Dragonfly (2002) - full transcript
Dr. Joe Darrow is a recently widowed doctor. He is grieving due to the death of his pregnant wife in a Red Cross mission in Venezuela. Although being atheist, he began to believe that his dead wife wants to communicate with him, through her young patients in the Pediatrics of a Chicago hospital.
Don't tell me
about my visa!
My wife is stuck
in that hellhole,
and l am getting
on that plane!
lt's bad, Joe.
They're evacuating
the villages.
The roads are washed out.
We're hearing gunfire now.
Can you -- can you
get to Calamar?
Can you get across
the border to Colombia?
They're putting us
on the bus.
l don't know where
they're taking us.
Joe?
Joe?!
Emily?!
Em--
Aaah !
Aah!
Emily Darrow
was not just a doctor
and a credit
to the medical profession ,
she was a healer
and a credit to the human race.
Those who knew her
were changed by her,
inspired by her commitment
to give literally everything
of herself,
which is why we're
gathered here today,
to celebrate this unique life
not so much taken from us
as given to us.
From her colleagues
at the university
to her young patients
here in Chicago Memorial's
pediatric-oncology ward,
she will be sorely missed.
We're told in medical school
that the face
of an emergency-room doctor
is the last thing
a lot of people will ever see.
l've tried
to keep that in mind
when l see those frightened
eyes staring out at me.
But l don't know
what Emily saw,
what image
she took with her,
if there was
a compassionate face
or she died
in a world of chaos,
and that l don't know this
haunts me.
The divers saw inside, seńor.
There is no one alive.
Then where is she?
Where's her body?
We are searching the
shoreline and jungle now,
but the bus is under
1 0 feet of water.
The river runs at
1 7 miles an hour, seńor.
There is nothing
you can do.
Por favor, go home.
l'm not going anywhere,
not till this is over.
l assure you , seńor...
it's over.
Call me when you have
something. Yes.
-- No vitals, no pulse.
-- Put him in E.R. 3
on the left.
-- What are you doing here?
-- l was paged .
What do we have?
Wasn't this morning
your wife's memorial service?
There's nothing l can do
for her, okay,
except keep anyone
from joining her.
-- Now, what do we have?
-- 6-car pileup.
1 1 injuries --
4 went over to County,
and 6 are coming here.
-- All right, let's go.
-- Watch your back.
All right, stay with me.
How extensive?
Third degree --
40% , maybe 50% .
-- Couldn't tube him?
-- Airway's crushed .
Couldn't do a cric.
Pronounce him .
Hit the windshield .
All right,
that's a blowout fracture.
Get a C.T.
Find out what else he's got.
What's this?
O.D., attempted suicide.
All right,
give her to Simon .
l'm interested in people
who want to live tonight.
What's her term?
She hit
the steering wheel .
How pregnant?
Anybody know?
She looks no more
than six months to me.
Well , she's souring .
Let's get it out.
At six months?
lt might have a chance
but not in there.
Look at her color.
lt's still got
a heartbeat.
Let's get it out of there.
This requires
a consultation , Joe.
Yeah , and let's order
out for pizza while
we're at it. Move!
There's a procedure
in place for terminating
a pregnancy, Joe.
l'm not terminating
a pregnancy, l'm delivering
a baby.
Get prenatal
down here now.
lt was the right call .
Delivering a technically
unviable fetus by
cesarean section
without consultation or
permission of the mother --
Who was dead .
Not officially.
The baby's alive, Hugh .
l'm concerned , Joe.
So is the rest of the staff.
You refused to treat
a suicide today.
l passed her on to Simon .
As though she were
unworthy of you .
Can we discuss this
tomorrow?
Since Emily's death ,
you have been working
around the clock,
2 4-hour shifts, l'm told ,
7 days a week.
Think l'm losing my edge?
Just the opposite --
it's getting too sharp.
You're starting to cut
people around here.
You need time off.
You need to grieve.
-- l need to grieve?
-- Mm-hmm.
l am serious, Joe.
Take that time off.
Was it you
who reported me. . .
passing on the suicide?
How's she doing?
She's waiting for a bed
on the psych ward .
Why did you do this
to me?
Do what to you?
Bring me back.
Where were you going?
Someplace better.
ls that right?
l'll do it again, too.
lt's all l want now.
Well , unfortunately,
your heart disagrees.
lt's waged quite a battle
tonight.
No one knows my heart.
Maybe that's why
it's still beating . . .
to give somebody
a chance to.
Let me tell you
about that ''better place''
you think
you're going to.
You better be damn sure
it's there,
'cause crappy
as this place is,
it's all there is.
So go ahead ,
be my guest...
but when you never
wake up again ,
don't say
l didn't warn you .
Hi , Father.
Time for a rebuttal?
''And on her footfall,
''in the rustle of leaves,
''her whisper on the wind ,
she speaks from a place
beyond mortal pain .''
Hey, look who's here.
Joe!
-- Hey, you!
-- Nice timing !
You're just in time
to finish the toast.
Here, pour him a beer.
Linda, can l have
another one, please?
Hey, Joe,
''Rachel in Heaven'' --
remember that poem,
third-year lit class?
Remember?
Yeah .
To Emily.
-- To Emily.
-- Emily.
How are things
in the hospital?
You know, l don't know
why we try so hard
to save them
if they've got such
a wonderful place to go
like ''Rachel in Heaven .''
Well,
that's where Emily is.
You can bet on that.
lf anyone deserved
to go there, it was her.
-- Hear, hear.
She was the best of us.
-- The best of us.
l don't know what the hell
she saw in you, though .
Lord knows l tried for years
to talk her out of it.
She was the best of us,
and l have no idea
what she saw in me.
She saw
the second best of us.
Come on, you guys
were a great team.
She was the heart,
you were the mind .
Together,
you were unbeatable.
Where are you , Joe?
Nowhere.
l'm gonna go.
-- Aw, come on , man .
-- Please, stay.
-- You just got here.
Like you said , Eric,
l'm a mind without a heart.
Joe, come on.
Joe, l --
that's not --
Don't leave, Joe.
Buddy, that is not
what l meant.
l know
you didn't mean that,
but you were right on ,
buddy,
and l love you anyway --
all of you .
Thank you for coming
today.
See ya.
Hey, doc.
Hey, Miriam .
Sorry l missed the service.
l didn't want to cough
all over everybody.
Was it nice?
l guess.
l couldn't handle it.
Well , then you're not gonna
do too good with this.
They needed somebody
to sign for it.
l didn't want to leave it
out in the rain .
lt's a toy company
in Texas.
That'll teach her
to shop the lnternet.
Yeah , that'll teach her.
You'd think
a professor of law
could be more precise
with her language.
lt's all right.
You have a good night.
Hey, l saw through
the kitchen window
Bigbird
didn't eat again .
Should he go
back to the vet?
The vet said Bigbird
will outlive us all .
Hey, Joe, it's Hal.
l forgot to tell you --
we are going on that
white-water trip.
You got to come, Joe.
Don't leave me alone
with these guys.
l sent you a packet, okay?
-- See you, buddy.
-- Love you.
Sound good , Bigbird?
Want to go rafting
with my old college chums?
Nice to see you , too.
Why is that funny?
l just don't picture you
with a beak, l guess.
Well, all right.
Well , then just imagine
soaring around with me
up there, flying .
-- lf you do,
you're on your own .
-- Why?
Because eagles eat
bunny rabbits.
l'm a vegetarian .
-- ln your next life, too?
-- Yes.
Do you mean if you got
a chance to come back,
you'd want to be
earthbound again?
No.
l'll fly around
with you up there,
but you know
what l'm gonna be.
Yeah , but. . .
if l'm a bird
and you're an insect. . .
Yeah?
How are we gonna. . .
you know. . .you know?
We'll just have to do
enough of that
in this lifetime to
make up for the next 1 0.
l'm going
because l have to, Joe,
because it's who l am ,
who we are,
what we dedicated
our lives to.
Oh , for God sakes, Emily,
you're pregnant.
We addressed this, Joe,
when we first met,
that we'd pack our
kids in on our backs
if we had to
to show them what was
important, to teach
them our values.
lt was naive, Emily,
all right?
lt was naive.
Our values?
l'm needed there, Joe,
and l'm going . . .
. . .whether you choose to
or not.
So, this thing
was a paperweight?
Yes.
lt was a present l gave her
for Valentine's Day.
lt's got to weigh
half a pound ,
and it was squarely --
l mean squarely --
on the bedside table
when l went to sleep.
So what are you saying?
l don't know.
Nothing , l guess.
Just that. . .
dragonflies
were sort of her thing ,
you know,
like a personal totem .
You know, how lndians
have buffalo heads
or tiger heads or hawks.
Hers was a dragonfly.
She even had this small
birthmark on her shoulder
that kind of looked
like one.
She said her grandfather
had one, too, on his --
on his butt.
lt's called
familial hemangioma.
l once skunked
an entire graduating class
by putting it
on a final exam .
Dr. Fitzgerald, you have
a visitor in the main lobby.
And when she was alive,
l had to scour
for anything l could find
with a dragonfly on it
to buy her a present.
Now -- now l see them
everywhere.
There was one --
there was one bouncing
against my office window
yesterday,
a real one.
Last night,
a package arrived
she had bought
over the lnternet --
a mobile to put
on the baby's crib
of dragonflies.
And then
this thing last night
with the paperweight.
You know what l think?
l think you are literally
going buggy
living in that house.
Yeah , you should move.
You're rummaging around
in an empty nursery.
You're living
with a talking parrot
who won't even speak
to you?
Never would .
Never liked me.
Would only talk to Emily.
She even taught it
to announce her arrival
when she came in the door.
Honey. . .honey, l'm home.
You ought to sell
that thing , Joe,
get rid of it.
l'm stuck with it.
l promised her
l'd keep it forever,
and l put a provision
in my will
that if anything
ever happened to me,
someone l trusted
would take care of it.
Would you?
Would you?
Oh , no, it's your promise,
buddy, it's not mine.
l need to live up to
my promises to her.
That's one thing
l need to do.
Okay, fine.
Any other promises
that l should know about?
