
To begin the program today...
on the piano we will have a solo
of "Hungarian Rhapsody 2..."
played by a boy
who's only 11 years old...
but who plays like an adult.
The boy Guilherme
de Almeida Filho, Guiga!
How beautiful the days
Of the beginning of existence
Breathing the innocent soul
As perfuming the flower
The sea is a serene lake
The sky a blue cloak
The world a golden dream
And life a hymn of love
Summertime was walking
barefoot, sling, kites.
It was fishing, swimming
in the river, running free.
It was sucking mangoes
and eating fruits.
It was tropical fruits
of all types...
it was roasting nuts...
Summertime was insect bites,
melons, laziness.
"It's not easy to deal with
pirlimpimpim powder.
You have to sniff
the right amount.
Not too much, not too little...
or else you'll go here or there
but not where you want to go.
Close your eyes tightly,
like we do when sleeping...
when we're going
to fall from a cliff.
Stay a minute like this."
The television has arrived!
The television has arrived!
The television!
The arrival of the television
was fantastic...
now I could see the programs
that I only knew by name:
Roy Rogers, Jim of the Jungle,
Circus Boy...
The Toddy Troopers,
Rin Tin Tin...
Zorro, The Highway Ranger.
My God: make me grow up soon.
Don't worry, it's silly...
but I want to grow up
to see adult films...
to smoke and be able to go
wherever I want...
to do everything
that is prohibited.
My father said that Carnival
was the party of the devil...
and every year he took the family
to the countryside.
But that year Zeca
had got a girlfriend...
and decided to jump off the train.
My God, what a disgrace!
This is a disgrace!
And how are you going to live?
Can you keep a family?
You fool! You've never been
worth anything anyway!
You could tell that girl
that you're mixed up with...
to kill this sorrowful baby
while there's time!
Why don't you kill yourself!
If I were you,
I'd drink strychnine...
formicide, any poison!
I'd put a bullet in my head!
Or I'd throw myself
from Lacerda Elevator!
Zeca! Don't worry, my son!
In time you'll get a job,
earn your money.
For the moment I'll give
you some groceries...
from the house, every week.
You can come to pick them up.
Don't worry, my son.
He's nervous.
He's like that.
But it's not from the heart!
He gets like that,
but It's only for your good.
We have the pleasure
to announce...
another program from
Radio Theatre of the Americas.
The play today
is a dramatisation...
of an original
by Edgar Alan Poe...
and it's called
"There Was a Heart Beating".
What a life, my God!
I can't stand this life
anymore, Aurora!
The woman has to help her husband!
But not you!
You do the opposite of what I ask!
This is why this unfortunate
thing happened!
You only follow your head!
I can't stand it anymore!
I don't want this life anymore!
If your father were alive,
I'd return you!
But I'm going to speak
with Arnaldo.
He's your brother...
you could very well
go live with him.
Here in this house,
I don't want you anymore!
Son of a bitch!
What a son of a bitch!
I hate you, you old shit bag!
I want you to die!
I know it's a sin, my God,
but I hate my father!
I want him to die!
"The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
He makes me lie
in green pastures...
and leads me by calm waters.
He restores my soul...
and guides me through the path
of justice in the love of His name..."
I felt as if I was in a film.
It was as if what was happening
had nothing to do with me.
"...and I shall dwell in the house
of the Lord forever."
There is a bull on the line
Yes, there is
There is a bull on the line
Catarina goes by train
This comes as a goodbye
As a goodbye this comes
My mother became toothless
From biting my father so much
"My mother became toothless
from biting my father so much".
I don't know why that old song came
back to me then, at that moment...
Leaving me divided, with as much
pity for one as for the other.
Aurora...
Aurora...
you couldn't have done this to me!
You left me alone!
"Our Father who art in Heaven...
- Aurora!
- ...Hallowed by Thy name...
...Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done...
I'm sorry!
...Give us today our daily bread
and forgive our trespasses...
as we forgive those
who trespass against us.
Lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from evil.
- Amen."
- I'm afraid to fall
Take me
Take me
I'm homesick
Girl, you don't remember
That beautiful afternoon
You forget, I remember
I remember
I remember
Oh mother, mother
Oh my mother
She left me crying
Where is my mother, where?
She left me crying
Where is my mother, where?
The house became a desert.
She was the happiness
of our lives.
During the holidays
at Holy Week...
I was back at the scene
of summertime.
But nothing could be
as it had been once.
It was as if something
had parted forever inside of me.
On the other hand,
I was less watched...
freer to discover a world of new
things which were shown to me.
Now it's my turn!
- No way! Are you an idiot?
- You promised!
No way!
Who told you to be so stupid?
But I only let you because
you said you would let me!
I don't wanna know.
You let me because you wanted to.
You bastard!
You deceived me!
Guiga!
Guiga?
Guiga!
Let's get out of here!
We're only taking
the little thing for a walk!
She's our teacher!
Are you not a man, boy?
Let's go, Dajega!
Forget it, Dajega!
Guiga is soft!
This Guiga seems as if he were
raised by his grandmother!
My government
will be one of laws...
of traditions and moral
and political principles...
that reflect the Brazilian spirit.
On that April fool's day...
there was news that could have
been a lie but it wasn't:
SCHOOL
the military had taken over...
and were in power.
Mas-tur-ba-tion.
This is one of those sins
against chastity...
for which God...
prepared Hell for!
With the discovery
of this forbidden pleasure...
comes the desire
to practice the act...
at all moments...
to feel again...
that stupid pleasure.
After that,
the boy just can't stop!
He can't stop masturbating
anymore!
This without mentioning
the sins...
that, for their iniquity...
I refuse to talk about
in a classroom!
The indecent acts
performed in the rear!
Don't think that condemnation
only comes after death! No!
In many cases
the punishment begins here...
as a consequence of your sins!
Look here.
"Masturbation provokes
venereal joy...
...through contact with the hand."
- What does "venereal" mean?
"Venal... vendor... veneer..."
Here! "Venereal: related to Venus,
Goddess of Beauty.
Venereal diseases: syphilis...
a purulent infection of
the mucous membranes...
...mainly vagina and urethra."
- Vagina is pussy!
Who doesn't know?
Look up "purulent".
"Pursue... pursy... purulent:
full of pus, that produces pus."
Now look up "prostitute".
"Prostitute: see Harlot."
Damn! It seems they
don't want us to learn!
"Harlot: a woman who practices
the sexual act for money...
fallen lady, lady of the world,
lady of the court...
lady of the night,
lost woman, prostitute...
Whore, bitch, hooker,
fucker, vagabond..."
Zeca and Nenzinho
had gotten married...
and the house felt even emptier.
The good thing is that now
I had a room all to myself.
Following the instructions
of my older classmates...
I manipulated myself
with quick movements...
wanting to discover the pleasure
that I had never felt.
Suddenly, I was overtaken
by an uncontrollable wave...
something unedited, wonderful...
the craziest pleasure
I had ever felt!
Now I knew what
the word "cum" meant.
And I began to understand why
the world revolved around sex.
