I Will Make You Mine (2020) - full transcript
Three women wrestle with life's difficulties while confronting their past relationships with the same man.
♪ I was the next
To wait in line ♪
♪ To be your surrogate
Valentine ♪
♪ I took a number
And it started with nine ♪
♪ And ended in letters
I couldn't define ♪
♪ I'm going away so you can be ♪
♪ There's nothing
You can do about it ♪
♪ Going away
So you can breathe ♪
♪ It brings me to my knees ♪
♪ And I will float away ♪
♪ Reluctantly
So think about it ♪
♪ Hope you feel the same ♪
Bravo.
Jesus Christ.
Hey.
Hi. I didn't hear your car.
I left it at office and got a ride, so if
you can drive me tomorrow, that'd be great.
- Yeah, of course.
- Thank you.
What are you watching?
What is going on here?
Some musician.
I didn't know that you sang.
What are talking about?
I've never heard you sing.
You've got a good voice.
I was in an a capella
group in college.
You were in an a capella
group in college?
Onomatopoeia.
Why didn't I know this?
You never asked.
Well, you never sing.
Let's see.
Goh. Goh Nakamoo-ra?
It's Nakamura.
So, I'm making chia seed pudding for
breakfast tomorrow morning if you want any.
Mm-hmm.
Did you eat?
Yeah, they ordered pizza.
By the way, I'm gonna be a
little bit late tomorrow night.
- He's pretty good.
- Yeah.
Go Goh!
Yeah, he seems talented.
How'd you find this guy?
Um, I just stumbled on him.
Wait right there for me.
Let's take off mommy's shirt
and put this on.
Don't you want to wear
your own clothes?
Starting route to Jacob
Funeral Home.
Here. Take it.
Hey, it's Goh. Leave
me a message.
Goh, you're late! Where are you?
Okay. So, this is the urn that
I was telling you about earlier.
Okay.
It comes in several different
finishes and sizes.
We don't allow food in here.
Oh, sorry. I didn't know.
Thank you.
Come on, come here.
Yeah, I don't know. Do
I have to decide now?
Uh, no, but... where's
your daughter?
Oh no.
Sachiko?
Sachiko?
I already made the arrangements.
The service is on Sunday.
I'm so sorry.
She threw up. That's why she's
wearing my shirt.
Did you sleep on your flight?
I did. Um, then I fell
immediately asleep at the hotel,
around like 8 last night?
Well, that's very nice.
It's back.
Huh?
Oh, you know that I was gonna take care
of the music for the service, right?
I thought you meant that you
would just make a playlist.
Yea-Ming's been holding onto
the guitar since we moved.
I didn't see her.
She was out for
a job interview or something,
but I saw her roommate, Jasmine.
Actually, she's playing a
last-minute show tonight?
You know, I thought maybe I
could take Sachiko?
You don't wanna come, do you?
I'm exhausted.
I haven't slept in days, and I've been
by myself with Sachiko all morning.
I'm sorry.
What are you up to now? Are you
gonna see your cousin Janet?
Julia.
Look, I'm... I'm trying really
hard to be supportive here.
I thought you'd be happy to have more time
to yourself or with your family and...
What in the world makes you think
any of this makes me happy, Goh?
I'll get you the car seat.
Ready to go to your first show?
Okay.
♪ Running down
The empty streets ♪
♪ Headphones on my lonely feet ♪
♪ 31 years, just to know ♪
♪ Raison d'être ♪
Sweetie, Alfie's
toys are everywhere.
Okay.
Thank you so much.
Mm-hm. We met at Eboni's
baby shower, right?
Um, maybe.
I think it was at Kiara's
fifth birthday, right?
Kiara's fifth birthday? Yeah.
When did Kiara have a birthday?
Uh, I think it was...
- September 11th.
- Oh, September 11th, poor kid.
Eboni's parents threw her
a huge picnic down in Compton.
- Crenshaw.
- Crenshaw.
Oh. I wasn't invited.
Oh, well it was mostly family
and just friends from school, so.
How do you know Eboni again?
We were in a band together
in college.
Oh, that's right.
What? Eboni was in a band?
What did she play?
Wasn't it guitar?
No, bass. She also sang.
Well, she absolutely loves you.
I mean, you come highly recommended.
I'm sorry you couldn't meet
Alfie in person.
He's staying at
his nana and pop-pop's tonight.
But I'm sure you know the drill.
You probably babysit all the time.
Yeah, I do. I mean, not
professionally, but...
Oh, but Eboni says that you're
amazing with Kiara.
I love that kid.
There you go. You got
kids of your own?
No. I don't.
But you want them.
I mean, I don't even have a
boyfriend right now, so.
You guys got any single friends?
You take PayPal, right?
Uh, Venmo, or cash?
Honey, we have Venmo, right?
I think.
Do you have a credit
card with us?
What? Uh, no.
Do you want to apply for one?
No, thank you.
Well, if you do, you get 20%
off your purchase today.
No. My father just passed
away. In his bed.
Oh. I'm so sorry.
Yeah, he died alone. I haven't
been the greatest daughter.
I'm so sorry.
Is it okay if I just wear this
dress for his funeral and return it?
It's okay if I just keep
the tags on?
Our return policy is for
unworn clothing only.
Sorry, sorry.
Yeah.
That's, uh, $297?
Hi, Dr. Levin. It's Rachel.
I need to schedule an emergency
session by myself.
I'm still regressing, I'm still
being self-destructive.
I've been
thinking about this guy, this...
He was my best friend
from high school.
I don't know why.
Maybe I'm just trying to get
even with Josh for what he did.
If you have time, just let me
know? Thanks.
♪ But it rocks me to sleep where
The sun turns to glitter ♪
♪ With a dream
And a tear in my eye ♪
♪ I feel the pull of the moon ♪
♪ And its phases in you ♪
♪ And your fantasy
As I sit on the fence ♪
♪ There's a voice in my heart
Wherever you are ♪
♪ And as long as you're there ♪
♪ I can never get lost ♪
♪ There's a spot on my head ♪
Sorry.
Fuckin' branded content.
If I don't upload four of these fuckers
a month, I don't make rent. I'll be back.
Shit, he still has my phone.
Hey, moustache, bring out my
phone when you're done!
Idiot. All right.
So, where are we going?
I don't know. What's
good around here?
I am on an elimination diet, so I can't eat
soy, dairy, eggs, crustaceans, or tree nuts.
Here, give me your phone. I'll
find something.
Oh, Rachel.
What?
Why are you listening to this?
It's good stuff.
No, no, seriously, why are you
strolling down memory lane?
That's not what I'm doing.
- You're a horrible liar.
- That's not what I'm doing.
Thinking about divorce?
Oh my God, where are we going?
Calm down, calm down. I'll find
something.
So, I guess Josh is still getting
blow jobs from his assistant?
You allowed to smoke
on this diet?
So, have you checked his
text messages lately?
No. My shrink told me I
shouldn't be doing that anymore.
She's like 22. He's not gonna
leave me for her.
Sorry I've been so M. I. A. Freakin'
YouTube channel's taken over my life.
You're so lucky
your husband's rich.
Ah, maybe with all your free
time you can rebrand my site?
Should I text Goh, see if he
still has a crush on you?
I don't care.
- Yeah right!
- I don't care.
Hey, dude, period.
I'm drinking kale juice with
your prom date right now, period.
Amy, don't send that! What
is wrong with you?
Oh! Let's send him a selfie.
And let's use a fun filter.
Why are you acting like a
teenage girl?
I'm not ready to just casually reconnect
with him after all these years.
He's probably just living in
Wisconsin, in Green Bay with...
Madison, Madison.
Eating cheese or whatever
they do there.
Actually, they broke up.
He's still living in their house,
but they're not together anymore.
When did this happen?
Couple months ago, when I was in Boulder
shooting those energy drink videos.
I forgot to tell you.
Yeah, you did.
Last time I saw Goh, he was a zombie.
And he's still not playing music. So lame.
Oh shit!
What?
- Who just texted you? Give me...
- No.
- Amy, give me your phone.
- No.
All right, this is the top one, and this is
the bottom one, and you turn to the left.
Wait, is that right?
Hold on. Let me check.
Yeah. You turn it to the
left, away from the door. Okay?
Okay.
I took in the mail and the newspapers,
and they're all on the dining room table.
And I tried to air out
the place a bit.
Actually, it smells a lot
better than it did before.
Oh!
Erika, I'm so sorry. I didn't wash the sheets.
Is that okay? Should I strip the bed?
Oh, no, it's fine, thank you.
Oh, and the funeral home said they
didn't find a wedding band on him.
Do you know where he
might have kept it?
No.
Huh, he wasn't wearing one.
Um, okay.
Did you get my email about the
visiting professor job?
Yes.
Oh, good, because the department head
said they're really desperate to fill it.
Hey, why don't you come to
campus with me,
and I'll show you around,
introduce you to people?
Oh, I don't know if can...
Erika. You're applying.