Just one, but l'm taking
care of that one myself,
starting . . .today.
Hi , Joe.
Hugh .
l was kind of hoping
that you took
our conversations seriously.
l did .
l convinced Joe to take
a couple of months off
with all that's happened,
right, Joe?
l promised Emily
l'd look in on her kids
on the oncology ward
while she was gone
and never did .
l thought this might be
a good day.
After six months,
on oncology?
l'm not sure
how many are left,
but if it's for Emily,
fine.
Asshole.
You should get away,
Joe.
lsn't there someplace
you can go?
Dr. Bond to radiology.
Dr. Bond to radiology.
Dr. Johnson to l. C. U.
Dr. Winston, report to
second-floor nurses' station.
Dr. Winston, report to
second-floor nurses' station.
Dr. Mace,
please call the O.R.
Dr. Mace,
please call the O.R.
Joe!
Joe!
Joe!
Joe!
Joe, can't you hear me?!
Joe!
Joe!
All right, hold CPR.
l'm getting nothing.
Continue it.
Shock him at 30.
-- Come on , Jeffrey,
hang in there, boy.
-- Keep it going .
Clear!
Still nothing.
Charging to 60.
-- Shock him .
-- Clear!
Nothing .
-- Go again .
-- He's not responding .
-- There's no pulse at all .
-- He's not coming back
this time.
Damn it, do it again !
Clear!
He's gone.
He's got a rhythm .
He's back! Jump on it!
He's coming back!
Yes, Jeffrey, yes!
-- Do you need to be here?
-- Put that O 2 mask on.
Clear the room , please.
Get me an E .K.G .
Doctor,
you'll have to leave.
Don't let him
pull out that l. V.
Jeffrey?
Jeffrey, can you hear me?
How's he look?
Pupils reactive?
l just came on.
What happened?
They're stabilizing him .
He flatlined ,
then his heart started again .
That's our Jeffrey.
His heart's stopped
more times
than anyone in the history
of medical science, l think.
He'll come out of there
with all kinds of stories
about who he met in the tunnel
and what they said .
Hi , l'm Dr. Darrow
from emergency.
l know who you are.
The hospital administrator
heard that you got in the way
in l .C.U . yesterday
and asked to be notified
if you came back here again .
The boy who was being
resuscitated last night,
um , Jeffrey. . .
Reardon .
Right. ls he --
is he still on the floor?
Mm-hmm . He was one
of your wife's favorites.
Actually,
that's why l'm here.
l promised l'd look in
on her kids,
but there don't seem to be
many left.
lt'd be great if you could
give me a little help,
maybe not put in
that call
to the hospital
administrator.
Between you and me,
doctor,
the hospital
administrator is --
how do l put it? --
l use the word
''asshole.''
That about captures it.
3 1 5.
He's a real trip.
You'll love him .
Thanks.
Hello.
Hi .
How's he doing?
Great.
Nice.
What is it?
l couldn't say.
Guess.
All right.
A crucifix made of jello?
Man , you're good .
He's good .
He hasn't stopped
drawing them
since he got out
of the l .C.U . yesterday.
So, what is it?
l don't know.
That's why l'm asking .
l just woke up
thinking about it.
l happened to be in
the l. C. U. yesterday,
Jeffrey.
l know.
l saw you in there.
You saw me in there?
Yeah . You came in through
the back of the room ,
standing over my bed .
You saw me
come over to your bed?
Pretty sure it was you ,
but the tie was different.
Jeffrey.
Could l ask --
We're not encouraged
to discuss these things.
There was a nun
on the ward
interviewing kids who'd had
near-death experiences,
Sister Madeline
from chaplain services.
Stirred up all kinds of trouble
for the hospital
when some of it appeared
on a TV tabloid show.
She never even
talked to me,
and l got the best near-death
experiences of anyone.
l'm allowed
a coffee break
if there's a doctor
with him .
ln spite of hospital policy,
l-l think they need
to talk about it.
You're scheduled
for a CAT scan , Jeffrey.
Don't go without me.
So, what are we talking
about here, Jeffrey?
What we shouldn't.
ln the l .C.U . yesterday,
when l approached your bed ,
it seemed to me
you were pretty --
l was flatlined .
Exactly.
So how could you
look up and see me?
Couldn't.
-- But you said --
-- l looked down.
-- You looked down?
-- From the ceiling .
That's where l was
when l saw you .
Okay.
Don't believe me?
Should l?
Ever see that little bald spot
on the top of your head?
Bend down here.
Come on,
bend down here.
Yeah , that was you .
Dr. Barclay...
Jeffrey,
do you know my name?
You look like a. . .
a William to me.
l'm a Joe.
Does it ring a bell?
Emily's Joe?
Joe Darrow.
l saw her yesterday,
too.
What do you mean , Jeffrey,
you saw her?
She was there.
Where?
All around me. . .
inside the rainbow. . .
the mist.
l was falling ,
falling through it. . .
u-until she caught me. . .
and brought me back up.
She kind of flew me.
She f-flew me out. . .
so l could come back. . .
and -- and tell somebody
something .
Tell what, Jeffrey?
To who?
Joe.
Tell me what, Jeffrey?
Tell Joe what?
lt was loud
in the rainbow,
like thunder in there.
Tell me what, Jeffrey?
l don't know.
You were calling my name.
Joe.
Joe!
Joe, can't you hear me?!
Joe!
All right.
-- Joe!
-- Jeffrey.
Joe!
Slow down.
Whoa, whoa.
Look at my eyes.
Look at my eyes.
Just breathe.
Just breathe
a little bit, okay?
What happened?
l'm fine.
We were --
He wanted to know
what happened yesterday.
Oh , his heart stopped
again .
l know.
l was there, actually.
He wanted to know
what happened while
it was stopped .
Oh . Telling one
of his tall tales again ,
trying to get on TV.
l'm gonna give him
a dust mop next time
so he can sweep the ceiling
while he's up there.
My daddy
don't believe me.
He do the bald spot
on you?
Yeah , it's. . .the --
lt don't work
on everybody,
just us bald guys, huh?
Pshew.
Yeah, he got me
with that one, too.
Dr. Ritzen, report to
second-floor nurses' station.
You had me going there,
Jeffrey.
lt was the truth.
You don't believe me?
Dr. Bock to radiology,
please.
Dr. Bock to radiology.
What if l do
remember. . .what she
wants to tell you?
Then
would you believe me?
Do you remember it?
lf you come back,
l might.
Uh, what who wants
to tell him?
His wife --
she wants me to tell
him something.
Probably take out
the trash , huh?
Dr. Johnson, call 499.
Dr. Johnson, call 499.
What?
He even had me believing
he saw my bald spot
from the ceiling ,
until l saw a mirror
behind my head .
We can thank mom for those
genes, right, dad?
Well , l hate to burst
your bubble, Joe,
but l can see your
bald spot from here.
Oh , Connie.
l think bald is sexy.
-- Really?
-- Yes.
l've got a parrot
might turn you on .
Are you still living with
that messy thing? Joe. . .
We're working
on our relationship.
ls it a talking parrot?
A listening parrot.
A bird
after my own heart.
That's what l do
for a living -- listen .
Really?
Gwyn's a grief
counselor, Joe.
That's why l thought
it might be a good idea
for you two to meet.
ls that right?
ln fact, l've heard
a lot of clients
talk about
the near-death experiences
of their loved ones,
how they wake up
talking about being
in a dark tunnel ,
moving toward the light.
And what's your thought
on it?
l'm just your parrot, Joe.
Just listening .
l can tell you as an eye
surgeon, it's all very simple.
The tunnel
is literal tunnel vision ,
and the white light
is the gradual bleaching out
of the optic screen .
As it grows bigger,
it would seem like you're
moving toward it.
How do you explain
their ability
to recall
what everyone said
around their deathbed
after they were
declared dead ,
to describe what the
doctors were wearing ,
down to the patterns
on their ties?
lt's the way
we measure death.
Obviously, the brain
is still functioning
on some subliminal level ,
soaking up all the last bits
of what's left
to hear and see.
That's what you get
for having dinner with
a family of doctors.
No discussion
about floating around
on the ceiling ,
-- no tunnel , no bright lights.
-- l guess not.
Next thing
they're gonna tell us --
there's no tooth fairy.
The funny thing is,
l thought l heard him
calling out for me --
this kid.
l heard his voice
calling ''Joe. ''
And when l introduced myself
to him,
he asked me
if l was Emily's Joe.
He said that Emily
was trying to reach me.
Do you believe she's trying
to reach you , Joe?
No, counselor, l don't.
l can give you an hour
for free.
Bye, Joe.
Do you want me to package
up dessert for you?
Sorry.
Use your phone?
Excuse me.
l am kind of busy
at the moment, yeah .
Well, isn't there anyone else
who can cover for me tonight?
All right, l understand.
l'll be right over.
l'm sorry.
l'd really like to stay --
No, you wouldn't.
lt's too threatening .
lt's about
unresolved issues
you're not ready
to deal with yet.
Guilt, anger
toward our loved ones --
that's why
we conjure up spirits,
from the Virgin Mary
to our dearly departed .
Because we need
to talk to them,
not the other way around .
You asked if l thought
she was trying to contact me,
and l never answered .
Let me answer now.
She was my ultimate partner,
my best friend and lover.
And l miss her
beyond belief.
l also know l'm never
gonna see her again ,
not ever.
And l'm just beginning
to understand what that
means so intensely
that l sometimes
wish l didn't have
to wake up anymore.
And the last thing l need
is someone telling me
what to feel ,
or how to feel .
Anger? Yeah .
Guilt? You bet.
But l don't need you
crawling up my ass
with a flashlight
to tell me about it.
Keep going , Joe.
This is what you need .
l'll drop you a check
in the mail .
Hi .
Hey.
What's your name?
Ben .
l'm Joe, Ben.
l know.
Just admiring
your artwork.
What is it?
She said
you should go there.
l'm sorry?
The lady.
The lady in the picture
down the hall .
She said you'd...
be coming to see me.
The nurse?
They said
she was a doctor here.
What doctor?
She wants you
to go there.