After that day,
bath time became sacred:
Sophia Loren,
Gina Lollobrigida...
Claudia Cardinale, Suzanne Pleshette,
Brigitte Bardot.
They all came to die in my
trained, implacable hand.
This woman can't carry
any weight!
People are gonna say I killed her!
Guiga! Help her, my son,
help her with this box!
They're your books!
The moving to that apartment
didn't work out.
My father had sold the old house...
but the deal wasn't closed and
we had to move everything back.
I'm gonna tell my father
you're reading Jorge Amado.
Tell him! It was him
who bought it for me!
He bought it because he doesn't know
the pornography this man writes!
You shitty little saint!
I didn't know you were smoking!
You still haven't seen anything,
brother!
And did you like the film?
- It's your first adult film, isn't it?
- Yes.
And money?
Do you have any money?
I do. I got some
from the old man.
How much do you have?
- About two hundred.
- That will do.
I'm going to take you
to meet the girls!
That was a night of initiation.
After the movie, Zeca
took me to Maria da Vov?.
It was my first time in bed
with a woman.
I don't know why Cicinha
entered a convent...
but my sister always had
a certain religious tendency.
She had invented a backyard
god for me, after all.
Anita! Anita, my daughter,
help me here!
What do you want, father?
Don't speak like that! I'm asking
because you know I can't see!
I have tried every way.
I just can't open this up!
I forgot the secret.
Has someone tried to open this?
Father, who would do this?
I'm only asking!
Has someone tried to open it?
No.
Because I always leave it
in away to make it easy...
and now it's not!
Be patient.
See if you can open this.
I can't see anything!
You need the secret, father.
See if you can remember
where you put the secret.
Anita! Have a look at this!
Come see.
You're not gonna believe it,
but I'm telling you...
at night I prayed, I asked.
When I arrived here this morning,
it was like this.
Look!
Do you see this?
It was her!
I remember the only time Anita and
I visited Cicinha in the convent.
Her eyes were oblique,
a little changed by emotion.
Under Mother Superior gaze,
it seemed she wanted to show...
greater happiness
than she was really feeling.
But Cicinha didn't stay
very long in the convent.
She was expelled because
the sisters found out...
there was a mad uncle
in the family.
They couldn't accept this.
You need to have
this hair cut, boy!
You look like a punk,
with this long hair!
I can't, father.
I'm going to study.
All this week I have tests.
Tomorrow I have a Physics test!
I don't want to know!
You have to have this hair cut!
Can't you hear me, boy?
You're going to have
this hair cut now!
I'm gonna have it cut
when I want!
Do you see this, Anita?
This boy is disrespecting me!
Do you see, Anita?
He's facing up to me!
You can be sure: I'm not going
to have this shit cut anymore!
Do you know why?
Because I'm a bitch!
A bitch!
This boy is sick!
You need to go see a doctor.
You're sick in your nerves.
Remember your uncle had problems.
You should have never
had a family! Never!
You killed my mother!
You nazi executioner!
As never before in my life,
I wanted a sensitive father.
And once more I sought refuge
in the movies.
I had discovered the art sessions
at the Guarany.
No way! I will speak up!
I say whatever I want,
you hear me?
No way! No way!
I say whatever I want!
So don't you bother me, okay?
Don't you bother me!
Don't you bother me!
Look: I'm gonna tell
you something...
because in the past
those gentlemen...
heads of families,
they came here, you know?
They said at home...
that they'd go to
an amateur radio club...
that they were going to listen
to the BBC from London.
Do you know what BBC
they came to listen to here?
It was mouth, pussy and ass!
It was mouth, pussy and ass!
Those little French niggers
from the brothel!
What do you want?
What are you looking at?
For crying out loud!
What are you looking at?
Don't you know me,
you little chicken?
ALLIANCE FOR THE PROGRESS
IS A FARCE!
Guiga, is it you?
- It's me.
- I was waiting for you.
I couldn't sleep
after what you said to me.
I don't want to fight with you,
my son.
But you said something
that you can't say to a father.
Listen to what I'm going
to tell you:
when my misfortunes are old,
yours will be young.
Don't think it's a curse
I'm throwing at you!
I want you to be very happy.
My son...
I don't want to fight
with you anymore!
Let's make a non-aggression pact.
Shake my hand.
We are not going
to fight anymore.
Come on! Come on!
This is not a fuckhole!
One beautiful day,
my father thought Cr?u was too old...
to continue working...
and got her a place in an asylum.
She knew that
that was her last stop.
Oh Terram?
Take my daughter, Terram?
Take her, Terram?
Take my daughter, Terram?
Oh my mother
Terram?
doesn't want
To take me, mother
Take her, Terram?
Cr?u died during Carnival.
Her coffin was alone all night,
no one there to watch the body.
Look, have you ever
seen a black actress...
who didn't play the role
of a slave or a maid?
You don't you see, man,
you don't!
Centuries of slavery
and subservience!
That's why black people grew
this fucking inferiority complex!
But this has to stop!
You know M?rio Gusm?o,
don't you?
He's the one who's filming
"Black Angel", isn't he?
He was arrested for having grass.
They humiliated the guy.
Do you think that if he were white
the treatment would be the same?
I don't know, Bira.
I think the worst problem
is to be broke, man!
Because a black guy who has money
is well treated. Look at Pel?!
Come on, Daniel? Shit!
That's not the same!
He's "a black man with a white soul",
as some people say!
Get?lio had disappeared.
Now he was involved
in a clandestine organisation.
He had even asked if we would
get into the armed fighting.
But none of us had enough
conviction or courage.
That's Get?lio there!
Helinho, man!
Are you armed, Get?lio?
It's routine in the organisation,
for an emergency.
We never know.
But I don't intend to use it.
At least not at the moment.
Don't worry.
- The guys are there. Come see them.
- Sure.
Hello, man!
It's so good to see you!
Long time no see!
Guiga!
What's up, Get?lio?
The situation is getting worse!
The population only knows what
the military want them to know.
They manipulate the information!
They say we're bank robbers...
but the money from the robberies
is to finance the war!
We kidnap people
to liberate companions...
who are being tortured
cruelly in prison!
Even here in the Federal Police
there are some people.
The guys are sadists,
professional torturers!
They do terrible things!
Drowning, hanging from wood,
shocks in the balls!
They stick an electric wire
in the guy's urethra!
It's an incredible pain!
When they want to kill someone...
they said our guy
committed suicide!
Or say it was an escape
and the body disappears.
That was the last time
that we saw Get?lio.
After that night no one had
anymore news about him.
FREEDOM FOR EMILIANO!
Clodoaldo, Brazil attacking,
Tost?o... Let's go, people!
What a ball, Clod?,
look, look, look!
At the score!
BRAZIL, LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT
Clodoaldo!
AUTHORITARIANISM
CORRUPTION, MISERY
Look...
my dear Brazil,
at the score, Clodoaldo!
Released after the autopsy...
The body has 4 holes
caused by bullets...
...the left hand was on
the half-cut limb.
The top jaw bone was toothless.