There's no way you're not. Okay?
It's only for two years.
It's just our house is there
and everything's there.
All right, then sell it, sublet it,
whatever. You own this place now.
What about Goh?
You really think he wants to go
back to Wisconsin?
Erika, I'm sorry, I have to go.
You want to do dinner? Does
Sachiko even do sushi?
I think she's gonna
be with Goh, still.
Okay, you have to eat.
I think I'm just gonna take it easy tonight
and stay in, eat some of dad's ramen.
Oh god, that's depressing.
I am depressed.
Erika. You need to change.
You need to be here.
I need you here.
I'll call you tomorrow, okay?
But I'd better see your
application, all right?
Bye.
♪ The sign on my window
Says lonely ♪
♪ The sign on my door says
Nobody's home ♪
♪ I know what
You've been doing without me ♪
♪ And you wouldn't stop ♪
♪ Even if I said please ♪
♪ I see you fall ♪
♪ There's nothing
I can do for you ♪
♪ My dear, that's all ♪
♪ I tried everything I could ♪
♪ You're free at last ♪
♪ To wander your nights away ♪
♪ I see you fall ♪
♪ There's nothing
I can do anymore ♪
♪ I'm driving 'round this town
In your car ♪
♪ I'm driving real slow ♪
♪ Wondering how I'll let go ♪
♪ There's a new girl lying
In your arms ♪
♪ She's got emerald eyes ♪
♪ And a smile just like mine ♪
♪ I see you fall ♪
♪ There's nothing
I can do for you ♪
♪ My dear, that's all ♪
♪ I tried everything I could ♪
♪ You're free at last ♪
♪ To wander your nights away ♪
Thank you.
- No problem. Bye.
- Bye.
Hey. Can we get one
of those too?
Goh Nakamura, holy
shit! Ooh. Sorry.
This is Auntie Yea-Ming.
Oh my God, that sounds so weird.
This is Sachiko.
- Hi, Sachiko!
- She's five.
Oh, man. I guess it's been five
years, then, since I've seen you.
Did you get your guitar
back from Jasmine?
I did, yeah.
Cool. She's a good one. I
played her all the time.
She? Her? What?
Yeah. I named her Goh-hana.
Goh-hana!
Stupid!
She actually misses
you all the time.
Hey. Can we get one
of those shirts?
Do you want an extra small?
Something for a small child.
All right, let me grab
that for ya.
Let's see.
What do you say, Sachiko?
You like that? You want it?
Let me fold this up for you.
What do I owe you?
It's totally fine. Here.
- No, seriously, I...
- She's gonna be so cute in it!
- Seriously.
- No. Please don't.
- I gotta support your art and...
- No, you don't. Nope. Please.
That's so dorky. Just take it.
Sachiko.
Hey. Come on. I gotta
take her to her mom.
- Oh, how is "The Professor?"
- She's good.
Yeah? I heard about her dad.
I'm so sorry.
Are you staying with her?
Uh, no. Erika and Sachiko are
actually at her father's place.
Where are you staying?
Usual spot.
That motel? Ew, really? Gross.
You should stay with me, dude.
- Really?
- Yeah. I mean, Jasmine's never around anyway.
She's always at some guy's house
or some girl's house.
She's got one of those bed in a box
mattresses. You know what I'm talking about?
I'm always hearing about those
at the beginning of podcast ads.
Yeah. Totally. They're
actually really comfy.
I paid for the room already tonight, but maybe
they'll let me cancel the rest of the week.
When are you going
back to Wisconsin?
I'm not sure yet. Yeah, Erika still
has to sell her father's house, so...
Okay.
I figured I'd stick around a little bit
to help out with this little one here.
Yeah.
- You want to try this on, Sachiko? Isn't that pretty?
- Where?
Let's go to the bathroom.
I think we have to go to the bathroom.
- Mm-hm.
- Okay, let's go.
Do you need me to take her?
Nah, nah, I got this.
Okay. Well, give me a hug.
It's good to see you.
- Okay.
- Thank you.
- All right. Bye-bye. Say bye.
- Bye, Sachiko. Bye, Goh.
Hey, Alexa?
Play Goh Nakamura,
"If You Want Me To."
Hey Goh, period.
Heard you're
coming back to LA, period.
If you have time, comma, I'd
love to see you, period.
Testing out Jasmine's bed
for you,
exclamation point.
I am so sorry that
I missed your show.
It's fine. No worries.
No, it's... I'm a terrible friend.
But I have, you know, Harper.
He's like, insisted that daddy read,
so it was like the next thing I know,
it's 9:45, and I got another... I
really am sorry.
It's fine.
Whoa. Someone's trying
to get in.
Oh, shit, it's Goh!
The guitar guy?
Yeah.
No, you want to go that way.
No, the other that way.
You know what, I'm gonna go let
him in. Your hair's a mess.
I don't care. Fuck.
You look hung over.
Shut up!
Hey, man.
Alex. Goh, come on in.
Wow. You weren't exaggerating.
This place is like really nice.
What are you doing here?
I got your new song.
You're finally writing again?
I'm, you know, here to help.
Um, okay. Um, I'm kind of
working right now.
No, no, it's fine. I got this.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah. Go take a break.
All right, thanks.
You still teach?
Um, not really.
The kids these days, they kind of
like playing music and making music
on their computers more than
anything, so.
Do you miss teaching?
Yeah, I do, I do. Yeah.
Did you ever think you'd
be a full-time dad?
I still have a job.
Oh. What do you do?
Customer service.
I always
thought I'd have a family,
but I also thought that I would still
be able to play music, you know?
Like you.
Oh my God. Do not compare
your life with mine.
Why not?
Cause you're like
a fucking adult.
You're an adult.
I mean, I've got this stupid
roommate, and she's young,
and she makes more money than
me, and she goes to school.
I don't know.
You're doing what you
love though.
Can I tell you a secret?
Secret? Yeah.
In Madison, I bought a
cheap guitar.
Just keep it in the storeroom.
And I play it on
breaks, you know.
It's the only
time I play, you know.
I've become that guy.
This is a secret? Like you
never even told Erika?
Oh, no, hell no.
Fuck.
Well, don't be that guy. Here.
Help.
So, since I texted
you, I wrote a couple verses.
Um, so, play G.
A.
C.
D.
And then it's sort of like...
Yeah.
Cool.
Don't make it jazzy.
I don't want it to be jazzy.
No seventh chords and all that.
All that jazz.
Let's just do regular chords.
Okay, yeah.
Let's make it like move a
little.
Yeah.
Cool.
♪ I'm ♪
♪ Trying to ♪
♪ Let you go ♪
I like how you use
my name there.
♪ What do I know ♪
Stop talking.
♪ You ♪
♪ Left me with ♪
♪ All of your things ♪
♪ What will this bring ♪
And then, for the chorus,
you're gonna go to C.
- No way!
- Yeah.
You gotta keep going with
the verses there.
What? No, I... I could barely
write these, so...
It's way too soon to go to a chorus then.
You don't even know what the song's about.
- I don't really know what the song's about.
- It's about...
♪ Goh-hana ♪
- ♪ My guitar ♪
- Your guitar.
♪ Goh-hana ♪
I don't know. I mean, maybe it's
about not being able to let things go?
- Hey.
- Hey.
Is that a new bra?
Uh, no, I've always had it.
Hm.
It's... good.
It's really good.
Thank you.
I'm sorry.
May I touch your boob?
Yeah, sure, just don't
call them boobs.
Okay.
What should I call them?
Well, we're not in junior high,
so I'm sure you can figure it out.
Mammary glands?
Okay, yeah, you smell like
garlic. Excuse me.
Hey.
Rach?
What's, what's going on here?
Nothing.
- Do you want to talk about it?
- Nothing's going on.
You... you look so beautiful.
Thank you.
I mean it.
I am so lucky
to be married to you.
I hear your words.
I am madly in love with you.
- I am as in love with you as...
- Okay, okay! Okay, Josh.
I'm sorry, I just... I'm late meeting
Amy in Santa Monica for a movie,
and traffic's already a
nightmare, so.
Bye.
What movie are you going to see?
I don't know.
Some experimental
thing, and...
you know what, um...
We're probably gonna go out
to eat after,
and so I don't know what time
I'm gonna be home?
Look, Rachel, I am sorry.
Okay? I am sorry.
I don't know how many times I'm
gonna have to apologize,
- but I cannot take the distance that you keep creating...
- I don't wanna talk about this.
We are gonna discuss this with Dr. Levin
on Monday, so I need you to...
I need you to trust me.
I trust you.
♪ S omewhere in the nighttime ♪
♪ There's a dream
That would not wake ♪
♪ And the echoes
Of old wise men ♪
♪ Said "You made
A big mistake" ♪
♪ Oh, by the way side ♪
♪ Far away from your turn ♪
What the hell?
I'm sorry. Hi.
Oh my God.
Since when did you start
drinking diet soda?
Since my metabolism stopped
working. We're old, Goh.
You still look good.
