Bricked (2019) - full transcript

[short heavy breathing]

You okay?

Why are you

sitting out here?

What did you do?

What did you do?

What did you do?

god, Gavin.

Oh, God Gavin.

No, no!

No, no, no!

[crying]

No, no!

So, what do you think Gav?

Yeah, I'd totally live there.

So, you're gonna build

this for us

when you're done with school?

No way.

Making big money?

No, sir.

Architects, we just

design the buildings.

No manual labor

for these hands.

These things are staying clean.

Okay.

Yeah, what's that?

That is a fireplace.

In the bathroom?

It's the master bathroom.

This is where someone's

gonna spend

their most private

and intimate moments.

So, who wouldn't want

a crackling fire

while they're

squeezing one out.

Okay, well, if you're gonna

put one in there,

you gotta put one

Shoot, I'm sorry Trev.

What the hell, Gav, what?

Let me, um

Let me get

some paper towels.

Come on, Gavin.

Did

did you do that on purpose?

What?

Of course not Bro.

You hate it.

I don't hate this, man.

No, you hate it,

you hate it...

Stop!

Just move, get away, just

Trev, it's just a drawing.

It's not just a drawing, Gav!

It's not just a drawing!

It's not just a drawing, Gav!

It's not just a drawing!

It's not just a drawing!

It's more

Gav, I'm I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Oh, my God.

I'm sorry,

I'm so sorry, I

Gav?

Gavin, I'm sorry.

You packed?

Ok, good.

I want to get

on the road in 20.

Uh-uh.

Come on.

How is he, Mom?

Mom, please.

How is he?

21 Stitches, Trevor.

21.

The police come

and talk to him?

Yeah, well, he told them

that he was jumped

by a couple of guys,

He lied?

Why?

Because he loves you, Trev.

And he knew that you would

lose your scholarship.

Doesn't matter.

I'm not going

to that place anyway.

Like hell, you're not.

You have one year left.

We have come too far

for you to turn back now.

Listen, this is going be

good for you, okay?

30 days with Doctor...

Whoa, Mom, 30 days?

You said a week?

Well, I lied, too.

Baby...

this is it, okay?

You gotta face it.

This is your last shot.

I'm not always

gonna be here

to bail you out.

You're strong.

You gotta confront it.

No more denial.

Can we get some food

or something, mom?

I'm really hungry.

[♪ ]

Mom, we gotta go back.

They put egg on my sandwich.

We're already on the road

No, Mom,

we gotta go back.

I can't just take it off.

Mom, it's egg.

I hate egg,

I hate the smell.

-It's not

-I'm not turning around

Mom, it's not that--

Mom, it's just back there!

Close the damn door!

Mom

It's

just back there.

I'm I'm sorry,

I shouldn't

I shouldn't have done that.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry Mom,

I shouldn't

[child making noises]

Hey, what's up, Bro?

You the man of the house?

Yeah?

My name is Trevor,

what's yours?

-I'm Alton.

-Alton?

You, uh, handshake

or fist bump guy?

Good choice, good choice.

Is your dad home?

Yeah?

Uh, rest your shoes, please.

Oh, my apologies.

The bag?

Yeah, that's fine.

[doctor sighs]

Nice nice place you got here.

Thank you.

Like a modern take on, uh,

traditional farm house?

Transitional furniture.

Looks good.

Well, okay Mr. Show-Off

[chuckles]

You know,

you're mother did tell me

that you were

an architecture student

Uh, you're not about that life.[laughs]

So, um, uh,

here's the kitchen.

You can get anything you want

out of the refrigerator

and anything in the cabinets,

you can help yourself to it.

Except for that

bottom-right cabinet.

That's where Cynthia

keeps all of our snacks.

It's all healthy stuff.

I don't think

you want that anyway.

Listen Doc.

Don't call me Doc,

call me Robert, alright?

At least while we're here

at the house.

When we're in session,

you can call me Doc.

Sure, uh, Robert, listen.

How much is this going to

cost my mom?

Oh, Trevor.

Look, right now

you're well-being is the most

important thing, yeah?

So, family, home, money, school,

all that stuff can wait.

The most important

thing is you.

It's all about you right now

and what's in here, okay?

Yeah, no, I totally get that.

I just, I don't feel right

about being a burden

or more of a burden,

so

Well, you can rest easy knowing

that it's not going to cost

your mother a thing.

How's that?

You're doing this pro bono?

Out of the kindness

of your heart?

[scoffs] Mm-mm.

I said it's not going to

cost her anything.

W-with what money?

I mean, google

"“broke college student"”.

I'm right there, first result.

I don't have anything

to give you.

This is

[chuckles]

You got jokes.

Look, I don't want your money.

Come on, follow me.

I got something

to show you.

Get your shoes.

[Cynthia]

You're hungry, come on.

Get some over here.

You know that

[laughs]

Y'all act like y'all

haven't eaten in weeks.

Y'all act

like I don't feed you.

Why y'all acting

like I don't feed you?

Here you go.

[Robert and Trevor talking]

Y'all are greedy,

just greedy.

Hey, baby.

You out here getting

these eggs

from your chickens?

[Cynthia laughs]

You know I'm gonna

get my eggs

and I'm not sharing

since you think

it's so funny.

Aww, whatever.

Look, this is Trevor.

Trevor, this is my wife,

Cynthia.

Oh, pleased to

meet you, Trev.

Hey.

I'm gonna show him, uh,

the guest house.

Oh, okay.

And afterwards we're going

to have some lunch

and get to know

each other a little better.

Cynthia is a biologist.

She's doing some amazing

research on aerobic bateria

as it accelerates growth

in urban flora.

Mm, something like that.

I got it right this time.

Right, yeah, alright.

[laughs]

It all kind of sounds

like greek to me but

Yeah, me too.

But she makes a lot of money,

so, come on.

See you in a minute, baby.

See you inside.

[talking to chickens]

Alright.

So, this is

our guest house.

[chuckles]

or at least it will be.

And this is where you'll be

staying while you're here.

You don't have to do

all this, Doc.

You could've just thrown out

a bale of hay

and that would've been good.

Well, this is also

where you'll be working

while you're here.

Working?

Mm-hmm.

There's got to be

some miscommunication.

I don't actually

know construction.

I mean, I know it in theory

but not in practice.

Well, It's really pretty simple.

