Blue (2002) - full transcript
Quiet and introspective Kayako routinely has lunch on a rooftop with three of her friends that attend an all girls high school with her in a seaside town. One day she invites Masami Endo to join the group. As her friendship with Masami grows, she loses contact more and more with the others. She is impressed with Endo's greater knowledge of music and art, and although Endo proclaims that she is insignificant with no aim in life, Kayako says that she wishes that she could be like her new friend. Their feelings deepen beyond friendship and she proclaims her love for Endo on a lonely beach. The two become physically intimate but when summer comes Masami disappears and Kayako learns that she has gone to Tokyo to meet a married man with whom she had an affair the year before. An abortion had led to her being suspended from school. Feeling betrayed when Masami returns and lies about where she has been, Kayako keeps to herself and starts painting a still life, emulating Cezanne paintings in one of Masami's books. Although they reconcile and Kayako speaks of them going way to study together, her love of painting leads to her leaving for Tokyo alone to study art, while Masami remains behind. Masami sends a videotape showing a shot of the beach, and then the blue sea, proclaiming that unlike Kayako, this is all that she can do in an artistic sense.
You sewed a new bag
for your lunch-box!
Yeah, yesterday.
It's so cute!
You're never idle.
-We should all make one.
- Sure.
Oh,Watanabe, that's so tacky!
You think so?
I'm jealous.
Of what?
You have a skill.
It's not that much of a skill.
Sure it is! You can make
a living doing that.
You're going to study
dress-making...
Well, yeah...
You've thought about
your future...
l want to get married.
- Yuck! That's gross!
- Sorry!
- What the...
- But did you hear what she said?
Lt's not that strange.
Things are just so easy when
you get married after graduation.
Hey... that's Endo.
Who's she?
She's in our class.
And you don't even know her name!
But I've never talked to her.
You forget.
Where's she going?
The nurse's office?
Is she sick?
Or faking it.
I remember now!
She was suspended from
school last year, wasn't she?
It'd be hard to talk to someone
who that happened to.
But you know, she's got guts. Most
people would've quit for good.
Time to go.
Hey, wait a minute!
Oh, thanks.
Here.
- Thanks.
- OK.
There you go.
- And yours.
- Thanks.
Mmm!
As if we didn't eat this
every day!
'As the industrial Revolution
of the 18th century...
'...is an event said to be the greatest
such revolution in human history...
'...it has had a vast
historical influence.
'First it ensured the establishment
of a capitalist society.
'There are two more points
to note here, the first being...
'...the "factory-production system",
or "manufacturing".'
Miss Kirishima...
Am l keeping you awake?
You won't learn if you're
asleep, will you?
I wasn't asleep.
Then will you continue reading
from where l left off please?
You can't? That's because
you are always falling asleep.
'The second point:
'Manufacturing replaced agriculture
as the focus of social production.
'As a result, the capitalist
owners of large factories...
'...became a ruling class.'
We'll stop here for today.
I know.
You weren't sleeping.
I brought Endo.
You can sit here.
Where do you usually
eat lunch?
Huh?
You're never around.
With a girl from the next class
who was in Grade 11 with me.
You go in there?
Yeah.
I went at the start of the year,
and l just kept going back.
You always bring sandwiches?
My mother slept in today,
so she couldn't do rice for me.
I know what you mean.
My mom does that all the time.
I make sure l get up for school.
l wish she'd do her job, too.
Once l had to buy a convenience-store
lunch and sneak it into my lunch-box.
That's terrible!
- Yeah!
- I was in tears over it.
So you laugh sometimes, Endo...
What does that mean?
Here.
Mom's making a rice pilaf.
You'll stay to eat?
I've never had a rice pilaf.
- Never?
- No.
My mother doesn't make it.
Then take some with you.
Mom always makes lots.
OK.
She never makes anything
with garlic in it. She hates it.
Not even in gyoza dumplings
or spaghetti.
Each to his taste, l guess.
I guess so.
Are you shocked?
No. l was admiring the way
you struck the match.
Won't you get caught?
She knows.
I still don't do it
in front of her.
Once she called me and l panicked
and threw one in the garbage.
Lt caught fire.
Stupid!
Hey, I'm sorry about today.
About what?
Everyone asking you
all those questions.
That didn't bother me.
Why should it?
That's OK, then.
That sweet-bean pancake
was good, out there on the roof.
