303 (2018) - full transcript

This is the first foretaste of the eternal:
having time for love.

Rainer Maria Rilke

lsocitrate...

Through isocitrate dehydrogenase
in alpha-ketoglytarate...

By alpha-ketoglytarate
hydrogenase in...

Yes?

Sorry, can't remember that right now.

Miss Wolf. The citric acid cycle.
ATP isthe...

...energy unit of organic life.
You've got to know that.

Yeah.

With one acid missing,
the cycle is not closed.



I know. Learning by heart
was never my strong point.

But as a biologist, I mean,
if I need it later, then...

I'll ask this.

Then maybe you should
start working for Google.

Well...

I'm sorry. I can't
let you pass like this.

Alright, ladies and gentlemen,
that's it, see you in fall.

Mr. Laube, do you have a moment?

It's about the scholarship.

Unfortunately,
the foundation chose someone else.

Your work was great, one of the best.

And I know that you can use the money
well, better than most in here.

But you've been a bit naive,
haven't you?

Why?



Well, the Adenauer Foundation
is not a liberal think tank.

And your attitude towards American
drones was quite radical.

Radical?
That was all thoroughly researched.

I know, Mr. Laube.
But in politics you have to consider:

What is my goal
and how can I achieve it?

Strategic thinking.
That's what you still have to learn.

And what about attitude?
You did talk about attitude.

I'm sorry, Mr. Laube.
Have a nice summer.

Likewise.

To make yourself really stable
you can do this.

That's right.

Let's do it again.
Starting position.

Did you get the pills?

Yes, I did.
- Ok.

Mom, I don't know if I'll do it.

Jule, please.
We discussed this.

Consider your future...
- Yeah, but it's my decision, ok?

And I can't make this decision alone.
I...

...have to talk to Alex.

He's involved too, right?
- So call him.

I tried, he's not answering.

And maybe that's better.

Why?

I have to speak to him personally. It's
not something you discuss on the phone.

I need to see him.

No.
No, definitely not.

Please don't call him.
Don't tell him, OK?

No, by carpool.
Flying is too expensive this late.

Hi, it's Jan.
From "Share A Ride", yes.

Where are you?

What?

On the website it said 5 p.m.!

Wait...
No, wait!

Hello!

Are you heading west,
like to Cologne?

Not at all, no.

Ok, thanks.

Hello.

Are you heading to Cologne by chance?
- No, sorry. Hamburg.

Thanks anyway.
Safe trip.

Hello.

Are you heading to Cologne?
- Yes, why?

Could you give me a ride?

No, sorry, we're full.

No problem, thanks anyway.

Are you heading to Cologne, by chance?

Yes.

Could you maybe give me a ride?

I had a carpool, but they stood me up.

Now I'm stuck here and...

I'd throw in some gas money.

Or motor oil.

That's ok.
You can come along.

Really? Cool!
- No problem.

Great.

I just need to wash my hands.

O Kay-

Just wait here, 0k?

Perfect, thanks.

See you.
- See you.

Okay.
- All cleaned up?

Jump in.

Alright?
- Yeah, fine.

You can sit here.

Jule.
- Jan, hi.

You hitchhike a lot?

No, first time.

Lucky me.
I asked two people before you.

But they were full or headed elsewhere.

And then you showed up.

Cool ride!
Real nice.

Thanks.

It even has a fridge, right?

Yeah, and an oven.

What model is it?

It's a Hymermobil
on a Mercedes 303 chassis.

Cool.

It's a bit older, right?

No, brand-new.

About 30.

30 years old?

You travel a lot in it?

Not really, no.

But it's yours.
- Yes.

It used to belong to my brother.
- Okay.

We traveled in it a lot,
but now it's mine.

It "used to" belong to your brother?

My brother...
He passed away two years ago.

Shit.
I'm sorry.

It's OK.

Want a sip?
It's still cold.

Sure.
- Shall I open it?

Thanks.

Elderflower?

Homemade?
- Yep.

Cool.

Are you from Cologne?
- No, Berlin.

So what are you doing in Cologne?

Moving on. I'm taking a bus.
To Spain.

Vacation?

No, I'm...
visiting my father.

He lives there?
- Exactly.

In northern Spain.

What do you do in Berlin?

I study biology at the
Humboldt University.

Cool.
- And you?

I study, too.
Political science.