I mean, electrical and plumbing

has already been done, yeah?

So, all you have to do is

tack up some insulation,

then drywall, spackle and paint.

I mean, it's really pretty simp.

I'm sure you can find somethingon YouTube to help you out.

I get it.

You get my free labor

and you get mine, yeah?

So, now the timing

of your sessions

is going to be a little varied

because I'm fitting you

in between patients.

But you can call up

one of those app car things

and, um, it'll bring you

right to the office.

Your office?

Mm-hm.

Oh, I thought we were

doing this thing here.

Well, I would rather

keep the two aspects

of our relationship separate.

When you're in my home,

you're my guest

and when you're in my office

you're my patient, cool?

Yeah, totally.

Uh, that way you can take

responsibility

for your own schedule.

And understand, you're here

but you can come to the house

anytime you want to.

Sure, yeah,

I respect that.

That's cool.

Okay, cool, alright.

Oh, hey, Doc or Robert.

[Robert chuckles]

Can I ask you something?

Sure!

All of this is

is because of what I did?

I'm not,

I'm not following you.

Well, you know

I mean, I hurt someone.

Is this, like, to keep me

separate from your family

so you guys are safe?

No, not at all.

Come on.

This is a matter

of convenience, yeah?

-Yeah.

-Yeah.

So, get yourself settled in

and then come up to the house

and have some lunch, uh?

Okay.

We're glad

you're here, yeah?

Alright, see you in a minute.

So, pawns can't go

forward to capture

but they can go

diagonal to capture

That's cool.

And...

rooks can go

all the way forward.

Hey, buddy.

Hey.

You're playing by yourself?

Mm-hmm, yeah.

You mind if I join you?

Ok, but I'm not so good.

Oh, that's okay.

I'm not good either.

Teach me what you know.

Um, this piece,

I was thinking about how

it can go all the way forward

but I can't go diagonal.

See, my brother gets me

like that every time.

You have a brother?

Yeah.

Is he like, like,

little like me?

Um, no.

He's an adult now.

He's a grown up.

But between you and me,

he's kind of a pain in the butt.

I wish I had a little brother.

And you said "butt".

Yeah.

It's, um

I wish I had a little brother.

Yeah, uh, show me

something else.

Well, these two

are the queen and king

and they're love birds.

They

the queen is the most

powerful piece in the game

'‘cause it can both,

like the rook,

forward, backwards,

and sideways,

and more and diagonal

just like this piece

right here

which is named the bishop.

And the king is the most

important piece in the game

Alright, sleepy head.

It's time to go to sleep, okay?

Okay.

Good night, sweetie.

Sweet dreams.

Ah, you can't forget these.

Do you remember why?

So the monsters

cannot get into my dreams.

That's right.

You wear these so the monsters

can't come through your ears

and give you nightmares.

Good night.

Ooh, I see you there

showing off.

Uh-huh, you know

how we do, baby.

Uh-huh,

you showing off for me?

[Trevor]

Hello?

Well, good morning.

How'd you sleep?

Uh, it was ok.

Smells really good in here.

That would be

my world famous crepes.

[Cynthia chuckles]

Usually when someone

says world-famous

it... doesn't taste that good.

[Cynthia laughs]

Well, it's like those singers

on American Idol

who swear by their voices

but they sound like trash.

[Cynthia]

Oooh! Well, you know,

Robert spent a year

in France after college.

I guess you make

quite an impression

even after all these years.

Oh, that's right, baby.

That's how you can

[inaudible], yeah.

I was looking into

some renovation stuff, um

and I think you may need

some more parts.

So, I was going to go

to the hardware store after...

Oh, taking some initiative,

I like that.

I tell you what,

after we finish breakfast

we can jump in the SUV

and head on over, huh?

Well, I mean, I was thinking

I could go alone.

I can take it.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Drive my car?

Robert, really?

[chuckles]

Got you.

I swear.

Yeah, that's okay.

You can take the car.

Cool.

After I try your

world famous crepe.

Oh, you sure you want

to try them?

You've been talking

about them.

Thank you.

Hopefully it's good.

-That's your thank you.

-You said hopefully?

Don't mess up,

don't mess up.

Okay.

You know, leave him alone.

Leave him alone.

[♪ ]

Hey, Hazel,

I know that I'm late

but can I just go right back?

Yeah, go ahead in.

He's waiting.

Hey, so sorry I'm late.

[chuckles]

Trevor, so what happened?

Oh, it was a rough morning

[chuckles].

What, your alarm clock

didn't go off

in time or something?

No, it was more

like I was, uh,

having some trouble

getting motivated.

We've all been there,

you know.

[chuckles]

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

We've all been there.

Um, well, we don't have

much time left.

I got another session

in a few minutes, so

Oh, yeah, I'm sorry.

I mean, we can

do it another time.

No worries, no worries.

Look, I can see

you're really trying, huh?

Um, but even

with the little bit

of time we have left,

I think there's something

we need to discuss, yes?

I'm going to put my serious

doctor face on for a minute.

Okay, so, this is, what,

our 4th session?

Well, it would've been

our 4th if I was on time.

[laughs]

Right.

Um, well,

I'm going to talk to you

about something

we've been kind of

dancing around for a minute.

Given my assessment of you

and your history,

I'm diagnosing you

with bipolar disorder.

I just want to let you know,

so, you can take

the worry off your mind

I know it's beenstressing you out a little bit.

So, you're saying that

because I lose my temper,

and I have random

passionate moments

that I'm crazy?

Trevor, Come on,

come on, now.

-No, but

-W-w-wait, wait.

We've been over this, huh?

It's nothing to do

with being crazy.

There's a lot of things

that could factor into this.

Most likely, it's just

some kind

of chemical imbalance.

And everybody has

some kind of imbalance, so

-But

-Wait, wait,

so, to use your words,

use your words,

everybody's got

a little crazy in them.

Doc, I...

Look, Trevor, Trevor, Trevor,

look at me.

Look at me,

it's just science, man.

It doesn't make you a bad perso-

[Trevor stammers]

Doesn't make you

a bad person.

Okay, uh... okay.

Okay... mm.

Mm-mm.

Don't tell on me, okay?

What?

I'm not supposed

to be smoking.

Can mess up my meds.

What are you doing?

Just waiting for my ride.

Well, you must've gotten

some bad news.

