Don't Forget Me (2017) - full transcript
Tom's period is back. Her doctor at the Eating Disorder Unit where she is committed says that she is getting better. The thought of getting healthy and heavy scares her. It looks like it is going to be the worst day of her life. And then Tom meets Neil, a socially awkward tuba player. Together they try to escape from their lives and all that is considered socially acceptable. Don't Forget Me is a dark comedy about the need to be out of your mind in order to fall madly in love.
Neil
Tom
Eating Disorder Ward Girls
Health Care Assistants
Sveta
Dr. Stern
Meirav from PR
Hostel Residents
Amnon
French Couple in Elevator
Einav Friedman
Alon
Father
Mother
Little Brother
Tit-touching Men
Tom's Friends and Filipino Caretaker
Karaoke Singers
Wish Makers
Therapy Group in Mental Institution
Troubadour
אל תשכחי אותי Al Tishkehi Oti
DON'T FORGET ME
Neil yamatzhik! That's why im telling you that
you should join the band and we'll start playing
Bach-Covers!! I'm bored of this house garage shit...
Ha! yalla! We can also play some traditional dutch old
lumberjack goat fucking cheez eating music!
"Also songs by Misogynists"?
Gotta go Nils I'll be in Israel on Thursday, lets meet up this time!!
I'll call you! check this stupid video someone made for us...
Turn it off! People are sleeping!
Okay, okay.
Turn this off!
Dammit.
Good morning, girls-
It's morning, girls.
Wake up!
Tania?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Orit?
Bowel movement? Period?
No and No.
Betty?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Dor?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Orit?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
-No?
Okay.
Girls it's breakfast soon,
Wake
Sveta? -What?
Can you unlock the bathroom?
Genadi will open it.
Girls, it smells in here, open a window!
What's wrong with you?
Eden?
Bowel movement? Period?
Eden, I'm talking to you!
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Emily?
Bowel movement? Period?
Yes. No.
Thank you very much.
Good.
Zohar?
No. No.
Okay.
Rinat?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
No, well,
What can you do...
Oh Vera, you're up.
Good.
Bowel movement? Period?
No and no.
No and no.
How did you sleep?
Girls!
It's a new day, girls.
Yuval? Bowel movement? Period?
- No. No.
No and... no.
Alona?
Bowel movement? Period?
What do you think?
Gimme a break...
No, no.
Tom?
Bowel movement? Period?
No, yes.
- No, yes.
Good job.
Sapir? Good morning.
Sapir!
Good morning!
Well, sweetie?
Bowel movement? Period?
No and no.
No and no and no and no...
Undress already.
Let's go...
- Sveta, take a look at this tooth.
No, really, look at it:
Can you see it's transparent?
It wasn't like that when I got here, right?
It's falling apart.
Does that seem normal to you?
- Tom, dear, it's perfectly fine.
It just means your body
isn't stressed anymore.
Get on with it, please.
Come on.
How will you know my true weight like this?
- Tom, dear, get on please.
You don't give me answers, I need answers.
Isn't there anyone else who can weigh me?
There is nobody else here
who can examine me?
One moment...
Wait, let's take this off.
Take this off also.
Get on...
Good morning, everyone.
The time is 8:05.
Breakfast starts now,
you have 20 minutes.
Enjoy your meal.
- Enjoy your meal...
Enjoy your meal.
Do you need help with that?
Hands on the table.
Good.
Would you start eating?
Stop vibrating.
Put it on mute.
A pain in the ass.
What did you say
the black guy's name was?
14? DJ Strawberry.
What kind of name is that?
What do you want it to be?
Blacky.
Blacky?
Is he Ethiopian?
When can I shift to electric?
Classic guitars have thick necks,
to stretch your fingers,
then you can switch to acoustic,
electric,
whatever you like.
- No, he started already,
I bought him an electric guitar,
he's taking lessons and...
Weissbach, remember me?
I used to come in here.
Weissbach is the name of the shop.
I'm Amnon.
Amnon, yes. I'm Neil.
Remember I used to come here?
Yes, sure...
Ill be right with you...
Can I play the tuba?
I'll just finish with them.
- You won't have to drag the guitar
all over town. -No...
-Thinkabout it and...
Yes, it's not instead of...
that's what I'm saying. -Yes.
- Look, Dad... it's different.
I like the sound of the electric,
I like the...
Now he's into rock and roll,
chicks and all that.
Rightfully so... Listen...
he'll do it when...
If he comes in to try
a left handed so...
Then I have to change it... -Okay.
So we'll come again, alright?
I'm here. I'm not going anywhere.
- Okay. Thanks.
- Thanks. Bye.
Son?
You want a tuba with a C pitch?
Yes.
Don't you remember me?
Did you take lessons
with my son?
No, I studied at the conservatory
in Amsterdam.
You don't say.
- You know it?
I heard about it.
It's a fine school.
Yes.
It's made of silver.
Great finish.
It's German.
Yes, do you...
do you "repareren" them too?
What?
Do you...
fix tubas?
Whoa...
What happened to the poor thing?
I haven't played in a long time.
My mom bought it for me years ago.
Look, a setup and cleaning,
are 600 shekels, but do you see this?
I have to order parts from abroad,
You see?
It's dead.
Yes, I'm going to play in a band
and then I'll have money for a new tuba, but...
I'm going to play in a band.
That's nice. -Yes, "Misogynists",
Have you heard of them?
No.
They're very successful
in Europe, America...
Yes, I'm going to join them.
Really?
-Yes.
How much does a tuba like this cost?
That one?
I can sell it to you for 22.
That's a good price.
Do you remember...
do you know my mother?
Mini? She...
She's a redhead. We lived
around the corner, in Tel Aviv.
Can you give me a better price?
You can pay me in installments.
Even 30 installments,
that should make it easier.
Yes, the thing is...
Thank you.
How about credit?
A card.
Yes, that's what I mean.
Yes, because... my dad,
he gave me a card.
When I came here he told me:
"Neil, don't do anything stupid!"
You want to ask him?
Oh, yes, no, that's okay.
I don't understand.
No... I...
I want to buy the tuba.
And is it fine with your father?
- Yes.
Hey, Salman, can you move a little?
Come on, I can't go like this.
Can you move? A little?
Please? Just a bit.
Do what you need to do quietly.
there's the regular walk that you see
at most fashion weeks, like this...
It's ordinary,
but if you walk in heels then it's cool,
because you can burn calories.
Okay? Then there's the Victoria's Secret walk...
where it's good there's something to wiggle...
Then there's this cool music...
Paris fashion week,
it's the coldest.
Pose...
And Miami is the best,
bathing suits and heels,
it's good for burning fat on the sides,
with this vitality in the face.
Are you watching?
Like this...
tanned.
Pose...
Aren't you tired of being cynical?
How about trying something new?
Last night I felt
like I was about to die,
like I'm supposed to get my period
and take a shit at the same time,
like something is about to come out of
my stomach and then my life will be over.
Then I had to pee
and I discovered I got my period.
I had to tell Sveta this morning:
"No, I didn't take a shit
but I got my period."
And that moron, instead of realizing that
this is the most humiliating moment in my life,
that I want to crawl into my period
and die,
she said in front of everyone:
"Great, congratulations, good job, Tom."
I never saw her smiling before.
Ever.
With that disgusting gold tooth
and that moustache.
Yuck... what a disgusting woman.
I mean... don't you have
someone's vomit to clean up?
Don't you have any dishes to wash?
I'm looking at her and she
just doesn't get it.
Like some autistic kid that can
play the piano really well
but doesn't get basic things.
You were a great pianist in Russia?
Go back there!
And get that gold tooth fixed.
Isn't it supposed to look natural?
You want everyone to know
daddy beat you up when he was drunk?
Stupid woman.
Really, pack up and go back there
Rid us of your presence
Leave us in peace
Next time I see her
I'm going to vomit on her.
Okay, that's enough.
Next.
Change the subject. Move on.
It's not just Sveta, it's all Russians
I never had a problem with Russians,
but now I get it:
She doesn't fit in,
did you see her hair?
Her skin is full of pimples.
There are enough
problems in this country already,
Just leave, get out!
You don't get what's going on.
She has no friends,
she's in the ward all day
Just leave!
Give us some peace and quiet!
Okay, I want us
to achieve something today.
The fact that you got
your period back...
A period is healthy.
Yuck.
Yuck?
Yes, yuck.
Periods are yuck?
No, periods are excellent.
I feel like a woman.
So many girls here dream for
something like that to happen to them.
You're right.
I feel blessed,
it's a wonderful thing,
I wouldn't trade my body with anyone.
Okay, enough already.
