Crazy Wisdom: The Life & Times of Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche (2011) - full transcript

In a cave carved in the side of a

mountain in the Himalayas,

a young abbot tibetan wrote a

meditation for the world

as he perceived it, and what could

become of this.

The year was 1968.

"Although I live in the mud and filth

of the dark ages,

although stumbling against the thick

fog of materialism,

the tradition of meditation is waning,

and we are drunk on spiritual pride".

This is considered as a was very grim.

In a time in which the sensatéz of

the world has disappeared in a

certain sense.

This is the time of hell on Earth...

the sadness that is constantly with

us,

and the depression fills our minds.

The chinese had invaded...

and there was a previous era in which

Tibet was a spiritual paradise.

But now it was a living hell.

The teachings were going to lose, if

they could not be transferred to the

west,

then his whole function in life was

to make that transfer.

Looked like that was a necessity. He

never gave up with no one.

In showing us the full potential of

our humanity

The heretics and bandits of hope and

fear are transformed...

the "Crazy wisdom".

Crazy wisdom.

The person with the "Crazy wisdom",

which is...

the direct translation of the tibetan

yeshe chölwa".

"Yeshe" means wisdom, "Chölwa" is to

become wild.

Then it would be something like:

insanity turned into wisdom.

We had this conversation back in the

72, I think, in San Francisco.

We were comparing our itineraries and

I said:

"Don't you get tired of being

constantly on the move?, I if."

He said, "Oh, it's because you don't

like your poetry".

I told him "I'm Not sure of that."

He said: why don't you do like the

great poets?

Why not leave the stage and compose?

What for you need a paper, don't

trust your own mind?

"The red flag flies over the Potala,

the people of Tibet are drowning in a

sea of blood.

A vampire army occupies the mountains

and plains,

but the dignity of exist never wanes."

When I was 18 months Chogyam Trungpa

was recognized as a master

reincarnated.

At that time he was given the title

"Rinpoche," which means precious

jewel.

That generation was the last

generation that was able to get

the full training in Tibet with the

greatest masters.

The meditation of my father, and

everything else is made easier,

and became stronger.

To Chogyam Trungpa was assigned to a

teacher...

that was a person extremadamenet wise.

"Khenpo Gangshar Wangpo" meaning the

lord of everything that comes up.

The monks usually were sitting with

the "mala" or prayer beads

counting beads and chanting the

mantra,

and Khenpo Gangshar came and snatched

the "bad"

of the hands to a monk and he tore it

and said:

I...aggression, ...craving,

...ignorance!

It was demonstrated that they were

doing something for

custom that didn't have a real

meaning.

I said that I should go to see him.

I did not dare, always ran.

If he said or did something, I was

terrified.

Drawing from his monastery, Surmang -

by Chogyam Trungpa

The chinese presenting the doctrine

called communism

and realizing that they can't

indoctrinate anyone,

they had to push much harder.

Attacked Surmang.

The chinese troops stormed the

libraries

and kicked out all the valuable books.

The treasures of precious metals in

the shrines

were destroyed and shipped to China.

Even desecrated the tomb of the Tenth

Trungpa

and they left exposed the embalmed

corpse.

Born in Tibet. - Chogyam Trungpa.

Khenpo Gangshar told people,

"Everything that we've

been doing here in terms of buddhism

has ended."

Khenpo Gangshar said, "we Cannot

fight against the chinese communists

and we should surrender."

That is the sign of "surrender" to

the chinese.

Had to leave my country.

We were like 300 in the group.

It took four months to horse

and six months walk

to be able to come to India.

Although Chogyam was so young, he

knew exactly

what we had to do to get there.

Somehow, I don't know how, he managed.

Had No compass, but I had very good

binoculars...

and I could see to a great distance.

Then we have to hide in the day

and walking at night through

of the mountains and the ice.

And then start walking into the river.

When we reach the other side, we know

that we have little time.

The difficulty is not having enough

food.

And people are dying of hunger.

We ended up cooking our laces.

Cutting them in pieces and cook.

I agree masticándolas... it was so

horrible!

If they attack us, we must not kill

any chinese.

We must not steal what belongs to

another in the journey.

There should not be disagreements

between us.

Each one of us has weapons.

But in our group no one killed

anything.

Ten months later, 13 of the 300 people

who escaped and crossed the border to

India.

Some died of starvation. Others

fired, arrested, or simply

disappeared.

Still, others continued to Trungpa

and got

get to a safe place months after.

The Indian Air Force flew to Chogyam

Trungpa of the border to her freedom.

"When the bird of iron flies, the

buddhism will travel

to the land of the red man."

Padmasambhava, 800 D. C.

My work is dedicated to present a

notion of enlightenment to the west.

The world is not going to be rescued

very simply, only by the

religion, but that can also be

rescued by lighting.

This world needs both of your help.

So part of this world... I would like

to turn

you to come in and do something about

it.

