A Stormy Night (2020) - full transcript

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Yeah.

I'm writing all this down.

I don't think I can ask them
now because it's Friday,

and they don't work on weekends.

Right.

Yeah.

Well, you know, actually,
I know some Photoshop.

Let me see if I can-

Yeah, maybe I can cut
the logos at the end.

I'm so sorry, I
have another call.

Can I,



yeah, I'll keep you
updated with this.

Thanks.

Hey!

How's Miami?

Did you give your talk yet?

Yeah, I'm home.

Yeah, I know.

They said it's gonna be
pretty bad, I'm kinda scared.

I guess it's gonna be one
of those summer storms.

Who?

Yeah, you might've
mentioned him.

Wait, is this the guy
that makes gay porn?

Right, sorry.

Cinema verite.

I'm not making fun
of him, I swear.

Wait, he's here?

Yeah.

Yeah, sure, he can
stay in your room.

I mean, I'm practically
chained to my desk

doing work anyway,
so, I'll be here.

Sure.

Yeah, no worries.

It'll be fun.

Marcos?

Hi.

Hi, hola.

Hey.

I'm Alan.

I'm Marcos, hi.

That's a Spanish
thing we do, we-

Two kisses, right.

Come on in.

Thank you.

Can I get you anything?

Um, water.

- Sure.
- Please, thank you.

Here you go.

Thanks.

Did you paint these?

Yeah, sort of.

Did you paint them or not?

Yes, I did.

They're really cool.

Thank you.

I like Annie Hall.

Annie Hull?

Annie Hall.

My accent's funny, sorry.

I kinda like Annie Hull.

I like this one.

Oh, yeah.

- That's hot.
- Thanks.

Yeah, it's great.

Claire says you guys know
each other from college?

College, yeah, yeah.

She always got super drunk,

and I used to hold her
head while she vomited.

It was really funny, and then
she'd let me borrow the notes.

That was really cool.

You know, we should
call her at some point.

She seemed really
excited about this.

I mean not in a weird way,

just two gay guys in one house.

Probably thinks we're gonna have

a "Queer Eye"
marathon or something.

Unless, of course,
you're not gay.

Why would I not be gay?

Well, you never
said you were, so.

Clara told you that I was gay?

No.

Yeah, she did, but she
didn't say much else.

She said you make movies.

Yeah, it's a doc.

A documentary.

The one you're
shooting, or sorry,

the one you're screening
rather, in San Francisco?

The one that I'm screening
in San Francisco, yeah.

Yeah.

What's it about?

It's about gay sex and dicks.

- Oh, okay.
- Yeah.

And you shot it yourself
with a camera and all?

Big dicks.

No, no, we used the
shoot for this one.

Duh.

Yeah, no, it's about,

I dated a few men, and
then I shot some stuff

and cut it all together,
and now it's a doc.

It sounds intense.

It's all right.

What did they think?

Who?

These men.

Have they seen it?

Um, no.

But they will see
it at some point.

Like at the movies, in theaters?

Yeah, like at the
movies in theaters.

Like now we play at a festival,

and then you play
at another one,

and eventually they'll see it.

Yeah, they will see it.

I've never been in a movie.

Claire wants me to tell you

that she left in
a bit of a hurry,

so her room might
be a little messy.

There it is.

So this storm, huh?

I'm a little worried.

Are you scared?

Not really, I mean it's
sunny now, so it'll be fine.

I kinda really
want to take a nap,

if you don't mind.

Sure.

It must be siesta
time there, right?

Yeah.

And can I get the
Wi-Fi password?

Of course, I'll grab it for you.

It's on the router,

downstairs.

Violent winds,
driving rain, killer waves.

These are the hallmarks
of a hurricane.

Also called cyclones
or typhoons,

hurricanes are giant storms

prowling the world's
tropical seas.

Hurricanes are the most violent-

Shit.

Well, yeah, we could
make them smaller,

but I just don't know how
to make them transparent

in over image.

We'd need the guys who
edited the video for that.

Well, yeah, I can also do that,

but it's already the
end of the day and,

yeah, I know.

I know, and the video
did make the deadline,

I just wasn't expecting we'd
have problems with this.

Yeah, no, I'll send
him an email now,

maybe they haven't
left the office,

but I don't know that they're
gonna work on the weekend.

