52 Words for Love (2018) - full transcript

(slow music)

(theme music)

* These fiery nights
have overrun *

* And I'm all the way undone

* 'Desire carry me by

* storm and song

- [Alice Voiceover]
Hunger, dream.

Long.

Imagine.

Fantasize.

- Wish.



* It goes, it goes, it goes
- Hope.

(typing)
(knocking at door)

- Alice?
- Door's open!

- Hey.

- [Alice] Hey, Madison.

- [Madison] Whatcha doing?

- I'm makin' a website.
- (groans) Alice.

- [Alice] No no no, it's
not for work, I swear!

It's my own project,
52 Words for Love.

- [Madison] Well, you're
never going to figure out love

sitting alone in front
of your computer.

- [Alice] I don't know, I've
just never really been in love.

I've never really loved anybody.

- [Madison] You love me.



- Yes, but I'm not in
love with you, Mads.

(Madison laughs)
And I wanna be in love.

- [Madison] How about food?

When's the last time you ate?

- [Alice] (laughing) Don't
start with me, woman.

- Get out of that room
and come hang out with me.

- Check this out, Hafez,
14th century Persian poet.

Today love has
completely gutted me.

I'm lying in the market
like a filleted grouper.

(Madison laughs)

I wanna be a filleted grouper.

- [Madison] Oh,
goodness, I don't know

what I'm gonna do with you.

* Ooh

* We are

* Oh who

* We are

* Oh...

(door latch clicks)

- Hey!
- Oh, hi.

- [Lily] How's it going?

- Hi.
- How was your day?

- Not bad, not
bad, how about you?

- It was wonderful, wonderful,
I'm gonna take a shower.

- [Nick] I'm gonna get some tea.

(kettle whistles)

- [Eva] Did you hear from Dad?

- [Nora] What?

- [Eva] 'Cause I did.

- What the fuck?
- Don't freak out, please.

- What the fuck?
- Yeah.

It's really weird.

He posted this
picture online of me

when I was a kid, in a box.

- [Nora] Okay.

- I think it's his way of
trying make peace with us, so--

- Has he asked about me?

- No, but I know that
he wants to see you too.

- We should talk to Mom.

We should ask her if she
knows anything about this.

- [James] Hello.

- [Nora] I can see you, hi.

(Eva and James laugh)
Who is this person?

- That's James,
that's my boyfriend.

- What? (laughing)

- So, any...boys?

- I've been crushing
out on this dude,

which is kinda weird
because I don't really,

I don't have crushes
on people, like ever

and, I dunno, he's just,
he's kind of gorgeous,

like he's like tall,
and has freckles.

- [Eva] He sounds cute.

(helicopter rotors whirring)

(sirens wailing)

- [Anne] Energy level,
between 1 and 10,

1 being the lowest,
10 the highest,

- [Alice] Seven.

Seven and a half.
- Okay.

Do you drink coffee?

- [Alice] Not a lot.

- [Anne] Do you use
recreational drugs?

- [Alice] No.

- [Anne] Do you drink alcohol?

- [Alice] I drink a glass
of wine once in awhile.

- [Anne] Okay, do
you smoke cigarettes?

- No.
- Never have?

Never have, right, good for you.

[Anne] Okay the doctor will
be in to see you shortly.

Just hang tight.

- [Keegan] So how's work?

- A little quiet
tonight, which is nice.

How 'bout you, what's goin' on?

- [Keegan] Nothing.

- Nothing?
- I don't know.

- Boring.
- Yeah.

That's why I'm here every day.

Think I want to hang out
with you just because?

- Yes I do.

(both laughing)

How was it at the
observatory last night?

- It was quiet, so there
weren't a lot of people there,

and you could just sort of
like, stare up and just think.

- [Anne] The sky was
pretty clear last night.

- [Keegan] Yeah, it was
amazing, a perfect night for it.

I look up and all I see

is this tiny fraction
of what's out there.

- Yeah.
- All I want

is to see 100% of it.

- [Anne] So if somebody
offered you a ride to Mars,

you'd take it?

- [Keegan] Yeah.

- [Anne] Yeah, really?

- [Keegan] There's so
much I need to learn.

I just wanna learn
it all, you know?

- [Sam] Still like
drinking coffee?

- [Julia] Yeah, I've
upgraded to espresso though.

(chuckling) And
chocolate-covered
cocoa beans too.

(both laughing)

Thank you.

- [Sam] So I hear
you got married.

- Yes. Divorced now though.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

You?

- Separated.

- [Julia] Kids?

No?
- No kids.

- [Julia] No kids.

- [Sam] No, you?

- [Julia] (chuckling)
(blows raspberry) No.

No, no, Silly but
not stupid, so, yeah.

- Happy?

- Yeah, yeah!

(gentle guitar music)

- [Sam] I'm sorry.

* Oh begin

- That was a long time ago.

* Low tide hymn

* Oh
- Thank you.

* Stormy skies

* Not by stars

* But these scars

* We cross the night

* Love oh we row

* Seesaw to and fro

* Rise and fall and we
will go on waiting *

- Okay, I gotta go.
- Bye.

- I'll see you in 10 days!

Bye! (chuckling)

* Seesaw to and fro

* Stormy wind, stormy waves

* Ooh

* Back and forth

* And wheel and oar

* This our search for shore

* Oh ah
(Sam laughing)

* Ah

- [Alice] Sacrifice.

Submit.

Crumble.

Accept.

Welcome.

Receive.

- [Interviewee] There are
different kinds of heartbreak.

One is like the slow
realization heartbreak.

And then there's the kind of

stabbed in the chest heartbreak,

which is immediate and intense.

Once my teeth hurt. My
teeth actually hurt.

- Sometimes I've been given

to these great
demonstrations of heartbreak.

And I was flying somewhere

and I had to go to ask the
flight attendant something

and I was just holding
it in my belly,

'cause I was so heartbroken.

And he's like, 'are
you sick? oh my God'.

I was like, no, the airsickness
bag won't heal this.

- My dad used to tell
me and all my siblings

when we were heartbroken, he'd
say, "Nobody dies from love."

You know, it's never happened.

You're gonna grow out
of it and move on.

And then my mom and dad
split up and I told him,

"Dad, nobody dies from love."

And he said, "I'm gonna
be the first one."

- I do know I had
my heart broken.

And when I look back I think,

why in the world
did I ever care?

(both laughing)

(Eva moans)

- Hello.

- [May] You sure you
don't want to do sock?

- No stinky sock.

- [May] It just came out
of the dryer, take a sniff.

- [Katie] No.

- What are you doing?
(Katie giggles)

- [May] What are you doing?

- [Nora] I'll tickle
you, I will tickle you.

- Do not, do not.
- I will tickle you, yes.

