Into My Heart (1998) - full transcript

Adam and
I were like brothers

best friends
since nursery school.

We grew up in the city

and spent our summers at
his parents' country house

in Stockbridge.

His dad used to say we were
like two olives in a martini.

But we weren't.

Not really.

Adam was always the golden boy

a kid destined for everything.

When I think about
that day at the tower



sometimes I wonder
if I'd actually paid attention

to what he was saying

really paid attention

but, maybe he was reaching out.

But I doubt it.

I mean, in all the time
I knew him, I never saw him cry

even after the accident
with his eye when we were kids.

He had such a strong will.

You kind of got used to the idea
that nothing could hurt him.

But I never
had any sense that...

well, maybe I did
somewhere down deep, because

when I woke up it was like
I knew what had happened.

I just knew it.

Adam!



After 8th
grade the Ad-man and I

were both packed off
to boarding school at Andover.

Four years of cold
showers and tuna casserole.

Christmas break was
always a long time coming.

We piled out shit into my
500 dollar Chrysler New Yorker

it home to the city.

I got a letter
from Columbia yesterday.

Really?

Told my dad not to open it.

You have a
heightened sense of drama.

I don't like
people opening my mail.

OK, you just make
yourself comfortable.

I'll drive, you relax.

Shut up and drive.

Think my dad's having an affair.

Why do you say that?

He's acting weird.

He's got a little
attitude on him.

What do you mean?

Hard to explain,
it's just kind of a vibe.

A vibe?

What's that based on?

Dude, it's not the first time.

Really?

Yeah.

What about your mom?

-What about her?
-Does she know?

She has to know.

And?

It's not something she's
going to talk about, obviously.

Not to me, anyway.

Actually, not to anyone.

That's fucked-up.

-What?
-Your dad doing that.

You serious?

Yeah, I'm serious.

Guy's been married for...

thirty years.

So?

So?

You have sex with the
same woman for thirty years?

You married her.

What's that mean?

I think it means something.

Well, I guess they
should stay together

so they don't rock
your little fantasy world.

It's sad.

Adam got
into Columbia, of course

and through some clerical
error or something, so did I.

We were both back on home turf.

Yeah Beat Pub
on 10th and Broadway

was our official hangout.

That was where we met Nina.

Belushi croaked.

No.

Mad, huh?

Hey, check out this waitress.

She's got a nice ass.

Nice ass, she so
transcends nice ass.

-I'll be with you in a second.
-OK.

She's all right.

Philistine.

What can I get you?

I'll have
Jack Daniel's on the rocks

and a cheese
burger, medium rare.

Oh, a health nut.

Hey, you know Belushi died?

Oh, wow.

You won't let that
happen to me, will you?

No, never.

-You OK?
-Yeah.

God...

Not bad.

Not my type.

Not bad.

You're insane.

You see her eyes?

The ponytail,
those perfect little wrists.

She's so fucking cute.

I could fall
deeply in love with her.

I am deeply in love with her.

Hey. Not my type.

Yeah. I've heard.

Listen, I'll give you
your whole biography, OK?

Dances at the Quag Feudal Club.

Must I continue?

Tennis. Horses.

Oh, and lots of
James Taylor, definitely.

That why she's working here?

because Daddy wants her to get
in touch with the common man.

-One Jack D on the rocks.
-Thanks.

-Hey, listen. I have a question.
-Uhuh?

Are you on the swim team?

Yeah.

Hundred meter butterfly. Why?

I'll be right back
with your cheese burger.

You're such a prick.

Oh.

You just process
her, just like that.

Come on, you've got to
admit, she's a touch removed.

I'm sorry she's not
some chain-smoking Euro-fag.

Cover me, I'm going in.

Digging your own grave.

We lived in Kansas.

And carved our
names into a tree.

And a big heart around it.

Got any keys?

-Keys...
-Uhuh.

OK.

They'll send me
to Riker's for this.

Fifteen.

One, two, three, four, five.

Fifteen across and five down.

-Five across?
-No.

Fifteen across and five down.

-Do you know what?
-What?

I'm always gonna
be here to remind you.

Would you read to me?

He woke when it was
barely just light enough

to see the pine trunks.

And he left the bed

careful not
to wake Catherine.

No, Hemingway.

...found his shorts

and went

The Peloponnesians, however

having spent
the time up until midday

laying waste the land

-sailed away again.
-No!

At about nightfall were
informed by fire signals.

One fine day

Poo had stomped up
to the top of the forest

to see if his
friend Christopher Robin

was interested in bears at all.

Yes.

At breakfast that morning

a simple meal

of marmalade spread lightly
over a honeycomb or two...

