Before/During/After (2020) Movie Script

- Here you go.

- Thank you.

Give it to house management.

And these...

Okay, well, thank you.

I'll be...

- All right.

- Yeah. I'll just be a minute.

- I'll be right back.

- See ya.

Ladies and gentlemen,

we have a 7 o'clock half hour

for a 7:30 show this evening.

Just a reminder that

when you get out of clothes,

please join us upstairs in the

lobby for a little... send off.

Farewell.

Okay. I just wanna

take everybody back

to the time when these two met.

Jen comes to me and she says,

"Dad, listen, I met this guy,

"and he's all alone

for the holidays.

"And he's a sailor."

And I say, "No."

"No, no, no, no, no."

She says "Oh, Dad, please.

Come on.

"He's separated from his family.

"Can I please invite him

for Christmas?"

And I said yes.

Well, well, no, no.

Pat and I said yes.

And, boy, are we glad we did.

You two chose each other

to be family.

I mean, poor Jen.

When I think of it,

stuck with me and Pat.

No choice.

No choice at all.

But David,

Jen chose you.

So be her rock.

Be her soft place to fall.

Huh?

And for God's sake, be the one

to make her wear a life vest.

At all times, even on land.

A toast to Mr. and Mrs. Munroe.

May you always be as in love

as you are today.

I love you.

Cheers. Cheers.

Cheers.

That's allowing me

to somehow be okay

with standing here

in front of you

telling you that unless

you fight for me,

now, I am walking away.

I won't sit back

and wait for you.

If that's what I think it is,

we could just fucking go home now.

- Great.

- Yeah.

Thanks.

- Thank you.

- Great job.

- Appreciate it. Thank you.

- Thank you for being here.

Bye, Nigel.

It's so good to see you.

- Have a good day.

- Thank you.

Bye, Nigel, I'll see you.

God.

Oh, my God. I'm so happy

to see you.

- I am so happy to see you too.

- How are you?

- I'm great. How are you?

- I'm good.

Holy shit, you were slaying it

in there.

I was, like, crying

listening to you.

Thank you. No, this material,

and that place,

- the grapple, right?

- It's really powerful.

You have to just

drop down into it.

Yeah. Yeah, you...

Have you worked

with Nigel before?

No. No.

The nicest guy. Are you next?

No. God, no.

I'm 40 minutes early.

Like a jackass.

Yeah. I like to just show up

way too fucking early

and watch all the other

actresses go in and be brilliant.

Lose all my self-confidence.

Oh, shut up.

This outfit looks perfect.

Right? I borrowed this

from my roommate.

This is my...

"I used to be

a decent piece of ass,

"but now, I'm invisible 'cause

my husband dumped me" look.

Jennie?

- You ready?

- Uh, yeah, I just...

No, no, no, we're going

by scheduled times.

- Okay.

- Jennie, sorry.

- Didn't see you.

- That's okay. Hi.

- Come on in, sweetie.

- All right.

- How are you?

- I'm good. How are you?

- Thanks for coming in.

- Sure.

Nigel, this is Jennie Munroe.

You might have

remembered her from the...

Oh, of course. I saw you

in The Acorn last year.

- Oh.

- You were great.

Thank you.

Thanks so much.

Toby will read

Alexander for you.

Uh, we're going to go back

just a little bit from, uh...

"I, Alexander,

take thee, Delaney."

Oh, okay.

Yeah. From the, uh, flashbacks,

to the vows.

That way, it'll just help you

to launch yourself a little bit.

Great, great, great. That's...

"I, Alexander, take thee,

Delaney, to be my wife.

"To have and to hold,

to love, honor and cherish,

"from this day forward."

I, Delaney,

take thee, Alexander,

to be my husband.

To honor...

To honor, cherish...

Hey, babe.

Who... Whose number...

Who do you know

with a 407 number?

Four-O...

Who do you know

with a 407 number?

Nobody.

I think you do.

Whoever it is, it's somebody you've

spoken to at least once a day,

every single day

for the last 30 days.

Are those

my phone records? Or...

Who?

Oh, uh, right.

She's just a friend.

She's just a friend I met.

Where?

Fort Pierce.

When I delivered the boat.

...to have and to hold.

Ugh.

Sorry about that.

Do you mind if I just...

I'm just gonna go back.

- If that's okay.

- Of course.

Dropped the easiest line

in the whole play.

Everyone knows it.

Even my parents.

Okay.

These are "My husband

just dumped me" pants.

Throwing me off.

Here we go. Um...

"I, Alexander,

take thee, Delaney,

"to be my wife.

"To have and to hold,

to love, honor and cherish

"from this day forward."

I, Delaney,

take thee, Alexander,

to be my husband.

To have and to hold,

from this day forward.

Okay. All right.

No, wait. Let's do two.

Uh, one serious and one funny.

Okay.

Uh, funny first.

Yep. Funny first.

There you go.

Okay.

It's beautiful.

Thank you.

Happy anniversary.

- I'm sorry I can't afford more.

- Not now, David.

- You deserve more.

- Stop it.

We've spent all of our money

so that we could move here.

I don't want anything else.

I just want you.

- You do?

- I do.

Come on.

Come on, we just broke it.

Jennie, David, come in.

And I just... I-I...

I know that it's about

the timing of all this,

you know, with this...

with this other woman.

- So, um...

- The affair?

Yes, and I-I...

I know that we're scared

that we're, both scared,

- but I just...

- Is that true, David?

What? That we're scared?

Are you scared?

She's always scared.

Are you?

I guess so.

You guess so?

Yep.

Can you tell me

what else you might be feeling?

Jennie mentioned

that you seemed angry...

at her.

Is that true?

- Is that even...

- Jennie.

Sorry. Sorry.

Sorry, babe.

David,

are you angry?

I don't know.