Yeah, it was.
You've got a lot of CDs.
I'll lend you one.
This one's good. Do you know
Aztec Camera?
No.
Can I look at this book?
Sure, go ahead.
So you like art?
Sort of, l guess.
It relaxes me.
Hey, Endo...
...um...
No, it's nothing. Forget it.
What? Tell me.
It's OK. Another time.
- Tell me!
- No.
What is it? Tell me!
- Nothing.
- What?
Kayako!
Wash the dishes!
Later.
You'll forget!
I'll do it!
'Morning.
'Morning.
Did you listen to the CD?
Uh... yeah.
How was it?
Lt's in English.
l didn't really understand it.
Oh.
Sorry. l haven't listened to it yet.
Oh, sorry. l shouldn't rush you.
Can l keep it a bit longer?
Sure you can.
'Morning!
'Morning.
Oh, hi.
I'm glad l saw you.
I've had this CD of yours
for ages now.
Sorry about that.
I'm done with it now.
How was it?
Great! I love it.
I'll give you something
harder next time, then.
I can't wait.
This is Kirishima.
She's in my class.
The lunch group?
Yeah, that's right.
This is Nakano. Last year
we were in the same class.
What a relief.
I was worried you weren't
making any friends in your class.
Don't say that!
Well, it's true!
I know, I'll put some songs
on a tape for you.
OK, great.
Lately I've been listening
to some French stuff.
Great. Put it on a mini-disc.
I don't have one.
I wonder if my
cassette-player still works...
Make it work!
Oh, sure.
Kayako... I'm calling those guys
about that party.Want to come?
Well...
I'm supposed to call about 5.
Can you hang out till then?
OK?
You OK?
Yeah. I feel better.
What do you think of
that guy Mizuuchi?
Him?
I think he's cool.
Yeah?
I like guys like that.
But I'm glad you came.
I didn't think you would.
No, l wanted to come.
You hang out with Endo
so much now...
What?
Let's lose these guys. OK?
The next corner...
I shouldn't run when I'm drunk.
Can you believe a girl
getting drunk like that?
Lt's just not cool.
Don't you think?
Unbelievable, huh.
Why did you keep glaring
at me like that?
I wasn't.
She talks!
I was beginning to think
you couldn't.
You're not a virgin, are you?
How was the party?
I'm exhausted.
So's Watanabe, l hear.
She got a bit drunk.
She says she doesn't remember.
Wow!
So you can drink?
Not that much.
Come drinking with me, then.
Ice cream's fine.
Oh, yeah...
Nakano said she saw you
this morning and called to you...
...and you gave her a dirty look.
I don't think she meant it though.
Did I?
I've never seen you
give anyone a dirty look.
Those Cezannes are good,
aren't they?
Yeah.
I like table-tops
better than mountains.
Still-lifes?
So do I.
But if you like it,
it must be good.
I know! I've got a dress
l don't wear. Do you want it?
I bought it last year,
but it's too cute for me.
But not for me?
Well, yeah.
I think it'd suit you.
Stand up for a minute.
It comes down to about here.
I can get Sumi to adjust it.
Let's do that.
What are you doing
after high school?
When we graduate?
I haven't thought about it.
How about you?
I haven't, either.
I told the teacher i'd go
to a college around here.
I haven't said anything.
I haven't the faintest idea.
A local college is
the easiest thing to do.
And my parents would like that.
Do you worry about them?
Not so much "worry". l don't want
to cause them any trouble.
What?
What is it?
Lt's just...
...l feel like you'll be
going a long way away.
What do you mean?
I'll be right here.
Yeah, but...
Why don't we go to
the same place?
That's an idea...
Let's do that.
And take what?
I'm no good at English.
Who cares, as long as it's
the same college?
I do.
You're hopeless!
I know.
Why don't you spend a night
at my place when the term ends?
My parents go away a lot.
Bring underwear.
Why?
'Cause I'm not lending you panties!
Kayako...
...did you go to a hotel
with Mizuuchi?
Huh?
One of the guys said so.
Is it true?
When l told you l liked him
you didn't say anything.
I think that's awful!
It's low!
Lt's sleazy!
Let's get off.
Sometimes l hang out here
on my way home.
After school l don't want
to go home...
...but there's nowhere to go.
I want a cigarette.
That was really something!
Just like a soap opera.