Go where?
l'm not -- l'm not sure
what you mean , Ben .
Go where?
l dreamed of her. . .
in the ambulance
when l came here.
Then . . .l saw her picture
in the hall .
You know,
the lady doctor...
in the picture
of the Easter party,
with the cake
on her nose.
Are you talking
about Dr. Darrow?
She died , l guess.
And you dreamed
of her?
She wants you to go there.
What do you mean?
Go where, Ben?
The rainbow.
That's a rainbow?
This --
this is a rainbow?
Have we met before, Ben?
l don't know.
How do you know who l am?
She showed me your face.
A picture?
ln my mind .
She said . . .
l have to come back
to tell you to go there.
To a rainbow?
Yes.
Well , how would l --
how would l do that, Ben?
-- Christine.
-- Mm-hmm?
-- The boy in 3 1 2 .
-- Ben?
Yes. Wh--
did he know my wife?
l don't think so.
l think he just came in
two weeks ago.
Yeah, on the 3rd, in a coma.
Septic shock.
Why, Joe?
Nothing .
Miriam, d--
t-the first kid --
he -- he calls my name.
l follow him into the l .C.U . ,
where he flatlines.
All right? Dies.
Then when
he's resuscitated ,
says he saw me
while he's floating
around the ceiling ,
and that Emily,
who he met in a rainbow,
sent him back
to tell me something .
Tell you what?
He doesn't remember.
But the next kid does.
You want jelly?
l got two kinds.
Are you taking me
seriously?
Yes!
ls strawberry okay?
What does it matter?!
Do you -- do you hear
what l'm telling you?!
l'm just trying to
focus on something
real here, Joe.
And you think
this isn't.
Doesn't sound it so far.
Listen to me, Joe.
After Hannah died ,
l -- l saw her everywhere.
She told me l'd know
she was watching over me
if l saw a daisy
growing out of the ground
with all the petals
missing except one.
We used to play
''she loves me,
she loves me not. ''
And one day, l saw an entire
field of one-petaled daisies.
Well , there you go.
How do you explain that?
l was delusional !
Well, l'm not, okay?
l had these conversations.
Aren't you the guy
that doesn't believe
in Heaven?
This isn't Heaven .
This is rainbows.
Oh .
And she wants you to join
her. . .inside a rainbow.
According to these kids,
that's accurate.
Well , according to me,
they're putting you on .
So you think
they're lying?
l'm a lawyer, Joe.
Nothing is real
without evidence.
Have you personally
had any experience with
Emily since her death?
And if so,
has it been documented?
You know the answer.
Of course l haven't.
And why haven't you?
Because l haven't gone
halfway to Heaven ,
and she has no way
of reaching me!
lt does sound nuts,
doesn't it?
Well , l wouldn't
employ you in my hospital
if l heard that.
And if l were you,
l'd stay away from there.
lsn't there somewhere
you can go?
l could go
on a white-water trip.
Just what l've always
wanted to see --
white water.
l'll take care
of Bigbird.
Get outta here.
Go see white water.
And get your head straight.
Wanna see?
They were the last things
she sent us.
Hmm .
Sorry to break it to you,
pal, but, uh...
She was cheating on you .
lt's just a bug , Bigbird . . .
attracted to the light.
Let's not get crazy here.
Honey, l'm home.
Honey, l'm home.
Uh !
Bigbird !
Bigbird , no!
Ah !
-- Hello?
-- Miriam?
Joe?
Miriam , listen to me.
The bird -- it's sick.
l had to leave it.
l'm on my way to the hospital.
Are you okay?
Actually, l'm not.
l feel . . .
l feel like
l'm losing my mind .
What can l do?
lt was acting
like it used to
when she'd come home.
l felt like
she was there. . .
in the house.
Jesus, Joe.
l don't know what to do
about the --
The bird?
l-l'll take care of it.
l'll wake up the vet
if l have to.
You just...
hang in there, okay?
All right. Thanks.
ls Jeffrey awake?
Uh, not a good idea
right now.
ls he in his room?
Visiting hours
aren't until 1 0:00, Joe.
Joe!
Joe.
Dr. Stanford...
...report to emergency please.
Dr. Martin...
Joe, there was some talk
around here
l think
you should know about.
Where is he --
Jeffrey?
He's downstairs,
getting blood work.
His nurse --
is she with him?
Would you just listen to me
for a minute, please?
She said there was a nun
on the ward
interviewing kids about
near-death experiences.
Sister Madeline.
Do you know where she is?
She's no longer
employed here, Joe.
And do you know why?
Because she overstepped
her bounds.
Where is she employed?
Would -- would
chaplain services know?
Could you leave us alone
for a minute?
Dr. Horner...
please pick up extension 1 1 7.
Dr. Horner, extension 1 1 7.
What are you doing , Joe?
You know what l'm doing .
All right?
-- You gave me permission . . .
-- To look in on Emily's kids.
That was two days ago,
and from what l've heard ,
you haven't left since.
l told you ,
l promised my wife --
That you'd upset them?
Jeffrey's cardiologist saw
the readout on his E .K.G .
from 2:30
yesterday afternoon,
and he was damned upset
that your visit
put him under
that kind of stress.
What is going on , Joe?
The bird's okay.
He will outlive us all .
l tried to clean up
some of the mess
in there --
overturned lamp,
broken vase.
You didn't have to do
all that.
l didn't do all that.
l left some of it. . .
to discuss with you .
That weird picture you told
me the kids were drawing,
the wiggly cross?
ls it the kids
drawing it, Joe?
Or is it you?
'Cause if you did this,
you need some help.
lt's all over
the windows, too.
Watch the bird for me,
will you?
Excuse me.
Excuse me, l'm looking
for Sister Madeline.
-- ls that --
-- May l ask
what this is about?
lt's personal .
ls that her?
You'll have to call the office
for an appointment.
Excuse me!
-- Sir.
-- Sister Madeline?!
Sir!
Sister Madeline?!
Could l speak to you?!
Sir!
Please?!
Sister Madeline?!
Please, are you Sis--
Please...are you
Sister Madeline?
This is private property.
You are trespassing .
l know. l tried to call .
l'm sorry.
Chaplain --
chaplain services
only gave me an address.
He'll call the police.
Please.
J-Just five minutes.
You people have done
enough damage.
You don't understand !
You don't!
No more journalists.
No more interviews.
l'm not a journalist.
l'm a...
l'm a doctor.
Head of -- l'm head
of emergency services
at Chicago Memorial
hospital.
Joe Darrow.
-- Emily's Joe?
-- Yes.
That's why l need
to talk to you !
l need to know
about your work.
l've called the police.
l'd advise you to leave.
lt's all right.
He's not a journalist.
He's still trespassing.
l'm sorry. l ju--
We agreed to hire
Sister Madeline
with the understanding
that her presence here
wouldn't cause
any disturbances.
Sister.
Yes, sir.
The police respond quickly.
l'd advise you to leave.
You have business
at the school , sir?
l beg your pardon?
Step over here, please.
He's at 3rd and Western.
1 480, 1 480.
2 5 on site, too.
1 0-4.
1 380, 6 1.
1 380, 6 1.
Detective for 1 3 Sector 6.
Unit 26...on site.
And l realized that,
in an age when no one
believes in miracles anymore,
l was witnessing miracles
every day.
And the pediatric
oncology ward
was the perfect laboratory
to study it --
the near-death experience.
Being kids,
they were more open
to what happens
on the other side.
You're convinced it's not
just in their minds?
''Just in their minds''?
What we're experiencing
right now
could be just
in your mind .
You're a doctor
because you dreamed
of being one, right?
You . . .imagined that
for yourself.
lf we can create this world
with what we imagine,
why not the next?
S-So you're saying
belief --
Gets us there.
Did Emily believe?
Because
l think she got there.
l believe she's trying
to contact me.
Two kids have seen her.
One was flatlined ,
another in a coma.
ln the tunnel?
ln a rainbow. . .
trying to tell me something ,
something urgent.
But l don't know what.
And they -- they. . .
they draw this
after they've. . .
after they've seen her.
Have you ever seen
this before?
No.
l don't know.
Am l -- am l
just going nuts?
As nuts
as Christopher Columbus,
thinking there was
another side to the Earth .
Talk to an anesthesiologist.
They'll tell you .
There are 1 00 steps on
the ladder of consciousness
between being fully alert
and being dead.
To put a patient under,
they bring them down
only to the 1 0th rung.
Beneath that is
a descending gray scale,
like the depths of
an ocean no one has explored .
lt's in those depths,
those murky depths,
she's finding them --
the children .
They're her conduit
because she knew
you'd find your way to them .
Stay close to them .
Be with them
when they slip away
so you can be with them
when they first awaken ,
before the details fade.
One of them will come
back with the answer.
Careful, careful.
Okay, let's go.
Watch the back.
-- Release form?
-- l'll get it.
-- Thank you .
-- Thank you .
-- Take him to 2 1 5?
-- Yeah .
-- Down on the right.
-- Careful when you transfer.
Okay, watch your line here.
Hook him up to the ventilator
once you get inside.
All right.
l'll get the monitor.
This is Jeanette
in nephrology.
l need to speak
to Dr. Dickinson, please.
-- Monitors are ready.
-- Dr. Darrow!
Yes, it is an emergency.
No, l can't hold.
Keep me on the line.
Dr. Dickinson?
We've got a healthy kidney
up here.
Just Dr. Darrow.
Joe.
-- Yeah?
-- Joe, l'm on my way over
to harvest a kidney,
and l want you
to protect it for me.
Tell me what to do.
All right, they're coming
in for other organs,
but that kidney is mine.
l want that made clear
in case anybody choppers
in and tries to grab it.
Stay on top
of his vitals.
Don't leave the room
and hold off the vultures.
l don't want anybody cutting
until l get there.
Consider it done.
Put Jeanette back
on the phone, buddy.
l'm 1 0 minutes away.
Jeanette.
Yes, sir.
You're Dickinson?
Darrow.
They told me
not to leave him ,
but l got to get this monitor
over to the recipient.
l'll keep watch in here.
Ventilator's set at 1 6.
That oughta keep
the organs fresh .
