Blackbird (2019) - full transcript
A terminally ill mother arranges to bring her family together one last time before she dies. A remake of the 2014 Danish film 'Silent Heart'.
I've got this.
I've got this.
Yeah.
I know.
Well, don't just
stand there and watch.
Go fucking do something.
Oh, please.
Off.
On my mind.
Why do I keep wasting my time?
Man, you make it easy for me.
So why can't I make
you love me, love me.
Oh god,
It's the snapping.
Come on.
No.
You know you love it.
Why can't I make you love me?
Are we too early?
Michael!
What?
We're not going to a party.
Hey!
Hi!
OK.
Let's go.
Are we too early?
Oh, no.
Of course not.
There's no such
thing as too early.
- You're perfect.
- We just flew here.
Michael.
Roads were wide open.
Good to see you, Paul.
Hi, honey.
Hi, Jon.
Hey, Grandpa.
Thank you.
Hi, Dad.
Hey.
Hello, how you doing?
Good, you?
How are you doing?
Good.
OK, good.
Yeah.
Uh, Michael, you...
- you want to get the...
- Yeah, no.
I'll get it.
I'll get it.
- I got you a little something.
- Aw.
- Really, it's nothing.
- Sweetie...
It's nothing.
It's just... it's just a
little something, you know.
We didn't really know...
Well, I can't wait to see
what the stores recommend
for an event like this.
All right.
Let's see.
What is this?
Come on, let me help with...
- let me just...
- No, I don't...
Jonathan, you wanna
hand me the scissors?
I said I have it.
It's fine.
It's fine.
It's fine, guys.
There we go.
Oh.
Salt and pepper shakers.
Look at that.
How sweet is this?
Look, it's you and
me, and we're dancing.
We had this whole
back and forth about...
Look at that.
That's so cute.
Now you can think of me whenever
you put salt on your wounds.
Or pepper.
Or... or pepper.
Or both.
Thank you, Jen.
Oh.
That was very thoughtful.
Someone's here.
OK.
Yeah.
That's... all right.
So your beds are all
made up and ready.
Perfect.
It's Liz.
Jonathan.
Oh, great.
Look what Jennifer made.
Jennifer, you made this cake?
Look at this.
It's the size of a human head.
This could feed
a village, yes.
Oh, thanks, darling.
OK.
OK.
Why is she here?
Oh, I know.
I told Dad it should
just be family.
Salt and pepper shakers.
What was I thinking?
I think she liked them.
She pretended to.
She never pretends well enough.
What does that mean?
She lies just badly enough
so you know she's lying.
Oh, come on.
I really think she liked them.
I do.
Besides, it's like she said.
It's not like there's a perfect
gift for this kind of thing.
They're probably from
Kenya or Peru or somewhere.
Can you imagine the
carbon footprint?
Carbon footprint
and all, I thank you.
Hi.
Hi, Liz.
Hi.
Hey, Jen.
You look great.
Wow, your hair looks great
Thanks.
Hi, Michael.
It really does.
Hi, Liz.
Jonathan.
Look at you.
He's a great student.
Straight A's.
One B.
Mom.
Thanks for coming, Liz.
Sure.
I know it really means a lot
to Mom that we all do this.
Yeah, it does.
It's a privilege.
Anything we can do?
Here's an interesting article.
The local Annual Thanksgiving
Deep-Fried Turkey Festival
apparently is going vegan.
Unbelievable.
They're pretty.
Mhm.
Mm.
Your mother always had a
thing for white tulips.
Always the white
ones, even in college.
Mhm.
What's she doing?
She'll be right down.
Oh, what if she needs help?
She's fine.
She's fine, Jennifer.
Whatever she's doing,
she'd rather do it herself.
Good.
Is everybody OK?
Good.
Everybody is fine.
We're all fine.
We're doing great.
Jonathan?
Uh-huh.
Jonathan has a hard
time talking about it.
No, I don't.
When's it happening?
Soon, kiddo.
Oh, hello.
The flowers look beautiful.
So no one's drinking coffee?
Oh, let me...
I... I can get that.
That's...
I'd love some.
Yeah?
Please, here.
There you go.
Mom?
Do you want some?
No, I'm good.
Dad?
No, I'm fine.
Liz?
Mm, please.
Cream?
Yeah.
There you go.
Thanks.
There you go.
There you go.
Should someone call her?
I'm sure she's on her way.
She made that?
Wow.
Are you sure that's a good idea?
Hey!
Oh, Chris.
Hey.
Didn't know you
were... good to see you.
Chris, I'm so
happy that you came.
Oh.
Are you kidding?
Of course I did.
Now I have someone
to get drunk with.
I love where
this is heading.
Jesus, look at you.
Hi, sweetie.
Hey, Mom.
Oh.
You're not a
pimply kid anymore.
Hey, I'm a
pimply teenager now.
Hey.
Hey.
- I'm Chris.
- Oh...
Oh, OK.
I'll take that.
Good to meet you.
Yeah.
You're... you're hot.
Must be breaking
some hearts, right?
Hey, sweetie, how are you?
Good, how are you?
Chris good to see you.
No, no, no.
Hi.
Oh, you know what?
We only made up one single bed.
Nice to meet you.
Oh, that's... that's OK, Mom.
I can... I can help them.
I can make my own bed.
No, no, no, no.
Let me... let me help.
Yeah.
We can catch up
at the same time.
OK.
Come on, let's
get some coffee.
Great.
OK.
Elisabeth's here.
Oh, fabulous.
Right and then right?
Down here.
It's been a while.
Yeah.
We thought you might come
to Jonathan's school play.
Sorry.
I wanted to.
I really wanted to be
there, but there was...
I can't remember.
Something.
Mhm.
Here.
Then Dad's birthday.
Oh, I wanted to be
there for that too.
Uh-huh.
Hey, thanks for
all your texts.
What?
Reminding me.
Oh, yeah.
Sure.
Everybody thought
you forgot, so...
Yeah, I realize that.
Well, it's happened.
It has.
It wasn't intended
as criticism.
Towels in here, I think.
So How's the dance
program going?
I dropped out.
Oh.
Oh.
I... I thought you made
this big discovery
and... and finally
found your thing.
I did make a big discovery.
I found it wasn't my thing.
Along with the weird acupuncture
thing and the quilting thing
- and the yoga therapy thing.
- Very informed.
Very sympathetic.
None of them are
your thing, all
these things that they pay for.
OK.
Here we go.
And while we're sharing, what
the hell is she doing here?
Uh, what's Mr.
Dull doing here?
Mr. Dull
happens to be my husband.
Yeah, well, Chris
happens to be my husband.
You said you'd split up.
We got back together.
Are you even sure you're gay?
We've been together for
nearly a year and a half.
God, a year and a half.
Oh, come on.
Of what?
Disappointment, crisis, drama.
Because what was it?
She was... you said she was
an immature, irresponsible,
shit-for-brains.
Maybe I should
wait downstairs.
Yeah, maybe you
should, thanks.
I'm sorry.
Shit.
Chris is helping
me get through this.
Ever thought about that?
You promised not to bring her.
No.
You told me not to bring her.
There's a difference.
OK.
OK.
Please, just
give Mom this one
weekend without having the whole
world revolve around you, Anna.
It's just one weekend.
Will you do that?
Hmm?
Can you do that?
Can you quit being
a fucking bitch?
OK.
Fuck.
He's lost like 35 pounds.
Really?
It was mostly
cutting out sugar...
Uh-huh.
And then cheese,
which was the hard part.
Cheese?
How do you think she's doing?
Dodging every
emotional bullet.
Yeah.
And how are you?
I'm a little tired of people
saying "and how are you."
Yeah, sorry.
How's work?
Work is...
an
undergrad, last week,
refused to read "The
Odyssey" because it
was literally everything that
was wrong with the world.
"The Odyssey"?
Mhm.
"The Odyssey."
OK.
Three down.
H, I, J, K, L, M,
N, O. Five letters.
What?
Let me see it.
That's it.
H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O. Huh.
Yes, I'm surrendering
to Chablis.
Shall I get a funnel?
Thanks.
H, I, J, K, L, M,
N, O, five letters.
That is...
That's the whole clue?
- What are they doing?
- That's it.
It's weird.
Playing soccer?
It's hard to tell.
That's it.
H, I, J, K...
So are you and Chris
living together now, or what?
No, it's... we've been
a little on and off.
When I was your
age, I had someone
I moved in with four times.
And out four times.
With all my belongings,
all my books, and my cat.
That crazy cat.
That crazy cat.
That's a lot of moving.
For a cat.
Right.
Well, I was confused.
I was out there fighting
for free love, so
how could I tie
myself down like that?
It gets easier, I guess.
Oh yes, the old woman lied.
Water.
What?
Water?
H, I, J, K, L, M, N,
O. H to O, five letters.
Water is the answer.
H20.
Well, that's...
that is brilliant.
Oh.
- Pretty good.
- That's good.
He's good, your dad.
He is good.
The best.
Did you know that
next to Q, X, and Z,
J is the least used letter
in the English language?
Hi.
Honey, have some cake.
Your mom's cake's over there.
It's so delicious.
Yeah, this cake is so good.
You have to try it.
Sweet.
I want some of that.
It's so dense.
She doesn't use any flour.
Jonathan, your shoes are wet.
You should put them by the door.
I know this is the...
Well, you know it's time
when you have to start drinking
your Chablis from a paper cup.
Are you OK?
Mom?
- I'm fine.
- I'll get it.
I'll get it.
Good.
Be...
It's all right.
I'm... it's fine.
Just... just tell
me if you're...
I'm not.
There's glass everywhere.
OK.
Be careful, Jennifer.
You never
liked those glasses.
I hated those glasses.
OK.
So 11 across, roadside dweller...
There you go.
ET.
A frog!
A fish.
"Finding Nemo"?
"Shark Tale."
You kicked ass.
Oh, OK, uh...
uh...
It's a hat.
Harry Potter.
I think she got it.
No, no, you go.
You go.
Right.
Um, you're a black panther.
King, a king.
Oh, oh, "Lion King"!
Yaah...
Come on, go.
I want to see what you got.
I think you're a
deodorant commercial.
"King Kong"!
Yeah!
Great.
Well done.
I'm OK now.
Blow out the candles.
Hi.
Do you remember that
night at Pete's party
on the farm, when we tried acid?
Yes.
I think you persuaded
me we needed to listen
to the fireflies because...
because they were trying
to tell us something.
Probably not to
do any more acid
and just stick to mushrooms.
Will you look after my girls?
You don't need to ask.
They're OK, aren't they?
They're OK.
Hey.
Thank you, Lily.
Thank you, Liz.
You're up early.
Couldn't sleep.
Yeah.
How are you going to do it?
Didn't they tell you?
They told me not
to worry about it
and make sure Grandma
has a nice weekend.
Well, they're... they were
just trying to protect you.
But I want to know.
You sure?
Tomorrow, after you've all
gone, I'll put her to bed.
I'll give her some
medicine in a glass.
And then she'll go to sleep
while I sit beside her.
And then that's it.
Yeah.
It's illegal, right?
Yeah.
It's... it's illegal here, but
it's legal in some states,
in Washington, Oregon.
We could've gone to
Europe, but this is...
this is our home.
This is the house that...
that she built. This is
where Lil wants it to happen.
She seems OK to me.
She doesn't seem that bad.
Do you know how ill she is?
You've seen how she
walks, how she can... can
only use her right arm, right?
In a few weeks,
it's possible she
won't be able to move at all,
to talk, or even to swallow.
Try to imagine the horror of
not being able to swallow.
She'd be surrounded by
machines to help her breathe,
to remove the saliva and so on.
And we'd have to feed her
through a tube in her side,
there.
She doesn't want that.