This room is where you come
to get help.
Don't you want to heal?
Don't you miss being healthy?
Nice...
Change the channel!
Come on, Yuval. Change the channel,
We can't watch that stuff here...
What do you care? Just one time.
It looks interesting
Are you kidding me?
You know we are not watching this.
We're not looking at their bodies.
Oh, Come on...
Hi,
Do you want me to do your nails?
Or you can do mine...
For me, all those shapes and lines...
they really help...
I thought maybe... for you as well...
Am I bothering you?
You want me to leave...?
It's just that we're all
in the same boat here
And if... I can help you,
you can help me...
You get how I feel, right?
So I get how you feel, too
Hello!
"Je vriend here", the flying Dutchman.
Wow,
"achtentachtig!"
You're a genius.
How did you find me?
You wrote on Facebook
that you're in the penthouse.
You're right.
Are your parents here?
Yosefa and Avraham?
Ronen. Come inside.
- Oh, Ronen.
Yosefa and Ronen are...
in Vienna, or Switzerland.
I don't know.
This apartment is usually empty.
Just a second..
So how are you doing, my friend?
You look good.
Tell me what's going on.
Are you going to "om op te treden"?
To the shows?
Yeah, Europe, but it's boring,
the audience there is the same as here.
But the money is good,
I couldn't say no.
Are you a large?
We only have large,
Americans are fat.
Yes.
It fits.
Like those kids on their skateboards.
I hate them.
I bought a new tuba.
You did? That's awesome.
Show me.
I wanted to show you something.
We opened for a band
at a soccer stadium in Mexico.
You still watch soccer?
Yes, Ajax.
Ajax? They still exist?
Yes, they have a new manager.
This is Chrissy from Alabama.
She's a hair stylist.
American women are such whores.
They're raised on porn,
they're all shaved... I hate it.
You want to teach me some songs
of the band?
It goes like this?
Neil.
Neil!
What?
How about you?
You okay now?
"Gelukkig wel."
Dutch is an awful language.
A combination of German and autism.
"Gelukkig wel."
Did I tell you the Germans are giving us
a building in Berlin for a year?
We're moving there.
It's a retarded city
but it's a fucking building.
You should come, I'll be real close.
It's become so disgusting. 10 years ago
the cathinone here was amazing.
But it's better than coke and those assholes
who lived in Williamsburg for 2 years
and worked in a hummus place and only
stayed with Israelis
and now they do coke because
they're from New York.
You wanna live in New York
then really live there.
Leave me alone.
And when do I come to the shows?
What shows?
- The tour, to play.
You mean tour with us?
You can come on Monday.
We can put a condenser
for the tuba...
You need a fire shooting tuba.
You come down from the ceiling, on ropes,
play a solo and pass out.
I saw this Japanese band doing it,
but with a trumpet and it sucked.
- Yes. -Awesome.
Babe, this is Neil, my friend from Amsterdam,
we haven't met since 10th grade.
9th grade. -Neil like Nils?
So where's Captain Akka?
- You came to Rotterdam, right?
-Yes
Do you know who that is?
Einav Friedman.
She's a super celeb here.
Babe, tell Neil
who you modelled for.
It's not funny.
I'm no fucking model.
You call four TV series
and three months at Lee Strasberg a model?
Get dressed already.
It's hilarious walking down the street with her.
I bump into all these
Ruchmans and Pritzkers from school.
"Einav Friedman...?!"
Alon, are you coming or what?
- Morons...
I don't want go to this hospital ward thing alone.
Come with us, it will be funny.
-Yes.
Babe, can Neil come?
Yes. And a trip to London
we play, the "Hope and Anchor."
Talk to Steve Jackson.
Hey there, gorgeous!
She's one of us.
Hi! -Hi. -Are the boys with you?
-Yes.
Okay, let them in too.
We'll get them name tags.
- Do it fast, it's hot.
It's this procedure.
Excellent. Welcome. Welcome.
- Basel and
also Zurich... -This is the unit. -Yes.
- That I told you about. -Yes.
They're so happy you're here.
As you can see,
this is the old wing.
They do extraordinary work here...
Your being here is important to them.
Really.
If you ask me, it's Zionism.
and it's good for your image
so people know
you're a beautiful on the inside too.
Look,
the girls are so excited to see you.
And we let them come outside
so they can be part of it.
You know, clean up the place.
Tania, get up, keep working.
Pssttt...
Who are you?
Neil.
Why are you here?
"Weet ik niet," Alon...
Do you speak Hebrew?
Yes.
What is she doing?
Trying to burn calories.
Look at me.
Have we met?
Do you know me from somewhere?
Rivka!
- You can say
Then no.
- Are you sure?
Rivka.
Rivka! Rivka!
Go Rivka! Go Rivka!
Now look at my body.
All of it.
Do you think I'm skinny?
What?
- You think I'm fat?
Talk, don't be scared.
No... that...
Chubby?
- No, no, that you're... "Heel dun".
What's that?
that you're...
...thin.
Are you lying to me?
No.
Then I didn't get it.
Skinny or fat?
Skinny.
Are you asking me?
Let's go.
I have to, now...
Tell me the truth.
Am I thin or fat?
Tom, help your friends.
-1 can't make "problemen".
No trouble, you can really help me.
-1 can't make "problemen".
Ok, define thin to me.
Whose thin?
What's thin to you?
Tom!
- Ok. Yeah.
Neil, right?
-Yes.
You should help me.
Think about it.
We can't start eating
until we're told to.
Let's wait for her to sit.
Hi, sweetie.
Are you waiting for me?
We're waiting for you too.
- How sweet.
Okay, be quiet!
You have 30 minutes. Enjoy!
- Enjoy!
Hey, where are you going
Enjoy.
Smells good, huh?
Not really, no.
Looks good.
It's disgusting, isn't it?
What?
The food.
No, it looks great.
Why aren't you eating?
You're not eating?
What?
- You're not eating?
Of course I'm eating, it's...
really good.
Remember when you signed
autographs at the mall?
I think so.
Rinat and Hili, eat.
Listen, everyone's looking at you.
Did you say something?
Everyone's looking,
you better eat.
I'm eating,
it's quite delicious.
Wow, you're so thin.
I was there with my sister.
When you signed autographs
at the mall.
We just passed by,
for the heck of it.
Oh yeah?
-Yes.
Was it fun?
- Very.
Just to see all the celebrities...
I'm sorry, it's sensitive.
You really have to eat.
- But I can't.
Einav, I'm sorry,
we agreed that you'd eat.
I can't, sorry.
Try. Please.
-1 can't.
Meirav, I can't...
Please sit down.
Don't move!
Don't panic!
Please return to your seats.
Welcome everyone.
We are all here to honor, support,
and yes, to contribute
to these wonderful boys and girls,
the heroes who have touched my heart.
Yes.
Dr. Amiram Stern,
thank you for your work here
at the eating disorder center.
Limor, please come to the stage.
Good evening.
Thank you for coming.
My name is Limor.
This is my second time in this ward,
I want to tell you
about the first time.
Before my army discharge.
I was an officer
in the combat engineering corps.
At first I was happy to be away from home,
eating without being judged.
I loved staying weekends.
My soldiers thought I'm so dedicated,
I just wanted to be alone and eat.
At one point I told the soldiers
that I needed to inspect their packages.
I began by hiding one or two and...
What's going on?
quickly got to a point
where the soldiers
didn't get any packages.
I took them all to my room,
locked the door
and...
Do you know what a soft jaw is?
I don't have a gag reflex,
so I can put it all in.
But you're gonna tell me
before you cum.
Yes. -I mean it. -Yes.
- It's 150 calories, Neil.
The thing about candy
and food in general is...
there's this emptiness,
and sometimes
you want to feel full and...
food, candies...
when chocolate goes in it's...
caressing.
But then you have to get it out.
I hoped that if I vomit
the candies would come back.
I tried to bring them back...
Are you alright?
- Yes, yes. Keep going.
And...
and I learned that the food that I eat
must remain in my body.
Sometimes I hope
it will come out in my sweat
and after a long time,
now that I'm healed,
Tom, Tom...
Hold this.
My leg shakes when...
The Risperdal, it...
it made my fingers very "steiff",
I couldn't play so I stopped taking it.
I also got tits.
Yes... "titten"
I stopped,
I have to...
there are many side effects
so I can take the pills.
against side effects...
but I didn't take Risperdal...
I grew "titten" too.
Are you coming
In Amsterdam I used to...
go to the Colombian girl.
30 Euros for sucky sucky
and 50 for sucky fucky.
No way!
What? That's tons of money.
No, that's cheap,
it can also cost 100 Euros.
