Festivals of Patience (2018) - full transcript

(chalkboard eraser noise)
(old film crackles)

(dramatic rock guitars)

- There are reasons

far beyond, all in life that one can know.

Reasons which won't be explained,
just because we want it so.

But within them, goodness lies,

despite the tears a lifetime cries.

Beyond the hurt,

beyond the pain,

eternal bliss is ours to gain.

There's a battle to be fought,



with the demons in our heart,

for the kingdom in our soul,

to which love unlocks the door.

(leaves crackling )

And say goodbye,

to all your tragic dreams

and soon forgotten sorrows.

(subway station booming)

- Michael, come on.

Come on, get up.

Get up, lad, let's get you home.

- [Michael] Leave me alone.

- Come on, Michael,
you're gonna get arrested.

Up we go.



- No.

No!

(both groaning)

(siren wails)
(vehicles honking)

(upbeat lounge music)

- [John] He arrives from Paris tonight.

- Away?
- Three months,

hired to write. Ah, but here he comes.

Welcome back, young Michael Fiorelli.

Why good sir, what could possibly bring

such a prestigious writer as
yourself to such a shabby site?

- Surely not you, oh sexy John,

but perhaps this full moon,
seducingly strange night.

Nonetheless, I'm here.

- That you are, that you are.

(glasses clinking)

All's well, I see?

- As well as well can be.

And you, what tales have you to tell?

- Of life, of love, false or true?

(chuckles) What can I say?

Not much is new, but come,
it's you who's just returned,

so please tell of all
the midnight oils burned.

- If only it were so, though sadly, no.

I was locked in a cell.

Okay, a Parisian shack,
writing and writing,

couldn't wait to get back.

- Really?

But enfante, Paris, I thought

it was the city of love and glee.

- Paris is lovely, yes indeed.

I just wish I'd had more time--

(romantic piano music)
(people chattering)

Dear John,

what ardent, passionate light I see.

Through my skin and to my heart,
ablaze her glare sets me.

Glimmering, radiant beauty.

- Oh, Michael, awaken, for
fair as this young maiden be,

fool yourself only you
shall, with such intensity.

- Too late now for looks at least,

proof of goodness yet
to see, wish me luck.

What grace does shine
through soft, fair skin

and wakens every sense,
but what's it's done

to this here heart, only
your love can make amends.

- Sweet young boy,

whose eyes all too anxiously
devour what they see,

and those words, to
which silk must have

but lost a million battles,

what do you want with me?

- Only to avow that
which my heart believes,

by seeing your soul, so radiant and pure,

it must but be the inner spark

that blares aloud through gorgeous eyes

and angel's soft, fair skin.

- Speak no more, at least not now.

It is soft silk those words, they imitate,

weaving loving thoughts,
my heart they penetrate.

Obscure thoughts in my mind accelerate

the beating of my heart and oddly,

though, please speak again.

Gentle, cradle, my heart mend.

- My lips, my heart does guide,

and speak to you, fair
angel of light, I shall,

but come; let us leave now,

somewhere beneath the sweet moonlight.

- Common male! That you are
to drag me from my friend,

into a dark, oh night so cold,

what is it you pretend?

- To know your heart and search

your soul for all that which is true,

and it be a pureness that I find,

In love I'll fall with you.

- To these words and in these arms

too quickly I could fall...

yet life's misery, more so quickly I recall.

- So black-hearted human ways,

have pierced and harmed your heart,

I do so sense their base,
impure, oh pain-inflicting art.

- So shall we chat?

Come, sit and hear more
than you'd wish to know,

though I'm certain after this,

no more sweet words, you'll only go.

- Speak and say that which you shall,

fair warning though I give you now,

no matter what your words may be;

shock I've heard, all thunder and emotion,

nonetheless, my love prevails,

pure and true with all devotion.

- Assure me not, for we shall see,

if loving words prove true to be.

So much to say but where to start?

- It matters not, just speak your heart.

- An introduction, that sounds nice,

and for a start, it shall suffice.

(upbeat piano music)

Sarah Andrews.

- Sarah Andrews.

- Why what a lovely name, who
would've thought it'd be the same.

- (chuckles) Lovely
name for lovely dame,

and Michael Fiorelli,

that's my name.

Now, what more have you to say?

- You wish to know, so ask away.

- Fair enough, if it's this
game that we shall play,

what's your favorite color,
favorite song, and favorite day,

Favorite hour, favorite pet,
favorite genius intellect,

Favorite movie, favorite scene,

favorite sport, and favorite team?

- Okay, all right, I'll
let you breathe.

Silver, majestic, striking is it's shine,

Favorite song escapes my mind.

Sunday's calm, I guess, all right,

but I love wild Friday night.

12:00 a.m., not night nor day,

cats are best in every way.

Da Vinci, shockingly ahead of his time,

"Pretty Woman," I forget the line.

Rough and tough football I
choose, 49ers, win or lose.

I think that's all, if I recall.

- Now catch your breath before you fall.

(Sarah giggles)

- Intense and wistful, all you say,

have you always been this way?

Don't get me wrong, I judge you not,

I do so love your every thought,

but how indeed you do convert,
to burning passion every word?

- The answer is you...

You need not ask, for
words become a simple task;

with beauty such before my eyes,

my breath but mumbles
that which my heart sighs.

Now, words, more sounds from you again,

and into bliss my heart you'll send.

- Well and fair, to these
words I can't refuse,

but to listen, you did choose.

Though I forewarned, not all is bright,

Dark, perhaps,

darker than night.

My childhood was fun,

my mom, my dad, my brother and I,

but then my brother had to die.

His death is not where I should start,

at 17, she broke his heart.

I do say she, for I hate her name.

My brother's death on her I blame.

To kill his pain, the one within,

his choice of drug, heroin.

Of all the drugs, the one he chose

quickly killed him, overdose.

Mom and Dad didn't last long,

Dad claimed everything was wrong,

so he packed up and went his way,

and with my mother I did stay.

- I'm sorry, but I'm also most impressed,

at the ease with which
your sorrows are confessed.

- I've had much practice, you could say,

two years of counseling every other day.

High school years were shot to hell,

of pleasant times, there's none to tell.

Too soon, too quick did things go bad,

for young, naive met senior Brad.

At 15, my love I'd met, a
love forever I'd regret.

Brad brought sex and drugs along,

and you don't refuse when
your love's so strong.

Either way, we didn't last,

and there's no way to change your past.

So bad habits soon become addictions,

and when broken-hearted, to
hell with all convictions.

Nothing ever lasts.

God, I hate to feel this way,

please don't say that you won't stay.

- How could I dare to leave,

one minute apart would break my heart.

You offer more than I could ask,

too simple, pleasurable a task.

Now, to make some sort of vow.

- That you'll hold me forever
and always, just as you do now?

- Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
(romantic piano music)

(both laughing)

A thousand times, yes.

Bless this night and praise these stars.

Ungrateful, we shan't be,
for this night of love

unveiled bliss and placed you next to me.

(romantic orchestral music)

- Dawn?

Too soon our night is gone.

Oh God, look at the time,

Alexa will think I was out of my mind.

- Out of your mind but
not your heart and soul,

love is something you can't control.

Don't explain, just let things be,

I know John too will question me.

- You're right, but I must go.

- Wait, when will I see you again?

This I must know.

- Tonight, and not a second later.

When the sun falls and shadows rise,

my soul will accelerate
the beating of my heart

until it looks into your eyes.

- Then grant me but one last request.

- To comply, I'll do my best.

- One last embrace before we part,

this indeed will ease my heart.

- How could I but dare say no,

when I too wish this wish before I go.

(romantic orchestration)

Goodnight,

and swift, my return,

only with passion, shall your heart burn.

Oh, and this to ease your wait.

- Morning slowly bleeds its way
through a dark night's flesh,

so as to lay the moon down for its rest.

For all that rise, must surely fall,

as did my sad heart, after all.

Goodnight, sweet moon,

goodnight.

(upbeat rock music)

(vehicles honking)

(window knocks)

♪ I met a girl ♪

♪ Could you imagine, I met a guy ♪

♪ Well, what do you know ♪

♪ You met a guy ♪

♪ The guy from last night ♪
JOHN: ♪ The girl from last night ♪

MICHAEL & SARAH:
♪ You got that right ♪

(instrumental break)

♪ So what's he like ♪

♪ Is she what you expected ♪

♪ You know, your angel of light ♪

♪ Oh, but she's more than just that ♪

♪ He's a dream and a half ♪

♪ Honest and pure, you
know she didn't hold back ♪

♪ I tried to resist him ♪

♪ You usually do ♪

♪ This time it was different,
he's something new ♪

♪ Deep, dark eyes ♪

♪ Passionate soul ♪

♪ Skin so soft ♪
SARAH: ♪ Arms so soft ♪

♪ I couldn't let go ♪
♪ I lost all control ♪

♪ It was love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ It was love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Is what it was ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ So passionate, sweet ♪

♪ She makes me complete ♪

♪ It was love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Love at first sight ♪

♪ She will be my wife ♪

MICHAEL & SARAH:
♪ It was love ♪

♪ Wait, come again, did
you say get married ♪

♪ Well, no, not yet, but
I know she's the one ♪

♪ Sarah in love, who
would've thought it ♪

♪ And more than that,
love at first sight ♪

♪ Come now, stay calm ♪

♪ You hardly but know her ♪
ALEXA: ♪ You don't really know him ♪

MICHAEL & SARAH:
♪ My god, you're right, that's why I'll see her (him) ♪

MICHAEL & SARAH:
♪ Tonight ♪

(subway and traffic sounds)

(school bell rings)

(people chattering)

- Well, what d'ya know,

another one's arrived.

- Great, just when I thought I'd survived.

And your day, how's it been?

- Nothing worthy of a grin,

two fights and then more teenage drama;

"She called me what?

"Uh-uh, I ain't no slut.

"That's your momma." (laughs)
- Ugh

I know...

So?

- For weeks and weeks, I wait and wait,

but how I do now hesitate.