Joe. . .
Joe.
Come closer.
Dear God .
We're here from Lakeview.
What room's the donor in?
2 1 5. First double doors
on your right.
Call air support and
tell 'em we'll be right up.
All right.
Guys,
we're gonna have to...
Ooh .
We're from Lakeview
in Lansing .
We have a heart recipient
prepped and ready to go.
You're not supposed
to be in here.
Are you Dickinson?
Get out.
Just get out, please.
Hey, take it easy, doctor.
Get him out of here, all right?
Get everyone out.
No, no, no, no.
lt's okay, Joe.
-- Dickinson said --
-- Dickinson's
in the parking structure.
l just spoke to him .
He said let's move 'em
both into surgery.
-- Okay, let's go.
-- Wait! Okay?!
Hey, Joe...
-- it's all right.
-- lt's not all right.
He's not ready
to be moved .
Hey,
what are we waiting for?
Come on.
Move him out.
Charlie, wait a second .
What?
This man's not dead .
The brain scan jumped .
l saw it.
l saw it on the monitor.
Come on , Joe.
lt's flat as a pancake.
Come on !
Let's move him out of here.
Come on . Let's go.
Charlie, listen .
Charlie, there's something
going on .
Don't do this yet.
Don't kill this man .
Joe, get ahold of yourself.
This man is dead .
He spoke to me.
-- Joe, please.
-- l'm telling you .
Joe, this man
could not speak to you .
lt was Emily!
lt was her voice!
And l'm not crazy!
Then back off.
-- Don't talk like this.
-- You've got --
you've got to listen to me.
Just listen --
Charlie, just hold off,
for one minute.
Leave me alone with him .
This is nuts, Joe.
-- Come on ! Get him inside!
-- Hey!
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!
Easy! Easy!
-- Back off, man!
-- Get him inside!
Somebody get security!
Get him out of here!
For God's sake, Joe!
Charlie!
Get security, will ya?!
Charlie,
one fucking minute!
Get him out of here!
Joe!
We need security in 2 South
right away.
Please listen to me!
Listen, l'll run down
and get it out of the...
All right.
-- We're going down .
-- All right.
l said to him . . .
Thanks for coming down.
You posted bail?
First offense.
l got it waived .
l also spoke to
the hospital administrator,
who's willing
to drop all charges
if you'll agree to take
a lengthy sabbatical .
l'll bet.
He said you claimed
a brain-dead organ donor
spoke to you .
ls that true?
No.
Good.
lt was Emily. . .
Speaking through him .
You know, l could almost
understand it with the kids,
because they all knew her.
l mean , of course they're
gonna dream about her.
She was key
to their survival .
Okay, then how about
the kid who never even
laid eyes on her?
What kid?
The kid l told you about
in the kitchen .
The first time he ever
met her was in a coma,
Miriam , remember?
l've got his admission
records to prove it.
That's evidence, right?
lsn't that what you wanted?
She's trying to reach me,
and she's becoming
desperate.
Why?
Why desperate, Joe?
Oh , you don't think
she's still alive.
lf a kid could see her
in a coma,
then why couldn't she be
trying to communicate
from one?
There were no survivors.
The Venezuelan government
searched the jungle
for almost a month .
And never found her.
Exactly.
And that's why
we're here tonight,
because you
never saw her body
and never got closure.
Emily's dead , Joe.
That's what this
is all about. . .
your refusal
to accept that.
Look, l understand it.
lf l hadn't seen
Hannah's body,
l wouldn't have
believed it, either.
l'd still be waiting
for her to come home,
just like you are.
You have to end this,
Joe.
You gotta do the hard
stuff...like l did,
like everyone does.
You gotta
clean out the closets,
empty the drawers,
and take down
the vacancy sign
that says ''Emily's ghost
is welcome here,''
and get on with your life
without her.
All right.
What about
that rafting trip?
What do you mean ,
what about it?
Well , anything to get
your mind off of this.
So you think
l should go?
Maybe l'll go
with you , huh?
l'm mean with a paddle.
The river's up
this time of year.
lt's gone from a 2-point
difficulty to a 5.
l want us all to go home,
go over our river maps.
Note the hazard points,
the portages, the waterfalls.
Oh , check out
these safari pants.
lt says to pack light.
l'm just
bringing my thong .
Well, then,
l'm bringing my camera.
Well, it better be
disposable,
because it's likely that
everything's gonna go
in the drink.
Not me.
Speaking of drink. . .
here's to adventure.
-- Yeah.
-- Adventure.
-- Adventure.
What do you think?
l think it's an idea
whose time has come.
No, l mean -- l mean ,
do you think it'll sell?
The agent said it needed
a paint job.
Ahh . Get what you can
and get out.
Leave the memories behind .
You didn't
after Hannah died .
Yeah , but l didn't
have corpses
playing ventriloquist
with me, either.
l'm gonna miss you , Joe.
l'm gonna miss
your waffles.
Would you show it for me. . .
if l'm gone for a week?
l'm taking
that white-water trip.
With pleasure.
lt's good to see you
joining the world again .
-- Hello.
-- Hal.
Reading the map of the river,
there's a symbol --
two wavery lines
that crisscross in the middle.
Waterfalls.
Put a big, red circle
around those.
We'll have to portage
there.
They're too high
this time of year.
Joe?
A rainbow.
Very well .
Oh .
You are, uh , the doctor?
Yes.
Very well .
How's it going , boy?
Very well .
What do we have here?
ls my pilot here?
That is me -- Victor.
How's it going?
l take your bags.
You been flying long ,
Victor?
Don't worry.
l know how.
You have a license,
though , right?
Sí!
Pretty much .
Guanahuapa. . .
Guanahuapa --
you've been there?
Uh , sí -- Guanahuapa.
This is it, right?
With the waterfall?
l don't know.
l only been there
in the dry season .
ls my interpreter here?
The Yanomami speak
a little Spanish .
l speak a little Guahibo.
You talk to them
through me.
Okay, we go?
That your girlfriend . . .
in the picture?
lt's my wife.
Used to be.
You come to get her back,
huh?
ln a way, l guess.
There was an accident here
last spring --
a bus that washed away
on the road?
The Red Cross.
-- The Red Cross.
-- Yes, that's right.
You can probably see it
now that the river's
not so high .
lt's just up ahead.
lt's on the way.
The rock slide took
more than just a bus.
lt isolated an entire tribe
from the outside world .
Can you see it --
down there?
Nobody lived.
The Yanomami
are still wearing
some of their clothing.
And Guanahuapa up ahead .
Some of the bodies
washed out of the bus,
down the river, and
right into the village.
The guide
we are meeting,
they work with all
the tribes in the area.
Did l mention
they don't like outsiders?
lt's a good thing
you have me with you .
l have the, uh , American .
He wants
to go to Poblado.
No, no, no, no. He's not
with the mining company.
-- You want money?
-- Uh-huh .
What you want is money?
Don't fuck with me.
He said . . .he cannot take
you to the village,
but for a price. . .
he can take you
to their graves.
Seńor...
Yeah?
Seńor...
Yeah .
We should go.
They, uh . . .
they wouldn't know,
would they,
which , uh . . .
body was buried where?
Look, if the weather
gets. . .any worse,
we don't
get out of here,
and -- and that's
no good for nobody.
Seńores...
Seńores, uh . . .my wife.
Uh , his wife.
My wife.
Red Cross.
The Red Cross.
Red Cross. Where?
-- Where?
-- Where?
Does any--
does anybody know where?
Do you know her?
Which one?
Do you know her?
What are they saying?
They say they know her.
What's he saying now?
What's he saying now?
Okay, well , he says he
wants to take you to
the village, okay?
And he says that, no,
you need permission .
They, uh...
What the hell is he saying?
l -- l don't know!
l . . .
Seńor!
Seńor, you cannot go
into the village!
lt is forbidden!
Seńor!
Seńor!
Seńor, stop!
Seńor!
We can return
with government people,
but you must come back
with me now.
l said now, seńor!
No! No! No!
Seńor!
She wants you
to go there...
-- Joe...
-- Join her...
-- Joe...
-- Joe?!
Joe, can't you hear me?!
Joe?!
1 00 steps on the ladder
of consciousness.
Go there.
-- No survivors...
-- Where's her body?
Think she's still alive.
-- Emily!
-- Joe?!
Listen to me!
You are one crazy
son of a bitch ,
you know that?
You're lucky to be alive,
seńor.
You were not breathing .
lt's been over an hour.
Get up.
We will cross the river
downstream ,
and with a little bit of luck,
we can get to the airstrip
before nightfall.
Let's go.
She lived through
the bus accident.
She made it
to the village.
Yo, you cannot go
to the village! Stop!
l cannot go back
without you !
They'll take away
my license!
Stop, seńor!
Seńor!
Seńor, stop!
Don't do this!
Seńor!
The man said
we must have permission !
l've got permission .
No one's keeping me
out of there.
Please. . .
my wife --
did you know her?
My -- my wife.
Did you know her?
My wife.
Doctor.
Doctor. My wife.
My wife.
The waterfall.
She was here.
Come here.
She say. . .
they knew her alive.
She came to help them .
Until the river
brought her back. . .dying .
They could not save
her body. . .
but they save her soul .
She said , ''Dragonfly.''
l don't know
if Emily ever saw her,
at least while she was
of mind and body,
and l don't know
how the baby survived --
premature, so small and fragile
in the middle of a jungle.
What l do know is that Emily
made sure our child found
her way into my arms.
What she taught me in life,
she taught me in death --
to trust... to have faith.
Because as a friend of mine
once said,
''lt's belief
that gets us there. ''
* Come, come out and play *
* We miss your face *
* And the funny things
you say *
* Be, just be yourself *
* And nothing else
will push you away *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me *
* Star, we knew you well *
* Yeah, all too well *
* And there's nothin' left
to hide *
* Don't hide *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me *
* And you get what you want
when you know what you need *
* And you tag me, l'm it,
Ollie O x, and you're free *
* Let me play on your side,
let me be on your team *
* Let me state my case *
* Don't go away *
* Find what you already are *
* Where it's not too close,
but never too far *
* Don't go too far, too far *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* And wraps itself around me *
* Me, me *
* And l feel so much love *
* So much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me * *
about my visa!