At, at me?

At Jennie, David.

What are you so angry about?

In my experience,

- when people refuse to speak...

- I don't wanna be a dad.

If that's what you were asking.

- Get it?

- No, I got it, it's all right.

- Hey!

Merry Christmas.

We were so worried

about you guys.

We didn't hear that

you had landed okay.

I think you would've heard

something on the news if we didn't.

- Let me help you.

- No, Dad.

- I'm taking the light one.

- All right, yeah.

I'm dying for you

to see the tree.

Babe,

why don't we just...

You got something

for your folks, right?

- Yeah.

- So let's just

figure out something we need

for the apartment...

- No. No!

- ...get it online.

- That's not romantic.

- I don't even know what you want.

You don't tell me.

What do you want?

I want a baby.

A what?

I want a baby for Christmas.

Jennie?

Yeah?

Are you serious?

Yeah.

I thought we didn't

want a baby.

I know, but I do, now.

Now, I do.

- Jen.

- I just...

I know it sounds weird,

but I keep seeing

these beautiful little

badass girls

that look right at me. Like,

"What are you doing?"

"Who are you gonna share

your whatever with?

"Your... your anything?"

We're pushing 40,

what if we just...

for one year, got out of the way,

to see if it was meant to be.

Just one year?

I'm not going back there.

Hey, Jennifer Munroe.

Listen, I'm doing what you

asked, I'm giving you space

for him to step up.

But I swear to God,

if he doesn't,

in a big fucking way

real, real soon,

I will, I don't know,

maybe I'll cash out my IRA

and put a hit out on him.

That would be

a great use of my money.

You know I'm kidding, right?

I kid, because I love.

I'm sort of kidding,

but seriously,

just say the word,

and I am there.

Okay? I love you.

He was all proud like,

and he says,

"What do you think, Stan?"

And I say, "Are you

fucking kidding me?

"4.5 mil for that piece of shit?

You're an idiot!"

I couldn't help myself.

I said it right to his face.

Uh, mint?

No? Okay.

Anyhoo, back to youse two.

So, wow!

Wow.

Well, based on my, what,

50 minutes with you,

my overall quick analysis

is that,

this marriage is on thin ice.

But, it can be saved.

I mean, this one.

Desperate, controlling,

terrified.

Not a good sign.

And this one.

Silent, brooding, secretive.

Also not good.

Kids. We got our work

cut out for us.

So, when's the baby due?

I am not going back there.

Yeah?

You would go back to him?

They call?

Is it bad?

Hi, Jennie, this is April,

the genetic counselor

from Dr. Bennett's office.

The lab did confirm the presence

of an extra chromosome 18

in all the cells

that they looked at.

So, your next step would be

to contact your OB-GYN

since the pregnancy

isn't viable.

I hope we see you again

and are able to give you

good news.

If you guys wanna,

wanna try again or...

All right, take care. Bye.

Fuck.

You want to wear cowboy boots

with a skirt?

- Yeah.

- That's not a goal.

- Yes, it is.

- No, it's not.

- It is. It's a goal.

- It is not a goal.

- You already do that.

- No, not with a skirt.

I wear 'em with pants, not a skirt.

It's different.

That is totally hot.

You can cross that off tonight.

It's an easy one.

- My turn.

- Okay.

All right.

You want to make...

- a limbo...

- Living.

Living. You want to

make a living... on a boat?

- If I could.

- You could totally do that.

I don't know

how much money's in it,

- but if I could, I would.

- You totally could do that.

- All right, you go.

- Okay.

Okay.

Thailand.

Yeah. Would you

write that down, please.

- Thailand?

- Yeah. Thailand.

- What about it?

- I'm going.

- When?

- Someday.

- How?

- It's a goal.

- You're terrified to fly over an ocean.

- I know.

- So when did this...

- I...

- I've never...

Miss Tucker,

my third grade teacher.

She had this shiny

gold Buddha on her desk

that I was obsessed with.

And then, finally, she gave it to

me on the last day before summer.

She told me

about her travels to Thailand.

She was amazing.

She...

She was was tough.

She wore slacks.

She traveled on her own.

She was an adventurer.

I want to do that.

Do you still have it?

- What?

- The Buddha.

I think I do.

I think it's at my parents.

- That's cool.

- Yeah.

I'm gonna write it down.

Jennie...

...is gonna fly...

...over an ocean...

...to Thailand.

Yep.

It's official.

David.

What?

Did you dance with her?

At the place? Did you dance?

What, Jennie?

Did you dance together?

Yes.

You did?

Was it a slow song?

Yes.

Do you remember the song?

No.

It was slow though?

Now, you've been

turning down auditions?

Uh, yeah.

Why?

Well, not the day player stuff.

The small, the out-of-town gigs...

the out-of-town theater jobs.

- Yes.

- Why?

Well, I don't think that us being

apart is a really good idea.

I think that David and I

need to be in the same place,

and not miles apart for months

while our marriage is

barely hanging on.

I see, so you don't

want him to go either.

Uh, do you not want him to even try

and get work in Florida this winter?

I don't know, I...

No, I think we need to be

in the same city for a while.

So you want to play the martyr

and give up what you love...

- Martyr?

- ...and asked him to put his life on hold?

You know, this all seems

very "Gift of the Magi" to me.

You know that story, David.

Are you familiar with that?

No.

Oh.

I am so sorry.

Let me just...

Shit. Hold on.

What? I'm in a session.

Okay, stop, stop.

I'll talk to you later.

I am so sorry.

Um...

Okay, so you think

it would be a good idea

to do this boat delivery

with David? Fine.

Fine. Your job/homework

is to not talk too much

and have as much sex

as possible.

Uh...

We can leave it there. We can...

We can leave it there.

Okay, love,

I'm gonna stop you.

This woman...