(laughing)

- Hey, hey!
(Katie blows raspberry)

Oh, come on!

- [Katie] Two points for me.

(May laughing)

(Katie blows raspberry)
- I love it

when James is away.

- [Eva] I miss him.

- I want to go to see a play,

and I want to go dancing,

and I want to go to--
- I had an idea.

Don't hate it right away.

I was thinking that
we could (tuts)

- No!
- go and surprise Dad.

- No!
- Come on.

- I'm not here to see
him, I'm here to see you!

- I know but I,
it would be nice--

- No, I don't care.
- It would help the situation.

- I don't wanna talk to him.

We share DNA and nothing else.

- It's fine, we'll do
whatever you wanna do, okay?

(Eva sighs)

- [Nora] I wonder if Dad
still lives in our old house.

- [Eva] I don't know,
I don't think so.

- [Nora] He probably
threw out my Penny doll.

- [Eva] Yes, Penny doll is
probably biodegrading somewhere.

- Oh, that's an awful thought.

(Eva laughs)

I wasn't gonna come.

- I'm glad you did.

Here, you drive.

(soft music)

(fiddle music)

- [James] It was
a pretty good gig.

The people who owned the pub
were a really nice couple.

They were tellin'
stories and hangin' out

with some other old dudes
and tellin' more stories.

And it was really nice.

(fiddle music)

- [Eva] Do you still get
butterflies when I call?

- [James] I can't
answer that question.

- Why?
(laughing)

- I can't give you
that kind of power.

(both laughing)

I love coming home to you.

- I...haven't had a
home since I was a kid.

And it just seems like
I've been looking for it

for my whole life since then.

- [James] I want a home too.

I wanna have someone who's
got my back too, you know?

- [Eva] I've got your back.

- [James] Yeah, that's nice.

(cell phone buzzes)
(Raymond sighs)

(Raymond breathes heavily)

- [Raymond] We had a huge fight.

We can talk about it
as rational adults,

but we have just treated
each other like crap.

And uh

I'm thinking I might,
I might want to end it.

- [Mum] That's really painful.

- [Raymond] I can't
remember a single time

that she's made me laugh.

15 years and I'm
going back, going,

I never laughed, you
know, but I don't know,

I don't know, Mom, I'm,
I don't wanna be alone.

You know, I'm--
- What is it you want?

In this family?
- I don't know what I want.

I want it to work, you know.

- Well if you want it to
work, get somebody to help you

to talk to each other to see

if there's anything
worth saving.

I can tell you how
proud I am of you.

- Thanks.

(sirens wailing)

- [Sam] When I first moved out,

I had a queen-size
air mattress here.

And it had these
really deep grooves

that ran all the way vertically.

- Okay.

- And one night, I
thought someone got in bed

'cause I felt a push
against my back.

(both laughing)

The stitches came out
and the air mattress

just bloated up on one side.
- Oh, my God.

- I froze.
(Julia laughing)

I kept thinking, don't
make any sudden moves,

and it didn't move either.

(both laughing)

- Sorry.
- Ever since that,

I keep a knife under the bed.

(both laughing)
- That's awesome!

I'm not alarmed at all.
- No, I know.

- I'm not alarmed.

I'm glad you have
a real bed now.

- I did forget one question.

How many people have
you had sex with?

- (laughing) It's not
important to count.

- Come on, I'm asking.

- When you said love
I thought, oh no,

they are going to ask me how
many people I slept with.

- I had a really
funny answer to this

but I forgot what it was.

- 10, 20, 30, 40,
50, 60, 70, 80...

- If you give me 10
minutes, I may be able

to give you a close number.

- Well, I really like sex,
I was pretty promiscuous.

You were talking about the
fifties, right? (laughing)

- Some people are just
looking for the One.

(man and woman chuckling)

- Hello!

- Mary was my first girlfriend,

so you can imagine the
passion that was available.

(both laughing)

- All stored up!

- [Raymond] My best guess?

Six months from now you'll
be back on your feet.

Your prognosis is
really good overall,

and your specialist is the best.

I actually know her, I
dated her in med school.

She'll take good care of you.

If you need anything, just
call me on my mobile, k?

You look like you
could use some lunch.

- [Alice] It's just a
six-month leave of absence.

- Seriously?

May, we need human
resources in here now.

- [Alice] You're not
talking me out of this.

- Do I need to take you down
with a full body tackle?

'Cause you know I will.

- [Alice] I'm taking some time
to work on my own project.

- Work on it here.

- We can monetize it.

- You can't leave,
you are our tech head.

- There's no escaping us.
- Do you need a raise?

Or what about a corner office?

- [Alice] (laughing)
I need some time off.

(acoustic guitar music)

* Hey ho

* Let it go

* And on and on we

* Go

* Ever easy

- [Alex] Hi, I'm Alex.

- [Jen] I'm Jen, I'm
here to support my dad.

- [Rod] I'm Rod.

I'm here to support my
brother Jude, I guess.

Even though he's decided he's
not coming to group anymore.

He said he'd rather
ride his bike.

* Calling you,
calling you home *

- He's mad at me because

I was trying to talk
to him about - dying.

All I got was this mini lecture
about conservation of energy

how it can't be
created or destroyed,

it's just transferred
between systems.

Honestly, I don't
know how to do this.

I really don't.

And the way things are going,

I don't think we have much time.

I'm sorry.

- I'm Liz, I'm here
with my husband William.

[Liz] I get feeling crazy
powerless just watching.

- That was fast.

- [Alice] Yeah, I don't
really belong in there.

I know how much you
love this group,

but I'm not sick like they are.

- You're only as sick
as your secrets, right?

- [Jax] Worse-case scenario,
we sell the company.

- [May] Worse-case scenario,

we run away and join the circus.

- We could always do
the high wire act.

- [May] I hear there is a great
demand for trapeze artists.

- All we need is
bridge financing.

- I'd make an excellent lion
tamer. (imitates whip snapping)

- [Jax] I'm doing
the best that I can.

- [May] Just trying
to be funny here.

- And dramatic!

- How did we get
so dysfunctional?

- We work too much.

- [Katie] When I go
to the circus, I could
ride an elephant!

(May sighs)

- [Scott] You need
a compelling topic

and a strong thesis statement.

- [Keegan] It is a
compelling topic.

- It's possible that our
three-dimensional universe

is actually floating in a
four-dimensional universe,

and that we are
living in a membrane

around the event horizon

of a collapsed
four-dimensional star.

So our stars, nebula,
planets, even us

may be part of that membrane

and that its expansion
might be caused

by motion through a higher
dimensional reality.

- Yeah.

- You need to use terse
sentence structure, be concise.

Explain that to me in a way

that I can understand,
in English.

