9,75 Santimetrekare (2020) - full transcript
During his military service in 1990's Southeast Turkey, Ahmet experiences something that will haunt him for the rest of his life. In 2013, when the chaotic days of Gezi Park protests in Istanbul start, Ahmet learns he has a brain tumor. Just as the lines between truth and fiction, the dream and the reality start to get blurred for him, he meets Serap; the love of his life. But time is ticking and his painful past weighs down on him every day, suffocating him with the same question: who is the child that plays hide and seek with him?
-[wind howling] -[breathing sound]
My name is Zinar. My father is a neutralized terrorist.
-[wind howling] -[breathing sound]
My father will kill you.
My father will kill you!
Bam!
-[banging sound] -[ringing sound]
[crowd] Taksim everywhere, resistance everywhere!
Everywhere Taksim everywhere resistance!
Everywhere Taksim everywhere resistance!
Everywhere is Taksim…
-[sad music] -[protest sounds]
-[ringing sound] -[protest sounds]
Ahmed brother.
[protest voices]
Brother Ahmet, are you okay? Are you okay, Ahmet brother?
-[breathing sound] -[gas grenade thrown]
[crowd] By resisting, we will win!
Direne direne kazanacağız! Direne direne…
[Ahmet inner voice] The road to death
It is nothing but the renunciation of consciousness from the body.
One… to take a step.
[sad music]
I have one last thing left to do.
To walk towards that sad voice calling me.
To face Zinar.
Isn't that why I'm not writing anyway?
İnsan bu dünyadaki acıyı nereye koymalı?
Acılarımızı saklayacak bir yer var mı?
Yeterince kuyu, ev, dükkân. Sanırım yok.
İyi misin? İyi misin?
[kalabalık] Direne direne kazanacağız!
Direne direne kazanacağız!
Direne direne kazanacağız!
-[helikopter sesi] -[telsiz sesi]
Abi, bak, korkutuyorsun beni.
Gazdan oluyor gazdan.
Abi, ben senin doktorunu arıyorum ya.
-[hüzünlü müzik] -[arbede sesleri]
Alo. Alo, doktor bey, benim Marilyn.
Hani Ahmet abinin arkadaşı olan.
Ahmet abi yine bayıldı. Sokakta buldum, iyi değil gibi.
-Getireyim mi size müsaitseniz? -[öksürük sesi]
Tamam, tamam, doktor bey, tamam biz geliyoruz.
Tamam, tamam, tamam. Bir yarım saate oradayız. Tamam, doktor bey.
Tamam.
[patlama sesi]
-İyi misin? -Gazdan oldu.
Abi, ne gazdanı ya? Bu kaçıncı?
Ha?
-[öksürük sesi] -[siren sesi]
Tümör çok ölümcül bir yerde.
Ve sanki biraz hızlı büyüyor.
Bu yüzden bir an önce ameliyat olman lazım.
[alaycı nida]
Ya teacher, the tumor is in my head. You worry.
I am aware of the seriousness of the situation.
let this novel be over
I'll lie down on the cold table right away, don't worry, promise.
You were saying that I will go to a Gabar, I will finish the novel there, what happened?
I'm thinking of going over the weekend, let's see.
There are some gaps, if I can remember them,
If I can fill in the blanks, maybe I'll finish the novel huh.
Will I be able to remember what I forgot after the surgery?
Maybe. But of course, the operation must be successful first.
What if it's not successful?
[breathing sound]
That the surgery is a risky surgery
We talked to you, Ahmet. That's how I remember it.
Risk, risk of death.
All your surgeries.
[horn sound]
How much time do I have?
-[horn sound] -[breathing sound]
[doctor] One, two months. Maybe a little more.
Good. Good.
[Ahmet inner voice] O product, blood in my brain,
that little pea of pus and cartilage.
It now has a name.
The face of fate.
My death will not be a gray-haired death.
This is everything.
[street hum]
[car audio]
-[Kurdish] My son? -[woman] Cemil?
- [female] Cemil. -[male] Cemil.
[Kurdish] Ah, who hit my son?
[Kurdish] Zinar come in!
[breathing sounds]
[Kurdish] Slow, slow.
[pain sounds]
[coughing sound]
[shuffle sound]
[street noise]
[male] Stop. Go right, go right, go right, go right.
[police radio]
-[radio conversations] -[unintelligible conversations]
[Kurdish] Let's meet in the evening.
[Kurdish] Azad arrived yesterday. He said to be at the border at night in five days.
There will be others who will go there like us.
[breathing sound]
We will meet them there and cross the border together. too much for us--
-Too much near us-- -[knocking on the door]
[gunshot sound]
[breathing sounds]
[Kurdish] I will come to pick you up at midnight in five days. Don't weigh your load.
[coughing sound]
[sad music]
[wind howling]
[door knocks]
[Marilyn] Ahmet brother.
[door knocks]
-I came. -[Marilyn] Ahmet brother.
[whistle sounds from outside]
[door knocks]
[Marilyn] Ahmet brother.
[Ahmet] Where is your key?
Ahmed brother.
Friends with Serap sister, Cengiz sister.
Can they rest with you for a few hours?
No, there are 12 people downstairs with me, but we haven't slept for 24 hours.
[breathing sounds]
I am so hungry.
[Marilyn] Love it bro, you didn't eat anything.
What happened, didn't you like it?
I ate out all the time these days.
No more cooking for you, but huh. It's a shame these will go to waste.
Well, Cengiz, can you clear the table? Serap sister, can you help too?
[Mirage] Okay.
Look here. Look, this girl doesn't look at you at all.
[Marilyn] She's not feeding or tidying up.
But wait, I'll have a talk with him, I'll pull him aside.
What was her name, Was it Ayşin or Asil?
Oh, what a boxing name. I will talk to him.
I'm working, Marilyn.
Of course, you can work if you get the opportunity from your wife. I'm not saying anything.
[voices of protest from the street]
Look at me. How are you, are you okay?
Staple.
[Marilyn] Do you eat too, bro?
No, I'm having my breakfast.
My brother writes.
He writes stories, he writes screenplays, he also writes poetry.
Serap sister is also a teacher at the university.
Cengiz is also a thesis student. We are together every day in Gezi.
-So you write. Let's say I'm eager to write.
He has completed three notebooks so far.
Will finish soon.
Doesn't he look like Namık Kemal anyway?
By God, I think he looks like brother Marx.
After all, this beard business is often an effort to change oneself, isn't it?
[siren sounds]
Look, there's a scar over there, see?
Look like this.
It goes from under my beard to my lips like this.
Did you see?
With such seasonal changes,
Here's the temperature, the color changes when the light changes.
It's pink, it's purple.
9.75 square centimeters. Face measurement.
I know, because they measured it three times in the military delegation.
That's why I didn't become a commando.
So if it was 0.26 square centimeters larger, or
if the doctor measuring it understood a little more geometry or
look, if he took these things into account, these channels are here,
there are such slits, if he had taken them into account
I would not do military service. But it didn't.
-Did you do your military service? -No.
I was a second lieutenant. So I was an officer.
Then you wake up every morning, in front of the mirror.
you are shaving.
Then the military service ended,
So I thought my wound was standing in too much sunlight,
I grew a beard like this, did some hair, etc. So it is.
My wound went underground.
I never thought of Namık Kemal or Karl Marx.
But look, I was thinking of only one thing, huh.
To look eye to eye when I talk to people like this.
Because when I didn't have a beard, people were always talking here, here, here.
Could I explain?
[silence]
A long and dramatic tirade.
Yup,
A tirade that I love to throw when appropriate.
[Cengiz] Brother, you misunderstood me, I didn't mean anything like that.
I'm sorry.
-We disturbed you, we know. -No, astaghfurullah.
-Is your wound congenital? -It is considered.
[skirmish sounds from the street]
[crowd] By resisting, we will win!
[running sounds]
[siren sound]
-Brother, are you dating? -[Ahmet] I'll work later.
You can stay here as long as you want.
But slam the door on your way out, because it won't close.
Also,
Don't touch my drink, so there's a grocery store downstairs if you feel like it.
Have a nice day.
[door closes]
[crowd] Come on! Come here!
-[male] Four, five, six, seven, -[breathing sounds]
- eight, nine, ten. -[screams]
One two Three,
four, five, six, seven,
- eight, nine, ten. -What are you doing, goat?
My commander. And you…
Lan, rahat.
Commander, I'm bringing you a cup of rabbit blood tea right away.
No, he doesn't. Let's go out. Let's have a drink.
-No, commander. Is there a problem? -No problem.
Marilyn brought a lot of people home, it turned into a refugee tent.
There was no place to take a step, that's why I say.
[male] four,
-What happened? -five.
You're going to want your money, aren't you, brother?
I'm not asking for money, let's go. oh my god.
My commander.
I swear I've never seen a man like you in my life.
-Lan, it's comfortable. -[counting sound]
I'm comfortable like this.
Look, I'm leaving on one condition, I'm buying the drinks.
Okay okay. We're out of debt.
[male] Seven, eight, nine, ten.
[coughing sound]
I'm a scoundrel bro.
God damn shame on me.
What happened man?
[siren sound]
I love a girl.
Good job.
So it's been almost six months.
I'm secretly saving money so we can get married.
I didn't say anything to anyone. Look, I'm just telling you, even to you.
Offended with my moms, they don't know shit anyway.
All right, son, get married. I get out of the house.
I'll find a place to stay, don't worry.
What's up, commander?
I will pay you my debt
So I'm going to spend the money on the wedding.
Damn goat, aren't you my heir?
Let's say something happened to me, I'm in, whose will it be?
You and Marilyn. Who else do I have?
Commander, that's the problem. Marilyn
I will pay you my debt, you will give the money to him,
he will also cut his tawba estağfurullah, something like that.
Look at what you're thinking.
My son just got his Adam's apple, Marilyn.
OK. Let the pixie wait a bit.
-Isn't it, commander? -[Ahmet] So wait a bit.
-Oh… -Stop, stop, stop, stop.
-Stop. -OK.
-Commander, say whatever you want from me. -Oh.
Look, I swear, I'm really serious,
what do you wish from me right now, what?
-All right, I wish. -Yup.
OK. You're going to whine soon, don't whine okay?
-No, I won't cry. -Lan, that's my only wish.
-Brother, you ask me. -Son, I'm serious, I'm telling you.
-I'm serious too. -OK.
Allah Allah.
Do you want a handkerchief?
[carer] Families will be arriving soon.
Such a master, the wise one among you,
He will choose the good ones and take them home.
They do not choose the one who speaks or the one who weeps.
Let me tell you, those who talk like that, who talk too much, stay here.
The rest of you will live here with us, okay.
[crow voice]
[dropping sound]
- Hussein. -[kids] Hussein.
Quiet, quiet. Hussein, my son, what's wrong with you?
-[boy] He passed out. -No, nothing, okay, nothing.
-Hang on here. Hussein. -[Ahmet] When the orphans die
They would throw it into the cadaver pool. Did you know?
We thought they threw Hussein there too. It turns out
For weeks, I dreamed of Hüseyin swimming on his back like that in the pool.
His eyes are open. Hussein was looking at me.
Commander.
Who is Hussein?
[ringing sound]
[sitter] Get up, wake up, come on.
Come on, it's morning, come on, get up.
Come on, wake up. Look, breakfast is gone, after that I'm hungry, I don't understand.
You will go to bed early, you will wake up early, wake up. Get down.
Ahmet. Get up. get up. Wake up.
Hussein.
Hussein, come on son, wake up. Hussein.
Get up, son.
My son, get up, get up, get up!
Get up, wake up. Are we going to deal with you? Get up.
Wake up, wake up. Wake up son, wake up.
-[drop sound] -[silence]
[Ahmet] Hussein died in his bed one morning.
Moreover, he was beaten for five minutes by the caregiver, who did not realize that he was dead.
[Emotional music]
[Ahmet] The day Hussein died
We traveled between Basmane and Şemikler by train six times.
A journey for Hüseyin's age.
Hüseyin loved trains.
Never got on.
[sigh sound]
Damn, we couldn't even get the kid on the train once.
-Brother, we got drunk, let's get up. -Happy.
A boy appeared before us in the village at the foot of Gabar Mountain.
His name is Zinar.
He was six and a half, seven years old.