If you can even imagine it.

This woman, the life

she thought she knew, it's gone.

Everyone thought they were

the perfect couple.

Everyone, including her.

Now, she's been side-swiped.

She's doing everything she can

to keep her shit together

because this woman's...

she's...

she's a hard fucking role.

Right, May?

Even within this one speech,

she goes from a woman

standing in her living room with her

heart in a million bloody pieces,

and by speaking

her truth, she...

by the end, she realizes that,

yes, her heart has been shattered.

But it's...

there's all this

surface area around it.

And even though her breath gets

caught on the jagged corners,

it's actually gotten to be

bigger now.

In pieces, thank you very much.

Yes, she...

she's afraid to leave,

but she's more terrified to sit still.

If she sits still,

she'll go under.

She has to move forward.

Neutral is not good.

Being a victim, it's not good.

She must find

the next right thing.

She must, or the fear and

the hurt will swallow her.

Okay?

Take that in for a second.

Take it in, and let's give it

another go.

All right?

Yeah.

Why don't we go from...

"What could I have

done differently?"

What could I have

done differently?

Was I so fucking naive

to think that we were happy?

You let me think we were happy.

Hello?

Uh, I just...

I told Jennie I probably

wouldn't say anything today,

but I...

I am so grateful

for all of you.

And you, Jennifer Lonergan.

Munroe! Jennie Munroe.

Thank you.

For all this.

But today was...

Today's perfect.

Thank you.

For loving me

in the beautiful way you do.

I want to spend the rest of

my life making you happy.

Supporting you.

I can't believe we get to

do this life thing together.

I love her.

Beautiful, beautiful.

There she is.

You had us scared, sweetheart.

You didn't want to come back.

You're gonna be okay.

We'll take good care of you.

You and your husband

can try again, right away, okay?

Is that her?

- What?

- Is that her?

Yep.

Have you been

speaking to her?

- No.

- You haven't?

No, baby.

It's probably

why she's texting.

She's... It's the weekend.

She knows we're together.

She's trying

to stir shit up.

- What does it say?

- I...

"It isn't fair."

I'll just delete it.

Does she know

that we lost the baby?

I don't know.

I haven't spoken to her since that day.

Just ignore it. Please.

Just... put it on silent.

What are you doing?

Jen, what are you doing?

- Calling her.

- No, don't do that.

Don't do that.

Jen, put that down.

She's crazy. She's just gonna

make shit up.

- Don't do this. Come on.

- This isn't David.

I believe my husband told you

over a month ago

that I knew about you

and that you were

to stop contacting him.

I know you don't respect me,

or clearly yourself,

but I ask that you please

respect the fact

that we have been married

for 15 years.

Do not contact

my husband ever again.

So you're okay

with that, David?

That, what?

Well, that she hijacked

your phone

and bitched that girl out?

Uh, I don't know.

You've lost weight,

haven't you?

Uh, yeah. Probably.

I mean, losing the baby. So...

You absolutely have lost weight.

You don't wanna lose

too much more, because

it's an unfortunate look

for a woman of a certain age.

Hm.

So it sounds like

you two are looking for a counselor

that you both feel comfortable with,

and you're having trouble finding a match.

Is that right?

Who wants to start?

Uh, well, we were just now

on our way here.

We're getting off the subway and we're

heading towards the stairs and this

gorgeous woman just starts...

starts heading towards us.

She's gorgeous from the stairs.

I'm very aware of her. She's...

I've always been able to think that

other women were beautiful

or whatever.

I could see them

for what they were.

They're beautiful,

but they're separate from me.

But now, all of a sudden, every single woman

that I see who is even remotely attractive

is a threat.

Somehow taking away from my beauty

like there's only so much to go around,

like how dare she just hog up all the,

you know, the whatever, the whatever...

And so she's coming at me.

She's coming at me and I could feel

myself getting smaller and angrier

the closer she gets. And as she passes

with her perfect little long legs,

just passes by, as she does,

I say to myself,

"Please see my beauty, David,

"please don't let her suck up

all of my beauty."

And as she passes,

he turns his head.

He just turns his head, like,

to look at her. He just goes...

like a fucking animal.

He just...

I mean, who is this guy?

The guy that I've been beautiful to for 15

years is now suddenly overnight bored of me

and he can't help it.

I mean, who is that guy?

He gets one taste of other,

and now he's like a fucking animal.

It's like that fish... like that...

with the... with the...

or like a pit bull.

Like a fucking

sweet little perfect pit bull

who has been nothing but loving

its entire life,

and it accidentally gets a

little bit of blood in its mouth,

and it just starts fucking

attacking women,

and postmen or whatever

the fuck walks by the house.

Yes...

I get it. I get it now.

I'm a subscriber to most of the

important off-Broadway theaters.

And I saw you

in the Pettibone play.

You are amazing.

The way you climbed up that wall,

the play was "meh" but you were fantastic.

God, I feel bad.

I should have said something,

but I thought

I recognized your name,

and I had some time today,

so I made the appointment.

But I'm getting ready to go to

London on my annual theater crawl.

I can definitely be

your therapist when I come back.

Depends on how much

urgent care... both of you,

it depends on how much

urgent care you think you need.

Hey, guys.

- Hey.

- Hi, how're you doing?

Oh, you know, actually,

I have a feeling that you're over there.

This is for a kiddie drink.

This is like for moms.

Unless, I think... I think

you might be over there?

- Oh.

- Yeah.

Thank you.

Oh, that was so cute.

She thought we were all

going after the same thing.

What do you think the breakdown

for that spot is?

Uh... Provocative jewels?

Second wife proposal?

"Female twenties. Drop dead gorgeous.

English not necessary."

- We don't need to hear her speak.

- No.

"Male, handsome, but relatable. Late forties to early nineties."

May I?

- Yes.