My wife is stuck
in that hellhole,
and l am getting
on that plane!
lt's bad, Joe.
They're evacuating
the villages.
The roads are washed out.
We're hearing gunfire now.
Can you -- can you
get to Calamar?
Can you get across
the border to Colombia?
They're putting us
on the bus.
l don't know where
they're taking us.
Joe?
Joe?!
Emily?!
Em--
Aaah !
Aah!
Emily Darrow
was not just a doctor
and a credit
to the medical profession ,
she was a healer
and a credit to the human race.
Those who knew her
were changed by her,
inspired by her commitment
to give literally everything
of herself,
which is why we're
gathered here today,
to celebrate this unique life
not so much taken from us
as given to us.
From her colleagues
at the university
to her young patients
here in Chicago Memorial's
pediatric-oncology ward,
she will be sorely missed.
We're told in medical school
that the face
of an emergency-room doctor
is the last thing
a lot of people will ever see.
l've tried
to keep that in mind
when l see those frightened
eyes staring out at me.
But l don't know
what Emily saw,
what image
she took with her,
if there was
a compassionate face
or she died
in a world of chaos,
and that l don't know this
haunts me.
The divers saw inside, seńor.
There is no one alive.
Then where is she?
Where's her body?
We are searching the
shoreline and jungle now,
but the bus is under
1 0 feet of water.
The river runs at
1 7 miles an hour, seńor.
There is nothing
you can do.
Por favor, go home.
l'm not going anywhere,
not till this is over.
l assure you , seńor...
it's over.
Call me when you have
something. Yes.
-- No vitals, no pulse.
-- Put him in E.R. 3
on the left.
-- What are you doing here?
-- l was paged .
What do we have?
Wasn't this morning
your wife's memorial service?
There's nothing l can do
for her, okay,
except keep anyone
from joining her.
-- Now, what do we have?
-- 6-car pileup.
1 1 injuries --
4 went over to County,
and 6 are coming here.
-- All right, let's go.
-- Watch your back.
All right, stay with me.
How extensive?
Third degree --
40% , maybe 50% .
-- Couldn't tube him?
-- Airway's crushed .
Couldn't do a cric.
Pronounce him .
Hit the windshield .
All right,
that's a blowout fracture.
Get a C.T.
Find out what else he's got.
What's this?
O.D., attempted suicide.
All right,
give her to Simon .
l'm interested in people
who want to live tonight.
What's her term?
She hit
the steering wheel .
How pregnant?
Anybody know?
She looks no more
than six months to me.
Well , she's souring .
Let's get it out.
At six months?
lt might have a chance
but not in there.
Look at her color.
lt's still got
a heartbeat.
Let's get it out of there.
This requires
a consultation , Joe.
Yeah , and let's order
out for pizza while
we're at it. Move!
There's a procedure
in place for terminating
a pregnancy, Joe.
l'm not terminating
a pregnancy, l'm delivering
a baby.
Get prenatal
down here now.
lt was the right call .
Delivering a technically
unviable fetus by
cesarean section
without consultation or
permission of the mother --
Who was dead .
Not officially.
The baby's alive, Hugh .
l'm concerned , Joe.
So is the rest of the staff.
You refused to treat
a suicide today.
l passed her on to Simon .
As though she were
unworthy of you .
Can we discuss this
tomorrow?
Since Emily's death ,
you have been working
around the clock,
2 4-hour shifts, l'm told ,
7 days a week.
Think l'm losing my edge?
Just the opposite --
it's getting too sharp.
You're starting to cut
people around here.
You need time off.
You need to grieve.
-- l need to grieve?
-- Mm-hmm.
l am serious, Joe.
Take that time off.
Was it you
who reported me. . .
passing on the suicide?
How's she doing?
She's waiting for a bed
on the psych ward .
Why did you do this
to me?
Do what to you?
Bring me back.
Where were you going?
Someplace better.
ls that right?
l'll do it again, too.
lt's all l want now.
Well , unfortunately,
your heart disagrees.
lt's waged quite a battle
tonight.
No one knows my heart.
Maybe that's why
it's still beating . . .
to give somebody
a chance to.
Let me tell you
about that ''better place''
you think
you're going to.
You better be damn sure
it's there,
'cause crappy
as this place is,
it's all there is.
So go ahead ,
be my guest...
but when you never
wake up again ,
don't say
l didn't warn you .
Hi , Father.
Time for a rebuttal?
''And on her footfall,
''in the rustle of leaves,
''her whisper on the wind ,
she speaks from a place
beyond mortal pain .''
Hey, look who's here.
Joe!
-- Hey, you!
-- Nice timing !
You're just in time
to finish the toast.
Here, pour him a beer.
Linda, can l have
another one, please?
Hey, Joe,
''Rachel in Heaven'' --
remember that poem,
third-year lit class?
Remember?
Yeah .
To Emily.
-- To Emily.
-- Emily.
How are things
in the hospital?
You know, l don't know
why we try so hard
to save them
if they've got such
a wonderful place to go
like ''Rachel in Heaven .''
Well,
that's where Emily is.
You can bet on that.
lf anyone deserved
to go there, it was her.
-- Hear, hear.
She was the best of us.
-- The best of us.
l don't know what the hell
she saw in you, though .
Lord knows l tried for years
to talk her out of it.
She was the best of us,
and l have no idea
what she saw in me.
She saw
the second best of us.
Come on, you guys
were a great team.
She was the heart,
you were the mind .
Together,
you were unbeatable.
Where are you , Joe?
Nowhere.
l'm gonna go.
-- Aw, come on , man .
-- Please, stay.
-- You just got here.
Like you said , Eric,
l'm a mind without a heart.
Joe, come on.
Joe, l --
that's not --
Don't leave, Joe.
Buddy, that is not
what l meant.
l know
you didn't mean that,
but you were right on ,
buddy,
and l love you anyway --
all of you .
Thank you for coming
today.
See ya.
Hey, doc.
Hey, Miriam .
Sorry l missed the service.
l didn't want to cough
all over everybody.
Was it nice?
l guess.
l couldn't handle it.
Well , then you're not gonna
do too good with this.
They needed somebody
to sign for it.
l didn't want to leave it
out in the rain .
lt's a toy company
in Texas.
That'll teach her
to shop the lnternet.
Yeah , that'll teach her.
You'd think
a professor of law
could be more precise
with her language.
lt's all right.
You have a good night.
Hey, l saw through
the kitchen window
Bigbird
didn't eat again .
Should he go
back to the vet?
The vet said Bigbird
will outlive us all .
Hey, Joe, it's Hal.
l forgot to tell you --
we are going on that
white-water trip.
You got to come, Joe.
Don't leave me alone
with these guys.
l sent you a packet, okay?
-- See you, buddy.
-- Love you.
Sound good , Bigbird?
Want to go rafting
with my old college chums?
Nice to see you , too.
Why is that funny?
l just don't picture you
with a beak, l guess.
Well, all right.
Well , then just imagine
soaring around with me
up there, flying .
-- lf you do,
you're on your own .
-- Why?
Because eagles eat
bunny rabbits.
l'm a vegetarian .
-- ln your next life, too?
-- Yes.
Do you mean if you got
a chance to come back,
you'd want to be
earthbound again?
No.
l'll fly around
with you up there,
but you know
what l'm gonna be.
Yeah , but. . .
if l'm a bird
and you're an insect. . .
Yeah?
How are we gonna. . .
you know. . .you know?
We'll just have to do
enough of that
in this lifetime to
make up for the next 1 0.
l'm going
because l have to, Joe,
because it's who l am ,
who we are,
what we dedicated
our lives to.
Oh , for God sakes, Emily,
you're pregnant.
We addressed this, Joe,
when we first met,
that we'd pack our
kids in on our backs
if we had to
to show them what was
important, to teach
them our values.
lt was naive, Emily,
all right?
lt was naive.
Our values?
l'm needed there, Joe,
and l'm going . . .
. . .whether you choose to
or not.
So, this thing
was a paperweight?
Yes.
lt was a present l gave her
for Valentine's Day.
lt's got to weigh
half a pound ,
and it was squarely --
l mean squarely --
on the bedside table
when l went to sleep.
So what are you saying?
l don't know.
Nothing , l guess.
Just that. . .
dragonflies
were sort of her thing ,
you know,
like a personal totem .
You know, how lndians
have buffalo heads
or tiger heads or hawks.
Hers was a dragonfly.
She even had this small
birthmark on her shoulder
that kind of looked
like one.
She said her grandfather
had one, too, on his --
on his butt.
lt's called
familial hemangioma.
l once skunked
an entire graduating class
by putting it
on a final exam .
Dr. Fitzgerald, you have
a visitor in the main lobby.
And when she was alive,
l had to scour
for anything l could find
with a dragonfly on it
to buy her a present.
Now -- now l see them
everywhere.
There was one --
there was one bouncing
against my office window
yesterday,
a real one.
Last night,
a package arrived
she had bought
over the lnternet --
a mobile to put
on the baby's crib
of dragonflies.
And then
this thing last night
with the paperweight.
You know what l think?
l think you are literally
going buggy
living in that house.
Yeah , you should move.
You're rummaging around
in an empty nursery.
You're living
with a talking parrot
who won't even speak
to you?
Never would .
Never liked me.
Would only talk to Emily.
She even taught it
to announce her arrival
when she came in the door.
Honey. . .honey, l'm home.
You ought to sell
that thing , Joe,
get rid of it.
l'm stuck with it.
l promised her
l'd keep it forever,
and l put a provision
in my will
that if anything
ever happened to me,
someone l trusted
would take care of it.
Would you?
Would you?
Oh , no, it's your promise,
buddy, it's not mine.
l need to live up to
my promises to her.
That's one thing
l need to do.
Okay, fine.
Any other promises
that l should know about?
Just one, but l'm taking
care of that one myself,
starting . . .today.
Hi , Joe.
