Not Waving But Drowning (2012) - full transcript

Jack "big guy" Fitch is

trying to crack his teeth.

Like in Antarctica...

Where if you believe what

big guy tells you...

everybody has cracked

teeth.

They're out in the cold all day,

and they get in and gulp down

hot coffee to get warm.

Big guy's been my best friend



for as long as I can remember.

And they crack pieces of

their teeth right off.

But this is a new big guy,

a bafflement to us all.

The old one collected stamps.

He wore shorts.

He ate sandwiches with a knife

and fork.

So, what do you say?

Oh...

I don't know.

I don't know what I say.

That was before his mother



died.

She died eight days ago.

She did it herself.

Come up here.

This is from the rope.

This is where she did it.

Any place I hang myself is home.

In the movie version, this is

where his father would have

slapped him.

But he didn't.

Didn't slap him.

Didn't even hear him.

But big guy's father has

probably heard what big guy

says about the cubs.

It's the funniest thing he can

imagine.

It's what he doesn't have to

imagine because his father

really said it.

In the silence after big guy

heard the news, his father had

added...

And what's more, the cubs

lost.

So, you see, it's not as if

the cubs lost.

At my house, big guy is the

man of the house.

Tuna fish... your favorite,

big guy.

Thanks, Ann.

There's pink lemonade and

m-i-k.

The phrase my mother uses.

In school, we were forced to

watch this sex-ed video called

"the most girl part of you."

I went directly home and told

my mother that Jack and I

weren't doing anything.

And she responded with...

More's the pity.

In other words, it's all she

can do to keep from dimming the

lights for us.

What do you need to learn to sew

for?

Uh...

It's a surprise.

All right. I'll show you.

You know what I brought my

mom to eat that day?

A melted-cheese sandwich?

Yeah.

Do you want to know what the

last thing I said to her was?

What?

I said, "mom, guess what all the"

kids at school have."

What do they have?

Sunglasses.

And... she said, "save your"

money."

The last thing I had said to.

Mrs. Fitch was that I liked her

hair.

Close your eyes.

No.

You're gonna do something.

Come on, come on, come on.

Just close them.

And...

Open.

Big guy, what did you do?

Does that hurt?

No.

I bet I wouldn't have to glue my

seamstress badge on.

I reason that if he left it

here, he wanted me to see it.

Hey, Amy.

Oh, god. You did it.

No need to go to Antarctica.

From ice water?

Uh, no.

My bike collided with a garbage

truck.

Actually, it wasn't an accident.

You left these at my house.

So, this girl from my school

is throwing a party tomorrow,

and I thought that you might

want to go, too.

With me.

You're gonna go out in public

like that?

Uh, I wish.

But my dad's making me get it

fixed.

Too bad. It's becoming.

So, you'll come?

[ K-ci & jojo's "all my life"

[ plays ]

May I challenge you to a

dance?

♪ I will never find another

lover sweeter than you, sweeter

than you ♪

♪ And I will never find... ♪

Big guy's hand catches on my

dress.

I don't have to look to know

that it's the dry, jagged skin

from where he pulled my name

out of the place where he had

sewn it.

♪ Close to me you're like my

sister, close to me you're like

my brother ♪

That's why you never see a

black light used in Hollywood.

What?

♪ And all my life, I prayed

for someone like you ♪

♪ And I thank god... ♪

This is the birth of vanity

for my date.

♪ All my life, I prayed for

someone like you ♪

♪ And I hope that you feel... ♪

I think it's time for me to

leave.

Do you want to come with me?

Come on, big guy.

It's not that bad.

You can stay if you want.

Come on, big guy.

It's not as if the cubs lost.

Cut me some slack.

We hum because people are

evolved from insects.

Humming.

Buzzing.

You see what I mean?

Did your dad tell you that?

No.

Scientific American.

Now you're buzzing.

♪ Gonna need an ocean ♪

♪ Of calamine lotion ♪

You should chill it first.

Okay.

Hey!

Come have a look at this.

Here. Let me try.

It's a lost cause.

I have a better idea.

Go wait for me on the couch.

What's that for?

This will take the itch out.

It doesn't hurt, right?

Oh, god.

Big guy is gonna kiss me.

When I get my bearings, I say

the cool thing I've been saving

up to say.

Stop it, big guy.

Stop it some more.

And then big guy says the cool

thing he has been saving.

I always give a woman what

she wants, whether she likes it

or not.

> > I'm not ready for this, but

here's what I come up with...

He's a boy without a mother.

If you have to get up, don't.

I play back everything that

has happened to me before this.

I want to ask big guy if he is

doing this too.

I want him to know what it

clearly seems to me... that if

it's true your life flashes

past your eyes before you die,

well, then it's also the truth

that your life rushes forth

when you're ready to start to

truly be alive.