(both laughing)

- [Sam] Julia.

- Sam!

Hey.

Andrew, this is
Sam; Sam, Andrew.

Yeah, oh my gosh,
I'm bumping into you,

working out as per usual.
- Yeah.

- Making me, shaming me
right now, that's okay,

- Well, I'm not gonna keep you.

- Okay, take care.
- All right, well,

I'll see you around.
- Okay, okay.

- [Sam] Take care.

- So that's The Sam?

- Yes, that's The Sam.

- You okay?

- Well, I met with
Eva the other day.

- [Lily] Okay.

- We talked a bit.
- Okay.

- I found a way to
communicate with her, and...

- [Lily] How is she?

- She's, you know, she's
mad at stuff that happened,

but it's mostly, it's mostly
at me, for what it's worth.

- What about Nora?
- I don't know.

I don't think there's any
opening there at the moment.

- [Lily] It's kind of
strange, I suppose.

- Yeah.

- I don't know them at all.

Anymore, I guess, I don't know.

- I just hope it...

You know, I hope we can
get somewhere this time.

- Me too.

- Thanks love, thank you.

- [Lily] What can I do?

(Lily smooches)

[Lily] I guess,
whatever you gotta do.

(receptionist speaks
faintly on PA)

(telephone ringing)

(Alice exhales)

- [Alice] (sighs) I think
I need to call a cab.

- I think you need
to sit down. Here.

You all right?

- Yeah.

A little woozy.

- [Anne] Alright, I'm gonna
call someone to pick you up.

who is your emergency
contact person?

(juicer whirs)

- Here you go, my
ultimate hangover cure.

I'm sure it'll work.

You know, Alice, I can stay here

with you until you feel better.

- You gonna hold my
hair while I barf?

(Madison laughs)

(scrub brush rasping)

[Alice] Comfort.

Support.

Help.

Kindness.

Sympathy.

Generosity.

Consideration.

(rain pattering)

(cell phone beeps)

(phone rings)

- [Aidan] What's up, Dad?

- [Raymond] What's up buddy?

How you doing?

- Good.

I mean, a lot of people
went on my server tonight,

so that's good.

- [Raymond] Are you getting
any work done though?

- [Aidan] Well, a
bit of math work.

- You're not watching TV while

you're doin' it though, are you?

- Oh my God, deja vu.

- You can't do that, you
gotta just turn off the TV.

You're not really concentrating
if you have the TV on.

- Well, I guess I have no
choice but to trust you.

(Raymond laughs)

- Well I didn't do so great
at your age with math either,

but I think you have a
good brain for it, Aid.

I think you should
stick with it.

- [Aidan] Okay,
well I gotta go now.

- [Raymond] What's for dinner?

- [Aidan] I am having
like a Cesar salad.

- [Raymond] Okay
well you go and eat

and I'll pick you up
regular time Friday, okay?

- Yeah.

- [Raymond] I love you, buddy.

Take care.

- [Aidan] Bye.

- That's my boy.

* Oh

* We climb

* Free fall

* The light

* Here comes

* The fall

* Ready

* We are

- [Interviewee] To the extent
that I've experienced love,

I guess I feel lucky.

Maybe it happens again,
maybe it doesn't.

But it's a mistake to think

that life is a
failure if I don't.

(slow piano music)

It will feel that way though.

- [James] I really like Eva.

- [Kate] Wow, that's big.

- [James] Yeah.

- [Kate] But?

- [James] Remember Margot?
- The fiddle player?

Oh no!

- [James] Oh, yeah.

I didn't, like--
- okay, you didn't penetrate.

- No.
- But you did everything else.

(both laughing)

- No.
(both laughing)

And I had to tell her,
well, there's no way

we're doin' anything, you
lunatic, because you're married.

And I love your husband as well.

- [James] When people really
go with their feelings,

go with what's with
truthful at any time,

I don't know, like, what's
right or wrong, really?

- Yeah.

With Joe and me, we were
both married to other people

and then we had this hot affair.

(both laughing)

There was a point there where
we both felt dishonorable

to ignore the love.

Like the love was this
big thing, you know?

- The love between--
- The love between--

- You two?
- the two of us.

And then my husband, my former
husband, found my journals,

and then I was kicked
out of the house.

- Oh no.
- Yeah, yeah.

- It was really painful.
- Jesus.

- People get over it, though.

I mean the kids got over it.

I thought the kids would
never get it over it.

- They did?
- kids got over fine.

'Cause I'm always a little
embarrassed when people ask,

how did you, I go, oh
yeah, we knew each other.

But the real story
is we fell in love

while we were in long-term
relationships with other people.

- [Sam] So you're still
friends with your ex husband.

- [Julia] Yes. He's my
ex, and he's my friend.

- [Sam] What kind of
relationship do you
think we're having?

Not a Capital R relationship.

- [Julia] Yeah, sucked at that.

- It wasn't so bad.

- [Julia] Revisionist.

- [Sam] Terrible.

- [Julia] Fundamentally
incompatible.

- But otherwise--
- sexually compatible, yeah.

- Not a friendship, exactly.

- You're not my friend?

You seem awfully friendly
for my non-friend.

(both laughing)

- Some kind of ship,
what kind of ship?

- Ass-ship.

Space-ship.
- Mm, in orbit!

(both laughing)

- Fuck me.

(Sam moans)

Mm, a fuck-ship! (laughing)

- [Sam] A fuck-ship?

We're having a fuckship!

(both laughing)

- [Julia] All aboard, hmm.

- He just approached
me and said,

"Do you wanna go
out for coffee?"

And I was already having one.

- She was attracted to me first.

- He didn't seem interested
in me at all. (laughing)

- I'm thinking
coffee or something.

He said, "You can come and stay
here with me, there's room."

Uh...

- I'd actually seen Julian
probably like a year before.

I was very attracted to
him but I kind of knew

that I wasn't really
ready for anything.

- I'm looking for
where I'm gonna sleep

and where I'm gonna
put my suitcase.

And there was one bedroom.

- (laughs) So you knew
he was up to something,

- So I said, "The problem is,
I don't wear anything to bed

"when I go to bed."

That's okay, I'm a gentleman.

(both laughing)

He was.

- My sister said to me
wouldn't it be funny

if you married Zen,
and I says, nah, never.

(both laughing)

- Look what happened.
- Yes.

- 55 years later.

- 17 years and it was a mistake.

It was a terrible,
terrible, terrible mistake.

- That was the first time I
ever put that trust out there

and just kind of felt
like the universe

would just kind of
bring us back together.

(fiddle music)

- [Interviewee] We had been
together for about a month.

He told me, "I like you a
lot, do you like me a lot?"

And I said, yeah
I like you a lot.