Cool.
- Well, it's a lot of statistics.

I sometimes envy you natural scientists.

Theory, experiment, result:
that has such a nice clarity.

Well, it's not that simple...

I blew my biochemistry exam
this morning.

I'd prefer not to talk about my studies.

Sure, sorry.

May I ask how old you are?

24.

And you?
- Me too.

So we have three more years.

Three years before what?
- Before we turn 27.

When all cool people bail out.

Kurt Cobain, Janis Joplin,
Amy Winehouse, Heath Ledger...

You think so?

Well, that's the saying.
Never heard of it?

I'm totally against suicide,
if that's what you're thinking.

It may sound strange,
but I think suicide's selfish.

I mean, you've solved your own problems.

But your relatives really suffer.

An old friend killed himself seven years
ago and his mom still doesn't speak.

Not a word. She just sits in her yard
and stares into space.

She's totally done for.

You think it's selfish.

I beg your pardon,
but once you're in that place,

you don't evenexistanymore.

You can't think of others.
You can't think at all anymore.

You just want it to stop.
- And it does stop.

You've solved your problems.

But you're not only responsible
for your own life.

It's a fact: The relatives
suffer like hell.

What are you babbling about?
You have no idea what you're saying.

You have this attitude that
the media spreads...

What?
- But you're just talking shit.

Not true at all! I told you
that I witnessed it with a friend.

His mother was so sweet,
and now she's a wreck.

"So sweet."
And your friend, what about him?

But I see the family, too.
They're completely ruined.

That's so fucked up!

No wonder you go to hell
for suicide in most religions.

Is that so?
- As far as I know, yes.

Sorry, I didn't mean to get to you...
- Stop it.

I think this was a bad idea.

I'm not really sociable at the moment.
I think...

...you should maybe find another ride.

Sam!-
_ okay-

Illa:-

I'll take the next exit.

Her brother!

Fuck!
Fuck...

MY Phone.
No! Jule!

Jule!

Listen, I'm taking a pit
stop, I gotta take a nap.

You can crash in the bottom bunk if
you like. - OK, cool. Great, thanks.

No, everything's fine.

I'm on my way to see you.

Yeah, with the RV.

Aren't you happy?

Alex, I'll call you right back.

Yes?

I'm admiring your RV.

We have an RV, too.

It's practical. Room for the kids.
But your ride, it's just...

...fantastic.

A cult model!

Thanks.

I'm Torge.

Hello. Jule.

These are the original furnishings!

Awesome.

And the AC still works?

No, hasn't for a long time.

Do you have a glass of water for me?

Sure, yeah.

I'll go brush my teeth.
- Go ahead.

And then in the other direction, right'?

You're pretty.

Can you please leave now.

Why?
- Because I say so.

You leave now.

No.

Leave or I'll call the police.

You smell so good.

Come here.

Hands off!

Jule, it's Jan. Can you open up?
I left my phone with you.

Come in, it's open!

Get out.

Get out!
- Thanks for your hospitality.

Piss off.

Piss off!
- Have a nice evening.

He has my phone.

Give me the phone.
- Piss off!

Stupid asshole, I'll kill you.

Cunt!

Piss off!

Shit, are you OK?

Wait, I'll get water.

Yeah, take off, asshole!

Open up.

Alright?

One more time, here.

Sorry I sprayed you, too.
I panicked.

At least you got that guy.
- Shit, your eyes are so red.

So are yours.

We look like zombies.

You came out of nowhere.

A truck driver picked me up.
I was sleeping in his truck.

No way, what a coincidence.
If you hadn't shown up...

Fuck.

Eye drops?

Alright?

You know karate or something?

A bit, yeah.

So there was no need for the pepper spray.
- Yes, there was.

Can you do me, too?
- Sure.

He was pretty skilled.

I think he knew martial arts.
Ex-soldier or something.

Open your eyes.

A frustrated ex-soldier.

Exactly. Thrown out for
lack of intelligence.

Couldn't find the trigger anymore.

What an asshole.

Did you see his shoes?

Men in white socks and sandals,
let me tell you: They're the worst.

I'll remember that.

So you're on your way to Bilbao
to see your father.

Does he work there?
Or are your parents divorced?

No, I grew up with my stepfather and...

...the guy in Bilbao is my biological father.
I've never met him.

Wow.

And why is that?
I mean...

I didn't know that my stepfather
wasn't my real father until I was 17.