He was going to be a director when he grew up. You remember, right?
[seagull voice]
-[Mesut] Brother, let's get up. -You were going to bring me a guy.
Was he from the special forces, who was there that night, what was his name?
-[Mesut] Honor. -Honor.
[Mesut] Honor. I'll bring it, brother. Let's get up.
When will you bring it?
[Mesut] Commander, I'm waiting for news, it will come in a few days.
Mesut, when will you bring it?
[Mesut] Commander, I'll bring it to you, I'm waiting for news.
Come on, we're high. Let's get up.
OK. But you will.
[Mesut] Promise. Come on bro.
Ah!
[Ahmet] Aysin.
Did you have the key?
[breathing sound]
I'm so drunk.
I drank some.
I am very happy though.
I am so happy.
[sigh sound]
[breakfast sounds]
I took your top off last night.
[floor creaking]
[cry of understanding]
There is no aysin.
There is no aysin.
The seat was very uncomfortable.
When Marilyn said that Ahmet brother would not come, I went to bed.
And then you came and kissed my neck.
Then I went back to the living room.
My dear, you have occupied Taksim, it was not enough,
You have come, you are occupying my bedroom.
-Where will I sleep? -I poured you tea.
I dont use. I don't use sugar.
OK.
I went through your books a little bit last night.
-Is that so? -Seeing Schoendoerffer
-I couldn't stand it. -There is little, not much.
No, I have them all. If you want, I can bring it to you.
How, there are quite a few.
But I will take it back. So to read, let me tell you.
It happens, it happens.
[sniffing sound]
And you were delirious last night?
-I'm delirious? -Uh huh.
You talked about your sins. You have big sins.
Get out of the cabin, Father. I have nothing to confess.
When there are sinners around, the costs are high.
[significant] Hmm?
Let me guess, you sure have one dog.
So you feed stray cats or something,
You put water or something like this, containers, maps. You are getting on the ferry.
You throw bagels at the seagulls like that in the back, right?
-Well? -Well
This is how you calm yourself down.
-Sinners, cats, dogs, birds. -Is that so?
I'm not one of them, but let me tell you.
But you are sad.
-Am I so? -Yup.
-Arent you? -I do not know.
Look, I'm trying to be friendly.
I apologize for the sensitivity of my nose.
Unfortunately, I can smell the sadness even from afar.
Koku.
Sweat and alcohol. It's just my scent.
I am disturbing you. I'm sorry, I'll go.
Sorry. OK, I'm sorry.
well
I'm so used to having breakfast with Marilyn, it felt weird.
Sorry.
I love cats, birds, dogs and sinners.
Come on.
Please.
Thank you.
So it's always been…
…them…
… they looked me in the eye. Always.
For that reason.
[Miracles] Was it too obvious?
9.75 square centimeters.
So you have to be blind not to notice.
[Serap] Did it happen when you were a kid?
Was it an accident?
Was it an accident?
I do not know. Maybe.
What happened?
[silence]
[Ahmet] You want to learn.
Yes I want.
-[Ahmet] It's a terrible story, though. -Okay, I'll listen.
Alright.
[nose and sighing sound]
My father drank a lot, I mean.
I don't know why you're drinking.
In other words, the smoking man is not asked why he is drinking.
One day he drank too much again.
Probably in the third bottle or something.
He has a stash at home, but his head is so beautiful,
He doesn't remember where he is.
He asks my mother. I was then one and a half, two years old or something.
I am in my mother's arms.
My father asks, where is the bottle?
My mother is shouting that enough is enough, enough is enough.
That's how they're pushing
At that moment, my father breaks the empty bottle in his hand.
And he starts shaking the broken bottle at my mother.
[sighs]
There comes a moment when...
...my mother will probably get hurt, so I don't know.
I'm in your arms too. Like this
I guess it's a reflex, I don't know.
I don't know if it's self-preservation instinct,
suddenly he pushes me towards the bottle.
[cutting cry]
Later?
[Ahmet] Then, I fell to the ground.
My father kicked me.
I fell under the bed where my parents were making love.
Then my father continued where he left off.
Later?
[Ahmet] Then he tore my mother apart.
A sobriety comes at that moment, I guess I don't know, he suddenly remembers his stash.
He goes, takes the bottle, drinks it too.
Nicely.
It's leaking.
Of course there is a lot of noise by the way,
They complain about neighbors or something, they call the police.
The police are coming.
They take my father infiltrated, take him away, arrest him.
Take my mom to the hospital.
[silence]
They forget me, under the bed.
They forget.
Then a neighbor says,
There was a child, there was a baby in this house. He says where?
They are looking for the house.
They find me under the bed.
Blood flowing from my mother, blood flowing from me.
A pool of blood. I'm in the middle.
Like that. Coagulated blood.
I'm stuck on the ground.
It's like sucking milk from my mother's breast all night long
I drank my mother's blood.
I've never cried though. Never, ever.
[silence]
Then my mother dies in the hospital.
They are throwing my father in prison.
Less than a week later, they get involved in something, and they strangle it there.
I am in the hospital. A relative is coming to the hospital.
I don't know who that relative is, so I still don't know.
Someone is coming. He sees me, so they show him.
My situation is clear.
No one is that relative anymore...
…shakes his head like that.
Then there is the orphanage.
It's like a novel.
[Ahmet confirms]
[Ahmet] There are 50 of them behind me. Kemalettin Tugcu.
Same story.
[crying breath]
Let me check on a Marilyn, has she come?
[exhales]
But get love, bro.
What did you do to Serap sister, the woman is crying loudly downstairs.
It is dust. He took the books. Maybe he has an allergy or something.
[train whistle]
[door knocks]
[bird chirping]
[Kurdish] My son!
Zinar!
[door creaks]
[Emotional music]
[Kurdish, grandfather] What will happen to Zinar?
[Kurdish, mother] Father…
Zinar is much smaller…
Can't stand the road.
I can't have it there...
Besides, if anything happens to us, at least Zinar will live.
May our roots continue.
-[Kurdish, grandfather] My daughter… -[Kurdish, mother] Dad, what should I do?
Do I have any other chance?
Do I want to leave him?
Much smaller.
Let him grow up a little, I'll take him with us.
[Kurdish, still] Sister? Elder sister?
Shall we go to the market with Zinar? I'll buy him candy, and we'll travel.
My father will come too.
-[Kurdish] Zinar? -[Kurdish] Mom! Mother!
-[Kurdish] Do you want candy? -[Kurdish] Yes! Yeah!
[Kurdish] Come on, don't be late. Okay?
-Do not misbehave there! -[Kurdish Zinar] Dede, grandfather!
Come on, we're going to buy candy!
Adar, I'm going to buy candy. My aunt will buy me candy.
Look, my mom gave me money.
-[bird chirping] -[sad music]
I will not give it to you!
[women cry]
[sad music]
[Kurdish] Hala, come. Sugar!
[Kurdish] Get it! Get!
[Kurdish] Dede, look sugar!
[Kurdish] Eat, eat.
-[Kurdish] Take it still. -[Kurdish] You eat too.
[Kurdish] Grandpa, you eat too.
[Kurdish] My son…
[sad music]
[Kurdish] Mom! Mother! Mother! Mother!
Anne!
Mom, where are you?
[sad music]
Granny, where is my mom?
[Kurdish] Zinar, mother gone!
[Kurdish] Son, come.
[Kurdish] Dede, where is my mother?
[sad music]
[breathing sounds]
[sad music]
[Screams in Kurdish] Mom!
[door closes]
-[street noise] -[smoking noise]
[door knocks]
Hello. I brought the books, the Schoendoerffers. Are you available?
Where are the others?
They broke up half an hour ago, and maybe Marilyn is at home.
[whistle]
-Would you like? - At this hour?
[drinking voice]
Fine, I'll drink. Have lots of ice, but lots of it.
It's possible.
[street hum]
[Ahmet] How old do you think I am?
[sound of pouring ice into glass]
-40. -[Ahmet] Three.
[Mirage] So?
So I'm going downhill towards my 50.
My belly started to come out. Whiteness in the hair and beard.
I'm not a very healthy person, you haven't seen my scar yet huh. It's a disaster.
I'm not really the type to look at like that.
There's a lot of hot boys out there, why are you here, why me?
Is there an attraction in me that I don't see, that I don't notice?
Don't be sad, what will happen?
According to Marilyn, Aysin was also a very beautiful, attractive woman.
What does he find in you?
Ours is just honest shopping, that's all.
-I guess he adores his sentences. -[sarcastic] Huh huh.
-How many sentences did you write to him? 30, 40? -[outside protest voice]
No, so if that's the secret, I've read both notebooks.
[silence]
[the sound of putting the book on the table]
[Mirage] Coincidence.
When I slept in your bed last night, it was lying open like that under my hand,
It's like read me.
-After the first sentence-- -This is how other people live their lives.
You know what's wrong with someone who is cheekily curious?
Vital.
[voices of protest from the street]
You're right.
But I was impressed by your writing.
It really betrays all your intelligence. No, really.
I think you should finish the novel, you've already come to the end.
I don't like stories that have no ending.
Is that so?
I still haven't softened, so the matter is not closed.
Don't be so shy. Have you ever been in love?
-No. -How?
So, I don't know, I had an excuse.
What excuse?
Well… I thought no one would accept me. I was cautious.
Here is my greatest love, Sevgi, mother, you already know.
No, I do not know.
I'll tell you, but I have one condition. -Yup.
-You will not cry. -I try.
Guys, look here. I will introduce you to someone.
Love mom. You call her Love mom, okay.
Sevgi Hanım will come here to visit you three days a week from now on.
When he comes, he will bring sweets, gifts, books and so on.
Here we go, let's start with you, okay. The phaeton fell for you.
Oh, honey it's me. This is yours.
I am very pleased to meet you.
We'll see each other often now, I'm here three days a week.
Look, that's down to you too.
What a beautiful shirt you have.
This is your book.
[Emotional music]
[Ahmet] Love mom, my first disappointment.
[children's voices]
Ian Ahmet, come, my son, you too.
[children's voices]
-[boy 1] Why isn't he talking? -[boy 2] He's mute, he never speaks.
[boy 3] He's pretending, is he dumb?
Do not come if you do not want to!
People used to need love anyway.
He wanted to love someone, to count, to serve him.
[Ahmet] Your love mother had a smooth neck,
white, clean.
I've never touched one that smells good.
[Emotional music]
My hand bowed to the ban for minutes.
Finally, I couldn't help but stick my finger out.
I was touching it.
Love mother, can I be your child?
[Ahmet] After being abandoned…
[children] He spoke.
[Ahmet] … that's when I spoke for the first time.
-Love mom! Be my mother! -Ahmet! Ahmet!
[Ahmet] He must have thought for a moment that I had a child.
-[Love] Ahmet. Ahmet. -[Ahmet] His name was Sevgi.
But he never liked me. -Ahmet.
[Ahmet] My arms were like an umbilical cord, it wouldn't break.
But I couldn't stand the pain when his hand hit my shoulder.
I let go of the leg that gave birth to me.
[sad music]
[ringing sound]
[Ahmet] Love mother willingly
He had thrown it out of his womb and dropped it.
I haven't cried since that day, you know?
Never, for years.
[street hum]
Candy, chocolate.
I've always hated them all.
Sugar… it meant betrayal to me.
[whistles from the street]
I left the sugar there.
What happened, did you have a family?
Were you adopted?
I adopted.
How?
I adopted my grandfather. How did you adopt your grandfather?
[Emotional music]
[Ahmet] When we entered the park the night we ran away from the dormitory
We heard someone crying.
-One grandfather alone. -[groaning sound]
The paper is gone, they're going to throw me in the pool. He keeps saying the same thing.
[Ahmet] The paper is gone, they're going to throw me in the pool.
The paper is gone, they're going to throw me in the pool. -[Ahmet] Later
We realized that he lost a piece of paper he always carried in his pocket.
Grandpa, why are you crying?
[Ahmet] We are scattered, we are searching like crazy. We finally found the paper.
We couldn't stand it because we were wondering what the pool or something had to do with it.
we read it.
[Ahmet] This document was given by the Tarlabaşı District Headman.
Death of Hasan Topçu, the owner of this paper
In case of burial, the burial will be done by our headman.