Anyway, who cares?
If you like a guy,
what are you going to do?
I don't like him.
Then why did you go with him?
That's weird.
Did something happen?
Lt's just...
...that I...
...like you.
Kirishima!
Does that mean
what I think it does?
Then I'm glad.
Are you crying again?
I mean it.
Endo...
Yeah?
...do you like being with me?
Yes, l do.
Why do you ask?
I don't know.
I like it. I'm happy.
You're the one who came...
...and found me.
I ate too much!
I'm stuffed.
We made too much.
But we ate it.
You can cook.
You use everything
in the fridge.
I cook at home.
You live with your mom?
And my younger brother.
So l do housework, too.
You cook every day?
No.
We buy a lot of meals
at the convenience store.
But Mom makes my school lunch.
I leave first, but she gets up,
makes my lunch and goes back to bed.
Wow!
I don't know why. Maybe she
feels guilty about having to work.
I don't know why
she should, though.
You know what l want?
l want to get away from here.
You do?
Yeah.
Somewhere far away.
I know l talked about
college here...
...but l want to go away.
Tokyo or somewhere.
Lt scares me, though.
Anywhere but here.
But there's nothing
l really want to do.
I don't amount to anything.
And it scares me to think
of leaving when I'm like that.
I don't believe that you
don't amount to anything.
You know all kinds of things,
music I've never heard of...
...and books and things.
l really admire you.
I just know some stuff.
You think so?
I'd be you if l could.
Why?
How boring!
You'd be disappointed.
Yeah?
...ever been in an ambulance?
Have I what?
Yes.
Was that why
you were suspended?
Yes, it was.
So you knew about that?
I see.
I had...
...an abortion.
In Grade 11.
I didn't tell anyone...
...but the next day at school
I felt bad.
I bled all over the nurse's office.
They called an ambulance,
and everybody found out.
People know about me
being suspended...
...but not many know
about the ambulance.
They didn't use the siren.
I'm surprised you knew.
Does it hurt?
An abortion?
You get an anesthetic.
But once it's over...
...you get morning sickness...
...then you feel like
you're all cleaned out.
I didn't like that feeling.
You still want to be with me?
Yes.
You're weird.
How are you?
I'm sorry. l guess
we got carried away.
I'm fine if l lay down.
Are you catching cold?
Do you have a fever?
Lt's nothing.
I'm worried.
Lt's not your fault.
I'm sorry.
Oh, Kirishima...
Did l wake you?
Sorry.
I wasn't sleeping.
They said you were here.
Thanks for coming.
Kirishima...
...could you leave me alone
with Nakano for a bit?
OK.
See you.
Endo's away, huh...
And it's the last day of term.
Is she sick a lot?
This might sound strange...
...we can't divide up
the bean-pancake money.
When there were four of us,
it divided evenly.
When Endo came we were five,
and that was still all right.
But without you two,
it doesn't work.
I'm not complaining. lt's just
something that always strikes me.
Oh, Mom! Summer vacation
starts today!
Kirishima!
It's so hot!
Grade 12s don't have to come
to practice, but l was worried.
Must be tough.
I should leave it to the Grade 11s.
Was her mother worried?
Maybe. She was talking so fast
l couldn't really understand her.
Endo's gone off to see a guy.
A guy?
Yeah.
Her old boyfriend.
You didn't know about him?
The abortion...
Oh, so you know.
Only that she got
suspended from school.
She was seeing a married man.
A year ago last spring we went
out on a class drinking party.
She got sick and threw up
in the mall...
...right on this guy's clothes.
We all freaked.
We apologized like mad.
He put his finger down her throat
to help her bring everything up.
We thought he was a nice guy.
I didn't know, but Endo
got his name card.
She called him up
and went out with him.
But he was married!
She didn't know that at the time.
In the end, she got pregnant, didn't
tell him, and had the abortion.
Then everyone found out.
Her parents went to yell
at the guy...
...and when they got there,
his wife was pregnant, too.
Isn't that awful?
I thought Endo was over it.
l was starting to relax.
You know all those
foreign CDs she has?
That's the kind of music
he likes.
Why did she go to see him?
Didn't you know?
He called her.
One night the phone rang.
Whoever it was hung up, but she
guessed it was him and called back.
I guess the baby was stillborn...
...and he and his wife
weren't getting along...