You need enormous faith in the people

to create a

enlightened society. You can not have

a attitude part.

And he had that kind of faith, it was

not because

we were amazing people, but by

the appreciation inherent Trungpa

by the wisdom of the world.

The main point seems to be about...

this life.

Don't be a coward

with fear of seeing things.

With fear of being busy.

With fear of smile.

With fear of acknowledging that we

are basically good.

Or as they call americans:

"chickening out"

1963 - Chogyam Trungpa received a

scholarship to study in England.

When I met him he was still a monk

with his robe

and I seemed to be extremely young,

almost ethereal, as if he could

become light at any time.

A bit like a beautiful flower.

All his gestures seemed pure.

Now I don't remember what he said,

but we were overwhelmed by your

presence.

It seems somewhat naive to say

something like that, but I had

something very special.

Dharma:

The body of teachings

used to open the mind of a student

to the reality of things

the reality of things as they are in

reality.

I was going through a period in which

I was examining as I was going to

teach.

I think I wasn't yet sure of what it

would be

the best way to teach to westerners.

Rinpoche was doing several courses to

become familiar with the western

culture.

I was trying to deduce the experience

directly for themselves

same, the suffering of the human

condition in the west.

It seemed that he wanted to reach a

reverence

of suffering, and say: This is what

is happening

and be able to have the words that we

we could understand, and would allow

us to say: yes!

1967 - Trungpa Rinpoche and Akong

Rimpoche created Samye Ling in

Scotland

The first Buddhist Center Tibetan in

the west.

There was an article in the

supplement in color of the Telegraph.

And there was a picture of the whole

page in full color with

Trungpa and Akong standing on the

lawn, to the front.

And when you see it I said to myself:

"I have to be with him."

So I quit my job and gave my house

and I went to Eskdalemuir.

He studied at the University of

Cambridge

and I decided to start again with him.

Legué to the station of Lockerbie

late at night.

There was not public transport to

take me.

Then I walked up to Samye Ling, which

are more like 27 miles.

I think I had to take 6 hours.

For me, its mandate was always that

the biggest change

should be internal, and that without

meditation there is no progress

The teachings were at times in the

moment, in

conversation, in their room.

Sometimes very late in the night.

That was where I learned more.

We got into many problems because

then we slept

until late and we did not do the

morning meditation.

Rinpoche also left Samye Ling and

change their

blanket common clothes and wandered

around London.

And he said that he loved the cinema,

as they were red velvet

dark and reminded her of Tibet. Had

that warmth that I missed.

He had been working in an office as a

translator

and he invited me to be his private

secretary.

He said that he planned to travel to

Bhutan and India

and he asked me if I wanted to go

with him. Of course I said yes.

My trip to Bhutan was an invitation

from the Queen of Bhutan

and take my retreat at Taktsang where

you actually meditated.

Rinpoche said here was supposed to be

where guru Padmasambhava

had thrown her rosary of crystal and

had become a waterfall.

800 D. C. The great indian saint,

Padmasambhava

stopped the spread of the wars

tribal for bringing buddhism to Tibet.

Being in Taktsang is not very

impressive at the beginning.

What is this place? Because it is

assumed that it is amazing what

is going on here? Maybe I chose the

wrong place.

Perhaps there is a Taktsang on the

other hand, the true Taktsang.

But in reality there are energies and

powers are immense.

Things start to arise.

Although I live in the mud and filth

of the dark ages,

although stumbling against the thick

fog of materialism,

The Sadhana came to me without

problems.

It took Me like 5 hours to write it

all

The Dharma is used for personal

benefit, and the rio

materialism has grown beyond its

shores.

THE materialistic point of view

dominates everywhere.

When it came to the Sadhana to his

mind was a realization

and that was what was written. The

idea of the dark ages.

Spiritual values had been lost.

We can see all the damage we have

done to the planet, because of the

materialism.

And that hypocrisy is incredible.

Trungpa rinpoche returns to Scotland

with the liturgy

he wrote in the cave of Padmasambhava.

Trungpa Rinpoche had come to the west

to transmit

the teachings authentic buddhism to

westerners.

Akong wanted the Centre Samye Ling in

Scotland

outside of a home for tibetan

refugees.

Then, they had points of view very

different, for

that are development a lot of

conflict between them.

People used to get mad a lot because

I was not teaching, and they wanted to

the teaching to satisfy their own

greed spiritual

to be able to say that they were

disciples of Trungpa rinpoche, and is

doing

this to take me on the path to

liberation, or something like that.

And they realized that in reality I

wasn't doing anything, just

this drunk or trying to seduce my

girlfriend, or being extravagant.

It was absolutely electrifying that

first time

I saw it, I had never passed anything

like this.

I was at school in Cambridge and had

to find a way to go.

I spent at least 24 hours in bed with

the

I think that was the first time in my

life that I felt

that I could communicate completely

with someone.