Hello?

Nina.

Ben?

Yes.

Come on up.

-Sorry.
-Hi. Come in.

Where's the Man?

Oh, he went, uhh...

he went to
Concord for the weekend.

He's interviewing
that guy for his thesis.

Shit, I totally forgot
that that was this weekend.

Oh god.

I'm sorry, I'm gonna take off.

Hey.

Hey, Ben, why don't
you hang out for a while?

I'm just studying
for my mid-terms.

I could do with a break.

-You sure?
-Yeah.

Come on, sit down.

Mind if I have a drink?

Of course not.

I don't actually know
what we've got, though.

You want anything?

Yeah. Sure.

Think I've got
some wine in the fridge.

What are we drinking to?

How about celibacy?

Ben, it won't last long.

Yeah, it will.

I don't need this shit.

Ben, are you OK?

How much have you had to drink?

There.

A little better.

Time to hit the streets.

Have you had anything to eat?

Could I make you
something to eat?

Scrambled eggs.

Toast. Would you eat that?

I'm fine.

Ben.

I'm, I'm gonna go.

Ben. Sit down.

Ben, sit down.

Eggs l'Awesome.

This is a time-honored

family recipe.

And there is one

crucial, but
controversial ingredient

which is, mushrooms.

Are you OK with mushrooms, Ben?

I don't understand how
you do that. I fucking just...

Just take off with a

note taped to the
fucking refrigerator...

Would you do that?

I'm serious.

Would you do that?

Would you ever do that?

No.

She was very unhappy, Ben.

She was an unhappy person.

Together, you were unhappy, too.

Yeah? What am I now?

I feel like an ass.

Oh. No.

No, no.

You have every right
to feel the way you do.

I swear, all I want is
a normal relationship, you know?

I mean, is it too
much to fucking ask?

Just got to
find the right person.

Is Adam your right person?

Yeah.

Yeah, definitely.

I don't know if you...

know this, but...

I didn't really
like you at first.

Yeah. I kinda
got that impression.

What, he told you?

No.

No, Adam always told
me how much you liked me.

I was a jerk, but...

Adam's lucky.

Oh, are you making yourself all
pretty for Ben's new girlfriend?

I should meet the woman

he spends the
rest of his life with.

Ergo

the woman we spend
the rest of our lives with.

That's rather
momentous, wouldn't you say?

Huh.

No, you don't think that
you're just putting a little

a little bit too much
pressure on this girl?

She could be the one.

I sense it.

Hmm.

What is this music?

Adam sent it to me. I
realize I never listened to it.

A little last-minute cramming?

Shh, don't tell him.

It's pretty weird.

Is he weird?

I met Kat at Stanford Law

the first school
I'd ever attended

without Adam as a classmate.

He and Nina had gotten married

and started
spending a lot of time

up at his
parents' country house.

This is scary. I'm being
thrown in at the deep end.

You guys have all known
each other for so long.

I love you.

That's good.

That's all that matters.

Give me a kiss.

Whew. Oh, those
New England winters.

-Hey.
-Hey.

If it isn't John
Cheever himself.

-Made it.
-Hey, how're you doing?

-How are you?
-Good to see you, buddy.

Kat! I'm Nina.

I feel like I know
you guys already.

Ben talked about you
uhh, well... constantly.

That much,
bored the crap out of you.

-Kat, the Ad-man.
-Hey, welcome.

-Hey, sweetie.

We're absolutely
thrilled to meet you.

Thanks.

She's too good
for the likes of you.

What do you know?
You just met her.

I can tell.

-You have a good drive up?
-Oh yeah.

-Yeah.
-Beautiful.

Yeah.

Carry inside, people.

-You drink, I trust?
-A little.

We'll see about that.

Don't worry about it, I got it.

Place is great.

We'll grow on you, I promise.

He's attractive.

Huh?

Adam.

He's very attractive, I can
see why women would like him.

Well, Nina was his
first serious girlfriend.

Really?

Yeah.

I mean, I guess he fooled around
with girls at Andover, but...

yeah, Nina was
his first real love.

He was a virgin?

Yep.

-That's great.
-Yeah.

Can't believe that.
That's so romantic.

Hmm.

What?

I don't know. It's...

He's never been hurt.

I mean, never. He's never

developed any kind of

like emotional scar
tissue or anything.

Why is that so important?

I don't know, I mean...

in an ideal world,
it isn't I suppose.

What are you, a jaded stud?

Hey, been around, you know.

-Could have fooled me.
-Oh yeah?

-Yup.
-Let me show you.

You never told me
he had an eyepatch.