And she's decided that...
that now's the... now's
the time to do it while
she's still in charge of...
of what happens to her.
Will you go to jail?
After she's gone,
I'll go out for a walk.
I get back.
I call 9-1-1.
I... I tell them what's happened,
that she must have taken
the medicine while I was out.
And... and something like
yes, I'm sure she's dead.
I'm a doctor and everything.
Yeah.
I'll tell them...
I'll tell them I
went out for a walk.
And that's why we have
to do it now, while she
still has the use of her arm.
Huh.
They're waking up.
Morning.
Morning.
Mm, cholesterol.
Sleep all right?
- God, it smells so good.
- Good morning, everybody.
Good morning.
How did everybody sleep?
Smells amazing.
Wow.
Whoa, Jonathan.
I haven't seen you
up this early in forever.
It's really not
that early, Dad.
Are Anna and Chris up?
- It's 8:30.
- No.
Jonathan, why don't you
run up and wake them?
No, I'll do it.
Oh, Mom.
I can do it.
I can do it.
Anna!
Chris!
You up yet?
I'm dead soon.
You coming down?
That should do it.
Pancakes.
Yeah, that should do it.
Did you know this...
Want some help with that?
...one of the oldest
foods in history?
I did... I...
I did know that, Michael.
They unearthed a
tomb in Sumeria...
Anybody want tea?
Anybody want tea?
You want tea?
Liz?
Tea?
Yeah, tea.
Great.
Of course.
Where is this from?
It's... it's Beluga, it's
the... the same as we had in St.
Petersberg.
Jonno, will you pass the
salt and pepper, please.
A little bit more expensive,
not on the black market.
Salt and pepper, please.
I can't wait.
Is that enough?
That's plenty.
Thanks so much.
One, please.
As you wish.
You know, the Indian
independence movement started
when Gandhi asked
the Indians to make
their own salt in
an act of defiance
against the British Empire.
Hmm.
Just think about it, how
something so insignificant
could lead to
something so powerful.
You were always such a rebel.
Did you hear that?
I'm a rebel.
You hear her, Jonno?
I think she was kidding.
Dad, she's choking.
No I'm fine.
Dad, she's choking.
I'm fine.
Fine.
Wow we really lucked out
with the weather today.
Could you pass the
marmalade, please?
Yeah, we did, didn't we?
Maybe we should
go for a walk later.
- A walk?
- Oh, yeah.
That's a really nice idea.
What do you want to do, Mom?
I'm up for that.
Mom, what do you want to do?
I think a walk sounds
like a nice idea.
Then tonight, just to
keep you on your toes,
if it's all right
with everyone, I'd
like to celebrate Christmas.
It'll be so much better than
boring old Thanksgiving, right?
And I think, Darling,
maybe you could
make us a big Christmas dinner.
The whole shebang?
The whole shebang.
And Jonno, maybe you
could go with your dad
and find us a tree.
Great.
OK.
The axe is in
the... in the barn.
The... the axe.
Mhm.
Don't get arrested.
And then afterwards,
Jonno, why don't
you help me decorate the tree?
Mm, sure.
Wait, are we going
to get presents?
Oh, I like that
line of thinking.
If you are a very
nice, Santa will
bring you an inheritance, yes.
Cool.
Are you rich?
Jonathan!
Why not?
Fine.
The only stipulation
being it has to all
be spent on hookers and blow.
Sounds good.
She means it.
Is this really what you want?
I mean, you could... you could
wait for an actual Christmas.
Jennifer, don't
fucking ruin this.
OK.
Well, I could, um, I
could be Santa, if you want.
Yeah, that's a great idea.
Enough food, I
could get that belly.
Dude, that would be so sick.
Oh, yeah.
And now pass the bacon.
Ooh.
No more lean shit for me.
I'm gonna have this bacon.
Hop replacement surgery,
they used to ask for the hips
back upon the patient's death.
They would have
to sign a release.
And they would go
back to the morgue...
Hey listen...
Yeah.
Is it... is it your idea
that you wanna have...
I like her.
So do I.
Plus it's so, so chic to
have a lesbian in the family.
Didn't you know that?
We tried it once, remember?
Was it '73 or '74?
Yeah, it was definitely
a drunken attempt.
Maybe a lack of technique?
Oh, I thought your
technique was fine.
She's... she's
fragile, isn't she?
Anna?
Anna.
No, she's fine.
She's absolutely fine.
She's just a little flighty.
All this back and forth, is
that a sign the relationship's
right, or that it's broken?
Maybe they don't
really love each other,
or maybe they really
love each other.
Yeah, useful analysis.
Thanks.
Oh, I'm out of gas.
What?
I'm out of gas.
Are you OK?
Yeah, I just...
I need a... just maybe...
Wait, wait, wait.
...sit down.
Hey, hey, Paul!
Jen, can you come?
Oh.
Beautiful.
Invigorating, isn't it?
Yes, it is.
It is.
It is invigorating.
What?
Jonathan, cover your ears.
Why?
Just...
This is... this is
where you were conceived.
Oh my god.
That is gross.
Here?
Yeah.
Right here?
Well, yeah.
We were, um, visiting with
a... um, a colleague of Paul's
who lived right near here.
And, well, the wife is
just fucking annoying.
Oh, god.
She would never stop talking.
Yak, yak, yak.
Never stopped, even when
she was eating or swimming
in the ocean, she
just never stopped.
And all that came
out of her mouth...
Was shit.
It was the worst.
And so I pretended to
be sick and ran outside.
And we came here,
and then he cured me.
- I cured you.
- Yeah.
OK.
TMI.
TMI.
And then we just got
so fond of this area
that we bought some land
when it became available.
And then... well, we couldn't
even afford it at that time.
We couldn't afford you then.
No.
Well, I'm not
surprised you come
from someplace so beautiful.
Aw.
Oh, honey.
Sweet.
Well, that's deep.
That is... that is deep.
What about me?
What about you, sweetie?
Where was I conceived?
Oh.
Do you know, I don't...
- I don't... I don't really know.
- I do.
I know.
I know.
It was when I went with you
to that convention in Buffalo.
We stayed at that horrible
motel near the airport,
and I got bedbugs.
Oh.
- I remember that.
- Oh, yeah.
- Oh.
- Aw.
But it was totally worth it.
It was totally worth it.
Completely.
That's pretty funny.
All right.
Shall we move on?
Sure.
I'm OK, yeah.
Liz, you're a genius!
All right, Liz!
Oh, is that so?
Well, you did two.
Oh, that was so lame.
That was not good.
I've thought of a better...
Are you all left-handed?
Oh no, no, no.
Just Jonno.
Just the cool guy.
Just Mr. Cool.
One more time.
Oh, courageous.
Watch this!
Left-handed!
Anna?
Anna?
Anna.
Come on.
I know.
What did you
think I was doing?
Playing Candy Crush?
Taking a nap?
Getting high?
Anna, OK.
OK, yeah.
Yes, I did.
I did.
And I'm sorry.
Can you blame me?
Yes, I fucking can blame you.
You never give me
a fucking break.
Look, you arrived late, as
always, looking like shit.
God, no one even knows
where you are half the time.
You disappear for a month
eating mushrooms in the desert,
or whatever the
hell off the grid
means, just as Mom
gets sick, and you
expect me not to be judgmental?
I'm sorry you feel that way.
I just wish that
with so little time left,
you made more of an
effort for the family.
That's all.
I am going to do that.
You OK?
Yeah.
You sure?
I've made up my mind.
Tomorrow, when they're
about to do it,
I'm going to call 9-1-1 and
report a suicide attempt.
OK.
Um, shit.
OK, that's... are you sure?
Because she says she's ready.
I'm not ready.
She's ready, but I'm not!
I don't know.
It's too fucked up.
I thought you were
against this too.
What about the effing vegans?
You want me to
take care of that?
Oh yeah.
Well, maybe some sweet
potato or something.
I don't know.
Potato.
That it?
Yeah, that's it.
What?
The magic potion.
I mean, where is it from?
Google.
How you know
it's going to work?
Trust me, darlings,
there's enough
pentobarbital in
that little package
to kill off half of Manhattan.
As you can imagine,
everything's been organized
within an inch of its life.
Yep.
I can imagine.
It is a little insane.
No, no, no, it's not.
It's... the people
in this situation,
those that choose to end
their lives prematurely,
are characteristically
not insane, not even...
not even depressed.
They're usually intelligent,
articulate, analytical,
and deeply, deeply controlling.
Thanks.
Sweet potatoes.
On it.
OK.
This is nice, doing Christmas.
Yeah, I guess.
I like this,
spending time together,
man and boy in the wild.
we should do more of this.
Sure.
Hey, here's your
fun fact about trees.
Do you know there's
more non-deciduous trees
in Norway than the entire
continent of Africa?
That's fascinating, Dad.
Isn't it? 'Cause...
here we go.
A lot of good choices over here.
Yeah.
Fantastic.
Oh, how about this one?
That one?
Yeah.
It's kind of small.
How about this one?
OK.
Good.
Good option.
Here we go.
Whoa.
Fuck.
You OK?
Sh... yeah, I...
You sure?
No, I'm good.
I'm good.
Yeah.
I'm just, uh, used to a
different kind of axe.
Think that's enough?
We need something
else in this.
How about
rosemary for these?
- Do you think maybe...
- Rosemary's great.
Does that really go with beef?
Oh, definitely.
Uh, honey, what
can I do for you?
I'm really... I'm fine.
I'm fine.
It'll wear off.
Honey, come on, seriously.
What about some...
you should sit down.
Maybe some ice?
Maybe some frozen peas?
Oh, yeah.
OK.
- That's...
- Thanks for being so helpful.
That's OK.
OK.
Are you really suffering?
Oh, no.
I'm... I'm... really, it's fine.
I offered to help.
I mean, it's not funny,
but it's pretty funny.
Don't laugh at your father.
It is kind of funny.
I don't even
really need these.
Jonathan?
Yeah?
- Do you wanna help?
- I could cut these up.
Sure.
What about...
how about a glass of wine?
So why don't
you start hanging.
And if you put anything
where I don't like it,
I will yell at you.
OK.
So are you going to give me
some super important life advice
now?
Nah.
Old people are
supposed to be insightful
and, you know, pass
on your experiences
so I remember them at
crucial moments in my life.
Oh, well, we old
people are just
pretending to be insightful
to give you the impression
that life adds up to something
meaningful and comprehensible.
It works.
Hmm.
Actually, I think the...
the trick is you
just show up, and you
get life your best shot.
Although handwritten thank-you
notes and being on time
don't hurt.
Got it.
Hmm.
Your mom made this one.
Cool.
So is there anything that
I should know about you
that the rest of
the family is going
to find out in the future?
I don't know.
Do you wanna have kids?
Yeah, I think so.
Are you gay?
No.
Trans?
No.
Anything else I
don't know about yet?
No, sorry.
What do you think
you want to be?
I want to be an actor.
Wow.
Well, do they know about that?
Um, nobody knows about
that, except now you do.
Well, I will take
your secret to my grave.
You're doing great.
Wow, smells amazing.
That is a tremendous
tie, Michael.
Thank you.
It is a tremendous tie.
Hmm?
Where is she?
Oh, she'll be here.
Jen?
Thank you.
Hmm.
Short measures.
Michael?
Thank you.
Hmm.
Mm.
I think I might go check.
Hi.
So when do we eat?
You look amazing.
Fantastic.
Wow.
Mom, you look...
Thank you.
...so beautiful.
Thanks very much.
Everybody ready?
Emmenthaler...
Hang on, wait.
It's um...
No, it's on the front, yeah.
- Let's try that again.
- OK, ready?
Everyone say cheese.
All right.
Here we go.
I think so, yeah.
Emmenthaler!
Emmenthaler!