At some point I said, maybe one day

we could marry.

And I said: "Oh definitely, yes!, I

would love to do that."

Had to do the shopping, so we drove

to nearby villages.

Surely that was the time when Trungpa

and Akron learned to handle.

Were lost-time cases to handle, none

of the

two grew up with paved roads or

traffic.

I always thought that you should not

let a rear tibetan behind the wheel.

I had heard that he was the best

pilot,

I was with a girl in the car and I

don't know if

he had taken but the car went out of

control

and went through the window of a

tavern.

And there was Trungpa Rinpoche in a

camillaen the corridor,

had cut the throat, and had many

stitches, and after

they found that he was paralyzed on

the left side.

I was so sore, and it took quite some

time before I could

recover some movement on the left

side of the body.

I couldn't cook for himself, or make

the bed

nor is it that you remember wanting

to make a bed...

You couldn't be with him without

realizing that

there was an internal struggle

extraordinary in the.

I think that this time period in

particular was one

of the darkest moments of his life.

Before the accident Trungpa rinpoche

had spoken about the dilemma he felt

he called it "the golden Buddha on

the pedestal"

The main point is to be able to teach

completely in the western world.

It also feels a fascination

general on the response of the people,

and when I speak to them with the

mantle, not hear you but look at your

mantle.

The people could not ok, I think that

they felt threatened.

The English, with their sense of

convention would have

wanted to have something like a

"Guru-pet"

and at the same time the tibetans

wanted to use his mantle and

was hidden behind this subtle sense

of superiority tibetan.

The was completely unusual and

genuine being

who, in reality, it was and was

rejected by it.

I said that I felt that I was at a

critical point in his life.

"I'm on the verge of becoming

enlightened, and when it comes to

this time, go crazy or attain

realization."

Which, of course, made me feel

anxiety because I had finished to

marry with the

Diana, 16, runs away to marry a monk.

After it all happened very quickly.

It was the catalyst for the

transformation,

the rise in the world.

And surrender to the personality of

the monastic,

and the rest, as they say, is history.

What made you commit for 3 years

of your life to him? What you have

kept him?

It was not that I compromised. It

sounds as if

it would have made a generous offer,

it was not so.

It was not felt as if you were

compromising my life, you know...

I loved to be with him.

And it is 40 years ago...

that was such a good friend...

is gone, but he was a good friend.

Therefore it was not a commitment...

but that came naturally.

This is for that.

It came and went.

Shambhala:

Ancient teachings of how to create.

Ancient teachings of how to create an

enlightened society

based on the courage

based on courage and compassion.

He met another of the major "tulkus",

its the same

age, whom he had known in Tibet,

Thrangu Rinpoche, in India, asked:

What are you going to do now?

And he pulled out his mirror.

A small mirror metal that had hung in

the neck.

Your mirror was a form of prophesy,

to see the future in the mirror.

And began to look in the mirror.

And to describe the Shambhala.

And he said it as if you were there,

and I can see.

That was the only clue he gave that

he was going to

go to the united States to find the

Shambhala.

Stop bombing human beings, animals

and vegetation. If Jesus Christ

were here tonight, would not dare to

drop another bomb.

It was a tumultuous time where there

was a

a passionate search for a meaning.

It had to do with resistance to the

Vietnam war and

the role of the united States looking

for aggression that way.

The motivation for a radical action

policy

was the introspection about human

liberation.

That human beings had a great

potential for freedom.

Freedom of expression, of emotion and

of thought.

There was a personal aspect in the

path of growth. The release

personal and the political could not

be separated but to be part of the

same path.

First Meditation Center founded by

Trungpa in the united States.

In the summer of ' 70 we moved our

apartment

by a car and decided to make a trip

in the.

It turned out to be a summer very

crazy and psychedelic.

Park to the front of a farm, very

dirty,

with junk cars and washing machines

with hippies ragged wandering.

We rang at the door and a woman

opened it, Fran, and asked me:

What do you do? And I said: I Am as

an artist.

She said: "Oh my God, come quick! And

it took me to

a cuartico in the background, opened

the door and said:

"What I found" and he said, "Oh, I've

been waiting for, sit down".

He had asked her to go get someone

who know to draw.

There was a weekend program called

"Work, sex and money".

And I thought: "I am interested in

those things" not in that order

necessarily.

The truth I saw it as a buddhist, I

was not looking for

buddhism, or any path, religious in

particular.

I just thought that it was someone

who told the truth, in fact, I

thought that the

invented, only that it was so

insightful that I could point out the

nature of reality.

When we speak of the tradition

tártrica,

we do not speak simply of play with

sex.

or "dzogchen" or "kaulas", the

phenomenal world.

We do not talk about those areas yet.

We have to be very interested in the

basic aspects of the

matter instead of thinking that

everything is going to be very good

and "great" and not wonder why,

"if you ask them that is your

problem, but if not, everything will

be fine."