- Oh, yeah. Sure.

- Thank you.

- Sure.

- You want your book?

- Yeah.

- Here you go.

- Thanks.

Excuse me.

Excuse me. Excuse me.

I think you're...

What?

I was just saying

I think you're over there.

I have half a bagel in here if

you want to take that edge off.

Oh, no, sweetie. I think you're over there.

This is for a kids drink.

Oh, this is all so confusing.

- Thank you.

- Yeah. Yes, it is. You're welcome.

- Okay. Marcie, are you ready?

- Yep.

- Hey.

- And Jennie?

- Yes.

Are you sure you're here for me?

I think so. 3:40.

I don't see you here.

Oh, um...

Oh, yeah.

You're over there, hon.

Okay. Just assumed.

Hey, baby.

Yeah, I can see you.

Can you see me?

I don't.

No.

I don't... I don't miss... Three months

is nothing. I'm not gonna miss you at all.

No.

I won't.

Okay.

I love you, too.

Okay.

Bye, baby.

Be safe.

Okay. Okay.

What is your favorite memory

of us?

What?

What is... I was...

just remembering when you...

when you turned the boat around

and you didn't want to go south because you

didn't want to be away from me for that long.

- Do you remember that?

- Yeah.

I think...

Maybe we should focus on...

On those memories,

the good ones when we were happy...

I turned back on that trip...

back to you...

because I knew if I kept going,

I wouldn't come back.

You need to move out...

Today. You need to move out.

- Munroe?

- Yes.

Why don't you have a seat?

Nathan will be with you.

That's smart.

The little area to distract the kids while

Mom and Dad decide who gets the house.

Munroe, right?

Yes.

That would be funny

if you weren't.

Like if you came out here

to make out a will,

and I handed you

separation papers.

And then you'd be like, "Whoa, whoa,

honey, honey, what the f is going on here?"

So, um, I told Jennie this

over the phone

when we made the appointment,

I should let you know as well.

Um,

we are not attorneys.

We cannot give you legal advice.

Um... Legal... So... Advice.

What we can provide you with is self-help

legal document preparation services

at your specific direction.

Okay?

Great. So Jennie told me just

a few things over the phone.

Just need to confirm 'em

real quick.

Um... So, no kids, correct?

- No.

- Yes.

- Yes. No kids.

Okay. And no property?

Okay, well...

that makes our lives

a lot easier.

Paperwork wise.

I'm gonna need you guys

to just read everything in here

and add any and all bank

accounts, including car payments,

- student loans, the whole...

- The boat.

Boat.

The "boat"?

Dead serious. You have a boat?

Toot-toot, my man. You got to

take me out there, bro.

Got to.

- Hey, doll.

- Hi.

- Sign in for me.

- Okay.

How have you been?

I... I've been good. Good.

- You have the same insurance?

- Yeah.

Okay.

Your teeth... beautiful. Okay.

Rinse.

So...

how is that dreamy, lumberjack

looking husband of yours?

Spit.

Those eyes.

You have children, no?

No.

No?

His eyes, your teeth...

- beautiful.

- Ah.

Yeah, well, we're...

Hey, ahoy there,

first mate!

Oh, hi.

So how's the captain doing?

You two going to Florida this year?

Uh... No...

Actually, we're separated.

- Well, that's too bad.

- Yeah.

Too bad, Doctor.

Well, shit. I don't know what

to say. I really don't know.

That's okay.

Okay, you guys have kids?

- No.

- Makes it easier.

Oh, I don't know.

What do you mean, Olga?

What are you talking about?

- Too bad no kids.

- But she'll be okay, Olga. She'll be okay.

- Well, she may be okay.

- It's all right. You go on.

But the unborn children.

What about them?

You go on.

And you, um...

- You'll be sure to rinse real good. Okay?

- Okay.

Yeah.

There's nothing you can do to

patch it up a little bit, maybe?

Mm-mm.

Am I done?

- Yeah, yeah, is finished.

- Okay.

Did he cheat?

- Sorry.

- It happened to me.

I come home from work one day,

and there's a 350-pound woman

in a negligee cooking

a pot roast in my kitchen.

I shit you not.

She said, "Who are you?"

I said, "Who am I?

This is my apartment.

"My fucking stretched to shit

negligee..." Excuse my French.

"And a pot roast I've been saving

for my nephew's confirmation.

"Who am I?"

I walked out of there in a daze

like someone punched me in the face.

Okay.

I know. I know, I know. I ended up kicking

him out after ten years of marriage.

350 pounds, Jennie,

I shit you not.

That's when I stopped

wearing Spanx.

You're gonna be okay.

Here. Mm-hm.

And you look very thin.

- So that's good.

- Trauma trim.

- That's what they call it.

- Yeah.

- And I'm out!

- All right.

C'mon. Look at this bountiful haul.

- Yeah, I brought a lot of stuff.

- Yeah.

- Okay.

- And all of it, it's kinda...

it's sort of pre-divorce stuff.

So, um... anyway...

It's very good quality, but it's

a little too "classy lady". Right?

- No, it's cute.

- And, uh...

As you can see, I'm kind of

a little bit of a good time gal.

- Yeah.

- That's hot.

Good time gal. Good time... Yes!

- Easy, cheesy. It's okay.

- It's beautiful.

- It actually goes with this dress.

- Oh, no, I saw it.

I brought a lot of stuff.

Everybody just go on, take it all.

I don't want any of it.

Just everyone sorta pick a first

and second choice, I guess,

and then if we have an overlap,

we'll fight it out.

We'll figure that out. And also in

terms of artwork and stuff, the pillows,

the little...

that kind of stuff.

Basically, anything with a

sailboat nautical motif is out.

So, go nuts.

- Okay.

- I think I've got it.

Is this real, too?

- No.