Hugh .
l was kind of hoping
that you took
our conversations seriously.
l did .
l convinced Joe to take
a couple of months off
with all that's happened,
right, Joe?
l promised Emily
l'd look in on her kids
on the oncology ward
while she was gone
and never did .
l thought this might be
a good day.
After six months,
on oncology?
l'm not sure
how many are left,
but if it's for Emily,
fine.
Asshole.
You should get away,
Joe.
lsn't there someplace
you can go?
Dr. Bond to radiology.
Dr. Bond to radiology.
Dr. Johnson to l. C. U.
Dr. Winston, report to
second-floor nurses' station.
Dr. Winston, report to
second-floor nurses' station.
Dr. Mace,
please call the O.R.
Dr. Mace,
please call the O.R.
Joe!
Joe!
Joe!
Joe!
Joe, can't you hear me?!
Joe!
Joe!
All right, hold CPR.
l'm getting nothing.
Continue it.
Shock him at 30.
-- Come on , Jeffrey,
hang in there, boy.
-- Keep it going .
Clear!
Still nothing.
Charging to 60.
-- Shock him .
-- Clear!
Nothing .
-- Go again .
-- He's not responding .
-- There's no pulse at all .
-- He's not coming back
this time.
Damn it, do it again !
Clear!
He's gone.
He's got a rhythm .
He's back! Jump on it!
He's coming back!
Yes, Jeffrey, yes!
-- Do you need to be here?
-- Put that O 2 mask on.
Clear the room , please.
Get me an E .K.G .
Doctor,
you'll have to leave.
Don't let him
pull out that l. V.
Jeffrey?
Jeffrey, can you hear me?
How's he look?
Pupils reactive?
l just came on.
What happened?
They're stabilizing him .
He flatlined ,
then his heart started again .
That's our Jeffrey.
His heart's stopped
more times
than anyone in the history
of medical science, l think.
He'll come out of there
with all kinds of stories
about who he met in the tunnel
and what they said .
Hi , l'm Dr. Darrow
from emergency.
l know who you are.
The hospital administrator
heard that you got in the way
in l .C.U . yesterday
and asked to be notified
if you came back here again .
The boy who was being
resuscitated last night,
um , Jeffrey. . .
Reardon .
Right. ls he --
is he still on the floor?
Mm-hmm . He was one
of your wife's favorites.
Actually,
that's why l'm here.
l promised l'd look in
on her kids,
but there don't seem to be
many left.
lt'd be great if you could
give me a little help,
maybe not put in
that call
to the hospital
administrator.
Between you and me,
doctor,
the hospital
administrator is --
how do l put it? --
l use the word
''asshole.''
That about captures it.
3 1 5.
He's a real trip.
You'll love him .
Thanks.
Hello.
Hi .
How's he doing?
Great.
Nice.
What is it?
l couldn't say.
Guess.
All right.
A crucifix made of jello?
Man , you're good .
He's good .
He hasn't stopped
drawing them
since he got out
of the l .C.U . yesterday.
So, what is it?
l don't know.
That's why l'm asking .
l just woke up
thinking about it.
l happened to be in
the l. C. U. yesterday,
Jeffrey.
l know.
l saw you in there.
You saw me in there?
Yeah . You came in through
the back of the room ,
standing over my bed .
You saw me
come over to your bed?
Pretty sure it was you ,
but the tie was different.
Jeffrey.
Could l ask --
We're not encouraged
to discuss these things.
There was a nun
on the ward
interviewing kids who'd had
near-death experiences,
Sister Madeline
from chaplain services.
Stirred up all kinds of trouble
for the hospital
when some of it appeared
on a TV tabloid show.
She never even
talked to me,
and l got the best near-death
experiences of anyone.
l'm allowed
a coffee break
if there's a doctor
with him .
ln spite of hospital policy,
l-l think they need
to talk about it.
You're scheduled
for a CAT scan , Jeffrey.
Don't go without me.
So, what are we talking
about here, Jeffrey?
What we shouldn't.
ln the l .C.U . yesterday,
when l approached your bed ,
it seemed to me
you were pretty --
l was flatlined .
Exactly.
So how could you
look up and see me?
Couldn't.
-- But you said --
-- l looked down.
-- You looked down?
-- From the ceiling .
That's where l was
when l saw you .
Okay.
Don't believe me?
Should l?
Ever see that little bald spot
on the top of your head?
Bend down here.
Come on,
bend down here.
Yeah , that was you .
Dr. Barclay...
Jeffrey,
do you know my name?
You look like a. . .
a William to me.
l'm a Joe.
Does it ring a bell?
Emily's Joe?
Joe Darrow.
l saw her yesterday,
too.
What do you mean , Jeffrey,
you saw her?
She was there.
Where?
All around me. . .
inside the rainbow. . .
the mist.
l was falling ,
falling through it. . .
u-until she caught me. . .
and brought me back up.
She kind of flew me.
She f-flew me out. . .
so l could come back. . .
and -- and tell somebody
something .
Tell what, Jeffrey?
To who?
Joe.
Tell me what, Jeffrey?
Tell Joe what?
lt was loud
in the rainbow,
like thunder in there.
Tell me what, Jeffrey?
l don't know.
You were calling my name.
Joe.
Joe!
Joe, can't you hear me?!
Joe!
All right.
-- Joe!
-- Jeffrey.
Joe!
Slow down.
Whoa, whoa.
Look at my eyes.
Look at my eyes.
Just breathe.
Just breathe
a little bit, okay?
What happened?
l'm fine.
We were --
He wanted to know
what happened yesterday.
Oh , his heart stopped
again .
l know.
l was there, actually.
He wanted to know
what happened while
it was stopped .
Oh . Telling one
of his tall tales again ,
trying to get on TV.
l'm gonna give him
a dust mop next time
so he can sweep the ceiling
while he's up there.
My daddy
don't believe me.
He do the bald spot
on you?
Yeah , it's. . .the --
lt don't work
on everybody,
just us bald guys, huh?
Pshew.
Yeah, he got me
with that one, too.
Dr. Ritzen, report to
second-floor nurses' station.
You had me going there,
Jeffrey.
lt was the truth.
You don't believe me?
Dr. Bock to radiology,
please.
Dr. Bock to radiology.
What if l do
remember. . .what she
wants to tell you?
Then
would you believe me?
Do you remember it?
lf you come back,
l might.
Uh, what who wants
to tell him?
His wife --
she wants me to tell
him something.
Probably take out
the trash , huh?
Dr. Johnson, call 499.
Dr. Johnson, call 499.
What?
He even had me believing
he saw my bald spot
from the ceiling ,
until l saw a mirror
behind my head .
We can thank mom for those
genes, right, dad?
Well , l hate to burst
your bubble, Joe,
but l can see your
bald spot from here.
Oh , Connie.
l think bald is sexy.
-- Really?
-- Yes.
l've got a parrot
might turn you on .
Are you still living with
that messy thing? Joe. . .
We're working
on our relationship.
ls it a talking parrot?
A listening parrot.
A bird
after my own heart.
That's what l do
for a living -- listen .
Really?
Gwyn's a grief
counselor, Joe.
That's why l thought
it might be a good idea
for you two to meet.
ls that right?
ln fact, l've heard
a lot of clients
talk about
the near-death experiences
of their loved ones,
how they wake up
talking about being
in a dark tunnel ,
moving toward the light.
And what's your thought
on it?
l'm just your parrot, Joe.
Just listening .
l can tell you as an eye
surgeon, it's all very simple.
The tunnel
is literal tunnel vision ,
and the white light
is the gradual bleaching out
of the optic screen .
As it grows bigger,
it would seem like you're
moving toward it.
How do you explain
their ability
to recall
what everyone said
around their deathbed
after they were
declared dead ,
to describe what the
doctors were wearing ,
down to the patterns
on their ties?
lt's the way
we measure death.
Obviously, the brain
is still functioning
on some subliminal level ,
soaking up all the last bits
of what's left
to hear and see.
That's what you get
for having dinner with
a family of doctors.
No discussion
about floating around
on the ceiling ,
-- no tunnel , no bright lights.
-- l guess not.
Next thing
they're gonna tell us --
there's no tooth fairy.
The funny thing is,
l thought l heard him
calling out for me --
this kid.
l heard his voice
calling ''Joe. ''
And when l introduced myself
to him,
he asked me
if l was Emily's Joe.
He said that Emily
was trying to reach me.
Do you believe she's trying
to reach you , Joe?
No, counselor, l don't.
l can give you an hour
for free.
Bye, Joe.
Do you want me to package
up dessert for you?
Sorry.
Use your phone?
Excuse me.
l am kind of busy
at the moment, yeah .
Well, isn't there anyone else
who can cover for me tonight?
All right, l understand.
l'll be right over.
l'm sorry.
l'd really like to stay --
No, you wouldn't.
lt's too threatening .
lt's about
unresolved issues
you're not ready
to deal with yet.
Guilt, anger
toward our loved ones --
that's why
we conjure up spirits,
from the Virgin Mary
to our dearly departed .
Because we need
to talk to them,
not the other way around .
You asked if l thought
she was trying to contact me,
and l never answered .
Let me answer now.
She was my ultimate partner,
my best friend and lover.
And l miss her
beyond belief.
l also know l'm never
gonna see her again ,
not ever.
And l'm just beginning
to understand what that
means so intensely
that l sometimes
wish l didn't have
to wake up anymore.
And the last thing l need
is someone telling me
what to feel ,
or how to feel .
Anger? Yeah .
Guilt? You bet.
But l don't need you
crawling up my ass
with a flashlight
to tell me about it.
Keep going , Joe.
This is what you need .
l'll drop you a check
in the mail .
Hi .
Hey.
What's your name?
Ben .
l'm Joe, Ben.
l know.
Just admiring
your artwork.
What is it?
She said
you should go there.
l'm sorry?
The lady.
The lady in the picture
down the hall .
She said you'd...
be coming to see me.
The nurse?
They said
she was a doctor here.
What doctor?
She wants you
to go there.
Go where?
l'm not -- l'm not sure
what you mean , Ben .
Go where?
l dreamed of her. . .
in the ambulance
when l came here.
Then . . .l saw her picture
in the hall .
