21 Grams (2003) - full transcript

-Check, please.
- Look, Daddy, a volcano.

That's very pretty. Drink up your volcano.

- All right, we're going. Mummy's waiting.
- Just one more minute?

- We're going.
- No.

- Yes.
- No.

Yes.

No.

Until I ended up flatlining at the hospital.

But I survived and, instead of letting that scare me,
I kept on going.

Until my first daughter was born.

And now, I look at my girls



And my husband,

Who has been standing by me for so long...

Think which one you're gonna pull out.

- I always think, man.
- No, you don't.

They didn't lock you up because you're not 1 8.

Next time, they're going to lock you up, brother.

Come on.

You're not thinking.

Stealing might get you money,
get to tap some cheerleader's ass,

Show off riding some pickle-colored Thunderbird.

But what's gonna happen if you shoot
a pregnant woman or an old man?

You know what will happen?

The guilt will suck you down to the bone.

Stealing ain't worth it.



Going to church, reading the Bible
and believing in Jesus, brother -

That's your ticket.

Yeah.

Think it's a fantasy, right?

Huh?

Come here, man. Get up, come here.

- See that truck? Beauty, ain't it?

- I won it at a friend's raffle.
- No shit.

You know what? It wasn't luck.
It was Jesus who wanted me to have that truck.

Bullshit. I bet you stole it.

Jesus gave me that truck.

And it's He who gives and He who takes away.

- Yeah, right. He doesn't give a shit about us.
- Come back.

Come back!

Take off the hat.

Take off that hat.

God even knows
when a single hair moves on your head.

You're wrong, Nick.

'So, this is death's waiting room.

'These ridiculous tubes.

'These needles swelling my arms.

'What am I doing in this pre-corpse club?

'What do I have to do with them?

'l don't know when anything began anymore.

'Or when it's gonna end.

'Who will be the first to lose his life?

'He, in the coma?

'Or me?'

All right. You can get dressed now.

Your fallopian tubes are severely damaged.

It, er, looks like you had some kind of infection

That wasn't taken care of properly.

We can try surgery but I have to tell you,
I think the probabilities are pretty slim.

Look,

Excuse me for asking this
but it's important that you tell me the truth.

Have you ever had an abortion?

- Yes.
- Any reason?

I had already separated from my husband
when I got pregnant...

No, I meant medical reason.

- My husband's dying.
- I'm sorry?

Paul, my husband, he's dying.

And I want to have his baby.

We can operate then and hope you get pregnant
within three or four months.

He's got one month left, at most.

- How did it go?
- Not good, Reverend.

- In one ear and out the other.
- Be patient.

- All it takes is one sheep in 1,000, Jack.
- Wolf, you still having that party Wednesday?

- My place, brother.
- Cool.

I may be late. I have Bible class Wednesday.

- Let it go.
- What the fuck is wrong with you?

- Here, hold this.
-

- I will hurt you, boy!
- Paul.

-.. Motherfucking dead!
- Back off. Back.

- I told you to think.
- Fuck you.

Hit me. Hit me. Hit me, eh?

Jack! Jack! Jack! Hey! Hey!

Come on, come on.

Leave it, Jack.

He's a kid, Jack.

- He's a punk, Reverend.
- No, he's a kid.

You think, Jack. You think.

'For those who are
making decisions that affect our life

'we must call out to God
to give them His wisdom...'

Daddy's home. I'll see you tomorrow.
I'll pick the boys up after school if you want.

-
- Daddy!

Hello.

How's my queen?

- And Hercules?
- You don't have a queen.

Help me. I got the cooler from the religious center.

- Are we gonna go buy a dog now?
- We agreed, no dogs.

- You said if I got good grades...
- We've been through this,

- dog hair is bad for your sister's allergies.
- It's not bad for me. Get me a dog.

- Freddy, leave it alone.
- At least get me a hamster.

- We'll see.
- We'll see? You always say you promise.

Hey, Wolf! Are you back, motherfucker?

Lock down six!

Six down!

- I win.
- Age before beauty.

Such a sore loser.

- Do you want to go to the Jacuzzi for a while?
- I can't.

- Michael and the girls are waiting for me.
- OK.

- Call me later.
- I'll call you.

Cristina?

If you get away from leading your family
like a man of God ought to lead his family -

In prayer and reading the word of God

And the things of God
and bringing them to the house of God -

Then you're opening a door for the devil to come in
and slay your family.

Amen.

- Jesus is our light.
- Jesus is our light.

- Jesus is our hope.
- Jesus is our hope.

- Jesus is our forgiveness.
- Jesus is our forgiveness.

- Jesus is the water that quenches my thirst.
- Jesus is the water that quenches my thirst.

- If you're saved and you know it, say amen.
- Amen!

Everybody up on your feet!