Good, good.
- What's Emmenthaler?
- It's cheese.
- Paul, did you get the tie?
- Oh, Dad?
Could we get one with you in it?
Maybe Liz, would
you mind if we...
Of course.
OK.
Good idea, Jennifer.
Oh, yeah.
Just a family photo.
Merry Christmas.
Merry Christmas.
That was a good one.
Yes.
You got it?
Right, sit.
Let's, um, let's try this wine.
I'm going to make the toast.
Oh, there's a surprise.
To wonderful life.
To wonderful life.
Mm.
Mm.
Wow.
So this is, uh,
Gevrey Chambertin.
It's a red burgundy.
It's a French pinot noir.
Mm, mm, mm.
I can taste sunshine.
Good sunshine, eh?
Oh, yes.
Jonathan, um, you want to try?
This is amazing.
Yeah.
Oh, no, no.
He... he... he won't.
I've had wine before.
When?
Mm.
Well, it's illegal, so.
Yeah.
You're not getting any.
So is killing Grandma.
Ooh, nice comeback, kiddo.
Oh shit.
Whoa.
Very smart.
You're going to make an
excellent lawyer someday.
Actually, I'm
going to be an actor.
An actor?
Yeah.
And isn't that
a damn fine thing?
It is.
Well, there's plenty of
time to think about it, so.
I don't need to
think about it.
I know it.
Actually, yeah.
I... I think...
I think Jonathan may have
written a little something
for his grandma.
- What?
- Yeah.
Really?
Dude, why would you...
Jonno, that's great.
- Oh Jonathan, I'm honored.
- No, please.
- You wrote something?
- That's great.
- Can we hear it?
- Jonno.
It's like a rap.
It's kind of rough.
I don't want to do it right now.
What are you waiting
for let me hear it.
Well, come on.
Let's...
Go for it, dude.
OK.
Whatever.
Yeah, OK.
Here goes nothing.
Hit me.
Family, family, more
than a man, it's a clan.
Sometimes you gotta make
a stand, make a plan,
raise a hand, seize
the day, find a way.
Embrace the solution,
make a resolution.
It's collusion and confusion.
And everyone thinks
they know the right way,
but things are frightening.
Thoughts like lightning,
emotions heightening.
Sorrow for tomorrow, and
tomorrow time is borrowed.
Feeling hollow, but better
die alive, to strive,
say goodbye, feeling
whole in your soul.
That's the goal.
So let it roll.
Woo!
That was...
Yeah!
...wonderful!
Way to go, Jonno.
Jonno!
High five!
Go Jonno!
Woo!
Really wonderful.
Who wants meat?
Anybody need horseradish?
I'm the meat guy.
Meat anyone?
Any meat?
No one wants meat?
Liz, I'll take some.
20 bites, 20 bites,
and then you'll...
Oh...
Oh, I wanted that one.
Potatoes.
That's all I wanted.
You've taken the crispy one.
You need a new joke, Dad.
With the power of my mind.
Whoa!
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh.
Please don't laugh.
Please do not encourage him.
Jonathan!
This is really great.
How does he... no one's
watching the spoon.
Oh no.
Thank you.
Very good.
Jonathan, this one's for you.
Cool.
Thanks.
Hmm.
What is it?
A book.
Yeah.
Thanks.
Well done, Jonno.
What... what's uh...
It's Rilki.
Rilke.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Ooh.
- What?
- Whoa.
What is it?
$100 bill.
I've never
had one of these.
How are you
supposed to spend it?
Hookers and blow, of course.
Yes.
Do you remember these?
Yeah.
Of course I do.
Thank you.
Well, tell them.
Look, it's so beautiful.
She bought this when we
were... where were we?
We went to that
little antique shop.
Yeah, in... in Venice.
Really.
That was a great trip.
One of the best trips ever.
She saw this in some
antique jeweler's.
"Imagine who wore this."
And he thought you were
going to be a contessa.
Well, close.
Thank you.
Love you, Liz.
Oh, wow.
Oh.
Do you remember?
Yeah, I remember this.
It's Grandma's ring.
It's the only thing
I liked about her.
That is actually true.
And I don't blame
you, sweetheart.
She was a nightmare.
Mm.
Michael.
I get a present?
This is... oh.
Mhm.
I had to look all over for this.
Oh my god!
That is so good.
That is so great!
He's never
gonna take that off.
Oh, that is...
Oh!
yeah!
He's never
going to take that off.
Nor should he.
What do you think?
What do you think?
Oh my god, that is so you.
Jonathan, I'm going
to your parent-teacher
conference wearing this.
That is so you.
This was the first kind
of serious piece of jewelry
that I bought for
myself, at your age.
That's just...
this is beautiful.
Oh, look at that.
That really suits you.
Thank you.
That's... you're
welcome, sweetheart.
I love it.
I don't know if you
already have one of these,
but you can always
use another one.
Oh...
Oh my god.
What is it?
No, please, no.
Mom...
Yeah.
You need it.
Put it
back in the box.
Oh, it's
a smooth brand.
Oh, it's your
favorite color.
Oh my god.
Oh my lord.
It matches.
Oh my god.
It matches.
Lily, I'm afraid
she already has one.
That's not your only present.
I want you to have this.
I've never taken it
off since your dad
gave it to me, 22 years ago.
Oh.
Oh, god.
Thank you.
OK.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
I think maybe I haven't
taken this off in even longer.
But maybe now it's
time to give it to you.
You belong to somebody new,
but tonight, you belong to me.
What's next?
Wait down...
No.
Although.
Although, although we're apart,
you're part of my heart.
But tonight, you belong to me.
Just to little ol' me.
Way down...
Way down upon the stream.
Stream.
What fun
it is to laugh and sing
a sleighing song tonight.
Hey, jingle bells, jingle
bells, jingle all the way.
Oh what fun it is to ride in
a one-horse open sleigh, hey!
Thank you, husband.
Yeah.
Thanks, Grandpa.
Thanks.
Thanks.
I could die happy right now.
So could I. Hm.
Mm.
I love these plates.
Well, you can have them.
They're yours.
I'll just do eat
out of the pot, then.
Yeah, with your salt and
pepper shaker by your side.
Oh yeah.
Yeah, I'd like that.
I mean, if that's OK with...
I mean, maybe you could
pick something too.
How about my vinyl?
You used to love all those
R&B records and Nina Simone.
Yeah.
You know, maybe we could wait
until you're actually dead?
I think it's time for a joint.
What?
Really?
Oh, what are you looking...
come on, I was at Woodstock.
What's the big deal?
You weren't.
All right.
Well, I was nearby.
I was there in my mind.
Bullshit.
Nowadays, you never
meet anyone our age
who wasn't at Woodstock.
True.
Allegedly.
Allegedly, I have some.
Oh, what kind?
Just Napa Valley grass.
Not strong enough.
Sweetheart, will you get mine?
What?
Wait.
Mom?
Oh.
Jonathan, you should never
smoke weed unless you're dying.
OK.
Or having sex.
- I already tried it.
- What?
Did you hear that?
Excuse me?
What?
I don't want you to end up
like some unfocused pothead who
just drifts through life
staring at the clouds.
Hey, I'm right here.
Yeah.
Well, you're not exactly
the perfect role model.
And you are?
Just in time.
Oh, come on, Dad.
Oh my god.
Oh my god.
Thank you.
Great.
Great.
Let's all get stoned.
Jesus,
what is this stuff?
You like?
Are you kidding me?
Yes.
That is some next level shit.
Ooh.
Mm.
Are you sure?
Mhm.
OK.
It's been a long time.
Gotta hold the smoke.
Count to 10.
Hey, I too was at
Woodstock, metaphorically.
OK.
Maybe I wasn't.
OK.
Come on.
Oh.
Go Jen.
No way.
We're here to do
something together, right?
Yes.
Wow.
Hold it.
Oh my god.
Hold it.
When will I feel it?
In a little...
just a little bit.
Whoa.
Yeah.
Just... just chill.
You OK, Mom?
Just chill.
You good?
I don't know.
I'm...
Oh no.
Oh my god.
We are terrible parents.
Wait, stop.
Does it have tobacco in it?
It's just Michael quit smoking.
No, it's all right.
It's fine.
I'm sure it's fine.
OK.
You know, I'm really
not that bossy.
I'm... I'm actually very sweet.
Yes, you are.
Come on, pass it on, Dad.
Yeah, I'm sorry.
The other way.
You know, I know...
I know you guys already talked
about it, but I wasn't there.
And uh, anyway, I just wanted
to say that I understand.
Well, thank you, Chris.
It's just weird.
You're here now, but
tomorrow, you'll be dead.
And we know.
But I'm here now.
I'm really here now.
And you know, once we
set a date, actually,
it's funny, but it... it...
I stopped worrying
about dying, and I
could focus more on living.
Aren't you afraid?
Are you?
Well, I'm not dying tomorrow.
Well, at some point.
Yes.
I mean, we
all know that it's...
it's going to happen.
I just didn't know that I
would know that I would know
when it was actually happening.
No, but isn't that the point?
I mean, we sort of...
we forget in order
to just get on with living.
But the living is so much
better if you don't forget,
because then you don't get
caught up in the bullshit.
And then you can take a risk,
and you can bend some rules.
You know?
The days go by too slowly,
and the years go by too fast.
Bingo.
That's so cool.
Wow.
It's Magnetic Fields.
What's that?
It's music, Dad.
Oh.
Look, I am...
I am here now, and I'm full of
good food and incredible wine.
And I'm satisfied and happy.
I have my... my guy, my
grandson, the actor/rapper,
my oldest friend, and the two
kids that I am so proud of.
And the ones that they love.
The two kids I'm so proud of?
Yes.
Why would
you be proud of us?
Why wouldn't I
be proud of you?
I mean, you
barely know us.
What?
What's that
supposed to mean?
Oh, sweetie, I raised you
to be strong and independent,
and you are.
Really?
Really.
No we're not.
Anna...
Look, I'm sorry
to break it to you,
but you have two daughters
who are, in their own way,
seriously fucked up.
What are you talking about?
I don't think that that
is necessarily the case...
Look, I might be crazy,
but I'm not stupid.
What are you talking about?
OK.
Remember when Chris
and I went away for a month?
Yeah.
Well, I wasn't
living in the desert.
Where... we were you?
I was in a
psychiatric hospital,
because I tried to kill myself.
Jesus Christ.
I can't fucking believe you.
Oh my god.
Oh, please.
Did she threaten to cut her
wrist with a plastic knife
- so she could get some attention?
- Shut the fuck up, Jennifer.
Because that's
is what she does.
Always.
You didn't raise
us to be strong.
And everybody
gets sucked in.
You just raised us not to
bother you with weakness.
Oh my god, stop.
You're like Martha
fucking Stewart, Mom.
Anna.
What a great mom you
wanted everybody to think you
were.
Anna.
Be creative
was your mantra.
Be whatever you want to be.
Just don't disturb the
grownups while you're doing it,
and be sure to
clean up afterwards.
OK, stop.
Dad.
OK.
Stupid little fucking...
Jen... Jennifer, don't.
Don't, don't.
Stop, stop.
- Dad!
- Stop.
Dad.
I want to go to bed.
I think I have to go to bed now.
Sweetheart,
it's all right.
I didn't...
It's all right.
Let's clear... clear the table.
She wants to be
alone for a little bit.
What?
She didn't overstate it.
She's lucky that she survived.
Of course that's how she
describes it, because she
wants maximum sympathy.
All right.
What do you say you
and I go have a talk?
Come on.
Why wouldn't she tell us?
Well, she said you'd say
it was about attention getting.
That you'd say it was
about maximum sympathy.
And I don't know.
Maybe you're right.
But then I gotta
ask, what made her
need that kind of attention?