- Isn't that great?

- Lot of stuff.

- And I also have these...

If anyone knows anyone.

Erin, say something, please.

I can always count on you to...

A bucket of duckling farts?

I don't know.

- You okay?

- Yeah.

Wanna talk about it?

- Don't wanna talk about it?

- I'm not sure.

I think... I'm just... This is...

This was... This has been good.

- Thank you for having us over.

- Yeah.

Oh, God. We have a man down.

We have a man down

in a part of D.C.

Oh, no, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

You're just so...

- You're admirable.

- Well, I don't know about that.

You are.

Oh, I was a wreck. I couldn't get out

of bed for, what was it? Three years.

Yeah, I had a...

We had a heinous relationship. He was a...

- He was an a-hole.

- Mm-hm.

- He was a heinous a-hole.

- Yes, he was.

- He was a hein-hole.

- He was... He was a hein-hole.

You guys are lucky,

I think, personally.

What? You're still young.

My Uncle Pete, he just left my

aunt after 55 years of marriage.

- You're fucking kidding me!

- No, 55 years.

He's what, like a few birthdays away

from needing her to wipe his ass

and he leaves her now.

- Hein-hole.

- Big, huge, hein-hole.

- Huge.

When did you take your ring off?

Well, one night, I was actually headed out

with friends and just as I was about to leave,

there was this cheesy song from like the

'60s or the '70s about wedding rings.

And the song comes on. And I just was

like, "Okay," you know, and I took it off,

put it in the top drawer of my

dresser, and then that was that.

I mean, there was no tears.

It was just like, "Hm".

I just... I can't take mine off

yet for some reason, I don't...

Don't rush it. You'll know. I've got an

amazing therapist if you need one, he's...

- amazing.

- Well, I might... actually, I'm seeing a new one next week,

- so fingers crossed.

- Yeah.

Kathryn, what the fuck?

Wine.

Give her some wine.

No, I can't have any wine.

I'm pregnant.

James and I are having a baby.

- Oh, my God.

- That makes so much sense. You're going batshit crazy.

- That's amazing.

Oh, my God,

you're having a baby.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

That's so great. Come here. Kathryn.

Oh, my gosh.

I'm so happy for you.

Babe?

What about the baby?

You lost the pregnancy, correct?

- Yes.

- Sorry.

How are you feeling about that?

I feel like she's out there

and she's mine.

But it's... I think that's one of

the things that's been hard about

letting go is that it's... not just a loss.

It's like I know she's out there,

but she's not with me.

- Is that...

- Totally, totally.

It's like, my heart hasn't been

updated to the fact that she's not here

and then if she's not here, then why

do I feel like I have to find her?

Do you know

that the baby was a girl?

- No. They asked me if I wanted to know. But...

- Of course, of course.

Well, I wouldn't judge

this feeling that you're having.

It could mean many things.

Is it possible that you feel like you're

looking for a version of your younger self?

- Your inner child?

- Yeah, that's...

Yeah, that's interesting.

I haven't thought about it that way.

Is it possible that because

you have an aching in your heart

for a child

that you're seeking her out?

I mean, we see

what we want to see

or need to see to justify what our

heart has already decided it wants.

Yeah. Yeah, that's...

Or is it possible...

that your lost embryo spirit

is circling the planet

for a hundred years,

sending waves of

emotional correspondence,

searching for the perfect

celestial match.

- Um...

- I know, I know.

It's intense when you find

the person who will heal you,

and release you

of all of your pain.

We should hear back

in 7 to 10 business days,

- but if you have any questions, feel free to give us a call.

- Thank you.

Hi.

Today has been...

- Give me a second.

- Yeah.

Here we go. Mm-hm.

"Plaintiff against defendant."

Wow, okay.

There is no way we are letting you

go through this alone, gorgeous.

I whipped up a kick ass

divorce mix playlist for you.

- And I was in charge of the booze.

- That's right.

- It's always the man's fault. Always.

- Mm-hm.

You must see a lot of shit.

Oh, my God, I do. Hm.

But here's the thing...

you, Jennie, you, right?

I don't know you,

but you ooze life, mama.

Yes, you are beautiful.

You're a beautiful soul.

You are... You are beautiful.

You are gonna have men

eating out your ass.

- Oh, my God.

- Yes.

Hey, hand.

Maybe eating out of her hand?

Jennie! Jennie!

Yeah! Oh, yeah.

This...

This was... The best...

The best divorce I've ever been a part of.

- Yeah!

- Yes.

- Wow!

- Yeah...

Yeah. Forgive me. I think you're the

fifth or sixth therapist that I've seen.

So, I've told this, like, a million times.

That's... Which is probably good.

There's at least some distance

now, which is just good.

I could breathe

a little bit now.

- Well, that's good. Breathing is good.

- Yeah. Yeah.

Marissa said that you were

great, but she also said that

it took her three years to get out of bed.

So I was like "Well, how great can he be?"

Well, in my defense, I didn't meet

Marissa until the day she got out of bed.

Oh, then shit.

- You're good.

- Thank you.

- So you really saw five or six therapists?

- Yeah.

My husband used to be an actor.

I know, it's absolutely brutal.

Did you go in for therapy

for yourself before that

- or it was only couples therapy?

- Well, that was it.

Yeah, couples. But I... I think I want

that. I know, I want that for myself.

Now, I want that.

Good. Well, I hope there will

be room for me in your growth.

And, I hope that this will always be a place

where you can feel free to be yourself

and take care of yourself and ultimately feel

a little less burdened and a little lighter.

Thank you.

If there's one thing that you could hear

me say to you now, before you leave,

what would it be?

Um. Well, what you just said

was pretty great.

I must say, um, uh, I guess...

just that I'll...

that I'll be okay. That I'll be able to

someday just look back on all this and...

and just... I'll be okay.