...and he got depressed
and called Endo.
Can you believe that?
But it really shook Endo up.
Nakano...
...when did you hear this?
Before end of term,
in the nurse's office.
I know what you mean.
l wonder why she went?
She might not even
come back, you know...
I've got to go.
Kirishima!
How are you?
What've you been up to?
Your mother called.
I didn't tell her
l was going away.
A souvenir.
Grapes. They're really great.
Thanks.
Your mother was worried.
Yeah.
Some friends wanted to go. l didn't
want the hassle of telling her...
...so l just went.
Where?
To the sea, to the mountains...
lots of places.
Who with?
Friends from middle school.
Who?
You wouldn't know them.
Was it fun?
Not much.
I wanted to see you.
Endo...
...why are you lying to me?
What?
I'm not lying.
Kayako, there's grapes in here.
I know.
They'll rot here.
Bring me some tea.
Eat them.
You have them.
Yes?
Could l speak to you?
We're still on vacation,
you know.
Well... come in.
Would you look at a painting?
You are...?
Kirishima. 12C.
The drawing's lousy,
but the colors are very good.
Right here...
lt's not bad. Did you do that
this summer?
Yes.
Lt's my first painting.
Yeah?
I'd like to try and get into
an arts university.
You're in Grade 12?
Yes.
You're kind of late.
People who start sketching
in Grade 10 don't even make it.
- A state school?
- No.
Anyway come in from
tomorrow and practice drawing.
Yes, sir.
Here you are...
The ceremony's starting...
You're not very tanned, are you.
Didn't you go anywhere?
You called me.
Why don't you say something?
Look, I've forgotten about it, too.
If you don't want anything...
I do.
Well?
My friend didn't tell me
something very important.
I'm really upset about it.
l wonder why...
What is this? A quiz show?
Ls this a joke?
Are you in love...
...with this "friend"?
Yes.
- How much?
- A lot.
- And the friend?
- I don't know.
That means you're the one
who's most in love.
You're sad because you're not
getting back what you're giving...
...or something.
I'm going.
I'll walk with you.
No.
Come on!
Hey...
Yeah?
...why did you pick me?
Why did you invite me
to that hotel?
Do you ever talk about
anything besides "me"?
Why did you go with me, then?
You said you're in love.
I wanted to get close.
To what?
I don't know.
We could find a hotel...
No, thanks.
I heard you'd taken up
painting...
l guess it's true.
I want to talk to you.
I know all about it.
Endo, you're horrible!
I know. I'm a horrible person.
So I'm not surprised
that you hate me.
I don't hate you.
You don't care if I'm not around.
Why are you crying?
I painted a picture this summer.
Grapes. A still-life.
I was alone all summer.
I had nothing to do.
Are you hungry?
You're broke?
I wanted to take you to my
grandmother's in the summer.
My parents are divorced.
She's my dad's mother,
but me and my brother...
...have still always gone there.
Lt's way out in the country.
They used to have cows.
Lt's like a ranch.
lt's really nice.
I wanted to take you there.
You sure talk a lot.
But if I don't...
If I don't talk...
...I'll just get mad at you again.
The sea's amazing, huh...
Most of it.
That you'd gone to see him.
He said he needed help.
Not in so many words...
...but I could hear it.
I couldn't tell you...
...that he meant more to me
than you.
He said he wanted to start over...
...in Tokyo, with me.
And l got my hopes up.
But l didn't go.
You were here.
No.
You wouldn't have gone
whether I was here or not...
...because...
...l always come second.
You broke up with him,
so the number-one slot is vacant.
When someone else comes,
you'll put him there.
But you'll always be
the one I love the most.
They'll be worried about us.
Probably.
Should we phone?
No.
Here.
Lt's good.
Yeah.
Endo...
...let's go to Tokyo.
We'll go to school there.
And live together?
Sure.
Will we cook, fight to see
who goes in the bath first...
...and both sleep in?
And when one of us goes out,
or when we go to sleep...
...instead of "goodbye" we'll say
"see you later" and "good night".
Like a real couple.
We are a real couple.
But l can't go.
Your parents?
That's part of it.
I don't amount to anything.
Suddenly you've found
what you want to do...
...but not me.
I just go with the flow.
Those art books didn't make me
want to paint.
But you started painting.
If there's something you
want to do, you go and do it.
You're strong.
I'd like to be that way.
