Wer aufgibt ist tot (2016) - full transcript

(Next time I come
into the world,

then as a bird.)

(I can really give a
shit to all of them.)

(IF I'm born again.)

(My name is Paul Lohman.)

(I am 47 years
old and I am dead.)

(As well as.)

(I'm going to have a car
accident in less than four hours.)

(Of course I don't
know that yet.)

(Edith - my wife.)

(Tai chi... She
thinks that saves her.)



(Wonders from what.)

(Of whom?)

(This is Sonja, my daughter.)

(She hates her
life, her body, me.)

(Possibly in reverse order.)

(My house, paid
off in seven years.)

(My pigeons - priceless.)

(196 hp: my car.)

(Special tuning,
special rims, limited.)

(Good for my job.)

(I sell mirrors - for 23 years.)

Mirror on the wall, who
are the best of them all?

We!
Friends, this is louder! Who?

We!
There you go.



I am really happy,

to be able to present
the new collection to you.

Janus...

2005!

Yes, modern, timeless
and simply beautiful.

Even if it sounds like it,
I'm not talking about myself.

Yes, that's it from my side.

(Five-time Seller of the
Year, '99 through 2004.)

(That was my life.)

Lohman, Lohman!

Everything okay?
Yes, everything is ok.

I'll never let you go.

Ah!

What's now?
Oh no!

Now the amniotic sac has burst.

This time it's going to be a mama's child.

(That was once.)

(I'll be dead soon - in
23 minutes to be exact.)

(But can one die when
one is no longer alive?)

Hello, I'm Paul Lohmann.
Glad you met me.

Good for you I'm here.
My name is Paul Lohmann.

You can count yourself
lucky that today I...

Just don't mess it up again.

Pull yourself together!

Who gives up is dead.

I'll pay that.

Uh, extra.

Never mind.

Here.

For safety.

For safety.

If you need a mirror
for the shithouse...

I'll give you a good price.

...a wonderful autumn
day. The temperatures...

Will you take me with you?

Yeah.

Willingly.

I can understand.
Hm?

With the shield that.

My God, it's nice if
you still have dreams.

Pilot.
What?

I once wanted to be a pilot.

Well, mother dies early, father
needs someone to lend a hand.

So life is.
Now I breed pigeons.

Swam over it.

I'm on my way to a
super shop - Spiegel.

Put nothing in, you'll get nothing out.

By the way, this is my car.
Yes, nothing company car.

Makes an impression on customers.

That's so.

Record sales '99 to
2004, toujours through.

The 2000 record
still stands today.

Yes... You don't need a mirror.

How you look.

Uh?

Yes, what the heck.

Life goes on.
Lohmann takes off again.

I get the curve.

Can you hear me?

I'll surround you now.
Danger.

That can not be real.

Dream.

This must be a dream.
M-m.

Nothing happened to you?

Intermediate world.

Between what?
Well, this.

This is between life and death.
Come on, let's go.

I'm with you, calm down.

Hi! We go!
Where?

Where to? Serious accident,
you lie motionless

You're in the in-between world,
and that's the end of the tunnel.

That will not do!
That's how it always works.

But not for me!

I have the most important
appointment in ten years.

In half an hour!
It's closing time here.

Here!

I'm not even 50. I'm not sick.

I'm in great shape.

Besides, life doesn't
pass me by at all.

There's no bright light or anything.

Here, ambulance.
He'll get me back.

He is unconscious.
Intermediate world!

Edith likes this kind
of nonsense since...

Since when?
What?

Since when is Edith
into such a fuss?

Between life and death...

There's still life
in me, it's logical.

"Still alive" or "already dead".

Not quite dead yet, good guy.
Maybe as a spare parts store.

What?

I would have to
inform the relatives.

He has a letter with
him - Paul Lohmann.

His wife wants a divorce.
Divorce?

Didn't read the letter?
But divorce?!

Can it be you?

If Edith decides
they get my organs...

Do you trust her?
Man, what did you do to her?

What? Nothing! We're
just married. Long time.

Hey, I'm not dead yet!

They don't hear or see you.
It's over.

Now listen to me carefully!

Lohmann says when
it's over with Lohmann.

I've had a lot of shitty years.

It's just going up,
it's not over there!

Who are you anyway?
My angel?

All your fantasy:
blonde, big tits...

In the intermediate world you can
determine everything - just like in life.