So, do you.
Liar.
No, seriously, fatherhood,
it suits you.
How about you? You ever think
about becoming a mom, or...
Cheers.
What are we toasting to?
Oh. Um, our high school reunion.
Oh yeah. Go Cougars!
Go Cougars.
Should we sit down?
Mm-hm.
Sorry, I'm... I'm still
packing up here.
Trying to
check out, crash with a friend.
You know, there's such a thing
as a maid service, Goh.
Then you have to tip them
every single day.
Oh, but you should still be
tipping them every single day.
My life did not turn out
as fancy as yours, so.
What?
- Amy gives me updates.
- Oh.
Seems like you guys are pretty successful.
You and your husband. Josh?
Mm-hm.
You guys are happy though?
Mm-hm, we're solid.
Hey, I'm sorry it didn't work
out with "The Professor."
No, you're not. You hate her.
I don't hate her.
You hate her.
She hates me.
I'm sorry I let things
get so weird.
It's okay.
3I asked her to marry me.
She
obviously did not want that.
I don't know what else I can do,
you know?
I pretty much gave up
music for her.
Erika said that?
Not in those words exactly.
What words?
Did she say that, "Goh Nakamura,
you're never allowed to play music again?"
She didn't have to say anything.
I mean, who wants the father of their
child to be a struggling musician?
Yeah, but to get rid of your
guitar, that's really extreme, Goh.
It's a distraction. It's
a big life change.
You're telling me that your kid has never
heard you play guitar or sing before?
She's heard the CDs and stuff, but it's not
like I've ever serenaded her or anything.
Tell you what, I'll let you
practice on me.
One song.
No.
Yeah. "Surrogate Valentine."
No.
Duet version.
No. I really don't want to.
Okay.
Josh is cheating on me.
Did you hear what I said?
Yeah. No, I... didn't you just
say you guys were solid?
We are. We're in therapy.
We're working shit out.
I'm sorry. You deserve better.
Yeah? You think I deserve you?
You deserve a lot
better than me.
No, I'm fine. Don't get up
or anything. I'm fine.
I mean, shit, I don't
want to stop you...
Nope, I keep getting myself.
Hey, do you remember that weekend before
I left for college, when I slept over?
Mm-hm. Yeah. You were drunk.
I was pretending to be passed
out in your bed.
Around curfew, I just... I
pretended and then, um,
I was just lying in your bed,
waiting for you to make a move.
And I wasn't about to take
advantage of a drunk girl.
Well, but I wasn't drunk.
I didn't know that.
You're back early.
Everything all right?
Okay.
Hi.
Are you drunk?
Two drinks! I had two drinks.
Two dr... And you drove?
Okay. Honey, I really need
you to shut up, okay?
I don't know what movie you saw,
but I like how crazy it is making you.
I'm not crazy.
I didn't say you were crazy.
I'm not crazy.
Okay.
Say it!
You're not crazy.
I'm not crazy.
She stopped liking my photos.
What?
She stopped liking my photos.
You're being a stalker.
Actually, I think you're the
one with the stalker.
What?
Goh's outside.
What?
Oh my God!
How long
have you been out there?
Long enough to hear you
don't have a chorus.
You know, like we're dating,
we're vibing, it's all going well.
I feel like she's super into me,
and finally I'm just like so stoked
that I can stop dating dumb dudes,
you know?
Like who want to stick
their tongue down your throat
and don't know how to
touch you?
And then she just goes M. I. A.
I don't get it.
Ah, come on. Don't stop.
Did you just write that?
Mm-hm.
You miss your calluses, huh?
Yeah. They're buttery soft now.
It kind of reminds
me of something.
Like a children's song?
Fuck you. Fuck you.
Sadly, I can't right now, but
thanks for the invitation.
I'm just gonna go study.
You two behave.
Okay.
Oh!
Yeah, hah!
Trying to let you go.
I'm gonna, frankly, destroy your song
right now, but we'll put it back together.
That's why... we're...
Yeah. You gotta break the egg
before you make the omelet.
We need a hook, so here's my next
hook to lead into the chorus,
where you gotta go, uh...
I feel like you're
making fun of me.
No, no.
No, I'm just having
fun with you, but...
All right, yeah.
I don't know, I'm sorry, I'm
sorry. I'm sorry, okay.
♪ What do I know ♪
♪ I'm trying to ♪
♪ Find the chorus ♪
- I kinda wanted the chorus...
- ♪ Happy, sad, happy, sad ♪
I was... can we do
the chorus on C?
Too slow.
Come on. That was perfect.
- Tuck-uh, tuck-uh.
- Tuck-uh, tuck-uh.
Tuck-uh, tuck-uh.
♪ I'm trying... ♪
Too fast, too fast. Let's try
to find the half note.
The half note? Why wouldn't
you find the quarter note?
♪ I'm trying to ♪
Sounds reggae.
Yeah!
No, I don't want it like that. Ugh!
Why did you come here, anyway?
To drink and have
fun. Okay, let's...
- I thought you were gonna help.
- And help you.
I wonder if we can make a
perfect third with the...
Oh. Let's see.
Wait.
I gotta drink more.
Mm-mm. This is so good.
It's amazing.
You want some more?
Yeah, please.
Hey, can I tell you something?
What's that?
Um, remember that time that we
hung out in Vegas and stuff,
and we had like that super fun
night?
Anyway, I didn't think
we're talking after that,
and I know it's kinda heavy,
but I heard through the grapevine
that you were getting married,
and I know that you actually haven't
gotten married or anything, but like...
whatever, I had all these feelings,
so I wrote a song about it.
Really? Can I hear it?
Okay, why... yeah, what, yeah. Okay.
Fuck it. Can I play your guitar?
Of course, yeah. Yeah.
Goh-hana. You played her before.
Oh, Goh-hana!
Yeah. She'd be honored.
All right. Okay, for real?
Yeah.
Okay, well,
I just want to say
before I sing this, um...
don't be offended, okay?
This was
like kind of a long time ago.
- Yeah, no worries.
- I didn't think I was gonna ever see you ever again.
Wow. I'm sorry, but uh...
No, I mean, it's fine.
Anyway, okay.
♪ Walk out that door ♪
♪ And lock up my gate ♪
♪ Keep your midlife
Crisis away ♪
♪ 'Cause far across town ♪
♪ Your wife's not okay ♪
♪ She needs you
Like I need a change ♪
♪ Don't look at me ♪
♪ With those Eskimo eyes ♪
♪ You're not the one for me ♪
♪ And I'm standing tall ♪
♪ On the tips of my feet ♪
♪ You're not the one for me ♪
Don't move. Wait.
- Don't move?
- Yeah.
Hey, everybody.
Sorry about that.
Erika, I'm...
I'm so sorry for your loss.
This is a song I wrote 15 years ago
for my uncle who had passed away.
I sold it to a pharmaceutical
company called Relatrix,
so if you're prescribed to Relatrix,
maybe this will sound familiar.
Anyway, this one's
for you, Mr. Abe.
♪ Watch the sunset
Bleed the day ♪
♪ And soak the sky in red ♪
♪ And the evening
Wraps its bandage ♪
♪ Up around its wounded head ♪
♪ Let's end the day ♪
♪ Like this to infirmary ♪
♪ Whisper if you want me ♪
♪ Breathe a sigh into the wind ♪
♪ You can shout it
If you want to ♪
♪ Get it out
And catch my whim ♪
♪ Let's book the first flight ♪
♪ To where you want to go ♪
♪ Day like this ♪
♪ Goes down in infamy ♪
♪ There's no goodbye ♪
♪ And I just can't believe ♪
♪ We won't see him ♪
♪ Anymore ♪
Well done.
Thank you.
I'm an orphan now.
Yeah.
I know. That's weird.
Yeah.
Why doesn't it hurt more?
You should still be playing.
That's what makes you happy.
Sachiko makes me happier
than music ever did.
You know, I applied
for a job here.
I know. Julia told me earlier.
I'm tired of Madison.
Me too.
I want Sachiko to see her parents
following their dreams, you know?
Aren't you gonna say
something?
I just wonder if my race has
already been run, you know?
Someone just dropped this off.
- Sachiko's looking for you.
- Oh, shit.
- Who are they from?
- I don't know.
Oh, wow,
look how good this looks.
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. I like, love it.
Thank you, thank you.
But wait, I'm gonna move back a little bit.
Oh my god, I love it!
Oh, wow. I haven't
smiled in weeks.
I'm really sorry about your dad.
Thank you. It's been a lot to
deal with.
I know...
you went to
Goh's room the other night.
Nothing happened.
I know.
Nothing's ever happened with me and Goh.
I mean, we've never even kissed.
Never?
No, not even on prom night.
Why not?
It just never happened.
Thank you.
Do you ladies know
what you want?
Uh. Not yet, sorry.
Well, it's okay if something
did happen between the two...
Nothing happened,
and I'm married.
I know, but what I'm trying to
say is that...
I understand.
I accept that you're an
important part of his life.