...the body had bruises
on the right side.
The body of Lamarca
couldn't be photographed...
TERROR DIES WITH LAMARCA
by determination...
of Governor Ant?nio
Carlos Magalh?es.
My heart is green, yellow
White and blue
I love you, my Brazil
I love you
No one can hold down
Brazilian Youth
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
The punishment begins here.
Now repeat!
And even if I walk in the valley
of darkness...
Here!
Why don't you kill yourself?
I don't know anything!
And while the country celebrated
the Brazilian miracle...
I knew my season in hell.
The guerrillas were chased
and tortured to death.
I spent the nights awake, panicking.
I couldn't sleep.
Neurosis finally had overcome me.
I began to take
a lot of anti-depressants...
in the purest pain
and unhappiness...
with my morbid fixation
for suicide.
I identified myself with Torquato,
a twisted angel...
his fate was to face
he choir of the satisfied.
Listen, Daniel,
I need to tell you something:
for the Love of God don't let me
return from the anaesthesia.
I want euthanasia.
Euthanasia.
I have written it down.
It's here, signed.
Euthanasia...
My stay in that hospital was short...
but a routine exam showed
an irreparable loss.
If it is true that the gods feed
on human suffering...
in my case their appetite
was voracious.
Take me to the church.
I want to receive Holy Communion!
I'm afraid of Evilamem.
What do you want from me,
you son of a bitch??!
What do you want with me??!
Do you know what this means?
I know!
Don't torture yourself!
I don't care!
I love you, Guiga!
I don't care!
I love you!
Let's play that!
Let's play that.
Let's have a good time.
Let's play!
Let's have a good time...
Let's play!
Happiness is the
final proof of Man!
TV Aratu channel 4
Salvador, my love, Bahia
Maybe in the packet
you'll find what you need.
Stop, listen, walk, look.
It won't cost you anything.
It'll only cost you your life.
The old piano was already
sold for a cheap price...
to a Protestant minister...
and a little later the house
itself would be sold.
Like a house cat,
I stayed for a little longer...
and for the first time
I found myself living alone.
In a radical subversion
of the order...
the house was open to the nuts.
We had no time or place
for anything.
That was my first
true communion...
with the right to Pentecost
and everything.
It was my first
communion with grass.
And tongues as if of fire
became visible...
and on each of them rested one.
In the beginning
it's really like this.
And they were all full
of the Holy Spirit...
and began to speak
in different tongues.
There is no way of escaping
your own destiny.
Oedipus tried, but ended up facing
what he wanted to avoid.
He deciphered the enigma
of the Sphinx and was spared...
but this didn't help him.
Knowing himself
was the cause of his fall.
No man can say
he was happy...
before he arrives at
the last day of his life.
It was you who brought
these people here.
Who are they?
Relax, Guiga.
They're nice people.
It's a French couple, friends
of mine, Alain and Juliette.
The other is Pablito.
No man can say he was happy...
before he arrives
at the last day of his life.
That Pablito intrigued me
from the first moment.
He had a strange fascination
over people.
Shit!
This Guiga is too crazy!
What's up, Guiga?
Far out! I'm starving!
Shit! The guy really sticks out!
Everything is numbers.
Love is the knowledge of the number
and nothing is infinite.
Or better: does he fit here,
in the space-kiss of hunger?
Pablito was versed in magic,
astrology and the Cabala.
Initiated in the tarot
and perversions...
in fatality and
in the acceptance of destiny.
- I can't hold on to it!
- Come on, Guiga!
But you always say it's beautiful
living in a community, man!
You have to know that
no one belongs to anyone.
Put this in your head, my friend!
Don't fret.
The girl only wants to dance.
Let's go there.
Come here, boy!
Let's dance.
Although I was easy prey for
the bad trips, I smoked every day...
and I was curious
about new experiences.
For me it was a challenge:
to become a real man,
I had to learn to face my demons.
This is good stuff!
Do you remember Edu?
Yes.
He went to try his luck in London,
with the flute.
"Love it and leave it."
Yeah.
Things are not easy, my friend.
There's a lot of people giving up.
Most already finish school
for the industrial area...
thinking about marriage.
They're gonna end up
as fat as cows.
And Get?lio, man?
He just disappeared.
I want to learn the guitar...
but this is for later.
To get some money, I'm gonna
give some yoga classes...
or sell veggie sandwiches
on the beach.
I'm going to Chapada.
There's a community there.
The spider lives by
what it weaves.
I want to plant to eat.
And you, Guiga?
I don't know.
I'm thinking about
buying a Super-8.
You really get off
on this artist trip, don't you?
It's good... when it works out.
But don't think art
will release you.
Sooner or later you are gonna
meet the Sphinx, friend.
The sun!
Billions, trillions of megatons...
nuclear explosions...
eternally.
"But the fool on the hill...
sees the sun going down...
and the eyes in his head...
see the world spinning around."
What is it?
What are you looking at?
Don't you know me, you chicken?
Gisaldina! Gisaldina!
Suc-ker! Suc-ker!
Sindolel?, ? sindolal?
I stepped on the dry leaf
I heard crush, crush.
"It's not easy to deal with
pirlimpimpim powder.
You have to sniff the right
amount. No more nor less."
You are old, father,
your hair is very white...
and you still caper around.
- Do you think this is right?"
- Look.
The guy's stoned.
How are things, my friend?
In my youth I didn't do it...
because I feared it might
damage my brain.
But now that I'm perfectly
sure I does not....
why, I do it again and again.
Suddenly I was filled with
a wave of deep compassion.
A wave that spread
through my chest...
and seemed to embrace
the whole world.
Where's the beast, Mr. Guiga?
In the 21st Century
everything will be different.
The Third Millennium...
the Age of Aquarius.
- Or mere illusion.
- That's it! All light!
One day everything that exists
will become light.
The sky was beautiful
Full of stars
Illuminating the butterfly
To see her beauty
Did you see that?
You have to make a wish.
To whom, Daniel?
Who do I have to ask?
Guiga! Guiga!
Guiga!
Let's go, Guiga!
Guiga is soft, boy! It seems
he were raised by his granny!
Do you know what the female mule
said to the male mule?
This is the ass, mule!
There is heaven.
That's where God lives.
I have to take this boy
to the doctor!
I'm afraid!
Crazy, crazy... Look!
The guy has gone nuts.
"Stay a minute like this,
with your eyes closed...
Like we do when we're sleeping,
when we're falling over a cliff.
When you open your eyes,
everything will be right again."
That's enough, man!
He's not gonna do this anymore!
That's enough, man!
Child that I bless...
you pass through my life...
as, over the sea...
the flight of a lonely
and lost Alcyone.
DEDICATED TO MY FATHER,
MY MOTHER, TONINHO AND CR?U,
WHO ARE ALREADY IN HEAVEN.
CAPTIONS BY VIDEOLAR
One of my oldest memories
is a photograph of a ship.
Aunt Nieta was returning
from America.
I thought it was on that ship.
The adults said that babies
were brought by a stork.