We'd been on and
off for a while.
I wasn't sure, she wasn't
sure, the usual shit.
But when the ambulance
came, I couldn't even
bring myself to get in
with her, hold her hand,
whatever, just be with her.
All I wanted to do was run,
and so that's what I did.
Is she OK now?
Is she OK?
No.
Well, she's bipolar.
What does that even mean?
It means a shitload
of meds, forever.
So why aren't you running now?
I don't know.
I like her.
I like her family.
Look, I...
What?
Your mom seems so sure.
And... and... and I really...
I really do believe
that it's her decision.
What are you trying to say?
Anna's not exactly
well, and... and so I don't want
Anna's perspective to ruin...
Say it.
Anna's going to
call 9-1-1 when
your mom is taking the pills.
Wait!
Wait!
What the hell
are you thinking?
You let her do what
she wants to do.
You got that?
You let her do what she wants.
You cannot make that call.
Do you understand me?
I'm not...
Tell me you understand.
I'm not ready.
I don't care.
What if... what
if Dad is wrong?
Maybe it'll be another six
months before it gets real bad,
maybe a year.
He's a fucking doctor.
He knows what he's doing.
It doesn't matter.
Doctors are wrong all the time.
Mom knows what she wants,
and he knows how to do it.
OK?
That's enough.
I want to know her.
I want her to know me!
Don't you get that?
I need more time.
So do I. But this
is Mom's decision.
It's her life.
It's her death.
I'm sorry you're sick.
I'm not sick!
Yes, you are.
OK.
What are you doing?
Don't go through my shit.
Xanax, Serax...
Don't touch my shit!
Lithium.
You know who they
give this stuff to?
They give it to sick people.
I'm not sick.
They just keep things in check.
I'm OK when I take them.
But your brain
chemistry is fucked,
and you can't trust
your emotions, so shut
the fuck up from now
on and you just let
her do what she wants to do.
Look at me.
Look at me.
I am sorry that I've
not been there for you.
I will be better, I...
I... I promise.
I will be better.
But this is Mom's decision, and
that is how it's going to be.
OK?
She understands.
Chris, thanks.
Yeah.
Hey.
Ah, what are you doing?
Looking at photos.
Uh-huh.
Uh...
Here we are.
Mexico.
Me, Dad, Mom, and Liz.
San Francisco.
And me, Dad, Mom, and Liz.
Hiking in Banff.
And um, London.
Me, Anna, Dad, Mom, and Liz.
Her best friend.
Yeah.
Right.
And his lover.
No.
Something.
No.
No.
I mean...
Mom told me years ago that
Dad and Liz had dated, you know,
in college, before
Mom even knew him.
I never thought, just never
put two and two together.
And then last night...
Yeah?
What?
I saw them kissing.
But like, but like, for real.
No, they were probably just...
What?
Just... they were...
they were probably
just comforting each other.
I don't know.
I don't know.
No.
What if... what if
he's in love with her?
What if he always was?
I... I don't think that
that's something that...
I mean, wouldn't that
cloud his judgment?
OK, you're really
tired, honey.
I'm not fucking
tired, Michael.
You...
What do you think I should do?
I think you should sleep.
But should I tell Mom?
Should I... should I tell...
No...
Should I tell them
both that I will
not support this after all?
No, your mom has
made her decision.
But what do you think?
Well, Lily's been very
clear from the very beginning
that what she...
What do you think!
What do you... what do you
think about... about all of it?
You.
Right here, right now,
what did you think?
I think this is
a really difficult
decision, and that the family...
Do you think anything?
Do you... do you feel?
Yeah, I feel things!
Of course I do!
What?
It's impossible to get any
kind of reaction from you.
If... if I... if I threw
this wine in your face,
you'd just tell me what
district the grapes were from.
Oh, that is not true.
I think I'm...
God.
Ugh!
I... I'm so sorry.
I... oh my god.
Honey.
Honey.
Honey, here.
You wanna...
Will you close the blinds?
You want to sleep some more?
I want to wake up
again, one more time.
And I
just woke up one morning,
and I couldn't remember
what healthy felt like.
It didn't scare me.
It was a relief.
So I canceled my plans
with Chris that night.
I took a shower.
Isn't that weird?
I watched the
happy people on TV,
and I ate a handful of pills
and drunk a mug of vodka,
passed out.
Then Chris came over anyway.
She wanted to surprise me.
She called 9-1-1.
The ambulance took me to the
hospital and pumped me out.
I stayed three weeks.
They gave me medicine,
and I still take it,
and I'll keep taking it.
And that's OK.
Why didn't you tell me?
You always told
us to be strong.
Oh, Jesus.
Be free.
I didn't want to be free.
I just wanted to feel like me.
I am so sorry.
I am so, so sorry.
So sorry, baby.
And you had just
found out you were sick.
I didn't want you
to worry about it.
Oh my god.
You have no idea
how happy it would
have made me to worry about it.
Let me worry about you.
Oh.
I'm so sorry.
I love you.
I love you, sweet girl.
I'm sorry.
Ha-ha!
Do you... can I...
I got it.
Do you want me to...
No, sweetie, I'm fine.
I got it.
Mom?
OK?
Good morning.
- Hey.
- Hi.
- Morning.
- Hey.
Morning.
Hi.
Morning.
OK.
Oh.
OK.
OK.
So today.
Today.
Um, can we all try to just
behave as normally as possible?
Just read the Sunday paper and
nap, play the stock market,
write a play.
make a match
stick model of the...
of the Empire State Building.
Just a normal Sunday.
I need to have a
normal, lazy Sunday.
I need that from you.
OK?
- Yeah.
- OK.
- Got it.
- OK.
- You got it.
- All right.
Great.
OK.
Good.
Um, no juice?
Jennifer?
Uh, no.
I'm not thirsty.
Shall I make some coffee?
No.
Jonathan, why don't
you pass the juice?
Sure.
- Anna?
- Thank you.
Hmm?
What?
Um, would you come
with me for a minute?
OK.
Remember when you were about
eight years old, it was summer.
And you... you came
rushing into the house,
and... and you said that you
had seen Dad and Elisabeth
kissing in the woods.
And everybody just
laughed at you.
Do you remember?
Yeah, I remember.
And people said
you were crazy.
And... and... and... and
people said you were bad.
Yes.
You said I was bad.
Well, I think you were...
I... I think Dad
and Liz are lovers.
What?
Last night, I
saw them together.
Think about it.
Every family vacation,
she's been there.
Every important occasion, it's
always been Mom, Dad, and Liz.
Why?
I mean, that's not normal.
We've grown up
thinking that's normal.
That is not normal.
Well, do we tell Mom?
No.
No.
We can't.
We can't.
Can we?
Well fuck, I don't
know anything anymore.
Look, if he's with Liz, he
can't make a rational decision.
What if she's manipulating him?
We've known Liz all our lives.
I don't believe that's her.
I'm not saying she's doing
it deliberately, but... but...
OK.
We tell Mom we've
changed our minds,
and we're not going
along with this anymore.
Yes?
Jonathan, go upstairs, please.
Why?
Jennifer...
Don't ask questions.
Just go upstairs
Jonathan?
I want you to go upstairs now.
Too bad.
- I don't want you to hear this.
- Hear what?
- I'm part of this, Mom.
- He's right.
He should be here.
What's going on?
Can we just see...
see this through with a
bit of ordinary grace?
Ordinary grace, you
fucking hypocrite?
- All right, sit down, Jennifer.
- Whoa.
OK.
No.
Please don't... don't
tell me to sit down, OK?
I won't.
I won't sit down.
I won't.
This... this is sick.
Jennifer, whatever it is you
want to say, do us all a favor
and don't say it.
Everything's being said.
- Oh, not quite everything.
- Don't do this, Jennifer.
Jonathan, stop.
What the hell
is going on here?
Maybe you shouldn't
go through with it.
Maybe you don't have all
the information you need
to make an informed decision.
What are you talking about?
Dad?
What?
Dad.
What?
Tell her.
OK.
OK.
We're not going to
let this happen.
It's not right.
N... Jennifer, we have gone
over and over this for months,
and we came to the conclu...
as a family, we agreed that
if this is what I want...
But I don't think
you know what you want.
How dare you?
We got... we got
behind this on the basis
of a lot of assumptions.
Assumptions?
What... what... what assumptions?
OK.
Hey, hey, let her
talk, Paul, please.
Please, we're... we're
talking with Mom right now, OK?
Dad, not you.
Well, who's we?
We?
Anna and I agree.
Right?
Anna?
Anna.
Yeah, Jennifer and I agree.
I cannot... no.
I cannot back down from this.
No.
I... this... no.
Well... well...
well, we... we can.
Jennifer, this is not
what she needs right now.
You can shut up.
Oh Liz.
This is not your decision.
It's not yours either.
This is your mother's choice!
Is it really?
Or has she been helped along?
Huh?
What are you saying?
Look, I choose.
I choose.
Look at me.
I choose not to be
locked in a body
that cannot walk or
talk or eat or drink
or even breathe on its own.
I am choosing not to be fed
vanilla-fucking-flavored
protein drinks through
a tube in my side.
I choose.
I choose.
I am choosing.
There are moral issues, OK?
Ethical issues.
Do not make my last act on
this earth in defiance of you.
Please don't do that to us.
Jennifer, what's
going on here?
I saw you last night.
You saw what?
Saw... what did you see?
What did she see?
You two.
What are you talk...
saw what?
- What are you talking about?
- Jennifer.
No.
No.
You don't get to speak.
No, no.
I really think it's
my turn to speak.
You say I'm having some love
affair with your father, right?
Well, you are, aren't you?
Aren't you?
Christ.
Jennifer, you know what?
You were always
such a fucking prig.
Look how lucky you are.
A husband who adores
you, an amazing kid,
and still you're
always straightening
every picture in the room.
I never managed this, family.
Here's my family, the
people I grew up with,
the people I loved and love.
Don't take that away.
Please don't take that away.
You didn't answer
the question.
You didn't
answer the question, Liz.
Answer, somebody.
Answer, or I'm
going to call 9-1-1.
What?
What?
I'm not kidding.
I'll... I'll make the call.
Oh, good.
What will you say?
I'm going to say there's
been a suicide attempt,
and that they need
to come right away.
Answer me, somebody!
Do it.
Anna.
Honey, are you sure
you want to do this?
Honey?
Jennifer.
Put... put the phone down.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Of course they're
having an affair.
Of course they're
having an affair.
I begged them to have an affair.
I implored them
to have an affair.
What?
All our lives?
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Since I've been sick.
How can that be OK?
How could it be OK for my
best friend and my husband
to love each other?
Don't you see that that makes
a space so that I can do this?
Don't you see?
Love is everything.
Love is all there is.
Why didn't you tell us?
Would
you have approved?
I'm sorry.
It's OK.
OK, now I'm scared.
Of course you are.
Me too.
Look, maybe
you all should...
it's time.
Now?
Now.
I'm... I'm done.
I can feel it.
I know it's coming toward
me, and I do not want it.
So if it's OK with you guys.
Jen?
Yeah.
Anna?
OK.
But I want to be with
you when you die.
Anna.
I don't... I don't think...
Are you strong enough?
Yeah.
Yeah, she is.
I'm with Anna.
Just don't let me die
with my mouth open.
Oh, Mom.
Now I'm frightened.
Don't be frightened.
Where am I going?
You tell me, kiddo.
I
know you belong to somebody new,
but tonight, you belong to me.
What's next?
Wait down...
no.
Although...
Although, although we're apart,
you're a part of my heart.
But tonight, you belong to me.
Just to little old me.
...old me.
Wait
down, wait down by the stream...
Stream.
How very,
very, very sweet it will seem
once more just to dream in the
silvery moonlight, my honey,
I know, I know, with the
dawn that you will be gone,
but tonight, you belong to me.