"Let's dance and we play music

together, drink honey with milk."

So does not work

He had begun to draw this letter

called "a"

that is the "syllable seed" for them,

as the bird of all

what has been created. Is the

"syllable seed" primary.

It can be simplified as a point in

space.

Then I sat for two hours and he knew

how to

worked the eye, I knew of geometry

and Botticelli

and while more remained, I thought:

That experience, at the end of a

teacher

really, because I thought that was an

artist, a hippie tibetan.

Immersed himself fully in american

culture when he arrived here.

And it was not in a calculated way,

which was going to act and

dressing like a hippie to be able to

communicate with them

but I was fascinated by what he was

doing

the people basically wanted to devour

him whole.

In a moment I was concerned about the

issue of celibacy, because I had read

all the

books of hindu yoga, who taught what

important that was the celibacy in

the meditation

and just when I was going to ask

about it, someone knock at the door.

It was Diana, and said: "come lovely."

And he had a towel yellow that barely

covered it

and I didn't know whether to look at

the floor or her.

And then she kissed it and said, "I

almost go to bed, precious."

She was and I had to ask nothing.

He taught you as a human being, he

never said follow me

imítenme, but said, "I am completely

who I am and I want

help you to understand how to be

completely who you are."

And he said, "studying the dharma

that is the truth of trusting who you

are"

discover your own basic goodness,

your innate wisdom, and the

importance of being compassionate"

that has nothing to do with religion

The sanctuary was the attic of an old

farm, that had a few posts

and these studs became a favourite

place

for support during sitting meditation

to be able to doze off, or hold and

go for the easy way out.

One day we went to the shrine and

there were no posts.

He had gone two weeks before and had

requested

that taken away from you without us

to know.

That was how it worked, most of the

times it was

a small change, nothing showy, but

suddenly

where you used to pass the time and

let you fall, no

I was comfortable, then now you have

to hold.

This is a picture of the door of

Karmê Chöling, was a white gate

of an old farm, despintandose and

said that he wanted to

paint it as the input for the Dharma

in the west.

It was very important.

I mean, sacred geometry and how it

intersected with

how they were willing your eyes on

geometric patterns

and as the geometry of the door would

go directly

to your eye and cause signals in your

brain.

We were not able to prepare the color

turquoise

leave all materials in the shed

and there was a girl of about 5 years

playing and

when we went to the store for the

teachings,

she threw all the paints into a bucket

and I had mixed and when we came back,

we saw that it was the turquoise

perfect

and it was already getting dark, so

Trungpa rinpoche said that it was

perfect.

We put all the cars and put them in a

semi-circle with the lights on

in the shed, while he monitored the

implementation of the turquoise.

There is a legend of the Buddha,

where the clubhouse blossomed a

lotus. Almost all

parties where you got Trungpa in the

united States there was a Tibetan

Center

Trungpa established Boulder, Colorado

as the center of their community.

In the first year, I invite the whole

community that it will fit in your

room

to visit him and asked him to all that

bring their bags of marijuana or

another drug.

And half of them thought: "my god, my

God, this

guru is so cool, want to smoke with

us."

They all arrived and were in very

good mood and asked them to

put all the paraphernalia in a large

tray in the center

and the fireplace was lit,

all very homey and wonderful.

He began to greet and talk to

everyone and was pulling a bag

drug after another to the fire by

making sparks and reventándose

and began singing, "we're burning the

self-deception," with each bag, the

fire burned more.

Assuming that you, or the so-called

"you"-,

since we do not know if we exist or

not...

The so-called "you" is lit...

And what about after that?

Of course, the automatic response is:

"I become Buddha, the enlightened

one."

Is about to become a self-centered.

It is becoming a self-centered, it is

not just to point...

he is thinking that he can get the

very Buddha.

Trungpa founded the Institute Naropa,

the first

buddhist university in the western

hemisphere.

The Institute Naropa in the summer of

' 74 was a kind of distillation.

It was like what happened at

Woodstock, suddenly there was

a big movement across the country and

met there.

We didn't have a building, desks,

phones, or stationery, but an idea.

We invite religious figures, indian

masters

american, zen masters, hindu masters

superstars like Ram Dass who came

with a retinue of

"ladies love" as we call them,

dressed in white.

There were people there that I was

not in the way of religion

as Gregory Bateson said.

We come to Naropa trying to figure

out what it is.

We invite you to many poets such as

Allen Ginsberg

that was a school of poetry in itself.

Don Allen!

Do you see potential to Jazz,

Blues and Rock 'n' Roll?

Maybe the Jazz and the Blues have

more of a chance

of prosperity but the Rock 'n' Roll

has less.

Why do you believe?

It is a matter of consent perceptions

sense of the individual. It is very

Coca-Cola.

Have you experienced majesty, calm

and peace in

any song of rock and roll you've

heard?