I don't know why,
I thought they came on a ship...
in the middle of the mist,
from some unknown place.
Would it be America?
USE IT, DON'T ABUSE IT
There is a bull on the line
Yes, there is
There is a bull on the line
Catarina goes by train
This comes as a goodbye
As a goodbye this comes
My mother became toothless
- Stop, boy! Keep quiet!
- Bitch!
- What did you say, you brat?
- Bitch!
You're gonna see,
you little punk!
Guilherme!
Come and see what
your son is saying here!
What is it, woman?
- What is it?
- Tell your father what you said!
- Bitch!
- What did you say?
- Bitch!
- Where did you learn this, brat?
Where did you hear this,
you brat?
That's enough, man!
He's not going to do this anymore!
Now repeat!
Swallow your tears!
That's enough, man!
He's not gonna do this anymore!
Are you, my little son?
I told you to swallow your tears!
I thought I was the centre
of the world.
All that existed was a God's
wonderful invention just to test me.
Life was a theatre and it only
made sense because I was there.
That is, if I closed my eyes
and plugged my ears...
immediately the whole world
would stop existing.
They said I would return American
With tons of money
That I would be very rich
That I couldn't stand the sound
of the tambourine anymore
And would get goose pimples
hearing the "cu?ca".
They said that with the hands
I was worried
Aunt Nieta liked to sing
in the bathroom...
and I loved to hear her voice.
What I didn't understand...
was Zeca and Nenzinho's
excitement going up that ladder.
Be careful!
Guiga is looking at us!
But he can't see.
He knows nothing!
Que ser? ser?
Whatever will be, will be
The future is not ours to see
Que ser? ser?
What will be, will be
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother
What will I be?
Will I be rich?
Will I be pretty?
That's what she said to me
Que ser? ser?
Whatever will be, will be
The future is not ours to see
Que ser? ser?
What will be, will be
She is not coming and not even
the pigeon has returned
After that woman left me
I don't know why
Get out of here, my boy,
before I step on you!
Guiga wants to smell.
- What, my son?
- Guiga wants to smell.
The parrot went dumb
and the water pipe is leaking
Look at this, Cr?u!
This boy wants to smell me!
Get out of here, you little punk!
Ugly!
Once on holidays we went to spend
a few days at uncle Arnaldo's farm.
They were days full of insignificant
and great experiences.
Look who's going there!
Gisaldina!
Gisaldina!
Suc-ker! Suc-ker!
Suc-ker! Suc-ker!
You gang of little monsters!
Do you think I don't know?
One of these days,
one of these chicks...
is going to be born
with one of your faces!
Put there:
Zeca's ding-dong has grown.
Or his little friend... or willy.
You could say, "his lower
parts have been affected".
- Zeca's pisser is altered.
- None of this will do!
There are things that cannot
be said to Mr. Guilherme.
Dick...
dickie...
dicko.
- I still think birdie is better.
- Let's see how this is:
"Mr. Guilherme, come urgently.
Zeca's urethra is swollen."
People!
That boy hasn't gone to sleep yet?
My goodness!
Guiga is already like this?
How he has grown, my dear!
He's becoming a little man!
- Intelligent! You have to see!
- Sit down, Mrs. Aurora.
Well, Guiga, let's take a photo?
Come up here,
I'm going to take a beautiful photo.
But with this hair...
he looks like a girl, Mrs. Aurora!
Was it a promise?
He's going to have his
hair cut next week.
This photo is for me to remember
how he looked like with long hair.
Once I woke up
in the middle of the night.
Uncle Pedro was having an attack...
and screamed as
if he were possessed.
I remember that I felt real horror
at the simple fact that I was alive.
I thought:
I'm in this! It's not a game!
It's real! I'm alive!
Nandinha was a sleepwalker.
One night, when no one noticed...
she left the house and ended
up in "Baixa do Bigode".
On returning she was seen by
the neighbour, who guided her in...
carefully, because he thought
that if the girl woke up...
she could die of fright.
The little boat
Floats quickly
Floats endlessly
Now, Guiga, you're going to play
the piano. Give me your little hand.
Your thumb on C.
Nandinha was a boarder in
Merc?s College against her wish.
But when the sisters discovered
that she was a sleepwalker...
they called my father
and sent her back home.
That's how my sister escaped
from boarding school...
and now she was going to get
married to Mrs. Elvira's son.
And now you will be my husband
And sing the glory of my heart
This guy Lol? who is going to
marry Nandinha is really ugly!
Poor girl!
The man looks like a mummy!
And worse still he is coloured!
But he is a graduate, my dear.
A ring on his finger!
I think she did well!
That hollow saint!
Nowadays what is important
in a man is that he has...
character and personality...
you understand?
As well as a big dick!
- You're terrible, Ded?!
- Well! Better ugly than nothing!
- It would be worse to be a spinster!
- I don't agree!
An honest woman could
very well be single...
and not necessarily be unhappy!
A woman could very well
enjoy certain pleasures...
and not stop being
a sweet little virgin.
What do you mean?
Don't we only have a hymen
in the front, my dear?
- You're crazy?
- Don't men like hymens?
Well, I'm keeping mine
very carefully!
I know a girl...
someone told her that
alum was good for it.
And so, she got one,
put it in a glass of water, see...
to later rub it on her pussy...
so her fianc? would think
she was still a virgin!
She went to the bathroom,
and while looking for the water...
her fianc? knew nothing,
and she asked: "My dear...
where is my glass
of water that I left here?"
The fianc? answered through
a tightly closed mouth, like this:
"I drank everything!"
Envy, my mother!
Pure envy!
You know that it's all lies.
- I adore him!
- Pissing Ray!
Are you not ashamed?
You're going to get married
and still piss on the bed!
Stop shaming your sister!
Don't worry, my daughter!
You know how disturbed this boy is!
But he's right, my daughter...
this urinating on the bed
is not right!
If your fianc?
finds out about this...
he's going to give you back
to your father!
And now we'll be together
United forever in the name of God
I only know that Nandinha
married Lol?...
and never again pissed
on the bed.
Daddy?
What is it, girl?
Let me go there below.
No, madam! Stay there!
Let's sleep!
Daddy?
Daddy?
- What is it, girl?
- Let me go! What's the problem?
- What did you lose down there?
- I want to see Ded?.
- What's with Ded??
- I want to see her fooling around.
Her what?
Where did you learn this,
you terrible little girl?
Aurora!
- Aurora!
- What?
Come here!
Aurora! You have to see what
this terrible little girl has learnt!
I go out to work...
you have to know
what happens in here!
Go straight to bed!
She wanted to see the neighbour's
daughter fooling around.
Those were her exact words:
"fooling around".
Now I ask,
do you think this is right?
Just look, Aurora!
My goodness!
It's hard!
A little boy this young
already like this!
What do you think
he's dreaming about?
- This is full of piss!
- Put this boy in the cradle.
Where is my white handkerchief
Washing-woman
That I gave you to wash
Washing-woman
Where is my white handkerchief
Washing-woman
That I gave you to wash
Washing-woman
It's not my fault what happened
Get out of here!