Just to little ol' me.
I've got this.
Yeah.
I know.
Well, don't just
stand there and watch.
Go fucking do something.
Oh, please.
Off.
On my mind.
Why do I keep wasting my time?
Man, you make it easy for me.
So why can't I make
you love me, love me.
Oh god,
It's the snapping.
Come on.
No.
You know you love it.
Why can't I make you love me?
Are we too early?
Michael!
What?
We're not going to a party.
Hey!
Hi!
OK.
Let's go.
Are we too early?
Oh, no.
Of course not.
There's no such
thing as too early.
- You're perfect.
- We just flew here.
Michael.
Roads were wide open.
Good to see you, Paul.
Hi, honey.
Hi, Jon.
Hey, Grandpa.
Thank you.
Hi, Dad.
Hey.
Hello, how you doing?
Good, you?
How are you doing?
Good.
OK, good.
Yeah.
Uh, Michael, you...
- you want to get the...
- Yeah, no.
I'll get it.
I'll get it.
- I got you a little something.
- Aw.
- Really, it's nothing.
- Sweetie...
It's nothing.
It's just... it's just a
little something, you know.
We didn't really know...
Well, I can't wait to see
what the stores recommend
for an event like this.
All right.
Let's see.
What is this?
Come on, let me help with...
- let me just...
- No, I don't...
Jonathan, you wanna
hand me the scissors?
I said I have it.
It's fine.
It's fine.
It's fine, guys.
There we go.
Oh.
Salt and pepper shakers.
Look at that.
How sweet is this?
Look, it's you and
me, and we're dancing.
We had this whole
back and forth about...
Look at that.
That's so cute.
Now you can think of me whenever
you put salt on your wounds.
Or pepper.
Or... or pepper.
Or both.
Thank you, Jen.
Oh.
That was very thoughtful.
Someone's here.
OK.
Yeah.
That's... all right.
So your beds are all
made up and ready.
Perfect.
It's Liz.
Jonathan.
Oh, great.
Look what Jennifer made.
Jennifer, you made this cake?
Look at this.
It's the size of a human head.
This could feed
a village, yes.
Oh, thanks, darling.
OK.
OK.
Why is she here?
Oh, I know.
I told Dad it should
just be family.
Salt and pepper shakers.
What was I thinking?
I think she liked them.
She pretended to.
She never pretends well enough.
What does that mean?
She lies just badly enough
so you know she's lying.
Oh, come on.
I really think she liked them.
I do.
Besides, it's like she said.
It's not like there's a perfect
gift for this kind of thing.
They're probably from
Kenya or Peru or somewhere.
Can you imagine the
carbon footprint?
Carbon footprint
and all, I thank you.
Hi.
Hi, Liz.
Hi.
Hey, Jen.
You look great.
Wow, your hair looks great
Thanks.
Hi, Michael.
It really does.
Hi, Liz.
Jonathan.
Look at you.
He's a great student.
Straight A's.
One B.
Mom.
Thanks for coming, Liz.
Sure.
I know it really means a lot
to Mom that we all do this.
Yeah, it does.
It's a privilege.
Anything we can do?
Here's an interesting article.
The local Annual Thanksgiving
Deep-Fried Turkey Festival
apparently is going vegan.
Unbelievable.
They're pretty.
Mhm.
Mm.
Your mother always had a
thing for white tulips.
Always the white
ones, even in college.
Mhm.
What's she doing?
She'll be right down.
Oh, what if she needs help?
She's fine.
She's fine, Jennifer.
Whatever she's doing,
she'd rather do it herself.
Good.
Is everybody OK?
Good.
Everybody is fine.
We're all fine.
We're doing great.
Jonathan?
Uh-huh.
Jonathan has a hard
time talking about it.
No, I don't.
When's it happening?
Soon, kiddo.
Oh, hello.
The flowers look beautiful.
So no one's drinking coffee?
Oh, let me...
I... I can get that.
That's...
I'd love some.
Yeah?
Please, here.
There you go.
Mom?
Do you want some?
No, I'm good.
Dad?
No, I'm fine.
Liz?
Mm, please.
Cream?
Yeah.
There you go.
Thanks.
There you go.
There you go.
Should someone call her?
I'm sure she's on her way.
She made that?
Wow.
Are you sure that's a good idea?
Hey!
Oh, Chris.
Hey.
Didn't know you
were... good to see you.
Chris, I'm so
happy that you came.
Oh.
Are you kidding?
Of course I did.
Now I have someone
to get drunk with.
I love where
this is heading.
Jesus, look at you.
Hi, sweetie.
Hey, Mom.
Oh.
You're not a
pimply kid anymore.
Hey, I'm a
pimply teenager now.
Hey.
Hey.
- I'm Chris.
- Oh...
Oh, OK.
I'll take that.
Good to meet you.
Yeah.
You're... you're hot.
Must be breaking
some hearts, right?
Hey, sweetie, how are you?
Good, how are you?
Chris good to see you.
No, no, no.
Hi.
Oh, you know what?
We only made up one single bed.
Nice to meet you.
Oh, that's... that's OK, Mom.
I can... I can help them.
I can make my own bed.
No, no, no, no.
Let me... let me help.
Yeah.
We can catch up
at the same time.
OK.
Come on, let's
get some coffee.
Great.
OK.
Elisabeth's here.
Oh, fabulous.
Right and then right?
Down here.
It's been a while.
Yeah.
We thought you might come
to Jonathan's school play.
Sorry.
I wanted to.
I really wanted to be
there, but there was...
I can't remember.
Something.
Mhm.
Here.
Then Dad's birthday.
Oh, I wanted to be
there for that too.
Uh-huh.
Hey, thanks for
all your texts.
What?
Reminding me.
Oh, yeah.
Sure.
Everybody thought
you forgot, so...
Yeah, I realize that.
Well, it's happened.
It has.
It wasn't intended
as criticism.
Towels in here, I think.
So How's the dance
program going?
I dropped out.
Oh.
Oh.
I... I thought you made
this big discovery
and... and finally
found your thing.
I did make a big discovery.
I found it wasn't my thing.
Along with the weird acupuncture
thing and the quilting thing
- and the yoga therapy thing.
- Very informed.
Very sympathetic.
None of them are
your thing, all
these things that they pay for.
OK.
Here we go.
And while we're sharing, what
the hell is she doing here?
Uh, what's Mr.
Dull doing here?
Mr. Dull
happens to be my husband.
Yeah, well, Chris
happens to be my husband.
You said you'd split up.
We got back together.
Are you even sure you're gay?
We've been together for
nearly a year and a half.
God, a year and a half.
Oh, come on.
Of what?
Disappointment, crisis, drama.
Because what was it?
She was... you said she was
an immature, irresponsible,
shit-for-brains.
Maybe I should
wait downstairs.
Yeah, maybe you
should, thanks.
I'm sorry.
Shit.
Chris is helping
me get through this.
Ever thought about that?
You promised not to bring her.
No.
You told me not to bring her.
There's a difference.
OK.
OK.
Please, just
give Mom this one
weekend without having the whole
world revolve around you, Anna.
It's just one weekend.
Will you do that?
Hmm?
Can you do that?
Can you quit being
a fucking bitch?
OK.
Fuck.
He's lost like 35 pounds.
Really?
It was mostly
cutting out sugar...
Uh-huh.
And then cheese,
which was the hard part.
Cheese?
How do you think she's doing?
Dodging every
emotional bullet.
Yeah.
And how are you?
I'm a little tired of people
saying "and how are you."
Yeah, sorry.
How's work?
Work is...
an
undergrad, last week,
refused to read "The
Odyssey" because it
was literally everything that
was wrong with the world.
"The Odyssey"?
Mhm.
"The Odyssey."
OK.
Three down.
H, I, J, K, L, M,
N, O. Five letters.
What?
Let me see it.
That's it.
H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O. Huh.
Yes, I'm surrendering
to Chablis.
Shall I get a funnel?
Thanks.
H, I, J, K, L, M,
N, O, five letters.
That is...
That's the whole clue?
- What are they doing?
- That's it.
It's weird.
Playing soccer?
It's hard to tell.
That's it.
H, I, J, K...
So are you and Chris
living together now, or what?
No, it's... we've been
a little on and off.
When I was your
age, I had someone
I moved in with four times.
And out four times.
With all my belongings,
all my books, and my cat.
That crazy cat.
That crazy cat.
That's a lot of moving.
For a cat.
Right.
Well, I was confused.
I was out there fighting
for free love, so
how could I tie
myself down like that?
It gets easier, I guess.
Oh yes, the old woman lied.
Water.
What?
Water?
H, I, J, K, L, M, N,
O. H to O, five letters.
Water is the answer.
H20.
Well, that's...
that is brilliant.
Oh.
- Pretty good.
- That's good.
He's good, your dad.
He is good.
The best.
Did you know that
next to Q, X, and Z,
J is the least used letter
in the English language?
Hi.
Honey, have some cake.
Your mom's cake's over there.
It's so delicious.
Yeah, this cake is so good.
You have to try it.
Sweet.
I want some of that.
It's so dense.
She doesn't use any flour.
Jonathan, your shoes are wet.
You should put them by the door.
I know this is the...
Well, you know it's time
when you have to start drinking
your Chablis from a paper cup.
Are you OK?
Mom?
- I'm fine.
- I'll get it.
I'll get it.
Good.
Be...
It's all right.
I'm... it's fine.
Just... just tell
me if you're...
I'm not.
There's glass everywhere.
OK.
Be careful, Jennifer.
You never
liked those glasses.
I hated those glasses.
OK.
So 11 across, roadside dweller...
There you go.
ET.
A frog!
A fish.
"Finding Nemo"?
"Shark Tale."
You kicked ass.
Oh, OK, uh...
uh...
It's a hat.
Harry Potter.
I think she got it.
No, no, you go.
You go.
Right.
Um, you're a black panther.
King, a king.
Oh, oh, "Lion King"!
Yaah...
Come on, go.
I want to see what you got.
I think you're a
deodorant commercial.
"King Kong"!
Yeah!
Great.
Well done.
I'm OK now.
Blow out the candles.
Hi.
Do you remember that
night at Pete's party
on the farm, when we tried acid?
Yes.
I think you persuaded
me we needed to listen
to the fireflies because...
because they were trying
to tell us something.
Probably not to
do any more acid
and just stick to mushrooms.
Will you look after my girls?
You don't need to ask.
They're OK, aren't they?
They're OK.
Hey.
Thank you, Lily.
Thank you, Liz.
You're up early.
Couldn't sleep.
Yeah.
How are you going to do it?
Didn't they tell you?
They told me not
to worry about it
and make sure Grandma
has a nice weekend.
Well, they're... they were
just trying to protect you.
But I want to know.
You sure?
Tomorrow, after you've all
gone, I'll put her to bed.
I'll give her some
medicine in a glass.
And then she'll go to sleep
while I sit beside her.
And then that's it.
Yeah.
It's illegal, right?
Yeah.
It's... it's illegal here, but
it's legal in some states,
in Washington, Oregon.
We could've gone to
Europe, but this is...
this is our home.
This is the house that...
that she built. This is
where Lil wants it to happen.
She seems OK to me.
She doesn't seem that bad.
Do you know how ill she is?
You've seen how she
walks, how she can... can
only use her right arm, right?
In a few weeks,
it's possible she
won't be able to move at all,
to talk, or even to swallow.
Try to imagine the horror of
not being able to swallow.
She'd be surrounded by
machines to help her breathe,
to remove the saliva and so on.
And we'd have to feed her
through a tube in her side,
there.
She doesn't want that.
And she's decided that...
that now's the... now's
the time to do it while
she's still in charge of...
of what happens to her.