- Jesus is our light.
- Jesus is our light.

-
- Hey, honey, I'm home.

- Hi.
- Jesus, you scared me.

How are you feeling?

- I feel great.
- Have you been smoking again?

For fuck's sake, Paul.

If they find out they'll take you off the transplant list.

If I don't smoke I go fucking nuts.

Better nuts than dead.

Not necessarily.

I don't know how the hell you get them.

Baby, baby...

Baby, baby.

Oh, God! Call an ambulance.

Call a fucking ambulance!

Goddamnit.

Please do something.

Come on. Please.

- Whoops.
- Can you handle your clubs?

Jack, the boss wants to talk to you.
Wants to see you now.

Come on, we both know I'm not a caddy yet.

But I'm working at it. And I'm learning, Brown.

- I swear to God, I'm not going to let you down.
- That's not the problem.

- What's the problem?
- There have been complaints about your tattoos.

- I got a long-sleeved shirt.
- No shirt gonna cover the one on your neck.

Or are you gonna start wearing a scarf?

This club is for people different from me and you...

No, no, no. You know, I don't drink, I don't steal.

- I'm clean. Tell me, why me?
- I know you're clean, that's why I hired you.

But this decision is from the administration

And if I don't follow through with it,
they're gonna fuck me too.

I cut you a hefty severance check,
you can pick it up on the way to the cashier's.

Try to understand.

OK, good. So, is there any pain?

- My head hurts a bit.
- That's the blood pressure medicine.

- We'll get you something to make you feel better.
- Thank you.

I brought what you asked for.

Oh, my God.

Oh!

Is that my heart?

The culprit.

Which one is he?

That's him with the brown vest.

He's putting the bag up on the top right now.

You OK?

I want to kill him.

We have to kill him.

Thank you Lord for keeping us together,
for filling us with love

And for giving us this meal. Amen.

- Amen.
- Amen.

I got fired from the club today.

- Cos of your good pal Brown, right?
- He had nothing to do with it.

- You believe that, Jack?
- Yes, I do.

- Freddy, stop it.
- He hit me in the arm.

- Which arm, baby?
- This one.

Hold out your other arm
and let your brother hit you.

- Give me that.
- Jack, no!

Hold it out.

"Whoever slaps you on the right cheek,

"turn the other to him also."

- Hit her. Don't be afraid.
- Jack!

Hit her!

Isn't that great? Wonderful. Great parenting.

Good job. It's OK.

He didn't hurt her.

There's no hitting in this house.

You understand? Get in the corner.

- Do I put the chocolate chips in now, Mommy?
- That's right, and then stir.

Stir real quick.

Laura, put that back. Come on.

- When's Daddy coming?
- Soon. Let's get this finished.

Mm.

Mm!

-
- No, Laura, stop it now.

Ask Lupe to stay next Friday.

I've invited the company managers over for dinner.

I fired her.

You fired her? Why?

She made me feel like a cripple.

Goddamnit, Paul.

So now who's going to cook for you?

Who's going to clean up after you,
take care of you? Who?

- I can do it for myself.
- Oh, you can do it by yourself?

I can't do it anymore, Paul.

Really, I can't.

- What are you doing?
- I'm just... What does it feel like I'm doing?

- Don't. You might hurt yourself.
- I won't.

Besides, I need you to...

- I went to a fertility clinic.
- Oh, good, more doctors.

- Mary, I can't have this discussion again.
- No, this is a specialist.

He said that with surgery I might get pregnant.
You need to donate sperm...

- No.
- I could take care of him.

But I can't. So what's the point?

This is what I most want in the world.

Do it for me, please.

This will be 58.95.

Thank you.

Did you find everything you need, sir?

I'll have...

Oh, you know what? I left my wallet.

- It's gonna be hot.
- Great.

- When does my brother plan to show up?
- He said he'd be back by six.

1 00% pure golden lager.

Are you out of your mind?

- Oh, it's warm.
- If you want to drink lemonade all night...

Katie? Laura?

Where are you guys?

'To repeat the message, press one. To delete it...'

'Hi, it's Dad. I was hoping we could have lunch
one day next week. Give me a call.'

'Hi, honey, I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything...'

-
- 'Girls, no. Laura, stop it.

'Give me a call on my cell. I'll see you in a bit. Bye.'

'To save the message, press...'

Hello.

Speaking.

What?

Where?

Stay here. I'll be right back.

You understand that even
if the operation is successful

- artificial insemination doesn't always work.
- It doesn't matter. We want to try.

Paul?

Yeah.

Now, Paul, um...

This is about having a child

And, with your condition,
you know you probably won't ever meet him.

Life goes on, right?

I'd like you to put on one of these gloves
to avoid contaminating the sample.

And try to make it all land in the receptacle.

When you're done, just leave it in here.