Unfortunately it does not. So try

because it is very difficult, right?

In a moment, I thought that there was

something happening by

high, but it was not what I was doing.

He loved the poets, the artists, the

misfits.

It seemed that I never wanted to

control the energy, when he founded

Naropa, but he said that he wanted to

fly sparks.

What we did was to bring together the

east and the

the west, was the creation of a new

hybrid

He said that normally you want to

create

a kind of diplomatic relation but

what he wanted was to maintain the

integrity of each

tradition and letting it crash to

flying sparks

The water is so precious, so much.

It is like love.

When it comes to Naropa established a

program and

they put me on Monday, Wednesday and

Friday, I think

and Trungpa had Tuesday, Thursday and

Saturday

The two were going after the truth,

and his way of

it was a buddhist and mine was a

hindu.

People liked to receive the two

points of view. I

I was fascinated with this that

looked like a game of tennis.

Trungpa was saying this, the other

said that...

If we are going to discuss

spirituality in this class,

I would get nerves and you also

should give,

we're not building guile mutual

between us.

We have coined this term called

spiritual materialism.

The spiritual materialism, which is

dedicated to

try to find the "I" using mantras,

songs, meditation of all types

to become a better person and more

powerful.

Never gave a talk in the first 8

years without reminding

people how silly it was to cling to

the spirituality to be salvaged.

It was cruel, ruthlessly taking apart

what you

use to hang a version built for the

"I".

Burlémonos of the "I"-,

but let's build our spirit

the spirit in this case has a

curiosity that something

might have happened, the possibility

that something has passed

but the approach of the "I" is "what

it's going to be good for me

should I do it or not, you are going

to have an economic compensation?"

Trungpa was the head and I the heart.

Things like the soul, God,

Rama and Krishna and all that.

That seems crammed in comparison to

the.

It is absolutely important to make

the practice

the meditation the source of his

strength

it is also your basic intelligence,

think about that.

Can also sit back and do nothing

10 or 20 minutes, just sitting doing

nothing.

Can think of the Institute Naropa

while they are sitting.

Should not be ashamed of telling your

family and friends who have

learned a very important message:

That you can survive by doing nothing.

Rinpoche had a great command of the

English language.

He said: "English is a language

blessed".

He spoke as farmer, as trader, as the

people

of Oxford but it was not just an

imitation but

his mind crept in to the american

mentality

and I knew that I had to do it

through language.

You used the word inaccessible

referring to the

teachings of the Vajrayana, what are

you suggesting?

Well, it is very rare

and therefore you probably will not

understand.

It is as if ordenaras steak tartar

very few people ask for such a dish,

usually ask for hamburger

or hot dog.

The steak tartar is very rare (or

lightly cooked).

A crucial moment was when the great

sixteenth Karmapa, who was the

head of the lineage of Chogyam

Trungpa was going to come to the

united States.

He tells this great news to the

students and their response is:

"Great!, but seriously, do we have to

aspire for him?"

We need someone to help light the

candles. Immediately.

He worked for hours tirelessly

getting ready for this visit.

Made the people get decent clothes,

cut

hair, put a suit and tie, most were

in the Army

of Salvation to get them there

because no one had money.

This infuriated the people.

The sexual part is not conmocionaba

to the people then,

neither of the drinks, but what about

wearing a suit? Are you crazy?

Many of the students were at that

time in protest.

All forms or rituals are disciplines,

ways of changing the mind.

First of all to create a kind of

alert,

to be able to appreciate what was

going on.

And second, to connect with the

activity

particular that he was developing.

Know a certain majesty internal to

know the majesty outside of one's

self.

What we have recommended is that we

cortemos long hair,

we put on ties and go back to the

conventional

of the institutions of the u.s. and

try to

influence healthy from inside there.

Exact.

We always have problems amansándonos,

that's why we have to resort to

religion.

Amansarse, meaning...

simply...

be decent.

Without ups and downs.

A sense of balance...

A sense of balance... a natural state

of existence.

This type of training is in need of a

teacher

it was difficult to be close many

times.

I once asked because there were no

more students

come in to see him, or call him by

phone.

And he said to me, it seems to me

that it is because there is fear

students in the desenmascararse,

exposed.

This was a very important principle

for him, that the people

you had the courage to work with

their own deceptions.

Whence comes the purpose and

motivation in the

enlightened mind is free of desires

and struggles?

Where is your determination?

Well, the determinations come from

having a sense

of self-confidence, a sense of

rectitude,

a sense of loyalty, a sense of

appreciation for

his own family, and his close world

around.

There is a cloud in the sky and the

sky is blue,

and the sun comes out beautifully in

the east and...

flakes of snow fall and have a beauty

when they fall to the ground.

And everything is perfect...

If, more or less...

Always he was showing us the style of

the "Crazy wisdom"

and the teaching was that there was

no certainty, and

you could have a sense of humor about

it.