- Come on, come on, it's getting late.

Open it.

(paper tearing)

Don't sweat it, John, forget it.

They've no clue how good you are.

You're a scholar, a gentleman, and star.

- Don't worry, I'm used to these already,

what's the saying, something,
something slow and steady?

- Right. So poker tonight, your place?

- The cards are ready, ace.

Lookin' forward to changing my luck.

- (chuckles) Last time, you
were down to your last buck.

- Well not tonight,

so you'd best tell the boys
to bring their money.

- All right, I'll see ya later, honey.

(John chuckles)

- [John] Come on.

(bell tolls)

- Michael, what a pleasant surprise.

And you've got my book, isn't that nice?

- Good morning, Father,
that and so much more.

- Oh, so it's good news you have in store.

Please, please, do share.

- I feel...

I'm floating in midair.

I can still see her eyes,
I can still smell her hair.

What a marvelous night,
I'm still under her spell.

- Michael, not again, these
things never fare well.

You dive in too soon,
too deep, can't you tell?

- Not this time, Father,
she's unlike any other.

I'm certain this time, true love

has walked right through my door.

- And what on earth in one
night can make you so sure?

And don't say her eyes, her beautiful smile.

- Her beauty is undeniable,

but it's her soul that's
aglow and so worth the while.

For despite her past
regrets, there's a spark

in her eyes of childlike purity,

still untarnished by
life's sorrows and cruelty.

She's aware of her faults,

of the place from which they stem.

- And you aim to polish this rough gem.

Be cautious then.

It's often lovers who
are far too blind to see,

that fall in love with each
other's faults and not reality.

- I'm not sure I follow.

Are her faults not her own,

do they not represent who
she is, how she's grown?

Is it perfection I should
seek and if so, where to find?

- Perfection is solely on the cross,

not of this earth nor of this time.

Seek truth, but venture slowly,

keep both feet on the
ground.

For foolish hearts hurt even more,
when love is carelessly profound.

Take your time,

and be pious,

for piety rewards tenfold,
(chuckles) as I'm sure

throughout your years
you've constantly been told.

- I have, and thank you, Father,

for your words and your concern.

From words of wisdom, even
the wisest still can learn.

(Conor chuckles)

(paper crunches)

(Michael sighs)

(door clacks)

What time is it?

- Why, hi John, how are you,

how was your day?

- I'm sorry, I'm in a bit of a fray,

can't seem to get her
out of my mind all day.

- Oh, that's right, your angel of light.

You're seeing her tomorrow?

- No, tonight.

- Oh, I see, but what about poker?

- [Michael] You'll have to do without me.

- Chickening out already.

- Oh, how you wish.

Don't you worry, I'll take
your money soon enough.

- [John] Anytime, I'll call your bluff.

- Touche.

So, how was your day?

- Mundane, and then this came.

- You're not smiling.

- It's the same.

If I ever showed promise,
where on earth did it go?

Stuck forever in high school
was not the plan, you know?

- I know.

Just keep sending 'em your
stuff, one is bound to bite.

- They did once before.

- [Michael] Right.

- So, if you're seeing her
tonight, why so anxious,

why so agitated?

- I don't know.

I fear that spark, that
inexplicable intensity,

may have perhaps already faded.

- Well, worry not, I'm sure it's fine,

perhaps she too's been
anxious all this time.

- Don't say that,

I wish upon her no ill
thought, no desperation.

- Even if it means your
kiss is her salvation?

- Even then, John, even then.

(bottles clinking)

(mellow rock music)

- Here, have some wine to calm you down.

You're acting so weird, as
if you hadn't been around.

- Well, that's not nice.

- You know what I mean.

- You don't have to be so mean.

He's different,

I really do think this could be love.

- Ugh

- Ugh, why?

Just because you find love
so trite and frivolous,

what gives you the right to
curse it for the rest of us?

- Damn.

Well, don't be so profound,

I'm happy for you, for the
love that you've found.

Cheers, to Sarah and Mitchell.

- [Sarah] Michael.

- Right, Michael.

(glasses clinking)

(Alexa sniffs)

- [Sarah] No thanks, I'm good.

- Well, well, well, how we've changed indeed.

- Yeah, I guess so,

maybe that crap, I no longer need.

See ya.

(romantic piano music)

Hi.

- Hi.

♪ So how are you this lovely night ♪

♪ Well, now with you before my sight ♪

♪ The night seems oh so much more bright ♪

♪ Brighter than the day ♪

♪ Brighter anyway ♪

♪ Was your day long, are you all right ♪

♪ God, I couldn't wait 'til night ♪

♪ Neither could I ♪

♪ I felt like I would die ♪

♪ Like I would die ♪

♪ But now you're here and
I've got you to hold me ♪

♪ With you by my side,
it all seems so right ♪

♪ Forever this way, endless nights ♪

♪ No more day ♪

♪ Now hold on a minute, there's
something I should say ♪

♪ Something I must say ♪

♪ My past relationships have
not been all that great ♪

♪ Forget great, in fact,
they've plainly just been hell ♪

♪ I've had all day to think away ♪

♪ And wonder if you're right ♪

♪ Now in which way might I be right ♪

♪ About your lovely eyes ♪

♪ About this lovely night ♪

♪ Sweet words won't talk you out
of that which you must hear ♪

♪ Not right now, not right here ♪

♪ So I guess I should listen ♪

♪ Oh, yeah ♪

♪ I'm scared to fall in love ♪

♪ And deal with all the pain ♪

♪ A foolish little girl ♪

♪ The only thing I've been ♪

♪ You'd think by now I'd learn ♪

♪ To simply not give in ♪

♪ Nothing but sorrow, nothing but pain ♪

♪ Open your eyes, don't let 'em in ♪

♪ But my heart keeps breaking
each and every time ♪

♪ My heart keeps longing
for someone to be mine ♪

♪ Yeah, my heart keeps
breaking each and every time ♪

♪ I need you, I need you ♪

♪ But don't go promising
things you can't keep ♪

♪ Don't go promising
things you can't keep ♪

♪ Don't go saying that you'll
always be right there ♪

♪ Don't go saying that
you'll always care ♪

♪ I can't, dear, deal with the lies ♪

♪ My trust you'll betray,
as my heart dies ♪

♪ I've never felt this way and
I've lived my share of pain ♪

♪ I've never loved this way
and I never will again ♪

♪ You're mine, you're mine ♪

♪ This is true love ♪

♪ It's love ♪

MICHAEL: ♪ So open up your heart ♪
SARAH: ♪ Don't go promising ♪

♪ Give it one more chance ♪
♪ Things you can't keep ♪

♪ Forget your past regrets ♪
♪ Don't go saying ♪

♪ Baby, make your stance ♪
♪ that you'll never leave ♪

♪ For love, for love ♪
♪ I need you ♪

♪ Right now ♪

♪ It's all that we've got ♪
♪ Don't break my heart ♪

♪ I won't abandone you ♪
♪ Don't go running awayt ♪

♪ I won't leave you behind ♪
♪ In the night ♪

♪ I'll hold you in my arms ♪
♪ Don't go saying ♪

♪ Forever you'll be mine ♪
♪ It just isn't right ♪

♪ I'm yours ♪
♪ Anymore ♪

♪ I'm yours ♪
♪ Breaking my heart ♪

♪ Sarah ♪

♪ Trust in me ♪
♪ 'Cause my heart keeps breaking ♪

♪ I won't leave you behind ♪
♪ Each and every time ♪

♪ Your heart I'll mend ♪
♪ Yeah, my heart keeps breaking ♪

♪ Baby now your mine ♪
♪ Each and every time ♪

♪ I love you ♪
♪ I need you ♪

♪ This love is real ♪

- Well, there it is, plain and
simple, clear as day,

royal flush, third today.

(men laughing)

- And the Lord will have His day.

- Don't mock the Lord, He's not to blame.

and if that's your excuse, it's rather lame.

Be glad, this here tidy sum
goes straight to the poor,

will make 'em less glum.

(men chuckling)

- Ah, so a Robin Hood of sorts,
or better yet a Friar Tuck.

- We've got God, who needs luck?

- So that's that, lads, here we call it.

Next time, I won't go
so easy on your wallet.

(men laughing)
- Right.

- Okay, boys, goodnight.

- Goodnight.
- Goodnight.

- About Michael, how's he doing?

- He's in love, his love he's wooing.

- Yes, he stopped by
today, dropped off my book.

I could tell right away,
he had that strange look.

- You mean the one where
he looks right through you,

floating in space in
his lovely love bubble?

- (chuckles) That's the one.

- I think we're in trouble.

- He'll be fine.

- [Richy] Not this time.

- [Father Conor] Just have him take it slow,

you're his friends, give
him advice, let him know.

He's growing up, he should be okay.

All right, lads, I should be on my way.

Goodnight to you both.

- Goodnight, Father.

- Goodnight, Father, see you soon.

(upbeat rock music)

♪ So he got himself a girlfriend ♪

♪ He's been back for one night ♪

♪ I wouldn't quite just say that ♪

♪ Though I think you're right ♪

♪ Got himself a girlfriend,
calls her angel of light ♪

♪ We talkin' 'bout that same
girl from the other night ♪

♪ I seriously doubt
she'll marry in white ♪

♪ The girl gets around,
if you get my drift ♪

♪ You mean that she takes
Uber, taxis, and Lyft ♪

♪ I get it, you're funny, oh honey ♪

♪ Your boy just better watch out ♪

♪ That girl is trouble, trouble ♪

♪ Trouble and a half ♪

♪ Trouble, triple-double ♪

(John laughs)

♪ John, don't laugh ♪

♪ She's been around, all over town ♪

♪ The outs and ins, I won't discuss ♪

♪ I wouldn't dare cause such a fuss ♪

♪ But she is trouble, trouble ♪

♪ Or so you say, now on your way ♪

♪ John, don't be rude ♪

♪ It's for his own good ♪

♪ He should know ♪

♪ A wild child, likes the snow ♪

Blow!

