KSI: In Real Life (2023) - full transcript

[machine whirring]

[computer beeps]

[start-up sound playing]

[keyboard clacking]

[upbeat music playing]

[KSI] Back in the day, YouTube
was a very simple place

for the cat videos

or random vlogging.

[chittering]

But I started to realise

that YouTube could
possibly be around forever.



[upbeat pop music playing]

As a kid, I was
very introverted.

Bit of a loser.

But when I started
my YouTube channel,

that one button,
and I became KSI.

[music continues]

Holy crap! There's a
Black guy on the screen!

Oh, my God, my dick is on fire!

Welcome to Q&A Sunday.

Put one in your mouth
and say, "Choppy bunny".

[muffled] Choppy bunny.

- You're out. Out, out, out.
- [laughing]

[KSI] Please like,
subscribe and tits.

No, sicko!



♪ Got rocks on my wrist
That shit you can't resist ♪

♪ Cash flow greater than The
haters hating on my jizz ♪

[upbeat pop music
continues playing]

Only, like, 50 people have this.

On the programme, we
have the undisputed

YouTube champion of
the world, from the UK,

the Nightmare, KSI.

- Finally. Finally.
- I'll knock you out, bro.

- You make videos...
- Yeah, yeah.

What, you wanna push me
again? Push me again!

[commentator] JJ has
got so much power.

It's a big uppercut from JJ.

- [crowd cheering]
- [inaudible]

[KSI] Once you go,
"Oh, you know what,

"I'm going to do this",

then you can do it.

I just have this mentality
where nothing can stop me.

That's just my way
of thinking. Yeah.

[KSI] Ay, yo, what's
up, motherfuckers?

And welcome to...

- [men laughing]
- [Logan Paul] Yeah.

- [KSI] Impaulsive. Let's go.
- [Paul] Yeah.

Ladies and gentlemen, we
have KSI back on the podcast.

Welcome, JJ,

- to Los Angeles and America.
- [KSI whooping]

[Paul] Dude, it's
good to have you.

- It's good to have you...
- [KSI] Good to be here, man.

- Again. I made it.
- [Paul] Again.

You're doing, like, 10 different
things here during your...

- [KSI laughs]
- This week, no?

Yeah, just, like, music,
working on my next album, yeah.

- Just writing and everything.
- [Paul] Sick.

And that, too? That
guy right there?

What's that guy doing?

Oh, Amazon. [laughs]

Wes. Big boy Wes.

So, he's been filming
me the whole time

since around June.

Just, like, literally
my whole life.

Just, what's going on.

[Paul] You like
him, I assume, huh?

Yeah, yeah, he's cool, yeah.
Yeah, he's cool. He's...

Yeah, bro, he's seen me,

you know, the highs
and the lows. [laughs]

[KSI] I think people
are gonna really see

a completely different side to
what they normally see online.

[sombre music playing]

[interviewer] So, JJ,
how did you sleep?

[KSI] It was quite shit...

[chuckles] If I'm being honest.

Um, jetlag.

Yeah, I woke up in the middle
of the night, like, 4:00 a.m.

I think I was tweeting
some soppy stuff.

I've always wondered,
like, what...

Like, what's special to me,
or what meant a lot to me.

Um...

You know, I was thinking,
like, what really made sense?

You know, I have a load
of baggage. [laughs]

Um...

I have plenty of money. [laughs]

Plenty of fame.

Oh, God, But, nah, nah.

I have... No, I have
a lot of baggage.

And, um, I'm definitely
working on that.

I don't think anyone actually
really knows who I am.

Including me.

[interviewer] Can you
tell me about it, JJ,

what's the line-up
of the festival?

Uh, well, so, for
Reading and Leeds,

we've got Stormzy,

Post Malone, Liam Gallagher.

Obviously, got people like
AJ Tracey, Mabel, Yungblud...

and me.

[chuckles]

[interviewer] Do you
know how many people

are gonna be at
Leeds and Reading?

I think around 30,000.
I could be wrong.

But it's gonna be
a lot of people.

[interviewer] JJ, I
think it's 80,000.

Eighty thousand?

Shit. [laughs] Okay, then.

Well, then, I've
definitely downplayed that.

I didn't know, I
thought it was 30,000.

Eighty thousand, come on.

That's easy. [chuckles]

[tense music playing]

[crowd cheering]

[inaudible]

[KSI] Holy shit. [laughs]

Holy shit!

[laughs nervously]

[interviewer] What's going
through your head right now?

What are you thinking?

I want this to be a
moment for everyone.

I want everyone to be like,
"Damn, KSI's fucking hard".

[laughs] "I don't normally
fuck with his music,

"but, damn, bro, he's
good live, you know?"

[crowd clamouring]

[KSI] We're here,
baby. We're here.

Leeds Festival!

Oh, I've just been
looking at the crowd.

Like, this is... This
is my moment, bro.

- [man] Yeah, man.
- Oh, coming through, like,

"Hey, what's up? KSI
in the building".

- I'm here, baby. Shit.
- [both laugh]

[Randolph] Your
energy's too much.

- Yeah, no, bro...
- I wish I had it.

No, that's the
shit. I don't know.

Beforehand, I'm always
just, like, chill,

- like, relax.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

And then whenever it
gets to the moment,

- I'm there like, "Oh, let's go."
- Yeah.

[crowd cheering]

[KSI] Hard.

[claps] Let's do this, baby.

[KSI] There's
definitely gonna be

a lot of people who don't think

I deserve to be on
that stage, 100%.

"Look at this YouTuber
trying to do music".

"KSI next to, what,

"Kid Laroi, Post Malone,
Stormzy, AJ Tracey?

"All these musicians,

"and then you've got
KSI. Doesn't make sense".

So then I've gotta
just show them

it makes perfect sense. Yeah.

I have to work harder than
all of these artists, man,

to prove that I can
be in that position.

I think, from my childhood,

I've always had so much
pressure to do well,

so the idea of failing
was terrifying.

I... [chuckles]

It's just scary, like,
I think that's...

Maybe that's my
fear, of failure.

[laughs]

That's, like, my biggest fear.

[cheering]

I hope you're
having a great time.

Our next act is pretty special.

Eight top-ten singles,
a number-one album,

and making his festival
debut right now, here, KSI!

- [crowd cheering wildly]
- Damn!

Damn! Team!

["Don't Play" playing
over speakers]

[cheering continues]

♪ Don't play games ♪

♪ Don't play games
with my heart Ooh-wee ♪

Oh, shit.

♪ Now the feels Hit
me differently ♪

Damn.

♪ When they hittin'
this deep Don't play ♪

Yeah!

♪ Don't play, yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Don't play games ♪

♪ Don't play games
with my heart Ooh-wee ♪

♪ When they hittin'
this deep Don't play ♪

♪ Don't play ♪

[rapping] ♪ All that time
On your own with me ♪

♪ We had fun on the 360 ♪

♪ I helped you get a UAV ♪

♪ My time is you dismissin' ♪

♪ This is in no way
A two-way street ♪

♪ I'm playin' "SAD!"
And it's on repeat ♪

♪ Got me here Hopin'
you see my Snap ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm not ready
For us to wrap, no ♪

[chorus] ♪ Don't play games ♪

♪ Don't play games
with my heart Ooh-wee ♪

Come on, Leeds!

♪ When they hittin'
this deep Don't play ♪

- [exclaiming]
- ♪ Don't play, yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Don't play games ♪

♪ Don't play games
with my heart Ooh-wee ♪

♪ Now the feels Hit
me differently ♪

♪ When they hittin'
this deep Don't play ♪

♪ Don't play, yeah, yeah ♪

[song ends]

I am done. [laughs]

[crowd cheering wildly]

Hey, yo, Leeds. Thank
you for having me.

Take care. Peace.

- Thank you, thank you.
- Congrats, bro, good lad.

[KSI] Bro, congrats
to all of us, bruv.

Tell me I'm not a musician
now, innit. [laughs]

[chanting] KSI! KSI! KSI!

[KSI] What the hell?

- From a YouTuber to this.
- [interviewer] Yeah.

Bro, man was in his bedroom,

in his bedroom, making
little FIFA videos,

and now look. Who'd
have fucking thought?

Bro!

[interviewer] This is the
stuff you dream about, innit?

Yeah, yeah, and...