Oh.

-Sure I did.
-No, you didn't.

What happened?

Umm...

We got hold of
a bottle rocket, one

Fourth of July, and

I lit it, but

he was leaning over it...

God, how old were you?

Seven.

How come you never told me?

I could have sworn I did.

You poor baby.
That must have been awful.

I never saw him cry.

Kat, they would
wear long black coats

and I gotta tell you
they looked ridiculous.

Uhuh.

What do you mean

we looked ridiculous?

What about your
little uniform, Missy?

The, the...

suede clogs and
the perfect jeans.

Brooks Brothers shirt

rich girl slumming
at Unique Boutique.

Oh, and what?
You spent your summers

selling potatoes
from a horse-drawn...

That's right! I walked 25 miles

through snow over
mountains for my education.

Nothing came to me.

Yeah, my friends and I
used to walk through Palo Alto

in these, uhh... uhh...

in these tie-dyed
peasant dresses

-No. Lighter.
-Listening to the dead.

-You were a dead-head?
-...dancing girls.

I can't imagine that.

-It was awful.
-Oh, she's wild.

All photos from that
period should be destroyed.

Nina hated me back then.

Oh. Oh, you're right.

Kat, it was the
other way around.

You see, Ben thought that I was
stealing his little playmate.

What do you mean? You were the
Yoko Ono of Columbia University.

Oh!

My little Yoko.

Thank you.

And then we had
this very bonding moment.

Nina was very kind to
me in an hour of need.

I made you eggs.

You made me eggs,
Eggs l'Awesome.

Uhuh.

And you were so sad.

Oh man, I was so pathetic.

Don't tell me, don't tell me

don't tell me it's
the famous Emily moment.

And then...

this asshole, this asshole
writes a one-act play about it.

I write what I know.

Yeah, nothing's so painful that
Adam Miller can't exploit it

-for his own personal gain.
-Hey.

-Careful.
-This from a law student.

But on top of it,
the fucking thing wins the...

the drama prize

and is performed in front
of 200 people or something

-look at my life...
-I changed the names.

Yeah, you changed the names.

-I became Ken.
-

It was really beautiful.

People wept.

-Yeah, I wept.
-They didn't.

What was wrong
with those colors?

It happened. We were
two happening silhouettes.

Just carved it.

Can I... can I see it?

See what?

Your dick, what do you think?

Hey, who needs a beer?

-Go on.
-Are you sure?

Are you sure you can handle it?

Yeah, I want to see it.

Gaze into the abyss.

Ben uhh, never told me.

Everyone else
felt so sorry for me.

I always felt
kind of sorry for him.

Everything that happens in life

people always want
to blame somebody.

Mm.

But it could have been the
other way around so easily.

So you weren't
pissed off, Adam?

It was an accident.

And he's still
carrying it around.

You saw the way
that he disappeared

when you brought it up?

Mm.

It's sad.

What are you gonna do?

I like her.

-Yeah?
-Uhuh.

She's nice.

She's genuine.

It's good to see you.

I miss you too, you know.

Oh, I miss you guys.

You do not belong
in California, Ben.

You should move back here.

I mean it! Come back. Bring Kat.

Well?

What?

Kat?

I don't know, I...

I think so.

We get along really well...

It could be, it could well be...

Good.

You deserve to be happy.

Thanks.

Mm.

Oh my god,
why are we here again?

Hey, man. Nostalgia, you know?

Sentiment,
you're like an old man.

Kat and I got married
our final year of law school.

And after graduation
we moved back to New York.

She started working for
the mayor, and I got a job

at a big corporate law firm.

It was a very
late-80's yuppie existence.

-How's your work going?
-It's going good.

Yeah?

Yeah, finishing up that
thing for the Sunday magazine-

-What, still?
-Yeah, Ben.

I take my work really seriously,

parasites...

-You're lazy, man.
-I know and love.

I write like two briefs
a day, what's the big deal?

You write briefs, I wear briefs.

You ever tried feeding a camel
through the eye of a needle?

Huh?

-I can't say I've done that.
-It takes a while.

It's all here baby, trust me.

See, you can go home again.

Oh.

Nothing's changed.

She's upped the material.

Only grist for the mill.

-Hello.
-How are you guys this evening?

-Good, thanks.
-We're doing fine.

Good. What can I get you guys?

We'd like a pitcher of
your cheap, watered-down

draught beer, please.

-You got it.
-Excuse me.

You're not on
the swim team, are you?

It's OK, he has a brain tumor.

You don't know?

How's Kat doing?

Good.

She's working
all the fucking time.

We hardly see each other.