- Oh!

♪ That girl is trouble, trouble ♪

♪ She's not the one for our sweet Mike ♪

♪ If this is true, you might be right ♪

♪ I don't want trouble, trouble ♪

♪ The kid is good and pure at heart ♪

♪ Well, she ain't sweet,
she's rather tart ♪

♪ You know the biker ♪

♪ You don't say ♪

♪ You know the doorman ♪

♪ Oy vey ♪

♪ I could go on, the list gets long ♪

♪ No, that's okay, he'll stay away ♪

BOTH:
♪ That girl is trouble, trouble ♪

♪ Trouble ♪

♪ Triple-double ♪

♪ So don't delay, it's clear as day ♪

♪ That girl is trouble ♪

- Okay.

(vehicle honks)

- She's a dream, John, she's a dream.

Love like this, this day and
age, is rarely ever seen.

If with my owns hands, hers I'd not held,

I'd think I was dreaming, under some spell.

But she's real, John, she's real.

- It's this passion, this
fever within you that rages,

ignoring all the wisdom handed
down throughout the ages.

Caution, caution, dead ahead.

This love of which you speak,
it makes your reason weak,

clouds of bliss clutter your brain,

disperse to hell, any thought that's sane.

- And if for love, I risk not all,

tell me then of a worthier
call, or a better time.

Perhaps when I'm older,
let this one slip by,

let the falls just grow colder?

- Very well, do as you please.

But a better time might
be, when the one you love

threatens not to damage, as does she.

Regardless of your choice,
your friend I'll always be,

and when a shoulder is in
need, you can count on me.

- Thank you, and fear not,

for love cradles my heart. (chuckles)

I think I know of the solution,
to ease your disillusion.

My love you soon shall meet,
and find she's more than sweet.

I believe she's got a friend,

I'll make sure she comes along,

you could use a little drink,
a little dance, a little song.

- So, you're an actress, Michael did say.

- Just finished her 17th play.

Amazing to behold, so
glamorous, so natural.

If only I could be so bold.

- Honey, you too are amazing.

Look at you!

You've got just what it takes.

You just have to let go, take
your foot off the brakes.

- Maybe, I don't know.

- So when's your next show?

- Not for a while, it's
time to stake my claim:

Hollywood's the name of the game.

- I see, wow, congratulations.

But Los Angeles is far, have
you no reservations?

- No, I've nothing to lose,
and nothing standing in my way.

It's losers who fear, worry day to day.

- Well, that's quite
harsh, wouldn't you say?

Somebody may be careful,

but it doesn't merit insult so dreadful.

- I guess that's why
you're both so successful.

- Alexa.

- Michael's quite talented,
I guess you don't know.

He just got back from
Paris, has written a show.

- A small play for some
bourgeois institution.

They wanted a modern tale
of the French Revolution.

- I'll say you're overly modest.

Small as it may have
been, I read the reviews,

it did very well.

- Well, bravo!
(John laughs)

Sarah, who knew?

- Cheers to you.

- So which do you prefer, film or theater?

- Film, of course,

there's a lot more money to be made,

and the fame is even more so great.

- Big dreams, hard to reach.

- And what do you do again?

Oh, right, you teach.

- John was actually gonna
write for The Times.

He had gotten the job and was on his way...

- But I changed my mind and
I'm perfectly happy this way.

You see, Alexa, I don't think

fortune and fame can complete you,

but if you simply love what you do,

happiness will come to greet you.

- So, when are you moving out to LA?

- In just a few weeks, end of May.

Sarah is helping me move out there.

- Oh, you don't say?

- Yeah, don't worry.

I'm not going out there to stay,
just a week or two at most.

- Well, to you, Alexa,
here's a toast. (chuckles)

(glasses clinking)

- Okay, so a teacher?

Ugh, what's that all about?

- You don't have to act out.

He was on his way, job in hand.

His father died, heart attack.

Mom got sick, so much for that.

And on top of that,
his girlfriend left him

for some guy in upstate New York.

- What a dork.

- Don't be mean.

I think it's sweet he gave it all up

to take care of his mom.

- Well, I think it's dumb.

He could've put her in care.

And what about his dreams,
his life, his girlfriend?

(scoffs) I guess to think of
that, oh no, he wouldn't dare.

- I can't believe you see it that way.

What if it was your mother?

- Mom's dead, remember?

Don't bother.

(Alexa sniffs)

Hmm?

- I have to admit, I'm somewhat perplexed.

Sarah seems kind, the other, quite vexed.

- They grew up together,
childhood friends,

though it's clear she's a bad influence.

- Ah, well, good luck with that.

- What, you're not staying?

- [John] Only if you're buying...

Come on, I'm just playing.

- Well, hello again.

- So, who's your friend?

- What, you've yet to mention me?

- Huh?

Oh, it's a game, I see.

Nice, you had me going.

- [Kate] So what am I pouring?

- Shots, if you would be so kind.

- Tequila?

- And beer, if you don't mind.

- Mind?

Why, not in the least.

- Look at you, you sexy beast!

- Cut it out.

She's nice, huh?

- Yeah, duh.

- Here you go, hun.

Come back for more.

- God, you're such a bore.

- (chuckles) They should
really turn up the air.

- Yeah, it's hot in here.

- You gonna share?

(John chuckles)

Oh, you're cute.

What's your name?

Wanna play a drinking game?

- Wow, well, that didn't take long.

- [Michael] No, you're wrong.

- This is not what it looks like.

- Right, I don't even know what to say.

- These girls are drunk.

- Hey!

- Sarah, we're leaving, now.

- Sarah, wait.

- What?

- I don't know that girl, she's wasted,

she sat on my lap, you
walked out just as she sat.

- (scoffs) And you're sticking to that?

- Yes, why would I lie?

I'm not that guy.

- It's fine, I believe you.

- But let's call it a night, huh?

We should go,

it just feels right.

- Okay, goodnight.

- Goodnight.

(phone dings)

- It's Sarah.

I guess we're okay.

She's asking to meet,
I should go right away.

- Michael, be careful.

I was not too impressed, and Alexa,

she seems like the devil,
just a bit better dressed.

- Goodnight, and don't worry,

I'm sure I'll be fine.

(upbeat rock music)

- It's precisely those words
that don't ease my mind.

(busy street noise)

♪ Baby, there you are ♪

♪ I won't let you get far ♪

♪ Oh no, no, no ♪

♪ Well, nice to see you too ♪

♪ I see you two had fun ♪

♪ Maybe too much fun ♪

♪ Baby ♪

♪ Baby ♪

♪ Whao ♪

♪ Let's go out, the night's still young ♪

♪ Let's go out and have some fun ♪

♪ You know it's half past 1:00 ♪

♪ Baby ♪

♪ We're in love, or so you say ♪

- So I say?

♪ Baby ♪

♪ I need more than love tonight ♪

♪ I need more to feel all right, baby ♪

♪ Baby ♪

♪ Take me out and about ♪

♪ Let's have fun, let's be young forever ♪

♪ If we only live once, let
us drink, let us dance ♪

♪ Let us live so wild and free ♪

♪ Only you and you for me ♪

♪ Baby ♪

♪ Baby ♪

(electric guitar solo)

♪ Passion, passion, lips are burning ♪

♪ Skin to skin, my body's yearning ♪

♪ For love, for love ♪

♪ So take me in your arms tonight ♪

♪ I want to feel you ♪

♪ Deep inside my soul ♪

♪ I want to be the only one ♪

♪ The only one you love ♪

♪ I want to be your everything
you've ever dreamed of ♪

♪ Be your fantasy, your ever-after ♪

♪ Be your anything you
want, fulfill your desires ♪

♪ This fantasy's runnin' wild ♪

♪ Touch me, hold me, kiss me slowly ♪

♪ Tease me, thrill me, gently, softly ♪

♪ Your love ♪

♪ Drives me wild ♪

♪ Tonight ♪

(morning traffic sounds)

(jazzy piano music)

♪ How's your head, you feel all right ♪

♪ Oh, what a night ♪

♪ You got that right ♪

♪ But you look lovely as can be ♪

♪ Don't make me blush, it's too early ♪

♪ And oh, my head ♪

♪ Come here, lie down ♪

♪ Come back to bed ♪

♪ I should lie down ♪

♪ I made you coffee ♪

♪ You're too kind ♪

♪ Cream or sugar ♪

♪ Nevermind ♪

(sentimental piano music)

♪ Lying here beside you, all
my dreams have come true ♪

♪ My longing, my searching
is finally through ♪

♪ With you ♪

♪ Here by my side ♪

♪ I can't quite believe
what I've finally found ♪

♪ It's hard to believe,
believe far deep down ♪

♪ That this could be real ♪

♪ It's real ♪

♪ Love is this love, this
is love that I feel ♪

♪ I look in your eyes
and I'm carried away ♪

♪ Far from the madness ♪

♪ The tortures of day are gone ♪

♪ Please let this be real ♪

♪ It has to be real ♪

♪ It's real ♪

♪ Sarah ♪

♪ I love you ♪

(sentimental piano music)
(birds chirping)

Did we own time?

Because it managed to elude us.

We held it in our grasp.

But time, you hardly knew us.

We played your ageless game.

Each kiss would just delude us.

Intoxicated, dazed.

Perhaps too well you knew us.

Did we own time?

(busy street noises)

- [John] So what's new with you?

- Not much, really, Sarah got a callback

for an audition, and
I've just been writing.

- You two are on a
mission, that's exciting.

- Congratulations, dear.

- [Kate] What are we celebrating?

- Nothing yet, wishful
thinking, I got a callback,

I've been auditioning.

- Nice, that's wonderful
honey, break a leg!

And speaking of legs, your friend

Alexa's down there
making some rich guy beg.

Just look at that dress.

- That's Alexa, she certainly
knows how to get attention.

- And her type of guy, not to mention.

(Robert laughs)
- (laughs) Oh my gosh!

Oh my god, well, hello there!

Robert, this is my roommate, Sarah.