But you're just like, "That's...
that's never gonna happen".

- [interviewer laughs]
- There's no chance.

And it's like,
"Damn, I'm here now".

Damn.

[KSI] Ladies and gentlemen,

welcome to a
brand-new video idea.

Let's get a round of applause.

I know right? What!

Oh, my God, it's taken...

It's taken years...

It's taken years for a
brand-new video idea,

but it's come, finally.

Today we're gonna be
looking at my childhood.

We're going on Google Earth to
just look at where I grew up.

Let's go into this.

I think we'll start off
where everything started,

my whole YouTube career.

That is the big boy over here.

Oh!

Oh...

Oh, shit, there it is.

There it... Oh, shit!

Oh, there it is!
It's my old house.

[laughs]

That's my parents' bedroom,

that's my bro's room.

My room is in the
back over there,

and that's where I just
did all my YouTube videos,

start from the beginning.

[mellow music playing]

[KSI] Where we grew up in
Watford, my parents were, like,

I guess, your typical
African parents.

Wanted me to be
a doctor, lawyer.

[Jide Olatunji] We
came here as immigrants

because there is
nothing in Nigeria.

[Yinka Olatunji] I
wanted more for my kids.

More education.

- Yeah, we wanted more.
- Yeah, education-wise.

And it's just to say that

they've had a better-quality
life than ours.

[KSI] My parents
were very strict.

If you did a mistake,
or if you fucked up,

then you get punished
by beatings. [chuckles]

Where we come from, Nigeria,
we have to respect our elders,

kids need to be disciplined,

and it's in the Bible,

"Spare the rod and
ruin the child".

It wasn't super loving.

We didn't really
do a lot together,

if that makes sense.

And I hardly ever heard my
parents say "I love you".

[laughs]

It was a tough
upbringing, in that sense.

But I found salvation online,

because it was like...

Sounds so sad.

It was like the
camera was my friend.

[chuckles]

And I was, like,
talking to the camera

and just being like,
"Yo, what's up?"

And just saying just
random things to it.

- [lip synching]
- ♪ If you're happy ♪

♪ And you know it ♪

- ♪ Clap your hands ♪
- [clapping]

♪ If you're happy ♪

♪ And you know it
Clap your hands ♪

♪ If you're happy
And you know it ♪

♪ And you really
want To show it ♪

♪ If you're happy
And you know it... ♪

Shut the [bleep] up!

- What's up, bro?
- Say it, don't spray it.

- But I just said, "Bro!"
- [groans]

[KSI] And then, you know,
me and my brother, Deji,

we just created little movies.

- Ow!
- [KSI] Oh, hell, nah!

[chuckles] Damn,
that nigga pissed!

[KSI] I think it was just cool

we were able to bond
together doing these things.

[Deji Olatunji yelping]

Fuck! I wasn't ready
yet. [groaning]

[Deji] Growing up, it
was just me and JJ.

Having him as my older
brother, I mean...

When I was younger, I loved it.

Literally, I loved... I...

I adored him so much, he
was the best thing ever.

- Dej, get off me.
- No.

- Get off me.
- No.

Dej, why are you
touching my dick?

- I'm not.
- Yes, you are.

Get off me, Dej.

What is this hair?
What is this hair?

You're so bush.

[laughs]

[in Nigerian accent] Did
you just jump off the boat?

[in normal accent]
You're a fucking mess.

Get off me, Dej!

What you doing, bro?
What... [laughing]

[interviewer] When you
started making the videos,

how was your family
initially reacting to them?

[KSI] My parents did
not like the videos,

they weren't keen on it.

So many times,

my parents would either
turn off the electricity,

or cut out the Wi-Fi.

[upbeat music playing]

Yeah, they didn't really
like the whole KSI thing.

[music continues]

[Jide] I think KSI drives him.

KSI is untouchable.

He can do anything,
he doesn't care.

JJ is very, very humble,
quite easy-going.

I knew that wouldn't work.

Me just being JJ
wouldn't work online

because, you know, it's
just not entertaining.

- [electronic music playing]
- But then whenever

the camera was on,
we were rolling,

I'd just switch it and
I'd be this different guy.

I was KSI.

Hey, guys. Your
boy KSIOlajideBT.

I know I'm not
wearing any trousers.

Yes!

- But KSI is just, um...
- [Yinka] His ego.

- Yeah.
- Yeah, it's the ego.

- He's on another level.
- Yeah.

It's, um...

Sometimes you just
think, "Is this my son?"

- Yeah.
- You know...

I don't think I'd want
to have KSI as a son.

♪ Yeah, I'm on a
horse Mother-[bleep] ♪

♪ Take a look at me ♪

♪ [bleep] a car
I'm on a horse ♪

♪ Do re [bleep]-ing mi ♪

♪ I'll fuck a horse ♪

Uh, that's bestiality.

♪ Shut up, bitch, I don't care
I just want my horse orgy ♪

[KSI] I told my parents

I was going to make YouTube
work no matter what.

As soon as I was
able to move out,

I was just like, [snaps
fingers] "Let's go, I'm off".

I started to see my parents
less and less and less.

I definitely, like,

slowly was destroying
the relationship

between me and my parents.

And I essentially became
a stranger to them.

[Deji] JJ became more
hardworking when he left home.

He essentially felt
like we didn't love him.

So he was like, "Okay, I
have something to prove".

I guess he used us as
a goal, being like,

"Okay, you don't love me?
I'll make you love me".

But, I mean, it's like

when you isolate yourself
for a very long time,

you might end up cutting out
someone that is true to you.

He might be so
blinded with success

that he'll just lose
someone dear to him.

[people speaking indistinctly]

[man] Jeez. I don't know whether
they said they were gonna put...

Did they say they'd
put the screens on here

or black drapes?

They said they're
gonna see how it looks.

[conversation
continues indistinctly]

[Jay Revell] I would say
the main thing, JJ, is...

I mean, it's harder when
you're just in a room with us,

but just even, like,
kinda getting used to it,

"Okay, I did that.
I'm knackered.

"I need to have
water, have a break".

[KSI] Yeah, yeah. I know.

I know there's no rush
in that moment as well.

- You know what I mean?
- Yeah, I do. Yeah. Yeah.

[Revell] Are there any changes
that you think you're gonna make

off the top of looking
at it, set-list wise?

[KSI] Er... [laughs] We're
gonna get rid of "You".

[Revell] Oh, you're
not gonna do it at all?

[KSI] No, man, it's
probably best if we don't.

- [Revell] Okay.
- [KSI] Yeah.

[Revell] Cool. From
the show in general?

Um...

[sighs] Yeah.

[interviewer] How come
you won't do "You"?

[laughs]

Ah...

I don't wanna say right now.

- Can you not say? Okay.
- Yeah. Sorry.

- Is it a private thing?
- Uh, yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

[interviewer] How do you feel?

[chuckles]

Er...

- [interviewer] Angry?
- Yeah. [laughs]

Yeah.

[inhales deeply] All
right, moving on.

[laughs]

[men speaking indistinctly]

Check. Check, check.

Check, check, check,
check, check, check.

All right. Um...

Can we have someone time it?

Yeah, that's what
we're gonna do.

- [KSI] Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah.

- ["Madness" playing on speakers]
- Are you fucking ready, man?

'Cause I am fucking ready, man.

Ay.

♪ Madness No doubt
when you at this ♪

♪ Grandness Grab
it like I'm Atlas ♪

♪ Always want When
they pree it ♪

♪ Can't believe
When they see it ♪

♪ I've been here for a minute
Motorway with no limit ♪

♪ Madness No doubt
when you at this ♪

♪ Grandness, big
name On campus ♪

♪ I'm the proof
In that pudding ♪

♪ Say they can But
they couldn't ♪

♪ I'm the man when I'm in it ♪

♪ I'll be done
When I'm finished ♪

♪ Don't piss me off I've
been killin' this shit ♪

♪ Acting tough on the net ♪

♪ With a million clicks
Bitch, you're gonna get hit ♪

♪ And I've done more than
a man In a single year ♪

♪ And still I'm
The man that won ♪

♪ I got clowned for the
way I was on the net ♪

♪ And still I'm
the man That won ♪

♪ Now they're chasing
me Chasing the hype ♪

♪ Wanting me, wanting the life ♪

♪ Loving me, loving the type ♪

♪ So I gave her pipe ♪

♪ Madness No doubt
when you at this ♪

Spin that shit with me, man!