Bullshit! Who can
control their life?

What if I was into red?

And on men?

Oh God! This is a dream.

I drank way too much yesterday.

Hey wait a minute!

You can't cannibalize me!

We want to see that!
Hi!

No, no, no, it won't work that way.

I'm not dead yet

It will be fine!

Man, man, man.
October 9 at 11:43 am.

I have to remember.
I was almost over the Jordan.

(Nothing.)

(No hint. Not yesterday,
this morning...)

Everything quite normal.

So what is that?

Maybe his lucky
charm or something.

(Terrible things always
happen on normal days.)

(Everything was the same as always.)

(Except for this stupid letter.)

That's the right song

for a wonderful autumn
day in Heilbronn.

What is?
Anorexic, as you can see.

Crack the Americans
and you're back on top.

So you're still down.

"I have record degrees,
'99 to 2004 toujours through."

Understood!
It's 2015 now.

The 2000 record still stands!

Morning.

Morning.
Morning.

What happened then?

Oh, banged, not bad.

Oh, until the boys agree
on an annual report.

And then it was all about
the anniversary - you know it.

"What's for dinner?
Cold or warm?

Grilling? Yes but what?
Beef or chicken?"

Poultry in the pigeon fanciers association.
Crazy, right?

Then it was about the
race dates for next year.

To vet costs, bird flu again.

Apparently there's a new vaccination.
But what does it cost!

Twelve euros per bird!
They deserve...

Paul, leave it!

I was at the
clubhouse last night.

That is...

You never do that otherwise.
I came from the cemetery.

I'll join the club later.

When were you there?
I was checking on you.

I was still working.

I thought you might
have the courage for once.

I've got a big thing going on right now.

Tool Tiger - I wanted
to prepare that.

Should be a surprise.

Thanks.

Some fruit.

Tool Tiger, these Americans,
are completely new on the market.

If they take the
whole new collection

that's easily half a million.

It's healthier than
your incense sticks.

I have a good feeling.

Again. Maybe there is
something wrong with your feeling.

Bye.

Do you notice that?

What?
Sonja, she's changing.

I am worried.

We need to talk, Paul.

About Sonya.
No, about us

This can not continue like that.
Clear.

This evening.
Tonight we talk.

And we celebrate the commission.

Tonight, no problem.

I gotta go

By the way, you're in
the newspaper again.

With your fuss last
night in your bookstore.

Bye.

Good morning my beauties.

Come here.

Yeah.

Princess, that
looks quite passable.

See you later!

Are you okay?
- Yes.

Did you sleep well?
- Mmm.

Look, your father.

No stress today.

Morning.

Morning!
Well, everyone there?

That's why it smells like that here.

Morning, Herrman.
Morning.

I need the models.

I gotta go boil the Americans.

By the way, that was
my idea, already in '98.

All models in miniature.

It's much better for the customer
than such stupid brochures, right?

Right.
Sure Paul.

Horns shed?

Oh yes. A little.

Thanks.

On to the fight!

Why does someone like that
get another thing like Tool Tiger?

It's only a matter of time.

In fact, he was really good.
The best.

Lohman!

Boss! No time,
Tool Tiger is waiting.

Please come.

Morning.
Morning.

The Autobahnkreuz hardware store
is now ordering from the competition.

They fall for the
junk from China.

I've been on the phone with customers.

They are often late
and sometimes drunk.

That's a lie.

In Pforzheim you tossed a coin

so that they order something.

Won.

Then you have ordered too much.
Something went wrong.

In the computer - a
clear deterioration.

If you mess up today

there is still a significant
deterioration - for you.

Your father...
My father is dead.

With me you have no bonus.

I conquered the wild west
for the company in 2001, 2002.

And you screwed up our business
in the East in 2007 and 2008.

It was a difficult time.
Her father knew that.

You spent the hard times
in Warsaw's brothels.

Does your wife actually know that?

Have a good time.

Your ass cheeks will flap

that's how much commission
you have to deduct.

Hurry!
Otherwise he'll nip off! Come on!

Wake up you idiot!
Wake up now!

You have to help me.

So you. Us.

Now you're off, you bastard?

I'm not crying for you!

I'm crying for me!
Do you hear? Because of me!

(Edith ...)

Good day.
- Good day.

Excuse me...

We heard that my...

my...

The emergency doctor said that
her husband is only an organ donor.

It's possible, yes.