- Sarah, pleasure to meet you,
Alexa's said great things.

- Yep, took this little
one under my wings.

Don't worry, honey, I said
nothing but good things.

So, how are you and Michael?

- Great, he's by the bar.

And you, you're looking like a star.

- Oh, this old thing, why thank you.

And your audition, how did it go?
(phone buzzes)

- That's right, you don't know.

I got a callback.

- (gasps) That's fantastic.

Oh, soon you'll get so
many, you won't keep track.

- Sorry, give me a second,
I have to take this.

- So, who's the guy?

- You mean the handsome
devil in the suit and tie?

He's a stockbroker I met the other night.

He drives a Porsche.

- Oh, so he's just right. (laughs)

- So far, so good, we're
going to Tao later tonight.

You two should come along.

- I don't know.

- I'm sorry, it's a work thing.

I'm gonna have to call it a night.

- Oh, that's all right.

Sarah and I were just saying

how long it's been since we've hung out.

- Great, so you two
will have fun, no doubt.

We'll do it soon.

- Mm-hmm.

- Gotta run. (smooches)

(upbeat synth music)

- Screw him, let's have fun.

- Yeah, sure, you wanna join us?

- No, but let's discuss.

Girls' night out?

Come on, Sarah, it's been so long.

It'll be fun.

- I don't know, hun, I'm out with Michael.

- (scoffs) You are
always out with Michael.

Please?

I'm all alone, all dressed
up with nowhere to go.

- Okay, all right, I'll let him know.

- Yay, my bestie's back!

(both giggling)

- Well, look what the cat dragged in.

- Dressed in black and ready to sin.

- Told you so.

- Hi John, how are you?

Richy, right?

We've met before?

- A few times, I'm pretty sure.

- Hi Alexa, it's nice to see you too.

Where's your date?

- He had to work late.

It's a drag, but whatever.

Sarah's gonna make it all better.

- Really?

- Is that okay, girls' night out?

I'll make it up to you.

- You don't have to.

Go have fun, I'll see
you back at my place.

- Ooh, how sweet, just look at that face!

(upbeat rock music)

♪ Tonight is ours, we're taking it back ♪

♪ Tonight is ours,
there's no looking back ♪

♪ Come on ♪

♪ Baby, let's have fun ♪

♪ Tonight is ours, girl, yours and mine ♪

♪ I wanna dance, drink
all the wine, tonight ♪

♪ Whoa-ooh, oh, tonight ♪

♪ Gonna live, gonna dance,
succumb to the night ♪

♪ Don't want rules, don't want guides ♪

♪ I'm ready to fight tonight ♪

♪ I'm putting up a fight ♪

♪ So come on, world, take your
shot, I'm gonna take mine ♪

♪ Two or three, maybe four,
hell, I want some more ♪

♪ Tonight ♪

♪ Whoa-ooh, oh, tonight ♪

♪ You're not the boss of me,
no one's the boss of me ♪

♪ I'm free ♪

(instrumetnal break)

♪ No more inhibitions,
baby, let's go wild ♪

♪ No stupid conditions,
no longer a child ♪

♪ I'm free ♪

♪ Tonight, tonight's for me ♪

♪ Tonight I'm young, I wanna have fun ♪

♪ I wanna taste the thrill on my lips ♪

♪ I wanna dance and shake my hips ♪

♪ Rub myself on a boy ♪

♪ Be his dirty toy ♪

♪ I want to make him get on the floor ♪

♪ I want to watch him
beg for more, watch out ♪

♪ I'm not your little whore ♪

♪ Tonight, I'm out to get what I want ♪

♪ So watch out, world, I'll
get what I want ♪

♪ Tonight ♪

♪ Nothing's standing in my way ♪

♪ No way ♪

(upbeat synth music)
(people chattering)

(lock clacks)
- Jesus, are you okay?

- Hi, bay...

ugh, my head.

- Sarah, you're a wreck.

- I know, but I'm back.

(door creaks)

- Are you high?

Did you get high?

- We were dancing, and there was some guy,

he gave it to Alexa and I.

- And you got high.

Great.

Awesome, I don't know what to say.

- Stop it, Michael, please, another day.

I'm sorry, baby.

I'm so sorry.

I got drunk, I wasn't thinking.

- Maybe it's time you quit drinking.

Look, Sarah,

I'm not trying to be a prude, but this,

this shit isn't good.

I've lost good friends,
it's a downward spiral.

You can't just give in.

- I know.

I'm trying.

I'm sorry.

You know that I have.

- I know.

I know.

Sleep now, love.

(busy street sounds)

(Sarah giggles)

How'd it go?

- Hi.

(smooches) How'd you know?

- You told me, remember?

- Oh, that's right.

Well, I won't be an equity member.

- They don't know what you're worth.

- At least I have you on this earth.

Let's grab a drink.

- It's a little bit
early, don't you think?

How 'bout a coffee instead?

- Okay, but not that one cafe I dread.

- No, of course not.

(Sarah giggles)

Come on.

(Sarah laughs)
(phone rings)

Which means he's not technically--

- Hold on. (laughs)

Hi, Mom.

Mom, what's wrong?
(dramatic piano music)

What?

No, I'm fine.

I love you too.

- What's wrong?

What's going on?

Sarah?

- It's my dad.

He's dead.

- I'm sorry, love, I'm so sorry.

- I'm not.

- Sarah?

- What?

He was my dad, and he just left.

Now he's gone again.

I loved him, but I won't
pretend that now I hate him

even more than I have
all these years before.

What gives him the
right, the goddamn right

to now come into light out
of nowhere and for what?

- Don't say that, Sarah.

I know you're hurting, but
you have to forgive him.

You have to find a way to let go.

- Sure, Michael, if you say so.

- Look, lay him to rest.

Rid yourself of that anger in your chest.

Send it away, don't hold it in.

- To hate this much must be a sin.

I'm not going.

I don't give a damn, I'm not going.

He's not going to win.

- Win what, Sarah?

It's over.

If you don't let it go, he
does win, win over your soul,

over your peace of mind,
over you for all time.

You need to let it go.

- Looks like there's nothing
you don't know, huh, Michael?

You're always so damn right!

- Don't take this out on me, on us.

It's not right.
- I gotta go.

I'm sorry, I just have to go.

(dramatic orchestral music)

- Sarah, wait!

Sarah!

Sarah!

(engine rumbles)

(siren wails)
(busy city street sounds)

- [Kate] Michael, listen,
you need to come down.

It's Sarah, she's drunk
and stumbling around.

(upbeat rock music)

- [Michael] Baby, Sarah.

- Oh, hey.

- Are you okay?

- [Alexa] She's fine, Michael, let her be.

- She doesn't need drinks!

She needs me.

- Oh, sure, lover boy, you're
just everyone's savior.

Don't get out of hand,
watch your bad behavior.

- What is your problem?

- [Sarah] Michael, leave her alone.

She's taking care of me.

I need this.

- This?

What is this?

Getting trashed to the point
where you can no longer walk?

Sarah, please, let's go talk.

- There's nothing to say.

I told you, today, I don't care.

- See?

She's well aware.

Just let her live, let her be.

- Alexa, get away from me.

- Oh, you are my hero, coming to save me.

Cheers to my hero.

- [Michael] Sarah, please, no.

Love, look at me.

This is not what you need.

- What do I need, Michael?

Love?

Love?

Love?

Love?

Bullshit!

No more love, none so true to
which devotion is deserved!

All that I've had, all that I've loved

rotted with poison or poisoned to rot!

I've nothing left!

But don't complain, I'll give what I can.

- Then you'll give pain.

(ochestral strings and rock guitars)

(door shuts)

♪ I'm not afraid of life anymore ♪

♪ I'm not afraid to try anymore ♪

♪ I'm not afraid of love anymore ♪

♪ I'm not afraid of love anymore ♪

♪ I know you'll come
back soon, soon enough ♪

♪ I'll be back soon, fear not ♪

MICHAEL & JOHN:
♪ This is tough ♪

♪ Don't be afraid, my
love, don't give up ♪

♪ You can't give up, can't let them win ♪

♪ Find the strength, the strength within ♪

KATE, JOHN, MICHAEL & SARAH:
♪ I know I need you by my side ♪

ALL:
♪ Passion, passion, life is changing ♪

♪ Old man time is rearranging our lives ♪

♪ Our destiny ♪

♪ I'm not afraid to try, I'll succeed ♪

♪ This time apart is just what
we need to clear our minds ♪

MICHAEL: ♪ I don't need time, what I need is you ♪
RICHY: ♪ Don't be afraid, my friend, you've got time ♪

♪ All I've ever needed is you ♪
♪ Don't be afraid, I know you'll be fine ♪

♪ Here by my side ♪

♪ You are you, you're
smart and you're kind ♪

♪ Don't let this world change your mind ♪

♪ Know yourself, know what you're worth ♪

♪ I've been around, I
know what you're worth ♪

♪ You're worthy of love ♪

JOHN: ♪ Passion, passion, my heart's turning ♪
MICHAEL: ♪ Passion, passion, be returning ♪

♪ Away from fears, I'm slowly learning ♪
♪ Come back soon, I'll be yearning ♪

♪ To love myself, to love you ♪
♪ For you, for you, Sarah ♪

♪ I'm not afraid of love anymore ♪
ALEXA: ♪ I'm not afraid, I know who I am ♪

SARAH: ♪ I know that love can open the door ♪
♪ Of what they think, I don't give a damn ♪

♪ I'm free ♪

♪ I'm free ♪

♪ Watch out, world, here I come ♪

♪ Taking back what's mine ♪

♪ Watch out now, look out, boys ♪

♪ Come on, get in line ♪

♪ I don't care what people say ♪

♪ I've got to find a better way ♪

♪ I'll make it through,
I know I will survive ♪

♪ I've got you right by my side ♪

♪ I know it's all I need tonight ♪

♪ Together, we are better than alone ♪

ALL:
♪ Life is unpredictable ♪

♪ We're always lost,
always one step behind ♪

♪ There's no way to change the past ♪

♪ There's no way to turn back time ♪

♪ I just know we have to
make it last somehow ♪

JOHN: ♪ Got to find a way to win ♪
SARAH: ♪ Got to let love in again ♪

♪ Let love reign ♪

♪ Let truth shine ♪

♪ Take back what's mine ♪

KATE: ♪ Change your mind ♪

MICHAEL: ♪ I know that love can open the door ♪
SARAH: ♪ I'm not afraid of love anymore♪

♪ To your heart ♪

JOHN: ♪ I'm not afraid to know who I am ♪
KATE: ♪ Don't be afraid my love, take my hand ♪

♪ I'll win ♪

♪ You'll win ♪

♪ I'll win ♪

♪ You'll win ♪

ALEXA: ♪ It's out there for me ♪
RICHY: ♪ It's out there for you ♪

ALL:
♪ Passion, passion, fires are burning ♪

♪ Deep inside, feel the yearning ♪

♪ To win ♪

♪ For love ♪

♪ For you, for me ♪

MICHAEL & KATE:
♪ For love ♪

♪ For truth ♪

ALL:
♪ For us, this is our time ♪

♪ This is our time ♪

♪ For us ♪

(subway sounds)

(vehicles honking)

(lid thuds)

- [Michael] Father Conor.