I promise you, you will be okay.

Thank you.

You could sit anywhere, hon.

- Hey, sunshine.

- Thank you.

- Would you like some coffee?

- Yes, please.

You guys, you have

the sausage patties, right?

I could do the patties.

Not the links.

Oh, good, good, good. That's what I thought.

Nobody has patties anymore. It's weird.

- I'll do the two eggs scrambled. Sausage patties.

- Mm-hm.

- And instead of the home fries, can I have French fries?

- Let me see. It's kinda early.

Hey, Marcella,

can we do French fries?

For that one? Yeah. I'll get right on it.

- Sucker for pretty girls, that one.

- Thank you.

- White, wheat, rye or bagel?

- Rye, please.

Okay. Excellent. I will be right

back with your order, love.

You. Stop messing

with my customers.

- Here you go.

- Thank you.

Are you okay?

Oh. Uh, yeah.

Actually, I just took

my wedding ring off.

Mm-hmm.

What are you

even doing over there?

Can you get back to work,

back to the fryer?

- Back to the...

- Oh, my God.

Trouble with this one.

- You gotta put yourself out there.

- No, I don't.

The first few are gonna

be miserable. They just are.

But you don't wanna wait

until you meet your dream man

to go on your first date.

No, you gotta work out

the kinks.

- I...

- Here's a little tip.

A little challenge, if you will,

and it totally works.

It's called 333.

So you walk into a party

or a bar, what have you,

and you just casually scan

the room, scope it out.

And if you see somebody

who you like, looks up,

you think they're cute.

You look at them

and you lock eyes with them

for three seconds,

and then you hold it.

One Mississippi,

two Mississippi,

three Mississippis,

and then you look away.

You made it totally apparent that

you were attracted to them, right?

Oh, no! Maybe not.

So you have to do this quick

little glance back, like this...

But you gotta be subtle

with that glance back.

Listen to me,

because if you hold it

for, like, three entire seconds,

it's just gonna be creepy.

So it just wants to be

like a little,

"Yep, mister, that's exactly

what you think it is, hmm,"

and then you're out. That's it.

Yes, it's just like

an invitation

for the guy to come up

and talk to you.

But you have

to do the glance back

because that's the invitation.

- No, that's awful.

- Yes, I'm telling you,

it totally works

for my gay dude friends.

It totally works.

I haven't tried it yet,

of course.

- I'm too chicken.

- Erin...

- I am!

- Don't tell me to do something

- that you can't do.

- Yes, I can. I totally can.

Besides, I don't need no 333.

I already got my signature

go-to moves at a party.

I like to be that girl

with her arms crossed

in front of her chest

and her back facing

every attractive,

available heterosexual man

just daring them

to break through this caustic,

- go-fuck-yourself exterior.

- You're not like that.

But my true, true soulmate

will see through all this

and say, "See that mean girl

over there ignoring me?

"There's something about her.

I can't get enough of her.

"Oh, yes, we shall be married

in the spring."

What's the other three?

"The other three" what?

You said 333.

Oh, yeah, yeah.

You have to do it

three times a day to practice.

- No.

- Let's try it now.

- No, no.

- Yes, yes, yes.

I still have a dent

where my ring used to be.

Girl, we're gonna do it

with this guy right now.

- Right, you do it.

- We'll go it together. Ready?

One Mississippi.

Two Mississippi.

Three Mississippi.

Okay, it's time

for the glance back.

We'll do it together.

If this goes according to plan,

he should be standing

stock still, waiting for us.

Ready? One, two, three.

Glance back.

Oh, okay.

So he's not buying

what we're selling,

but that's okay.

- Doesn't matter.

- The dog glanced back.

The dog did something.

Jennie, uh,

check your email.

You have an appointment Friday

for a new play.

It's called

To Have and to Hold.

British import,

won a whole bunch of shit.

Nigel Hopkins is directing.

I think you're really

gonna love this play.

Uh, it seems like

a really great fit for you.

So call me

if you have questions.

I am... I'm around. Okay, bye.

- Hey.

Welcome to the Pleasure Chest.

- Let me know if there's anything I can get you.

- Thank you.

- Hi.

This whole area is my specialty.

Oh, okay.

- Questions?

- Um...

Actually, yes. Yes, I do, um...

The girls are having

a bachelorette party,

and I was...

They nominated me

to pick up the, um...

It's for you. It's okay.

No, it's... It's for a friend

who's getting married.

- Ah-ha!

- And they...

They picked me

to be the one to...

I though it'd be more obvious.

I can't remember the name of it.

- I think, it's, uh...

- Uh...

- What?

Um,

it's part of a collection...

Symphony collection?

Maybe.

Okay, the...

Saxophone.

The... ah!

Piccolo or...

The...

Maestro.

- No.

- No?

- Nope.

- None of these. Okay.

Poker collection.

The, ah...

Inside Straight.

The...

Royal Flush.

The, ah...

All In.

Yeah, that's, um...

That's a lot.

That's, um...

Too much?

- Just not so aggressive.

- Non-aggressive?

Yeah.

The Bumble Bug.

- Oh, see?

- Bumble Bug.

- Yes, that's, uh...

- Yeah.

- Yeah, you're gonna love...

- Sort of...

- ...the bug.

- Oh, it's not for me.

Anything else?

You want a penis candy bar

for your bachelorette party

of one?

No, thank you.

You know, you can connect this

to your smartphone.

Oh, God, I don't need...

No, no, no, it's good.

It's an app.

Yeah, I don't need an app.

You're gonna love this thing.

I don't leave the house

without it.

Exactly.

Yeah, one time I had

this flight to Amsterdam.

It was with my parents,

and this thing saved me.

So you just multitasked?

- Yeah.

- We could be...

We could be vacuuming and shit.

My, uh...