I don't give you hope.
And do I have to decide then?

You are the next of kin.

Has he ever talked about it?
No.

Familiarize yourself with this.

Thanks.
Please.

I don't know what to hope for.

I'm here and I'm staying.

As long as you need me.

What a shit dream.
No dream.

How are you from?
Intermediate world.

You can move freely
in space and time.

My successor is already lurking.

I would have left you sooner.
Then just go. Through time and space.

You have to come with me.

Your appointment is over anyway, come on.
Nope! I will not give up.

I conquered the company
France and Benelux,

because I didn't give up.
That is something different.

Is not it!
Who gives up is dead.

And who is dead...

Between life and death.
I'm not dead.

Typical, in life a big mouth

but when it comes to dying,
a cowardly philosopher.

It's over. Over. Finally. Scythe.
It's good! Scythe.

Intermediate world, so
you can go anywhere?

No limits.
Now comes: "just a minute".

Left a minute earlier,

and that wouldn't have happened.
I just need a second.

How does it work?
Turn back the clock, or what?

I'll tell you. Come!
You said I choose.

Then I decide now!
October 9, 2015 at 7:45 am.

Moment! Lohman?

Lohman!

9th October...

Yes, not a dream.

Intermediate world. Shit.

This is the right
song for the day.

A wonderful autumn
day in Heilbronn.

I'm great, thank you.
Spittacular downright.

Morning.

Morning.
Mmm.

What happened?
Not bad.

Until the boys agree
on an annual report.

And then there was
the Christmas party.

Eternal.

I'll be there later, I
still had work to do.

You were just gone.
You've been to the graveyard, right?

Yes. I was alone there.

Yes, I'll be there later.
Paul, don't lie yet.

Paula is your daughter too.

What happened?
Paula swallowed a marble!

I'm following!

Egg?

I just have to hurry
towards the tunnel

and then to Tool Tiger,
then everything will be fine.

See you later my girls.

Everything will be fine.

Paul!

That can not go on like this!

I have to go.
Read this!

Herrmann, do it now!

No stupid saying?
Give it to me!

Will he be tolerated
in his old age?

Lohman!
Boss!

Wait, I'm just coming.

Morning!
Morning.

It's about... Hardware
store at Autobahnkreuz?

Yes.
Didn't work out, I know.

We won't be blackmailed.
15% discount. What for?

They should buy in China.
The manager says...

The Himmelsbergers, right?

She says I'm late,
that I'm drinking...

She wants to finish me

if you don't get
special conditions.

But we won't let ourselves
be blackmailed, not with us!

So, I have to, Tool Tiger is waiting!
Open up, no!

11.43 a.m. out of the tunnel,
you can do it easily, Lohmann.

You make the deal
and Edith reconsiders.

You don't just
throw away 18 years.

Crap!

This will definitely
resolve itself again.

So, Tool Tiger, dress warmly!

Crap!

Oh man! All idiots today!

Yes...

Away, away, away!

Once again! Path!

OK.

Just a second earlier...
So much for that.

Hey Lohman. Lohman!

That's no use, get it.

No matter how early you start,
no matter where you drive...

I have something good with you.
Pub crawl with all the bells and whistles.

Won the lottery?
Nah, Tool Tiger's commission.

Holy shit!

Once again! Path!

Paul.

Where have you been so long?

Oh, you know the boys.
Do not lie to me.

We have to talk, this...
This can't go on like this.

I knew you were saying that now.

I've seen it all before.

Deja vu after 18 years
of marriage, that happens.

No, now, today, here.
Everything you do, everything you say

what will happen,
what will happen...

The accident, my accident.
Please be quiet.

Something strange is happening.
I thought I dreamed that.

Of in-between worlds, but...
are you making fun of me?

No, I won't!

I'm going to have a bad
accident, do you understand that?

You're hiding like
always, I understand that.

You lie and hide.
Good night!

Yes, I get it.

His heart had
stopped several times.

But it strikes again.
And what does that mean?

We need to investigate if
his brain has been damaged.

Only in the case of brain death can
the patient be considered as a donor.

Emergency. They fished
a boy out of the river.

I'm available anytime.
Thanks.

If he's brain dead, they
want me to release his body.

"Release" - what kind
of word is that anyway?

They mean "cannibalize".

And you will allow this?

I do not know.

I don't know what he wants.

Last night he talked
about an accident.

An accident he will have.