You do amount to something.
You're Endo,
just the way you are.
The first bus!
We could get on that
and go to school.
Let's go.
After I went to Tokyo,
a letter arrived from Endo.
"This is all I can do,"
she wrote.
She'd sent a video-tape.
I watched that tape
over and over again.
Mikako ICHIKAWA
Manami KONISHI
English translation by 'unknown'
(many thanks whoever you are)
editing and additions byfamitsu1
Subtitle timing byzeta76
Special thanks to
ikeda69
Extra special thanks to
caramel1121
Directed by
Hiroshi ANDO
for your lunch-box!
Yeah, yesterday.
It's so cute!
You're never idle.
-We should all make one.
- Sure.
Oh,Watanabe, that's so tacky!
You think so?
I'm jealous.
Of what?
You have a skill.
It's not that much of a skill.
Sure it is! You can make
a living doing that.
You're going to study
dress-making...
Well, yeah...
You've thought about
your future...
l want to get married.
- Yuck! That's gross!
- Sorry!
- What the...
- But did you hear what she said?
Lt's not that strange.
Things are just so easy when
you get married after graduation.
Hey... that's Endo.
Who's she?
She's in our class.
And you don't even know her name!
But I've never talked to her.
You forget.
Where's she going?
The nurse's office?
Is she sick?
Or faking it.
I remember now!
She was suspended from
school last year, wasn't she?
It'd be hard to talk to someone
who that happened to.
But you know, she's got guts. Most
people would've quit for good.
Time to go.
Hey, wait a minute!
Oh, thanks.
Here.
- Thanks.
- OK.
There you go.
- And yours.
- Thanks.
Mmm!
As if we didn't eat this
every day!
'As the industrial Revolution
of the 18th century...
'...is an event said to be the greatest
such revolution in human history...
'...it has had a vast
historical influence.
'First it ensured the establishment
of a capitalist society.
'There are two more points
to note here, the first being...
'...the "factory-production system",
or "manufacturing".'
Miss Kirishima...
Am l keeping you awake?
You won't learn if you're
asleep, will you?
I wasn't asleep.
Then will you continue reading
from where l left off please?
You can't? That's because
you are always falling asleep.
'The second point:
'Manufacturing replaced agriculture
as the focus of social production.
'As a result, the capitalist
owners of large factories...
'...became a ruling class.'
We'll stop here for today.
I know.
You weren't sleeping.
I brought Endo.
You can sit here.
Where do you usually
eat lunch?
Huh?
You're never around.
With a girl from the next class
who was in Grade 11 with me.
You go in there?
Yeah.
I went at the start of the year,
and l just kept going back.
You always bring sandwiches?
My mother slept in today,
so she couldn't do rice for me.
I know what you mean.
My mom does that all the time.
I make sure l get up for school.
l wish she'd do her job, too.
Once l had to buy a convenience-store
lunch and sneak it into my lunch-box.
That's terrible!
- Yeah!
- I was in tears over it.
So you laugh sometimes, Endo...
What does that mean?
Here.
Mom's making a rice pilaf.
You'll stay to eat?
I've never had a rice pilaf.
- Never?
- No.
My mother doesn't make it.
Then take some with you.
Mom always makes lots.
OK.
She never makes anything
with garlic in it. She hates it.
Not even in gyoza dumplings
or spaghetti.
Each to his taste, l guess.
I guess so.
Are you shocked?
No. l was admiring the way
you struck the match.
Won't you get caught?
She knows.
I still don't do it
in front of her.
Once she called me and l panicked
and threw one in the garbage.
Lt caught fire.
Stupid!
Hey, I'm sorry about today.
About what?
Everyone asking you
all those questions.
That didn't bother me.
Why should it?
That's OK, then.
That sweet-bean pancake
was good, out there on the roof.
Yeah, it was.
You've got a lot of CDs.
I'll lend you one.
This one's good. Do you know
Aztec Camera?
No.
Can I look at this book?
Sure, go ahead.
So you like art?
Sort of, l guess.
It relaxes me.
Hey, Endo...
...um...
No, it's nothing. Forget it.
What? Tell me.
It's OK. Another time.
- Tell me!
- No.
What is it? Tell me!
- Nothing.
- What?
Kayako!
Wash the dishes!
Later.
You'll forget!
I'll do it!
'Morning.
'Morning.
