Hair I Go Again (2015) Movie Script

Heavy metal.

Heavy metal is a lifestyle.

Fill in the blank.

Heavy metal is?

Everything.

Freedom, being yourself.

Groupies, and it's

metal that's heavy.

Heavy metal...

Changed my life.

I'm Kyle.

I'm Steve.

My first concert was Rock

Super Bowl Number 10.

My first concert was Van Halen

off the Van Halen II Tour.

I have over 350 concert,

band, rock & roll

t-shirts in my collection.

Yes.

I've been Gene Simmons

before for Halloween.

Yes, the first song

I learned on guitar

was "Smoke on the Water."

Watch out for shit bombs.

And I had a skunk named Nicko

named after the drummer of Iron

Maiden.

In another life, I was a

rock and roll musician.

So you had this

band in the '80s.

Well, we were a band

called Tryxx, T-R-Y-X-X.

We wanted to open

up for Motley Crue.

That was our goal in life.

Did Tryxx ever get a taste

of the rock star lives?

Or was it just you guys

practicing some songs,

fighting with each other

for a little while,

and then drinking cheap

beer until you passed out?

We never really went anywhere.

It was really a

lot of potential.

We were just out of high school.

We just had a really cool band.

Aw, I thought it was Loverboy.

Almost like Loverboy

or something.

Loverboy.

Maybe a little bit too Loverboy.

Along the lines of Loverboy

or something like that.

You guys remind me of Loverboy.

Maybe a little Loverboy.

Kind of like a

transvestite Loverboy?

Do you remember

that band, Loverboy?

And you guys, you'd break

up, or whatever the case?

Definitely in the

long run it was just

about not wanting

the same thing.

It's almost like

we didn't really

give it the full effort that

it deserved from back then.

So you guys, you've

put the band together,

and you're going to do a gig.

And you guys are

going to get together?

Is that what's going on?

You're literally going to

take your five guys that

were in this band 25 years ago,

and you guys want to do a show?

Are we reforming a band here?

There's a lot worse ways

you could waste your time.

It depends on how

bad you want it.

I don't think you guys

got a chance in hell.

Something will just happen.

You'll force it.

Or you'll be homeless.

Or that.

Yeah.

If you really want

to do it, and if you

can convince the other guys.

But be realistic.

Don't put too much

on their plates.

They may not be able

to digest it all.

Hello?

Gordon.

Hey, what's going on, guys?

We're about to start the next

part of this process, which

is actually us getting

together at this point

and see if we can actually

create some music,

and just see what

you're thinking

and what's going on

with you at the moment.

To be honest with you,

I'm just completely not

wanting to do it.

OK.

The 80's were wild, and the

people that made that scene

were wild.

The era itself was something

that was really special.

It was electric.

Santa Monica Boulevard,

Sunset Boulevard...

It was thousands of people

walking down the streets.

The Strip was the place to

be, because of the community.

Everybody knew that The

Strip was legendary,

so everybody flocked

to those three blocks.

Tonight we have

metal on The Strip!

Yeah!

It was a party.

It was a literal 24/7 party.

The economy was booming, and

it was all about fashion.

Girls were wild.

Record companies had money,

and it was a party time.

Everybody was walking

around with big hair,

and I think it was the

volume of hair though.

It was the height.

It was just how high

you could get your hair.

So it was really a really

happy time for everyone,

not only for the economy, but

also for the music industry

and for the fans.

Cinderella.

Yeah!

Woo!

Loud guitars.

I'm going to sing at

the top of my lungs.

You're going to play

as fast as you can.

We're going to do huge

background vocals.

That's what we're going to do.

I'm like bang.

It was different.

The rules were different.

Artists and bands

were able to be

who they wanted to be and

design their own thing.

There were no rules.

A lot of money involved.

Everybody's career was

involved, and things

were going really, really well.

Just letting your

hair down, literally.

Ha.

That part of it was sobering.

Nothing else was

sobering, but that was.

The LA scene was

transferring over to Tampa,

and it was more or

less because of Julliet

and their association

with Kevin DuBrow.

I met Kevin here in Tampa,

and I played him my demo.

When he was the biggest

rock star in the world,

he picked me.

Rock

talk take a stand.

No restriction...

I remember watching those

guys and thinking wow,

wonder they get that Spandex.

Wonder where they

get their eyeliner.

We were trying to get attention.

It wasn't like we

weren't, so bring it on.

They were really the band that

brought the LA thing over,

and it lit on fire.

We had a great scene.

It was unbelievable.

It had more metal

bands per square inch

than any city in America.

There was music everywhere.

There were venues everywhere.

Tampa definitely felt

like a second home

to us if not a first

home, because it was

such an awesome rock market.

I remember back in

the day, Florida

was a great place to play.

And I wouldn't say we were

solely responsible for it,

but we kinda put

Tampa on the map,

as far as there's some

metal in this town.

On one hand on our

walls, we had pictures

of Motley Crue, and

Judas Priest, and Dokken,

and we were heavily

influenced by them

but as far as

performers, I would

say that we were probably more

influenced by the local bands

that we saw than anything else.

There was a great rock and roll

band there called Stranger,

and we used to cover

one of their songs.

It was called "Jackie's So Bad."

The classic Florida whiskey

drinking, Okeechobee River,

South Florida type of band.

We made friends, and I

think that part really

helped us step up and

be a little different,

than other bands.

I always felt that Tampa Bay,

it was great for the people.

The fans was incredible, and

there were some nice, big rock

clubs in the area.

Oh, we have The

Mark Twain, which

was the legendary Tampa Club.

ML Chasers.

Club 19.

The Power Club.

49th Street Mining Company.

The Rock-it Club.

The Rock-it Club?

The Rock-it Club.

The Rock-it Club, yes.

There was a lot going

on all the time,

and we were in the

middle of it all.

We could only see what we were

exposed to because of our age.

So we weren't quite at the

age of being able to go

into clubs, at least legally.

We would sneak into

a lot of the clubs,

just so we could see

these bands live.

It was a very, very rich musical

landscape that we came from.

There were great

bands playing there

that we were influenced

by; Savatage, Roxx Gang,

Julliet, Stranger.

All those guys were hitting

their heyday in Tampa

when we were starting our band.

So Kyle and I met on this very

field in the seventh grade.

It was Tuesday,

January 15, 1980.

Are you serious?

Yeah.

How do you know that?

I just remember.

This is where I guess

our friendship started.

He was like the

new kid in school.

He'd just moved into

town or something.

Apparently, I was the

first person he met.

I don't remember that.

I guess it wasn't that eventful.

It was Coach Long's PE class.

So 100 degrees in Florida, and

they're making us play soccer.

I wasn't playing soccer.

I was just standing there.

They can't make me play soccer.

I walked up, and I

said hi, and you just

went... just shook me off.

We instantly didn't

like each other.

The irony is is that

in eighth grade,

you were voted most

friendly, and you did not

demonstrate that that day.

Somehow, we became

friends after all that.

And 35 years later, here we are.

Are they brewing

the beer, or we have

to get up and serve ourselves?

Or what's going on?

You liked... oh, what

was the band's name?

Lynyrd Skynyrd?

No?

I don't know.

Then when the yearbook

photos came around

I decided to be Bruce Dickinson,

and I made it in the yearbook

as Bruce Dickinson.

Can you pinpoint when this band

started and how it started?

How our band started?

Mhm.

No.

I don't remember.

Our first band together

was formed in 1984,

and we were called Convict.

That is the most

metal fucking name.

Heh.

My parents were not into

the look that I wanted

and the music I

wanted to listen to.

You liked Bon Jovi.

I know you liked Bon Jovi.

Yeah.

He thought he was Bon Jovi.

Yeah.

Permed yours.

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

The perms were good.

It was all about school.

It didn't matter what I

wanted to do on any level.

It was about school.

The less they supported me,

the more I wanted to do it.

It was just don't tell

me I can't do this.

My room was decorated.

There was not an inch

of wall space on my room

that you could see...

Posters, albums.

Every imaginable band was

up there on the walls.

We were already

listening to the music.

We were already

buying the records.

We were already going

to the concerts,

so what's the next logical step?

I think it would be to

form a band ourselves.

Our parents thought

we were crazy.

We didn't like

that type of music.

I didn't like that

type of music.

It was very loud.

I've saved every rehearsal

tape... everything.

We have cops knocking on

the door of our warehouse.

Shut it down now.

Oh, come on.

You guys have been

warned a few times.

Warned?

You know it's pretty late,

and these people around here

have gotta sleep.

And what's the latest time?

7 o'clock.

7 o'clock?

Our first show

was a train wreck.

It was a self-produced gig

that we did at a skating rink.

I did a two tier

Battle Of The Bands,

had too much better bands

going after each other,

and then three lesser

bands, including ourselves,

going after each other.

Remember, it was the

Battle of the Bands.

I don't remember.

It was the Battle of the Bands.

It was two divisions.

Two divisions?

There was a novice

division, which included us.

We were novice?

What the hell?

It wasn't too hard for us to

win that Battle of the Bands,

as bad as we were, because when

you pick your own competition,

that's what happens.