- Michael.
- You got a moment?

- Yes, of course, what's on your mind?

- Quite a bit, I hope you've got time.

I'm having trouble processing my thoughts,

I can hardly even write.

- I take it Sarah is not yet back, right?

- Right, but I'm not sure
that's entirely the problem.

I think there's more to
it than her being away.

- I see.

Well, by all means, speak freely, speak away.

- It was right before
she left the other night.

She got high,

we had a fight,

and ever since, I feel
something's not right.

You've known me since I was younger.

To find true love has been like a hunger.

I don't know why quite
often I feel so alone,

longing for someone to call
my own, a partner in crime,

to make me whole, to fill
that aching gap in my soul.

And Sarah, I'm certain she's the one,

she's incredible and I love her already,

even though it's not been that long.

- Michael, perhaps that's what wrong.

But before I sound like I'm
preaching, please go on.

- Sarah's got a past, as I did once say,

but in truth, don't we all in some way?

I know she wants to change,

or at least I hope that's her conviction.

Though I'm sensing her habits,

less leisure, leaning closer to addiction.

I know I can help her if I just
give her, if just show her--

- That you love her?
(dramatic piano music)

Michael, you can't change her,
nor can you be her savior.

- I don't want to change her.

Okay, maybe her behavior, at times.

But aren't we taught to do
all that we can for others,

to be good Christian brothers?

- Yes, we are but don't
confuse or cleverly choose

to interpret God's teachings
to do as you choose.

You can't will her to
change, you'll only lose.

- What am I supposed to do?

What does everyone expect,
that I just walk away?

It's not gonna happen, Father, no way.

- I'm not saying walk away.

But if her love for you is reciprocal,

she'll do what she has to do.

But don't think for one second

that your love will change her, save her,

be some healing, cleansing gown.

If she's to truly change her ways,

it must come from her,
from somewhere deep down.

- That's precisely what
I don't understand.

Shouldn't I be her helping hand,

the one that pulls her
from the sinking sand?

- Oh, Michael, that's a thin
line and a delicate one, too.

Is it you doing the pulling or
is it down she's pulling you?

Are you ready to crucify
yourself for her sins?

Can you carry that cross?

- If I don't, isn't it all already a loss?

The truth is I don't know,

but I'm willing to see how far I can go.

I have to try, it's all I can do.

- Then godspeed and strength to you.

I'll be praying for you both.

I suggest you calmly
speak out your concerns.

Set aside that passion that burns.

Try to explain what's at
stake and what's to gain.

- That indeed does sound sane,
sane and rational advice.

Thank you, Father, once again.

You are a wise and good friend.

- To my sheep, I'll always tend.

And while God grants me the time,

I, in return, shall grant you mine.

But more importantly, know that God above

is there for you and always will be.

For thus His love spans
throughout time for all eternity.

(lively rock music)

♪ So where do you go
when the time has come ♪

♪ When you gotta put your dreams aside ♪

♪ Passion is dying, the future's crying ♪

♪ And you gotta live
the rest of your life ♪

♪ And you gotta live
the rest of your life ♪

♪ The shit that they sell
you, if self-assuring ♪

♪ You're always ready to buy ♪

♪ Keep drinking the Kool-Aid,
you're gonna make it ♪

♪ All you gotta do is try ♪

♪ They say all you gotta do is try ♪

♪ Well, I've been trying, I ain't lying ♪

♪ But I'm sure not getting ahead ♪

♪ Be a romantic, a nice cliche ♪

♪ You'll be famous after you're dead ♪

♪ Yeah, they'll worship
you after you're dead ♪

♪ Where's my appraiser ♪

♪ How much am I worth ♪

♪ Who the hell defines success ♪

♪ Am I a failure ♪

♪ Have I succeeded ♪

♪ If at failing I'm the very best ♪

♪ If at failing I'm the very best ♪

♪ This fabrication, determination ♪

♪ To become some bullshit we're not ♪

♪ Come on, Timmy, get on Youtube ♪

♪ Show the world you're so damn hot ♪

♪ Just show the world you're so damn hot ♪

♪ It's a vicious cycle,
you can't escape it ♪

♪ You just keep on buying the lie ♪

♪ Now you're selling, come on, children ♪

♪ All you gotta do is try ♪

♪ They say all you gotta do is try ♪

(instrumental break)

♪ So where do you go
when the time has come ♪

♪ When you gotta put your dreams aside ♪

♪ Passion is dying, the future's crying ♪

♪ And you gotta live
the rest of your life ♪

♪ And you gotta live
the rest of your life ♪

♪ A sugarcoated, empty promise ♪

♪ Is the cotton candy they sell ♪

♪ We're always willing, always ready ♪

♪ Just don't mind the smell ♪

♪ Well what if it's my
tur, should be so lucky ♪

♪ Look, Mom, I'm on TV ♪

♪ Open your eyes, you silly child ♪

♪ You gotta face reality ♪

♪ It's not nice, but it's reality ♪

(street traffic noise)

(phone ringing)

- What a lovely New York
day, wouldn't you say?

- Oh my God, are you back?

No way, I thought you said tomorrow.

- Surprise, lover, no
more waiting in sorrow.

- If only I had a car I could borrow.

I wanted to pick you up at the airport.

You really shoulda told me.

- Yet this is much
sweeter, don't you agree?

Are you gonna keep talking away?

Pretty soon, it'll be tomorrow, not today.

- (laughs) Right, no, I'm on my way.

(sentimental piano music)

So, how was LA?

I'm sure you've got a
million stories, do tell.

- LA's amazing, who knew?

And of course, for Alexa,
a real dream come true.

- So Alexa got on well, I figured as much,

though I'm surprised you liked it as well.

- Well, I can't say I miss the smell.

The sun, the palm trees, beautiful sky,

I can see myself out
there, I'm not gonna lie.

- I hope not without me.

You know I'd just die.

(Sarah chuckles)

- And John and Kate, how are they?

- Really well, saw them the other day.

They're actually moving in together.

Can you believe it? (chuckles)

- No.

Wow.

Going legit, that's great.

- I know.

Ironic, they met on our double date.

- That's right, I almost forgot.

- Alexa and John, definitely not.

(Sarah laughs)

About what happened when you left,

I know you said it's
something you'd rather forget,

but I've been giving it a lot of thought--

- I'd rather not.

But I know, I've thought about it, too, and

I'm sorry if I hurt you.

- I'm afraid the one who's
hurting's really you.

I think we should talk
more about your past

and the things that ail you.

- Michael, no, I don't want to.

I hate reliving my past.

I'd rather focus on our
future, make it last.

- [Michael] Well, there won't be much of a future,

not while this shadow's cast.

- You mean me getting high?

Look, I'm scared too, I won't lie.

I thought I was done, but then I'm out,

I get drunk, and it's fun.

At least, I mean, it's not
like I'm high all the time.

- Is that supposed to
give me peace of mind?

Look, you should really quit
this crap while you can.

It's not who you are and it's
not who I know you can be.

- So if I don't quit, what?

You'll go?

Leave me?

(Michael sighs)

Great, what a fantastic date.

- Move in with me.

- Move in?

How will that fix anything?

- I don't know, but I do
know how much I missed you.

When I laid eyes on you this afternoon,

all my doubts were gone.

I know you weren't away for that long,

but I thought about you every second

of every day, of the things you did say.

You said we needed time.

I couldn't get your eyes out of my mind.

- I missed you too, and I
also couldn't stop thinking

about the way we left
things, the fights, the drinking.

Michael, I want to change.

I want to be that girl you
want, the good you see in me.

- Sarah, you are good.

You're changing and you're trying.

You just gotta trust in yourself.

Trust in us, believe.

- But what if it's your trust
and love that I deceive?

I don't want to hurt you, and I'm afraid.

- Then let me hold you and
let your heart be swayed.

(romantic string music)

Together, we've nothing to fear.

Together, there's nothing
standing in our way.