Goodbye, my butterfly
If you want to fly
I say goodbye to my love
I say, I say
There is heaven!
That's where God lives.
There was a window
in the middle of the stairs.
Cicinha told me that
God lived on the other side.
God sees everything.
He is everywhere.
Sambalel? is sick
Her head is broken
Sambalel? needed
A good beating
Samba, Samba
Sambolel?
Step on the hem of her skirt
Olal?
Can't she find a better place
for all that rubbing?
It's the same thing every day!
I threw a piece of wood at the cat
But the cat didn't die
I'm here!
Who called?
The Shaky Apartment Building
won't charge you any taxes...
because who pays everything
is Mirta Perfumery.
And the confusion in
the Shaky Building begins.
In apartment 302,
the couple enjoy themselves.
My dear,
you are a comic character!
- And you are my album!
- So let's stick together then?
Let's go.
Stop! Stop, my dear,
my father could see us!
- One more, one more, one more...
- No, no, look at father, my dear!
- Daughter?
- What is it, father?
- Are you alone with your fianc??
- Yes, I am.
- Is the light on?
- It is.
Then turn it off!
Not even the dark can extinguish
the radiant shine of your smile...
when you use
Eucalol Toothpaste.
Carrying out the most perfect
and complete mouth hygiene...
Eucalol Toothpaste quickly removes
the yellow from your teeth.
Eucalol Toothpaste gives you
a healthy smile.
100% financed by Mirta Perfumery...
Built anywhere in the
Marvellous City, the Shaky...
Shaky...
Shaky...
Shake Building!
He sees everything.
He is everywhere.
- Mum, I'm afraid.
- Afraid of what, my son?
Of Evilamem.
Evilamem?
But who is this Evilamem?
Like in the prayer:
"Deliver us from Evilamem."
Oh, God!
So innocent, my youngest one!
Forget about this Evilamem,
my sweet!
Let's go to sleep!
Blessing, godmother moon,
give me bread with flour...
The full moon
brought Crazy Maria...
who was going to get married
to a famous English statesman.
My mum liked this,
she kept her going.
He sent me a telegram from England!
Who, Maria?
Who is the guy who's gonna
marry me? Isn't it Churchill?
Really, Maria?
Look what he sent me.
He wants to take me
to live with him.
But the devil can go, not me!
I've already told him
that I'm not going there!
You bet I'm not!
And moreover:
I'll only marry him if he quits
that bloody cigar!
Oh, Cr?u!
Come and sing that song
that he likes...
...to see if he sleeps!
- Who called?
Oh, Cr?u! Come here!
Come and sing that song that
he likes, to see if he sleeps.
Oh Terram?
Take my daughter, Terram?
Take her, Terram?
Sindolel?, ? sindolal?
I stepped on the dry leaf
I heard crush, crush
Sindolel?, ? sindolal?
I stepped on the dry leaf
I heard crush, crush
What face is that, boy?
You look like a stray dog!
It's nothing, Cr?u!
That morning, going down the stairs,
I saw the broken window.
What was on the other side
was no heaven.
It was only Mrs. Elvira's yard.
There she was hanging
up clothes on the line.
That was my first
religious deception.
Once, during Holy Week...
we went to watch
"The Life of Christ" in Jandaia.
My first time in the movies.
Seeing the suffering
of the son of God...
made me think He was
only a poor devil!
My notable Portuguese
I want to offer you today
With all my heart
This my sincere cult
My notable Portuguese
I want to offer you today
With all my heart
This my sincere cult
This my sincere cult
If you were the Mother of God
So pure and so
Do you want one, uncle?
Here!
BRAZILIAN CHAMPION - 1959
Someone's not scratching right!
And it's someone on the left side!
I told you:
cinema only if you scratch right!
And what film are we going
to watch, Nenzinho?
An excellent one!
Wonderful, really!
With Kirk Douglas.
But this side here is still flat!
I want to be all goose pimples!
And the spray that you promised?
But this is in Carnival!
Carnival is still a long way off.
Whoever scratches right
will get a big spray.
What about me, Nenzinho?
For you a small one.
You are still small!
I want a big one!
- I hope your father sees this!
- Now! What's wrong?
I'll say nothing!
Oh, Helena! Take this bag out
of the middle of the house, girl!
Child that I bless,
you pass through my life...
Child that I bless,
you pass through my life...
as, over the sea, the flight
of a lonely and lost Alcyone.
Child that I bless...
you pass through my life...
as, over the sea...
the flight of a lonely
and lost Alcyone.
This here was
at Christ the Redeemer!
This is me, can you see?
Cicinha, come here,
Nenzinho in the Christ "Redemand!"
It's not "Redemand", you idiot!
It's Redeemer!
Look what I got!
I think it's better you go now.
I don't want anyone to know.
I trust you, you hear?
I don't even want to know
what you have there!
Your blessing, my godmother.
That shitface Zecawill pay me!
I was a child and I hoped
Some day to be happy
I promised
I gave lots of sweets
To the little saints
We never knew why, but whenever
there was a party in the house...
uncle Pedro would collect all
the empty bottles he could find.
Her lover ask her
Cosmas and Damian
Crispin, Crispinian
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Guiga
Happy birthday to you
And the promise I made
I have paid
Parties and more parties
I have had
And on this happy day
I remember
Once Mrs. Elvira was crazy
for a while.
They said it was because
of her menopause.
If I only knew what
the hell menopause was!
In the placid banks of Ipiranga
The resounding cry
Of a heroic people
And the Sun of Freedom
Shine in the sky of the Country
The equality
We win
With a strong arm
In your breast
O Freedom
Challenge our breast
With our own death
O loved country!
There was the fire of hell.
In the catechism
of the first communion...
they said we must eat the flesh
of God to be saved.
I thought that was
an enormous hope...
but when I swallowed the host
nothing happened!
Anyway, what kind of god was that
who never appeared clearly?
Now you are beginning to feel
your eyes heavy...
heavy...
it seems as if your lids
are made of lead...
heavy...
heavy...
Don't resist...
give in to this sweet sleep...
deep...
heavy...
Let your body lean forward...
and backward...
to one side...
and to the other...
This... deep...
forwards...
backwards...
to one side...
to the other...
Anita?
Deep...
Anita, you're a babe!
Heavy...
Some of you already find
yourselves under my power.
Mrs. ?ris! Come here!
When I count to three...
you will wake up from
this state of hypnoses...
and you will remember nothing.
One...
two...
three!
You mean the woman had an attack,
and almost died of fright?
I'm sure this was Zeca's fault,
Aurora!
I don't know what to do
with that boy anymore.
He's bad natured.
I think the only thing is boarding
him at a priest's school...
or a military school,
to see if he improves.
Take my word:
he's never going to be
anything in life!
But it was also the education
you gave him!
They're all going to lose
because of you!
You're a very wrong woman,
Aurora!
Are you already asleep, woman?
We didn't know it...
but on that night uncle Pedro
was going away forever...
taking his bottle treasure
with him.