And that it was really

kind of what it was.

It was the very first show,

and there were jitters.

We looked cool, and the crowd

responded, because we looked

a lot better than we sounded.

The old Superskate now

Jack Joyner Heating

and Air Conditioning.

Right there is where the bra

in teeth photo was taken.

And the first show ever played.

Right here.

I wonder if Jack Joyner

would have liked it.

Well, Convict, after

a couple of shows,

started to fall apart at

the seams, number one.

So we had some

personnel changes.

What was the name of the band?

It's like Max Factor, or like...

What do I think of that name?

Moxie Men, or let's see.

The first thing I think of is

a guy that gets a prostitute.

Right?

Yeah.

There's definitely

an X in your name.

How about two?

Am I right with an X?

Yes.

I am?

You are.

Styx?

I told you.

No.

Tryxx, and I'll spell

it for you, T-R-Y-X-X.

Not so great.

I love that name.

I love the name Tryxx.

It's great, T-R-Y-X-X.

It's awesome.

You've got to think

about adding a third X.

Triple XXX.

The name of the band is Tryxx,

but it wasn't really Tryxx,

unless there were two Xs...

Or three, if you really

wanted to underline it and

do the whole triple XXX porn

thing.

I'm trying to figure

out which one you is.

Can I have this?

Is that you?

I can see it.

It's cool, the double X?

Yeah, it's cool.

Come on.

Is that you?

It sounds very '80s.

Come on.

That's you there?

It just screams of a time.

I certainly hate to rain

on anybody's parade,

but it seems a little

contrived maybe.

You probably have to

add something to it.

Good.

I like that.

Like Tryxx For Free, or Tryxx

$5, or something like that.

Again, if I got a package

that said Tryxx on it,

I'd be... I might want to

listen to it, just because I'd

be like you've got

to be kidding me.

Tryxx was Gordon on lead

guitar, Kyle as the lead singer,

myself, Steve, as the rhythm

guitarist, J.T. on bass,

and Jeff on drums.

I was trying to steer

us in a direction

of becoming a club band, where

we were doing 40 songs a night.

I think beyond that, to

become an original band.

I think the originals that

you guys did were really cool.

You guys wrote hooks.

Did we have potential to

continue to play skating rinks

and things like that?

Sure.

Potential to make a

record and go on tour?

Probably not.

For a bunch of

kids our age, we're

talking 17, 18, 19,

years old and starting

to write our own material

was saying something.

And maybe I'm the only one that

thinks that we had something,

but we did.

A little something.

No, we had something.

As an '80s hair band, I think

T-R-Y-X-X is close to some

friends of mine in Trixter.

Oh, you mean Trixter?

Now, there's another

band called Trixter.

What about Trixter?

It sounds really like Trixter.

It's kind of half

ass-ed, don't you think?

It's not finished.

It explains why you gave it up.

But Tryxx is good for

an '80s hair band.

For something now?

No.

That is a very rocking

name... very rocking.

Well, you think

that will fly today?

Absolutely not.

Did you guys talk to the

other guys in the band?

Where the hell is everybody?

We still need to go and

find some of the guys.

We don't even know

where they are.

And then see if they

want to actually do it.

From Detroit, Michigan,

Mr. J.T. LeNoir.

J.T., I think him and I

got along immediately.

He was the chick

magnet of the band.

I don't remember much

about his bass playing,

to be honest with you.

I don't recall if he was

good, if he was not good.

I think he did the job.

He lightened it up a

little bit for us, I think.

He was a really nice guy.

He was a lot of fun

to hang out with.

We should go look for

him, and then if we can

find a phone number, call him.

The obvious place to

start is Facebook.

Is that him?

No.

What are you, blind or stupid?

Is that him?

What if you just use

that right there?

Shut it!

Gordon, who was our

lead guitar player,

was my roommate back in the

day, and it was because of him

that this band

really got started.

I just remember he had a

great sound to his guitar.

He was quietly pissed

off, very withdrawn,

but he was a brilliant

guitar player.

I would have probably went

for the open, no shirt man

right here, with the chest hair.

This guy right here?

Who's this?

That's Gordon.

He's our lead guitar player.

Gordon's super cute.

We are in the process

of seeking people

out and trying to best as we

can put that band together.

Right, right.

And we would very

much like to know

if you might be interested

in pursuing that road

and see what happens.

Well, the only real

issue that I have with it

is basically some mental

health issues, anxiety

and panic issues.

That would be the

thing holding me back.

I certainly wouldn't have

any problem hooking up

with you guys.

I think it would be

cool if we did it...

I don't know if it's

feasible or not,

but if we could work out maybe

some original material instead

of just playing the old...

No.

That's the idea, actually.

Yeah.

That would be cool.

As far as me being able to get

up on stage and not lose it,

that concerns me.

Well, I'll tell you what.

We plan on doing

this thing, and we

don't know how long it's

going to take to do it.

Right.

You don't know where

it's going to go.

It may not go anywhere.

Right.

Well, that's what

my question was.

It was like well, can

Jeff still play drums?

I think he's got a

pretty good career going.

I'm not really sure

what happened to J.T.

That is the... currently

where are they now file?

Yeah, exactly.

Is that him?

That's not him, but that's him.

Is this him?

That's him.

Mhm.

And his wife.

Do you want to friend him?

No.

We should call him.

We found J.T. in Michigan, but

we can't find a phone number,

so I have to pay for

his fucking phone

number, which just thrills me.

How much is that?

$1.95.

What if it's a wrong number?

Then I'm out a buck 95.

Oh, well.

The number you have

reached, 2-1-4...

If we don't get through, this

will be the fifth phone number.

The number you have

dialed is not in service.

Please check the

number and dial again.

We could friend him

on Facebook, man,

but I don't want

to chase him off.

Done.

Hello?

Hello, is this J.T., former

bass player of Tryxx?

Yeah.

How are you doing, man?

Well, we do have a

reason for our call.

What's that?

We're putting the

band back together,

and we're making

a film about it.

Are you in?

Yeah.

I'm in, but I don't know

how I'd work it out...

We'll work out the details

when we get to that point.

But right now, we're just

rounding up the guys.

Hello?

Is Jeff B. Heinz there?

This is him.

Jeff?

Boy, we tainted that guy's

high school, I think,

since he was the

youngest one in the band.

Jeff, think back to

1986, and what band

you were playing in back then.

Uhhh '86?

Arguably, the best drummer

I ever played with.

Do you remember the band?

'86 would have been...

He just had this instinct

more than anything else.

It wasn't flashy.

It wasn't a style thing.

It was instinct.

I remember the band.

Is this Steve McClure?

It sure as hell is,

and Kyle Kruger, Esq.

Oh, my lord.

What's up, man?

How are you doing, dude?

Hey, man.

I'm doing all right.

I think he was just in it for

fun, more than anything else.

Putting the band back together?

Are we going on tour?

Are you in?

I mean, if you're going

to do the whole thing

and going somewhere to

play a gig, I'll do it.

Nice.

Sweet.

All right.

That's all we

wanted to hear, man.

All right, man.

It's been great.

It's good to see you.

Yeah.

You too man, great.

You guys take it easy.

All right.

See you.

Bye.

All right.

Take care.

Talk to you, Jeff.

Good talking to you.

Thanks, guys.

Take care.

See you.

Bye bye.

Later.

He didn't even

remember the band.

I think it's impossible to

break into the music business.

I mean no one buys

records anymore.

And to do it and make a living

at it is next to impossible.

It's a coin toss.

The music business

is a coin toss.

No matter how good you are or

no matter how good you're not,

sometimes you hit it,

and sometimes you don't.

Most don't.

Have you

heard the news...

The idea of I'm going to write

some songs, date a supermodel,

and then I'm going

to get signed...

That's a pretty

iffy business model.

People don't buy CDs, man.

They don't buy CDs.

You sells 25,000 records,

and you're number one.

You're still broke,

but you're number one.

What does that get you?

You're the number one broke guy.

Nobody's making

any money anymore,

and it's only the select

few that you constantly

hear on the radio.

It's the same bands played

over and over again.

To try to break a

new artist is insane.

The music business now

is so incredibly diluted.

There's so much out there.

Back in the day, there

was a lot of people

that gambled a little bit

more and threw money around.

Today, they don't do it anymore,

and so in today's world,

the bands have to be

smarter than ever.

It's not like it

used to be where

you got a record company

that's going to give you

all this money, and put a bunch

of tons of money into you,

and make sure you get radio

play, and everything else.

There's no record

stores anymore.

It's a whole different animal.

It's tough man.

Nobody sells records.

Nobody buys CDs.

Why would you, when you

can get it for free?

Look, business is tough,

regardless of what kind it is.

But the music business

now, it's definitely

more of an uphill battle

than it's ever been.

The record companies are

down to skeleton staffs.

There's no promotion people

there working your record.

They're waiting for the band to

go out and do it on their own.

The problem right

now, the enemy I think

is just because of Pro Tools and

all these kinds of... there's so

much music out there,

and there's so much

music that's good.

And I think personally,

you're better off

being horrible because at

least something horrible,

I'm going to go whoa.

That was so bad, you've

got to hear this.