Thank you for saying that.
I might move back here,
and I don't know if Goh and I
will ever get back together.
But...
I know how he
feels about you.
He loves you.
He's always loved you.
Wait, he told you that?
No.
But it's obvious.
What's that like?
To know, whatever
happens, how much time passes,
you guys are always connected?
All that history you guys have,
I can't compete.
I'm sure your
husband knows how I feel.
Yeah.
I thought you were
playing basketball.
Yeah, I was going to, then I thought
it might be nice to drive up to Malibu
and watch the sunset, have
dinner on the beach.
Did you make a reservation?
Nah.
Okay. Do you want me to?
No, it's cool. I was trying to
remember the name of that place
that Rachelle and Brandon told
us about,
and then I remembered that Rachelle was
gonna send you a text with the name of it.
So...
That "random musician," that
Goh guy?
You're having drinks
with him in his motel room?
What are you doing looking
through my text messages?
- We talked about this with Dr. Levin...
- No, we talked
about you not reading my text messages,
because I was the one that fucked up.
- Okay. I'm sorry.
- What did you do with him? What did you do with him?
I did nothing with him.
Well then who the hell is he?
Why don't I know about him?
Um, he's nobody. He's...
No, that's not true. He's, um...
Are you some kind of
groupie or something?
Oh my god, no! No, no, no...
Well, then why do you need to get drunk with him
in his motel in order to fuck your husband?
Do you love him?
I'm sorry.
I just don't feel
like myself right now.
That's a guitar pick.
Were you trying to eat it?
No.
You weren't? Okay, good.
Do you know what it does?
Yeah.
You know, you wanna try?
Good job. That's an A chord.
Now let's do it again.
That's a D chord.
You know what
we can sing with that?
No.
We can do "Twinkle, Twinkle,
Little Star." You want to do that?
- Let's do ABC.
- Okay, let's do ABC.
♪ A, B, C, D, E, F, G ♪
♪ H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P ♪
♪ Q, R, S, T, U, V ♪
- ♪ W, X, Y, and Z ♪
- ♪ Black sheep Have you any wool? ♪
♪ Yes, sir, yes, sir
Three bags full ♪
Yay!
You know, I was thinking about
what Jasmine was saying.
Oh, what'd she say?
About kids' songs, you know?
What should I write a song about?
I don't know.
You don't know?
How about unicorns?
What about boogers?
Should I write a song about
boogers?
♪ Boogers, boogers, boogers ♪
Stupid.
Tell me what I should
write a song about?
Mm... Your hand.
My hand?
♪ My fingers are on my hand ♪
♪ They should all form a band ♪
Hey. You know what?
Before you become the next Raffi,
can you help me finish my song?
Deal. That sounds good.
Hey, Sachiko, guess what.
- What?
- I got a present for you. It's a...
- Do you mind watching her for me?
- What? Oh, yeah, yeah.
Hey, what's up?
I'm in the car right
now. Where are you?
Los Feliz. Wait, how do
you... Los Feleez, Filis?
I'm gonna come pick
you up, okay?
Uh, I have Sachiko with
me right now, though.
Oh.
I'm actually at Yea-Ming's
apartment.
Oh.
Can you come here?
Hello?
Hello?
Hey.
Hey.
Do you want a drink?
What do you have?
I've got beer and water.
I'll have water.
Do you want a,
do you want a bite of mine?
Hey, Sachiko, this is my oldest
friend, Rachel.
How old are you?
- Oh. We don't ask grown-ups that.
- Yeah.
Are you hungry? You
want to sit down?
Actually, can we go
somewhere and talk?
Hey, Yea-Ming, do you mind hanging
out with Sachiko for a little bit
while I talk with
Rachel outside?
Yeah. Mm-hmm. Sure.
Thank you.
That should keep
her busy. Thanks.
Hey, are you okay?
I'm just gonna do something,
and I just want you to go with it, okay?
What?
Wait, hold on. What's
going on? What's going on?
Stop laughing, Goh. What?
- This is bonkers.
- This is bonkers? Shut up!
- I didn't say anything!
- Stop laughing!
Stop it. Oh my God!
All right.
Try it again?
I'm sorry, I wasn't ready. Try
it again, try it again.
Me try it again? You frickin'
try it again. You try it.
Rachel. What are we doing?
I'm sorry, Goh. I love you.
Fuck.
Tell Yea-Ming I'm sorry?
Don't worry about it.
I'm so embarrassed.
Don't be, don't be.
I love you.
- Bye.
- Bye.
What was that?
I have no idea.
What happened?
Nothing really happened.
What did she want?
She didn't want anything.
Oh, really?
What are you not
telling me, Goh?
Do you want to be with her?
Can we not talk about this
in front of Sachiko?
What are we doing?
What are we doing here?
Sachiko's not my
kid, I'm not your babysitter.
Yeah, I know. I know.
- I'm not her mother. She's not like Goh-hana.
- I know.
- What?
- Goh-hana, your fucking guitar!
I know what you're talking about.
I know who you're referring to...
She's not just someone you can
fucking drop off at my house
anytime you can't figure out
your life.
You have no idea.
I've got a life I've gotta
figure out too!
I can't be this girl.
I can't be this girl.
- What are you talking about?
- I can't be this fucking girl.
This "I-don't-give-a-fuck-
who-you're-fucking" girl.
I'm not fucking anyone.
You were just fucking making out
with Rachel on my sidewalk.
You were just... oh my God!
- I was what?
- Fuck.
Oh, thank you. Come here.
Your nose, blow...
I am too old for this.
Hey. It's Josh.
Listen, I'm not mad at you.
I just... I
need to cool off and think.
I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
When I get back, we can talk
about everything.
I love you.
All right, bye.
Is that my shirt?
No, it was my dad's.
Looks really good on you.
I gotta
tell you something.
You can't get upset with me, because
ultimately it doesn't mean anything.
Rachel and I kissed
earlier today.
It was terrible, awful.
No, it's funny because I used to
daydream about it when I was a kid,
you know, and the
reality of it was just, nah.
Nah?
Nah.
You know, I've been thinking
about how things used to be.
I'm sorry if I made you feel like you
couldn't have a life outside of us.
We used to be...
I just
want us to, I don't know...
Stop making it so hard.
Yeah.
I don't know. I was thinking that
moving to LA isn't such a bad idea.
I could probably get a transfer
to the LA office,
maybe get an apartment close to
you and Sachiko?
Or...
You could just save the money
and live here with us.
Good night.
We ready?
We're rolling.
"I Will Make You Mine," vocal and guitar.
Whenever you're ready.
♪ I'm ♪
♪ Trying to ♪
♪ Let you go ♪
♪ What do I know ♪
♪ You ♪
♪ Left me with ♪
♪ All of your things ♪
♪ What will this bring ♪
♪ But I still adore you ♪
♪ And I don't know why ♪
♪ Dreaming like a fool ♪
♪ Standing by ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ You ♪
♪ Left me with ♪
♪ All of your mail ♪
♪ Casting a spell ♪
♪ Why ♪
♪ Would you bring me home ♪
♪ For a one-night stand ♪
♪ That wasn't my plan ♪
♪ But I still adore you ♪
♪ And I don't know why ♪
♪ Dreaming like a fool ♪
♪ Standing by ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ Now ♪
♪ That you've had it ♪
♪ And now ♪
♪ That I gave it ♪
♪ Do you ♪
♪ Still see me ♪
♪ And am I ♪
♪ Still lovely ♪
♪ I still adore you ♪
♪ And I don't know why ♪
♪ Dreaming like a fool ♪
♪ Standing by ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ And thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
Hey. I just watched it.
Sorry,
I'm at work right now.
So, what'd you think?
It was awesome. Even though you
didn't use any of my suggestions.
I didn't want to
share a writing credit with you.
Anyway, how
did that meeting go?
Good.
Yeah?
They're gonna do "Babysitter
Blues" and "Seesaw."
Wow, that's awesome.
Yeah, kids' music. Who knew?
I think it's rad. I think we
should celebrate.
All right, later. Bye.
Hey, I'm gonna go on a break.
♪ I never thought
I'd have to say it ♪
♪ I never thought
It'd come to this fate ♪
♪ Hands on the clock
They blur the timeline ♪
♪ Next thing you know
It's just too late ♪
♪ So, hold on
To your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on to your
Hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ And I never thought
I'd have to say it ♪
♪ I always thought it was
Common sense ♪
♪ Am I the optimist
Or the cynic ♪
♪ Just depends on
When you ask me, I guess ♪
♪ So, hold on
To your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on
To your hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on
To your sense of wonder ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ Hold on
Onto a hand that needs it ♪
♪ We're losing on our grip ♪
♪ At least we'll have hope ♪
♪ At our fingertips ♪
♪ Hold on to your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on
To your hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on
To your sense of wonder ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ Hold on to your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on
To your hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on
To a hand that really needs it ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ Can't believe I have
To tell you these things ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
To wait in line ♪
♪ To be your surrogate
Valentine ♪
♪ I took a number
And it started with nine ♪
♪ And ended in letters
I couldn't define ♪
♪ I'm going away so you can be ♪
♪ There's nothing
You can do about it ♪
♪ Going away
So you can breathe ♪
♪ It brings me to my knees ♪
♪ And I will float away ♪
♪ Reluctantly
So think about it ♪
♪ Hope you feel the same ♪
Bravo.