In case you need a little inspiration.

'Hey, big boy, how are you doing?

- 'Oh, yeah, are you ready to party?'
- 'Yeah, well, I'm here now.'

'Oh, yeah! Yeah!

'Oh! Oh, God!

'Mm! I'm gonna come really quick!

'Oh!'

- 'Dr Swann, call the operator.'
-

Excuse me, my husband and daughters
were in an accident.

- What were their names?
- Michael, Katherine and Laura Peck.

OK.

Excuse me for a minute.

- Cris?
- What happened, sweetheart?

I don't know, they haven't told me yet.

- It's gonna be all right.
- Yeah, don't worry.

What is the most important question for safe sex?

What time does your husband get home?

That's good, huh?

His Highness has arrived.

Let's see what he comes up with.

Serve up that chili.

It's seven o'clock.
What are you gonna make up this time - traffic?

You were preaching the word?
The entire congregation's been waiting for you.

It's your party, remember?

What's wrong?

Have you been drinking?

You didn't drink again, did you?

I just ran over a man and two girls.

You're lying, right?

I was driving home...

Took a turn...

A little too quickly,

Didn't see them crossing.

Can't you go any faster?

Oh...

I love you.

Deep breath.

Good. Your lungs are clear.

I have a question for you.

Whose heart do I have?

I can't tell you, it's hospital regulations.

- The donor's family doesn't know you either.
- But you know?

Yes.

- This is your heart, that's all that should matter.
- I want to know who saved my life.

You could write an anonymous letter
through the Donors' Association.

Personally, I think it's better that you don't know.

- Mrs. Peck? Dr. Jones.
- What happened to my family?

- Please sit down.
- No, I'm OK.

- What happened?
- Your husband and daughters were hit by a car.

We had to perform emergency surgery
on your husband.

Your husband suffered multiple skull fractures

And we had to remove blood clots
from around the brain.

He's critical and we're concerned
that he's showing low brain activity.

Is he gonna be all right?

We're doing the best we can.

And what about my daughters?

Your youngest daughter was brought in
with severe bleeding.

She just wasn't able to get here in time.

I'm very sorry. They...

They both died in the accident.

No.

No...

Oh, my God!

No! Oh, my God!

Where are they?!

Where... Where are they?

Mrs. Peck, your girls are here
and you can see them if you like.

I wanna see them.
I wouldn't recommend it.

Oh, God, Daddy.

I'm very sorry. If you'll excuse us,
we have to get back to Mr. Peck.

I'm very sorry.

Oh, God... Oh...

Oh, God.

- We want dinner!
- Marianne, we'd like some dinner in here.

Tell Reverend John to stay, make sure
no one notices and get everyone to leave.

- What happened?
- Trish, just do what I tell you.

It's going to be OK.

It's all gonna be OK.

- Start the truck up, pull it in. Come on, baby.
-

Hey, Jack!

What are you doing here, man?

Just came to pick up my things, Brown.

- Why don't you let me buy you a couple of beers?
- I don't drink.

How about a Diet Coke?

I've been talking to a buddy
about hooking you up with a job,

I've been telling him all about you.

So what do you say?
I've been feeling shitty about what went down.

I understand.

So what do you say?

As you know the doctors did everything they could
to save your husband's life

But he has shown no brain activity.

We're here to help you with
some of the final decisions that need to be made.

We have a patient who is gravely ill.

I'm here to give you some information
on organ donation.

Are you willing for your husband
to donate his heart?

- Can we discuss this another time?
- I'm afraid not.

You can discuss it
but this is a decision that needs to be made soon.

-
- Paul?

Paul, the beeper.

It's the hospital. I think they've got a heart.

Hello? Yes, I'm calling on behalf of
Mr. Paul Rivers.

Yes.

OK. Yes, I understand.

Where do I have to take him?

Good luck, my love.

Hello.

Hello.

- Does your shoulder bother you?
- Why?

I was watching you swim before
and you have a wide stroke.

If you bring it in tighter you get a better glide.

Thanks for the advice.

- Do you mind if I join you?
- Actually, I was just leaving.

There you go.

Maybe just until you finish?

No, maybe next time.

Did you know that eating alone
can cause kidney damage? And that's bad.

All right. Sorry.

'Hello?'

Hello. Is Ana there?

- What?
-

- 'ls Ana there?'
- Hold on a sec. Ana?

Ana!

Phone call.

Hello.

'Hello?

'Who is that?'

Hi, honey, I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything...

Girls, no, don't touch. Laura, stop it.

Give me a call on my cell. See you in a bit. Bye.

Did you go?

Are they dead?

I'm gonna turn myself in.

John says nobody saw you, nobody.

They don't know the license plate
or what kind of car...

What would you do if these were our children?