Once I saw this old man
who walked up to a window,
took a woman, went to someone else,
another woman, like, two women.
- Yes. -That could cost 500 Euros.
What?
Yes.
- Do you think I could be good at that?
If I was in Amsterdam?
If it's tons of money,
I don't mind being a prostitute.
Do you want to be a prostitute?
I want to be rich.
What do I care?
It disgusts me as it is.
If I could make
tons of money out of it...
So earlier, when we...
was that disgusting?
Not really. I mean, a little.
Sometimes it's more disgusting
and other times less, but...
that's life.
Sometimes you do disgusting things.
Eating is disgusting too.
Oh, don't be offended.
It's the least disgusting thing I did
all day, okay?
Yes.
Look, the container won't be
here before Wednesday,
It won't help if I nag
I'll get back to you...
You got taller.
No.
I think you did.
No.
I got my period.
You did?
That's wonderful.
Really?
Yes, really. -That's wonderful, isn't it?
That's wonderful.
What?
I'm just fine. This is my friend Neil.
Yes, hi.
Yinon, go to your room please.
And take our honorable guest
with you.
Now, Yinon!
Stop lying, you hear me?
You're breaking my heart
with your lies.
I'm not lying.
You ran away from the ward
like an escaped convict.
You think we're stupid?
Do you think they didn't
call to tell me?
I really can't be there anymore.
And I don't have to, I'm healthy.
I got my period.
That's enough.
You want me to show you my pad?
Look how pretty your mother is.
Why she married an ugly guy like me
I'll never know. -Oh, come on.
Beautiful,
can you give me a logical explanation
why you ran away from the ward?
Don't you want to be healthy?
Don't you want to be a productive citizen
that contributes to her country?
I know what's best for me is to take
some time and to take care of myself,
far away from that sick ward
with all those demented girls.
They just pull me down.
The doctors don't really care
about treating us.
All they do is focus on the disease and stamp it
on our foreheads like a scarlet letter.
That we'll be sick for life,
that we'll always need care.
The head of the facility looks like a man
who's cheating on his wife.
Yes, but you realize that if you leave the ward
you're only harming yourself, right?
And that it could result
in you never being a mother?
That it's irreversible? -I know I can do this
without harming myself in the long run.
I mean it. Like all those super models,
when they want kids, they start eating again.
Athletes too. All women whose bodies
are their profession.
I asked for a logical explanation, so why are you
pulling my chain and telling me stories?
I am being logical.
Why do you think I'm not?
You understand the logic
of how a top spins
and why you mustn't remove
a bee's stinger from your arm,
and about lift force, and I understand
the logic of how to help myself.
I'm looking for the RKO
by Randy Orton.
What's this?
Is this water?
Yes, for my arms.
What?
Have you ever seen "Lockup Raw"
on YouTube? -No.
It's these people in prison in America,
they're not allowed to have regular weights
so they make up exercise techniques.
In prison?
- Yes, in a cell the size of this room.
You know what a bed press is?
-No.
Get up.
This.
It pumps up the chest and the shoulders.
Triple H and Steve Austin
were in prison too.
How do you think they worked out?
Have you ever been in prison?
Yes, sort of.
Really?
Yes, sort of.
Really? -Yes.
So, you know how in isolation
they're not allowed to have bags
So people don't kill themselves?
But they have techniques too.
I haven't tried them yet.
Have you been in isolation?
Not isolation, I was in confinement.
"Solitary".
Sometimes you're tied up
so you don't hit.
So can I come visit you?
No
Want to learn some exercises?
And heturns...
Wow, awesome!
Yinon, come to eat!
Yes, we're coming.
This is for later, but it's between us.
If you tell my mother, i'll kill you.
Yinon...
Look at him.
Tell me, do you ever talk?
Yes, I'm Neil, nice to meet you.
Do you have an accent,
or is that how you talk?
Serve yourselves.
This is how I talk.
Where are you from?
Amsterdam.
- Amsterdam.
Neil, help yourself.
I was born in Israel.
In Holland, but I moved here
when I was one.
So, you lived in Holland for one year,
before you even spoke,
and you have an accent?
I went to Amsterdam to study music.
And moved back here.
Are you Jewish?
I heard about this Dutchman
who kidnapped and raped
his neighbour's daughters.
for years in a basement.
And nobody heard anything.
Did you hear about that?
My dad's Christian
so in Holland I'm a Christian
and my mom's Jewish,
so in Israel I'm an Israeli.
Maybe my grandfather murdered my family,
I don't know.
Wow, it feels so weird
eating normal food for a change.
I mean it.
Even you say their food is a disgrace.
- That's true.
White bread, cheese and pudding.
It's outrageous.
Instead of teaching you to eat properly...
-Right.
They teach you to gorge yourself.
You were raised well
and still you disrespect your body.
You're not even allowed to ask questions.
It's a ghetto.
A ghetto?
How about we go to Yad Vashem
and I'll remind you what a ghetto is.
A ghetto...
- You know that to this day
the Germans' diet is made up
mainly of white bread,
sausages and butter.
Isn't that shocking?
At 7am they eat white bread,
butter and sausage.
Yes.
I don't understand it.
Neil, this is from the pulp of almonds.
- This? -Yes.
After I grind the almonds
I grind the pulp
and make patties.
It's a bit like gefilte fish.
You can eat it with the cabbage pita.
You take the cabbage leaf
and put in whatever you like.
These are spaghetti made of raw zucchini.
Everything's raw.
You know what raw food is?
- No.
And some cucumber macaroni.
-You and I will get a grip,
you'll finish eating...
- We'll go to the hospital, heads held high.
What?
I'm not going back.
No reason I should.
Finish eating and we'll go to the hospital.
You want me to go back to a room
with four psychos?
I told mom, they stick cheese on their feet
with cottage cheese
so they can vomit it at night.
While I, your daughter, feel healthy.
You want to change places with me?
You would never survive in my world.
All the food here, Neil,
is organic vegan.
It's not cooked,
not fried, not steamed.
It's raw.
The understanding that...
our lives have meaning,
beyond the physical human bodily pleasures
that all animals feel
that understanding is like
an existential obsession to me.
Have you heard of Nahmanides?
Okay, listen,
I have something to say.
I apologize for the way
I left the ward.
It wasn't right,
but something good is happening.
I've been feeling fine
for a very long time.
I'm eating,
I got my period,
I feel that I've learned everything
I can from that place,
and I have many ideas about what to do,
I have tons of ideas
about what to do next,
I'm not going to lay here
on the couch all day
I can think of a few ideas and things.
I'd appreciate it if you'd help me.
You're here to ask for money, huh?
That's why you came here.
No, I came to ask for help.
No, you came to ask for money
so you can keep killing yourself.
I came to ask for help
to start living again.
Get up, we're going back to the hospital.
It's over. Right now. Done!
Neil, let's go.
You're not going anywhere with him,
-Tom,
you can come with me if you want.
We're going away.
It's okay. She...
she'll be with me,
I'm going to Europe with the band on Monday
and we have a house in Berlin,
Its big, the house, very big.
she can come with me,
I'll take care of her.
Berlin?
She's not going anywhere whith him.
You're all about ego, ego, ego!
What I want, what suits me,
what I feel like...
It's my life,
I'm not going back to the hospital.
What do you think?
That you were born by chance to this family,
to this nation?
In a specific place, and time, by accident?
That all of this is accidental?
And for your personal pleasures
you're going to desecrate
the memory of babies
That were thrown into the crematoria?
She's going to Berlin. Very nice.
Have a good time there,
on the well-kept streets of Berlin
that belong to the sick German nation,
the ugly, disgusting nation
that seized babies from their mothers
and burned them
to the sound of classical music
played by an orchestra of skeletons!
That's enough.
Those mothers are my true sisters,
I am committed to them.
I won't let them be forgotten.
I will preserve their memory!
I fought for your life in a way
and at a price that you'll never understand.
It's a tour,
the audience in Europe is boring, but...
it's a lot of money.
Tell me, you flea, you,
do you know what kind of Jews go there?
She'll be with me.
I'll take care of her.
She has to be in the hospital.
- Yes, it's okay.
What's okay?
- It's okay!
Stop saying "it's okay",
you moron!
Don't you understand that she's in danger?
You want to be responsible for her?
What doesn't your Dutch brain understand?
Leave her alone.
Let her go. It's okay.
I have to recognise that it's her, not me.
She wants to go to Berlin,
let her go to Berlin.
She wants to kill herself,
let her kill herself.
It has nothing to do with me.
It's her.
Want to go to your place?
Yes...
I live in Jerusalem, in a hostel.