He didn't do it on purpose.

You've been married for almost 20
years and you're sending him a letter?

He doesn't listen to me!
I've tried so many times!

When would you have
talked to me about it?

What kind of shit family is this?!
I'm sorry Sonya.

But you are also
part of this family.

Oh really? But I'm not
even in the cemetery.

Yes, go to your lover!

He is my colleague and a friend!

Understood.

What is?

I don't think I can take it.

Crap.

I look like him.

She cried.

You will not escape me!

What is this? Atone for sins?
Waiting for Edith's decision?

You do not have to wait.

Unless you want to atone.
Stop it!

Your decision.
Exactly not!

If I could choose my life...

Then?

Then I would be a pilot.
On the go in the world.

Then Edith would save me.
You don't get it.

It's not about saving,
it's about your resignation,

drop your spoon.
How you talk!

Are all your words

do you love her

Edith?
Mmm.

Yes.

Well, it's 18 years now, it's
not like it was at the beginning.

It is different.

Yes, stop less.

And at some point... it stopped.

That's so!
You don't notice that.

I didn't notice.
Not really.

Yes, when Paula died, it started.
Oh, finally a culprit!

When your own child dies,
nobody can put up with it.

I know your life.
All.

I know why you
don't share your grief.

What went wrong in my life?

Nothing! It's just
your life. You are you.

Come on. If you wait any longer,
you'll only make it harder for everyone.

Something's going on!

Something's going on between them.
Hence the divorce!

A woman doesn't
need a guy to break up!

Why didn't I get a nice grandma?

If you were an angel.

Wouldn't you keep picking on me

When it comes to angels, you only
ever thought of the outward appearance.

The rest is my interpretation.
And that's annoying.

I want to survive.
For what? For whom?

For whom?

When she's so thoughtful,
she's so beautiful.

That was here.

Nine years ago with Paula.
That was right here.

Here we sat and hoped.

Hoped so much.
Yes, she's right.

Yes, it was right here.

I can't do this again.

We never slept together again.

Now comes the tour!
Sex and then everything is fine again.

That I didn't think of it.

I mean a child.

We could have tried again.

Yes, good insight, remember
it for the next life. Come on!

Wait a moment.
Hm?

Edith said

for talking about the
accident last night.

So she remembers it.
Hallelujah, you told her.

No, she remembers the
last time, last October 9th.

It's like a tape

that you can
replay, once, twice...

But what counts is
what happened last.

That means... I can
erase my old life.

Oh, now you think

can you start life
all over again?

But everything goes on in parallel.

And when you're over
here, then all in all it's finito.

No matter where you
are in space and time.

Lohmann... What
do you even want?

Just more sex?

I want Edith to
remember me differently

when she hears about the accident.
And Sonya too.

Yes, so they don't
turn off the devices.

Leave it, it doesn't work for me.
I know you.

You always practiced
looking in the mirror.

Yes, and it worked.
Not any longer longer. Departure.

You finally have to
accept that you're almost...

So what!

Two more, maybe three rounds,
and we're there with you too.

Paul!

Paulchen!

Are you asleep?

What day is today?
I don't believe that now!

8th October!
Half past midnight!

What's wrong with you?
It wasn't that much champagne either.

Your shift begins.
Since when do you care?

And your husband will be there soon.
It's at the butcher's.

No, he's coming soon.

Where do you want to get that from?
Déjà-vu.

What is?
I... I dreamed it.

Just between my legs?
Yes.

Shit, what do we do now?
Did you dream that too?

Hello Uwe.

Hello Uwe.

They fired him.

But...

that you dreamed that...

You're so great.

You have to go.

Bye.

Hello, Ms. Himmelsberger.
Slime Kruger.

Mrs. Himmelsberger!
Lohmann on time.

I can not believe it!
Yes, very funny.

Let's make it short.
I saw Kruger was there.

So you fall for the
cheap junk from China.

Too bad, but...

Yes, take care.

Good luck for the future.

Um, you ordered
from him, didn't you?

As well as.
As well as.

That means there is still
something to be saved.

Let's not break up like that.

Heads or tails.
Head: I'm leaving immediately.

Number: You order
from me one last time.

A little fun in the
gray everyday life.

You get three percent
and real Jannus quality.

What have you got to
lose but my company?

You have changed.

I told you so, Herrmann.

20 Excelsior edge grind
and 15 Caribbean oval.

Yes, of course
not huge, but still.