♪ Grandness Grab
it like I'm Atlas ♪

♪ Always want When
they pree it ♪

♪ Can't believe
When they see it ♪

♪ I've been here for a minute
Motorway with no limit ♪

♪ Madness No doubt
when you at this ♪

♪ Grandness Big
name on campus ♪

♪ I'm the proof
In that pudding ♪

♪ Say they can But
they couldn't ♪

♪ I'm the man When I'm in it ♪

♪ I'll be done
When I'm finished ♪

Make some fucking noise, man.

- Whoo!
- [KSI] Make some noise!

Thank you for having
us. Take care and peace.

[people clapping]

[Revell] How do you
feel stamina-wise?

- [KSI] Yeah, I feel fine.
- Yeah?

- [KSI] I'm quite fit anyway, so.
- Yeah.

- [Revell] All right.
- [KSI laughing]

[KSI] Well, I mean, I should be

with all the fucking
training I do.

- All right.
- [all laughing]

[Revell] I was gonna say,
from a general perspective...

- [KSI] Mmm-hmm.
- I think you should put...

Some of the ones you
think you should run again

aren't the ones you think you
should run again, I think.

Think we've gotta make sure

you're singing the parts you
feel most confident singing.

♪ I've been going
through These changes ♪

- You always go for that one.
- Yeah, yeah.

- But you could just say it...
- Okay.

Instead of trying to sing it.

You wanna be...
[singing indistinctly]

- [KSI] Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Make it... Be gangy.

'Cause when you use
your voice, like, the...

I think the... The
difference you'll get

like audio-wise,
level-wise when you're

your true voice. Yeah, 52.

We did everything
there except for "You"

- which is cut from the set.
- [man] Yeah, this is the...

- [man] That vocal is so...
- [Revell] Getting that sound.

- [man] Yeah.
- [interviewer] How does it go?

How does that feel
when you're up there?

Yeah, I think it went well.

Um, learned a lot.

Um... Yeah, it's a lot.

There's a lot more to do
than a little festival set,

'cause obviously you've got...

What, normally, like,
20, 25, 30 minutes,

whereas this is, like...

It can be pretty much an hour.

So, yeah, just trying
to figure that out,

but, uh, yeah. No, I
think it's going well.

Guys have helped a
lot as well, so...

[interviewer] Does
this come easy to you?

Or naturally to you?

No, man. I've always
said I'm not talented.

I've kinda just worked hard

to a point where people
think I'm talented, and...

Yeah, and naturally, I'm...

You know, I don't feel like I
was naturally meant to be here

but I've kinda got here
through my dreams and passion.

[interviewer] You really
don't feel talented?

Nope. But it doesn't
matter, like...

Like, how much hard work
can get you. [laughs]

[interviewer] You see, I really
want to be a footballer, right,

but I'm just shit at it.

You can practice and practice,

but I'm never gonna
get to play for...

Oh, but then you didn't
wanna be a footballer.

- Really? You think it's just...
- Yeah.

Facts.

How many questions do
you wanna ask me now?

[interviewer] Can I ask
one more question, JJ?

Yeah. What's up?

Why won't you play
the song "You"?

[laughs]

Oh, you're funny.

Um...

Uh...

I just...

I'm just going
through something.

With, uh, my girlfriend,
so, it kinda just...

It gets a bit too
emotional, so, yeah.

But it's all right.
It is what it is.

Can't really control emotions,

especially when that song plays,

so, it's better
to just avoid it.

Yeah, I rehearsed it yesterday.
I just broke down, so...

I was like I'm not...
I'm not doing that here.

- [chuckles awkwardly]
- Did you write it about her?

- [KSI] Hmm?
- Did you write it about her?

Yes. Yeah. [clears throat]

Yeah. I did.

["You" playing]

♪ Everything I do, I do ♪

♪ I do it all for you, for you ♪

♪ You're the only one ♪

♪ You're the only one ♪

♪ Everything I do, I do ♪

♪ I do it all for you, for you ♪

♪ You're the only one ♪

♪ You're the only one
You're the only one ♪

♪ You're the only one... ♪

- [woman] Can I get a picture?
- [KSI] Yeah, yeah, sure.

- [speaking indistinctly]
- Yeah. You want me here?

- Yeah.
- Yeah, of course.

- What's your name, sorry?
- It's Jillian.

Jillian. Lovely to
meet you, Jillian.

Lovely to meet you.
Have a good day.

[KSI] Thank you.

How's the lighting?

- [laughs]
- Can you see me?

[interviewer] Do you
like meeting fans?

Yeah, of course.

Why... Why would I say
no to that? [laughs]

[interviewer] I just wanna know.

[KSI] They've made my career.

[interviewer] Yeah.

I like his work ethics.
The way he's grown up,

it's been similar
to our background,

immigrant parents and things
like that, and just...

showing that it takes
time to get to the top.

- He's just really inspiring.
- [crowd cheering]

[KSI] Hey, yo, Glasgow,
what's up? It's your boy!

You know this is the first
show of the tour, man.

- [crowd cheering]
- [air horn blowing]

And you lot have
brought insane energy.

Eh?

Here we... Here we
fucking go! Here we...

[crowd] Here we...
Here we fucking go!

Here we... Here we...
Here we fucking go!

[upbeat rock music playing]

[woman] I think people say

he tries to do too
many different things,

or, you know, he should
just stick to one thing,

but I think that's what
makes him so great,

is that he started so small
and he's grown up with us,

and we feel like we know him.

[rock music continues]

[KSI] Hey, yo, if you still have
special someone next to them...

[crowd cheering]

[KSI] All right, who's single?

[crowd cheering]

All right, so, for
the single people,

this is for the people
that you'll eventually get.

[laughs]

And now for the people
in a relationship,

this is for you,
happening right now.

[rock music continues]

There was times I didn't
wanna be here anymore,

and it was just getting too much

and I didn't wanna
wake up and whatnot,

and then when I felt
really down and low

and when I felt like that,
I would just put him on,

and when I put him on,
he would just laugh,

and it'd make me laugh
'cause it's contagious,

and he was just an
all-round honest, nice guy.

Can just watch KSI and
that would cheer me up.

[KSI] Who's currently
going through something?

[crowd cheering]

[KSI] Well, it always gets
better, remember that.

Shit will never be
shit forever, bro.

It will always get better,

and we'll be able to
get through together.

[rock music continues]

- [both] Thank you.
- [crowd cheering]

[fans screaming]

[man] I see him more
as a family member

'cause of how close he is

with his subscribers
and all his followers.

He sees us as his family,

and the way he
interacts with us all,

he's always been there,
making videos around his fans,

and that's just amazing.

[rock music continues]

[KSI] The relationship
I have with my fans,

it's kinda just like
they're friends.

I get bullied by
them. I bully them.

We literally are just so close.

It's not fake, it's not
them just worshipping me,

it's them being real with me.

I get messages
saying, all the time,

I've inspired people,

I've helped them
focus in their career,

or I've helped them, just, you
know, believe in themselves.

[man] Yo, we just wanna
say thank you so much

for taking this
time out, you know.

I kinda wanted to start it off
with just allowing them to kinda

introduce themselves
and kinda just,

you know, letting you
guys know who they are,

why they're on this programme,

why they're here today, I
guess. You know what I mean?

So, I'm gonna start
with you, my man.

- Introduce yourself.
- I'm Kion.

[man] What's up, Kion?

But most people call
me K most of the time.

I kind of jumped on this course

because I wanted to
further myself musically,

and any other field
that's creative.

[woman] My music
style is a bit weird.

I play rare groove,
soul, lovers' rock,

but everything else as well,

but that's what I'm
mainly known for.

But, yeah, that's
the lowdown on Pebs.

I'm Chloe. To be honest,

doing this is quite a
big achievement for me

'cause I'm not a very
talkative person,

so, doing this is a big
boost out of my comfort zone.

Yeah, my name's Jamil.

Outside of music, I'm very
reserved and kinda quiet,

and with music, I just feel
like it's a missing part to me.

[KSI] I started from my bedroom

so I didn't really talk to
many people, if anyone at all,

and eventually I kinda
got to a point where

I kind of got forced into it,

but you've gotta just
learn how to swim

with a lot of certain situations

and, uh, yeah, I guess you
guys are doing that right now.