Please call 234 23 24.
-[sad music] -[sigh sound]
-Here, grandpa, put it in your pocket. -Thanks, son, thank you.
[Ahmet] That's right, after grandfather Hasan died because he was an orphan.
He thought he would be sent to the cadaver pool,
because then after the orphans died in Izmir
They were putting the corpses in the cadaver pool.
The biggest fear of this is not being buried.
That's what he thought, he thought he was going to swim in a pool forever.
Shopkeepers have heard this too. Will they stop, of course,
They always made fun of it, they frightened it.
So we adopted him so that grandfather Hasan would not be lonely.
The three of us that day, the whole dorm the next day.
Then we informed all the neighborhood shopkeepers and notables.
Hasan Topçu is our child. Just so that we can join in with him.
After that, no one touched our child.
Fatherhood was hard, but we were happy.
Thus, we all had a 70-year-old child.
Our child's only fear was not to be buried.
This is my biggest fear, too.
The only legacy my grandfather left me is this fear, not being buried.
Swimming forever in a cadaver pool.
I can't imagine a greater punishment than that.
[sad music]
[prayer sounds]
[Ahmet] We buried our grandfather a year later.
I personally checked his coffin.
It was definitely him inside the shroud.
We kept the promise we made years ago,
We did not give our child to the cadaver pool.
We were 30 people at the funeral. Don't underestimate 30 people.
There were only seven people at Mozart's funeral.
Then we built a cemetery for him.
Here, the only child of a hundred children,
Hasan Topçu, the only grandfather of a hundred children, lies.
[sad music]
It was a good story.
[glass tone]
[street noise]
I'll stop by ours from here. Joyful?
I will work at home.
Write a book first on your to-do list before you die.
-OK. We'll communicate then. -OK.
Or
You can stop by me tomorrow if you want.
Tomorrow is okay.
-It's possible. -I have the address, okay.
-OK. Well, we communicate. -OK.
[Serap] Bye bye.
[street noise]
[street hum]
[ringing sound]
[television] Such was the case at night and in the first light of day.
Events in Gezi Park and Taksim continued in the morning and throughout the day.
Intervention of the protesters followed one after another.
To those trying to enter Gezi Park--
[television] The complete success of our armed forces
with a success that our nation is proud of
Operation Dawn in Northern Iraq
We offer an evaluation. Later…
[Kurdish] Zinar, you have a mouth, you have a tongue.
You are eating. Why don't you talk?
Hadi, nene de.
[helicopter voice]
[television] 4700 terrorists in the operation area
was considered to be in the area.
neutralized during this cross-border operation.
The number of terrorists was around 2000.
The separatist terrorist organization in the Hammer operation
The evil nests in Northern Iraq were cleared one by one.
Our troops who completed their mission in the Hammer operation
He returned to our Turkey and became the evil home of the separatist terrorist organization in Northern Iraq--
[Kurdish] Why are you so late?
Let's come. I've been very good.
Those who talk a lot and cry a lot do not want their mothers.
of my anne?
But look, I've always been silent. I'm very good.
Adar, I bought sugar. I'll give it to you too.
Mother? Adar?
Anne!
Where are you? Mother!
[Kurdish] Lan Zinar, what is that?
[Kurdish] He's wearing glasses. Look at the force!
[Kurdish] Are we going to be afraid of you because you put on the glasses?
[Kurdish] No, he's crying, he's crying. He is ashamed.
[Kurdish] Motherless, fatherless.
[hindi sesi]
[Kurdish] Motherless, fatherless!
[breathing sounds]
[Kurdish] Zinar, come on.
Your father's friend came from Beirut. Greetings from your mother.
-[Kurdish] Zinar. How are you, coach? -[kissing sound]
Your father sent this.
Your father said, "Kiss Zinar for me." said.
You are always on his mind.
He's always thinking of you.
"Let her know that I haven't forgotten her." said.
Behind!
He said so.
"Let my Zinar read, become a great man." said.
He particularly emphasized this.
"Let Zinar recite and never forget." said. Okay?
Look. Your father sent you this notebook.
[Kurdish] Anytime
He said to write the books he read here, okay?
He sent you these books.
[Kurdish children] Throw it at me! Come on son!
I'm here, throw it at me! Drop it son, I'm here.
Come on. Boy, I'm here, horse!
Come on come on!
[Kurdish] Damn crazy! You're holding the book upside down.
[children laugh]
[Kurdish] This is crazy!
-[Kurdish] Hey crazy, throw the ball! -[Kurdish] Throw the ball, crazy!
-[Kurdish] Come here! -[Kurdish] Catch him!
[Kurdish] This is the news for me. Don't worry too much.
Take care of yourselves. I kiss the hands of all elders.
[in Kurdish] We too, Cemil. We kiss you too.
[Kurdish] Mahmut, how is the boy? I hope it is good.
[Kurdish] It's fine, Cemil is fine, thank you.
[Kurdish] Greetings again.
Now I'm going to talk to my son alone.
[Kurdish] Okay… Sure. He's right… Look, your son is here…
[in Kurdish] Zinar, my son. Please don't cry.
You are not the only child left without a parent.
If I can come, I will come to the feast this year.
Don't upset your grandparents.
Read, be a man.
You will look after them.
[tape turns off]
[Kurdish] Come on, get out.
We will listen to the rest with Zinar…
[Kurdish] He is right, he is right. Let's go guys.
[Kurdish] Entrusted to Allah. entrust it to Allah.
[floor creaking]
[stove fire sound]
-[knock on door] -[whistle]
[door knocks]
-Happy. -Commander.
-Come. -I thought I'd check it out.
I'm out of my mind after last night. -You did well. It's late.
OK.
[whistles]
I didn't take my pills today, so the supplements came, sorry.
No no.
-How are you? -By God, commander, what would it be?
-[protest sounds] -[throat clearing sound]
-What's up? -No.
I'm going to ask you something, commander.
You know, you're my closest
You already know the situation with my parents.
Well, I told you last night.
-Okay, that's the marriage thing. -That's the point.
To get married, you have to want the girl.
That falls on you too.
-Oh really. -I swear.
-When will this work? - Whenever you're available,
I am whole.
Okay, okay, we'll handle it.
-I have only one condition. -Your order.
[cigarette extinguishing sound]
If something happens to me, like if I die or something,
I know you will bury me. I have no one else.
When you go down to the grave, look at me.
When you go down to the grave, open the shroud, okay? Look,
Make sure it's me in the shroud, okay?
Then put the wood, throw the soil on me, bury me okay but
make sure it's me in the grave, okay, okay.
Understood? What?
Commander, tell me...
… do you have a disease?
Look, Osman said, you're dizzy or something.
You've been down once or twice.
I'm drinking, I'm getting drunk. Gee. I'm falling, what should I do?
-Everyone falls. -Commander.
[phone rings]
[floor creaking]
-Hello. -Hello. Ahmet, this is Doctor Engin.
-Hi there. -You can come to get your reports.
-Now? -Yeah yeah.
-[explosion sounds] -[protest sounds]
♪ Take off your helmet, drop your baton, let's see who the boy is! ♪
♪ Come on! ♪
-[whistle] -[gunfire]
-[combat sounds] -[gunfire]
[street hum]
[sigh sound]
[keyboard voice]
[train sound]
[door knocks]
[crying and sniffling sound]
[Kurdish] How are you my daughter? My son!
[Kurdish] Zinar.
My son!
[crying sound]
[Kurdish] Condolences.
[condolences]
[Kurdish] We both lost.
If I had my current mind
I would never leave you behind.
I'm sorry, son.
your father and me
We thought of you all the time.
We've always tried to hear from you.
But we couldn't come.
You know, your father…
I don't even know where his body is.
You were always here.
God has always given us grief and pain here. It hurt.
We are everyone, everywhere,
We continued to love from far away.
-Me and your brothers exist, but… -I have no one.
I do not understand what you're saying.
[sad music]
[Kurdish] My son…
[door closes]
-[sad music] -[crying sound]
[sounds of protest and applause]
[sad music]
[gas grenade sound]
[ringing sound]
[helicopter voice]
[traffic noise]
That Gabar is in the village, I mean, we went or there was a mess.
Do you remember a boy there?
How many times did I tell you, commander?
Tell me again.
What is it, just tell me.
-We went to the reported village, commander. -Yup.
It was getting dark.
Then we were shot at from the house that had its back against the rock.
Then you sent us to the lower part of the village to gag. OK.
Then you went in. 10 minutes later, those dogs fired rockets.
You were unconscious on the floor when we arrived, commander.
Forty minutes later, the helicopter came and we carried you to the helicopter.
This much. We took him to the hospital, it's over.
Okay, I remember there was a kid there. So like this…
-Didn't you? -I swear I didn't see it, brother.
All of our team was already stuffing.
I say there were special forces with you, believe me now.
Look, I'm out of the house, okay?
Yup.
I walked a little. There was a rock there, I sat down on the rock.
It must have been about 10 minutes before the RPG hit.
in ten minutes
A boy came towards me, he wanted to say something. even you
I remember when you intervened. -No, commander, I swear it's not like that.
Until the news that Ahmet Ensign had been shot
we haven't even moved from our place.
Then we came, helicopter,
I am one of those who carried you to the helicopter on a stretcher.
That's why you're mixing it up.
Okay, so you've never seen a kid in such a mess.
-No, commander. -None.
[traffic noise]
I will ask you something
What, something, what was his name?
-Honor. -You were going to find him, what happened?
Okay, I sent the news, one of our team is looking.
Let me have news, I'll tell you anyway.
I told you, I told you.
Okay okay.
-Happy. -Tell me, brother.
Talk to that girl of yours, okay?
Make sure that date, the date of request.
-You got it. -Okay okay.
[door opens]
-[Marilyn] Brother, it's me. -Come.
-[horn sound] -[floor creaking]
Well, my house is full again. Can I sleep here in the living room?
It's possible. Get yourself a glass.
-[popping sound] -[clicking keys]
Thanks.
What are we going to do, Marilyn?
Neyi abi?
I don't know, it's everything.
Life, novel.
[sigh sound]
I guess I got some trouble. I'm stuck.
Oh brother, look, you're already fainting, don't worry about everything.
I swear something will happen instead of something.
I was stuck at the time too.
It doesn't happen without getting stuck.
What have I experienced!
That's it when my dad broke my nose.
Didn't they throw it out on the street, didn't they try to kill it?
When did you forget your Kenan dog?
You saved me from his hand.
Oh brother, don't make me tell you, you already know all of them.
I know.
Your nose didn't come out of shit either.
It really is.
But now I think like this.
I transform from a caterpillar to a butterfly.
-Butterfly. -Yup.
My little butterfly.
Yes bro, really.
When I find myself, I forget the past, man.
Only the best memories remain in my mind.
That's because I don't want to remember the bad ones.
It is deleted without my knowing it.
Is it good or bad? I do not know.
Maybe if I forget…
...but, but it would be harder, wouldn't it, brother?
And meeting with you made everything much easier.
Come on.
When a person has a place to take shelter when he is afraid,
safe.
It's easier to forget, I guess.
-Oh brother, let's have a high drink then. -Let's drink.
Let's drink. But to the future.
Ok to the future.
Look, you're making me talk, you're going to make me cry again, huh.
Oh, don't cry. Relax relax.
Look, what will I say,
Put one of your songs and let's dance.
What? Really?
Yes, yes, let's dance. Let's dance tonight, what will happen, let's forget everything.
-Are you serious? -Yup. Come on girl. Let's.
[Replicas playing "I Am Today, I Am Not Tomorrow"]
♪ I'm here today, gone tomorrow ♪
♪ There may be those who do not know ♪
♪ What I have is not mine ♪
♪ I'm here today, gone tomorrow ♪
♪ There may be those who do not know ♪
♪ What I have is not mine ♪
♪ My place is clear, my home is clear ♪
♪ Those who want can see it ♪
♪ He can kiss you one last time ♪
♪ Bored, sleeping ♪
♪ This is how the world goes ♪
♪ If you're leaving, tell me now ♪
♪ I don't know in the whole universe ♪
♪ Day ends, night begins ♪
♪ With happiness and death ♪
[doctor] You went to a friend from our circle.
I had to have surgery in fifteen days.
So he said earlier if you want.
[doctor] So what did you say?