Jesus Christ.
Hey.
Hi. I didn't hear your car.
I left it at office and got a ride, so if
you can drive me tomorrow, that'd be great.
- Yeah, of course.
- Thank you.
What are you watching?
What is going on here?
Some musician.
I didn't know that you sang.
What are talking about?
I've never heard you sing.
You've got a good voice.
I was in an a capella
group in college.
You were in an a capella
group in college?
Onomatopoeia.
Why didn't I know this?
You never asked.
Well, you never sing.
Let's see.
Goh. Goh Nakamoo-ra?
It's Nakamura.
So, I'm making chia seed pudding for
breakfast tomorrow morning if you want any.
Mm-hmm.
Did you eat?
Yeah, they ordered pizza.
By the way, I'm gonna be a
little bit late tomorrow night.
- He's pretty good.
- Yeah.
Go Goh!
Yeah, he seems talented.
How'd you find this guy?
Um, I just stumbled on him.
Wait right there for me.
Let's take off mommy's shirt
and put this on.
Don't you want to wear
your own clothes?
Starting route to Jacob
Funeral Home.
Here. Take it.
Hey, it's Goh. Leave
me a message.
Goh, you're late! Where are you?
Okay. So, this is the urn that
I was telling you about earlier.
Okay.
It comes in several different
finishes and sizes.
We don't allow food in here.
Oh, sorry. I didn't know.
Thank you.
Come on, come here.
Yeah, I don't know. Do
I have to decide now?
Uh, no, but... where's
your daughter?
Oh no.
Sachiko?
Sachiko?
I already made the arrangements.
The service is on Sunday.
I'm so sorry.
She threw up. That's why she's
wearing my shirt.
Did you sleep on your flight?
I did. Um, then I fell
immediately asleep at the hotel,
around like 8 last night?
Well, that's very nice.
It's back.
Huh?
Oh, you know that I was gonna take care
of the music for the service, right?
I thought you meant that you
would just make a playlist.
Yea-Ming's been holding onto
the guitar since we moved.
I didn't see her.
She was out for
a job interview or something,
but I saw her roommate, Jasmine.
Actually, she's playing a
last-minute show tonight?
You know, I thought maybe I
could take Sachiko?
You don't wanna come, do you?
I'm exhausted.
I haven't slept in days, and I've been
by myself with Sachiko all morning.
I'm sorry.
What are you up to now? Are you
gonna see your cousin Janet?
Julia.
Look, I'm... I'm trying really
hard to be supportive here.
I thought you'd be happy to have more time
to yourself or with your family and...
What in the world makes you think
any of this makes me happy, Goh?
I'll get you the car seat.
Ready to go to your first show?
Okay.
♪ Running down
The empty streets ♪
♪ Headphones on my lonely feet ♪
♪ 31 years, just to know ♪
♪ Raison d'être ♪
Sweetie, Alfie's
toys are everywhere.
Okay.
Thank you so much.
Mm-hm. We met at Eboni's
baby shower, right?
Um, maybe.
I think it was at Kiara's
fifth birthday, right?
Kiara's fifth birthday? Yeah.
When did Kiara have a birthday?
Uh, I think it was...
- September 11th.
- Oh, September 11th, poor kid.
Eboni's parents threw her
a huge picnic down in Compton.
- Crenshaw.
- Crenshaw.
Oh. I wasn't invited.
Oh, well it was mostly family
and just friends from school, so.
How do you know Eboni again?
We were in a band together
in college.
Oh, that's right.
What? Eboni was in a band?
What did she play?
Wasn't it guitar?
No, bass. She also sang.
Well, she absolutely loves you.
I mean, you come highly recommended.
I'm sorry you couldn't meet
Alfie in person.
He's staying at
his nana and pop-pop's tonight.
But I'm sure you know the drill.
You probably babysit all the time.
Yeah, I do. I mean, not
professionally, but...
Oh, but Eboni says that you're
amazing with Kiara.
I love that kid.
There you go. You got
kids of your own?
No. I don't.
But you want them.
I mean, I don't even have a
boyfriend right now, so.
You guys got any single friends?
You take PayPal, right?
Uh, Venmo, or cash?
Honey, we have Venmo, right?
I think.
Do you have a credit
card with us?
What? Uh, no.
Do you want to apply for one?
No, thank you.
Well, if you do, you get 20%
off your purchase today.
No. My father just passed
away. In his bed.
Oh. I'm so sorry.
Yeah, he died alone. I haven't
been the greatest daughter.
I'm so sorry.
Is it okay if I just wear this
dress for his funeral and return it?
It's okay if I just keep
the tags on?
Our return policy is for
unworn clothing only.
Sorry, sorry.
Yeah.
That's, uh, $297?
Hi, Dr. Levin. It's Rachel.
I need to schedule an emergency
session by myself.
I'm still regressing, I'm still
being self-destructive.
I've been
thinking about this guy, this...
He was my best friend
from high school.
I don't know why.
Maybe I'm just trying to get
even with Josh for what he did.
If you have time, just let me
know? Thanks.
♪ But it rocks me to sleep where
The sun turns to glitter ♪
♪ With a dream
And a tear in my eye ♪
♪ I feel the pull of the moon ♪
♪ And its phases in you ♪
♪ And your fantasy
As I sit on the fence ♪
♪ There's a voice in my heart
Wherever you are ♪
♪ And as long as you're there ♪
♪ I can never get lost ♪
♪ There's a spot on my head ♪
Sorry.
Fuckin' branded content.
If I don't upload four of these fuckers
a month, I don't make rent. I'll be back.
Shit, he still has my phone.
Hey, moustache, bring out my
phone when you're done!
Idiot. All right.
So, where are we going?
I don't know. What's
good around here?
I am on an elimination diet, so I can't eat
soy, dairy, eggs, crustaceans, or tree nuts.
Here, give me your phone. I'll
find something.
Oh, Rachel.
What?
Why are you listening to this?
It's good stuff.
No, no, seriously, why are you
strolling down memory lane?
That's not what I'm doing.
- You're a horrible liar.
- That's not what I'm doing.
Thinking about divorce?
Oh my God, where are we going?
Calm down, calm down. I'll find
something.
So, I guess Josh is still getting
blow jobs from his assistant?
You allowed to smoke
on this diet?
So, have you checked his
text messages lately?
No. My shrink told me I
shouldn't be doing that anymore.
She's like 22. He's not gonna
leave me for her.
Sorry I've been so M. I. A. Freakin'
YouTube channel's taken over my life.
You're so lucky
your husband's rich.
Ah, maybe with all your free
time you can rebrand my site?
Should I text Goh, see if he
still has a crush on you?
I don't care.
- Yeah right!
- I don't care.
Hey, dude, period.
I'm drinking kale juice with
your prom date right now, period.
Amy, don't send that! What
is wrong with you?
Oh! Let's send him a selfie.
And let's use a fun filter.
Why are you acting like a
teenage girl?
I'm not ready to just casually reconnect
with him after all these years.
He's probably just living in
Wisconsin, in Green Bay with...
Madison, Madison.
Eating cheese or whatever
they do there.
Actually, they broke up.
He's still living in their house,
but they're not together anymore.
When did this happen?
Couple months ago, when I was in Boulder
shooting those energy drink videos.
I forgot to tell you.
Yeah, you did.
Last time I saw Goh, he was a zombie.
And he's still not playing music. So lame.
Oh shit!
What?
- Who just texted you? Give me...
- No.
- Amy, give me your phone.
- No.
All right, this is the top one, and this is
the bottom one, and you turn to the left.
Wait, is that right?
Hold on. Let me check.
Yeah. You turn it to the
left, away from the door. Okay?
Okay.
I took in the mail and the newspapers,
and they're all on the dining room table.
And I tried to air out
the place a bit.
Actually, it smells a lot
better than it did before.
Oh!
Erika, I'm so sorry. I didn't wash the sheets.
Is that okay? Should I strip the bed?
Oh, no, it's fine, thank you.
Oh, and the funeral home said they
didn't find a wedding band on him.
Do you know where he
might have kept it?
No.
Huh, he wasn't wearing one.
Um, okay.
Did you get my email about the
visiting professor job?
Yes.
Oh, good, because the department head
said they're really desperate to fill it.
Hey, why don't you come to
campus with me,
and I'll show you around,
introduce you to people?
Oh, I don't know if can...
Erika. You're applying.
There's no way you're not. Okay?
It's only for two years.
It's just our house is there
and everything's there.
All right, then sell it, sublet it,
whatever. You own this place now.
What about Goh?