Sure, I'll solve this.

Yep, somehow.

Okay.

Morning.

Hi.

How much did I sleep?

Not too much.

I'm so jet-lagged.

Yeah, I can tell.

Where were you doing?

Oh, working.

What's work?

I work at a
startup, it's an app.

An app for...

It's a dating app, for gay men.

Is that Grindr?

No, I wish.

It's called WeTopia.

It's a whole different
concept for...

Here, I'll show you.

Okay, so, let's say
you're at home wondering

what to do, a Friday night.

Well, not this Friday
night 'cause of the storm,

you know, but any
other Friday night.

And let's say you
decide to go here.

That's the Met?

Actually, it's the MoMA, but
yeah, the Met would work too.

So you go, and you
place a pin there.

The next version of
the app will allow you

to just geotag you,
but in this version

you're just gonna place a pin.

And there, in a flash, you
can see where the gays are.

And they know who you are or-

Nope.

That's the cool
thing about the app.

It's color blind, age
blind, anything else blind

because it doesn't
really matter.

Hm.

Gay people have
to leave the house

living with the burden of
a heteronormative world,

but with this app, WeTopia,

you can choose to hang in spaces

where you become the norm.

Well, not you,
but your identity.

That's cool.

I'm sorry that you're
having a bad day.

You know what?

Fuck them.

You know, you
should take a break.

Like stalk someone on
Instagram maybe, or something.

I need to take a shower.

Sure.

Okay, so, there should
be soap in here,

use whatever you need,

and you got your
towel, that's good.

The water pressure is weird,

so you'll have to let
it run smoothly at first

and then it'll be interrupted,

and then it'll flow
smoothly again,

and then you can
take your shower.

Okay.

Sorry.

I'll let you shower.

Shit, sorry, I did it again.

I'm just gonna leave you.

Here.

Hey.
- Hi.

How was the shower?

It was good.

Look.

About before,

I'm so, so, so sorry.

I just don't know what happened.

I think you kissed me.

I did.

I did.

And I'm so sorry that I did.

I think I'm just
a little stressed.

Tense.

Anxious.

Is that Zizek?

Oh, this?

Yeah, that's Zizek.

That's kinda cool.

Thanks.

I'm sorry.

You don't have to be
sorry, it's all good.

And you're a really good kisser.

Okay, well, thank you.

But see, the thing is, that's
just not like me, okay?

That's not who I am.

- Look, it's all good.
- Yeah, for you.

I mean,

maybe it is good for you, it
clearly is all good for you.

Right.

Yeah, I get it,
'cause I'm from Spain,

I'm a Spaniard, that's
what Spaniards do.

One does not simply go and
kiss a stranger like that.

Oh, you guys
wait until the third date.

Okay, you can
stop humiliating me,

I already feel ashamed enough.

Look, it's good, seriously.

Don't worry about it.

You should just-

Open the door.

Hi, honey.

Hi!

I thought you said
you weren't coming.

Oh, I wasn't, because
I thought the storm

was gonna hit way sooner,
but then, I don't know,

I thought maybe it's a sign.

And after all, it's
her 80th birthday,

so I have to have this time.

Is he here?

Yeah.

The guy that makes gay porn?

It's a doc, actually.

- Hey.
- Hi!

Hi.

- I'm Tristan.
- Marcos.

Hi, how are you?

Hi, Mark.

- Marcos.
- Marcos.

Oh.

I feel bad.

I felt bad leaving this
little nugget here all alone.

But, you know, hey, I think
it's kind of exciting.

It's like a big storm
to clean New York.

And after this it's
autumn, and I don't know,

I feel like there's something
kinda cosmic about this rain.

Yeah, totally.

The tie's in my room, upstairs.

Oh, I'll wait here.

Thanks, babe.

So,

Alan says you make movies.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I do.

Yeah.

I'm going to this family dinner

and I needed this tie,

but the last time I wore
it I slept here, so.

So you guys are together, yeah?

Uh, two years now.

Shocking, I know.

Yeah.

I kind of love him a lot.

Are you hungry?

You know,

yeah, actually, yeah,
I'm really hungry.

Say no more.

Where is he?

Do you like butter, Marcos?

I love butter, yeah.

Babe, do you want a toast?

Yeah, sure.

Buttering for everyone!