Great.
I mean... a hostel.
A tourist hostel?
No, it's "gek..."
for crazy people.
Are you crazy?
Yes, I think...
I'm okay, I'm not a "totaal gek"
but...
In Holland, I saw people...
whose eyes move
and they're dead and...
there's movement,
in the orchestra too...
Do you have your own room
in the hostel?
I have a roommate, Stas.
And Shimon.
Are they cool?
With me being there and all?
No, it's forbidden.
It's forbidden.
Sorry...
Okay.
Yes...
Yes.
There's a musical piece for
brass instruments...
that...
In the 'kerk', the 'Pian e Forte' by Gabrieli.
Do you know it?
Yes?
It's one group against the other...
So I waited for a long time,
"Niet zo lang..." "ik heb lang gespeeld"
but I waited and looked at the "groep"
playing across from me,
they were playing very beautifully.
"Heel mooi". Very beautiful.
And I saw their eyes moving, yes?
And there was a lot of "veel beweging",
a lot of movement,
but they were dead.
They looked like "skelleten" that...
Yes, just bones, moving and...
but only... like skeletons.
In the asylum, to calm myself down,
I used to "slaan" on the piano,
it reminded me of "kikkers..."
Frogs.
"Kikkers."
Yes.
Who wants to touch my tits?
People, wake up! Come on, tits!
Call some more people over. -Who?
- Whoever likes tits, come here now!
Who wants to touch my tits?
Who wants to touch my tits?
Go for it.
- Go for it.
Come on. -You want to?
- Let's do it.
Want to touch my tits?
- Way to go. -It's 10 shekels each.
You touched my tits.
Give me 10 shekels now!
Come touch my tits!
-I want to, hold on.
Give her 10 shekels.
- You touched my tits, right?
Yes.
- Give me 10 shekels now.
Hey? What are you doing?
- Give her 10 shekels!
Give her 10 shekels!
Give her 10 shekels!
That's it. Yes.
"Goed".
Okay, okay, hold on, breathe in.
Inhale, inhale.
I'm inhaling.
Yes.
Are you going to take me abroad?
Yes, "op maandag," yes.
- What?
Yes. -You're going to take me abroad?
- Yes. -Then give me your phone.
Yes.
Hi... guess who's out?
Yes.
No way!
How did you know?
Now, now.
It's my husband's number.
The audience is boring
but there's lots of money.
Tom!
Oh my God, come on!
Alon likes to ask for the best whiskey.
- Come on already!
Hi!
-Hi!
I'd like you to meet Neils.
Hi.
- Hey.
This is Maayan.
This is Daniela.
What's that?
It's a tuba.
He's in The Misogynists.
Oh, ok, really?
And you wear your own band's t-shirt.
Oh, yes, it was...
Where's Dana?
Did you tell Dana?
Dana...
What?
- You know that Dana died.
What?
Really?
- You're kidding me.
No, I didn't know.
Nobody told you?
No.
- Heart failure. A month ago.
I didn't know that.
I'm sorry,
I was sure somebody told you.
The day before, she went to get a tattoo
with her walker and her Filipino.
Dana, I hope that wherever you are
you don't have a tube up your nose
and I hope that awful nurse
isn't chasing you
and that you're not wearing a strait jacket
and there's no disgusting
cornflakes for breakfast
and please, don't let the smell of
falafel add any calories to my body
and make sure
I'll never have fat kids.
Amen, amen.
Dana, make sure the soap that got in
my mouth in the shower isn't fattening.
Amen.
Forget not fattening,
make it a laxative.
- Amen, amen.
Cheers!
- Cheers!
Cheers!
And to the God of skinny,
always keep us safe!
And to Neils, who came to me
like a knight in shining armor.
Cheers!
- Cheers! -Cheers!
your friend "dood"
What?
Is she "dood"?
- Is my friend a dude? Who, Danielle?
She's not a dude.
"Ik wil niet dat je doodgaat."
What?
- That you'll die like your friend.
Neil, I won't die.
- You'll die like your friend!
I won't die like my friend
She was a loser, you hear me?
A tiny piece of banana
that's all the potassium I need.
I'm not going anywhere with you
if you meddle with what I eat.
Goddammit!
Neil? -Yes.
I need you to stay with me.
I need you to go with me.
What I said earlier,
I need you to go with me.
It doesn't disgust you?
What?
Kissing somebody who threw up before?
I don't know.
I would be disgusted.
When you eat ice cream,
do you get a different feeling in your nose?
In your hands?
I don't think about it.
Your body feels the same before and after?
Well?
What does it feel like?
Yes, it's Okay.
What do you mean, Okay?
It's Okay, I never liked ice cream very much.
But try to understand how you feel.
How does your body feel?
It's sweet?
Did you ever want to die?
Um... Yes,
I... No. I'm not depressive.
I don't get pills for depression.
I told people I wanted to die but
think I did it to scare them.
No...
Did you want to die?
I want to die, but quietly.
I want to wilt.
Just slowly disappear
that they'll forget I ever existed.
I love you... Yes?
But you know, it's not real.
I'm not really here.
Like, only today I was
a thousand different things.
Every time I think I'm one thing,
You know...
Like, I think I'm one thing,
and then I stay that way for a few hours
And I feel like I figured out how to live
and then it passes.
It passes and I want to die again.
I just don't want to lie to you.
I don't know.
Okay, I think you're a really
good person
and I'll try to make you happy.
And I'll come to Berlin with you.
And
I'll try to make us happy,
and try to live like people who...
who like us understand how to live.
And nobody will bother us,
until something bothers us.
It's like...
It just... something always does.
That's the truth,
something always does and...
I always feel like something
gets into me and...
like all of a sudden
someone is breathing on me.
You know...
Yes.
All the things you said, I love them.
Because I love
Hello.
- Alon?
Yes, it's Neil and my girlfriend...
His wife.
Can we stay over?
Hold on.
- Yeah.
Stop buzzing!
He's coming down.
Sorry, Einav has a photo shoot in two hours
I'm afraid you can't stay over.
Hi.-Hi.
You look familiar.
Do I know you?
What? -Have we met?
- Maybe.
I'm Alon.
Where are you from?
Yes, this is Alon. Alon, this is Tom.
She's coming on Monday.
I'm leaving on Monday.
- Yes, to Europe.
I didn't get it.
Tom is coming with us too.
Are you drunk?
You said so. You said so.
What did I say?
That "dat we verkopen."
The flames in the tuba.
What's "verkopen"?
You wrote that I'm in the band.
Neil, you're kidding, right?
Neil...
What didn't you get?
What?
Is he serious?
Neil.
Neil, I haven't seen you in years.
Call right now, yes?
Say that we're "komen" on the tour.
I can't. It's no game.
- Yes you can.
Call now
and say I'm in the band.
You're not in the band.
I am so in the band.
Call and say I'm in the band.
Neil, what do you want from me?
You're not in the band.
I am!
I want to be in the band!
You can't be in the band.
- You can put me in the band.
You can!
You can!
Neil, keep your voice down.
Neil.
I play well and I'll practice.
Shut up!
Neil
Shut up! Shut up!
Neil, the neighbours will call the police.
Shut up!
Move.
Neil...
Buddy...
Stay still!
Shut up!
Move! Shut up!
Neil, it's not cool.
You want them to call the police?
What am I supposed to do?
What do you want from me?
Neil, buddy...
"I promised her!"
You need to go back to Jerusalem.
Let's go.
Stop!
Leave him alone!
Help!
Enough, Neil!
Imagine a magician
comes to see you,
and he says: "Listen,
I'm giving you a 15 minute gift
during which you can choose someone
to come visit you."
I'd tell the magician
I don't want any visitors.
You don't want any guests?
- No.
Do you want to tell us why?
I like being on my own.
I used to have a dog
that looked like a fox.
A puppy.
She always made me happy.
I had an angel come to me
and I asked him
to bestow upon me lots and lots...
of money.
I'd like to invite Jesus Christ.
He said he'd be back soon
and redeem us.
No suffering, no sickness, no death,
Why isn't he coming?
What is he waiting for?
Are you okay with serving only white food
at our wedding?
It doesn't dirty me as much
on the inside.
It's less disgusting on
the sides of the stomach.
Is that Okay?
Only white food?
And ice. We can have tons of ice.
And popsicles made only of water.
With the texture of a popsicle.
We can put mint inside.
But you don't eat the mint.
And for the kids,
pineapple jello, transparent...
Honey I'm no lion
Just a lame horse
I'm sorry I'm nothing more!