She's a powerful woman, though.

I get that.

Laminated
"Office of the Mayor" card.

We can park anywhere we want to

and do.

Why isn't this great?

Come on, doesn't this place
have good feelings for you?

Like, you met Nina here.

That's a good thing.

That's a fucking good thing.

Here you go.

All right.

Anything else?

Think that'll do.

Good.

It's cute.

-Cheers, man.
-Cheers, buddy.

I was thinking about
Emily the other day.

Uh-oh.

No, just...

That intensity.

You know?

I mean that, that insane...

feeling of romantic love...

I swear, man...

Don't even remember
what that felt like.

You're lucky, you piece of shit.

You know it, don't you?

What do you think?

So...

what do you do?

I mean, are you
still madly in love?

Yeah.

That insane thing goes

but something takes its place.

We find new things
that make you happy.

Anyway, hindsight's
always fucked-up.

Emily was nuts, man.
She drove you insane.

Yeah, but...

Yeah, she was fucking cute.

I can still smell her perfume.

"Tatiana."

It's not fair to
compare people to ghosts.

They're not gonna measure up.

Thanks.

Yes. OK.

OK. No. Remember
to book those chairs

that thing Tuesday
in Staten Island.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Thanks, Nelson.

Oh, and, and, and...

The, uhh, the
mayor's reservation also.

I know.

I know, I just
wanted to make sure.

I'm gonna be at the
Stockbridge number or this one.

OK.

Have a good Thanksgiving.

See you Monday.

Bye.

What are you, his babysitter?

He's a very busy man.

Yeah, His Honor.
He can suck me off.

Would you like that?

Desperately.

Kat, you know, I mean, I've
been in the car for half an hour

it's almost five o'clock. It's
gonna be a fucking nightmare.

Sweetie, I'm sorry.

I don't know
what else I can say.

I'm sorry.

Sex god.

Yeah, you think
that's gonna work?

Yes.

Well, you're right, goddammit.

Life Saver?

What kind you got?

Banana.

Oh yes.

Oh.

So, how was your day?

My day was grunt work.

Took a deposition from a guy

I swear looked exactly
like Charles Laughton.

Oh.

"Mr Christian!"

This from Joey Adams.

Hiram says, I had a girlfriend
once, for eleven days.

That's a strange
amount of time, I said.

Hiram shrugs.

"Took her that long to
chew through the ropes."

I can't believe you
can get the Post up here.

It's like an invasion.

So.

Who's up for a walk?

Forget about it.

Ben?

Yeah. Sure. Why the hell not?

Ma'am?

You know, I really want
to get this crap done.

I don't want to think
about it. Is that OK?

Sure.

-You sure?
-Yep.

It's you and me, kid.

Have fun.

Think they said it
was gonna snow tonight.

-Yeah?
-Yeah.

Wouldn't that just be great?

Cold, wet

wouldn't have to do anything.

-Be all cozy.
-Mmm, it smells like snow.

Mmm.

Feel like the bridge
knows the answer.

It's just that Josie and I
built a whole village under it.

Oh yeah?

The Great Falls.

Want to hear a secret?

Yeah.

A troll lives under this bridge.

-Uhuh?
-Yes.

Seen him, have you?

-Sorry.
-Of course.

OK. Whoo!

Take a stick.

-Why? What...?
-Come on, pick a stick.

These are Poo sticks

for Poo and
Piglet's favorite game.

All right.

Whichever one comes out the
other side first is the winner.

Wait. How do we
know which one is which?

Whichever comes
out first is mine.

-OK. You ready?
-Yes.

One... two, three. Go!

Come on, Sea Biscuit!

What?

Sorry.

-I'm sorry.
-No, it's OK.

Really, it's OK.

Uhh...

Yes, well, I think this
is the time where you say

we should be heading
back to the house now.

Right. That's not a bad idea.

Umm.

Nina. I'm sorry. I mean, I...

-totally...
-No. It's, it's not anything.

-It's OK.
-I don't know...

It's OK.

Sex maniac.

The wayfarers return.

What smells so good?

-Kat's making banana bread.
-Ah.

Oh, man!

Hey, good walk?

Yeah. It was great.

What's the score?

21-17, Rams. Four minutes left.

Can they still
find time to lose it...?

What do you think?

Cowboys have had
six fucking turnovers.

Since when do you give
a shit about the Cowboys?

I can't tolerate incompetence.

-Hey.
-Hey.

Hmm.

A girl can dream. Gimme.

Red cheeked baby.

Where'd you guys go?

Oh.

I don't know.
The, umm, that bridge.

The troll bridge?