Independence day.

We don't want to be completely sane.

And that seems to be the problem

usually

that we cannot handle too much sanity

and we like to have a little slice of

neurosis in some part.

Even in our pockets. A small puff of

smoke here and there,

if there are too much sanity to be

able to say: "oh, That was intense!"

It is normal that such a teacher

confuses the

expectations of the people close to

him. And often

behaved in the opposite way to what

people

considers appropriate to a person so

illustrious.

This is a tradition tártrica of

Tibet, the of enjoy

of your senses is in itself to

express wisdom.

Benjamin Franklin said, wine is the

test of

that God loves us and wants us to be

happy.

It is not a new idea.

But if I was drinking too much...

Thomas Jefferson also.

Be ruined by buying good wine of

France to drink it.

It was safe to say that their level

of awareness of the

environment was not affected by

alcohol.

At the very beginning I was giving a

talk

with a guru, west of the new era

and the presence of Rinpoche on the

stage

was a complete drunk,

and not really gave a talk but

he spent nearly falling of the

chair...

At the end of the talk they took it

loaded to the elevator

and soon rose and said: "How was

that?"

I was not drunk, was not lost,

but so chose to interact with this

charlatan.

A lot of people I try to get Rinpoche

to stop drinking,

he sent petitions and letters signed

by many people.

I remember in one of his talks served

the sake diluted

on water and raised the eyebrow and

said: "this is watered down".

It is elemental madness, in other

words, fearlessness.

Do not give up anything,

it seemed to be the fundamental issue.

Willing to work with the body is there

on the basis of the quality of

monitors paramount.

That seems to be the definition of

the "Crazy wisdom".

Trungpa rinpoche supported the issue

of the sexuality and the alcohol.

Basically, I defended them, because I

like to practice buddhism

and I know that the "crazy wisdom" is

something real,

but I had to recognize certain

defects, in my opinion,

for example: I Think he died at the

age of 47

and they could still be doing a

useful work, and fantastic if it had

not been a

an alcoholic, definitely, whatever

the diagnosis, I was drinking too

much.

People ask me: How can you follow

such a teacher as this?

Or how can you do that an enlightened

person?

I don't know.

I cannot accept a defense as that was

an activity

sacred or something like that, or

come up with a reason to approve it.

I can't think of a reason to fail.

I'm on that: I don't know, I don't

know.

But I can't answer the questions

because the challenged order to

answer them.

When Suzuki Roshi died

Chogyam Trungpa gave a talk at the

Zen Center

and while giving the talk said that

Suzuki

Roshi was a great teacher and a great

friend

and in that moment she began to cry

probably could see that we were

trying to

hold back and gave us permission to

all the crying.

That was a great teaching.

Most of the cultures in their

beginning they have some kind of

idea of trying to pull out the

noblest part of the human spirit.

Rinpoche was looking for examples

that work in the west

I didn't just impose the examples

eastern to his western students

in the United States, the president

lives and works in your home

and in Europe, the place where the

monarch lived was also the seat of

the government

that was one part, I think that he

realized that

that was a very good example that it

already existed.

The Court was an environment very

fertile

that was his home, and a kind of

community center at the same time.

In Boulder, when I was still living,

my job

main and my title was "master of the

house"

of the Court of Kalapa.

A typical night in the Court can be

with music

Mozart, Handel, she loved the water

Music of Handel.

A formality british stiff so ironic.

We called each other Mr. Paysinger or

Mrs. Fordham.

This is not just to say something

good but that anything and everything

can be dear

when we find ourselves with a

consciousness of discovering any kind

of power

for this there is nothing excluded

from the practice

that's why I proposed a practice for

anything

absolutely anything, take a cup of

tea, combing hair, putting the

interior in a drawer...

Once I could see him setting the table

it took him 3 hours, because it was

like a work of art to put on the

table.

The way they spoke the american

he looked very scruffy.

And it seemed to him that if not

trying to improve the way you talk

there was a way in which the body and

the mind were not united

then the speech is one of the things

that can unite them, for

to have everything in order,

synchronizing your body, speech and

mind.

Took that further and started not

only to

to teach people how to speak English

but he decided to teach them the

English of the queen of England

The how to speak the English

language, and how not to talk to us.

I'll give you an example of the

exercise of elocution.

"Spider is black" "the Sky is blue."

"How tantalizing, this world."

"Kathy''s hair is black" "Her

complexion is white."

"Her attention is like a bow string."

"More than monuments" "More than

tattered."

"More than dying", "The liberty bell

is more than antique."

In the long run I was trying to

demonstrate

as the sound had an element sacred

so even though we apparently torture

people

making them repeat these words again

and again.

I think it was much more about the

appreciation.

Then it became a practice display

we arrived, we wore the uniform and

walking towards a display

we imagined as the servants

enlightened of the enlightened master

and somehow all of it was true.