And last month I asked my mother...

...to put me in touch with
my biological father.

Three days ago, he called.

I was just watching a game show on TV.
Totally absurd.

Crazy.

And, I mean...

...how did you find out? That
your stepfather isn't your father?

Well...
- Long story?

Yeah, kinda.
- OK. You don't need to...

Sorry I threw you out this afternoon.

It's just that...

...my brother was really 27
when he committed suicide.

So it's a sensitive topic for me.

I figured.

Sorry that I...

Headache?

Wanna smoke some weed?
To relax. I brought some.

No, thanks.

But you can if you want!
- No need.

Beer's enough.

I guess I'm just really tired.

OK, then...

...thanks for the beer.

I'll let you get some sleep.
- Listen...

Would you mind sleeping here tonight?

You know, if this guy turns up again,
I'm a bit...

No, sure. I can do that.
- Really? Great, that's...

Thanks.
- Sure thing.

Jule, sure you don't want the bed? I'm
the guest, I should sleep on the floor.

In India, I slept on the floor
for six months. Without a mat.

It's good here.

Very comfortable.

It's your back.

Do you have a favorite dream?

What?

A favorite dream.

Yes, flying. I love
to dream of flying.

Really?
So do I!

What, really?
You too fly at night?

Yeah, over the city, with my arms set back.
Like Superman.

I feel so super free then.
Everything is possible.

And how do you take off?

I usually jump off a table
or a wall or something.

And then, shortly before I hit the
floor, I do a body twist...

...turn on my stomach and fly away.

With my arms close to the body,
like a ski jumper.

Wicked.

Have a nice flight.

You, too.

Hey!

Good morning!
- Good morning.

I thought you'd left already.

Oh no, I just didn't wanna wake you up.

I was having breakfast with Manni,
my trucker friend.

Oh, okay.

Did you dream of flying?

No, unfortunately not.
And you?

Neither.
We should have smoked that pot.

Yeah, maybe.

I gotta go. Manni has to reach Paris today.
- Right, OK.

Thanks again.

For yesterday.
- Sure thing.

Well, take care then.
- You too.

Good luck.

Safe trip.
- You too.

Bye.
- Ciao.

Jan, hang on.
Could you come back for a sec?

I could also take you a little further.

Really?
- Yeah, sure.

Well, great!
I'd love that!

Unless you prefer to ride with Manni.

MannTs musk: taste...

No.

Great.
- I'll grab my stuff.

Cool. See you.
- See you.

To the next leg, right?

Let's see how many miles
we last this time.

Do you mind taking country roads?

Not at all, I'm not in a hurry.

Look, there's a stork!
It's really pretty.

So where are you heading?
You haven't told me yet.

Oh, right.
To Portugal.

Portugal?
Wow. Pretty far.

Yes.

I'm visiting someone.

Your father too?

No.

My boyfriend.

He's doing his PhD there, in Tamera.

What's it on?
- Ecological agriculture.

Permacultures, water retention systems, etc...

Water retention systems?

Not just using water,
but keeping it in the cycle.

Want the details?
- Some other time.

May I?
- Sure.

Absurd, right?
Two tons of steel to move one person?

In 90% of the cars,
there's only one person.

True.
Like me.

Almost.

And you?

Lone wolf or social animal?

Social animal, definitely!
Extremely social!

No, neither one. Some friends,
some acquaintances, the usual.

Leaning towards the lone wolf, maybe.

You know how many people
in Germany live alone?

No idea. 20%?
- 50%.

Crazy.
- Yeah, right?

And you know what?
I think there's a strategy behind it.

Really?

Economic reasons.
- "Economic reasons."

Yes.

Look:

Take four people who
live in four apartments.

They need four fridges, four vacuum
cleaners, four kettles, four...

Flat screen TVs.

Exactly! If they lived together,
they'd only need one of each.

So economically it makes more sense if they
live alone, as they consume more.

A friend wrote his thesis on that:
"Capitalism's Separation Strategy."

That does sound like a thesis.

But being alone is against
human nature, totally!

Humans are social creatures!
Within minutes...

...of being alone, we
secrete stress hormones!

Cortisol and such.
- Wow.

And Cortisol weakens the immune system,
so being alone makes you sick.

But that's what they want.

What?

Us to be unhappy, so we consume more.

You keep saying "they,"
but who are "they" supposed to be?