The hardware store couldn't
resist me - Lohmann is back.

Hm? But hello how I pack
the Americans tomorrow. Bye!

Morning...

Edith? "It's night,
my heart comes to you.

Can't stand it, can't
stand it anymore with me.

Lies on your chest like a stone.

Sink in, into yours.

Only there, only there
does it come to rest.

Lies at the bottom of his eternal you."

Very beautiful.

Is that the morning star?

Yes.

Nothing fender damage. Rollover.
Unconscious. With all the harassment.

'a bad accident.
And you have that tomorrow?

11:43 a.m.

I had him yesterday too.

And now you're back
because today is today.

Exactly! Intermediate world.

8th October. Right?

But I've already got the 8th of
October behind me - yesterday.

And now it's October 8th again,

because I want it that way.

I recreated it.

And I'll make October
9th a brand new one.

Everything, the whole future.

Well, actually I'm then, yes...

something like this...

God.

...one thing came
out of my research:

That those who have
lived their lives to the full

find peace with death.

You can go.
Just let go and go.

Into the light that envelops
them at the moment of death.

But how terrible it is for
those who come back to life.

On my whole... Total bullshit!

I came back from death

And you are all only there
because I want it that way.

Because I want my wife back.
Edith! She's sitting in front!

This is my will done here!

I am God!

Why are you embarrassing your wife?
I love edith.

And are you doing this to her?
What are you doing to her?

You fuck her, strife!

(You can always do better.)

(Until it's perfect - eventually.)

Yes, 20 Excelsior edge
grind, 15 Caribbean oval.

Yes, hardware store Autobahnkreuz.

And tomorrow the Americans and
the day after tomorrow a new record.

Lohmann is back!
Exactly. Bye!

Is something wrong with Sonya?
Nope.

Why is that today?

I wanted to take you to dinner.

We have the reading today.
One hour.

I thought we should talk.

About what? About Paula?

Yes. Also.

"It's night, my
heart comes to you.

Can't stand it anymore."
I found it. Hello.

Morning Star's Poem.

"Only there does it come to rest,
lies at the bottom of its eternal you."

A poem.
Very beautiful.

Here.
Not on the books!

Please, Edith. One hour.

Where are we going?
Surprise.

It's been almost exactly 18 years.

That was right here.

Edith, do you want to be my wife?
In good days and in bad.

Paul, I don't know.

We don't know each
other that well yet.

Oh, who cares! We know each
other well enough, this will be great!

We're going to
live in a big house

and have children,
four, five, six, ten!

And dogs, cats, an
elephant if you want!

We go through thick and thin!

You said we'll be
happy. Always.

Yes, we will be
happy, Edith, always.

I promise you that.

Oh, come here you!
Yes, you've gotten fatter.

Yes, a little.

Haven't heard
from us for so long.

Our song.

I'll never let you go.

Paul...

I want to separate

It's too late for all of this.

You've spent so much
time at the club, in the...

job and with the other women.

It was only because...

It was only because...

Paula.

Yes, you shagged out of grief.

Probably needed a threesome

that you share
your grief with me.

I want to live.

Edith!

I want to live.

If you are asked:
I want to live.

I love you.

Did you say something?

You can't stand on one leg

says the flamingo.

Father?

Sonya...

Sonja, I love you
very, very, very much.

Do you know that?

You know that, right?

And you, tell me,
do you have me too...

So, not if you hate me, but...

Do you love me a little too?

Can't you at least just
be embarrassed at home?

I am the father.

Jutta!

I love you.
Are you crazy?

It's still there.
I know all that!

But I have so much
love inside me.

Why doesn't anyone want them?
I do not get it.

Why not?
Hello Uwe.

We lose him! Get off the bed!

Cardiovascular is okay.
Breathe again.

Prepare Eurotransplant.
Pull yourself together, dammit!

Ms. Lohmann, the
injuries were too severe.

And that means?

I inform two colleagues

who need to
confirm my diagnosis.

What diagnosis?

Your husband's organs
are working, but...

his brain is dead.

Does that mean I have to decide?

Yes.

But you have to be able
to live with it in ten years.

I don't even know if I
can live with that now.

You still have a little time.

I have such a funny
taste in my mouth.

Do you have any chewing gum?

I should have left
him much sooner.

I thought that once he
shares his sorrow with me,

comes along to Paula's grave,
everything will be fine again.