You were in there for,

like, two minutes.

[exhales]

I don't want to talk about it.

Fine.

So, what kind of meds

they put you on?

I-I'm here for counseling.

I'm not

no one's putting me

on meds.

Nah-uh.

If that was true

you'd just see

a regular shrink.

If you're seeing Weldon,

they're putting you on meds.

He'll keep telling you

that you're not crazy.

That it's just science.

But if that was true,

let me ask you something,

why do they still

call those drugs

antipsychotics?

Sam, what have

we told you?

Sam, you should not

be smoking.

Busted.

Hurry in, the doctor's waiting.

See you later.

[knocking]

Come in.

It's your barn.

Ah, looking pretty good, man.

So, dinner's almost ready.

Actually, I'm not hungry

but thank you.

Yeah, well,

that's understandable.

Uh, look,

I brought you something.

You ran out

so quick today,

I didn't get a chance

to give them to you

before you left.

They're pills.

Mm-hmm.

These antipsychotics?

Ah, we don't call them

that anymore.

It's more like, uh,

like a mood stabilizer.

Look, Trevor,

I know this is

a lot to take in.

But if we're going

to be honest,

you don't really handle

your episodes very well.

What do they do?

Even things out a bit.

That's it.

And if you

find yourself too much

on one side

or the other,

then we--

let me know

and we can adjust

your medication.

Yeah, I'd rather not

if there's different options

or something else

we could do

other than this.

I'm afraid that this is

a non-negotiable.

Look, I know you don't like

talking about it

but you had that incident

with your brother, yeah?

And you're here all day

with my wife

and my child, so

I'm going to need you

to take the medicine.

And I'm going to need you

to stay the course.

And if you refuse then

you have to go home.

Trevor...

Trevor, did you hear

what I said?

Yeah.

Okay.

Your condition is manageable

but you have

to manage it, yeah?

Yeah.

Okay.

And, um you should just

come down

to dinner anyway.

You don't have to eat, but

I think it'd be good for you

to be around people.

Yeah.

Okay.

See you in a minute.

[sighs]

[speaking softly]

Okay, okay.

You believe in the process,

you want it to work.

You believe in the process.

You want it to work.

You want it to work.

You believe in the process,

you want to work.

You believe in the process,

you want it to work

You believe in the process,

you want it to work.

You want this,

you want this.

You believe in the process,

you want it work.

Okay, you believe

in the process,

you want it to work.

Alright.

It's time to go

to sleep, okay?

Mmm, okay.

Good night sweetie.

Sweet dreams.

Ah, we can't forget these.

Do you remember why?

So monsters cannot

get into my dreams.

That's right.

You wear these

so the monsters

can't come through your ears

and give you nightmares.

Good night.

[distant arguing]

[♪ ]

[arguing continues]

[arguing stops]

[♪ ]

[cell phone vibrating]

Hey, Mom.

Hey, baby.

I just wanted to give you

a quick call

before I head to work.

How you doing?

Good, I'm good.

You don't sound so good.

Everything's fine.

I'm good.

So, how's it going

with Dr. Weldon?

It's good.

All good.

Are you going

to say "good"

every time I ask you

a question?

Mmh?

You do realize

I talk to him, too.

I mean, if you know,

why are you asking?

Listen, there's no reason

to be snippy.

Just want to hear

from you.

I want to know

how you're doing.

You realize there's nothing

to be ashamed of, right?

Yeah, I know.

So, are you taking the meds

that he gave you?

Yeah.

Are they helping?

Trevor, listen to me.

I believe in you.

And I know that you

can handle this, alright?

You're young, you're capable,

you're smart.

You can do it.

What if that's

not enough, Mom?

I got to--

I got to go

to work, okay?

But you keep doing

what you doing.

Love you.

I'll give you a call tomorrow.

I love you.

Trevor.

Trevor.

Trevor!

Hmm?

What?

Where did you go

just now?

Sorry, I guess I spaced.

Mm-hmm.

Well, I was asking you

if there was something

on your mind?

That's our time,

isn't it?

Well, yeah,

but if there was

something else

you want to talk about

we can go over

a few minutes.

I mean, it looks like

there's something

on your mind.

No. No.

We're good.

Guess I'll just see you

back at the house?

Okay.

Jeez, man!

You scared me.

I thought

you were Hazel.

Sam, right?

Yep.

And you're Trevor?

Yeah.

How'd you

Hazel told me.

Said that I shouldn't

talk to you.

[whispers]

I'm a bad influence.

[Trevor chuckles]

My car will be here

in a minute.

Hey, you were right,

by the way.

He did put me

on the meds.

How's that going for you?

Can I ask you something?

Shoot.

How long am I going to

feel like this?

Depends on

what you mean.

For me, the dizziness

went away pretty quick.

Headaches come and go.

Diarrhea though

No, I mean

This fuzzy feeling

in my head

like everything's

turned down.

How long is that?

Like you're never really

fully awake?

Yeah.

Doesn't really go away.

You just kind of

get used to it.

No, it's not

They can't expect us

to live like this.

What's your diagnosis?

Bipolar.

Well, some people

get over it eventually.

Really?

Yeah,

like in 30 or 40 years.

30 or 40 years, it's

Bullshit?

Yeah!

It is, I mean...

I mean,

how am I supposed

to be creative

if I feel like this?

I

I used to like who I was

and

Now, I don't even know

who I

am anymore.

Preach it!

It's stupid!

[Sam laughs]

Now, Trevor, tell me,

How does it

make you feel?

Felt good.

It's the first time

I've ever felt anything

since I started

taking these stupid pills,

you know?

A crazy idea.

You want to get

out of here,

go do something?

I can ditch out

of my session.

I gotta work.

Rain check?

Sure.

Yeah, I don't know when

but we can figure

something out.

Yeah, we're both here,

I mean

Sam, you're late.

Come on,

Dr. Weldon's waiting.

Yes, Ms. Hazel.

Next time.

See ya.

[knocking]

Trevor, can I come in?

Trevor,

you didn't come down

to breakfast.

Look, Trevor,

you know

you can talk to me,

right?

Anything that's

on your mind

you can really--

Just go away, please.

[barn door opens]

I know what you're

going through.

I also know

you don't want

to talk and that's okay.

You don't have to.

But I'm going to talk

for a while if that's okay.