And then he said,
"Like, like love me?"

And then I said it... (laughing)

He bullied me into telling
him that I loved him first.

- She says before I even
get a chance to say it.

She's like, "I think
I'm in love with you."

And I said the same
thing to her too,

I think I'm in love
with you as well.

I don't love you,
I'm in love with you.

Being in love is this state,
this state of euphoria,

where everything is okay,
everything feels right.

(switch clicks)

(camera beeps and clicks)

- Here we go.

Do you tell people you're
lovers with that you love them?

I love you. (laughing)

Does that answer your question?

(sirens wailing)

- [Steve] You ever
thought about jumping?

- [Alice] Not in the end
my life kind of way but,

more in the process kind of way.

The process of jumping and

that moment of weightlessness.

I'm not too crazy about what
happens after that though.

- I used to jump off of
the tops of highschools

when I was a kid, you know,
the snowplow would come around

and they'd push all
the snow banks up,

and we would jump off like the
third story into a snowbank.

So I'm not actually
afraid of jumping,

and I'm not really
afraid of heights,

but there's something...

- The inevitable splat.

- The deceleration trauma.

- Deceleration trauma.
- The cement poisoning.

- Right, the road rash.
- The asphalt overdose.

- The blunt force trauma, yeah.

(sirens wailing)

No, I just like to watch.

It all looks so
orderly from up here.

So chaotic when
you're down there.

(soft music)

- Okay.
- See you in the morning?

- Yeah.

I'll be back for
breakfast, get some sleep.

- Yeah, have a good night.
- You too.

(slow piano music)

* So you came

* And watched me falling

* Can't afford

* The fall you showed me

* Love of my life, love of
my life, love of my life *

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Life

* Baby you go

* stowing in the night

* And I love who we are

* Where we go

* Oh oh. Whole world waits.

* Oh

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Love of my life, love of my

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* (In car) Love of my
life, love of my life *

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Love of my life, love of my

* Life

* Love of my life.

(garage door whirring)

(garbage clattering)

(punching in code)

(recycling bin rumbling)

(electricity humming)

- [Alice] Fancy.

Pine.

Jones.

Need.

Ache.

Want.

- [Interviewee] It's easy
for me to tell people

that I love them. (laughing)

- [Interviewee] Nope, I
can't, it's really hard.

- [Interviewee] Not many people
wanna exchange those words.

And so I've become a little
bit uptight about it.

- [Interviewee] It's not
an easy thing to say,

which I think is good.

- [Interviewee] But
there's a side of me

that just wants to gush it out.

- [Interviewee] For me, actions
speak louder than words.

- [Interviewee] I grew
up in an atmosphere

where nobody said I love you.

- [Interviewee] My dad is good
at showing that he loves us.

But saying it has always been
a bit of a challenge for him.

- [Interviewee] I've only
told a handful of people that.

And every time I said it, it
was difficult, but I meant it.

- Yes, I do find it
easy to tell people

that I love them,
although I never do.

- It's hard for me
to say it first.

- 'Cause then you'll be
the one that gets dumped.

- But when other people
say it, it's like yes!

You said it first.

- I don't wanna be
put in that category

where people use it
randomly and flippantly.

- I told my mom that I
love her the other day.

Out of the blue.

- Sully's dad says I
love you a lot to him.

- And at one point you must
have said, "I love you more."

And I said, oh my
God, I love you more.

- I love you, Ma, and she said,

"You know how important is
that for me, thank you."

- You hug each other a lot.
- Mm-hmm.

- Yeah.

- Because Daddy's warm.

- Daddy's warm. (laughs)

(mid-tempo music)

- [Interviewee] When you
tell someone you love them,

it causes all
sorts of reactions.

Whatever your baggage around
love is can be called up

and you don't wanna feel it,
or you might be really needy

and wanna be loved,
and so you grasp it.

And once you feel open,
you're feeling Life.

And that's kind of scary
to feel it in its largeness

and how big it is.

Most people don't really
wanna feel all that stuff.

(mid-tempo music)

- [Kate] So, Eva.

- Mm.
- Do you love her?

Or do you think it
may just be lust?

- I love who she is, like,
she touches a part of me.

Yeah, it's more than lust.

But to be honest,
right now I'm not...

I'm in a bit of a
complicated place,

in like relationships
in general.

- I don't know if it's
just lust, that seems to me

like one of the cleanest things.

It's like you can step in it

and you can step
right back out of it.

It's like you can swim in it.

You can get, you know,
like, totally enraptured,

and then leave.

(James laughing)

- I love you because
you're such a troublemaker.

- You know what?

To be honest with you,

I have a very high
tolerance for mess.

[Kate] And sometimes
it's really worth it.

- [Raymond] How's
your mom doin'?

- [Aidan] Oh, she's
been keepin' the house

surprisingly cleaner than usual.

- [Raymond] And you're not
givin' her too much grief?

You're helping out?

- [Aidan] Well recently
she's been thinking

about getting a pet.

- Really?
- A hamster or a gerbil.

I thought she was
allergic for a long time,

but apparently she isn't.

Oh, I wanted to tell you
- you owe me 130 dollars.

- [Raymond] Do you
have that written down

in your little book?

- Yeah.
- 'Cause I'm gonna need

to see some proof.

(sighs) Is it weird for you?

Are you adjusting to
me not livin' there?

- [Aidan] Yeah, it's
definitely weird,

but I'm gettin' used to
it, it's a lot cleaner.

(keyboard clacking)

- [Madison] How are you feeling?

- [Alice] I'd rather
talk about Charlie

than how I feel.
- No, we're not gonna

talk about Charlie,

- He's got a really nice bum.

(Madison laughing)

- What are you doing
looking at my husband's bum?

- Looks are free.

- I better make sure
I keep an eye on you

next time he comes
around. (laughing)

so um, has anyone been
coming to your website?

- Mostly just Charlie.

I wasn't making
the website to find

the perfect man, I just...

I don't even know if I know
what love is, you know?

I wanted to find out, I wanted
to feel it inside myself and

sometimes I'm
scared I don't even,

I don't even know how to love.

I'm so tired of being scared.

- [Madison] There's
nothing to be scared about.

(sirens wailing)

- [Charlie] The other night
I was standing by the window.

And I played it out in my
head, I get the phone call,

your wife's been
struck by a streetcar.

Why a streetcar, I don't know.

I go to the hospital,
I I.D. the body.

And then I go home,
and I'm here again.

Only this time you're
never coming back.

I feel like I'm goin' crazy.

I don't think it's
good to be alone.

I think we need more cats.

(mid-tempo music)

* Oh

* Oh

* Calling you,
calling you home *

- [Rod] He's always been like
this, even when he was a kid.

He's so stubborn!