Executives and politicians
who meet in dark rooms and decide...

"Let's isolate them, so they consume
more and cease to resist."

You can't seriously believe that.

Well, I used to.
- And now?

Now I think it's inherent to the system.
- Inherent to the system?

Yes. Capitalism inevitably leads to
isolation - due to its fundamental principles.

"The Fundamental Principles of Capitalism."
- Yeah, think about it:

From a young age we're taught
to compete with each other.

It starts in school. Who's the best-looking?
Who's the smartest? And so on...

Life has become a permanent audition!

1000 people apply to a
college, only ten get in.

100 people apply for an
apartment, one gets it.

You have to be tougher,
quicker and stronger 24/7!

What a stress!

Well, life's no day at the beach.

Not in capitalism that's for sure.

But that's just how it is:
Competition is in our blood.

Take two kids running across a field:
One will always try to run faster.

How is that related? - It totally
is! It starts there, in that field!

We just LOVE competing.

Competition is fun!
Even jungle warriors compete.

But it's become so extreme!
Nonstop struggle and competition...

The whole world has become
a damn Circus Maximus!

You're exaggerating.

What? The top 5% who own the capital
benefit from the rest scurrying about.

Everyone else just works their asses off,
is unhappy and totally stressed out.

That's not so nice, yeah.

But that's nature's way.

The hard in the garden,
the tender in the pond.

The strongest survive, these
are the rules of evolution.

Says who?

Says Darwin.

Darwin?
- Yes.

Whoa, I don't think
you're up to date there.

Oh, fuck...
I feel sick.

I'm getting off the road.

Oh shit, are you okay?

Have another sip of water.

Oh, shit.

Are you all right?

I hope it's not a sunstroke.
Are you dizzy?

No, it's alright, I guess I just
ate something wrong.

Alright

I hope it's not because of
my pro-capitalist arguments.

No, don't worry.

I already feel better.
I'll wipe off my vomit.

No, no.
Let me do that.

You want to clean off my vomit?

I was a civil servant in
oncology, I'll manage.

O Kay-

Oh, sorry.

All good.
Say, can we go for a walk?

Yeah, sure. Look, there's a
forest back there, a forest walk?

The strongest survive. It's always
been like that. Darwin proved it.

No, Jan.

Darwin said "survival of the
fittest", not "survival of the strongest".

Not the strongest survive,
but those who adapt best.

It can also be the most bizarre.
Take the peacock for example.

The peacock'?
- Yes. Pave Cflstakus.

Peacock!

If only the strong survive, why is there
a bizarre animal like the peacock?

It's neither fast nor strong,
can't even run away.

But it can spread it's tail
to a wonderful fan.

The ladies love it, so it has more babies.

See? In this case not the strongest survived,
but the most bizarre.

There are so many examples.

This "struggle for existence" is
total bullshit.

Darwin was abused by the capitalists.

From the beginning.

But then what about gorillas?

Gorillas fight until only one is left:

The alpha male.

Only the alpha male may reproduce.
It even kills the other males' babies.

And we're all gorillas, or what?

No, but human society works similarly.

We fight until a pecking order is created.
And our economic system accommodates that.

That's why it's the only one that works,
and why communism didn't work.

Objection. Firstly, communism
was a hierarchical system too.

And why? Because everyone wanted
the biggest piece of the cake!

That's why "real socialism" never existed.

Neither in East Germany,
nor in Russia, nor in China.

Mao and Stalin forced a system on
the people that they didn't want.

Because it doesn't fit human nature.

Oh, please don't start with
"communism vs capitalism"...

Thais so 90s
Both systems suck.

The question of the basic principle
is much more interesting.

What advances mankind more?

Competition or cooperation?

Competition.
- Cooperation.

Competition. - Cooperation!
Why else did I give you a ride?

And why did you kick me out?

Come on, you know why. I took you
'cos I felt sorry for you.

What??
You felt sorry for me??

Never heard of compassion,
empathy, mirror neurons?

You were sad. I saw that, felt what
you felt, and got sad, as well.

Empathy! That's why I gave you a ride!
And that's the basis of humanity!

It generates cooperation, which isn't
just nice, but the secret of our success!

Thanks to cooperation, we descend
from Cro-Magnons, not Neanderthals.

Wanna hear more?
- No.

Sure you do.
- No!