- Tell me.
- They're not. It didn't happen to us.

No, it didn't happen to us.

It happened to me.

What the fuck do you gain by turning yourself in?

- It's my duty, Marianne.
- No, Jack, your duty is here with us,

Your family.

- My duty is to God.
- Please.

Marianne,

Get out of my way.

Jack!

-
- Oh, buddy! Right there.

My turn.

I think I better go back to the hospital.

- He deserves it.
- I thought you're not supposed to eat that.

- I'm making up for lost time.
- Lost time not lost pounds.

We're gonna send you back for liposuction.

Well, here's to all those...
who didn't think I was gonna die.

Hear! Hear!

And to the first day of my new life.

It's good to have you home.
Knew you'd make it.

He's so wonderful.

I also have an announcement to make.

I wanted to tell you that Paul and l
are going to be parents.

- That's great!
- There's a scary thought, Paul being a parent.

- You kept this quiet.
- Have you told your folks?

We're going to be parents,
we don't know when yet.

I'm going to have an operation
and then try artificial insemination.

Terrific.
Artificial insemination?

Do your female students know
you no longer have lead in your pencil?

- Hey, hey, hey!
- Oh!

Play nice.

Come on, let's pass the cake around.
Cut me a piece about half that size.

I can't wait to hear about this.

- Mr. Donneaud?
- Mr. Rivers?

Thanks for coming.

Sorry I couldn't cancel my bowling
but the way I'm bowling I probably should have.

Park it right there.

- Can I bring you something to eat?
- I'm not hungry.

- Honey, you need to eat something.
- I'm fine, Dad.

When your mother died
I thought I wasn't going to make it.

I felt that the world was falling on me
and I was never going to get up.

But, sweetie, life goes on.

You know what I thought when Mom died?

I couldn't understand how
you could talk to people again.

How you could laugh...

Again.

I couldn't understand how you could play with us.

And no. No, that's a lie.

Life does not just go on.

Louise is getting fat, don't you think?
She's done nothing but eat since Robert left her.

What, she looks OK to you?

Why did you tell everybody we're having a baby?

I wanted to share our plans with them.

Oh.

That's what I mean. Why does everyone
have to know our private life?

Why the fuss? They're our best friends.

But we haven't even talked about it.

- Oh, we haven't? I thought this was settled.
- Things change, Mary.

- It's something we have to think about.
- I don't have anything to think about.

I've already made my decision.

Would you help me with the glasses?

Do you want me to stay tonight?
I'm OK, thanks.

I just want to be alone.

Cris...

The police called.

They said you need to go and press charges.

I'll go with you if you want.

I'm not going to do anything.

This guy was... was some ex-con.

Are you going to let him walk the streets?

- What do you want me to do?
- He ran over Michael and your daughters...

Nothing I can do is going to bring them back.
Do you get that?

Hey, how are you doing?

- You found it OK?
- Yeah, I did.

The donor's name was Michael Peck.
He was 37 years old.

An architect and married.

This is the transplant authorization
signed by his wife, Cristina Williams Peck.

I have a copy of the medical report
if you'd care to see it

And I also have the widow's phone number
and address if you're interested.

How did Michael Peck die?

You might have seen it in the newspaper.

This guy named Jack Jordan
ran over Mr. Peck and his two little girls,

October 1 0th, 6:50pm.

This Jack Jordan's a piece of work.
He's been in and out of jails since he was 1 6.

Car thief, small-time crook,
drugs, bad checks, alcoholism.

Last time he was in jail was only two years ago.

You feeling OK, Mr. Rivers?

That's what you wanted, isn't it?

- I just...
- You want some water?

- He was an architect.
- What's the point in getting involved?

Mary, I want to know who I am now.

I don't think that's the way to do it.

What is, then?

Look for it with me.

Let's look ahead together, not behind.

Not drinking on your birthday?
Come over to my place, I'm having a party.

I bet they're all as boring as you.
You'd be surprised.

- I'll pass. I call you later about that job.
- All right.

Thank you.

Hey, Brown, you should.

I will.

We can schedule the surgery.
Erm... I could get you in as early as Monday.

Yeah.

9am?

What's the percentage chance
that Mary will get pregnant?

I can't offer you a real number on that.
There's the abortion that wasn't handled properly...

What abortion?

What abortion, Mary?

I can explain.

- Explain what?
- There is an explanation.

Uh-huh. All that drama
about artificial insemination,

Kids' names, we got pictures
of our friends' babies all over the place.

Why? So you can flush it down the fucking toilet?

We've been a fraud for a long time, Mary.

Oh, yeah? Why didn't you tell me that
when you were sick?

Or did you expect one of your girlfriends
to take care of you?

You came back because
you wanted to, don't blame me.

- I came back because I love you.
- Or because you were lonely.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

We can't keep going like this.