You have to get this many

downloads to make minimum wage.

Seriously, an artist doesn't

even make minimum wage.

You can make more

money at McDonald's.

So we're packing

up and heading off

to see J.T., who we

haven't seen in 25 years.

So we're going to talk

to him about what's

in the future for us, and what

his involvement is going to be,

and how we can get

things moving again.

So we're off to Flint, Michigan.

Please make sure

all carry on luggage

is completely stowed underneath

the seat in front of you.

Roll 'em up.

While we're in Detroit,

I gotta make a pit stop.

Where?

I gotta pick up a

package from a guy.

I think he's up here, on the

corner, but it won't take long.

Oh, look at those people.

Oh, that looks a little sketchy.

Let's get...

Hey.

What's up, dude?

How are you doing?

Hello.

Long time no see, man.

And I don't owe you

shit, by the way.

For the last 25 years, he

has been bitching and moaning

about you owing him $100.

And then yesterday

he had this epiphany.

Oh, wait a second.

That wasn't him.

Thanks for having us over.

Yeah, man.

Thanks for coming.

Kind of a long trip.

Has it really been 26 years?

Well, we actually broke up

in 1987, and I think it was...

And what happened?

It was March.

I really don't know

why we broke up.

We talked a lot about me and

Kyle fighting, and that was it.

I do remember going to the

warehouse, packing up my shit,

and leaving before a show.

This one's going out

to a certain person...

He knows who he is... who

screwed over a certain band,

a certain two weeks ago

before a certain show.

We never had really

good dynamics.

Because we were always

just playing covers, man.

Yeah, but we were

playing our own stuff.

Oh, there were like three

songs, and they were all shit.

They weren't shit.

Yes, they were.

Coming from somebody

who didn't write them?

Really, like I didn't write

the chorus for "Eyes Of Fire?"

Yes, I believe I did.

Oh wait, no.

The fuck I didn't.

You played three chords.

I wrote the chorus.

You did not.

I wrote the guitar

part for the chorus.

That's not the song.

It is not the song.

Yes, it is.

No, it's not.

Was it part of the song?

It's three chords, man.

Really?

Don't knock yourself out.

OK.

It's not the vocal melody.

I still wrote it.

You're acting like you

wrote that whole song,

and that's not the case.

It's called a collaboration.

Not at all.

Yes.

No.

All I do is stare - -

This song's pretty terrible too.

It had potential.

Eyes of fire.

You know what?

For our very first song

that we ever wrote,

this wasn't too bad.

Eyes of fire.

They let you know it

was all your fault.

You're such a liar when

you never heard my call.

I would rate our talent

level, on a scale of 1 to 10,

about 2 back then.

Probably a 6.

We were awful, all of us.

Here we go.

Stare!

That was almost on key.

Can you smile?

Cheese.

Go cheeseburger.

Cheeseburger.

My family is 100 % supportive

of me, and my goals,

and my love of music.

I met my wife here.

I was a waitress.

And he was, of

course, the sound guy.

And I had a big crush on him.

Everyone went and told him,

and the rest was history.

After Gibson was born, I took

an inventory of what I was doing

and where things were going.

And although I

love what I do now,

it's not the most stable

thing in the world.

He's been here for

about 10 years now

working here, so 10 long,

miserable years with him.

Daddy's not so tight anymore.

It's in there somewhere though.

But I'm going back to school

for computer networking.

I didn't really know exactly

what area of computers

I wanted to get into.

I just knew that I wanted to get

more training in the computer

industry.

It's also an exciting

prospect to be

able to get into

something a little more

stable, a little more structured

so that I could spend more time

being the normal dad, I guess.

I just like the idea

of him getting in there

and playing more now,

picking up his bass again

instead of it just

sitting there,

because I know he enjoys it.

That's going to be the hardest

part for me is coming up

with the time between

school, work, being a dad,

spending time rehearsing songs.

It's going to be tough, but

I'm confident that I can find

the time that I need to do it.

We haven't seen Jeff since 1987.

This is really to

reunite with him

and just to get

to know him again.

And so we're going to go

there to North Carolina,

and we're going to

reintroduce this idea,

lay out the framework

of what the plan is,

and see if he isn't

willing to do that.

Are you in a band, sir?

Trying.

OK.

I thought so.

You've got the look.

All right.

Rock on.

Our job in all of

this is to talk them

into doing something

they're never going to get

an opportunity to do again.

24...

Something.

95.

Is that it?

Yeah.

Sweet.

McClure!

Jeff B. Heinz

Kruger!

What's going Kyle?

Steve man, how you doing, buddy?

Good to see you.

Been a long time.

Hello, brother.

Long time.

How y'all doing?

I'm doing good.

20 however years later?

20...

26... 27.

Do you remember how we even

all got together and where?

I wanted to say

it was just like...

And I can't remember obviously

the name of the garages

or anything like that, but

there was that garage...

Clearwater Self Storage.

Clearwater Self Storage, yes.

Was it Clearwater Self Storage?

It probably changed names.

This is where Tryxx was born.

Why are you doing that?

It's stupid.

Right now, I'm going

take this time out

to introduce you to Tryxx.

In back with me

on the drum kits,

the adolescent mad man

himself, Mr. Jeff B. Heinz.

Yeah!

We didn't know it was

being filmed at the time.

Jeff B. Heinz.

The best I ever was right there.

Sit down.

Yeah!

It was great.

It was a good show.

Everybody dressed up.

There was lights.

There was big PA, and

it was the thunder.

I thought it was fun.

I thought that we

were working hard,

and we were getting

better, and you never

know where it could have gone.

This will be the high point

of the trip, actually.

OptiStok is as a company

that I have started.

I'm an entrepreneur, and

I've been working on it

for over a year and a half.

This is the most challenging

time in my life, period.

I'm all in.

I'm all in terms of

savings, in terms of my IRA,

in terms of everything I've

ever saved in my entire life.

It's all in.

If we can make this

work, is it something

to dabble in,

something to consider?

With him in the middle

of a business that's

been a long haul and he's

coming towards the end of

whether it's really

going to happen or not,

timing couldn't be worse.

Just to be honest,

it couldn't be worse.

It's tough.

It's a very tough time

to making that work,

keeping my wife calm

somehow and happy

when she's really overwhelmed

by the situation that we're in.

You think his family would

be supportive of that?

This side of his family.

As his brother, I would

be very supportive.

I don't know.

It's a tough situation.

But like I said, I

explained to her.

I said hey, these

guys are chasing

what they want to do in life,

and they're going for it.

I respect that, and I'm going

to try to help them out.

He's never gonna do this.

Nope.

Actually, and it's not... it

has nothing to do with him.

Well, it has to

do with his time.

Dude, I don't hear that.

I hear something else.

That guy wants to

play drums, man.

I can tell you that right now.

He kept using the word,

I'll help you guys out.

What does that mean?

Because yesterday,

he was using the we.

So is like the end game

of what we're doing here

is are we going to get

together and play some gig?

Are we going to

play the Tryxx...

Is that what we're

going for here?

It went from we to I'll

support you in any way I can.

Basically, I can't

commit anything

to you, which is fine, because

the commitment part is hard

when we don't really know where

we're at and where we're going.

But dude, I don't think it's

a lack of wanting to do it.

We're all living on piano

wires, and so any discussion

of something I'm

going to do frivolous

in the future like that

just could set her off.

He didn't tell her

the whole thing.

Yeah.

He knows what we're doing.

He's holding back.

He did not tell her

what we were doing.

I was hoping, like, him

just getting back behind

that kit would spark

some interest and stuff.

The fear that he has in his

life overrides all of that.

Don't ever say I should've.

How many people get the

opportunity to go back in time

and do it again?

It really all depends

on whether or not

you love doing

what you're doing.

No should've, could have's.

Like do it, follow it, follow

you heart, you'll be good.

If you don't pursue this

dream, give it all you've got,

and have fun with

it, and enjoy it,

and it's building experience for

you, then it's all for nothing.

Of course it's a good idea.

Yeah.

You bet.

It's the most important

thing in your life.

Don't take it too seriously.

Yeah.

That's what I was thinking.

And then leave me with

a smile on your face.

You got the attitude.

You've got the hunger.

You've got the drive.

You guys will be

fine, just fine.

If you guys want to basically

put your band back together,

it should be for this

reason, and this reason only.

Make sure you're

doing it with friends,

and you're doing it for fun.

Yeah.

Fun, exactly.

Life could be a bitch if

you don't have a dream.

If you still have the passion

and the fire for the music,

you guys are still

friends, you felt

like you had something special

back then, then why not?

You have do it, because

it's in your heart.

It's in your blood.

It's what you're meant to do.

But the biggest thing

is man, don't ever

give up on your dreams

man, because if you do,

you're going to kick yourself

in the butt one day and go, god.

Why didn't I just try, at least?

Hello?

Gordon.

Hey, what's going on guys?

We would love to play

some music with you.

I am chomping at the bit.

That's what it comes down to.

It's like man, we want

to give it another shot,

and we want to do with

the original guys,

so it wouldn't be the same.

When are you going to get

the chance to do this again?

To do this?