-Yeah.
-See that bastard?

I missed him.

Anyone want a beer?

M-mm.

-Ad-man?
-Yeah.

I kind of avoided
her for months after that.

I still hung out with
Adam, but I made excuses

not to go to their apartment

not to see her.

Until one night I was
walking home off Broadway.

Yo! Spare some change.

-He-hey!
-Hu-huh.

-How're you doing?
-Hey, stranger.

Oh, nice to see you.

-What are you up to?
-Thanks.

Oh, you know
me. I'm just, uhh...

working for the man here.

Oh yeah, all grown up, huh?

Oh no, please.

Everybody I know,
they're having kids

getting apartments
in Park Avenue...

Feel like I'm
getting left behind.

Oh, what? Come on,
you should feel lucky.

-Yeah.
-Chestnut?

-Christmas.
-Nice, hey?

Mmm.

Hey, what are you doing now?

-Right now?
-Yeah.

-Freezing my ass off.
-Let's go have a drink.

-I gotta get home.
-Aww.

-I can't.
-Why?

I'm taping Jeopardy.

Get out of here!

I-

-promised Adam.
-You don't have a timer?

Yeah, why,
I thought I'd be home.

Well, fuck Jeopardy.
Why, I'm talking about

real human interaction here.
Isn't that more important?

Anyway, it's the
high school tournament.

-Really?
-It is, whole week.

Baby questions.

Hey, so you guys went skiing.

Uhuh.

I haven't talked
to you since then.

Ben, you do not
need to feel weird about...

Troll bridge incident.

Yeah.

I mean, I wanted
you to know that I

didn't take it badly.

It just happened.

It's no big deal, OK?

You didn't tell him.

No.

I'm here with uhh...

I'm here with the
great Kathy Burkland.

Umm...

No, probably

about an hour. Is that OK?

OK, great.

All right, you want me
to bring you home anything?

OK.

Yeah, I love you, too.

Bye.

I just told Adam
that I was, uhh...

I told Adam
I was with Kathy Burkland.

Who's Kathy Burkland?

A girl I went to school with.

God, I don't
know why I did that.

I mean, why would I do that?

Because you're
having a good time.

So?

Yeah. Guess so.

We're having
a good time, and, and

you don't want
to change anything.

You are having
a good time, aren't you?

Uhuh.

It's like this

weird cross between
nostalgia and anxiety.

I know,
it doesn't make any sense.

Oh no. No, I'm with you.

It's just that it's impossible
to explain, it's uhh...

You know when you're a kid

and you go to the supermarket

and for the first
time you lose your mom

and you get that

you know, you get
that kind of rush that...

Yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, I used to get something
like that when I was little.

I, I would... I'd stare.

Right?

Into a little mirror

until I was utterly terrified.

And, I think, it was this

realization that I was

this solitary thing

physically alone

-right?
-Yeah.

That, that I was,
that I was ultimately alone

in the universe.

Well, what did you do?

I stopped looking in the mirror.

-No, but...
-No.

I'm serious.

Oh.

It's like a...

like forcing yourself
to wake up from a nightmare.

It's the same principle.

I wish I could
describe it better.

I just get these feelings

feelings of longing, you know?

Longing and a kind of fear.

Fear that I've lost something.

All right.

You tell me one.

One what?

A memory, an image, a...

a PCU.

OK.

I got one.

All right.

It's summer.

It's Boat Club
Beach, it's nighttime.

There's a big bonfire

bright sparks flying around

and Adam and I

we're entertaining the

martini drinkers.

He's doing his,
his Tom Jones impression.

You know,
"What's New, Pussycat?"

And

I was wearing my dad's

thick, black wool sweater

which smelled like

like

English Leather, tobacco

and my mother's laughing.

Everything's perfect.

Yeah.

God

I wish I could have
seen Adam at that age.

You guys must have been so cute.

If I could freeze
that moment for eternity

I'd just take it.

Here you go.

Thank you.

Good night.

Good night.

You're leaving me all alone.

Why don't you come with us?

To the Mondrian
exhibit? Yeah, right.

It could be fun.

You could eat a blimpy.

I couldn't, sweetie. I'm fine.

I'm in a groove here.

-Hey.
-Hey.

Adam's in the other room.

There he is.

So we can't convince you?

So what's up with you?

Nothing.

Kat's down in DC again
on another fucking congress.

The bachelor.

Yeah.

Living the wild life.

Hi.

I'll see you later, sweetie?

-Leave me a couple cigs here.
-I left three on the table.

Hey, did you see what's
at the next week?

Yeah, yeah.

My yearly viewing,
"Touch of Evil."