[ Warpaint's "Billie Holiday"

[ plays ]

♪ B-i-l-l-i-e h-o-l-i-d-a-y ♪

♪ B-i-l-l-i-e h-o-l-i-d-a-y ♪

♪ B-i-l-l-i-e h-o-l-i-d-a-y ♪

Good morning.

Visibility is fine.

Let's open her up.

♪ As I walk this line, I am

bound by the other side ♪

♪ And it's for my heart that

I'll live, 'cause you'll never

die ♪

♪ Well, if you want to know me,

I'm a war ♪

♪ Companion ♪

Adele.

Sara, hi.

I know it's really early.

Listen, um...

Can you come pick me up?

You know what you want?

I'm gonna need a minute.

This is what it looks like

now after a horrific

chain-reaction crash starting

at about 4:30 this morning.

State troopers, firefighters,

and paramedics are still

combing through this tangled

mass of cars and trucks and

tractor trailers that continue

to litter the interstate.

Exceptionally heavy fog and

smoke from a 500-acre

controlled burn just off the

interstate made for a deadly

combination.

14 people are confirmed dead,

as many as 50 vehicles were

involved, including seven

tractor trailers that caught on

fire.

14 miles of i-4 are closed in

both directions from U.S. 27 to

the polk parkway.

We're hearing 50 plus,

14 confirmed dead, several

people were injured and

transported by medical

helicopters to hospitals in

Orlando and tampa...

[ The Cranberries' "dreams"

[ plays ]

So, I go out with some people

from my work last night.

You don't work there anymore.

And we ended up at.

St. Mike's, and of course I

get, like super drunk, and long

story short, I end up at.

Brandon's house.

Brandon.

As in 20 years older than you

with a wife and kids?

I'm having a crisis of

conscience.

You did not make it with him?

What?!

No.

Wait, what was the question?

Yes.

Well, halfway.

Adele!

Adele, that is horrible.

Where was his wife?

She was at a cheerleading

competition.

Oh, god.

I know.

It doesn't really get worse than

that.

But I think they're getting a

divorce though, so that's good.

Well, I'm glad that you could

be a part of that.

What?

Jesus, Sara.

I feel like shit already.

I don't need you...

I know. I know. I'm sorry.

It's just... that sucks for his

family, you know?

Yeah.

Yeah, of course I know.

And that's why, somewhere in

the middle of it, I did sober up

and I-I took off, you know?

I bolted.

And I started walking, and I

started thinking about what an

idiot and a bitch and just,

like, a terrible person and just

a total slut I am.

Stop.

You're not a slut.

I mean, I don't know.

It's kind of like that part in

"my best friend's wedding" when

she is talking about the pond

scum and it, you know, feeding

on itself.

You know that part?

Oh.

That's me... pond scum.

Well, that's kind of what you

look like too.

Ha.

Ha.

God, I can't wait to get out

of this place.

We have to look at apartments

tonight.

We cannot stay with Andy.

This is our revolution

summer.

It's gonna change everything.

Give me your hand.

I'm driving, Adele.

Come on, give me your hand.

Give it to me, give it to me,

give it to me, give it to me,

give it to me.

Okay, look at me.

No.

Look at me, Sara!

Jesus...

Look at me!

Jesus, okay!

Close your eyes.

No!

This is going to change

everything.

Close your eyes.

God! You are so weird.

I will not have you hate on

the revolution.

I'm just trying to keep us

alive here.

Oh, we are young and

invincible.

I read that...

In a magazine somewhere.

It had something to do with

insurance.

I like those two words together.

Oh!

Oh.

Oh, I love you girls.

Mom...

Mom, you've got something gooey

hanging on the end of your nose.

Oh!

I'm sorry.

Oh, I've just been so worried.

I didn't know what else to do

except sit here and pray that

you were going to walk through

that door.

Worried about what?

Oh, that accident.

What accident?

You mean you didn't see it?

No.

Surely you must have passed

it.

There were 15 cars involved.

The announcer said it was mostly

people going into work in

Orlando.

Oh, Sara, your father is a

wreck.

Wait, how did you know about

it?

I saw it on the news at the

diner.

And you failed to mention it

the entire car ride home?

I don't know.

Wait, why?

What does this have to do with

dad?

Well, they did a controlled

burn up on 98 last night.

The smoke got so bad they had

to close the road.

He and Keith road out there this

morning to make sure they were

safe, and he called in the

clearance to open it up.

And then a huge accident

happened.

Well, that's not his fault.

Well, no, but he sure feels

like it was.

I talked to Matty.

It's not good.

Mom?

Mom?

Richard?

Hey, hey.

I put a goddamn dollar in the

machine.

Keith, Keith, calm down.

Are you okay?

All right. Settle down.

It's just a dollar, okay?

Okay.

What did you do?

Two!

Thank you, Sara.

Keith... oh, no.

What's going on?

I can't find Damon.