In a certain way was reality, the

other was a representation.

He said that to be able to make an

enlightened society had to change the

culture

and to change the culture had to

change the art

and to change the art had to change

the

principles on which was based the art.

And those principles, he said, should

be the of Art Dharma.

The basic notion of art is

how to relate to oneself and how to

relate to

with his own phenomenal world with

grace.

In the Art Dharma, instead of looking

at a painting

of a river, it is more like being in

the water of the river.

When there is a sufficient sense of

space, then we can

relax more, and we started to realize

that when there is...

the sick world, that any artistic

endeavor is considered sacred.

When that happens, there is no more

struggle.

The idea of art Dharma is to receive

images, it is not a gloating

egotistical.

The only thing you did was see it and

bring it to the surface.

The caught the fish, not created it.

Things are sacred, not in the sense

of religious meaning

but sacred in the sense that there is

a dignity

innate in the way we see our world.

I was sitting in the altar of a

church smoking a cigarette

and someone asked him to talk about

aggression in the United

States, and said: "I want to talk

about the aggression in this room."

This was the Dorje Kasung, it was

called as well

because it means "protect the sacred

space".

Chogyam Trungpa believed that every

aspect of the society should be

explored

each one of them, so did theatre

groups, trade

educational institutions and also I

think the buddhist version of the

army.

All of them mortificaba the idea, but

he always said

that until we get to the heart of the

aggressiveness

in the society and transform that

same energy

to be the forces of peace, we can't

change

of truth the way things work.

I was involved in organizations and

marches to protest

by the presence of the united States

in Vietnam.

That comes to feel was that we were

doing that

we didn't have more insight of the

fundamental problem of the

aggressiveness

the army and the government that we

protested.

The principle of Shambhala is what is

known as "the way of The warrior"

here does not mean the warrior as the

creator of war

but the warrior in the sense of

courage, to be brave.

We did military training for hours,

and once in a

when we had visitors, and one of them

asked.

What is making this thing military?

His response was that someday people

would see

the Dorje Kasung marching down a

street

and they make you feel like you want

to smile

and at that time they will have

changed something in the center

of modern society, the problem as I

was.

It took us ten years to realise that

he was teaching buddhism traditional

we didn't know because if you read

buddhism traditional sit like: What?

But his amazing skill with the

language to

translate that to our to be able to

touch your heart

and also was able to give curiosity

to your mind

so you felt that your process was in

truth

what is described traditionally as

"the way it's going under yours and

your going to make

continuously it is that you're going

to encounter."

The first time I met Trungpa, John

said:

"Rinpoche, I want to introduce you to

my wife Agnes."

And Rinpoche did so, and grabbed me

by the hand and greeted me,

and then he said to John: "Your wife

seems to me very attractive"

and I jumped behind John,

looking to Rinpoche on his shoulder,

thinking: "what is he talking about?

who is this guy?"

Many of his students were his lovers

and was known.

My impression of that community was

that this was

part of what was happening, and was

discovered

I remember watching Rinpoche with his

entourage

and we could clearly see who was who

in the entourage.

Of course in the zen-world the things

are

the more decks, the thing that became

a problem.

- Can you push it a little

more, sweetheart? - If it is ok.

How do you say "sweetheart" in

japanese?

- Not what is. - do you

Not know?

Did not hide anything. Or their drink

or their sexuality.

There are so many western teachers

and asian in the west

have fallen in disgrace for what they

call "bad sexual conduct"

but if you look closely, that was not

what made them fall,

was that the students were mocked and

deceived.

The first time you lay with another,

after I married him,

it was crazy, I sat on the floor of

the bathroom crying all night

and the next day I went and I told

him I was destroyed, I could not

believe that we

would have married and would now

to get divorced because he was

sleeping with other

and he said to me: "it is Not that do

not love you, our relationship

it is much stronger than the sexual

fidelity".

"I can never be a husband

traditional, but you can

trust completely in our relationship

and mutual love"

"but it's not going to be

conventional."

What was the sexual activity was

free the desire in place of to create

more.

Then it takes that pulse of desire

that is so great

and applies a kind of wakefulness,

where in reality

these there until the end, an idea is

very powerful.

Sometimes I would sit with him for up

to 4 hours in almost complete silence

at times I felt very alone.

My husband Jonathan and I were

already married

at that time, so it was not easy for

him,

has always said, not always very

enlightened:

I'm in number two after the teacher

and it is true.

Was jealous. It was more like: Ah!

then your if you can

to have a special relationship with

him and I can't.

The truth to call it a relationship

would be difficult, because I did not

have this strength.

We're not talking about Trunpa

Rinpoche as a person,

but as the manifestation of that

mind, which took advantage of

the reality as it is and was able to

wake people up

but only because you shared that mind.

In the west it is difficult to

understand the devotion in the

tibetan tradition

from the outside it seems as if all

these little people

follow the steps of this great person

but in fact the tradition itself is

very clear

the teacher has nothing more than the

student.