You up for it?

Yeah. You kidding?

We're there.

OK.

Bye.

Have fun!

You know

that mumbling shit is annoying.

I mean

I've seen this movie fifty times

I still don't know
what he's saying.

Honey, we're gonna get wet.

How about a drink?

I don't drink.

How about a bunch of drinks?

Benjie. Benjie.

That's not happening.

So when are you back?

What?

When are you coming back?

Uhh, not till Tuesday.

Hand razor.

Are you ditching me
for the whole weekend?

You can stay with Adam.

Nice.

He's going to Boston
to visit his grandfather.

What?

What did you say?

Nothing.

Hello.

Fooled ya. This is Adam and Nina

and we can't come to the phone

but won't you
please leave us a message?

Where the fuck are you?

It's, umm...

it's gone on eleven.

My grandfather
just called me Flo, so

I have a feeling
the party's about over.

I don't know where you are.
Thought you'd be in bed by now.

Uhh, OK.

I will

try again half-hour.

Love you. Bye.

- Hello.
-Hey.

I'm sorry to call you so late.
I didn't wake you up, did I?

No, no. Not at all.

Uhh, I just, I can't find Nina.

You wouldn't happen
to know where she is, would you?

Well, as a matter of fact,
she's sitting right here.

Hold on a sec.

-Hello?
-Hey. What's up?

Hi.

Sounds like you're asleep.

No, we were just hanging out.

Oh, I guess
I lost track of time.

So you guys
were just hanging out?

Yeah. How's Boston?

Exactly the same as always.

Yeah? How's Peter?

Charming and senile as ever.

Oh, give him,
give him a hug from me.

I will. He sends love.

Yeah.

I'm sorry to interrupt you.

No, I was, I was
leaving now, anyway.

OK. Take a cab, all right?

- Sure.
-You promise?

Of course.

Good.

All right.

I love you.

I'll see you tomorrow. Bye.

Well...

goddamn.

That wasn't good.

Oh no, it was.
It was totally innocent.

What are you doing?

I have to go.

Why?

I thought you said
you won't go fall asleep, Ben.

Excuse me.

You know, this is insane.

-What?
-What?

Nina.

Come on.

Where the fuck's my other shoe?

Whoa, hold on
a second. I'll come with you.

No. Just...

It's fine. Just, umm...

Stay in bed.

Hello.

Fooled ya. This is Adam and Nina

and we can't come to the phone

but won't you please
leave us a message?

OK, uhh...

all right. Well,
I'm gonna go to bed

because I gotta get up
early so I can miss traffic.

Umm...

All right. I love you.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Ben?

OK, Adlai
Stevenson's running mate

to Head of New
York Crime Commission...

-S. D. Schipofer.
-Yes!

Five seconds.

The greatest director
in the history of film was...

-We get...
-Time! Bullshit!

Come on!

Oh, please.
You guys are pathetic.

It's the same
fucking clues every time.

Please get over Orson Welles.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Last licks.

Down by five.

-No problem.
-Yep.

Would you like
to give or receive?

-It's your turn to give, right?
-Uhh.

Uhh, receive, Alex.

-And...
-Wait, wait, wait.

Go.

OK, he was the
old mayor of New York.

He used to read
comics over the radio...

-Theodore La Guardia.
-I'll give it.

Oh. Umm...

Modern painter,
drinking, dripping...

-Uhh, Jackson Pollock.
-Yeah.

Umm, OK. Novelist, umm...

died in a car accident.

Uhh, Nathaniel West?

Uhh, good, but umm,
existentialist French.

-Camus!
-Camus, good!

OK.

OK, good. One of mine. Umm...

-Can't say that!
-Hey!

-Can't say that!
-Shut up!

Architect, he was the director
of the Bauhaus. He, uhh...

designed the Seagram building
with, umm, Phillip Johnson...

Fall on your
own sword there, kid.

-Thirty seconds.
-Chicago Federal Secretary.

-Glass, Glass-
-

-Yes!
-How the fuck did you get that?

Umm...

Well, I don't know who this is.

-Who the fuck is...?
-Fifteen seconds.

-I know who it is.
-This is, umm...

oh god, OK, umm...

First names

rhymes with the
daughter in Family Affair.

-Buffy?
-Uh-uh.

-Cuppy, Cuppy creme?
-No.

-Duffy.
-Yes.

-Duffy.
-Yeah.

OK. Umm, last name...

Game, set and match!

-So close, ladies.
-

Is this a hockey tournament?

Donald Robert Duffy Dyers.

Second-string
catcher for the 1969

World Champion New York Meds.