You really think he wants to go
back to Wisconsin?
Erika, I'm sorry, I have to go.
You want to do dinner? Does
Sachiko even do sushi?
I think she's gonna
be with Goh, still.
Okay, you have to eat.
I think I'm just gonna take it easy tonight
and stay in, eat some of dad's ramen.
Oh god, that's depressing.
I am depressed.
Erika. You need to change.
You need to be here.
I need you here.
I'll call you tomorrow, okay?
But I'd better see your
application, all right?
Bye.
♪ The sign on my window
Says lonely ♪
♪ The sign on my door says
Nobody's home ♪
♪ I know what
You've been doing without me ♪
♪ And you wouldn't stop ♪
♪ Even if I said please ♪
♪ I see you fall ♪
♪ There's nothing
I can do for you ♪
♪ My dear, that's all ♪
♪ I tried everything I could ♪
♪ You're free at last ♪
♪ To wander your nights away ♪
♪ I see you fall ♪
♪ There's nothing
I can do anymore ♪
♪ I'm driving 'round this town
In your car ♪
♪ I'm driving real slow ♪
♪ Wondering how I'll let go ♪
♪ There's a new girl lying
In your arms ♪
♪ She's got emerald eyes ♪
♪ And a smile just like mine ♪
♪ I see you fall ♪
♪ There's nothing
I can do for you ♪
♪ My dear, that's all ♪
♪ I tried everything I could ♪
♪ You're free at last ♪
♪ To wander your nights away ♪
Thank you.
- No problem. Bye.
- Bye.
Hey. Can we get one
of those too?
Goh Nakamura, holy
shit! Ooh. Sorry.
This is Auntie Yea-Ming.
Oh my God, that sounds so weird.
This is Sachiko.
- Hi, Sachiko!
- She's five.
Oh, man. I guess it's been five
years, then, since I've seen you.
Did you get your guitar
back from Jasmine?
I did, yeah.
Cool. She's a good one. I
played her all the time.
She? Her? What?
Yeah. I named her Goh-hana.
Goh-hana!
Stupid!
She actually misses
you all the time.
Hey. Can we get one
of those shirts?
Do you want an extra small?
Something for a small child.
All right, let me grab
that for ya.
Let's see.
What do you say, Sachiko?
You like that? You want it?
Let me fold this up for you.
What do I owe you?
It's totally fine. Here.
- No, seriously, I...
- She's gonna be so cute in it!
- Seriously.
- No. Please don't.
- I gotta support your art and...
- No, you don't. Nope. Please.
That's so dorky. Just take it.
Sachiko.
Hey. Come on. I gotta
take her to her mom.
- Oh, how is "The Professor?"
- She's good.
Yeah? I heard about her dad.
I'm so sorry.
Are you staying with her?
Uh, no. Erika and Sachiko are
actually at her father's place.
Where are you staying?
Usual spot.
That motel? Ew, really? Gross.
You should stay with me, dude.
- Really?
- Yeah. I mean, Jasmine's never around anyway.
She's always at some guy's house
or some girl's house.
She's got one of those bed in a box
mattresses. You know what I'm talking about?
I'm always hearing about those
at the beginning of podcast ads.
Yeah. Totally. They're
actually really comfy.
I paid for the room already tonight, but maybe
they'll let me cancel the rest of the week.
When are you going
back to Wisconsin?
I'm not sure yet. Yeah, Erika still
has to sell her father's house, so...
Okay.
I figured I'd stick around a little bit
to help out with this little one here.
Yeah.
- You want to try this on, Sachiko? Isn't that pretty?
- Where?
Let's go to the bathroom.
I think we have to go to the bathroom.
- Mm-hm.
- Okay, let's go.
Do you need me to take her?
Nah, nah, I got this.
Okay. Well, give me a hug.
It's good to see you.
- Okay.
- Thank you.
- All right. Bye-bye. Say bye.
- Bye, Sachiko. Bye, Goh.
Hey, Alexa?
Play Goh Nakamura,
"If You Want Me To."
Hey Goh, period.
Heard you're
coming back to LA, period.
If you have time, comma, I'd
love to see you, period.
Testing out Jasmine's bed
for you,
exclamation point.
I am so sorry that
I missed your show.
It's fine. No worries.
No, it's... I'm a terrible friend.
But I have, you know, Harper.
He's like, insisted that daddy read,
so it was like the next thing I know,
it's 9:45, and I got another... I
really am sorry.
It's fine.
Whoa. Someone's trying
to get in.
Oh, shit, it's Goh!
The guitar guy?
Yeah.
No, you want to go that way.
No, the other that way.
You know what, I'm gonna go let
him in. Your hair's a mess.
I don't care. Fuck.
You look hung over.
Shut up!
Hey, man.
Alex. Goh, come on in.
Wow. You weren't exaggerating.
This place is like really nice.
What are you doing here?
I got your new song.
You're finally writing again?
I'm, you know, here to help.
Um, okay. Um, I'm kind of
working right now.
No, no, it's fine. I got this.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah. Go take a break.
All right, thanks.
You still teach?
Um, not really.
The kids these days, they kind of
like playing music and making music
on their computers more than
anything, so.
Do you miss teaching?
Yeah, I do, I do. Yeah.
Did you ever think you'd
be a full-time dad?
I still have a job.
Oh. What do you do?
Customer service.
I always
thought I'd have a family,
but I also thought that I would still
be able to play music, you know?
Like you.
Oh my God. Do not compare
your life with mine.
Why not?
Cause you're like
a fucking adult.
You're an adult.
I mean, I've got this stupid
roommate, and she's young,
and she makes more money than
me, and she goes to school.
I don't know.
You're doing what you
love though.
Can I tell you a secret?
Secret? Yeah.
In Madison, I bought a
cheap guitar.
Just keep it in the storeroom.
And I play it on
breaks, you know.
It's the only
time I play, you know.
I've become that guy.
This is a secret? Like you
never even told Erika?
Oh, no, hell no.
Fuck.
Well, don't be that guy. Here.
Help.
So, since I texted
you, I wrote a couple verses.
Um, so, play G.
A.
C.
D.
And then it's sort of like...
Yeah.
Cool.
Don't make it jazzy.
I don't want it to be jazzy.
No seventh chords and all that.
All that jazz.
Let's just do regular chords.
Okay, yeah.
Let's make it like move a
little.
Yeah.
Cool.
♪ I'm ♪
♪ Trying to ♪
♪ Let you go ♪
I like how you use
my name there.
♪ What do I know ♪
Stop talking.
♪ You ♪
♪ Left me with ♪
♪ All of your things ♪
♪ What will this bring ♪
And then, for the chorus,
you're gonna go to C.
- No way!
- Yeah.
You gotta keep going with
the verses there.
What? No, I... I could barely
write these, so...
It's way too soon to go to a chorus then.
You don't even know what the song's about.
- I don't really know what the song's about.
- It's about...
♪ Goh-hana ♪
- ♪ My guitar ♪
- Your guitar.
♪ Goh-hana ♪
I don't know. I mean, maybe it's
about not being able to let things go?
- Hey.
- Hey.
Is that a new bra?
Uh, no, I've always had it.
Hm.
It's... good.
It's really good.
Thank you.
I'm sorry.
May I touch your boob?
Yeah, sure, just don't
call them boobs.
Okay.
What should I call them?
Well, we're not in junior high,
so I'm sure you can figure it out.
Mammary glands?
Okay, yeah, you smell like
garlic. Excuse me.
Hey.
Rach?
What's, what's going on here?
Nothing.
- Do you want to talk about it?
- Nothing's going on.
You... you look so beautiful.
Thank you.
I mean it.
I am so lucky
to be married to you.
I hear your words.
I am madly in love with you.
- I am as in love with you as...
- Okay, okay! Okay, Josh.
I'm sorry, I just... I'm late meeting
Amy in Santa Monica for a movie,
and traffic's already a
nightmare, so.
Bye.
What movie are you going to see?
I don't know.
Some experimental
thing, and...
you know what, um...
We're probably gonna go out
to eat after,
and so I don't know what time
I'm gonna be home?
Look, Rachel, I am sorry.
Okay? I am sorry.
I don't know how many times I'm
gonna have to apologize,
- but I cannot take the distance that you keep creating...
- I don't wanna talk about this.
We are gonna discuss this with Dr. Levin
on Monday, so I need you to...
I need you to trust me.
I trust you.
♪ S omewhere in the nighttime ♪
♪ There's a dream
That would not wake ♪
♪ And the echoes
Of old wise men ♪
♪ Said "You made
A big mistake" ♪
♪ Oh, by the way side ♪
♪ Far away from your turn ♪
What the hell?
I'm sorry. Hi.
Oh my God.
Since when did you start
drinking diet soda?
Since my metabolism stopped
working. We're old, Goh.
You still look good.
So, do you.
Liar.
No, seriously, fatherhood,
it suits you.
How about you? You ever think
about becoming a mom, or...
Cheers.
What are we toasting to?