♪ And there's no point in walking away ♪

♪ When you know, by my
side, you should stay ♪

♪ No point at all, don't you see ♪

♪ When you know you belong next to me ♪

♪ You're the girl of my dreams ♪

♪ You're the girl of my life ♪

♪ And there's no way in hell
I won't make you my wife ♪

♪ You're the girl that I
love, oh so much and adore ♪

♪ You're the girl with the key ♪

♪ That can unlock the door to my heart ♪

♪ Whoa, ooh-oh ♪

♪ To my heart ♪

♪ And there's no point in running away ♪

♪ When I know, in your arms, I must stay ♪

♪ No point at all, this I know ♪

♪ For the love in my heart won't let go ♪

♪ You're the boy of my dreams ♪

♪ You're the boy of my life ♪

♪ You're the boy who someday
will make me his wife ♪

♪ You're the boy that I
love oh so much and adore ♪

♪ You're the boy with the key ♪

♪ That can open the door to my heart ♪

♪ Whoa, oh, oh ♪

♪ To my heart ♪

♪ Heal my heart ♪

♪ And there's no point
in trying to ignore ♪

♪ How we feel, what we
know is at our door ♪

♪ This passion, this love, it is real ♪

♪ Stronger than any before ♪

SARAH: ♪ You're the boy of my dreams ♪
MICHAEL: ♪ You're the girl of my dreams ♪

♪ You're the boy of my life ♪
♪ You're the girl of my life ♪

♪ You can heal all the pain ♪
♪ I'll battle the world ♪

♪ You can lessen the strife ♪
♪ Just to make you my wife ♪

♪ You're the boy that I love ♪
♪ You're the girl that I love ♪

♪ You can unlock the door ♪
♪ And willl always adore ♪

♪ Heal and teach my heart ♪
♪ You're the girl with the key ♪

♪ To love once more ♪
♪ That has opened the door ♪

♪ Whoa, oh ♪
♪ To my heart ♪

♪ I love you so ♪

♪ I love you so ♪

♪ Passion, passion, fire's burning ♪

♪ Back to love, our
hearts returning again ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ To love ♪

- Michael, how you doin'?

- Good, man, how's it going?

- Not bad, you know me,
gotta keep it moving.

How's that fellowship,

did you apply?

- Not just yet.

- Why?

- I've been busy.

Relationships are hard man, no lie.

- That's why it's solo I fly,

keeps me feeling breezy. (laughs)

- That's a bit cheesy.

Then again, I'm one to talk.

I know it's my affairs you always mock.

- No, man, we're proud of you.

This one seems to be going well.

- Can you tell?

It is.

It's okay, I guess.

Few ups and downs,
but more smiles than frowns.

- Good for you, Michael, good for you.

And John, hey, looks
like you're contagious,

I'd best stay away.

- (chuckles) When it
hits you, it hits you,

what can I say.

So, you think he's doing okay?

We've not had a heart-to-heart in a while.

- Well, Kate's certainly making him smile.
(Michael chuckles)

But I'm a bit concerned about him

in regards to his writings.

He keeps sending things off
and still no one's biting.

It's pretty demotivating,
I feel for the guy.

- Well, I have an idea
that might be worth a try.

The fellowship is fully paid for

with promising prospects once completed.

I think it could reinflate his confidence,

the one sorely depleted.

I'm applying for him without him knowing.

This way, should he not
get in, it won't be so bad.

Okay, maybe just a tad.

Then again, ignorance is bliss.

- True, but it's you
who'll have to carry this.

I see that you're trying to be helpful

as you always are, but you're
playing with John's dreams.

You don't want to leave a scar.

- I know, I'm conflicted, but
I think it's worth a shot.

He's losing motivation, and
we both know he should not.

He's good, Richy.

He just needs another chance.

- I think he's just tired of
the same old song and dance.

But you're right, he is
good, we both know it.

He just needs one open
door so he can show it.

- So I guess it's a go.

- Let's just hope it's not a no.

I'll catch you later.
- Later, gator.

(phone buzzes)

- Hello?

Oh, hi, yes, this is he.

You got my work, that's great.

And you like it!

Thank you, that's, that's wonderful.

I'm sorry, I'm not following.

A writer's workshop,

uh-huh.

And it costs how much?

Okay.

Right.

Okay, I'll consider it, thank you.

No, that's okay, I'll call you.

Thank you.

Goodbye.

(mellow acoustic guitar music)

♪ You keep living in your
dreams, they don't exist ♪

♪ So much of life you've come
to love, so much you've missed ♪

♪ The falls in your life
keep getting colder ♪

♪ Getting harsher, faster, bolder ♪

♪ Let them be ♪

♪ Time has come, you gotta let go ♪

♪ Your age, you know,
is starting to show ♪

♪ You're not that boy you used to be ♪

♪ Careless, reckless, wild and free ♪

♪ Nothing could stop you,
nothing could stop you ♪

♪ Nothing could stop you then ♪

♪ That facade is starting to crack ♪

♪ The smile is gone, I want it back ♪

♪ It was only once upon a time ♪

♪ Jadis, si je me souviens bien ♪

♪ Beauty smiled; it flowed,
the wine from me ♪

♪ Now it's time to face the facts ♪

♪ Of what you have and what you lack ♪

♪ What you were never meant to be ♪

♪ Is harder to accept than what you are ♪

♪ You keep living in your
dreams, they don't exist ♪

♪ They're now nightmares filled
with tortures, killing bliss ♪

♪ From this hell, you must awaken ♪

♪ You don't want to be forsaken ♪

♪ And their bitterness
will linger for all time ♪

♪ No more sweet wine, no more sweet wine ♪

♪ No more sweet wine for me, carry on ♪

♪ Wake me up, teach me to live ♪

♪ Teach me to give, teach
me to love, who I am ♪

♪ Gotta face reality,
forget this stupid fantasy ♪

♪ Make something from the
ashes of these dreams ♪

♪ No more living in your
dreams, they don't exist ♪

♪ Say goodbye forever now,
they won't be missed ♪

♪ I'll be better off without them ♪

♪ No more lying, no more crying ♪

♪ No pretending I'm
not dying deep inside ♪

♪ I'm waking up ♪

♪ I'm waking up ♪

♪ I'm waking up ♪

♪ I'm waking up ♪

♪ I'm waking up ♪

(phone chimes)

- Guess what.

I got a job.

You won't have to cover
rent all by yourself.

- Wow, congratulations, love.
(Sarah chuckles)

What show, have you been auditioning,

I didn't know?

- Well, no, it's not a
show, it's at the bar,

but it works out great this way.

I'll work a few nights a week
and audition during the day.

- Oh, okay. (chuckles)

- You don't seem happy.

- No, yay!

Seriously, that's great.

Let's go out and celebrate.

- Call John and Kate. (smooches)

(upbeat funk music)

♪ Look what just arrived,
and in the nick of time ♪

♪ Not another one of those,
please tell me that's not mine ♪

♪ No, I mean, it's better ♪

♪ It's not what you're thinking ♪

♪ Better than rejection ♪

♪ Come on, let's go drinking ♪

(Michael clears throat)

♪ Okay, get to it, what's the news ♪

♪ What's this all about ♪

♪ It's a fellowship, dear
John, fully paid, no doubt ♪

♪ Congratulations, old chap ♪

♪ I'm jealous, I won't lie ♪

♪ We both got in, you old fool ♪

♪ But I didn't apply ♪

♪ I know you didn't, dear old
John, for indeed that was I ♪

♪ I knew you would get in ♪

♪ You deserve the recognition ♪

♪ Forget the corporate swine ♪

♪ Let the writing be your mission ♪

♪ You can leave this job behind ♪

♪ Go and expand your own mind ♪

♪ We'll get paid to write and
write, fuel our inspiration ♪

♪ I'm not sure there's any left ♪

♪ It's been killed off by frustration ♪

♪ You're the lucky one, you see ♪

♪ You're the lucky one, not me ♪

♪ You're the one who gets his way ♪

♪ Each and every day ♪

♪ I try and I try, and
I can't get it right ♪

♪ I don't know why ♪

♪ It's just a rigged game ♪

♪ Just when I feel things
are starting to change ♪

♪ There goes my luck ♪

♪ Mocking my pain ♪

♪ Maybe I've held on to hope for so long ♪

♪ It's now rusted ♪

♪ By tears through the
years, corroded away ♪

♪ Maybe there simply just wasn't a way ♪

♪ To polish ♪

♪ The dirt, all the grime ♪

♪ I'm no shiny dime, a penny at best ♪

♪ Tossed to the ground ♪

♪ Just like the rest ♪

♪ Okay, enough, stop
feeling sorry for yourself ♪

♪ This pity party stops right here ♪

♪ Your luck is changing, don't you see ♪

♪ It's for your writings, not
for me, that you were accepted ♪

♪ John, you were accepted ♪

♪ Now's the time to look ahead ♪

♪ Raise your eyes, hold up your head ♪

♪ You're still young, don't you forget ♪

♪ Triumph's out there, go and get ♪

♪ What's yours, John ♪

♪ It's yours, John ♪

(upbeat rock music)

♪ What's it all about, Charlie ♪

♪ What's it all about, Joe ♪

♪ Do you believe you'll get out alive ♪

♪ Make it to 75 with a wife ♪

♪ And you know ♪

♪ Whoa-oh ooh-oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ And you know, whoa-oh ooh-oh ♪

♪ Drink, drink, drink, drink ♪

♪ Tonight ♪

♪ Drink, drink, drink, drink ♪

♪ All right ♪

♪ Hey, Charlie ♪

♪ Hey, Joe ♪

♪ Hey, Charlie ♪

♪ Hey, Joe ♪

♪ Rock 'n' roll ♪

- Hey, you're still planning on coming out

with us tonight, right?

Scored a little something white.

- I'm not sure, Michael's at home waiting.

- Ah, that guy you've been dating.

- Yeah, my boyfriend, I thought you knew.

- I did, I'm just messing with you.

Well, we're all going out.

It's gonna be fun, if
you change your mind.

- Let me text him, let him
know I won't be home on time.

- [Bartender] That a girl.

(phone buzzes)

(Michael groans)

(synth dance music)

- Hello?
(speaker crackles)

What?

She's what?

It's a bit loud, Richy.

I'll be right there.

Keep an eye on her, please.

(synth dance music)

(synth dance music)

(pushed thwacks)
(bartender groans)

(upbeat rock music)

(wall bangs)
♪ Are you fucking high again ♪

♪ You've got to be kidding me ♪

♪ I guess you don't give a damn ♪

♪ Maybe you never did ♪

- I'm sorry.

♪ What does that even mean ♪

♪ You're so sorry every time ♪

♪ And now you're kissing some guy ♪

♪ Have you fucking lost your mind ♪

- Michael.