What I told you. First the book, then the surgery.
[doctor] What is this stubbornness for God's sake? Be, get rid of that job.
Or do you not want to finish the novel?
Why wouldn't I want to finish it? The most important job in my life.
Why isn't the last episode finished anyway?
I can't decide, so it never ends. Something like that.
Just me.
I guess we missed a day when we were away.
-I have an offer for you. -An offer?
What is that, or do you want my marriage partner?
Direct hit. Will you come this way?
We will come, we will come. We will meet with our people, we will go to Taksim.
-I need 10 minutes of your time. -10 minutes?
I'm just not convinced in such a short time, let me tell you.
I try my luck.
Okay, see you.
[siren sound]
Hello.
Gel.
[calm of relief]
There is also tea if you want, I brewed it.
I guess you want something pretty serious.
Born?
Mirage.
Will you be my wife?
[laughter]
[coughing sound]
Halal, halal. Halal.
for a day. for a day.
How much do you pay?
-Money. -Yup.
In muta marriage, money is given to the woman.
A friend of mine wants to get married, okay?
I don't want a girl for him,
I cannot go alone.
I want you to come too. So game.
-You're going to play my wife, okay? -Understood.
-I have a condition. -What?
No drinking that day.
Why is that?
Are you going to go asking for a girl like this?
Wanting a girl is serious business.
-One day. -One day.
Prohibition.
We agreed.
And if you pour tea.
-Without sugar. -Without sugar.
[bell rings]
[street hum]
Say a welcome. Order inside.
Ahmet.
-Sorry. -[Sarap] Do you hear?
[gags] I'm out of breath, sorry.
Good. Then you take a breath, I'll go inside, okay?
Of course.
[door closes]
If I could, I would imprison you as punishment for being so beautiful.
This is inside the dress you're wearing, for life.
You've been pretty good too. But I prefer messy.
-Can I offer you something? -Did you drink?
I never even drank water. I'm not the type to cheat on his wife like that.
Beautiful. Then I don't think anything will come out of a small glass.
-It's possible. -Let it be odorless.
-Vodka. -It's possible.
- Lots of ice. -Of course.
Now, you know how to ask for a girl?
What?
By the order of Allah, by the word of the prophet, your daughter...
-Nalan. -Your daughter Nalan,
We want our son Mesut.
But don't forget to say Allah's order, the prophet's word.
Okay. These days, they are not very interested in me, but I will talk about them.
Yes, one last thing.
[ring sound]
Ahmet Bey, your left hand please.
Come on.
[street noises]
Thus began our first marriage.
Engin brother, how are you?
I have decided, I will have the surgery.
Huh.
I guess I'll write in two days.
The book is ending, I guess it will be finished by the surgery.
OK, thank you, thank you.
Yes, what are we doing?
I didn't call a taxi to the door, because I want to walk a little.
Fine, let's walk.
'Cause to my nosy neighbors in the neighborhood
I want to give some air.
-What's the weather? -That's it.
I don't know what kind of man you are.
-Watch out. -You'll see if I break my leg.
[Ahmet] Nothing will happen. Look how good I'm showing off.
-Hassan brother, how are you? -Brother, respect.
[Serap] Not all marriages go like this, but let me tell you.
[Ahmet laughs]
Where did you stay?
-Oh. Commander, thank you very much. -Comfortable soldier, comfortable.
What is this? Hello.
-Welcome, aunt. -Hello, Mesut. I'm serap.
I am satisfied, very pleased.
-[Sarap] Hello. -I was so scared that you wouldn't come.
We arrived on time.
Come on, I got it from a friend, we're going in this car.
-[Ahmet] With that. -Let's. Let's run.
-Attention. One two. -God. Come come.
-Three four. Frost. -[screams]
One, two, come back.
One two. Bravo.
[applause and whistles]
What are you thinking? Eyes narrowed again.
I'm doing plan.
What plan?
Hand holding plan.
[Mesut] I swear you're here, commander. Aunt you too.
What would I do without you, by myself? Now look
We're leaving with our hands full.
Let's get the girl, come on.
Hop. Watch out.
My commander. What would I do without you?
-Okay Mesut, relax. -Happy.
-[Ahmet] Come on. -[door sound]
-Yenge, God bless you too. -What do you mean, what do you mean?
Let's.
[session motor]
[unlock sound]
[door squeak]
What happened?
[door squeak]
[embarrassed] Yeah?
Ahmet, I really am heavier than I look.
Honey, I won't do it every night, just once.
You were pretty strong, huh.
On May 19, people used to build towers and put me at the bottom.
You can drink vodka, the ban is over.
It can wait.
Hmm.
Alright.
Then tell me
If you were going to write me a love letter, how would you start?
[Emotional music]
[Speaks in Swahili] Nakupenda malaika.
That's how I would start.
What does malaika mean?
It means my angel.
I love you?
I love you.
[Emotional music]
Have you ever been to Tanzania?
I just listened to İlyan Makabi.
Come on, say something to this halo.
[speaks in Swahili]
Dream little bird.
Let's see together.
[mysterious music]
[cigarette noise]
[wind howling]
[wind howling]
[mysterious music]
[wind howling]
[explosion and gunshot]
Commander, are you okay?
[breathing sounds]
[mysterious music]
[screaming sound]
[Gun sound]
[step sounds]
İyi misin, iyi misin?
[çığlık sesi]
Komutan iyi misin?
[sessizlik]
[nefes sesleri]
[gerilim müziği]
[silah sesi]
-[Serap] Ahmet. -[Marilyn] Ahmet abi.
-Ahmet. -Ahmet abi.
Ahmet.
[Serap] Ahmet, duyuyor musun?
[iç çekme sesi]
-Kendine geliyor sanırım. -Ahmet.
Hoş geldiniz, beyefendi.
Hoş bulduk.
Bir yere mi gitmiştim?
Abi, öteki dünyaya kadar uğradın abi sen. Vallahi öldüreceksin sen bizi.
-Ne oluyor ya? -"Ne oluyor ya?" mı?
Uyuyorsun komadaymış gibi, 24 saat oldu neredeyse.
Genç kadınla evli olmak yorucu bir şey.
Ciddiyiz.
Evet. Öğrendik her şeyi. Marilyn doktorunla da konuştu.
Yalnız kalmaman gerektiğini, şansın ne kadar falan hepsini öğrendi.
Ameliyat olmayı da kabul etmişsin.
Sen bir şey hazırlasana ya, karnı acıkmıştır.
İyiyim ben.
Haberin olsun,
ne kadar süre gerekiyorsa o kadar buradayım, buraya taşındım.
Özetle, sıkı biçimde kontrol altındasın. Tamam mı?
-Huh. Is there any use in my appeal? -No.
Why did not you tell?
Would you marry me if I told you?
I'm going to shower.
You won't be alone until the surgery. Either me or Marilyn.
One of us will be with you. No liquor either.
If you want, go a month later, fill the tub with vodka and wash.
Not a drop before that, okay?
You will not let me die.
Of course I won't.
Of course.
[kissing sound]
[Serap] You scared us a lot.
Come here.
[phone rings]
Sir, Mesut.
[cutlery sound]
Okay, grab it tomorrow and bring it with me, okay? Understood?
-[whistle] -[cutlery sound]
[crowd] Keep fighting!
This is the beginning continue to struggle!
[Honor] Look, they will leave these to us,
No Gezi or anything else.
Anyway.
Mesut said that he was wondering how angry he was injured.
You don't remember, right?
[Ahmet] No 10 minutes before the explosion.
[Honour] Got it.
Now when the Tugrul commander gave us the signal, we
We started walking towards home.
Two children who appeared to be registered in the household were also on the mountain.
Intelligence was given.
It was exactly what we expected, we got the second shot there.
The bastards ambushed the house.
Then Tugrul commander was shot in the shoulder.
We had to pull him into the trench.
And you were left alone by the door.
-[gunshots] -[dog barking]
-[exploding sound] -[dog barking]
-[breathing sound] -[dog barking]
Okay okay.
-Later? -Later,
two or three of us went behind the house to prevent them from escaping.
You then swept into the house, scanning the war like this.
Look, I said to the upper infantryman, but I said he was a young man.
I'm sorry, that's what I thought when you came in.
[helicopter voice]
-[gunshots] -[wind howling]
-[breathing sound] -[squeaking sound]
[airplane sound]
[squeaking sound]
-[wind howling] -[breathing sound]
[squeaking sound]
[door opening sound]
[Gun sound]
[breathing sound]
[groaning sound]
-[tension music] -[ringing sound]
Commander, are you okay?
[breathing sounds]
[Honor, foggy] Then, the sounds of fire started coming from behind the house.
Then the house suddenly caught fire. When you said we were just coming to look at you...
[ringing sound]
[wind howling]
[crying sound]
[Kurdish] Zinar…
His name was Zinar.
He would go to school…
Zinar.
Zinar. Zinar.
[Gun sound]
[Honour] Then it's already RPG…
[loud ringing sound]
Hop, hop, hop.
-Commander. -Commander.
-Commander. -Commander.
Brother, bring some water from there,
-water, water. -Commander, wake up.
Commander, wake up.
[sad music]
[Ahmet inner voice] The heaviest punishment that a person can inflict on himself
to surrender to your fears,
time to surrender.
The paper is gone grandpa, the paper is gone.
Let them throw me in the pool.
If God chose to write my end in shallow waters
This time I will not question your decision.
[sad music]
-Good morning. -Good morning.
Huh, tell me. You will say something.
Good to know you.
Good thing I slept on this bed that night.
[breathing sounds]
Everything will be beautiful, okay?
Yup.
Are you prepared? Isn't it early?
[Ahmet] No. I have a job with Mesut, but he will leave anyway.
But we were going to go together, no way.
OK, I'm not running. I'm there at one o'clock.
Well okay. But we'll see you at the hospital.
OK.
[kissing sound]
-See you later. -[Mirage] Okay.
[kissing sound]
[table setting sounds]
Help.
By God, if I didn't know about you, I would say you are watering me.
I'm in love with Serap, maybe if it wasn't for her.
By God, if I were you, I would marry him immediately.
What do you know, maybe we'll get married.
Really? Tell the truth.
OK. OK, I won't tell anyone.
I will never talk to Serap sister either.
Come on, sit down, have your breakfast.
-I'm going to Mesut. I will there. -OK.
[Marilyn] Good evening, see you at the hospital then.
Take care of yourself.
Sen de.
[sad music]
[street noise]
[street noise]
-What's up, goat? -Commander, come.
Don't sit or rock.
Come on, let's have a cup of tea or soup.
But you can't eat or drink anything now, first of all.
First of all, it is forbidden to eat. Give that bag to Serap, okay?
I'm busy now. I forget, I forget.
We'll go together anyway, commander. I'm leaving you.
No, I will go to Engin Bey first.
There's a report on it too, I'll take it. Well, I'll take him to the hospital.
OK, very nice. Let's go together, I'll drop you off from there.
It's an extension.
Be at the hospital at one o'clock, wait for me so calmly, okay.
It is what you say, so is the commander.
-Come on, I ran away. -But so
phone when you're done...
What is that picture?
They will cut me off, not you.
-Come hug, come. -Commander.
Get tighter.
-My commander. -[with force] Relaxed soldier, relaxed.
-I'll see you there. -Let's.
[sad music]
[Absorb] God God.
[ambient sound]
-[Mesut] Aunt. -Happy.
I can't reach Ahmet.
Commander asked me to give this to you.
this one?
He said something though.
[sad music]
[sigh sound]
What happened?
[sad music]
What happened?
You check with your doctor, I'm going home.
[Ahmet inner voice] I was actually going to burn it but
I thought you might want to read more.
I know you don't like stories that have no ending.
Being loved will not heal the wound in my soul.
But not as an orphan thanks to you,
I will die knowing that someone can love me.
-[sad music] -[breathing sounds]
[key tone]
[screams] Ahmet!
[crying out] Ahmet! Ahmet!
No. Ahmet.
[crying sound]
[sad music]
[Ahmet inner voice] My only consolation is being able to finish Zinar's novel.
a half-life
I don't know if it is possible to complete it with these words, but
at least i tried.
The howling of the wind, the hasty steps of a dog.
Silent picture of a broken lightning bolt in the north.