The insemination, the child.

It's like we're trying to put a Band-Aid
on something that's been bled dry.

It's finished.

Finished?

It isn't finished if we give it a chance
and have this baby.

- When we could have, you didn't want to.
- We were separated, goddamnit!

- It's different now.
- Yes.

- It's different.
-

- Ready to go?
- You only know how to think about yourself.

Close six.

Thanks for finally seeing me.

They tell me you don't want to eat.

I'm not hungry.

Jack...

Jesus didn't come to free us from pain.

He came to give us the strength to bear it.

- Maybe He wanted this pain for me.
- No, this was an accident.

No, it wasn't an accident.

Jesus chose me for this.

Jack...

Ask for the mercy of Jesus Christ.

If it was an accident,
why do I have to ask for His mercy?

"l will have mercy on whom I will have mercy,
compassion on whom I will have compassion."

- Don't be so prideful, it's a sin.
- ".. the fearful, the unbelieving..."

- Jack, listen to me.
- ".. murderers, warmongers, idolaters,

- "and all liars have their part in the lake..."
- Jesus came to save us not to damn us.

".. which burneth with fire and brimstone."
Revelation 21 :8.

Jesus loves you but He also knows
how to punish arrogant sinners like you.

"As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten."
Revelation 3: 1 9.

- Jesus betrayed me.
- Stop this shit or you're going to Hell.

Hell?

This is Hell.

- Right here.
- You're damning your soul.

- Ask Christ for forgiveness.
- Forgive me?

I did everything He asked me to do. I changed.

I gave Him my life and He betrayed me.

He put that fucking truck in my hands,
made me do His will and kill those people

But He didn't give me
the strength to save them.

Don't blaspheme, you bastard!
Christ had nothing to do with this.

God even knows when a single hair
moves on your head.

And you taught me that.

We're gonna pray for you, Jack.

Just like old times. How have you been?

Did you end up marrying that hunk
you brought here last time?

- Yep.
- Yeah?

Is he a good lay? How they make us suffer, huh?

It's all right, I got some great candy for you.

Got Special K, angel dust
and your all-time favorite.

And I got the newest of the new - R2.

This shit's all the rage. You take two of these,
you go straight to heaven.

- I'm not into chemicals.
- You're not a cuddly little kittie now, are you?

If you don't like 'em, you don't pay for 'em.

- That's my girl.
-

It's busy.

Hey, go easy on the booze tonight, right?

- What the fuck are you...?
-

What the fuck are you doing?

Would you get my car, please?

What do you care? I don't need a fucking taxi.

There's your fucking glass.

-
-

Stupid fucking asshole, move your car!
I'm fine! Get away from my car!

There's no damage, OK? There's no damage.

I know her, I can drive her home.

- Is this any of your business?
- I'm your friend Paul, from the sports club.

- Yeah, well...
- Remember?

Yeah, well, can you tell these assholes
to get away from me?

I'll drive her home, it's not a big deal. OK?

- You can't drive like this.
- What do you care?

You're going to get arrested, let me drive you.

Please?

Damn it.

I sold the truck to pay for the lawyer.

I didn't ask for a lawyer.

Marianne, I didn't ask for...

You want your children to spend another
two years without you? Is that what you want?

This is God's will.

So be it.

Two years ago you didn't believe in anything.

Now everything has to do with God.

- I think I preferred you the way you were.
- I was a fucking pig.

- Is that what you prefer?
- At least it was you.

Now I don't have the slightest fucking idea
who you are.

Life has to go on, Jack. With or without God.

Hey, how are you doing?

- How are you?
- Fine.

Were you able to find anything out?

Jack Jordan's living in a cheap motel,
out in the middle of nowhere. Phone records.

- One of his prison fishy pals is from there.
- That was quick.

Just a matter of checking the calls.

Phone number and address
for the motel he's living in.

Here's a pretty recent photo of Jordan,
taken the last time he was in jail.

Did you get that other thing I asked about?

Mm-hm.

This is a clean gun. No record.

We call this an orphan.

It is loaded.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Careful there, hoss.

You don't have to cock it, just pull the trigger.
This releases the cylinder.

I think we're set to go. That's all I wanna know.

- Thank you.
- Good luck to you.

Ma'am, it's an hour since I called.

46, St. Vincent Street.

Thank you.

- Hello.
- Hello.

Some rain.

- Do you not have your car?
- No, but my taxi will be here in a minute.

I'm right over here. I can give you a lift.

No, thanks.

I'm the guy who drove your car home last week.

I'm sorry, I don't remember.

I left my jacket with you.

Oh.

Sorry.

- I'll bring it by tomorrow.
- Are you sure I can't give you a ride?

Or do you want to swim?

OK.

Hello.

- Thanks.
- You're very welcome.