Boys of Bahia
Now at this children's time
The message of hope
Is brought with happiness
That on the earth, earth in flower
There will be, there will be love
That in the sky, in the sky of blue
There will be more splendour
And while we sing
There will be Brazil
Brazil
To begin the program today...
on the piano we will have a solo
of "Hungarian Rhapsody 2..."
played by a boy
who's only 11 years old...
but who plays like an adult.
The boy Guilherme
de Almeida Filho, Guiga!
How beautiful the days
Of the beginning of existence
Breathing the innocent soul
As perfuming the flower
The sea is a serene lake
The sky a blue cloak
The world a golden dream
And life a hymn of love
Summertime was walking
barefoot, sling, kites.
It was fishing, swimming
in the river, running free.
It was sucking mangoes
and eating fruits.
It was tropical fruits
of all types...
it was roasting nuts...
Summertime was insect bites,
melons, laziness.
"It's not easy to deal with
pirlimpimpim powder.
You have to sniff
the right amount.
Not too much, not too little...
or else you'll go here or there
but not where you want to go.
Close your eyes tightly,
like we do when sleeping...
when we're going
to fall from a cliff.
Stay a minute like this."
The television has arrived!
The television has arrived!
The television!
The arrival of the television
was fantastic...
now I could see the programs
that I only knew by name:
Roy Rogers, Jim of the Jungle,
Circus Boy...
The Toddy Troopers,
Rin Tin Tin...
Zorro, The Highway Ranger.
My God: make me grow up soon.
Don't worry, it's silly...
but I want to grow up
to see adult films...
to smoke and be able to go
wherever I want...
to do everything
that is prohibited.
My father said that Carnival
was the party of the devil...
and every year he took the family
to the countryside.
But that year Zeca
had got a girlfriend...
and decided to jump off the train.
My God, what a disgrace!
This is a disgrace!
And how are you going to live?
Can you keep a family?
You fool! You've never been
worth anything anyway!
You could tell that girl
that you're mixed up with...
to kill this sorrowful baby
while there's time!
Why don't you kill yourself!
If I were you,
I'd drink strychnine...
formicide, any poison!
I'd put a bullet in my head!
Or I'd throw myself
from Lacerda Elevator!
Zeca! Don't worry, my son!
In time you'll get a job,
earn your money.
For the moment I'll give
you some groceries...
from the house, every week.
You can come to pick them up.
Don't worry, my son.
He's nervous.
He's like that.
But it's not from the heart!
He gets like that,
but It's only for your good.
We have the pleasure
to announce...
another program from
Radio Theatre of the Americas.
The play today
is a dramatisation...
of an original
by Edgar Alan Poe...
and it's called
"There Was a Heart Beating".
What a life, my God!
I can't stand this life
anymore, Aurora!
The woman has to help her husband!
But not you!
You do the opposite of what I ask!
This is why this unfortunate
thing happened!
You only follow your head!
I can't stand it anymore!
I don't want this life anymore!
If your father were alive,
I'd return you!
But I'm going to speak
with Arnaldo.
He's your brother...
you could very well
go live with him.
Here in this house,
I don't want you anymore!
Son of a bitch!
What a son of a bitch!
I hate you, you old shit bag!
I want you to die!
I know it's a sin, my God,
but I hate my father!
I want him to die!
"The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
He makes me lie
in green pastures...
and leads me by calm waters.
He restores my soul...
and guides me through the path
of justice in the love of His name..."
I felt as if I was in a film.
It was as if what was happening
had nothing to do with me.
"...and I shall dwell in the house
of the Lord forever."
There is a bull on the line
Yes, there is
There is a bull on the line
Catarina goes by train
This comes as a goodbye
As a goodbye this comes
My mother became toothless
From biting my father so much
"My mother became toothless
from biting my father so much".
I don't know why that old song came
back to me then, at that moment...
Leaving me divided, with as much
pity for one as for the other.
Aurora...
Aurora...
you couldn't have done this to me!
You left me alone!
"Our Father who art in Heaven...
- Aurora!
- ...Hallowed by Thy name...
...Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done...
I'm sorry!
...Give us today our daily bread
and forgive our trespasses...
as we forgive those
who trespass against us.
Lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from evil.
- Amen."
- I'm afraid to fall
Take me
Take me
I'm homesick
Girl, you don't remember
That beautiful afternoon
You forget, I remember
I remember
I remember
Oh mother, mother
Oh my mother
She left me crying
Where is my mother, where?
She left me crying
Where is my mother, where?
The house became a desert.
She was the happiness
of our lives.
During the holidays
at Holy Week...
I was back at the scene
of summertime.
But nothing could be
as it had been once.
It was as if something
had parted forever inside of me.
On the other hand,
I was less watched...
freer to discover a world of new
things which were shown to me.
Now it's my turn!
- No way! Are you an idiot?
- You promised!
No way!
Who told you to be so stupid?
But I only let you because
you said you would let me!
I don't wanna know.
You let me because you wanted to.
You bastard!
You deceived me!
Guiga!
Guiga?
Guiga!
Let's get out of here!
We're only taking
the little thing for a walk!
She's our teacher!
Are you not a man, boy?
Let's go, Dajega!
Forget it, Dajega!
Guiga is soft!
This Guiga seems as if he were
raised by his grandmother!
My government
will be one of laws...
of traditions and moral
and political principles...
that reflect the Brazilian spirit.
On that April fool's day...
there was news that could have
been a lie but it wasn't:
SCHOOL
the military had taken over...
and were in power.
Mas-tur-ba-tion.
This is one of those sins
against chastity...
for which God...
prepared Hell for!
With the discovery
of this forbidden pleasure...
comes the desire
to practice the act...
at all moments...
to feel again...
that stupid pleasure.
After that,
the boy just can't stop!
He can't stop masturbating
anymore!
This without mentioning
the sins...
that, for their iniquity...
I refuse to talk about
in a classroom!
The indecent acts
performed in the rear!
Don't think that condemnation
only comes after death! No!
In many cases
the punishment begins here...
as a consequence of your sins!
Look here.
"Masturbation provokes
venereal joy...
...through contact with the hand."
- What does "venereal" mean?
"Venal... vendor... veneer..."
Here! "Venereal: related to Venus,
Goddess of Beauty.
Venereal diseases: syphilis...
a purulent infection of
the mucous membranes...
...mainly vagina and urethra."
- Vagina is pussy!
Who doesn't know?
Look up "purulent".
"Pursue... pursy... purulent:
full of pus, that produces pus."
Now look up "prostitute".
"Prostitute: see Harlot."
Damn! It seems they
don't want us to learn!
"Harlot: a woman who practices
the sexual act for money...
fallen lady, lady of the world,
lady of the court...
lady of the night,
lost woman, prostitute...
Whore, bitch, hooker,
fucker, vagabond..."
Zeca and Nenzinho
had gotten married...
and the house felt even emptier.
The good thing is that now
I had a room all to myself.
Following the instructions
of my older classmates...
I manipulated myself
with quick movements...
wanting to discover the pleasure
that I had never felt.