So, Mark, tell us
about your movies.

My movie, one.

It's only one movie.

It's a documentary, actually.

And yeah, that's the
one that I'm screening

in San Francisco.

Is there gonna
be like a red carpet?

No, I don't think,

actually, yeah, maybe there
is a red carpet, yeah.

Are you gonna be famous?

I don't think so, no.

Oh my God, I can't believe

I'm buttering toast for someone

who is about to become famous.

Thank you.

Thanks.

Mm.

It's good.

Thanks.

Have so much fun tonight, okay?

I will be thinking
of you all the time.

You be safe tonight, okay?

Get there before the storm hits.

Bye, Marcos!

It was so nice to meet you!

Bye!

Love you.

Love you too.

He's hot.

I'm really sorry.

Don't be.

I should've,

I should've said something,

or I shouldn't have
done what I did before.

I feel like I led
you into something.

No, it's all good.

You didn't lead
me into anything.

Are you mad?

- I'm not mad.
- You're mad.

I'm not mad.

But if you want
someone to be mad,

maybe you should tell him.

Oh boy.

So, you've never cheated on him?

No, never.

Thanks.

Once, maybe.

What do you mean maybe?

Well, it was way back before

we were really
dating or anything,

except it had been
about four months.

I was at some party and I
was talking to some guy,

and I didn't sleep
with him or anything,

but all of a sudden we
weren't talking anymore,

and I was drunk, so.

You blew him.

No.

You kissed him.

No.

But it did feel a
lot like cheating.

Are you a virgin?

Sorry.

Sorry.

You wouldn't get it.

Why wouldn't I get it?

Well, you clearly don't.

Why wouldn't I get it?

I'm just saying that
this is what it felt like.

What about you?

What about me?

You know, have you
ever cheated on anyone?

No, not really.

I mean, I don't really
believe in cheating, so.

What does that mean?

Well, I don't
believe in monogamy,

so cheating makes no sense.

You never been
in a relationship?

Yeah.

I mean, I've been with men for
long periods of time, but...

Like, how long?

The last one, like seven months.

What happened?

I made a movie.

Right, no spoilers.

I don't know.

Monogamy.

I feel like I've
yet to meet someone

that can look me in the eyes
and say "Monogamy makes sense."

So, how did you guys meet?

Oh, you know...

Dancing.

We met and danced-

Dancing, where?

At a bar.

What bar?

Grindr.

Classy.

The truth is, I was going
through a harsh breakup,

and that night I
felt sort of needy,

like I needed to be-

To be fucked.

Validated.

So I went on Grindr and I
met this cute little torso,

and it belonged to
this cute little face,

which belonged to
cute little Tristan.

And I left the house
without douching,

so I didn't end up
sleeping with him,

but I did meet up with
him the next morning.

Wait, what?

The next morning?

You didn't sleep with
him because of what?

Oh, I hadn't douched.

You hadn't douched?

Well, couldn't you like
not have sex with him,

or could you just blow
him, or I don't know,

can you top him?

Oh, I don't top.

You don't top?

No, I tried, it didn't work out.

Well yeah, you try it once
and it doesn't work out,

and then you do it more
and then it's great.

It's just not my thing, I guess.

Is your movie about
the seven month one?

Yeah, amongst many others.

Has he seen it?

No.

You don't want him to or-

No, it just hasn't happened.

You miss that guy.

No, I don't miss that guy.

"No, I don't miss that guy."

So, how come
you're not at the party?

At Tristan's grandma's party?

Yeah.

Oh, he's not out.

He's not out?

No.

What?

Nothing.

Shit!

Fuck.

What?

It didn't render.

What didn't render?

The thing I'm working
on, it didn't render.

Well, what happened?

A glitch with
the files, I guess.

Shit, see, and this is why
I shouldn't be doing this.

Well, why are you doing it?

Because the people that do this

don't work on weekends, and
neither should I, honestly.

Then just don't do it.

Yeah right, and then next
Monday I'm basically fired.

I don't think
you would be fired.

If you tell them-

Okay, I just need a minute here.

Hi.

Listen, I'm really
sorry about before.

That was rude of me.

It's good, it's good.

It's all good.

I just think I'm a
little tense, you know,

because of the whole rain thing.

Yeah, it's all good.

I know.

I know, it's all good.