How do you deal with
hate on social media?

[KSI] You just have
to live through it.

You have to be thick-skinned.
There's no other way.

You can't try and avoid it,

you can't try to block
out words or anything

because they'll find a
new way to get to you.

It's just always...
It'll just always adapt.

I've been, you know,
taken the piss out of,

I've had haters left,
right and centre,

I've had all types
of hate, from racism,

like, hardcore racism
to just, you know, like,

to how I look, you know,
my weight, et cetera.

But then I've just turned that
on its head, and I've just...

I just laugh at it now.

For me, I think that's the
most important part of hate.

If you take it away from them
and you just completely cut it,

cut the power from them,
then it's not hate.

It's just words that
don't mean anything.

A huge driving point for me is
always proving people wrong.

There's a lot of people
who've told me to stop,

but instead I was
like, "No. Watch".

[Deji] So many obstacles
were in his way,

but he just bypassed
all of them.

There was literally nothing
that could stop him.

He would just keep going.

People would say, "Oh,
you can't do this",

he'd be like, "I'll
prove you wrong".

But I guess it's kind
of to prove a point

to my parents as well.

He wants to be like...

"Look at me.

"Look at me, I'm...

"I'm here. Acknowledge me."

[electronic music playing]

[KSI] I think I was around 19

when I started to
actually make money,

and it was very small.

And then it just kept
going up and up and up

to, like, 10,000 a month, yeah.

That was... That
was really crazy.

Like, I couldn't believe that.

And even my parents
couldn't believe that.

When we went to
see the accountant,

he was gobsmacked, said, "Wow!"

You know, that...

You know, a guy that young
that is already earning money

and he already knows
what he wants to do,

you know, that was
an achievement.

Even a few people
that I told, you know,

there was a church
I used to go to

and I kind of
discussed it with them,

would you believe it,
the following week,

they totally blanked me.

Yeah. 'Cause it's all to do with
envy and jealousy, isn't it?

[laughs]

When I wasn't making money,

they... they said it
was a waste of time.

And then when I was making
more money than them,

then they were open
arms, like, "Let's go".

Doing a Q&A Sunday with my dad.

- How's it going, man?
- It's good.

Anyway, let's answer
some questions.

Let's begin with number one.

"Does your dad masturbate?"

Oh, my God.

Bro, I cringe so much
now at my old videos,

like, "What am I doing?"

But at the time,

I was just in this bubble
where everything was just okay.

I don't know...

On the Internet, that's just...

That was just okay to ask
my dad if he masturbates.

Oh, God.

"Have you ever caught
your son wanking?"

No, I haven't caught you
wanking. Why would I?

- Oh, so do you wank?
- No.

No, I'm just saying, too good.

[Yinka] It's not good
to wank, seriously.

[KSI] Well, you would know.

- As a Christian...
- Flicking that bean.

Even though Daddy
does worse with you.

[screams]

"Flick the bean", I
didn't know what it meant.

- I did not know what it meant.
- [chuckles]

If I had known, I
probably wouldn't have...

I... I don't think I
answered the question, did I?

- Get hyper.
- [laughs]

[KSI] A lot of the videos
that I made with my parents

looked like we had a
very good relationship.

But whenever I would
turn off the camera,

we would just go back
to being strangers.

Maybe I didn't reach
out to them as much,

but they didn't really reach
out to me as much as well.

So, you know, it's
a two-way thing.

[interviewer] Can I ask
about your girlfriend?

- [KSI] Yeah, yeah.
- What happened?

[KSI] I knew this was coming.

So, me and my girlfriend
aren't together anymore.

Well, we... Me and my ex.

Yeah. Um...

Yeah.

I broke it off. I
broke it off, yeah.

Um, yeah, I... I felt like...

I mean, I... I don't know if
she'll ever see it this way,

but I felt like I was
doing her a favour.

Yeah, because just my
lifestyle, man, it's just...

You know, I'm too busy to
have a relationship right now.

Next year, I'm going to LA,

and then I'm going
on tour in the UK,

then I'm going on tour in Europe

and doing all these things,
you know, work-wise,

and I'm like, "When am I
gonna find time to see her?

"When am I gonna have time to,
you know, properly be with her?"

Obviously, there's
other things as well,

but I just thought
it's not fair on her,

and I knew she was
getting agitated over it.

And she just works a
normal 9:00 to 5:00 job.

[interviewer] How
long were you together

and how serious was it?

[KSI] Yeah, it was
pretty serious.

Three and a half years.

Yeah, it was a long time.

[interviewer] But couldn't
you have changed things

if you really wanted it to work?

I'd say the relationship
just didn't work. We just...

We also just didn't...
We weren't...

good for each other.

We were, and then we
weren't, if that makes sense.

She said I don't get excited
for anything anymore.

It's like I'm dead inside.

I was like, "Fuck.

"She's kind of right."

- [interviewer] Really?
- [laughs]

No, no, I do get excited, but...

I don't know, when you've
kinda just done so well

in so many things, et cetera,

you kinda just go, "Oh, okay",

and then nothing
really hits the same.

I don't know. I don't
know what I'm saying.

It's crazy. I really thought
she was gonna be the one for me.

She's such a private person.

And then she's with

one of the most famous
people in England. [chuckles]

So, was that ever gonna work?

Probably not. [chuckles]

Yeah.

Maybe it was doomed
from the start.

[speaking indistinctly]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You got a little boogeroo.

You got a little booger.

[man] Good? Are we good?

[KSI] No, left. Right. Yeah.

[director] Right, guys.
Quiet on set now, please.

[man] And speed.

- [director] Camera rolling?
- [cameraman] Rolling.

[director] And action.

[men laughing and
speaking indistinctly]

[director speaking indistinctly]

Get out, get out.
Come on, move, move.

- [director] Cut there.
- [interviewer] How's it going?

Chilling, bro,
just eating food...

[interviewer] Are
you enjoying this?

And getting rich from it.

[laughs] I mean...

There's not really
much else going.

Yeah, we're happy with that.
Now we can go downstairs

and drag these guys...

[interviewer] What do you guys
need to do now? Portraits?

There needs to be
a portrait, yeah.

Am I good? All right.

- [director] Done, can we do...
- Losing my shit.

[director] Can we get the tray
set up for one more GoPro?

[KSI] I'm off.

Sorry I'm late, boss.

Fucking... I've
eaten so much food.

- [interviewer] What was it for?
- Fuck.

Uh, Sides... So, our, like,
Deliveroo restaurant thing.

So, he's just starting a
Deliveroo business now.

[KSI] Yeah. [laughs]

- Yeah, bro, just...
- [KSI] I'll tell you what.

I'll tell you what,
there's alcohol as well.

We've got alcohol
business going.

- [S-X] Oh, okay!
- [laughs]

- Tell me.
- Yeah, yeah, just...

- We're doing vodka.
- Really?

- Yeah, like, flavoured vodka.
- No way.

Yeah, literally. [laughing]

Making moves,
bro. Making moves.

Why not? I mean, it's...

Yeah, we're able to do it.

I was able to venture from
YouTube to music to boxing,

so, why not do
restaurants as well?

- [S-X] That's it, bro.
- [laughs]

- I feel like, for you...
- And alcohol

and fucking lampposts,
if we want. [laughs]

But there's no limit.

I was gonna say, for
you, there's no limit...

- Yeah.
- You can just do

whatever you want, for real,
and it just makes sense, bro.

Yeah. We're in...

We're in this
beautiful spot where...

- You can touch everything.
- Yeah.

Yeah, we can really
just do anything.

- Whoo!
- [laughs]

[upbeat rock music playing]

[music continues]

[Deji] He has an
addictive personality,

in the sense that,

he's tasted victory, he
wants to keep tasting it.

He knows the consequences,
but he doesn't care.

He's like, "I'm gonna
get... I'm gonna get this.

"I'm gonna get... I'm
gonna get this goal."

[music continues]

[KSI] Yeah, it just goes back
to the whole KSI character.

I feel like I'm in
control of everything,

like I can just do
whatever the fuck I want.

And not to say anything
bad about my ex,

but I definitely feel like
she tried to bring me back

to how I was before.

Now I'm just kinda...