A sleepy vole of a vole…
… his skeptical sniff of the environment.
The rustling of icy snow…
…and a little further thin…
…an angry child's voice.
My father will kill you.
[sad music]
-[wind howling] -[sad music]
-[squeaking sound] -[water sound]
[generic soundtrack]
My name is Zinar. My father is a neutralized terrorist.
-[wind howling] -[breathing sound]
My father will kill you.
My father will kill you!
Bam!
-[banging sound] -[ringing sound]
[crowd] Taksim everywhere, resistance everywhere!
Everywhere Taksim everywhere resistance!
Everywhere Taksim everywhere resistance!
Everywhere is Taksim…
-[sad music] -[protest sounds]
-[ringing sound] -[protest sounds]
Ahmed brother.
[protest voices]
Brother Ahmet, are you okay? Are you okay, Ahmet brother?
-[breathing sound] -[gas grenade thrown]
[crowd] By resisting, we will win!
Direne direne kazanacağız! Direne direne…
[Ahmet inner voice] The road to death
It is nothing but the renunciation of consciousness from the body.
One… to take a step.
[sad music]
I have one last thing left to do.
To walk towards that sad voice calling me.
To face Zinar.
Isn't that why I'm not writing anyway?
İnsan bu dünyadaki acıyı nereye koymalı?
Acılarımızı saklayacak bir yer var mı?
Yeterince kuyu, ev, dükkân. Sanırım yok.
İyi misin? İyi misin?
[kalabalık] Direne direne kazanacağız!
Direne direne kazanacağız!
Direne direne kazanacağız!
-[helikopter sesi] -[telsiz sesi]
Abi, bak, korkutuyorsun beni.
Gazdan oluyor gazdan.
Abi, ben senin doktorunu arıyorum ya.
-[hüzünlü müzik] -[arbede sesleri]
Alo. Alo, doktor bey, benim Marilyn.
Hani Ahmet abinin arkadaşı olan.
Ahmet abi yine bayıldı. Sokakta buldum, iyi değil gibi.
-Getireyim mi size müsaitseniz? -[öksürük sesi]
Tamam, tamam, doktor bey, tamam biz geliyoruz.
Tamam, tamam, tamam. Bir yarım saate oradayız. Tamam, doktor bey.
Tamam.
[patlama sesi]
-İyi misin? -Gazdan oldu.
Abi, ne gazdanı ya? Bu kaçıncı?
Ha?
-[öksürük sesi] -[siren sesi]
Tümör çok ölümcül bir yerde.
Ve sanki biraz hızlı büyüyor.
Bu yüzden bir an önce ameliyat olman lazım.
[alaycı nida]
Ya teacher, the tumor is in my head. You worry.
I am aware of the seriousness of the situation.
let this novel be over
I'll lie down on the cold table right away, don't worry, promise.
You were saying that I will go to a Gabar, I will finish the novel there, what happened?
I'm thinking of going over the weekend, let's see.
There are some gaps, if I can remember them,
If I can fill in the blanks, maybe I'll finish the novel huh.
Will I be able to remember what I forgot after the surgery?
Maybe. But of course, the operation must be successful first.
What if it's not successful?
[breathing sound]
That the surgery is a risky surgery
We talked to you, Ahmet. That's how I remember it.
Risk, risk of death.
All your surgeries.
[horn sound]
How much time do I have?
-[horn sound] -[breathing sound]
[doctor] One, two months. Maybe a little more.
Good. Good.
[Ahmet inner voice] O product, blood in my brain,
that little pea of pus and cartilage.
It now has a name.
The face of fate.
My death will not be a gray-haired death.
This is everything.
[street hum]
[car audio]
-[Kurdish] My son? -[woman] Cemil?
- [female] Cemil. -[male] Cemil.
[Kurdish] Ah, who hit my son?
[Kurdish] Zinar come in!
[breathing sounds]
[Kurdish] Slow, slow.
[pain sounds]
[coughing sound]
[shuffle sound]
[street noise]
[male] Stop. Go right, go right, go right, go right.
[police radio]
-[radio conversations] -[unintelligible conversations]
[Kurdish] Let's meet in the evening.
[Kurdish] Azad arrived yesterday. He said to be at the border at night in five days.
There will be others who will go there like us.
[breathing sound]
We will meet them there and cross the border together. too much for us--
-Too much near us-- -[knocking on the door]
[gunshot sound]
[breathing sounds]
[Kurdish] I will come to pick you up at midnight in five days. Don't weigh your load.
[coughing sound]
[sad music]
[wind howling]
[door knocks]
[Marilyn] Ahmet brother.
[door knocks]
-I came. -[Marilyn] Ahmet brother.
[whistle sounds from outside]
[door knocks]
[Marilyn] Ahmet brother.
[Ahmet] Where is your key?
Ahmed brother.
Friends with Serap sister, Cengiz sister.
Can they rest with you for a few hours?
No, there are 12 people downstairs with me, but we haven't slept for 24 hours.
[breathing sounds]
I am so hungry.
[Marilyn] Love it bro, you didn't eat anything.
What happened, didn't you like it?
I ate out all the time these days.
No more cooking for you, but huh. It's a shame these will go to waste.
Well, Cengiz, can you clear the table? Serap sister, can you help too?
[Mirage] Okay.
Look here. Look, this girl doesn't look at you at all.
[Marilyn] She's not feeding or tidying up.
But wait, I'll have a talk with him, I'll pull him aside.
What was her name, Was it Ayşin or Asil?
Oh, what a boxing name. I will talk to him.
I'm working, Marilyn.
Of course, you can work if you get the opportunity from your wife. I'm not saying anything.
[voices of protest from the street]
Look at me. How are you, are you okay?
Staple.
[Marilyn] Do you eat too, bro?
No, I'm having my breakfast.
My brother writes.
He writes stories, he writes screenplays, he also writes poetry.
Serap sister is also a teacher at the university.
Cengiz is also a thesis student. We are together every day in Gezi.
-So you write. Let's say I'm eager to write.
He has completed three notebooks so far.
Will finish soon.
Doesn't he look like Namık Kemal anyway?
By God, I think he looks like brother Marx.
After all, this beard business is often an effort to change oneself, isn't it?
[siren sounds]
Look, there's a scar over there, see?
Look like this.
It goes from under my beard to my lips like this.
Did you see?
With such seasonal changes,
Here's the temperature, the color changes when the light changes.
It's pink, it's purple.
9.75 square centimeters. Face measurement.
I know, because they measured it three times in the military delegation.
That's why I didn't become a commando.
So if it was 0.26 square centimeters larger, or
if the doctor measuring it understood a little more geometry or
look, if he took these things into account, these channels are here,
there are such slits, if he had taken them into account
I would not do military service. But it didn't.
-Did you do your military service? -No.
I was a second lieutenant. So I was an officer.
Then you wake up every morning, in front of the mirror.
you are shaving.
Then the military service ended,
So I thought my wound was standing in too much sunlight,
I grew a beard like this, did some hair, etc. So it is.
My wound went underground.
I never thought of Namık Kemal or Karl Marx.
But look, I was thinking of only one thing, huh.
To look eye to eye when I talk to people like this.
Because when I didn't have a beard, people were always talking here, here, here.
Could I explain?
[silence]
A long and dramatic tirade.
Yup,
A tirade that I love to throw when appropriate.
[Cengiz] Brother, you misunderstood me, I didn't mean anything like that.
I'm sorry.
-We disturbed you, we know. -No, astaghfurullah.
-Is your wound congenital? -It is considered.
[skirmish sounds from the street]
[crowd] By resisting, we will win!
[running sounds]
[siren sound]
-Brother, are you dating? -[Ahmet] I'll work later.
You can stay here as long as you want.
But slam the door on your way out, because it won't close.
Also,
Don't touch my drink, so there's a grocery store downstairs if you feel like it.
Have a nice day.
[door closes]
[crowd] Come on! Come here!
-[male] Four, five, six, seven, -[breathing sounds]
- eight, nine, ten. -[screams]
One two Three,
four, five, six, seven,
- eight, nine, ten. -What are you doing, goat?
My commander. And you…
Lan, rahat.
Commander, I'm bringing you a cup of rabbit blood tea right away.
No, he doesn't. Let's go out. Let's have a drink.
-No, commander. Is there a problem? -No problem.
Marilyn brought a lot of people home, it turned into a refugee tent.
There was no place to take a step, that's why I say.
[male] four,
-What happened? -five.
You're going to want your money, aren't you, brother?
I'm not asking for money, let's go. oh my god.
My commander.
I swear I've never seen a man like you in my life.
-Lan, it's comfortable. -[counting sound]
I'm comfortable like this.
Look, I'm leaving on one condition, I'm buying the drinks.
Okay okay. We're out of debt.
[male] Seven, eight, nine, ten.
[coughing sound]
I'm a scoundrel bro.
God damn shame on me.
What happened man?
[siren sound]
I love a girl.
Good job.
So it's been almost six months.
I'm secretly saving money so we can get married.
I didn't say anything to anyone. Look, I'm just telling you, even to you.
Offended with my moms, they don't know shit anyway.
All right, son, get married. I get out of the house.
I'll find a place to stay, don't worry.
What's up, commander?
I will pay you my debt
So I'm going to spend the money on the wedding.
Damn goat, aren't you my heir?
Let's say something happened to me, I'm in, whose will it be?
You and Marilyn. Who else do I have?
Commander, that's the problem. Marilyn
I will pay you my debt, you will give the money to him,
he will also cut his tawba estağfurullah, something like that.
Look at what you're thinking.
My son just got his Adam's apple, Marilyn.
OK. Let the pixie wait a bit.
-Isn't it, commander? -[Ahmet] So wait a bit.
-Oh… -Stop, stop, stop, stop.
-Stop. -OK.
-Commander, say whatever you want from me. -Oh.
Look, I swear, I'm really serious,
what do you wish from me right now, what?
-All right, I wish. -Yup.
OK. You're going to whine soon, don't whine okay?
-No, I won't cry. -Lan, that's my only wish.
-Brother, you ask me. -Son, I'm serious, I'm telling you.
-I'm serious too. -OK.
Allah Allah.
Do you want a handkerchief?
[carer] Families will be arriving soon.
Such a master, the wise one among you,
He will choose the good ones and take them home.
They do not choose the one who speaks or the one who weeps.
Let me tell you, those who talk like that, who talk too much, stay here.
The rest of you will live here with us, okay.
[crow voice]
[dropping sound]
- Hussein. -[kids] Hussein.
Quiet, quiet. Hussein, my son, what's wrong with you?
-[boy] He passed out. -No, nothing, okay, nothing.
-Hang on here. Hussein. -[Ahmet] When the orphans die
They would throw it into the cadaver pool. Did you know?
We thought they threw Hussein there too. It turns out
For weeks, I dreamed of Hüseyin swimming on his back like that in the pool.
His eyes are open. Hussein was looking at me.
Commander.
Who is Hussein?
[ringing sound]
[sitter] Get up, wake up, come on.
Come on, it's morning, come on, get up.
Come on, wake up. Look, breakfast is gone, after that I'm hungry, I don't understand.
You will go to bed early, you will wake up early, wake up. Get down.
Ahmet. Get up. get up. Wake up.
Hussein.
Hussein, come on son, wake up. Hussein.
Get up, son.
My son, get up, get up, get up!
Get up, wake up. Are we going to deal with you? Get up.
Wake up, wake up. Wake up son, wake up.
-[drop sound] -[silence]
[Ahmet] Hussein died in his bed one morning.
Moreover, he was beaten for five minutes by the caregiver, who did not realize that he was dead.
[Emotional music]
[Ahmet] The day Hussein died
We traveled between Basmane and Şemikler by train six times.
A journey for Hüseyin's age.
Hüseyin loved trains.
Never got on.
[sigh sound]
Damn, we couldn't even get the kid on the train once.
-Brother, we got drunk, let's get up. -Happy.
A boy appeared before us in the village at the foot of Gabar Mountain.
His name is Zinar.
He was six and a half, seven years old.
He was going to be a director when he grew up. You remember, right?
[seagull voice]
-[Mesut] Brother, let's get up. -You were going to bring me a guy.
Was he from the special forces, who was there that night, what was his name?
-[Mesut] Honor. -Honor.