Yeah, we just got done

talking to the families.

It's been pretty hard for him.

He'll be all right.

Dad?

Dad?

Daddy?

Are you okay?

I think my sister hates me.

She doesn't hate you.

She's just sad you're leaving.

No, I really think she hates

me, though.

Last night, I was at my

grandma's house and...

okay, Adele, I have to tell

you something.

And I'm really sorry.

It's really bad.

Okay. What's up?

Okay.

I can't go to New York with you.

Wait, seriously?

Yes, seriously.

But, wait.

We have tickets and we're going

this weekend.

It's... it's done.

I don't understand.

What happened?

My dad, isn't doing...

what does this have to do

with your dad?

He doesn't want me to go

anymore.

What, like, not now or ever?

Not for a while.

You are ridiculous.

You will find any excuse not to

do something that makes you even

the slightest bit scared.

You know this affects me, too,

right?

So what? That's just it?

I don't know.

I should have known this was

gonna happen.

Oh, god.

What are you doing here?

I just came by to...

Why are you smoking?

I don't know.

I was bored and mad, kind of.

That's a good reason, I

guess.

Sucks, doesn't it?

It's not so bad.

Okay, so...

I'm really sorry for being mean

earlier and I overreacted and I

know that I did that.

It's okay.

But it's not like you're

never coming, you know?

You just got to, like, sort out

this family situation.

Yeah.

I mean, I don't feel like me

staying is gonna make any

difference.

But my mom thinks it's too much

at once, you know?

Maggie... she's always cramping

my style.

It's what she does best.

I can't believe you're not

coming with me tomorrow.

I know.

I feel like I have been living

my whole life like I'm waiting

for the real thing to start.

And now I feel like it's so far

away, like it's never gonna

happen.

You got to make it happen,

Sara.

I know I do.

Mm-hmm.

I'm gonna save up and try to

make it by the end of the

summer.

You mean by the end of the

revolution?

That, too.

Let's go to the park!

[ Challenger's "I am switches"

[ plays ]

♪ My mind is powerful ♪

♪ It controls the way I feel ♪

♪ I am just the switches ♪

♪ I am my behavior ♪

♪ I see what you are ♪

♪ Little tampa girl ♪

♪ Show me who you are ♪

♪ Little Southern witch ♪

♪ I want to be with you when the

other shoe falls ♪

♪ I want to be with you when the

voice of death calls ♪

♪ I want to be reminded ♪

Thank you.

Thank you so much.

I really... I appreciate it.

I couldn't have made it up here

without you.

You're awesome! Thank you!

Hello.

I just moved here.

I don't understand, because you

knew that I was coming today,

and...

Yeah, I have all this...

Okay, okay, okay.

Listen, can you just call me

when you get...

Awesome.

Mom, have you seen my keys?

Oh, actually, I need to talk

to you about that, Sara.

About what?

Your dad doesn't think it's

a great idea for you to be

driving right now.

What? What do you mean?

Well, he's been meaning to

take a look at your car.

He's just a little nervous, you

know, 'cause it's so old.

Well, since when?

Well, how am I supposed to get

to work?

It's my first day.

He filled up the tires on

your bike.

You're joking.

Can you please take me, please?

I'm gonna be late.

Sara, your dad wants you to

ride your bike.

Just do it for a little while,

okay?

I got to go.

Who knows how long it's gonna

take me to pedal to work.

Just 'cause dad is going crazy

doesn't mean you have to!

Don't slam...

Hi, can I use your bathroom,

please?

Thank you.

Please, please, please.

Hey.

Hey, man, where... where have

you been?

I've been waiting here forever.

Calm down.

I was working, and Colin didn't

tell me that you were coming

today.

You asshole, I've been

sitting here, waiting for you.

Well, I'm here now.

Okay. Can we go in, please?

They're very similar looking

keys, so...

Oh.

Wait, that one sort of worked.

You'd think that, but you

don't live here.

Did you have a good night?

You had a good night tonight,

huh?

Same as every night.

What did you do?

Um, I, uh, went with friends.

Mm-hmm.

And then I met this sort of

stand off-ish girl.

A big part of your job will

be maintaining order in this

hall.

Maintaining order?

Are there a lot of nursing-home

brawls?

Sara, I do hope you'll take

this job seriously.

By order, I mean balance.

Keep tabs on the residents.

Make sure that they have what

they need.

I'm sorry, but, um, does it

smell a little bit like

marijuana in here?

That is Sylvia, one of our

more... difficult residents.

I'm just really frustrated.

What? Why?

Colin and Andy are never

around and their apartment is

horrible and I can't even take

a shower and... I don't know.

Mm, I think someone told you

that would be the case.

What's happenin'?

I see you there, sexy girl.

What's happenin'?

Girl, girl, you're sexy.

But, Sara, honestly, I didn't

know people lived like this.

I'm actually living in squalor.