And longings, I can't stop
Objects from collecting dust
try so hard,
A poisoned, defeated mouse
Honey I insist on going on trusting us
to try and rise above
That this air with this good smell
of a fresh start
Will fill my miserable body
like candy
In an old house
like yellow pictures
Like confused piss
Girl - Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me.
Tom
Eating Disorder Ward Girls
Health Care Assistants
Sveta
Dr. Stern
Meirav from PR
Hostel Residents
Amnon
French Couple in Elevator
Einav Friedman
Alon
Father
Mother
Little Brother
Tit-touching Men
Tom's Friends and Filipino Caretaker
Karaoke Singers
Wish Makers
Therapy Group in Mental Institution
Troubadour
אל תשכחי אותי Al Tishkehi Oti
DON'T FORGET ME
Neil yamatzhik! That's why im telling you that
you should join the band and we'll start playing
Bach-Covers!! I'm bored of this house garage shit...
Ha! yalla! We can also play some traditional dutch old
lumberjack goat fucking cheez eating music!
"Also songs by Misogynists"?
Gotta go Nils I'll be in Israel on Thursday, lets meet up this time!!
I'll call you! check this stupid video someone made for us...
Turn it off! People are sleeping!
Okay, okay.
Turn this off!
Dammit.
Good morning, girls-
It's morning, girls.
Wake up!
Tania?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Orit?
Bowel movement? Period?
No and No.
Betty?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Dor?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Orit?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
-No?
Okay.
Girls it's breakfast soon,
Wake
Sveta? -What?
Can you unlock the bathroom?
Genadi will open it.
Girls, it smells in here, open a window!
What's wrong with you?
Eden?
Bowel movement? Period?
Eden, I'm talking to you!
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
Emily?
Bowel movement? Period?
Yes. No.
Thank you very much.
Good.
Zohar?
No. No.
Okay.
Rinat?
Bowel movement? Period?
No. No.
No, well,
What can you do...
Oh Vera, you're up.
Good.
Bowel movement? Period?
No and no.
No and no.
How did you sleep?
Girls!
It's a new day, girls.
Yuval? Bowel movement? Period?
- No. No.
No and... no.
Alona?
Bowel movement? Period?
What do you think?
Gimme a break...
No, no.
Tom?
Bowel movement? Period?
No, yes.
- No, yes.
Good job.
Sapir? Good morning.
Sapir!
Good morning!
Well, sweetie?
Bowel movement? Period?
No and no.
No and no and no and no...
Undress already.
Let's go...
- Sveta, take a look at this tooth.
No, really, look at it:
Can you see it's transparent?
It wasn't like that when I got here, right?
It's falling apart.
Does that seem normal to you?
- Tom, dear, it's perfectly fine.
It just means your body
isn't stressed anymore.
Get on with it, please.
Come on.
How will you know my true weight like this?
- Tom, dear, get on please.
You don't give me answers, I need answers.
Isn't there anyone else who can weigh me?
There is nobody else here
who can examine me?
One moment...
Wait, let's take this off.
Take this off also.
Get on...
Good morning, everyone.
The time is 8:05.
Breakfast starts now,
you have 20 minutes.
Enjoy your meal.
- Enjoy your meal...
Enjoy your meal.
Do you need help with that?
Hands on the table.
Good.
Would you start eating?
Stop vibrating.
Put it on mute.
A pain in the ass.
What did you say
the black guy's name was?
14? DJ Strawberry.
What kind of name is that?
What do you want it to be?
Blacky.
Blacky?
Is he Ethiopian?
When can I shift to electric?
Classic guitars have thick necks,
to stretch your fingers,
then you can switch to acoustic,
electric,
whatever you like.
- No, he started already,
I bought him an electric guitar,
he's taking lessons and...
Weissbach, remember me?
I used to come in here.
Weissbach is the name of the shop.
I'm Amnon.
Amnon, yes. I'm Neil.
Remember I used to come here?
Yes, sure...
Ill be right with you...
Can I play the tuba?
I'll just finish with them.
- You won't have to drag the guitar
all over town. -No...
-Thinkabout it and...
Yes, it's not instead of...
that's what I'm saying. -Yes.
- Look, Dad... it's different.
I like the sound of the electric,
I like the...
Now he's into rock and roll,
chicks and all that.
Rightfully so... Listen...
he'll do it when...
If he comes in to try
a left handed so...
Then I have to change it... -Okay.
So we'll come again, alright?
I'm here. I'm not going anywhere.
- Okay. Thanks.
- Thanks. Bye.
Son?
You want a tuba with a C pitch?
Yes.
Don't you remember me?
Did you take lessons
with my son?
No, I studied at the conservatory
in Amsterdam.
You don't say.
- You know it?
I heard about it.
It's a fine school.
Yes.
It's made of silver.
Great finish.
It's German.
Yes, do you...
do you "repareren" them too?
What?
Do you...
fix tubas?
Whoa...
What happened to the poor thing?
I haven't played in a long time.
My mom bought it for me years ago.
Look, a setup and cleaning,
are 600 shekels, but do you see this?
I have to order parts from abroad,
You see?
It's dead.
Yes, I'm going to play in a band
and then I'll have money for a new tuba, but...
I'm going to play in a band.
That's nice. -Yes, "Misogynists",
Have you heard of them?
No.
They're very successful
in Europe, America...
Yes, I'm going to join them.
Really?
-Yes.
How much does a tuba like this cost?
That one?
I can sell it to you for 22.
That's a good price.
Do you remember...
do you know my mother?
Mini? She...
She's a redhead. We lived
around the corner, in Tel Aviv.
Can you give me a better price?
You can pay me in installments.
Even 30 installments,
that should make it easier.
Yes, the thing is...
Thank you.
How about credit?
A card.
Yes, that's what I mean.
Yes, because... my dad,
he gave me a card.
When I came here he told me:
"Neil, don't do anything stupid!"
You want to ask him?
Oh, yes, no, that's okay.
I don't understand.
No... I...
I want to buy the tuba.
And is it fine with your father?
- Yes.
Hey, Salman, can you move a little?
Come on, I can't go like this.
Can you move? A little?
Please? Just a bit.
Do what you need to do quietly.
there's the regular walk that you see
at most fashion weeks, like this...
It's ordinary,
but if you walk in heels then it's cool,
because you can burn calories.
Okay? Then there's the Victoria's Secret walk...
where it's good there's something to wiggle...
Then there's this cool music...
Paris fashion week,
it's the coldest.
Pose...
And Miami is the best,
bathing suits and heels,
it's good for burning fat on the sides,
with this vitality in the face.
Are you watching?
Like this...
tanned.
Pose...
Aren't you tired of being cynical?
How about trying something new?
Last night I felt
like I was about to die,
like I'm supposed to get my period
and take a shit at the same time,
like something is about to come out of
my stomach and then my life will be over.
Then I had to pee
and I discovered I got my period.
I had to tell Sveta this morning:
"No, I didn't take a shit
but I got my period."
And that moron, instead of realizing that
this is the most humiliating moment in my life,
that I want to crawl into my period
and die,
she said in front of everyone:
"Great, congratulations, good job, Tom."
I never saw her smiling before.
Ever.
With that disgusting gold tooth
and that moustache.
Yuck... what a disgusting woman.
I mean... don't you have
someone's vomit to clean up?
Don't you have any dishes to wash?
I'm looking at her and she
just doesn't get it.
Like some autistic kid that can
play the piano really well
but doesn't get basic things.
You were a great pianist in Russia?
Go back there!
And get that gold tooth fixed.
Isn't it supposed to look natural?
You want everyone to know
daddy beat you up when he was drunk?
Stupid woman.
Really, pack up and go back there
Rid us of your presence
Leave us in peace
Next time I see her
I'm going to vomit on her.
Okay, that's enough.
Next.
Change the subject. Move on.
It's not just Sveta, it's all Russians
I never had a problem with Russians,
but now I get it:
She doesn't fit in,
did you see her hair?
Her skin is full of pimples.
There are enough
problems in this country already,
Just leave, get out!
You don't get what's going on.
She has no friends,
she's in the ward all day
Just leave!
Give us some peace and quiet!
Okay, I want us
to achieve something today.
The fact that you got
your period back...
A period is healthy.
Yuck.
Yuck?
Yes, yuck.
Periods are yuck?
No, periods are excellent.
I feel like a woman.
So many girls here dream for
something like that to happen to them.
You're right.
I feel blessed,
it's a wonderful thing,
I wouldn't trade my body with anyone.
Okay, enough already.
This room is where you come
to get help.
Don't you want to heal?
Don't you miss being healthy?
Nice...
Change the channel!
Come on, Yuval. Change the channel,
We can't watch that stuff here...