I'm not.

It wasn't really a

great time in my life.

It's just something I'd

just rather not relive.

I just really don't want to

be involved with anything

I've done in the past.

And I was like a

fish out of water,

and I think it would be the

same thing all over again.

Gordon plays Death Metal.

He's in a band called

Never To Arise,

and they just released

their first record.

And if I do have a career

in this going, which

I don't know that I

even do, because I'm not

going to be that pretentious or

egotistical to say that I do.

But if I did, I could

see this killing it.

Where does it fall in

the priority level?

Where it has to.

Not where I'd like it.

To be honest, I'd like

to be able to give it

a much higher priority.

But realistically, I can't.

I've got other priorities now.

This is probably not going to

be on the discussion table.

I can't even discuss this

with my family right now.

I won't discuss

this with my family.

I don't want to mislead

you on anything,

or string you along on something

that my heart's just not into.

Mhm.

I can't let it inconvenience

my family at all.

I can't.

So I wish you guys all

the success in the world

and everything, and I can

understand why you're doing it,

but I just don't have that

feeling myself to do it.

Can I make it work?

No.

That's your guys' job.

It was good hanging

out with you, man.

Yeah.

Yeah, it's been great, man.

I really appreciate you guys

taking the time to fly out

for me and everything.

All right, dude.

We'll talk to you.

All right, man.

See you.

All right.

Take care, guys.

Bye bye.

Bye.

Told you.

You knew that was coming.

I saw it coming a

mile a fucking away.

All right.

Gordon says no, screw it.

I don't want to do it.

Then we're done.

No, we're not done.

That's it.

He says no, and the whole

thing is just off the table?

Who are we going to get to play?

Can't he do his metal on the

side and play with you guys

too?

Oh, he's thinking about he's

going to look bad doing it?

If I were you, if you had

that situation that somebody

was in your band and

they felt like it

was embarrassing

to be in your band,

I would take it personally.

I'd be like go.

Get.

We need somebody else.

As long as you guys

are all in, there

can't be anybody that's

like well, I don't know.

I'm on the fence.

Don't get wrapped up in the one

guy who doesn't want to do it.

If they don't want

to play like you

guys want to play,

then why do it?

If you have a

history with somebody

that's very influential,

and very artistic,

and has been a major part of

what you do, when they're gone,

there is no way to replace them.

You have to just carry on,

and you're a different band.

You're a different band

dynamic at that point.

The bottom line is if

everybody says no to it

or you can't get everybody to

agree, you've lost nothing.

You're exactly

where you're at now.

We started this

thing, and who would

have thought how difficult

it would be just to get

five guys back together again?

Everybody's got lives

to live, and everybody's

got money to make, and bills

to pay, and I get that.

But man, what if you put

yourself in a position...

This is the reason why the band

broke up in the first place.

It's the same, exact reason.

Life got in the way.

Realistically

speaking, I've come

to the realization that

this ain't going to happen,

at least the way we

want it to happen.

Steve and I have

reached the point

where we need to move

forward with something,

and if these guys, if their

heart just isn't into doing it,

and we're having to do all the

leg work to make it happen,

then we want to make

something happen

that's on a more

grand scale, and we

want to be able to

play with people

who want to play

first and foremost,

and then maybe make

something happen out of it.

So I found a local

guitar instructor,

and this guy can shred.

So I'm about to

take my first lesson

in a quarter of a century.

It's going to be interesting.

Let's just hope I

don't embarrass myself.

Pick it up.

Start playing.

Yeah.

Come on, Smoke On The

Water or something.

I mentioned that I

haven't picked up a guitar

in 20 years too, right?

So you suck right now.

But it's like riding a bike.

It's like riding a bicycle.

It's like riding a bike.

No, it is like

riding a bike though.

It's like riding a bike, man.

It's not like riding a bicycle.

I don't think I'm at pure

bottom beginner level.

Like I never picked up a guitar.

I remember some chords

and things like that,

but I might be a

little bit above that.

Whoa.

Let's do this.

All right.

Let's do this.

All right.

Are you ready to sing?

Yes.

It could serve you well

to go to a vocal coach.

That's not a bad idea.

Let's start nice and

simple, and then keep

pushing, and pushing,

and pushing out

of your comfort zone.

Feet shoulder length apart,

toes pointing straight ahead.

Shoulder length apart.

Hands out of your pockets.

Loosen up a little bit.

You've got to be loose, man.

You can't be all tight.

We're going to start

with the diaphragm.

As far as note values,

do you understand

what whole notes, half

notes, quarter notes,

stuff like that are?

It's been... no, not really.

Take a deep breath.

Now, keep the rib cage out,

but let the breath out.

Exhale while keeping

the rib cage expanding.

I forgot where I'm at already.

It's too many, isn't it?

No, that was right.

OK.

1, 2, 3, and 4.

And 4.

Extend your rib

cage a little bit.

Let some air out, and hit me

some As. A, A, A,

Aiiiiiiyyy!

A, A, A, Ayyy.

It's raspy.

No air.

You have too much air coming.

Practicing, this stuff,

even the easy stuff,

getting them up as

fast as you can,

every single one, along

with the foot tapping

is going to be a huge benefit

to improving as fast as you can

in the shortest amount of time.

1, 2, and 3, 4.

1, 2, 3.

1, 2, 3, 4.

A, A.

Yes.

A, A, Ayyy.

That's better already.

A, A, A, Ayyyy.

Good, good.

Nailed that one.

And when you hear something

like how did I do that

and you do it again, it's a

matter of repetitive motion,

like a guitar player

doing this, playing

the same solo every night.

You can repeat the

things that work for you

and continue to put

them in the place.

That's your ammunition.

That's your vocabulary,

your vocal vocabulary.

And everything right now

seems like you definitely

built some good foundation

into your subconscious

back in the '80s.

And it's still there,

so that's good.

So I think we're

definitely on a good path.

All right.

So it's like riding

a bike, right?

I haven't ridden

a bike in years.

What's up, man?

What's up, brother?

How are you doing?

Good man.

All right.

Good to see you.

So Steve and I have

worked really hard

over the last couple

of years and have

decided that we're going to

go ahead and move forward,

because you know what?

This is our freaking

dream, and we're not

going to hold back

because we weren't

able to accomplish the

sentimental part of what

is that we wanted to do.

Where that leaves us is

that Steve and I are left

with having to start

over in that well,

we need to put a band

together, first off.

We want to throw

that out at you first

off just to gauge the

interest, something that we

can work around schedules.

And again, it's a process.

It'll take us six months.

And the minute you said XYZ

was off the books playing live,

I'm like...

Yeah.

He's around.

Opportunity knocks.

Answer the door.

Are you there?

Let's make this work, man.

Let's do it.

Rock and Roll.

I dig you though, man.

That's why.

Right on, brother.

Cool.

Yeah.

It's going to be great.

Right on.

Pretty much I'm completely

available right now.

OK.

So whatever day is good for you.

I will work on this as

often as you want to.

I'm going to put

that in your court

only in saying that

if we can get together

on the average of at

least once a week.

Hey.

This is Tony.

Leave a message, and

I'll get back to you.

Tony, it's Kyle.

Just checking in, man.

Steve is back from

being out of town,

and we wanted to see what

your availability was

looking like, because we want

to start making some music, man.

Hey.

This is Tony.

Leave a message, and

I'll get back to you.

Hey.

This is Tony.

Leave a message, and

I'll get back to you.

There's not a fucking

person on this planet

who has any fucking

sense of urgency

or gives a fuck

what we're doing.

People who commit to doing

something and then fucking

flake, and I've fucking had it.

This is a culmination

of everybody from J.T.,

and Gordon, to all

the way up the line.

People who said yes, but

either haven't put forth

any effort or any support,

or who just plain out flaked

on us, and it's

frustrating as hell.

I realize this isn't

everybody's dream.

I get that.

But if I say I'm going to do

something, I fucking do it.

Hi there.

This message is for Kyle Kruger.

This call is from

a debt collector.

This call is from

a debt collector.

If you would please contact

this office as soon as possible.

I'm calling to notify you that

there will be two charges filed

against you in your county.

I've been out of

work for 17 months.

I've got bills to

pay, and I don't

know how I'm going to pay them.

Steve, you're

selling your house.

Yeah.

This is a huge mid-life crisis.

Well, it's a mid-life challenge.

Quit all your jobs.

Yes.

Because you're not going

to have time for the band

if you have a full time day gig.

So no, I'm just kidding.

I wouldn't give up the day job.

I wouldn't do it.

We both quit our jobs last year.

You've given up your careers?

Everything.

So is that a good idea?

No.

Is this going to

be your livelihood,

or are you going to quit

your day job, or what?

Already quit the day job.

Too late for that?

Already quit the day job.

You already quit the

day... so it sounds

like it better be a good thing.

I think it's crazy in the

current financial environment

this country's in to just

up and leave your job.

It's a huge risk.

It's all about sacrifice.

You've got to sacrifice,

I mean, everything.

To pick up and stop

what you're doing.

You guys are crazy

motherfuckers, man.

I have been making money.

Not a lot, but I've been making

enough to keep gas in the car.