Mr. Lohmann, we found
that in your daughter's lungs.

Yes, and I shall say
hello to you from Papa

and tell you he loves you

You know, he's got this
big deal going, and there...

he has to prepare.

But one day he
will come for sure.

Is something wrong with Sonya?
No.

I would like to talk to you.
Also because of Paula.

This evening?
We have the reading.

I want to talk to you.
Tomorrow will be too late.

I already explained that to you.
When?

Yesterday. Oh no,
that's later.

So if I tell you
this, that's after.

Did you drink?
No.

It's just so complicated.
Let's talk tonight. Please.

Good, home tonight.
Yes.

What's going on here?
What does it look like?

Are you doing this for mom?

It must be terrific what
you screwed up this time.

Your sister died
nine years ago today.

Not just her.

What?
Do you want to celebrate?

How can she talk
like that, my daughter?

Not even her dead
sister is sacred to her.

Mama would have
slapped me right now.

Oh shit!

Oh man!

I always thought you
didn't let anything burn.

Sonya!

Hey!

You have school tomorrow
and are you going away now?

You have a deal with the Americans
tomorrow and you're getting drunk?

No, I won't.
'Good evening.

Shall we toss a coin?
I take number.

Where to go now? - Rose Club.

"Stritter Bookstore.

You're calling outside
our opening hours."

Paul?

I am not drunk.

Here.

You never could.

I have cooked.

What then?
Fish.

I don't eat fish.

Meat.
You don't eat meat.

I don't eat fish,
not for a long time.

Well, it's burned anyway.

I have... noodles with veggies.

I have already eaten.
But thanks.

Paul, what made you
think of something like that?

Come back up!

We should have had children.

That would have been good.

Paula? Where's Paula?
Where are your pictures?

I thought it would
be good to start over.

By getting rid of the pictures?

Why? You forgot her anyway.

How many times have you been to her grave?

You weren't even there today.

That doesn't prove anything.
What then?

How many times have you cried for her?
How many times have you dreamed of her?

How often do you think about
how she can't breathe anymore

because of that
fucking crystal ball?

If there was anything else
between us like love or affection

would you share
your pain with me

You want to start over,
get rid of her pictures.

When you start over,
you have to face your pain.

You can't pretend
like nothing happened.

And then you have
to live with your pain.

I have an accident tomorrow.
Leave it!

11:43 a.m.
Leave it!

Edith, just you...
Paul, that's so small!

Edith!

Edith!

Now listen to me...

I was to blame.
I am guilty.

Because I was so proud.
No, I was vain.

I just wanted my
girls to admire me.

That they are
proud of their dad.

Because of those shitty
mirrors I sold by the thousands.

I should have known.

When I built the mobile.

I screwed up, princess.

I made it worse.

And now it's too late.

What kind of stupid,
stupid person are we both?

You were at the grave.

You could have gone to Edith
and everything would be fine.

Yes, perhaps.
But you haven't.

'Cause I just went

because I knew that
everything would be fine then.

You don't decide
about life or death.

He's already dead. Brain dead.

He was so different yesterday.

There was such a tenderness
in his voice as before.

There's a reason
I used to love him.

Yes, there are also a thousand
reasons why you want to leave him.

To make her
remember you better...

See how hard you're
making it for her?

Yes, but then what remains of me

what if it's over now?

Brain dead is dead,
says the doctor.

Then why am I still here?
Why?

You really have no idea.

Don't you get any training
there or something?

Hm?

It's going ok.

If he were really dead

I wouldn't be either, you said.

She's just not
right, the doctor.

I'm not dead yet.

Paul I can do it!

Was that intentional in the tunnel?

What should I do?
Give me any sign.

I need you.

Mrs. Lohmann?
Your husband's things.

Paula.

I always thought
he forgot Paula.

She died from
the fucking bullet.

Everyone I've read
about would say

that his soul has
already left his body.

Max, you read a
little too many books.

That fear back then
doesn't just go away.

Or the fear now that something
could happen to Sonja.

I've been with Paul
for almost 20 years.

It wasn't just bad years.

I can not say that.
That was half of my life.

There is a receiver for his
heart. You have to decide.

And how long have you known that?
- Please?

Recipient! Is that why you
pronounced my father brain dead?

It has to be clear in an
hour if you agree, otherwise...

...the other one dies.
Yes.