Let me just give you my cell phone number.

So that you have it.

Would you have lunch with me tomorrow?

What for?

You're going to have to eat at some point
and I'm very worried about those kidneys.

Come on - Lawrence's, two o'clock?
It's very nearby.

- Please?
- OK. I'll see you tomorrow.

Great.

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Look, Daddy, a pigeon. Daddy, look!

- Girls, no, don't touch. Laura, stop it.
-

- Give me a call on my cell. See you in a bit. Bye.
-

- Good night, Mr. Peck.
- Don't forget to do my garden on Saturday.

No, sir, I won't forget.

- Son of a bitch. What...?
- Leave it to me, Marianne.

Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't.
Everybody reacts differently.

That's why you've been vomiting so much.

So what are we saying,
I've got to change medication?

OK, I'm going to be frank with you. The heart
that you're carrying is gonna give out soon.

I need you to stay in the hospital
until I can find you another heart.

- You want me to wait for a new heart?
- We don't have a lot of choice.

I can't do that. I can't wait for someone else to die
locked up in a fucking room. I can't do it.

You're dangerously close to heart failure, Paul.

You might die...

A lot sooner than you think.

Let me ask you something.
I want you to be really honest with me, OK?

If I stay...

Will I be saved?

I can't guarantee it.

But if you don't come back to hospital,
you're condemning yourself to a terrible death.

Your heart won't work anymore.

You'll die, asphyxiated.
It's an awful death, Paul, you can't imagine it.

- At least here we can help you to...
- You can help me die better.

That's what you're saying.
You can help me die better.

I'm not going to do that.

OK? I'd rather die outside.

I'm not going to do it again.

How much did the lawyer charge?

Marianne, how much did the fucking lawyer...?

- Enough.
- How much?

Enough so your children can remember
your fucking face.

Keep asking stupid questions
and I'm getting out at the next corner.

Hi, guys, we're home.

Daddy! Daddy! What did you bring us?

- I brought you a kiss.
- You didn't bring me a present, huh?

No, just a kiss.

We made you a cake.

- Thank you, sweetheart.
- Freddy put the icing on it.

Freddy, are you going to say hello to your father?

Freddy drew those for you.
I drew those ones.

- Mommy made the cake.
- Come here.

She did?
Come look at the cake, Daddy.

Come on, Daddy.

There is a number hidden in every act of life,
in every aspect of the universe.

Fractals, matter...
There's a number screaming to tell us something.

- Am I boring you?
- No.

No, l...

- Sorry.
- I try to tell them

That numbers are a door
to understanding a mystery that's bigger than us.

How two people, strangers, come to meet.

There's a poem by a Venezuelan writer
that begins,

"The earth turned to bring us closer.

"lt turned on itself and in us

"until it finally brought us together in this dream."

That's beautiful.

There are so many things that have to happen
for two people to meet...

Anyway that's what mathematics are.

How long have you been swimming?
A few years.

- It doesn't bore you?
- No. It's what makes me feel normal.

If I didn't swim or walk or do something,
I think I'd go crazy.

Thanks for lunch.

Yeah. Goodbye.

Do you want to come in?

No, thanks... Yes, I do want to come in.

Hey!

Can I ask you something?

Huh?

OK, I have a gun, OK? Don't look at me.

- Don't look at me, I'll shoot you. Turn around.
- I don't have any money.

- Go. Walk. Walk.
- Hey, come on.

- Put them up. Put your hands up.
- Why? Wait.

Just walk. Go.

- Go down that path.
- Sir...

- Do it and you won't get hurt.
- Please. I don't have...

I'm not looking...

Come on, keep walking. Right down here.

Keep walking. Don't look at me,
I'll shoot you in the head. Hands up!

Walk. Look, over here, over here. Come on.

Don't look at me. Keep going.

Stop. Right here, OK...

Stop. Turn around.

Keep your hands on your head.

G-G-Get... Take your shoes off
and get down on your knees.

Take off your shoes.

No, not that one! Just get down on your knees!
Get down on your knees!

Sir, please...

Shouldn't have done it.

- Done what?
- You shouldn't have done it!

Close your goddamn eyes!

- She looked me in the eyes.
- What are you talking about?

One of the girls that I killed.

She looked me in the eye.

She wanted to tell me something.

I left her.

I left her there.

I ran away.

- No...
- I ran away.

I ran away. I ran away.

Ran away.

- Ran away.
- Shh-shh-shh...

- You're sticking with red?
- Sure.

Are you OK?

Yeah.

I, um...

- I'm sorry, I had a dizzy...
- Can I get you a glass of water or something?

I think I should go home.

I'm sorry, I just...

I like you a lot, Cristina.

It's been a long time
since I liked someone so much.

Can I see you again?

I'm a married woman.

I figured.