Did you listen to the CD?
Uh... yeah.
How was it?
Lt's in English.
l didn't really understand it.
Oh.
Sorry. l haven't listened to it yet.
Oh, sorry. l shouldn't rush you.
Can l keep it a bit longer?
Sure you can.
'Morning!
'Morning.
Oh, hi.
I'm glad l saw you.
I've had this CD of yours
for ages now.
Sorry about that.
I'm done with it now.
How was it?
Great! I love it.
I'll give you something
harder next time, then.
I can't wait.
This is Kirishima.
She's in my class.
The lunch group?
Yeah, that's right.
This is Nakano. Last year
we were in the same class.
What a relief.
I was worried you weren't
making any friends in your class.
Don't say that!
Well, it's true!
I know, I'll put some songs
on a tape for you.
OK, great.
Lately I've been listening
to some French stuff.
Great. Put it on a mini-disc.
I don't have one.
I wonder if my
cassette-player still works...
Make it work!
Oh, sure.
Kayako... I'm calling those guys
about that party.Want to come?
Well...
I'm supposed to call about 5.
Can you hang out till then?
OK?
You OK?
Yeah. I feel better.
What do you think of
that guy Mizuuchi?
Him?
I think he's cool.
Yeah?
I like guys like that.
But I'm glad you came.
I didn't think you would.
No, l wanted to come.
You hang out with Endo
so much now...
What?
Let's lose these guys. OK?
The next corner...
I shouldn't run when I'm drunk.
Can you believe a girl
getting drunk like that?
Lt's just not cool.
Don't you think?
Unbelievable, huh.
Why did you keep glaring
at me like that?
I wasn't.
She talks!
I was beginning to think
you couldn't.
You're not a virgin, are you?
How was the party?
I'm exhausted.
So's Watanabe, l hear.
She got a bit drunk.
She says she doesn't remember.
Wow!
So you can drink?
Not that much.
Come drinking with me, then.
Ice cream's fine.
Oh, yeah...
Nakano said she saw you
this morning and called to you...
...and you gave her a dirty look.
I don't think she meant it though.
Did I?
I've never seen you
give anyone a dirty look.
Those Cezannes are good,
aren't they?
Yeah.
I like table-tops
better than mountains.
Still-lifes?
So do I.
But if you like it,
it must be good.
I know! I've got a dress
l don't wear. Do you want it?
I bought it last year,
but it's too cute for me.
But not for me?
Well, yeah.
I think it'd suit you.
Stand up for a minute.
It comes down to about here.
I can get Sumi to adjust it.
Let's do that.
What are you doing
after high school?
When we graduate?
I haven't thought about it.
How about you?
I haven't, either.
I told the teacher i'd go
to a college around here.
I haven't said anything.
I haven't the faintest idea.
A local college is
the easiest thing to do.
And my parents would like that.
Do you worry about them?
Not so much "worry". l don't want
to cause them any trouble.
What?
What is it?
Lt's just...
...l feel like you'll be
going a long way away.
What do you mean?
I'll be right here.
Yeah, but...
Why don't we go to
the same place?
That's an idea...
Let's do that.
And take what?
I'm no good at English.
Who cares, as long as it's
the same college?
I do.
You're hopeless!
I know.
Why don't you spend a night
at my place when the term ends?
My parents go away a lot.
Bring underwear.
Why?
'Cause I'm not lending you panties!
Kayako...
...did you go to a hotel
with Mizuuchi?
Huh?
One of the guys said so.
Is it true?
When l told you l liked him
you didn't say anything.
I think that's awful!
It's low!
Lt's sleazy!
Let's get off.
Sometimes l hang out here
on my way home.
After school l don't want
to go home...
...but there's nowhere to go.
I want a cigarette.
That was really something!
Just like a soap opera.
Anyway, who cares?
If you like a guy,
what are you going to do?
I don't like him.
Then why did you go with him?
That's weird.
Did something happen?
Lt's just...
...that I...
...like you.
Kirishima!
Does that mean
what I think it does?
Then I'm glad.
Are you crying again?
I mean it.
Endo...
Yeah?
...do you like being with me?
Yes, l do.
Why do you ask?
I don't know.
I like it. I'm happy.
You're the one who came...
...and found me.
I ate too much!
I'm stuffed.
We made too much.
But we ate it.
You can cook.