Right now,

you're feeling worthless.

You feel tired,

you feel guilty.

You don't have

an appetite.

You just want to sleep.

But you can't

because your brain

won't let any

of it shut off.

I don't know

if this is your first

or your worst but...

What you're going through

is a depressive episode.

Sometimes, it's minor,

little more than sadness

or despair

on a normal day.

Or sometimes,

it's like this.

[sighs]

Nine years ago,

I was diagnosed

with major

depressive disorder.

I was exactly like you

for weeks.

Eventually,

I tried to do

something about it.

I was sent to Robert.

And...

[sighs]

That's how I found out

there was help.

Trevor, I need you

to listen to me.

You have two choices.

You can either lay here

and wallow in it

and let it consume you,

Or you could do

something about it

and you can do

something about it.

It takes time to come

to terms with it.

But in the meantime,

Robert wants to adjust

your medication.

You're still

adjusting to it, so,

it's gonna take

some trial and error

to get the right balance.

Does it ever get easier?

Living like this?

I'm not going

to lie to you.

It never gets easy.

But it does

get manageable.

Once you get

control of it

and it no longer

has control of you,

you'll realize

just how much

you're capable of.

Hey, Mom,

you gotta take this out.

You-you have

to take it out.

Are you sure you want

me to open this?

Yep, you yep.

You don't want

to open it?

Yeah, come on.

Let's just...

Okay.

Ooh, it's a lot of papers

[chuckles]

Is it bad?

What is it?

Trev, you got a 3.9.

I did? I did?

Seriously?

[giggles]

Come here.

This is...

Come here.

Okay.

You are a genius.

Where are you going?

You are a genius

like your mom.

I'm going to put this

on the fridge.

No, Mom, don't do that.

Don't be that kind of mom.

I want everybody

to see it

when they come here.

No, don't,

Mom, don't be

that kind of mom.

I'm not listening

to you, no.

[arguing]

Mom, can we please

just go back?

Mom, it's just

back there!

Close the damn door!

Mom...

It's...

just back there,

I'm

I'm sorry, I shouldn't

have done that.

I shouldn't have done that.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, Mom.

I shouldn't...

[Trevor and Gavin talking]

Wait, where are you again?

Where are you?

Come on, man.

Nah!

No, no, no, no, no,

get outta here!

Sit down, sit down,

sit down.

[arguing]

you didn't actually win

because of lack of skill.

There is a glitch

in the game.

There is a glitch

in the game.

Let's run it back.

Let's do it again.

I don't need

to trade controllers

with you, man.

Let's play,

you just need to

let's do this again

'‘cause cheated.

Something happened.

You didn't win

because you're good.

You win because

I let you, alright?

You can shut up,

that's what you can do.

Let's just play

this game again.

Let's go back...

Trev, It's just a drawing.

It's not just a drawing, Gav!

It's not just drawing!

It's not just a drawing, Gav!

It's not just a drawing!

It's not just a drawing!

It's more...

Gav, I'm...

I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

I'm sorry

Oh, my God.

I'm sorry,

I'm so sorry.

I

Gav...

Gavin, I'm sorry.

Come on Trevor!

Pick up the pace.

You're too slow!

We got about

a mile to go.

[cell phone vibrating]

Hey, Trev.

Gavin?

Hey, what's up?

Mom is in the shower.

Um

How's it going?

Good.

Things are, um

okay.

I'm doing better.

Listen, Gav, um

I wanted to say

that I'm really--

It's okay, Trev, whatever it is

you feel like you have to say,

maybe it can wait

until you come home.

You know, it just feels

kind of weird doing it

over the phone,

you know?

Yeah, yeah.

Hey, a couple of days ago

I was thinking

about that

World Rally 3

game we played

and how you beat me

for the first time ever.

Yeah, it was a good day.

Yeah.

Maybe we can

play again sometime,

rematch?

Sure.

Sure. I'm gonna have, um,

Mom call you back

when she gets out, alright?

Yeah, okay.

[sighs]

Trevor!

I am sorry,

I was in the shower.

How you doing?

Hey, Mom.

Uh, I'm good,

just a little tired.

Went on a jog with Robert.

Oh, so,

it's Robert now?

Okay.

Yeah, well,

he prefers Dr. Weldon

when we are in session.

Well,

it sounds like

you guys are

getting along well.

Yeah.

Hey, I had a question.

How did you guys

meet again?

Honey, I told you.

He's an old friend of the famil.

Yeah, but...

Yeah, but Ma,

how do you know him?

Like, where did you meet?

I mean,

where did the interaction

where--

I don't understand.

You know,

I'm not sure

I actually remember

how we met.

Um

Probably at a party

or something.

Why do you ask?

I'm just curious.

Is he a friend of Dad's?

You know, uh,

now that you mention it,

uh, yeah.

I think he was a friend

of your dad's, yeah.

I think they went

to college together.

Honey, that was

so long ago.

Okay.

But I'm sure Robert

doesn't remember.

Hey, look,

I got to go shower.

So, um

I'll talk to you later.

Alright, love you.

So

I'm really glad you're

feeling better, Trevor.

I am, thanks.

So

do you think

you feel like

talking about the incident

with your brother?

No.

No-no-no-no-no.

So, why do you think

you're avoiding that,

Trevor?

I'm-I'm not

avoiding it, okay?

I think about it constantly.

When it happened

I was barely aware

of what was going on.

I have this vivid dream,

a memory in my mind.

It was like

I was somebody else.

So I

I don't want

to talk about it.

Please.

Fine.

So

What do you want

to talk about?

Oh, I hear the Braves

won 4 in a row,

you know that?

[Trevor scoffs]

[Robert laughs]

I'm not,

I'm not much

of a baseball guy.

Okay.

Um

Actually, I do have

a question there for you.

My mom says you were

an old friend of the family

but she can't remember

how you met.

Do you remember

how you met?

[chuckes]

Um

No, I can't seem

to recall either.

So, you can remember

how to make crepes

from scratch from college

but you can't remember

how you met my parents?

Really?

Look, now you're going

to make me look for it.

Okay.

Let's see.

Oh!

Yeah, I-I think

I met your mother

at a clinical trial

for a new drug.

She was there

for the hospital

and, uh,

we chatted and hit it off

and became friends.

And then she just

introduced you

to my dad, right?

Uh, yes, I believe so.