My friend might be back

for the, uh, for the All In.

- Good!

- When she's ready.

That's a big step.

Yes, she's just not ready yet

for that.

- Great.

- She's just in a Bumble Bug kind of a place.

Great. Have fun.

I will... She will.

- She will. She will.

- She will!

Thank you, ladies.

Have a great day!

You too!

If James has the baby for more

than two or three hours,

first of all, the baby won't eat

because I'm the source of...

Oh, no...

Hey!

You guys stop for a second.

Stop for a second.

I need to look up

directions for...

What are you talking about?

We know exactly where we are.

Ooh, he just turned

and looked at her.

- What do I do now?

- Did you do the glance back?

- No.

Just easy breezy...

- Here I go.

- Don't look.

I love you, too.

Ooh, "love you, too."

Oh, that did not go good.

- That felt not good.

- That was a good try.

Um...

- Hi.

Ta-da! Sorry.

It's weird, I, um...

I just chased your friend

down the street, and I...

- That's weird.

- Nice. You know what?

We're gonna meet you

on the subway platform.

333. I'm out! Bye!

- We'll see you on the sub. Careful.

- Bye!

Um, I just...

I wanted to say that, um,

I was talking to my son

on the phone,

and I thought maybe you

overheard and misunderstood.

I don't know how to do this.

I was married for 15 years

and just got divorced.

Oh, I just got divorced, too.

Shit. I'm sorry.

- I... Yeah.

- You too.

- Sorry.

- Thanks.

Uh, I'm just here selling

my parents' place.

I live...

I'm flying back to Chicago.

- Oh, okay.

- Um...

I have to come back

in like a month for closing

and hand off keys.

So I'd love to take

you out to dinner or...

Yeah, I would...

I would love that.

I would like that too. So...

Um, what's your name?

- I'm Jennie.

- Okay.

No, no, no, honey, I'm fine.

I don't need

anything emotionally.

I can just take care

of myself with eating...

...and drinking.

I'm doing great. I'm so happy.

I'm so happy to have you here.

You know, we didn't even...

We hardly fought at all

or anything.

She's a wonderful person.

Just it's...

It's just...

It's so strange being...

with someone

for so many years and...

and still being so lonely.

You guys lonely?

Honestly?

No.

- No.

- I wasn't.

Hmm.

It's kind of shitty

about the whole thing. I was...

I was fine. I was content.

- Yeah, but that's just not enough.

- No.

You can't go through life

just being content.

Apparently not.

It's not possible

to be happy all the time.

You can't spend 60 years

with the same person

- in a constant state of euphoria.

- Yes!

- No, it's crazy!

- Yes, you totally can. No, it's not.

This. Right now,

this is amazing.

I mean, I haven't felt this in years,

and everything

that you say is...

is amazing and profound

and funny.

You know what? I feel

amazing and profound.

We're not. We're not that funny.

- We're not that amazing. It's, uh...

- What?

This will all wear off. It will.

The second we sleep together,

if we sleep together,

the tingles go down immediately.

Like at least 50%

50%? Are you that bad in bed?

Shut up.

No, it's like... Come on.

This is... This is incredible,

but it can't last.

This is shiny and new.

- It wears off and then what?

- That is asinine.

Did you just say "asinine"?

I love that word. Asinine.

See? Peculiar. Funny. Profound. Amazing. All of it.

Especially peculiar,

but nevermind.

This is so strange.

I really thought that, uh,

saying goodbye

to this empty house

with my parents gone

was gonna be so depressing.

But instead, it's, um...

Thank you for coming over.

Thank you for sharing this.

- Goodbye, house.

- Goodbye.

Hm.

Come on.

Ta-da!

This was my childhood bedroom.

Wow. Mine and Robby's.

Uh, this was

Robby's side of the room.

Mine was over there,

and, uh, bed was here.

My little desk was over there.

And, um...

We had track lighting,

terrible track lighting,

but we would adjust

the spotlights

and make like a dance floor

and Robby did,

uh, this techno music

that we would...

I'm about to blow your mind.

All right.

Oops.

Oh, I'm sorry. I just, uh...

I just read that.

Yep, all right.

Okay, let's see your moves.

- Try out the dance floor.

- Okay.

'Cause obviously,

I'm a professional so...

Uh, was that your wife?

Yeah. Um, yeah,

but we're separated.

It's just...

It's more complicated with kids.

You said you were divorced.

Well, we're not divorced yet.

She's fighting it, and I asked

for a few months

just to get my shit cleared up.

- 'Cause selling this place has...

- Uh, I'm...

I'm not interested

in being this.

- No.

- Jennie, Jennie. Jennie, uh...

Okay, I... Please, um...

I'm sorry, I...

If I misled you or...

I feel kind of lost here, um...

But nothing happened, and we...

Nothing happened.

You just made me laugh and...

bought cannolis for me

and told me stories

about your kids,

and where you did homework

as a little boy.

Give her

this opportunity, Clark.

Tell her she's funny and amazing

and see what happens.

- She will light up. I guarantee it.

- No.

- I guarantee it.

- No, she won't. Jennie, she won't.

I've tried. And laughs,

I don't remember the last time

that we laughed together.

I was thinking

on my flight here,

I don't know if I can do this.

I'm 44 years old, and I have

no idea who the fuck I am.

- Tell her, Clark.

- I have tried.

Tell her, not me. Tell her.

- Jennie...

- And if she changes the subject

and acts like

she didn't hear you,

you just grab her face

and you say, "I am lost.

"I am not happy.

I don't know who the fuck I am."

- Jennie...

- Tell her, Clark.

Make her hear you.

You let me think we were happy

until the end

and secretly you moved on.

So sorry. I feel like

I'm wasting your time.

This is...

I hear what you're saying

and I can't seem to...

I'm so sorry.