Squalor?

Yes!

Why don't you just clean it

up?

I know you want me to say it.

Say what?

Okay, fine. You were right.

Oh, that!

Yes, yes, I guess I was.

Shut up.

Well, if it makes you feel

better, they're making me teach

an art class at the old folks'

home.

What?!

Why?

You don't know anything about

art.

I know, I know.

I-I do not get it either.

You have got to be fucking

kidding me!

No. Not tonight.

Stupid.

What is happening?

♪ ...Ford and a two-dollar

bill ♪

♪ And I know a spot right over

the hill ♪

♪ There's soda pop and the

dancing's free ♪

♪ If you want to have fun, come

along with me ♪

♪ Hey, good lookin', whatcha

got cookin'? ♪

♪ How's about cookin' something

up with me? ♪

Ah, no one's gonna come,

darling.

What?

Oh, well, why not?

I mean, it might be fun.

Hi.

I'm Sylvia.

Oh, Sylvia.

Ah, my reputation proceeds

me.

Well, joy took me for a tour

and...

And bored you to tears,

right?

A little.

Why don't you come to my

room.

I'll make you a drink.

Hey!

Hey.

What are you doing down

there?

Oh, I'm just waiting for my

roommate.

I don't have a key.

That sucks.

Yeah.

What are you going to do?

Do you want to come up for a

little bit?

Hi.

Hi.

Thank you so much for having me

come up.

I'm Adele.

Kim.

Nice to meet you.

God, your apartment is a dream.

Thanks. I like it.

No, seriously, like, I dream

about apartments, and I'm pretty

sure I've dreamt of this one.

Not happy with your current

living situation?

Um, You have no

idea.

Well, they should at least

give you a key, right?

Oh, yeah, you know what?

Actually, like, right now, I

don't really want one, because

then it feels, like, permanent,

and I like that it feels,

like, really temporary, you

know?

No, I get it.

I actually have to go.

Oh. Yeah.

You can stay.

Oh.

Just lock it and leave the

key above the door when you

leave.

Um, I should give you my number.

We should be friends.

Sara, look what I found.

Just cigarettes, you weirdo.

I found them in the backyard.

I think your dad started

smoking.

Don't worry about it, mom.

I'm worrying.

I got to go.

I love you.

Bye.

Okay.

Thank you for coming to my first

class.

So today, we're gonna be doing

free association.

Just don't think too much, and

let the brush take over the

page.

Bah! I don't want to paint.

His chair is stuck.

He's been there since bingo.

Normally Sammy helps him out,

but they got in a fight.

Well, since you're here, I

think you should paint.

Uh, sometimes with free

association, you can even close

your eyes and just let the brush

connect with the canvas.

Can we make friendship

bracelets?

Um maybe next week, but not

today.

I'd like to bedazzle some

jeans for my granddaughter.

Do you have a bedazzler?

Harold!

Harold, you're painting.

That's very good.

It looks really... um, Harold.

Please don't paint on...

You're painting on the table,

Harold.

Harold, you're painting on

the table.

Please stop.

Please stop painting on the

table, Harold.

Harold.

Harold! Please stop!

Thank you, har... Harold.

It was horrible.

Terrible.

Horribly terrible.

Ah, you're just being

over-dramatic.

That's my job, honey bee.

Why won't you come, Sylvia?

That's Eileen's territory.

What? Who's Eileen?

Well, don't tell her I said

this, but she is the only other

half classy babe in this joint.

So, you two avoid each other?

There can't be two queen

bees, so we split the hive.

But she didn't even come, so

this could be your territory.

Of course she didn't come to

the class.

It's a brand-new class.

Oh, nursing-home politics.

You're ridiculous.

Although, I would enjoy an

art class.

I used to paint, you know.

Big, sensual things.

Well, good.

You'll come next week, then.

And now, a little something to

make you feel a little better.

Ah.

A little music and...

Tada!

Sylvia, I can't smoke that.

I'm working.

Suit yourself.

Uh, do you have retail

experience?

Yeah, I worked at an express

for like six months.

Um, no.

No?

No like you're not hiring right

now?

No, we're not hiring...

You.

This is all very

"pretty woman" of you.

So, who's the new friend?

Should I be jealous?

Yes.

Jerk.

It's this girl who lives in

the building next to me.

I am really awkward around her

though, because I kind of have a

girl crush on her.

Oh, I hate that.

I know. It's the worst.

Well, I have a new friend

too.

Oh.

Over or under 65?

Over.

Hello, everyone.

Good afternoon.

You must be Sammy.

You heard it here first!

Sammy...

So today, we're gonna do

something really fun.

Art isn't always about creating

something new.

It's also about transformation.

Transforming something that you

already have... maybe it's

something that you don't like

but you want to.

Can I paint my ex-wife?

So, why don't you take a

quick trip back to your rooms

and get something that you want

to transform.