I don't know, I just
feel more alpha. [laughs]

I just feel more like a boss.

[rock music continues]

[man 1] Sidemen are
killing it, by the way.

[man 2] Yes. We're
thriving, man.

[KSI] Yeah, we're
actually fucking sick.

Our estimated earnings
are just wild right now.

- Q4 man, yeah.
- [men laugh]

I feel like we still
have so much more to do.

You've not got more to
do with music and boxing?

Um, no, it's... I've got
more to do for boxing.

[man 1] "I've got a
number-one album."

- [men laughing]
- No, no, no.

No, I still need to like...

you know, like, dominate
America, I feel.

[rock music continues]

[KSI] It's crazy, I'm literally
going on dates every day.

[laughs] New girl every day.

I remember, when I was younger

I wasn't able to
even talk to girls.

And I would google
how to talk to women,

and read books and stuff
about understanding women,

but that's just because I was
this introverted, nerdy kid

that wanted to be seen as
a man that is desirable.

[interviewer] Do you think
you would get the same women

if you weren't KSI,
and you were just JJ?

Definitely not.
Let's be honest.

Like, I'm a six out
of ten, at best.

But the money and the
fame makes me an 11.

So... [laughs]

[rock music continues]

[Deji] JJ's not afraid
to cut loose anyone

if they're in his way.

'Cause he wants to be the best.

He's super-ambitious,

He can't let anybody...

outwork him or anything.

He has that inner spite in him,

and JJ and I,
we've had arguments

where he's literally told
me, "I don't love you".

He's said that to me.

Welcome, ladies and
gentlemen, to Family Fortunes.

[Deji] So, the beef all
started off with JJ's friend.

- Name a dead YouTube channel.
- [buzzer rings]

Deji.

[laughing]

Oh, boy, that's family.
That's family, bro.

[Deji] I didn't
take kind to that

so I did, like,
a video response.

You are the Sidemen's
as well as JJ's bitch.

You are literally their bitch.

You're JJ's cameraman,
he pays your salary.

You spend more time with JJ
than you do your own wife.

And that video response,

triggered him to make
a diss-track on me.

[rapping] ♪ Deji, tell
me Are you brain-dead? ♪

♪ 'Cause you still live
With your parents ♪

♪ I got loyalty deep in my
veins You got no brains ♪

♪ You got no friends
You got no game... ♪

Oh, Jesus.

♪ This is your end
You're just a poor man ♪

♪ I can't lie You're
just a Walmart KSI ♪

Oh, my God.

Oh! Yo, fam.

Randolph has gone so
in. Oh, my fucking God.

Deji's gonna be pissed, man.

I don't even know if he's gonna
wanna talk to me. [laughs]

[Deji] The way JJ kind of got
involved in the diss-track,

I felt betrayed.

- [hip-hop music playing]
- I did some stupid things.

♪ You say JJ this, JJ that ♪

♪ Call me Walmart
Let's talk facts ♪

♪ Yeah, he ran Yeah, he ran ♪

[Deji] That's what
really triggered it,

'cause that diss-track that
I did on him, it was like...

You're not really meant to do
a diss-track on your brother,

but I was fuelled with rage.

I told him we could fix things

if he just deletes the
diss-track he made on me,

but he refuses.

[Deji] Then I came back,
and JJ was at my house.

He was angry.

He was saying he was
gonna smash my PC,

gonna break everything.

[Deji] You came here
to talk? I'm pissed.

Go away, leave my house.

[KSI] Shut the fuck up.

[Deji] Little did I
know he was recording

everything that was going on.

It was just
arguments, arguments,

and then I said to him,
"Get out the house.

"Just get out. Get
out of my house".

And this was during
Christmas time.

[KSI over recording] Cool.
Whatever. I'm leaving. I'm off.

[Deji] And then, the whole
Internet just turned on me.

"How are you gonna kick out
your brother on Christmas?"

We find out in this video

that Deji has been non-stop
either lying, manipulating,

or leaving out facts
to harm his brother,

destroy his brother.

The fact that you're
just, you know,

carrying on with your
life, not giving a shit,

really fucking annoys me.

And I'm scared to
even call my family

because I'm scared
you're gonna just take

one negative thing that I say,

manipulate the audience,

and just make me look
as bad as possible.

I hate being... being
seen as a bad guy!

And I hate it so much.

I hate it. I fucking... I...

I'm just sick and
fucking tired of it.

You need to understand
what you're doing,

and it's not cool.

I'm done. I'm done,
guys. I'm done.

I... I have to just
put this out there.

[sighs] So please, can...

Let's just be done
with this, Dej.

[hip hop music playing]

[KSI] It's been a while.

I've kind of just left
Deji to do his own thing.

I don't think we're as
cool as we used to be,

like, back in the day,

but we're definitely not as
bad as we were a few years ago.

[rock music playing]

[inaudible]

We'll do three minutes.
Just get the heart rate up.

Over there, do some stretching.

When's the last
time you trained?

I train every day.

- [Petrie] Oh.
- [laughs]

[Petrie] Good. Good.

Three, two, one.

- [grunts]
- [Petrie] That is it.

Fuckin' hell! [panting]

[Petrie] Ten seconds,
all the way to the end.

[KSI] I always had that like,
"Oh, he's my little brother,

"I'll always take care of him".

He's always just
getting in trouble.

He just didn't work hard.

That's just it.
He was just lazy.

[Petrie] First round
as fast as you can.

Keep going, keep going,
keep going, keep going.

Three, two, one.

Ah, look, you
ripped off a second.

[Deji] He's a bully, huh?

[KSI] Nah, it's good.
It's what you need.

- You happy now?
- Yeah.

[Deji sighing and panting]

So, what, you train every day?

- Boxing every day.
- Honestly...

Yeah, boxing every day. S&C,
like, four times a week.

Okay. I like the sound of that.

You're one of the people I
want to see me win, you know.

I want you to see
me win, hand raised.

[KSI] Make it happen.

[interviewer] Would
it be fair to say

you were best
friends growing up?

[KSI] Yeah. No, we were
very good friends, yeah.

I'd say we were very tight.

After the whole public
situation between me and him,

yeah, that definitely distorted
the relationship that we had.

[Petrie] Three, four, five, six.

Easy.

[interviewer] Do you think if
it wasn't for the Internet,

you guys would have a
better relationship?

[Deji] One hundred percent.

I wouldn't say it's a curse,

but it definitely
would've been different

if there was no Internet.

Our relationship... I
think we'd be tight.

[Petrie] Push it if
you want, try eight.

Try eight.

There we go. Nice.

- And better. It's a good finish.
- [KSI] Nice.

[Petrie] Cool. Rest up.

[Deji] I just want it to
be like old times again,

where we would talk
about anything.

We were close, we would just...

always have each other's backs.

That's what I want. I just...
I just want a brother.

[both grunting]

[interviewer] So, how was
it, seeing your brother?

I was impressed. I'm impressed.

I'm always proud of
Deji, but, like...

I'm proud of him until he loses.

What drives me mad is
that Deji is so talented,

but I just don't know if
he has the self-belief

to really succeed.

But I think that's
just mainly because

my parents just allowed him to
get away with a lot of things.

My parents were very tough,

and I essentially lived with the
pressure of always doing well.

That's probably one
of the reasons why

my relationship with
them isn't great.

If I'm being honest,
I personally think

that my dad loves my
brother more than me.

[laughs]

But I think that's just
a younger-brother thing.

Deji's a very sensitive
person, and looking at it,

it's all to do with
lack of communication.

That is the problem.

And when we talk about
it, we don't address it.

I told JJ that,
"You're like your dad".

That, you know, "You don't
like dealing with issues".

I mean, I do talk to them,

but maybe when it
comes to the closeness,

the closeness
wasn't really there.

I don't, um...

- I find it very... Like...
- Yeah.

Little things like,
"Oh, love you, JJ".

It's difficult to...

It's so difficult.

I mean, with Deji...

Deji's different.
Deji will push.

- Yeah.
- Deji will demand.

- Yeah. Yeah.
- For it.

So, you can't get
away from Deji.

So, I think that's
one of the things

that's probably affecting JJ.

Maybe he thinks that we
favoured Deji over JJ.

[interviewer] You told
me about your parents,

but can you just describe to me,
what sort of people are they?