[Mesut] Honor. I'll bring it, brother. Let's get up.
When will you bring it?
[Mesut] Commander, I'm waiting for news, it will come in a few days.
Mesut, when will you bring it?
[Mesut] Commander, I'll bring it to you, I'm waiting for news.
Come on, we're high. Let's get up.
OK. But you will.
[Mesut] Promise. Come on bro.
Ah!
[Ahmet] Aysin.
Did you have the key?
[breathing sound]
I'm so drunk.
I drank some.
I am very happy though.
I am so happy.
[sigh sound]
[breakfast sounds]
I took your top off last night.
[floor creaking]
[cry of understanding]
There is no aysin.
There is no aysin.
The seat was very uncomfortable.
When Marilyn said that Ahmet brother would not come, I went to bed.
And then you came and kissed my neck.
Then I went back to the living room.
My dear, you have occupied Taksim, it was not enough,
You have come, you are occupying my bedroom.
-Where will I sleep? -I poured you tea.
I dont use. I don't use sugar.
OK.
I went through your books a little bit last night.
-Is that so? -Seeing Schoendoerffer
-I couldn't stand it. -There is little, not much.
No, I have them all. If you want, I can bring it to you.
How, there are quite a few.
But I will take it back. So to read, let me tell you.
It happens, it happens.
[sniffing sound]
And you were delirious last night?
-I'm delirious? -Uh huh.
You talked about your sins. You have big sins.
Get out of the cabin, Father. I have nothing to confess.
When there are sinners around, the costs are high.
[significant] Hmm?
Let me guess, you sure have one dog.
So you feed stray cats or something,
You put water or something like this, containers, maps. You are getting on the ferry.
You throw bagels at the seagulls like that in the back, right?
-Well? -Well
This is how you calm yourself down.
-Sinners, cats, dogs, birds. -Is that so?
I'm not one of them, but let me tell you.
But you are sad.
-Am I so? -Yup.
-Arent you? -I do not know.
Look, I'm trying to be friendly.
I apologize for the sensitivity of my nose.
Unfortunately, I can smell the sadness even from afar.
Koku.
Sweat and alcohol. It's just my scent.
I am disturbing you. I'm sorry, I'll go.
Sorry. OK, I'm sorry.
well
I'm so used to having breakfast with Marilyn, it felt weird.
Sorry.
I love cats, birds, dogs and sinners.
Come on.
Please.
Thank you.
So it's always been…
…them…
… they looked me in the eye. Always.
For that reason.
[Miracles] Was it too obvious?
9.75 square centimeters.
So you have to be blind not to notice.
[Serap] Did it happen when you were a kid?
Was it an accident?
Was it an accident?
I do not know. Maybe.
What happened?
[silence]
[Ahmet] You want to learn.
Yes I want.
-[Ahmet] It's a terrible story, though. -Okay, I'll listen.
Alright.
[nose and sighing sound]
My father drank a lot, I mean.
I don't know why you're drinking.
In other words, the smoking man is not asked why he is drinking.
One day he drank too much again.
Probably in the third bottle or something.
He has a stash at home, but his head is so beautiful,
He doesn't remember where he is.
He asks my mother. I was then one and a half, two years old or something.
I am in my mother's arms.
My father asks, where is the bottle?
My mother is shouting that enough is enough, enough is enough.
That's how they're pushing
At that moment, my father breaks the empty bottle in his hand.
And he starts shaking the broken bottle at my mother.
[sighs]
There comes a moment when...
...my mother will probably get hurt, so I don't know.
I'm in your arms too. Like this
I guess it's a reflex, I don't know.
I don't know if it's self-preservation instinct,
suddenly he pushes me towards the bottle.
[cutting cry]
Later?
[Ahmet] Then, I fell to the ground.
My father kicked me.
I fell under the bed where my parents were making love.
Then my father continued where he left off.
Later?
[Ahmet] Then he tore my mother apart.
A sobriety comes at that moment, I guess I don't know, he suddenly remembers his stash.
He goes, takes the bottle, drinks it too.
Nicely.
It's leaking.
Of course there is a lot of noise by the way,
They complain about neighbors or something, they call the police.
The police are coming.
They take my father infiltrated, take him away, arrest him.
Take my mom to the hospital.
[silence]
They forget me, under the bed.
They forget.
Then a neighbor says,
There was a child, there was a baby in this house. He says where?
They are looking for the house.
They find me under the bed.
Blood flowing from my mother, blood flowing from me.
A pool of blood. I'm in the middle.
Like that. Coagulated blood.
I'm stuck on the ground.
It's like sucking milk from my mother's breast all night long
I drank my mother's blood.
I've never cried though. Never, ever.
[silence]
Then my mother dies in the hospital.
They are throwing my father in prison.
Less than a week later, they get involved in something, and they strangle it there.
I am in the hospital. A relative is coming to the hospital.
I don't know who that relative is, so I still don't know.
Someone is coming. He sees me, so they show him.
My situation is clear.
No one is that relative anymore...
…shakes his head like that.
Then there is the orphanage.
It's like a novel.
[Ahmet confirms]
[Ahmet] There are 50 of them behind me. Kemalettin Tugcu.
Same story.
[crying breath]
Let me check on a Marilyn, has she come?
[exhales]
But get love, bro.
What did you do to Serap sister, the woman is crying loudly downstairs.
It is dust. He took the books. Maybe he has an allergy or something.
[train whistle]
[door knocks]
[bird chirping]
[Kurdish] My son!
Zinar!
[door creaks]
[Emotional music]
[Kurdish, grandfather] What will happen to Zinar?
[Kurdish, mother] Father…
Zinar is much smaller…
Can't stand the road.
I can't have it there...
Besides, if anything happens to us, at least Zinar will live.
May our roots continue.
-[Kurdish, grandfather] My daughter… -[Kurdish, mother] Dad, what should I do?
Do I have any other chance?
Do I want to leave him?
Much smaller.
Let him grow up a little, I'll take him with us.
[Kurdish, still] Sister? Elder sister?
Shall we go to the market with Zinar? I'll buy him candy, and we'll travel.
My father will come too.
-[Kurdish] Zinar? -[Kurdish] Mom! Mother!
-[Kurdish] Do you want candy? -[Kurdish] Yes! Yeah!
[Kurdish] Come on, don't be late. Okay?
-Do not misbehave there! -[Kurdish Zinar] Dede, grandfather!
Come on, we're going to buy candy!
Adar, I'm going to buy candy. My aunt will buy me candy.
Look, my mom gave me money.
-[bird chirping] -[sad music]
I will not give it to you!
[women cry]
[sad music]
[Kurdish] Hala, come. Sugar!
[Kurdish] Get it! Get!
[Kurdish] Dede, look sugar!
[Kurdish] Eat, eat.
-[Kurdish] Take it still. -[Kurdish] You eat too.
[Kurdish] Grandpa, you eat too.
[Kurdish] My son…
[sad music]
[Kurdish] Mom! Mother! Mother! Mother!
Anne!
Mom, where are you?
[sad music]
Granny, where is my mom?
[Kurdish] Zinar, mother gone!
[Kurdish] Son, come.
[Kurdish] Dede, where is my mother?
[sad music]
[breathing sounds]
[sad music]
[Screams in Kurdish] Mom!
[door closes]
-[street noise] -[smoking noise]
[door knocks]
Hello. I brought the books, the Schoendoerffers. Are you available?
Where are the others?
They broke up half an hour ago, and maybe Marilyn is at home.
[whistle]
-Would you like? - At this hour?
[drinking voice]
Fine, I'll drink. Have lots of ice, but lots of it.
It's possible.
[street hum]
[Ahmet] How old do you think I am?
[sound of pouring ice into glass]
-40. -[Ahmet] Three.
[Mirage] So?
So I'm going downhill towards my 50.
My belly started to come out. Whiteness in the hair and beard.
I'm not a very healthy person, you haven't seen my scar yet huh. It's a disaster.
I'm not really the type to look at like that.
There's a lot of hot boys out there, why are you here, why me?
Is there an attraction in me that I don't see, that I don't notice?
Don't be sad, what will happen?
According to Marilyn, Aysin was also a very beautiful, attractive woman.
What does he find in you?
Ours is just honest shopping, that's all.
-I guess he adores his sentences. -[sarcastic] Huh huh.
-How many sentences did you write to him? 30, 40? -[outside protest voice]
No, so if that's the secret, I've read both notebooks.
[silence]
[the sound of putting the book on the table]
[Mirage] Coincidence.
When I slept in your bed last night, it was lying open like that under my hand,
It's like read me.
-After the first sentence-- -This is how other people live their lives.
You know what's wrong with someone who is cheekily curious?
Vital.
[voices of protest from the street]
You're right.
But I was impressed by your writing.
It really betrays all your intelligence. No, really.
I think you should finish the novel, you've already come to the end.
I don't like stories that have no ending.
Is that so?
I still haven't softened, so the matter is not closed.
Don't be so shy. Have you ever been in love?
-No. -How?
So, I don't know, I had an excuse.
What excuse?
Well… I thought no one would accept me. I was cautious.
Here is my greatest love, Sevgi, mother, you already know.
No, I do not know.
I'll tell you, but I have one condition. -Yup.
-You will not cry. -I try.
Guys, look here. I will introduce you to someone.
Love mom. You call her Love mom, okay.
Sevgi Hanım will come here to visit you three days a week from now on.
When he comes, he will bring sweets, gifts, books and so on.
Here we go, let's start with you, okay. The phaeton fell for you.
Oh, honey it's me. This is yours.
I am very pleased to meet you.
We'll see each other often now, I'm here three days a week.
Look, that's down to you too.
What a beautiful shirt you have.
This is your book.
[Emotional music]
[Ahmet] Love mom, my first disappointment.
[children's voices]
Ian Ahmet, come, my son, you too.
[children's voices]
-[boy 1] Why isn't he talking? -[boy 2] He's mute, he never speaks.
[boy 3] He's pretending, is he dumb?
Do not come if you do not want to!
People used to need love anyway.
He wanted to love someone, to count, to serve him.
[Ahmet] Your love mother had a smooth neck,
white, clean.
I've never touched one that smells good.
[Emotional music]
My hand bowed to the ban for minutes.
Finally, I couldn't help but stick my finger out.
I was touching it.
Love mother, can I be your child?
[Ahmet] After being abandoned…
[children] He spoke.
[Ahmet] … that's when I spoke for the first time.
-Love mom! Be my mother! -Ahmet! Ahmet!
[Ahmet] He must have thought for a moment that I had a child.
-[Love] Ahmet. Ahmet. -[Ahmet] His name was Sevgi.
But he never liked me. -Ahmet.
[Ahmet] My arms were like an umbilical cord, it wouldn't break.
But I couldn't stand the pain when his hand hit my shoulder.
I let go of the leg that gave birth to me.
[sad music]
[ringing sound]
[Ahmet] Love mother willingly
He had thrown it out of his womb and dropped it.
I haven't cried since that day, you know?
Never, for years.
[street hum]
Candy, chocolate.
I've always hated them all.
Sugar… it meant betrayal to me.
[whistles from the street]
I left the sugar there.
What happened, did you have a family?
Were you adopted?
I adopted.
How?
I adopted my grandfather. How did you adopt your grandfather?
[Emotional music]
[Ahmet] When we entered the park the night we ran away from the dormitory
We heard someone crying.
-One grandfather alone. -[groaning sound]
The paper is gone, they're going to throw me in the pool. He keeps saying the same thing.
[Ahmet] The paper is gone, they're going to throw me in the pool.
The paper is gone, they're going to throw me in the pool. -[Ahmet] Later
We realized that he lost a piece of paper he always carried in his pocket.
Grandpa, why are you crying?
[Ahmet] We are scattered, we are searching like crazy. We finally found the paper.
We couldn't stand it because we were wondering what the pool or something had to do with it.
we read it.
[Ahmet] This document was given by the Tarlabaşı District Headman.
Death of Hasan Topçu, the owner of this paper
In case of burial, the burial will be done by our headman.
Please call 234 23 24.
-[sad music] -[sigh sound]
-Here, grandpa, put it in your pocket. -Thanks, son, thank you.
[Ahmet] That's right, after grandfather Hasan died because he was an orphan.