What do you care? Just one time.
It looks interesting
Are you kidding me?
You know we are not watching this.
We're not looking at their bodies.
Oh, Come on...
Hi,
Do you want me to do your nails?
Or you can do mine...
For me, all those shapes and lines...
they really help...
I thought maybe... for you as well...
Am I bothering you?
You want me to leave...?
It's just that we're all
in the same boat here
And if... I can help you,
you can help me...
You get how I feel, right?
So I get how you feel, too
Hello!
"Je vriend here", the flying Dutchman.
Wow,
"achtentachtig!"
You're a genius.
How did you find me?
You wrote on Facebook
that you're in the penthouse.
You're right.
Are your parents here?
Yosefa and Avraham?
Ronen. Come inside.
- Oh, Ronen.
Yosefa and Ronen are...
in Vienna, or Switzerland.
I don't know.
This apartment is usually empty.
Just a second..
So how are you doing, my friend?
You look good.
Tell me what's going on.
Are you going to "om op te treden"?
To the shows?
Yeah, Europe, but it's boring,
the audience there is the same as here.
But the money is good,
I couldn't say no.
Are you a large?
We only have large,
Americans are fat.
Yes.
It fits.
Like those kids on their skateboards.
I hate them.
I bought a new tuba.
You did? That's awesome.
Show me.
I wanted to show you something.
We opened for a band
at a soccer stadium in Mexico.
You still watch soccer?
Yes, Ajax.
Ajax? They still exist?
Yes, they have a new manager.
This is Chrissy from Alabama.
She's a hair stylist.
American women are such whores.
They're raised on porn,
they're all shaved... I hate it.
You want to teach me some songs
of the band?
It goes like this?
Neil.
Neil!
What?
How about you?
You okay now?
"Gelukkig wel."
Dutch is an awful language.
A combination of German and autism.
"Gelukkig wel."
Did I tell you the Germans are giving us
a building in Berlin for a year?
We're moving there.
It's a retarded city
but it's a fucking building.
You should come, I'll be real close.
It's become so disgusting. 10 years ago
the cathinone here was amazing.
But it's better than coke and those assholes
who lived in Williamsburg for 2 years
and worked in a hummus place and only
stayed with Israelis
and now they do coke because
they're from New York.
You wanna live in New York
then really live there.
Leave me alone.
And when do I come to the shows?
What shows?
- The tour, to play.
You mean tour with us?
You can come on Monday.
We can put a condenser
for the tuba...
You need a fire shooting tuba.
You come down from the ceiling, on ropes,
play a solo and pass out.
I saw this Japanese band doing it,
but with a trumpet and it sucked.
- Yes. -Awesome.
Babe, this is Neil, my friend from Amsterdam,
we haven't met since 10th grade.
9th grade. -Neil like Nils?
So where's Captain Akka?
- You came to Rotterdam, right?
-Yes
Do you know who that is?
Einav Friedman.
She's a super celeb here.
Babe, tell Neil
who you modelled for.
It's not funny.
I'm no fucking model.
You call four TV series
and three months at Lee Strasberg a model?
Get dressed already.
It's hilarious walking down the street with her.
I bump into all these
Ruchmans and Pritzkers from school.
"Einav Friedman...?!"
Alon, are you coming or what?
- Morons...
I don't want go to this hospital ward thing alone.
Come with us, it will be funny.
-Yes.
Babe, can Neil come?
Yes. And a trip to London
we play, the "Hope and Anchor."
Talk to Steve Jackson.
Hey there, gorgeous!
She's one of us.
Hi! -Hi. -Are the boys with you?
-Yes.
Okay, let them in too.
We'll get them name tags.
- Do it fast, it's hot.
It's this procedure.
Excellent. Welcome. Welcome.
- Basel and
also Zurich... -This is the unit. -Yes.
- That I told you about. -Yes.
They're so happy you're here.
As you can see,
this is the old wing.
They do extraordinary work here...
Your being here is important to them.
Really.
If you ask me, it's Zionism.
and it's good for your image
so people know
you're a beautiful on the inside too.
Look,
the girls are so excited to see you.
And we let them come outside
so they can be part of it.
You know, clean up the place.
Tania, get up, keep working.
Pssttt...
Who are you?
Neil.
Why are you here?
"Weet ik niet," Alon...
Do you speak Hebrew?
Yes.
What is she doing?
Trying to burn calories.
Look at me.
Have we met?
Do you know me from somewhere?
Rivka!
- You can say
Then no.
- Are you sure?
Rivka.
Rivka! Rivka!
Go Rivka! Go Rivka!
Now look at my body.
All of it.
Do you think I'm skinny?
What?
- You think I'm fat?
Talk, don't be scared.
No... that...
Chubby?
- No, no, that you're... "Heel dun".
What's that?
that you're...
...thin.
Are you lying to me?
No.
Then I didn't get it.
Skinny or fat?
Skinny.
Are you asking me?
Let's go.
I have to, now...
Tell me the truth.
Am I thin or fat?
Tom, help your friends.
-1 can't make "problemen".
No trouble, you can really help me.
-1 can't make "problemen".
Ok, define thin to me.
Whose thin?
What's thin to you?
Tom!
- Ok. Yeah.
Neil, right?
-Yes.
You should help me.
Think about it.
We can't start eating
until we're told to.
Let's wait for her to sit.
Hi, sweetie.
Are you waiting for me?
We're waiting for you too.
- How sweet.
Okay, be quiet!
You have 30 minutes. Enjoy!
- Enjoy!
Hey, where are you going
Enjoy.
Smells good, huh?
Not really, no.
Looks good.
It's disgusting, isn't it?
What?
The food.
No, it looks great.
Why aren't you eating?
You're not eating?
What?
- You're not eating?
Of course I'm eating, it's...
really good.
Remember when you signed
autographs at the mall?
I think so.
Rinat and Hili, eat.
Listen, everyone's looking at you.
Did you say something?
Everyone's looking,
you better eat.
I'm eating,
it's quite delicious.
Wow, you're so thin.
I was there with my sister.
When you signed autographs
at the mall.
We just passed by,
for the heck of it.
Oh yeah?
-Yes.
Was it fun?
- Very.
Just to see all the celebrities...
I'm sorry, it's sensitive.
You really have to eat.
- But I can't.
Einav, I'm sorry,
we agreed that you'd eat.
I can't, sorry.
Try. Please.
-1 can't.
Meirav, I can't...
Please sit down.
Don't move!
Don't panic!
Please return to your seats.
Welcome everyone.
We are all here to honor, support,
and yes, to contribute
to these wonderful boys and girls,
the heroes who have touched my heart.
Yes.
Dr. Amiram Stern,
thank you for your work here
at the eating disorder center.
Limor, please come to the stage.
Good evening.
Thank you for coming.
My name is Limor.
This is my second time in this ward,
I want to tell you
about the first time.
Before my army discharge.
I was an officer
in the combat engineering corps.
At first I was happy to be away from home,
eating without being judged.
I loved staying weekends.
My soldiers thought I'm so dedicated,
I just wanted to be alone and eat.
At one point I told the soldiers
that I needed to inspect their packages.
I began by hiding one or two and...
What's going on?
quickly got to a point
where the soldiers
didn't get any packages.
I took them all to my room,
locked the door
and...
Do you know what a soft jaw is?
I don't have a gag reflex,
so I can put it all in.
But you're gonna tell me
before you cum.
Yes. -I mean it. -Yes.
- It's 150 calories, Neil.
The thing about candy
and food in general is...
there's this emptiness,
and sometimes
you want to feel full and...
food, candies...
when chocolate goes in it's...
caressing.
But then you have to get it out.
I hoped that if I vomit
the candies would come back.
I tried to bring them back...
Are you alright?
- Yes, yes. Keep going.
And...
and I learned that the food that I eat
must remain in my body.
Sometimes I hope
it will come out in my sweat
and after a long time,
now that I'm healed,
Tom, Tom...
Hold this.
My leg shakes when...
The Risperdal, it...
it made my fingers very "steiff",
I couldn't play so I stopped taking it.
I also got tits.
Yes... "titten"
I stopped,
I have to...
there are many side effects
so I can take the pills.
against side effects...
but I didn't take Risperdal...
I grew "titten" too.
Are you coming
In Amsterdam I used to...
go to the Colombian girl.
30 Euros for sucky sucky
and 50 for sucky fucky.
No way!
What? That's tons of money.
No, that's cheap,
it can also cost 100 Euros.
Once I saw this old man
who walked up to a window,
took a woman, went to someone else,
another woman, like, two women.
- Yes. -That could cost 500 Euros.
What?
Yes.