- [Steve] Do you
know where these go?

- No idea.

I'm his executor, so I'm
gonna be stuck with this mess.

I really don't know why
he won't just talk to me.

Deal with it, say
something, anything.

- Well, he's a stubborn guy.

(acoustic guitar music)

(snow shovel rasping)

* Ah

- [Mum] Raymond,
what are you doing?

- [Raymond] Shovelin'
the driveway.

- I can do that.

(mother tuts)

(shovel clatters)

(Raymond thuds on ground)

(blinds rattle)

(birds calling)

(door latch clicks)

(kids shout faintly)

(bird calling)

(Mum and Raymond chuckling)

- It's 43,000 dollars
for tuition alone.

Mom's killing herself working
to cover my living expenses.

- Well, you're definitely
scholarship material.

- I don't know, I
might just stay here.

They've got a pretty good
astrophysics program.

- Or you can take a risk

and go to the best research
program in the world.

- It's such a long shot though.

- Well apparently there's 50
billion stars in our galaxy.

It's a metaphor.
- A metaphor.

- Mm-hmm, look, there's
endless possibilities,

if you're open to them.

- I wish; my universe?

It's (chuckling) kinda
just my mom and me.

- This is actually great.

I can argue with you
and you don't talk back.

This works for me. (chuckling)

(reads) 'How many people
have you had sex with?'

How many people have
YOU had sex with?

See, I can only do this
'cause it's only the camera,

'cause if you were here
I'd get hit right now.

(Charlie click
his tongue at cat)

Well you see, there's more
than one woman in my life.

How did you know
you were in love?

Why are these in past tense?

How did you know
you WERE in love?

I am in love; how
do know I'm in love?

I know I'm in love
'cause I'm sitting here

talking to this camera.
(Madison chuckles)

When Alice first got diagnosed,
I'm so glad you were there.

And I'm not saying you
should change, 'cause

what you're doing is, I know.

But you're kinda
not here, like ever.

And

I don't like it.

And I know you gotta be
where you are right now

but I just

I just wish...

I feel so...

Your best friend has cancer.

If you weren't there
for her, you know...

I get it, I just
uh, I'm here too.

(mid-tempo music)

* I fill you up, this empty
cup, I'll make you happy *

* All that is hard
- We gotta rush,

Mommy's gotta get to work.

* From my heart to
make you happy *

- [Alice] Why don't
you just tell her

the company's in trouble?

Maybe this proposal will
land a big contract.

But what if it doesn't?

* And oh, my love

- [Katie] I got a
surprise for you.

* You are the road I take

* And oh, my love

- [Jax] Okay, so six weeks
for the database development.

- [Alice] I'll send
you the tech specs.

- We can't live without
you, Alice. (chuckling)

* I'll be the cure
- Bye.

* All that is pure
- Bye.

* I'll make you happy

* And every day
I'm on my knees *

* Here to lie, here to please

* And every day I'm overthrown

* Here awhile. Gone tomorrow

- [Madison] Hey.

- Hey. Thanks Mads.

- You hungry?
- No.

- [Madison] Okay.

* On and on
(Alice clears throat)

- [Nora] I've written
about 73 on cue cards,

and I need your help with these.

- Okay.
- So I have devotion, crush.

And I like this one
a lot because you
know when you're like

really into someone and you
have like a crush on them,

and then they break up with
you and you're crushed?

Idolize, because I idolize you.

- Aw.
- I have appreciate,

fond, fuck.

- Fuck is a funny
one. (chuckling)

But I think it fits.

- When I think of love,
like loving a dude,

I think of like you
know sex and then

everyone doesn't call it
sex or making love anymore,

they call it fucking,
which I think is stupid.

But then when you're done
with them you're like,

fuck, I shouldn't
have done that, fuck!

- That is a good one.
- Air high five!

(Nora laughing)

- [Julia] Do sexy face.

- Julia--
- Lemme show you.

This is yours.

Do a face.

(Sam hisses)

(both laughing)

That's your face, that's scary.

- Let's go out for
dinner Saturday.

- Really, no way,
I don't think so.

- I'm serious.

- Now I'm sad.
- It's just a dinner.

At a restaurant.

- I'm gonna miss you--
- Don't do that.

- Don't sink the fuckship.

- [Madison] I um, I want you
to take a look at something.

- What is it?
- Take a look at it.

- [Interviewee] Be yourself.

Do not be what you think the
other person wants you to be.

- [Interviewee] It's not
necessary to have a main person.

You can have all sorts
of kinds of love.

You don't know how--
- What do you think?

- To find it.
- One of the most beautiful

gifts to share
with another person

is to be open to everything
that's going on in the moment.

- What is this, Mads?

- I thought you'd like it.

- You always act like I'm
some kind of screw-up.

- It was really
not that, I just...

- [Alice] You were
just so sure nobody

would visit my website, huh?

- I just wanted to
do something for you.

- [Interviewee] The
only way to know love

is to experience it,
however difficult that is.

- [Interviewee] And you have
to be willing to be hurt,

because you're gonna be
hurt if you love somebody.

- Really willing to
get completely mashed.

- Well we're humans
so we make mistakes.

- Yeah.

- [Interviewee] It's inevitable.

(soft music)

(kids shouting faintly)

(intergalactic whooshing)

- [Keegan] We can
actually see what happened

13.7 billion years ago
through a telescope.

- [Scott] The birth
of the universe?

- [Keegan] Yep, And
since light travels

at 9.6 trillion
kilometers a year,

the further away from Earth
the telescope is looking,

the earlier into the past
it's actually seeing.

- So I wonder who's 13.7
billion years in the future

looking at us now.

- [Keegan] Yeah, they'll
be taking pictures of us

10 billion years after
the end of the earth.

- Thank you.
- I can't believe

you haven't read Vonnegut.

- [Keegan] It's cold out!

So cold.
- So cold.

- Think of it less like
becoming a degenerate hophead

and more like hunger therapy.
(Alice chuckles)

I always think of it
as a saxophone almost,

like you can lay
down some sweet jams.

- It kind of looks
like a tympanic auger

to release the evil
from within your brain.

(Alice imitates drill whirring)

(bong whistles)

- You gotta do a little
Sleepy Hollow, I call it.

(Steve exhales heavily)

- [Alice] I got this.

- Okay.
- All right.

(bong whistles)

- I am totally picking up
what you're laying down here.

This is good, this is
some sweet licks...

(both laughing)

- Oh, yeah.
- Okay, down the hatch.

(pizza crackling)
- Mm, hmm. (laughing)

- Baby steps, right?
- This is good.

(gentle guitar music)

- [Interviewee] When
I was a teenager

I was much more attached to
this kind of deep loneliness

that I wanted to have soothed.