And Esther...

Oh!

Sammy, I need help.

I know.

Push, push, push.

Yeah, that's all I mean to

you... the guy that pushes you

around.

Push me around.

Watch those corners, Sammy!

Are you gonna come back with

your ex-wife?

I'd have to dig her up first.

Whoo!

Here we go!

I thought there was supposed

to be a class in here now.

Uh, yeah, there is.

They'll be back in a minute.

Um, what are those for?

You know, literature for the

home, pamphlets, brochures, shit

people throw away.

Oh.

Do you want to come back?

No.

Those will be fine.

What?

So, what was class today?

Um, we painted things in our

lives that we wanted to change.

Ah.

You know, I've always hated

these walls.

Why is everything so...

Pastel?

Yeah. Pastel. Ugh.

Well, I think joy would kill

you if you painted the walls.

Well, then, uh, it's decided.

Oh, my... oh, my god.

Is this you in New York?

Mm, indeed it is.

Who is this, hmm?

He's so handsome.

It was the night we broke up.

Really?

I mean, you look happy, though.

It's easy to look happy.

You should take it.

What?

Yeah.

No way. No.

What do I need them for?

You take them.

What about posterity?

What about your family?

I mean, Sylvia, these are...

These are you.

Honey, I have no family to speak

of.

The minute I go, all those

photos are going into the

garbage, so take them.

What?

Oh, no.

What in the world?

Let's do all of them... your

whole life.

You want to put all the old

pictures of me all over the

walls?

Mm-hmm.

No.

Hi, friend!

It's like getting a hold of

the pope.

I know, I'm sorry.

I've been meaning to call you

back.

Yeah, yeah.

Adele, I taught an art class

today, and they didn't revolt.

Really? That's awesome!

I know!

Oh, my god.

Oh, shit, Sara.

Hey, actually, I have to go.

I'm going out with that girl I

was telling you about, and she's

calling me right now.

Oh, cool.

Where are you guys going?

Um... I'm not sure.

I'll call you tomorrow, okay?

Oh, yeah. Duh. Have fun.

♪ Desire like a bird ♪

It's because he's in finance,

though.

It's so... Uninteresting.

I'd rather live in bed-stuy.

I'd rather live here.

♪ Desire like a bird ♪

♪ Desire like a bird ♪

We got one more flight here,

people.

Grab her.

Come on.

Oh, she's heavy!

Oh, she's heavy.

I can't help you.

This is gonna take all of us.

Hang on.

Oh, god.

Oh, baby!

Oh, my god.

Put it on the...

Go ahead.

Whoo!

Oh.

Don't step on his head.

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ Love me, too ♪

♪ Love me, too ♪

♪ Love me, too ♪

♪ Love me, too ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I love you ♪

Wait. Please.

♪ I love you ♪

♪ Love me, too ♪

♪ Love me, too ♪

Oh, shit.

What time do you have to be

there?

9:00.

It'd be a lot easier if I

could just drive my car.

That's how planes take off,

you know?

Just at the point where the wind

takes your hand up.

Whoosh!

Cool.

Want a Popsicle?

Sure.

Red or purple?

Um... surprise me.

Purple it is.

So, have you talked to Adele

lately?

No, not really.

Have you?

Uh, just the other day, but

she got off kind of quick.

What do you think she's doing

right now?

Something glamorous.

You think?

I don't know. I hope so.

Mm.

I thought you were mad at her.

It's no fun to be mad.

Dad?

Why aren't you at work?

I just decided to take the

rest of the day off.

What are you doing under

there?

Just making sure this old

clunker's safe.

Dad, there's nothing wrong

with my car except for the fact

that you won't let me drive it.

What's this purple stuff on

your mouth?

Are we just never gonna talk

about you being weird?!

Fine.

So, how was your big night?

Oh, it was... it was great.

We went to, like, a lot of

really cool places.

Great.

I played scrabble with mom.

She won.

You should call your sister.

Yeah, I know.

I-I've just been avoiding that.

She misses you.

Yeah, right.

Plus I think I'd rather her just

imagine me here.

I'm sure she thinks I'm doing

something a lot cooler than I

actually am.

More glamorous?

Hey, I think I have to go.

Um, Adam?

Hey, are you Adam?

Yeah.

Hi, I'm Adele.

Oh, hey.

It's nice to meet you!

Yeah, nice to meet you.

Uh, thanks for showing up!

I know it's a weird time to

have an interview, but, you

know, working nights and...

oh, no. No worries at all.

Is this... this is the building?

Yeah, all this could be yours

to clean!

Lucky for me.

Uh, have a seat.

Oh.

Um, so, did you, uh, go to

college?

Um, yes.

I did a little bit of school in

Florida.

I didn't go to like a big

college or anything like that.

Oh, no. That's fine.

And now you moved to the city

to be a...

Assassin?