- Do you think I could be good at that?
If I was in Amsterdam?
If it's tons of money,
I don't mind being a prostitute.
Do you want to be a prostitute?
I want to be rich.
What do I care?
It disgusts me as it is.
If I could make
tons of money out of it...
So earlier, when we...
was that disgusting?
Not really. I mean, a little.
Sometimes it's more disgusting
and other times less, but...
that's life.
Sometimes you do disgusting things.
Eating is disgusting too.
Oh, don't be offended.
It's the least disgusting thing I did
all day, okay?
Yes.
Look, the container won't be
here before Wednesday,
It won't help if I nag
I'll get back to you...
You got taller.
No.
I think you did.
No.
I got my period.
You did?
That's wonderful.
Really?
Yes, really. -That's wonderful, isn't it?
That's wonderful.
What?
I'm just fine. This is my friend Neil.
Yes, hi.
Yinon, go to your room please.
And take our honorable guest
with you.
Now, Yinon!
Stop lying, you hear me?
You're breaking my heart
with your lies.
I'm not lying.
You ran away from the ward
like an escaped convict.
You think we're stupid?
Do you think they didn't
call to tell me?
I really can't be there anymore.
And I don't have to, I'm healthy.
I got my period.
That's enough.
You want me to show you my pad?
Look how pretty your mother is.
Why she married an ugly guy like me
I'll never know. -Oh, come on.
Beautiful,
can you give me a logical explanation
why you ran away from the ward?
Don't you want to be healthy?
Don't you want to be a productive citizen
that contributes to her country?
I know what's best for me is to take
some time and to take care of myself,
far away from that sick ward
with all those demented girls.
They just pull me down.
The doctors don't really care
about treating us.
All they do is focus on the disease and stamp it
on our foreheads like a scarlet letter.
That we'll be sick for life,
that we'll always need care.
The head of the facility looks like a man
who's cheating on his wife.
Yes, but you realize that if you leave the ward
you're only harming yourself, right?
And that it could result
in you never being a mother?
That it's irreversible? -I know I can do this
without harming myself in the long run.
I mean it. Like all those super models,
when they want kids, they start eating again.
Athletes too. All women whose bodies
are their profession.
I asked for a logical explanation, so why are you
pulling my chain and telling me stories?
I am being logical.
Why do you think I'm not?
You understand the logic
of how a top spins
and why you mustn't remove
a bee's stinger from your arm,
and about lift force, and I understand
the logic of how to help myself.
I'm looking for the RKO
by Randy Orton.
What's this?
Is this water?
Yes, for my arms.
What?
Have you ever seen "Lockup Raw"
on YouTube? -No.
It's these people in prison in America,
they're not allowed to have regular weights
so they make up exercise techniques.
In prison?
- Yes, in a cell the size of this room.
You know what a bed press is?
-No.
Get up.
This.
It pumps up the chest and the shoulders.
Triple H and Steve Austin
were in prison too.
How do you think they worked out?
Have you ever been in prison?
Yes, sort of.
Really?
Yes, sort of.
Really? -Yes.
So, you know how in isolation
they're not allowed to have bags
So people don't kill themselves?
But they have techniques too.
I haven't tried them yet.
Have you been in isolation?
Not isolation, I was in confinement.
"Solitary".
Sometimes you're tied up
so you don't hit.
So can I come visit you?
No
Want to learn some exercises?
And heturns...
Wow, awesome!
Yinon, come to eat!
Yes, we're coming.
This is for later, but it's between us.
If you tell my mother, i'll kill you.
Yinon...
Look at him.
Tell me, do you ever talk?
Yes, I'm Neil, nice to meet you.
Do you have an accent,
or is that how you talk?
Serve yourselves.
This is how I talk.
Where are you from?
Amsterdam.
- Amsterdam.
Neil, help yourself.
I was born in Israel.
In Holland, but I moved here
when I was one.
So, you lived in Holland for one year,
before you even spoke,
and you have an accent?
I went to Amsterdam to study music.
And moved back here.
Are you Jewish?
I heard about this Dutchman
who kidnapped and raped
his neighbour's daughters.
for years in a basement.
And nobody heard anything.
Did you hear about that?
My dad's Christian
so in Holland I'm a Christian
and my mom's Jewish,
so in Israel I'm an Israeli.
Maybe my grandfather murdered my family,
I don't know.
Wow, it feels so weird
eating normal food for a change.
I mean it.
Even you say their food is a disgrace.
- That's true.
White bread, cheese and pudding.
It's outrageous.
Instead of teaching you to eat properly...
-Right.
They teach you to gorge yourself.
You were raised well
and still you disrespect your body.
You're not even allowed to ask questions.
It's a ghetto.
A ghetto?
How about we go to Yad Vashem
and I'll remind you what a ghetto is.
A ghetto...
- You know that to this day
the Germans' diet is made up
mainly of white bread,
sausages and butter.
Isn't that shocking?
At 7am they eat white bread,
butter and sausage.
Yes.
I don't understand it.
Neil, this is from the pulp of almonds.
- This? -Yes.
After I grind the almonds
I grind the pulp
and make patties.
It's a bit like gefilte fish.
You can eat it with the cabbage pita.
You take the cabbage leaf
and put in whatever you like.
These are spaghetti made of raw zucchini.
Everything's raw.
You know what raw food is?
- No.
And some cucumber macaroni.
-You and I will get a grip,
you'll finish eating...
- We'll go to the hospital, heads held high.
What?
I'm not going back.
No reason I should.
Finish eating and we'll go to the hospital.
You want me to go back to a room
with four psychos?
I told mom, they stick cheese on their feet
with cottage cheese
so they can vomit it at night.
While I, your daughter, feel healthy.
You want to change places with me?
You would never survive in my world.
All the food here, Neil,
is organic vegan.
It's not cooked,
not fried, not steamed.
It's raw.
The understanding that...
our lives have meaning,
beyond the physical human bodily pleasures
that all animals feel
that understanding is like
an existential obsession to me.
Have you heard of Nahmanides?
Okay, listen,
I have something to say.
I apologize for the way
I left the ward.
It wasn't right,
but something good is happening.
I've been feeling fine
for a very long time.
I'm eating,
I got my period,
I feel that I've learned everything
I can from that place,
and I have many ideas about what to do,
I have tons of ideas
about what to do next,
I'm not going to lay here
on the couch all day
I can think of a few ideas and things.
I'd appreciate it if you'd help me.
You're here to ask for money, huh?
That's why you came here.
No, I came to ask for help.
No, you came to ask for money
so you can keep killing yourself.
I came to ask for help
to start living again.
Get up, we're going back to the hospital.
It's over. Right now. Done!
Neil, let's go.
You're not going anywhere with him,
-Tom,
you can come with me if you want.
We're going away.
It's okay. She...
she'll be with me,
I'm going to Europe with the band on Monday
and we have a house in Berlin,
Its big, the house, very big.
she can come with me,
I'll take care of her.
Berlin?
She's not going anywhere whith him.
You're all about ego, ego, ego!
What I want, what suits me,
what I feel like...
It's my life,
I'm not going back to the hospital.
What do you think?
That you were born by chance to this family,
to this nation?
In a specific place, and time, by accident?
That all of this is accidental?
And for your personal pleasures
you're going to desecrate
the memory of babies
That were thrown into the crematoria?
She's going to Berlin. Very nice.
Have a good time there,
on the well-kept streets of Berlin
that belong to the sick German nation,
the ugly, disgusting nation
that seized babies from their mothers
and burned them
to the sound of classical music
played by an orchestra of skeletons!
That's enough.
Those mothers are my true sisters,
I am committed to them.
I won't let them be forgotten.
I will preserve their memory!
I fought for your life in a way
and at a price that you'll never understand.
It's a tour,
the audience in Europe is boring, but...
it's a lot of money.
Tell me, you flea, you,
do you know what kind of Jews go there?
She'll be with me.
I'll take care of her.
She has to be in the hospital.
- Yes, it's okay.
What's okay?
- It's okay!
Stop saying "it's okay",
you moron!
Don't you understand that she's in danger?
You want to be responsible for her?
What doesn't your Dutch brain understand?
Leave her alone.
Let her go. It's okay.
I have to recognise that it's her, not me.
She wants to go to Berlin,
let her go to Berlin.
She wants to kill herself,
let her kill herself.
It has nothing to do with me.
It's her.
Want to go to your place?
Yes...
I live in Jerusalem, in a hostel.
Great.
I mean... a hostel.
A tourist hostel?
No, it's "gek..."
for crazy people.
Are you crazy?
Yes, I think...
I'm okay, I'm not a "totaal gek"
but...