(gentle music)

I just had all these feelings
of hurt and not being loved,

and so I associated love with
having those things fulfilled.

* Ready

- [Interviewee] As I've grown
older and I've gone through

a lot of different
experiences with people,

I no longer feel
that it's related

to needing to be loved
by somebody else.

* We are

- [Carolyn] Any needs that
I have aren't gonna be fixed

by quote unquote love,

because wanting
someone to do that

actually takes me out of love.

(gentle guitar music)

- Hello Wonderland, I'm
making you a mix tape.

Are you sitting down?

Good, I want you
to hold yourself

in your mind's eye, like a vase.

Not too tight that
you might break it.

And not too loose
that it might fall.

Gently.

And repeat after me.

May I be well,

may I have peace of mind,

may I be free of suffering,

may I be filled with love,

may I be happy.

Now, in your mind's eye,
picture someone you love.

And repeat after me.

May you be well,

may you have peace of mind,

may you be free of suffering,

may you be filled with love,

may you be happy.

- [Alice] Appreciate.

Engage.

Delight.

Amuse.

Assist.

- If an alien asked me
how to describe love...

- Do you want me to
pretend you're the alien?

- It would be a long answer.

- First I'd ask them
if they speak English.

- I would explain to the
alien, like, you know,

this is just a biological drive.

- It's the reason
why people fight.

- [Interviewee] I'd imagine
maybe the alien would ask

for access codes to
Earth's defense systems.

- They are aliens from
a different planet.

They know every word in the
English language but love.

You need to explain it to them.

- Mm, hmm.

- It's when for a brief moment
you stop loving yourself more

and you direct all that
affection and interest

and focus on - another alien.

(Steve laughing)

- Ah, looking good Wonderland.

(gentle music)

- [Interviewee] If there
happened to be actual aliens

out there, maybe they
would be able to teach us

a lot about love. And might
have a much, much more

sophisticated understanding
and experience of love,

and that would be amazing.

(slow piano music)

- [Madison] Yes, we can.

- The RFP is a disaster.

I'm just asking you to give
the budget a reality check.

- [Katie] Back.

* Love of my
- Okay, now your turn.

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Love of my life

- You know I appreciate you.

Okay, bye.

(gentle music)

(Alice speaks faintly)
(Madison chuckling)

- Stop saying things like
that, you are normal...

- You know...

- I just don't feel normal.

- [Katie] Huh?

- Now let's see, eek.

Gently.
* Love of my

- [May] Oh, sorry.

* Love of my life
(laughing)

* Love of my life,
love of my life *

* Love of my life, love of
my life, love of my life *

(May and Katie imitating ducks)

* Life
(Katie giggles)

(Katie laughing)

- [Raymond] I'm walking around
with a huge hole in my heart.

Can you cauterize that?

And I don't know who I am

and I'm not sure
what the hole is,

- perfect, thanks.

Or if it's a new me.

It's hard for me to
sort out. I'm a bit...

a bit at sea right now.

- You've got some baggage there.

- You know, I'm,

I'm separated from my wife.

And uh

I'm laying out there
and I've, I've--

- I haven't said no yet.

- I guess I was arming for no.

Thank you.

(Raymond sighs)

Oh, God.

(sirens wailing)

- [James] 'Sexual passion is
portrayed in myth as a force

more powerful than any other.

Capable of driving humans
and gods alike into actions

against their will,

often ending in tragedy.'

- 'Against their will'.

(both laughing)

(waves lapping)

(birds twittering)

- [Eva] So where...did
you have fun last night?

You know.
- I was with Kate.

- [Eva] I'm not trying
to put you on the spot.

I'm just wondering.
- She's a friend.

- I know.
- We're just like,

- [Eva] But you'd
rather hang our with her

than hang out with me?

- I don't think you have to
worry about her, necessarily.

Or anyone particularly.

- Men and women should be
able to hang out without--

- They should--

- [James] People
getting jealous.

- Thinking, (chuckling) is
that what it seems like?

Am I...Am I being jealous?

- Um--
- Am I being paranoid?

- I'm not interested in
messing with her life.

(scoffs) Like that, or my life.

- This just got really awkward.

- [James] Hold on a second.

- Okay.

- I was wondering, um,

do you wanna move in with me?

(Eva laughing)

- What? Yes!

- You sure?

(both laughing)

- What is with you men?

- Don't shoot me, just
here to pick up my mail.

- You're always trying
to take a relationship

and make it be what
you want it to be.

As opposed to just
letting it be what it is.

- Men are terrible.
(Julia sighs)

- I don't wanna get married,
I just got divorced.

No offense.
- None taken.

- Look at this.

What do you think?

- [Andrew] I think
what you think

is more important
than what I think.

- It's Sam's way of apologizing.

- For what, exactly?

- He asked me out for
dinner. In a restaurant.

- So now dinner is the gateway
drug to marriage? (laughing)

- Fine.

Dinner. In a restaurant.

(wine splashing)

- [Andrew] Was that so bad?

- [Julia] Yep.

* Oh I love (singing faintly)

* (Singing faintly) tremble
down (singing faintly) *

- You look amazing.

- I dolled up a bit. (chuckling)

* I'm gonna stay

* For days and days, but
I'm gonna do it anyways *

* And I might lose control

* But I won't go

(singing faintly)

(cutlery clinking)
(patrons chattering)

- You know what I'm thinking?

- [Julia] (chuckling)
You're thinking

you're ready for a
capital R relationship.

- Yes.

* No I'm not, no

* Sometimes it takes

- [Sam] But, it doesn't
have to be with you.

* I'm waiting on the side

* And I like the view
from the outside *

* In the fallin' in rain

* But I don't really mind,
I don't really mind *

- Cheque please. (laughing)

- [Anne] Oh hey, how
did it go with Sonja?

- (laughing) Oh,
man, I don't know.

So I think that's probably
bad, it was a little um

awkward.

- Oh dear.
- How do you tell

the difference between like
a meaningful romantic stare

and someone that's
trying to communicate

important information
about a patient, you know?

- [Anne] Well you're asking
the wrong person there.

I'll tell you that, but--
- You're not having any...

- I'm not having any, no.
- Success?

- Just nothing.
- Just nothing.

- Are you even trying?
- Online dating?

- [Raymond] No, I
don't come off well.

- I'm not sure I'm
good at that either.

Cooking class or something.

- Kayaking.
- Yoga.

- I think kayaking
you would meet people.

- I'm pretty shy.
- Yeah.

- Like I don't, I don't
know that I can be myself.

I don't know at first--

- There's a lot of
red flags here, Anne.

I feel like you're this
close to spinsterhood.

Do you like--
- I think you might be

exaggerating there, but.

- Let's be each
other's wing man.