♪ I can't do this anymore ♪

♪ I can't play your stupid games ♪

♪ I thought by now you
might have changed ♪

♪ But you haven't, no, you haven't ♪

♪ Michael, I can change ♪

♪ But you haven't, no, you haven't ♪

♪ How do you think I feel ♪

♪ You're ripping me apart
each time you break my heart ♪

♪ I'm dying, trying ♪

♪ Trying to understand, trying
to be the man you want ♪

♪ Trying to have fun ♪

♪ Guess I'm just not that fun ♪

♪ Maybe I'm not the one to save you ♪

(sentimental orchestral music)

♪ Don't say that, please don't say that ♪

♪ I don't want our love to end ♪

♪ I'm sorry ♪

♪ I was foolish, I was wrong ♪

♪ So foolish, so damn wrong ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ You love me, you love me ♪
(upbeat rock music)

♪ Sarah, open your damn eyes ♪

♪ Listen to your lies ♪

♪ You love me ♪

♪ This isn't love ♪

♪ 'Cause you'll just get high again ♪

♪ The way that you always do ♪

♪ You'll say it was a mistake ♪

♪ You'll say that you're sorry, too ♪

♪ I won't, I won't ♪
(sentimental orchestral music)

♪ This time, it's not the same ♪

♪ I won't, I won't ♪

♪ Can't you see I wanna
change, change for you ♪

♪ I love you, I love you ♪

♪ Michael, yes, I do ♪

♪ I'm sorry, so sorry ♪

♪ I'm sorry I hurt you ♪

♪ I want to take it all
back and make it better ♪

♪ Be the girl you want,
the love you need ♪

♪ Heal and mend your
heart, make you complete ♪

(upbeat rock music)

♪ So, baby, give me one more chance ♪

♪ You won't regret it ♪

♪ Just give me one more chance ♪

♪ Baby, I swear I'll change for you ♪

♪ I'll change for you ♪

♪ I'll change for you ♪

♪ I can change for you ♪

♪ I know that I can ♪

♪ For you ♪

♪ For love ♪

♪ For you ♪

♪ For love ♪

♪ Passion, passion, lips are burning ♪

♪ Back to love, our
hearts' returning to love ♪

♪ To love, again ♪

♪ Again ♪

(upbeat jazz piano)

♪ Are you okay ♪

♪ You seem a little odd ♪

♪ Yes, I'm okay ♪

♪ Besides, I'm always odd ♪

- True.
♪ Help me with this thought ♪

♪ You're the writer, are you not ♪

♪ I'll give it my best shot ♪

♪ You know the thing 'bout
finding who you are ♪

♪ That certain meditation ♪

♪ Do you mean self-reflection ♪

- No, well, kind of.

♪ What we're destined to become ♪

♪ You mean fate ♪

- Yes, no.

♪ God, I feel so dumb ♪

♪ Don't be silly, Kate, go on ♪

♪ It's just that ♪

♪ I've always been myself ♪

♪ It's always just been me ♪

♪ Then you came along ♪

♪ And now, we'll soon be three ♪

- What, what!

♪ Oh my god ♪

♪ Kate, I love you so ♪

♪ Oh my god ♪

♪ You don't even know ♪

♪ How much I love you so ♪

♪ I love you too ♪

♪ But love, what will we do ♪

♪ We're kinda broke and
I won't be working too ♪

♪ At least not for awhile ♪

♪ We're gonna have a child ♪

♪ Don't worry, love ♪

♪ We'll figure what to do ♪

♪ I'll just teach, I'll
work the summers, too ♪

♪ But, John, what about you ♪

♪ Your fellowship ♪

♪ You said this was your chance ♪

♪ You can't give up your chance ♪

♪ Kate, you are my chance ♪

♪ You're my everything, my love ♪

♪ I was living in my
dreams, they weren't real ♪

♪ This love I have right here
before me, this is real ♪

♪ This baby in your womb,
it's a miracle of love ♪

♪ Livin' in our dreams,
they do exist, mm ♪

♪ Don't you see exactly what this is ♪

♪ Dreams become reality ♪

♪ This dream is a reality for me ♪

♪ Your love is my dream come true ♪

♪ This baby is my dream come true ♪

♪ I want to spend my
whole life next to you ♪

♪ I was living in a dream, I never knew ♪

♪ All I had to do was
wake up, make it true ♪

♪ Open up my eyes, read
between the lines ♪

♪ Look a little closer ♪

♪ It's right there before your eyes ♪

♪ Livin' in your dreams,
they're not a lie ♪

♪ Embrace this new reality ♪

♪ What once was two will soon be three ♪

♪ Givin', livin', lovin', laughin' ♪

♪ Careless, wild, and free ♪

♪ Us three ♪

♪ And then more ♪

- Hi, what are you doing home?

I thought you had to work.

- Nope, no more work, I'm
no longer their little fool.

- You quit?

- I'm going back to school.

- Baby, that's amazing!
(Sarah laughs)

This is so cool, I'm so proud.

- That's right, Mr. Fiorelli,
you can say that aloud.

(Michael chuckles)

This girl is going to
put her brain to work.

No more serving drinks
to every horny jerk.

- Well, that's a relief.

I'm in disbelief, so when do you start?

- Soon, I enrolled today
and I have a full cart.

The amount of books, who knew?

They're quite costly, too.

- Don't worry, love, I
can help you cover it.

I've got the upcoming fellowship,

some residuals, and a few small jobs.

We'll be just fine, go
enlighten your mind.

- I can't wait.

Thank you, Michael.

I love you so much.

Thank you, baby. (smooches)

- So shall we go be
thankful in the bedroom?

- (laughs) Maybe. (giggles)

(upbeat pop music)

♪ All of the things you wanted ♪

♪ Everything you could have been ♪

♪ All of the things you wanted ♪

♪ Seem so trivial now, so thin ♪

♪ Who told you then, you couldn't win ♪

♪ You wouldn't win ♪

♪ Look at me now, I'm shining ♪

♪ I'm on top of the whole damn world ♪

- Shh.

♪ I'm gonna be a father, to
some little boy or girl ♪

♪ I'm gonna be their daddy ♪

♪ Gonna be their whole wide
world and they're true love ♪

♪ So pure and true ♪

♪ My God, who knew ♪

♪ My God, who knew ♪

♪ All of the years I wasted
feeling sorry for myself ♪

♪ All of the books I've read,
yet the truth was on the shelf ♪

♪ All along, it was right there ♪

♪ In front of me, too blind to see ♪

♪ I was living in my dreams,
but now they're real ♪

♪ I'm wide awake and I
know love and it is real ♪

♪ I'll succeed for you,
for them, for us, I will ♪

♪ With my brand new aspirations,
you shall be my inspiration ♪

♪ I'll make you proud, I'll be
the very best man I can be ♪

♪ I'll be a dad ♪

♪ I'm gonna be a dad ♪

♪ I'll be a dad ♪

♪ I'm gonna be a dad ♪

♪ All of the things you wanted ♪

♪ Everything you could have been ♪

♪ Not in your wildest dreams ♪

♪ Or anywhere there in
between, could you find love ♪

♪ Would you know now ♪

♪ Just what it means ♪

♪ To truly win ♪

- Once, the seasons were worshiped,

(contemplative piano music)

and so long time did seem.

Were those the days when
dreams were planned to live,

but never came to be?

Reality was still then fiction,

or the hopes and imagination
of a sparkling youth.

Harshness was but a
gentle scrape or bruise.

And pain...

was only when you cried.

Sarah?

Where's your head?

Have you even listened
to a word I've said?

- Do we need more bread?

It's on sale.

- Well, this relationship
is getting stale.

Bread?

Are you serious?

- What?

Oh, I'm sorry, was I supposed
to be concentrating on you?

Like I'm always supposed to,

listening to how great you
are, how great you're doing?

I'm sick of applauding, Michael.

I feel like booing.

- What the hell is wrong with you?

What did I do, for me to deserve this?

Since when is my success an issue?

- Oh, are you upset?

Here, here's a tissue.

- [Michael] Sarah, love,
please, what is this?

What's going on?
(wine splashes)

- I don't know, Michael.

I think I'm just sick of this song.

We're an old couple and
we're not even married.

I'm tired and wearied.

This is not what I envisioned,
this sappy ever-after.

It's been sucked dry of any
genuine smiles and laughter.

- What you envisioned?

So please do enlighten me.

What role in your epic saga
have I not lived up to be?

I haven't changed, Sarah.

I'm still the same, still
caring, still loving,

still giving and, yes, still breathing.

- Right, you're still the same.

But for me, change is the
name of the game, right?

Not for you, the perfect intellect.

It's me who has to learn, grow up,

stop drinking, be kinder, more
caring, quicker at thinking.

Can't you see it?

Our little love boat is sinking.

- Okay, sure, we can play this pity game,

pretend our love is merely an illusion.

But it won't suffice to do
away with this confusion.

I'm riddled by your words.

Please, what are you on?

- Oh, what am I on?

Good one, of course the little junkie

has to be on something.

Fuck you.

- Sarah, enough!

What the hell is going on?

- I'm tired, Michael!

I'm tired of this song!

I'm sick of it, I'm bored!

I want something more!

I'm sick of school, I'm
sick of you, I'm sick of me.

I'm sick of what my life's come to be.

It just isn't me.

It's not what I want, I want to be free.

- Free?

Free like Alexa, just whore yourself out

for money and fame, is that what you want?

- No, she's not a whore!

She's got guts to go out
and chase her dreams,

her dreams, not anyone
else's, not yours, certainly.

- So what do you want?

What are your dreams, Sarah?

I thought we would reach them together.

Didn't we say that would be
better, better than alone?

- I still feel alone,

(dramatic piano music)

even when you're home.

I don't want this anymore, Michael.

- What do you mean?

You mean us?

Do I not have a say in this?

Is there nothing to discuss?

- No.

There's nothing to discuss.

Maybe just our living arrangement.

- Estrangement.