Or maybe a circus performer?

No?

I'm kidding. Obviously not.

I want to be a journalist.

Wow.

So, why do you want this job?

I need the money.

Okay.

Yeah.

Why do you do it?

Oh, you know...

Well, I ask myself that all the

time.

Well, they normally don't want

me to hire women because, you

know, working in an office alone

for most of the time at late

hours...

But, you know, I think it'll be

fine.

Really?!

I can... I get to have the job?

Oh, yeah. Yeah.

I guess you're hired.

I mean, you showed up.

Oh, my god. Thank god.

And you don't smell like pee,

so that's already a plus.

Yes.

Yay! This is great!

Well, I have to warn you, the

job sucks.

That's okay.

Let's... let's clean stuff!

Okay.

Normally, I get here around

12:00.

Do I get a key card?

Hey, Adam.

Adam.

Is somebody still here?

Oh, that's this guy who

always stays here late.

He's here almost every night.

What do you think he's

working on?

The next great American novel?

Oh, no, he's probably just

looking at porn.

He doesn't look that

interesting.

You don't look that

interesting.

Oh.

You're early.

No one showed.

Uh, can you be a doll and

hand me my lipstick, please?

Mm-hmm.

Thank you.

Always have lipstick on when

you're entertaining guests.

But it's just me.

Don't sell yourself short.

Let's talk about something

else.

Tell me about the big bad city.

Still smoking?

I blame you.

Hmm.

There's this man that works late

all the time that I have kind

of been stalking.

Sounds about right.

And then there's this guy

Adam who is, like, mildly creepy

and super dorky but I kind of

love him.

Only you could turn a night

janitor job into a love

triangle.

It's not a love triangle.

I don't love either of them.

It's just... Interesting.

Honestly, you won't hurt my

pride.

Just say you hate it.

Say you hate it.

I think it's actually not so

bad, but I think that you

complain a lot.

That's because you got all

the easy floors.

You don't even want to know what

goes down on the eighth floor.

Do you know I've almost saved

up enough money to move out of

bed-stuy?

Ooh, moving on up.

Where do you live?

Long island city.

Do you like it there?

No.

Why do you live

there, then?

I guess it never occurred to

me to move.

You're an odd bird.

Hey, there goes your guy.

Oh, I didn't see him.

I want to see his face.

Why?

I don't know.

I'm just curious.

Do you know what he looks like?

Generic dude kind of look.

You know, arms, legs, torso,

feet.

Okay. That's helpful.

Is he handsome?

Not more handsome than me.

I got all the fluid changed,

and I added a couple of safety

features on the inside.

Cool, dad. Thanks.

I actually didn't know you knew

this much about cars.

Yeah, I know a thing or two.

Dad, these mirrors are

ridiculous.

Ridiculous?

Must you knock quite so

loudly?

How else can you hear me?

I have a surprise for you.

Can I come in?

Tada!

I think I got a little carried

away.

Oh, my gosh!

Did you do this yourself?

Uh, joy helped me.

I don't know.

I was feeling inspired.

I-I think I'm coming around to

this little project of yours.

Ours.

Mm.

My favorite New York picture.

Ugh.

I don't know why you're so hell

bent on New York.

I never really cared for it

myself.

You said it was exciting.

Yeah, at first, but then it's

small and dirty with terrible

weather and lonely people.

And you want to be one of them,

right?

Oh, well, suit yourself,

darling.

I guess we all have to figure it

out somehow.

I can't believe I'm doing

this.

Oh!

Well, you have to get your kicks

some way.

Yeah?

So, do you want to hear my

new favorite quote?

Hmm. Where's it from?

The Internet.

Ooh.

It's Carson mccullers.

I don't know... I don't know

where from, but I think it's

cool.

I'll be the judge of that.

Okay.

So she says, "it is a curious"

emotion, this certain

homesickness I have in mind.

With Americans, it is a national

trait, as native to us as the

roller coaster or the jukebox.

It is no simple longing for the

home town or country of our

birth.

The emotion is janus-faced...

We are torn between a nostalgia

for the familiar and an urge for

the foreign and strange.

As often as not, we are homesick

most for the places we have

"never known."

7.5.

Shut up.

Shit.

What are you doing down

there?

Adam!

Jesus, you scared the shit out

of me.

Why did you do that?

Because you're being a creep.

Me?

Why are you here?!

Why are you here?

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,

whoa, whoa, whoa, zero.

Cool. What's going on?

Dude, it's not a big deal.

It's no big deal, please.

I just... I like to write here

sometimes, okay?

Oh.

Well, can I read it?

No way.

Do you not have a computer?

Yes, I have a computer.

I just... I like to write here,

about him, in his space.

The guy who works here?

Why?

I just do, okay?

Oh, I think I thought you

guys were like, uh...

I don't know.

So, um... It's my friend's

birthday party on Friday, and

some people are getting together

and I thought you might like to

come.