You know,
the lady doctor...
in the picture
of the Easter party,
with the cake
on her nose.
Are you talking
about Dr. Darrow?
She died , l guess.
And you dreamed
of her?
She wants you to go there.
What do you mean?
Go where, Ben?
The rainbow.
That's a rainbow?
This --
this is a rainbow?
Have we met before, Ben?
l don't know.
How do you know who l am?
She showed me your face.
A picture?
ln my mind .
She said . . .
l have to come back
to tell you to go there.
To a rainbow?
Yes.
Well , how would l --
how would l do that, Ben?
-- Christine.
-- Mm-hmm?
-- The boy in 3 1 2 .
-- Ben?
Yes. Wh--
did he know my wife?
l don't think so.
l think he just came in
two weeks ago.
Yeah, on the 3rd, in a coma.
Septic shock.
Why, Joe?
Nothing .
Miriam, d--
t-the first kid --
he -- he calls my name.
l follow him into the l .C.U . ,
where he flatlines.
All right? Dies.
Then when
he's resuscitated ,
says he saw me
while he's floating
around the ceiling ,
and that Emily,
who he met in a rainbow,
sent him back
to tell me something .
Tell you what?
He doesn't remember.
But the next kid does.
You want jelly?
l got two kinds.
Are you taking me
seriously?
Yes!
ls strawberry okay?
What does it matter?!
Do you -- do you hear
what l'm telling you?!
l'm just trying to
focus on something
real here, Joe.
And you think
this isn't.
Doesn't sound it so far.
Listen to me, Joe.
After Hannah died ,
l -- l saw her everywhere.
She told me l'd know
she was watching over me
if l saw a daisy
growing out of the ground
with all the petals
missing except one.
We used to play
''she loves me,
she loves me not. ''
And one day, l saw an entire
field of one-petaled daisies.
Well , there you go.
How do you explain that?
l was delusional !
Well, l'm not, okay?
l had these conversations.
Aren't you the guy
that doesn't believe
in Heaven?
This isn't Heaven .
This is rainbows.
Oh .
And she wants you to join
her. . .inside a rainbow.
According to these kids,
that's accurate.
Well , according to me,
they're putting you on .
So you think
they're lying?
l'm a lawyer, Joe.
Nothing is real
without evidence.
Have you personally
had any experience with
Emily since her death?
And if so,
has it been documented?
You know the answer.
Of course l haven't.
And why haven't you?
Because l haven't gone
halfway to Heaven ,
and she has no way
of reaching me!
lt does sound nuts,
doesn't it?
Well , l wouldn't
employ you in my hospital
if l heard that.
And if l were you,
l'd stay away from there.
lsn't there somewhere
you can go?
l could go
on a white-water trip.
Just what l've always
wanted to see --
white water.
l'll take care
of Bigbird.
Get outta here.
Go see white water.
And get your head straight.
Wanna see?
They were the last things
she sent us.
Hmm .
Sorry to break it to you,
pal, but, uh...
She was cheating on you .
lt's just a bug , Bigbird . . .
attracted to the light.
Let's not get crazy here.
Honey, l'm home.
Honey, l'm home.
Uh !
Bigbird !
Bigbird , no!
Ah !
-- Hello?
-- Miriam?
Joe?
Miriam , listen to me.
The bird -- it's sick.
l had to leave it.
l'm on my way to the hospital.
Are you okay?
Actually, l'm not.
l feel . . .
l feel like
l'm losing my mind .
What can l do?
lt was acting
like it used to
when she'd come home.
l felt like
she was there. . .
in the house.
Jesus, Joe.
l don't know what to do
about the --
The bird?
l-l'll take care of it.
l'll wake up the vet
if l have to.
You just...
hang in there, okay?
All right. Thanks.
ls Jeffrey awake?
Uh, not a good idea
right now.
ls he in his room?
Visiting hours
aren't until 1 0:00, Joe.
Joe!
Joe.
Dr. Stanford...
...report to emergency please.
Dr. Martin...
Joe, there was some talk
around here
l think
you should know about.
Where is he --
Jeffrey?
He's downstairs,
getting blood work.
His nurse --
is she with him?
Would you just listen to me
for a minute, please?
She said there was a nun
on the ward
interviewing kids about
near-death experiences.
Sister Madeline.
Do you know where she is?
She's no longer
employed here, Joe.
And do you know why?
Because she overstepped
her bounds.
Where is she employed?
Would -- would
chaplain services know?
Could you leave us alone
for a minute?
Dr. Horner...
please pick up extension 1 1 7.
Dr. Horner, extension 1 1 7.
What are you doing , Joe?
You know what l'm doing .
All right?
-- You gave me permission . . .
-- To look in on Emily's kids.
That was two days ago,
and from what l've heard ,
you haven't left since.
l told you ,
l promised my wife --
That you'd upset them?
Jeffrey's cardiologist saw
the readout on his E .K.G .
from 2:30
yesterday afternoon,
and he was damned upset
that your visit
put him under
that kind of stress.
What is going on , Joe?
The bird's okay.
He will outlive us all .
l tried to clean up
some of the mess
in there --
overturned lamp,
broken vase.
You didn't have to do
all that.
l didn't do all that.
l left some of it. . .
to discuss with you .
That weird picture you told
me the kids were drawing,
the wiggly cross?
ls it the kids
drawing it, Joe?
Or is it you?
'Cause if you did this,
you need some help.
lt's all over
the windows, too.
Watch the bird for me,
will you?
Excuse me.
Excuse me, l'm looking
for Sister Madeline.
-- ls that --
-- May l ask
what this is about?
lt's personal .
ls that her?
You'll have to call the office
for an appointment.
Excuse me!
-- Sir.
-- Sister Madeline?!
Sir!
Sister Madeline?!
Could l speak to you?!
Sir!
Please?!
Sister Madeline?!
Please, are you Sis--
Please...are you
Sister Madeline?
This is private property.
You are trespassing .
l know. l tried to call .
l'm sorry.
Chaplain --
chaplain services
only gave me an address.
He'll call the police.
Please.
J-Just five minutes.
You people have done
enough damage.
You don't understand !
You don't!
No more journalists.
No more interviews.
l'm not a journalist.
l'm a...
l'm a doctor.
Head of -- l'm head
of emergency services
at Chicago Memorial
hospital.
Joe Darrow.
-- Emily's Joe?
-- Yes.
That's why l need
to talk to you !
l need to know
about your work.
l've called the police.
l'd advise you to leave.
lt's all right.
He's not a journalist.
He's still trespassing.
l'm sorry. l ju--
We agreed to hire
Sister Madeline
with the understanding
that her presence here
wouldn't cause
any disturbances.
Sister.
Yes, sir.
The police respond quickly.
l'd advise you to leave.
You have business
at the school , sir?
l beg your pardon?
Step over here, please.
He's at 3rd and Western.
1 480, 1 480.
2 5 on site, too.
1 0-4.
1 380, 6 1.
1 380, 6 1.
Detective for 1 3 Sector 6.
Unit 26...on site.
And l realized that,
in an age when no one
believes in miracles anymore,
l was witnessing miracles
every day.
And the pediatric
oncology ward
was the perfect laboratory
to study it --
the near-death experience.
Being kids,
they were more open
to what happens
on the other side.
You're convinced it's not
just in their minds?
''Just in their minds''?
What we're experiencing
right now
could be just
in your mind .
You're a doctor
because you dreamed
of being one, right?
You . . .imagined that
for yourself.
lf we can create this world
with what we imagine,
why not the next?
S-So you're saying
belief --
Gets us there.
Did Emily believe?
Because
l think she got there.
l believe she's trying
to contact me.
Two kids have seen her.
One was flatlined ,
another in a coma.
ln the tunnel?
ln a rainbow. . .
trying to tell me something ,
something urgent.
But l don't know what.
And they -- they. . .
they draw this
after they've. . .
after they've seen her.
Have you ever seen
this before?
No.
l don't know.
Am l -- am l
just going nuts?
As nuts
as Christopher Columbus,
thinking there was
another side to the Earth .
Talk to an anesthesiologist.
They'll tell you .
There are 1 00 steps on
the ladder of consciousness
between being fully alert
and being dead.
To put a patient under,
they bring them down
only to the 1 0th rung.
Beneath that is
a descending gray scale,
like the depths of
an ocean no one has explored .
lt's in those depths,
those murky depths,
she's finding them --
the children .
They're her conduit
because she knew
you'd find your way to them .
Stay close to them .
Be with them
when they slip away
so you can be with them
when they first awaken ,
before the details fade.
One of them will come
back with the answer.
Careful, careful.
Okay, let's go.
Watch the back.
-- Release form?
-- l'll get it.
-- Thank you .
-- Thank you .
-- Take him to 2 1 5?
-- Yeah .
-- Down on the right.
-- Careful when you transfer.
Okay, watch your line here.
Hook him up to the ventilator
once you get inside.
All right.
l'll get the monitor.
This is Jeanette
in nephrology.
l need to speak
to Dr. Dickinson, please.
-- Monitors are ready.
-- Dr. Darrow!
Yes, it is an emergency.
No, l can't hold.
Keep me on the line.
Dr. Dickinson?
We've got a healthy kidney
up here.
Just Dr. Darrow.
Joe.
-- Yeah?
-- Joe, l'm on my way over
to harvest a kidney,
and l want you
to protect it for me.
Tell me what to do.
All right, they're coming
in for other organs,
but that kidney is mine.
l want that made clear
in case anybody choppers
in and tries to grab it.
Stay on top
of his vitals.
Don't leave the room
and hold off the vultures.
l don't want anybody cutting
until l get there.
Consider it done.
Put Jeanette back
on the phone, buddy.
l'm 1 0 minutes away.
Jeanette.
Yes, sir.
You're Dickinson?
Darrow.
They told me
not to leave him ,
but l got to get this monitor
over to the recipient.
l'll keep watch in here.
Ventilator's set at 1 6.
That oughta keep
the organs fresh .
Joe. . .
Joe.
Come closer.
Dear God .
We're here from Lakeview.
What room's the donor in?
2 1 5. First double doors
on your right.
Call air support and
tell 'em we'll be right up.