Okay, um...

My dad is very cold.
Doesn't talk much.

But I think he has heart.

My mum's very talkative.

Well, to me, she feels
more loving, and...

Yeah, nah. I'm definitely
closer to my mum,

funnily enough,
than my dad. Yeah.

Yeah.

I love my parents.

Obviously, I wish the
relationship was better,

that's just it.

[interviewer] So,
what do you think

their version of loving you is?

Uh...

Uh...

I guess...

Um...

I don't... [chuckles]

Oh, fuck's sake.

Ah, fuck!

I don't...

[sobs] Uh... I don't...

[sniffles]

[continues crying]

- [interviewer] Sorry, man.
- No, it's okay.

Fuck's sake. I knew I was...

This was gonna make
me fucking cry.

[laughing]

Fuck's sake.

Fuck you, man. [laughs]

[interviewer] I
didn't expect it.

I know it's a lot.

Nah, nah, it's all right.

Nah, it's all right.

Uh, I don't really know.

It's funny, like, um...

You know, I talk to a few people
about what my love language is.

And, er...

I say... I say, for me, it's
just, like, physical touch,

'cause I... I never really
got it from my parents.

So, I don't know, it's just...

Yeah, it's just nice to, like...

just have someone, you
know, hug me and say that,

"I love you", and
stuff like that.

I never really got
it from my family.

So, yeah, I guess...

Yeah, I think...

Loving-wise, I think I just
struggled with my parents.

[sombre music playing]

[KSI] I think that's
one of the reasons

why I'm starting
to see a therapist

'cause I just feel like

there's definitely
things in my childhood

that need to be addressed.

[upbeat hip hop music playing]

[speaking indistinctly]

[KSI] Uh, number four.

Okay.

I wonder whose that is.

Jeez.

[speaking indistinctly]

- [KSI laughs]
- Turn to the right.

[exclaiming excitedly]

There we are. You
see, different.

Different.

Now I'm living. Now...

[laughs]

I'm KSI now, yeah.

[man] This is how you
should've been living.

Yeah, you know what
I mean! Fucking hell.

Welcome. Welcome to
my humble abode, man.

It cost me over 10 mil.

I would say that the bank
is hurting a little bit,

but we're all
right. [chuckles]

But, yeah, come
through. Come up.

Let me show you what I got.

So, this is the
second living room.

Or, I guess, the living room
to my room, which is over here.

Ah, ah, ah.

Oh, here we go.

Welcome to my
bedroom, my palace.

The palace.

Wardrobe space, plenty. Plenty.

Bro! What?

Two showers? Shut up.

[laughs]

Then we have another floor.

[sighs]

So, yeah, this was the bed
that we said we'd leave in.

- Yeah, we're leaving this bed.
- Yeah.

- [intercom ringing]
- Oh?

Who's that? Oh.

Yo, yo.

[woman] Hiya, we're all here.

We're just gonna go
and grab some lunch.

- Is that all right?
- Yeah, go for it, go for it.

And I think, um...

I think JJ's here.

I think he's just gone
around in a car, I believe.

Yeah, I'm talking to you
right now. [chuckles]

Oh, sorry. I'm so sorry!

- Nah, nah, that's all right.
- Are you in?

Yeah, I'm inside
the house, yeah.

We'll be back in about 20
minutes. Thank you so much.

Okay, yeah. Cool.
All right, in a bit.

All right. Bye.

Look at that. [kisses] Easy.

All right, this is a guest room.

Yeah, man, guest is living good.

So... [laughs]

And then...

just other bathroom,
just because. [laughs]

Oh, this one also has a shower.

I didn't even realise.

I never checked that
side of the door.

Wow.

Another shower in...

Oh, flipping heck.

[interviewer] Have you
not seen your place?

[KSI] I've seen it
once, that's it.

Yeah, I've only
seen it once. Yeah.

I've seen videos, so
it reminded of, like,

"Wow, yeah, this
is sick," but...

Yeah, I've only been there
once, and that was all I needed.

I saw it once and I was like,

"Yeah, this is it.
This is the one".

This is my dream
house, man, in London.

Dream house in London.

[interviewer] What do you
think your parents will make

- of this house?
- [laughs]

[KSI] I haven't
shown them anything.

- [Paul] You tweeted this...
- [KSI] Oh, God.

[Paul] "What is true love?"

- [KSI laughs]
- [Paul] Then the next one,

"How can I love someone
when I don't love myself?"

- [KSI] Oh, Jesus! Oh, bro.
- [Paul] What are you doing?

What's going on with your heart?

Bro, I was single, innit.

So I'm just going
through a heart break.

When I'm alone and I'm
listening to certain music,

I just get in my feels,

and I'm like, "Fuck,
I miss her, man."

- And then...
- [laughs]

[Paul] "I should text her".

[KSI] [laughing] Yeah.

- But... but you tweeted this...
- [KSI] Oh, God.

- "What is true love?"
- [KSI laughs]

Did someone give you the answer?
'Cause if they did, let me know.

[mellow melancholy
music playing]

[door opening]

[hip-hop song playing
over speakers]

All right. Yo.

- How you doing?
- Nice to meet you, bro.

Nice to meet you, boss.

[people speaking indistinctly]

I was thinking about calling
the album "Caught in Two Minds."

I was thinking about calling
the album "Caught in Two Minds."

Oh, wow.

So it's like...

whether I want to be
in a relationship,

or what if I just want to be
out there like a boss-esque,

you know, like, doing my thing.

- So, it's like finding that...
- Balance

Balance, yeah, or
finding where I lie.

Do you change where you lie
on that from day to day?

Sometimes.

It's gotta make sense.

Who was that one person

you were like, ah, you
should talk to them?

Er, Emma Watson.

Not Emma Watson,
nah, she's beyond.

[man] That's wifey.

Like, yeah, she's, but nah

I mean, I already
squeaked when I saw her.

[man] I think girls
appreciate a squeak...

No, bro, she needs a man,

and I just fucked
that up instantly

[both chuckle]

from the first meet up.

[man] What did you say?

I'm not even gonna repeat it.

[in high-pitched voice]

Hi, Emma.

[chuckles]

[KSI speaking]

Fuck off, bro.

Sometimes some of your
suggestions are just...

Bro, my fairy tale
projection of your life,

you end up back with her and
you guys happy ever after.

I like that.

But before you do,

I want you to sow
your royal oats.

So that when you go back,
you're like, "All right,

"I definitely know the grass is
not greener on the other side."

Yeah, but, you know...

also her choice.

Oh, yeah yeah.

She can also decide,

"I ain't waiting for you."

That's why I said

in my ideal projection of
how things roll out for you.

[KSI] Mmm.

Because, er, yeah, she's sick.

She's really just sick.

Yeah.

Yeah, she is.

[woman singing indistinctly]

[singing indistinctly]

[song fades]

[KSI] Everything
happens in waves.

Especially from a break up.

The first wave is
like a tsunami,

and over time it gets
less and less and less,

and, yeah, every now and
then I still, go, "Oh, shit".

Like, you know...

"I miss her", or like, you know,

"We had a really
good thing going.

"I kind of wish we could've
done things better",

or, you know, "What
if..." et cetera.

[interviewer] Do you know how
she's feeling at the moment?

[KSI] Yeah, no,
she... She's good.

Obviously, her guard is up.

[laughs] And rightly so.

I'm not easy to be in
a relationship with.

I have this tendency to
always just bail out,

and it's a really bad habit
of mine, and, it's just...

Yeah, sometimes my mind
just goes, "Oh, fuck!

[laughs] "Bail!"

[Charlie Handsome] What are you
doing there? Are you trying...

Do you wanna hear shit

or do you just want us
to make random shit up?

Um, yeah, just...

For me, I think, hearing stuff,

'cause then I can definitely
feel an emotion from that.

♪ I know you said
"I gotta go" ♪

♪ Yet again I'm moving on ♪

♪ In a week, you said
And on and on and on ♪

♪ But I loved you ♪

- Better?
- [music stops]

- Or more boring?
- [Handsome] It was better.

No, it was better. I don't know
if it's it yet, but it is good.

- Okay.
- I think it is good.

[Mams Taylor] What
don't you like about it?

- 'Cause I'm hearing his voice...
- Yup.

- [Smith] Yeah.
- And I think it really...