He thought he would be sent to the cadaver pool,
because then after the orphans died in Izmir
They were putting the corpses in the cadaver pool.
The biggest fear of this is not being buried.
That's what he thought, he thought he was going to swim in a pool forever.
Shopkeepers have heard this too. Will they stop, of course,
They always made fun of it, they frightened it.
So we adopted him so that grandfather Hasan would not be lonely.
The three of us that day, the whole dorm the next day.
Then we informed all the neighborhood shopkeepers and notables.
Hasan Topçu is our child. Just so that we can join in with him.
After that, no one touched our child.
Fatherhood was hard, but we were happy.
Thus, we all had a 70-year-old child.
Our child's only fear was not to be buried.
This is my biggest fear, too.
The only legacy my grandfather left me is this fear, not being buried.
Swimming forever in a cadaver pool.
I can't imagine a greater punishment than that.
[sad music]
[prayer sounds]
[Ahmet] We buried our grandfather a year later.
I personally checked his coffin.
It was definitely him inside the shroud.
We kept the promise we made years ago,
We did not give our child to the cadaver pool.
We were 30 people at the funeral. Don't underestimate 30 people.
There were only seven people at Mozart's funeral.
Then we built a cemetery for him.
Here, the only child of a hundred children,
Hasan Topçu, the only grandfather of a hundred children, lies.
[sad music]
It was a good story.
[glass tone]
[street noise]
I'll stop by ours from here. Joyful?
I will work at home.
Write a book first on your to-do list before you die.
-OK. We'll communicate then. -OK.
Or
You can stop by me tomorrow if you want.
Tomorrow is okay.
-It's possible. -I have the address, okay.
-OK. Well, we communicate. -OK.
[Serap] Bye bye.
[street noise]
[street hum]
[ringing sound]
[television] Such was the case at night and in the first light of day.
Events in Gezi Park and Taksim continued in the morning and throughout the day.
Intervention of the protesters followed one after another.
To those trying to enter Gezi Park--
[television] The complete success of our armed forces
with a success that our nation is proud of
Operation Dawn in Northern Iraq
We offer an evaluation. Later…
[Kurdish] Zinar, you have a mouth, you have a tongue.
You are eating. Why don't you talk?
Hadi, nene de.
[helicopter voice]
[television] 4700 terrorists in the operation area
was considered to be in the area.
neutralized during this cross-border operation.
The number of terrorists was around 2000.
The separatist terrorist organization in the Hammer operation
The evil nests in Northern Iraq were cleared one by one.
Our troops who completed their mission in the Hammer operation
He returned to our Turkey and became the evil home of the separatist terrorist organization in Northern Iraq--
[Kurdish] Why are you so late?
Let's come. I've been very good.
Those who talk a lot and cry a lot do not want their mothers.
of my anne?
But look, I've always been silent. I'm very good.
Adar, I bought sugar. I'll give it to you too.
Mother? Adar?
Anne!
Where are you? Mother!
[Kurdish] Lan Zinar, what is that?
[Kurdish] He's wearing glasses. Look at the force!
[Kurdish] Are we going to be afraid of you because you put on the glasses?
[Kurdish] No, he's crying, he's crying. He is ashamed.
[Kurdish] Motherless, fatherless.
[hindi sesi]
[Kurdish] Motherless, fatherless!
[breathing sounds]
[Kurdish] Zinar, come on.
Your father's friend came from Beirut. Greetings from your mother.
-[Kurdish] Zinar. How are you, coach? -[kissing sound]
Your father sent this.
Your father said, "Kiss Zinar for me." said.
You are always on his mind.
He's always thinking of you.
"Let her know that I haven't forgotten her." said.
Behind!
He said so.
"Let my Zinar read, become a great man." said.
He particularly emphasized this.
"Let Zinar recite and never forget." said. Okay?
Look. Your father sent you this notebook.
[Kurdish] Anytime
He said to write the books he read here, okay?
He sent you these books.
[Kurdish children] Throw it at me! Come on son!
I'm here, throw it at me! Drop it son, I'm here.
Come on. Boy, I'm here, horse!
Come on come on!
[Kurdish] Damn crazy! You're holding the book upside down.
[children laugh]
[Kurdish] This is crazy!
-[Kurdish] Hey crazy, throw the ball! -[Kurdish] Throw the ball, crazy!
-[Kurdish] Come here! -[Kurdish] Catch him!
[Kurdish] This is the news for me. Don't worry too much.
Take care of yourselves. I kiss the hands of all elders.
[in Kurdish] We too, Cemil. We kiss you too.
[Kurdish] Mahmut, how is the boy? I hope it is good.
[Kurdish] It's fine, Cemil is fine, thank you.
[Kurdish] Greetings again.
Now I'm going to talk to my son alone.
[Kurdish] Okay… Sure. He's right… Look, your son is here…
[in Kurdish] Zinar, my son. Please don't cry.
You are not the only child left without a parent.
If I can come, I will come to the feast this year.
Don't upset your grandparents.
Read, be a man.
You will look after them.
[tape turns off]
[Kurdish] Come on, get out.
We will listen to the rest with Zinar…
[Kurdish] He is right, he is right. Let's go guys.
[Kurdish] Entrusted to Allah. entrust it to Allah.
[floor creaking]
[stove fire sound]
-[knock on door] -[whistle]
[door knocks]
-Happy. -Commander.
-Come. -I thought I'd check it out.
I'm out of my mind after last night. -You did well. It's late.
OK.
[whistles]
I didn't take my pills today, so the supplements came, sorry.
No no.
-How are you? -By God, commander, what would it be?
-[protest sounds] -[throat clearing sound]
-What's up? -No.
I'm going to ask you something, commander.
You know, you're my closest
You already know the situation with my parents.
Well, I told you last night.
-Okay, that's the marriage thing. -That's the point.
To get married, you have to want the girl.
That falls on you too.
-Oh really. -I swear.
-When will this work? - Whenever you're available,
I am whole.
Okay, okay, we'll handle it.
-I have only one condition. -Your order.
[cigarette extinguishing sound]
If something happens to me, like if I die or something,
I know you will bury me. I have no one else.
When you go down to the grave, look at me.
When you go down to the grave, open the shroud, okay? Look,
Make sure it's me in the shroud, okay?
Then put the wood, throw the soil on me, bury me okay but
make sure it's me in the grave, okay, okay.
Understood? What?
Commander, tell me...
… do you have a disease?
Look, Osman said, you're dizzy or something.
You've been down once or twice.
I'm drinking, I'm getting drunk. Gee. I'm falling, what should I do?
-Everyone falls. -Commander.
[phone rings]
[floor creaking]
-Hello. -Hello. Ahmet, this is Doctor Engin.
-Hi there. -You can come to get your reports.
-Now? -Yeah yeah.
-[explosion sounds] -[protest sounds]
♪ Take off your helmet, drop your baton, let's see who the boy is! ♪
♪ Come on! ♪
-[whistle] -[gunfire]
-[combat sounds] -[gunfire]
[street hum]
[sigh sound]
[keyboard voice]
[train sound]
[door knocks]
[crying and sniffling sound]
[Kurdish] How are you my daughter? My son!
[Kurdish] Zinar.
My son!
[crying sound]
[Kurdish] Condolences.
[condolences]
[Kurdish] We both lost.
If I had my current mind
I would never leave you behind.
I'm sorry, son.
your father and me
We thought of you all the time.
We've always tried to hear from you.
But we couldn't come.
You know, your father…
I don't even know where his body is.
You were always here.
God has always given us grief and pain here. It hurt.
We are everyone, everywhere,
We continued to love from far away.
-Me and your brothers exist, but… -I have no one.
I do not understand what you're saying.
[sad music]
[Kurdish] My son…
[door closes]
-[sad music] -[crying sound]
[sounds of protest and applause]
[sad music]
[gas grenade sound]
[ringing sound]
[helicopter voice]
[traffic noise]
That Gabar is in the village, I mean, we went or there was a mess.
Do you remember a boy there?
How many times did I tell you, commander?
Tell me again.
What is it, just tell me.
-We went to the reported village, commander. -Yup.
It was getting dark.
Then we were shot at from the house that had its back against the rock.
Then you sent us to the lower part of the village to gag. OK.
Then you went in. 10 minutes later, those dogs fired rockets.
You were unconscious on the floor when we arrived, commander.
Forty minutes later, the helicopter came and we carried you to the helicopter.
This much. We took him to the hospital, it's over.
Okay, I remember there was a kid there. So like this…
-Didn't you? -I swear I didn't see it, brother.
All of our team was already stuffing.
I say there were special forces with you, believe me now.
Look, I'm out of the house, okay?
Yup.
I walked a little. There was a rock there, I sat down on the rock.
It must have been about 10 minutes before the RPG hit.
in ten minutes
A boy came towards me, he wanted to say something. even you
I remember when you intervened. -No, commander, I swear it's not like that.
Until the news that Ahmet Ensign had been shot
we haven't even moved from our place.
Then we came, helicopter,
I am one of those who carried you to the helicopter on a stretcher.
That's why you're mixing it up.
Okay, so you've never seen a kid in such a mess.
-No, commander. -None.
[traffic noise]
I will ask you something
What, something, what was his name?
-Honor. -You were going to find him, what happened?
Okay, I sent the news, one of our team is looking.
Let me have news, I'll tell you anyway.
I told you, I told you.
Okay okay.
-Happy. -Tell me, brother.
Talk to that girl of yours, okay?
Make sure that date, the date of request.
-You got it. -Okay okay.
[door opens]
-[Marilyn] Brother, it's me. -Come.
-[horn sound] -[floor creaking]
Well, my house is full again. Can I sleep here in the living room?
It's possible. Get yourself a glass.
-[popping sound] -[clicking keys]
Thanks.
What are we going to do, Marilyn?
Neyi abi?
I don't know, it's everything.
Life, novel.
[sigh sound]
I guess I got some trouble. I'm stuck.
Oh brother, look, you're already fainting, don't worry about everything.
I swear something will happen instead of something.
I was stuck at the time too.
It doesn't happen without getting stuck.
What have I experienced!
That's it when my dad broke my nose.
Didn't they throw it out on the street, didn't they try to kill it?
When did you forget your Kenan dog?
You saved me from his hand.
Oh brother, don't make me tell you, you already know all of them.
I know.
Your nose didn't come out of shit either.
It really is.
But now I think like this.
I transform from a caterpillar to a butterfly.
-Butterfly. -Yup.
My little butterfly.
Yes bro, really.
When I find myself, I forget the past, man.
Only the best memories remain in my mind.
That's because I don't want to remember the bad ones.
It is deleted without my knowing it.
Is it good or bad? I do not know.
Maybe if I forget…
...but, but it would be harder, wouldn't it, brother?
And meeting with you made everything much easier.
Come on.
When a person has a place to take shelter when he is afraid,
safe.
It's easier to forget, I guess.
-Oh brother, let's have a high drink then. -Let's drink.
Let's drink. But to the future.
Ok to the future.
Look, you're making me talk, you're going to make me cry again, huh.
Oh, don't cry. Relax relax.
Look, what will I say,
Put one of your songs and let's dance.
What? Really?
Yes, yes, let's dance. Let's dance tonight, what will happen, let's forget everything.
-Are you serious? -Yup. Come on girl. Let's.
[Replicas playing "I Am Today, I Am Not Tomorrow"]
♪ I'm here today, gone tomorrow ♪
♪ There may be those who do not know ♪
♪ What I have is not mine ♪
♪ I'm here today, gone tomorrow ♪
♪ There may be those who do not know ♪
♪ What I have is not mine ♪
♪ My place is clear, my home is clear ♪
♪ Those who want can see it ♪
♪ He can kiss you one last time ♪
♪ Bored, sleeping ♪
♪ This is how the world goes ♪
♪ If you're leaving, tell me now ♪
♪ I don't know in the whole universe ♪
♪ Day ends, night begins ♪
♪ With happiness and death ♪
[doctor] You went to a friend from our circle.
I had to have surgery in fifteen days.
So he said earlier if you want.
[doctor] So what did you say?
What I told you. First the book, then the surgery.
[doctor] What is this stubbornness for God's sake? Be, get rid of that job.
Or do you not want to finish the novel?
Why wouldn't I want to finish it? The most important job in my life.
Why isn't the last episode finished anyway?