I just shouldn't be working
on a Friday night, you know?

Right.

But it pays the bills.

Yeah.

And you can very easily
say "Quit this shit, Alan."

And believe me, I think
about it all the time.

Right.

But then again,

I've gotten used to
living in this house and-

Totally.

I don't know if I
could live anywhere else.

Like, where do
you live in Spain?

Me?

I live in a house
with five people.

Holy shit.

Anyway, sorry.

That was rude of me.

It's all good.

Were you about to jerk off?

No.

So, what do you think?

It's good, yeah.

It's good.

I think it's a little cheesy,

but it kind of works
for this stuff, yeah.

Like?

I just feel like I
don't get the point.

The point of-

The point of the app.

Well, gay people
constantly have to live

in a world where
they're not the norm.

And with this, they
get to choose to live

in a less heteronormative world.

I get that part, but then,

I think it's all about changing
the conversation, right?

So how do we change
the conversation

if we're all having
the same one?

You don't.

You can't, we've tried.

As gay people, we
constantly have to try,

it's a struggle.

We're doing it all the time
with or without an app.

But with this...

Okay, think of it as nuns that
live together in a convent.

They find their temple,

and they decide to segregate
from the rest of society.

Yeah, but how do you
compare a group of nuns

with a group of horny huns?

It's not just about that.

Not to mention that this
excludes everyone else

in the LGBTQ community.

The trans community,
asexual community.

It's just an app.

Yeah, it's just an
app, but in the meantime,

your boyfriend's
having a birthday party

that you can't even go.

Why are you so
bothered about that?

You don't even do boyfriends.

Because it's just not fair.

It's just not fair, you know?

Okay, sorry.

It's a little hard to take you
seriously with that shirt on.

Stop doing that.

Okay, play it again.

God, this kitchen is depressing.

I really never have
the time to cook.

I mean, I don't cook, and
Claire's a medical student,

so she barely has time
to eat anything at all.

I really should've
bought something.

Oh, we have this.

What's this?

Noodles.

Instant noodles, like soup.

Do you have potatoes and egg?

We do have eggs.

Uh,

yeah, a couple potatoes.

Gosh, this fridge is empty.

I told you, I never
have time to cook.

Well, what do you eat?

I don't know, I guess noodles.

Have you ever had
a Spanish omelet?

So, you want to have kids?

Mm-hm.

Two, three maybe.

Except I don't really
want to have them

if I can't give them
the same privileges

I had growing up.

The same privileges?

Like what?

Well, education, traveling,
you know, a stable life.

A stable life?

Yeah, like a house.

That's funny that you call
those, like, privileges,

as if they were
something extraordinary.

Well they are, kind of.

See, that's one thing
I like about Spain,

is that everyone gets
public healthcare

and public education.

What's one thing you don't like?

Well, many things.

But that's another cool thing,

that we like to
demonstrate a lot

and go to the streets, and
that's how we feel heard.

But that doesn't make
a difference, does it?

A real difference, I mean?

Yeah, it does.

Yeah, even if it's
just to feel heard.

But that's what therapy is for.

You do therapy, right?

No.

Well, what do you do when
you're feeling overwhelmed?

I cook, and I fuck.

And sometimes I
cook while I fuck.

Well, you seem
pretty great at it.

At fuck-

At cooking.

So, what's next?

Next,

Meaning?

Well, that's the Spanish name,

we say it all the time.

It means that you take a
plate, and then you put it,

and then the idea is
that you spin the omelet

with the plate.

So in a conversation,
for example,

when you're in a topic
and you change the subject

to your own benefit.

Then you say, hey,

Give me it.

What, you want to do it?

Yeah.

What, you think I can't do,

Yeah, no, I think you're
perfectly capable of,

You just have to
do it confidently.

Yeah?
- I got it.

Like pressing-

I'm gonna do it.

Okay.

What?

I've had cup noodles before.

Shit.

Shit, fuck.

What?

Fuck, I thought I lost it again.

Oh, I'm good.

Hey, you know what we could do?

Let's call Clara.

How about that, yeah?

Hey, do you have an
adapter for this?

I don't, but Claire does.

Hold on a minute.

Sorry, she must've taken
it with her to Miami.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Do you want to use my phone?

No, where can I get one?

The deli, probably.

I'll go get my jacket.