- How'd it go?

- Uh, not good.

Remember the little gold Buddha

that Miss Tucker gave me?

Buddha, is that what

you're looking for?

I wish I were the kind of person

who could go.

I wish I were the kind of person

who could just go to Thailand.

I wish I were

that kind of person.

And then I thought,

"Well, what if I were

that kind of person?"

What if I were

the kind of person

who could just type Bangkok,

one passenger,

hit "buy" without thinking

or asking your parents?

What if I were

that kind of person

who could just travel on my own?

What if I were

that kind of fearless person?

You are a fearless person.

Are you kidding, Dad?

Did you?

I'm terrified.

I have always been terrified.

When have you ever been scared?

You've never seemed

scared to me.

You are one of the strongest

women I have ever known.

You don't think of me

as a scared person.

No, no. My God.

What kind of scared person

decides at 15 years old

that she wants to be an actress?

It's one of the scariest careers

on the planet,

and you chose to do it

in New York City, Jen.

Scared people don't live there.

Scared people

don't dream big dreams.

Scared people have

Plan Bs and Cs and Ds.

- You didn't.

- Well, I should have.

I should...

I should have thought at 15,

"Okay, well,

what if I'm 40 years old

"and the thought of having

a couple of great kids

"and having a husband

who adores me

"and running home to make

them dinner between shows

"is nowhere in sight."

Please. Please.

Your dad's still downstairs

looking for it.

Hmm.

I would do anything

in this world

if I could take your pain away.

I would absorb

every bit of it if I could.

But what I'm realizing right now

is that in our attempts

to protect you,

I think we've robbed you

in a way

of you finding

your own strength,

your own sense of self.

And I am just so, so sorry

if we've done that.

Mom, you and Dad were...

You did nothing wrong.

If anything, you were...

You were so perfect.

I feel so stupid.

It's okay.

Well...

I want to tell you something

about your dad and I.

Oh, God, no, Mom, no.

I can't. I can't.

- If you tell me Dad cheated or something.

- Oh, no, honey. Never.

Oh, no, no, no.

Your dad is the best.

He's the best.

It's not about that.

If I could go back,

I would do it all again.

Exactly the same.

But there is this small part

of me that wonders

who we would be

if we weren't we.

You sort of decide

who you are as a team

and if it works,

you don't change it.

I look at you as your mom,

and I think...

you have this opportunity

to be whoever you wanna be.

Oh! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

The thing is...

I always thought

I was a weak person.

But it's not that.

I guess I'm realizing now

that it's more that, I just,

I wasn't sure that I was

a strong person underneath.

I didn't trust that if the shit

ever hit the fan

that I wouldn't just crumble.

But you know what

is so fucking great...

the more that you hurt me,

the more that you

just push down on me,

the more this other thing

pushes up.

It's like this solid pushback

that's like,

"No, no, you are not

gonna hold me under."

And the stronger the push,

the stronger the pushback.

I don't... I don't know

how long it's been there,

probably forever, but I never

really needed it until now.

But it's... it's this...

This thing that's allowing me

to somehow be okay

with standing here

in front of you,

telling you that unless

you fight for me now,

I'm walking away.

I'm not gonna be this woman

who just will take scraps.

I won't sit around and wait

for you to love me again.

Delaney... JENNIE: Alex, stop...

with the lies.

There are so many things

I would love to hear you say,

but if they're not true,

please...

Please don't say it.

- You were incredible.

- Oh...

- Thank you.

- Amazing, really.

Thank you. Thank you so much.

- Hey.

- Thank you for the flowers.

- Oh, of course.

That was...

You were so great, babe.

Jennie. You were so great.

Thank you.

I didn't... I didn't know

you were in town.

You're doing, uh, a delivery?

Yeah, just a quick one.

Brought one up from Virginia.

The Bimini Cricket.

"The Bimini Cricket"?

That's the name of the...

That's asinine.

- You've been busy and...

- Uh, a little bit.

Mostly rigging work.

A few deliveries

here and there, but...

That's good.

This is...

Yeah. Yeah, this has been...

Uh, it's wrapping up on Sunday,

but it's... it's, uh...

Oh, you're closing?

Uh, they're extending again.

It's been...

But I'm... I decided to leave.

I'm leaving.

It's a lot. It's a year

of pushing on bruises, so...

- A year?

- Yeah, it was last October that, um...

Oh, that's right.

Seeing you again, it's...

It's weird. It's not...

It's not what I imagined.

Yeah. Me either.

I keep wanting to grab

your hand, which is weird but...

Hey, Jennie,

we're ready for you.

I'll be...

No rush. Take your time.

They're throwing a little going

away thing between shows, so...

Oh, I'm sorry. If you need to...

No, no, no, no, no. This is...

I've... This was good.

You look so beautiful.

Thank you.

Whisky and cornflakes.

Jen...

I don't know

why I told you that.

That night.

That I wouldn't have come back

on the boat.

I don't know

what the truth is anymore.

Thank you.

Ladies and gentlemen,

this is a final boarding call

for BA Flight 7210 to Dubai

with continuing service

to Bangkok.

Please make your way

to Gate Seventeen...

My gosh! Oh, my gosh.

Holy cow!

I'm dangling very far.

Holy moly!

Uh-oh, I think he's looking

back like he wants to dip me.

Dear God.

Oh, dear. Oh, dear.

Oh, crap!

All right, guys,

what are you doing?

You can't do this

for long.

I have no feeling in my legs.

Oh, God.

All right.

All right, slow, dude.

Seems like

a little Water World.

Awfully small.

Yeah, yeah.

Oh, nice!

- I'll take this off now.

- Okay.

Uh-huh.

Oh, wow.

That was

the scariest thing

I've ever done.

Whoo!

Holy moly!

Before/During/After (2020) - full transcript