You want to talk

about your father, Trev?

Is that why you're

asking me all of this?

No, there's not

much to talk about.

I'm good.

Are you sure?

I mean, just say

what's on your mind,

whatever you're thinking.

Uh, okay, sure.

He died when I was five.

There's nothing really

much to remember.

I mean, he was funny,

he was kind.

There was something else,

drugs, I think.

Why do you say that?

My mom never talks

about him with us.

She just wants us

to remember him

the way that we want to.

But I know

that he was shot.

But you already

knew that, right?

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, cool.

Well, listen, uh

I got, like, 10 minutes left

so I'm just gonna,

I'm going to head out.

Uh, I was pretty tired

from that jog, so

I'll just, uh,

I'll see you next session.

Okay, okay fine,

Trevor.

I'll see you back

at the house.

You alright?

No, I'm pissed, or

at least I think I am.

I can't tell

with these stupid meds

messing with my head.

You wanna

get out of here?

You wanna

go ditch and just--

Hell, yeah!

Come on,

I wanna

show you something.

Okay, let's go.

Let's get out of here.

Weldon

-What?

-God, I can't...

He's not telling the truth

about something.

He's lying to me

and I just don't understand--

Alright, alright.

It's fine just

trust me.

Where are we going?

Yonder.

Alright,

this should be good

because I'm not much of a

nature-adventure guy.

Ah, you'll be fine.

Promise not to kill you

on your first try.

Oh, thanks,

that makes me feel

very safe.

Alright, this way!

Just so you know,

I'm not attracted to you.

-What?

-I didn't bring you here

to, like, make out

or fool around.

Yeah, I know

that that's not

what this is about.

Good.

Alright, out with it.

What's got your panties

in a wad?

I just feel like

I'm being lied to.

Aren't we all?

Are you a schizo?

What?

Well, if you're schizophrenic,

you might only think

you're being lied to.

No, no,

I'm not a schizo.

Do you hear voices

in your head?

I'm not a schizo.

I don't hear voices.

Are you just one

of those people

that have no filter,

says whatever

comes to mind?

Yeah, but that's not

why see Weldon.

Then, why?

I have something called

intermittent explosive disorder.

Basically, it means

I fly off the handle

for no reason.

A couple of months ago,

a coworker of mine

told me

that I was talking

too loud

and so I hit her

with a chair.

Not one of those,

folding chairs,

like, in wrestling

but like a big chair

with wheels!

Seriously?

Yeah.

She pressed charges

for assault

and I could've gotten jail time.

But instead,

I got probation

and Weldon

and a fistful of pills.

Do they help?

I haven't had

an episode in a while

if that's what you mean.

I just want to understand

how they expect us

to live like this.

I mean, every time

I take those stupid pills,

I feel less,

less like myself and

They keep saying that

it's just an illness,

it's not a part of me,

it's not who I am.

But

it's in my head,

isn't it?

Which means

it's a part of me.

They want us numb.

'‘Cause if we can feel,

then it might come out.

You know I was in school

to be an architect?

I didn't.

That's cool.

Yeah, it is pretty cool.

I used to draw

these blueprints

of houses

when I was a kid.

It was awesome.

I would do, like,

slides for stairs

and

Uh, is that safe or...?

I like the sound.

It calms me.

[♪ ]

Whoa whoa, whoa,

what are you doing?

Come on, climb over!

What?

That's not safe.

Come on!

You want to remember

what it feels like

to be alive?

Oh, God!

This feels amazing!

[Sam and Trevor scream]

Alright, alright.

Let's go back,

let's go back.

Is that what

we're gonna have to do?

Do stupid stuff

like that

in order to feel alive?

Beats not feeling anything.

That's true.

[Sam laughs]

We should head back.

Alright, come on,

I'll drive you.

No, that's okay,

I'll walk.

Alright.

[exhales]

Oh

I--I'm sorry.

I was looking for Robert.

It's okay, Trevor.

What's up?

Well, I just wanted to run

something by him, really.

I think he said

he'd be about an hour.

Okay, well,

I can just wait.

No, come on.

Come on.

Okay, cross you legs.

No, it's no use Cynthia.

You don't have to do

everything perfectly.

This is your

daily routine?

Uh...

[inaudible]

Okay, okay.

You know what?

It's okay.

Let's try something else.

Cross you legs

the best you can.

You're trying to kill me.

That's what's happening.

Mm-hmm.

Okay.

Let's sit and let's breath

in and out.

Okay.

In...

and out.

I don't understand what

we're doing with this.

You're also supposed

to be silent.

Silence is powerful.

It's just sometimes

it's best to just sit

and be silent.

What does the silence

do for you,

if you don't

mind me asking?

Sometimes, I pray.

I reflect.

I redirect my thoughts

if I'm [inaudible]

I just get to know

how my mind works

so that I can...

so that I can

release tension.

You do this every day?

No.

Sometimes I cry.

Sometimes I get mad.

Most times I just seek

clarity from God.

But nothing exists

outside this room.

This, right here,

is my outlet.

The last couple of years,

I just...

I've been taking the holistic

approach to my treatment.

I'm not much of a holistic

kind of guy.

It's too trendy for me.

No offense.

I feel that.

Everything is not for everybody.

But you gotta find something,

some outlet.

So, burning incense

and meditation

is kind of your thing?

It's not about that.

It's about finding balance.

It's about learning

how your mind works.

It's like a monitor,

a diet,

an exercise.

I've learned how to mold

my environment.

So, there's other ways

outside of the pills then?

Trevor, it's very important

that you...

that you try to stick

to the path

that Robert has you on.

You're gonna learn

yourself eventually.

You're going to look

into alternatives.

But for now, just...

for now, just

stay the course.

Trust the process.

Of course, I will.

Yeah.

Thanks.

I'm still lucky to be alive.

I'm gonna head out.

This was kind of

tough but good.

Thanks, Cynthia.

Thank you.

[exhales]

[♪ ]

So, baby, can we get

that, uh,

that lobster thing

you do for dinner?

You know, you always ask

for the lobster thing.

Well, you know.

Why can't we get it, though,

is the question.

[Cynthia laughs]

I mean, I may be able

to work something out.

Okay, well,

that's what's up.

Rise and grind folks!

Good morning,

good morning.

How's everyone doing?

Good to see you.