Stop it, I'm a gorilla!

They lived at the end of the last Ice Age,
around 25,000 years ago.

In southern France alongside
the Neanderthals.

The Cro-Magnons survived,
while the Neanderthals went extinct.

Know why?

They killed the Neanderthals?
- No.

Because of battue.

It was like this: Neanderthals were lone
wolves who lived in groups of eight to ten.

They fought each other,
and were massive, brawny beings.

Like me.
- More or less.

They needed around 5,000 calories
per day, a lot of meat.

Like me.

Yeah, maybe, anyway...

At the end of the Ice Age, food became
scarce and they started eating each other.

They were cannibals? - In the end.
Then they starved and went extinct.

Now the Cro-Magnons:

They lived in groups of up to 400.

Together , they drove
animals towards cliffs...

...who panicked and fell off them.
Et voila:

They had loads of meat.
Real barbecue parties. - Cool.

Having so much food
gave them time to paint caves.

Their tongues developed,
they started talking.

As the first homo sapiens.

And from the Cro-Magnons we descend.
They're our ancestors.

Really?
- Yes.

They survived because
they cooperated...

...while Neanderthals went extinct.
Battue, that was the success factor!

So the social element was the
decisive factor in enabling humanity!

And now the capitalists want to turn us
back into Neanderthals, get it?

That's a bit one-sided, Jule.
- No, it isn't.

Capitalism is an inhuman,
misanthropic system.

It benefits the 1% at the top,
while the rest of humanity feels miserable.

Sorry, but that's total bullshit.

You act like humans are
peace-loving hippies...

...who give out hugs
all day, but they're not.

Know what they found on Otzi,
that iceman from 5,000 years ago? An ax.

Not a peace pipe, an ax.
- Maybe he was felling trees.

It was a battle ax, for killing.

He had war injuries
and an arrow tip in his shoulder.

That tip severed an artery
and he bled to death.

He was murdered from behind
with a bow and arrow. Bang!

That's what I see when I look at
5,000 years of human history:

Murder and destruction.
People slitting throats.

Tribal genocide, nations attacking
each other, hate, the Holocaust...

...oppression. The history of
mankind is one big bloodbath!

Every 3 seconds there's a murder
in the world. Every 3 seconds!

Right now, a man stabs his wife
because she wants to leave him.

We're not just good, Jule.

We're evil, too.
- Evil.

What about the guy who almost raped you.
Did he want to cooperate?

What? You don't have to get polemical!

What's that got to do with anything?
That was a troubled, stupid asshole.

Of course there are people like that.
What fucking argument is that anyway?

We're talking about
basic human traits.

Those that promote us as humanity.

Okay. And what about envy and greed?
Aren't these also basic human traits?

If I eat potatoes every day, but my
neighbour has grilled chicken...

...isn't it the rule rather than the
exception that I want chicken, too?

Or if someone walks to work for ten
kilometers, while his neighbour...

...goes by bike, isn't it normal and
humane that he also wants a bike?

Yes, but this has nothing to do with envy.
It's just unfair.

They should both have a bike.

No, we're going around in circles here.

He should save until he
can afford a bicycle...

...for that he'll work harder and produce
better products or...

...tomatoes or whatever he produces.

"My bike","your bike"...
it all started much earlier.

With the invention of property.

If I don't own anything,
you can't envy me, can you?

Look, nomads, they shared.
They shared everything.

We love to share. Our body releases tons
of happiness hormones when we share.

We love it.

Then why don't we do it?

I'm really hungry.
Shall we cook something?

Yes.
- Yes?

Definitely.
Chicken, perhaps?

For you, only potatoes.

No, I need meat.
Meeeeeat!

Then go hunt a deer.

I need you for that. For the battue.
- Forget it. Take a spade.

It's great to add two or three
sprigs of rosemary.

How's it going there?

Thanks, I'm gettin into it.

Still some dirt here.

And there's also pretty much here.

Get away!

Next stop: Dortmund.

All crazy Jans please disembark.

Driving, driving, driving
down the Autobahn!

Look, the Cologne Cathedral!

Cologne!
- Carnival!

Just drop me off at the corner,
I'll walk to the station from there.

And then you'll take the bus?

Just as I was getting used to you.

Plus, I still have to convince you that
humans aren't as bad as you think.

Well, that's true of course.

Another 300 miles?

Uhm, yeah!