Will you go to jail?
After she's gone,
I'll go out for a walk.
I get back.
I call 9-1-1.
I... I tell them what's happened,
that she must have taken
the medicine while I was out.
And... and something like
yes, I'm sure she's dead.
I'm a doctor and everything.
Yeah.
I'll tell them...
I'll tell them I
went out for a walk.
And that's why we have
to do it now, while she
still has the use of her arm.
Huh.
They're waking up.
Morning.
Morning.
Mm, cholesterol.
Sleep all right?
- God, it smells so good.
- Good morning, everybody.
Good morning.
How did everybody sleep?
Smells amazing.
Wow.
Whoa, Jonathan.
I haven't seen you
up this early in forever.
It's really not
that early, Dad.
Are Anna and Chris up?
- It's 8:30.
- No.
Jonathan, why don't you
run up and wake them?
No, I'll do it.
Oh, Mom.
I can do it.
I can do it.
Anna!
Chris!
You up yet?
I'm dead soon.
You coming down?
That should do it.
Pancakes.
Yeah, that should do it.
Did you know this...
Want some help with that?
...one of the oldest
foods in history?
I did... I...
I did know that, Michael.
They unearthed a
tomb in Sumeria...
Anybody want tea?
Anybody want tea?
You want tea?
Liz?
Tea?
Yeah, tea.
Great.
Of course.
Where is this from?
It's... it's Beluga, it's
the... the same as we had in St.
Petersberg.
Jonno, will you pass the
salt and pepper, please.
A little bit more expensive,
not on the black market.
Salt and pepper, please.
I can't wait.
Is that enough?
That's plenty.
Thanks so much.
One, please.
As you wish.
You know, the Indian
independence movement started
when Gandhi asked
the Indians to make
their own salt in
an act of defiance
against the British Empire.
Hmm.
Just think about it, how
something so insignificant
could lead to
something so powerful.
You were always such a rebel.
Did you hear that?
I'm a rebel.
You hear her, Jonno?
I think she was kidding.
Dad, she's choking.
No I'm fine.
Dad, she's choking.
I'm fine.
Fine.
Wow we really lucked out
with the weather today.
Could you pass the
marmalade, please?
Yeah, we did, didn't we?
Maybe we should
go for a walk later.
- A walk?
- Oh, yeah.
That's a really nice idea.
What do you want to do, Mom?
I'm up for that.
Mom, what do you want to do?
I think a walk sounds
like a nice idea.
Then tonight, just to
keep you on your toes,
if it's all right
with everyone, I'd
like to celebrate Christmas.
It'll be so much better than
boring old Thanksgiving, right?
And I think, Darling,
maybe you could
make us a big Christmas dinner.
The whole shebang?
The whole shebang.
And Jonno, maybe you
could go with your dad
and find us a tree.
Great.
OK.
The axe is in
the... in the barn.
The... the axe.
Mhm.
Don't get arrested.
And then afterwards,
Jonno, why don't
you help me decorate the tree?
Mm, sure.
Wait, are we going
to get presents?
Oh, I like that
line of thinking.
If you are a very
nice, Santa will
bring you an inheritance, yes.
Cool.
Are you rich?
Jonathan!
Why not?
Fine.
The only stipulation
being it has to all
be spent on hookers and blow.
Sounds good.
She means it.
Is this really what you want?
I mean, you could... you could
wait for an actual Christmas.
Jennifer, don't
fucking ruin this.
OK.
Well, I could, um, I
could be Santa, if you want.
Yeah, that's a great idea.
Enough food, I
could get that belly.
Dude, that would be so sick.
Oh, yeah.
And now pass the bacon.
Ooh.
No more lean shit for me.
I'm gonna have this bacon.
Hop replacement surgery,
they used to ask for the hips
back upon the patient's death.
They would have
to sign a release.
And they would go
back to the morgue...
Hey listen...
Yeah.
Is it... is it your idea
that you wanna have...
I like her.
So do I.
Plus it's so, so chic to
have a lesbian in the family.
Didn't you know that?
We tried it once, remember?
Was it '73 or '74?
Yeah, it was definitely
a drunken attempt.
Maybe a lack of technique?
Oh, I thought your
technique was fine.
She's... she's
fragile, isn't she?
Anna?
Anna.
No, she's fine.
She's absolutely fine.
She's just a little flighty.
All this back and forth, is
that a sign the relationship's
right, or that it's broken?
Maybe they don't
really love each other,
or maybe they really
love each other.
Yeah, useful analysis.
Thanks.
Oh, I'm out of gas.
What?
I'm out of gas.
Are you OK?
Yeah, I just...
I need a... just maybe...
Wait, wait, wait.
...sit down.
Hey, hey, Paul!
Jen, can you come?
Oh.
Beautiful.
Invigorating, isn't it?
Yes, it is.
It is.
It is invigorating.
What?
Jonathan, cover your ears.
Why?
Just...
This is... this is
where you were conceived.
Oh my god.
That is gross.
Here?
Yeah.
Right here?
Well, yeah.
We were, um, visiting with
a... um, a colleague of Paul's
who lived right near here.
And, well, the wife is
just fucking annoying.
Oh, god.
She would never stop talking.
Yak, yak, yak.
Never stopped, even when
she was eating or swimming
in the ocean, she
just never stopped.
And all that came
out of her mouth...
Was shit.
It was the worst.
And so I pretended to
be sick and ran outside.
And we came here,
and then he cured me.
- I cured you.
- Yeah.
OK.
TMI.
TMI.
And then we just got
so fond of this area
that we bought some land
when it became available.
And then... well, we couldn't
even afford it at that time.
We couldn't afford you then.
No.
Well, I'm not
surprised you come
from someplace so beautiful.
Aw.
Oh, honey.
Sweet.
Well, that's deep.
That is... that is deep.
What about me?
What about you, sweetie?
Where was I conceived?
Oh.
Do you know, I don't...
- I don't... I don't really know.
- I do.
I know.
I know.
It was when I went with you
to that convention in Buffalo.
We stayed at that horrible
motel near the airport,
and I got bedbugs.
Oh.
- I remember that.
- Oh, yeah.
- Oh.
- Aw.
But it was totally worth it.
It was totally worth it.
Completely.
That's pretty funny.
All right.
Shall we move on?
Sure.
I'm OK, yeah.
Liz, you're a genius!
All right, Liz!
Oh, is that so?
Well, you did two.
Oh, that was so lame.
That was not good.
I've thought of a better...
Are you all left-handed?
Oh no, no, no.
Just Jonno.
Just the cool guy.
Just Mr. Cool.
One more time.
Oh, courageous.
Watch this!
Left-handed!
Anna?
Anna?
Anna.
Come on.
I know.
What did you
think I was doing?
Playing Candy Crush?
Taking a nap?
Getting high?
Anna, OK.
OK, yeah.
Yes, I did.
I did.
And I'm sorry.
Can you blame me?
Yes, I fucking can blame you.
You never give me
a fucking break.
Look, you arrived late, as
always, looking like shit.
God, no one even knows
where you are half the time.
You disappear for a month
eating mushrooms in the desert,
or whatever the
hell off the grid
means, just as Mom
gets sick, and you
expect me not to be judgmental?
I'm sorry you feel that way.
I just wish that
with so little time left,
you made more of an
effort for the family.
That's all.
I am going to do that.
You OK?
Yeah.
You sure?
I've made up my mind.
Tomorrow, when they're
about to do it,
I'm going to call 9-1-1 and
report a suicide attempt.
OK.
Um, shit.
OK, that's... are you sure?
Because she says she's ready.
I'm not ready.
She's ready, but I'm not!
I don't know.
It's too fucked up.
I thought you were
against this too.
What about the effing vegans?
You want me to
take care of that?
Oh yeah.
Well, maybe some sweet
potato or something.
I don't know.
Potato.
That it?
Yeah, that's it.
What?
The magic potion.
I mean, where is it from?
Google.
How you know
it's going to work?
Trust me, darlings,
there's enough
pentobarbital in
that little package
to kill off half of Manhattan.
As you can imagine,
everything's been organized
within an inch of its life.
Yep.
I can imagine.
It is a little insane.
No, no, no, it's not.
It's... the people
in this situation,
those that choose to end
their lives prematurely,
are characteristically
not insane, not even...
not even depressed.
They're usually intelligent,
articulate, analytical,
and deeply, deeply controlling.
Thanks.
Sweet potatoes.
On it.
OK.
This is nice, doing Christmas.
Yeah, I guess.
I like this,
spending time together,
man and boy in the wild.
we should do more of this.
Sure.
Hey, here's your
fun fact about trees.
Do you know there's
more non-deciduous trees
in Norway than the entire
continent of Africa?
That's fascinating, Dad.
Isn't it? 'Cause...
here we go.
A lot of good choices over here.
Yeah.
Fantastic.
Oh, how about this one?
That one?
Yeah.
It's kind of small.
How about this one?
OK.
Good.
Good option.
Here we go.
Whoa.
Fuck.
You OK?
Sh... yeah, I...
You sure?
No, I'm good.
I'm good.
Yeah.
I'm just, uh, used to a
different kind of axe.
Think that's enough?
We need something
else in this.
How about
rosemary for these?
- Do you think maybe...
- Rosemary's great.
Does that really go with beef?
Oh, definitely.
Uh, honey, what
can I do for you?
I'm really... I'm fine.
I'm fine.
It'll wear off.
Honey, come on, seriously.
What about some...
you should sit down.
Maybe some ice?
Maybe some frozen peas?
Oh, yeah.
OK.
- That's...
- Thanks for being so helpful.
That's OK.
OK.
Are you really suffering?
Oh, no.
I'm... I'm... really, it's fine.
I offered to help.
I mean, it's not funny,
but it's pretty funny.
Don't laugh at your father.
It is kind of funny.
I don't even
really need these.
Jonathan?
Yeah?
- Do you wanna help?
- I could cut these up.
Sure.
What about...
how about a glass of wine?
So why don't
you start hanging.
And if you put anything
where I don't like it,
I will yell at you.
OK.
So are you going to give me
some super important life advice
now?
Nah.
Old people are
supposed to be insightful
and, you know, pass
on your experiences
so I remember them at
crucial moments in my life.
Oh, well, we old
people are just
pretending to be insightful
to give you the impression
that life adds up to something
meaningful and comprehensible.
It works.
Hmm.
Actually, I think the...
the trick is you
just show up, and you
get life your best shot.
Although handwritten thank-you
notes and being on time
don't hurt.
Got it.
Hmm.
Your mom made this one.
Cool.
So is there anything that
I should know about you
that the rest of
the family is going
to find out in the future?
I don't know.
Do you wanna have kids?
Yeah, I think so.
Are you gay?
No.
Trans?
No.
Anything else I
don't know about yet?
No, sorry.
What do you think
you want to be?
I want to be an actor.
Wow.
Well, do they know about that?
Um, nobody knows about
that, except now you do.
Well, I will take
your secret to my grave.
You're doing great.
Wow, smells amazing.
That is a tremendous
tie, Michael.
Thank you.
It is a tremendous tie.
Hmm?
Where is she?
Oh, she'll be here.
Jen?
Thank you.
Hmm.
Short measures.
Michael?
Thank you.
Hmm.
Mm.
I think I might go check.
Hi.
So when do we eat?
You look amazing.
Fantastic.
Wow.
Mom, you look...
Thank you.
...so beautiful.
Thanks very much.
Everybody ready?
Emmenthaler...
Hang on, wait.
It's um...
No, it's on the front, yeah.
- Let's try that again.
- OK, ready?
Everyone say cheese.
All right.
Here we go.
I think so, yeah.
Emmenthaler!
Emmenthaler!
Good, good.
- What's Emmenthaler?
- It's cheese.
- Paul, did you get the tie?