Wait, what?

I'll go get my
jacket, I'll be fine.

You can't leave now, the
storm is insane, it's dangerous.

You can't leave now.

Just tell me where to go and-

You can't leave
now, not like this.

You'll break your umbrella.

I don't have an umbrella, so-

It's dangerous!

Are you always like this?

If the wind blows
too hard, close it.

I don't want to
lose my umbrella.

The deli's two blocks that way,

and if they don't have it,

maybe the Food Town is open too.

Thanks.

Can I come in?

You're insane!

Just so you know, you're
now my responsibility.

Yeah, I can hear myself,

I know I sound like some
sort of tutor or something,

but, fuck, you can't
just disappear like that.

I mean, I don't even
know what I would do

if something happened to you.

I mean, do you even
have insurance while-

Can you please
shut up for a second?

Please?

You want me to shut
up, I'll fuckin' shut up.

The thing is that,

the thing is that he
doesn't want to see it.

What?

The guy that I dated
for seven months,

he doesn't want
to see the movie,

and he's in it, and I
don't know what to do.

And I think I
fucked everything up

when I left from Spain
without saying goodbye.

You didn't say goodbye?

Okay.

Who broke up with who?

After I told him that
I couldn't do monogamy,

then he broke up with me.

I think we just wanted
very different things,

so no one broke up with anyone.

It was a mutual agreement.

I'm sorry, I'm lost.

So,

this guy tells you he
wants a relationship,

you tell him you don't want one,

put him in your
movie, then leave,

and then he refuses
to talk to you,

but it all started because
of a mutual agreement?

I'm sorry, I'm missing
something here.

What's so bad about
having a relationship?

Nothing.

There's nothing bad about-

Then what was so bad about him?

That he wanted to commit.

Did he say that?

Yeah.

What if he hadn't said it?

Then he would've
been deeply unhappy.

How do you know?

Because he said that.

Okay.

Let's say he didn't say that.

Let's say you never
had this conversation.

Let's say you just start
being with someone else.

You start spending more and
more time with this person.

You start understanding
this person's scars,

and fears, and life goals,

you might even share a few
life goals with this person.

Let's say you start a
journey with this person.

You find inside jokes,

so now you have a lot
of fun with this person.

Let's say that you get
used to this person's cock,

and you find out that
you can get his dick

an inch deeper in your ass

than you ever could
get with anyone else.

Or maybe you start opening up,

and start trusting
this person in a way

that you've never
trusted anyone else,

you let that person in.

And in that process,
you start opening doors

to certain parts of yourself,

doors that lead to
scarier parts of yourself,

or funny, sadder
versions of yourself.

And let's say you wake up,

and it's suddenly
three years later,

but you realize
you want to spend

many, many more years
with the person.

I don't understand, is it
so scary or so not cool

to risk your pride,
your integrity for that?

Yeah.

You just forgot the part

where you try to
sleep with a stranger.

That's not fair.

It's not fair.

Most days I don't
even notice it,

and some days I feel crazy
for even thinking about it,

and some days I
just have doubts.

I'm sorry.

It's kind of a thing, you know?

When you choose to
commit to something,

it usually comes with
some sort of sacrifice.

Yeah, I know.

What?

I know, I know, I'm
not in a relationship,

but I understand that-

What are you
actually committed to?

My job, to begin with.

Your job?

You mean making movies
with footage of other men?

Forget it, you
just don't get it-

No, no, I really want to know.

Is that what you're committed to

for the rest of your life?

What, you think that
working for a startup

that exploits its workers
is remotely better?

It pays the bills.

Well, good for you!

Trust me, I'd be doing the same

if I had found an easier job.

I didn't say it was easy,
it is realistic though.

Some of us actually
have to pay bills.

What's that supposed to mean?

Well, look at you!

You're traveling around
the world with a backpack

and playing the part
of a cool hippie,

and meanwhile your
parents are probably

paying for your film school

and you get to walk around
lecturing people about privilege.

Dude, you have no idea.

I live in an apartment
with five people,

I've been eating rice
for the past five months.

I've been using all of my
credit cards and the bal-

God, you're doing it again!

You're playing the
system's victim.

I bet your parents probably
paid for your plane ticket.

My parents don't even
know that I'm here.

Yeah, great, you didn't even
have to ask for extra money.