Sure, I'd love that.

But only if it's not out of pity.

No, don't worry.
Deal?

Deal.

Hey, look.

Hello, Belgium!

Bye, Germany!

Wanna pick something from the
camping guide?

"RV Camping Guide."

This looks good:

"The camping site Champe le Monde
lies in the midst of the hilly Ardennes."

They're open.
- They are?

From happy lambs?
- Yes, very happy-

Meat!

Shouldn't we grill it first?
- No!

You OK or you need help?

I'll manage.

And?

Looking good!

Want some wine, too?

Uhm, no.

You don't drink?

Not right now, no.

Hunger, for example.

There's so much wheat that we could
feed the world's population twice .

It's just not being
distributed properly. Or...

Wait, I wanna show you something.

That red spot...
This area would be sufficient...

...to supply the whole earth
with solar energy.

The sun is that strong.

Instead, we burn oil
and heat up our planet.

Are you sure?
- Yes, it's all been calculated.

And the map is always with you?

It reminds me of what we could do, if
we'd just organize ourselves. Cooperate.

Which we don't.
- Not yet.

Are you nervous about
meeting your father?

No, not at all.

I'm looking forward to it.

Want to hear the rest of the story?

How I found out?

Yes, I'd love to.

Well, my father...
He...

...never really knew
what to do with me.

He never even hid his dislike.
I always asked myself why...

...why he didn't like me, but...
Well...

Then one summer day, we had this family
celebration at my grandmother's.

I was 17.

Everyone was there:
my older brother with his two kids...

I have an older brother.

His wife...

Grandparents, uncles and aunties...

The whole shebang.

So I'm sitting there...

...looking around. Everyone's
enjoying themselves, having fun.

Suddenly I realize something's missing.
Something's wrong.

Like a part of me's missing,
something in me is empty, you know?

Inside of me it was getting
darker and darker.

So I'm looking at my father's relatives...

And suddenly...

All of a sudden, it clicks.

I realize what my problem is,
I get up, approach my mother and say:

"He's not my father, right?"

In front of everyone?

In front of everyone.

And your mother'?
How did she react?

She said nothing at all.
Which was the answer, of course.

Thus it was clear why he had
treated me like shit for 17 years.

Is it my fault that my mother had
good taste for once in her life...

by falling for a Spanish boatbuilder.

A Spanish boatbuilder?

1993, on vacation.
A one-night stand.

My stepfather wanted her to
abort, but she refused.

And so one fine day
I saw the light of the world.

No?
- No, one more time.

Yes, okay...

Get back, it should be fine now.

Really?
- Yes.

Got it?

Wow.
Alright?

Really cool.

Jan?

Are you still awake?

Yes.

I'm really happy you're with me.

I'd have gone crazy on my own.

And gotten the flu.

The flu?

Yeah, being alone,
cortisol and all:

Doesn't that weaken the immune system?

That's true.

One gentle touch kills thousands
of stress hormones, by the way.

Really?

I have to remember that.
- Do that.

Good night.

Good night.

Look, we're almost in France!

Bye bye. Belgium!

Hello, France!

Looks different right away, right?

Yeah, and much less traffic, right?

Alex?

Hi, yes, it's me.

I have to tell you something.

I did want to tell you face to face,
but I couldn't stand it any longer, sorry.

I have to go now.

I'll call back, OK?
Bye.

Are you OK?

So-so.

Can I help you?

No, not really.

I just need a minute, OK?
- Sure.

Then we'll move on.

I'll be right back.

You know what always helps against grief?

No.

I love those!

_ $0?
IS It helping?

Yeah, much better already.

My grandma always made these.

What was that?

A gentle touch.
Kills stress hormones.

Yeah, right.

Thank you.

Shall we?

So, do you have a girlfriend?
- No, not right now.

My last relationship
ended three months ago.

How did it end?

Well, we'd "grown apart."

How long were you together?

Six months.

Then you "grew apart" rather quickly...

It was the problem I always have.
I loved her more than she loved me.

Actually, I think she
didn't love me at all.

From the beginning?

I think so.

Then why were you with her?

I don't really know myself.
It happens to me again and again.

I fall for women who don't fall for me.

I feel at home in rejection,
as I wasn't loved enough as a child.

You don't sound convinced.

Ahh, I don't know.

I mean yeah, my stepdad treated me like
shit, but that's way too simple.