- Oh, Dad?
Could we get one with you in it?
Maybe Liz, would
you mind if we...
Of course.
OK.
Good idea, Jennifer.
Oh, yeah.
Just a family photo.
Merry Christmas.
Merry Christmas.
That was a good one.
Yes.
You got it?
Right, sit.
Let's, um, let's try this wine.
I'm going to make the toast.
Oh, there's a surprise.
To wonderful life.
To wonderful life.
Mm.
Mm.
Wow.
So this is, uh,
Gevrey Chambertin.
It's a red burgundy.
It's a French pinot noir.
Mm, mm, mm.
I can taste sunshine.
Good sunshine, eh?
Oh, yes.
Jonathan, um, you want to try?
This is amazing.
Yeah.
Oh, no, no.
He... he... he won't.
I've had wine before.
When?
Mm.
Well, it's illegal, so.
Yeah.
You're not getting any.
So is killing Grandma.
Ooh, nice comeback, kiddo.
Oh shit.
Whoa.
Very smart.
You're going to make an
excellent lawyer someday.
Actually, I'm
going to be an actor.
An actor?
Yeah.
And isn't that
a damn fine thing?
It is.
Well, there's plenty of
time to think about it, so.
I don't need to
think about it.
I know it.
Actually, yeah.
I... I think...
I think Jonathan may have
written a little something
for his grandma.
- What?
- Yeah.
Really?
Dude, why would you...
Jonno, that's great.
- Oh Jonathan, I'm honored.
- No, please.
- You wrote something?
- That's great.
- Can we hear it?
- Jonno.
It's like a rap.
It's kind of rough.
I don't want to do it right now.
What are you waiting
for let me hear it.
Well, come on.
Let's...
Go for it, dude.
OK.
Whatever.
Yeah, OK.
Here goes nothing.
Hit me.
Family, family, more
than a man, it's a clan.
Sometimes you gotta make
a stand, make a plan,
raise a hand, seize
the day, find a way.
Embrace the solution,
make a resolution.
It's collusion and confusion.
And everyone thinks
they know the right way,
but things are frightening.
Thoughts like lightning,
emotions heightening.
Sorrow for tomorrow, and
tomorrow time is borrowed.
Feeling hollow, but better
die alive, to strive,
say goodbye, feeling
whole in your soul.
That's the goal.
So let it roll.
Woo!
That was...
Yeah!
...wonderful!
Way to go, Jonno.
Jonno!
High five!
Go Jonno!
Woo!
Really wonderful.
Who wants meat?
Anybody need horseradish?
I'm the meat guy.
Meat anyone?
Any meat?
No one wants meat?
Liz, I'll take some.
20 bites, 20 bites,
and then you'll...
Oh...
Oh, I wanted that one.
Potatoes.
That's all I wanted.
You've taken the crispy one.
You need a new joke, Dad.
With the power of my mind.
Whoa!
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh.
Please don't laugh.
Please do not encourage him.
Jonathan!
This is really great.
How does he... no one's
watching the spoon.
Oh no.
Thank you.
Very good.
Jonathan, this one's for you.
Cool.
Thanks.
Hmm.
What is it?
A book.
Yeah.
Thanks.
Well done, Jonno.
What... what's uh...
It's Rilki.
Rilke.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Ooh.
- What?
- Whoa.
What is it?
$100 bill.
I've never
had one of these.
How are you
supposed to spend it?
Hookers and blow, of course.
Yes.
Do you remember these?
Yeah.
Of course I do.
Thank you.
Well, tell them.
Look, it's so beautiful.
She bought this when we
were... where were we?
We went to that
little antique shop.
Yeah, in... in Venice.
Really.
That was a great trip.
One of the best trips ever.
She saw this in some
antique jeweler's.
"Imagine who wore this."
And he thought you were
going to be a contessa.
Well, close.
Thank you.
Love you, Liz.
Oh, wow.
Oh.
Do you remember?
Yeah, I remember this.
It's Grandma's ring.
It's the only thing
I liked about her.
That is actually true.
And I don't blame
you, sweetheart.
She was a nightmare.
Mm.
Michael.
I get a present?
This is... oh.
Mhm.
I had to look all over for this.
Oh my god!
That is so good.
That is so great!
He's never
gonna take that off.
Oh, that is...
Oh!
yeah!
He's never
going to take that off.
Nor should he.
What do you think?
What do you think?
Oh my god, that is so you.
Jonathan, I'm going
to your parent-teacher
conference wearing this.
That is so you.
This was the first kind
of serious piece of jewelry
that I bought for
myself, at your age.
That's just...
this is beautiful.
Oh, look at that.
That really suits you.
Thank you.
That's... you're
welcome, sweetheart.
I love it.
I don't know if you
already have one of these,
but you can always
use another one.
Oh...
Oh my god.
What is it?
No, please, no.
Mom...
Yeah.
You need it.
Put it
back in the box.
Oh, it's
a smooth brand.
Oh, it's your
favorite color.
Oh my god.
Oh my lord.
It matches.
Oh my god.
It matches.
Lily, I'm afraid
she already has one.
That's not your only present.
I want you to have this.
I've never taken it
off since your dad
gave it to me, 22 years ago.
Oh.
Oh, god.
Thank you.
OK.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
I think maybe I haven't
taken this off in even longer.
But maybe now it's
time to give it to you.
You belong to somebody new,
but tonight, you belong to me.
What's next?
Wait down...
No.
Although.
Although, although we're apart,
you're part of my heart.
But tonight, you belong to me.
Just to little ol' me.
Way down...
Way down upon the stream.
Stream.
What fun
it is to laugh and sing
a sleighing song tonight.
Hey, jingle bells, jingle
bells, jingle all the way.
Oh what fun it is to ride in
a one-horse open sleigh, hey!
Thank you, husband.
Yeah.
Thanks, Grandpa.
Thanks.
Thanks.
I could die happy right now.
So could I. Hm.
Mm.
I love these plates.
Well, you can have them.
They're yours.
I'll just do eat
out of the pot, then.
Yeah, with your salt and
pepper shaker by your side.
Oh yeah.
Yeah, I'd like that.
I mean, if that's OK with...
I mean, maybe you could
pick something too.
How about my vinyl?
You used to love all those
R&B records and Nina Simone.
Yeah.
You know, maybe we could wait
until you're actually dead?
I think it's time for a joint.
What?
Really?
Oh, what are you looking...
come on, I was at Woodstock.
What's the big deal?
You weren't.
All right.
Well, I was nearby.
I was there in my mind.
Bullshit.
Nowadays, you never
meet anyone our age
who wasn't at Woodstock.
True.
Allegedly.
Allegedly, I have some.
Oh, what kind?
Just Napa Valley grass.
Not strong enough.
Sweetheart, will you get mine?
What?
Wait.
Mom?
Oh.
Jonathan, you should never
smoke weed unless you're dying.
OK.
Or having sex.
- I already tried it.
- What?
Did you hear that?
Excuse me?
What?
I don't want you to end up
like some unfocused pothead who
just drifts through life
staring at the clouds.
Hey, I'm right here.
Yeah.
Well, you're not exactly
the perfect role model.
And you are?
Just in time.
Oh, come on, Dad.
Oh my god.
Oh my god.
Thank you.
Great.
Great.
Let's all get stoned.
Jesus,
what is this stuff?
You like?
Are you kidding me?
Yes.
That is some next level shit.
Ooh.
Mm.
Are you sure?
Mhm.
OK.
It's been a long time.
Gotta hold the smoke.
Count to 10.
Hey, I too was at
Woodstock, metaphorically.
OK.
Maybe I wasn't.
OK.
Come on.
Oh.
Go Jen.
No way.
We're here to do
something together, right?
Yes.
Wow.
Hold it.
Oh my god.
Hold it.
When will I feel it?
In a little...
just a little bit.
Whoa.
Yeah.
Just... just chill.
You OK, Mom?
Just chill.
You good?
I don't know.
I'm...
Oh no.
Oh my god.
We are terrible parents.
Wait, stop.
Does it have tobacco in it?
It's just Michael quit smoking.
No, it's all right.
It's fine.
I'm sure it's fine.
OK.
You know, I'm really
not that bossy.
I'm... I'm actually very sweet.
Yes, you are.
Come on, pass it on, Dad.
Yeah, I'm sorry.
The other way.
You know, I know...
I know you guys already talked
about it, but I wasn't there.
And uh, anyway, I just wanted
to say that I understand.
Well, thank you, Chris.
It's just weird.
You're here now, but
tomorrow, you'll be dead.
And we know.
But I'm here now.
I'm really here now.
And you know, once we
set a date, actually,
it's funny, but it... it...
I stopped worrying
about dying, and I
could focus more on living.
Aren't you afraid?
Are you?
Well, I'm not dying tomorrow.
Well, at some point.
Yes.
I mean, we
all know that it's...
it's going to happen.
I just didn't know that I
would know that I would know
when it was actually happening.
No, but isn't that the point?
I mean, we sort of...
we forget in order
to just get on with living.
But the living is so much
better if you don't forget,
because then you don't get
caught up in the bullshit.
And then you can take a risk,
and you can bend some rules.
You know?
The days go by too slowly,
and the years go by too fast.
Bingo.
That's so cool.
Wow.
It's Magnetic Fields.
What's that?
It's music, Dad.
Oh.
Look, I am...
I am here now, and I'm full of
good food and incredible wine.
And I'm satisfied and happy.
I have my... my guy, my
grandson, the actor/rapper,
my oldest friend, and the two
kids that I am so proud of.
And the ones that they love.
The two kids I'm so proud of?
Yes.
Why would
you be proud of us?
Why wouldn't I
be proud of you?
I mean, you
barely know us.
What?
What's that
supposed to mean?
Oh, sweetie, I raised you
to be strong and independent,
and you are.
Really?
Really.
No we're not.
Anna...
Look, I'm sorry
to break it to you,
but you have two daughters
who are, in their own way,
seriously fucked up.
What are you talking about?
I don't think that that
is necessarily the case...
Look, I might be crazy,
but I'm not stupid.
What are you talking about?
OK.
Remember when Chris
and I went away for a month?
Yeah.
Well, I wasn't
living in the desert.
Where... we were you?
I was in a
psychiatric hospital,
because I tried to kill myself.
Jesus Christ.
I can't fucking believe you.
Oh my god.
Oh, please.
Did she threaten to cut her
wrist with a plastic knife
- so she could get some attention?
- Shut the fuck up, Jennifer.
Because that's
is what she does.
Always.
You didn't raise
us to be strong.
And everybody
gets sucked in.
You just raised us not to
bother you with weakness.
Oh my god, stop.
You're like Martha
fucking Stewart, Mom.
Anna.
What a great mom you
wanted everybody to think you
were.
Anna.
Be creative
was your mantra.
Be whatever you want to be.
Just don't disturb the
grownups while you're doing it,
and be sure to
clean up afterwards.
OK, stop.
Dad.
OK.
Stupid little fucking...
Jen... Jennifer, don't.
Don't, don't.
Stop, stop.
- Dad!
- Stop.
Dad.
I want to go to bed.
I think I have to go to bed now.
Sweetheart,
it's all right.
I didn't...
It's all right.
Let's clear... clear the table.
She wants to be
alone for a little bit.
What?
She didn't overstate it.
She's lucky that she survived.
Of course that's how she
describes it, because she
wants maximum sympathy.
All right.
What do you say you
and I go have a talk?
Come on.
Why wouldn't she tell us?
Well, she said you'd say
it was about attention getting.
That you'd say it was
about maximum sympathy.
And I don't know.
Maybe you're right.
But then I gotta
ask, what made her
need that kind of attention?
We'd been on and
off for a while.
I wasn't sure, she wasn't
sure, the usual shit.