We could be having fun, 'cause
that's really attractive

when people are having fun.

And there'll be cultural
events, so we would be laughing

and enjoying each
other's company.

And then we would
draw people to us.

And have like a signal, yeah,
like anything with the nose.

- Yeah.
(both laughing)

- Like Dr. Phil says put
yourself in a target-rich area.

I don't know.
- Does he say that?

- [Raymond] He does.

- [Scott] So like
parallel universes.

- [Keegan] Kind of more
like the unified multiverse.

- [Scott] So you're saying
why is there something

rather than nothing?

- [Keegan] Well nothing's just

the absence of something, right?

So it kind of
presupposes existence.

- [Scott] You know what I mean.

- The Big Bang just
doesn't make any sense.

- Right, it can't
just make itself exist

unless it's already there.

- If there really is
this big explosion

that we're cooling
down from, then,

I mean, it wouldn't be
a uniform temperature.

There'd have to be some
sort of heat exchange.

The temperature in space
is the same everywhere.

All of space the same, 2.7
degrees above absolute zero.

But why?

- Well, that's what
you're gonna figure out.

- [Keegan] It's not just how
things work in the universe

that makes it so amazing.

- Yeah, it's that it
exists in the first place.

- My theory is the
multiverse loves us.

It's just waiting for us to
understand it and love it back.

(insects chirring)

(telephone ringing)

- [Jax] I'm not prepared
to discuss this here.

- Here is the only
place I see you awake.

- That is not at all fair.

- Do you guys need a referee?

- We need a therapist.

- [Jax] May thinks
I'm a workaholic.

- You are.

- Therapists aren't
supposed to take sides.

I think you think that if
you're not the perfect boss,

or the perfect mom or have
everything totally together,

that the sky's gonna fall in.

- The sky already fell in.

(soft music)

(piano music)

- [Interviewee] Everybody's
gonna die, right?

So it puts everything
in perspective.

It's selfish when somebody
dies and you miss them

'cause it's not saying,
I'm sad you're not living,

it's, I'm sad I don't
have you around.

- [Interviewee] Sometimes I
say to myself I just can't die.

I just can't die just
yet, because little things

like just making sure they
brush their teeth every night.

(laughing) Or you know, just
that tenderness sometimes,

just taking that extra breath.

It's just the realization

that I'm not gonna
be around forever.

(man speaks faintly on radio)
- Yep.

Yep, they're looking for a
palliative bed right now. Okay.

Yeah, we'll meet you
there. Okay, bye.

(man speaks faintly on radio)

- [Interviewee] My
mother has really been

a pretty strong
person in my life.

When she died I
was alone with her.

And I was talking to her
and for a long, long time,

you know, I was trying to
tell her how much I loved her.

And then after about
an hour of this,

the doctor came up and
said, "She's gone."

And I didn't know that she
was gone because, you know,

I had been so wrapped up in
just sharing things with her.

It wasn't really sad because
she lived such a full life.

It was quite natural.

- [Interviewee] When we
really, really love someone

and they're gone, it's...

I mean they're gone.

We find something
else to distract us

or find someone else to love and

do we ever totally
recover from that loss?

Maybe, I don't know though.

I think just things
shift, life changes.

- Nice bike.
- Yeah,

my baby brother
left me his bike.

I think he was hinting
I should probably

exercise a little more.

- No.
(guests exclaim)

- Anyway, listen I just
wanted to thank all of you

for being there for Jude.

The last few months were
pretty brutal, as you know.

And Jude wanted me to
thank you too today.

He said on Thursday that he
didn't do a good enough job

telling you, each
of you, in person.

He said, and I quote,
"I totally sucked."

- [Alice] You wanna
get out of here?

- [Rod] We all know
Jude wasn't great

at expressing his feelings.
- Yeah.

- But I know that he loved
each of you in his own way.

And I don't know what else to
say, so drinks are on Jude.

- Jude.
- To Jude.

- [Man] To Jude.

(glasses clink)

- [Mum] So what kinds of things
have you been taking him to?

- [Raymond] If you put together
a list of cliched places

where a father and son go,

every movie involving
any kind of action hero

or anything marketed to boys--

(gong resounds)

I think we've hit them all.

Maybe the zoo we
haven't done yet.

- You would have such
a good time there.

- [Raymond] Do you
wanna take him?

- Yeah.
- Okay.

- I'd love to take him.
- Okay.

That would be
perfect, he loves you.

- I'm gonna take him
to the Art Gallery.

- He'd love that.
- Do some sketching.

Get those chairs and we'd sit
there for as long as he wanted

to draw that piece, and then
we'd go find something else.

- That's perfect,
that'd be great.

- That's what you need to
do with Aidan, just be.

Just be like I am with you.

Just love him.

(teacup rattles)

So what is this new
pirate role you have here?

- I think it's actually
more Shakespeare.

(both laughing)

(audience laughing)

- My aunt got divorced and
she started dating again.

And I'm very, very proud of her.

She's 50, She's met
someone, he is 23 years old.

(audience laughing)

Yeah, I don't think they're
gonna work out though,

because she does not want any
more children - and he is one.

(audience laughing)

Sometimes you can tell a
marriage isn't gonna work out

just by the two
people's last names.

When my grandparents got married
his last name was Beaton.

Hers was Payne, resulting
in the Beaton-Payne wedding.

They got divorced.
(audience laughing)

That's all I have.

(audience applauding)
(cell phone ringing)

You missed the entire show.

- Well, I honestly
thought you were on later.

- You said you'd come.

You fuckin' promised it
to me, what the fuck?

- No I did not, I
did not say that.

- [Nora] I don't think
you get it, I love you.

But I'm so done with being

the least important person
in your life, so done.

(rain and thunder)

- [Jax] I know I can be
difficult to get along with.

- [May] You're my
favorite pain in the ass.

- I'm so afraid of failing.

And that you're
gonna figure it out,

and that you're gonna leave me.

- If our company tanks, it
tanks; we can get day jobs.

If our daughter's a complete
disaster when she grows up

and needs years of therapy
to recover, that's life.

- We better start a therapy
savings fund right away.

- You're my person.

No matter what you do.

- Are you still um--
- It's fine.

Everything's fine, we don't
need to go over it again.

- Uh, yes, we do.

You're clearly angry at me.

- I'm not angry at you.

You were angry at me,
so now I feel hurt.

And you accuse me
of things that--

- Are true.

(Eva scoffs)

- Well, see, now we,
here we go again.

- [Interviewee] If my
sister wasn't related to me

(chuckling) we would be
enemies of each other.

But as much as we fight,
there's just as much love.

And it's so weird,
'cause there's no one

who I would fight as much with

and feel so much
like anger with,

but at the same
time as much love.