Oh. Um, our high school reunion.
Oh yeah. Go Cougars!
Go Cougars.
Should we sit down?
Mm-hm.
Sorry, I'm... I'm still
packing up here.
Trying to
check out, crash with a friend.
You know, there's such a thing
as a maid service, Goh.
Then you have to tip them
every single day.
Oh, but you should still be
tipping them every single day.
My life did not turn out
as fancy as yours, so.
What?
- Amy gives me updates.
- Oh.
Seems like you guys are pretty successful.
You and your husband. Josh?
Mm-hm.
You guys are happy though?
Mm-hm, we're solid.
Hey, I'm sorry it didn't work
out with "The Professor."
No, you're not. You hate her.
I don't hate her.
You hate her.
She hates me.
I'm sorry I let things
get so weird.
It's okay.
3I asked her to marry me.
She
obviously did not want that.
I don't know what else I can do,
you know?
I pretty much gave up
music for her.
Erika said that?
Not in those words exactly.
What words?
Did she say that, "Goh Nakamura,
you're never allowed to play music again?"
She didn't have to say anything.
I mean, who wants the father of their
child to be a struggling musician?
Yeah, but to get rid of your
guitar, that's really extreme, Goh.
It's a distraction. It's
a big life change.
You're telling me that your kid has never
heard you play guitar or sing before?
She's heard the CDs and stuff, but it's not
like I've ever serenaded her or anything.
Tell you what, I'll let you
practice on me.
One song.
No.
Yeah. "Surrogate Valentine."
No.
Duet version.
No. I really don't want to.
Okay.
Josh is cheating on me.
Did you hear what I said?
Yeah. No, I... didn't you just
say you guys were solid?
We are. We're in therapy.
We're working shit out.
I'm sorry. You deserve better.
Yeah? You think I deserve you?
You deserve a lot
better than me.
No, I'm fine. Don't get up
or anything. I'm fine.
I mean, shit, I don't
want to stop you...
Nope, I keep getting myself.
Hey, do you remember that weekend before
I left for college, when I slept over?
Mm-hm. Yeah. You were drunk.
I was pretending to be passed
out in your bed.
Around curfew, I just... I
pretended and then, um,
I was just lying in your bed,
waiting for you to make a move.
And I wasn't about to take
advantage of a drunk girl.
Well, but I wasn't drunk.
I didn't know that.
You're back early.
Everything all right?
Okay.
Hi.
Are you drunk?
Two drinks! I had two drinks.
Two dr... And you drove?
Okay. Honey, I really need
you to shut up, okay?
I don't know what movie you saw,
but I like how crazy it is making you.
I'm not crazy.
I didn't say you were crazy.
I'm not crazy.
Okay.
Say it!
You're not crazy.
I'm not crazy.
She stopped liking my photos.
What?
She stopped liking my photos.
You're being a stalker.
Actually, I think you're the
one with the stalker.
What?
Goh's outside.
What?
Oh my God!
How long
have you been out there?
Long enough to hear you
don't have a chorus.
You know, like we're dating,
we're vibing, it's all going well.
I feel like she's super into me,
and finally I'm just like so stoked
that I can stop dating dumb dudes,
you know?
Like who want to stick
their tongue down your throat
and don't know how to
touch you?
And then she just goes M. I. A.
I don't get it.
Ah, come on. Don't stop.
Did you just write that?
Mm-hm.
You miss your calluses, huh?
Yeah. They're buttery soft now.
It kind of reminds
me of something.
Like a children's song?
Fuck you. Fuck you.
Sadly, I can't right now, but
thanks for the invitation.
I'm just gonna go study.
You two behave.
Okay.
Oh!
Yeah, hah!
Trying to let you go.
I'm gonna, frankly, destroy your song
right now, but we'll put it back together.
That's why... we're...
Yeah. You gotta break the egg
before you make the omelet.
We need a hook, so here's my next
hook to lead into the chorus,
where you gotta go, uh...
I feel like you're
making fun of me.
No, no.
No, I'm just having
fun with you, but...
All right, yeah.
I don't know, I'm sorry, I'm
sorry. I'm sorry, okay.
♪ What do I know ♪
♪ I'm trying to ♪
♪ Find the chorus ♪
- I kinda wanted the chorus...
- ♪ Happy, sad, happy, sad ♪
I was... can we do
the chorus on C?
Too slow.
Come on. That was perfect.
- Tuck-uh, tuck-uh.
- Tuck-uh, tuck-uh.
Tuck-uh, tuck-uh.
♪ I'm trying... ♪
Too fast, too fast. Let's try
to find the half note.
The half note? Why wouldn't
you find the quarter note?
♪ I'm trying to ♪
Sounds reggae.
Yeah!
No, I don't want it like that. Ugh!
Why did you come here, anyway?
To drink and have
fun. Okay, let's...
- I thought you were gonna help.
- And help you.
I wonder if we can make a
perfect third with the...
Oh. Let's see.
Wait.
I gotta drink more.
Mm-mm. This is so good.
It's amazing.
You want some more?
Yeah, please.
Hey, can I tell you something?
What's that?
Um, remember that time that we
hung out in Vegas and stuff,
and we had like that super fun
night?
Anyway, I didn't think
we're talking after that,
and I know it's kinda heavy,
but I heard through the grapevine
that you were getting married,
and I know that you actually haven't
gotten married or anything, but like...
whatever, I had all these feelings,
so I wrote a song about it.
Really? Can I hear it?
Okay, why... yeah, what, yeah. Okay.
Fuck it. Can I play your guitar?
Of course, yeah. Yeah.
Goh-hana. You played her before.
Oh, Goh-hana!
Yeah. She'd be honored.
All right. Okay, for real?
Yeah.
Okay, well,
I just want to say
before I sing this, um...
don't be offended, okay?
This was
like kind of a long time ago.
- Yeah, no worries.
- I didn't think I was gonna ever see you ever again.
Wow. I'm sorry, but uh...
No, I mean, it's fine.
Anyway, okay.
♪ Walk out that door ♪
♪ And lock up my gate ♪
♪ Keep your midlife
Crisis away ♪
♪ 'Cause far across town ♪
♪ Your wife's not okay ♪
♪ She needs you
Like I need a change ♪
♪ Don't look at me ♪
♪ With those Eskimo eyes ♪
♪ You're not the one for me ♪
♪ And I'm standing tall ♪
♪ On the tips of my feet ♪
♪ You're not the one for me ♪
Don't move. Wait.
- Don't move?
- Yeah.
Hey, everybody.
Sorry about that.
Erika, I'm...
I'm so sorry for your loss.
This is a song I wrote 15 years ago
for my uncle who had passed away.
I sold it to a pharmaceutical
company called Relatrix,
so if you're prescribed to Relatrix,
maybe this will sound familiar.
Anyway, this one's
for you, Mr. Abe.
♪ Watch the sunset
Bleed the day ♪
♪ And soak the sky in red ♪
♪ And the evening
Wraps its bandage ♪
♪ Up around its wounded head ♪
♪ Let's end the day ♪
♪ Like this to infirmary ♪
♪ Whisper if you want me ♪
♪ Breathe a sigh into the wind ♪
♪ You can shout it
If you want to ♪
♪ Get it out
And catch my whim ♪
♪ Let's book the first flight ♪
♪ To where you want to go ♪
♪ Day like this ♪
♪ Goes down in infamy ♪
♪ There's no goodbye ♪
♪ And I just can't believe ♪
♪ We won't see him ♪
♪ Anymore ♪
Well done.
Thank you.
I'm an orphan now.
Yeah.
I know. That's weird.
Yeah.
Why doesn't it hurt more?
You should still be playing.
That's what makes you happy.
Sachiko makes me happier
than music ever did.
You know, I applied
for a job here.
I know. Julia told me earlier.
I'm tired of Madison.
Me too.
I want Sachiko to see her parents
following their dreams, you know?
Aren't you gonna say
something?
I just wonder if my race has
already been run, you know?
Someone just dropped this off.
- Sachiko's looking for you.
- Oh, shit.
- Who are they from?
- I don't know.
Oh, wow,
look how good this looks.
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. I like, love it.
Thank you, thank you.
But wait, I'm gonna move back a little bit.
Oh my god, I love it!
Oh, wow. I haven't
smiled in weeks.
I'm really sorry about your dad.
Thank you. It's been a lot to
deal with.
I know...
you went to
Goh's room the other night.
Nothing happened.
I know.
Nothing's ever happened with me and Goh.
I mean, we've never even kissed.
Never?
No, not even on prom night.
Why not?
It just never happened.
Thank you.
Do you ladies know
what you want?
Uh. Not yet, sorry.
Well, it's okay if something
did happen between the two...
Nothing happened,
and I'm married.
I know, but what I'm trying to
say is that...
I understand.
I accept that you're an
important part of his life.
Thank you for saying that.
I might move back here,
and I don't know if Goh and I
will ever get back together.
But...
I know how he
feels about you.
He loves you.
He's always loved you.