All right.
Guys,
we're gonna have to...
Ooh .
We're from Lakeview
in Lansing .
We have a heart recipient
prepped and ready to go.
You're not supposed
to be in here.
Are you Dickinson?
Get out.
Just get out, please.
Hey, take it easy, doctor.
Get him out of here, all right?
Get everyone out.
No, no, no, no.
lt's okay, Joe.
-- Dickinson said --
-- Dickinson's
in the parking structure.
l just spoke to him .
He said let's move 'em
both into surgery.
-- Okay, let's go.
-- Wait! Okay?!
Hey, Joe...
-- it's all right.
-- lt's not all right.
He's not ready
to be moved .
Hey,
what are we waiting for?
Come on.
Move him out.
Charlie, wait a second .
What?
This man's not dead .
The brain scan jumped .
l saw it.
l saw it on the monitor.
Come on , Joe.
lt's flat as a pancake.
Come on !
Let's move him out of here.
Come on . Let's go.
Charlie, listen .
Charlie, there's something
going on .
Don't do this yet.
Don't kill this man .
Joe, get ahold of yourself.
This man is dead .
He spoke to me.
-- Joe, please.
-- l'm telling you .
Joe, this man
could not speak to you .
lt was Emily!
lt was her voice!
And l'm not crazy!
Then back off.
-- Don't talk like this.
-- You've got --
you've got to listen to me.
Just listen --
Charlie, just hold off,
for one minute.
Leave me alone with him .
This is nuts, Joe.
-- Come on ! Get him inside!
-- Hey!
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!
Easy! Easy!
-- Back off, man!
-- Get him inside!
Somebody get security!
Get him out of here!
For God's sake, Joe!
Charlie!
Get security, will ya?!
Charlie,
one fucking minute!
Get him out of here!
Joe!
We need security in 2 South
right away.
Please listen to me!
Listen, l'll run down
and get it out of the...
All right.
-- We're going down .
-- All right.
l said to him . . .
Thanks for coming down.
You posted bail?
First offense.
l got it waived .
l also spoke to
the hospital administrator,
who's willing
to drop all charges
if you'll agree to take
a lengthy sabbatical .
l'll bet.
He said you claimed
a brain-dead organ donor
spoke to you .
ls that true?
No.
Good.
lt was Emily. . .
Speaking through him .
You know, l could almost
understand it with the kids,
because they all knew her.
l mean , of course they're
gonna dream about her.
She was key
to their survival .
Okay, then how about
the kid who never even
laid eyes on her?
What kid?
The kid l told you about
in the kitchen .
The first time he ever
met her was in a coma,
Miriam , remember?
l've got his admission
records to prove it.
That's evidence, right?
lsn't that what you wanted?
She's trying to reach me,
and she's becoming
desperate.
Why?
Why desperate, Joe?
Oh , you don't think
she's still alive.
lf a kid could see her
in a coma,
then why couldn't she be
trying to communicate
from one?
There were no survivors.
The Venezuelan government
searched the jungle
for almost a month .
And never found her.
Exactly.
And that's why
we're here tonight,
because you
never saw her body
and never got closure.
Emily's dead , Joe.
That's what this
is all about. . .
your refusal
to accept that.
Look, l understand it.
lf l hadn't seen
Hannah's body,
l wouldn't have
believed it, either.
l'd still be waiting
for her to come home,
just like you are.
You have to end this,
Joe.
You gotta do the hard
stuff...like l did,
like everyone does.
You gotta
clean out the closets,
empty the drawers,
and take down
the vacancy sign
that says ''Emily's ghost
is welcome here,''
and get on with your life
without her.
All right.
What about
that rafting trip?
What do you mean ,
what about it?
Well , anything to get
your mind off of this.
So you think
l should go?
Maybe l'll go
with you , huh?
l'm mean with a paddle.
The river's up
this time of year.
lt's gone from a 2-point
difficulty to a 5.
l want us all to go home,
go over our river maps.
Note the hazard points,
the portages, the waterfalls.
Oh , check out
these safari pants.
lt says to pack light.
l'm just
bringing my thong .
Well, then,
l'm bringing my camera.
Well, it better be
disposable,
because it's likely that
everything's gonna go
in the drink.
Not me.
Speaking of drink. . .
here's to adventure.
-- Yeah.
-- Adventure.
-- Adventure.
What do you think?
l think it's an idea
whose time has come.
No, l mean -- l mean ,
do you think it'll sell?
The agent said it needed
a paint job.
Ahh . Get what you can
and get out.
Leave the memories behind .
You didn't
after Hannah died .
Yeah , but l didn't
have corpses
playing ventriloquist
with me, either.
l'm gonna miss you , Joe.
l'm gonna miss
your waffles.
Would you show it for me. . .
if l'm gone for a week?
l'm taking
that white-water trip.
With pleasure.
lt's good to see you
joining the world again .
-- Hello.
-- Hal.
Reading the map of the river,
there's a symbol --
two wavery lines
that crisscross in the middle.
Waterfalls.
Put a big, red circle
around those.
We'll have to portage
there.
They're too high
this time of year.
Joe?
A rainbow.
Very well .
Oh .
You are, uh , the doctor?
Yes.
Very well .
How's it going , boy?
Very well .
What do we have here?
ls my pilot here?
That is me -- Victor.
How's it going?
l take your bags.
You been flying long ,
Victor?
Don't worry.
l know how.
You have a license,
though , right?
Sí!
Pretty much .
Guanahuapa. . .
Guanahuapa --
you've been there?
Uh , sí -- Guanahuapa.
This is it, right?
With the waterfall?
l don't know.
l only been there
in the dry season .
ls my interpreter here?
The Yanomami speak
a little Spanish .
l speak a little Guahibo.
You talk to them
through me.
Okay, we go?
That your girlfriend . . .
in the picture?
lt's my wife.
Used to be.
You come to get her back,
huh?
ln a way, l guess.
There was an accident here
last spring --
a bus that washed away
on the road?
The Red Cross.
-- The Red Cross.
-- Yes, that's right.
You can probably see it
now that the river's
not so high .
lt's just up ahead.
lt's on the way.
The rock slide took
more than just a bus.
lt isolated an entire tribe
from the outside world .
Can you see it --
down there?
Nobody lived.
The Yanomami
are still wearing
some of their clothing.
And Guanahuapa up ahead .
Some of the bodies
washed out of the bus,
down the river, and
right into the village.
The guide
we are meeting,
they work with all
the tribes in the area.
Did l mention
they don't like outsiders?
lt's a good thing
you have me with you .
l have the, uh , American .
He wants
to go to Poblado.
No, no, no, no. He's not
with the mining company.
-- You want money?
-- Uh-huh .
What you want is money?
Don't fuck with me.
He said . . .he cannot take
you to the village,
but for a price. . .
he can take you
to their graves.
Seńor...
Yeah?
Seńor...
Yeah .
We should go.
They, uh . . .
they wouldn't know,
would they,
which , uh . . .
body was buried where?
Look, if the weather
gets. . .any worse,
we don't
get out of here,
and -- and that's
no good for nobody.
Seńores...
Seńores, uh . . .my wife.
Uh , his wife.
My wife.
Red Cross.
The Red Cross.
Red Cross. Where?
-- Where?
-- Where?
Does any--
does anybody know where?
Do you know her?
Which one?
Do you know her?
What are they saying?
They say they know her.
What's he saying now?
What's he saying now?
Okay, well , he says he
wants to take you to
the village, okay?
And he says that, no,
you need permission .
They, uh...
What the hell is he saying?
l -- l don't know!
l . . .
Seńor!
Seńor, you cannot go
into the village!
lt is forbidden!
Seńor!
Seńor!
Seńor, stop!
Seńor!
We can return
with government people,
but you must come back
with me now.
l said now, seńor!
No! No! No!
Seńor!
She wants you
to go there...
-- Joe...
-- Join her...
-- Joe...
-- Joe?!
Joe, can't you hear me?!
Joe?!
1 00 steps on the ladder
of consciousness.
Go there.
-- No survivors...
-- Where's her body?
Think she's still alive.
-- Emily!
-- Joe?!
Listen to me!
You are one crazy
son of a bitch ,
you know that?
You're lucky to be alive,
seńor.
You were not breathing .
lt's been over an hour.
Get up.
We will cross the river
downstream ,
and with a little bit of luck,
we can get to the airstrip
before nightfall.
Let's go.
She lived through
the bus accident.
She made it
to the village.
Yo, you cannot go
to the village! Stop!
l cannot go back
without you !
They'll take away
my license!
Stop, seńor!
Seńor!
Seńor, stop!
Don't do this!
Seńor!
The man said
we must have permission !
l've got permission .
No one's keeping me
out of there.
Please. . .
my wife --
did you know her?
My -- my wife.
Did you know her?
My wife.
Doctor.
Doctor. My wife.
My wife.
The waterfall.
She was here.
Come here.
She say. . .
they knew her alive.
She came to help them .
Until the river
brought her back. . .dying .
They could not save
her body. . .
but they save her soul .
She said , ''Dragonfly.''
l don't know
if Emily ever saw her,
at least while she was
of mind and body,
and l don't know
how the baby survived --
premature, so small and fragile
in the middle of a jungle.
What l do know is that Emily
made sure our child found
her way into my arms.
What she taught me in life,
she taught me in death --
to trust... to have faith.
Because as a friend of mine
once said,
''lt's belief
that gets us there. ''
* Come, come out and play *
* We miss your face *
* And the funny things
you say *
* Be, just be yourself *
* And nothing else
will push you away *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me *
* Star, we knew you well *
* Yeah, all too well *
* And there's nothin' left
to hide *
* Don't hide *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me *
* And you get what you want
when you know what you need *
* And you tag me, l'm it,
Ollie O x, and you're free *
* Let me play on your side,
let me be on your team *
* Let me state my case *
* Don't go away *
* Find what you already are *
* Where it's not too close,
but never too far *
* Don't go too far, too far *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* And wraps itself around me *
* Me, me *
* And l feel so much love *
* So much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me *
* And l feel so much love *
* When it's all mixed up *
* lt wraps itself around me * *