- [Interviewee] My sister
and I are getting closer

and I feel like
all that hot Hell

of our growing up years
now is cooling off enough

for us to maybe be able to
see each other for who we are.

Rather than for the
big family mess.

- I have a younger brother who
is two years younger than me.

We have a weird way of
working through our fights.

He'll get upset
or I'll get upset.

We'll walk away, we
won't talk to each other

for two or three days.

But then we approach each other

at the end of that time period,

whenever the other
person's ready.

And we'll just go, listen,
it was stupid, I'm sorry

it's okay, it's fine, we
just need our time apart.

That's all it is, and I think
yeah, I guess that's love.

* Hey ho

* Let it go
(speaking faintly)

* And on and on

* We've gone

* Ever easy

* Ever rough

* It's all it

* Ever was

* Oh whoa whoa whoa

* Oh whoa whoa whoa

* Calling you, calling you

* Home

* And all the fires
that we take *

* And all the twists and turns

* And all the grace we gained

* Bare to the bone

* Faded on the page

* We are not alone

* It's the only thing I know

(Keegan laughing)

- Bow, kiss, fight.

No, no.

- [Charlie] Never
sat in one of these.

The bumps, every time, a bump--

- I'm sorry.
- No, it's...

- I can go slow.
- No no no, that's okay.

- [Alice] Here's a
big bump coming up.

- [Charlie] That's all right.

- [Interviewee] The most
important love for me right now

is my friendships.

I didn't grow up in a family

where there was a
lot of intimacy.

It took a long time to
figure out that I could have

another kind of family.

So for me that's the
foundational love in my life.

My friends.

(heavy breathing)

(smooching) - Thanks for
the coffee. (laughing

- [Interviewee] For me, love
is really about trusting.

Almost like blindly
trusting, just like,

if you're going to
love, you just kind of

hand everything
over and let go of

of everything really.

- You're gonna be late
for your dinner date.

- [Interviewee] I still
laugh because I was told,

well you know, it's like
putting a kettle with water

on the stove. You begin
with cold water, and as

the relationship develops,
it becomes warmer and warmer.

And you know, you develop
a deeper relationship.

Whereas nowadays you
young people start

with really hot relationships.

And, well, what can
you go but cool down?

- [Interviewee] The most
important primary love for me

is love with yourself,
because you're the only person

that's gonna be with
yourself forever.

If there's anything that
should be worth working at,

it's a relationship
with yourself.

And then everything
comes from there.

(soft music)

(doorbell rings)

- [Interviewee] My love for
my son is actually something

I would like to
have for the world.

To accept it in all its pain
and confusion and ugliness.

(May and Katie speaking faintly)

- Oh no!
- It's a gift to love

somebody that way, I know that.

- [Jax] What did you
get us for breakfast?

- [Katie] Two cupcakes
and one banana.

- [Eva] Hi Kara.

Cool bike.

- [Kara] I know.

- [Interviewee] Families are
changing and love is changing.

There's a lot less boundaries
and a lot less expectations

for particular kinds of love.

- [Nick] Hey!

- [Interviewee] And
I think that's great.

It's like an evolution of
the experience of love.

- Hey kiddo.

- Hi, Dad.
- You ready to go?

- I am so ready to go.

- That's it?
- That's it.

- [Eva] So there's nothing
in the basement or?

- [Nick] For sure.

- [Kara] Dad, I thought
we were going cycling.

- I just came to get my things.

- Yeah, can we go for
a drink some time?

- I'll think about it.

- I don't think too many people
live entirely without love.

Everybody has friends, or a cat.

(soft music)

- [Interviewee] If you don't
have love in your life,

- Good to see you pal.
- It's like

a piece of you is missing.

- [Raymond] What do you say
about a little pizza tonight?

- [Aidan] Are you
ordering it or making it?

- [Raymond] Hey I think I
better, I better order it.

- [Aidan] That's a
relief 'cause last time

you made it that was horrible,
you burnt everything.

- [Raymond] I even
burnt my hand.

- [Aidan] Dude, that was
like a third degree burn.

* We're lying here
(knocking at door)

- [Madison] Alice?

You ready to go?

- [Interviewee] I think
it's like gravity.

We feel gravity, we
experience it in our lives.

But gravity exists
separately from us.

If there were no humans
there would still be gravity.

Love, we experience as this
amazing powerful thing.

Is it this thing that
exists separately from us

and we happen to be fortunate
enough to experience it?

To me, that feels more true.

But I just don't think
we're anywhere close

to having it figured out.

- [Alice] My life
was so full of love.

And I blinked and I missed it.

- [Madison] You're not dead yet.

(soft music)

- [Interviewee] I'll
spend my whole life

trying to figure it out, but

I think that's what a lot
of people tell themselves.

Once I get it right,
I'll be happy.

* Ooh

* We are

* Oh

* Who

* We are

* Oh

(soft music)

- [Interviewees] Joy.

- Commitment.

- Enjoying someone.

I'm not sure if
that's proper grammar.

Sounds kinda strange to me.

- The only thing that
came to my mind is amour.

(laughing)

- To me that's like asking,

are there other
words for hockey?

Like why, why do we
need other words?

I mean, hockey is
a pretty good word.

- Respect.

- Fun, F-U-N.

- Kindness, humor, tolerance.

I think the big
one is tolerance.

- Terror (laughing),
love is terrifying.

- When I think of
how I love you,

it's just pure acceptance
of everything about you.

- Well there's
bliss and happiness.

But they're all trite.

- Smaller I guess,
parts of love.

Affection and adoration
and endearment.

- The Greeks had four
words for love, agape.

- To like something, to
be crazy about somebody

to feel devotion to somebody.

- There was Eros,
which is the romantic.

- I feel like a thesaurus
when I say those things.

- Philia, which is family love.

- There's many ways
that we communicate

outside of words, it's
expressed non-verbally a lot.

- Work, that's the
main one I think, work.

- Love-hate with a hyphen.

- Yeah, just using a descriptor

plus the word itself.

- The Buddhist's four
immeasurables, I think,

are all kind of in
there somewhere.

- Unconditional for
sure, selflessness.

Universality.

- Equanimity, compassion,
loving kindness and joy.

- Infatuation, desire, empathy.

- Justice.

How can you truly love
without wanting justice

for the other person?

Whatever form that
justice takes.

- There are so many
different words in Spanish

to say so many
different kinds of love.

- Deseo. Which is desire.

- Carere. Amare.

- Respeto. Confianza.

We would trust.

- Fantastic, spectacular.

That's all the words I know.

- I don't think
that there could be

an adequate synonym
for the word love.

- I can't think of a single
one that comes anywhere

near as all-encompassing
as that word, love.

- I think that's it.