Selling plasma?

Yes.

How'd you know?

Are you serious?

How did you know?

You are not serious.

Well, I am.

Whoever said oh, yeah,

chase your dreams,

go for it didn't know how

fucking expensive it is.

So this is where

we're at right now.

This is where I'm at, at least.

I have a dream, and this is

the reason why I'm doing this,

and that is to record with these

guys, to make a full on record

and put it out there, and

see who freaking salutes.

Now is the time to do it,

because right around the corner

could be hip

replacement surgery.

If it's in your

heart, and you know

that there's nothing

else you want

to do more than make music,

then you should go for it.

Honestly, I'm not that excited

about playing music yet,

and I know that's due

to a lack of confidence

in my own abilities.

If you go into it scared,

I don't think it works.

Go for it.

Don't ask yourself

any questions.

There are no challenges.

Challenges are for losers.

Have you all been a

room together yet?

Hitting that first note sounds

like it's a problem right now.

How is it that... let's see.

We've known each

other since 1980.

We haven't played together

since 1986 or '87.

How is it that we've never

played any fucking music

together?

How is that?

Are we tuned the same?

It's like the old times.

You haven't played

in a while, and I

learned to play differently.

So this is going

to be interesting

for me, at least, to

see what kind of sound

we end up coming with.

I've got about 25, 26

things I'm working on.

And I haven't finished

anything, and there's a reason

for that, that I wanted to

just run some ideas by you,

see what resonated with you.

Dun, dun,

dun, dun, dun, dun, dun.

2, 3, 4.

What you really have

to concentrate on

is the music and make sure that

you like the music that you're

playing, because if you don't

like the music that you're

playing, you can't expect

anybody else to like it,

because it's not going

to be believable.

Well you're doing it

for you, and that means

what's going to

come out is going

to be the real deal,

a real product.

Yeah.

Whether it's good or not anybody

else isn't going to matter.

You guys do what

you meant to finish.

Do what you love.

Don't do what you think

people are going to love.

Do what you love.

Stay true to your heart.

Even though all of these

ideas aren't fully realized,

I feel really good about

where they're going.

I'm in a place I haven't

been in years creatively,

so I think it's just a matter

of us getting on the same page.

12, 3, 4.

You have to write great songs.

It all starts with a great song.

You have to work for it.

You have to focus

like a laser beam,

and it starts with the music.

Go to F.

Huh?

Going to go to D after F?

From an E to the G?

One more time.

Stay with the rhythm though.

God damn it!

You stopped playing in '87.

Doesn't matter, man.

I considered myself at least

holding decent rhythm back

then, so I can't even

fucking do it now.

It just takes practice.

That breaks a lot of

people, is those struggling

periods, because a lot

of people are like fuck,

this is not worth it.

Slow it down a little bit.

Yeah.

This whole process has suddenly

become really frustrating,

and it's difficult for

me to play right now.

If you believe in you,

they, meaning the public,

will believe in you.

But it's all going to start

with one individual... you.

Do it because you mean it, and

get out there, and show people

you mean it, and

they'll buy that.

My abilities back

then obviously weren't

anything to write home about.

So I'm having a tough

time of it right now.

But the problem is a lot

of guys get up there.

And they become frustrated,

because they can't play the way

that they used to play.

And then now it becomes

more of they're bummed out.

They're like fuck, I used

to throw down hard, and now,

I can't.

So it takes the fun

out of it for them,

and that leads them not

wanting to practice more.

It's just like

fuck, it's not fun.

Now you don't know where to go

from there, because we never

really got that far.

You better really want

it, because you're

going to be challenged.

You better fucking look at

yourself in the mirror and say,

do you really want this?

Because it's going

to come at you.

Well, after we interviewed

Ron Keel, we stayed in touch,

became good friends.

He invited me on stage with

him at Monsters of Rock Cruise.

And after that, he asked

me to sing on his record.

Yes, hi.

This is Ron.

Hey Ron.

It's Kyle and Steve.

Hello,

Kyle and Steve.

Welcome to Las Vegas!

I guess the idea is

to come in, and I'm

going to do some stuff with you?

I'm not

as familiar enough

with your voice, your

range, your tone.

You've got all of that

to be able to assign

you a particular part.

I'll just be there, and you

just plug me in and say hey,

can you do this?

And I'll try it.

And if I can, I can.

If I can't, then we'll

find something that works.

I certainly hope it goes a lot

better than that voice lesson

that we did a while back.

Your stomach's

going to be tight.

You're going to have

to do some crunches,

but you've got be able to...

What makes you think I

don't do crunches already?

I'm just saying.

What makes you think

I don't do crunches?

I'm not talking about

Captain Crunches.

I want him to contribute

something in a significant way

to the record.

I want something that he

can be proud of, something

that he's going to be able to

listen to and say, I did that.

I don't have to prove anything

to anybody, because I haven't

been doing this for 25 years.

So if I go in there,

and I'm moderately OK,

I'll be happy with that.

We're going to do a song

called "Long Gone Bad,"

and we're going to do

a unison lead vocal

in the chorus with Ron Keel,

Paul Shortino, and Kyle Kruger.

Long gone

bad, too far too fast.

Ain't no use living in the past.

I've already blown

every chance I had.

Long gone bad.

Just count us in like you did.

That's really cool, because

we don't know where we're at.

Ain't that the truth?

Me in between Shortino and Keel?

Are you fucking kidding me?

I've already

blown every chance I had.

Long gone bad.

Again.

It's getting better.

Long gone bad.

The melody's got to be precise.

Long gone bad too far too fast.

Ain't no use living in the past.

Let's give Kyle a shot at doing

this by himself, all right?

Long gone

bad too far too fast.

Ain't no use living... Sorry.

Already blown

every chance I had.

Don't read it.

Sell it.

I've already

blown it... god,

I keep wanting to stretch

that out for some reason.

Life is over, man.

Everything fucking sucks.

I've already blown

every chance I had!

Long gone bad.

Fuck this!

Just give him one second.

Come on.

Oh, get down.

It's the emphasis.

Oh that there that's just

the music Just music.

Really?

Drink that.

No, I'm good.

I'm good.

Ah.

I'm good, man.

Drink this!

No, it's just...

I've already

blown every chance I had.

Long gone bad.

Almost.

Long gone

bad too far, too fast.

Ain't no use living in the past.

I've already blown

every chance I had.

Long gone bad.

That sounded good.

That did sound great.

Can I hear that back

on the phones, please?

Long gone bad.

Oh, yeah.

Cool.

For a song you've never heard,

and just jumping into it.

Now we're really going

to start working.

He gave me a track, and

I've been studying it,

and I came up with my own part.

And I told him about it.

He said he was cool with that.

We'll see how it works.

Evil, wicked,

mean, and nasty.

What do you got

going for me, Kyle?

What have I got?

I want to be the devil in this.

I want to be the

wicked, so the low...

Grr.

Let's play it.

Play it.

3, 4...

Evil, wicked,

mean, and nasty.

Nice.

Evil, wicked,

mean, and nasty.

I like it.

Evil, wicked,

mean, and nasty.

No, I'm really proud of Kyle.

He did a great job, and

I threw some stuff at him

that he wasn't expecting.

He threw some stuff at me

that I wasn't expecting.

That chorus, that low

third harmony that he did,

brings out the evil, and

the wicked, and the mean,

and the nasty in the song.

Other than that, it sounds nice.

How are you?

Great.

We don't talk enough.

I think we do.

I don't think we do.

I just got off the phone with

the general manager at Peavey.

According to them, they want

to give us equipment and want

to be one of our sponsors.

We've worked with Steve Blaze.

Right.

Just so you know, Stevie

Blaze endorses them.

You know that

whole tonal quality

that you're looking for,

that's it, right there.

And that'd be cool if I reach

out to him too and just be

like hey, can you

give me some pointers

as to what I'm looking

for to get the sound.

We want to make sure that

we're knowledgeable about what

it is that we're doing, and

we're coming out of left field.

And to align ourselves

with somebody

like Blaze, who

can really get us

dialed in and say this is

the direction you need to go.

Steve, hey.

It's Steve Blaze.

What's happening, man?

Hey, how are you doing?

I'm good.

What's going on with you?

Well, yeah.

I just wanted to chat with

you about the Peavey thing.

Right.

And I know you're

endorsed by them,

so I just wanted

to pick your brain

about maybe some of the

particular models and stuff

that you use and maybe

what you could recommend

to me for a sound, because

I'm pretty much still

a novice at this.

Sure.

Not a problem.

Look at this.

Acoustically, I'm using their

Composite Acoustic guitars.

They're made out

of carbon fiber.

It's an acoustic guitar that

never bends, never warps, never

sweats, and they sound amazing.

How can I get a Steve Blaze

tone, sound out of my guitar

and amp?

You must sever these hands and

have them surgically attached

to your body.

I think tone, for

a lot of players,

has a lot to do

with the individual.

I think half of the

tone is in the body.

It's in the hands.

It's in the way that we

handle our instruments.

I'm using the Triple XXX amps.

And they're warm, and

they're not too treble-y.

I don't differentiate my lead

and my heavy rhythm tone.