Suddenly, I was overtaken
by an uncontrollable wave...
something unedited, wonderful...
the craziest pleasure
I had ever felt!
Now I knew what
the word "cum" meant.
And I began to understand why
the world revolved around sex.
After that day,
bath time became sacred:
Sophia Loren,
Gina Lollobrigida...
Claudia Cardinale, Suzanne Pleshette,
Brigitte Bardot.
They all came to die in my
trained, implacable hand.
This woman can't carry
any weight!
People are gonna say I killed her!
Guiga! Help her, my son,
help her with this box!
They're your books!
The moving to that apartment
didn't work out.
My father had sold the old house...
but the deal wasn't closed and
we had to move everything back.
I'm gonna tell my father
you're reading Jorge Amado.
Tell him! It was him
who bought it for me!
He bought it because he doesn't know
the pornography this man writes!
You shitty little saint!
I didn't know you were smoking!
You still haven't seen anything,
brother!
And did you like the film?
- It's your first adult film, isn't it?
- Yes.
And money?
Do you have any money?
I do. I got some
from the old man.
How much do you have?
- About two hundred.
- That will do.
I'm going to take you
to meet the girls!
That was a night of initiation.
After the movie, Zeca
took me to Maria da Vov?.
It was my first time in bed
with a woman.
I don't know why Cicinha
entered a convent...
but my sister always had
a certain religious tendency.
She had invented a backyard
god for me, after all.
Anita! Anita, my daughter,
help me here!
What do you want, father?
Don't speak like that! I'm asking
because you know I can't see!
I have tried every way.
I just can't open this up!
I forgot the secret.
Has someone tried to open this?
Father, who would do this?
I'm only asking!
Has someone tried to open it?
No.
Because I always leave it
in away to make it easy...
and now it's not!
Be patient.
See if you can open this.
I can't see anything!
You need the secret, father.
See if you can remember
where you put the secret.
Anita! Have a look at this!
Come see.
You're not gonna believe it,
but I'm telling you...
at night I prayed, I asked.
When I arrived here this morning,
it was like this.
Look!
Do you see this?
It was her!
I remember the only time Anita and
I visited Cicinha in the convent.
Her eyes were oblique,
a little changed by emotion.
Under Mother Superior gaze,
it seemed she wanted to show...
greater happiness
than she was really feeling.
But Cicinha didn't stay
very long in the convent.
She was expelled because
the sisters found out...
there was a mad uncle
in the family.
They couldn't accept this.
You need to have
this hair cut, boy!
You look like a punk,
with this long hair!
I can't, father.
I'm going to study.
All this week I have tests.
Tomorrow I have a Physics test!
I don't want to know!
You have to have this hair cut!
Can't you hear me, boy?
You're going to have
this hair cut now!
I'm gonna have it cut
when I want!
Do you see this, Anita?
This boy is disrespecting me!
Do you see, Anita?
He's facing up to me!
You can be sure: I'm not going
to have this shit cut anymore!
Do you know why?
Because I'm a bitch!
A bitch!
This boy is sick!
You need to go see a doctor.
You're sick in your nerves.
Remember your uncle had problems.
You should have never
had a family! Never!
You killed my mother!
You nazi executioner!
As never before in my life,
I wanted a sensitive father.
And once more I sought refuge
in the movies.
I had discovered the art sessions
at the Guarany.
No way! I will speak up!
I say whatever I want,
you hear me?
No way! No way!
I say whatever I want!
So don't you bother me, okay?
Don't you bother me!
Don't you bother me!
Look: I'm gonna tell
you something...
because in the past
those gentlemen...
heads of families,
they came here, you know?
They said at home...
that they'd go to
an amateur radio club...
that they were going to listen
to the BBC from London.
Do you know what BBC
they came to listen to here?
It was mouth, pussy and ass!
It was mouth, pussy and ass!
Those little French niggers
from the brothel!
What do you want?
What are you looking at?
For crying out loud!
What are you looking at?
Don't you know me,
you little chicken?
ALLIANCE FOR THE PROGRESS
IS A FARCE!
Guiga, is it you?
- It's me.
- I was waiting for you.
I couldn't sleep
after what you said to me.
I don't want to fight with you,
my son.
But you said something
that you can't say to a father.
Listen to what I'm going
to tell you:
when my misfortunes are old,
yours will be young.
Don't think it's a curse
I'm throwing at you!
I want you to be very happy.
My son...
I don't want to fight
with you anymore!
Let's make a non-aggression pact.
Shake my hand.
We are not going
to fight anymore.
Come on! Come on!
This is not a fuckhole!
One beautiful day,
my father thought Cr?u was too old...
to continue working...
and got her a place in an asylum.
She knew that
that was her last stop.
Oh Terram?
Take my daughter, Terram?
Take her, Terram?
Take my daughter, Terram?
Oh my mother
Terram?
doesn't want
To take me, mother
Take her, Terram?
Cr?u died during Carnival.
Her coffin was alone all night,
no one there to watch the body.
Look, have you ever
seen a black actress...
who didn't play the role
of a slave or a maid?
You don't you see, man,
you don't!
Centuries of slavery
and subservience!
That's why black people grew
this fucking inferiority complex!
But this has to stop!
You know M?rio Gusm?o,
don't you?
He's the one who's filming
"Black Angel", isn't he?
He was arrested for having grass.
They humiliated the guy.
Do you think that if he were white
the treatment would be the same?
I don't know, Bira.
I think the worst problem
is to be broke, man!
Because a black guy who has money
is well treated. Look at Pel?!
Come on, Daniel? Shit!
That's not the same!
He's "a black man with a white soul",
as some people say!
Get?lio had disappeared.
Now he was involved
in a clandestine organisation.
He had even asked if we would
get into the armed fighting.
But none of us had enough
conviction or courage.
That's Get?lio there!
Helinho, man!
Are you armed, Get?lio?
It's routine in the organisation,
for an emergency.
We never know.
But I don't intend to use it.
At least not at the moment.
Don't worry.
- The guys are there. Come see them.
- Sure.
Hello, man!
It's so good to see you!
Long time no see!
Guiga!
What's up, Get?lio?
The situation is getting worse!
The population only knows what
the military want them to know.
They manipulate the information!
They say we're bank robbers...
but the money from the robberies
is to finance the war!
We kidnap people
to liberate companions...
who are being tortured
cruelly in prison!
Even here in the Federal Police
there are some people.
The guys are sadists,
professional torturers!
They do terrible things!
Drowning, hanging from wood,
shocks in the balls!
They stick an electric wire
in the guy's urethra!
It's an incredible pain!
When they want to kill someone...
they said our guy
committed suicide!
Or say it was an escape
and the body disappears.
That was the last time
that we saw Get?lio.
After that night no one had
anymore news about him.
FREEDOM FOR EMILIANO!
Clodoaldo, Brazil attacking,
Tost?o... Let's go, people!
What a ball, Clod?,
look, look, look!
At the score!
BRAZIL, LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT
Clodoaldo!