Wait, he told you that?
No.
But it's obvious.
What's that like?
To know, whatever
happens, how much time passes,
you guys are always connected?
All that history you guys have,
I can't compete.
I'm sure your
husband knows how I feel.
Yeah.
I thought you were
playing basketball.
Yeah, I was going to, then I thought
it might be nice to drive up to Malibu
and watch the sunset, have
dinner on the beach.
Did you make a reservation?
Nah.
Okay. Do you want me to?
No, it's cool. I was trying to
remember the name of that place
that Rachelle and Brandon told
us about,
and then I remembered that Rachelle was
gonna send you a text with the name of it.
So...
That "random musician," that
Goh guy?
You're having drinks
with him in his motel room?
What are you doing looking
through my text messages?
- We talked about this with Dr. Levin...
- No, we talked
about you not reading my text messages,
because I was the one that fucked up.
- Okay. I'm sorry.
- What did you do with him? What did you do with him?
I did nothing with him.
Well then who the hell is he?
Why don't I know about him?
Um, he's nobody. He's...
No, that's not true. He's, um...
Are you some kind of
groupie or something?
Oh my god, no! No, no, no...
Well, then why do you need to get drunk with him
in his motel in order to fuck your husband?
Do you love him?
I'm sorry.
I just don't feel
like myself right now.
That's a guitar pick.
Were you trying to eat it?
No.
You weren't? Okay, good.
Do you know what it does?
Yeah.
You know, you wanna try?
Good job. That's an A chord.
Now let's do it again.
That's a D chord.
You know what
we can sing with that?
No.
We can do "Twinkle, Twinkle,
Little Star." You want to do that?
- Let's do ABC.
- Okay, let's do ABC.
♪ A, B, C, D, E, F, G ♪
♪ H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P ♪
♪ Q, R, S, T, U, V ♪
- ♪ W, X, Y, and Z ♪
- ♪ Black sheep Have you any wool? ♪
♪ Yes, sir, yes, sir
Three bags full ♪
Yay!
You know, I was thinking about
what Jasmine was saying.
Oh, what'd she say?
About kids' songs, you know?
What should I write a song about?
I don't know.
You don't know?
How about unicorns?
What about boogers?
Should I write a song about
boogers?
♪ Boogers, boogers, boogers ♪
Stupid.
Tell me what I should
write a song about?
Mm... Your hand.
My hand?
♪ My fingers are on my hand ♪
♪ They should all form a band ♪
Hey. You know what?
Before you become the next Raffi,
can you help me finish my song?
Deal. That sounds good.
Hey, Sachiko, guess what.
- What?
- I got a present for you. It's a...
- Do you mind watching her for me?
- What? Oh, yeah, yeah.
Hey, what's up?
I'm in the car right
now. Where are you?
Los Feliz. Wait, how do
you... Los Feleez, Filis?
I'm gonna come pick
you up, okay?
Uh, I have Sachiko with
me right now, though.
Oh.
I'm actually at Yea-Ming's
apartment.
Oh.
Can you come here?
Hello?
Hello?
Hey.
Hey.
Do you want a drink?
What do you have?
I've got beer and water.
I'll have water.
Do you want a,
do you want a bite of mine?
Hey, Sachiko, this is my oldest
friend, Rachel.
How old are you?
- Oh. We don't ask grown-ups that.
- Yeah.
Are you hungry? You
want to sit down?
Actually, can we go
somewhere and talk?
Hey, Yea-Ming, do you mind hanging
out with Sachiko for a little bit
while I talk with
Rachel outside?
Yeah. Mm-hmm. Sure.
Thank you.
That should keep
her busy. Thanks.
Hey, are you okay?
I'm just gonna do something,
and I just want you to go with it, okay?
What?
Wait, hold on. What's
going on? What's going on?
Stop laughing, Goh. What?
- This is bonkers.
- This is bonkers? Shut up!
- I didn't say anything!
- Stop laughing!
Stop it. Oh my God!
All right.
Try it again?
I'm sorry, I wasn't ready. Try
it again, try it again.
Me try it again? You frickin'
try it again. You try it.
Rachel. What are we doing?
I'm sorry, Goh. I love you.
Fuck.
Tell Yea-Ming I'm sorry?
Don't worry about it.
I'm so embarrassed.
Don't be, don't be.
I love you.
- Bye.
- Bye.
What was that?
I have no idea.
What happened?
Nothing really happened.
What did she want?
She didn't want anything.
Oh, really?
What are you not
telling me, Goh?
Do you want to be with her?
Can we not talk about this
in front of Sachiko?
What are we doing?
What are we doing here?
Sachiko's not my
kid, I'm not your babysitter.
Yeah, I know. I know.
- I'm not her mother. She's not like Goh-hana.
- I know.
- What?
- Goh-hana, your fucking guitar!
I know what you're talking about.
I know who you're referring to...
She's not just someone you can
fucking drop off at my house
anytime you can't figure out
your life.
You have no idea.
I've got a life I've gotta
figure out too!
I can't be this girl.
I can't be this girl.
- What are you talking about?
- I can't be this fucking girl.
This "I-don't-give-a-fuck-
who-you're-fucking" girl.
I'm not fucking anyone.
You were just fucking making out
with Rachel on my sidewalk.
You were just... oh my God!
- I was what?
- Fuck.
Oh, thank you. Come here.
Your nose, blow...
I am too old for this.
Hey. It's Josh.
Listen, I'm not mad at you.
I just... I
need to cool off and think.
I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
When I get back, we can talk
about everything.
I love you.
All right, bye.
Is that my shirt?
No, it was my dad's.
Looks really good on you.
I gotta
tell you something.
You can't get upset with me, because
ultimately it doesn't mean anything.
Rachel and I kissed
earlier today.
It was terrible, awful.
No, it's funny because I used to
daydream about it when I was a kid,
you know, and the
reality of it was just, nah.
Nah?
Nah.
You know, I've been thinking
about how things used to be.
I'm sorry if I made you feel like you
couldn't have a life outside of us.
We used to be...
I just
want us to, I don't know...
Stop making it so hard.
Yeah.
I don't know. I was thinking that
moving to LA isn't such a bad idea.
I could probably get a transfer
to the LA office,
maybe get an apartment close to
you and Sachiko?
Or...
You could just save the money
and live here with us.
Good night.
We ready?
We're rolling.
"I Will Make You Mine," vocal and guitar.
Whenever you're ready.
♪ I'm ♪
♪ Trying to ♪
♪ Let you go ♪
♪ What do I know ♪
♪ You ♪
♪ Left me with ♪
♪ All of your things ♪
♪ What will this bring ♪
♪ But I still adore you ♪
♪ And I don't know why ♪
♪ Dreaming like a fool ♪
♪ Standing by ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ You ♪
♪ Left me with ♪
♪ All of your mail ♪
♪ Casting a spell ♪
♪ Why ♪
♪ Would you bring me home ♪
♪ For a one-night stand ♪
♪ That wasn't my plan ♪
♪ But I still adore you ♪
♪ And I don't know why ♪
♪ Dreaming like a fool ♪
♪ Standing by ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ Now ♪
♪ That you've had it ♪
♪ And now ♪
♪ That I gave it ♪
♪ Do you ♪
♪ Still see me ♪
♪ And am I ♪
♪ Still lovely ♪
♪ I still adore you ♪
♪ And I don't know why ♪
♪ Dreaming like a fool ♪
♪ Standing by ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ Thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
♪ And thinking I will
Make you mine ♪
Hey. I just watched it.
Sorry,
I'm at work right now.
So, what'd you think?
It was awesome. Even though you
didn't use any of my suggestions.
I didn't want to
share a writing credit with you.
Anyway, how
did that meeting go?
Good.
Yeah?
They're gonna do "Babysitter
Blues" and "Seesaw."
Wow, that's awesome.
Yeah, kids' music. Who knew?
I think it's rad. I think we
should celebrate.
All right, later. Bye.
Hey, I'm gonna go on a break.
♪ I never thought
I'd have to say it ♪
♪ I never thought
It'd come to this fate ♪
♪ Hands on the clock
They blur the timeline ♪
♪ Next thing you know
It's just too late ♪
♪ So, hold on
To your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on to your
Hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ And I never thought
I'd have to say it ♪
♪ I always thought it was
Common sense ♪
♪ Am I the optimist
Or the cynic ♪
♪ Just depends on
When you ask me, I guess ♪
♪ So, hold on
To your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on
To your hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on
To your sense of wonder ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ Hold on
Onto a hand that needs it ♪
♪ We're losing on our grip ♪
♪ At least we'll have hope ♪
♪ At our fingertips ♪
♪ Hold on to your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on
To your hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on
To your sense of wonder ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ Hold on to your imagination ♪
♪ Hold on
To your hopes and dreams ♪
♪ Hold on
To a hand that really needs it ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪
♪ You can let go
Of the other things ♪
♪ Can't believe I have
To tell you these things ♪
♪ Hold on to your humanity ♪