I use the same sound

for both, but it's

got a great clean sound too.

We feel like if we

want to play like pros,

we need to have pro equipment,

why we're having conversations

with you guys to help us get to

the next step in our process.

What is that next step?

The biggest hurdle

I see for you guys,

seriously, is that you

weren't a big band back then.

So you're coming out like

a new band, in a weird way.

You don't have a big

fan base, do you?

Or maybe if you had a name.

Maybe if people knew who the

fuck you were at one point,

then it would be a lot easier.

But you've got a

fucking rough road, bro.

You don't have the same track

record to sell the band on.

In fact, you have no

track record, do you?

When you're coming at it

from the situation where

you've had no previous

success and here you

are, a bunch of guys

at the age you are at

trying to get your toe in

that water it is so hard.

It's a lot tougher now, now that

you guys y'know, you waited too

long.

All right.

Ready?

All I want is to play

some fucking music.

The question is is can

we fucking deliver?

When the

tears are gone.

When the tears are

gone, it's time to cry.

Don't you say a word.

Just say goodbye.

I don't have a voice.

Well, I knew that.

Stop being a dick, because

I'm being dead serious.

What does that mean?

What, stop being a dick?

No.

Stop being who you are.

What does I don't

have a voice mean?

Whoaaaa.

When the... ah, fuck!

Any successful band

has a singer that

has a voice that

stands out and that

has something unique about it.

And I don't have that.

And not that I say

that I ever did,

but I'm lost in how I

approach this material.

If it's just kind

of a generic singer,

then there's too much

product out there right now.

It's too difficult for them

to identify themselves.

Good is just noise.

So I think the difference

is you have to be amazing.

You never can be good enough.

You can always be tighter.

You can always be more dynamic.

You can always have

better harmonies.

What does it mean to you?

I just want you to fucking know

it like the back of your hand.

And the only way

you could do that is

through either

repetition and have

the confidence in

what you're doing,

but having your skill set

tuned up to make it so.

Yes.

It's been a while.

It's not been easy, man.

I know it's not.

I can tell you right now,

it hasn't been easy for me,

so you need to

consider that as well.

I am.

It's not for the lack of trying.

OK.

Because I am.

I'm taking lessons.

I'm doing what I can.

All right.

So don't question

my dedication to it.

I'm trying.

If you can't nail

this song down,

you're not going to be

able to do anything else.

No, I'm being honest with

you, because if you don't

derive any confidence

from working this song out

and any motivation

from it, you're

fucked for the rest of the time.

Democracy is bull

shit in a rock band.

Every band thinks OK.

We're all going to

have an equal vote,

and blah, blah, blah, blah.

This never happens.

He thinks that I am

trying to commandeer

everything that's going on.

My dedication level is a lot

different than his, I think.

I don't have a consistent

desire to be a musician.

I plan on doing something

beyond this, if necessary.

If you're not all

on the same page,

then you're going

to be butting heads.

The only way that

something like this works

is if you push all in.

You're much more

into it, I think,

than I am and have

been all along.

I have sacrificed

so much to do this.

This has been one

of those things that

has caused me to reexamine

who I am in my life,

and I want to pursue

it to the NTH degree.

You don't share that, so

what do you get out of it?

I guess initially

it was a challenge

to see if we could do it.

That's really why I wanted

to do it, to see if we could.

Do you feel that you're still

on that same path though?

Yes?

Well, so what's the deal?

Dude, I mean, I'll

just cut to the chase.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I think that from

where we started

and where we've

ended up, it just

hasn't played out as

I would had hoped,

and I feel like

I've got everything

from my end to make it go.

And obviously, it's

not going anywhere.

Of course we're going to

ask ourselves every day,

is this worth it?

Is it worth putting

our lives on hold?

Is it worth fucking

not getting a job?

Is it worth

practicing every day?

Who knows?

I don't know.

And at one point I'm like

fuck, it's probably not.

6, 7, 8.

If somebody dropped

coin on us tomorrow

and we were slated to go in,

record in three or four weeks,

we wouldn't be able to do it.

We couldn't.

We just wouldn't

be able to do it.

And I'm not slamming you, dude.

But I just don't think that you

have the level of commitment

needed to pull this off.

I don't think we're

on the same page.

I don't think we

share the same values.

We definitely don't

have the same goal.

From the beginning, him

and I had different goals,

which was fine.

And we knew that from

the very beginning.

He wanted to say this

as far as it could,

and I wanted to take it to where

we said we were going to go,

which was get the band

together, play a gig.

And that shit didn't happen.

We derailed from

the original band.

We're in some

parallel fucking plan.

I don't even know.

I don't even know what

the fuck we're doing.

This is a major

undertaking, man.

Who fucking makes a

movie about themselves

like this, number one,

and puts themselves

in a position where

they basically

have to acquire a fucking skill

in the middle of their life?

That's insane!

And that's where we are.

So that means what,

are you just interested

in taking a break from this?

Do you just want it to end?

What are you looking to do?

I cannot continue going in this

direction of nothing happening

and living the way that I am.

I can't do it anymore.

I'm not going to say

god, I wish we would

have done this differently.

I can't change that.

What I can change is

now looking forward,

and I just don't see

this going anywhere.

I think it's a failure.

When you first start off, it's

all for one and one for all.

And eventually, just

as people, we evolve,

and you sort of find yourself.

That's part of reality in bands.

I mean here you are

now, just two of you.

It's like a marriage times 100.

You there?

Yep.

I just got evicted,

so I got to figure out

what I'm going to do.

Stare,

all I do is stare...

I've got to figure out a plan.

Oh, fuck.

I've got a little

room and storage.

Not a whole lot, but...

I'm putting my stuff

in storage while I

try to find a place to live.

Whose storage?

Steve's storage.

Even my living

situation has changed,

so there's nothing I can really

do to help him at this point.

He was either going to

be living in his car,

or I have a spare

room, and I know

if I was in the

same situation, I

would hope somebody

would offer that to me.

So yeah, Kyle's upstairs.

I can admire somebody that

takes a risk like that,

because I known that there's

things that I would love be

doing right now that I'm not.

Eyes on fire one

way windows to the world.

Car payment's past due.

They shut off my phone.

I've got a couple of interviews

working... trying to get work.

It takes some guts to sacrifice

everything to fulfill a dream.

Ashes

fall like acid rain.

I've got to be accountable.

I put myself here, but I

had a plan, and the plan,

a just hasn't reached its end.

You never heard.

You never were alarmed.

And it has me wondering if all

of this was worth it at all.

We actually had this kind

of regular fan email us

and said that they wanted

to invest in the film, which

is the first actual investor.

Money is not everything

in this life,

so to help you guys

get to your dream,

and it took a little bit

of money to get there,

and then to have lifelong

relationships, that's awesome.

It's really exciting to hear

that you guys are doing this.

And I think if you

were interviewing

our entire industry, the

guys that make guitar amps,

and sell guitars.

We all wanted to be doing

what you're doing now.

You're the first person

that's come and tried

to do this with

Peavey, and I think

it's exciting, quite frankly.

In ear monitor system.

So we should have two heads,

four straight cabinets,

two AT-200 guitars,

two acoustic guitars.

Nice.

Good stuff.

Oh, it's definitely on now.

Let's just hear that

part again coming out

of that second chorus.

Steve and I both agree that

the most important thing

that we're going to

do at this juncture

is to make a record happen.

Until you have that,

you're not going

to get anybody that's going

to want to be in your band

until they know what

kind of music are you?

Because what are you

going to tell them?

We're a rock metal band.

There's 6,000 of those.

Can't find a guitar player

or can't find a bass player?

Go hire somebody

that's good that you

like that he plays his ass off.

So what you're saying is you're

not ready to commit to our band

just yet?

Not until I hear some music.

You want to hear...

Not until I hear some music.

All right.

We have had it, as

part of our plan

for a long time, that Ron Keel

was going to produce our album.

Ron texted me last night with

the dates. he got us a studio,

and is just working on a

couple of other details,

but it looks like it's a go.

In terms of making the project,

in terms of making an album,

I will take whatever you've got,

whether it's material, music,

money, time, and

make the most of it.

Welcome to Cedar City, Utah.

Just make sure you're

very well prepared.

And if you're not, it'll

bite you in the ass.

Just make sure whatever

you're recording man, that you

can reproduce it live, because

a lot of people go to shows

and they go man,

this is not the band

that I just listened to

on the way to the concert.

Do not let the studio

intimidate you.

Go in there.

Rock and roll is not

about perfection.

Rock and roll is about flaws.

That's where some of the

great stuff comes from.

As a friend of mine

told me, have fun.

If it's not about having fun,

then it's stupid, really.

So I'm going to try to have fun.

I'm going to do the best I can.

I'm going to have fun.

Yes, I practiced.

Fuck.

I'm drunk.

If it stops being fun,

then it doesn't matter.

This is where we'll

track the drums,

and we'll be in here

with them, headphones,

tracking together as a band.

You're going to love Les,

Les Warner from The Cult

on drums for this session.

Not only has he got platinum

and gold on the wall,

he's got a platinum

heart as well.

Great groove, and

does his homework.