Looks like somebody

slept well.

No, I did not

sleep at all

but I am feeling great.

You guys want me

to make you breakfast?

I mean, I can only

make omelettes

but they're really, really

good omelettes,

I mean, amazing!

Well, that's thoughtful.

Um, let's see what

we've got in here.

Yeah.

Let me see here.

Okay, got mushrooms.

Yeah, mushrooms are great.

Yes. Peppers.

Peppers are good,

peppers are good.

What else we got?

We'll need eggs.

Yeah, we're definitely

going to need some eggs.

So, Trevor,

how are you

doing this morning?

You feeling alright?

Yeah, I'm feeling great.

Feeling really,

really great.

Yeah, well, Cynthia said

there was something

you wanted

to talk to me about.

Oh, yeah!

Well, nah, it's not important.

You want onions?

Yes?

Sure.

Look at that, we got

onions, right here.

So, we gotta figure out...

I need to know where

the cutting board is

but don't tell me.

I gotta get acclimated

with the kitchen.

No. Nope, nope.

Okay, nope.

It's alright.

Imma find it, Imma find it.

We're gonna make

some breakfast.

No-no-no-no-no.

No help necessary.

I'm gonna find

this cutting board.

Hey, what's up, man?

What are you doing?

Trying to see

how to grip a football.

Here, let me see.

I'm good at this.

You just gotta

hold it pretty tight.

Just like that.

Hold it down.

Oh, you good?

Yeah, I'm just

trying to get in

on this football lesson.

Just making sure

you had it in you still.

Hey, you want to go?

Let's go on the swings.

Let's see how high

we can get.

As high as we can.

Yeah!

Gotta get in

the swing there, kid.

So, go by yourself first

and put let's see.

Now, come on.

We gotta get

a big swing in there.

You got to swing

big, big!

You gotta think

big there, Alton.

I know!

Trevor!

Trevor!

Trevor, we need to talk.

Alright, Doc,

you talk, I'm pushing.

No, you need to stop

and Alton needs

to go in the house.

Aww! Come on,

just another

couple of minutes

Trevor, stop now!

Oh, coach, don't be

such a buzz kill, Doc!

That's too high!

[Trevor scoffs]

Buddy, go on

in the house.

Hey, what,

look, I'm sorry.

Was it too hard

of a push?

You stopped taking

your meds.

No, I didn't.

I count them.

Oh, mutual trust, huh?

Come on.

You're going to stand here

and lie to my face

and talk about mutual trust?

You had one rule here,

one rule

and that was to follow

your course of treatment.

Yeah, well, I'm exploring

different alternatives, Doc.

Come on, now.

Come on, it's good,

I feel great.

Cynthia has spent years

managing her illness.

She did the work,

and she found a treatment

that works for her.

You have not!

Tre--

You are experiencing

a manic episode right now.

I'm not--

What does Cynthia

have to do

with any of this?

I'm great, I feel good.

I'm not having an episode.

I feel amazing actually.

That's what mania is,

that's what it does.

It's a high!

Oh, Doc.

Most times you don't even

realize you have it.

Look, I know how I feel

better than you do.

I'm good.

Do you?

Yeah.

When's the last time

you slept?

Hmm, hmm?

You did a week's

worth of work

in one night!

Look, Trevor,

when you are like this,

things can happen,

things that you don't

mean to happen.

Like what happened

with your brother.

No-no-no-no,

that was different.

That was different,

that was different!

Trevor, calm down.

[Trevor stammering]

You think

you know everything?

You don't know anything.

I would know.

This is

my brain, okay?

This is my body,

this is...

Trevor!

...me, this is not...

-Trevor!

You broke my trust

and I cannot have you

around my family

when you are like this.

What do you even

what are you doing?

You don't know

what you're talking about.

You don't know

anything here.

This is my brain,

this is my body.

I'm fine.

This is my mind.

This is my body!

You don't, get to,

tell me, what to, do!

You have broken my trust.

And I cannot have you

around my family like this.

So, if you are not going to

follow my instructions,

you have to leave my house.

So, you want me to leave?

You just want me to go,

you don't want me here?

You think I'm dangerous

or something?

Like my mom, my brother,

it's not

Trevor, this is not about

what I think,

it's about what I know.

No, fine, fine, fine!

I'll go! I'll go!

That's what you want?

You want me to leave?

No, I'm gone.

I'm gone, Doc.

I'm gone!

Hey, you.

Baby, he's gone.

Gone?

Yeah, Trevor's gone.

Gone where?

[stammering]

I don't know.

Like, he blew up,

I blew up

and then he left.

Aww.

This is my second time

failing this family.

I don't know

how to help somebody

who does not

want to be helped.

Hey, you can't

think like that.

It's not that

he doesn't want help.

Listen, baby.

This is all

brand-new to him.

He don't even understand.

Now, hasn't he made

all your appointments?

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

Now, he should be damn near

done with that barn.

Oh, he finished that

last night.

Okay, so he's trying.

Oh, no, he on that

manic side right now.

Listen, you and I

both know

that it's still up to him

to do the work.

Not you.

Got me?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

Well, I guess if he's serious,

he'll come back, huh?

You guess?

Yeah, I guess.

Mm.

Give me some sugar

Ooh, I'm gonna get me

another one.

Ah, you like this?

I do.

You make things

better don't you?

Come on,

what you doing over here?

Coloring my favorite things in,you know.

[cell phone vibrates]

[cell phone vibrates]

Hey, Mom.

No, it's me.

Gavin?

Yeah, I didn't think

you'd answer

for anyone but Mom.

Dude, where are you?

Uh

I'm not sure.

I left and I don't,

I don't know.

Okay, well,

listen, um

Dr. Weldon just called Mom

to tell her what happened

but she left her phone

at home, so he told me.

Trev, don't

Don't be an idiot.

An idiot?

Gavin, you have no idea

what you're talking about.

You have no idea

what this is like, Bro.

Would you just shut up

and listen to me

for one second?

When Dad died,

I was too young

to remember him, alright?

I got little memories,

barely fragments,

and to be honest

I don't even know

if they're real

or not.

Okay?

The point is

I didn't have him

around to look up to.

I had you.

When I was a kid,

I would look at you

and it was, like,

I mean, you could

do anything.

Remember that, uh,

stupid racing game

that you brought up

the other day,

the time that I beat you?