- Thanks.
- Goodbye.

I got peace like a river
I got peace like a river

I got peace like a river in my soul...

- Everybody!
- I got love like an ocean

I got love like an ocean

I got love like an ocean in my soul

I got joy like a fountain
I got joy like a fountain

I got joy like a fountain in my soul...

Look, Daddy, these are the zebras
and these are the lions.

- Very pretty.
- You've never been to a zoo.

- I've seen them in...
- Stop fighting.

The lawyer called to remind you
you have to go sign on Monday.

If you want I'll go with you to church.

In school they said
you killed two girls and their daddy.

Is that true?

- Yes.
- No.

Yes. He killed them.

It was an accident, sweetie.

You understand?

Oh, Jesus,
every time I look at my children...

Hello?

Hello?

'Paul?'

Who... Who is this?

'Cristina.

'Did I wake you?'

Hang on a second.

Hi.

- 'Did I wake you?'
- No, that's OK.

'Um, could... could you come to my house?'

- Is something wrong?
- 'No, I just...

'l just want you to come if you can.

- 'Or if you want to.'
- Yeah.

I'll be right there.

'Thanks.'

OK.

It's two in the morning, who were you talking to?

I won't be long.

Where are you going?

- I said I won't be long.
- Exactly where and with who are you going?

I thought you'd change after the transplant.

And I thought you'd change if I did.

Neither of us changed.

- What's wrong?
- He's been shot in the chest.

Come on.
Shot in the chest. In the chest.

- How's long he's been like that?
- He's dying! We need a...

I'll go get a stretcher.

- Ma'am, he'll be right back.
- It's OK, baby.

I shot him.

- I don't have the gun.
- What?

- I shot him.
- Control, I need you to call the police.

It's an emergency, yes. I'm right out front.

Hi.

Are you OK?

You kept me thinking all day.

You see, I haven't spoken to anyone in months

And I barely know you

And I already need to talk to you.

And...

There's something
the more I think about, the less I understand.

Why the hell did you tell me that you liked me?

Answer me because
I didn't like you saying that at all.

You can't just walk up to a woman
you barely know and tell her you like her.

You can't do that,
you don't know what she's going through.

Or what she's feeling.

I'm not married.

- It's OK.
-

- I'm sorry.
- No.

Cristina... Wait.

- I have to tell you something.
- OK.

- Please.
- Kiss me.

Wait, Cristina.

Cristina...

I have Michael's heart.

I have Michael's heart.

You understand what I'm saying?

It was transplanted into me
at St. Francis Hospital on October 1 1th.

No.

I tried to tell you, I just didn't know how to tell you.

How dare you?

How dare you! How fucking dare you!

- I'm here for a reason.
- Get out of my house!

Don't touch me! Get out of my house now!

- You make me sick!
- I'm here for a reason!

Get out of my fucking...

Get the fuck out of my house, you make me sick!

Get out!

Good morning.

Why did you look for me?

Because I needed to.

I don't want your fucking pity.

That wasn't it.

I was sick, Cristina, I was very sick.

I was dying when Michael gave me his heart.

He saved my life.

I tried in every way I knew how to find out...

Who had given me this heart.

And that's how I found out
how he and your daughters had died.

It's very painful for me to know how I got this heart.

I couldn't sleep.

I wanted to thank you.
I wanted to help in some way.

I just wanted to thank you for...

But I couldn't find you.

And then I saw you

That day.

And now I can't be away from you.

I can't.

You don't have to be afraid.

I've got a good heart.

I'm scared too.

- 'Why did you leave us, Jack?'
- I'm where I have to be.

- 'Gina got sick from the hamster.'
- The past is like the Atlantic Ocean.

Back when I was me.

- But the decisions I make, that's my mirror.
- 'What are you talking about?'

That's my mirror.

- 'lt doesn't matter.'
- I have to live with them alone.

- 'Come back to us.'
- I can't erase it.

- 'Your family needs you.'
- No one can erase it.

'For me...'

We need to stabilize him
before we get him to the hospital.

Right now, what we really need
are units of B-positive blood.

I'm O-positive, will that work?

Open and close your fist several times.

'Go ahead.'

OK, pal.

You're free to go for lack of evidence.

Your story doesn't check out,
it contradicts our investigation

And the statements made
by Mrs. Peck and Mr. Rivers.

I just need you to sign here.

What if I really am guilty?

Yeah, well, it happens.

It won't be the first time, it won't be the last.

What are you doing?

You've been lost for too many days,
don't you think, you prick?

Mary, I don't want a fight.

- I want this to end well.
- And that means disappearing for a few days?

You just waited until you got better
to tell me to fuck off.

I'm going back to London.

- You can't keep doing this.
- Really?

I'll have surgery
and I'll be inseminated with your child.