Oh, to a LAN party?

You know, for someone who

makes fun of mmo's so much, you

seem to know a lot about them.

Fine, I'll come.

Okay.

Bye-bye.

Sylvia?

[ Challenger's "how are my"

[ "thoughts not my own?" Plays ]

♪ I miss the pines, the ones

that choke i-95 ♪

♪ The ones I came to resent ♪

♪ No one go, please don't go ♪

♪ Please tell me you haven't

felt this way since Washington ♪

♪ Andy and Tommy tell me there's

no time to be afraid ♪

♪ Tell me it's just chemicals ♪

♪ Tell me it's just

chemica-a-a-a-als ♪

Your secret's out.

Does mom know?

I think she thinks it's me.

Yeah.

I'm sorry, Sara.

I know you loved her a lot.

She was a good friend.

I've been doing some thinking

and, uh...

Whenever you want to leave, your

mother and I will support you.

Sara?

I wish you were here.

Well, if I was there, I would

make you put on the perfect mix

and not stop driving until you

hit the water.

I know you would.

You should do it!

Just put the phone on the seat

next to you, and I'll go, too.

Hey, guess what.

My, uh... my dad wants me to

move to New York now.

Seriously?

Yeah.

♪ Tell me it's just

chemica-a-a-als ♪

Hey, Adele.

Hi.

Oh, hey.

Hi.

I haven't seen you in so long.

Oh, um, I'm just... I moved

out.

Just came by to get some of my

stuff.

Well, that's good, I guess,

right?

Yeah, yeah, it's really good.

Um, I wanted to talk to you

about...

no, uh. It's... it's fine.

No, seriously.

It's not.

Can we sit down or something?

Okay.

I really don't know what

happened the other night, but, I

mean, I know... really, I know

it's not fine.

You know, I-I didn't even

really remember you being there.

I...

Do you think that maybe we could

be friends again?

Well, I-I don't... I don't

really know that we ever really

were.

Okay.

Um, well, do you think that we

could start now?

Yeah.

Really?

Yeah, really.

Yes. Oh, my god. Okay.

Good. Thank you.

Um, you have to come with me

tonight.

Oh, Toni... oh, I can't.

I really shouldn't, because I

have these plans with my friend

Adam, and he'll freak out.

Okay, whatever you guys are

doing is not gonna be half as

much fun as this, I promise.

Honestly.

Really?

Just stay.

Yes, really.

Just stay.

Yo, yo, yo.

Let's go in here.

You guys got beer?

What?

In the back, sir.

Hello.

What's up, dude?

Hey, how you doing, boss?

Let me get some lights.

I said reds.

No problem.

I said lights.

These guys are assholes.

They're just drunk.

Yeah.

He think's he's clever.

Hey, kiddies.

What are you guys getting?

We'll take them both.

Yo!

Shit, lets's go, let's go,

let's go!

Hey, guys, come on.

Don't do that.

You guys are such assholes!

What, you seriously want to

go with those guys?

It's just a party.

It'll be fun.

I don't want to be with

people like that.

Are you guys coming?

Yeah, just one minute.

Let's just go somewhere else.

Adam, please.

I'm not going.

Hello?

I have to go.

No, you don't.

I want to go.

Hey.

Hey.

What happened to Adam?

He had somewhere he had to

go.

That's a shame.

He seems nice.

Yeah, he is.

♪ Never knew a girl like-a

little Sheila ♪

♪ Her name drives me insane ♪

♪ Sweet little girl, that's my

little Sheila ♪

♪ Man, this little girl is

fine ♪

♪ Me and Sheila go for a ride ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, feel-a funny

inside ♪

♪ Then little Sheila... ♪

I have to go.

We just got here.

I know.

I'm... I just, um... I got to

go.

You should stay, like,

really.

I ca-can't.

Okay?

Okay.

Um, I'll call you, um, soon,

all right?

You guys coming or what?

Hey, um, I'm sorry about my

friends.

I don't think that they paid

you.

I... I just, um... I wanted to

pay you.

So, um, it was like $40, right?

No, your friend... he already

paid me.

No, no. I'm here right now.

It's my last attempt at trying

to be social.

No, I'm at canal and eldridge.

All right. All right.

Let me call you back.

Okay?

Wasn't all it was cracked up to

be?

I didn't go.

Is that seriously what you

want?

That's who...

[ Nada surf's "blonde on blonde"

[ plays ]

Uh, never mind.

I got to go.

I'll talk to you later.

♪ Cats and dogs are coming

down ♪

♪ 14th street is gonna drown ♪

♪ Everyone else rushing 'round ♪

♪ I've got "blonde on blonde"

on my portable stereo ♪

♪ It's a lullaby from a giant

golden radio ♪

Well, in good news, my mom

got us a swanky hotel room in.

Times Square.

What? Why?