Maybe a family man.
- He also has a family!

How much do you
actually earn from it?

Believe me, it's no fun

to deliver such messages.

She fights for you.

I know.

But I should have been
the one fighting for her.

For her trust and her love.

And their respect.

What does that mean?
That I can't give up

I have one more chance.
Because I decide. Bets?

That was clear.
Little game?

If you're what I
want, you gamble.

Head: I'll come with you.
Number: space and time, one more time.

Come on, have some fun
in the gray in-between world.

What have you got to
lose but my company?

Number.

"Lohmann! Where are
you? Drank or what?

You wanted to pick up your
collection for the Americans.

Man, Junior's got your ass!"

"Lohmann? Nussbaum
here. I expect an explanation.

And the only thing I accept

is earthquake, deluge or death!"

Great job.

"Father".

You are such an ass!
I did not want! Sonya!

I did not want!

Sonya!

Open up, come!

Come on, let's talk!

What is that? Ecstasy?

Give me that! Give me that now!

Are there any bonuses
for faithfully caring fathers?

I know I deserve it.

But we also understood
each other better.

That was in another life.

Come on! Go to your pigeons,
the bastards!

What do you want from me?
That it's like it used to be.

And it can be like that
again, I promise you.

Paula's death ruined everything.

You ruined everything!
You and mom!

You only used Paula's
death to lie to yourself.

Everywhere only Paula -
pictures, birthdays, anniversaries.

Paula, Paula, Paula!

No matter how fat I
am, you don't notice me!

But I'm still here.

This is how I feel.

Why didn't you ever say anything?

Why have I never said anything?

You really don't understand
anything, do you?

Here, these are my drugs.

The morning-after pill.

To finally get rid of
it, that thing inside me.

Won.

"Good morning, today
is October 9th, 2015.

The next beep is 11:45
minutes and 30 seconds."

Sorry my angel.
That's it.

Not with me.

Not with me.

Edith?

What's that about? What do you do?
Careful please.

You didn't say anything at all.
It's all in the letter.

But now everything is different.
I survived.

Let's try again.

I don't want that, sorry.

Someday we would be
back where we are now.

We are who we are.

You can't understand.
I was already dead

And now I'm back.
I am reborn again.

It's a tacky joke, Paul!

Do you want to change like that?

You are afraid of life as it is!

Paula's death was also
a missed opportunity.

Edith, please, I
faced death and won.

I don't think you know
what that means. Lohman!

What?

What?
What is it?

That too?
What? Uh yeah, uh no, I...

Edith!

Please listen to me.
I understood everything.

You're right about all
things life and death.

Be quiet!

Shut up and let me go.

Stupid angel!

"Everyone can
determine their own life."

Crap! Holy shit!

I never had a chance

"Lohmann, that's it.

They didn't appear
on Tool Tiger.

Get your papers and fast!"

Disappears!

Get away, you stupid critters!

What else do you want from me?

What is there to stare at?!

Or are you deaf?

Disappears!

Go away!

Hey!

Hey!

Here.

Pulling up!

Ah!

You can't be left alone once.

All right, let's go.
As?

You won.
All of a sudden?

Now that the
shit's hitting the fan.

I've tried everything,
God knows.

He doesn't know.
You wanted to turn the corner!

I'm just going in circles.
Now it's done. Scythe.

Nope! Do you know
what shit you've done?

Come on, I'll show you.
Come! Come on!

He had an accident in the tunnel.

And you drown.
I saved the boy.

You messed everything up.

I'm in the devil's kitchen!

You're the stubborn
buck I've ever had.

That is a compliment.
If you're a real guy

you get everyone out of the shit

I've already tried everything.

What else?

(How simple is life, is
death, is resurrection,

even the Ascension.)

(When we have explored
and accepted our limits,

then we know who we are.)

(Assuming that interests us.)

Morning!

Morning.

Morning.
Breakfast is ready.

Do sit down if you like.

Thanks.

Where's my tobacco?

Just with the fruit.

Huh? Did I miss something?
Is today World Education Day?

All or nothing.
But I paid for it.

Bye!

Muesli?
Yes, something different.

Do you want me to
take you into town later?

Thanks.

These are the documents Baumarkt
Autobahnkreuz and Tool Tiger.

This is your job now.

If you want.

Yes.

Yes, of course. Uh, thanks.

Everything is in there,
orders, prices, contact persons.

Do better than me.