You use everything
in the fridge.
I cook at home.
You live with your mom?
And my younger brother.
So l do housework, too.
You cook every day?
No.
We buy a lot of meals
at the convenience store.
But Mom makes my school lunch.
I leave first, but she gets up,
makes my lunch and goes back to bed.
Wow!
I don't know why. Maybe she
feels guilty about having to work.
I don't know why
she should, though.
You know what l want?
l want to get away from here.
You do?
Yeah.
Somewhere far away.
I know l talked about
college here...
...but l want to go away.
Tokyo or somewhere.
Lt scares me, though.
Anywhere but here.
But there's nothing
l really want to do.
I don't amount to anything.
And it scares me to think
of leaving when I'm like that.
I don't believe that you
don't amount to anything.
You know all kinds of things,
music I've never heard of...
...and books and things.
l really admire you.
I just know some stuff.
You think so?
I'd be you if l could.
Why?
How boring!
You'd be disappointed.
Yeah?
...ever been in an ambulance?
Have I what?
Yes.
Was that why
you were suspended?
Yes, it was.
So you knew about that?
I see.
I had...
...an abortion.
In Grade 11.
I didn't tell anyone...
...but the next day at school
I felt bad.
I bled all over the nurse's office.
They called an ambulance,
and everybody found out.
People know about me
being suspended...
...but not many know
about the ambulance.
They didn't use the siren.
I'm surprised you knew.
Does it hurt?
An abortion?
You get an anesthetic.
But once it's over...
...you get morning sickness...
...then you feel like
you're all cleaned out.
I didn't like that feeling.
You still want to be with me?
Yes.
You're weird.
How are you?
I'm sorry. l guess
we got carried away.
I'm fine if l lay down.
Are you catching cold?
Do you have a fever?
Lt's nothing.
I'm worried.
Lt's not your fault.
I'm sorry.
Oh, Kirishima...
Did l wake you?
Sorry.
I wasn't sleeping.
They said you were here.
Thanks for coming.
Kirishima...
...could you leave me alone
with Nakano for a bit?
OK.
See you.
Endo's away, huh...
And it's the last day of term.
Is she sick a lot?
This might sound strange...
...we can't divide up
the bean-pancake money.
When there were four of us,
it divided evenly.
When Endo came we were five,
and that was still all right.
But without you two,
it doesn't work.
I'm not complaining. lt's just
something that always strikes me.
Oh, Mom! Summer vacation
starts today!
Kirishima!
It's so hot!
Grade 12s don't have to come
to practice, but l was worried.
Must be tough.
I should leave it to the Grade 11s.
Was her mother worried?
Maybe. She was talking so fast
l couldn't really understand her.
Endo's gone off to see a guy.
A guy?
Yeah.
Her old boyfriend.
You didn't know about him?
The abortion...
Oh, so you know.
Only that she got
suspended from school.
She was seeing a married man.
A year ago last spring we went
out on a class drinking party.
She got sick and threw up
in the mall...
...right on this guy's clothes.
We all freaked.
We apologized like mad.
He put his finger down her throat
to help her bring everything up.
We thought he was a nice guy.
I didn't know, but Endo
got his name card.
She called him up
and went out with him.
But he was married!
She didn't know that at the time.
In the end, she got pregnant, didn't
tell him, and had the abortion.
Then everyone found out.
Her parents went to yell
at the guy...
...and when they got there,
his wife was pregnant, too.
Isn't that awful?
I thought Endo was over it.
l was starting to relax.
You know all those
foreign CDs she has?
That's the kind of music
he likes.
Why did she go to see him?
Didn't you know?
He called her.
One night the phone rang.
Whoever it was hung up, but she
guessed it was him and called back.
I guess the baby was stillborn...
...and he and his wife
weren't getting along...
...and he got depressed
and called Endo.
Can you believe that?
But it really shook Endo up.
Nakano...
...when did you hear this?
Before end of term,
in the nurse's office.
I know what you mean.
l wonder why she went?
She might not even
come back, you know...
I've got to go.
Kirishima!
How are you?
What've you been up to?
Your mother called.
I didn't tell her
l was going away.
A souvenir.
Grapes. They're really great.
Thanks.
Your mother was worried.
Yeah.
Some friends wanted to go. l didn't
want the hassle of telling her...
...so l just went.
Where?
To the sea, to the mountains...
lots of places.