- With or without you.
- Mary, what for?

- Why?
- Because I want to.

- Well, I won't authorize that.
- No?

You already have. I have a signed copy
of your authorization to use your semen.

- What do you gain?
- I get what I want.

You decide if you come looking for me or not.

'Hi, honey, I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything...

- 'Girls, no, don't touch. Laura, stop it.'
-

'Give me a call on my cell. See you in a bit. Bye.'

'To repeat the message, press one.
To delete, press two.'

'Hi, honey, I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything...

- 'Girls, no, don't touch. Laura, stop it.'
-

'Give me a call on my cell. See you in a bit. Bye.'

- I'm grilling some chicken, you want any?
- No, thanks.

I could make you a sandwich...

No. No, no, no. No!

Cristina, Cristina,

Iisten to me.

You don't need that shit. You need...

Don't tell me what I need.

Katie could have lived.

What?

She'd be alive right now
but that bastard left her there.

Lying in the street.

He left the three of them like animals.
He didn't care.

At least she could be here with me.

That son of a bitch is walking the streets.

- And I can't even go into their room.
- He's walking the streets?

I want to kill him.

You want to kill him?

I'm gonna kill Jack Jordan.
I'm gonna kill that son of a bitch.

- Slow down, Cristina, just slow down.
- Slow down? Slow down?

- While I what, huh? While I what?!
- Take it easy.

Take it easy? My husband
and my little girls are dead

And I'm supposed to take it fucking easy?!

I can't just go on with my life!

I am paralyzed here,
I am a fucking amputee, do you see that?!

Who are you?!

You owe it to Michael. No, you've got his heart,

You're in his house, fucking his wife
and sitting in his chair!

- We have to kill him!
- Not like this.

Then how, tell me how!

Katie died...

With red shoelaces on.

She hated red shoelaces.

And she kept asking me
to get her some blue ones

And I never got her the blue ones.

She was wearing those fucking red shoelaces
when she was killed.

You shouldn't have done it.

Close your... close your goddamn eyes!

You... murderer.

You just let them lie there on the street.

Those two little girls, you just let them die
like dogs. I should have killed you.

Now you disappear. Don't even
go back to the motel and get your things.

Just disappear.

Mrs. Peck.

- How is he?
- We couldn't use your blood for his transfusion.

We found high levels of illegal substances
in your blood. You're taking very high risks here.

- That's my problem.
- In your state, I suggest you stop using them.

- What are you talking about?
- You're pregnant, Mrs. Peck.

- You're sure?
- You need to start taking care of yourself.

We'll let you know when Mr. Rivers
is out of the O. R.

Where were you?

Did you kill him?

Did you?

Why didn't you wake me up?

Where's the body?

Nobody will ever find the body.

I'm sorry.

We're gonna go home now.

Let's just get out of here, OK? Yeah?

It's OK, baby. Just lie down.

- I need to rest.
- I know.

I know.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

I love you. I love you.

Oh!

Wake up.

Mm? Mm?

There's somebody outside.

Oh, my God!

- Oh, my God.
- You want to kill me?

- What's he doing here?
- Here I am.

Shoot me.

- Quick... Oh!
-

- Oh, my God.
-

Do something!

- Oh...
-

No, baby. Oh, no...

No, no...

- Oh, my God! Baby... baby...
-

Oh, my God...

- Baby...
-

Baby, baby, baby...

Baby!

- Oh, God! Call an ambulance.
-

Call a fucking ambulance!

'How many lives do we live?'

'How many times do we die?

'They say we all lose 21 grams
at the exact moment of our death.

'Everyone.

'And how much fits into 21 grams?

'How much is lost?'

'When do we lose 21 grams?

'How much goes with them?

'How much is gained?

'How much is gained?

'21 grams.

'The weight of a stack of five nickels,

'the weight of a hummingbird.

'A chocolate bar.

'How much do 21 grams weigh?'

To Maria Eladia.

And when loss was burnt,
the maize fields became green again

One last kiss

One only

Then I'd let you go

Hard for you

I've fallen

But you can break my fall

I'm broken

Don't break me

When I hit the ground

Some devil

Some angel

Has got me to the bones

You said always and forever

Now I believe you, baby

You said always and forever

Is such a long, lonely time

Too drunk and

Still drinking

It's just the way I feel

It's all right

That's what you told me

Cos what we had was so beautiful

I feel heavy

Like floating

At the bottom of the sea

You said always and forever

Now I believe you, baby

You said always and forever

Is such a long, lonely time

Some devil is

Stuck inside of me

I cannot set it free

I wish, I wish I was dead and you were breathing

Just so that you could know

Some angel is

Stuck inside of me

I cannot set you free

You said always and forever

Now I believe you, baby

You said always and forever

Such a long, lonely time

Stuck inside of me