But when the ambulance
came, I couldn't even
bring myself to get in
with her, hold her hand,
whatever, just be with her.
All I wanted to do was run,
and so that's what I did.
Is she OK now?
Is she OK?
No.
Well, she's bipolar.
What does that even mean?
It means a shitload
of meds, forever.
So why aren't you running now?
I don't know.
I like her.
I like her family.
Look, I...
What?
Your mom seems so sure.
And... and... and I really...
I really do believe
that it's her decision.
What are you trying to say?
Anna's not exactly
well, and... and so I don't want
Anna's perspective to ruin...
Say it.
Anna's going to
call 9-1-1 when
your mom is taking the pills.
Wait!
Wait!
What the hell
are you thinking?
You let her do what
she wants to do.
You got that?
You let her do what she wants.
You cannot make that call.
Do you understand me?
I'm not...
Tell me you understand.
I'm not ready.
I don't care.
What if... what
if Dad is wrong?
Maybe it'll be another six
months before it gets real bad,
maybe a year.
He's a fucking doctor.
He knows what he's doing.
It doesn't matter.
Doctors are wrong all the time.
Mom knows what she wants,
and he knows how to do it.
OK?
That's enough.
I want to know her.
I want her to know me!
Don't you get that?
I need more time.
So do I. But this
is Mom's decision.
It's her life.
It's her death.
I'm sorry you're sick.
I'm not sick!
Yes, you are.
OK.
What are you doing?
Don't go through my shit.
Xanax, Serax...
Don't touch my shit!
Lithium.
You know who they
give this stuff to?
They give it to sick people.
I'm not sick.
They just keep things in check.
I'm OK when I take them.
But your brain
chemistry is fucked,
and you can't trust
your emotions, so shut
the fuck up from now
on and you just let
her do what she wants to do.
Look at me.
Look at me.
I am sorry that I've
not been there for you.
I will be better, I...
I... I promise.
I will be better.
But this is Mom's decision, and
that is how it's going to be.
OK?
She understands.
Chris, thanks.
Yeah.
Hey.
Ah, what are you doing?
Looking at photos.
Uh-huh.
Uh...
Here we are.
Mexico.
Me, Dad, Mom, and Liz.
San Francisco.
And me, Dad, Mom, and Liz.
Hiking in Banff.
And um, London.
Me, Anna, Dad, Mom, and Liz.
Her best friend.
Yeah.
Right.
And his lover.
No.
Something.
No.
No.
I mean...
Mom told me years ago that
Dad and Liz had dated, you know,
in college, before
Mom even knew him.
I never thought, just never
put two and two together.
And then last night...
Yeah?
What?
I saw them kissing.
But like, but like, for real.
No, they were probably just...
What?
Just... they were...
they were probably
just comforting each other.
I don't know.
I don't know.
No.
What if... what if
he's in love with her?
What if he always was?
I... I don't think that
that's something that...
I mean, wouldn't that
cloud his judgment?
OK, you're really
tired, honey.
I'm not fucking
tired, Michael.
You...
What do you think I should do?
I think you should sleep.
But should I tell Mom?
Should I... should I tell...
No...
Should I tell them
both that I will
not support this after all?
No, your mom has
made her decision.
But what do you think?
Well, Lily's been very
clear from the very beginning
that what she...
What do you think!
What do you... what do you
think about... about all of it?
You.
Right here, right now,
what did you think?
I think this is
a really difficult
decision, and that the family...
Do you think anything?
Do you... do you feel?
Yeah, I feel things!
Of course I do!
What?
It's impossible to get any
kind of reaction from you.
If... if I... if I threw
this wine in your face,
you'd just tell me what
district the grapes were from.
Oh, that is not true.
I think I'm...
God.
Ugh!
I... I'm so sorry.
I... oh my god.
Honey.
Honey.
Honey, here.
You wanna...
Will you close the blinds?
You want to sleep some more?
I want to wake up
again, one more time.
And I
just woke up one morning,
and I couldn't remember
what healthy felt like.
It didn't scare me.
It was a relief.
So I canceled my plans
with Chris that night.
I took a shower.
Isn't that weird?
I watched the
happy people on TV,
and I ate a handful of pills
and drunk a mug of vodka,
passed out.
Then Chris came over anyway.
She wanted to surprise me.
She called 9-1-1.
The ambulance took me to the
hospital and pumped me out.
I stayed three weeks.
They gave me medicine,
and I still take it,
and I'll keep taking it.
And that's OK.
Why didn't you tell me?
You always told
us to be strong.
Oh, Jesus.
Be free.
I didn't want to be free.
I just wanted to feel like me.
I am so sorry.
I am so, so sorry.
So sorry, baby.
And you had just
found out you were sick.
I didn't want you
to worry about it.
Oh my god.
You have no idea
how happy it would
have made me to worry about it.
Let me worry about you.
Oh.
I'm so sorry.
I love you.
I love you, sweet girl.
I'm sorry.
Ha-ha!
Do you... can I...
I got it.
Do you want me to...
No, sweetie, I'm fine.
I got it.
Mom?
OK?
Good morning.
- Hey.
- Hi.
- Morning.
- Hey.
Morning.
Hi.
Morning.
OK.
Oh.
OK.
OK.
So today.
Today.
Um, can we all try to just
behave as normally as possible?
Just read the Sunday paper and
nap, play the stock market,
write a play.
make a match
stick model of the...
of the Empire State Building.
Just a normal Sunday.
I need to have a
normal, lazy Sunday.
I need that from you.
OK?
- Yeah.
- OK.
- Got it.
- OK.
- You got it.
- All right.
Great.
OK.
Good.
Um, no juice?
Jennifer?
Uh, no.
I'm not thirsty.
Shall I make some coffee?
No.
Jonathan, why don't
you pass the juice?
Sure.
- Anna?
- Thank you.
Hmm?
What?
Um, would you come
with me for a minute?
OK.
Remember when you were about
eight years old, it was summer.
And you... you came
rushing into the house,
and... and you said that you
had seen Dad and Elisabeth
kissing in the woods.
And everybody just
laughed at you.
Do you remember?
Yeah, I remember.
And people said
you were crazy.
And... and... and... and
people said you were bad.
Yes.
You said I was bad.
Well, I think you were...
I... I think Dad
and Liz are lovers.
What?
Last night, I
saw them together.
Think about it.
Every family vacation,
she's been there.
Every important occasion, it's
always been Mom, Dad, and Liz.
Why?
I mean, that's not normal.
We've grown up
thinking that's normal.
That is not normal.
Well, do we tell Mom?
No.
No.
We can't.
We can't.
Can we?
Well fuck, I don't
know anything anymore.
Look, if he's with Liz, he
can't make a rational decision.
What if she's manipulating him?
We've known Liz all our lives.
I don't believe that's her.
I'm not saying she's doing
it deliberately, but... but...
OK.
We tell Mom we've
changed our minds,
and we're not going
along with this anymore.
Yes?
Jonathan, go upstairs, please.
Why?
Jennifer...
Don't ask questions.
Just go upstairs
Jonathan?
I want you to go upstairs now.
Too bad.
- I don't want you to hear this.
- Hear what?
- I'm part of this, Mom.
- He's right.
He should be here.
What's going on?
Can we just see...
see this through with a
bit of ordinary grace?
Ordinary grace, you
fucking hypocrite?
- All right, sit down, Jennifer.
- Whoa.
OK.
No.
Please don't... don't
tell me to sit down, OK?
I won't.
I won't sit down.
I won't.
This... this is sick.
Jennifer, whatever it is you
want to say, do us all a favor
and don't say it.
Everything's being said.
- Oh, not quite everything.
- Don't do this, Jennifer.
Jonathan, stop.
What the hell
is going on here?
Maybe you shouldn't
go through with it.
Maybe you don't have all
the information you need
to make an informed decision.
What are you talking about?
Dad?
What?
Dad.
What?
Tell her.
OK.
OK.
We're not going to
let this happen.
It's not right.
N... Jennifer, we have gone
over and over this for months,
and we came to the conclu...
as a family, we agreed that
if this is what I want...
But I don't think
you know what you want.
How dare you?
We got... we got
behind this on the basis
of a lot of assumptions.
Assumptions?
What... what... what assumptions?
OK.
Hey, hey, let her
talk, Paul, please.
Please, we're... we're
talking with Mom right now, OK?
Dad, not you.
Well, who's we?
We?
Anna and I agree.
Right?
Anna?
Anna.
Yeah, Jennifer and I agree.
I cannot... no.
I cannot back down from this.
No.
I... this... no.
Well... well...
well, we... we can.
Jennifer, this is not
what she needs right now.
You can shut up.
Oh Liz.
This is not your decision.
It's not yours either.
This is your mother's choice!
Is it really?
Or has she been helped along?
Huh?
What are you saying?
Look, I choose.
I choose.
Look at me.
I choose not to be
locked in a body
that cannot walk or
talk or eat or drink
or even breathe on its own.
I am choosing not to be fed
vanilla-fucking-flavored
protein drinks through
a tube in my side.
I choose.
I choose.
I am choosing.
There are moral issues, OK?
Ethical issues.
Do not make my last act on
this earth in defiance of you.
Please don't do that to us.
Jennifer, what's
going on here?
I saw you last night.
You saw what?
Saw... what did you see?
What did she see?
You two.
What are you talk...
saw what?
- What are you talking about?
- Jennifer.
No.
No.
You don't get to speak.
No, no.
I really think it's
my turn to speak.
You say I'm having some love
affair with your father, right?
Well, you are, aren't you?
Aren't you?
Christ.
Jennifer, you know what?
You were always
such a fucking prig.
Look how lucky you are.
A husband who adores
you, an amazing kid,
and still you're
always straightening
every picture in the room.
I never managed this, family.
Here's my family, the
people I grew up with,
the people I loved and love.
Don't take that away.
Please don't take that away.
You didn't answer
the question.
You didn't
answer the question, Liz.
Answer, somebody.
Answer, or I'm
going to call 9-1-1.
What?
What?
I'm not kidding.
I'll... I'll make the call.
Oh, good.
What will you say?
I'm going to say there's
been a suicide attempt,
and that they need
to come right away.
Answer me, somebody!
Do it.
Anna.
Honey, are you sure
you want to do this?
Honey?
Jennifer.
Put... put the phone down.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Of course they're
having an affair.
Of course they're
having an affair.
I begged them to have an affair.
I implored them
to have an affair.
What?
All our lives?
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Since I've been sick.
How can that be OK?
How could it be OK for my
best friend and my husband
to love each other?
Don't you see that that makes
a space so that I can do this?
Don't you see?
Love is everything.
Love is all there is.
Why didn't you tell us?
Would
you have approved?
I'm sorry.
It's OK.
OK, now I'm scared.
Of course you are.
Me too.
Look, maybe
you all should...
it's time.
Now?
Now.
I'm... I'm done.
I can feel it.
I know it's coming toward
me, and I do not want it.
So if it's OK with you guys.
Jen?
Yeah.
Anna?
OK.
But I want to be with
you when you die.
Anna.
I don't... I don't think...
Are you strong enough?
Yeah.
Yeah, she is.
I'm with Anna.
Just don't let me die
with my mouth open.
Oh, Mom.
Now I'm frightened.
Don't be frightened.
Where am I going?
You tell me, kiddo.
I
know you belong to somebody new,
but tonight, you belong to me.
What's next?
Wait down...
no.
Although...
Although, although we're apart,
you're a part of my heart.
But tonight, you belong to me.
Just to little old me.
...old me.
Wait
down, wait down by the stream...
Stream.
How very,
very, very sweet it will seem
once more just to dream in the
silvery moonlight, my honey,
I know, I know, with the
dawn that you will be gone,
but tonight, you belong to me.
Just to little ol' me.