AUTHORITARIANISM
CORRUPTION, MISERY
Look...
my dear Brazil,
at the score, Clodoaldo!
Released after the autopsy...
The body has 4 holes
caused by bullets...
...the left hand was on
the half-cut limb.
The top jaw bone was toothless.
...the body had bruises
on the right side.
The body of Lamarca
couldn't be photographed...
TERROR DIES WITH LAMARCA
by determination...
of Governor Ant?nio
Carlos Magalh?es.
My heart is green, yellow
White and blue
I love you, my Brazil
I love you
No one can hold down
Brazilian Youth
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
The punishment begins here.
Now repeat!
And even if I walk in the valley
of darkness...
Here!
Why don't you kill yourself?
I don't know anything!
And while the country celebrated
the Brazilian miracle...
I knew my season in hell.
The guerrillas were chased
and tortured to death.
I spent the nights awake, panicking.
I couldn't sleep.
Neurosis finally had overcome me.
I began to take
a lot of anti-depressants...
in the purest pain
and unhappiness...
with my morbid fixation
for suicide.
I identified myself with Torquato,
a twisted angel...
his fate was to face
he choir of the satisfied.
Listen, Daniel,
I need to tell you something:
for the Love of God don't let me
return from the anaesthesia.
I want euthanasia.
Euthanasia.
I have written it down.
It's here, signed.
Euthanasia...
My stay in that hospital was short...
but a routine exam showed
an irreparable loss.
If it is true that the gods feed
on human suffering...
in my case their appetite
was voracious.
Take me to the church.
I want to receive Holy Communion!
I'm afraid of Evilamem.
What do you want from me,
you son of a bitch??!
What do you want with me??!
Do you know what this means?
I know!
Don't torture yourself!
I don't care!
I love you, Guiga!
I don't care!
I love you!
Let's play that!
Let's play that.
Let's have a good time.
Let's play!
Let's have a good time...
Let's play!
Happiness is the
final proof of Man!
TV Aratu channel 4
Salvador, my love, Bahia
Maybe in the packet
you'll find what you need.
Stop, listen, walk, look.
It won't cost you anything.
It'll only cost you your life.
The old piano was already
sold for a cheap price...
to a Protestant minister...
and a little later the house
itself would be sold.
Like a house cat,
I stayed for a little longer...
and for the first time
I found myself living alone.
In a radical subversion
of the order...
the house was open to the nuts.
We had no time or place
for anything.
That was my first
true communion...
with the right to Pentecost
and everything.
It was my first
communion with grass.
And tongues as if of fire
became visible...
and on each of them rested one.
In the beginning
it's really like this.
And they were all full
of the Holy Spirit...
and began to speak
in different tongues.
There is no way of escaping
your own destiny.
Oedipus tried, but ended up facing
what he wanted to avoid.
He deciphered the enigma
of the Sphinx and was spared...
but this didn't help him.
Knowing himself
was the cause of his fall.
No man can say
he was happy...
before he arrives at
the last day of his life.
It was you who brought
these people here.
Who are they?
Relax, Guiga.
They're nice people.
It's a French couple, friends
of mine, Alain and Juliette.
The other is Pablito.
No man can say he was happy...
before he arrives
at the last day of his life.
That Pablito intrigued me
from the first moment.
He had a strange fascination
over people.
Shit!
This Guiga is too crazy!
What's up, Guiga?
Far out! I'm starving!
Shit! The guy really sticks out!
Everything is numbers.
Love is the knowledge of the number
and nothing is infinite.
Or better: does he fit here,
in the space-kiss of hunger?
Pablito was versed in magic,
astrology and the Cabala.
Initiated in the tarot
and perversions...
in fatality and
in the acceptance of destiny.
- I can't hold on to it!
- Come on, Guiga!
But you always say it's beautiful
living in a community, man!
You have to know that
no one belongs to anyone.
Put this in your head, my friend!
Don't fret.
The girl only wants to dance.
Let's go there.
Come here, boy!
Let's dance.
Although I was easy prey for
the bad trips, I smoked every day...
and I was curious
about new experiences.
For me it was a challenge:
to become a real man,
I had to learn to face my demons.
This is good stuff!
Do you remember Edu?
Yes.
He went to try his luck in London,
with the flute.
"Love it and leave it."
Yeah.
Things are not easy, my friend.
There's a lot of people giving up.
Most already finish school
for the industrial area...
thinking about marriage.
They're gonna end up
as fat as cows.
And Get?lio, man?
He just disappeared.
I want to learn the guitar...
but this is for later.
To get some money, I'm gonna
give some yoga classes...
or sell veggie sandwiches
on the beach.
I'm going to Chapada.
There's a community there.
The spider lives by
what it weaves.
I want to plant to eat.
And you, Guiga?
I don't know.
I'm thinking about
buying a Super-8.
You really get off
on this artist trip, don't you?
It's good... when it works out.
But don't think art
will release you.
Sooner or later you are gonna
meet the Sphinx, friend.
The sun!
Billions, trillions of megatons...
nuclear explosions...
eternally.
"But the fool on the hill...
sees the sun going down...
and the eyes in his head...
see the world spinning around."
What is it?
What are you looking at?
Don't you know me, you chicken?
Gisaldina! Gisaldina!
Suc-ker! Suc-ker!
Sindolel?, ? sindolal?
I stepped on the dry leaf
I heard crush, crush.
"It's not easy to deal with
pirlimpimpim powder.
You have to sniff the right
amount. No more nor less."
You are old, father,
your hair is very white...
and you still caper around.
- Do you think this is right?"
- Look.
The guy's stoned.
How are things, my friend?
In my youth I didn't do it...
because I feared it might
damage my brain.
But now that I'm perfectly
sure I does not....
why, I do it again and again.
Suddenly I was filled with
a wave of deep compassion.
A wave that spread
through my chest...
and seemed to embrace
the whole world.
Where's the beast, Mr. Guiga?
In the 21st Century
everything will be different.
The Third Millennium...
the Age of Aquarius.
- Or mere illusion.
- That's it! All light!
One day everything that exists
will become light.
The sky was beautiful
Full of stars
Illuminating the butterfly
To see her beauty
Did you see that?
You have to make a wish.
To whom, Daniel?
Who do I have to ask?
Guiga! Guiga!
Guiga!
Let's go, Guiga!
Guiga is soft, boy! It seems
he were raised by his granny!
Do you know what the female mule
said to the male mule?
This is the ass, mule!
There is heaven.
That's where God lives.
I have to take this boy
to the doctor!
I'm afraid!
Crazy, crazy... Look!
The guy has gone nuts.
"Stay a minute like this,
with your eyes closed...
Like we do when we're sleeping,
when we're falling over a cliff.
When you open your eyes,
everything will be right again."
That's enough, man!
He's not gonna do this anymore!
That's enough, man!
Child that I bless...
you pass through my life...
as, over the sea...
the flight of a lonely
and lost Alcyone.
DEDICATED TO MY FATHER,
MY MOTHER, TONINHO AND CR?U,
WHO ARE ALREADY IN HEAVEN.
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