My parents don't
know that I'm here

'cause they don't know
that I made this movie

because they don't know
that I'm gay to begin with.

Yeah, talk about
commitment, huh?

Well,

why don't you tell them?

Great idea.

Do you want to do it?

Mine kind of always knew.

I mean, I think they
all kind of always know,

and then it's just
about the lies

and the secrets they
tell themselves.

That's sort of out of
our control, right?

And they know Tristan?

Yeah.

My mother loves him.

How could you not?

You have to think in
a mother's mindset.

Yeah, I get it.

You never thought
about telling them?

Yeah, I thought about it.

I think about it.

And I've tried, right?

You try to open
certain conversations,

and you show them
certain kinds of movies,

and then you just give up.

Have you ever thought of

just ripping it
off like a bandaid?

Yeah.

Yeah, I've thought about it,

but you know, it's not just
a bandaid, it's a scar.

Right.

And then what do you do
with the actual bandaid

after you rip it off?

Yeah.

I had this dream the other night

that I was on a boat,

and at first I didn't know
who was on the boat with me.

And at some point
a captain comes,

and he says, "Marcos, your
aunt just fell off the boat."

And I say, "Well,
what do we do now?"

And he says, "Well,
we have two options",

we either stop or
we keep moving."

And I say, "Well",

"we just gotta keep
moving, I guess."

And after a while he
comes again, and he says,

"Your dad just
fell off the boat."

And I say, "Well, we
just gotta keep moving."

And then some time passed,

and I could feel the
breeze in my face,

and he comes back and he says,

"Marcos, your mom just
fell off the boat."

And I say, "Well, we
gotta keep moving",

"because we can't stop."

I think you're more worried
than what you think you are.

Yeah, about the boat stopping.

About the people falling.

Well,

yeah, that too maybe.

Yeah.

But it's not like I'm
gonna stop the boat, right?

- I don't know.
- What?

I feel you, and I understand,

but I just don't think
I could live like this.

It's just been
kind of exhausting.

What has been exhausting?

Hearing about this over
and over and over again.

I'm kind of fed up with it.

Men and trauma, trauma and men.

Well, I'm sorry that you
had it all figured out.

See, that's the
thing though, I didn't.

I came out too.

Your parents already
knew you were gay.

And you know what?

It's not even really
about being gay.

Yes, it is.

No, it's not.

It's about living
in the present,

and how you decide you want
to live in the present.

Yeah, when you've
had the privilege-

Sorry, see, I call
bullshit on that.

That's easy for you to say.

So what?

You've just decided you're
gonna drive the boat alone

and fuck anyone else
for trying to get in?

That's fucked up.

You know what the problem is?

The problem is that
while men like me

keep putting up with
bullshit like this,

there will always be
another group of men

who are always
willing to abuse it.

Not you, but...

No, that's fine.

Look, I clearly have no
idea what I'm talking about,

so, um-
- Yeah.

I think I'm just exhausted.

You know?

It's been a long day.

Yeah.

I think I'm gonna
go to bed, actually.

Okay.

It's been nice, this.

And,

it's been wild today,
the rain and everything,

and I just feel like
we've said some things,

and I didn't mean to be so mean.

My plane leaves at 12,

but I'll be up at nine.

I'll be up.

You don't have to be-

No, I'll be up, I'll
make us breakfast.

No noodles.

Right.

We can have bread and butter.

I'll take a shower.

I'll try not to get
in your way, promise.

Well,

bye.

Fuck.

The power went out.

Yeah, I can tell.

The Wi-Fi's not working.

Well, yeah.

I don't have a signal.

Yeah, the whole
city is shut down.

I can't call anyone.

Are you okay?

What do you mean the
whole city's shut down?

Well, I,

what's happening?

Come here.

I'm just feeling
a little nervous.

Alan, come here, sit down.

We have candles.

You're shaking.

Well, what if I
need to call someone?

I can't really call anyway.

Hey!

Alan.

You're gonna breathe
with me, okay?

Let your shoulders fall.

Just keep breathing, don't
worry too much about the tempo,

just keep breathing.

Feel your shoulders relax.

Good.

You're gonna get your
arms relaxed now, yeah?

Just let them fall.

Yeah.

Feel your chest
moving up and down,

just let it fall as well.

You feel your pelvis
relax, just let it fall.