I don't care about your sick children.
That's why you have your wife.

I'll pay you, so you have
to be on time. Roger that?

Out! Hush, hush!

N / A? Another joke?

Oh, boss... you
are such a poor pig.

What did you say?
You are a poor pig.

Believe me I know
what I'm talking about.

You're totally insane.

Putting your people
down to feel good.

You're really going
crazy, aren't you?

I quit.
No, I'm terminating you!

Too late, boss. A copy is
already in the HR department.

Lohman!
You just don't have it.

So don't go out here!

Come back!

What is there to stare at?

...really embarrassing.

What are you doing here?

Do you have a moment?
Nope.

Please.

What is?

If you have something to
say, you can do that here too.

Sonja, your mother and
I are going to separate.

And I guess I'm not the
only one who knows why.

Something else?

Yes, but yours
must... Anything else?

I cheated on mom.

Yes, I am not interested.
This is your beer.

No matter what you
think of me: I love you.

You can do what you want.

Oh Jutta...

Nine years...

Maybe you should tell
her the truth about me.

And what is the truth?

That I'm a coward

That I was a coward.

All the years.

It was just too
big for me, too...

too powerful her death.

That I...

didn't find an answer.

When she died there...

so I gave up.

I'm sorry my little one!

Forget keys?

Why pigeons?

Yes?
Mmm.

Alright, my girls. Here we go.

So why pigeons?
Because they always find their way back.

To where they belong.
Nice.

Yes. They were the only
thing my father left me.

I've given up everything
I ever wanted to do.

I helped him make ends meet.

And what does he do?
Leave me pigeons.

I really cursed him,
your grandpa, back then.

But now...
sometimes I catch myself

how to talk to my deaf

And this isn't even
the worst of times.

Are you doing me a favor?
Mmm.

I'd like to say something.

Can you record this?
Clear.

Yes?

My name is Paul Lohmann...

Do you have?

Everyone back.

This is the youngest.

Do you want some?
Mmm.

I didn't want my
champion anymore

to her mother, it
was an accident.

You know it?

Yes, the nausea every morning...

I just do not know what to do.

A child? Now?
That would ruin everything.

Not if you do it better than me.

But if you're not looking
forward to it at all...

It's just too early.

OK.
Sonja?

Does he already know?

And mom?

Do you want me to talk to her?

OK.

Morning.
Morning.

Have you already told me her...?
Equal.

Morning.
Morning.

What's the matter with Sonya?
She just said "good morning".

She is pregnant.

And is that what she tells you?
It was an accident, she says.

And she doesn't want to
have the child - it's her right.

That's your decision.

Bye.

Bye.
Bye.

Yes, Paul, I...
It's okay. You're right.

We're not happy anymore.

You haven't for a long time.

And that's my fault.
I'm sorry.

I didn't realize that
when love was gone.

But I know one thing.

I loved you.

I know that for sure.

We'll get through the breakup.

I promise you that.
And this time I hold it too.

I still have to go to the pigeons.

You already have food.

Sonya...

This is my daughter.

She'll take care of you from now on.

Hey! Disappears!
No games here!

What do you want?

Yes nothing.

Just pay attention!

Father!

What about dad?

He had an accident.
Where is he?

Sonya! Where is Dad?

The injuries were too bad.

I need to inform two colleagues
who will verify my diagnosis.

What does that mean?

His organs are working,
but... his brain is dead.

That means I have to decide

whether his organs are donated?

Yes.

No.

My name is Paul Lohman.

I want that in case of my death

my organs are donated.
Do you have?

Far away.
Yes.

And you?

Just a few more kilometers.
Aha.

Didn't you ever want to go far?

But, already.
Clear.

But I'm who I am now.

Paul Lohman.

Good to meet you, Paul Lohmann.

Yes, this is my life here.

As is.

That's what it's about, isn't it?
Yes.

From the beginning.
That's what it's about.

Get out?
Toss your coin.

Number: I'm staying.

You knew about the fake coin?
All?

You wouldn't be here otherwise.

You're not giving up.
Who gives up is dead.

You should bury your
father's old sayings.

It's never too late
to cut off old braids.

Goodbye.

He squeezed my hand.
These are muscle contractions.

That's not unusual.
He squeezed my hand.

Ms. Lohmann, believe me.

Wait a moment.

What is he doing
here in my place?

What are you doing here?

Hey!

There's still life.