I can't decide, so it never ends. Something like that.
Just me.
I guess we missed a day when we were away.
-I have an offer for you. -An offer?
What is that, or do you want my marriage partner?
Direct hit. Will you come this way?
We will come, we will come. We will meet with our people, we will go to Taksim.
-I need 10 minutes of your time. -10 minutes?
I'm just not convinced in such a short time, let me tell you.
I try my luck.
Okay, see you.
[siren sound]
Hello.
Gel.
[calm of relief]
There is also tea if you want, I brewed it.
I guess you want something pretty serious.
Born?
Mirage.
Will you be my wife?
[laughter]
[coughing sound]
Halal, halal. Halal.
for a day. for a day.
How much do you pay?
-Money. -Yup.
In muta marriage, money is given to the woman.
A friend of mine wants to get married, okay?
I don't want a girl for him,
I cannot go alone.
I want you to come too. So game.
-You're going to play my wife, okay? -Understood.
-I have a condition. -What?
No drinking that day.
Why is that?
Are you going to go asking for a girl like this?
Wanting a girl is serious business.
-One day. -One day.
Prohibition.
We agreed.
And if you pour tea.
-Without sugar. -Without sugar.
[bell rings]
[street hum]
Say a welcome. Order inside.
Ahmet.
-Sorry. -[Sarap] Do you hear?
[gags] I'm out of breath, sorry.
Good. Then you take a breath, I'll go inside, okay?
Of course.
[door closes]
If I could, I would imprison you as punishment for being so beautiful.
This is inside the dress you're wearing, for life.
You've been pretty good too. But I prefer messy.
-Can I offer you something? -Did you drink?
I never even drank water. I'm not the type to cheat on his wife like that.
Beautiful. Then I don't think anything will come out of a small glass.
-It's possible. -Let it be odorless.
-Vodka. -It's possible.
- Lots of ice. -Of course.
Now, you know how to ask for a girl?
What?
By the order of Allah, by the word of the prophet, your daughter...
-Nalan. -Your daughter Nalan,
We want our son Mesut.
But don't forget to say Allah's order, the prophet's word.
Okay. These days, they are not very interested in me, but I will talk about them.
Yes, one last thing.
[ring sound]
Ahmet Bey, your left hand please.
Come on.
[street noises]
Thus began our first marriage.
Engin brother, how are you?
I have decided, I will have the surgery.
Huh.
I guess I'll write in two days.
The book is ending, I guess it will be finished by the surgery.
OK, thank you, thank you.
Yes, what are we doing?
I didn't call a taxi to the door, because I want to walk a little.
Fine, let's walk.
'Cause to my nosy neighbors in the neighborhood
I want to give some air.
-What's the weather? -That's it.
I don't know what kind of man you are.
-Watch out. -You'll see if I break my leg.
[Ahmet] Nothing will happen. Look how good I'm showing off.
-Hassan brother, how are you? -Brother, respect.
[Serap] Not all marriages go like this, but let me tell you.
[Ahmet laughs]
Where did you stay?
-Oh. Commander, thank you very much. -Comfortable soldier, comfortable.
What is this? Hello.
-Welcome, aunt. -Hello, Mesut. I'm serap.
I am satisfied, very pleased.
-[Sarap] Hello. -I was so scared that you wouldn't come.
We arrived on time.
Come on, I got it from a friend, we're going in this car.
-[Ahmet] With that. -Let's. Let's run.
-Attention. One two. -God. Come come.
-Three four. Frost. -[screams]
One, two, come back.
One two. Bravo.
[applause and whistles]
What are you thinking? Eyes narrowed again.
I'm doing plan.
What plan?
Hand holding plan.
[Mesut] I swear you're here, commander. Aunt you too.
What would I do without you, by myself? Now look
We're leaving with our hands full.
Let's get the girl, come on.
Hop. Watch out.
My commander. What would I do without you?
-Okay Mesut, relax. -Happy.
-[Ahmet] Come on. -[door sound]
-Yenge, God bless you too. -What do you mean, what do you mean?
Let's.
[session motor]
[unlock sound]
[door squeak]
What happened?
[door squeak]
[embarrassed] Yeah?
Ahmet, I really am heavier than I look.
Honey, I won't do it every night, just once.
You were pretty strong, huh.
On May 19, people used to build towers and put me at the bottom.
You can drink vodka, the ban is over.
It can wait.
Hmm.
Alright.
Then tell me
If you were going to write me a love letter, how would you start?
[Emotional music]
[Speaks in Swahili] Nakupenda malaika.
That's how I would start.
What does malaika mean?
It means my angel.
I love you?
I love you.
[Emotional music]
Have you ever been to Tanzania?
I just listened to İlyan Makabi.
Come on, say something to this halo.
[speaks in Swahili]
Dream little bird.
Let's see together.
[mysterious music]
[cigarette noise]
[wind howling]
[wind howling]
[mysterious music]
[wind howling]
[explosion and gunshot]
Commander, are you okay?
[breathing sounds]
[mysterious music]
[screaming sound]
[Gun sound]
[step sounds]
İyi misin, iyi misin?
[çığlık sesi]
Komutan iyi misin?
[sessizlik]
[nefes sesleri]
[gerilim müziği]
[silah sesi]
-[Serap] Ahmet. -[Marilyn] Ahmet abi.
-Ahmet. -Ahmet abi.
Ahmet.
[Serap] Ahmet, duyuyor musun?
[iç çekme sesi]
-Kendine geliyor sanırım. -Ahmet.
Hoş geldiniz, beyefendi.
Hoş bulduk.
Bir yere mi gitmiştim?
Abi, öteki dünyaya kadar uğradın abi sen. Vallahi öldüreceksin sen bizi.
-Ne oluyor ya? -"Ne oluyor ya?" mı?
Uyuyorsun komadaymış gibi, 24 saat oldu neredeyse.
Genç kadınla evli olmak yorucu bir şey.
Ciddiyiz.
Evet. Öğrendik her şeyi. Marilyn doktorunla da konuştu.
Yalnız kalmaman gerektiğini, şansın ne kadar falan hepsini öğrendi.
Ameliyat olmayı da kabul etmişsin.
Sen bir şey hazırlasana ya, karnı acıkmıştır.
İyiyim ben.
Haberin olsun,
ne kadar süre gerekiyorsa o kadar buradayım, buraya taşındım.
Özetle, sıkı biçimde kontrol altındasın. Tamam mı?
-Huh. Is there any use in my appeal? -No.
Why did not you tell?
Would you marry me if I told you?
I'm going to shower.
You won't be alone until the surgery. Either me or Marilyn.
One of us will be with you. No liquor either.
If you want, go a month later, fill the tub with vodka and wash.
Not a drop before that, okay?
You will not let me die.
Of course I won't.
Of course.
[kissing sound]
[Serap] You scared us a lot.
Come here.
[phone rings]
Sir, Mesut.
[cutlery sound]
Okay, grab it tomorrow and bring it with me, okay? Understood?
-[whistle] -[cutlery sound]
[crowd] Keep fighting!
This is the beginning continue to struggle!
[Honor] Look, they will leave these to us,
No Gezi or anything else.
Anyway.
Mesut said that he was wondering how angry he was injured.
You don't remember, right?
[Ahmet] No 10 minutes before the explosion.
[Honour] Got it.
Now when the Tugrul commander gave us the signal, we
We started walking towards home.
Two children who appeared to be registered in the household were also on the mountain.
Intelligence was given.
It was exactly what we expected, we got the second shot there.
The bastards ambushed the house.
Then Tugrul commander was shot in the shoulder.
We had to pull him into the trench.
And you were left alone by the door.
-[gunshots] -[dog barking]
-[exploding sound] -[dog barking]
-[breathing sound] -[dog barking]
Okay okay.
-Later? -Later,
two or three of us went behind the house to prevent them from escaping.
You then swept into the house, scanning the war like this.
Look, I said to the upper infantryman, but I said he was a young man.
I'm sorry, that's what I thought when you came in.
[helicopter voice]
-[gunshots] -[wind howling]
-[breathing sound] -[squeaking sound]
[airplane sound]
[squeaking sound]
-[wind howling] -[breathing sound]
[squeaking sound]
[door opening sound]
[Gun sound]
[breathing sound]
[groaning sound]
-[tension music] -[ringing sound]
Commander, are you okay?
[breathing sounds]
[Honor, foggy] Then, the sounds of fire started coming from behind the house.
Then the house suddenly caught fire. When you said we were just coming to look at you...
[ringing sound]
[wind howling]
[crying sound]
[Kurdish] Zinar…
His name was Zinar.
He would go to school…
Zinar.
Zinar. Zinar.
[Gun sound]
[Honour] Then it's already RPG…
[loud ringing sound]
Hop, hop, hop.
-Commander. -Commander.
-Commander. -Commander.
Brother, bring some water from there,
-water, water. -Commander, wake up.
Commander, wake up.
[sad music]
[Ahmet inner voice] The heaviest punishment that a person can inflict on himself
to surrender to your fears,
time to surrender.
The paper is gone grandpa, the paper is gone.
Let them throw me in the pool.
If God chose to write my end in shallow waters
This time I will not question your decision.
[sad music]
-Good morning. -Good morning.
Huh, tell me. You will say something.
Good to know you.
Good thing I slept on this bed that night.
[breathing sounds]
Everything will be beautiful, okay?
Yup.
Are you prepared? Isn't it early?
[Ahmet] No. I have a job with Mesut, but he will leave anyway.
But we were going to go together, no way.
OK, I'm not running. I'm there at one o'clock.
Well okay. But we'll see you at the hospital.
OK.
[kissing sound]
-See you later. -[Mirage] Okay.
[kissing sound]
[table setting sounds]
Help.
By God, if I didn't know about you, I would say you are watering me.
I'm in love with Serap, maybe if it wasn't for her.
By God, if I were you, I would marry him immediately.
What do you know, maybe we'll get married.
Really? Tell the truth.
OK. OK, I won't tell anyone.
I will never talk to Serap sister either.
Come on, sit down, have your breakfast.
-I'm going to Mesut. I will there. -OK.
[Marilyn] Good evening, see you at the hospital then.
Take care of yourself.
Sen de.
[sad music]
[street noise]
[street noise]
-What's up, goat? -Commander, come.
Don't sit or rock.
Come on, let's have a cup of tea or soup.
But you can't eat or drink anything now, first of all.
First of all, it is forbidden to eat. Give that bag to Serap, okay?
I'm busy now. I forget, I forget.
We'll go together anyway, commander. I'm leaving you.
No, I will go to Engin Bey first.
There's a report on it too, I'll take it. Well, I'll take him to the hospital.
OK, very nice. Let's go together, I'll drop you off from there.
It's an extension.
Be at the hospital at one o'clock, wait for me so calmly, okay.
It is what you say, so is the commander.
-Come on, I ran away. -But so
phone when you're done...
What is that picture?
They will cut me off, not you.
-Come hug, come. -Commander.
Get tighter.
-My commander. -[with force] Relaxed soldier, relaxed.
-I'll see you there. -Let's.
[sad music]
[Absorb] God God.
[ambient sound]
-[Mesut] Aunt. -Happy.
I can't reach Ahmet.
Commander asked me to give this to you.
this one?
He said something though.
[sad music]
[sigh sound]
What happened?
[sad music]
What happened?
You check with your doctor, I'm going home.
[Ahmet inner voice] I was actually going to burn it but
I thought you might want to read more.
I know you don't like stories that have no ending.
Being loved will not heal the wound in my soul.
But not as an orphan thanks to you,
I will die knowing that someone can love me.
-[sad music] -[breathing sounds]
[key tone]
[screams] Ahmet!
[crying out] Ahmet! Ahmet!
No. Ahmet.
[crying sound]
[sad music]
[Ahmet inner voice] My only consolation is being able to finish Zinar's novel.
a half-life
I don't know if it is possible to complete it with these words, but
at least i tried.
The howling of the wind, the hasty steps of a dog.
Silent picture of a broken lightning bolt in the north.
A sleepy vole of a vole…
… his skeptical sniff of the environment.
The rustling of icy snow…
…and a little further thin…
…an angry child's voice.
My father will kill you.
[sad music]
-[wind howling] -[sad music]
-[squeaking sound] -[water sound]
[generic soundtrack]