Who with?
Friends from middle school.
Who?
You wouldn't know them.
Was it fun?
Not much.
I wanted to see you.
Endo...
...why are you lying to me?
What?
I'm not lying.
Kayako, there's grapes in here.
I know.
They'll rot here.
Bring me some tea.
Eat them.
You have them.
Yes?
Could l speak to you?
We're still on vacation,
you know.
Well... come in.
Would you look at a painting?
You are...?
Kirishima. 12C.
The drawing's lousy,
but the colors are very good.
Right here...
lt's not bad. Did you do that
this summer?
Yes.
Lt's my first painting.
Yeah?
I'd like to try and get into
an arts university.
You're in Grade 12?
Yes.
You're kind of late.
People who start sketching
in Grade 10 don't even make it.
- A state school?
- No.
Anyway come in from
tomorrow and practice drawing.
Yes, sir.
Here you are...
The ceremony's starting...
You're not very tanned, are you.
Didn't you go anywhere?
You called me.
Why don't you say something?
Look, I've forgotten about it, too.
If you don't want anything...
I do.
Well?
My friend didn't tell me
something very important.
I'm really upset about it.
l wonder why...
What is this? A quiz show?
Ls this a joke?
Are you in love...
...with this "friend"?
Yes.
- How much?
- A lot.
- And the friend?
- I don't know.
That means you're the one
who's most in love.
You're sad because you're not
getting back what you're giving...
...or something.
I'm going.
I'll walk with you.
No.
Come on!
Hey...
Yeah?
...why did you pick me?
Why did you invite me
to that hotel?
Do you ever talk about
anything besides "me"?
Why did you go with me, then?
You said you're in love.
I wanted to get close.
To what?
I don't know.
We could find a hotel...
No, thanks.
I heard you'd taken up
painting...
l guess it's true.
I want to talk to you.
I know all about it.
Endo, you're horrible!
I know. I'm a horrible person.
So I'm not surprised
that you hate me.
I don't hate you.
You don't care if I'm not around.
Why are you crying?
I painted a picture this summer.
Grapes. A still-life.
I was alone all summer.
I had nothing to do.
Are you hungry?
You're broke?
I wanted to take you to my
grandmother's in the summer.
My parents are divorced.
She's my dad's mother,
but me and my brother...
...have still always gone there.
Lt's way out in the country.
They used to have cows.
Lt's like a ranch.
lt's really nice.
I wanted to take you there.
You sure talk a lot.
But if I don't...
If I don't talk...
...I'll just get mad at you again.
The sea's amazing, huh...
Most of it.
That you'd gone to see him.
He said he needed help.
Not in so many words...
...but I could hear it.
I couldn't tell you...
...that he meant more to me
than you.
He said he wanted to start over...
...in Tokyo, with me.
And l got my hopes up.
But l didn't go.
You were here.
No.
You wouldn't have gone
whether I was here or not...
...because...
...l always come second.
You broke up with him,
so the number-one slot is vacant.
When someone else comes,
you'll put him there.
But you'll always be
the one I love the most.
They'll be worried about us.
Probably.
Should we phone?
No.
Here.
Lt's good.
Yeah.
Endo...
...let's go to Tokyo.
We'll go to school there.
And live together?
Sure.
Will we cook, fight to see
who goes in the bath first...
...and both sleep in?
And when one of us goes out,
or when we go to sleep...
...instead of "goodbye" we'll say
"see you later" and "good night".
Like a real couple.
We are a real couple.
But l can't go.
Your parents?
That's part of it.
I don't amount to anything.
Suddenly you've found
what you want to do...
...but not me.
I just go with the flow.
Those art books didn't make me
want to paint.
But you started painting.
If there's something you
want to do, you go and do it.
You're strong.
I'd like to be that way.
You do amount to something.
You're Endo,
just the way you are.
The first bus!
We could get on that
and go to school.
Let's go.
After I went to Tokyo,
a letter arrived from Endo.
"This is all I can do,"
she wrote.
She'd sent a video-tape.
I watched that tape
over and over again.
Mikako ICHIKAWA
Manami KONISHI
English translation by 'unknown'
(many thanks whoever you are)
editing and additions byfamitsu1
Subtitle timing byzeta76
Special thanks to
ikeda69
Extra special thanks to
caramel1121
Directed by
Hiroshi ANDO