I was thinking

about that, too, because

that was honestly

one of the first times

that I felt myself

becoming more like you.

This is all I ever

really wanted.

To be more like Trev.

But not now.

Not anymore.

You're letting

this thing beat you.

You're giving up.

It's not that easy, Gavin.

It's not some game

or an exam

that I can just

beat or pass.

This is something

I have to manage

for the rest of my life.

The rest of my life!

So, what?

Are you saying that

you're not strong enough?

You're just going to let

this thing beat you?

No, I'm trying to be strong,

I'm trying to be

strong for you,

I'm trying to be

strong for Mom,

I'm trying.

That's the thing,

it's not for Mom

or for me

or for anybody else.

You gotta do this

for you.

I'm tr--

I'm trying.

I'm trying.

Damn it.

You, uh,

you really wanted

to be like me?

Still do.

I wanna be like

the old you.

The real you.

You're not going

to tell Mom

on me, are you?

That depends...

What are you gonna

do now?

First, uh

I got to figure out

where the hell I am.

[cell phone vibrating]

Hey, Robbie, it's Rachel.

Hey, Rachel.

Yeah, Gavin told me

you called.

I am sorry.

Yeah, I'm sorry

that I put you

in this position.

Nah, nah, nah,

don't worry about it.

It's not your fault.

You know, he was

he was doing well, Rachel.

He really was.

Well, maybe I should come

and see him.

Do you think

that would help?

[chuckles]

I don't know where he is.

Well, he hasn't

called me yet,

so I don't think

he's coming home.

[chuckles] who knows,

he might be trying

to call your bluff.

Yeah, well,

he did that, alright.

[chuckles]

But, um, yeah, yeah,

I think it'd be

good for you

to come and visit.

Alright, well,

work is a little hectic now

but within

the next few days

I'll make my way

down there.

Alright, well, hit me up

when you're on the way

and it'll be good

to see you, huh?

Mm-hmm, alright.

Alright, bye-bye.

So, are you ready?

Yeah, um

I just wanted to say

that I was sorry

for betraying your trust.

Trevor, Trevor, look,

it's,

it's not me

you gotta worry about.

You betrayed yourself,

hmm?

So, I'll ask you again,

Are you ready?

Because I can't get

my time back

and neither can you.

Yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

Okay.

Heard you quit.

Well, whatever happened

to doctor-patient

confidentiality?

I don't think that applies

if you're not

a patient anymore.

Fair.

My brother guilt me

back into it.

Yeah? Good.

'‘Cause for all

the trash that I talk

about pills and hypocrisy,

it's better than

the alternative.

And the therapy part,

the talking,

it really does help.

Hope I'll see you later.

Yeah, see you, Sam.

[Rachel and Trevor

speaking in dream]

[Rachel]

Alright, sleepy head.

It's time to go

to sleep, okay?

[distant arguing]

[arguing becomes louder]

Huh?

Trevor.

You seem a little

distant today.

Oh

Sorry, I

I just have a lot

on my mind,

I guess.

Well, um, that kind of

is the point

of these sessions, yeah?

Yeah, that's true.

Um, I, uh,

I keep having

this recurring dream

of me as a kid

and every time I have it

it goes a little further

but it...

But what?

It's...

It's like my brain is trying

to keep me out.

It's weird, I

It's like I can't go

any further with it,

I don't know.

That is interesting.

Um...

Hmm.

Well, sometimes

repressed memories

can manifest themselves

as dreams.

They're in our subconscious

all the time

even if we have them

locked away.

Hmm.

You know, I tell you what,

tell me about it.

Maybe we can

bring it out, huh?

Yeah, yeah, okay.

Um...

I think I was about 4 or 5

maybe

and, um,

My mom,

she used to let me

listen to music

while I sleep.

But as I got older

I realized

it was because she...

didn't want me to hear her

and my dad fighting.

Did they fight often?

I mean, I was little.

I was

I don't really remember.

I mean, there were

a few instances

where I heard the shouting

and the screaming and stuff.

But this time

the sound was different.

Different?

Different how?

Yeah, in... in the dream

they were fighting,

they were shouting

and then I woke up

'‘cause I couldn't,

I couldn't sleep

and I got out of bed,

then I walked down

the hall.

And then my mind won't

let me go any further.

It's like my mind's

keeping something from me.

But I do remember

what I heard.

I

I remember

what I heard.

Trevor

What'd you hear?

A gunshot.

And, Doc, I

I think that I might've

seen my dad get killed

and I think it happened

in our house and...

I think that I've been

just having this

repressed memory stuff

for years trying...

And now it's,

it's...

I mean,

this is gotta be, like,

breakthrough, right?

This has got

to mean something.

It has to mean

something because

now it's starting

to come together, isn't it?

[clears throat]

Has, um...

[hesitates]

Has your mother,

uh, ever

talked to you

about your father's death?

No, she she just wants us

to remember him

the way that we want to,

the way that I want to.

But

I don't--

I mean this has to be

breakthrough, right?

Like, this has to

mean something,

it has to mean something

because now

all these pieces are kinda

coming together, right?

Right?

Trevor, um

Look, sometimes

a dream is just a dream.

I mean,

you could be having

what we call

a lucid dream, yeah?

And, which seems very real at t-

No, wait.

But you--

no, you just said

I could've had

a repressed memory and--

but what if I did see

my dad get killed?

And what if that's

why I am the way

that I am and--

Hey, hey, hey

Trevor, Trevor, Trevor.

Trevor, look, I

I understand

your concerns but

we can't jump

to conclusions, huh?

Not until we have

some more information

and when you just...

And, um

our time is up

for the day but--

W-w-wait, wait, wait,

I tell you what.

Let's do this.

If you have this

dream again,

you talk to me

about it, huh?

And then we'll figure out

our plan of action

if and when we get

some more information.

[sighs] Yeah.

Yeah?

Yeah, okay.

Okay, okay.

Yep, we will.

-Okay.

-Okay.

Um, okay, thanks.

I'll see you

for dinner, yeah?

-Yeah.

-Yeah.

[Cynthia chuckles]

And so, what 's crazy

is that on our honeymoon,

I swear to you,

this dude got sunburn

so bad,

he looked like

a hot chili pepper [inaudible]

He did?

Yes!

Can you believe that?