- To me, it sounds really dope.
- [Smith] It'll sound good.

[Handsome] Aye, y'all
know better than me.

- [music playing over speakers]
- [KSI and Smith vocalising]

[KSI vocalising and
speaking indistinctly]

♪ I've been seeing double ♪

[Smith] ♪ I've been
Seeing double ♪

- [music continues]
- [clears throat]

[Handsome] One, two, three...

♪ I've been seeing double ♪

♪ Coming home so wasted ♪

♪ I've been having trouble
Finding your replacement ♪

♪ There's numbers in my phone
But all of them are strangers ♪

♪ That shit gets so lonely
Finding your replacement ♪

- [woman] Whoo, Cool, right?
- How's that, bro?

[KSI] But something like
that, yeah. [laughs]

[woman] Yeah!

In the feels.

[sombre music playing]

[inaudible]

[sombre music continues]

[KSI] Come back from LA,

I did a lot of
reflecting on the past

and all the things
I messed up on.

When I created
the KSI character,

I wanted to be more like him.

He was this alter ego that
allowed me to be confident

and believe that I was
bigger than I actually was.

And I didn't really see the
side effects until later on.

[mid-tempo rock music playing]

I've realised that being
KSI just slowly ruined

the relationship between
me and my family, for sure.

[music continues]

[speaking indistinctly]

[KSI] I kinda just have
stepped back and gone,

"Okay, what's
important in my life?

"What do I need to
properly sort out?"

And I realised being close
to the people closest to you

is very important, and
that's what I feel like,

family-wise, I need
to really fix that.

Alex Wassabi, you
desperate fucker.

You got your wish.

I'm going to bury your
already-dead career.

You ran from my bro, but
there's no escaping me.

I want to see all my fans
there to witness my redemption.

[announcer] Ladies
and gentlemen,

your main event of the evening.

This is the final bout
between Alex Wassabi and Deji.

- [KSI] How you feeling, bro?
- Feeling good, JJ. How are you?

I'm good, man. I'm good. Good.

- [Yinka] Hi.
- [Taylor] Nice to meet you.

[KSI] Jeez!

He's out there.

We go again. We go again.

I want to bring it
back home, no messing.

[chuckles] Don't give
him nervous energy.

Nah, he's got this. Nah.

How you feeling? How
you feeling, bro?

I cried.

Why did you cry?

I'm watching your back,
don't say that shit.

No, it's okay, it's okay,
bro. I cried at my camp.

- I cried at my camp.
- It was just...

- the stress.
- Yeah, it's all right.

It's all good.

That's you releasing
all that stress,

all that nervous energy.

Come on, man.

- Come on.
- [Yinka speaking]

Deji, please just
don't disappoint.

[KSI] Don't let
losing be an outcome.

Think of it like,
"All I can do is win.

"That's my destination,
that's all it is".

You're a fucking gladiator,
bro. You're a gladiator.

- Show everyone you are.
- Yeah.

All right, bro. Kill
it, man. All right?

[announcer] The time
for talking is over,

and the time for action is now!

- [rock music playing]
- [crowd cheering]

[bell rings]

You want this! Go get it!

Deji, go get it!

Attack! Attack!

Yes! Yes! Go!

- [bell ringing]
- Deji, come on!

[shouting indistinctly]

[bell ringing]

- [KSI] Just look good.
- [Deji] Do I go again?

- Huh?
- Do I go again?

What do you mean "go again"?

Do I box again?

Oh, if you win, yes.

If you lose, then, no.

Dej, this is your opportunity.
This is your chance, bro.

Okay? So, go.

You think you won?

- Okay.
- I don't know.

- Do you think I won?
- What do you think?

[crowd clamouring]

[announcer] Ladies
and gentlemen,

declaring your winner
by split decision...

Alex Wassabi!

[crowd clamouring]

[KSI] You could've won
that, it was there,

and you just didn't take
it, and that's why I'm like,

you need that mentality to go,
"Fuck it, I'm going to win".

I was screaming, "This
is your last round,

"Do this. Let's go.
Take this opportunity".

The idea of losing, bro...

Can... Bro, for me, I
can't ever fathom it.

I'm terrified of losing.

I'm scared, bro. It
terrifies... And you know why?

Because it sucks.

So I put in that work, and I
do extra and extra and extra.

- I do. I do...
- It's frustrating!

- You don't understand.
- I do. I know it's frustrating.

I wish I could put my
fucking brain into yours

so you can actually
understand what it...

- I do want this, I promise you.
- But it doesn't...

- You don't show it.
- I know it doesn't look like it,

but I've only just
realised how much...

Why have you just realised now
after you've lost again, bro?

No, I'm saying I
realised, my last fight...

But why didn't you win this one?

[sighs] Yeah, I know.

If you get another chance,

because obviously you
have to face the public...

[Deji] Are you behind me?

Bro, I'm always behind you.

What do you mean,
am I behind you?

I'm always behind you.

I mean, if I get in the ring
again, will you back me?

[KSI] Well, I'm always here.

Why would I ever
not back you, bro?

I'm your brother,
bro. It's okay.

Even if I wasn't your
brother, all right?

- You little dickhead.
- [laughs]

All right, I'm gonna head
in, so, see you in a bit.

See you in a bit, JJ.

[KSI] Yo, what's up?
It's your boy KSI.

Deji, I...

I'm... I'm disappointed.

You've lost three
times. Three times, man!

I don't think you have what it
takes to win a boxing match.

The reason why I
am where I am today

is because most of the time,
I do everything that I do

for me.

Same with boxing. I
did that shit for me.

When are you gonna finally
do something for yourself?

I know people are gonna be like,
"Ah, JJ, you're being so harsh."

"You're being mean",

or "You're being
fair." [mock laughs]

I don't care, fam. I don't care.

[sighs] All right, well...

Yeah. Peace.

[interviewer] In
what ways are you

a different person
to your brother?

[Deji] I guess...

He doesn't care what
other people think.

I essentially do.

But I can just sense
that he's lonely.

JJ feels like he's
not part of the family

because, obviously,
we're all so close,

whereas he's kind of,
like, in the distance.

So he feels like an outsider.

[interviewer] So, how, as
a family, are you trying

to work on the problems
buried in the past?

I guess, like, my parents
are realising that...

he's kind of, like...

He's on an island on his own,

so now they're, like, you know,

swimming to him now to help.

They realise that...

Like, er...

It's a lonely world out there.

But my dad, he just...

I just told him, like,
"You're not here forever,

"and you don't want JJ to
have a bad memory of you.

"So fix it.

"Fix it before it's too late".

[KSI] Today I'm seeing my dad,

which is pretty weird.

My dad is coming by
himself to see me.

Whoa. [laughs]

It's crazy.

He's my dad, but I have...

I literally know barely
anything about him.

[interviewer] Do you
think he knows you?

Ah, no.

No, not at all.

[doorbell ringing]

- [KSI] Yo, you all right?
- How are you?

- [KSI] How you doing?
- How are you?

[KSI] Yeah, I'm good, I'm good.

- Well, welcome.
- Boy, this a big house.

[KSI] Yeah, it's nice. It's
a decent... Decent spot.

This is the first
time I'm entering

- a 10-million-pound house.
- [chuckles]

Jeez. God.

Yeah, well, I'll give you
a little tour, obviously.

- Kitchen.
- You've done well.

- Stairs.
- Jeez. This a massive house.

Yeah.

So, how do you
change these bulbs?

You need to get an
expert to come change it.

Yeah, I mean, I can just
hit up my PA to sort that.

[Jide] What's this?

[KSI] So, this is gonna
be my YouTube room.

I bet your internet will be
very fast here, all this set up.

Well, the internet is
fast everywhere, Dad.

[both laugh]

And this... Ah, okay.

You don't do any
laundry, do you?

[KSI] If I want to, I
can, but I choose not to.

I bet you don't do any
cooking. Do you do any cooking?

Nah, sometimes. It depends
on how I'm feeling.

Maybe boil some egg
and do some toast?

- I bet that's what you do.
- Nah, well, I have a chef,

so I don't need to
do that anymore.

- Okay.
- I just

get him to make it for me.

- How are you anyway, in general?
- I'm fine.

- What do you mean by "fine"?
- I'm very good.

- Yeah. How's Mum?
- Yeah, she's fine.