- It doesn't have to be that way.

I think we can stay friends.

I still care for you, and
I haven't got the means.

- The means?

(chuckles) Oh, you mean money?

- It's not funny.

I figure we could maybe
live together for some time.

I'll work, save up to move out.

- Are you out of your mind?

You want me to live with
you but us not be together?

- I think it's a minor
issue we can weather.

We've been through worse
by now, have we not?

- That's it.

You're nuts.

You're insane by a long shot!

- Okay, you're clearly really upset.

We can talk about it when I get back.

- When you get back?

Back from where?

Please slap me across the
face and wake me the fuck up!

Your indifference is
heart-wrenching enough,

so a slap might only help!

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

What have I done wrong?

What am I doing wrong?

I've done nothing but love you all along.

- It's not you, okay?

It's me.

- How much more damn cliche can you be?

- I'm leaving, Michael.

I'm late.

- Late, for what?

A date?

You've gotta be fucking kidding me, right?

Oh my god, tonight?

- [Sarah] It's not a
date, it's just a friend.

- You want to live under the
same roof and fuck other men?

Who are you, you monster?

And where the fuck is my girlfriend?

(dramatic orchestral music)

Fuck!

(fridge bangs)

(luggage clatters)

(zipper crunches)

(door knocks)

- [Kate] Just a second.

(lock clacks)

Michael?

What's going on?

- [John] Michael.

Kate, can we have a minute, hun?

- Of course.

- No, it's okay.

Kate, you can stay.

Can I crash with you guys for some time?

- Of course, that's absolutely fine.

You stay as long as you need.

- [John] So what now?

What's with all your stuff?

- I left.

I called her bluff.

Or at least I'm hoping that's all it was.

Perhaps after I'm gone, she'll
realize what she's lost.

Maybe she'll understand that what we have

is truly worth fighting for.

- Are you keeping score?

Listen to yourself.

You're throwing punches
in the air and for what?

She doesn't even care.

She's gone, Michael.

I think she's been gone for a while,

if she was ever even there.

- Did she ever even care?

(dramatic piano music)

John, (sighs) what the
hell am I supposed to do?

Look, just don't tell her where I am.

If she comes around or calls,
just say you don't know.

- [John] What for, Michael,
what's this little show?

- It's not a show.

It's my life.

She was supposed to be my wife.

Hi.

- Michael, hi.

Alexa just stopped by.

(keys clinking)

She dropped off your keys.

(dramatic piano music)

- What?

Alexa, why?

No, please.

- She didn't say anything.

She just dropped them off and left.

Michael, wait.

(vehicles rumbling)

♪ You're gone ♪

♪ You've left ♪

♪ I just don't understand ♪

♪ I loved you ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ There's nothing left ♪

♪ Of you behind ♪

♪ Just the memories in my mind ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I tried ♪

♪ I tried ♪

♪ I know you know I tried ♪

♪ I know you know I tried ♪

♪ I loved you ♪

♪ I gave you everything I had ♪

♪ I would have given so much more ♪

♪ Had you just stayed, seen it through ♪

♪ I love you ♪

♪ I gave you everything I had ♪

♪ My soul laid naked at your feet ♪

♪ Your eyes, your smile, my defeat ♪

(upbeat rock music)

♪ I can't look in the mirror
anymore, I'm frightened ♪

♪ Where there once was a man ♪

♪ There's now a boy he's frightened ♪

♪ Alone, cold, and afraid ♪

♪ You never could let go, no, no ♪

♪ Of the past you hated so ♪

♪ I know you tried, I
saw you cry in vain ♪

♪ Now, It's all dead and lost ♪

♪ I see that little girl with her smile ♪

♪ I hear your childish laugh in the rain ♪

♪ Always hiding from your past ♪

♪ Always hiding from the pain ♪

♪ I can't look in the mirror
anymore, it's broken ♪

♪ Where there once was a
man, there's now a boy ♪

♪ He's broken, torn apart inside ♪

♪ Nowhere left to run ♪

♪ Nowhere left to hide ♪

♪ You're gone ♪

♪ Gone ♪

♪ Passion, passion, it was burning ♪

♪ In my arms, I felt your yearning ♪

♪ For love, for love ♪

♪ It's gone ♪

♪ I gave you everything I
had, is what you told me ♪

♪ Nothing left to give ♪

♪ Nothing more but pain ♪

♪ Stupidly foolish, pathetic, and sad ♪

♪ This boy's intentions
now drive him mad ♪

♪ Mad with resentment, riddled with hate ♪

♪ Hate for love, hate for living ♪

♪ Hate for striving, hate for giving ♪

♪ Hate for me, hate for you ♪

♪ For all that we are,
for all that we were ♪

♪ But alas, one last refrain ♪

♪ Thoughts of you are to remain, forever ♪

♪ The scars of love, time won't heal ♪

♪ Love for you, I'll always feel ♪

♪ For the girl that you were,
the love that we shared ♪

♪ The scar will last a lifetime yet ♪

♪ Never letting me forget ♪

♪ The girl that you were,
the love that we shared ♪

♪ Wasted away, turned to despair ♪

♪ And now you're gone ♪

♪ And I'm so lost without you ♪

♪ Sarah ♪

(soft somber piano tones)

Savage beast,

that wrath which burns through your eyes,

those two sparks of bittersweet venom.

So easy to go all but insane

at the thought of love
and torture of rejection.

But sweet life,

I did once love.

My stomach now fills as to explode

with streams of blood

from that remains of my ravaged heart.

- Oh, Michael, awaken.

For fair as this young maiden be,

fool yourself only you
shall with such intensity.

- Too late now for looks at least,

proof of goodness yet
to see, wish me luck.

- [Father Conor] Michael, come on.

Come on, get up.

Get up, lad, let's get you home.

- [Michael] Leave me alone.

- Come on, Michael,
you're gonna get arrested.

Up we go.

- No.

- No!

(both groaning)

(dramatic orchestral music)

- You can't keep doing this, Michael.

It's not good for you, my boy.

You can't do this to yourself.

- To myself?

To myself?

I've done nothing to myself.

- Michael, calm down, shh, it's all right.

It'll be all right.

The Lord knows you're in pain,

but from drinking, there's
nothing you can gain.

You're only causing yourself harm.

- I'm sorry. (sobs)

Am I now cause for alarm?

Does my state trouble you, Father?

Well, look away!

I'm a lost cause, don't even bother!

- God never loses His
sheep, never lets them go.

Even in your current state,
this you should know.

- Go?

Go!

Well, He sure as hell let her go,

and I'm pretty sure He's not
bringing her back, not for me.

There must be something I lack,

something that deems me
not worthy of love. (laughs)

Oh, thank you, Lord above!

- Michael, enough, get yourself together!

(Michael cries)

God is not to blame for your despair.

- That's right.

He doesn't even care.

My pain is pitiful, pathetic.

So why are you here?

If it's pity, shed a tear
and leave me the hell alone.

For my sorrows, prayer cannot atone.

- [Conor] Michael, you're not alone.

Will you listen to me?

You are not alone.

(sentimental orchestral music)

♪ Dear Lord ♪

♪ I'm only just a man ♪

♪ Please help me understand ♪

♪ I'll do the best I can ♪

♪ Dear Lord ♪

♪ I'm torn ♪

♪ Torn apart inside ♪

♪ Shattered, ripped to shreds ♪

♪ Words just can't express ♪

♪ This pain ♪

♪ This hurt ♪

♪ Words, words are nothing more ♪

♪ They won't settle the score ♪

♪ Or change the way I feel ♪

♪ I'm dead, I'm done ♪

♪ Hate, anger, vile hate ♪

♪ Rages through my mind,
her image intertwined ♪

♪ I love and now I hate her so ♪

♪ Hurt so ♪

♪ Why, I ask you, dear Lord, why ♪

♪ Why, why ♪

♪ Haven't I heard it said ♪

♪ That what you give,
you don't take back ♪

♪ Oh no, oh no ♪

♪ Have I, have I misunderstood ♪

♪ Wasn't that your word,
dear Lord, dear Lord ♪

♪ Am I never once to find ♪

♪ She was never to be mine ♪

♪ It was all in vain, all for pain ♪

♪ All for sorrow, no tomorrow, why ♪

♪ Was it all just a lie ♪

♪ In vain, did my heart die ♪

♪ I gave her all I had ♪

♪ Now must I go mad ♪

♪ Riddled with disgust ♪

♪ Her eyes, my soul did trust ♪

♪ We swore to love, we
swore to love, we swore ♪

♪ I guess we swore in vain ♪

♪ Let this be the knowledge gained ♪

♪ Is this now the reward ♪

♪ This pain, this pain ♪

♪ I close my eyes, regret,
but never to forget ♪

♪ Her eyes, her lies ♪

♪ I loved her so ♪

♪ I loved her so ♪

♪ I know you know ♪

♪ I know you know ♪

♪ I know you know ♪

♪ Dear Lord, try to help me understand ♪

♪ I'm only just a man, dear Lord ♪

♪ I'm broken and betrayed ♪

♪ Shattered and afraid ♪

♪ Cold and so alone, alone ♪

♪ Alone ♪

♪ Dear Lord, if you can find a way ♪

♪ Take this pain away ♪

♪ Help me to forgive ♪

♪ Help me to forget her so ♪

♪ Her soul ♪

(dramatic rock music)

♪ I see, I feel your love in me ♪

♪ Your truth remains the same ♪

♪ To love despite the pain,
dear Lord, dear Lord ♪

♪ So please, this, my last request ♪

♪ Place your armor on my chest ♪

♪ To help me battle on ♪

♪ To give, to live, to trust, I must ♪

♪ To love, to love, to love, to love ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ Again ♪

♪ Dear Lord ♪

Patient to the swelling pain,

so forth may come true love and joy.

Happiness, alas,
shall entwine your heart,

and all at once,

free your soul

from these chains of fear and suffering.

And say goodbye to all your tragic dreams

and soon forgotten sorrows.

(dramatic rock music)