You said you weren't
gonna do that anymore!

He was a cultural icon,
he caught Nolan Ryan.

Who the fuck is Duffy Dyer?

Who the fuck is
Mies van der Rohe?

Moonlit room.

Curve of a naked woman's back.

Down to where it meets her hip.

Motels.

With ice machines and

lots of towels.

Big towels.

Out of the past...

a new print.

Rainy Saturday.

Driving to buy a pumpkin.

The throb of
the windshield wipers.

College football
game on the radio.

Roxy Music.

So?

The Sierras in winter.

Yeah, we're hiking up to
the tower tomorrow, right?

Yeah.

Fifth Avenue.

Night of the first snowfall.

Hush.

Snow on her hair.

Fifteen across.

Five down.

Dive into a pool.

Swimming down.

Then looking up.

It's like a cocoon.

Yeah, that's beautiful.

It's sort of like

being on a boat
when it's raining.

You know? Something
weirdly great about that.

It's cozy.

It's like a good road-house.

What do you know about
being at a road-house, Ben?

Are you trying to sound
like a beer commercial?

Or does it just come naturally?

What would you like
to talk about, Nina?

Well, we could talk about
what a shit-head you are.

Want more Jack?

Why not?

You remember when we used
to come up here with my dad?

Used to be that guy
down at the bottom.

Sold those little
cartons of orange drink.

I used to love
all that fake shit.

Instant ice tea.

Slim-Jims.

Nothing feels that way
any more, that intense.

The wind...

Light...

It was all kind of dazzling.

Feel like I can't
smell anything anymore.

Yeah. Well...

You find new things
that make you happy.

It was what you
said to me once, remember?

You lose certain things,
you gain certain things.

I've got a thirty-year
old male who fell 40 feet.

He has severe head injuries and
is unresponsive.

He has pelvic fractures.

We're gonna be there
in about three or four minutes.

We need a trauma protocol.

He just fell?

How does that happen?

Adam.

How do I do this?

So where's Nina?

She's trying to
find Adam's mother.

What?

What was the look, Kat?

Ben, there's no look.

That look... you can't, OK?

Don't do this to me
tonight. Not tonight.

Just...

Please, Ben, I can't take
care of both of you right now.

Well...

you don't have
to take care of me.

Please, just don't
get drunk tonight?

Did you get through?

They left already.

I left a message
for them in the...

hotel in Vermont. They're not
gonna be there till tomorrow.

Did you call your mom?

No.

Can't handle her right now.

I, umm...

I put out some
crackers and cheese.

There's tequila.

Yes, please.

Are you OK?

Want some dinner?

You don't have to.

No, I should
probably eat something.

You know,
I haven't eaten since...

you know, before.

I was just gonna make
some spaghetti, is it OK?

That's great.

Yeah.

Remember that
complaint class that we had?

Wayne Hamilton?

Uhuh. Professor Mandelton?

And every Thursday Adam
had the overlapping class

he'd sneak out 15 minutes early.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Oh my god. Yeah, yeah, and...

Kat, one day, Adam is, umm...

He's trying very hard

to sneak out of
class unobtrusively

but it's Adam, right?

So, he's bumping along,
and he's wearing this long

I remember,
the long Red Army coat.

And it's
dragging along the floor

and, he's knocking everybody's
books over as he goes

and the teacher is in the
middle of this profound thought

and without
missing a beat, he goes...

"And so, it became clean on

you know, this preternatural..."

"Just as I know that something

of earth-shattering importance

happens every
Thursday afternoon at 3:45

that necessitates
this gentleman's leaving."

And everybody
just starts laughing!

And Adam just stops.

You know, he looks at the floor

he smiles, and he
looks up, and he goes

"Well, actually it's
3:40, sir, but, uhh...

I was really into that story."

And then he just smiles

and then he like
shuffles out of the room. Oh.

-Quintessential.
-It was so beautiful.

God, we laughed for days.

The Ad-man.

Thank you. Let me help.

No. No, no. Stay.

I'm going up.

Why don't you come and
sit with us for a minute?

I can barely keep my eyes open.

-You OK?
-Hmm.

Night. Night, sweetie.

Good night.

We love you.

I know.

-You coming soon?
-Yeah, yeah.

OK.

Hey.

Hi.

-You OK?
-Uhuh.

-Gonna read?
-Yeah.

You don't mind if I
stay up for a while, do you?

No, no.

Take care of her.

I'll be up soon.

And, Benjie?

I need you, too.

A lot.

I love you.

I love you.

I want to go
back to the hospital.

I...

It's the middle of
the night. I don't...

-Would you drive me?
-I...