- How's the dog?
- Yeah.

The dog is fine.

I mean, the dog keeps
me busy, which I love.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

Yeah, I... I'm very surprised
that you actually, um...

- Come here.
- You came here.

I need to talk to you
about, you know...

We need to be good.

Oh, okay, so then, how
do we work on being good?

Because, you see,
both of us, er...

I believe... I mean...

- Tell me if I'm wrong.
- Okay.

- I believe, as a dad...
- Mmm-hmm.

I believe I fulfilled
my duty. Yes or no?

Uh...

Yes and no.

- Yeah.
- Okay. Let's deal with the "no".

Um, I don't think
you were that loving.

Okay.

My upbringing was, you
know... Was rubbish.

- I don't want to think about it.
- No, it's okay.

Thinking about it, it'll make
me go bonkers, you understand?

It was so bad.

With my dad, we never...

You see, we never sat down...

- Sitting down like this, never.
- Yeah. Yeah.

We've never had
that relationship.

My dad's never...

I've never been given a hug.

You see, it's something
I've never experienced.

Well, if your dad
never hugged you...

- I'm not...
- so then...

And then you hardly
ever hugged us.

You see, my dad never...

- Did your dad, like, hit you?
- Yeah.

And then, you've kind
of just done the same.

But, look, now, when
it comes to now,

let's talk about that.

Is it something we
do all the time?

No, no, it wasn't something
you did all the time.

It's just something
that just happened.

Every time we were
naughty, we would get hit.

Because, to us, we
thought that was love.

- You understand?
- Yeah.

We're putting you guys
on the right track.

But it affects me in
my later years, Dad.

Just like it affected
you in your...

No, no, no, but
mine was different.

I got beat until I
was 21 years old.

Yeah, but still...

It's still affected you in
your later years, right?

Yeah, but when you were five,
maybe you can't even remember.

[chuckles] Dad.

I think...

I think I do because,
obviously, I'm telling you.

There's times where I
just hated you for it.

- Really?
- Yes.

It's okay, Dad, I'm not angry.

So, we're good?

Well, I... I feel like,

obviously, the communication
could be better.

I need to work on my
communication skills.

- I'm very bad at it, anyway.
- I know.

It's not too late
for you to change,

- as a person.
- Yeah, yeah.

I mean, we do say it,

maybe, you know, "I love you",
"Love you too", "Love you".

But, you know, it's just...

[KSI] It's actually kind of
weird hearing you say it.

Yeah. [laughs]

Yeah, it's pretty weird.

Yeah, these are things
that should be normal.

- Yeah.
- Yeah, so I'm working on it too.

This is a huge step.

Do you know how
huge this step is

for you to be here by yourself?

I think this is the
most we've talked

in 10-plus years, honestly.

Which is kind of sad, but
it's also kind of cool.

Do you want to actually
hug each other?

Yeah, I mean, we do hug
each other, don't we?

I mean, we shook hands
when you got here.

- [laughing]
- How's that? Is that all right?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- How's that?
- Yeah, it's okay.

[both laugh]

[KSI] Like, yeah, like this.

[Jide] It's nice.

- [Jide] It's odd, isn't it?
- Yeah.

- Love you, Dad.
- Love you, too.

[Jide] Ah, this
would do my head in.

[KSI] It's actually
really therapeutic.

Look at where it could work.

Ah! [laughs]

Yeah, that's good.

Oh.

[KSI] Dealing with
issues in my past

has definitely made me happier.

I am a work in progress,
and I think that's...

that's kind of cool because
I don't want to be completed,

'cause then what? [laughs]

Then what? And that's kind
of how I felt last year.

I felt like I'd
completed everything

and I had no purpose, and...

Yeah, it was weird, like...

Yeah, I was definitely
not in a good spot.

But now I'm great, so...

- [interviewer] Amazing.
- Ah, thank you, man.

It's been a fucking
journey, for real.

And I appreciate it.

[rock music playing]

[KSI] Yo, what's up? It's
your boy KSIOlajideBT.

How are y'all doing?

Your boy has an
announcement to make.

Your boy is performing
at Wembley Arena.

This show is going to be

the biggest show I have
ever done in my life.

Best believe it's gonna be mad.

[music continues]

Signing your shirts now.

[interviewer] I know
you're on good terms

with your ex-girlfriend.

- [KSI] Yeah.
- Is she here today?

[KSI] No, no, she's not here.

She said, "Good luck,
not that you need it."

"And just smash it and
let me know how it is."

[crowd cheering]

[rock music continues]

- [music stops]
- [cheering continues]

- ["The Moment" playing]
- [crowd cheering wildly]

[cheering continues]

♪ Just hopped out the
bank I'm rollin' ♪

♪ Pockets swollen
It's my year ♪

♪ And I am the
one Who's chosen ♪

♪ Neck, wrist,
frozen I don't care ♪

♪ I enter the
room I'm glowin' ♪

♪ No strings holdin'
Man's gone clear ♪

♪ I'm comin' to
own Like Romans ♪

♪ This my moment Zero fear ♪

♪ Ay, London Man,
I feel amazing ♪

♪ Runnin' up the
numbers With my feed ♪

♪ With my feed ♪

- ♪ My disease is goin' viral ♪
- ♪ Oh ♪

♪ Yeah, trust me I'mma
sickle when we meet ♪

♪ I'm comin' to
own Like Romans ♪

♪ This my moment Zero fear ♪

[crowd cheering]

Hello, Wembley!

[cheering loudly]

It's your boy KSI.

[crowd cheering]

[hip hop music playing]

♪ I wanna wake up every
mornin' Feelin' better ♪

♪ 'Cause I know You're
sleeping by my side ♪

♪ And every moment
We're together ♪

♪ I remember just to keep
it all For you and I ♪

♪ I see that body
In the sunlight ♪

♪ Feelin' the heat
And it feels right ♪

♪ I wanna do this For
the rest of my life ♪

- [music continues]
- [crowd] KSI! KSI! KSI!

[commentator 1
speaking indistinctly]

[commentator 2] KSI's
coming out guns blazing.

He hit him... Oh, he's down.

[commentator 3] Deji,
coming straight ahead.

Deji walks away
with his first win.

[reporter] Deji,
what do you think

of KSI's two-in-one-night
performance?

I mean, he's a king. What
more can I really say?

He's a king. Now this
is his moment, though.

I'm not... I don't want
to steal this. Sorry.

Nah, nah, nah, this
is our moment, bro.

This is our moment, bro.

What are you on about?

Your first win, bro. I'm
fucking proud of you.

- ["Voices" playing]
- ♪ Whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Whoo-hoo
Whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ I let go ♪

♪ Every time I hear those ♪

♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ My head ♪

♪ I run home ♪

♪ Every time I get those ♪

♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ My head ♪

♪ Don't let me down Don't
say you miss me now ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been
trying To figure out ♪

♪ Why you're still in my mind ♪

♪ I've been driving around
This good-for-nothing town ♪

♪ It helps me not to think about
Oh, where you sleep at night ♪

♪ Now I'm lying in
bed here Without you ♪

♪ And I can't stop
dreaming About you ♪

♪ Wanna close my eyes And
watch us drift away, yeah ♪

♪ I let go ♪

♪ Every time I hear those ♪

♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ My head ♪

♪ I run home ♪

♪ Every time I get those ♪

♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ My head ♪

♪ Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ I try to hide The pain
you put me through ♪

♪ I tell myself it's fine ♪

♪ Another
one-night-stand Will do ♪

♪ I'm turning out the lights
So it's dark inside my room ♪

♪ And then I close my eyes
Pretending that it's you ♪

♪ I wish my memory was deleted ♪

♪ My heart's in 100 pieces ♪

♪ In my head I hear
you screaming ♪

♪ It wakes me While
I'm sleeping ♪

♪ Now I'm lying in
bed here Without you

♪ And I can't stop
dreaming About you ♪

♪ Want to close my eyes And
watch us drift away, yeah ♪

♪ I let go ♪

♪ Every time I hear those ♪

♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ My head ♪

♪ I run home ♪

♪ Every time I get those ♪

♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ My head ♪

- ♪ Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh ♪
- ♪ Voices in my head ♪

♪ Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh ♪

♪ Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh ♪

♪ Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh ♪

♪ Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh ♪

[instrumental rap
rock music playing]