In Holland, I saw people...
whose eyes move
and they're dead and...
there's movement,
in the orchestra too...
Do you have your own room
in the hostel?
I have a roommate, Stas.
And Shimon.
Are they cool?
With me being there and all?
No, it's forbidden.
It's forbidden.
Sorry...
Okay.
Yes...
Yes.
There's a musical piece for
brass instruments...
that...
In the 'kerk', the 'Pian e Forte' by Gabrieli.
Do you know it?
Yes?
It's one group against the other...
So I waited for a long time,
"Niet zo lang..." "ik heb lang gespeeld"
but I waited and looked at the "groep"
playing across from me,
they were playing very beautifully.
"Heel mooi". Very beautiful.
And I saw their eyes moving, yes?
And there was a lot of "veel beweging",
a lot of movement,
but they were dead.
They looked like "skelleten" that...
Yes, just bones, moving and...
but only... like skeletons.
In the asylum, to calm myself down,
I used to "slaan" on the piano,
it reminded me of "kikkers..."
Frogs.
"Kikkers."
Yes.
Who wants to touch my tits?
People, wake up! Come on, tits!
Call some more people over. -Who?
- Whoever likes tits, come here now!
Who wants to touch my tits?
Who wants to touch my tits?
Go for it.
- Go for it.
Come on. -You want to?
- Let's do it.
Want to touch my tits?
- Way to go. -It's 10 shekels each.
You touched my tits.
Give me 10 shekels now!
Come touch my tits!
-I want to, hold on.
Give her 10 shekels.
- You touched my tits, right?
Yes.
- Give me 10 shekels now.
Hey? What are you doing?
- Give her 10 shekels!
Give her 10 shekels!
Give her 10 shekels!
That's it. Yes.
"Goed".
Okay, okay, hold on, breathe in.
Inhale, inhale.
I'm inhaling.
Yes.
Are you going to take me abroad?
Yes, "op maandag," yes.
- What?
Yes. -You're going to take me abroad?
- Yes. -Then give me your phone.
Yes.
Hi... guess who's out?
Yes.
No way!
How did you know?
Now, now.
It's my husband's number.
The audience is boring
but there's lots of money.
Tom!
Oh my God, come on!
Alon likes to ask for the best whiskey.
- Come on already!
Hi!
-Hi!
I'd like you to meet Neils.
Hi.
- Hey.
This is Maayan.
This is Daniela.
What's that?
It's a tuba.
He's in The Misogynists.
Oh, ok, really?
And you wear your own band's t-shirt.
Oh, yes, it was...
Where's Dana?
Did you tell Dana?
Dana...
What?
- You know that Dana died.
What?
Really?
- You're kidding me.
No, I didn't know.
Nobody told you?
No.
- Heart failure. A month ago.
I didn't know that.
I'm sorry,
I was sure somebody told you.
The day before, she went to get a tattoo
with her walker and her Filipino.
Dana, I hope that wherever you are
you don't have a tube up your nose
and I hope that awful nurse
isn't chasing you
and that you're not wearing a strait jacket
and there's no disgusting
cornflakes for breakfast
and please, don't let the smell of
falafel add any calories to my body
and make sure
I'll never have fat kids.
Amen, amen.
Dana, make sure the soap that got in
my mouth in the shower isn't fattening.
Amen.
Forget not fattening,
make it a laxative.
- Amen, amen.
Cheers!
- Cheers!
Cheers!
And to the God of skinny,
always keep us safe!
And to Neils, who came to me
like a knight in shining armor.
Cheers!
- Cheers! -Cheers!
your friend "dood"
What?
Is she "dood"?
- Is my friend a dude? Who, Danielle?
She's not a dude.
"Ik wil niet dat je doodgaat."
What?
- That you'll die like your friend.
Neil, I won't die.
- You'll die like your friend!
I won't die like my friend
She was a loser, you hear me?
A tiny piece of banana
that's all the potassium I need.
I'm not going anywhere with you
if you meddle with what I eat.
Goddammit!
Neil? -Yes.
I need you to stay with me.
I need you to go with me.
What I said earlier,
I need you to go with me.
It doesn't disgust you?
What?
Kissing somebody who threw up before?
I don't know.
I would be disgusted.
When you eat ice cream,
do you get a different feeling in your nose?
In your hands?
I don't think about it.
Your body feels the same before and after?
Well?
What does it feel like?
Yes, it's Okay.
What do you mean, Okay?
It's Okay, I never liked ice cream very much.
But try to understand how you feel.
How does your body feel?
It's sweet?
Did you ever want to die?
Um... Yes,
I... No. I'm not depressive.
I don't get pills for depression.
I told people I wanted to die but
think I did it to scare them.
No...
Did you want to die?
I want to die, but quietly.
I want to wilt.
Just slowly disappear
that they'll forget I ever existed.
I love you... Yes?
But you know, it's not real.
I'm not really here.
Like, only today I was
a thousand different things.
Every time I think I'm one thing,
You know...
Like, I think I'm one thing,
and then I stay that way for a few hours
And I feel like I figured out how to live
and then it passes.
It passes and I want to die again.
I just don't want to lie to you.
I don't know.
Okay, I think you're a really
good person
and I'll try to make you happy.
And I'll come to Berlin with you.
And
I'll try to make us happy,
and try to live like people who...
who like us understand how to live.
And nobody will bother us,
until something bothers us.
It's like...
It just... something always does.
That's the truth,
something always does and...
I always feel like something
gets into me and...
like all of a sudden
someone is breathing on me.
You know...
Yes.
All the things you said, I love them.
Because I love
Hello.
- Alon?
Yes, it's Neil and my girlfriend...
His wife.
Can we stay over?
Hold on.
- Yeah.
Stop buzzing!
He's coming down.
Sorry, Einav has a photo shoot in two hours
I'm afraid you can't stay over.
Hi.-Hi.
You look familiar.
Do I know you?
What? -Have we met?
- Maybe.
I'm Alon.
Where are you from?
Yes, this is Alon. Alon, this is Tom.
She's coming on Monday.
I'm leaving on Monday.
- Yes, to Europe.
I didn't get it.
Tom is coming with us too.
Are you drunk?
You said so. You said so.
What did I say?
That "dat we verkopen."
The flames in the tuba.
What's "verkopen"?
You wrote that I'm in the band.
Neil, you're kidding, right?
Neil...
What didn't you get?
What?
Is he serious?
Neil.
Neil, I haven't seen you in years.
Call right now, yes?
Say that we're "komen" on the tour.
I can't. It's no game.
- Yes you can.
Call now
and say I'm in the band.
You're not in the band.
I am so in the band.
Call and say I'm in the band.
Neil, what do you want from me?
You're not in the band.
I am!
I want to be in the band!
You can't be in the band.
- You can put me in the band.
You can!
You can!
Neil, keep your voice down.
Neil.
I play well and I'll practice.
Shut up!
Neil
Shut up! Shut up!
Neil, the neighbours will call the police.
Shut up!
Move.
Neil...
Buddy...
Stay still!
Shut up!
Move! Shut up!
Neil, it's not cool.
You want them to call the police?
What am I supposed to do?
What do you want from me?
Neil, buddy...
"I promised her!"
You need to go back to Jerusalem.
Let's go.
Stop!
Leave him alone!
Help!
Enough, Neil!
Imagine a magician
comes to see you,
and he says: "Listen,
I'm giving you a 15 minute gift
during which you can choose someone
to come visit you."
I'd tell the magician
I don't want any visitors.
You don't want any guests?
- No.
Do you want to tell us why?
I like being on my own.
I used to have a dog
that looked like a fox.
A puppy.
She always made me happy.
I had an angel come to me
and I asked him
to bestow upon me lots and lots...
of money.
I'd like to invite Jesus Christ.
He said he'd be back soon
and redeem us.
No suffering, no sickness, no death,
Why isn't he coming?
What is he waiting for?
Are you okay with serving only white food
at our wedding?
It doesn't dirty me as much
on the inside.
It's less disgusting on
the sides of the stomach.
Is that Okay?
Only white food?
And ice. We can have tons of ice.
And popsicles made only of water.
With the texture of a popsicle.
We can put mint inside.
But you don't eat the mint.
And for the kids,
pineapple jello, transparent...
Honey I'm no lion
Just a lame horse
I'm sorry I'm nothing more!
And longings, I can't stop
Objects from collecting dust
try so hard,
A poisoned, defeated mouse
Honey I insist on going on trusting us
to try and rise above
That this air with this good smell
of a fresh start
Will fill my miserable body
like candy
In an old house
like yellow pictures
Like confused piss
Girl - Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me.