I see that

my wife is reveling

in her favorite pastime,

that's laughing

at my expense here.

Thank you, honey.

I would've

brought you one, Trevor

but, um, I don't think

it's a good idea

to mix alcohol

while you're still

getting adjusted

to your meds.

No, that's okay.

I'm not much

of a wine drinker,

so, it's fine.

[chuckles]

Okay.

So, uh, I'm glad

you came back.

I wanted to make you

get sentimental.

[Robert laughs]

Well, you know,

after our time

is done here,

I don't see any reason

why we still couldn't

see each other

from time to time,

you know?

And maybe even in time

we could get you

to come

and babysit Alton

while Cyn and I

take a vacation.

[Cynthia laughs]

Did you just call me Cyn?

since we first started dating.

Somebody's had

a little too much wine.

My mom calls me Trev

and my brother,

so, I get it.

Wait, wait, wait,

what was the name

your friends used to call you

when we first

started dating.

[Robert groans]

Was it, um, Bobby?

No, no, it was Robbie.

Robbie!

It was awful.

Yeah, I would question

my friendships, too

if I had a nickname

like that.

Well, thank God nobody

calls me that anymore, huh?

[Cynthia]

Yeah, thank God.

[Cynthia]

Hey.

Trevor.

-Yeah.

-You okay?

Yeah, uh...

I just got tired,

so, I'm gonna

I'm gonna go to bed.

So, you guys

have a good night.

[Cynthia] Okay.

[Robert]Alright, okay.

[Trevor] Goodnight.

[Cynthia] Goodnight.

He'll be aight.

He'll be "aight"”.

[chuckles]

Let's go upstairs.

Well, come on,

grab you glass.

Yeah.

I'm leaving you!

No, you're not!

I'm leaving you!

No, you're not.

And I'm taking my kids

and I'm leaving.

I'm leaving!

-I'm done.

-Mm-mm.

-I'm done.

-Mm-mm

I'm leaving.

[chuckles]

Yeah, right.

I'm so sick of you.

You're so weak!

I'm weak?

Who you callin' weak?!

Who are you calling weak?!

Nobody, get off me.

You belong to me!

You belong to me!

What are you gonna do?

Get off of me!

A knife?

Ha-ha-ha!

A knife!

What are you gonna

do with that?

You don't know anything

about using a knife.

How about I show you

how to use a knife?!

Get off of me!

Put that down!

You think you can

threaten me with a knife?

You play around

with a knife?

Do you know

what a knife is?

Hold on.

Who did you call, Rachel?

Who the hell did you !

Hey, hey, T, T!

Yo, yo!

Weldon!

Welcome!

Take your shoes off

when you come in my house.

What you doin', man?!

T, let her go.

No!

That's your wife, man!

Let her go.

Yes, it is my wife.

This is my family.

Those are my boys.

This is my wife.

Get out!

Weldon, step the hell back!

This is my family!

Get out!

Man, please, please.

Brother, brother,

le-let her go!

I'm off your meds, man.

Talking ain't gonna

work this time.

I got it, I got it, I got it.

Alright, then.

Just let her go,

let her go.

Come on, put the knife

Oh, oh!

[choking] Doc, Doc!

I'm sorry, T.

I didn't, I

No, no-no-no-no!

Trevor?

It wasn't a dream.

It was a memory.

You, and you knew that.

You you lied, you

You killed him.

It was a memory

and you knew that.

-Wait, wait, Trevor, Trevor,

-You lied.

-you don't understand.

-You killed him.

No, no!

You don't understand!

No, you don't understand!

You did this!

You don't understand!

[Cynthia screaming]

You did this!

[screaming]

Ah, stop it!

Get off of me!

Stop, please, stop!

Hello!

[stammering]

Yeah, yeah, I-I need

an ambulance

and-and police!

4412 Roché.

[screaming]

4412 Roché!

What's happening?

Alton, Alton,

go back to your room

and do not come out

until I tell you to.

Go now!

[door creaks]

Just come out Trevor.

I know you're in here.

I took you in,

I treated you like family.

What did you do?

What did you do?!

You put my son in danger

and you attacked my wife!

Boy, I don't give a damn

about your illness.

That's my family!

No!

[sirens wailing]

What you gonna do, huh?

You're gonna shoot me?!

S-s-shut up!

Shut up, shut up!

Trevor, put the gun down.

Mom, no.

He he killed Dad, Mom.

He killed Dad.

Baby, no he didn't.

Yes, he did.

Put the gun down.

No, Ma, I have to do this.

It's for us, it's for Gavin,

it's for Dad, it

Honey, listen to me.

Now, the police are here.

Any minute now,

they're gonna come

through this door.

Is this what

you want them to find?

Bobby, she's ok.

Go take care of her.

No, no, Mom...

Trevor, listen to me.

I didn't want you

to know that your,

your father suffered

from mental illness.

[whispering]

No, he didn't. No, he didn't.

Listen, baby, he had,

he was bipolar,

mildly schizophrenic.

Doctor Weldon was his therapistfor a short while.

That's how we met him,

that's how we know him.

And I lied to you.

I'm sorry.

No...

-Baby, it's the truth.

-It doesn't make sense.

Baby, it's the truth.

Look, your father

was good for a while,

then he stopped

taking his medication.

And that night

when you were little,

honey, that day

I was convinced

that he had to kill me.

I didn't want

the police to take him,

so I called Robbie.

He killed him.

He did it.

Baby, it was an accident.

We tried to reason

with him.

He tried to talk him

but there was

nothing he could say.

And in the end,

honey, he did

what he had to do.

It was an accident?

It was-- it was an accident?

Baby, I'm sorry.

It was an accident.

Listen, I'm sorry.

I...

But the truth is

that your daddy gave up.

Honey, he let it

consume him.

Are you gonna

do the same?

[crying] I

'Cause I'm not

the same woman

as I was back then, okay?

I'm not going to let

anyone be a victim here.

Not even you.

It was an accident,

it was an accident.

It was an accident.

How many times

do you hurt

the people you love?

Do you damage everything

good in your life

before you start

to deal with it?

Dealing with it,

it's not meds,

it's not therapy,

It's acceptance.

It's being proactive.

It's loving yourself so much

that you force yourself

to become a better version

of yourself every day.

I got this.

We got this.

This is the last time

that anything like this

will ever happen again.

[♪ ]