You should just stay with me.

Oh, you know my mom.

She likes to show off her

travel-agent status.

Oh, okay.

We can just stay there while we

look for a new place.

Mm.

So, how's it going with Adam?

Oh, everything's fine.

We talked.

I have to go on a date with him

in exchange for making him miss

this birthday party.

Really? Where?

Central park.

A day date... adorable.

Bam!

Cool sheet.

Why, thank you.

You're pretty.

Gross.

So you think just because you

live in New York and you don't

have any friends that you're

gonna turn into the wild child?

No, but it's proven that

social isolation has severe and

long-term psychological effects.

They're talking about kids

that are locked in cages or

raised by wolves or shit like

that.

You don't get it.

Your brain's too small.

Well, all I know is if you

feel so lonely, than you should

probably just hang out with me

more often.

Okay.

What do you see?

That looks like a bear, if you

block out that part.

Well, that's a cumulus, and

that over there is a

stratocumulus.

I took meteorology in college.

You're supposed to pick out

shapes and animals.

Oh, well, I'm not seven, and

I happen to have a wicked

knowledge of cloud formations.

There's a lady with a cape.

Look!

Fucking shit.

Oh, yeah, there really is.

Hey, you know what game I used

to play when I was little?

What?

Have you ever had someone

give you cpr?

No, 'cause I've never been

choking.

Well, it's really cool.

You blow all your air out and

someone blows in and you can

watch your lungs inflate.

You had weird friends.

Here. I'll show you.

Okay.

Aaaaah!

Okay, blow all your air out.

Are you gonna kill me?

Yes.

Blow all the air out of your

lungs.

Keep going, keep going, keep

going, keep going.

Keep going.

See?

I don't like you.

Okay.

What's wrong with you?

I don't know.

Okay.

You don't have to get all

dramatic about it.

It's no big deal.

You know, you kissed me.

I know.

I want that to be on the

record.

Bold print, on the record.

You know, to be fair, it was

only because of your weirdly

seductive cpr game.

Yay!

Hi!

Hey, friend!

Look at you.

Look at you!

How was your trip?

My god, you're in freakin'

New York.

Can you believe it?

Finally.

It took you the whole summer,

dork.

I got here.

It's happening.

It's all happening.

Wow.

This is like a bank tube.

They should give us free

lollipops.

What is this?

Oh, Lila made it!

Are those rosary beads?

Yeah.

I actually...

she is a morbid little girl.

It's just getting worse.

I actually have one for you.

Boop.

That's for you.

Thanks.

I need it.

You do.

So fancy.

Is this us?

Yes ma'am.

'Cause I think you like him.

Hmm, most certainly do not

like Adam.

Well, I like him.

You haven't even met him.

Doesn't matter.

What neighborhood is this?

This is greenwich village.

No way.

This is where Sylvia lived.

Also where Bob Dylan lived.

I don't believe you.

You're a liar.

Is this the

Washington square diner?

Um, yes, it is.

I've actually never eaten here.

Have you heard of it?

Yeah. I have.

You have to take a picture of me

here.

Why?

I'll show you after.

Okay.

Wait, actually...

Sir, can you take a picture of

us?

Yeah, sure.

Thanks.

Sara.

It's good.

Thanks, man.

Have a good night.

Can't believe we ended up

here.

Hey, Adele, do you... Do you mind

if we just sit for a minute?

Yeah.

Sure. Come on.

This is Sylvia.

Mm-hmm.

You know, I went through a

lot when you decided not to

come.

I know.

Sometimes I feel like I'm racing

you...

And you're ahead, and...

You'll never stop running.

So I'm just chasing after you.

Maybe you're right.

Hey.

Hi.

It's pretty, isn't it?

Yeah.

It's like a revolving rainbow of

advertisements.

It's funny how things happen

like that, you know?

When something really pretty

happens out of something ugly.

You're not gonna stay, are

you?

People put too much emphasis

on escaping.

You're right.

I am?

Yeah.

This was supposed to be our

revolution summer.

Maybe it was.

Yeah.

Maybe.

♪ Break up your fucking

heart ♪

♪ Break up your fucking heart ♪

♪ Break up your fucking heart ♪

♪ Break up your fucking heart ♪

♪ Break up your fucking heart ♪

♪ I left your life before ♪

♪ When I was a kid ♪

♪ And in the whole wide world

you found ♪

♪ You found it in me ♪

♪ And I feel like I'm 6 years

old ♪

♪ A clear view again ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ It's fall again ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ It's fall again ♪

♪ I hope this garlic gun ♪

♪ From my bunk bed will keep ♪

♪ Dracula away ♪

♪ And out of my dreams ♪

♪ And the festival is here ♪

♪ Across the golf course ♪

♪ I've already seen ♪

♪ The lights from my street ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ The fall is here ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ This is fall ♪

♪ The fall is here ♪