I, I don't... I... I mean... I

I.. No, I... He's not gonna even
know we're there. We'll...

I just... I think we
should go in the morning.

We'll go first
thing in the morning.

This is insane.

I don't think I'm gonna
be able to handle this.

My baby's gonna die.

My baby's dying.

Shh, shh, no, no, no.

I really don't think that I'm
gonna be able to handle this.

Because I feel like my head's
just gonna explode or something

and I don't know what to do.

I love you so much.

Do you despise me?

I love you, but...

But...

This is over.

You know that.

I'm evil.

I am so evil.

His best friend.

I mean, what were we doing?

Ben, what the
fuck were we doing?

Umm...

I'm sorry, but do you
mind if I go in there alone?

Hey, uhh, you want us to wait?

No, umm...

I'll take a cab.

OK.

Benjie?

Coming?

Yeah, sorry.

I'll need some bread. Can you
get a loaf of that olive bread?

Is this how you cope?

Cooking, shopping.
I mean, what are you?

Martha Stewart? Can
we just get out of here?

What? You
think I'm enjoying this?

Do you think this is what
I want to be doing right now?

We have no food, Ben. OK?

Can we just get this over with?

Sorry that it's such
a chore to be with me.

Sorry I'm not Nina.

What do you want to do?

I'd like to kill you.

Kat, you want to leave?

Leave?

Why the fuck should I leave?

I'm not the asshole.

I'm not the one who's
fucking his best friend's wife.

Do you want me to leave?

St-

How, how could you do this?

I mean, Adam?

You, you're unreal.
You fucking terrify me.

Kat, please.

-What? What, is this a bad time?
-What do you want me to say?

I don't know why I did it!

I mean, what are
you? A two-year old?

You just take whatever you
want? Fuck everyone else!

It was a horrible
thing to do! I'm sorry!

I'm sorry if I hurt you!

What? If you hurt
me? Are you insane?

What do you want from me?

Don't fuck other people!

Don't break my h...

...my heart. How's that?

God, you piece of shit!

You know...

I can, uhh...

I can almost...

I can almost understand
you doing this to me.

But how...?

I mean, did...
did you want to possess him?

Somehow?

Some, some part of him

you couldn't have? Huh?

So you fuck his
wife, is that it?

You killed him,
I hope you know that!

I mean,
you know what he was like!

Shut the fuck up!

I don't know you.

You're shit.
You are fucking shit!

I know what I did!

I know it!

Fuck.

Adam.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

-Too wild!
-Yeah.

-Hey.
-Hey.

Oh my god.

Look at you.

You look great.

So do you.

How are you?

-I'm OK.
-Yeah? You made partner?

Oh, no. Actually, I quit.

You're kidding.

No, no, no.

Hmm.

Well, what about
you? You, umm...

I heard you were in London.

Yeah.

How's that?

It's great.

-Yeah?
-Yeah, I love it.

I heard about you and Kat.

I'm sorry.

Yeah. Well...

Do you keep in touch?

Yeah. She's doing good.

She's getting married, in April.

-Really?
-Yeah.

He's a good guy,
actually. I met him.

That's great.

Happy for her.

Well, how long
are you in New York?

Umm...

-Hi.

Hi.

-That felt good.

Oh, I'm sorry.
Honey, this is Ben.

This is Ben Hoggs.

Oh my god.
Ben, good to meet you.

Nina's told me
so much about you.

This is my husband Chris.

And this

this is Owen.

Hello monster.

-Hey.
-

Hi, Owen.

How you doing?

Oh my god, he's, uhh...

-He's beautiful.
-Isn't he gorgeous?

Yeah.

Just like his mom.

Oh, why don't we sit down?

You'll have supper with us, huh?

Oh...

Well, I mean,
I'd love to, but, umm...

I gotta be somewhere at eight.

Are you sure? Oh, come on.

Yeah. Yeah, I'm afraid...

but, uhh, thanks. It's...

I mean, actually, I should

I should probably
get going right now.

All right. Umm...

-I'm gonna walk you out.
-OK.

-Good to meet you.
-Yeah, nice to meet you.

So, when do you
go back to London?

Oh, umm...

day after tomorrow.

I was going to call.

Uh.

Don't worry.

How are you, Ben?

Are you OK?

I try to do good things.

I know.

I do, too.

T... Owen is beautiful.

Looks just like you.

Yeah.

I can't believe
how much I love him.

I'll call you next time.

I promise.

You better.

For too long

Inside of me

And the things unsaid

Lost in the moment

Wait for a while

At me with a smile

I was going through

A chance being kind

Made me realize

Lost in the moment