That the wisdom already exists, we

are all born with it.

And we die with it, we cannot get rid

of it, or to get more

the teacher shows you this

and the student gradually comes to

understand, and the minds are joined.

After being married for 17 years, I

still sometimes

I was lying next to the looking at

this and thought:

"I have No idea who you are." It was

completely impossible to know.

You could never predict their

reaction to something.

Do you love? Talk of love is almost

an insult to our relationship because

he was treating me as the

reincarnation of the Lama that I was

recognized.

Then in terms of love, we never talk

about

something like that, I was being

treated like a king from another

country.

He always knew that his intentions

were good and I knew that it would be

nice

but in the background I'm not sure

that is what motivated him.

When I rode a horse.

When I rode a horse Poem of Chogyam

Trungpa.

When I rode a horse, subject to my

chair.

When you play with snakes, the button

in my wrists.

When I play with maidens dangerous,

I'll leave you to talk about first.

The "Crazy wisdom" as I understand it

means not firmly planted your foot

in the material world or the

spiritual.

When we have the point of view of the

spiritual world, we are bound by

this and when is the materialist, we

are bound by their point of view.

But if you go beyond that, and give

that extra hop

then that is the leap to the "crazy

wisdom".

It is like taking a leap into the

abyss

but it is not the abyss of the

nothing, but the abyss of reality.

Would have been able to succeed

without

commit fully as he did.

He was able to have a nice community

and a good

life, but never thought to their own

safety.

Bodhisattva:

The person who makes the be helpful

to the other the principle of their

life.

How much we have tried to relate to

our own heart?

And what, of the attempt to relate to

him, has been

rejected because you could discover

something horrible in it?

Taught Me so much. All that is on

your heart.

And taught me to be, genuine, and

completely who he was.

He was human, fully human, and not

hid it.

Not hiding his tears, nor his wounds.

When we want to relate to our heart...

What are you? Who are you? Where is

your heart?

If you tear through your ribcage with

the hand

and feel your heart, there is a

delicacy.

You feel sore and soft. It hurts.

And you want to pour your heart to

relate with others.

That kind of delicacy brings a notion

of fearlessness.

That fearlessness that shows you

possibilities, that the

world around you can tickle your

heart open.

It was his way of saying that it was

a form of strength

when you feel that delicacy in thee

you become more strong.

He lived his life as the biggest

"bodhisattva"

The bodhisattva promises to renounce

anything that has to do

himself and help others. And that was

all he did.

"Come on, I'm going to make you cry!

That was all he did.

I can't believe it! I went to the

hospital and had

a question about the decoration of a

suite

on Tower Road, and Rinpoche was dying,

and I went to the side of his bed and

I thought:

"Is that you can't hear me, but I can

verbalize my idea and such

time to catch some type of response

on the issue."

And it was as if there was a tv screen

and just to see interference in

black-and-white.

Do you know? It's over. No more

questions.

A belt of ice fixed covered

three-quarters of the port

and spread about 8 nautical miles in

the sea

The ice fixed is common at this time

of

year, but rarely get to Halifax.

The whole sea was frozen

and so we felt because he was dying.

He opened his eyes and almost joined.

They were all waiting for that

moment...

All understood that he was telling us

somehow that until here came.

There is a moment in which you feel

that you are going to be

his last word, and it's going to be

for you.

All to the expectation.

In a moment, we started singing the

anthem of Shambhala,

I don't know how it started maybe

someone I plan to...

It was like...

It was like... our last offering to

him.

He opened his eyes and looked around

and when the hymn had just breathed a

few times.

We were attentive to each breath,

because we did not know if it would

take another.

Chogyam Trungpa died in Halifax, nova

Scotia on 4 April 1987.

Then I went outside and the ice had

begun to move

and the other day I had nothing, and

it was a lot of ice.

The sky became blue

3,000 people gathered for the

cremation of Chogyam Trungpa.

His holiness Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

reaches of the

India to conduct the cremation

ceremony.

The princes of the Kagyu lineage come

from Sikkim.

I have known teachers who have tried

to emulate him

and for a few years is fine, but all

the years all the time

tell me that does not know as he did.

Only you can think of

or was it madness, or was it "crazy

wisdom" was something incredible.

Even in a film like this, if the

message transmitted is

is that the reason out to be defined

or formulated in any way

that defy the whole purpose of his

life,

that was afford not to be formulated

and fluids and

let others open up to their innate

goodness.

Do you see it?

What I see, but I am not convinced

that it's something extraordinary.

Is around the sun.

The rainbow...

Something in the clouds.

Something in the sky.

Tibetan buddhism remains in the west.

The books of Trungpa are sold by the

millions, and

214 meditation Centers, Shambhala, led

by his son Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche,

continue the vision of an enlightened

society.

Can it be possible?