You're sitting already,
you're not gonna fall.

Yeah.

Just keep breathing.

Just keep breathing.

Let's try again, yeah?

We're gonna go in.

We're gonna go in.

Now go in.

So, when did it start?

I don't know.

You get used to something,

you forget how it
started or when.

When did you learn how
to guide meditation?

I dated a guy once that
was really into mindfulness,

so he taught me to
guide meditation.

What happened to him?

He was very present
the whole time,

and then he started
being too present.

I dated someone like that.

He was always, "I'm feeling
this, I'm feeling that."

How about you shut the fuck up

and feel my cock for once?

I don't think it's all
that tragic, really.

Having no arms and no
legs, that would be tragic.

This is just some bad days.

And then some very,
very, very bad days.

Are you depressed?

God, no.

No.

I hope not.

Am I?

I don't know.

I spent a lot of time not
knowing what depression was,

and then I read somewhere that

there's actually a
connection between

having a panic disorder
and being depressed,

so I started wondering.

Well, what makes you
think you're not depressed?

The idea that I still
have doubts about it,

or that I don't want to be.

And then of course,
therapy changed everything.

Hm.

So you love that guy, yeah?

I do.

Or maybe not.

I want to think I do.

You know, I was thinking
about what you said before,

about wanting someone
to look you in the eyes

and tell you that
monogamy makes sense.

I'm sorry.

It doesn't.

It doesn't make sense.

That's the secret, you can
stop your research now.

That's smart.

It's true.

It makes no sense at all.

You know, I think I
was actually jealous.

I never really had
that with anyone,

and I could feel it.

I could see it in your eyes.

It's not about love.

It's not about a cute face or
a cute ass, it's the horror.

It's the horror of feeling
that you could hurt someone

you actually care about.

Still.

I guess it makes no
sense the other way either.

It doesn't.

My plane leaves in six hours.

I should get back to my room.

Could you

maybe not?

Do you think you'll come back?

Come visit?

Mm-hm.

I'll put a purple pin in Europe,

don't worry about it.

I found it.

Yeah, thanks.

Morning.

Hi.

So?

He left a voice message.

Well, play it.

Hey, Marcos.

What does that mean?

Um,

yeah, he's seen it.

And?

He says it's cool.

I have something for you.

This is Cleo.

Cleo from five to seven, yeah.

I made it for you.

I love it, thanks.

Agnes Varda.

You know, not another
straight, white, old dude.

Yeah.

How do you know
about this movie?

I love movies.

You have time for coffee?

Yeah, I could use some coffee.

So, who's your
favorite porn star?

It's Claire!

Hi, Claire!

Hi!

Are you alive or what?

Yeah, we're alive.

It was a pretty
bad storm though.

Are you kidding me?

Have you seen the pictures?

Oh my God.

And the city shut down, right?

Yeah, the power just
came back on this morning.

Wow.

And did you guys get along?

How is Marcos?

He's right here actually,
you're on speaker.

Bye, Claire!

Bye, fuckers!

She's crazy, huh?

Mm-hm.

Are you sure you don't
want anything to eat?

Maybe for your trip
to the airport?

I'm good, thank you.

Tristan will be here any minute

if you want to say bye.

I really should get going.

Okay then.

I'll see you again.

Yeah.

You'll come visit, or
maybe I can come to Spain.

Yeah, yeah.

You should totally
come to Spain,

you should come visit, yeah.

I will see you again.

Yeah.

Will you have
douched next time or,

um, okay.

Be safe, yeah?

You too.

Bye.

Hi, babe.

Hi.

Hi.

I just saw Mark.

Marcos.

Marcos.

Yeah, he just left.

He's kinda hot.

He is.

He is, yeah.

How was the party?

It was really good.

It was really good,
she was really happy

that everyone was there.

We were kind of stuck
inside for like five hours

just waiting for it to pass,

so we just had to keep drinking

and be with each other,
which I don't know,

sounds maybe like a nightmare,

but was actually really nice.

She told me all these
stories about grandpa

and when they met, and
it was really nice.

I don't know, it's strange
for people to get old,

but I'm glad we did it for her.

How are you, honey?

How was it?

You know, I'm good.

I'm actually really good.

I'm starving,
do you want a toast?

Yeah.

Butter?

Yes.