Always has a great attitude

and a smile, but he's fearless.

Check, check, check, done.

Talk back mic.

Let's carve this track.

"Gone Again".

Leave the space open.

1, 2...

That's all the click we need.

Wrong chord.

Sorry.

Yeah.

Quarter notes will

be kicked out.

Once we come in after

the second accent,

quarter notes on the kick.

Again.

Again, we've got to watch

the timing of the guitars.

Yeah.

I'm getting lost.

A little bit in front.

It was a little bit in front.

I'm getting lost.

That's all.

Can't get lost.

This isn't rock and

roll fantasy camp.

We're in the studio

making a master here.

This is what you guys have

staked your whole career on,

and come back, and gone through

all this sweat, and muscle,

and blood to achieve.

You guys can't

just bail on us like this!

Yeah, man.

We came in too early.

It's not your take.

It's his take!

I know, but I'm

getting lost, Ron.

If he's fucking

rocking, we don't stop!

Pick it back up!

Don't bail on us!

We're trying to get

you a take here!

I understand.

All right.

If he doesn't fuck

up, we don't stop!

And we're going to

delete that take,

and then we're going

to start again.

Here, punch in.

Play along.

We'll punch in from

one in the breakdown,

because it's all

good up to there.

It's good.

That's good.

It's good.

It's good!

Ahhh!

So I feel it.

This is the one!

If we'd rehearsed, we would

just come in and bang it out.

Yeah.

But when you're

changing things up,

it tends to sort of... it'll

take a little bit longer,

but the main thing is

is you get the results

at the end of the

day that you want.

You improve on it,

you know what I mean?

How'd it go?

We've never really been in

that type of environment,

and then we're playing with

a professional drummer.

And it just... I don't know.

I mean we got by, but it

took a long, long time.

You're the first drummer that

we've played with together

since 1987.

Really?

Yeah.

What band were you in in 1987?

I was with The Cult. Yeah.

That's what I was doing in '87.

And getting laid lots.

So what's changed since '87?

Nothing.

All right.

Well, here we are, and this

is all about the music.

The first step is laying down

these solid rhythm guitars.

You've got to play

with the drums.

Les Warner did a great job

giving us a very strong

foundation to build upon.

So play with the drums.

Have fun with it.

Don't be afraid to be

fearless, a little reckless.

But also, you've

got to be precise.

Let's do this, brother.

1, 2...

Old, my

head, it's broken.

New words barely spoken.

Nothing matters in the end.

You guys liked that.

You liked that.

I don't know.

I like it too.

You're a fucker, man.

All the

feeling is gone again.

That's money.

OK.

I think so.

Give me the untied

again, the first word,

untied... Untied.

Untied memories.

Oh, yeah.

Check that.

Give it to me one more time.

I want enunciation.

I want to make sure I

know what you're saying.

You're going to feel this.

Take it back to the inspiration

where you wrote the song.

The final scene

to play out on the screen.

I'm keeping that.

There's some great stuff there.

I'm going to give you

another shot at it.

Rewind the reel!

Let's listen to this take, then

we'll start stacking harmonies.

Shattered

reflections in the lens.

Now, you're gotta

match that lead vocal

in every possible way.

All the

feeling is gone again.

You're gonna do that again.

Indeci...

No!

All the...

Feeling...

This is some very

ambitious shit.

Keep in mind, if I'm mixing this

thing, if Tom and I are mixing

this thing tomorrow

and it doesn't work,

we're not using it.

We're burying it, all right?

A producer is really

important, because he's

taking charge of everything.

He's not going to

let anything go

way beyond what it needs to be.

If it's what you want, it's

your vision, that's cool.

Execute it for me.

We'll record it.

We're just recording it.

I'm just telling you

we've got to sing in key.

And we've got to be in the right

phrasing, and the right notes,

and the right phrasing.

I'm not dissing the parts,

but it's got to sound good.

It's got to match.

The producer is also a

fresh pair of outside ears,

because everybody in the band

is so personal to their music.

The lead vocal is great.

And now we're killing

it by stacking stuff

on top of it that's out

of time and out of key.

So sing it in time,

and sing it in key.

I wish I would have known

that before we got here,

and I would have changed it.

But it's in my head, because

that's the way that I wrote it.

If you're not willing

to kill somebody

over what you believe in,

then you're not involved,

invested in what you're

doing in the first place.

That doesn't mean

you're not wrong.

We've been here 12 hours.

I don't want to do it.

I want to do the octave now.

I don't want to go

through this anymore.

Take a breath.

Let's focus and get this done.

OK.

We can't leave here...

25 to 30 octave,

and I'm going to do

a harmony on the "stare" part

on line 30, and that's it.

That's how we're

going to play it.

No.

We're going to play it how I

say we're going to play it,

because you are paying

me to make the call.

And I understand

that, but you're

asking to do something

I obviously can't do.

I feel a record's

done when everyone

can't talk to anybody

anymore, like when you hate

each other, when there is just

if you even see each other,

you want to choke

each other to death.

That, to me, is a

sign of like, OK.

We're probably in a good spot.

Remember when.

Oh whoa Oh whoa Oh whoa Oh whoa

When the tears are

gone, it's time to cry.

Don't you say a word.

Just say goodbye to me.

Goodbye means goodbye

lasts forever.

Yeah, goodbye to me means

goodbye lasts forever.

Goodbye to me means

goodbye Lasts forever.

All the feeling is gone again.

Gone again.

Untied memories will fall again.

Fall again.

The negatives were blown up.

Now you finally must own up to...

All the feeling is gone again.

Gone again.

It's gone again.

Gone again.

Rewind the reel!

Come here.

Man, I'm so proud of you.

Thanks.

That was amazing.

You've come so far.

You never gave out.

I'm just proud of you.

Thanks.

Well now that we do

have a tangible product,

I think the idea is

just to get in front

of as many people as possible.

The key to getting people

to play music with us

is getting them to

listen to the music.

That's the reason why we went

into the studio on our own

was to be able to present that.

I think the

formation of the band

is going to be

dependent on that music.

This whole thing that

we've been trying

to do with the culmination

is to put together

a band to do for us,

a significant gig,

and mark it off on

the bucket list.

We're trying to put

a band together,

and so we're

basically going to go

throw the shit against the wall,

and this is a little sampler

of what we did.

This is you guys?

We went and did this, man.

This is all a sample of some

of the music we've been doing.

We want to give that to you,

and my phone number's on there.

And if you like what you hear

and you're looking for a side

project, give us a call.

OK.

Is that what this

interview just turned into?

You scrounge around

for musicians?

I think maybe you want

to listen to the music

first and say whether...

Well, it's not so

much the music.

How much money...

Do you pay?

I think for the most part,

people will like the music,

because it does have a lot of

the elements of the genre we

grew up listening to.

It definitely sounds

throwback, like '80s,

but it's very dark '80s too.

It's like Bon Scott

and Ronnie James Dio

had a love child who wants

to go out and set fire

to school buildings.

You get

away with murder,

and now I'm falling

for your crime.

Your Crime is my fave

because it's a rocker,

and it's

You went hair metal,

that was hair metal.

You guys were able to capture

that mid-'80s style metal sound

without sounding dated.

You could take that

song, and fine tune it,

and it would sound

like a radio hit.

I was really shocked.

It was pretty fucking great.

People aren't expecting

a whole lot from us, man.

And to have them be so

surprised and go wow.

He got a good

performance out of you.

I've never heard you

sound that good vocally.

Thanks, man.

Gordon surprised me with

his positive attitude,

because I don't expect a

positive attitude from Gordon.

I mean, let's face it.

I honestly thought that

was you playing the lead.

I was like well, he definitely

got pretty damn good.

It sounds like it needs a lot

of work in the songwriting

department to me.

It sounds, for lack of

a better term, generic.

I know that not everybody

is going to love what we do.

I mean, music is

really subjective.

It reaches you, or it doesn't.

If you would have gave

us a different answer

a while back of

joining up with us,

could you have seen yourself

playing stuff like this?

Uhhhhh.

OK.

So what do you want

to work on, man?

Talk to me.

Let's just go through the songs.

So Tony came back

into the picture.

Hey.

This is Tony.

Leave a message, and

I'll get back to you.

We hugged it out first off,

and I pulled him aside.

And before I could utter a

word he's like man, I'm sorry.

I had just moved to

Denver, and I just

hadn't had my life

sorted out yet.

And it's a year

later, and now I do.

Yeah, let's rock.

OK.

I have no doubt that he's going

to follow through on this.

He's excited.

I'm telling you right now.

I texted Tony this morning

to give him directions

to the rehearsal studio,

and oh, I can't make it.

The cancellation thing...

It can't happen anymore.

So once again, Tony didn't

work out, which really sucks.

Get caught up

later though, huh?

Yeah.

This thing is fucking falling

apart before it's even started,

and I don't get it.

Through all the twists and

turns that we've gone through

and the ups and downs, it's

a huge crossroads right

now of what's next.

We know what we want to be next.

We got to bring all

the pieces together,

and we've got to do a gig.

Getting that to happen has

proven harder than it sounds.

Eric, Kyle Kruger calling.

Who is this?

I just wanted to check in with

you, see if there was any news.

At the tone, please

record your message.

The guy said he was

going to call me Friday.

He's never even responded to me.

It's a done deal.

They want it to happen.

We'll make this happen.

I'm going to make this happen.

You can count us in, man.

We're going to have a gig.

It's going to happen.

We don't have a gig.

Damn it.

If you're passionate

about it, you'll always

find a way to make it work.

Money doesn't matter.

Hardships don't matter.

It's all about the journey.

If you've called me up and said

hi, we've never played before,

but we're really good, and

here's our CD, I'll say great.

Let me know when you've

been playing around

for a couple years.

Give me a call again

some other time,

because you're not going

to be able to create

a draw if you haven't played.

Chances of you guys

getting to play Dallas,

and Portland, and Denver, and

Minneapolis, and New York,

and New Jersey,

cards are massively

stacked against you that you're

not going to get to do that.

Chances of you guys getting

to go on tour in a tour bus?

Not going to happen.

Three guys at a Shoney's

on a Tuesday night acoustic

wouldn't be your dream gig.

You want to go play in Europe?

It's not going to happen.

So you're going to let us

be your opening act then?

Probably not.

No.

I get asked all the time,

can we open for you guys?

I don't know them.

Have to go research the

sound, look at the band.

I haven't got time for that.

Yeah.

So that's a no then?

We're damned if we do, and

we're damned if we don't.

We don't have a

band without a gig.

We don't have a

gig without a band.

What do we do to get ourselves

prepared for when this happens?

Because I'm not looking at

it if it doesn't scenario.

I'm looking at the when it does.

Let's talk about what

do you want to do

and what we can provide.

It was the phone call

we've been waiting for.

Do you know what I'm

saying... forever.

I'd love to have you.

I love what you're doing.

I think that's awesome.

And it takes so much

courage... not just the idea,

but everything else you'd

have to do with that.

So is this going to happen?

I think so, yeah.

Oh, shit.

I guess I better practice.

It has been three weeks

since the conversation first

took place, and we've

heard nothing back.

We still have not

received a confirmation,

and we still have not

received a confirmation.

Nothing, not a word.

We haven't heard

anything from anybody.

Since I have not heard no,

and I'm still e-mailing.

It's been five weeks since

we've had any contact.

We haven't heard

back from anybody.

It ain't happening.

So I'm holding out

hope that we're somehow

going to end up on that

boat, and that we're

going to do that gig.

I've got to start working

on a Plan B, just in case.

What do you think the viability

of booking a serious gig?

Maybe an undercard.

You see that?

Sure.

Yep.

I see no reason why not.

So we have a show

with no band yet.

He's like, look.

He goes you can

bring in people, I'll

make you guys direct

support, meaning he'll

put us on right before Jake.

Its opening for Jake E. Lee.

Oh, we're in.

It's our gig, man.

So we're recruiting a band.

We're getting guys together.

We're working on

filling out that lineup.

Got a guy by the name

of Scott Parker who

has been pretty diligent about

wanting to be attached somehow.

He's a bass player.

So he went out and found

this guy, Rich Carlson who

is purported to be one

of the best drummers

in the state of Colorado.

But the name of the band...

Is there a name for a band?

So we landed on a band name.

It's called Bullet

In The Chamber.

Bullet In The Chamber.

That sounds like a

Pantera heavy band.

Yeah.

So yeah.

Bullet In The Chamber is going

to open for Jake E. Lee's Red

Dragon Cartel here in Denver.

If there's an upside to

doing this gig locally now,

Steve and I are at least going

to be able to rehearse and get

our act together.

Off to band practice.

That's a phrase I haven't

uttered in over 25 years.

So all four of us are getting

together to see how it goes.

And then if everybody's

comfortable with each other,

then we're going

to move forward,

and these guys will

be part of the lineup

that we field for this

gig with Jake E. Lee.

All right, man.

I don't think we took

that long though.

We can't go outside

for a guitar player.

We've got to find

somebody who's here.

And then we found Stu.

Killer local guitar player.

Has a great reputation

around town.

So now we have

the band together.

We've just got to

learn the songs.

2, 3, 4.

Our challenge now is

that now that we're

getting ready to play,

we have a limited window

in which to execute this.

Since we're going to

start again, let's

identify parts

with it, all right?

And it goes eight times.

It stays on the A.

You guys are going

to all go to 3/4?

Yeah.

Trying to hang in there, man.

I'm hoping it's going to go OK.

I think with just a

couple more rehearsals,

we should be ready to go.

Think we're going

to pull it off?

We're going to have to, right?

Well, after not playing

for 25 years, let me see.

What are you going to be in for?

You have to really

dig down deep,

and you have to really

get it together,

or else you're going

to come out on stage,

and you're going to suck.

And then that's going to

be the worst thing ever.

It's going to be

complete insanity.

Nothing but insanity.

That's what they

have to do, right?

Yeah.

Wait a minute.

You've got to tap your

foot when you play.

Sure.

And bob your head

just a little bit.

Yeah.

Feel the groove.

Yeah, because you want

everybody in the audience

tapping their foot.

Oh, I'm giving them advice?

Yes, advice.

The whole thing's

advice for them.

It has nothing to do with us.

See, I didn't know that.

My expectations for

this gig, the biggest

stage possible, in front

of the biggest audience,

with the biggest

PA, and the biggest

lights that we can muster.

Check, check.

1, 2, 3, check.

Is it time for lunch yet?

What time does

catering get here?

Does the food come?

Is it pizza?

Or what did we get, sandwiches?

Well, I think we want to

play in front of some people,

first and foremost.

We don't want to be at the

dive bar down the street.

That's not what this is about.

We're going to do great.

It's going to be awesome.

All right.

Some things only

happen once in life.

First things, last

things, and these things.

So please, give me a warm Denver

welcome Bullet In The Chamber!

So you

think I'm not afraid.

You think I've got it made.

And all the things you hate

mean everything to me.

Try to live inside

your world but then

nobody told me about

the feeling was so strange.

So strange.

As the light, it fades away,

and the night won't turn to day,

I hold my head down in my hands.

Why can't I see?

I don't understand.

You didn't know how far to go

You tell me nothing's wrong.

Just leave you alone.

Leave you alone!

Then you you cry me a river

while you hold my

head down under.

When the light fades away,

and the night won't turn to day,

I hold my head down in my hands.

Why can't I see?

I don't understand.

As our time, it wastes away,

and there's nothing left to say.

I hold my head down in the sand.

Why can't I breathe?

I don't understand.

Tell you

nothing's wrong.

Just leave me alone.

Two guys living their dream.

You and Steve doing your

thing, and even if it was just

for little glimmer

in the spotlight,

it was still you guys doing

it, and that's pretty bad ass.

Monsters of Rock Cruise,

how are you doing?

Woo!

My name is Kyle Kruger, and

this is my buddy, Steve McClure,

and we're making a film

called Hair I Go Again.

And basically,

it's a documentary

about us hitting that

mid-life crisis and deciding,

you know what, man?

Let's go play some music

instead of working regular jobs

and see if we can pull it off.

So here we are.

All the

feeling is gone again.

Just don't suck, man.

Yep.

Oh well god, that's the key.

Bullet In The Chamber on three.

All right, man.

1, 2, 3.

Bullet In The Chamber!

Gone Again

Rewind the reel!

Thanks, guys.

If you can take two

people and put them

as far apart on the polar

spectrum as you can get them,

that would be you and Kyle.

What's it like to finally get to

this point with your old buddy,

McClure, who you guys have been

through hell and back with?

Love him like a brother, but

ready for a long vacation.

Since we're in New Orleans, I

bought a voodoo doll in hopes

that I can get it to keep

Kyle quiet for five minutes.

So there have been

times when I'm just

like, I don't understand

how these two can possibly

have been friends this long.

I'm going to have to cut off

the sleeves though on the shirt

to make it like Kyle.

Stare, all I do

is stare.

Can't you see the

fire in my eyes?

Everynight I see your fate

so scarred and in decay.

Breathing your last breath

when smoke gets in the way.

Can't escape from my

eyes, no you cant hide.

Everywhere you

turn I'll be there.

Tell me now who's loathing most

and all I'll do...

All I'll do is stare!

Eyes on fire.

Broken windows to a soul.

Suffer the burns of a

lie again.

Eyes on fire.

Ashes fall but who's to blame?

We both conspired,

when we should have healed,

But all we did was harm.

And everywhere I turn,

there's something in the air.

I can't explain.

I need the heat

to feed the pain.

It goes on and on and on.

Eyes on fire.

Stained glass windows

save us all.

I suffered the burns of a lie,

again and again and again.

Eyes on fire.

Ashes fall lit up in flames.

I tripped the wire,

couldn't stand the pain.

And now I lay disarmed.

Eyes on fire.

Stare, all I do is stare.

Yeah.

Can't you see the fire?

Can't you see the

fire in my eyes?

Can't you see the

fire in my eyes?

Can't you see the fire?

All right ready?

We are ready.

Ahhhhh!

Shit.

Hair I Go Again (2015) - full transcript